#big species euphoria for me

[therianomalocaris]

Trick 'r treat!

ganymede by marc-antoine barrois paris

[nyctohyloph0bia]

Me: Heh, I can handle my species dysphoria so well, I don't even feel anything! (has suppressed it so much that I don't even feel species euphoria easily either)

Also me as soon as 1 millisecond of testing a moving jaw mask:

[chestersbraincell]

Also earlier today I actually WON a staring contest with my cat so. Yay

[sunrisecaminus]

Before reading this: two for egg laying stuff. If that's not cool, I get it. The rules said ask about kinks so I'm shooting my shot.

I have 2 only vaguely related things to offer to your ask box and then a related request if you'll have it.

1) y do we assume seekers r birds and not bugs? All the bird qualities ppl give them also apply to most species of bugs... More ppl should do stuff with bug seekers.

2) experienced a canon event irl and have discovered that laying eggs is.... Good. 🫣

Like, inserting anything just feels like inserting anything, but laying an egg was a completely unique experience and I don't think I've ever cum like that before? Like I legitimately have a condition called Anorgasmia, so I have only been able to do it twice before in a total of 30+ years. Laying an egg did not feel like giving birth (done that, don't recommend) or like how sex normally does. I have no way to explain the weird euphoria that happened and it had me questioning my life. 10/10 recommend to try all least once in your life everyone.

Whole ass came, everything was quite, looked at the person I was doing this with, who also looked shocked and we both had a "wtf was that" moment (first time trying this for both parties, not sure what the normal reaction is).

Tl:Dr the ask:

Can I request seekers having an afab reader who has their egg(s) inside them and has to lay them?

Message - This was the fic that took me way to long to try and make good. I have never written something about the laying eggs kink and so I wanted to try and make it seem like I am not stupid in this category. Hopefully it is ok, but please have mercy on me. ;-;

Starscream x AFAB Reader NSFW

Summary - You lay eggs and Starscream is there as your emotional and physical support.

Warning - NSFW, Laying eggs

Custom dress, draped down to the floor. Made out of expensive high quality cervelt, your outfit gave you a comfortable hug around your curves as you dipped the tea bag in your mug. Making tea while giving soldiers nothing but fear when they walk past you is your new hobby. You were told to not do anything while holding Starscream's eggs. Starscream was very over protective of you and after getting impregnated, he has non stopped told everyone to not touch you or do anything to make you angry. Someone tested it before and got their head blown off. Megatron is honestly a bit surprised in Starscream's new brave emotions, but he wishes the aggression would be more targeted on the Autobots.

It looked like you were not pregnant either…or it did…but only like if you were 3 months pregnant. With a baggy shirt or hoodie, it was very easy to cover it. If you wore a cropped top though or something revealing, it was honestly quite obvious you had a bump. Knockout said something along the lines of you having two or three of them heating up inside of you. It was fascinating for him and Shockwave to check up on you, knowing you are the very first ever organic to be impregnated by a Cybertronian. There was some concerning theories about if the eggs would even make it, but thankfully the amazing care you have been given on the ship has helped the eggs stay as healthy as they could possibly get…but it comes at a cost.

Knockout had said many times that the healthier the eggs are, the harder the shells are. Yes, it will still be very wet enough to slide right out of you, but it will be just a bit uncomfortable if they get too big. This would be a sacrifice you knew would happen before Starscream even impregnated you, so you and your Conjunx had enough materials and emotional support to understand the risks that your body might be damaged. Honestly you don't understand why Starscream was so caring for you, but you weren't going to complain that the second in command caught feelings for you. Sometimes he still acts like you were the one fan-girling over him, but it was the exact opposite. He was on his knees, bowing for you to be with him. It was quite amusing, because of course you said yes. Being together for so long, Starscream hasn't told you how much he has bene wanting to give you his eggs. It was one of the many things he thought about, but he was very worried about the risks and knew he needed to study more into human anatomy before he gives the idea to you that you could have his kids.

Sipping your tea, you walk through the massive hallways of the ship. Soldiers bow their heads to you anytime they pass, making you smile, knowing Starscream has scared them half to death. Take a few more steps, you feel movement in your lower abdomen. You put your hand down to feel what was going on, feeling around to find the eggs moving from your uterus. "…Fuck…" Immediately you call Starscream's coms and kneel to the floor. Starscream picks up and sounds like he was working on something. "What is it, my pretty?" You wanted to laugh from his little weird names, but right now the eggs seem to want to leave your body so you tell him exactly the matters at hand. "They are ready, it's about to happen, dear." After that you hear things dropping as Starscream tells you he is on his way. It seemed like he just threw whatever he was doing and ran to you the second you said that the eggs were ready, because you see him just a few seconds later in your hallway. Starscream bends down to your level to scoop you up. "There you are, it's ok, I got you." He was trying to be really brave about this, but you could see through the mech that he was horrified.

Getting into the birth room, you feel yourself being placed on the pillow with a bunch of soft towels. Starscream sits down next to you and rubs his digit over your belly as a way to try and massage you. All it was doing was making the eggs push further down from the pressure he was putting. You gasp from your insides moving around, but it didn't hurt at all…surprisingly. Taking your time and getting the dress to move away from your legs, you now just have to wait for the eggs. About ten minutes pass, you and Starscream are just talking about random things to keep your mind off of it, you feel your walls stretching out. "Oh! I d-didn't know this was going to feel g-good." You blush from the embarrassment as you try to put your legs a bit closure to each other. Starscream smirks and glides his digits from your stomach, over to your legs and spreads them with two of his sharp claws. You gasp and feel the eggs moving inside you from your legs widening, feeling as thought that the round shaped objects inside you just slid closure to freeing themselves from this fleshy cage. Knockout was right though, you felt them being hard shelled and quite big, so it was making you moan from each one of them rubbing against your walls. "Starscream! Ah, they are s-so big!" You turn your head up to watch Starscream stare at your pussy, patiently observing as your entrance opens. One slides out of you slowly, to the point where you wanted to just grab it and get it out of your system already, but it was taking it's time. It was probably a safer speed anyway to land on the towels below. Thank god these things were slimy, holy crap you don't know if you could have made it if they were stuck in your tubes. You don't have to push them out yourself either, it seems the eggs were working with your own body to slide out themselves.

One egg finally slides out of your body fully in view and it looked great! It had a beautiful palish color with nothing cracked or bruised (I didn't know eggs could bruise until I looked it up. It is rare though I think. I am definitely not an expert). Your body gave you some time to breath and relax before the next egg starts to prod itself out of you. Goodness this was torture, but somehow your mind was blanking and feeling nothing but joy. You thought it would be quick, but your body seems to like this feeling and doesn't mind that they are taking their time. Starscream seems the second egg lay next to the first one and puts a digit at your entrance and widens it just a little. "He said two or three. Lets wait it out for just another hour just in case ok?" You nod at him and try to breath slow and steady. In Starscream's optics, you were taking this so well. He didn't know he would feel proud in this moment, but goodness the way you are handling this important life event was amazing.

Some time goes by and Starscream rubs your belly to check. "You feel anything?" He looks down at you to check your physical body for anything bad. "No, nothing…I feel so tired." You were, for some reason, out of it from all this. Caring those eggs took all your energy and finally having them out was a relief. This seemed a lot less painful than normal human pregnancy, so honestly you could not complain. Starscream wraps you up and puts the eggs somewhere you couldn't see at the moment. He walks back to the bed and snuggles you. "You did so well, my love. I am so proud of you~"

[eggoatt]

I was looking through my copy of unicorn dysphoria again today and I didn’t really think about it when I first read it because I was just gushing about species dys/euphoria feelings but are all the pieces in that zine made with traditional media and then like… scanned? I know sometimes programs can mimic the look of paint/ink/other physical media but it didn’t seem like that to me? As someone who loves physical mediums that observation immediately got me PUMPED to make my own project

short answer: yes

long answer:

unicorn dysphoria was made in a fervor while trying to meet a deadline (my partner was tabling at a local zine fest, she said if i made a zine it could be on her table), my computer was shitting itself, and i was in the middle of moving 1000 miles away.

so i did all of the work traditionally in my sketchbook(s), took the best photos i could, and then did a crazy amount of color/lighting correction to make it look like i scanned it. as for specific materials/media, it's a mixed bag: copics, colored pencil, sharpies, graphite, assorted other pens/markers, basically anything i had easy access to.

i would def recommend getting your paws on a scanner to make your life easier, but otherwise i would totally say you should do this. the looseness of traditional media gives sequential work like zines and comics a really unique feel and its also really fun to have the original artwork to look through. usually when i do a big creative project there's no evidence of it by the end, but doing it on paper makes me going insane over a cartoon horse very tangible, like when you walk into a room and see some kind of destruction and you just know Something Happened Here

[misstycloud]

Just thinking about a darling who loves the idea of aliens and the thought of life somewhere else. But unfortunately their knowledge doesn’t extend beyond the classical little green creatures with big eyes and heads.

An alien of the species X is traveling through hundreds of galaxies and dimensions in search of a perfect mate. They suddenly get the urge to travel in a specific direction.

Eldritch alien: Earth? Is my mate really from such an unadvanced planet?

They decide to land anyway and is unimpressed with what they see. They decide to use their super technology to disguise themself to what is considered an anarage human. They walk around town and believes the trip was a waste of time, until they see darling for the first time.

Their mind is blown. Darling is the cutest thing they’ve ever laid their eyes on! Immediately they feel the pull and start stalking them. They learn everything they can about darling, food preferences, what they like to do for fun, and even what they like in partners.

Imagine the euphoria they feel when they find out darling is into the idea of aliens! Things might be rough in the beginning of taking darling, but things will surely clear up when they tell them they’re not from earth.

-

Darling, woken up by strange sounds outside their house and goes to check it out, even though it’s against every horror movie rule.

As soon as they walk into the kitchen they see a large shadow standing there. Before they manage to get a sound out, the creature pounds on them and keeps them from screaming.

Eldritch alien: shhhh, little mate. Don’t be scared, I���m not here to hurt you.

Darling sensing the large frame and tentacles definitely doesn’t belong to an earthly creature: what are you? What do you want from me?

Eldritch alien: I’m your mate and I’m going to take you away on my ship. As to what I am, I am part of species X, of course. I am what you would call an alien.

Darling: …….. No you’re not.

Eldritch alien: ……?

Darling managing to loosen the aliens grip on them: I’ve seen aliens before in comics, and you certainly doesn’t fit the picture.

Eldritch alien: ????

Darling: I mean, no offense, but look at you. You’re all tentacles and you’re head isn’t that big either too be honest.

Eldritch alien: ??!!

Darling: soooooo, you come from the forest or something?

Eldritch alien having no clue what’s happening: please, I promise I’m an alien *sob sob* I’ll even show you how to suck up cows with my ship.

[unhingedandroidwoman]

All of my driving anxiety has basically vanished since trying to think of myself driving as "jacking in" like to mech of some sort and using it to transport myself and my partner(s) to and from locations. I already did something similar to help me get a feel of how big the vehicle actually was so this felt just like a natural extension of that.

Hell yeah species euphoria

[rab1df0x]

Just now realizing how much species euphoria wearing big jackets gives me. I feel like I have a thick coat of fur

[sunanthrope]

Species euphoria things idk

My types: Zombie, Belgian Malinois, Centipede, Raven-Hearted, Wolf-hearted

Below cut as its long as hell

My legs fall asleep very easily due to physical disabilities and as much as I despise the pins and needles feeling with every bone in my body. It's very zombie.

I fucking love metal and the scream vocals always give me such zombie euphoria both to perform and listen to

On that note I'm working on writing a song in German (called Untoter Tier or Undead Animal) and there's a vocal in it that mixes scream and barking. Very cool and swag. Both zombie and dog euphoria and it's basically about therian rage and species dysphoria

My everyday makeup is sunken purpley eyes with red underneath. And nothing else. I look very pale and washed out (anemia and outside is scary) and I've got acne so I look dead lol. I've had people ask if I'm sick. It's inspired by tuberculosis (/hj)

Also acne in general? Idk very zombie vibes. I'm self conscious of it but thinking about it in a zombie way makes me happier about it. Same with my teeth which are jacked as hell, I can't even close my mouth all the way without pain and struggle. Fuck my stupid puppy life

Black nails too. Just nonhuman euphoria in general

My mohawk

My arms don't swing when I walk like a normal person's does? Idk why? They just dangle. Zombie vibes

I grind my teeth back and forth a lot because I like the clicky sound. I do it constantly. I might need a bite guard. It reminds me of those zombies in World War Z

I'm in pain all the goddamn time and that's pretty zombie. Again I hate it but it also gives me zombie euphoria

I jingle when I walk and not only is that very dog but for some reason also very zombie? No idea why

People are kinda intimidated by me in public because I have a Mohawk and my makeup makes me look dead and I'm covered in leather and spikes and chains and. That's zombie too

The smell of roadkill. It's very common where I live as people don't watch where they drive and animals don't watch where they go. Idk it's very strange but. I honestly really like the smell of rotting meat

My collection of dead things and taxidermy as well. I've got a dried/mummified beetle, mouse skulls from owl pellets, a rat skull I found on our front porch, a squirrel tail that hangs on my wallet, a snakeskin that's over a decade old

Other things I have like my brain shaped stress ball, my spider and eyeball rings, my tails, my collection of stuff I find on the ground, my dried shelf mushrooms, an old petri dish that's grown its own mold ecosystem, my monster cans

Basically I'm just kind of fucking strange and that's zombie of me idk

Sniff. Sniff sniff. Sniffing both in and out to make that dog sniffing sound. It's a stim I do a lot, it's how I smell things in general. Most people inhale but I inhale and exhale rapidly. It actually does help me smell it better thanks for asking

Beef jerkey oh my God. Everything euphoria. Flesh vibes for zombie, meat snacks for dog, even rotting vibes for centipede.

I like chewing on things and I always have. Very zombie and dog

I like when my mom gives me a bowl of cheese cubes and peanut butter crackers unprompted. She knows I'm a therian (She's a fox) and she does stuff all the time to validate me and I think thats cool of her :]

I love my dog toys so much. I have a spikey ball that lights up, a squeaky purple duck, and a squeaky giraffe with crinkly ears

Collar collection <3 my favorite is my spiked collar. The spikes are uneven and honestly I might lean into that and add even more spikes and make it even more random.

I also really love my cattle dog collar, it's way too big so it's more of a decoration, but I did have it on the collar of my battle jacket for a long time. Very long and sharp spikes

I also love my battle jacket for dog and zombie reasons. Zombie outbreak response k9 patch is all I need and more. It even velcroes on and off <3

Big stompy boots!!! They also make me taller and. I need all the height I can get. It's a struggle

Everything about my vibe also makes me feel super centipede. Spikes, leather, black, jewelry, even the makeup gives bitten by venomous centipede vibes. Fuck

I stay up late as hell. Fits because both zombies and houss centipedes are seen as nocturnal, even though I'll admit I LOVE the daytime more than anything good God. Twilight time is best time. Still light out but not boiling hot

Bleeding hearts of the world unite this was long

[theverynothumankai]

I n T r O d U c T i O n P o S t

I’m Kai, also called Malakai. This is my blog for all things Nonhuman. Come join my little side of tumblr. <3

I’m a Polytherian, Polykin, Polylink, Otherfix, Otherhearted, and Fictionflicker/Otherflicker.

Theriotypes: Vancouver Coastal Sea Wolf (also known as Coastal Wolf and Vancouver Island Wolf); Canada Lynx; Red Fox; Nurse Shark; Snow Leopard; Maned Wolf; Norwegian Forest Cat; Coyote; Side-Striped Jackal; Dhole. Kintypes: Dragon (SeaWing/SilkWing Hybrid); Dragon (Night-Light Fury Hybrid); Dark Fey (Forest Type, from Maleficent); Avian (winged humans with tails); Raccoon (gold winged and gold horned); Silver Fox (with big crow-like/themed wings); Angel (shape-shifting, three pairs of wings, comforter of those who are lost). Hearttypes: Whale Shark. Flickertypes: Hylian (from TOTK/BOTW); Orphinki (OC species); Sable; Owl (all). Questioning: Ocelot Theriotype; Manta Ray Theriotype; Orca Whale Theriotype; Maine Coon Cat Theriotype; Jumping Spider Theriotype or Hearttype; Pallas Cat Theriotype; Manta Ray Kintype; Siren Kintype; Dragon Kintype (feathered wings); Mosasaur Theriotype; Blue Whale Theriotype; (Baby) Bongo Theriotype; Kirk’s Dik Dik Theriotype.

More Info On My ‘Types Here.

I’m a PseudoHuman, which means I may appear to be human, but am not.

I’m SunNonhuman, which means my nonhumanity is integrated into my baseline personality. It does not prevent me from having minor fluctuations of mood that feel slightly more animal or slightly less animal. I do not experience mental shifts to my nonhuman types.  I’m Transspecies (more specifically Humanfluid) and Voidpunk, which means I identify as another species (and more specifically have a fluctuating connection to my humanity), and that I’m reclaiming the dehumanization and demonization that I face in the marginalized minorities I’m in, basically I’m reclaiming dehumanization and fully embracing inhumanity/nonhumanity.

I’m Physical Nonhuman, in the way that since I am my ‘types, so is my body (although, I am aware that my body is technically human/human-presenting).

I’m a CladoNonhuman, specifically with my Owl Flickertype. I am all owls, not just one or a few, although I am more so connected to a couple specific species rather than equally to all. My Owl Flickertype comes and goes, it’s been gone for a while but it’s coming back again, and I have no doubt that that will happen again.

My Otherfix identity influences my nonhuman identity overall, by the way! So, a lot of my theriotypes and kintypes are due to hyperfixations (although, remember, they are involuntary and permanent for me!), and then a lot of my flickertypes have been due to hyperfixations (once again, involuntary and the flickertypes come and go).

The reasons/origins of my Nonhumanity is due to a combination of Past Lives, Fate, and Neurodivergency. I believe I was all my ‘types in past lives, and that I only found out about being these things in this life due to my neurodivergency.

I fluctuate between Nonhuman and Human, although am always on some level both, just other times are stronger for one and the other not so much, but overall I mostly refer to myself as just Nonhuman. My soul is a combination of all my ‘types, plus the intruding human soul of this life.

Please only refer to me as Nonhuman and Alterbeing, NOT as Human or Alterhuman.

I do not experience phantom shifts or any sort of shifts, but when I have in the past, it has only been once, very short (a few seconds), and partial. I experience loads of species dysphoria, envy, and sometimes euphoria, though.

I only have very poor gear, two homemade tails, and one mask, and am also currently working on wings. I’m hoping to get more materials to make better masks and tails for myself soon, though.

I do very poor quadrobics, but I adore doing them, especially when I can in public.

Fellow Physical Nonhumans/Alterbeings/Alterhumans, Non-Spiritual Nonhumans/Alterbeings/Alterhumans, and etc. are very welcome here.

I’m very queer. My gender is way too complex, but just imagine it as masculine, genderless, and animalistic, with lots of different aesthetics.

I use He/It/Rot/Void/Mutt/Pup/Teeth/Woof/Bone/Claw/Plant/🐾/🐺/🦝/🌿 pronouns + many more with those themes.

I’m AroAce, Aromantic and Myrsexual (Neuroasexual, Nebulasexual, Merosexual, Placiosexual, Dreadsexual, Acorsexual, Apothisexual, Bellussexual, Rosesexual, Requisexual, and Falsaesthsexual).

I’m Homoalterous (Gay/MLM), Omniqueerplatonic (preference for non-men), Panexteramo, Pansensual, and Panaesthetic.

I’m Ambiamorous with no preference. I’m heavy T4T-leaning. I’m also a Lesboy.

I’m undiagnosed/self-diagnosed (with research)(in the process of getting this all diagnosed) AuDHD, Pure O OCD, APD, SPD, RSD, BDD, ARFID, SAD, PTSD, Trichotillomania, Misophonia, and Dermatillomania.

I’m diagnosed MDD and GAD.

I’m undiagnosed (and in the process of getting it diagnosed as well) PMDD and/or PME.

SH and SI survivor, and in recovery.

I struggle with severe violent and ugly intrusive thoughts (due to my OCD), and have for years. Not as bad as it used to be, but still have some at least once a day.

I consider myself disabled due to my severe executive dysfunction that I’ve had for years, as well as for other reasons.

I also have severe imposter syndrome that I deal with 24/7.

I have special interests (Wings Of Fire, Harry Potter (I really love the marauders), Dragons, and Neurodivergency + Disabilities + Disorders), hyperfixations (current ones are nonhumanity and nonhuman gear), verbal shutdowns, shutdowns and meltdowns, am often in burnout, and mask quite a lot.

I’m in therapy, go every week, and love my therapist so much. /gen

Please use tone tags/indicators when talking to me. They are greatly helpful and appreciated. Thank you!

I’m taken by my lovely long distance mate, @itssiryapsalot @theremixedcreature.

I’m a minor (16-years-old).

I’m Agnostic, spiritual, and do not follow any God or Gods. I believe in past lives, fate, soulmates, twin flames, manifestation, the multiverse, the paranormal, witchcraft, and much more.

I’m a Reality Shifter and have shifted twice to parallel realities. (I’m a safe places for permashifters, respawners, and those who shift to realities where they’re a different race.)

I have one sibling (She/Her), @belles17 @fuckthisclubup. I love her loads, and yes, she is aware that I’m Nonhuman (and is totally chill with it).

My other Nonhuman accounts are: @sirius-the-lonely-angel and @malakaitheyappingwolf.

My Nonhuman Pinterest account is here.

More about me here.

I don’t feel like making a DNI, but my block button is my best friend, so get ready. Obviously, no anti-alterhumans, anti-furries, queerphobes, radqueers and radfems, TERFs, SWERFs, offending MAPs & Paraphiles & etc., sexists, racists, ableists (including those believe in “narcissistic abuse”), and etc. are allowed here. Also, those who are endo/non-traumagenic/etc. systems are safe here, so those against them can leave please.

Full credit to the original creators/owners of the dividers!!!

[yappergender]

i think i might have experienced bullying for being a therian for the first time today?? i wore my fingerless gloves with a paw pad design on the palms out to a fast food place, i know public gearing can be risky but i thought they were relatively stealth cuz they aren't big or furry or made of explicitly animal print fabric.

anyways, i walked into the restaurant and almost immediately i noticed these two 14-year-ish looking kids looking at me with these sort of Smirks on their faces, and i kind of hid my palms but they must have registered my gloves paws somehow anyways because a minute later they were standing near my table and one of them sang a lyric from "mr lonely" and the other meowed??? i heard one of them laughing when i took off my gloves to eat, and i also heard one of them howling from their table.

i didn't react much cuz i didn't wanna risk getting made fun of even more or even being recorded, but bullying makes me so angry and it kinda Soured The Vibes for the evening

didn't make me embarrassed exactly cuz i'm 25 and idc if 9th graders think i'm cringe but people giving me negative attention makes me feel so physically tired tbh and it made me like... conscious that even some "stealth" gear registers as being For Furries and i guess my stealth gear has to be even stealthier and more symbolic

it's less mean kids i'm worried about and more bigoted adults who will see animalistic traits as a proxy for being queer or neurodivergent or having specific spiritual beliefs (which like, i'm a queer trans autistic who does witchy stuff soooo)

love doing a harmless thing that makes me feel connected to my body and helps combat my depression and anxiety via species euphoria and then being given the feeling that at best i'll have draining negative social interactions for it and at worst i'll be genuinely unsafe.

[crypt-void]

i saw in ur therianthropy day that you have a pack!! could i ask how you went about finding them?

They're just my irl friends :]

I got really lucky with my girlfriend also being an alterhuman. I grew up in a small town where every alternative kid just clung to one another. My group doesn't really call itself a pack, but I see them as my pack. We're like a family. We talk to each other all the time. They don't mind when I act dogish and even join me at times (hence the howling at the moon comment). It also helps that we have a weekly hangout where I can crowd them into my home and just watch over them while they relax. It itches my dog brain just right.

I think community is everything. So if you're looking for a pack, or at least something you consider a pack and you dont want to look online, focus on that. Only one other person in mine is an alterhuman. The rest are humans. Focus on finding people you can be your most authentic self around and encourage them to be themselves. It doesn't have to be a big group. Some packs are just made out of a wolf and their mate. It can just be you and someone you care about.

The most important part of having a pack to me is respect and support. It does wonders for my mental health and gives me so much species euphoria to have such a good support system.

So if you can find some folks in your area who you can trust, and who even if you don't say it explicitly still accept your identity with all of its traits, I think you've got yourself a pack :]

Anyways! A pack is different for everyone, so if you are looking for a pack made up of alterhumans, this post may not have helped, lol. But I hope maybe it gave you something.

[tigergirltail]

TIGER HRT CHAPTER 1 - MONTH MINUS 6 - THE CONSULTATION

The specialest of special thanks to @ayviedoesthings for creating the original Dragon HRT story, and a big shoutout as well to @kaylasartwork, @welldrawnfish, @nyxisart, and @deadeyedfae for their takes on the concept! Every one of you is inspirational, and your work gives me so much second-hand gender euphoria!

NEXT

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"Miss Alexis, please come in."

I look around as I walk inside. Between the doctor being a balding middle-aged man and the office looking like any generic doctor's office, I'm honestly a little disappointed. I was hoping the infamous source of therian HRT would be a little more… I don't know. Exotic? Unique? I was half expecting the walls to have before and after photographs of clients, but I suppose when it comes down to it, this is a serious medical facility, not a beauty salon. I walk up to the desk and sit down in the chair.

"Now I understand you wish to be a… a tiger?"

I'm unable to suppress my euphoria at the idea, and I start grinning and nodding. "A white tiger! I haven't changed my fursona since I got one, it's about time I start embodying it!"

"Indeed… And I see on your medical history that you are transgender." He mutters under his breath, "Just like all the others…"

I give a little smirk. 'All the others' are the reason I'm here. If this guy is handing out meds that can turn people into dragons or fish or bats, then a tiger should be easy, right? It's a mammal, and not much bigger than a human, relatively speaking. I had even given some thought to the rumoured "Fifteen Minute Shortcut", but when it comes down to it, even if I did have the ungodly pain tolerance to withstand such a rapid transformation of my bone structure and musculature, I… don't really want to do it quickly. Mundane HRT has already been such an absolute gift in terms of euphoria from noticing the slow and gradual changes, I want to keep that up. I want to notice the little things.

"Now I'm afraid there are some requirements to be settled first…"

Oh boy. Here comes the bureaucratic bullshit. Everything that's been put in place to make sure Our Children don't Make A Terrible Mistake. When it comes down to it, bodily autonomy only counts when you're not one of the weirdos. The instant you decide to be capital-d Different, people start falling over themselves trying to talk you out of it.

"First of all, I see that you have been taking human hormone therapy for a little over six months. We do require a full year of human treatment before beginning therian treatments, and I'm afraid that is fully non-negotiable. There are matters of biology that require the body to be a certain degree of… receptive."

I was afraid of this, but at least it's not a deal-killer. Another half-year is bearable, even if I am going to be shaking with anticipation the entire time.

"I also see you have letters from a practicing physician and a social worker, but we do require a second psychologist to be involved in the process."

Okay. Absolute horseshit, but not impossible. All I've got to do is find another social worker or psychologist. And pay them for several months of sessions. And hope they don't decide I'm crazy for wanting to throw away my humanity. I can feel my expression souring…

"It's also required to live as your desired species for at least a year before beginning the process."

"What." I'm leaning forward and glaring at the doctor before I fully realize it. "And how exactly am I supposed to do that, without the… the requisite biology, or the inborn instincts, or the… the habitat!" I let out a frustrated growl. "Am I supposed to fly off to India or Bangladesh or somewhere, and start camping out in the wilderness??"

"Miss Alexis, please, I'm afraid these are… are the requirements set forth by the guidelines of -"

"Guidelines!" I slam a palm down on the desk between us, before letting out a frustrated breath. "Just that… Guidelines. You know, and I know, that a lot of people have come to you already, with a lot more… exotic requests. Flying animals? Aquatic animals? A fucking DRAGON??"

The doctor seems taken aback, maybe he didn't expect this level of resistance.

"What is even the natural habitat of a dragon anyway? Or the diet? Or the behaviours in the wild?? It's a mythical creature for gods' sakes, there's no firm evidence they even existed!!" I stare at him, unblinkingly, with what I dearly hope is a predatory glare. "But I do get it, though. You have to be absolutely sure I won't regret it. Liability, or whatever. …Maybe we just need to know how hard I can BITE."

Something changes in his expression. ...Malice? No, not quite. A sort of… satisfaction, maybe.

It was a test. He wanted to know whether I'd just roll over and accept the impossibility of my quest, or whether I was prepared to fight for it.

Joke's on him, just getting human HRT was such a godsdamned hassle, I already know how to fight.

He adjusts his glasses. "Perhaps there is something I can do for you… Let me get you some forms."

[indigoisaspookyghost]

HTTYD thoughts

Okay, so, I watched HTTYD and HTTYD2 with @a-dargon for the first time since I was an itty bitty. And I have Thoughts.

Positives

• I ADORE all the designs and the scenes

• BANGER soundtrack

• Toothless, just, generally. my boy can do no wrong

• species euphoria ngl

• Great shot framing and stuff

• GOBBER.

And now the more critical stuff. Mostly two things, but they’re big. In the first movie, Stoick is a DICK and super dismissive of hiccup and generally a lot of the consequences and bad things were his fault. He did the raid, he chained toothless down, he angered the guy that exploded them. Hiccup is in the right. In the second movie.. Stoic is completely right. It’s a little bit of a 360, but understandable over the course of five years (although, EVERYONE has a dragon as soon as he wakes up??) and so it’s not a big deal. He’s right. If they had prepared Berk for war, shut everything down, etc etc, they might have stood a chance. Hiccup was an IDIOT. He kept advocating for pacifism even after being told by everyone that it wasn’t going to work, and put his dragon in danger. He also just.. talked with Drago and didn’t let Toothless kill him, which resulted in Toothless getting taken over and Stoick dying. It made me,, upset. So many illogical decisions

also, they’re REALLY inconsistent about how the tail mechanism works. How did Drago learn to ride him so quickly? Even if it wasn’t personalized to Hiccups foot (which it. Was???) the controls took Hiccup a long time to learn. First he can only glide without a rider, then he can’t fly at all without a rider, then he can fly with a rider who can’t fit in his stirrup, etc etc. just inconsistent.

also, why do they just. Let Erik join them. Give his deceased father’s dragon to the man who has been shown to have no loyalty. That wasn’t a redemption ARC, that was just. audhhdshn. sigh. does he betray them in race to the edge or is that Heather?

I do like this series. I watched all the race to the edge episodes as they came out with my brother. I ADORE toothless and gobber and the franchise. I just wish I could see it as I did when I was a tiny child who didn’t care about logic.

[cheatingcheetah]

My species transition plan, but it's heavily restricted due to dream job

(: Which gives me a LOT of species euphoria :)

1. No big tattoos or a lot of piercings, only a few. (Angel bites/fang cuz I forgot which one which)

2. Kenomimi cheetah tail and ears, and my dream mermaid tail. (And probably a few more)

3. A non official name change, basically a nickname that only creatures/ppl who are aware of my identity will call me. (Katfish, which is oddly euphoric to me, idk)

4. An unrealistic goal is to have a beach front house. But atp, any house would do.

5. Possibly be an exotic pet owner so I can finally have my babies (cheetah cubs)

6. Be more nonhuman (I'm not sure to explain this, but it's more of a feeling)

Thanks for reading (。・ω・。)

[homesickwings]

Well I started seeing myself as a angel like you suggested, and now I feel better with your reassuring post!! I am excited to see further in my journey as a angelic being and finally not just a boring human whose only last purpose is dying :3 (not making fun of y’all humans, i still love some and a lot are cute and nice)

And I have a question, just out of curiosity because I love seeing winged other kin talk about their phantom wings like idk something is just so whimsical that you feel this.. How does IT generally feels ? When you lay on your back in your bed or simply leaning against a wall, does you sometimes accidentally feels them?

— 🐏🕊️

Ooh I never thought about describing that, but sensing my wings is one of the things that make me the happiest!!

Basically, for me, my body isn't made of flesh and bone - I describe myself as a "being of light" 99% of the time. I remember my wings being feathered in "shape", but they also feel very, very light. I have at least a pair of "traditional" wings on my back, but the ones that are most noticeable are the ones under my "arms" - I don't really know how to explain it, sometimes I have trouble recalling how they actually look like. My real form has two arm-like limbs, and wings that are an extention of them. They aren't big compared to the ones on my back; they're just there.

They are one with my body - I'm aware that they're there, and they aren't numb, but there's no muscle or tissue to them. They feel warm, though.

If I ever start feeling them while I'm lying on my back, they don't really hurt or anything - but it's uncomfortable because they take up too much space, so that's why falling asleep become pretty hard lol. If they brush against something like a wall, I noticed it kind of tickles. And as for when i sit down, it's not really a problem, I can just tuck them in and they dont really get sore at all.

Generally speaking, they don't add any extra weight on my body.. but the ones under my arm can feel uncomfortable and weird, and even when they don't, they still get in the way a lot for obvious reasons. But I ignore that!!! Species euphoria >>>>> not being able to rest my arm on a table, am I right?