#but I cant because I dont have the energy

[chaosartisan]

You all are so pro mental illness until they forget to take their medication.

You all are so pro mental illness until they start having delusions.

You all are so pro mental illness until they develop brain fog.

You all are so pro mental illness until they start forgetting important dates.

You all are so pro mental illness until they identify neuro divergent traits that you have.

You all are so pro mental illness until they start expressing their struggles.

You all are so pro mental illness until someone can't afford to go to therapy.

You all are so pro mental illness until someone can't afford their medication.

You all are so pro mental illness until it's something that comes attached with a physical health condition or deformity.

You all are so pro mental illness until it comes to advocating for better systems.

You all are so pro mental illness until your loved one becomes mentally ill.

You all are so pro mental illness until they need your help.

You all are so pro mental illness until it comes to doing anything other than saying "I'm pro mental illness."

yall are pro mental illness until they hallucinate

yall are pro mental illness until they dissociate

yall are pro mental illness until they self-isolate

yall are pro mental illness until they're paranoid

yall are pro mental illness until they split

yall are pro mental illness until it's too Scary for your comparatively neurotypical brain to handle

[torahtot]

you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.

i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?

the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.

idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went

[wanderingblindly]

OMG i see YOUR vision now. my bad, i didnt see your reference post abt pining!lando.

other than the fact that oscar is 200% sleep deprived, hes also those people who dont drink coffee and just rawdog his studies with power naps and quick snacks. plus the rare energy drinks break when hes desperately trying to finish a deadline. he tries to be healthy when he can.

after the exams, if lando is finally! trying to seek oscar around campus grounds to ask him on a date, oscar is at his dorm passed out for 2-3 business days. lando huffing and puffing and pouting bcs he cant find HIS cute guy that hes been pining for, while oscar is just snuggled up in a soft weighted blanket and a fluffy koala plushie (his sisters bought it as a joke but he came to love it).

and max? the guy already left lando to suffer alone 5 minutes ago while he buys his 7th redbull can. its barely 10Am

(was this oscar based on me a little bit? who knows)

(referenced post)

there are many uni visions to be seen!! i will never fault you for seeing ones that i'm not!!!!

but now that we're aligned, allow me to elaborate further. Please know I've decided this is a US uni au because they work better:

yeaH YEAH YEAH oh my god i'm also picturing Oscar like. Has found his perfect Nap Spot on campus (there's a quiet corner in the engineering building where he can usually find two armchairs to scoot together and curl up on). So half the time when Lando can't find him, it's because he's buried under a jacket and passed the fuck out in the corner.

I ALSO have this vision of like. once they've maybe talked once or twice in class:

Lando works part time at a coffee shop in one of the buildings -- preferably the engineering building, which isn't where Lando's major is housed, but Oscar's is. He gets two hot drinks for free during his shift, and starts giving one to Oscar (hot chocolate, he doesn't care for coffee) before his tuesday morning class every week.

But that's all he knows about his schedule. He never really gets to talk to him, he never knows where he is besides their shared lecture -- which Oscar's always asleep during -- and their weird 'is this because i let you borrow notes one time?' hot chocolate exchange.

[rox-and-prose]

So I know I dont post a lot these days but the other day @cipheramnesia called me a former jock which is wild to me given i am not and have never been a jock so i gotta ask yall do i have jock energy? because like. that cant have come from nowhere.

[screamingfrenchfries]

hi there im back to add onto this post that this has become a LEGITIMATE problem. especially since ive been slowly but surely making my way through literally every single tally hall performance i can find on youtube.

if a music/live band version of The Tetris effect exists, i'm experiencing it right now. i was genuinely concerned for myself typing this out so if anyone can confirm whether or not i should seek mental help or not PLEASE let me know lol.

i literally cant listen to a single one of their songs without such INTENSE visuals in my mind. this doesn't sound like THAT big of an issue, but allow me to explain why its ruining my life;

i zone out

this one kinda happens to me regardless if im even listening to music or not but its ESPECIALLY bad now. i've had many staring complaints just because i've disassociated SO hard "watching" them perform.

2. i get TOO EXCITED?

just the other night i couldnt stop jumping around and RUnning & singing (kinda. it was quietly) because i had such an ENERGY BOOST from the pure serotonin i get from their music. this was in public. i am 19 years old.

3. i cant focus on work

literally the reason i had to come back and type out this "rant" because im STRUGGLING !!! i usually need music to work but the hyperfixation is SO bad that i cant listen to anything else but tally hall, but whenever i listen to tally hall im so enamoured with the mini performance happening in my brain its hard 2 focus on anything else.. do u see my issue here? im convinced if i just don't listen to music altogether i'll STILL have one of their songs playing in my head.

i guess i should be glad i dont drive yet ahahaha

anybody else got a tiny little tally hall in their mind that performs for them everytime u listen to their music???!,!!!???

[belobogindustries]

PHAETHON

[phantom-does-a-thing]

im poking around my google doc like I might possibly get some writing done tonight, I have not a single bit of energy left my battery is completely empty. Nothing else is getting done tonight

[moeblob]

Friendship.

[trashydez]

i just think hes neat

(posted a better version here)

[crypt1dcorv1dae]

I really like kafhoshi ... it good.... Ther s so much potential and so much material to work with AND YET THERES LIKE NOTHING!!!!! *Rolls up my sleeves* gotta do everything myself in this damn house...

[theposhperyton]

All evidence suggests yes

[rosekasa]

there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to

[witch--tips]

you NEVER need to wait “until you have the money” to start practicing witchcraft. you do not need ANY money for witchcraft. you can have all the money in the world and practice witchcraft every single day without spending a single cent on it. everything you need you already have, inside of you and around you as well.

[iddybittysnail]

WHEN I TELL YOU MY JAW DROPPED. IT DROPPED.

THE SHADING?? THE COLORS?? THE POSING?? AM I LOOKING AT A DRAWING OR A GOURMET MEAL?? IT LOOKS SO GOOD AND I AM DEVOURING IT WITH A SMILE

[celebration-of-the-ordinary-life]

it's time. sorry not sorry for the ocxcanon . euri is literally the only nuca oc of mine wrapped up in the clan members shenanigans (the other two/three want None of those shenanigans it's so funny. one of them is terrified of Kuya. the other is just (one of?) Dante's fucking. painters. like the old royal ones

anyway i need to share with u all some of the few other doodles of euri interacting with other members

*edit: sorry if the quality's shit. I'll update it later when I'm on the PC, this is just the vers saved on my phone (which is probably not incredible quality)

[spearxwind]

how do c’s wings work?