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diaryofanormalkid · 11 hours ago
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Sooo glad I left that situation. We weren’t compatible, he was wasting my time, he couldn’t be honest with himself, he didn’t respect/like me as much as he thought he did.
It was one of those situations where he would’ve gained more value having someone like me on his arm, almost like a trophy wife because I’m so unique and a gem and beautiful etc.
But he wouldn’t have actually cared for, valued or appreciated me like everyone else would say he should do. He would’ve treated me ordinarily and taken me for granted.
Because it’s like he didn’t know he had a good girl until he lost me. He thought I was always going to be there. Or wait around for him to heal from his trauma.
He moved on real fast after we had our time though. So I doubt he ever actually had much healing to do. I just don’t believe him. And as much as he can say I hurt him, he hurt me.
For not being honest and clear about his intentions. And that’s all I ever wanted to express to him. But he took it as an attack on his character, which I never meant to do.
I apologized if I hurt him by saying what I said. But then I was dwelling on the fact that, if he was hurt, then that means he’s not happy with how he treated me after what I explained I was hurt by.
Because all I explained was when you do a), b) and c), I feel like ___________. He took it as me saying he’s a bad person. And I told him all the things he does well that I appreciate.
But because of these things that added up over time, I slowly felt like it would be a place of resentment had I not gotten that through to him. I don’t regret it one bit.
I wish I had listened to myself the first or second time I wanted to end things with him. My instincts told me from the jump that this wasn’t anything I should continue.
And each time, he talked me out of it. Or some outside force would talk me out of it. But I put up with the BS for everybody else. So how about myself? Don’t I get a say?
I’m going to be sooo true to myself next time and not include so many external factors next time when I’m focusing on my potential future husband. I think that’s so worth it.
I’ll know that my instincts and gut decision is actually very intuitive by strengthening and listening to it constantly.
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lovemyromance · 1 day ago
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For fucks sake - Elain's horrid black dress was meant to keep the focus on Nesta. Specifically - keep Eris's focus on Nesta. Everyone knows Elain is the prettiest Archeron so they had to find a way to make her look less interesting than Nesta.
Not to mention - if there's any foreshadowing - it's about how Elain doesn't fit into the cruelty of HEWN CITY - not the Night Court as a whole. When she's back in Velaris, she's back to glowing with health.
How are people making such a fuss over how her black dress means she doesn't belong in the night court if in the very next chapter, she's in a gown that makes her look great again - and lo and behold - she's still in the fucking Night Court?
Is Velaris suddenly not a part of the night court now?
This is what is called wishful thinking. This scene had nothing to do with Lucien. It has nothing to do with what color dress she wears or doesn't wear.
I've seen this kinda long shot reach of an argument so many times. How many times do I have to say it? Foreshadowing is A to B. Not A to B to C to D to E to F.
Not to mention - this is all because Elain looked bad in one black dress? Mor never wears black. Amren doesn't either, and yet they're 2nd and 3rd in command of the NC.
Also in case anyone is just as confused as I was when I saw this utter joke of a theory - apparently Elain glowing in an amethyst gown means Lucien endgame because Helion once showed up with an entourage of Day Court people and they wore clothing of crimson, Cobalt, and Amythest,
Guess that means Mor/Lucien end game too now? Or Azriel/Lucien? Because you know - Mor is always in a crimson dress and is described as a bombshell and Azriel is beautiful af in his cobalt siphons.
If these people are going to use that logic - then it should be applied to everyone that fits the criteria, no?
I'm so tired of seeing this stupid argument like ??
Just imagine this hypothetical: the next ACOTAR book comes out. people are confused because surprise it's not Elriel like everyone expected, but it's Elucien?
And when the public is like Sarah, why? I don't understand how you just abruptly switched from Elriel to this?
Do you think it's plausible that the answer from Sarah's mouth will be: silly readers! You could've seen that Elain looked bad in black and looked good in purple and purple is one of the 4+ colors mentioned once 3 books ago that the day court people wore and Helion is the HL of the day court, and Lucien is his son! Wasn't that SO OBVIOUS??
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nepenthe-den · 1 day ago
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There's no force on this planet that can convince me that Fin doesn't have
A.) A praise kink (giving and receiving)
B.) a breeding kink (Lord have mercy)
And C.) at least a mild size kink.
UGGHH YOURE SO RIGHT QUEEN these are all so painfully trueee
MDNI under the cut!!
Praise kink?
We see how much people compare this man to a dog. Call him a good boy and he's going to fall to his knees. But he also loves to praise his partner and let them know how amazing he thinks they are in any situation. He never shuts up!!
On the receiving end, quite literally anything will make him melt. He LOVES a good mix of you telling him how good of a boy he is while you tug on his hair. Call him handsome and strong and brave and he's mush.
On the giving end, he's always telling you how perfect you are. Even when he's beyond fucked out he's mumbling "f-fuck fuck so good- you're so good so fucking perfect-" he physically cannot stop praising you. He needs you to know how much he loves you.
BREEDING KINK??? ARGHHH don't even get me STARTEDDD
While I think Hazard would be good with kids, I highly doubt he wants them. At least anytime soon. He lives a wild life and definitely has doubts because of his own parents and difficult home life as a kid.
But boy does he still love to try! He fucks you over and over after he gets just a glimpse of his cum dripping out of you. It drives him absolutely insane. Makes him feel almost possessive and incredibly confident. Ugh and if you beg him to cum inside you? Huge ego boost! His pretty baby wants him to fill them up? Done and done.
Size kink 😮‍💨
Don't know how tall he is canonically but in my brain he's at LEAST 6'5. And oh BOY does he have a size kink. Literally just standing next to you and looking down at you has him blushing and ... thinking. If you wear his shirt? He's a dead man walking. When you sit on his lap? He's at a loss for words.
Im also a firm believer that his cock is huge. So he takes his sweet time prepping you beforehand. His fingers are big and thick too 🤭 he has you whining and on the verge of tears before he's actually fucked you. It's a tight fit when he actually gets his dick inside you, genuinely drives him mad. He's got you clawing at and scraping his shoulders. He just completely covers you when he's on top. 😮‍💨 His back muscles are tensing from how deliciously tight you are.
I'm in the process of writing a short with all of these so stay tuned!!
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thesummerstorms · 2 days ago
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Tbh, Arsinoë de Riva is probably broke as hell at the start of the game. Technically, she's on a contract for Varric, but it took six months for Viago of all people to even call it such. Payment for said contract on Varric's end is mostly "not letting Arsinoë die at the hands of one of the other Talons".
She's been away from Antiva (and all her savings and contacts and networks along with whatever House de Riva might be expected to provide for its Crows) for a solid year. She fled in the middle of the night with what she could carry on her person, so it's not like she had time to dip into her emergency caches around Treviso.
In that time, she's been on the road with Varric and, sure, maybe she could take some "off the books" contracts on the side to make ends meet, but I feel like she was probably incredibly paranoid about doing that when
a) technically Varric holds her contract and it is very much against Crow rules to "double book" as it were
b) Varric and Harding seem a bit "upright" and she has no idea how they would react to her taking secondary jobs
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c) she has had it beaten into her that you do not take contracts outside the House, in part due to loyalty, at least partially because the House will take its cut, but mostly because that means she doesn't have Viago or anyone else to vet the Contract for her.
She was probably selling off trinkets in the beginning, enchanted rings and such from other jobs, and looting off the Venatori, which she's continued doing since.
But her contract with Varric doesn't have a timeline or a price, so eventually she might have had to break and take outside work had Varric not figured out what she was doing and informed her that the Merchant's Guild and royalties from his novels were paying their way through this job, and yes, he did intend to pay for her meals and lodging even if he couldn't actually afford an Antivan Crow.
With Varric unable to continue paying her way after the prologue, the Lighthouse seems like a blessing. Food is still an expense, but lodging that is both secure and free is a blessing. She still wears that god-awful worn out armor for way too long with an eye to the expense book.
Viago is displeased when she wears it home to Treviso for the first time, but it isn't like she knew they would be meeting the First Talon and she was under the impression she shouldn't knew better than to raid House de Riva's stores and show up in the Colors without her Talon's explicit forgiveness and permission. And then the turn around to the Ossuary is so quick that she's still wearing it when she rescues Lucanis.
Viago does eventually tell Arsinoë to "start dressing properly before she shames House de Riva" (aka to dip into the House Stores to replace her failing equipment and to start wearing the Colors again) a little upset somewhere very deep down that she thought she couldn't, mainly because she is who she is to him, not just a random Crow.
But Lucanis still brings it up casually one day over laundry day in the Lighthouse, asking if she was supposed to be in some sort of disguise or if Viago has completely lost his mind, accepting a contract that didn't pay enough for Arsinoë to maintain her own gear.
Only for her to laughingly reply "I haven't been paid in at least a year, actually. Actually, technically, if anything I still owe the House and Varric, so... Well, hopefully the next contract is a good one."
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islandheartprincess · 24 hours ago
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littlepogue!reader - cupcake chaos 🌱✨
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summary: little pogue vivianne keller thinks she could be a baking prodigy, but can her hands cause anything other than disaster?
c!w: none! pure fluff ۫ ꣑ৎ
pairing: littlepogue!reader x pogues (platonic)
read my little pogue oc, vivianne kellers moodboard & intro first
you were hard at work in the kitchen, covered in flour and batter, while the pogues lounged around the chateau deep in convo.
"guys, i promise this time, IT WILL BE LEGENDARY" you said, holding up a box of cupcake mix like it was a priceless artifact
"uh, y'know cupcakes are supposed to be like, sweet, right vee" John B teased sitting on the counter next to you
"shush! they're gonna be perfect" you shot back at him, slapping his arm harshly
pope stuck his head back out from the fridge "right... just as perfect as your pancake cookies from last week..."
JJ stopped his obnoxious crunching on some expired chips to comment "welp man! I'm down, if they're good we get good food, if they're not we get to make fun of vivi's baking skills! win-win." he chuckled at his own joke, popping another chip in his mouth.
kiara let out a loud groan as she walked into the kitchen, "is she doing this again?" eyeing you, preparing herself for disaster. "oh, its happening," JJ responded " and we are all estimated to die from a sugar overload in about an hour"
kiara giggled, turning back to you "vee, if these end up like your pancake cookies, im locking you out of the kitchen forever."
you side-eyed her, about to argue back, and then... ding! the oven timer went off.
"prepare to be amazed" you said, putting on oven mitts while everyone quickly surrounded you,carefully opening the oven door.
pulling out the tray, everyone collectively gasped. the cupcakes were.... well- creative! you still had hope though, setting them on the counter. JJ poked one with a fork, watching it deflate like a balloon. "whoops, think I just killed one, my bad."
everyone took a cupcake, suspiciously eyeing it, and you counted down to three so everyone could taste it at the same time.
"2....3." everyone bit into their cupcake, only letting a second pass before chaos erupted. John B quickly rushed to the trash can to spit it out, while JJ just spat his on the floor. you slowly continued to chew yours, trying to put up a fake front before you spat yours out in the sink.
"vivi ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL US?" kiara said frantically
"i followed the recipe exactly?! i have no idea how it could turn out like this!" you responded suspiciously
John B looked around confused, raising his eyebrow before looking at you, "vee... now that I think about it, we don't even have measuring tools" you blinked at him... maybe it could've been that... he continued "or SUGAR."
you shot him a confused look before pointing to a glass container containing tiny white crystallines. "then what the hell is that?"
pope walked over, and turned the container to its front, revealing a large label reading "SALT" you looked around in silence, before the group bursted out in laughter, you included.
"you're definitely making history with this one, as the worst cupcakes ever" JJ chuckled
"one day, you're all gonna regret doubting me" you said while pope wrapped his arm around you, patting your head. "are you gonna poison us?" he joked, getting a laugh out of everyone.
"fine! I admit defeat this time" you said, plopping yourself onto the couch next to Kiara.
kiara hugged you tightly, "i think it would be the safest to stick to store-bought cupcakes"
you didn't care about cupcakes though, for now, you were happy to be in the moment surrounded by laughter, bad cupcakes, and pure ridiculousness.
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vivianne kellers moodboard & intro (⁠♡⁠ω⁠♡⁠ ⁠)⁠ ⁠~⁠♪
follow me for more fics like this xoxo
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unproduciblesmackdown · 17 days ago
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also "textless" versions of these, wahooo
#corned beef#joe iconis christmas extravaganza#bsol#speaking of >:3 & >:3 third time's the >:3 in successfully slammed both up against the window of joe iconis's car (twitter @'d & Seen)#which is really just a :3 but whom among us (orchestra hit) is not a little impish with it#first year i did fanart like wouldn't it be fun if joe saw & liked this. second yr like Same plus it did happen last time#then also recency Fun Times bias sure but he did make it a frame in his End Of Year Good Times Celebration video like >:'3#yes i draw exactly what i wanna draw b/c it's some specific thing i enjoy that much so Yep that is the xmas show to me#so powerfully i was moved like ooh fun xmas villain wrole?? in '19 when i was paying attention & relieved of some bmc closure malaise#by the xmas show but obv Least aware / knowledgable lol. technically showed up in '18 around nov/dec but no chance Right then of tuning in#i mean i had the capacity but did not know it existed / even Less helpful preexisting context. anyway so by the time the show returns#& i've done research in between & gone my god i am i live laugh loving like Yeah i'll do more fanart & omg cyril & omg krampusfucking#able to ramp it up this year & like just thanks to Drawing Experience i'm better at forging ahead through thee process even when it's#extra ambitious like my god am i in over my head? well keep swimming for the surface like only several times going [aaa....] only to yknow#not be that tripped up anyway but still go [(celebrate) christmas!!! (with me)] & be like Do It For The Krampusfucking Gift#one post for another like lighting up my life joe just coming out like ''who wants clips. first up Full Cyril Fucks The Krampus number''#like jeez made that happen And passed it along....it's always the like epitome of my art like i make the specific often really niche stuff#i really respond to; does anyone else enjoy this? if yes; Wheeee; sometimes this is also ppl Behind the really niche shit i enjoy#like i truly hope you do get that kick out of it as i slam it up to the window; worth a Highlight Of Your Year or not#the power of [i do like to Draw the things i latch on to] + [internet] for you#really the bsol design even More an event in ''how did i even do this'' b/c even when planning to make it slightly easier like well#fewer figures; i'll use ink pen so i hone the lineart less than i would to precisely get [line weight mostly irrelevant] Line Geometry#yet still going ruh oh i'm honing for sure. but then like did Most of the lineart all in one night + all the coloring the next round#when i draw quite slowly / the Honing is virtually always an inextricable part of my process like i do Nothing in less than Hours#like i think even my freewheeling bsol sketches posted just this morning took me at Least an hour; judging by vids i played in the bg lol#not quite calibrated to have Attuned Confidence In My Ability To Forge Ahead thusly like oh no if i don't have Momentum or it doesn't#happen to be one of those times things just spontaneously come out great right off without more honing / consideration we're fucked....#not actually the case but yknow still realizing this lol But still able to just pat myself on the shoulder like It's Manageable & it is/was
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coriander-candlesticks · 3 months ago
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Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?
Apollo: no
Me: should I plan to work from home?
Apollo: no
Me: ...
Apollo:
Me: migraine?
Apollo: migraine.
#(cue it starting immediately afterwards)#i managed to take some painkillers in time to stave the migraine off but i still felt like shit the next day#so i couldnt have worked regardless#this was monday night (and tbf sunday & monday were *extremely* tiring days. i was falling asleep while crocheting & playing ac#which is rare even considering my fatigue issues)#yes/no divination has been great as a way to consult apollo without pulling out the tarot deck (which is more time consuming and takes#a *lot* more spoons)#the only issue is that when i do the stones or tarot i tend to get on a Divination Kick tm which is. not helpful b/c what am i going to do??#i've already finished asking what i needed to ask???#i should probably funnel that burst of dopamine/hyperfixation into researching different methods actually#gonna add that to the routine#also! working out the kinks with the yes/no method. doing it on my floor? no good. inconsistent results. Feels Bad. Loud#doing it on my bed? wonderful 10/10. very consistent results. Feels Good. not loud#i still do tarot on the floor though b/c having a flat sturdy surface is nice#for reference: my commute is 2-2.5 hrs each way via public transit. the sensory experience drains me *very* fast if im not careful and#we're in Purgatory Weather season where it's *juuust* warm & humid enough to maybe be a problem but isnt one For Sure#*and* the state fair is on so the trains are gonna be packed when im trying to get home#coriander says#helpol#hellenic pagan#hellenic polytheism#apollo#theoi#pagans of tumblr#hellenic community#paganblr
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popcorn-plots · 6 months ago
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Me: I got a 25 on the ACT!
Mom: it won't get you into BYU, especially with your math grade the way it is.
Me: I have a 3.7 GPA, and I can always retake the ACT?
Mom: you're going to need a really good admissions essay if you want to get into BYU.
Me: thanks, mom.
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thats-a-lot-of-cortisol · 4 months ago
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Using my brain like a metal detector to figure out what the FUCK it wants to do
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ambersky0319 · 4 months ago
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also untelated but still work related
today was
interesting
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mutalune · 6 months ago
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really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state
#starlight personal#the good news is that I finally have another ketamine appt scheduled and it’s sooner than I thought they’d have an opening#the bad news is that the appointment is not tomorrow and we’re kinda at the end of my mental-emotional rope#now kids this is what we call: an inherent flaw in my treatment plan that cannot be removed#because pretty much in an ideal world I’d have ketamine appointments every 6 weeks but 1) expensive and probs can’t afford that#2) they don’t have enough availability for that to be realistic 3) can’t take off of work THAT frequently without consequences#4) I would probably start to doubt reality if I was tripping that frequently 5) I don’t think docs would allow it#treatment resistant depression and anxiety my beloathed if we could just chill that’d be great#treatment resistant PMDD my other beloathed someday I will do my damnedest to cut you out of my body#idk not to be too selfpitying on main but god it fucking sucks that I appear to be doomed to another cycle based mood thing#PMDD means I get two good weeks two bad weeks#ketamine being the only effective treatment for whatever my brain’s got going on means two good months followed by x bad months#until my next appointment#which like! two good months is better than no good months I am grateful that something helps#I just wish it was a more convenient help and it could be applied more consistently than my psych office provides#also wish I didn’t have to call them 3 times to get it scheduled but it is what it is#also also wish that I had fewer of the physical side effects of my anxiety and wouldn’t wake up puking the min things are rough#this is all to say: I want silly SW headcanons and droid headcanons and silly fic ideas and not Everyone is Always Suffering#but I’m also too lazy (I.e brain cannot make decisions rn) to search for new tags that may give me more silly#which means time to browse my bookmarks for good good comfort fics I have saved I suppose#(this is lowkey why i want to physically fight everyone i know who’s like ‘yeah meds would help but idk :/‘ like!!!!!!!!#bro it’s a privilege to have access to meds and it’s a privilege to have a body that doesn’t turn on you the min you take one!!!!#just try 10mg of zoloft I would kill for 10mg of zoloft to not make me entirely incapable of functioning!!!)#I don’t mean that - you have a right to take or not take medication and everyone’s reasons may be their own#I just had my body and have some rough feelings around treating my issues being so expensive and inconvenient#and then feeling guilty b/c I know I’m lucky that I can afford it and can take off of work for it when I need to#like I am pretty lucky to have something that works and to have a care team that helped me get here#so I don’t wanna be ungrateful or unappreciative of my own luck in this and the work that went into getting here#I’d just also like it if I could change the circumstances slightly#make treatment on the weekends an option - get my psych office to have more than 2 trip sitters so scheduling isn’t so bad
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swnamii · 8 months ago
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the slowly-growing urge to relisten to the pgu vs the fact that i Cannot do that rn
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everyones-story · 1 year ago
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may have my first for-profit larvesta breeding pair on pixelmon
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waugh-bao · 2 years ago
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onepiexe · 2 years ago
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ok i can talk abt work now. i got hired to assist the main person who runs inventory and communicates with the vendors, orders plants and products etc etc. its been hard and mostly office work but insanely rewarding.
#logbook#they have me sitting at a desk ik they had to pull from someones ass in the corner of the main room next to her#this first week i went thru and counted every perennial they have on property and then went into the system and cycle counted it properly.#come mon i go back thru sales and if a plant want sold in 22 then i archive it. . .going to be so much work lol#i miss working outside with every fiber of my being but im also starting from the bottom with this job. . .im not at the top of pack here.#and ive been enjoying this aspect of the plant world so im honestly satisfied for right now. and i love the ppl i work with in the office.#we had a staff meeting yesterday and i texted c after going 'man im so relieved to know they still have workplace problems lol'#cause its really a priveledge to work in a garden center like this. . .imo.#anyways im full time<3 and ive been told i can come in earlier then i have been come march.#plus i get an employee discount lol. . .going to be so bad with the houseplants. theres a fern i really want if its still there mon.#im apparently doing all the work faster than anyone expected. .i thought i was going slow lmao#also she let me into the system on my first day and she told me she never does that. . .i was like 🥺#also i texted j this week and she said that the b+tes ppl go into l+wes and get lumber and said i was a hard worker and good!!#i was like ???? hello??? bc at that point id only worked 2 days. . and i still dont know who it was either.#ive been having fun tho. this week i'll take pics of the plants that are actually flowering. . .and some shrub closeups.#also checked in my first delivery on wed i think. it was fine. ik product and can count and i care so its not like its hard. .#going to be doing that all spring. . .whew.
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nobleclover · 16 days ago
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Kinda strange how I've seen this happen in a good few controversies online. 🤨
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