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HEYO Y'ALL!!!! I got bored and decided my last intro post was WAY too unorganised (even by my standards frfr 😔😔🙏) so i made a new one!!! hopefully this ones a bit better or else ima light somebody on fire 🥰🥰
anyways dms n asks r ALWAYS open and if ur new to my person-being-blog-whatevs and wanna get to know me or smth then FEEL FREE TO SLIDE IN GIRLYPOPS!!! I'M ALWAYS BORED SOO 😭😭🙏 (might take like, a billion years to reply tho mbmb >:3)
and thus again, without any further ado, MY INTRO POST 😍
🎶 try to strike a chord but it's probably A MINOR 🎶 -> ✨️im under 18✨️ idm nsfw convos tho bcuz theyre funny :D
sooo tbh you can call me whatever you want? like ppl call me different things (eg senka calls me kam, bea calls me keke/kekere bcuz shes 🎶a meanie, a big meanie🎶 my irl bestie westie pookie poo calls me jeena CUZ HES A LIL BITCH) but MHM!!! CALL ME WHATEVER U WANNA <33 (as long as it dont feel masc bcuz my dumbass got issues w feeling masc for some RANDOM STUPID REASON 💀) (like im literally a cis girl why do i got problems w this....... but YAAAA 😭) (she/her btw!!! if that wasnt obvious!! ^^)
✨️i am cringe but i am free✨️
I SOMETIMES USE GENDERED TERMS LIKE GIRLY/BRO/DUDE/ETC BUT I DON'T MEAN IT GENDERED SO IF YOU FEEL IFFY THEN DONT HESITATE TO HMU N TELL ME TO FIX UP MY SHIT
btw im a tad bit of train wreck but if u enjoy the chaos then we'll get along js fine i think pooks 😋😋
anyways it came to my shitty little attention span one day when i was just being a silly lil girly that some of yall think im white when i say im british....... CHAT NOOO IM BORN N RAISED IN THIS TEA RIDDEN COUNTRY BUT ETHNICITY WISE IM BANGLADESHI!??!?! YALL IM LITERALLY A BROWNIE OMFDS 🤧
also a lot of this blog is a bunch of reblogs of shit im interested in BUT I DO HAVE OG STUFFFFFF, THEY'RE JUST IN THEIR OWN TAGS U GET ME??? anyways some of the tags!!!
karmaajr rambles -> for everything i post besides answers to asks :3
karmaajr answers ig :D -> answers to asks ^^
important thing for me to tag bcuz yes -> random thing i really wanna save (also im bad at tagging so sometimes thing has an "s" or tag has an "s" lmfao, ITS A RLLY USELESS TAG TO TRY SCROLL THRU ICL.... RLLY DRY AS WELL)
karmas mum mentions :3 -> i like to think this one explains itself yall 😘
daddy's unhinged -> anything about my sweet ol' pops (who totes cares abt me yall) 🥰
my sister and I -> anything my sister is involved in that i actually remember to tag LMFAO
NOT MY ASS MENTIONING PANIK -> me wanting to save things that r to do w my gf 🫶
BTW HIS @ IS @panikbutt0n AND SHE'S MY MAPLE SYRUP CHUGGING 4LIFER AND LITERALLY THE BEST THING SINCE RIPPED BREAD AND I LOVE HER SO SO SO MUCH SO ACC HIT HER UP PLZ 🙏🙏🙏🙏
btw yall, ur homegirl aint no gatekeeper so the group matching pfp thingy is from @tuturthecarvroom 's blog (n they very skibidi sbg art btw so i do reccomend frfr) and mY HEADER IS OFF GOOGLE SEARCH 😍😍
ALSO I AM CURRENTLY MATCHING WITH THE SILLIEST GROUP EVER FRFR, GONNA TRY @ THEM ALL BUT IT'S HARDDD (my memory is the shittiest thing since That One Time my friend shit his trousers on call w me 💪💪💪)
@lee1504 -> BRAINROTTED KING 🙏🙏
@d011zk1ll -> both kind af and somewhat unhinged??? like both "do a good deed to make somebody else's life easier ☺️" AND "im gonna eat a bicycle :p"
@sketchingwithlyn -> JUST THE CHILLEST GUY EVERRRR!!!!
@rot-decay-erosion -> gramps 🧓🏻 (also known as the desendant of our king garfield 😙✨️)
@afrogwhocantdraw -> RESIDENT BENLOR POOKIE
@low-senka -> the brokest senior citezen youve ever met 💔💔💔💔 (yall need to donate to my guy 🥺🥺🥺)
(also the thing below had me stuck looking at it for literally AGES so hehehehehhehehe GET TRAPPED IDIOT!!!!!! >:3!!!!!)
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anyways i have no clue what else to write!!! which is weird bcuz im a yapper frfr :D
ANYWAYS LOVE Y'ALL ✨️✨️✨️
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THEY 👥 DONT🙅🏼♀️ LOVE 😘 YOU 🫵🏼 LIKE I 👀 LOVE 🥰 YOU 🫵🏼🫵🏼🫵🏼
#karmaajr rambles#important thing for me to tag bcuz yes#karmaajr answers ig :D#karmas mum mentions :3#my sister and i#daddy's unhinged#NOT MY ASS MENTIONING PANIK#anyways please tell me i did good on this yall 🙏🙏🙏🙏#yall i did good right-#PLSSS#CHAT 🙏🙏
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#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months#like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have#felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses#and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again#realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now#i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me#so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever#im just fucking tired bro…….#she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT#bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most#ruining hours of my life thank you so much.#instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH#god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn#vent
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Anything unusual?
You mean more unusual than... Well, than usual?
Hmmm... Not much...
Oh, though... I did just see a bloke swearing at a lamppost.
Yeah, a lamppost. There was a satchel hanging from it. He kept jumping, trying to grab at it. It was just out of his reach, the poor bugger.
Anyway...
Is that all you wanted to ask me?
#harry teller#neath!#fallen london#fl#sketch#i tried to make it sound like dialogue you might have with an npc#but ive never played fl#so i don't have a clue as to how much this feels like fl dialogue#bats#:3#idk#how do i tag this#without feeling desperate#like#my art#my artwork#pencil sketch#pencil drawing#pencil art#artists on tumblr#like geez#i feel like im just tagging these because i want attention from as many potential places as possible#even though i feel like those people aren't even gonna care#that might be pretty normal though#anyway#anyone wanna rant about harry teller headcanons with me#bro would march to hell and back for his job#bro is doing parkour down the streets of london to get his papers back#im running out of tags#the stupendium
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i realize how little i have in common with my peers simply because im not constantly on tik tok/instagram/facebook 👴
#first i just dont get 80% of the references bc i simply dont engage with them/im not curious enough about them#second new people or those that i know cant go 15 minutes without scrolling on their phone or texting#the few friends who would let me stay at their house would always sit on their phone the entire evening not really engaging with me#or trying to engage with me by showing me something they found on their phone.... girl-#i broke up with my last partner bc they were chronically online and wouldnt go to sleep without at least 1 hour of phone time in bed#im mainly complaining about the bed time phone usage thing bc it used to drive me crazy as an insomniac#and considering how many people do it just makes me completely disinterested in sharing a bedroom with other people#i am old so that must be it tho#i barely use my phone that thing can last 4 days on one battery charge (it's a good battery but still) despite my occasional yt usage#i like in person talking and i just think people lost touch with their social side the last few years :(#and it's hard for me to feel like im having an engaging conversation with someone if they're constantly checking their phone#it makes me feel really lowly of myself it hits my self-esteem hard bc this behavior shows me im too boring to have their attention#even tho they were the one to invite me over/go out with me... bro.#personal#delete later
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"reblog for something lgbt to happen to you" at this point i'd be grateful if something straight happened to me
#bluebird.txt#i'd love to stop feeling like an unlikeable freak!!!#i get it i'm gay i look at least like a lesbian and at queerest as Some Thing I'm Not Sure How to Gender#but like. damn bro!#not even anyone? at all?#first of all i get no attention from girls and there's barely any thems (and im friends with most of the thems)#secondly not that i want the attention of cishet men but as i said before i'll take fucking anything to feel something#the most i get from cishet men has been laughing when i run because im late to class or a concert#like okay wow you find someone just running funny? i pity your entire brain#i think im just bored#its not like i understand romantic stuff any more really#i understand it on a logical level i think#but tell me why when i find a girl i have a huge crush on the SECOND i just need out platonically with someone else#the girl evaporates from my brain#and when i make the attempt to put myself out there and be like hey wanna go on a date?#all will to actually go on the date also evaporates?#she hasn't answered and that's an answer so im like alright even if you texted me late i actually do not care if i never see you again#not in a malicious way!!! just in a very bland you have not made a meaningful impact on my life way even though you seem cool!#which doesn't sound much better but trust me i mean these factually objectively not personally meanly#i have other friends mostly cis friends who have gotten guys after them and as much as like most of those guys are at best#a little annoying and at worst sort of creeps#like. THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED TO ME EITHER!!!#when i walk alone on campus esp when it's dark i do worry about assault and rape and stuff#but that's just the statistics and stuff#i know i'm not immune but in a weird way not being liked by anyone at all gives me reassurance that well#at least i'll probably never be assaulted at least not any time soon bc no one's ever looked at this (me) and had any kinds of#attracted thoughts#though that's definitely a false sense of security#after all someone could decide they hate transgenders and gender ambiguous people and assault me of course that could always happen!#i don't think it's likely to but. you never know!
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I'm on ep5 of LOK and remembering why I have never gotten past the first season of this show. The love triangle shit is driving me INSANE in the worst of ways. It feels like fucking high school drama.
I will stick it out... because I have heard the show gets better... and also the promise of endgame Korra and Asami.... I will stick it out this time....!!!!
But God. It's so annoying 😭😭😭😭
#speculation nation#i will stay strong. i WILL... i will....#the thing is like. atla always had the romance subplots & some jealousy plots. but it was like#they had bigger fish to fry. at the end of the day the romance was never the prime focus#bc they were fighting a War! and they were younger than the LOK team too#it never felt so heavy-handed in atla. in LOK it just feels so Forced....#doesnt help that im like. man Bolin really would be better for Korra than Mako.#stop paying attention to a wishy washy guy who wont even pay 100% attention to his own girlfriend (who's not you!!!!!)#i rly do like Bolin and Korra's interactions. but also the way the writing is pushing Bolin's crush on her kinda sucks#bc i think theyd be best as bros. genuinely.#and i Know we get the f/f ending but god DAMN im still. ugh ugh ugh. what a time.#also barely relevant but who was the lady Tenzin was seeing before his wife. im so curious#this man is so stiff howd he get TWO women falling for him like that??!#ALSO... the fact that ep 4 is so heavy on the fear and seriousness. then ep 5 is just like. oh no! love triangles!#hfkshfksd ive been enjoying some of the show but rn i am so annoyed by it hfkshfkd#i will stay strong... i will... it will be worth it to stick it out....... I Will...!!!!#fanny watches lok
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// there is no way people are saying the puzzles in Amanda the Adventurer are too difficult i-
#ooc : tear away the mask#// we are DOOMED#// between this and people complaining that zoochosis was too vague with its directions and needed more guidance#// .....after literally complaining that r.esident e.vil and f.ar c.ry doing that was “tacky” and “too obvious” and “clashed with the a.es#// like. just shut the fuck up lmao#// i am TIRED of “gamer opinions”#// the games arent bad#// gamer bros and gaming “critics” are just illiterate. refuse to read instructions. and refuse to think critically about the stories share#// the games arent the problem. the problem is the stereotypical demographic that games appeal to cant handle when stories arent about them#// if them being superior and flawless is not the point of the story. if their experiences and views are not the spotlit “good side”#// then they automatically view the media as garbage. bc it's “woke” bc it's “dei” bc its “snowflake safespace“ bc ”trigger warnings“#// or whatever new buzzword the pipeline is spoonfeeding them to denigrate the people they actively view as lesser than them#// due to the continued culture of bigotry that permeates and festers in gaming and media circles#// simply put- when you're accustomed to privilege equality and representation feels like the threat of oppression#// theyre not the center of attention anymore. so they take that as them being erased without seeing the irony#// im rambling but my god “hardcore gamers” piss me off#// die in the game AND for real actually-
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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight
#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here#it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening#and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time#we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please#idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest#but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work#sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon#ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for#my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell#happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and#when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends#and i don't wannaaaaa#i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but#it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being#the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it#we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line#i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know#and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot#but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class#even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig#i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me#and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh#i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like#The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed#but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me#and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it#and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh
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No because Zhao speculating felt like such a
Looks into the camera
"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."
moment
no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina
#iw spoilers#spoilers#snap chats#a big part To Me really is because hes just an aoki clone like its really not something to look over when its so half-assed#they did have his flashback and backstory but like .. i repeat it just feels like such a lame plot twist ...#a plot twist that could have been really interchangeable ... before i get into the orphan-under-kazama rant again..#YK1 nishiki got his build up from watching his added backstory scenes and even the scenes with yumi in the beginning#yk where its clear yumi gives more attention to kiryu#ryuji .. ok i mean tbf he was majorly there to fuck around he wasnt trying to be overly deep but even he still has his issues#HE STILL AT LEAST HAD A PRESENCE and even so his moment with kaoru was real sweet .. big bro ryuji my beloved im cryin ...#like a character doesnt have to be OVERLY deep to be fun/enjoyable i love ryuji ... hi king ... im getting off topic ....#MINE-- //is pulled off stage before i get into it//#and aoki is built up from the arakawa's accounts of him coupled with his Dog Eats Dog mentality and esp that NYE flashback#that shot of the No Dumping sign lives in my mind forever .... so good im going to kill myself thinking bout aoki bye ...#im rambling point is Do Better RGG what happened. the stories and characters had been bangers from 0 to 7 to gaiden and then. ???
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I KNEW IT
FUCK
#THE DAMN ADHD MEDS#YOU FUCKERFSSSSS#IM NOT SURE IF I ACTUALLY H A V E ADHD NOW I KIGHT JUST BE TAKING OPIODS#THERES A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENING IN MY BRAIN I THINK THE ADHD WAS A CATCHALL THAT WASNT A CATCHALL#when i got diagnosed it said i had it but idk if that’s cause i said i think i do or if they genuinely tested for it#cause now I’m thinking my symptoms were shit like not paying attention (autism and my inability to make myself do shit I don’t wanna do) and#not being able to do things (without having a reason to without having a routine) (also autism)#dam n#or I’m bullshitting it and I feel like shit cause I stayed up till one am looking at blinkies and moving shit around on my laptop#and then drawing a mta. for some reason#this sucks bro
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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that
#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back#sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with#idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that#community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize#bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought#he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive#i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better#so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH#my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body#believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how#as a woman#can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids#when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me#when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison#in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty#i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing#but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with#reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers#tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like#i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming#you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in#i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement#singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now#there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart
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If you see this no you don't
#vent#so like. bro im so fucking lonely#and im feeling really unloved and kind of ignored and it fucking sucks#im so fucking like. frustrated and tired and sad like i jusy want. a little bit of attention#and maybe for someone to let me know im not doing everything wrong yk#idk maybe im just feeling really sensitive right now#still itd be nice to feel like im not talking to a brick wall or have someone acknowledge what im saying or#SOMETHING#and god like. god im so fucking scared i dont want to mess things up bc im like. really good at doing that#messing things up i mean. especially with friends#its fine its fine its fine kve got things to look forward to im fine its fine im fine im fine im fine#journal art
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whenever i post drawings on my twitter i barely get attention, probably because its not trendy stuff or because hashtags dont work and while i mostly draw for myself and for fun, i wont deny it makes me feel a little bummed out. but at the same time do i really want to get attention or more followers? it would probably stress me out or make me feel unconfident about what i do or post. its my inner struggle, i want people to see my content but at the same time i don't.
#posting my art makes me feel embarrassed cuz its all self indulgent and not exactly great#but at the same time im like. i know im cringe. but im free#i guess i feel embarrassed cuz i explain things about my drawings but a part of my brain is like ''i doubt anyone cares about that bro''#i think thats why when i post stuff on my art sideblog i just write a little comment about the drawing and thats it.#i talk about this kind of stuff and then realize how fucking dumb i sound sorry#i do get attention on my tumblr sideblog and it makes me happy though. i really appreciate that ^_^#i guess its easier for my art to be seen on tumblr? cuz of the tags#twitter does really suck for that kind of stuff. and apparently the hashtags make it worse? i dont know what to believe anymore lmao#mucho texto perdón#samael.txt
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imma be honest I did not watch 3below it was boring as hell, they should've stick with Jim story
#ignorelist#they are literally generic alien thrown to earth found family film like????#im sorry bro but it was so mid and unnecessary#like i feel like Jim journey to finding new that big stone is literally more interesting then whatever the fuck is happenning in threebelow#and in the wizard and in the movie they didnt even do much like?//??#the only good thing i can say abt that show is that we got hot sexy aliens!#i legit cannot pass s1 and literally skipped to the finale#or maybe i just have a terrible attention span when mmy favorite protagonist is not on screen#who knows#the three main character is like#im sorry but they did not grown on me#they are silly and i respect that but i just do not grow on them#except varvatos he was funny as fuck
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Ohh no.
#ignore#clownery ahead#i may be fucked. this concert and this whole trip has like solidified my feelings for my best friend.#like before they were like there and i knew and it was def growing bc of living together and stuff#but i was getting on top of it and being careful and smart about it. ive done it before and everything#but man this whole thing. the way we've interacted#its a level of comfortability we havent really done before.#idfk why maybe bc of like natural progression of friendship idk#i wrapped my arm around her shoulder more today than i probably have in my whole life#we were so touchy at the concert bc yknow we're having fun dancing and singing and stuff. sitting close to each other#but the way my insides go crazy at every touch. whether its her touching my arm with the back of her hand to get my attention and resting#it there for a moment. or the hug we had after the concert that was so fucking strong bc we were both emotional.#i go wild inside im like a fool. all butterflies and warmth and that shit#thats not good to feel about my best friend and roommate 😐 and i know and i gotta work on it and find some solution.#but bro if we keep being this touchy. like if this is just how our friendship is now.#it will be the best and worst thing to happen. because it feels amazing but it will never progress further and god do i want it to#and i gotta stop being jealous abt every dumb guy. its bc of insecurity and i know it. i instantly compare myself in the most painful way#every time she talks abt her crush it hurts so much and i gotta stop myself from thinking those thoughts or lamenting that she will never#talk that way about me or feel that way about me#fuck this is gonna be a rough one#but i am still choosing to not let that tarnish the amazing time i had seeing taylor swift. she was the first artist i ever wanted to see#in concert bc she was like the first artist i ever became a fan of as a lil 6 year old#and i finally got to see her and it was incredible and i wish it had never ended#(and it wouldnt have been as amazing as it was if she hadnt come with me)
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It really is..
Wanting someone 2 love you like you love them when you have bpd is so shattering
#esp if your poly bro like its so stressful like u want attention from one person that u barly talk to bc they live w there other partner/#my other gf like it js feels like they care more 4 them#i know its online and all and its hard but it lowkey ain't that hard but what do i know hm?#bpd vent#vent blog#like i js want attention and for them to hang out w me too...#but im js not it ig...#like w me and ny bf we don't have to talk everyday but i at least want them to talk to me..ig im js boring..#i know they got stuff going on too but like i wanna be there 4 them and give them that comfort cuz im there partner too...#idk we are rlly distent and im starting to lose it#there are some other things they did that kinda bugged me for no reason but eh..
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