#boi a lot of songs went into this

[shroomerr]

Oh, help me God, this hellboy got me coming back for more

reblogs super appreciated !!! close-ups under the cut !

[s1llyfreakx3]

°• Some song recommendations for transgroomed/manipulated/abused folx, or generally those who want music about abusive/toxic/manipulative relationships :3 (focusing on like what transgroomed is like for me)

• "hands clean" by Alanis Morisette (90s pop about groomer grooming, and how he just got away with it and kept his metaphorical hands clean)

• "i threw glass at my friend's eyes and now I'm on probation" by Destroy Boys (punk rock, about the complicated feelings of both hating your groomer and wanting to stay with them) (THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SONG LISTEN TO IT PLEASE)

•"i hope you're hungry" by Sodikken ("misery meat" on some platforms) (weirdcore-y, using a nice cannibalism metaphor for letting yourself be abused in a relationship) ("people eater" is like the song that goes with it which is from the POV of the abuser)

•"i miss the misery" by Halestorm (metal/rock/idk genres, about missing the abuse of an abusive relationship)

•"vixen" by Destroy Boys (punk rock, sapphic, "trouble waits for a victim/I wouldn't mind being yours/seduce me, I'll come back for more")

•"all you wanna do" from Six the musical (about being groomed and manipulated multiple times, every time thinking the guy is the right one for you but they all just want to use you + like humour as a coping mechanism??)

•"drown me" by Junie & TheHutFriends (very weird /pos, about being in a toxic relationship but wanting that? Idk how to explain it it's very non-literal, also stuff like "would you like to see my world" "i see why I've never felt this way before".)

[blue-eli]

Ink October day twenty-six: Share

To accord a share in (something) to another or others.

To divide and parcel out in shares; apportion.

[egginfroggin]

*smacc*

It's ya boi. Major character death.

Emmet's fine, he's just a wee lil bit dead, that's all. Nothing some therapy won't help.

So I've had like no inspiration last long enough to really finish an illustration, so instead I'm trying to embrace the sketchy half-finished look.

Also, highlighter brush, beloved.

Have a good day! :>

(Program: Krita; time taken: about 1 hr. 40 minutes)

[myfriendtheghost]

had a GVF dream last night and naturally in my dream I had to log onto tumblr and tell everyone about my experience

so here I am fulfilling the prophecy

[c0rpsedemon]

ok fr last one but there's actually a bootleg of my school's anastasia and i'm linking it bc you all NEED to understand that my infatuation with this one girl's voice which started when i was in the 6th grade and still hasn't really worn off isn't based on nothing

[orangedogsquad]

Girls trip to an inner city dog park today!

[pebbledrat]

The longer I'm around the more convinced I become that Jill and Michael also had some kinda codependent-besties archetype thing going on?? they may or may not even have been aware of it, but like. they're kind of a matched set, you know? Frequently purchased together, do not separate them

[rintoki]

SIX SIX SIX FORBIDDEN ANGSTY ROMANCE WITH KAVEH?! Inspired from the song shameless by camilla cabello. Reader and kaveh are spies from opposing agencies and they encounter each other at a party (for one of the missions) inside a huge hotel.

When they both reach a VIP room to get their mission done, the owner of the room comes in and so they have to hide in a secret corner. Bodies touching, eyes searching for each other in the light sneaking in and breaths competing in speed.

All their previous encounters, rough words, soft touches and whispering conversations along their gazes come back like a bitter memory to them. They want to touch each other. Melt into one and fuck this forsaken life. But they cant. Their hands are just wandering over one another, fearing to touch another yet burning inside because of the intensity. So their glazed eyes try to satisfy what their heart and bodies cannot.

Anyways hows your day?🤩🤩

ok this took me a while to answer bc i was thinking about how i feel about this LMAO

mmm despite being on opposing agencies you two are on amicable terms, in fact you quite enjoy his company. and of course because your bosses hate each other, they would send their best to try to secure this highly classified and lucrative mission away from their rival.

and so all dolled up you get, in your best dress as you make your way into the ballroom, an intricately designed mask on your face as you scan the crowd for your target. but instead of the objective your eyes land on a familiar figure, one whose eyes are already looking at you.

despite the sea of people between you two and the mask covering half your face, you still managed to find each other. and maybe you could blame his brilliant red eyes for being hard to miss, but you have no excuse for how your legs start to walk towards him, nor the smile that graces your lips at the thought of meeting him once again.

kaveh can’t lie and say that he didn’t first think about possibly crossing paths with you again when he received this mission. knowing the importance his boss placed on it, it was obvious that part of the reason why was because his rival agency—your agency—would be competing for it as well. would it be unprofessional of him to be excited for a mission just because he might run into you? kaveh doesn’t spare it a second thought as he makes his way into the party, he himself dressed to the nines as per the dress code. though that isn’t the only reason he’s put in the extra effort to look nice.

his breath catches when he finally spots you, even with the mask on he knows it’s you. from the way you walked to your dazzling smile, kaveh feels his heartbeat quicken as you approached him, his own two feet taking him to you and meeting you halfway.

pleasantries and smiles exchanged as you spoke, keeping a comfortable distance between each other despite the small tug in your heart to take another step, lean a little closer. but you easily quash such thoughts, your mission still in mind as you spot your target out of your periphery.

with sharp eyes, you observed your target, disappearing behind a door with a lady on his arm. it doesn’t take much to piece together that they are looking for a more private spot, and if you were to get close you needed to blend in. a plan quickly formulates in your mind, your eyes shifting back to the man in front of you.

it doesn’t even take a second for kaveh to catch on, spotting the target of the mission and putting two and two together. in his mind he knows what you’re doing, he knows that as you take a step forward, closing the distance between you two, and your eyes softens and your body language takes on a more flirtatious undertone. he knows you’re just putting on a show, in a party full of masked people, it’s not uncommon for two people to meet and follow each other behind closed doors.

and so he lets it happen; he lets you lead him by his hands, your smile pulling him in and soon you find yourselves in a hallway right behind the same door the target has entered. just as quickly your body language changes again, now more professional and serious. although kaveh knows this mission is just as important to his agency as it is to yours, right now he just can’t find it in himself to care about it all. he’ll gladly let you take it, and face the consequences later.

he watches as you navigate your way in the unknown space, trailing behind you while still maintaining a keen eye of his surroundings—a skill that was drilled into him since his early days on the job. the hallway leads down several doors and prior reconnaissance of the building telling you which doors lead to what. if your target is as high-ranking as you were told, an intelligent guess leads you down the hallway, deeper into the building.

the further you go the less doors there are, now just a long continuous hallway turning into a corner. the carpeted floor helps to silence your steps, but in turn muffles the steps of waiter you can’t see just around the bend, exiting the room after serving an important guest that you can only assume to be your target.

with no where to hide in the empty hallway, getting caught sneaking around where you aren’t supposed to be would be detrimental to the mission. the server’s trolley was already turning the corner and you needed to do something now, something that no one would question what two people in a secluded hallway are doing. you’re quick to think your feet, an apologetic look in your eyes when you turn to kaveh before pushing him gently but as quickly as you can against the wall.

without a word you kissed him, hands finding its way to his cheeks as soft lips pressed against each other, albeit a little rough and messy. kaveh doesn’t need a word; his hands wrapping around your waist and he pulls you close, easily keeping up with you as the server lets out a shocked gasp when he finally turns the corner. you hear a flurry of sounds as the poor worker scurries past you two making out against the wall, apologising profusely with his head down.

out of the corner of your eye, you make sure the server was gone before pulling away, taking a generous step away as you compose yourself. not the most graceful kiss but you needed it to look believable. you bowed your head a little, muttering a stiff apology before continuing on your way, as if it was all in a day’s work.

kaveh doesn’t say a word, his eyes merely following your figure as you walked away. the wall behind him was cool in contrast to how hot his body felt, supporting him in such a crucial moment where he felt his legs turn to jelly with you so close to him, invading his senses so suddenly. no amount of providence could have possibly prepared him for how good it felt to have you close, how your body felt pressed against his. how right it was.

and he can’t say it doesn’t sting when you march on forward, seemingly unaffected with only the mission in mind while he was left reeling, a little out of breath and his mind a mess. what is a man to do? does he run after you? and what then, what could he possibly say to you? or does he leave quietly and give up probably the closest chance he has to learning how you feel? the seconds tick by as you get further and further from him, and kaveh makes up his mind.

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a/n: i think it’ll be funny if the bosses of the opposing agencies are actually like lovers to enemies and that’s why they hate each other LMAO also i hope that everyone that read through this whole thing was jebaited by suggestive angsty romance and instead got soft pining and longing YIPPEEE

[buoyantsaturn]

the thing about my spotify wrapped and ESPECIALLY this year's where it tells you when you peaked listening to your top 5 bands. so much new music came out for me this year. yes of course paramore was my number 1 artist in february that's when the album came out. yes of course i only listened to fall out boy in march that's when the album came out. yes of course i went crazy over hozier in august that's when the album came out. obviously i only listened to jimmy eat world in september that's when i saw them in concert. cobra starship.

[amzarashi]

i was tagged by @wherepoetsdie;;; misshh ily and tysm for tagging me!! ---> link (o′┏▽┓｀o)

tagging: @junghoesucc @arahir @distortedlightbeam @gryewaren @aredhels @irishforjane @gothgerry @filippa-kosta + anyone who wants to try (❁´◡`❁)

[gribblehusband]

just wondering and take all the time you need but do you have any plans for taking dotf off of hiatus or is it going to stay on the back burner for awhile? either way is completely fine i was just curious

its gonna be a hot second because im fixated back on undertale, so im picking back up on those fics that i started a few years back. for i am naught but a puppet bound to the whims of his adhd. HOWEVER i do have chapters 21-23 completely finished! ive been kind of considering, because it will likely be a while before i start posting again, if i should just drop the chapters i have finished now rather than wait until i finish chapter 30. because if i wait it will be a WHIIIIILE. unfortunately. not THAT long probably because dotf is easily my favorite thing ive ever written and i love it so much, but it will be a solid minute.

[imthatqueerkid]

CRUSH BLOGGING DAY 365!!!!!!

[always-crash1ng]

Honeymoon is Lana's best album. I'm tired of being fucking silenced. I know its true. Fuck you.

[eyes-like-the-night]

Sometimes a piece of fiction shows you abuse that triggers but also grabs you by the throat until you find the exact reason why it triggers

[eunhos]

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