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spookythesillyfella · 16 days ago

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not quite . buddy

#thiz iz based off a convo i had with my big bro @chamom1le-t3a like . a while ago #shrig iz not saying that phraze – hez saying “i hope your death iz slow and painful”#¥_^#im sorry ; i still haven been able to make anything good and ive been struggling with that for the whole weekend #i feel like the dizziness iz only growing worse and im actually afraid im going to vomit soon #i just feel like my brain iz completely blown up and like i cant do anything #forgive me for all the bad thingz im posting #i promise ill be worth paying attention to again – ill make something good and ill make people care about me again #i know i will #i just have to keep trying #to chase that dream #dhmis #dhmis au #high voltage au #dhmis electracey #electracey the meter #dhmis hv electracey #dhmis shrignold #shrignold the butterfly #dhmis hv shrignold #and sorry for my bad handwriting #i wanted to get done with thiz doodle az quickly az possible #i just had to make something in order to feel like thiz weekend hadn't gone to waste

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rapidhighway · 1 year ago

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#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro…….#she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much.#instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

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ourtalechara · 2 months ago

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Anything unusual?

You mean more unusual than... Well, than usual?

Hmmm... Not much...

Oh, though... I did just see a bloke swearing at a lamppost.

Yeah, a lamppost. There was a satchel hanging from it. He kept jumping, trying to grab at it. It was just out of his reach, the poor bugger.

Anyway...

Is that all you wanted to ask me?

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clowncloud · 11 days ago

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also after the like whole thing break time when i came back from lunch the librarian was like you'll face some disrespect bc of ur size n like wow no shit sherlock but like ahhhhh she did tell me to just come get her n she'll discipline accordingly alsp tht was one of the um things mentioned in my interview actually when i asked abt challenges tht may be associated with the job but tht was from the pov of thinking I'd be working with the general public not in a school. i mean like i get it's really just kids being kids well teens at tht 16-17 year old stage which ik is like yh been there done tht. n ppl treating me based on size is smth tht happens all the time so like yh but like ahhhhhh i dont get it to the extent tht like i cld be 1m tall but yall kno im the one in charge here i spoke to yall n tild the librarian twice already why did it hv to reach a 3rd time absolutely insane like I guess theu think im like right out of form 6 at least so im more peer than adult but like ugh i domt want to be disciplining u or getting u in trouble n i imagine u also dont want tht for urself so just behave right? it aint tht hard or at least dont behave wrong so blatantly n disrespectfully like it's insane bruh

#cloud nonsense #like the kid sat in the one seat i cld clearly see him #pulled out his phone clearly #n then kept watching me #n i was like it's the blatant way if doing it ide understand #what do u think u hv to win in this situation i dont understand #y are u challenging me it's Literally not going to end well for u #ur embarrassing urself Literally plz stop #what #like i don feel im overreac #or reading things wrongly #like they've been since the start trying to test me n it's like for what #i literally nvr took them on for weeks until the first time i happened to notice them using their phones #ur old enough tht i dont need to interact with u or pay attention to u n by jove do i not want to #so y are u trying so hard to get under my radar #now i hv to keep my eye on them #16 n 17 yesr olds?????#bros what

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arolesbianism · 22 days ago

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Finally fixating on some nugget relationships that aren't horrible for everyone I love friendship <3

#rat rambles #I feel like Ive mentioned them before but Ive been rotaing them in my head so hard today #jacob dexter besties arc <3333 and also piper ig :/#they're all friends I just have favorite children (even tho Im pretty sure piper is the one whos been around the longest)#theres nothing super deep going on with them they're just bros who like to hang out drink and have game nights sometimes #but I likes them. they're silly :3 #I need to dexter post more often yes they basically do nothing but be their friends supply guy but I love her sm #I used to be painfully neutral on him until I started lor at which point she grew on me hard and its only been getting worse #shes a mess who is squeamish and easily grossed out (rip bozo) and also an alcoholic (rip bozo) and also loves gambling (rip bozo)#hes surprisingly not doing as bad as youd think theyd be considering the everything tho #mostly because theyre good with tech and also are very good at breaking rules without getting too punished #but also because of their friends ig. eyeroll.#jacob also has a lot of bullshit going on as he is one of the poor souls who for a time caught yuri's attention but hes managing #and by managing I do mean on the verge of a breakdown at all times and holding on by a thread because he does not need to have juliet's #wrath added to his ever growing list of problems and traumatic events #again having positive relationships does also help but hes easily the least stable of the crew #to be clear theyre not like. super close? they hang out and play games and shit but they generally treat their hang outs as escapism so #they rarely talk much abt themselves on a personal level with eachother #which is fine they still value eachother a lot and genuinely enjoy eachothers company #although they are a bit recklessly fond of eachother considering their situation Id say. thankfully they dont get punished for it tho.#if one of them Had died and not instantly got brought back I do think the other two would fully lose it #the closest this ever got to happening in game was me not realizing dexter (level 5 employee btw) had gotten eaten by the wolf #and almost moving to the next day before realizing she had died #and do note this was like at the point in the game where I was just about done preparing to start the last 5 days this was Late late game #but autism be damned my boy can fuck up one of the easiest waws #(not a boy tbc)#honestly its kind of a miracle I never let piper die I Really didnt care abt him before the other two boosted him by proxy #well tbf he was for a good while one of like. two ppl I had in training. and they also are in little red gear. so they Did have value. ig.#piper comes from category of nugget I had in my early game that I liked to call bodyguards #basically I had one or two guys per department who actually did work and then another guy or two to be extra fire power

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lae-zels · 9 months ago

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i realize how little i have in common with my peers simply because im not constantly on tik tok/instagram/facebook 👴

#first i just dont get 80% of the references bc i simply dont engage with them/im not curious enough about them #second new people or those that i know cant go 15 minutes without scrolling on their phone or texting #the few friends who would let me stay at their house would always sit on their phone the entire evening not really engaging with me #or trying to engage with me by showing me something they found on their phone.... girl-#i broke up with my last partner bc they were chronically online and wouldnt go to sleep without at least 1 hour of phone time in bed #im mainly complaining about the bed time phone usage thing bc it used to drive me crazy as an insomniac #and considering how many people do it just makes me completely disinterested in sharing a bedroom with other people #i am old so that must be it tho #i barely use my phone that thing can last 4 days on one battery charge (it's a good battery but still) despite my occasional yt usage #i like in person talking and i just think people lost touch with their social side the last few years :(#and it's hard for me to feel like im having an engaging conversation with someone if they're constantly checking their phone #it makes me feel really lowly of myself it hits my self-esteem hard bc this behavior shows me im too boring to have their attention #even tho they were the one to invite me over/go out with me... bro.#personal #delete later

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loverboybrightsideghost · 3 months ago

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"reblog for something lgbt to happen to you" at this point i'd be grateful if something straight happened to me

#bluebird.txt #i'd love to stop feeling like an unlikeable freak!!!#i get it i'm gay i look at least like a lesbian and at queerest as Some Thing I'm Not Sure How to Gender #but like. damn bro!#not even anyone? at all?#first of all i get no attention from girls and there's barely any thems (and im friends with most of the thems)#secondly not that i want the attention of cishet men but as i said before i'll take fucking anything to feel something #the most i get from cishet men has been laughing when i run because im late to class or a concert #like okay wow you find someone just running funny? i pity your entire brain #i think im just bored #its not like i understand romantic stuff any more really #i understand it on a logical level i think #but tell me why when i find a girl i have a huge crush on the SECOND i just need out platonically with someone else #the girl evaporates from my brain #and when i make the attempt to put myself out there and be like hey wanna go on a date?#all will to actually go on the date also evaporates?#she hasn't answered and that's an answer so im like alright even if you texted me late i actually do not care if i never see you again #not in a malicious way!!! just in a very bland you have not made a meaningful impact on my life way even though you seem cool!#which doesn't sound much better but trust me i mean these factually objectively not personally meanly #i have other friends mostly cis friends who have gotten guys after them and as much as like most of those guys are at best #a little annoying and at worst sort of creeps #like. THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED TO ME EITHER!!!#when i walk alone on campus esp when it's dark i do worry about assault and rape and stuff #but that's just the statistics and stuff #i know i'm not immune but in a weird way not being liked by anyone at all gives me reassurance that well #at least i'll probably never be assaulted at least not any time soon bc no one's ever looked at this (me) and had any kinds of #attracted thoughts #though that's definitely a false sense of security #after all someone could decide they hate transgenders and gender ambiguous people and assault me of course that could always happen!#i don't think it's likely to but. you never know!

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orcelito · 11 months ago

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I'm on ep5 of LOK and remembering why I have never gotten past the first season of this show. The love triangle shit is driving me INSANE in the worst of ways. It feels like fucking high school drama.

I will stick it out... because I have heard the show gets better... and also the promise of endgame Korra and Asami.... I will stick it out this time....!!!!

But God. It's so annoying 😭😭😭😭

#speculation nation #i will stay strong. i WILL... i will....#the thing is like. atla always had the romance subplots & some jealousy plots. but it was like #they had bigger fish to fry. at the end of the day the romance was never the prime focus #bc they were fighting a War! and they were younger than the LOK team too #it never felt so heavy-handed in atla. in LOK it just feels so Forced....#doesnt help that im like. man Bolin really would be better for Korra than Mako.#stop paying attention to a wishy washy guy who wont even pay 100% attention to his own girlfriend (who's not you!!!!!)#i rly do like Bolin and Korra's interactions. but also the way the writing is pushing Bolin's crush on her kinda sucks #bc i think theyd be best as bros. genuinely.#and i Know we get the f/f ending but god DAMN im still. ugh ugh ugh. what a time.#also barely relevant but who was the lady Tenzin was seeing before his wife. im so curious #this man is so stiff howd he get TWO women falling for him like that??!#ALSO... the fact that ep 4 is so heavy on the fear and seriousness. then ep 5 is just like. oh no! love triangles!#hfkshfksd ive been enjoying some of the show but rn i am so annoyed by it hfkshfkd #i will stay strong... i will... it will be worth it to stick it out....... I Will...!!!!#fanny watches lok

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vendettavalor · 4 months ago

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// there is no way people are saying the puzzles in Amanda the Adventurer are too difficult i-

#ooc : tear away the mask #// we are DOOMED #// between this and people complaining that zoochosis was too vague with its directions and needed more guidance #// .....after literally complaining that r.esident e.vil and f.ar c.ry doing that was “tacky” and “too obvious” and “clashed with the a.es #// like. just shut the fuck up lmao #// i am TIRED of “gamer opinions”#// the games arent bad #// gamer bros and gaming “critics” are just illiterate. refuse to read instructions. and refuse to think critically about the stories share #// the games arent the problem. the problem is the stereotypical demographic that games appeal to cant handle when stories arent about them #// if them being superior and flawless is not the point of the story. if their experiences and views are not the spotlit “good side”#// then they automatically view the media as garbage. bc it's “woke” bc it's “dei” bc its “snowflake safespace“ bc ”trigger warnings“#// or whatever new buzzword the pipeline is spoonfeeding them to denigrate the people they actively view as lesser than them #// due to the continued culture of bigotry that permeates and festers in gaming and media circles #// simply put- when you're accustomed to privilege equality and representation feels like the threat of oppression #// theyre not the center of attention anymore. so they take that as them being erased without seeing the irony #// im rambling but my god “hardcore gamers” piss me off #// die in the game AND for real actually-

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skrunksthatwunk · 6 months ago

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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here #it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening #and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time #we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please #idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest #but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work #sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon #ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for #my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell #happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and #when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends #and i don't wannaaaaa #i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but #it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being #the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it #we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line #i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know #and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot #but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class #even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig #i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me #and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh #i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like #The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed #but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me #and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it #and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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No because Zhao speculating felt like such a

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"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."

moment

no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina

#iw spoilers #spoilers #snap chats #a big part To Me really is because hes just an aoki clone like its really not something to look over when its so half-assed #they did have his flashback and backstory but like .. i repeat it just feels like such a lame plot twist ...#a plot twist that could have been really interchangeable ... before i get into the orphan-under-kazama rant again..#YK1 nishiki got his build up from watching his added backstory scenes and even the scenes with yumi in the beginning #yk where its clear yumi gives more attention to kiryu #ryuji .. ok i mean tbf he was majorly there to fuck around he wasnt trying to be overly deep but even he still has his issues #HE STILL AT LEAST HAD A PRESENCE and even so his moment with kaoru was real sweet .. big bro ryuji my beloved im cryin ...#like a character doesnt have to be OVERLY deep to be fun/enjoyable i love ryuji ... hi king ... im getting off topic ....#MINE-- //is pulled off stage before i get into it//#and aoki is built up from the arakawa's accounts of him coupled with his Dog Eats Dog mentality and esp that NYE flashback #that shot of the No Dumping sign lives in my mind forever .... so good im going to kill myself thinking bout aoki bye ...#im rambling point is Do Better RGG what happened. the stories and characters had been bangers from 0 to 7 to gaiden and then. ???

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okcoolthanks · 5 months ago

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I KNEW IT

FUCK

#THE DAMN ADHD MEDS #YOU FUCKERFSSSSS #IM NOT SURE IF I ACTUALLY H A V E ADHD NOW I KIGHT JUST BE TAKING OPIODS #THERES A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENING IN MY BRAIN I THINK THE ADHD WAS A CATCHALL THAT WASNT A CATCHALL #when i got diagnosed it said i had it but idk if that’s cause i said i think i do or if they genuinely tested for it #cause now I’m thinking my symptoms were shit like not paying attention (autism and my inability to make myself do shit I don’t wanna do) and #not being able to do things (without having a reason to without having a routine) (also autism)#dam n #or I’m bullshitting it and I feel like shit cause I stayed up till one am looking at blinkies and moving shit around on my laptop #and then drawing a mta. for some reason #this sucks bro

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago

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:-P

#everyday is a new bizarre feeling. i dont even kno how to call this one #like i didnt feel thst bad today but i felt like my eyes were really wide and i spent hours just staring into space #ive got the 1000 yard stare i guess. but i dont feel bad. just like maybe i dont wanna sleep like maybe i should stay up all night #but like doing what? i cant even really draw rn bc my attention slips sideways and the faces come out fucked up #if i actually try. so like idk. lol my boss is in town now and she asked if i could take a break to meet tomorrow #and i gave here what i can only imagine is an unfathomable stare and i was like. i can meet but i have to b doing measurements #can i take a break for half an hour? no i can take a break for like 4min. bc i have to finish by 6 so i can go run out all my anger before #the sun sets. im not sure yet how ill adjust to this experiment being over. im not sure what ill do this week #but i dont really wanna deal with a fake meeting to celibate my birthday. bc thats gotta be what it is bc like bro ive had no time to do #anything. i have nothing to meet wuth u abt. if u want my data wait until friday. but if im taking measurements every 5min i have an excuse #to b like bye im gonna fuck off now ✌️ so i dunno. well see what happens tomorrow bc i feel weird and every other time ive finished the #measurement taking period ive collapsed into complete dispair so well see how Wednesday goes #Wednesday? i meant Tuesday. fuck i dont even kno what day it is #maybe ill actually send my boss the meeting notes even tho i think thr meeting is fake bc i mean i dont wanna sleep anyway #god. this is such a dumb thing to b stressed and paranoid abt. but she does it for everyone in the lab and any disruption to my schedule rn #is like. ill take it as a mortal wound. a knife to the gut. or maybe itll b fine bc im v well adjusted and normal #and i will not freak out and throw a weird tantrum like a brat. ugh.#unrelated #me #im just gonna keep going. keep swimming forward bc stagnation is death #half my brain: self sabotage. self sabotage. do it do it do it. like bro leave me alone. stop making me suffer. what did i do?

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mydr3aminvi0let · 9 months ago

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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that

#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back #sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with #idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that #community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize #bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought #he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive #i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better #so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH #my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body #believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how #as a woman #can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids #when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me #when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison #in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty #i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing #but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with #reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers #tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like #i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming #you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in #i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement #singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now #there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart

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eggbagelz · 2 years ago

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If you see this no you don't

#vent #so like. bro im so fucking lonely #and im feeling really unloved and kind of ignored and it fucking sucks #im so fucking like. frustrated and tired and sad like i jusy want. a little bit of attention #and maybe for someone to let me know im not doing everything wrong yk #idk maybe im just feeling really sensitive right now #still itd be nice to feel like im not talking to a brick wall or have someone acknowledge what im saying or #SOMETHING #and god like. god im so fucking scared i dont want to mess things up bc im like. really good at doing that #messing things up i mean. especially with friends #its fine its fine its fine kve got things to look forward to im fine its fine im fine im fine im fine #journal art

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sethdomain · 2 years ago

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imma be honest I did not watch 3below it was boring as hell, they should've stick with Jim story

#ignorelist #they are literally generic alien thrown to earth found family film like????#im sorry bro but it was so mid and unnecessary #like i feel like Jim journey to finding new that big stone is literally more interesting then whatever the fuck is happenning in threebelow #and in the wizard and in the movie they didnt even do much like?//??#the only good thing i can say abt that show is that we got hot sexy aliens!#i legit cannot pass s1 and literally skipped to the finale #or maybe i just have a terrible attention span when mmy favorite protagonist is not on screen #who knows #the three main character is like #im sorry but they did not grown on me #they are silly and i respect that but i just do not grow on them #except varvatos he was funny as fuck

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