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barghest-land · 4 months

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drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home

#i need to draw for 2 museums at least to then send it to them as a gift cuz people there were so nice???? AAAA #and yeah im definitely doing back #maybe in autumn... who knows #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #and #paleoart #???#in a way it is i guess #also i usually don't share things from my sketchbook. but these drawings hold so many nice memories #of clouds that hide top of the mountains #of sitting on a rock #drawing and seeing a scorpion vibing next to u (tiny friend!)#of leaning on a big cow and almost falling asleep on a field with her after the rain #of... forgetting the pain too #of not wanting to even talk about the wonderful time i've had. because it was only for me to remember #so much happened up in the mountains that i'll never forget #thank u big rocks and soil and grass and apricot trees i love you #...#paleoland #fieldbook_barghest_land

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imwritesometimes · 2 years

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when there are a whopping 13! fics for a ship but to really sink ur teeth into em you need to have recently watched a few a seasons of a show that's been over for like a decade 🙃🙃🙃

#I still feel like I'm foaming at the mouth with the need to watch the dargerville ep like OH GOD. GOD. GODDDDDDD.#honestly I feel like if I don't watch all the lupo eps now I'm gonna die. so. y'know.#and yes l&o has been over for 10 years I don't count the reboot I'm not watching that fckn garbage #godddddddd the brain worms #they're taking over #big time. in many ways.#it's over for me dudes. farewell.#erin explains it all

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inkskinned · 8 months

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crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big.#the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort.#but it still feels like...#when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing.#they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly?#and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go)#and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW."#''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.''#and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

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milkbreadtoast · 19 days

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My baby brother...☺️🤏💖

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starcurtain · 7 months

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Alhaitham, the moment his roommate leaves town: Ditches his house, hangs out in shady back alleys at the port, joins the black market to make illegal purchases, picks fights with random Eremites in the cafes, brawls with the chief of police, raids a forbidden temple, overthrows the government--

Call that "Kavehless Behavior."

#genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #haikaveh #kavetham #shitposting like always #but it is actually HILARIOUS #the difference in Alhaitham's behavior when Kaveh is in town versus when he's not #Kaveh is literally the one thing standing between #Alhaitham being quiet and professional #or a completely unhinged anarchist #thinking of it this way #makes the fact that he IMMEDIATELY makes a big deal about going home on time #after fighting Siraj so fucking funny #“Shit I forgot my bf's home”#someone should keep a record #of how many fights Alhaitham starts when his man ain't around

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theposhperyton · 4 months

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Is this anything chat

#I'm fresh off time skip and just rewatched film red #im having so many thoughts and feelings about luffy's siblings #and also shanks tbh but that's primarily because of his relationship to Ace at marine ford and especially Uta in film red #if i had a nickel for every time Shanks showed up to put an end to a massive in-world event that had both the navy and big-name pirates -#- involved and left with the body of one of luffy's siblings i'd have two nickels. which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice #portgas d ace #princess uta #uta one piece #i know about dressrosa but in a way also #flame emperor sabo #monkey d luffy #red haired shanks #marine ford #film red #one piece film red #one piece #asl brothers

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lolhex12 · 4 months

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broke: Jeremy is captain sunshine golden retriever boy who hides his feelings and his fucked up family situation

woke: actually🤓☝️ Jeremy first met Andrew in juvie when they were 15 & 13 respectively

#the way i would go absolutely FERAL if this were the case #probably not tho #...but just imagine...#they were both in cali at the time so it's technically possible¯\_(ツ)_/¯#andrew minyard #aftg #jeremy knox #the sunshine court #all for the game #tsc #ok but really just imagine...teen jeremy with anger issues and a criminal record #which his rich stepdad sealed for him if jeremy agreed to take the name 'knox #also headcanon that jeremy has an older brother who plays exy professionally (but had an accident on court and had to quit)#AND JEREMY WAS THE ONE TO PUSH ANDREW TO TRY PLAYING EXY IN JUVIE.#andrew agreed just to make jeremy shut up about exy and his pro big bro #and maybe (just maybe) they helped each other figure out their sexualities👀#ngl so many possibilities here omg #jerejean #andreil #<- for visibility purposes✨️

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puppetmaster13u · 8 months

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Prompt 198

Now Bruce was not expecting to reincarnate upon his death. At least he thinks he died, he’s pretty sure he did. There wasn’t any other reason for him to be a well, literal baby. Around two he thinks, which fits well with the fact that it’s around that time that babies start forming memory recall, if he, well, remembered correctly.

But while he knew about reincarnation thanks to Shayera and Carter, he’d never exactly given it much thought towards himself. Because seriously, what were the chances of such a thing as him being given another chance?

So he was quite surprised at his situation, experimentally opening and closing pudgy hands that looked well, just a tiny bit off. He’d never been that pale before, he thinks, even back when he never went outside like, ever.

He turned his gaze towards the mobile above him with a sort of idle curiosity- a mixture of bats (ha) and other trinkets he wasn’t familiar with. It also caused him to get his first good look at his parent, asleep on a rocking chair right next to the crib.

Huh. They had the same pale skin he did, albeit in the light it looked like it was slightly tinted blue, and while their hair was white they didn’t exactly look old. They looked surprisingly well rested for raising a toddler too, unless they had a nanny or something similar… He rolled over, managing to very shakily push himself to his feet with the help of the crib.

Why was standing so hard as a toddler? And why did he have his memories of everything except how he had died anyway?

His head whipped up from where they were staring at his feet when he heard a snort, finding his parent awake and standing. Somehow silently enough that he hadn’t noticed- or he was that easily distracted by the unfamiliar giddiness bursting in his chest.

“Morning little bat,” his parent easily picked him up and held him while he inwardly sighed at the nickname. Of course his bat motif would follow him into this life. A low rumbling almost caused him to jump, his body relaxing before he could fully register the sound. The… purring?

Oh.

He wasn’t human this time around.

#Dcxdp #Dpxdc #Prompts #Vlad is a young-adult dad to a reincarnated Bruce #After the hospital he drowned his despair/distress in any way he could & ended up with a baby boy #Bruce’s main suspected species of what they were was vampire before the ghost reveal lol #Bruce can’t say shit about Vlad’s thievery but he has the most judging expression for a toddler #Then he also sees his new dad develop and try to figure out powers #Vlad was terrified to pick him up when he first discovered his ghost fire #Yes this very much changes Vlad’s relationship with Danny #The reunion has 14 year old Danny meet a Very Smart 8 year old Bruce #Yes Bruce clocks teenage vigilante instantly #And look he Would try to get Vlad to stop the possession shit but as long as it’s actual assholes he can’t exactly judge #He blackmailed SO many people in his past life… he's trying Not to be a hypocrite here #Why yes Bruce IS very liminal from having a half-ghost dad #Vlad panicked more than he did when his fangs came in (Bruce has made a file about both himself & everyone he meets)#Just because he’s now baby doesn’t mean he’s no longer Bruce #At some point someone from his world might find their way to this one but that would be a very long time in the future lol #Vlad (unaware of his core being able to feel his ghostling’s big emotions): Wow raising a child is surprisingly easy

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vynnyal · 9 months

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OK, fair warning to the few people I actually managed to convince to try the game??

Rain world does NOT play like hollow knight, and you'll get your butt kicked if you approach it like that.

It's really hard. Like, really hard. Instead of the game literally giving you abilities in the form of power-ups and damage buffs, the only abilities you gain is from what you learn and your own ingenuity. You're a rat from beginning to end. If you just beef your way through it, it's gonna suck and you're gonna be confused and frustrated all the time. But if you pay attention, take it slow, and learn how the ai works and how everything interacts with each other, you can consistently get through and dominate situations you thought were impossible to do so when you first began. Now get out there, kill some lizards, and bully some old computers!

#blabbing.txt #rainworld #rain world #art #rivulet #hunter #spoilers #not really lol #Other notes that I left out because I wanted it short and sweet:#There is movement tech out the ears in this game. And it's all there from the very beginning. Literally nothing has to be unlocked #If you learn how to do rolls and slides and boosts the game gets so fast and fun #And learning this stuff takes real work! The timing is REALLY tight on some of those moves #Battling enemies is it's whole separate skillset too. Like there are so many things you can do #So many ways to murder ✨✨✨✨#Some of the best moments are times where you pull a 360 noscope on a cyan and send it tumbling through the air into the void #And doing your first slide-throw into a lizards underbelly #So risky but so rewarding #AND THIS IS ALL JUST THE BASE GAME!#The dlc is literally a mod that got so big the devs saw it and helped fund it #It adds so much to the game. Literally the mod devs asked themselves what crazy thing a slugcat could do #Coded it #And was like uhhh how does this fit into the lore #So that's how we got boomcat and Jesus Cat #I literally talked to one of the devs by chance (they're pretty active. You can just ask them stuff) and they admitted as such #It's great! gameplay first at its peak!#Anyways give the game a shot. If you want to Get Gud at a game rainworld is for you. It's a game entirely about skill #Not to mention... 400+ hours in and I'm still not done with the game #Prepare for the long haul

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somegrumpynerd · 2 months

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Cross has trouble getting to sleep alone in his room and goes looking for a distraction, but ends up finding a solution for both of them

#UTDR #UTMV #Cross Sans #Killer Sans #Kross ship #(Kinda. It's up to interpretation)#Long post #I'm so sorry I didn't mean for it to be THIS much #I started this like a week ago -A-#Lies down and lets out a long howl it's finisheeeeeed #I could have just drawn them spooning and written the rest but noooo I love to do things the hard way #Anyway I think they should be bed buddies #The company helps Cross relax enough to sleep and the touch helps knock Killer out #Cross has to be big spoon because otherwise Killer's soul gets squished and it's too uncomfortable to sleep #Also I realised Cross and Nightmare are the only two in the castle who didn't have knock knock jokes in their backstory #I like to imagine Nightmare has had similar confusing interactions with at least one of them #Cross probably spends the rest of the day panicked that he overstepped a boundary or the others will make fun of him #Not realising that Dust and Horror have fallen asleep together many times #Or that Killer hasn't slept properly in weeks and he's in heaven #I'm NOT drawing a follow up so just imagine Killer coming to Cross's room the next night and finding every excuse to stay #Because he wants it to happen again but he has no idea how to ask (and also Cross seems kinda awkward about it)#Absolutely terrified that I spent my whole week off working on this and it might be not that great so I hope at least one person likes this

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bumblydumbly · 2 months

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i think that if kabru saw that “laios meeting falin for the first time” strip he’d be sobbing uncontrollably

#feels like it is SO fundamental to understanding laios on a deep level #idk something about not expecting ‘common sense’ from babies #something about how he is so deeply laios. maybe im just projecting #but that comic resonates with me SO hard #the lack of expression (taking her in) and the way he looks up for permission #and by that time his father already knows? that hes looking for permission to leave. he doesnt say it. he just looks.#and then! he runs to his kitty! and whispers like its a secret! hes a big brother now kitty!#and he whispers to the chickens! he’s got a little sister chickens! shes called falin doggies!#to see laios as an adult and to know he cares for his sister is par for the course #to see that he was enamored with her the second he met her and told all of his friends is just. fuck #they tell you many times in the series that these siblings care for each other above ALL ELSE #like knowing that all people die is separate from knowing there is no reality for either of them that doesnt contain their sibling #im going insane over the touden siblings #but i think kabru would go through these same motions and cry idk #dunmeshi #labru #if you squint #kabru of utaya #laios touden #falin touden #dungeon meshi #bumblysdumbly

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casualavocados · 2 months

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What happened to you? [...] None of your business.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #userrain #userspicy #uservid #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #i made myself insane about the caption bc it could be applied to both of them <3 #chen yi what happened how did you get injured? and hes like 'its not a big deal whatever'#ai di what happened why do you strangle me when i get close to you now? and he's like #WOULDNT YOU LIKE TO KNOW WEATHERBOY (angst edition)#anyway the actual point of this set was the way ai di is sleeping and the way chen yi is looking at him so thats cool #its just....really soft and sweet #i caNT IMAGINE what chen yi thinks or feels finding ai di holding his jacket in his sleep.......like. ahghdfkdkjfdksj #ive giffed this before and will probably gif it again #lbr i've giffed every scene so many times bc they have so few scenes and i am getting EVERYTHING I CAN OUT OF THEM #WHICH IS A LOT!!! they're everything to me

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blackbatcass · 3 months

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listen I know it’s kind of corny and inaccurate to act like every single person in the dc universe knows each other and is besties but it IS endlessly funny to me to follow the web of connections and see how many degrees removed from each other everyone is.

like look at the arrowfam okay. ollie and dinah are together, ollie is homoerotic best friends with hal, dinah is homoerotic best friends with babs. roy is dating dick, has a kid with jade, and is basically an adoptive father to both grant emerson and rose wilson. connor is dating kyle and is constantly followed around by eddie fyers. mia is friends with a lot of the second gen teen titans kids, had an on-again-off-again thing going on with steph for a while, and is currently dating sienna. emiko is besties with courtney and some of the other recent teen titans. sin has a small army of protective aunts from the birds of prey. the real question is how far does it go before ollie puts a cap on the number of people who are invited to family brunch on sundays

#arrowfam #LIKE. PLSSSS #can you imagine them all in one room.#roy: hey ollie can garth come to brunch this week.. he’s in town and i never get to see him and he really wants to try your pancakes #ollie: idk roy we’re already at max capacity..#roy: please dad🥺🥺🥺🥺#ollie: …..fine. someone will have to be uninvited then #mia: why? what’s one more person?#ollie: bc I have Very Strict Rules!!! If I don’t follow the invite limit then the whole town’ll show up every week!#connor what about axing kyle #connor: …dad. I am not disinviting my boyfriend and Only Guest to brunch bc of your arbritrary rules.#ollie: fine that’s fair. um…#mia: what about grant #ollie: for the last time mia we are not banning your nephew from family brunch because he allegedly #ate some of your bacon one time. it was not a big deal and you need to get over it #mia: UMM‼️‼️ it was a big deal TO ME🗣️🗣️and I don’t appreciate you INVALIDATING my emotions like this‼️‼️#ollie: uhhh emiko what about courtney. she comes over like every week will she be fine sitting this one out #emiko: I can’t believe this. how dare you deny my ONLY FRIEND IN THE WORLD an invitation to brunch. it’s like you hate me #ollie: EMI I KNOW YOU PATENTLY HAVE MORE FRIENDS. who have BEEN TO BRUNCH BEFORE.#emiko: YOU CAN’T TAKE COURTNEY FROM MEEEEEE #ollie: FINE ok.#roy: why don’t you just tell hal not to come all the way down here for brunch I mean he’s here every week anyway #ollie: bc it’s hal okay. mind your own business.#roy: fine. but we’re running out of people #connor: I mean………. what about eddie #ollie: ………….. yeah ok I’m sold. that works. meeting adjourned good job team #mia: why are you so worked up about keeping attendance low anyway #ollie: MY KITCHEN TABLE CAN ONLY FIT SO MANY SUPERHEROES MIA

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buwheal · 5 months

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Damn, Spam, did the cake taste that bad? - bad joke. Sorry you're havin' a rough day. We're here if you need to talk, or if you just need a distraction.