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ghouls bug out headpieces. its annoying for some people. i have found gods gift to man

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or wait no just make radaway be the one that makes you less feral. too many rads in your system is making you crazy so radaway helps cool things down. rad-x could make you become feral slower. we already had a solution

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AND ALSO the feral management seems to mostly be "chems decrease your feralness" but like. just Any Chems. do any drug and you'll be less feral. wouldn't psycho make you more feral. i guess they needed an effective replacement for the food/drink meter and having one specific chem you need would make that one chem way disproportionately valuable but 🤷

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i dont know if the ghoulphobia in fallout 76 is just worse because ghouls havent been around as long, or if its an appalachia problem, or if bethesda just lost track of their own lore but like

ok ive only been a ghoul for all of five minutes but i apparently cant even go into the wayward anymore. where there is a ghoul who is there all the time. and a robot who is treated more or less like a full person, too. since when does the wayward have a no ghouls allowed except mortimer policy

and it cant be "you might scare the customers" bc again. mort. i feel like this is a cheap way to avoid having to get the voice actors back to react to your transformation bc there's no way mort wouldn't notice or say something about it. id rather they just have no new lines than getting actively blocked from coming in

it says "unfamiliar ghouls" but like. these people Know Me they dont know im a ghoul now but you can still recognize people who have turned ghoul it would take some explaining but it wouldnt be impossible. mortimer is an unfamiliar ghoul to the customers

like i understand theres just inherent limitations of it being a game. but i cannot buy "these people who know and respect me for helping them, and have a friend who is a ghoul who lives there, and an assaultron who is also their friend, are so violently against the concept of ghouls you cant even go in here anymore if you have become a ghoul"

unless you go in disguised, but presumably they still recognize you as the vault dweller who helped them if you do, bc they usually can tell its me no matter what ridiculous shit I'm wearing. if they Dont recognize you that means they had to make new voice lines anyway so why NOT have them acknowledge the change

and idk if its true for all allies but beckett doesnt react to it either. which again i get it they'd have to get new lines voice acted but i just feel like if the guy you've been living with / plotting the destruction of the blood eagles with / in a Situationship with for the past several months suddenly comes home with glowing eyes and his nose is gone you'd probably say something

especially if ghoulphobia is so serious you cant even walk into a bar normally 🤷 like fine ill write my own story Again, fallout, but i have no clue how beckett /would/ respond to that bc hes never mentioned ghouls before

at least fallout 3 gave me enough bones to put a skeleton together so i could make my own character lore. 76 as much as i enjoy it is giving me NOTHING to work with for story building

i havent experimented much yet but i did also get shot at on sight by brotherhood soldiers but that one i believe

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i havent gone through pictures on my steamdeck in 87 years so my liveblogs are So Behind but i need everyone to look at zev immediately i fuckign finally got him leveled up to become ghoul

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what is it about gay people and pins. i swear every gay person i know, myself included, has like 20 pins on their bag at all times. why do we fucking love pins so much

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my wife and i like to torture each other when we lay down for bed at night by tickling or poking each other. as a deterrent we’ve created an entity called “The Bird” which will attack you as a way to show we’re no longer comfortable with whatevers happening. we’ll say “The Bird is coming” or “The Bird is going to get you” instead of “hey stop doing that” then we peck each other with our hands. here’s a visual to help

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like that one hogwarts online thing does anyone remember that. i dont remember what it was called but it was a fan site structured like you were taking hogwarts classes online and it was really fun and well done but i dont really care to engage with harry potter anymore

i have within me the urge to Take Classes for the learning things and the sense of completion but not the stress and the homework and the Obligation

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i want. an app like duolingo but to learn about other stuff. like intro to (random subjects)

i tried searching but its mostly either math (im deathly allergic) vocab/grammar/spelling (i already am pretty solid on those skills i want to learn about new things) or educational games for children (fun but i want more adult level learning) or like. "brain games" that are just kinda boring puzzles or word games (i already have a bunch of those)

khan academy looked like what i want but its 90% videos. which is fine but i want like, reading and incorporated quizzes. something i can work on in little bits at a time so i can do something other than scrolling twitter when im on lunch break or something

does this exist. does anyone understand me

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there should be a job called puzzle solver where you solve puzzles and get paid a living wage . i would be so good at it.

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if you don’t fw bugsnax i don’t fw u

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im trying to get my fallout 3 liveblog started and i was going to talk about this there but it got too involved bc i feel too many things about star and butch so I'm making it its own post

for context my lone wanderer star constantly clashed with butch for their entire childhoods, they wind up reuniting after the 101 revolt, start traveling together, ultimately fall in love. i dont care that you can't canonically romance him i am doing it anyway.

but im thinking so much about this moment, when you're given a choice as you're escaping - butch's mom is cornered by radroaches and mr. big tough gangster is too paralyzed with fear to act, reduced to begging you to the point of tears for help

butch teasing, bullying, picking on star for their entire lives but then there's this moment of weakness. he's forced to admit he needs her help. she's running for her life, and he's been nothing but cruel to her, but right now he needs her, and he has no one else

and of course star isn't going to leave someone behind to die no matter what, so she helps. she helps him and a sudden moment of understanding passes between them. they will probably never see each other again. he doesn't want to die in here but the odds of getting out are against him, and the odds of her dying out there are even worse.

star has to get out, now, and this might be the last chance he'll ever have, and there's no possible way to make up for a lifetime of wrongs in one moment, there's nothing he can do to justify the way he's treated her, nothing he can say to express the overwhelming gratitude for the fact that she helped him anyway, he didn't deserve it, but she saved his mother anyway

he tries, in a stream of meaningless nonsense ("I'll be your best friend, I'll let you join the tunnel snakes!") and ultimately the only thing he can think to do is give her his jacket. in some way saying "please don't forget about me, please don't leave here hating me" because he knows he's out of time, no longer has any other way to make things right

star takes it, and she runs. she makes her way out of the vault for the first time in her life, seeing the sky for the first time, the big wide open burned out shell of a world out there, alone for the first time, free for the first time, grieving and celebrating and more scared and more excited than she's ever been

and it's cold out here. she's wearing his jacket.

it's warm. it smells like his stupid aftershave he uses way too much of and it makes her want to choke. it's the closest thing to armor she has right now. it has his idiot gang symbol on it and now everyone's going to ask her what it means everywhere she goes and she doesn't know what she's going to say.

it's the only nice thing he has ever done for her. she hates his guts. she'll never see him again. she doesn't know why she's crying

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made a bobs burgers cross stitch for a coworker and i dont think it ever got posted here

not my pattern; this is the original design i was working from

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Funceratops Clown Triceratops Plushie by cutiepiesart

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