#but I’m still so fucking damaged

[jewishbarbies]

the way that if I want to feel like I have a mom I have to pretend that’s just who she is. I have to pretend like she doesn’t still hurt me and she’s not actually a terrible person. I don’t know how to grieve someone who’s still alive so I’m always just pretending.

[journal-from-the-heart]

i think, for trauma survivors, especially those who were emotionally abused, invalidated, or gaslit, it is really important not to underestimate the significance of speaking bluntly about what happened to you. Forcing yourself not to beat around the bush, not to downplay what you went through with your words. say what happened, without any caveats, without any “but it could’ve been worse”, “but i might just be being overdramatic”, “but it wasn’t really THAT bad,” and so forth. sit with the discomfort until you can begin to let yourself realize that it WAS that bad, you WERENT being overdramatic, and even if it could’ve been worse you still didn’t deserve it. It’s almost like a form of reclamation, taking back your memories, taking back your life, even the difficult or gross parts, and refusing to let anyone change the narrative or tell you how you should feel anymore, even yourself. and it hurts and it’s scary and it feels weird and awkward and sometimes you want to convince yourself you’re lying, but i think sitting in those weird feelings and letting yourself admit that you really did go through trauma puts the power back in your hands to process things and be compassionate to yourself while you heal

[mathias-wanabe]

Been getting into the danny phantom fandom and….

Listen I love ghost king danny stuff but

This shit is making my cry I hate whoever made this playlist

with.

a.

PASSION

You’re great at making playlists but holy fuck it’s like watching the saddest animations ever in my head. mentally fucked me up bc a playlist should NOT be able to do this

[heartless-aro]

Does anyone else find it sort of upsetting how widely popular House M.D. has seemingly become in online queer spaces with how violently acephobic and intersexist it is? Like, I don’t want to pretend that it’s only queerphobic towards aces and intersex people, because the show definitely engages in its fair share of early-2000s-typical casual transphobic and homophobic language, and I do think it’s pretty biphobic that, from what I remember of the show, they made 13 (the one canonically bisexual character) a promiscuous party girl tm.

But the show is extremely vitriolic towards intersex and asexual people, and I wish that the people who treat it like a haha funny toxic yaoi show would at least fucking acknowledge that. The show actively reinforces the ideas about intersex bodies which are used to justify the nonconsensual mutilation of intersex children. And the way the show treats asexuality is abysmal. I saw someone on here once say that it’s “funny” that House is canonically aphobic, as if it’s just a joke that the House episode about asexuality actively supports the idea that asexuals are all either liars or medically unwell and in need of “fixing”. Why is pro-conversion therapy rhetoric suddenly funny when it’s directed towards us?

I’m not saying that no one is allowed to enjoy the show at all. Hell, I used to really enjoy it too, at least before I got to the asexuality episode (shortly after finding out I’m ace and before I had ever seen even a single other representation of asexuality in mainstream media). But like. Can people at least stop outright ignoring the absolutely detrimental effects this show had on the ace community and the intersex community?

[unordinary-diary]

Blyke in Season 3.

This is my prediction. With the way Season 2 ended, I think they’ll find Blyke months later looking something like this.

Shit happens to people in prison. Terrence was murdered in his cell, Rein was worried about being killed by other inmates, hell, Blyke’s already pretty banged up in the finale and he’s been there for 2.5 seconds. Not to mention that the Authorities seem to have no problem torturing kids *COUgh* Keon.

Perhaps it’s a bit pessimistic, but the story’s been getting a lot darker lately. I doubt Blyke’s getting out of prison without a little extra trauma at least.

Latest Chapter as of Prediction: Side Story — Triple Threat (1)

[thatrandomblogsays]

Hiccup’s a better person than me for forgiving his mom, because if my mom, who I was left without and mourned my whole life, turned out to be alive and well and left me, a baby in the cradle to grow up without her all because she thought Vikings were being too aggressive to creatures that routinely burned down their houses and hated them for not changing, I’d lose my fucking. Wtffffff what was the point of having me if you weren’t going to love me

[fictional-men-enthusiast]

Old Flesh + The Parliament is conservatism.

I said what I said and I’m not taking it back.

[sarellathesphinx]

Constantly torn between genuinely loving the remake timeline’s depiction of Reeve and Cait and being immensely sad that pretty much all of my favorite lines of theirs from the original were totally excised or bc of plot developments will never be said

[algolagniaa]

I can never tell if I’m being dramatic about this or not but there was a time in my late teens where I was almost literally held hostage. like I would beg and plead with my mother to take me with her to the grocery store bc I hadn’t been allowed to leave the house in over a week and I desperately needed to go SOMEWHERE and she would say no. and I couldn’t just leave by myself bc uhh a number of factors some that were manufactured by my parents and some that were legit had convinced me very deeply of my own incompetence. and this went on for years and was the worst time of my entire life especially since I was also pretty much being shunned by my whole family and also recovering from a TBI. it was bad enough that marrying Levi Loggins looked like a ticket into freedom. and I always feel like I’m back there. Covid made me feel like I was back there and this makes me feel like I’m back there a lot bc I didn’t have a car then either

[lovelyisadora]

I was somehow able to sleep last night but I’ve burst into tears 3 separate times already this morning

[chaosinstigator]

me: I can just jump in on s19 after missing like 8 seasons it’ll be fine this way won’t be attached to the characters!!!

me, 2 and a half seasons later:

[ranger-danger]

Dnd people who hate rangers are so funny. Oh you love bards, but think rangers are useless in combat? That’s rich. Next you’ll tell me you love monks, but think rangers are too weak. What do you love sorcerers and think rangers suck?

[blueookashi]

I am being so slow at that one Library animation and it’s because that perfectionism of “it HAS to be consistent it HAS to look good!!” Has come back meanwhile I’m working on the god damn STORYBOARD!!!

I am trying so hard to kill that part of my brain that is so ingrained because of past shit, like even if I was at the refinement stage why does it need to look perfect?? This is supposed to be for fun!

[unfortunatelyilikebnha]

Halfway there yippee!! Someday my little “Klee & her babysitters/family” team will be a reality and I will run around the overworld with them to blow stuff up, meta be damned!!

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

i’m rewatching only murders in the building and i am once again reminding everyone that theo dimas is the character of all time and i would kill and die for him.

[pinkfey]

older siblings on this website r soooooo annoying but also i know my experience is not universal 💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️