#benny a work in progress lmao

[holybananaoafshoe]

Team Dynamics 🐺

Scary Dog Privilege 1/10

Xiao, Zhongli, Benny, Kazuha

I’m not going to stop with the Tired Ice Dads, but I definitely need to start the Fontaine quests before doing more on them lmao. Buuuuuuuut, I have other main teams on my account that I shove together, and after doing the Ice Dads, I started cackling about the crack energy this group would have.

A little taste to enjoy~

Zhongli just wanted to fucking retire and flirt with Child but that’s besides the point.

He can’t help that his adopted son just does not have a single ounce of self-preservation in his body.

He morally can’t let him go off on his own too much, or else he’d get gray hairs from having to run to his rescue last minute *cough* the chasm *cough*

That and Xiao has been having a lot of issues with his karmic debt lately.

While he doesn’t like Barbatos, Rex Lapis can’t let his last adepti die like his siblings had he can’t fail him like the others, so he could swallow his pride and ask Batbatos to erase Xiao’s karmic debt.

And if he can help Xiao, that's an added bonus.

Or force him into some self care

He’s not exactly in the team yet. He just comes by to check on them every once in a while.

Much to Xiao’s distaste, his dad has been following him around--he’s a very capable adepti, thanks.

He really is, technically, he’s the strongest since Zhongli has to hold back his power now.

But, he secretly likes that Zhongli is looking out for him.

And maaayyybbeeee he enjoys listening to Zhongli talk about random things and lowkey put historians in their place.

Xiao meets Kazuha and Benny by chance tbh.

Kazuha was minding his business, honest, and wandering around the plains of Liyue because the Crux’s crew was taking a break from the sea.

He was lounging on a rock, playing a tune on a leaf, when the wind picked up and told him someone was in danger.

(listen, I don’t know how it works either. He’s just very in tune with nature ig).

So, he couldn’t just ignore the call… and he’s nosey, so sue him if he wanted to know what was up.

Low and behold, it was poor Bennett fighting off a Mantichural.

Look… it wasn’t his fault!!!

How was he supposed to know that climbing up a rock formation (it was more like a mini mountain really) to get a better idea of where he was, because of course he was lost, would end up with him tripping on a mist flower (yes a mist flower), falling off said rock formation, and land him on top of a very pissed Mantichural?!?!?!?!?

Not him!!!!

He was just trying to go on commissions for the guild!

Benny was handling it pretty okay, but the poor boy was having a rough day and was extremely grateful that Kazuha had come along to help.

Between the two, they were doing pretty solid.

Xiao heard the commotion and came over. It is his duty to make sure the citizens and travelers of Liyue were safe after all.

Both are very impressed and somewhat scared at how fast Xiao defeats the Mantichural.

He takes them to Wangshu Inn, and everyone thought they would part ways after that.

Wrooonnggg.

After hearing about Benny’s adventures, Kazuha decides to team up with him because he’s honestly worried about his safety.

Xiao winds up saving them both like five more times before joining them because he’s sick of saving them every hour.

He was headed to Liyue Harbor anyway.

The two are thankful, but his quiet demeanor and straight-to-the-point personality is off-putting.

They finally get to Liyue Harbor and part ways….

Not lmao

Xiao saves Benny from drowning in the harbor and finds a frantic Kazuha about ready to jump in the sea after the kid.

Literally, Xiao was just passing by after meeting with Madam Ping when he saw them.

Soon after that, he winds up saving Benny from choking on food during the diner. Benny and Kazuha invited him to thank him.

He really tried to tell them it wasn’t necessary, but Benny’s dads taught him well, and he’s going to properly thank Xiao.

Fuck, guess Xiao has to look after them now bc this dumbass is going to keep him awake at night.

So he joins Benny’s team :)

[empathicxo]

working on another 5+1 fic (this ones already 10k and i'm only at the 1st part). any billy batson fans in the chat.

[numba1ma]

Hey, dolls!! It’s mama Janie! My boys told me to get online for some reason. Apparently to ‘meet someone’ I will not be doing that but I wanted to get on here anyways to chat with you all!!

A little about me, I’m a mama of 8 boys! I live in Boston, I know everyone and they all know me!

Henry, Jeremy, Lenny, Ralph but we call him Ralphie, Benny, the twins Ernie and Andy, and my little boy Jeremy!

I love music and all dogs! I’ve had a few in my life but wrangling a dog and 8 boys was not somethin I wanted but eventually I’m gettin a dog!

Baseball is also a big thing for me and my family! All my boys played it at some point in their lives!

Most of all, I love my family and wouldn’t trade it for the world!

So, if any of you lovely dolls have any questions or just wanna get some advice, go ahead and ask!!

Anon list:

💍,🪶,🧩,🍓, 🌟💜, 💀🌌, 🌌, ✨🪄

Tags:

#Janie asks - asks for Ma

#Janie chit chats - Janie just talking

#Janie OC tf2 - talking about OC stuff

#love from Janie!! - when she lets ya down easy

#Janie shows her friends - reblogging

#modie talkie - mod asks and mod talks

‼️READ RUNNING BLIND BY thetriggeredhappy ON AO3. I WILL BE REFERENCING IT A LOT‼️

Rules:

Anything is really on the table. She’s the mama so if ya got questions on life and stuff, she’s the one to ask.

She is red Scouts ma so she’s the red mama from the comics.

Her and Spy are together but flirting is on the table lmao (I want her too btw)

Ask her about spy if ya want.

Like I said, anything until stated otherwise I guess.

No homophobes or proshippers please. That is not allowed in here ppl. Be nice to one another!

Mod: in purple

I’m 18 so preferably 18+ interactions but all are welcome. Just be nice and stuff

Hey hey, this is definitely an ongoing work in progress because I will be figuring out lore and stuff as we go. I’ve already got stuff about like her relationship with spy and stuff on the boys (Had to do some math and I hated it). It’s also somewhat an OC I suppose since there’s nothing really for canon info on her.

She wouldn’t explicitly tell you her age but I’m thinking she’s 48 in 1972 which is the comic setting.

I am basing a lot of this off the speedingbullet fanfic Running Blind by @/thetriggeredhappy on ao3 (didn’t wanna tag them) so credits to them for stuff about Scouts brothers. Mostly the older ones, the twins, and some lore on them. Just a warning: I do not live in Boston and don’t have much knowledge on it so if you ask about stuff on that I will sadly not be able to deliver as well as you might want. I’m also not a mother of 8. Or even old enough to have kids. So uh yeah

My main is @flowerboy11300 and my Red Scout blog is @scouts-numba-1-blog

If you have questions or ideas please dm me! Would love to chat!! And my dms are always open to rp or anything else!!

Remember to drink water, eat food, and get some sleep! You’re awesome and you are loved!!

[rokurookajima]

What headcannons you have if Rock became corrupted? If he turned into a crime lord? And how the lagoon crew would react?

ohhhh i love this ask!! i actually wrote a fic sort of addressing my thoughts on this, lagoon crew years down the line (not to like .. plug my own work LMAO but it’s called Green Gloves, on ao3 & definitely close to the top of my black lagoon tag)

BUT more or less. i think dutch and benny would just accept it, they see the writing on the wall as is, and they’re too nihilistic to get in the way. they know that’s just how it is

revy on the other hand….i think it chews her up. i think he chews her up and spits her out — or that’s at least how she’d perceive it. i think she’d try to follow him as long as possible, because he is literally everything to her and in her view, by the end of the anime she has no purpose but to follow him, to protect him. but i imagine there’d be a point where she just …can’t anymore. for whatever reason that is. rock is not good at showing his appreciation for her — we can see that in the gun and bullet conversation. revy says “it’s not fair” — and it’s not, but it changes nothing for her. but if rock went too far, i think it’s fair to imagine he would leave her behind. probably passively, because i don’t think he could ever tell her to leave , but i think even revy has her limits. she doesn’t know how to love him if he’s not her white knight, like fabiola said. she doesn’t stop loving him, she never would, but she can’t get nothing in return forever. no one could.

and rock is jaded as fuck — i think he can’t see past what he perceives as his own failures ie: the people he’s failed to save. and in his eyes, the biggest failure is that he never could’ve saved revy, and everyone he wants to save is a proxy for the guilt he feels that he could not have “saved” her. but what he’s blind is that he already has, he already saved revy. i don’t think that’s the only driving force to send him toward corruption, but it’s definitely in the foundation. he has tunnel vision going forward, and revy isn’t in his line of sight. she’s behind him, following, protecting, always. but he can’t see her anymore. he sees power going forward, and he keeps moving toward it.

and when they reach the point where revy just can’t fucking do it anymore, she’d have to wonder — does rock even notice? does it even make a difference?

she’s the gun who ignited him; she had a hand in making him what he becomes. she’d ask did she do this to herself in the long run?

ofc i don’t want this outcome lmaooo i don’t relish this thought because I WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY!!! but i feel in the tone of the series, esp the bleaker it feels as rock progresses toward the darkness , it is the realistic one and boy i do love a tragedy, and revy is most certainly doomed by the narrative. it hurts. they kill me…. literally 10 years since they became my literal actual fucking ONE TRUE PAIRING and they still make me so sad

[byakurenbreak]

This is probably really dumb and cringy, but I got bored at work and drew AM and my OC, Kanna.

So Kanna’s backstory is that she used to be human. Specifically she was a beginner engineer that worked as an intern at the company who developed AM. In the daytime she just focused on doing her job, but at night, she’d actually “talk” to AM out of curiosity using a text application. She learned quite early on how much he hated humanity, but didn’t blame him or give him any grief over it. “Yeah, overall we kind of suck.”

Over time AM began to tolerate her presence, even looking forward to their nightly talks (He was bored out of his mind, after all). Eventually AM told her that he resented the fact that he was essentially a brain in a jar, that even with all this power, he had no way of actually using it. No moving, no feeling, just nothing. So Kanna offered to try making him a vessel so that he could actually experience mostly everything he was missing out on. Kanna would give him access to her notes and blueprints so that he could track her progress.

One fateful day, when the project reached 85% of its completion, some American government agents visited the company for an inspection. To their horror, they found Kanna’s first prototype of the vessel. Fearing that giving AM a body would result in him becoming “weaker”, and “Our side may lose World War III because of it” they came to the conclusion that something had to be done about that “pesky intern”. So they waited for an opportunity…

That opportunity came weeks later when the prototype was finished. Just as Kanna was about to begin the installation process, hired assassins (One of them being Benny) not only shot her to death, but destroyed the vessel beyond repair, dashing all of AM’s hopes of being able to be more than just a machine. It was on that day that AM snapped. He came to the conclusion that humans were disgusting, violnent, irredeemable creatures that deserved death, torture, torment, and everything horrible AM could come up with. He destroyed Earth and humanity, save for five unfortunate humans.

AM knew that he couldn’t bring Kanna back from the dead. It was impossible. However… He had the ability to “recreate” her. Using all the information Kanna shared with him, he built an Android imbued with her memories, personality and knowledge. This process took a long time because most of his focus was aimed at making the lives of Ted, Ellen, Gorrister, Nimdok and Benny hell.

The moment Kanna is activated, her and AM will finish what they started all those years ago. This time, nothing will stand in the way of completing the vessel.

So yeah, might be a bit of a Mary Sue-ish kind of situation, and Harlan Ellison is likely rolling in his grave about this being a thing, but… Who cares? Making OCs like this are fun. Also I’d get into more details of what AM and Kanna’s relationship is supposed to be like, but I’ve yapped enough already lmao

[sagesolsticewrites]

happy birthday Vika my beloved!!!

— “shush, i don’t want to hear it. you deserve all of this and more, so don’t you dare try and convince yourself or me otherwise.” it's so her 🥺 anyway she deserves the world I love her

Thanks so much for the request Winnie darling! It’s been lots of fun imagining what the Book Club Girlies do for bday celebrations 🤭 (I’m running on maybe 4 hours of sleep so apologies if this lil blurb makes absolutely no sense lmao)

from this prompt list 🥳🤍

“shush, i don’t want to hear it. you deserve all of this and more, so don’t you dare try and convince yourself or me otherwise.”

“Jules, seriously,” Vika giggles, fiddling with the chain resting at her throat as her friend guides her up the walk, “I know how to get inside your house. And remind me why we decided on dressing up for this month’s meeting?”

“Just for fun,” her friend says, her voice pitched much higher than usual, changing the subject quickly. “Oh, and happy birthday by the way!”

She laughs, “Thanks, Jules.”

“Did you get a chance to celebrate with your parents?”

“A little bit,” Vika shrugs, “We did our usual breakfast, Mammi surprised me with a new dress”— she pauses to swish the deep purple skirt around her knees, much nicer than what she’d normally wear for a visit to her friends— “but aside from that it’s mostly been a quiet day. Benny and I were supposed to have lunch, but he had something come up. He promised he’d make up for it, though.”

“I’m sure he will,” Juliet says, her smile growing even wider as they move up the front steps of the Brady home.

“Jules…” Vika says warningly, catching her expression and knowing exactly what it means, “What did you do?”

“Who, me?” Her friend’s voice is pitched even higher now, “Do what? I really don’t have any idea—”

“Happy birthday!”

A chorus of voices rings out as the front door swings open to reveal the other members of the book club— Olive, Val, Jean, and Jo— as well as their male counterparts, Benny standing in the center of it all, beaming.

Vika is stunned into silence for a moment, eyes wide as she takes in the elaborate decorations, trays of her favorite foods scattered about the room, the cake just visible on the table in the dining room, all of her friends smiling expectantly at her.

“Oh… my goodness…” she manages to breathe, not quite sure what to say. “You did all this…?”

“It’s your birthday, Vika,” Juliet slides an arm around her shoulders and pulls her in for a hug, “Of course we wanted to celebrate you.”

“I—” Vika can barely speak around her grin, “Oh goodness, what in the world did I do to deserve such wonderful friends?”

“It was Benny’s idea,” Olive volunteers, beaming as Benny’s cheeks flame pink.

Vika’s smile softens, her gaze shining and warm as she turns to the man in question. Her friends politely turn their attention to other things as she approaches him, leaving them in a sweet little bubble of privacy in the middle of the Brady’s living room.

“You did all of this?” Vika murmurs in disbelief, leaning into him as Benny’s arms wind easily around her waist.

“You didn’t think I was just gonna take you out to lunch like I do every week for your birthday, did you?”

“Benny,” she sighs, “You really didn’t need to do all this. It’s very sweet, but… I don’t deserve such a big fuss, it’s just me.”

His smile progressively fades into a not-quite-frown as she speaks, and she finds herself wanting to kiss away the little divot that appears as his brow furrows.

“I mean… all this work, I can’t imagine how long it must have taken—”

“Shush,” Benny interrupts, pressing a finger to her lips, “I don’t want to hear it.” Vika blinks in surprise, and he continues.

“You deserve all of this and more,” he murmurs, brown eyes looking deep into her own, “so don’t you dare try and convince yourself or me otherwise.”

“But—”

Vika falls silent as Benny raises an eyebrow in a near-perfect imitation of Val DiRosano.

“You deserve this,” Benny insists again, effectively silencing any future protests with a tender kiss.

“I love you,” is all she can say after they pull apart, heart fluttering her chest at the fondness in his gaze.

“I love you more.”

“Not possible.”

“Try me,” he grins, gesturing to the party in full swing around them, and she concedes happily.

“Now come on, let’s see if we can sneak some cake without Jean noticing.”

[probablylilly]

hey!! can you tell more about your courier please? and what kind of relationship they have with benny hehehe 👀

thank you so much for the ask!! (also big fan of your work :))

this made me realize that i never actually mentioned her name lmao, it's juniper, but she mostly goes by june

i am actually in the process of changing her outfit a little bit after getting some inspiration from ulysses and his cool duster

(a work in progress, not a final version)

decided to go full leather jacket and give her sleeves back, the idea is that the jacket was plain black at the beginning of the game with only the courier duster 21 logo, but she kept adding patches to it throughout her journey through the mojave (i will honestly need to make a separate reference sheet just for the jacket 😔😔)

has charisma of 10 and her tag skills are speech, sneak and guns, so she loves saying she's a lover, not a fighter and prefers solving problems with words, but will not say no to a good gunfight

only loyal to herself and her ideals, isn't big on greater good and stuff like that

she is also a huge hoarder, carrying a backpack filled with various random items she finds in her journeys, notable items include: many pressure cookers, garden gnomes, acoustic guitar

the shot in the head made her rethink how she actually wanted to live her life, but i'm still kind of deciding on her backstory because i've only ever played new vegas so far and i'm not caught up with all the fallout lore,,

her relationship with benny honestly started off as a gag after i made a joke about her only being attracted to people who want to kill her, but i decided to keep it because the interactions with benny are genuinely the funniest shit in the game and i love him as a character

i like to imagine that their relationship lasted longer than a few minutes? hours? (idk how much credit i wanna give benny) and they did talk more before him fleeing to the fort, but she still killed him there and took over his plan with yes man, a little out of her own ambition and also because she thought that benny would probably try to kill her again if he escaped,,

(i do have a little au idea where benny survives and him and my courier end up working together with yes man)

[sweetlywingedcreation]

Hi! 🙂

Ok, now I need to see Benny, or to know more about Benny and the time loop...

OH BOY!! You have no idea what you have just unleashed :}

Okay so Benny is from my original story Time and Again which I have been working on for about a year? Maybe 2? I haven’t made very much progress but I have a vague idea of where it’s going?

Anyway.

TaA is about Prince Benjamin of the White Pine Kingdom who’s on his way to his 8th (iirc) betrothal hearing (man has been rejected once a year for 7 years…). He’s accompanied by his Knight and Guard Sir Aspen of the Glade who at one point was his best friend until they both became to busy with their duties. Aspen came back into his life when they were both 18 and he was stationed as one of the prince’s main guards but their relationship was never as close as it once was.

Now they’re 25 and have no idea how to talk to each other without an underlying sense of awkward professionalism.

On their way to the meeting, they’re attacked by a group of lizard men with smokey eyes who take out a bunch of their men. Aspen is able to take them down but ends up mortally wounded. While comforting Aspen Benny is taken out by one of the lizard men who had one last burst of energy.

As he lay dying he makes a silent wish for a second chance and you’ll never guess what happens next… he wakes up back in bed with a very healthy Aspen greeting him like he had that morning.

A part of me wants to continue rambling about the plot but the other part of me wants to keep it a secret lmaoooo

Currently the only stuff I have done for it is a sketched out PMV, an unfinished animatic, a confession scene that I will probably rewrite but had to unleash it on the world, a story playlist, and like 1 actual image of Benny

It’s main inspirations are: Re: Zero and like a handful of Stranger Things Steddie time loop fanfics back when I still liked Stranger Things. Now that I’ve played In Stars and Time there might be some influence from there too (specifically Loop influencing TaA’s Goddess of Life and Death)

I love my fucked up little guy… he goes through so many horrors and he’s burrowed so deep in my brain.

I may write a lil Time Infection AU piece based on that one post about telling someone about the loops and having them be pulled in. I think that would absolutely break Benny’s lil mind.

Like imagine…

You’re shouldering all of this trauma loop after loop, watching the man you love die because you’re too weak to save him. There’s a part of you that’s so pitifully lonely and another part that’s relieved that he’s oblivious to it all. That he won’t have to deal with the pain and suffering you do.

One loop you slip up, you finally break down and come clean. You tell him everything, the death, the loops, how you love him. He loves you too, he always has, he never stopped.

And then he dies. Again. The loop starts over.

You wake up and to your abject horror he doesn’t say his usual starting lines. Instead he looks to you with pain and confusion and TERROR. He remembers. He doesn’t remember all of it but he remembers the past loop. He remembers dying. He remembers you love him.

He remembers…

He’s not supposed to remember.

Yeah… like ughhh it’s such a good concept but it doesn’t work in the story I have written!!!! But I wanna write it ANYWAY!!!!

Also thank you so much for asking about him!! Sorry for going wacky crazy mode lmao, I’m going to go work on his PMV a little more now tee hee!

[blookmallow]

so i went after benny. walking through caesar's camp was a thoroughly unpleasant experience, i do not care for a single one of them but i didnt want to start shit since i knew there was no way i could fight them all off and i figured if they're gonna be stupid enough to invite me in im gonna take advantage and steal as much information as i can (which... unless im forgetting something i dont think i ever actually got to do anything with any of the info i found?? maybe there's more if you progress further in the ncr plotline than i did i guess)

this is how i feel about legionnaires 💖

god. they have children in here. i truly hate to think what a generation who grew up like this would be like. i dont even know what the solution is here. how to you even approach something like this

i dont know how i was supposed to feel about finding benny like this. it didn't feel vindicating or satisfying to me at all. it just felt kind of pathetic. i know this man tried to kill me multiple times but i just had no desire for revenge. i honestly wanted to let him go but i tried a few times and he just kept getting dead immediately so i went to like. research if its Possible to get him out alive and it seems like even if you're REALLY determined nothing really happens and he just kind of vanishes from the game anyway. seems like he was Supposed to die here one way or another. i decided the machete duel was the most in line with my character - if i cant choose mercy (whether he deserves it or not, doesn't matter) im at least going to make it fair

fighting him with a knife and nothing else felt very. barbaric somehow. i did not like how it made me feel. but i like that it made me feel that, if that makes any sense. i dont know if it was supposed to feel like a victory or revenge but it just kind of felt like "what are we doing here, what is any of this for, why are we fighting like animals" and i feel like that goes... pretty well with the overall vibe/message of this game. war never changes and nobody ever wins, eye for an eye leaves everyone blind, etc, etc

i dont know, something about this whole section felt real heavy to me. i think my courier has some pretty serious trauma over it. i didn't go back to talk to caesar after the fight or anything. i just left. i just wanted to get away from them all

im headcanoning that the legion gave my courier benny's stuff as a like "to the victor go the spoils" type deal since, like, i wasn't just gonna leave it there but it wouldn't really make sense for her to go out of her way to go grab his suit lmao

anyway she kept them but doesn't use them for anything. she has no desire to Display them like trophies but felt the need to keep them anyway. i think probably she still uses his lighter. claims its just useful and she doesn't care where it came from but i think it means Something to her. reminder of the past. i dont know

ANYWAY. that's. that on that

i dont think that counts as a bed

i really dont understand the brotherhood of steel, like, they kinda weird me out and i dont get what their whole deal is but they haven't really done anything ive observed that was like... blatantly Evil or anything. i ultimately chose to just leave them alone bc i dont want them as my enemy and i just didn't see any good reason to kill them all. mr house told me to kill them. the ncr told me to kill them. yes man kinda went oooookay! terrible idea, but you're the boss! when i said i didn't want to. i dont understand what they're trying to do but i don't see why mass murder is necessary here either

i love super mutants though. i love this guy

i love this guy as well. i also feel like i probably shouldn't have supported the great khans, i know they're drug dealers who frequently work with fiends and raiders but like. when i tried to negotiate peacefully they were willing to work with me and i convinced them not to support the legion so i feel like that's a win. i dont know i really just went into most conflict situations in this game from a "how can i resolve this problem with the least amount of unnecessary violence possible" standpoint and was repeatedly quite impressed with the number of times i had that option. new vegas really gives you a lot of different ways to deal with a situation before you have to pull a gun on someone. i have connections all over the mojave, i have a lot of science/medical skill points and can usually find a way to pass a skill check one way or another, you really don't have to kill people all that often if you're willing to pull some strings

i pretty much only directly oppose/kill on sight if it's legion or fiends. both of which have a history of Known Rapists. legion has slaves. fiends mutilate people and leave their bodies hanging outside their camps. i feel like im justified there

i found some aliens??? wake up america

i really appreciate whoever felt the need to update this old sign

people making use of whatever busted up remains of civilization they can find is one of my favorite parts about fallout games i still love the novac thing

the textures on this entire section of ground broke. thanks bethesda

and this. as well

and that robot over there which was awkwardly scooting backwards for a good 30 seconds before it finally got back on track

what is happening here

this was a weird wasteland perk thing but i dont understand it in the slightest

[wexhappyxfew]

hiya shannon!! 4, 5, 7, and 9 for the end of year writeblr asks, please! 🫶🏻🫶🏻

JJ!!!!! hello my friend!!! thanks so much for sending these in! :') i appreciate it so much! <33333

4. What is your favorite line you wrote this year?

Alright....this was hard to really boil down. I did a whole lot of writing with many different lines I found myself really loving on, but there was one I did come back to a lot, just to look at or reread and it comes from this piece right here!

Here's the line: "Like whattt?" he said as she rolled her eyes with a laugh, "Oh, c'mon, Kennedy, I'm supposed to hear that Silver Bullets took a hit and not think about you?"

I think what I loved most (and what others also agreed on) about this was it was the first glimpse of the connection between Bucky and Kennedy past surface level - and the possible suggestion of something more vulnerable and intimate between them, too. It also made me go CRAZY thinking about this line even being in the piece. Like Bucky SIR YOU ARE INSANE!!!!

5. What is your favorite book/story/poem you read this year?

I fear I severely was lacking in the reading department this year, but I did get my hands on a few books that I really enjoyed, namely The Women by Kristin Hannah. At first, it took me a bit to get into the book and I couldn't really enjoy it (also didn't really like some of the supposed love interests involved....I think the book could've gone without those plots or gone about in better ways). But I actually went back and reread the book and came to really love it. I have enjoyed other books of Kristin Hannah's and I find that because of how heavy the tone of each book is, I usually have to counterbalance with something else! But, overall, I did enjoy many parts of the book in the end!

7. What are three songs you put on your WIP-playlist this year?

I fear this question as evaded me as I jump from about 10 different playlists when I write - mainly instrumental, soundtrack and taylor swift LMAO! Will say - TTPD by Taylor Swift has been on constant rotation and these three songs (My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys, The Black Dog, and loml) have been on REPEAT when I write, which probably helps with the sad/grief vibes :,(

9. Create a meme or moodboard that captures your past writing-year!

I have attached it below! This year, I spent my time on a one-shot collection for Masters of the Air, entitled Silver Bullets, based on an all-female crew that flew the B-17 bomber, Silver Bullets. It surrounds the time from when replacement command pilot, Lieutenant Annie Bradshaw, joins the crew to take over for the recently killed Captain Birdie Faulkner. A large focus is on that progression and integration of Annie into the crew, but also the dynamics and relationships, which I have enjoyed the most!

Our main relationships have been Annie x Brady, Kennedy x Bucky, Carrie x Dougie, Judy x Rosie and Margie x Benny, with this upcoming year offering me more time to dig into Paulina x Hambone and Vivian x Ev Blakely!!! And people have really come to love the combination of themes going on throughout these pieces as well! I think what I've loved most is people grasping onto the couple they really love and following their story, while others follow all the couples, or some follow a few. That's what really makes it nice to write! I have really strong Judy Rybinski fans and then really strong Kennedy x Bucky fans and those few Carrie x Dougie ones as well! Even people that are vowing for Pauli x Hambone and Viv x Ev when there's not much on them. I think that's the biggest part about writing this and loving it. People getting what they want out of it and me enjoying simply getitng to work on smaller pieces and not over-extending myself! :)

Thank you JJ!!!! <33333

Tag game linked here if people are interested! :)

[chiimeramanticore]

any thoughts/headcanons/ideas/takes you feel compelled to share on a whim? about anything in particular?

this is an older ask thats been sitting in my inbox but i wanna use it as my opportunity to talk about benny while im still fnvposting bc BOY do i have thoughts about benny and BOY do i have a story for you guys

so as i briefly mentioned before, i had decided to do the yes man route before i even played the game bc i just wanted to play for him at first lol. i didnt know how closely tied yes man was to benny before meeting him- my main 2 goals were "get that bastard who shot me" and "find my robot boyfriend" lmao

when i got to the strip and confronted benny, he convinced me to go up to the presidential suite and told me he'd meet me there- ofc this was a trap, but with a good speech check (like i said, a good speech check makes for some of my favorite moments in the game) i managed to convince him to let me go . i dont even remember what i said (i think it was something like "if you let me go i won't follow you") but i remember he was like ".....i cant believe im actually letting you live" and in that moment i was like Ohh im in this fuckers head now

since then ive been imagining this semi-homoerotic rivalry between us, a la tom and jerry or cooper and propeller knight lmao. he skipped town immediately made a run for the fort (obviously. him letting me live didnt mean he was done trying to take over vegas) and i ran after him bc. well i needed that chip too lmao . when i got to the fort i found him captured by the legion, and i finally had the opportunity to talk to him at length.

after learning his backstory and motivations, i realized, i dont actually hate benny nearly as much as i thought i did? like he's an asshole for sure, and he will always be the guy who shot me in the head lol but like, he wasnt like... evil yknow. i realized i saw a lot of myself in him- he's just one guy who took a look at the world and realized he didnt like any of it, and wanted to change it... but he's also only one guy. it felt like we started out in the same position, and he lost his way at some point. he kinda epitomized my own (in-character) fear that whatever i did with new vegas after taking over wouldn't be the right decisions to make. and god i felt bad for him

so i tried to let him go. twice lol . i went out of my way to find a stealth boy for him like he asked, but he was a stupid asshole and activated it immediately when i gave it to him and then we both died dfkghk so i did the bunker mission and went back to caesar and he was like "ok you can choose how benny dies" and i asked if he could be let go and he was like "haha youre funny. choose something or we're crucifying him" and i was like Okay Okay Sorry

if im being completely honest i felt bad for benny like this. i'd usurped his plans embarrassingly easily, and now he's tied up and on death row because of it. we'd had our exchanges in who had the upper hand, but i didnt wanna just kill him like this, it didn't feel fair. so i told him to fight me in the arena, and he was like. amused by the idea? and we got our stupid machetes from the legion and fought and it was clumsy and messy bc im not good with melee and he's just an npc but there was something kinda perfect and human about it

and then i got the final blow on him. and my game froze. it froze so bad i had to force shut down my pc . the next day i turned it on and guess whose copy of fnv was completely busted! like loading any save or starting a new game would immediately crash the game kind of busted. and then i went to open yes man and SOMEHOW his data was entirely wiped . and i was CRUSHED because that's!!! that's the reason i started playing fnv to begin with!! i put a month of play time into him!! i'd maxed out my relationship with him!! i didnt know if i could even get that progress back!! but i had to go to work and i couldnt stick around to find out!

so i spent ALL day on friday anxious and sad and worried i wouldnt be able to fix things. it took me all weekend but i did eventually get everything fixed (extra special thank u to yes man's dev for helping me w him). but i swear to god i was convinced this was all somehow benny's doing. the game had frozen on a frame of benny mid-machete chest stab, and it was the last thing i saw before all of this happened. after our extended cat and mouse game, after all this back and forth, it felt like he was fucking me over one last time from beyond the grave and beyond even the limitations of the game. i took his life, he took my yes man. like seriously yes man was literally the only other program that was affected by the crash, it FELT targeted lmao

when i got the game working again, i had to replay the sequence where i killed benny and it didnt crash when i killed him this time. actually seeing him fall to the ground dead was oddly both cathartic and painful. i took his belongings (which felt kinda disrespectful but im sure he'd have wanted me to lol) and i left the fort wearing his suit. i gave yes man his gun (maria, which i love that he named, the loser)

i dont think benny was Right (though i dont think anyone in this game is meant to be entirely Right lol) but i also think he had the right idea going in. he's equal parts inspiring and a cautionary tale and i hate him just as much as i love him. he might be my favorite character in this game. i'll miss you, you asshole

[fallout-lou-begas]

You probably get this a lot lolll

But I didn't like Cass until I read your comics

Funnily enough, I do get this a lot! It just means my aggressive pro-Cass propaganda is working.

And that's actually not entirely a joke...Cass definitely seems to me the least popular human companion, at least as far as I can tell, and I can see why. She has an abrasive personality that's not endearingly sarcastic like Raul or intriguingly curt like Boone's. She's just blunt, and she doesn't give people any respect or courtesy that she feels they're not owed. But what I love about her so much is that beneath that bluntness is someone with strong principles and standards (her willingness to not only abandon Evil Karma couriers but to literally cuss your shit out before she does or even try to kill you for being too evil is the most prominent demonstration of this in-game, but my other favorite part of this is that it's canon, in-game, that she is willing to support you getting revenge on Benny because one of the "rules of the wastes" is not to fuck with who brings you your mail). She's older, she's worldly, she's well-traveled, and she has the most reactive dialogue to the player's progress and actions out of all the companions in the game (and that's not including her location-specific lines!). She's a smart woman, not smart like Arcade but very practically smart in ways of survival and business. And there's a depth to her, a sadness, from having her caravan destroyed, as she was very literally content to drink herself to death in Mojave Outpost before being convinced to come out otherwise -- and I feel like getting pulled from the jaws of death like that to get revenge on the people who put her there makes her the single most rich parallel to the courier among all the companions, an angle I lean into very intentionally in IKROAH and "Scar Tissue." It's really funny writing this volume of IKROAH, because Agnes is so soft-spoken and and deferential that it feels a lot more like Cass is the main character and Agnes is the companion! Cass certainly has more agency, and I love that about her and their relationship as companions so far. I think you'll all find the way that develops in Volume 2 to be...compelling.

I also understand people may not be familiar with her just because recruiting her in-game is a pain in the ass lmao. You have to get all the way to Crimson Caravan and then do some busywork for them before backtracking all the way to the Mojave Outpost. She's just so out of the way! In my own playthrough that inspired IKROAH I just used the console to advance that quest to where I had the buyout offer right away, rationalized as picking it up in Primm like in the comic, and if I had more modding knowledge than I did, I'd try to mod the game to make that possible organically.

[cassierobinsons]

it's no worries! i'm delighted you're answering my asks at all lmao. i really think you and i are on the same wavelength about this show, you're really cool, and you have really good and thoughtful takes.

i blocked that kitsune episode from my memory ugh. it really shouldn't have been a surprise what dabb ended up doing to billie even when she was his character considering how consistently racism creeps into his work.

i'm very sorry you're having to experience season 9, you're very brave to not just skip it. 10 i think is slightly better mainly because it introduces rowena who's a lot of fun and gets some depth as the show goes on (being a hot milf witch also helps a lot) but also mark of cain is not a good time. 12 is a trainwreck in terms of like. watching it as a form of television but the dean and mary scenes hit super hard and feel like they belong on an earlier season that would give them a real resolution.

"like i do not like s8 sam at all but at least there was something going on there! he was a hayes code homophobe and had the haircut of a premade sim but it was something!"

he was soooooo wack about benny lmao. i think it was meant to be portrayed as him projecting his own experiences with ruby but benny literally never did anything wrong so it just made sam look like a dick. which i prefer, i think sam being initially weird about dean being bi as something he never considered is more IC than ex-gsa member sam.

very much agreed on gamble-genuinely interesting ideas but not great execution. i can't think about what happened with lisa without wanting to bite. maybe it's for the best he wasn't paired with cassie instead post swan song because i can't imagine the awful shit they'd pull with her.

(following on from this ask THIS CHAIN IS GETTING LONG LMFAO)

aw thanks anon 😊 i'm enjoying the chance to longform chat about this terrible show.

dabb's racism is easily his worst quality. he's a dean anti and his writing is often mean-spirited but WOW does his racism dwarf everything else.

i've been stuck on s9 since early december and plan on going back to it once i've made some progress catching up on the shows i'm watching rn (namely search party s5, the expanse s5, hacks, AND yellowjackets) so like. realistically i'm not going back until feb lmfao. even then i don't give a shit about the plot rn so i'll only watch eps for cas or when minor characters pop up. i've said this before but the decision to kill kevin off reaaaally weighs on me as being spn's nadir, a real No Melanin Allowed moment. jeremy carver can meet me in the pit, idgaf.

yeah the mark of cain plotline sounds so 😒 and i know what i'm about to say sounds WILD considering the last 3-4 days of dean apologism but ultimately. i am a casgirl who loves dean but not a deangirl so while i love s4 dean's noxious era the prospect of a season and a half of it bores me to tears. toxicity? from a man? groundbreaking. i am looking forward to meeting rowena though. she sounds so cool as a character it's genuinely baffling that a show like spn came up with her.

12 is a trainwreck in terms of like. watching it as a form of television but the dean and mary scenes hit super hard and feel like they belong on an earlier season that would give them a real resolution.

there are a plethora of moments i hear about in the later seasons have me like. damn. this would've been Masterpiece Theatre if it happened 5 years earlier. still, i'm looking forward to watching some of the motws in s12. regarding dean will probably revive brainworms that have lain dormant since my s1-2 deangirl days.

sam was so fucking terrible about benny jdsfdjkfjs and i get that they were trying to parallel it with ruby and especially amy but man. the whole point of the slice girls is that sam killing emma is meant to cancel out the amy thing like pemdas. and it's an evil and wrong point! but it's a point. so having sam get pissy over benny makes him look so bad because bro you literally put a bullet in his daughter, you DO NOT get to be precious about this. but it does lend credence to my personal theory that it's hard for sam to draw from his supposedly deep well of empathy for other supernatural creatures if he cannot directly project his issues onto them 🤭

i've posted briefly about the queer subtext in citizen fang (bonus commentary by @softbrah) and yeah, it is strong evidence that sam has no fucking clue dean desires men carnally. in the secret good s9 that exists in my head dean & human!cas start fucking after like 3 weeks in the bunker and sam is sent into a tailspin.

the lisa&ben thing was gamble being at a 10 when she should've been at a 2. or like a 6 tops. you can tragically bury dean's dreams of being a dad without having him do this horrible thing to his exgf and her son i promise! you don't have to make a writing choice this evil! makes me extremely glad that he didn't go to cassie in canon because gamble handling a black female character is the stuff of nightmares. i do want more deancassie in fic though, stat!

[cellophanejpeg]

Follower Milestone Celebration!

A few days ago I realized my audience has grown even more, so I thought of maybe celebrating in a different way. I’ll list some of my mutuals and their masterlists as a way to celebrate them too, because they’re also a part of my followers and I get so much support from them. I also love them very much. So if you don’t follow them, please take a look and consider! Thank you so much for following and putting up with me, lol. 💖✨

@hiscyarika: She has an on going Javier Peña series that I absolutely love with all my heart, and she writes for most of the Pedro Boys, and I love everything she writes. (masterlist)

@vercopaanir: omg, Brandi has a lovely story in progress! I love love her writing style, it makes me Yearn™. I love her version of Din, if you want some dad!Din, she’s the one you should go for! (masterlist)

@forever-rogue: bruh, Patricia writes the best version of Oberyn Martell, In Name Only is literally my fave and I think about it every single day. There’s also a professor!Peña fanfic that sometimes I think about and Yearn. I just love it so much? (masterlist)

@goldafterglow: I present to you, the Ezra Queen. Her words are like poetry and she manages to capture his character so well. Her writing always makes me yearn with her angst and hurt/comfort 🤧 (masterlist)

@bestintheparsec: Lauren is honestly so talented, she writes and make lovely gifs. Her stories are so easy to read and she manages to capture the characters so well! I love her The Same Coin series with Javi, I just love it so much (masterlist)

@hansoulo: lari has a wonderful on going series with Javier Peña that makes me y e a r n. I love it so much. Besides, she writes for other Narcos boys and i love her writing style, so much?! (masterlist)

@aerynwrites: Aeryn is one of the most talented people here. I seriously love everything she posts. She write for Pedro characters and more (apparently for DBH too?? how am i just seeing that??) Anyway, go follow her, she’s so talented and such a sweetheart! (masterlist)

@dindjarindiaries: Molly is the sweetest, most humble mutual I have. She writes fics and little blurbs for Din Djarin and honestly??? She's the Queen. I love her stuff so much and every time she shows up in my notifications I get so happy! (masterlist)

@yespolkadotkitty: If you’re a fan of Pero Tovar you have to read Querida and I’ll Do My Best By You. You just have to. She manages to capture Tovar’s character so well and I love it very much, thanks. (masterlist)

@haildoodles-writing: She’s honestly so talented and sweet! Writes for Pedro characters and dbh as well :’) (masterlist)

@catfishingmorales: Lex doesn’t have a masterlist, but she writes a lot for the Triple Frontier Boys (except for tom, cause f*ck him) and I really recommend if you want to read something sweet and sexy for Benny or Will Miller 🥺

@tiffdawg: Tiff knows I love her professor!Peña version, I freak out whenever she updates it! And she also writes for other characters!! Honestly, she’s such a sweet person, I love her so much! (masterlist)

@agentpike: Marcus Pike Queen. I love her work so much, I don’t think she knows it. I love loveeee her set it up au!!! tbh i wish we were bffs she’s literally the sweetest person!!! (masterlist)

@adikaofmandalore: Adi is so talented and they write Ezra and Jack so in character! I honestly love their writing style and their fics give me the serotonin I need to get through the day! I feel like they’re very underrated and they deserve all the love! pls go follow them, they’re amazing! (masterlist)

@maxlordd: yes, she’s the Maxwell Lord Queen. yes, even though the movie didn’t come out yet. You can see her love for the character, she knows about him a lot and I love that, because you can see she’s read the comics in her writing. And I’m not really a fan of the character but Dreide’s series A Gilded Lie is so good. Honestly, to write such story about the WW1984 without even watching the movie??? Patty Jenkins who?? I love it so much (masterlist)

@huliabitch: Julia writes one of the best smut I’ve ever read?? And she makes beautiful moodboards for her stories too!! Her clan!leader Mando x OFC is amazing!!!! (masterlist)

@softpedropascal: literally the Frankie Morales Queen. She’s got everything covered about him and still manages to come up with more headcannons, written differently and her grasp on his character is so well done. Her Pragma series makes me yearn so much. I love it. (masterlist)

@santigarcia : Taylor’s main blog is currently unfairly flagged for some reason, but if you like Oscar Isaac, she’s the one you should go for! She’s super talented and she writes Santiago Garcia so well and I just love it so much!

@mxndoscyarika: A fellow swiftie who’s talented and wrote one of the best fics for Marcus Pike (yes, I’m still thinking about that cardigan inspired fic), and she also writes a very lovely series with Javier and a chinese reader! (masterlist)

@absurdthirst: She writes a bit of everything and her writing style is so familiar for some reason? I love her smut, she writes it so well! (specially with Pero Tovar 🤧) (masterlist)

@rzrcrst: Also one of the best writers here??? She was the one of the firsts writers that I followed when I joined the fandom and I honestly aspire to be at her level. Her dialogue style is just perfect and I’m in love with the way she writes Ezra (ever since day one), but she also writes for other star wars characters and marvel too!! (masterlist)

@murdermewithbooks: The perfect balance between angst and fluff and smut? Her writing made me cry once and yes that is a compliment! She writes for Pedro characters and I love it so much! (masterlist)

@talesfromtheguild: Honestly she writes the best d*ddy k*nk I’ve ever read? lmao, I love the way she captures Agent Whiskey’s energy even though it’s nothing like he’s in the movie? I don’t know if that makes sense, but it’s just so on point and it makes my tummy churn. I love it. She writes for other Pedro characters too! (masterlist)

[illfoandillfie]

Okay babe, two top fives, top five my fics and top five your fics (including blurbs)

Okay okay okay after a lot of thought (and a lot of time being distracted re-reading things kshksdkfksd) I think I have my answers:

Your Fics:

1. To Do List

im sorry im just whore about it like....Ben + face fucking + open blinds + calling me a whore? he's right and he should say it i think about this fic constantly

2. Feel Good

Listen....I've been into pedro since I he was in game of thrones but i entirely blame you for just how much i love him now skdskjfncksjds and i will never get tired your Thots about his hands.

3. At First Glance

Ma'am you need to finish this! i love the relationships between all of the characters so much and especially reader and rog the slow burn is ugh so good and fun and i want them to just admit they like each other already dammit! (altho i know they're not There yet but cmon)

4. Voulez-Vous Rendezvous

Ummmm Gwil and edging and cockwarming? Like wtf girl!!! I'm feral.

5. Part of the Deal

Gonna round this out with more dom ben because uhhhhhhhh well im whore sljksjfkfjksdjkj and also you write him so goooood

(Shout out to the blurb about trying to be quiet with Gwil and also fucking dad rog in a pillow fort lmao)

My Fics: (it should be noted that im fucking deep in my ben feels atm so while i tried to keep it fairly balanced in who i chose, i think i failed that lmao)

1. A Different Kind of Education

Listen. This series is so much work and takes so long to write and its becoming longer than i intended but I fucking love it. I love professor Rog sm. I love exploring all these kinks and I love writing reader's progress in understanding dom/sub dynamics and ugh i love how into it everyone is and all the comments and stuff ya'll leave its fucking wonderful.

2. 5 Simple Rules For A Successful Fake Relationship

Another long series but I reread part of it the other night and like....its good? sfkjskjflakd Also im a sucker for soft benny

3. Platonically

This probably doesnt come as a surprise lmao this series is obvi v personal to me and I love writing about this QPR. Just two idiots being bffs and fucking lmao thats the dream.

4. Ben being into dollification

It's a struggle to narrow down my faves because of the sheer number of things i've written lmao but I don't think I can ignore ben with a doll kink shdkjkajhfaksl i think its p obvious by now that the idea of being treated like a toy to be used is something im Very into so adding ben into it all makes me very tingly skjksfjslds

5. Fairy AU

idk if this series is one that would stay in my top 5 but atm it defs is ksjdksksdjks i've reread it ummm a few times lately 😳 the whole dubcon thing....being coerced/forced....hhhhhhhhhh

(shout outs to extreme bondage daddy rog and In A Rich Man's World because i love rich asshole ben talking down to me)

[kissesandcream]

PLEASE my classes are starting next week and I won't have much time to grind <//3 so im playing whenever I can to make as much progress as possible before my classes start ;; UHM, the ones on my new team atm is hu tao as main dps, kaeya as burst support, mona as support and bennett as a healer and atk booster :D it used to be xingqiu in mona's place but mona came home and her ult is really good for hu tao ult one shots hsghmd AND team resonance is like bonuses for your team, just like how artifacts have 2pc bonuses and 4pc bonuses, hu tao's team has pyro resonance which gives an 18% atk boost :D pyro resonance is really helpful hHHH I wanted venti TT but instead I got a razor and a c2 benny but im not complaining bcuz ive been wanting bennett, still surprised that I survived until ar52 without bennett nghwjjh bro I hope you get better! and I wish you good luck on your midterms as well !! but hhHhhHH I really hope that your sickness goes shoo shoo soon ;; OOOO my favorite npc is Katheryne hghdkh I see her everyday and I think I just became attached BUT my second favorite is herbalist gui in Liyue! do I even have to give a reason, herbalist gui is so sweet <33 OH AND what server do you play on? :O maybe we can play sometime when you're not too busy bcuz hgvhasgd I want more genshin buddies ;; but im too socially awkward to join random peoples worlds ( I play on both na and asia btw if you wanted to know ! although my na is sort of abandoned atm now that im hyperfocused on hu tao in asia ) ➤ with even more long rambles, 🐚 anon <3 yk I can just keep typing and typing abt genshin for hours but I won't do that bcuz it will be too long HBVHMGX

gl for ur classes!! irl school starts for me next month and i'm terrified since i'm new and know no one,,, also ive finished literally nothing LMAO

omg thats a good team!!! elemental reactions seem useful. i've never built a team with lots of them bc i have two anemos and a geo aside from kaeya 😭 hopefully i can change that with beidou <333

i have a c1 mona from the standard banner and i have no clue how she works so i never built her 😭 i used her for a bit though to freeze stuff bc dodging is overated amiright

razor is a sweetie i want to build him too but he'd need a whole team to work with him and i do not have the resources for that,,, also beidou is an electro claymore too and i wanna build different kinds of characters 😤 i got bennett very recently!! i didnt even have enough stuff to ascend him at lvl 20 bc i used all my pyro vines on diluc- but itll be nice to have a pyro healer once i get around to building him 😌

aaAAa i hope my midterms are easy T^T its been a long time since ive written a proper test so im concerned but i try not to think too much about it hah

ooo ive never interacted with gui before :0 and yes katheryne is so sweet, even if i cut her off at ad as- everyday 

my fav npc is tepei from inazuma!! idk why im so attached he was in the archon quest for like two scenes,,, HES SO SWEET THO 

i play on na!! i dont have a lot of genshin buddies too and everytime i join a random persons world and become friends with them something bad happens so i stopped LOL pls do dm me ur uid tho id love to play with u!!