#but I'm disabled and cannot work

[drabbles-n-doodles]

Since I already have my rp stuff on my pinned post I think it might just be easier to make a carrd for commission info, that said, basic info for now since my particular brand of neurodivergence means finding out a set time for how long it takes me to do certain pieces is next to impossible to average out.

Until then this post will substitute (because I'm a perfectionist and if I make a carrd I'm gonna want it to look nice lol)

For flat color:

Headshot - $5

Half body - $10

Full body - $15

For shaded:

Headshot - $10

Half body - $15

Full body - $20

I also do lineless (think Homestuck) but that does take a bit more time and fiddling to do so it'd be an extra $3 on top of the base prices.

I can do simple backgrounds but extra pricing for that would have to vary depending on what exactly the background is.

Payments are up front and are PayPal only at whimsicalcupcake91@gmail.com

Examples of my art can be found under #nocturnal emissions and messages/questions are welcome regardless of my online status!

[a-sassy-bench]

do able-bodied people not understand that if disabled people call out of work every time they don't feel good that we would call out of work every fucking day?

like honestly. what do you think being disabled means?

[tpup]

this blog is about trans sex

I talk about disability because I am disabled

I don't know if the block anon thing doesn't work but I'm just sad to see one person misplace their anger in a way that hurts others

[smoozie]

what'd u say on the "how can y be queerphopic and also support the hermits" post

cant just say that u might've been an inciting incident and then not elaborate

I'm cutting out op's url, but this is what I was referencing

[milfbrainrot]

I probably will have many complaints abt the season's execution once I am emotionally whole again but I also feel like for the difficulties of weaving the season together w little time the scenes we did get fucked severely

[lalalychee]

did you know that i have a patreon you can subscribe to for as little as $2 a month?

⭐️ patreon.com/lalalychee ⭐️

you'll get to see work-in-progresses of all of my paintings that are posted nowhere else (such as the painting wip in this post), and you can ask for in-depth art advice to your heart's content ❤️ i also post makeup tutorials, vlogs, and anything else you feel inclined to request!

i am physically disabled with a very severe and rare disease called CRPS (aptly nicknamed the suicide disease because it is so horrific), and subscribing to my patreon helps me pay for my neverending medical bills. ideally i would one day no longer have to work a desk job at all and be able to rely solely on patreon and art so that i can operate on a schedule that works with my pain levels better, so this is a really important way to support me.

sharing this post to help get the word out is also so appreciated ❤️ thank you

⭐️ patreon.com/lalalychee ⭐️

[lucyvaleheart]

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[here-there-were-dragons]

i have to wonder what super hardcore militant vegans think should be done about obligate carnivore animals, because in all my painfully-rapidly-approaching-30-years i've literally never actually seen anyone give a clear consistent much less halfway feasible answer on that

[hussyknee]

Idk if there's enough people talking about what a gigantic energy drain Complex PTSD is. It's not just one single traumatic event, it's having lived in a traumatic situation for a long time. And in the case of child abuse, your entire formative life period. Everything is a trigger, anxiety is your default, and your brain keeps trying to keep you safe by yelling at you about everything you're doing "wrong", which will lead to pain. Your brain is a constant war zone, braced for attack, rarely relaxed, at least some part of you always hypervigilant. The stress it takes on your body is insane. It's why trauma is linked to autoimmune issues, heart disease, type 2 diabetes, and, according to one study, cancer.

Physical disability leaves you even more vulnerable and less able to live up to the impossible standards of control and "correct" behaviour your brain insists on, not to mention the free gift given to all patients of chronic illness that is medical gaslighting and patient-blaming, all of which simply compounds the trauma. Reduced physical and mental health obviously leads to systemic risk factors such as inability to pursue academic and professional qualifications, poverty and financial struggle, malnutrition, becoming unhoused or bad living conditions, exacerbated medical issues and further lack of medical resources, reliance on welfare and care networks, and becoming trapped in codependent, abusive or toxic relationships. The knock-on effects are endless.

This is all to say— if you're wondering why you can't seem to do more than the bare minimum every day when you haven't been diagnosed with a physical illness, or you're "not that disabled", or you think your symptoms are "just psychosomatic" (which means your brain is under so much intolerable stress that it's started taking a chair to the windows and destroying the furniture just to get you to NOTICE AND MAKE IT STOP): the answer is that your body is actually struggling under the kind of stress that kills trained soldiers and disables them for life. So stop trying to convince yourself that you're just not trying hard enough when what you really, desperately need to get your life on track is community, care, rest and ease.

[lizzylucky]

No, money can't buy happiness, but you know what it could buy me?

Genome testing, so I don't have to take a random fucking guess with medications. It can also buy medications. It could pay for a neuropsychological evaluation so I can get my problems on paper and stop getting gaslit into thinking I have none. Genetic testing for EDS and POTS. Mobility aids. A car so I can access a job. A case manager to help me make important appointments and phone calls when my anxiety and depression render me unable. Doctor's appointments to get notes that'll get employers to accommodate my needs as a disabled person. Maybe I'd be extra extravagant and get my partial deafness corrected, or even get Lasik so I can stop having the worst eyeglass prescription in my family. I could pay off thousands of dollars of debt that the fucking government convinced a literal child to sign onto for an education that failed me. Maybe I could even get an apartment and not work 2 jobs just to make rent and bills and cheap groceries. Start paying my own phone bill instead of leeching off my Uncle.

That's not even all my base necessities met yet, but it's a fucking start.

You know what else I could do with money? Buy supplies and storage solutions for my art hobbies and my music, recording equipment so I could reasonably pursue a start in voice over acting or song making, a vocal coach so I can finally learn to belt to my favourite songs without hurting myself, trade education and training for skills no one can teach me in the real world, a so far nonexistent investment for retirement, the ability to go to an ice skating rink every now and again for fun, a gym membership, the bearded dragon I've been planning unsuccessfully to get for years as an emotional support animal, wisdom tooth removal, sensory friendly toothpaste, underwear that fits and is comfortable, bras that aren't sloppy, inconsistent sister sizes to my body's shape, decent headphones to regulate audio input when I'm overwhelmed, a day out with friends, an occasional coffee shop visit, the ability to go see movies and visit an aquarium and go camping, a lack of fear of gas prices when I'm frustrated and just wanna drive for 10-15 minutes to clear my head, food I like, silly, decorative socks, a new and undamaged protective case for my phone, garden seeds and soil, a bag of gummy bears just because I feel like it

Money can't buy happiness, but it would get me damn fucking close

[agayconcept]

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[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

my mum supports me in getting accessibility aids when i break down about it but the moment i'm not upset or in tears then it's what if people don't want to talk to you because you're in a wheelchair and what if they think you're fragile and i want you to make friends but this might not help and-

[l0stw00d]

RE: this post on saving disabled people real quick.

Disabled people aren't a monolith and we have different needs and different opinions, obviously. But a lot of disabled people care about the things that matter, a lot of disabled people care about the same things as you, and a lot of disabled people were or are involved in their communities in really important ways. Here's the thing though - even if they don't, if they've never helped anyone or can't comprehend particular issues or can't articulate their opinion on it. Even if they don't care or have opposing opinions to you - they're still people, and they still Matter.

A lot of disabled people don't have the resources or the capacity to prove themselves to you. A lot of us live on the bare minimum and have to work around weird shitty benefit caps and medical expenses and travel costs, and need to be prepared to pay scary amounts of money ASAP if medical or mobility equipment breaks. A lot of us are barely coping with daily living. A lot of us rely really heavily on medication and our support network and medical professionals to Stay Alive. Not just to live fulfilling lives or be happy and healthy, but to be alive at all.

You won't see a lot of the most vulnerable people in your communities out and about. We can't afford the time, the money, the energy, the Risk. A lot of disabled people aren't online either, or aren't on social media, or aren't articulate enough for their posts to circulate, let alone be taken seriously.

All of these people matter. All of them. If your plan for the future does not hold space for them then it is not a future worth pursuing.

[rubberduckyrye]

I've been struggling HARD with depression lately, it's sucking the life out of me @.@ can't even sleep well, so tired...

[mini-zorayas]

recently, i'll think to myself 'oh maybe i should think about, like, doing commissions maybe, that might be interesting

but i have no social media presence, nor do i understand how to grow, lol

[mcalhenwrites]

I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse