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indecisive-dizzy · 2 months ago
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Late night ideas before I sleep!
It’s the Spider Daisey au because I miss it- and its about Eddie 🪦
I’m adding Venom into this au bacuase fuck it why not /j
Eddie gets possessed by the Venom parasite ☠️
I think since the main three have powers and they almost died, they slowly began to bond more while Eddie was unintentionally left behind
Eddie, being left out, began trying to handle small villain stuff on his own, like cleaning up messes and bringing back stuff left behind to Frank and Howdy’s lab for examining
In comes the Venom-
Eddie finds Venom in a vial in a destroyed lab, taking it back to the lab
Before Frank or howdy can examine it, part of it latches onto Eddie
Eddie slowly begins to get possessed by Venom, and it begins to mess with his head, trying to convince him his friends are abandoning him as more and more parts of Venom attach itself to him
Eventually, he’s being fully possessed and is coming chaos while he isn’t aware
He’s slowly distancing himself, losing sleep, barely eating, constantly sick, he’s clearly not okay
Once he’s fully possessed, he goes on a full rampage, destroying the town as he struggles to gain control of his body
Obviously the main trio are trying to save him, but are mostly thwarted based on the sheer amount of power Venom has because of his hold on Eddie. They need to free him
Once they managed to break into him as they recount their shared trauma while fighting off Venom, Eddie regains control and they can sedate venom
Part of Venom is destroyed and most of him is taken to the lab to be examined, but Eddie strikes up a deal with the parasite, be cooperative and he’ll stay as a host/vessel for Venom to use. He try anything sketchy, Eddie destroys the rest of him
Venom agrees and now he coexists with Eddie. They become buddies, it’s chill
I need sleep ;-;
I FORGOT TO TELL YOU TO HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT IN THE LAST ASK SOB 😭😭 Have a Great day/night Bestieeeee <33
Banging My Fist On The Table! Venom! Venom! Venom!!! My silly lil sorta-evil alien who I love very much <3
ofc Eddie gets the symbiote teehee <3
Sob not Eddie Being Left Out Angst,, my weakness sobs. Fr tho those three have done some crazy Battlefield Bonding and Eddie's just trying to fit in and help anyway he can. He probably feels so useless oh my god waaaoudagahhsaaa
Imagine they think Eddie's just having a mental breakdown and is genuinely ill but it's actually an alien parasite. Well technically the mental breakdown is real,, but the alien's here to!
Having no control of your body/Possession angst makes me ✨Unbearably Sad✨ Especially when the person starts hurting others and all they do is watch. bonus angst if they're in Pain✨
Eddie's waaay too nice to this thing that tried to completely take over his body and hurt his friends but. He also knows that the symbiote could Die without a host. Probably Not Canon To Venom Lore At All but I like to think that for a brief moment at some point Venom was at least a little scared, and Eddie felt it while being Venom's host. So yeah Eddie is sympathetic and feels bad for Venom but it all work out in the end <3
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chickenoptyrx · 10 months ago
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*sittin up projecting onto the baby blorbo when I should be sleeping*
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everyone when I log on <3
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#HEY YALLLLL 😌#first of all excuse any typos I don’t have the patience to correct shit <3#had work today til 2 cause I split a shift with a coworker and this bitch was really abt to call out on the shift#I literally laughed out loud and was like ‘idc I’m leaving at 2 <3’#had to call my fav manager to tell her abt it and she was like yeah you’re responsibility is only#until 2 so you leave at 2 and I’ll work it out with her#like THANK YOU#and then the manager above her is the one that watches the cameras usually and when I was discussing it with my coworker#I looked up at the cams and was like ‘I’m sorry but I’m leaving at 2 whether she’s coming or not <3’#I’d already had enough in those 4 hours cause the manager that’s in charge of the clinics in the county I’m in#(which is usually who I report to) had off today and didn’t tell me she was sending someone in for me to train#so in walks this girl wearing a shirt with our logo in it and both the doctor and I were like 🧍🏻‍♀️ who are you 🧍🏻‍♀️#and my fav manager is in charge of the county next to ours but when my main manager isn’t on I report to her#and when I reached out to her abt it she obv didn’t know anything either bc she wasn’t the one that hired her#so my point is my main manager isn’t cut out to be one bc every time I reach out to her I get attitude#and she’s backed up on our schedules AND she didn’t tell me she was sending me someone to train so I had no idea what I was supposed to do#bc I don’t have the training paperwork she’s supposed to send it to me#4 fucking hours and this job managed to piss me off with the first 30 minutes#and now ppl are starting to come over from our most popular clinic bc ‘it’s always too busy so the wait time is long’ ‘the dr rushes’#blah blah etc and like yeah duh bc that clinic gets the most business#so in those 4 hours I saw more patient than what I’ve seen in other clinics for the full 9 hrs#hated it <3 and I had to juggle training someone new <3 and I was almost forced to stay the whole 9 hours <3#good news is I have a job interview somewhere else on Tuesday which I’ll probably get and they’re willing to mold to my hours & pay me more#so hopefully that goes well so I can dip this shithole and get my weekends/my life back#bc even on my days off I can’t have peace cause it’s almost guaranteed they’ll try#to call me in 💀 like be so serious#N E WAYS MANIFEST IT GOES WELL FOR ME SO I CAN SKEDADDLE
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justablah56 · 1 year ago
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good evening can i foffer you tatlod angst inbfhezs reying gimds
yes please give me the Taylor angst cookies
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago
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illubean · 2 months ago
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Hii!! Im a new fan but i really REALLY. Like youre jjba series!!
But I was wondering if you could do part 3 jotaro x fem reader that has similar powers as Blair from soul eater (like begin able to transform into a cat, and begin a witch all that fun stuff) ?? 🙏🏼
have a having a good day/night!! ♡
( Sorry if I misspelled or if there's any typos english is not my first language (-ω-;). )
Jotaro W/ a Blair!Gf
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Characters: Jotaro Kujo Type: Headcanons, Fem!Reader
GETTING MORE JOJO RQS WE'RE SO BACK
Warnings: mentions of nudity but like,,,not sexual?
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the first time he saw you floating around on a pumpkin and blowing stuff up he assumed it was just some weird stand power he's never heard of
but when Avdol was like that is NOT a stand he was confused
bro hunted and pinned you down just so he could figure out wtf was going on
"it wouldn't be that fun if I just told you, pretty boy."
and he's like wtf why are u flirting with me
lets just say somehow you die in front of him then come back as a cat and boom you tell him you're just a cat with insane powers and you have 9 (well...now 8) lives
and now that he knows what you are he's satisfied i guess? still confused but if stands exist so can you
and now he cannot get rid of you >.<
you just follow him around and complain about how boring things have been and blah blah blah and bro is just like oh good grief
at one point he just stops trying to get rid of you
for some reason you're a lot more comfortable with being naked or wearing next to nothing than most people..
one time your top got destroyed in a fight and you walked around like that for god knows how long until Jotaro gave you his jacket with a "good grief"
once you guys get into a relationship he tries to make sure you keep all of your remaining lives
bro isn't so sure how he feels about you flirting your way through the market and getting free fish though...
he rather just pay for you then see some old guy make heart eyes at you
he always makes sure to stand behind you when you wear short skirts/shirts and glare at any man who even glances in your direction
will never admit it even if you ask him but bro gets a teeny bit jealous
he's like a silent, big and scary dog
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gretavanlace · 1 year ago
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Debauchery Defined
Jake Kiszka x reader
18+ only! Minors do not interact!
Warnings: graphic sexual content, language, masturbation, dirty talk, dangerous situations, oral sex (m/rec), illegal activity (traffic related), etc. jake in a hat briefly - cause that shit deserves a warning. Probably typos, excessive italics as per usual, blah blah blah
“I’m sorry, sir, I have nothing under the name of Kiszka.”
The bored attendant, slouched upon a stool beneath an Enterprise sign, doesn’t even have the decency to sound mildly apologetic.
The sign is bright. Too bright for the hour. Too bright for the weary, sleep deprived, burn in your eyes. Just too bright.
Judging by the furrow in his brow, despite his ever present sunglasses, Jake shares your contempt for the fluorescent glow.
“I made a reservation days ago.” You reiterate, spelling his last name once more. Turns out, it’s a lesson in futility, as the clerk doesn’t even bother to type it in.
“I told you,” he snaps, fixing you with a glare. You sense he thinks it reeks of authority. It doesn’t. “There’s no rental reservation. Spell the name all night long if you feel like it, but it isn’t going to change anything.”
Jake, in a smooth rush, is leaned in closer - serpentine and quick in his movement. Yet, calculated, careful, eerily calm in that unsettling way he adopts when irritation is trudging toward anger.
His warning comes quietly, but it bears a menacing aura all the same. “Speaking to her that way is ill advised, I can promise you that.”
Your hand finds his arm, stroking soothingly through the worn hopsack of the blazer he layered on, hours ago, before your flight. “Jake, it’s alright.”
Never aggressive just for show, and certainly never overtly so, when Jacob feels someone is crossing a line with you, he is quick to polish his armor - a knight sweeping in to save his damsel in distress.
He relaxes visibly beneath your touch and navigates back to civility with a deep breath.
“Alright…” he flicks a glance at the name tag that rests crookedly on the other man’s shirt “Tyler. So you don’t have the reservation - we need a car. You have cars. Simple. Why is this an issue?”
He’s tired, and cranky…a long day of travel has leeched the patience from his bones.
Tyler, likely used to overwhelmed travelers frequenting the airport kiosk, remains unimpressed. “I have one available vehicle. Luxury class. Reserved for our most discerning clients.”
Jake rolls his eyes, clearly teetering on the edge of asking this asshole if he’d like to taste the back of his hand. “As it happens, I am discerning. How lucky for us. We’ll take it.”
Papers are signed, keys are exchanged, and finally, you’re schlepping through the hall leading to Parking garage B7, as instructed.
“Luxury for discerning clients.” He scoffs, hefting his bag, and yours, over his shoulder, though you continue to insist you can share the load.
His battered guitar case swings against his legs as he stomps along, “What an asshole. S’probably some boat of a Lincoln or something…I’m gonna look like a pimp.”
The wide-brimmed hat cocked low over his shades will be most fitting, then, won’t it?
Laughing at his dramatics - not so different from his twin, after all - you watch the doors whoosh open to reveal a deserted sea of concrete. Deserted that is, save for one lone sports car waiting beneath a flickering light.
You both stop short. “Or a frat boy douchebag.”
“Frat boys can’t afford cars like that.” You correct, nudging him to get moving.
He picks up the pace dutifully, “So, just a douchebag, then?”
“Yes, yes, Jacob…you’re very refined and everybody knows it.” You tease, ever the soft heart for his antiquated flare. “If anyone sees you, we’ll just explain that your horse and buggy are in the shop.”
His eyes rove across the lines of the car as you approach. Slyly sweeping over the glossy, black curves, almost hidden below the mysterious shadow of his hat.
“I’ll drive.” He mutters as if it’s no big deal, startling your feet to a standstill.
Never, not once, in the entirety of all the time you’ve known him has he ever offered to drive. In fact, now that you’re exploring the subject, you don’t think you’ve ever even seen him so much as graze a finger over a steering wheel.
“Do you…” you pause to collect your jumbled thoughts. “Do you even have a driver’s license?”
It seems strange, all at once - that you’ve never wondered about this before.
“What?” He laughs, finally shaking off the annoyance he’s been wearing on his shoulders for a few too many hours.
You wait while he presses a button on the key fob, opening the trunk with a smooth hiss, asking “well, do you?” as he dumps the bags, and his Gibson, inside.
You’ve seen him present identification hundreds of times, but you can’t recall it ever being anything but his passport.
“Purse in the boot or up front with you, darling?” He asks with an exaggerated swagger and flourish.
“Stop avoiding the question, Jacob.” You sigh, folding your arms as he slings your purse over his shoulder, abandoning Oliver, and moving to open the passenger side door for you. “Do you or don’t you?”
He waits until you’ve settled and then bends at the waist, offering a forehead kiss, and a secret. “I don’t. You wanna break a few rules with me, hall monitor?”
You feel your eyes widen as if he’s just confessed to casual murder for sport.
But you tamp it down and take hold of some perspective, this isn’t murder. Still, you don’t like it.
“Jake, don’t drag me into your debauchery. If you want to endanger the lives of hundreds of unsuspecting motorists, you can do it alone.”
In response, he swings the door closed and jogs around the sloping, gleaming hood, slipping into the driver’s seat, gentle and sleek as a sleepy housecat.
“I never said I didn’t know how to drive, baby,” he tosses his hat in the back and shakes out his waves, “just that I failed to revisit the DMV when ‘the man’ said my time was up.”
“This is stupid.” You slide down in your seat, careful not to reveal how much you’re enjoying the supple leather coasting along the backs of your thighs where your shorts have ridden up.
The opulence is an undeniable high. One you wouldn’t have expected, but there all the same.
He grins to himself, face lit up, beautiful and bright, like a little boy in a toy store. “Debauchery,” his voice is smooth as whipping cream. Smoky. Lazy. Like he plays behind the wheel of a flashy Porsche every day. “Immoral behavior that involves sex, drugs, alcohol, etcetera.”
“What?” You’ve begun to relax already. He is skillfully maneuvering the vehicle through the twists and turns of the garage. Okay, so maybe he does know how to drive.
“Debauchery. That’s what it means. It isn’t this.” He waves a hand, absently calling attention to the car. “But don’t you worry that pretty little head of yours, my love. I’ll have you dragged down into the thick of it soon enough.”
Leaning back against the headrest, you decide to give into his whim and enjoy the ride. It’s lovely to be able to strip off the stress of the day and let him take over the department of transportation, for once.
As you study him, with the hum of the road and the purring engine serving as white noise, you can’t help the smile that tugs at your lips.
“Jacob Kiszka,” you allow your grin to widen as it will, “I never would’ve guessed you’d be such a guy.”
He grabs for your hand, pleased that - as luck would have it - he has been blessed behind the wheel of an automatic…the absence of a gear shift leaves him open to holding onto you, and you are his favorite thing to hold.
“What are you on about?” Oliver pops in to say hello again, as is habit when Jake feels a bit too on the spot.
“Never once have you wanted to drive,” you remind him, lacing your fingers through his. “No matter how many times I tease you for being a passenger princess. Wave one fast car with a pretty paint job under your nose and you’re swimming in testosterone.”
A soft laugh is his only response as he coaxes out onto the freeway.
“You look good behind the wheel, baby. You know that?” Your free hand toys with a lock of his hair, smoothing it and twirling it around your pinky.
“I look good, always.” he sighs, feigning boredom as he weaves in and out of traffic to find his desired lane.
The further away from the hub of the city you drive, the more traffic begins to dissipate, until you seem to be adrift along some dystopian highway time has forgotten.
“How long?” You ask softly.
Staring out the window at the scenery whipping by sounds lulling, you might even fall asleep to it, but you can’t seem to tear your eyes away from him, and this calm, capable, skill set you never knew he possessed.
How like him to keep you on your toes, sharing bits and pieces of himself little by little. Doling out tiny Jacob Thomas shaped morsels only when he sees fit.
“Who cares how long?” He glances up at nothing in the rear view mirror. “This is nice.”
“It is.” You agree. Allowing the silence to wrap up warmly around you both again.
You watch him. And you watch him. And you watch him some more.
And you’d help it, if you could. Honest. The timing is most inappropriate. Not to mention, likely a little dangerous, but something about watching him command all that power beneath his hands has you weak. Submissive. Needy.
In moments of weakness in the dark, you’ve confessed that you feel the same watching him play. The way he makes love to his well worn and loved guitar. The way he coaxes sex soaked wails and whines from the strings, working his fingers faster and faster along the frets until the climax crashes apart, exploding into sound where there once was quiet.
The way he talks to her, the way he loves her. The way he knows her body just a little better than he knows yours, or even his own. It all makes you a bit jealous in the most decadent way. It makes you eager to showcase your worth as well, to sink to your knees in service to this god walking around amongst men.
He holds a brand new power and you want to slink into his lap and mewl like a kitten starved for attention. Instead, you settle for moving in closer, brushing a feathery kiss against his neck, nuzzling into the crook of it, unabashedly brazen with your want.
“Hello, my love.” His eyes never stray from the road, but his hand wanders your thigh, welcoming you. “What can I do for you?”
“I’m wet.” It’s a simple admission, but the way you hush it in his ear causes his cock to stir. It takes so little from you to pluck at his edges until he’s unraveling at the seams.
“Why’s that?” He adjusts in his seat, spreading his thighs just enough to make your head spin. “All I’m doing is driving a car. Is that all it takes?”
“Sometimes.” You sound pouty. It’s hardly there at all, but he hears it and he loves it. His spoiled rotten sweetheart.
“Well, I’m a little busy, love.” He slides his hand higher, silently wishing you had chosen a skirt today. “But you go on and be sweet to that pretty pink place I love so well. I miss your pussy, baby…it’s been such a long day. Miss the way you feel, the way you smell, the way you taste. I want you all over my face, fuck. Touch yourself.”
“Right here in the car?” You suck his earlobe into your mouth and the nibble over it as if he is an indulgent treat, because he is.
“Yeah.” He nods, grip tightening around the steering wheel, “Right here in the car.”
Maybe some other time you might toy with him a bit, dangle the string just out of his reach, but you’re further off track than he is at this point, so you shimmy out of your shorts and slide out of your sandals to rest your toes on the dash. Your knees fall apart as your fingers disappear into your panties with the tiniest moan when your fingers brush over your clit.
“Aren’t you such a good girl?” He pats at your thigh in praise, burying his grip into the soft, warm flesh there. Filthy, fucking dirty little thing, touching her pretty, wet cunt in a car we don’t even own just because I asked. So good, baby. Who’s my well behaved, darling girl?”
Sometimes you think his need to praise you rivals your own deep-rooted lust for receiving it.
“I’m your good girl.” You breathe, writhing slowly in your seat, drawing in the scent of sex and Italian leather, laced with the faintest hint of his cologne. It has faded with the hours, handing the spiced teakwood over to something a little more Jake…this is when you love it best.
“Then be my good girl and come over here. Come see me, sweetheart.” He extends an arm, casually inviting you in. You know what he wants, and you plan to give it to him.
For a moment, you're both illuminated in the golden glow of headlights traveling along across the median…he looks like the slickest snake masquerading as an angel. A serpent in the garden, ever tempting and cunning.
It’s all a front, as you well know. A role he plays when he wants to make you quake with desire. His heart is soft and kind, ever mindful of others, ever stuffed full of unending empathy and thoughtful love.
Unbuckling your seatbelt with a click that makes him frown, you slide over to the very edge and toy with the clasp of his belt, panting hot little puffs of breath against his flushed cheek, if only to stir him up further.
“You want that?” He lifts into your touch so you can feel how hard he is, all for you.
“Yeah,” tiny pecks of your lips chart his jawline. “Yeah, I want that.”
“Say it.” His fingers are in your hair now, curling into a loose fist near the nape of your neck, pushing you down. “Say you want my cock. Say where you want it.”
You’re hurrying now, tenderly fumbling with the buckle, hungry and desperate for it. “I want your cock, Jake. Want it in my mouth…in my throat.”
“Fuck…” it growls out of him strangled and tangled up with hot, salacious, greed. “C’mon, baby.”
You long to preen with pride; he wants it so badly, so suddenly - but there are more pressing matters at hand.
Both hands on the wheel now, he watches as you sink down around him, swallowing him so deeply, and with no real warm up, that you gag, sucking him down further anyway as you retch and sputter around his length, throat both fighting the intrusion and pining for more of it.
“Slow down.” His warning grits out through his teeth. He didn’t want to say it at all, slow is the last thing he wants. He wants to float off into it, stare focused and sure on the road, thoughts lost in the way you sound fighting around his cock, sucking and lapping over him, dying for just a little more, just another taste….
You shake your head adamantly, sending your soft, wet tongue slicking back and forth just along the base, nearly nudging at his balls as they tighten up for you. Every reaction his body hands over is all for you. Always for you.
“Fuck, baby,” his right hand drops to pet at your glossy hair as he fucks up into your kiss. “Gonna make me cum in that pretty little mouth. Feels so fuckin’ good. You want it?”
Nodding urgently, you bury your nose into the soft path of hair that trails below his belly button, choking until your throat is squeezed around him, strangling the thick head of his throbbing cock.
He’s twitching against your lips now, straining and pulsing, fucking throbbing. Obscene and depraved. Perfect.
“M’close, baby,” he’s murmuring raspy, stuttering, pleas as his grip tightens until your scalp stings blissfully. “Keep going, just like that, so close…baby, baby, baby, fuck…”
He’s whining and babbling, broken curses and hissing encouragement that barely makes sense. You couldn’t love it more.
Hollowing your cheeks, you suck hard on the updrawn and then relax your throat, plunging him straight to the back of it in one harsh go with a guttural sound that makes his thighs jerk.
You feel the slight hitch in the gas as he loses his footing on the pedal, and soothe him with a palm swept under his shirt until you can feel his heart hammering against your palm.
He regains focus - you can feel it - and then whispers a soft, “Thank you, sweet girl.” Grateful that your wits have prevailed when his own were waning.
You linger at the base, licking at what you can with his heavy weight cradled in your tongues embrace. He flexes violently, and you brace for it, gluttonous for the warmth of his release, and with a groan and gasp of your name, he doesn’t disappoint.
“Gonna cum, baby,” oh, he sounds so pretty. Trotting out the tiny whimpers that are saved for when he’s really lost in it. “Don’t stop, don’t stop, dontstopdontstopdontstop, fuck fuck fuck—“
Your taste buds dance with him, alive with the delicacy that is Jacob. So warm and perfect, covering your tongue, rolling down your throat, until you can feel him inside you, really inside you, in the way you love most.
He’s a mess above you, but you carry on until he is whining with overstimulation and begging you to stop, lightly pulling you away until you can just barely lap over his glistening tip as he softens against his splayed open pants.
You know he’s thinking of all the ways he plans to return the favor when he can properly get his hands on you, but as he catches his breath beside you and steals glances at you tucking his beautiful cock away, you feel completely, totally, blissfully, satisfied.
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findmeintheferns · 2 years ago
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sweet dreams
fuck me like you missed me then
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𝓢𝓾𝓶𝓶𝓪𝓻𝔂: y/n can’t sleep, how could she? she had gotten so used to ellie fcking her every night before bed. since ellie and cat were back together they can’t anymore. uno because that would be wrong, right? right???
𝓦𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰: angst, smut (oral sex, fingering), apologies if there is typos i got sick of rereading this lol
𝓦𝓸𝓻𝓭 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓽: 1.5k
𝓟𝓪𝓲𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓰: ellie williams (TLOU) x reader
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You had tried everything, you mediated, downed 2 cups of chamomile tea, took a warm shower, read. Hell, you even counted sheep for a solid 15 minutes to no avail. You just could not sleep. Usually you wouldn’t really care that much, you enjoyed your quiet time and would spent the night finishing a book or watching whatever movie you could scavenge from crumbling houses. Nighttime was really the only time you could be alone. However tomorrow you had patrol at 5am and you didn’t really love the idea of no sleep before that. You stared at the clock as the hand crept closer and closer to the early hours of the morning.
“That’s it. Fuck it.” you groaned in frustration, pushing yourself off your couch and marching towards the door. You knew deep down this wasn’t a great idea, but you were desperate. It was freezing outside, you didn’t even bother to put on a jacket before making your way to Ellie’s. You see, the past few months between you and her had been kinda awkward. You were best friends since Ellie and Joel had returned from Salt Lake City. You met her during a rough time, and you bonded over that. She was the first person you ever did a patrol with, you know, without a group. You always knew there was something more there, you just didn’t act on it. However when Ellie and Cat went on their first ‘break’ you slipped up. The two of you had been drinking alone in her room, she couldn’t stop complaining about her ex and you were getting fed up of hearing about it. You didn’t like Cat in the first place, and the idea of making her jealous lit a fire in you, one didn’t know was there before. Ellie was mid sentence, saying something along the lines of, “And you know what fucking gets me? She says that I should cut YOU out of my life because you secretly want me blah blah blah yet she’s always with stupid Bailey, the one person I know for a fact wants to fuc-“ you cut her off, pressing your lips against hers and making her shut up. She pulled away, looking kinda shocked. That shock however didn’t last long because about 2 seconds later she was pulling you into her lap by your tank top and roughly kissing you back. After that incident you continued to fuck for a few weeks, spending almost every night in her bed or her in yours. The problem was you didn’t talk about it, probably because you knew it was wrong. You’d simply wait for one another the second it got dark out to show up at the door and then spend a solid chunk of the night having the best sex of your life. This was up until a week ago, which is when you noticed Cat desperately trying to fix things with Ellie.
“Wait- y/n, don’t go. I don’t understand?” Ellie quickly followed after you as you made your way to the door.
“Cat wants you back Ellie, come on we can’t keep doing this.” You grab the door handle but Ellie’s hand grabs yours, stopping you from being able to twist it. You make eye contact with her and sigh.
“Why does it matter if she wants me back?” she asks, confused.
You push her hand off yours, aggressively opening the door.
“You clearly want her too, you shouldn’t ruin your chances by continuing something that’s purely just sex.”
You don’t give her a chance to reply, you don’t even look at her face, scared that her expression will convince you she’s feeling something she’s not. You didn’t have the balls to tell her how you actually felt, like how you wish you were hers instead of Cat, or how you were scared to take it any further because you couldn’t risk losing her as a friend. From then on you had barely been talking, she seemed kinda pissed off at you actually. Plus her and Cat were back together, so yeah, you knew it was the wrong thing to do, but you no longer gave a fuck. You reach her door and gently knock three times, wondering if she’ll even be awake to hear it. Suddenly a sleepy, groggy Ellie opens the door, looking puzzled.
“Y/n? Is everything okay?” she mumbled staring at you with confusion. You don’t waste anytime making your way into her room and slamming the door shut.
“Y/n I don’t understa-“ You cut her off again, grabbing her face and pressing her lips to yours. You expect her to get angry at you but instead she returns the kiss even more rough then you were. Before you know it she has pushed you onto the bed, her lean but muscular body on top of yours. You moan at the sight of her, she’s wearing a singlet with with no bra, so you can see how hard her nipples are already. Her hair is a little messy, probably from sleep, but still looks good somehow. She practically tears your shirt off you and moves her kisses from your lips down your neck and to your breasts. You gasp at the feeling of her lips on your chest as she intently sucks your nipples, making your whole body tingle. You pull on her hair and she lets out a moan, moving back to your lips. You’ve made out for too long, you need more, you grind against her leg and she retaliates, pressing her thigh into your clit. You grab her singlet and pull it off without hesitating. You begin unbuttoning her pants however you’re interrupted by her raspy voice.
“Wait, wait, wait, Y/n. Are we really doing this?” she says, clearly out of breath.
“I mean, only if you want to” you shrug
“I want to. I really want to. But i’m confused, you told me to get back with Cat? You made it clear that what we had was just sex, are you just really horny because if that’s the cas-“
You press you finger to her lips.
“Ellie, come on did you really think this was just sex to me? I hate Cat, I envy her. I’ve wanted you since we were 15 but I couldn’t risk losing you. I just can’t pretend anymore.”
You watch Ellie’s face carefully, scared that what she’ll say next will cause you two to never speak again. Instead she softly rubs her fingers on against your cheek.
“I really wish you told me earlier, we wasted so much time. I missed you this last week, a lot.” she sighs.
You are so relieved you could actually cry, but now is not the time for that.
“Fuck me like you missed me then.” you don’t have time to say anything else, because the second you finished your sentence Ellie has lifted you up and roughly placed you on top of her hips so that you are straddling her as she lays down. Your lips reconnect and you grind down hard.
“I need you” you moan, drunk on the how good this feels.
“I’ve got you baby” she replies, flipping you over and pulling your pants down quicker than you thought was humanly possible. She unbuttons her pants so you are both naked, your pussy pulsing from the sight.
“So wet for me huh baby?” she hums, causing you to groan.
Wasting no time she presses her mouth against your clit, moaning at your reaction to her tongue. It isn’t long before you feel your stomach begin to grow warm, you’re not going to last long. You grab her hand that is tightly gripped against your thigh. She always does this so she can hold you in place while she licks and sucks in the perfect rhythm. You push her hand further down and she knows exactly what you want. She presses her fingers inside you and you throw your head against the pillow, making the headboard loudly hit the wall. She continues to finger you while using her magic mouth on your clit as you feel yourself begin to come undone. It makes you so fucking wet how much she loves eating your pussy.
“F-fuck, FUCK, Ellie i’m so close. I’m so so fucking close ughh” you moan worryingly loud but oh well, you couldn’t care less in this moment. Ellie moans into your pussy and you’re thrown over the edge, cumming arguably harder than you’ve ever cum in your life. Ellie rolls over, laying next to you, as you both try and catch your breath.
“Fuck.” You groan, thinking about how good she makes you feel. You roll over and look at her, sweaty and breathless.
“You okay?” you ask “You seem kinda out of breath.” She turns to look at you, her cheeks bright pink.
“I-I um, sorta”
“Spit it out Ellie” you say impatiently, worried something is wrong.
“Shut up” she retaliates “I came. When I was eating you out idk how but I finished”
You giggle, moving so that you are now on top of her.
“Naw don’t be embarrassed Els, wanna cum again?” you whisper in her ear causing her to groan,
“You know I fucking do”.
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dreamofcamelot · 2 months ago
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What about….. descendants AU???
(Quick idea bcs fight of our lives is on repeat rn. It’s going to be messy since im copying what I had in my notes, so excuse any typos)
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So Arthur is the prince of Avalon blah blah blah instead of villains here they banned magic and sent all sorcerers to the isle.
Ok so Morgana turns out to be a sorcerer, Arthur who is about to be crowned king is like “we need to do something this has to change, let’s give them a chance” so he decides to invite a few of the children of the isle to come and study here.
Now enter the vks
We got manic pixie boy Merlin who grew up with stories about magic and dragons and his (absent) father and hates what the crown has done to sorcerers and magic. He's always felt like his very existence is a crime.
His magic? Banned. Books? Confiscated. He’s lived all his life in the isle so he does not know what magic feels like but but but he knows there’s something in his chest a pressure like he can’t never take a real breath like there’s something holding him back. He feels there’s something inside him that’s begging to come out.
Merlin, Nimue, Freya idk all the sorcerers maybe Mordred can come too I like him, are chosen to go to Avalon High.
They are happy about it, yeah why not, maybe things are finally changing and they might have a chance at leaving the island and having a different future, they heard the prince is not like his father, they want to give him a chance.
Merlin specially wants to give him, whoever he is, a chance.
Then they get there n meet Arthur n he’s all formal and wear this fake smile n Merlin can tell he’s doing this reluctantly, he is not confortable or happy to be greeting them, their presence alone bother him and it’s showing.
It’s obvious to them that deep down he hates magic n since magic is what he is he must hate Merlin too so not a great start.
When they crossed the bridge, Merlin felt it, it’s like the world got back it’s colors, like seeing, breathing for the first time.
Magic is in desuse in Avalon so people don’t learn it nor practice it but since Merlin is magic the second he leaves the isle he's able to use magic naturally as if he had been doing it all his life.
He begins experimenting with it and conjuring cute fire dragons and showing the others what they missed all those years and suddenly he realises that up until that point, without his magic, the very source of his being, Merlin was not living.
For the first time in his life he feels something. And then his hatred become stronger. How could they have taken this away from them, from him? Completion never felt more bittersweet.
And then, instead of going the d1 route, something happens, maybe Agravaine's being nasty again and throwing a coup d’etat or smth cause I really want to throw here the plot of d4 and bam they need to fix it, they must go to the past together n then, because they are a couple of dumbasses in every universe they start fighting n mess up with the pocket watch.
So instead of traveling to a few moments before the incident they end up to when magic was about to get banned and wow they discover the truth about Merlin’s incredible powers n learn about his dragon lord dad and wow is that Arthur’s mom? Wait what is his dad doing with a sorcerer?? Unbelievable. They have more in common than any of them thought before.
Etc etc etc 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️
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sealeneee · 1 month ago
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what's this. this bitch writes sometimes.
fandom: swtor
«failures», 762 words, pg-13, gen
warnings: swearing, suicidal themes, possible ooc
characters: theron shan & katona nardanna (oc); don't tag as ship
if you notice any typos/mistakes please let me know
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Night has long fallen on Odessen as the Commander effortlessly steps over the railing of the base's roof. Carefully keeping her balance at the very edge, she grabs the banisters behind her, flinching at the coolness of the metal. Someone with a less grim mood would probably admire the starry void above.
"Going somewhere?"
The man's voice is rather casual for the situation he's facing. Katona smirks. At least he knows better than to get all teary-eyed at her.
"Yeah, wanted to go grab some bantha milk."
"What, you'd leave your kids all alone? I knew you were capable of cruelty, but that seems excessive even for you."
"«Kids», hah. Half the base's older than me, Theron."
"Aww, we're all still your little ducklings. Don't be silly."
The half-sincere, half-sarcastic tone of the conversation doesn't change. It has always been like that for them — masks of fake cheer not strong enough to cover the bleak nature of the conversation, but enough to chase away the heartrending unease of talking about your feelings.
"Seriously, though. What's bothering you? No promises on a resolution, of course, but I can offer things like getting blackout drunk or wreaking havoc."
"I already do the latter almost on a daily basis, Shan."
"True. So?"
"So."
The silence stretches for a couple minutes. It's never truly quiet — the soft hum of the electricity and the distant sounds of the local wildlife fill the void.
"I just feel like... like I'm running in circles. Powerless. Chasing shadows. Grasping at the faintest leads, and feeling them slip away from my fingers. I've accomplished nothing so far."
"Tona. You have an entire military base under your command."
"That was all Lana. I didn't even know it existed", she gestures at the buildings below them. "I didn't even want to lead this! But as usual, nobody else can, blah blah, it falls to me." The dramatic offense in her voice is insincere, playful.
"Right. And the killing of the Emperor was Lana too?"
"No, but if you didn't notice," she taps her temple, "that wasn't very successful either."
"Jeez. You really find a way to undermine all of your achievements."
"I'm just stating the obvious. I've failed spectacularly in many aspects of my life." Katona chuckles and shifts her weight, still balancing on the edge of the building. "Yet somehow that hasn't stopped people from assigning more shit to me."
"I don't see how most things in your life can be categorized as «failures»."
"Let's go through the list, then. Getting rid of the Emperor? Certainly didn't work out. Stopping his kids? Work in progress. Makeb? Not sure, but I was chewed out by Saresh anyway–"
"Hey, as if she doesn't chew everyone out for every onething."
"Not the point. Still wasn't a good result. You know what else wasn't a good result? Fucking Ziost."
Theron's face darkens at the mention of the Imperial world. The failure of that operation can't be attributed to a single person, but he always seemed more affected by it than the rest.
"Anyway", Katona continues, not pausing to take a breath, "you get the point. I've failed many times. Guess the biggest failure is at being a Jedi — don't think I need to elaborate that one to you."
"No, you don't. But you know what?", he steps closer to the rails, "you're not the only one who failed at being Jedi here, Tona."
Katona turns to look at him, her expression skeptical. What he said is somewhat true, but the circumstances couldn't be more different. Theron doesn't stop at that.
"From one failed Jedi to another, let me tell you this. It gets better. Not quickly, that's for sure. But it does. And for days when it doesn't, I'll be here for you. And I'm sure I'm not the only one who shares the sentiment."
She doesn't answer him for a bit. When she finally does, her voice is softer, almost a whisper.
"Thanks." She smiles gently, turning her head to look at him. "So that's what we are, huh?"
"Yeah. Two nocturnal fuck-ups standing on a roof in the middle of the night."
Katona snorts.
"You came here of your own volition."
"Yeah, and now my volition says we're both leaving. You need at least a few hours of sleep."
Theron outstretches a hand, and Katona takes it, hopping back over the metal fence. The stars above them are just as uncaring, and the night air is just as cold, but something about the atmosphere doesn't feel as hostile and unwelcoming anymore.
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tulipanthousa · 8 months ago
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Ugh
For anyone who hasn't already heard, Googledocs has stopped permitting the sharing of NSFW content because blah blah distribution of porn. As soon as I can get ahold of a big enough flash drive I'll be taking everything off so it doesnt get eaten but I have no idea what to about beta reading.
I know I can always post them unbetaed but I remember just how much of a hot mess of typos my early stuff came out and I'm dreading it. I'm just not good at proofreading my own stuff cuz I just see what I know in my head is supposed to be there
Suggestions are welcome but. I dunno yall maybe prepare for some subpar grammar in my smut in the future 😭
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drunkenbagel · 1 year ago
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prompt 19 and 22 w pedro?!?!?!?!? the setting would be some club and ur super not feeling it so u sit down to have a drink and when pedro sits next to u he just stares at ur face longingly. when you catch him and ask what he’s doing he asks if his staring makes u nervous. u blush and get shy when he asks u to dance… blah blah unfolding into prompt 19.. u get it!! just short nothing to complicated lol. love ur work!!
thank you so much!! I'll do the best i can! sorry if there's any typos or anything, not very proofread :') hope you like it !! x
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The music was starting to irritate you. It wasn't that you didn't like going out with your friends, but you were just not much in the mood.
You had a hectic day at work, and when your best friend asked you to join a few of them to go clubbing it seemed like a good idea. But there you were, a couple of hours and drinks later, not feeling part of the party anymore.
Pedro had gone out with some friends too, which later joined yours. You two knew each other from other times where your groups had been together in cinema, dinners, concerts... And to be honest, he caught your eye pretty soon, but you thought he was way out of your league.
As you twirled your drink once again, you let out a sigh. You felt someone sit beside you at the bar, and you were ready to reject the advances of another lousy man. But instead of a drunk dude you were met with kind brown eyes and a shy side smile.
“Oh. Hi”
“Hi”
Pedro couldn't tear his eyes off of you. He couldn't help it. You just had that kind of effect on him, looking so effortlessly beautiful, quiet yet ethereal. He liked looking at you. How you clapped your hands together when you laughed, or how you scrunched your nose when you smiled. You had noticed his gaze on you, but you didn't mind. In fact, you liked it. You felt like beaming with his gaze on you. After a little while, you mustered up the courage to lock his gaze with yours.
“What?” you asked, smiling.
“Nothing. Sorry” he said smiling too. He watched as your cheeks turned a slight shade of pink. “y/n, I'm sorry for asking, and you can totally not answer, but... Does me staring make you nervous?”
You bit your bottom lip softly as you moved your eyes to your drink, fidgeting with it.
“No. No, that's alright.”
“Good. Can I ask you a dance then?” You looked in his direction with a stunned look. He suddenly felt self conscious, and lifted a hand in the air. “If- If that's fine. I- I mean-”
“I'd love to. But you might be disappointed. I've got two left feet” you answered laughing. “I'm afraid I would embarrass you.”
“I doubt that. I can always guide you. Scratch that, I'll be glad to” he said while finishing his drink and getting up on his feet. He offered his hand to you, and as you finished your own beverage, you took his hand. As he guided you to the dance floor where the people were moving and dancing to the rhythm of the tune.
At first it was just moving around with your hands linked and laughing sort of back and forth, but as the song changed into a new, slower one, you suddenly forgot what to do with them. You felt the heat on your cheeks start again.
“It's alright, give me your hand” he said, and you offered your left hand for him to take. He lifted it in the air and linked it softly with his right one, and with his other hand, took yours and placed it on his shoulder as he rested his on your back. “If you wanna stop at any second, that is totally fine” he whispered.
You were suddenly aware of the little distance that remained between you two, and you felt like your face was going to burst into flames. Instead, you pushed your sudden shyness aside and brought him closer, resting your temple on his cheek. Pedro swallowed harshly, and let out a shaky breath as he tightened the hold he had on you. He'd been dreaming of having you this close for god knows how long, and all he could think of is your scent. Your shampoo, your cologne, just you.
Meanwhile, you were trying to remember how to breathe properly. Wasn't he way out of your league? What the hell was just happening? What did this even mean?
A million questions were running around your head, but a part of you shut them out and made you lift your head until your eyes met.
“Are you okay? Do you want to-”
His sentence was interrupted by your lips coming into contact with his. A couple of seconds later and without opening your eyes, you broke the contact and just stood there, still moving to the slow tune. When you finally mustered up the courage to open your eyes, they were met with the warmth of his brown ones lovingly scanning your face. He had a big smile on his lips.
“I'm sorry I interrupted you.”
“If you're ever interrupting me like that again, feel free to do so. I am more than okay with it” he said laughing as your foreheads touched. You let out a small giggle too, and your heart felt fuller than ever. “So... I guess this is okay? Us?”
“Yeah. Yes. Totally okay by me. You?”
“Absolutely, darling.”
“I like that.”
“Then I'll call you that” he whispered, leaning closer and leaving a soft kiss on your lips. “For you, and yours only.”
You could get used to that.
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familyofpaladins · 7 months ago
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You ever just get stuck by the silliest au idea and then suddenly its consumed your mind?
Anyway TMNT Princess Bride au
Most characters taken from the 2003 series, but personality of turtles might be closer to Rise series
(I wrote this in the notes of my phone so forgive typos and weird thought process lol)
Casey is buttercup. April is westly (Originally, and what inspired this whole thing. Was that karai was buttercup and Chapman was westley lol)
The turtle bros work for stockman (bishop?) Because he says he has he will help them find their father's killer. A man who has 3 scars along his chin.
Casey just a simple farmer (oh my god. The farm house) with April there to help feed chickens and milk cows and such and such (Would she only say as you wish?? Would she be that submissive? Idk. Maybe she would as long as he promised not to call her babe lol) (LMAO HER PHRASE IS DONT CALL ME BABE INSTEAD OF AS YOU WISH LOLOLOL)
Eventually she goes off to maybe get soem schooling or soemthing. But her ship gets [sunk/destroyed] by the Dread Pirate Krang. April doesn't return and after years Casey believes she died.
Then the local royalty happens to pass by and the princess (karai)(who is told needs to find a husband so she can finally become queen) decides to make Casey her groom.
Casey still in a depressive gloom doesnt do much to reject her.
One day when Casey is out on a run (one of his few joys) he gets kidnapped by 4 demihuman turtles . :D
But then. A stranger begins to follow them. A (wo)man in black
I've mostly been going from 03 inspiration of character. But the turtles might be a little more Rise based.
Leo is inigo foil. The master swordsman. And the banter. "You seem a decent fellow, I hate to kill you" "you seem a decent fellow. I hate to die" I am not left handed. He Asks april "ever seen a man with 3 scars along his chin?" "Do you ask everyone that question?
Raph is Fezzik . Big. The muscle. (Kind) Mikey doesnt have a direct foil. May have his own individual fight with april or possibly works with raph. The muscle and taunting words and stuff idk
Stockman is arrogant and thinks hes the smartest around. Accepts April's challenge.
Don is there to keep a hold on Casey. (He plays the game a long in his mind that it doenst actually take any posion). Once stockman is dead, Don just asks for th truth about what happen to the rest of his brothers, April tells him they are just knocked out and will be fine. He says he doenst really care about keeping casey as they were just doing it to work with stockman and well he's dead so no point. Bye crazy smart lady and sad prince to be. And he leaves to meet up with his brothers.
Cue april trying to lead casey away and him being like. Oh you're the pirate that killed the love of my life! Blah blah blah so you can shove it babe!
*falling down hill* doooon't caaaaaall me baaaaaaabe! Oh my sweet april ehat have I done!? *throws self down cliff*
They go through the forest (lmao splinter as rous) (not actually but the image is funny)
And Karai and her advisor Oroku Saki meet them and casey begs her to let april go instead of killing her.
April notes that the advisor has 3 scars a long his chin. That's right. Shredder is what's his face and killed splinter. (Sorry splints. You had to die in this au)
April is taken to Bishop who experiments on his death machine. Just doing his job and having fun with his toys.
BUT
shredder shows up when he learns about the demihumans and asks too many questions about the demi humans shes ever encountered. (Theres a small but decent population in the kingdom) but especially that turtles she encountered last. April doesn't care (she does but more concerned about casey) and asks instead about casey and telling him shes never going to stop.
Karai may or may not visit April… idk. But honestly she doesnt really care about marrying casey but she needs to in order to get the crown.
Anyway its shredder who throws a hissy fit and cranks up the machine "killing" april
Meanwhile the turtles have regrouped but leo is super depressed because he failed and now theh have no lead on their father's killer. Brothers eventually pull him out of it.
They hear aprils cry?? They want "the woman in black" to help them??
Idk they go look for her
("Father guide my sword" is SUCH a thing Leo would do and the humor of it hitting the tree then opening the door is peak tmnt.)
Oh no shes dead
Enter miracle max. I mean the ancient one."she is only MOSTLY dead"
Tang shen: "I'm not a witch! I'm your daughter!" (Maybe. This might change)
They all have to push raph on the cart to break into the castle. Hun is the door keeper lol
Leo goes after shredder. Raph is hauling April around. Ikd what mikey and don are doing exactly. Maybe they split off to look for karai and/or casey
Leo: RAPH!! RAAAAPH. HE'S GETTING AWAY! RAPH
Raph: sighs and puts april down carefully and goes knocks down the door for leo. Comes back to everyone gone. "Now whered everybody go??"
April somehow gets to Casey's room. Casey is thrilled.
Karai shows up… idk. Ask why she really is doing this. Is it what she really wants? Or is it just what shredder has convinced her she needs to do (marry become queen go to war and take over other kingdoms)
Karai seems to consider it (maybe) but still cant have her groom just be carted off. April says okay let's fight then. I've taken on demihimans and been dead and came back, you really want to fight?
Karai considers and concedes. They tie her up so it doesnt look like she just wlt them go.
Karai let's them all leave and ends up marrying one of the chamber men[squire/stable boy/man servant] (is that a real term???) Chapman.
Leo don and mikey all catch up and somehow raph went and found them all horses to ride out on. Happily ever after
Cody is the grandson. Hamato yoshi/splinter is the grandfather
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marshmallow-biscuit-blog · 1 year ago
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Disability Pride Month - Narcissism
(red sentences are my particular thoughts/reactions to situations and not verified studies. Yeah, I guess I'ma be frank and let you see I'ma little fucking bitch. Enough with my mask.) Reminder that narcissism isn't a personality trait and that it's a disorder. A true narcissist cannot help it. It doesn't make our behavior okay, but just like a schizophrenic person can't help their delusional behavior, a narcissist can't help that we have an elevated sense of self worth. It's incredibly rude and hurtful to use the word as a quirky personality trait. Use our term correctly. Narcissistic people often seem extremely confident, but in reality we're highly unsure of ourselves and have extremely low self worth and break at the smallest nitpicks. We have a tendency to cling to people in a show off way, but mainly because we like these people and we want to impress them. Because we're trying to be "better" but also because we're so desperate to be good enough for them, that it comes across as being better than thou type of situation. Someone can say something like "I had ___ experience" and we try to one up it. Not just because we want to be better, but because we don't want you to lose interest. It's a fear factor of losing someone we care about because "we're not good enough/interesting enough." because they had a slightly more interesting situation. That leads onto the fear of rejection. If someone dislikes us, unlike most people being able to "oh well, they weren't worth my time anyways" and shrug it off, it becomes an end of the world situation for a narcissistic individual. Why wasn't I good enough? What haven't I done? Why am I not good enough? Just because narcissists are full of themselves and have elevated self worth, that doesn't mean they don't have guilt and shame for things. In fact, for me, guilt and shame takes up a LOT of my mental space and makes me feel the need to be BETTER than others to compensate for it. I find myself going "shit why'd I brag about that in that moment?" And I over react, and the cycle continues. We have a really hard time being vulnerable. We don't like to share our little secrets. We don't want to seem weak or imperfect, and what other way to do that than to say "Oh yeah I was just crying the other day because blah blah blah" no why would we say we were crying? Can't let you know we're crying, that lets you know that we finally broke down over something, and that gives you a chance to break us down more. It's our job to make you feel like you can break down into our arms and why we're your "only safe space" because we're a greedy bastard and we'll be jealous and honestly really hurt for some reason if you have any others. One thing I feel I don't have space to talk about along side other narcissists is emotions since despite being diagnosed with narcissism, I'm highly empathetic towards others and will literally sob over things people tell me even if I don't know what to do, so I'll speak from an entirely research based response here. (Though, my psychologist does say that empathetic narcissists are a thing, and that's what he diagnosed me as, so lol) Anyways, many narcissists have a hard time keeping up relationships because they lack empathy. I'd say that's the only reason I HAVE any decent relationships with anybody, because really, I'm a fucking bitch. I mean, I'd defend you or something, but the first thought through my head would also be "what about me though" Sorry about the long rant, but yeah. Stop misusing the word narcissist/narcissism. We may not be right, but we can't help it either. Best we can do is go the therapy. (also, I'm sure there's plenty of typos, if so I apologize.)
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charmwasjess · 2 months ago
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ooo WIP asks.
Your choice for one of these options:
Do you schedule time to work on your WIP regularly, or do you work on it whenever you feel like it/can find the time?
Do you usually listen to music while you work?
What does your creative routine look like?
If you could create an ideal space to work on this WIP, what would that space be like?
Ohhhh, this is so fun!!! Thanks for asking!!! :D If anyone else feels like sending something, the prompts are here! :D
I'll take 3 - my creative routine/process.
I get ideas when I’m out doing stuff, moving, usually when I’m running or gardening or doing something outside. I’m an active person, and I feel like the more I do and experience, the more creative juice I get.
Then, inevitably, I come trotting to tumblr and/or to a like-minded pervert friend with the idea held proudly in my mouth, like something stinky and dead I found out in the woods. Chatting or sharing helps me sort out the ideas I want to keep and do something with versus the ones I chuck back out where I found them.  
Actual writing time can be a fight for me because my day job is working as a writer (variety: boring) so it’s hard to sometimes want to spend all day writing and then sit down and look at a screen to write for fun. To counter this, I actually got into the routine of getting up early (around 6 am) so I could write for an hour or two when my mind was fresh, before beginning my work-work day. 
….this is infuriating because all my life I’ve heard the advice “if you just show up consistently, your muse will show up for you, get up early, be regular about writing, blah blah blah.” I hate that they’re right - it’s like how drinking water and doing exercise will make you feel great but at what cost?! A big decider in nailing down this routine though is that I have pretty bad seasonal depression, so there’s a chunk of the year where I can pretty consistently expect not to be creating, or not creating well. So I’ve been prioritizing the time when I can actually write and trying to make the most of it. 
When I’m close on a draft, I like to close all my distraction fun windows and read the whole thing through, often with a glass of wine and often out in my garden or some beautiful space. (I absolutely cannot write with any alcohol in my system, but weirdly, editing is different.) I try to relax and take my time with the document. I overwrite, so I ALWAYS have to cut a lot, and that just makes the process of culling it back as fun and gentle as possible. 
Then I post, and utterly lose my mind. :’D During the hours, even days hours after a new piece is up, I become a caricature of myself: pacing, sweating, getting upset over absolutely nothing, deciding the new fic is trash, crazily re-reading for typos. It’s a mess. Ideally, I plan my posting for a time when I’ll be out in the woods out of cell service so I can literally unplug and disconnect myself from the new thing.
Three months later, this rabid feeling passes and I can look at something I wrote objectively again.
And that's about it! Rinse, repeat!
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fluffmonster31513 · 2 years ago
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BSD as more things said in my math class:
Kunikida: “After the break, I think half my braincells are dead.”
Tanizaki: “Same.”
Atsushi: “Same.”
Kyouka: “Mood.”
Dazai: “#relatable”
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Akutagawa: “Why didn’t they just make the graph correctly?”
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Dazai: “That was actually such a sexy parabola.”
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Kunikida: “I think that some things that you think in your mind should, like, stay there. For the greater good.”
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Dazai, to Akutagawa: “Is that failure I smell?”
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Louisa: *doing review* “This was literally 800 years ago and I don’t remember how to do any of this.”
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Atsushi: “Yell at me if you want to, but I think it’s 9.”
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Atsushi: “Hey, so we have to leave class in like, 20 minutes.”
Kunikida: *squawk*
Tanizaki: “…We didn’t tell you that, did we?”
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Louisa: “It’s not on the test? I’ve been stressing about changed vertexes for the past 24 hours!”
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Dazai: “Well, I can spell sarcasm correctly.”
Chuuya: “Shut the fuck up.”
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Ranpo: “y=like 8 something, blah, blah, blah.”
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Kunikida: *explaining quadratic equations* “What do we call this?”
Aya: “Quadratic relations.”
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Gin: “Statistically, you’re gonna get stabbed when you go on the subway.”
Hirotsu: “That’s not how statistics work.”
Tachihara: “I get stabbed when I go on the subway.”
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Ayatsuji: “Mm, I’m a genius. Tsujimura, get me the noble prize.” (that is not a typo)
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Kenji: “Oh, I thought it was like, parabolas part 2.”
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Tachihara: “That would be a really wide parabola. I’m so proud of myself for knowing that.”
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Q: “That’s crazy bonkers.”
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Ranpo: *explaining solution*
Cop, writing it down: “I-I can’t write fast enough.”
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Kenji: “Maybe the real marks were the friends we made along the way.”
Atsushi, stressing: “Yeah, but those friends are also getting bad marks.”
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M*ri: *explaining something*
Dazai: “So what’s the meaning of life?”
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Poe: “I’m not gonna run, I’ll look stupid.”
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Kunikida: “Who knew parabolas could inspire so much-“
Dazai: “Pain and suffering.”
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Q: “We’re just little social pterodactyls.”
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it doesn’t cleanly fit into a quote, but the projector wasn’t working, so my teacher started writing on the chalkboard and everyone got so hyped and wanted to write the equations on the chalkboard, and i think this has happened at least once in the ada.
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