#bit but trust those around me

[pansyfemme]

but yeah im like. good. i think im doing better. cohereant and processing shit and being able to make sense of my feelings and im ready to catch up on work ive been missing and fix my life but i also have discovered that im a bit angry too

[calkestis]

am i the only one who thought it made sense for din to be an asshole to the super battle droids since that’s the exact kind that killed his family? 

[flustersluts]

as an enby with a complex relationship to gendered pet names im absolutely obsessed with the idea of someone choosing whichever gender of names they want you to have at any given moment, like 'aww baby, are you going to be a good girl and get on your knees for me?' like oh,,, i guess im a girl for tonight if you're gna say it like that,,,

[hplonesomeart]

Hey!! So turns out a video I made between a certain “well beloved but highly sensitive/emotionally reactive T.V” and an “orange haired inkling-turned-human” has managed to sweep my YouTube channel and accumulate 100k VIEWS!! THAT’S A LOT OF PEOPLE ACTUALLY?? My most widely viewed video EVER to exist in this moment in time?? AAAAA?? Not even mentioning the various comments and staggering increase in subs! It’s so much more then what I expected or even prepared for—might even be the most impactful thing to happen for me this year <3

…aside from graduating high school + the social connections I’ve been fortunate to make lol

BUT THE POINT IS I’d been closely monitoring the YouTube growth through the entirety of October. It’s make me smile like a dork, gawk in astonishment, dance frantically in my room from the energy boosts, and grow courage to stop being so selective/self-conscious with what I wish to share with the world! It’s kept my ambitions going!

I needed to find some way to celebrate the occasion and express my thanks—because I can’t NOT acknowledge this milestone jksjskp. Typically I try to avoid getting tunnel visioned focusing on the metrics/numbers. Mr. Puzzles had already demonstrated how much those things can mess with the minds of creatives. Caring too much about chasing views or placing your artistic value in attention seeking gets damaging. But at same time…it’s hard to deny the sense of pride the 100k achievement has filled me with. I understand that reaching 100k views doesn’t immediately make me any “better” or “worse” then I was before. I’m still just me! It only helps me feel seen by others—and that’s all I really needed. To hear some nice words & receive reminders that my ideas are cared about. So thank you SMG4 fandom for that, seriously thank you.

Please accept this Mr. Puzzle drawing as a way of sharing the happiness around. He’s so entertaining. Love him for simply existing. So glad we can all collectively be super attached to him (and the rest of the SMG4 cast of course). Can’t wait to see more incredible artworks from the fandom :)

Just incase anyone is confused by my vague description over which “animated video” I’m referring to here—hopefully this photo will help clarify lol. It’s this one!! Sorry about not outright stating the title at the start, I got carried away with writing!!

I’ve been in an odd place mentally when thinking about it. Wondering to myself if any of the attention is deserved considering it’s not even fully colored and could be dismissed as “low effort” content (despite taking several days making it). It’s easy to get into a trap of comparing yourself to others and questioning how much of the videos success is based on your skills, sheer algorithm luck, or only because you used popular characters and catered to a specific fandom. And then judging yourself by looking at other peoples videos. I’ve seen several artists post higher quality works then my own but it somehow gets less views. So why did mine succeed when others (who should have gotten just as much attention if not more) didn’t? Sometimes you feel like you’ve unfairly robbed them of that chance to be seen. However I’ve realized that I can’t ever expect views to be consistent—and comparing is pointless. So why worry about it or feel inadequate? I mean it’s pretty common for funny cat videos to go viral, so who am I to question the system lol. “Popular” YouTube videos can range from a passion project which took 7+ artists…to a clip of Toad singing Chandelier or a nonsensical Vine sketch. Anything can happen when it’s the internet! And just-so-happened my video was chosen. I should stay glad about that and get rid of all the overanalyzing. So that’s what I’ve chosen to do :)

[soupy-cosmos]

Soup tries to do a 30 day art challenge for the gazillionth time day one

[feline-evil]

I've said this on twitter i forget if i've said it here but i'm still not over the scene where Cassidy gets chopped into little pieces to be shipped out in a box; because i said to my husband (who had seen it before) the scene prior 'oh if i wanted to get Cassidy out i'd chop him into little pieces and mail him' and then caught myself and went wait. That's just a Me thought there's no way they'd actually ever do that, this kind of shit doesn't happen in tv shows i just really like extreme and casual gore.

And then it happens and i celebrate like my winning team just scored a goal, for ONCE a tv show matches my freak, for ONCE they feed my little freakpervert brain!!

[sainz100]

2024 Singapore GP | x

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF PRIORITY: THE CITADEL (PART 2)

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Lt. James Vega, EDI, and Maj. Kaidan Alenko With: Councilor Donnel Udina, Councilor Tevos, Councilor Laiel Sparatus, Cmdr. Armando-Owen Bailey, and Kai Leng And a Special Guest Appearance by: The Illusive Man But sometimes the way a thing goes down does matter, Sophie. Later- when you have to live with yourself. Knowing that you acted with integrity- then it matters. Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

[thedreadvampy]

Jujitsu class got me showing up to work with somewhat suspicious bruising and a sore neck from being choked. 10/10 would recommend.

[mr-payjay]

I love ur paper and oj mnetal illness headcanons and ur arr in general... u made me love payjay , kwep being awesome mr payjay

oh my gosh im so glad!! :D thank you for sending me this! the main goal of my blog has always been to get more people into payjay so im so so happy it's done that for you!

[red-dyed-sarumane]

we're back from comiket i was so prepared for it to be like vomas where i bought way too much but i didnt end up getting anything. even getting in around 12 after the whole entrance line parade thing the limbus booth already stopped taking orders for the day & by the time i remembered the kamitsubaki fanartists were there they were sold out of anything i wanted. amazing event if ur into recent anime, games, or vtubers unfortunately i really only cared about 2 things so it wasnt really my type of event. still cool to go to tho

[girlcrushau]

[muppetjackrackham]

sweeney anon here: your headcanons......my gosh......amazing 10/10 im in tears. they both use lucy to cope......aaaaaa

we like to suffer comfortably around here 😌

[blujayonthewing]

heads up, we're gonna be traveling for the next week starting tonight, so if I'm not around as much and am even worse about answering messages this is why

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Bluughhh I don't feel good 🤒

[byanyan]

to whom does your heart belong?

your heart belongs to the sun

ㅤyou are a wildfire waiting to happen. one lit cigarette away from catastrophe. you are passion itself, full of rage and joy and love and pain. you are the driving force behind change, so why are you afraid of it? not all that is new will hurt you. let others into your life. you will not burn them. you do not cause harm inherently, you are wounded. you will heal. i promise you will heal.

tagged by:ㅤ@gnarledbite ♡♡