#brain what the fuck are you on
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A side effect of watching EoM’s Crooked House arc, and CoS’s death house, is that I just had a fucking dream where I was walking on a path that surrounded this forest called “Cock Forest” (yes, it was spelled that way), but it was called Cock Forest because it was apparently a translation error because it was SUPPOSED to say “Crooked Forest”, because it was essentially supposed to be like the Suicide Forest in (Japan? I’m pretty sure?). Real cheery brain, thanks.
Anyway, I was walking around Cock Forest, and encountered a little girl that I think was supposed to be my sister, but I couldn’t see her face in the dream (even tho I was literally face to face with her at some point). We passed like 5 (mostly decomposed) bodies, and I told her their story that I somehow knew, and I also saw like 7 more skeletons within the trees. Then I heard a little girl singing along the pathway after seeing a shadow move in the forest, and to Dream-Me’s credit, I promptly turned around and sped-walked the opposite direction.
And in the dream, I had pulled out a map, and not only did I discover that I was walking in some sort of fucked up Roblox Bloons TD map, but also that’s where I got the name “Cock Forest” (tho Cock was blurred out like in YouTube videos)
The wild part was that I had drank some espresso, listened to a few chapters of an audiobook (which did not even remotely cover any sort of mentioned hanging), and promptly passed out. The fuck, Brain.
#it was creepy enough to make my heart race like a nightmare#but bizarre enough for my brain to recognize that it was a dream and to wake me up before putting me into cardiac arrest#and just go wtf and try and make myself calm down so I can sleep for the next hour and a half before my alarm goes off#dreams#nightmares#oddly enough it wasn’t the fact that it was a Roblox Bloons map that woke me#no that was normal bc that was established early on in my Dream#no what made my brain woke me up was the mixture of creepy singing and the blurred name of cock forest#apparently cock forest was too bizarre for my brain#not the Roblox Bloons map. nope.#brain what the fuck are you on
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I've talked about this before, but emotional dysregulation is such a mother fucker aspect of ADHD.
Like, sure, not being able to regulate my attention sucks, but it's genuinely fucking nothing compared to the absolute rollercoaster of emotions I just went on because someone said something in a shitty tone, and now I'm having to actively walk myself through DBT methods lest my idiot shit for brains 'shiny-can't-sit-still-disorder' drop the match on that particular bridge because the rejection sensitive dysphoria feels like my chest is burning and not being able to act on the hurt feels like I'm suffocating under the weight of emotions pushing down on me and lashing out in anger is quicker than taking the time to self soothe.
And the annoying fucking thing is I know it's me.
I've done enough therapy to know my emotional response to their shittiness is overblown and dysregulated. I know I'm taking it to heart more than they could ever imagine.
And I've got to fucking sit with that and process it because if I don't, I'll be the inconsiderate cunt in this interaction and hhnnggg--wailing, gnashing, biting my thumb at you in the marketplace, etc, etc.
#personal#this is so fucking insignificant and my brain is just like 'but what if we made it into a life or death adrenaline pumping reponse'#and it's like brain#I love you#but you're a fucking idiot sometimes#chill tf out
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was it casual when i sat in your lap in public? was it casual when i said "recently my heart is crying because you're leaving"? was it casual when we decided how your last name would fit with mine? ("yuki tsunoda-gasly" / "no tsunoda, only gasly" / "yuki gasly?") was it casual when we sang adele's "someone like you" together at your going away party? was it casual when i knew it was you just by touching your ass? was it casual when i knew it was you by smell alone? was it casual when "will you miss me?" / "for 2-3 minutes maybe" / "i'll take that. even if it's just 2-3 minutes, i'll take that"? was it casual when that bus was completely empty and we still sat right next to each other, all the way in the back? was it casual when i picked you up multiple times so you could dunk a basketball? was it casual when i begged to come over to your house multiple time and then you finally let me and we cooked fried rice together? was it casual when we played christmas twister together and i said "your big eggplant is touching my ass"? was it casual when we were pressed up against each other on a scooter going two miles per hour? was it casual when-
#edit: tinytauris fact checked my post and they sang 'hello' not someone like you & it was 'your big monster' not eggplant#everyday i think about the fact that yukierre should've been what lestappen is now#i should be able to go on the yukierre tag on ao3 and it should say 'showing 1-20 of 6745'#they were genuinely so fuckingg weird about each otherrrrrr#im being so serious when i say that if they ever came out as gay/bi/whatever i really wouldnt be surprised#literally just 'okay?? fork spotted in kitchen cmon now' moment#anyway i think about that moment on the bus soooo often#will you miss me? / maybe for 2-3 minutes / ill take that then. even if it's just for 2-3 minutes ill take that#hwat the FUCK#i was going 'gay gay homosexual' everytime i saw them together#yukierre#yuki tsunoda#pierre gasly#also im like 90% sure that everyting i worte down actually happened but if i wrote smth down that didnt happen#and my yukierre infested brain just conjured up please let me know#also ive had this is in my drafts foreverrrr (re: since july) so if this has already been done im so sorry#i always feel like such a loser making posts about driver relationships lol#like 'oh look at that weirdo that got too invested in people she doesn't even know'#whatever im getting to introspective now#1k
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Did you think I was done? Ahahahaha no, I have more.
Because chapter 70 of MOMU gave me the very dynamic between them that I missed so much, I just blacked out and started drawing uncontrollably lmao
Also. ALSO. I noticed a while ago that Prowl has the habit of..like…constantly frowning. So. I did a bit of research and made this graph.
In 70 chapters, Prowl frowns rougly 104 times. And the intensity of this gesture is very clearly correlated with the development of his relationship with Jazz, as you can see ahahahahah It might be wrong tho don’t take me seriously I’m not good with graphs
#maccadam#transformers#prowl#jazz#jazzprowl#fic fanart#momu fanart#I just#mmmmm#For the whole fic Prowl had to think twice about everything Jazz says#every information could end up being wrong#sometimes even without Jazz realising it#so when Prowl says#he’s trusting Jazz. it’s.#also it totally wasn’t me googling ‘believing and trusting nuance difference in english’#the moment I realised the difference I think my brain started rollercoaster loops#he can’t believe him but he found enough faith to trust him#while. YES. For the whole story Jazz couldn’t fucking be believed#list e n#Jazz did a lot of things for Prowl#fucktons of big and small gestures to show that yes he likes loves and appreciates Prowl#I’m so happy Prowl is returning this energy#like#remember that scene a while back when Jazz kissed Prowl? Cool cool okay. Did Prowl kiss him? nope. It was one sided gestures#*gesture. That kiss didn’t make me feel like it’s truly something precious because Jazz started it but Prowl didn’t do quite the same#but this👆. This feels so much more important for me. Because Prowl#who is for the whole story was mister I calculate every chance of possible betrayal. Prowl whos entire personality is to trust nobody#Prowl goes. Fuck that I trust you. You feel me?#it wouldn’t be the same if he said I love you. Because love is very much something you don’t have a lot of control over.#but to trust someone? It’s a choice Prowl had to consciously make. You see what I mean? I love it. oh fuck I ran out of tags..
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the madness frustration loneliness of the dissonance of a mismatch of the rotten heart to the rest
allosexual aromantic swag happy pride *peaces out*
#my art#alloaro#aromantism#happy pride#my animation#if this isnt fucking obvious is a personal post about MY EXPERIENCES#i love being aro more than any other part of my identity tbh but bro#this shit is crazy wack when you dont got the asexuality to match it made me into a fucking specimen#and i love picking apart my own brain#also bi aro ppl are so crazy rare and for what. i dont get why allo aro ppl are so rare. WHY ARE WE SO RARE? WHY.#like the opposite many more alloro ace ppl exist than split attraction ppl of my flavor and thats Wack. its wack. i dont get it.#its not like its complicated (okay maybe it is but also it isnt its simple to Me) so whats the populations problem.#gif#anyways. i wanted to animate this personal piece bc im a fucking weirdo i guess
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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The other thing about discussing harmful things about the christian church and getting "that's not what that verse really means/that's not how that doctrine should be applied/that's not actually supported biblically/etc" back is that... at a certain point it doesn't matter. Yes there are varying beliefs within christianity (understatement with 45,000 different denominations lmao), but you don't get to claim that christianity is separate from any harmful beliefs when a lot of harmful beliefs are the majority.
You can say "the bible wasn't ever talking about gay relationships in [xyz] verses" but that doesn't make the average church actually safe and affirming for queer people. You can say "actually hell doesn't have any biblical backing" but that doesn't mean very much when like 75-80% of christians believe in hell. You can say "men and women are equal in the eyes of the Lord" but it doesn't erase the rampant misogyny in christian culture.
If the members make up the church, if members are the church, then at a certain point the cultural beliefs or majority beliefs have precedence over what was intended. You can't say "oh just ignore [belief/doctrine/interpretation/etc]" when that would be dismissing the church's most predominant collective beliefs. You don't get to just disregard harm because that "wasn't the intention". You don't get to look at the result of said harm and decide it doesn't matter because it makes you look bad.
#part of the “what kind of church did YOU go to?” that's so fucking annoying to me#half the time they are beliefs that the majority of christians hold#trying to frame it as a “fringe out there nobody with a brain could possibly believe this” belief#is just dishonest most of the time#ex christian#religious trauma
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they're so in love im gonna throw up real quick
#in my defence i had warned you i was going to be the most annoying fucker on earth#what the fuck guys this is too much for my brain to process#they're so in love i want to jump from the balcony#LOOK AT THEM#this is after the blitz and aziraphale had the courage to say CROWLEY was going too fast#MY ANGEL IN CHRIST YOU'RE SO CLOSE TO GIGGLE AND TWIRL YOUR HAIR YOURSELF#michael sheen commiting to make the softest warmest most loving eyes every chance he gets#what and i cannot stress this enough the fuck#my dads (real)#tumblr text meme#tumblr text posts#good omens season two#good omens#aziracrow#ineffable husbands#user purrvaire
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#tsom#whistlecone#the sound of music#captain von trapp#georg von trapp#maria von trapp#georg x maria#captain and the governess#pinecone/whistle#my art#please don't repost#chewing on them like squeaky toys#listen. i have a problem#and my problem is christopher plummer and julie andrews#spinning them like rotisserie chickens in my brain#i am going mental#what am i gonna do oh my god#they need to fucking stop#“you don't look like a captain” “you don't look like a nun” hmmmm okay can we calm down#what if i drew them kissing what then
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chifuyu to takemitchy every time he comes back to the past:
#chifuyu is sassy as fuck#what do you expect#the way he says baka is truly perfection#and takemitchy and him also share the same brain cell#it bounces back and forth between the pair#chifuyu matsuno#chifuyu x reader#chifuyu smut#chifuyu fluff#mikey x reader#draken x reader#mitsuya x reader#baji x reader#kazutora x reader#tr smut#tokyo revengers smut#tokyo revengers fluff#tokyo revengers incorrect quotes
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what a time to be a Silco apologist
not only did he gave us the ultimate banger
He had the vibe in every timeline
#arcane#silco#Vander what were you thinking bro#how did you fumble that#...sitting hwre thinking about the Silco Vander - Jayce Viktor parallels#remain closed third eye. i am tired#to all the beautiful people claiming gender envy#i see you and i feel you#i got brain envy in which i am dumb as fuck but i wish i were half as cunning as silco
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this ugly thing. kill it
#beetledee art#doodles#blood tw#caught tongues au#cult of the lamb#cotl leshy#actual ref to come this was more just a 'figuring out what the fuck im doing' sheet#and an awsum yellowcat cameo (jano wil also be getting a ref soon. surely)#ill get to the other bishops its just. the idea of bee mouthparts leshy came into my brain and i couldnt fight it off you understand
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mr. thanawat, I can't help you anymore 😔
#firstkhao#kantbison#the heart killers#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#gmmtv#STAND THE FCUK UP YOU LOSER#i understand him though so who am i to judge#im surprised that this is all that has happened so far#i wouldnt be so strong#sdjkhfkds#something happened on that set bc like#what in the gay fuck is going on#i wonder how firsts voices are doing these days#they probably migrated into khaos brain#also i trust my boys with my life#so i know they will get this right no matter how bad the script might be#i am scared but my faith in them is stronger#i am ready
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So insane reading about Kev's skills from the perspective of someone who'd played with him before his hand was broken. Like yes Neil was obsessed with him and yes he knew he played differently with his right than his left—but reading it from JEAN'S perspective?? Life changing stuff. When he said the Ravens' defense forgot what Kev was like before he switched hands? I lost my mind.
#he made fools of the defensive line#FOOLS#that whole game was insane from Jean's perspective#one of my fav parts of tsc#he was seriously gagged#and so was i#even tho i knew what was going to happen#tsc#the sunshine court#all for the game#aftg#aftg tsc#jean moreau#kevin day#neil josten#kevin is so fucking good at exy and i think sometimes i don't appreciate that enough#also neil staying on riko the whole time was crazy#like jean being like “that's a terrible idea why would they do that”#and then realizing just how fucking fast neil is#it changed my brain chemistry#can you tell i like outsider povs?
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In the aftermath of Peri's tantrum, the Leisure Court Fairies discovered that nearly every Pixie within close proximity of Poof were completely drained of magic.
Fairies are presumed incapable of stealing magic-- not unless they are a bonded pair, where magic is shared. Therefore, the underlying reasons remain uncertain to this day. Cosmo had been the only Fairy to remain conscious during the blast, but researchers were unable to extract much information from him.
Thankfully, all Pixies, including Timmy, made a full recovery- with all their magic intact.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop cosmo#cosmo#fop peri#peri#fop jorgen vonstrangle#fop jorgen#jorgen vonstrangle#fop sandman#itty bitties fop au#this was supposed to be paired up with an ask- thats why its only 4 panels#but then i realized that the art here doesnt make sense with the ask so ive moved the ask for a later part instead#whether cosmo kept silent for poof's sake or because he genuinely couldnt say what happened is of much debate#though many suspects its most likely because he suffered massive withdraw due to using his pure form#that shit fucks you UP#scrambles the brain kinda fucked up#either way cosmo never told people what poof did to injure so many fairies#ALSO#LEISURE FAIRIES!!!#VERRY POWERFUL CREETURES!!!#and it still took 2 of them to contain poof hahahaha#get eepy idiot.#get bubbled idiot.
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I find myself agreeing with this woman’s thoughts on Alicent’s character this season. Which is a shame in many ways…
(Tagging those who might be interested in what this video has to say, I apologize if any of y’all have been trying to get this off your mind only for me to tag you here lol)
@alicentsgf , @lemonhemlock , @thewitchqueenofharrenhal , @spacerockfloater , @gwenllian-in-the-abbey , @forgotten-fossilised , @florisbaratheons , @applepie2523 , @tessarionbestgirl , @queenvhagar , @the-daily-dreamer , @chocobroing , @lunamond , @gojuo, @fearthhereaper , @abla-soso
#the way I can’t even elaborate on my full thoughts yet#that’s how jumbled my brain is rn#Alicent what have these terrible ass writers done to you#Jesus they fucked up badly#I’m gon take a nap after this#alicent hightower#pro alicent hightower#aegon ii targaryen#helaena targaryen#aemond targaryen#criston cole#alicole#alicent x criston#gwayne hightower#daeron targaryen#otto hightower#is that all the character names mentioned in the vid to be tagged? idk#hotd critical#hotd#house of the dragon
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