#but I just dont understand the total meltdowns of some

[drchucktingle]

how are you human?

so many interesting comments and thoughts on my post saying buds should consider not coming up to strangers in marginalized groups and saying 'how are you a real person that actually exists?'. i will point out this: despite my VERY gentle tone a few buds said i was having a 'meltdown' for even mentioning it

others said i was being too serious for someone who is ‘not a real person’. so if you would any more evidence of what it is like to be a buckaroo like myself there it is. every day, autistic folks who may seem ‘weird’ are bombarded with messages and comments and implications that they are fundamentally not human beings

sometimes it is outright and blatant like the comments on last post saying ‘well why are you getting mad? you are not even real’ and sometimes it is in the very subtle ways that folks use language when they talk to us. there is huge difference between ‘how do you exist?’ and ‘i am glad you exist.’

anyway, something that i think many people who have not lived this experience dont seem to understand is i KNOW the poster who said ‘how are you a real person that actually exists’ probably meant it as a compliment. that is THE POINT of why i am taking a moment out of my trot to gently and anonymously let them know how it might feel to be on other end of something like this as a queer or autistic or otherwise marginalized buckaroo. it is obviously not their intent to actually hurt someone, so i am letting them know

maybe because queerness and autism are not physically apparent it is hard to explain, but imagine going up to very tall or very short person and saying ‘cant BELIEVE you are real’ as a compliment. not a great way to treat others. on my original post, an indigenous author chimed in with their own experience and feelings similar to my own. a woman who said she was very tall told her story. point is, while i do not have their experience, what i am saying has a universal thread for 'othered' folks

point is: i UNDERSTAND there is this sort of exaggerated or ironic (or maybe even sometimes very literal) language around fandom to say things like ‘how are you a human?’ to creators, but since it is not your intent to hurt, i think you might want to know how that feels to marginalized buckaroos sometimes.

obviously you can say anything you want. i do not hold it against you. also, if you think ‘oh no, did i say something like this to chuck at a convention? i am so embarrassed' then DO NOT WORRY i promise you buckaroo you are just fine. i present myself in a way that is unusual by definition, so i have pretty thick skin about this type of thing and a lot of patience. MANY buds start off thinking i am ‘a joke’ and then become fans over time and i am glad to trot beside them and prove love is real.

however there are other autistic or queer or marginalized buckaroos with smaller platforms who hear this just as much as me, so i think it is important to say it loudly and maybe together we can work on making a very slight shift in the way we speak to the ‘others’ in our lives

we do not NEED to let subtle dehumanization slip into our language. in some cases it has been called ‘micro aggressions’ but i think buds dont often consider what that means for COMPLIMENTS. ultimately, telling marginalized people YOU ARE SO AMAZING YOU CANNOT POSSIBLY EXIST may seem very fun and silly on the surface and for some folks it probably feels that way, but for others it can feel like a reminder of the broader doubt about their humanity. you can just say ‘YOU ARE AMAZING’ without the reminder of the many times autistic or queer or marginalized folks are told in a very serious and pointed way (like comments on the last post) ‘YOU ARE SO WEIRD THAT I HAVE DECIDED YOU ARE NOT REAL’

buckaroos can take this information and apply it to their interactions, or they can ignore it, that is totally fine. we are all trotting our own trots and proving love in our own way and thats okay bud, HOWEVER i feel like it is important to at least let folks know, even if that means getting told i am having a ‘meltdown’. i think it is important to have complex or difficult conversations if it will prove a little more love in the long run. THANK YOU FOR READING BUCKAROOS. i am honored to trot forward with you can tackle this kind of thing with you, and honored you buckaroos have created such an amazing space with me to pull apart these kind of feelings. THIS IS PROOF THAT LOVE IS REAL LETS TROT

[manmuncher777]

As an annoying person, im surprised my boyfie still loves me. I think it would be totally cute if the reader was such a bitchy bratty, not many friends (jst a fcking loser) having a total breakdown and sukuna jst has to listen and comfort her. Bonus points if she starts to be emo (like to the point shes not even eating) 😶 wth is wrong w me 😬

Yesss girl, sukuna would die for you even if you were having a meltdown!! Hope you enjoy my love 💞

“I said I’m not hungry!”

You scream it from under your silk throw blanket, voice muffled into the mountain of plushies on your bed. You’re still in yesterday’s clothes—a pink tube top with one strap hanging off your shoulder and sparkly shorts that haven’t seen daylight in three days. Your lashes are clumped, hair in a messy bun, and your lip gloss is half-faded.

You’ve been stomping around the apartment all week, huffing and puffing, slamming doors and crying over nothing. When Sukuna tries to ask what’s wrong, you just whine or scream or pout, claiming, “You wouldn’t understand!”

Sukuna was used to your moods swings, he had seen it all. Hardly phased by it anymore. But this was different, you hadn’t been this bad in a long time. You had locked yourself away, and aas much as he struggled to always show it, he absolutely hated seeing you like this. He missed his bubbly girl, it was hard to see you not taking care of yourself.

He felt like he had tried everything. He had tried to bribe you out of you room with plans of whatever you wanted, offering free shopping trips, or little dinner dates. But all of those you declines with a sniffle. He tried sulking with you, he even tried guilting you out of your room, but nothing was working.

Today, though? He’s had it.

“That’s it.”

The door to your bedroom slams open, and you jump under the blanket like he’s the monster from under your bed. You peek up just as he marches in—tight black tee, heavy boots, expression dark.

“You haven’t eaten. You haven’t showered. You’ve been a fuckin’ brat for days and I’m done watching you waste away acting like this.”

You glare at him through your tear-streaked face. “I’m not wasting away, I’m just—fragile!”

You burst into another dramatic sob and try to turn your back, but Sukuna is already crouched beside the bed, peeling the covers back with one arm and dragging you straight into his lap like you weigh nothing.

“You’re gonna tell me what’s going on,” he growls, cupping your chin. “And you’re gonna eat. Now.”

Your bottom lip wobbles as you blink at him, all pout and glossy eyes.

“I just feel… like… everyone hates me lately! And I dont have many friends as it is, and these stupid girls were laughing at me when we went to the bar the other night, I had mascara under my eyes and—you didn’t even notice, ‘Kuna!”

You wail it into his chest like it’s a war crime, fists lightly hitting his shoulder as he just sighs and pulls you tighter.

“Jesus Christ,” he mutters, kissing your head roughly. “You’re so fucking stupid.”

You gasp.

“Rude!”

“Yeah, and I’m your rude-ass boyfriend who’s gonna make you a sandwich, brush your hair, and slap some fucking sense into you until you remember you’re the hottest thing walking and everyone else is just breathing your air.”

You blink. Then sniffle.

“…Can it be a grilled cheese?”

He smirks.

“Yeah, baby. It can be two.”

[dawnedon]

despite the world and life's best and worst efforts, i lived bitch

to make a long story short without getting into toooo much shit, i think ive spoken on here about how ive had a coworker in my job that is a total idiot. and this guy's MOM hired him (she is directly under the owner of the company in terms of power too, she is my boss's boss for context) and he. does not have a shred of work ethic. so guess who, for the PAST YEAR+, had to do the job of 2-3 people as one person.... i was doing 2-4 hours of overtime PER WEEK FOR THE ENTIRE YEAR!!! keep in mind i work 4 days a week, 10 hours per day. so. 11-12+ hour days for my entire work week. and what i had thought was maybe adhd issues was really asd related instead so love that we figured that out finally!!

i was also having severe meltdowns multiple times a week since i was so overwhelmed and so overstimulated with work, along with being in a new environment (ive been in my house now for over a year so i think ive adjusted at this point yay), along with other personal things that happened (my grandma died last march during all of this, so trying to get our house stuff in order with loans and signing shit and all that, working obscene overtime, trying to get the house in order, getting into an accident in november and getting sick...) i was like, in a mental crisis for basically a year.... and just in general in my own mind i felt like i didnt really fit in/belong anywhere and felt outcast (some of which i did feel i brought onto myself and was partly mutually beneficial in some aspects as to not get into too many details) so i just. cut off everything with this hobby cold turkey. cause even with my other hobby like playing games, i didnt have the mental energy/spoons to engage there either.

and before anyone says anything like girl why did you not just quit you job?? um. lmao. anyone in the us knows how AWFUL this job market is right now, and on top of that i have a mortgage and adult shit to deal with so quitting a secure job where i do at least wfh AND have senority is like.... i understand, i thought about it but we cannot support our household even on just my bf's income even though he makes more than me. that is just how it is on this bitch of an earth, and ive learned a lot about myself and come to terms with a lot of things.

i can say that in the past few months, things are WAAAAY WAY BETTER. like night and day levels of better. like, i dont even know the person i was last year vs now, but i wish i could go back to last year and hug myself and tell her things would be ok. my dogshit coworker really isnt in my role anymore, they hired another person and she actually is a REAL help and has work ethic and im not constantly rushing in my job, or having to do 12 hour days anymore. i make more money too and feel a LOT more mentally stable, and ive utilized coping mechanisms that have helped me. i still have my days just like anyone else yknow, BUT its way better. no more constant weekly meltdowns (its been like, once a month MAYBE, if that, if im feeling overstimulated or overwhelmed with something), and ive been able to engage in my hobbies more meaningfully again.

which brings me to here i guess. this long spiel isnt a way to absolve myself of just. disappearing and worrying the shit out of people, im just trying to explain why it happened and what happened cause i would not wish any of this on anyone. it was a miserable way to live and i dont know how i made it and how i survived and i mean that.

i just want to apologize to anyone that was worried because at the very least i should have tried to make an effort to make it known that i needed to step back from everything. i chose myself and my own mental wellbeing first this time, which is fine, but the way i went about it wasn't too cool in terms of just. not telling anyone or saying anything. so i really am sorry if anyone was worried or upset, i understand 100% that i have not been a good friend and i understand if anyone wants to keep their distance for a lil bit!!

idk what this all really means for me, i miss dawn and all of my other characters a lot. a looooot and i miss this hobby. ive started being able to actually enjoy playing games again and writing was the other big hobby i had that i had trouble engaging with, so i guess. maybe a little soft comeback? just please have some patience with me cause. the time blindness is so real, wdym its been like almost a year since ive done anything in the rpc.... i dont even know wtf is going on anymore or like. who all is around still. but im here and im alive!

if anyone wants to reach out at all on disc to talk or catch up or plot (i really have come to realize too that i just suck bad at plotting so sry in advance orz) its chaos.reigns 💃 that goes for any of my muses too, not just dawn but also serena/yveltal too

thank you for reading my novel ass ooc post i hope everyone has been well in these trying times 💖

[cumulo-stratus]

BAU autism headcannons

(GIF NOT MINE)

(male reader)

CW: possible swearing, mentions of meltdowns and overstimulation, lemme know if theres anything else!

A/N: sry i havent rly posted in a while, i started a school recently and its been a rly big change for me so ive just been emotionally/mentally exhausted like all the time, but i dont wanna abandon u guys so i decided i would get something up, even if its not super good, thanks for y’all’s understanding <3

i think both JJ and Emily would become sort of mothers to reader

(not that they werent already mothers to the rest of the team but reader especially)

like JJ would totally have a motherly instinct for readers needs (like a sort of spider sense)

like if your ever nervous about something being too much or being overwhelming, jj would kinds know this and either make arrangements for accommodations or make sure you know you dont have to go if you want to.

and like she definitely wold put herself in charge of keeping your safe foods stashed on the jet and at the office

emily is more of a mother in a protective way than jj is

like this girl will not hesitate at all to go off on someone for maybe being disrespected to about stimming your chair while thinking

or like if you dont want to shake a police officers hand when your being introduced, and you get dirty/weird looks for it, or anyone comments on it? BOOM this girl will stare at them with so much animosity they’ll be scared of her shes so hot oml

anyways i thinks he team would be super accepting of you, especially if you joined after reid like they would already have some experience with autism

and like if you weren’t ent comfortable telling anyone other than hotch(i feel like it would be like a in ur file thing idk how the government works tho) spencer would defo be able to tell and confront u privately abt it (our respectful king <3)

and if you are comfortable telling the team, everyone would be respectful

i think like rossi/gideon would be a little clueless but like trying their hardest

like rossi would have no idea what stimming is but understands that like you move in certain ways or make certain noises when ur excited

and like with all his money he wouldnt hesitate to spoil u with any fidget toy u need/want or like a rly nice weighted blanket (its insane how expensive those things are)

and like gideon despite his profound understanding of others (hope yall got that ;)) he wouldn’ t get why sometimes you dont feel like/cant talk but totally respects it

omg garcia is our autism ally QUEEN im telling you

always has a big basket of fidgets/stim toys sitting on her desk and when your having a rough day shell leave you a little goodie in a brightly colored and decorated bag

i firmly believe that she is the queen at finding brands with clothes that not only fits your style perfectly but is also sensory friendly

i think she would definitely say that if she never ended up working in the FBI she wouldve started a clothing shop for sensory friendly clothing/accessories

spencer would totallllyyyy be your best friend when it comes to being under-stimulated

he will totally info dump on you and vice-versa

spencer (like penlope) would totally recommend clothing brands that are sensory friendly, but sock brands in particular

and everyone makes fun of you for nerding out over everything

also spencer would definitely get in the habit of grabbing your hands in his when you start to pick a t your nails and cuticles

like he didnt even realize what he was doing the first time but now he does it without thinking about it and for the team its normal

“hey,” and he would gently grab your hands to stop you from picking at them

“sorry..”

”youve nothing to be sorry for” (with that little reid smile oml rf[osifjgturhv)

and i also firmly believe that morgan is the best people to go to if your having a meltdown

he would stop you from harmfully stimming

“hey sugar, unclench those pretty little hands for me. there we go… good job kid.” he would have the softest smile and voice

and when he takes your hands to stop you from hitting yourself his grip is rly firm but gentle

but hotch is the best to go to for when your overstimulated

like he would make sure you know his office is always a quiet place you can go to with out questions

and he would secretly have a stash of like stimm toys in his office that he stole from garcia

his couch is always open to you, especially like late at night if you are really tired his fatherly instincts will kick in and force you to come to his office for a break

he would would hand you and blanket and a stim toy

”sit. sleep”

thats all he would say in his cute little stern but actually caring voice <3

[littledreamers-corner]

my other post got too long... oops. um. clears my throat. ehe?

here's a little list of regressor!cellbit & cg!bbh (qsmp characters only) scenarios that i am. totally normal about. you believe me. d. dont worry about it. um. anywayyyy<3

content warnings: self destructive / harmful stims during meltdowns, HEAVILY implied villainization trauma, things related to the fact that cellbit just kind of had a horrific childhood, and honestly just some angsty content involving vent regression :(

★ sometimes, when he can't handle what's happening, cellbit shoves himself in a dark, quiet, cramped corner, and hisses and lashes out at anyone that gets too close. when that happens, bad will quietly sit nearby and organize his backpacks and tend to his weapons, humming the old songs he used to sing cellbit to sleep with, until cellbit comes out of hiding. and when he does, bad is always there to hold him and wipe his tears away.

("there you are cellbit... here, wanna sit on my lap? yeah, there you go. okay. look at me? are you looking?" "mhm," "okay. good. now we're gonna take a deeeeep breath... and let it out.... very good, cellbit. okay. do you wanna tell me what scared you?" "n-no, i'm sorry, i-" "hey, hey, it's okay! you don't have to tell me. do you wanna sit here and watch me finish sharpening my scythe?" "is- is that okay?" "of course it is, you little ragamuffin. here, get cozy.")

★ but if cellbit is so overwhelmed his panicked response is to hit himself or punch the walls or ground around him or bite his lip so hard he tastes blood, bad pulls him onto his lap, and wrestles cellbit's hands away from himself, because if cellbit is going to hit or bite or hurt someone, bad will not let it be himself.

he holds cellbit in his arms and rocks him side to side, until cellbit's done crying and screaming and thrashing and biting and sobbing, and curls up into bad's chest, whimpering and hiccuping, tired out and nervous system starting to settle back down into regulation.

("all done, little ragamuffin?" "'m sorry, i didn't - i don't - i hurt you, i-" "shh, it's okay, i'm not angry, okay? do you wanna help me clean up anything that did real damage? would that make you feel better?" "won't - won't i jus' hurt you more? i don't- i don't wanna hurt you, i-" "cellbit, cellbit. listen to me. you won't ever hurt me bad enough to make me leave your side. i promise. okay?")

★ when regressed, cellbit is terrified of being a bad person, a bad kid, a monster. no child wants to be evil, and cellbit's regression is one of the few times where what he's done in the past truly haunts him. as a result, he often will repeatedly check with bad to make sure that he's still good, right? he's not bad? he's okay? he's not a monster? he's not gonna hurt anyone, right? bad will make sure he won't? he's good, isn't he? is he gonna be okay?

(he is. bad reminds him this over and over with endless patience, despite how much it hurts his heart that he has to reassure cellbit of this so frequently, that he's good, he's kind, he's lovable and he is loved. he's okay. it's okay. he's still good. he's still good. he'll always be good, in bad's eyes. he's doing so well, bad is so proud of him. it's gonna be okay. that you're gonna be okay, cellbit. you're not a monster, i promise.)

★ every time, as soon as cellbit escapes his regression, it's like a switch is flicked, and he pretends nothing happened at all. when bad finally gets cellbit to talk about their interactions involving cellbit's regression, cellbit breaks down and confesses he doesn't understand what it is or why it happens and he feels bad and he's sorry and he doesn't mean to and he's sorry and--

it's a learning moment for both of them. for bad, it's a realization of how much cellbit shames and guilts himself to for turning to bad, his old mentor, someone he's meant to trust (isn't he?) for help, and how deeply his fears of letting bad down runs. for cellbit, it's a learning moment when bad sits him down and teaches him terminology, the hows, the whys, explains why he's been helping, and apologizes genuinely, because he thought cellbit knew what it was.

...things start working a lot smoother between the two of them, after that.

for example, cellbit actually goes to bad directly for help the next time he regresses. :)

[olderthannetfic]

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I feel like there's an ounce of truth to saying something like that is cowardice, though? Just as an observation, to be fair. Neutral, not judgemental. It is cowardly—or it can be—and that is also fine, I think. It's pretty realistic to be cowardly, especially after facing trauma. I don't understand what's wrong with that, I guess? Saying so, I mean.

I mean, I can imagine people are needlessly rude about it, but like... generally speaking, what's wrong with being a bit of a coward?

There are two characters I love very deeply who I would say are cowardly, to the extent that they both sort of meltdown, panic and run away—one so much that he has a bout of disorganized speech—and though the circumstances are different, it's just one way to deal with the situation. They can't face it upfront, so they go around, and honestly, in these cases, they're better off for that. It's an extremely overblown and emotional response, but it is also very real. It's fine, I think, if someone is cowardly, because honestly, who isn't? And many things can exacerbate that. It's like being "selfish" or whatever, too, like of course you want things for yourself. Who doesn't? And in that same vein, who isn't afraid? Who faces everything all the time? Who doesn't back down sometimes? It's, you know, normal. Necessary, sometimes. Ideally, you'd improve, but hey, maybe running away initially would be better for facing it later.

Like, you can't deal with everything all the time. Lots of statements like that, "coward", etc., ought to be more neutral. I think every person alive wants to avoid difficulty. I don't think many people are truly that brave or as good as they'd like to think. It's just a way of protecting yourself, albeit, it can be wrong and harmful in and of itself, especially pushed too far��say, avoiding difficulty and pain to the extent that you can say you "don't want to hurt anyone" while somehow managing to hurt everyone. That's not very good, but I mean. It happens. It's more about what you can do to make up for that, or if you even realize it to start, but a lot of that stuff is just totally normal for people to do.

I don't think it'd be bad unless they avoid difficulty to the extreme and never take responsibility. In that case, I'd say no amount of trauma makes up for the damage they'd do. Worse, they likely won't even be able to see the harm because doing that would mean holding themselves accountable, although that can be a lovely trainwreck, at least—made better by the fact it isn't real.

I got off track a little, I don't know. Cowardice is just not being brave. Maybe people will be rude about that, but there's nothing wrong with lacking bravery, and there are plenty reasons one would, especially after facing some particular hardship. Closing yourself off is cowardly on some level, but objectively it is also a way to protect yourself, and that may be insensible or ridiculous to some, but it's also a perfectly reasonable response. Makes sense, psychologically. When you face a lot of hardship and then get on the other side of that, sometimes it just makes it harder to face anything else. And I just don't think cowardice is wrong, inherently. Withdrawing can protect us. Sometimes, that made us safe before. Maybe it doesn't now, but people will keep doing the thing that made them safe before, long past its expiration date. And that can hurt a lot more than if we hadn't. So it's a neat thing to explore, but I dunno. To me, "coward" is a net neutral. It isn't a statement of value. It just is. The value lies in the handling of the cowardice, I think, not in the word itself.

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[my-castles-crumbling]

I need an opinion. So like my progress report came out yesterday and i had six A’s and one C and i have never been a really good student so i have always like had C’s or low B’s and i was super excited and i am just feeling like so proud of myself but then i get in my car at pick up and my mom is like “how the hell did you get a C in ASL?” And im like “oh well i didnt do that good on the last test” and she was like “whatever, other than that its fine.” But im sitting next to her and im thinking in my head like “fine? Thats all i get is a fine?” Like i KNOW i did good! I KNOW that i worked hard to get those grades but like i was about to have a meltdown right there in the car. And now its the next day and i just cant get it out of my head like, does she think am stupid, AM i stupid? And i just cried about it in the shower but in my head im thinking “stop being such a fucking baby and get over it” but i couldnt stop crying and now i dont know if i was just being dramatic because it feels like i was but it was a big deal for me. Idk, i just needed to rant i guess. But like, am i being a baby about it? I just feel like i am over reacting.

Hi! <3

I totally understand how you're feeling! It's so frustrating when people only focus on the negatives! Expecially when a C isn't even bad! You should be SO proud of your had work, and you deserve to take some time to celebrate. I'm so sorry your mom didn't take that time to be proud of you, but please know that I'm so proud of you and you should be too!

[melissa-titanium]

Ive never watched mp100 so Idk anything about Mob but im genuinely curious, why do people keep drawing Mob & Six together as friends? (not hating on it btw I love it actually lol) im just curious as to how they would work as friends lol

ITS FUNNY BECAUSE. I DONT THINK IVE EVER ACTUALLY SEEN THAT FRIENDSHIP PAIRIG BEFORE ? ??? unless i am wildly stupid and rbed a post about it a while back... im not sure. w/e

six is obviously a VERY flighty kid, constantly ready to book it the hell out of wherever shes at. smart, determined, and after ln2 she won't stop for anything or anyone who could potentially slow her down. unwilling to form companions, after haivng already caused grief for two in the past.

i think shigeo's patience and general non assertiveness would leave them good friends. not only that but their shared experiences in hurting someone they love & self isolating as a way to not let anything like it happen again.

i feel like six feels she's at blame for rcg's death & the reason she dropped mono felt to me as like "you hurt me, i hurt you, it's better if we split so i don't do anything else" inadvertently causing a self fulfilling prophecy for the both of them.

shige hurting ritsu. his solution to having it never happen again is push down any sense of the thing that caused it -- his powers, and by extension, his emotions. some level of self isolation, aNOTHER self fulfilling prophecy directly accumulating towards meltdowns that have similarly devastating affects.

obviously i don't think they'd understand their similarities from a narrative perspective because they only have their own experiences to go by but. im not sure how they'd even meet. assuming six was out of the nowhere, somehow got trapped in a space with shige, i think they'd chill.

ofc six being six she'd lose her shit scared, but i dont think shige would have any reason to bother her. say theyre in the s&s office. she hides under a table or some shit. she recognizes hes a kid though obviously so its not like fuck, how do i kill him? fear its more like fuck, unfamiliar kid i could potentially hurt, what do i do?

shige's generally unintimidating aura and autistic swag would def help her chill. he doesnt need to talk, she doesnt need to talk, they just sit in calm silence. shige has always seemed like a steady calm figure and obv that would help six. autism to autism communication. non communication? ive always seen six as nonverbal or semiverbal. they send brain waves to eachother

i can totally see them just hanging out. how? not sure. considering six would probably try to find some way to kill any adult she sees or like crawl under benches or into trash cans to get away. six would definitely be afraid of shiges powers but thats whats cool about them is that he Almost Never Uses Them so at the point where he does end up using them shes probably chill enough around him that she doesnt freak the fuck out and start mauling him. its like befriending a stray cat except the cat is very much not a cat, it is a severely traumatized 9 year old who has never been to school and most likely has never seen anyone over the age of 11 who hasnt tried to kill her. its actually hard for me to think about how theyd be with one another ill have to think on this...

[aceyanaheim]

Things that totally happened while Kakashi was in single digits ( which is his entire genin AND chunin exam Kishi wtf ) a non extensive list. With the help of the lovely @tora-the-cat

Most D-Rank missions are doing chores around the village. Do you understand how little muscle five year olds have? I dont care that they're a superhero ninja village five is five. Kakashi totally went too hard on some of the manual labor and just..couldnt keep going. Minato had to cover for him. ( Minato also had to convince him that no this didn't make him a bad shinobi because Kakashi tired and grumpy and five was totally trying not to cry when he woke up and the mission was done)

Kakashi lived alone for what the fuck reason kishi wh- after his dad died this tells me he basically learned climbing things like cupboards to get what he wanted and no he doesn't need help thank you.

After a while Minato got good at just extending his arms and catching Kakashi randomly because Kakashi's "if i cant reach climb it" attitude went with him on missions.

Minato fully expecting a genin age ten at the youngest finding someone Half that age and just getting every book on What Five Years Olds Are Like bc...he's never had to train one? He's never seen one on the field? Now he's on a team with one??? Hiruzen?? He's Five???

Kakashi at least once took out someone at the ankles just because thats the nearest thing he could reach.

He needed special weapons because he's tiny but Minato took to carrying then around because at least once Kakashi ran out of his took one of Minatos ( excuse him for being solution orientes) and Damm near sliced his hand open.

@tora-the-cat came up with this one but Kakashi took too many missions back to back without nap time and had a meltdown on a mission. At least the mission was successful.

Also that a jounin almost made Kakashi cry for getting hangry on a mission and Minato almost ate him. ( This was also @tora-the-cat )

Kakashi adamant that he needs to summon His Favorite niken for a mission and totally didnt pout when he couldnt ( he's Five)

Please imagine youre on a B Rank Mission. Please imagine youre fellow Chunnin is Six. Please imagine he kills with effiiciency and then pouts because he can't keep His dog as summoned on the way back and he hates the vegetables Sensei theyre gross.

Minatos a good soldier a good Shinobi he understands this is for the good of the village and anything for the good of the village is justified but he's still not ready for the emotions that slam into him the first time he has to carry this literal toddler after a mission ( maybe he got hurt maybe he fell asleep idk could be both)

Minato carrying special rations because like there are foods?? A Five year Olds body needs??? You can't just give him rations and pills

Minato had to trick Kakashi tho because He's A Shinobi He doesnt need vitamins ( yes. Yes he does)

Please imagine the surround sound HD "what the fuck" when this tiny ass six year old shows up for his Chunnin exam ( Minato Teaches him a bunch of jutsus every one chalks it up to Minato having a passing aquantance with limits. It is that but also he really needs the reasurance Kakashi won't die fighting a bunch of ninja who are twice His age at the youngest)

At least once Kakashi gets sick and actually acts his age. I need that

Listen I've said before but there should have been more focus on Kakashi being Five when his ninja career started like do You know how tiny Five is. He's Little. Picture it Minato goes to meet him and expects a ten year old only to feel a tug on his pants and there's this barely not a toddler standing at attention perfectly. He maybe reaches Minatos knees. Kakashi garrots someone and then asks Minato if he can please lift him up to wash his hands bc he can't reach the sink. Minato has to carry extra special Made weapons because should Kakashi find himself without his Minatos weapons would not in fact fit in his hands. He has to stand on tiptoes to give ninja reports. He's Five thats Tiny. Someone offered him the kids menu at Shinobi Food Place and Minato barely curved the killer intent by promising extra training. Kishimoto pick up the phone this could have been so much funnier and no less tragic.

[floofyangelkitty]

Me listening to Midnights while the fandom burns

[mushtoons]

I'm not a coward so I'm asking you my question,,, what's the 'immortal besties au' about?

I just saw some art of it and I haven't scrolled long enough soo

have a seat and buckle up it's a mess <3

DFGDFDFGD okay so!!! i wanna start off with dont think too hard about it else ur brain will start to hurt (speaking from experience lmaoo) ANYWAYS!!! it's basically ingo gets sent to hisui but when ingo asks arceus to be sent home, arceus is like "dang bro sorry i didnt bring you here so it's not my problem but ya know what i actually need someone to babysit this fucker i damned, so you can just babysit him for all eternity! fair? :)" then doesnt wait for his answer

so we got ingo and volo stuck with each other, like it or not, there's rough patches, arceus didnt even bother to help ingo with him amnesia so he's still cloudy on parts of his past life and you know how it is to be around someone for too long, anger fighting ect but dont worry they begrudgingly come to an understanding and are now just vibing until time itself ends :)

well they're in modern day now, it's volo's turn to pick how they live their pretend mortal lives, so he picks unova to chill at cuz he's heard it's advanced since the last time they visited, ingo finally gets to have some memories as a treat as he catches sight of his old self and emmet, volo even convinces him to battle them so they can semi formally meet emmet and they carry on with this life, well volo's turn ends and ingo takes them somewhere else for his turn

cut to a few years later the duo is back in unova ( cuz it's volo's turn again ) when volo catches wind that one of the subway bosses had gone missing and the search was finally called off due to lack of leads after 2 long years, volo feels bad, just because god labled him a bad egg doesnt mean he is, he just wanted to reset the world to make it better :( so since it was maybe, kinda, totally his fault ingo got yeeted he decided he could fuck arceus over, i mean what's he gonna do? kill him? that's be a blessing. damn him to live forever? kinda already did that bestie,,,

so he gets emmet and elesa to come to his hotel room tries to find a way to tell them that he knows where their ingo is without making himself look crazy,,,,ends up looking crazy cuz his ingo just HAD to have a newpaper clipping of the trio claiming it to be "as close as a family photo as he'll ever have" emmet clocks him while elesa tries to call the cops cuz this nutcase is totally a stalker freak--then ingo comes home. skipping over the meltdown everyone has, and straight into project eeby-deeby rescue. we got angst, bonding, and finally a happy reunion.

meanwhile we got the emmet from when ingo first got put in hisui with no closure, no brother, and for some reason he's?? not?? aging?? so yeaahhh he's convinced he's in hell mostly when any pokemon he goes to for help basically tells him "sorry broski under strict rules from the big man himself not to help u with jackshit" so he's not doing so hot :) ( well until ingo and volo finally catch up to the era he's in then he's not doing so hot but with his brother now! )

that's a WHOLE lot but ive been thinking about this like all the time and im still working stuff out!!!! fgdfdgdfg this au is my baby and i love it

(for people who dont wanna read all that bullshit here's a diagram i made in case i dont make any sense!! )

[ahxiang]

mkay i dont get why autistic ppl usually have headphones/gen

it might be bc i have hearing loss so everything is quiet but rlly is there a reason?/nm

there is! tysm for asking, kind anon. also ty for using tone indicators! it makes me happy to see ppl use them bc while i personally can usually tell when ppl on the internet are joking or genuine, they do help me fully understand and most importantly i love using tone indicators bc it alleviates my anxiety of being misinterpreted. anyway, to the question at hand!

to understand the headphones thing we have to go back to that concept i spoke abt earlier abt autism being a Too Much Disorder. once again, the scientific definition of the autism spectrum is a range of neurodevelopmental conditions generally characterized by difficulties in social interactions and communication, repetitive behaviors, intense interests, and unusual responses to sensory stimuli. the thing about autistic brains is that they are essentially wired differently, causing some advantages and disadvantages. the disadvantages include issues with interpreting and organizing stimuli, as well as our senses being heightened. (which can be both a disadvantage and advantage)

because of the nature of the autism spectrum, our difficulties with sensory input plus our heightened senses make us very susceptible to something called sensory overload. this is when we get so overwhelmed by stimuli that we begin to freak out, be uncomfortable and/or in pain, and sometimes completely shut down. the stereotypical autistic meltdown you see of a little boy crying and screaming in public is usually caused by the sensory overload of all the sounds, movement, lights, and other stimuli in the environment. much like when wyw freaked out when she witnessed her client's death, being overstimulated can lead to the same distress.

on top of this, some autistic people, like my ex-gf for example, have something called misophonia. it is a disorder of decreased tolerance to specific sounds or their associated stimuli. it's a more specific and intense sensory issue that deals exclusively with sounds. for my ex-gf, the sound of chewing was a Bad Sound. even just seeing ppl eat on tv with the sound muted distressed her bc her brain supplied the sound. certain percussion was bad for her too and she couldn't listen to music she loved as her misphonia got worse.

some autistic ppl without misophonia, like me, don't necessarily have specific sounds that are bad even when just reminded of their existence. but we are more sensitive to bad sounds or volume of sounds. y'know how everyone hates nails on a chalkboard? many autistic ppl feel that way about a plethora of sounds. like i don't like the sound of silverware being used on glass or porcelain, so i use plastic whenever possible. but it can also be about how loud sounds are. like when wyw covered her ears and became distressed when a leafblower was turned on nearby. it can also just be abt the amount of sounds, too. lots of autistic ppl hate being in public because of the sheer number of overlapping noises. it’s not necessarily that the noises are bad or loud, but that there are so many that they overwhelm us. 

and the worst part of it all is that these bad sounds, volumes, or amounts can change. one day i might be totally fine hearing silver cutlery and another day i might feel like i'm dying when i do. sometimes i'll be fine hearing sounds in public, but then i start getting sensory overload because of the amount of noise and sounds/volumes that were okay just a minute ago become worse and worse. for example, today i was taking things out of my storage unit to move into my new apartment. i was completely fine with the jingling of the keys, the rumbling of the storage unit door, and the light clanging of my furniture against each other. but then the cart i used to haul stuff back to my car made the most horrendous noises and suddenly everything was awful. i clamped my hands over my ears while pushing the cart and almost had a meltdown when i returned to close the door and it made loud, metal noises. i was fine one minute and the next i was overwhelmed and suddenly nothing was okay.

so! a preventive measure autistic ppl take so they don't go into sensory overload is using headphones. usually they're noise cancelling headphones but some people also like to play music or soothing sounds. so wyw wears headphones whenever she’s outside or in public and, correct me if i’m misremembering, plays whale sounds to soothe herself. i personally don't use headphones cause i can't afford noise cancelling ones, but earbuds playing music work pretty well! sometimes i have the issue of them not blocking out sounds well enough so when i play music it’s overwhelming, but they work well enough. now, i know headphones were your question, but this concept applies to other senses as well!! it’s sensory overload, not audio overload after all. autistic ppl can often be sensitive to light, especially rapidly changing ones or artificial ones. personally, i wear sunglasses outside even when it’s cloudy because i get very overwhelmed by sunlight. if not, i squint too much and then it’s a safety hazard, especially when i drive. so i’m always using sunglasses. some autistic people wear gloves in public to avoid touching Bad Textures, some of us actively avoid certain foods, etc, etc. 

so yeah! hope that helped and as always remember that autism is a spectrum that causes different people to experience different symptoms in different ways!

[yomiurinikei]

You know which character I want to send for meme but yeah it is obvious can I get Kinji in that meme template?

ah yes, so obvious, we all know ur favorite character is kinji hakar1 (dont wanna invade tags akdsjksd), who everyone associates u with, and totally isn't just the first fictional kinji that popped up when i googled the name.

my identity hc for them

GAY gay homosexual gay. sorry kiyoka calling him out just. i cant view him as anything else. i do think there's canonical backing for this, not specifically him being exclusively into guys, but for him liking guys in general, i think its canon supported. i also Just Like it.

i think he's like. amab, but i think he just doesnt really Get It/feel any particular way- he's comfortable with how he presents and is perceived the way he is, and doesn't really feel a desire to change! he's content, and i don't think he'd be any happier if he changed how he performs gender. and seeing as i want this boy to do some soul searching and examine his relationship with faith, ill let him have a constant in his life. just this once

Thoughts on their home life/family

aaaaa.... i think like. mentioned this in the hcs i wrote for him recently, but i think his dad (the bishop) was a genuinely good person, and a good dad! i just think like..... it would've been cool if after being adopted and coming to italy, he had more than one role model and like. god. i dunno i think that mayyyybe having the person who chose him, who chose to take care of him, be a well-respected bishop who wound up living a secular life and etc etc mightve maybe impacted kinjis path in life. i don't think he was forced into anything, but i do wonder the degree to which kinjis faith started as a way of feeling connected to his dad and feeling that he was part of a community.

anyways though. i think he was a happy child, well cared for, etc. but i feel like maybe someone should have forced him to go outside and make friends, or stopped to question why he might be throwing himself into religious studies so much, or, after all that. maybe. i dont know. NOT SENT HIM TO JAPAN BY HIMSELF AS A MIDDLE SCHOOLER? ??????

its kinda a miracle hes as stable as he is. and while i don't think he's... literally traumatized, i feel like there was some side effects of his childhood past "oh he doesn't Understand friends". honestly a vv interesting example of how childhood and environment shapes people.

anyways though. i wouldn't be surprised if his focus on orphanages/caring for kids stemmed from him being a like... pre-teen/younger, and his brain just naturally orienting towards "wanna be with peers, wanna play, wanna form social bonds", but he had already placed himself in the role of an adult, and so he took on the same place as the priests he was trying to emulate. its kinda silly why did literally everyone go like. well if everyone else is treating him as an adult i guess i will too... kinji is the poster child for "was called mature as a kid"

How i feel about their canonical writing/handling

mmm... its objectively Good. i just feel like.... kinji kinda falls into the issue of so many characters to explore, so little time? like. we don't really get to see a whole lot of the depth that i see (linuj may not get him the way i do), and it makes sense, but it still kinda sucks... it'd be nice if he survived and made it to the end (and then held hands with tsurugi i mean-) buuut. i understand why he didn't. :(

tho one thing i wanna note is. linuj originally intended for his ch3 meltdown to be his true personality of sorts. and was gonna have his motivation just be that he liked murder. and he acknowledges that how he acts in ch3 isn't kinjis normal personality, and that he likes having a actual motive better than his old plan for kinji. but i feeeel like linujs old plan kinda pokes through at times with how kinji is handled? specifically like.. tsurugis response of "woah i didnt know a priest would act like that"- tbf, that does reflect on tsurugis black and white thinking and how he struggles to remedy his values. but also it just kinda feels like linuj is still treating it as a shock value twist that kinji is Just Like That, despite textually saying otherwise. that kinda sucks

The one thing i’d want to make canon about them

im not fucking joking im trying to think of something else. i would like canon gay kinji. again we have NO TIME FOR THIS. but if he had survived, i think that could be something nice to write in + subtextually show. i wont ask for the complete and utter tone shifts that would have to happen for more than subtext to be real. but. i think it'd be a good thing to do w/kinji if he had more time with us.

also i think it'd be neat to hear more about kinjis bio parents, just because im curious? but ya know. i kinda dont trust linuj and can just be weird about why he still uses uehara as his family name in my head, and have that be canon to me, instead of having to ignore linuj, so.. im content

My number one favorite ship for them

tsuhara. nobody look at me.... i promise i will post my thoughts on them one day. currently im trying to handle all myyy.. non-spring quarter graduation requirements (aka, some stuff my hs wants me to get done other than the classes im taking this quarter), so thats kinda my goal for april. and then may will have midterms and then ill be working on finals ughhhh... so im not really dedicating time to it. but its like... the only canon sdra fan content im working on rn? its. its in the works and its on my schedule and it wont take long. its just a matter of when i can get around to it, so i wanna explain why im not prioritizing it akjdjskjdjsdk.

anyways. im so not normal about them and ive been not normal about them for the past ninety three years. my beloved boys with their moral beliefs and their systems of justifying their actions and and and. aaaaaa.....

…Now everyone else i ship with them

uhhhhhhm. i think his ftes were cute? hm. i think there's stuff i objectively like, like... i think it'd be nice for him and would be cute. but there's nothing im really Passionate about/see myself spinning around in my head. for ex like.. i go out of my way to think about tsuhara. theyre just in my brain sometimes. but whereas like... i was uekoba posting a few days back- that was vv nice and fun! but i wouldnt have really talked about my thoughts on kinji and haru if it wasn't for outside prompting, if that makes sense.

u all will never escape my tsuhara posting. kinji canonically got tsurugi to change both in and out of the killing game. he is the one who looked at tsurugi and did not think "oh i can fix him" but simply by existing!! fixed him!!!! aaaaa!!!!! aaaaa.

The thing i will NEVER ship

hm. hmmm. i think ive chatted about them before. ive indulged. but im honestly not a huge fan of kakeru/kinji/kanata? it feels v much so to me like.. just pairing off whoevers there. i could get behind kakeru/kinji if i saw a good argument for it. i think they could be fun i a "everything goes wrong" (aka, every murder plot fails) au, but like. yeah. and then with kanata and kinji. i just dont see the vision

also i did not want to say it. but uehiga because i dont. get. it..... this delves more into mitch's writing and i dont want to talk about him on kinjis ask. but i do not understand it. it feels to me just like when people were shipping mitch and haru but repackaged. im never going to see the vision of mitch getting fixed by his having a crush on one of his male classmates.

a dynamic/relationship i wish was explored more (in canon, or in fandom)

kinda stems from beta. but i think he and mikako could be fun. spiritual buddies!!!! it could be a nice learning experience for them both. also maybe the gamblers ornament crew? that could be fun thats a friendly group of people (and also utsuro is there too/j). i just want kinji to have friends man.

thoughts on their design (appearance-wise)

mmm.. something about it is off. i dont know. it could be the linework the silhouette i dont. knowww? it just. feels blocky or bulky or something. its plain but it works for a priest and it makes sense. i like his hair color and eye color and etc etc theres just Something about his design that feels off to me if i look at it for too long

also. i dont think this is a issue anymore? but he wears a stole. thats what he's wearing. its not a scarf. (also. i still want to tie it into a bow.)

A music-related thought- a song that reminds me of them, or what their music taste is, etc

not even gonna lie i thought i had some sort of song on one of my spotify playlists that would work. wtf.

hmmmm. mercy, by sir chloe, kinda gives me like. kinji ch3 vibes. not really though why is this so evil. every song i see just winds up making me think of a different character.

okay. ive just been sitting down working on this post since i posted the rei one tbh. so. i think that no matter where u hc kinji ends up after evaluating his relationship with faith (personally i think his beliefs stay the same, he never really looses her faith, moreso what changes is his relationship with the church), he likes hearing hymns. i think harmonies and 'pretty' voices is just something he'll always appreciate in music.

[awetistic-things]

hello! I believe im autistic but I don’t have a special interest. I don’t have any specific 1 thing that im completely passionate about. I mean, maybe psychology but isn’t that too broad? idk. I need to consult someone autistic themselves bc im a minor and I can’t get a therapist and probably can’t convince my parents to get me a diagnosis. my mother thinks I just have high anxiety and ocd. I definitely have dermatillamania though. here’s some of my symptoms:

Persistent deficits in social communication and social interaction across multiple contexts; I go nonverbal when I’m anxious/stressed/in a social situation where I’m being forced to talk to or interact w someone.

Restricted, repetitive patterns of behavior, interests, or activities; i do really like sameness but I’m also super impulsive and love changing thing up that don’t have a lot of value to me. for example I would go on a trip to Chicago rn with my friends if I had the means and they wanted to but I’m not changing the way I write my notes or cleaning my room

I have a hard time understanding figurative language and kind of obsessively overanalyze most things that I don’t understand

maybe it’s a mix of me being weird, ocd, and high anxiety that’s been present for my entire life and that I also can’t pinpoint the reason for. or maybe I’m autistic. I know you can’t diagnose a stranger on the internet from a couple paragraphs and I’m sorry if this is too much info.

I’m staying anonymous for my safety but my pronouns are they/it!

hi!

okay, so for starters i'm just gonna share with you some of the articles that helped me essentially start me on my journey of "oh shit i'm autistic" and my own two cents for each statement you made

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social interaction:

What Is Social Interaction In Autism - AutismTalkClub.com

i personally relate to the "non-verbal" part of what you said. I tend to lose the ability to speak whenever i am overwhelmed due to environmental factors (senses being overstimulated), but there are many other reasons (sometimes due to masking)

being overwhelmed in social situations is really easy for me personally. mainly because of sesnory issues, masking, resisting the urge to stim, etc and this can set me off into having meltdowns among other things

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repetitive behaviors:

Restrictive and Repetitive Behavior | Kennedy Krieger Institute

having a schedule is really important to a lot of people on the spectrum, it can help create some calmness in constant chaos

but, sometimes (such as myself) it is nice to be spontaneous and just do random shit without planning or a schedule or anything

so although repetitive behaviors are an autistic thing, the flexibility can differ depending on the person (emphasize on its a *spectrum*)

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language misunderstandings:

Whose metaphor? Autism Spectrum Disorder and metaphorization (metnetscandinavia.com)

that metaphor doesn't necessarily make sense to me, but just in case it makes sense for you there it is

about overanalyzing i totally get that. something I've noticed is that autistic people tend to question "basic" rules and social hierarchies so becoming obsessed with asking "why?' questions is very relatable to say the least

i dont really struggle that much with more everyday metaphors and I love analogies, but once again its a spectrum and I still very much need tone tags to avoid misunderstandings between both parties

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the way i figured out i was autistic was through research, research, research. at first I thought that meant clinical studies and such but it also means learning from the community itself, so its cool that you thought to do that (I wish I thought of that immediately)

also about how you don't really have ONE thing for a special interest, that's something normal from what I've seen. you don't have to know everything about something to have it be a special interest. you don't have to have known about it for years or an extremely long period of time. its really an individual thing for how you view hyperfixations and sp.ins (special interests). so, if you think that psychology is a sp.in of yours, then its a sp.in. its really up to you

all the things i sent you arent to diagnose you, but involving yourself in the community, researching a lot, or calling yourself/self-diagnosining yourself as autistic is okay. its perfectly okay. i know you said that because of your age and your parents you arent able to get a diagnosis at this time, but don't let that stop you from finding out more (even if its not with a therapist or your parents) about autism and essentially about who you are

im always free to dm, so please reach out to me if you want to talk (doesn't have to be just about autism) :) /gen (also my discord server for autistic people is linked in my pinned post if you wanna check it out)

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

Oh my gosh so I also headcannon Jack as autistic! But im not comfortable with writing it yet because idk how. Im not autistic; my little sister is and i know a few things jack could have trouble with... but hes a grown ass man so i just dont know. Im definitely taking notes on what you write him as but could you give me some pointers?....maybe?

Im mostly referencing to Bitter with this

aaaa yeah it definitely presents differently in adults who've learned to mask, personally I don't plan to put certain things in specifically to talk about how he's autistic, I write with the background knowledge of what traits he displays, and then express them when relevant, it's relevant a lot with Jack simply due to how much it affects his life

now this is going to get long, so bare with me, because this is a whole lot more complicated than you might expect

there's really no one correct way to write Jack, since there's no one way that autism presents itself, the way I write him is based on a mix of myself and some people in my family, so I can give you a basic idea of what angle I personally come from

for one, I change the way I write about facial expressions and how emotions come across to Jack, in Jazz's chapters I'll write about the exact emotion she can see on their face, with Jack's I'll go with an obvious base emotion, but then if the person is expressing something more complicated, I'll describe their face in physical details

eg;

Jazz POV - Danny was upset, but his face was tight with frustration

Jack POV - Danny looked sad, but his eyebrows were furrowed and his mouth was set in a hard line

it's a subtle difference but it's one I try to maintain throughout Bitter, Jack's POV is based on how I have trouble reading non-obvious expressions, although in my case I also have trouble looking people in the face when I talk to them, that's harder to write in an emotion driven POV story, so I made Jack better at that than I am

his interest in machines is quite obvious, since he's an inventor, and he looooves infodumping on people, he gets very excited about his passions very quickly and his mouth runs off with him, something I also have trouble with, it hasn't been a prominent trait for Jack in Bitter, because he's so out of his element he's mostly confused and in a way, almost grieving his own death, so he's been far quieter than he usually is

his special interest is obviously ghosts and machinery, and in Bitter I cover that he's got a degree in engineering, physics and mathematics. He's good at them, I like to look at it as though Jack rolled high in intelligence and low in wisdom, he's book smart, he knows things that are straightforward and have firm rules, he's less comfortable in topics that are more wishy washy and vague, biology is complicated and has too many variables, he finds it difficult to grasp, there's no one standard rule that applies to every body

I also struggle with vague and unclear directions, I need a solid structure and clear instructions, my strength is in sorting, organising, alphabetising and colour coding, I like things to Look Right, I stick to a particular routine with very specific things, and it's viscerally uncomfortable and even distressing for me to have that order disturbed, I nearly had a meltdown at work because someone had done a part of my job incorrectly, and I had to fix it, it made me genuinely upset on a personal level, it was MY system, NOBODY should be touching it, NOBODY should be moving things around, they do anyway, and I spend a portion of my shifts just frustrated and on edge because of it

Jack also has issues socially, he often says or does things that other people find uncomfortable or embarrassing, I reference that in Bitter, where Jack assumes everyone is mad at him because he said or did something stupid, this I have much experience in, while in the middle of a social situation it's easy to just do what comes naturally to you and not realise it's off putting to other people, because people often play polite and you can't tell that they're uncomfortable, even though people around you find it painfully obvious

sometimes it's easy to see in hindsight after you've been told you made something awkward or uncomfortable, but in the moment if nobody says anything about it, you can remain either totally oblivious, or become anxious and second guess every interaction you have

Jack is the oblivious type, he's fortunate to live in a family that is fairly understanding, they might get frustrated with him, or embarrassed by him, but they don't really take it personally, they KNOW he means well, they know he cares, and Jack does care, he cares a lot, he feels things a lot, he's incredibly empathetic

this is a trait that a lot of media likes to ignore in depictions of autism, because I guess it makes people with autism seem 'too normal', when tv shows always want to be like 'hey wow look at this clever asshole! isn't he clever, but also an asshole! but you can't hate him because he's ✨autistic✨ and he can't help it'

that bothers me a lot, I mean some people with autism do have trouble relating and empathising with people, my brother is one of them, but some people with autism really empathise a lot, some of us feel things very strongly, I'm highly empathetic and it's a real struggle to cope with

so yeah, it is a very complicated thing, so you need to go in with an idea of what their character struggles with, how it affects them, and when it's relevant in the story, also autism falls on a very wide spectrum, some people, like myself, are able to mask well, but that creates a big issue with identity, when you start to wonder how much of you is real and how much of you is mask, then you have to decide if you want to lower that mask and accept the social consequences of expressing yourself naturally

I have a friend who presents a little more obviously, he's very rigid in his ways and he talks like he's reading from a script, I have another friend who can socialise just fine, but will go into a total meltdown when a plan gets derailed and she doesn't know what to do next

another friend I have is highly social and incredibly boisterous, she stims with her whole body, dances around a lot, she's chaotic and that can be off-putting to people, she's had to spend a lot of her life holding that back, she's only recently started learning how to be herself shamelessly

my brother was incredibly social when he was younger, and people always really loved him, but most of that is mask, he's socially anxious and just wants to be alone most of the time, and he's a total prick to his immediate family, I don't take that personally any more, since now I understand that he's so blunt and brutally honest because he isn't masking with us, but also he still needs to be called out when he oversteps, autism might be why he has difficulty empathising, but it's not an excuse to be a complete asshole, even people with autism need to be called out on shitty behaviour, it isn't a get out of jail free card, our self expression shouldn't come at the cost of hurting other people, most of us are more than capable of learning to not be an asshole

I know this is like, A LOT, but these are the things that need to be considered when writing about autism, it is an all encompassing thing that permeates your entire life experience, I absolutely welcome people like you to try to write about it! Because I think it shouldn't be a taboo subject, and I appreciate that you asked for advice and that you want to do it respectfully, you've probably seen first hand how difficult living with autism can be, having a family member on the spectrum, so you already have some experience to draw from, I don't know your relationship with your sister or how old she is, or where on the spectrum she falls, but if possible you can ask her about her experiences in particular situations that you're having trouble writing, if that's something you and she are comfortable with

I hope this helps, just remember to keep an open mind and listen to any feedback you might get, it is very VERY easy to misrepresent autism so don't be too hard on yourself if you don't quite get it right, if someone gives you a critique, take it in stride and use it to become better ~ you can even express that in an authors note, that you want to write it accurately and invite anyone with experience to share their opinion, because like I said, it is different for everyone and my experiences are not universal, and you're welcome to run something by me every once in a while if you aren't sure about it ❤️

[angelhummel]

re your degrassi posts, i don’t know if i’m the only one seeing this but manny and tristan kinda remind me of each other, they’re both insecure teenagers who are desperate to be loved and do some questionable things because of it, i also think they both get unnecessary slander for being that way because they’re still kids so they’re obviously not going to have the most mature grasp on life

Ohhh no now I'm gonna make myself sad thinking about this bc they're two of my faves and now I'm really seeing the parallels

Bc like think about Manny's whole huge game changing moment with her "I don't want to be cute anymore I want to be sexy" and dressing more provocatively to get male attention

and Tristan had plenty of body image issues too and he lost all that weight and even pretended to be a totally different person to get guys to like him

god and they both get taken advantage of by people in a position of power over them. both storylines made me cry and had some of the best acting in the entire show tbh

that nasty ass professor taking advantage of manny and treating her like shit. it was so gross. and that scene where she's like having a meltdown and jay is hugging her and he's just like "LOOK WHAT HE'S DONE TO YOU" like i was literally sobbing omg

and the other nasty ass teacher taking advantage of tristan, and maya tries her best to talk some sense into him but he's not hearing it and UGH i literally hate that people hate tristan for that. like i know teacher/student relationships on this show are handled appallingly but please dont blame the 17 year old for not totally understanding why this relationship is a bad thing. he is not at fault here

and i believe they're both sexually irresponsible lasfjskl like tristan thinking he had an std and manny having to get an abortion at 14. i mean, two totally different stories, tonally, but still

but honestly i've never seen any manny hate. especially not the way i do tristan. i can barely search "degrassi" online before im bombarded with fifty million idiotic people like "here's why tristan is the worst and should've died in that bus crash" like please chill out i beg of you