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Buck: What if Eddie makes Tommy the legal guardian of Christopher in case something happens????
Hen: Buck that’s insane. Why in the world would he do that!
Buck: Well he made me Christopher’s guardian in his will years ago.
Hen: 👀 He what now?!
#look this is the kind of insane conversation I’m hoping for from the new episode#my man is insane enough to be jealous like this#he can and would think he’s completely replaceable by someone Eddie essentially just met#evan buckley#buck#buddie#eddie diaz#911 abc#911 speculation#henrietta wilson#incorrect buck#incorrect hen#incorrect buddie quotes
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Goodnight to everyone except the people who use those tiktok sounds (like the “I hate Vietnam” one) to hate on fics and other peoples headcanons
#it’s not for you ☹️☹️☹️☹️#you don’t have to like it 😭😭😭#no one’s forcing you too#complaining about it makes you look like a whiny bitch#and the headcanons will still be there#because you’re not the only person in the fandom#i repeat#it’s not for you!!!!#marauders#marauders era#fem sirius black#the amount of hate I’m seeing for fem Sirius is insane#it is not that deep#there are literally fem headcanons of every character#when I say every I mean EVERY#some are just popular#and that is not a crime#you may hate fem Sirius but I hate you#shut uppppp#shut up shut up shut up#fanfic#fanfiction#wolfstar#the marauders#sirius black#some of my mutuals reposted it#it’s not deep enough for me to unmoot for#but I’m sighing and you’re not getting a goodnight#i hope you know that#😠
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so. A year or two back I remember seeing a post talking about how mayor Oswald was based off Donald trump when he was being written and since I don’t want to rely on hearsay I looked it up and yup it’s real. Look here
I have…multiple problems with this when it comes to this source of inspiration for Oswald. I have around four or five, but the last one or two are long enough to be its own paragraph so let’s start with the first three. The first three are honestly just the first point if I’m being honest lol.
First off, Oswald is a Gay, gender non conforming man who used to be poor. All of these things make him have a different feel to him demonizing the marginalized than someone like trump, famous womanizer and said “small loan of a million dollars”, doing it. It doesn’t feel the same at all, you’re going to have to put more emphasis on the similarities between them besides that demonization and make ____ great again shit to make it land. You would need to and they just don’t ever do that in the show.
also Gotham the reason why what trump did with his generalization and demonization of minorities is bad is because people in those communities are fucking evil to their cores! That’s literally all we see of Hugo strange’s arkham experiments, so by trying to draw this connection to the demonization of them and actual minorities, you’re going to have to write them in a more complex manner, which Gotham doesn’t. Overall this writing choice of inspiration desperately needed this arc to be longer, to have Oswald’s demonization of the outcasts to have serious repercussions and consequences. But it doesn’t, it never does, the show doesn’t even bother to humanize the people they’re using as a vague allegory for what happens in real life. It’s so fucking stupid, this would need a great deal of moral ambiguity but no, the most the Arkham experiments get is at most one scene humanizing them as a whole to my memory of the show.
I’m not saying this as I wish Gotham made Oswald one to one with Donald trump, I’m not and don’t take this post as that. What I’m saying is if you want to make commentary on bigotry, you’re going to have to humanize the outsider group in question, which Gotham doesn’t do because of how much buildup that would take. Oswald doesn’t hold actual disgust for minorities when it comes to his bigotry (though he probably holds some for the poor. Don’t fucking tomato me). His brand of bigotry is more opportunistic to me, seeing the fact people are hating the out group and catering to that in order to get success.
We could’ve genuinely gotten to see a gender non conforming gay man who used to be poor use the same tactics hurled against him throughout his life against a new marginalized group and all the baggage that comes with that. But since the Gotham writers commit to nothing, they didn’t do that since it would require too much work to explore that. It just sucks, it would’ve been so cool to see something that happens in real life so often politically be in this show but it never was since the writers didn’t know how to convey that. It would’ve been fantastic and a great display on how his greed and need for praise hurts other people, but we never got to truly see that, did we?
#rambles#gotham#gotham fox#gotham 2014#oswald cobblepot#Btw idc if the writers or actors say Oswald isn’t gay that’s not in the show so I’m not going to discuss their fucking head canons#I’ve already dealt with that shit enough from fucking Hazbin hotel I won’t do it again never never neverrrrr if you want me to see that put#it in your fucking art then. This entire rant is basically jus that since the writers never really explored this besides two fucking hints#character analysis#rant#idk how to tag this post tbh#character study#Tbh I hope when I’m at least done with men like Edward nygma fic and halfway done with adotn I’ll be able to write a fic exploring this#I need to see this arc play out so badly it’s insane. If Gotham won’t write it then I will have to one day. Too unskilled rn though so I’ll#write it later#Ugh
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I'm so looking forward to iroh and zuko properly talking and seeing irohs reaction to zuko being gay.
Like we all know he doesn't agree with the fire nation rn but how will he react?
Will he not support him cause sokkas a guy? Will he not support him because it's SOKKA? Will he accept him? Will he reveal he's known for years zuko was gay?
Especially with everything that happened with zhao, regarding to what jee said to bato on their date. (Which is a very understandable perspective, zuko just got out of this very sexually traumatising situation and almost immediately starts a relationship (his first relationship) with sokka, but then again it is a very unique situation)
One thing I love about some atla fics is how they portray the FNs thoughts on queerness, cause on one hand they were one of the only country's (I think) that treated men and women the same but then again it's also the fucking fire nation.
And I also think zukos whole canon arc can be very comparative to queerness,
His dads an asshole and after speaking out against him he throws him out, and zuko try's for 3 years to regain his father's love and acceptance, and then faced with the opportunity of regaining it takes it immediately regardless of who or what he may hurt (iroh, his own morals etc) but once he makes it back home realises how fucked up everything is and eventually confronts his dad and openly tells him he doesn't agree with him then runs aways.
I also wonder if iroh secretly knows jee is queer it doesn't seem that likely to me but it also is iroh so who knows.
<3
I do think Iroh’s reaction will be a big moment for not only the story but for Zuko’s character development. Right now, Zuko’s technically still a prisoner, holding himself there by assuming Iroh will not understand or judge him when in reality he’ll never know what his uncle is thinking until they TALK ABOUT IT. (Which the FN royal family is just sooo good at healthy communication I don’t understand why this is so hard for them lol?!)
I do agree that the suddenness of the relationship combined with the intensity from both zuko and Sokka is very alarming for people looking at it from the outside (I mean we all totally get it cause we were there but others are like uhhhh hmmmm ok this might be concerning) so I get them gossiping and wondering if this is truly real or what the fucks going on with those boys.
I love Zukos canon arc because there’s just so much about zukos story that can be relatable no matter who you are and I think that’s why he is a fan favorite (it doesn’t explain why we torture him the way we do but ehhhh it’s fine haha)
Hmmmmmm does iroh know Jees gay? Depends on how saucy those music nights got ;)
#HAHAHA DO SEE THE JEEROH JOKE SOCKS?!?! I hope you see it through all your House reblogging nonsense haha#Jk you obsess over your new blorbos I support you!#I love this ask thank you#I also love that canon gave us so much to work with but left it loose enough we could do what we wanted#like I’ve read the fire nation written so many different ways in fics it’s insane#And I love all the unique thoughts!#I will continue to flesh out the FN little by little as we progress#An azula pov (or someone from her squad) will be part of every new chapter until the end#She’s a coming haha#I don’t know if iroh knows Jee is gay#Or that jee is like one date away from hooking up with bato haha#Or that zuko is already kind of hooking up with sokka (not really but I mean they’re getting prettttttttty snuggly haha)#But yeah idk I’m excited this next chapter it is A LOT#& we will be SUPER CLOSE to getting some answers to your questions lol#Thanks for this cool ask these are my favorite asks#Sorry if you’ve sent me an ask lately and I haven’t responded I’m getting better at that I promise#I will say though that I don’t respond to asks if I genuinely don’t know what to say or if I feel I might come off too mean or rude.#So yeah sorry anyone who’s ask I didn’t respond#(I also forget them in drafts and then feel weird about posting it after it’s been a month so I’m sorrrryyyyyy…)#Ok phew this was a lot of tags sorry#monsieugrgraves#Leaving it all behind#LIAB#ITF#ask
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sorry i need to just scream abt bad things and evil thoughts
#financial aid is still pending and deadlines are past due so i won’t be going to school#i crashed my car in to a tree the other day#my application for healthcare also is ‘pending’ and they won’t give me an answer at all about approving or denying it#my last hope is a job interview i have on wednesday and i’m hoping i can finally get hired full time soemhwere#simply because i can get insurance that will HOPEFULLY cover reduction/top surgery#but at this point i’m so worn out and exhausted#the idea of having to work for a whole year and then attend a whole year of dr visits trying to convince them i need this#plus consultations#and the possibility of still being denied#makes me feel insane and i want to give up on the life race#all that work does not seem worth it i can’t picture my mental health being good enough for that for the next 2-3 years#also there is something i really want to draw but no matter how hard i try it’s not working#anyways if u made it this far thanks#hope you have a good day
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Wang YiBo x Harper’s Bazaar — Sept 2019
(part 1 — Tracer85 at the ZIC and 5 shots from the studio shoot)
#Wang yibo#supermodel wang yibo#tracer85#the elegant noodle#“They were insane for this” and it’s just bazaar close-up shooting the side of Wang YiBo’s face AND THEY WERE INSANE FOR THIS#It’s been years#and this photoshoot lives in my head rent-free#So like…. I’m gonna have to do a post just about Wang YiBo’s Mouth aren’t I? The Youth (but pronounced YOWTH)#THE YOWTH 😭#I hope my girlfriend doesn’t mind The Noodle’s mouth is my side-piece#Oh fuck that’s enough tags#i love him your honor#*whispers* “the yowth…..”
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So on the one hand, TLOU is out here smashing viewing records and gaining critical acclaim all over the place.
And on the other, future seasons are gonna be helmed by two female leads, one of whom is an unrepentant lesbian.
So at what point does the unstoppable force (HBO’s affection for its newest darling) meet the immovable object (the abject inability for any service to renew a lesbian-led show)?
#the last of us#the last of us hbo#the last of us spoilers#I live in fear is what I’m saying#like the blowback to TLOU 2 was insane. what’s the show response gonna be.#I’m so scared for its chances. I’m also TERRIFIED for whoever plays Abby#I have similar fears re: the mighty nein animated series but I’m hoping CR has already proven themselves enough to garner a blank check#anyway. rip willow. rip basically every lesbian show of the last year. two years? four years? I don’t fuckin know anymore
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sometimes dreams are insightful. like the time i had a dream where i fell asleep on the shoulder of my former best friend and realized it was because i missed hugging her.
sometimes they’re stupid though and mean absolutely nothing. like the one i just had about a weird marionette doll and her frankenstein like husband having to flee their adams family style house to some random italian countryside to escape the police while trying to figure out how to be parents to their newborn child
#kiwi shares their thoughts#i had… a lot of dreams i remembered today#what i hate is that my favorite one was interrupted before it finished#but even before that it was like my dream psyched me out#i was waiting for something and then it fucking changed the subject#false hope in a dream is a sucker punch to the gut when you wake up#i’m just not gonna read too much into it because sometimes you shouldn’t put so much stalk in dreams#so even though it sucks to think about that dream when i’m awake#it’s still my favorite because it made me feel the best in the dream#what i’m learning though#is that i’m craving cuddles#cause two of my dreams were about that#and it was from different people so i think it’s just a general want and not from a specific person#i had i think four different distinct dreams i remember but all of them but one did that dream morph thing#where the plot/art style changed halfway through#so even though it was a continuous sequence of events theyre almost disconnected enough to count as separate dreams#but they were actually just one long semi-cohesive dream#what WAS super crazy though was in the last dream the art style literally changed#like it went from real people with weird old hollywood horror movie effects and quality#to an almost combo of adams family-stop motion-book of life-willoughbys type style#the visual representation changed as the character and plot and vibe of the story changed#yo but that was probably the most interesting dream of the four#it had insane plot and cool animation and even the very disturbing beginning part was cool if ur into things that are a little fucked up bu#overall wholesome
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been seeing hopes and dreams for the 3rd drb and this coming into play is mine lmao
#this is vee speaking#someone was on their hands and knees for the return of the battle lives#AND HELL YEAH LMAO#batmtr live is still one of my favourite fandom experiences lmao jp twitter was popping off lmao#i’d love to go to one but it’s now saving money time lmao we gotta have enough funds for 2025#if i speak it enough times i hope it’ll manifest lmao i want!!!!!! to be miserable!!!!!!!!!#idk which route i want them to take with it!!!!!!!! but just kill meeeeeee!!!!!!!!!#i want honobono to host the event!!!!!!! like to just come and say fck that and make the show she wants to see!!!!!!!#i want the 3rd drb to be the craziest one yet!!!!! i’m down for hater energy or philosophy battles!!!!!!#both at the same time would be sick!!!!!!!!!!!!#like if the third is the last then it should be insane lol!!!!!!!
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Okay hear me out. Checo.
Because you seem unassuming at first, then you say some insane out of pocket stuff big brain stuff (positive) that gets people thinking. And then all of a sudden you're at the club and we're like girl what when ⁉️ I do think you'd be a better gift giver than him tho lol
when I saw just the first line of this in my notifs i was soo ??? 😭😭😭 but I’ll take it…. although idk how I feel about this being my reputation 🧍♂️
(and yes I am an amazing gift giver 😌)
#I hope everyone appreciates my insane out of pocket stuff I’m being vulnerable here#saying the things nobody else is brave enough to#asks
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what am I doing wrong? every time I think someone may like me fr and I start to trust them, they suddenly take distance with no explanation or forget about me entirely, beginning to beg for love everywhere else again…It’s like I never existed…I’m holding my arms open but you walk right past me without a word…I feel like a idiot because I don’t understand and all I want is to understand.
If you don’t communicate your perspective my mind will fill the blanks.
#silence drives me insane#but my feelings and views change every hour currently#I’m just trying to explain myself#make you feel safe#and understand that I’m not upset#but I know it isn’t really about that…#I just don’t know what it is about#People never care to explain why they leave me and then return magically#if there was just one person caring enough to try#I want you to be that person so bad but maybe I’m just naive…#I wish I wasn’t…#I wish my hopes would become true just once#I’m feeling sick when I think of loosing you#it’s pathetic
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ONTO PAGE 6 LETS GO
#chat i think i’m going insane#i can’t afford to stop tho there’s not enough time tomorrow for me to get into the right mindset; write AND edit#just gotta power through and hope it’s intelligible tmrw‼️#writing#ryan shut the fuck up
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I’m gonna level with you (feel free to skip lmao-)
My pieces haven’t been doing well. Not bad, but not as well as they could’ve been doing. I think the actual quality of them has slipped, and while I try to get it back up, I think I’m going to close requests and just focus on posting what I’ve got in the drafts and inbox and seeing what happens.
I hate that I’ve let the numbers dictate how I’ve been feeling, because this whole thing is a simulation; none of what happens on here is real. I’m beyond grateful when someone takes the time to interact with, let alone read my content- please don’t get that twisted. Just while I’m trying to figure out things, what I could be doing better, times that seem convenient, etc., your patience is all I ask.
Much love, and thank you for being here 🩷
#it’s been really strange posting#because I’ve been on this insane writing kick#but every time a piece doesn’t do quite as I anticipated#it truly makes me feel like I’m not doing enough#it’s selfish I know#I’m just trying to figure it out 😕#I’ve got some things in a the queue and I hope that they can at least perk up something#I just don’t have the confidence like I used to ya feel me?#idk#probably delete this later bc I feel bad posting it at all ksnjsbeossbe-
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Trying to read the Quran since Ramadan but god my brain really struggles with it, like both the act of reading and trying to comprehend things it feels like having too many tabs open. Also I have absolutely wrecked my back sitting on my prayer mat and reading 😭. I need to like take notes to actually process the words but I can’t write more than a sentence without excruciating pain and spasms of my hand.
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*2015 voice* i wish i had the chillness instead i got the mental illness
#evidence of life#tw for mental illnesses major distress illness symptoms that aren’t romanticized (lawl) suicide ableism i guess?#idk just a massive tw for what i’ve said in the notes / don’t read if descriptions of mental illnesses bother you etc#////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////#i literally had to mix rubbing alcohol into my body wash then put it all over my body except my hair to stop myself from committing suicide#i’m so serious if there’s one thing i don’t say with my convoluted levels irony it’s suicide whenever i say kms im 100% serious#suicide is literally a constant ideation for me and i just can’t teehee about it ever i think it’s because it is one of the few ways i feel#that i can take total control full autonomy#anyways isn’t crazy traumatic things will happen and we have to just keep going like im literally on tumblr after [redacted]…#also why is my psychosis so obsessed with break ins these days when i was doing my rubbing alcohol scrub it did the break in scenario#like miss girl literally nobody want us that bad take a seat…#anyways this day started out okayish and now it’s literally *burning building in the background*#i wanna try to at least make it possibly kind of better by going to watch the sunset but no promises kinda itching for more rubbing alcohol#anyways slayyyy respectfully i hope this scares off…who it usually does…#like bro i am not a manic pixie dream girl i am not a smol bean with anxiety not a depressed gloomy muse etc#i am [as described by men who thought that i was just another goth bitch with daddy issues that knew all the right moves to make me into#whatever they needed me to be and or thought i was being hyperbolic when i say i am insane in the head and the pussy (as above so below)]#‘crazy crazy’ ‘fucked up’ ‘not worth it [because i am crazy for real]’ ‘[in need for a dude who one course in psychology and thinks that and#his dick are enough to ‘cure me’ ‘weird’ ‘freak’ ‘looney’ (kinda love that one like so true) etc (bc i don’t want to talk abt this anymore)#edit: my temporary icon bothering more than it should rn ughhh bad end all around goodness
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