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#bad news: I woke up sick and I’m still in the time range for it to be covid from the two exposures I had within the last week and a half#good news: covid test was negative#bad news: know multiple people who didn’t text positive until several days into being sick#more bad news: this is exactly how I felt when I started with covid last time :/#I’m pretty much convinced it’s either the flu or covid with how shitty I feel#I shouldn’t be out of breath from doing one flight of stairs after being sick for not even one day#gonna retest in a few days assuming I don’t get better#I am flu levels of achy so tired I feel like im gonna fall over have chest pain a terrible cough and shortness of breath#I am not happy and I wanna slap the coworker who showed up with covid refused to wear a mask and coughed in my fucking face#this was four days ago so the incubation is about right for it to be that#I am fucking pissed#hopefully im lucky and it’s something else#but I have my doubts right now
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Did peepaw come home?!
HE DID! :D! luckily it only took me three ten-pulls; I think my past experience of being so thoroughly denied a Fairy Gala Ortho made me more worried than I should have been. may the gacha blessings pay forward to everyone else! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧
so far this is hands-down the funniest Lilia card, because he'll say something all edgy and badass in that deeper ~General Vanrouge~ tone and then follow it up immediately with one of the non-card-specific cutesy Lilia lines, and it gets me every time
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#i rolled for him before doing the story and when i set him on my home screen#the VERY FIRST line he said was the one where he's like 'the promise i made to revaan...my friend who is no longer here...' and i was like#excusez moi#(i'm going with revaan for now because i have no idea what it's meant to be and when in doubt go literal)#(honestly same with baul. baul feels right but who am i to say)#(i feel pretty confident about henrik but i am prepared to be wildly wrong about everything as per usual :')#anyway now the question is: do i try for the white rabbit cards or save up for whoever the next episode 7 ssr is#on the one hand i have been living for the episode 7 content#on the other hand the white rabbit event looks SO cute#truly this is the most difficult dilemma of our times
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When your love for each other is so great and it becomes something bigger than either of you, oh that's family baby!
#you guys would not believe the trenchs i was fighting in to finish this me and my tablet fist fighting all day i have a meme planned now#Bee is showing Piston Cybertron :)#tfe bumblebee#tfe breakdown#breakbee#earthspark bumblebee#transformers bumblebee#tf earthspark#breakbee fanchild#transformers breakdown#transformers oc#tf piston#sparkling#transformers#tf fanart#maccadams#maccadam#transformers fanart#this is a canon event in The Last Mile Marker#what Bee doesnt realize just yet is this moment is what caused Piston to go down a path that cultimates in them#pulling a [REDACTED] on Optimus and Megatron demanding they go home NOW. TODAY. we dont belong here i want to go HOME!!!!!!#Piston is not an autobot or a decepticon but they have Breakdowns personality and theyre very young and strong willed and stupid#they march in there ANGRY tears in their eyes hands shaking voice cracking pretending to want to talk to both in private#once the doors shut its [REDACTED] out Optimus is terrified bc Piston is so so SO young and to be like that already? heartbreaking wow yike#Megatron is lowkey impressed but equally concerned like little sparkling what have you been listening to to get this upset#and the answer is they saw how listless Bee was about staying on earth but unwilling to say something and how determined Breakdown was#it doesnt happen right away Piston gets frustrated over the course of a couple of months and feels a need to Do. Something.#also please PLEASE somebody tells me Piston looks like their Creators i was filled with doubt this entire TIME!!!!#they have a lot of Breakdown but subtle Bee details and also Cyberverse Bee#they are green because yellow + blue = green :3
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I'm sure Minkowski never forgot that Cutter was the first person ever to call her Commander. After recruiting her in Once in A Lifetime, he starts to call her Lieutenant, then breaks into laughter, before correcting himself: "What am I saying? Commander Minkowski." He draws attention to himself granting that title, stressing its significance. By initially calling her by a lower ranking, then conspicuously correcting himself, Cutter emphasises that he's the one granting her that title. Right at the beginning of Minkowski's employment with Goddard Futuristics, Cutter plants the seed for his line in the finale: "People cared about you because of what I made you: A soldier. A leader. A commander. I gave you that, and now? I taketh away."
And he does take it away. Cutter makes a point of calling her Commander in that first meeting, but he hardly ever calls Minkowski Commander after that. He almost always calls her Renée. He makes the point in that first interaction that he has the authority to grant her that title, and then in every subsequent interaction he tries to make the point that she doesn't have command over him. Having called her Commander once makes every time he doesn't call her by her title seem more deliberate. It's not that he never uses titles - it's that he uses them selectively. He gives her a taste of that sense of authority, but he doesn't want her to feel worthy of it.
In the liveshow, he cuts her off by shouting "I AM SPEAKING, LIEUTENANT!". Minkowski is the Commander of the Hephaestus in official terms at this point and Cutter even refers to her as "a mission commander" later in the same episode. So there is a deliberate malice to Cutter calling Minkowski Lieutenant here. Not only does it emphasise the use of authority structures as a means for control and the abandonment of first-name-basis false friendliness, calling her by another title makes his choice not to call her Commander even more explicit, denying her that authority.
Apart from when he recruits her, the only other time I can think of when Cutter directly calls Minkowski Commander is in Ep60, when he lays out his offer to let Minkowski leave on the Sol: "How does that sound to you, Commander?" Again, calling her Commander is a kind of power play, an attempt at manipulation, highlighting the sense of responsibility that motivates so many of Minkowski's actions. Cutter is prompting her to ask the question she would be asking herself anyway: what choice would a good Commander make? Just as he did when he recruited her, Cutter offers Minkowski something she desperately wants, and the use of her title here only draws attention to the idea that Cutter is the one with the power, choosing what to give her.
#Digging this out of my drafts in an attempt to make a return to actually posting here#Rambling about Minkowski name / title symbolism is sufficiently on brand for a comeback 😅#Anyway. I think this is the exact kind of manipulation / power play that Minkowski is particularly vulnerable to#Even among the worry about having made such a big decision without consulting her husband#I have no doubt that she enjoyed being called Commander#The emphasis Cutter put on it felt right to her#It matched the significance she felt that new title held#It pleased the part of her that craves recognition of her authority from someone at the top of a hierarchy#The memory obviously holds a sour taste for her now#perhaps particularly the moment of Cutter calling her Commander for the first time (and one of the only times)#She feels sick now at the memory of how proud she felt to hear him call her that#Thinking about this alongside all of the other significance that people calling Minkowski Commander takes on:#Eiffel's insistence on it as a indicator of his increasing respect for her#the SI-5 calling her Lieutenant#Hera being prevented from calling her Commander...#Everything that all of that signifies#and all of it beginning with that laugh of Cutter's. that pointed emphasis#wolf 359#w359#the empty man posteth#wolf 359 spoilers#w359 spoilers#renee minkowski#renée minkowski#marcus cutter
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just remembered that xie lian spent 100 years trapped in a coffin. brb going to claw my heart out of my throat
#he must have had ran out of oxygen and kept on passing out from lack of it#his lungs must have been on fire the whole time#he must have had hallucinations#he must have cried for days on end till he passed out again#just an endless loop of darkness#oh my goddddd#i doubt hua cheng knows the full extent#he would actually butcher up lqq#im feeling so so sick right now#i don’t know why i had this sudden realization but holy shit#jun wu when i catch you jun wu#mxtx#tgcf#xie lian#hualian#hua cheng
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#Commission info#PLEASE NOTE ONCE AGAIN: These prices are not USD - these are cheaper than you may think.#I have put a ton of work into this and I am so thankful to everyone who helped me out!#There are still probably bumps I need to iron out as I go but I will try my best. Feedback is very welcome!#If there are a lot of people interested I may have a waitlist but I doubt I'll have that many offers. I'm still pretty new here!#The money I make from this is honestly mostly going to go back into funding this art hobby of mine. Ink is expensive!#Thank you also for all the love and support for my comics. Without it I'd never have the confidence to do commissions.#Even if you can't afford it right now - know I really appreciate it all. From the lurker to the frequent commenter: thank you <3#Don't worry about the horse by the way. She's just here to keep watch.
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#Kunikida Doppo#Bungo Stray Dogs#Doppo Kunikida#Kunikida Doppo BSD#BSD#There must be like 1000 versions of this but the important thing is that it's the Ideals King birthday so here I am 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉#He's missing right now but he'll be back no doubt for his next birthday#Love of my life please come back to us#Another favorite of mine who is a Virgo#It worries me sometimes to think I have a type and it's Virgo ISTJ men#Send help I clearly need it#Kunikida BSD#BSD Kunikida
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Seeing Twitter users recommending the People Make Games documentary as a good way to get insight on the issue is so….
I know, I’m always extremely disappointed whenever I come across someone who thinks it’s the end all be all explanations regarding the Studio ZA/UM situation.
Recommending that video always comes with a heavy caveat from me that the person needs to stop around the 40 minute mark since the interviewer shows a very clear bias that’s unbecoming of a journalist.
Regardless, now that more people are finding out about these layoffs, which might take out members of the studio that have been there since the beginning, it could finally help smack some sense into those Twitter users that actually thought, FOR SOME REASON, Rostov, Kurvitz, and Hindpere were lying for shits and giggles rather than seeing what's ACTUALLY going on which is that the investors have a very obvious agenda against the real wronged party. Hopefully this'll also open their eyes to how the People Make Games video fed into this twisted narrative that Kurvitz was somehow at fault/responsible for the theft of his own IP, but that might be asking too much from their concrete brains. Here's hoping though!
#disco elysium#studio za/um#za/um#people make games#and I’m not even getting into Bratt’s response to the criticism he got#this man deleted so many YouTube comments that pointed out the inconsistencies and bias#it’s such a reddit conspiracy theory but at the time I briefly thought Kompus paid him off to push the narrative in his favor#now I’ve talked about this before in a post from almost a year ago#but i truly believe Bratt’s heart was initially in the right place but let his anger cloud his judgement#after kurvitz rightfully denied him a way to wrap up his video in a neat little bow cause he knew the studio would use his words against hi#something in Bratt must've snapped cause all the blame got pushed on Kurvitz for no reason other than he felt slighted by his response#it's kinda tainted PMG's work for me b/c moving forward I'll have doubt if the story truly is being accurately reported#my response#mp
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theres lesbians. OH MY GOD. THERES LESBIANS. AND THEYRE MARRIED. AND THEY LIKE KOALAS AND THEYRE AUSTRALIAN AND THEY HAVE KIDS. HOly oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god ob my god
#im about to throw up oh my god... shaking and shaking and shaking#this is. what ive been waiting for.#ALL THIS TIME. ALL THESE BOOKS.#THERE R LESBIANS!!!!! THEY R REAL!!!#shannon im so sorry for everything ive ever said and also doubting that unraveled would be good#genuinleu cannot express how happy i am rn words just. arent working rn. oh my god.#not only is shannon putting rep in a series thats like. very popular with those like. more uptight christian families?#not sure if thats the right descriptor but theres been so many people ive seen over the years in this fandom#who are outwardly homophobic or said their parents liked it bc it didnt have any of that stuff in it#and now shannon is putting it in series anyway and i am. GOD.#and think about WHAT THIS COULD MEAN!!!#keefe doesnt give a shit so theres probably not really any discrimination in the lost cities which i am FINE with#im completely okay with shannon not wanting to get into the nitty gritty of lost cities homophobia bc#THERES REPRESENTATION!! FINALLY#and this could mean so much for the future.. marellinh has a real chance.#theres so much that could happen going forward and so much happening now and im so. happy. and excited.#kotlc#unraveled spoilers#kotlc spoilers
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played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles
#dragon age tag#i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below#weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type#it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me#if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year#almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol#tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3#and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me#but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me#sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points#witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too#which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3#my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free#Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...
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what the fuck does "i guess" mean. i agree not existing is terrifying? dirk "im killin myself" strider. he just finished this whole rant
so basically the splintering is a a cause of that fear of non existence. "mind falters, ...threatens to retreat into the void in any way" its his fear of inaction. which is what existing means to them.
#d talks#‘i need someone to keep me in check to keep me hyper vigilant at all times’ < BRO AND CAL#i mean considering the personality of doc scratch and how cal’s affected characters on screen bro despised cal being in his face all the#time but desperately desired him ‘pulling the strings’#to keep him on track for doing what is ‘right’#doc scratch pushes people to do things when theyre having moments of doubt reinforcing their biases that he represents.#oh my god im thinking about bro’s death and what arq said now. he wanted to be important#splitting the meteor in half… buying himself a copy of sburb….#what living an unsatisfying and disasociative life under patriarchal capitalism does to a mf
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the level at which people are misusing the term "Never Again" in the far left absolutely infuriates me.
"Never Again" doesn't refer to the idea of no more genocides -- unfortunately people are evil and corrupt and seek scapegoats and destruction, there were genocides in the years following the Holocaust, there were genocides 10 years ago, there are multiple genocides going on as we speak
"Never Again" means we as Jews will pay attention to the warning signs, will not mindlessly allow antisemitism to fester and take over our communities, we will fight back. it means we will be proud. it means we will not let you hate us without a word of refusal.
"Never Again" is a warning for us, it is a reminder that what happened then can happen now -- is happening now. The Far Left doesn't get to use it against us. You don't get to turn our tragedies into hate-speech and antisemitic rhetoric.
Am Yisrael Chai
#abby speaks#that fucking NYT article made me rage so much#needed to get this out#if this somehow makes you pissed at me go ahead the unfollow button is right there#I have always said that Palestinians deserve a state and I have always believed that Israel has a right to exist#the lack of knowledge at these “protests” shocks me - people don't know which river or which sea; they don't know about the hostages#free gaza from hamas#we are allowed to mourn the “protests” started before we'd even had a chance to.#I will never ever forgive or forget the people that have made mourning still feel impossible#I am not about to sit here and say that the Israeli government is blameless#however if you didn't know that 1000s of Israeli have spent the past year protesting against Netenyahu's right wing government shut up#we need actual solutions; neither Israelis nor Palestinians are going anywhere#and you guys need to start calling out the antisemitism in your movement#I have my doubts on that actually happening and you'll never see me donate to a lot of these causes again#the goy left has lost my respect and my trust and now it only has my side-eye#sorry for the rant in the tags it's been an exhausting few months
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quick traditional piece for fun ^^
#I dont work traditionally very often because it hurts my hands quite a bit#if it's something that only takes me an hour or so then I can do it#but if we're getting into 2-3+ hour territory...#can't do it :(#theoretically I could pause and come back but when you're mixing colors and stuff that ends up being pretty dang rough#buuuut I'm trying to do more non-computer stuff lately...#so I'll probably do some little things here or there#been sooo tired lately lol sorry#I've been working and dont have much to share unfortunately!#I cant really share MOST of the panels I've been doing#the nature of what I'm writing like... 90% of what I'm drawing right now is legitimately spoilers...#so I can't even share wips!!!#I do have something I'm hoping to get posted soon but I've gotta wait on some other people for it...#anyways#we were legion#zagan#traditional art#art#my art#my ocs#demon#underwater#man why do I tag that other stuff I doubt anyone is going to my blog an searching that
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hello beloveds show me your pets or your projects or tell me something nice that happened to you or something you're looking forward to tell me something you're loving lately I simply need to remember that most people are kind most people are compassionate most people are mostly good
#every so often someone on the nova sub reddit complains about panhandlers and homeless people#and it makes me so incredibly viscerally animatedly infuriated with an incandescent rage to rival the brightest stars#and I have to snap back at people who are not arguing in good faith#and it's so#Northern Virginia is not a good place to live you guys#I should not live here but this is where my people are right now#mizu I'm sorry I ever doubted you you were right this place fucking sucks a billion
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#gross. gross! i do not like this thing. two alternate angles under the cut for those of you who like this thing because i am about to tear#into it so hard. ahem#enamorus#this thing is ugly as fuck. all of the genies were already ugly as fuck and now this thing only makes that worse. all of their therian form#were like MILDLY better but this one takes that trend and just throws it out the window#like the anteater nose is FUNNY especially on a legendary but LORD DON'T MAKE ME LOOK AT IT#not to mention its boss fight taking place in the fucking SWAMP with all the SLOWY WATER#and it just ZOOMS AROUND AND TELEPORTS if i remember correctly#like the LAST fuckin pokémon in the pokédex you can catch and it looks like THIS??? why did we need another genie. what#i understand the trend in gen 8 where they kept adding new legendaries to already established like. groups. like regieleki and regidrago#but THIS group is one that DID NOT NEED ONE#like i can see the additions to the regis!!! they're cool additions and really modernize the trio into a quintet!! but this is just RIDICUL#sorry tumblr cut me off there. this is just RIDICULOUS#ooouuhhhuhuhuh all the other genies are buff men with beards but this one's a laaaady bc it's pink!! and fairy-type!!! and small!! a#NO!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!! WE DON'T NEED IT!!!!!! PUT THAT THING BACK WHERE IT CAME FROM OR SO HELP ME!!!!#it's literally like. the last pokémon in gen 9. i'm gonna have to start worrying about gen 9 models RIGHT after this#teechnically. i'm actually queuing this thing up before i'm done with all the hisuian forms so i have a bit of time#but it'll Look like it comes last in the queue right before gen 9#here's praying i have something figured out by then? but i doubt it because i've just started a new job#and that's probably gonna be taking a lot of my time until then
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"Administratively, too, [...] queens were considered the legal lords of their landholdings. [...] Grants noted that the queen's officials had administrative autonomy without being subject to the king or anyone else, and evidence of the same assumption can be gleaned from court rolls that were recorded with headings indicating the lord of the manor whose court proceedings were being enrolled. As an example, some court rolls for the manor of Haveringatte-Bower specified that it was the court of [Margaret of Anjou] that was in session, while later rolls recorded Elizabeth Woodville as the lord of the manor court."
— Michele Seah, "My Lady Queen, the Lord of the Manor': The Economic Roles of Late Medieval Queens", Parergon, Volume 37, Number 2, 2020.
#queenship tag#margaret of anjou#elizabeth woodville#I really appreciated how Seah acknowledged the uneven surviving evidence for her subjects and how that affects her analysis.#It was very brief but it was more than what most historians do so it was very refreshing :)#my post#english history#this is for @ anon who asked if its true that Margaret mostly hosted her own courts while EW mostly stayed with her husband#I'm not sure which (if any) historian has said something like this* but I highly doubt it's true !#We don't really have solid itineraries in place for either queen to make any kind of firm conclusions of the sort#(ie: about their residences or anything else) though I'm sure it would have varied depending on the situation#But either way it's explicitly clear that both Margaret and Elizabeth held their own courts in their own lands on multiple occasions#And we also have evidence of both of them residing with their husbands in regular circumstances#*tbh this is too long to get into right now but this assumption does fit into the few 'revisionist' interpretations of both Margaret and EW#(which imo is just as degrading as her traditional interpretation for the latter) so I wouldn't be surprised if some#historians may have framed their situations in such a way and relied entirely on their own assumptions to do so#Either way as far as I know there is no evidence of any such contrast existing - at least not on a consistent basis.#and the evidence we do have contradicts the assumption#Hope this helps! I figured a proper excerpt from this article would clarify the point better than any direct answer from me <3#queue
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