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Learning how to sew is fun but I’m so scared the machine is gonna eat my hand
It’s noises are just so scary
#queuetie#aesthetic#art#cottagecore#sewing#sewblr#also I should probably be like#learning more#but I’m just kinda#raw dogging it#maybe it’s the ADHD#but I’m convinced I can make anything#and so far I’ve been preeeeeeetttty#ok
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Guys I’ve been thinking about these two all month…they deserved some more time together and if we don’t get to see that happen canonically then I’ll just need to take matters into my own hands and manifest a universe where they joke around together. This is serious business
Also just felt like this audio matched the dynamic well :))
#alsooooo it’s on my YouTube channel guys just so you knowwww#but for convince sake I’m just posting the footage here without link since Tumblr loops it automatically#smg4 Puzzlevison fandom I love you guys mwah here’s a treat for you all enjoy the sillies <3#I’m going to explode you don’t even know how insane I’m going right now ehehheheheh#oh the power I’ve been given as an animator I can create ANYTHING AHAHHAHAH#I’ll subject you all to my brainrot of these two and NO ONE will be able to chain me down I’m letting my creativity TAKE OVER#I’m kinda scared that my channel will devolve into SMG4 fandom content only tho 💀#I’ll get a hold on myself before that happens because it would be embarrassing explaining it to my freinds & family & current subs lol#I don’t want them left in the dark simply because I let this TV guy poses my every waking thought#oh well we will see what the future brings and what prospects we gain >:3#guys make this blow up but not enough to reach popularity levels thanks k bye#smg4 fan animation#smg4 Puzzlevison arch#Meggy & mr puzzles#mr. puzzles and Meggy smg4#hplonesome art
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i hate the idea that annie is a weak person just because of her trauma and mental health issues. i would love to see everyone stop completely infantilizing her just based on her reaction to trauma.
yes, she is vulnerable and clearly deeply impacted by everything but that doesn’t mean she was always just a weak little girl. she still could have volunteered. she still could have chosen to go to the games.
yes, losing her most significant support system after everything was another layer of deep trauma. that doesn’t mean she couldn’t have still found joy in her life afterwards.
people can have significant mental health issues and still be capable people. people can have significant mental health issues and still have lives worth living.
adults with significant mental health issues are still adults and shouldn’t be reduced to their trauma and pain.
#annie cresta#the hunger games#look this might not make a lot of sense but it’s something i’m passionate about#probably because i work with smi clients and i’m SICK of people acting like they’re nothing but weak pathetic people who can’t do anything#but i’m a firm believer in the fact that annie was able to live a decent life after the war with her son#no one will convince me otherwise#basically can we all stop treating annie like a child
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yknow. vanitas’ mark from luna is in a rather weird position for drinking blood. it’s almost as if he had his arms raised in self defense, for the star mark to be on the outside of his forearm.
and also, the two books of the blue moon just lean even further into vnc’s twins aspect
#vanitas no carte#the case study of vanitas#vanitas vnc#revisiting vnc to see if anything’s happened since i last thought abt it and#hmm.#also still convinced that misha’s arm was lost around the time vanitas killed luna#leading him to think that for all intents and purposes misha should be dead prior to the carnival#also kinda wondering abt the circus connection w naenia/malnomen & vanitas’ dads’ troupe#also. i can’t help but feel vanitas’ mom will be important. given that she inadvertently had such a huge affect on his psyche#vanitas calls luna ‘she’ bc he was missing a mom & misha ‘father’ bc he didn’t have a father#& i can’t help but wonder if vanitas is ‘naenia’s’ son from when she was a vampire (as the queen’s twin) or something along those lines#to make that circus/naenia malnomen/vanitas grew up in a circus/twins/why he’s been so resistant to being rewritten so far#& no70 is a vampire to me. 69&71 were humans -> vampires experiment. 70 was vampire -> human experiment. to me.#it’s 3:30am idk what i’m saying at this point.#also. vanitas asking noé to kill him -> blue rewriting vanitas -> once he’s been too rewritten he’ll no longer be ‘vanitas’#so i can see him seeing death being a kindness. bc it’d no longer be him#or maybe luna & the queen r twins and there’s another set of twins naenia & ??? idk. they all have similar hair#& luna is ‘not from than world’ so maybe their original self was just entirely rewritten making them ‘not from this world’#the naenia claws/bracelets/hair connections w luna and then vanitas w the claws lives in my brain whoever#as does the kissing connections. anyways. vanitas is gonna kiss noé at some pt w connection to malnomen & i stand by that#(also. twins & having one ‘true name’ bc of that leading to the idea of one being cursed)#(idk if we’ll ever learn vanitas’ birth name bc of its connection w his ‘true’ self that’s being rewritten)#(however. i know it’d be thematically on point if we do ever learn it. names have power! & we’ve never learned vanitas’ protecting him)
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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You ever read a book or watch a movie and relate to a character so hard that it scares the crap out of you and then proceeds to trigger a full on mental breakdown? because that was Brian Lackey from Mysterious Skin for me
#it scared the shit out of me how much I related to him#Like okay damn what traumatic shit from my childhood have I repressed#anyways I had a lil menty b over it#and then Israel decided to ramp up and go full genocide so now I’m having a mental breakdown over that#And we can pack all the unaddressed unknown childhood trauma that may or may not have happened because I can’t fucking remember anything up#and pretend none of it ever happened#and I’m gonna convince myself that I was just making shit up and being crazy for relating to this character#because there’s more horrific things to have a mental breakdown over than shit I can’t remember from my childhood#so yeah#gonna force myself to not reread that book or rewatch the movie again#Because DAMN did it make me mentally unwell#and DAMN did that scare the fuck out of me#Anyways yeah I’m done neurodivergently oversharing in the tags#Mysterious Skin#brian lackey#scott heim#gregg araki#Personal
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My favorite bit of costume design from the live action promo has GOT to be Usopp with the sick coat and the more standard pirate Captain’s hat. And maybe I’m just reading too much into it, but not only does Jacob look damn good in that outfit, it also feels so incredibly fitting to Usopp’s character. Specially this very early days Usopp, who is still only ‘playing pirate’. The Usopp who’s still idealizing the journey ahead, just a little bit, and still kind of wants to be the Captain or Co-Captain, just a little bit. An Usopp with the potential to live up to those big dreams of adventures, but still needs time to ground himself and mature and grow into his own identity. Who, for now, is only dressing and acting the way pirates are expected to dress and act. I am charmed and heart-eyed and I cant wait to see this Usopp in action.
#I’m excited for Jacob’s Usopp okay! I wasn’t that into Usopp’s character when he was first introduced in the anime.#I only really got into him during Skypeia and of course the whole Water 7 saga- when we truly saw his strengths and flaws shine#But Early Usopp’s lies and cowardice were never my thing. I wasn’t convinced on what he was there for- what he was contributing to the crew#But from the promo stuff I know Jacob’s playing Usopp as someone “who would say anything if it meant protecting the people he loves”#Whose lack of pride are both his greatest strength and weakness! And whose softer heart contrasts Nami and Zoro#and whose pirate ideals can both compliment AND oppose Luffy’s#So I’m excited! I hope the LA finds more ways to make me appreciate the characters we’re revisiting. I really do#one piece#usopp#op live action#opla#one piece live action#op usopp#my post
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generally i think viral tiktok sounds are annoying af but the one that’s like “you know you have 30 minutes right” or whatever is literally the theme of my relationship
#we have such different understandings of the passage of time and how long things take#i keep telling myself to not expect a good present from him bc he refuses to shop online#and i know he hasn’t gotten me anything yet#but i got him such a good thing that is merch of a band we love#which is an entire genre that would make great gifts for both of us but you can only get online#and i kind of just want to say like. dude you know all the bands i love and any merch from any of them would be a great gift#but i don’t think i can convince him to do any kind of online shopping so im just never gonna get anything like that from him#can’t really force myself to not be sad so we’ll see how it goes#making this stupid post just to vent in the tags#he’s always like i’m gonna do these ten things tomorrow and at this point it’s just mean of me to tell him that’s impossible
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estuve pensando y me di cuenta que los americanos la tienen buenísima su canción de cumple ekisde el beat está bueno es como tintitintintintin tintitintintintin tintitintintintintintitintitintintiti

#My school can yell at me and make me buy another agenda if they see this btw im completely cooked#No concern over my mental health or anything#I was gonna post this a week or two ago but I was too lazy#This is probably the worst I’ve felt#My birthday is on the 14th and I’m not excited#I’m looking at my own self and wondering what the hell went wrong#I’m stuck to my iPad and pc the entire day if I’m not bedrotting#What the actual fuck is wrong with me#Anyway I probably have a bacterial throat infection and my ma is convinced I have a cough when it’s clearly not that#I’m going to die. Affirmative#I want my ma#vent post#vent
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suguru would be such a good mukbanger/asmr-tist
#i would subscribe to him Instantly#i think he’d be so good at mukbangs ok he can eat anything and love’s everything i just Know he’d make me so hungry just by watching#and him doing asmr… KING OF TINGLES!!!!!#his voice is so soothing/alluring/tingly like i’m convinced my back would arch off the bed just by him talking 🤭#thinking of sugu rn i wish he was Real i also wish he was my boyfriend </3#gojo would be the guy who got slapped by cheese from his fondue machine 😭😭😭#geto would be the elegant big biter 😭😭😭#personal
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I’m I fucking dreaming….

#I legit cried seeing montreal on this list….#I’m really sick right now and slept 5 hours so seeing that I’m-#I don’t have money or no one on to come with me tho…#but just them coming her make me so happy#no one except like 3 groups / artists came here#so they are one of the first I thought I wouldn’t see this for at least 5 years….#it’s on my parents last day of vacation I can try to convince my mom to come I’m sure 😳#omg 😭#I wouldn’t ask for anything else in the world PLEASE 😭#or any moots close to me would like to travel here cksbjxbsjd#I also know people are mad they are going to NA again but at least it not just the Us this time I have my chance 🥲#alex.txt
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people who are like vaguely threatening those who are literally just expressing their opinion on the ofmd cancellation just because it’s not a negative opinion? get lost dude lmaooo. like… so i’m not allowed to express joy? you’ve all been subjecting me to your misery for 24 hours man. i don’t HAVE a favourite show i don’t want cancelled. stop saying “ooooo this could happen to YOU” jokes on you, ofmd was my favourite show and season two was worse than cancellation. i’m allowed to say i’m relieved. because not to be a pessimist but i don’t think i can do anything to change the decline of the arts because of corporate decisions, or how slow and desperate the crawl towards more rep on television is. i’m just one person. and you know what? a whole community spread news of ofmd by word of mouth, got a silly little show a second season. but hbo had already slashed the budget in HALF for the renewal and taken some of the episodes. it was already doomed. the renewal? was a fucking money grab because they saw it was popular but they had no intention of allowing the vision to be realised. that’s not even to mention i don’t think david jenkins cishet white male show would have managed to stay good in the second season even under more forgiving circumstances but you guys HATE that opinion, so. suck it idk
#when has mass action ever done anything other that maybe convince some asshole he can make a profit#we are powerless in this fucking system#it’s disgusting#but i should be allowed to have that fucking opinion#as well as the opinion i’m glad we aren’t getting season three!!!
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#i find it hard to take my own personal experience with dad issues to distance myself from babygate the way some can ignore it#i think that’s why i can’t ignore it or pretend it’s not there#i’ve been that kid who’s dad was absent & then would randomly show up when it was convinent for him#& i can’t put what i know personally & what we all witnessed up until 2021#i just hope for Cheesy Pasta’s sake that he knows the truth & that if Louis is gonna keep playing dad he doesn’t disappear#& only show up for his own convince.#idk… just talking about this is making me upset….#idk why i’m sharing this not that it matters or anything sometimes you just gotta put your feelings in tags 🤷🏻♀️
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Ok when I reblogged this last night, I picked 3rd because that’s what I’ve heard, but I also said maybe a little bit #4? Because at the time I thought ‘well something not really mattering to you = a sort of rejection” so I was a little confused as to how they were separate options?
And then when I woke up and I saw this I remembered that the ‘rejection’ idea was an antisemitic talking point. As in supposedly you saw the undeniable truth of Jesus and were like nah.
So I’m not sure how else it could’ve been worded - it was quickly visible to me after a good night’s sleep - but I wonder how many other people were thinking similarly to me when they picked #4, and how many are genuinely antisemitic. But I hope there’s just a lot of confused people.
#culturally Christian#I’m kind of agnostic but I do swear pretty religiously and kind of believe in Jesus and such just sort of out a habit. like if something#more convincing comes along I’ll go with that but currently I just have trouble with the idea the universe started spontaneously#I imagine more that there’s a higher figure and he’s been running experiments on an infinite amount of universe#like multiverse theory where every little decision splits the timeline etc#and occasionally he throws in stimulae like prophecies or small bits of him so that he can see what will happen#if something good happens to#me that I had no control over#like a free parking space or meeting a dog by chance#I send a kiss up to him just because I kind of want my thanks distributed but I don’t know to who? so I figure if he’s an honest guy#he’ll do other people favors too#also every time I see a dead animal on the side of the road I send it a kiss because i fervently wish that they died instantly and are#up in heaven and never have to worry about anything again#but otherwise yeah#my family stopped going to church when I was 4#I just remember liking to play with the holy water you were supposed to put on your forehead#and also the church had a really nice low stone wall that I liked to hold onto my mom or dad’s hands as I walked along the top#they’re divorced (not the catalyst to lack of church) so it was always either one or the other#my grandmother gave me a children’s bible and we still celebrate Christmas#so I know a lot of stories from#the kids bible I was given had a lot of bible stories in it and i enjoyed reading it but it felt like an anthology/book of fairy tales to me#more than anything. and ofc when I was little I heard lots of Christmas star#stories both secular and religious. I avoid Christmas media mostly as an adult because it’s so overblown but I figure I’ll share it with my#kids. my favorite Christmas movie of all time is about a cow who wants to become one of Santa’s reindeer and fly. it’s called#Annabelle’s wish it’s pretty cute. I think it falls under a secular Xmas movie but I haven’t watched it in a bit#we also celebrate Easter but I think that’s more because my mom really likes compiling the baskets of candy and spring themed stuff#and of course the Christian channels were always free whenever my family couldn’t afford ‘better’ tv. I enjoyed them but preferred pbs kids#because they were less preachy about their morals and I was more familiar with them.#oh also when I make I wish I address it to god out of habit.#about to run out of rags but whatever. my favorite religious swear that definitely pisses people off is ‘Jesus Christ on a pogo stick’
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Hate being disabled. Have a drs appointment today with a new doctor and I’ve spent the past four hours borderline catatonic from medical trauma even though I don’t have to go in for another three hours. I’m just so fucking tired
#it’s. weird#logically I’m aware I’m very dissociated right now but because I don’t feel anything I’m convinced I’m overreacting#like oh nooo intake appt what’s the worst that could happen. so much. so much#I’m so tired as it is. I don’t want to be told I’m not doing enough again#I don’t want more pills and supplements or someone new telling me that actually I’m fine and it’s all in my head#have you tried meditating. are you sure this isn’t depression. bleh bleh bleh#and I’m gonna have to explain the trans thing to them. like that’s gonna make things easier#I’m just tired. and scared. and I don’t want to do this shit again#but we can do nothing else but go on. sigh. just wish it didn’t have to be like this#I don’t know what I’ll godfamn do if he doesn’t let me keep my meds. I don’t know what I’ll do#disability stuffz
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was the only first shift part-timer at my job to not quit like 2 weeks in and my manager said he “knew i was a stayer from the moment [he] met [me]” which is like. just manager talk but i’ve been thinking abt it a lot for some reason
#not like it necessarily ‘meant a lot’ to me or anything#like it was nice to hear ofc it’s nice to be appreciated#just like. a ‘stayer’#i’ve had this really weird relationship with this general concept for a minute now and i don’t think i’ve ever really talked about it#because sometimes it kind of feels like all i do is run away LOL#i stopped talking to all my friends from senior year largely because i convinced myself i was complicating things#like. being in their lives was actively making it worse which they didn’t deserve#so i kind of ran away from that instead of trying to work it out because. i don’t know. everything with that situation makes me so tired#but there are other instances that feel like the opposite?#i feel like i’m always either running away from my people problems or sitting and staying like a good dog. forever#something something needs to be useful something#if the. Heh. The best that i could give to you was noth-[GUNSHOT]#but if the best thing i feel like i can do for someone is Not be there. i tend to take that route#knowing full well the entire time it’s not really. rational? but saying that out loud to yourself over and over doesn’t make you believe it#im odd bc im so ‘logical’ but forget that the main reason people have you as a friend is bc they Like You Actually#so im always just kind of looking at people like. equations. this whole thing would be so less complicated if we just took this variable ou#and suddenly i have the power to just take the variable out#idk#i think that whole situation was doomed anyway. maybe i do owe those people better maybe i don’t#hey actually. fuck this i did try#bc they kind of never. like. followed up with me on any of The Situation they kinda just let me deal with that completely on my own ?? 😭#then when it made us all kind of distant and /i/ tried to bring it up they really did not seem to give a fuck about like#making an effort to be real with me#so. i did try. i only have so much to give and i wasn’t going to keep throwing lines out#maybe they did deserve better. but do did i. god so did i#probably won’t delete later but i might delete some of these tags later lol. drama they
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