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trans-axolotl · 6 months ago

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ID: Intersex activist Max Beck standing in front of the American Academy of Pediatrics with a sign that says Silence=Death.

On October 26th, 1996, the first ever protest for intersex liberation in America took place when activists from Hermaphrodites With Attitude took to the streets to protest the American Academy of Pediatrics. Later memorialized as intersex awareness day, this important action was a milestone for the American intersex movement. Max Beck, one of the intersex activists from HWA, documented the entire protest and later published their recollection in the Intersex Awakening Issue of the Chrysalis Journal. The full piece is pasted under the cut.

"But we’re here today to say we’re back, we’re no longer lost, and we’d like to offer some feedback. We’re here to say that the treatment paradigm for “managing” intersexuals is in desperate, urgent need of re-examination. We’re back to say that early surgical intervention leads to more than “just” physical scars and sexual dysfunction. We’re back to say that the lack of education and counseling for intersexuals, our families and the community at large does not lead to a blissful, healthy, well-adjusted ignorance. Rather, it too often leads to a life-threatening shroud of silence, secrecy, and self-hatred.

I’m here representing over one hundred fifty intersexals throughout North America. One hundred fifty intersexuals are saying: Please! Listen! You doctors, you pediatric endocrinologists and urologists treating intersexuals, you nurses interacting with intersexuals and their families, listen to us! We understand intersexuality, not because we have studied the medical literature — although many of us have — not because we have performed surgeries, but because we have been grappling with intersexuality every day of our lives. We’re here to say that those who would have us believe that intersexuality is rare, cloud the issue by breaking us and separating us into narrow etiological categories which have little meaning in terms of our actual, lived experience.

We’re here so that other intersexuals can find us — for many of us, finding others like ourselves has been a lifealtering, even life-saving, experience. We’re here to reach parents before their intersex child is born. We’re here to elicit the help of other sympathetic professionals. We can take a stand as openly intersex adults without being crushed by shame! And we did!"

Hermaphrodites With Attitude Take to the Streets: By Max Beck, 1997

In late October of 1996, Hermaphrodites with Attitude took to the streets, in the first public demonstration by intersexuals in modern history. On a glorious fall day, the like of which you can only find in New England, under a crackling, cloudless sky, twenty-odd protesters joined forces to picket the Annual Meeting of the American Academy of Pediatricians in Boston. Deeply aware of the historical and personal significance of the action, and — correctly — surmising that a notebook diary would not be practical on such a whirlwind, windy week-end, I took a small hand-held tape recorder with me. What follows are excerpts from the resulting transcript.

October 24, 1996 2:45 PM, Atlanta’s Hartsfield International Airport

The trip has only just begun and I am already exhausted. Hot. Starving. Fifteen minutes until take-off. Every businessman boarding the plane looks like a pediatric endocrinologist, Boston-bound. Silly thought, testimony to what? My anxiety? My fear? My giddy anticipation? If these bespectacled, suit-and-tie sporting men were pediatricians, would they be flying coach on Continental, with a layover in Newark? I’m headed for Boston, for the Annual Meeting of the American Academy of Pediatricians (AAP). Tens of thousands of pediatricians. I’m not a pediatrician, though, nor am I a nurse; in fact, I barely managed to complete my B.A. I’m a manager of a technical laboratory. We don’t work with children, and the AAP certainly didn't invite me, so why am I going?

With the plane taxiing toward take-off, this is a lousy time to reassess. I’m going. I’m going because I am intersexed. I’m going because the doctors and nurses who treated me as an infant and a child and an adolescent, and those who continue to treat intersexed infants and children today, consider me “lost to follow-up.” I was lost— that’s part of the problem. Now, I’m back.

9:02 PM: Boston’s North End

I’m comfortably ensconced in Alice’s warehouse condo in Boston’s North End, a renovated warehouse with a view of the city skyline, ceilings easily twenty feet high, exposed beams and brick, gorgeous tile floor. As I speak, my hostess is preparing an absolutely phenomenal meal. The aroma of roasted peppers permeates the entire space. Tomorrow, the work begins; my project this evening is to unwind and enjoy this wonderful meal. Easier said than done. I’m feeling excited, enervated, I feel very alive, something I don’t feel very often, I feel very present and aware. It could be my exhaustion, it could be the Chardonnay. But I think, rather, that the excitement is anticipation about what we are about to do. Being here, finally being prepared to raise a voice, to be heard, to be seen, a vocal, out, proud hermaphrodite who is standing up to say, “Let’s rethink this, this isn’t working, we’ve been hurt, stop what you’re doing, listen to us!” I’m really looking forward to meeting Morgan at the airport in the morning; it’s always amazing to make eye contact with someone else who has been there.

October 25, 7:38 AM Boston Commons

En route to my encounter with the AAP, walking the approximately two miles from my hostess’ domicile to the Marriott Hotel at Copley Square, I pause in the Boston Commons to enjoy a park bench, to sip my Starbuck’s decaf, and to watch a group of senior citizens performing Japanese swordsmanship on top of the hill beneath a monument to some forgotten general. The city is cool this morning, but clear, and it promises to be a beautiful weekend. That’s good: we won’t be rained out. I’ve got a stack of about ninety ISNA brochures in the bag at my side, crammed in the inside pocket of my leather jacket. If I want these pamphlets to get inside, I’ve got to get to the site of the Nurses’ Panel at the Marriott before they close the doors. Then it’s back out to the airport, to pick up Morgan. My feet are already killing me.

October 26, 9:15 AM: North End

Morgan and I are sitting at our hostess’ breakfast table, pulling our thoughts together. In a few minutes, we’ll have to leave to pick up Riki at the airport. The logistics of pulling together an action are mind-boggling. There’s no describing the thrill, though, of all that work, all those phone calls, all those miles. Riding a clattering subway on a Saturday morning, seated beside another living, breathing, laughing, swearing intersexual, hugging near-strangers at unfamiliar airports, then riding back, together, defiant, determined, organized, to the heart of so much of our pain, so much of our anger, so much of our need. We gathered in front of the huge Hynes Auditorium, pamphlets and leaflets in hand, and met the AAP attendees as they left the convention center for lunch. The next hour-and-a-half was a blur, as we positioned ourselves in strategic locations before the Hynes, held signs and “Hermaphrodites with Attitude” banner aloft, distributed our literature, engaged AAP members and passers-by in conversation and debate, spoke to microphones, to cameras. In all that time, I recorded only one fragment of a breathless sentence.

Saturday, 12:20 PM Outside the Hynes

We’ve got all the exits covered, and it’s an incredible, incredibly empowering experience. I remember the words I spoke to the TV camera, if only because I had scribbled a rough outline on the airplane, pirating mightily from Cheryl’s press release. And because the moment was so salient, so real. Me, Max, bespectacled, with blisters on my feet and chapped lips, speaking out to untold numbers of invisible viewers (and a few bewildered pediatricians behind me.)

"When an intersex child is born, parents and caregivers are faced with what seems to be a terrible dilemma: here is an infant who does not fit what our society deems normal. Immediate medical intervention seems indicated, in order to spare the parents and the child the inevitable stigmatization associated with being different. Yet the infant is not facing a medical emergency; intersexuality is rarely if ever life-threatening. Rather, the psychosocial crisis of the parents and caregivers is medicalized.

Intersexuality is assumed to be a birth defect which can be corrected, outgrown and forgotten. The experiences of members of the intersex support groups indicate that intersexuality cannot be fixed; an intersex infant grows up to be an intersex adult. This hasn’t been explored, because intersex patients are almost invariably “lost to follow-up.” The abstract of a talk that will be given at this very conference by a doctor who treats intersex infants concedes that “the psychological issues surrounding genital reconstruction are inadequately understood.”

Part of the problem is that we were lost to follow-up, and there were reasons for that. But we’re here today to say we’re back, we’re no longer lost, and we’d like to offer some feedback. We’re here to say that the treatment paradigm for “managing” intersexuals is in desperate, urgent need of re-examination. We’re back to say that early surgical intervention leads to more than “just” physical scars and sexual dysfunction. We’re back to say that the lack of education and counseling for intersexuals, our families and the community at large does not lead to a blissful, healthy, well-adjusted ignorance. Rather, it too often leads to a life-threatening shroud of silence, secrecy, and self-hatred. I’m here representing over one hundred fifty intersexals throughout North America.

One hundred fifty intersexuals are saying: Please! Listen! You doctors, you pediatric endocrinologists and urologists treating intersexuals, you nurses interacting with intersexuals and their families, listen to us! We understand intersexuality, not because we have studied the medical literature — although many of us have — not because we have performed surgeries, but because we have been grappling with intersexuality every day of our lives. We’re here to say that those who would have us believe that intersexuality is rare, cloud the issue by breaking us and separating us into narrow etiological categories which have little meaning in terms of our actual, lived experience. We’re here so that other intersexuals can find us — for many of us, finding others like ourselves has been a lifealtering, even life-saving, experience. We’re here to reach parents before their intersex child is born. We’re here to elicit the help of other sympathetic professionals. We can take a stand as openly intersex adults without being crushed by shame! And we did!

7:20 PM: Boston��s North End

Goddess, this is so sweet, so liberating! I was so reluctant a week ago, having my Jesus-in-Gethsemane experience, reluctant to accept — not an onus or responsibility but — to accept who I am. And here’s where the hard work really begins. I’m exhausted when I think of the road before us. But then, it’s nothing like the road behind us.

Max Beck, 1997.

#personal #actuallyintersex #intersex #intersex history #intersex pride #h slur #hwa #isna

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intersex-support · 4 months ago

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Intersex Support FAQ

1. What is intersex?

Intersex is an umbrella term that describes people who have variations in sex characteristics that fall outside of the sex binary. This includes variations in genitals, internal reproductive organs like testes and ovaries, chromosomes, secondary sex characteristics, and/or the way that your body produces or responds to hormones. Some examples of intersex variations include AIS, CAH, PCOS, Klinefelters, hypospadias, and more.

The three main factors that define intersex variations are:

Variation in sex characteristics

The variation falls outside of the sex binary and is different from what is considered typical “male” or “female” development. These variations in traits might often be stigmatized and discriminated against for being outside of the sex binary.

This variation is either present from birth or develops spontaneously later in life. It is not caused by transitioning or by something temporary like a medication side effect, tumor, or other medical diagnosis.

(This definition is inspired by InterACT).

2. Does ____ count as intersex?

There are around 40 different intersex variations that are currently known. InterACT”s intersex variation glossary lists out those intersex variations and gives a brief description of each one.

However, we know that isn’t a complete list. People have intersex variations that haven’t been medically researched yet, or might have a rare variation that the intersex community isn’t aware of yet.

There are also some variations that might seem on the border between perisex and intersex. Some types of hormonal or reproductive diagnoses might not have a clear answer on whether they’re intersex or not.

Ultimately, intersex is a social/political identity rather than a strictly medical one. Increased research and changing social attitudes can cause the definition of intersex to expand over time. Regardless of whether someone has a confirmed intersex variation or an “intersex adjacent” diagnosis, if intersex resources are helpful to you, we hope that you continue to use them and act in solidarity with the intersex community.

On this blog, we do include PCOS with hyperandrogenism as part of the intersex community. Check out our PCOS tag for more posts about our reasoning, and PCOS specific resources.

3. Am I intersex?

We cannot diagnose you with an intersex variation over the internet. We can share resources such as the intersex variations glossary, share tips for navigating the medical system, and share information on other non-clinical signs of being intersex.

Some questions to ask yourself that can help you start the process of intersex discovery:

What do my sex traits (genitalia, secondary sex characteristics, hormone levels, etc) look like? Does this seem like it lines up with the “typical” descriptions of those sex traits?

Do I have any information about my birth? Were there any complications? Did doctors do extra testing at birth? Did doctors take me away from my parents for long periods of time? Did it take me longer to have my sex assigned at birth?

What was puberty like for me? Did I have early or late puberty? Did I have to go on hormones to start puberty? Did I have any variations in puberty, such as unexpected breast growth, irregular periods, or other changes? Did I go through puberty at all?

If you’ve tried to have children, are you infertile or struggling with fertility?

Did I have any unexplained surgeries or medical procedures as a child? Was I ever told I had to have organs removed and was told it was because of a cancer risk? Did I have to be on specific medications or hormones throughout my childhood? Did I have to go see a doctor more frequently? Did I go to an endocrinologist or pediatric urologist as a child?

Do I have surgery scars or scar tissue? Do I have more frequent UTIs than typical?

Do I have access to my medical records? Is there records of hormone panels, ultrasounds, physical exams, surgeries, or other medical procedures?

This kind of information can help you start to piece together if you think you might have an intersex variation, or if you think your intersex variation was hidden from you.

If you’re sending in an ask trying to figure out if your symptoms line up with a specific intersex variation, please share as much information as you’re comfortable with so that we can answer with the most helpful resources.

4. Can I self diagnose as intersex?

It’s complicated! Intersex is different from other LGBTQIA identities, in that it’s not only about self determination, but also about our embodied experience in a very specific way. In order to be intersex, you have to have an intersex variation. And there are many intersex variations that can only be confirmed through medical testing, so it’s not something that is easy to self-diagnose.

However, we recognize that the medical system is expensive, discriminatory, and often actively hides information about people’s intersex variations from them. (it wasn’t even until 2006 that the AAP stopped recommending that doctors lie to their patients about intersex status, so many intersex adults were born before that policy change!) Considering all that we know about intersex oppression, curative violence, and medical abuse, it feels incredibly cruel to tell people that they have to force themself through that system in order to seek answers.

So, we understand that there are ways of finding out that you are intersex without having a specific, confirmed, medical diagnosis. Many of us might find out that we’re intersex because we realize that our genitalia visibly looks different, and we can tell that we are intersex, even if we don’t know our specific diagnosis. Others might find out that we’re intersex because of strange discrepancies in our medical record. We might find out through discovering surgery scars on our body. We might go through puberty and realize that we’re developing in an atypical way to our peers. We might do a lot of research into intersex variations and have a pretty good guess into what variation lines up with our experiences. We might have some test results that help us understand we have intersex traits, even if we don’t know our specific diagnosis.

Before self diagnosing, we think it’s important to do thorough research into intersex variations, so that you truly understand what intersex means, what intersex variations exist, and understand how that information applies to yourself. It’s also important to be considerate of how we interact in community spaces, and respect other intersex people's boundaries as you engage in a questioning or diagnosis process.

5. Are intersex people trans?

Some intersex people are trans, and some aren’t. Most intersex people are still assigned a gender at birth, and many intersex people who are raised as one gender and then later identify as another gender identify with the label trans. Intersex people can be cis or trans just like any other group of people.

Many intersex people have complicated relationships with gender, and don’t feel like labels like cis or trans really fit their experiences. For this reason, terms like intergender and ipsogender were coined.

6. Are intersex people LGBTQIA?

It’s complicated! The “I” in LGBTQIA stands for intersex. Intersex history is intertwined with other parts of queer history. For example, the very first protest for intersex people in the United States was organized by Hermaphrodites with Attitude and Transexual Menace. There are intersex inclusive versions of community pride flags. Many intersex people view their intersex identity as a queer identity. Intersex oppression overlaps in many ways with homophobia and transphobia.

However, not all intersex people think that intersex should be included in the LGBTQIA community. Sometimes this is for bigoted reasons, with intersex radfems who use this stance as a way to be transphobic. But there are also intersex people who think that the “I” should only be included in the acronym when intersex people are actually meaningfully being included in queer spaces and resources. Many of us feel frustrated when people put “LGBTQIA” on a resource but then don’t actually have any intersex specific information in those resources.

In general, this is an ongoing intracommunity discussion where we don’t have a consensus.

7. Are intersex people disabled?

It’s complicated! Intersex is an umbrella term for many different experiences, and there is not one universal intersex experience. Some intersex people identify as disabled. Some intersex people do not.

Many intersex variations do cause disabling impacts in our bodies and lives. Some intersex variations are comorbid with other health conditions. Other intersex people become disabled because of violent normalizing interventions we’ve survived, such as forced surgery or other types of medical abuse.

Intersex people are also impacted by many of the same structures of oppression that harm disabled people. Both intersex people and disabled people are harmed by ableism. Both intersex people and disabled people are harmed by pathologization. Both intersex people and disabled people are harmed by curative violence.

In the book Cripping Intersex, Celeste Orr explores all these concepts and creates something called “intersex is/and/as/with disability,” which is a model to think about all these different and sometimes conflicting relationships with disability. Some intersex people might identify directly as disabled. Others might sometimes think about the way that intersex is treated as a disability. Other intersex people might think about intersex and disability as a way to have solidarity. All of these relationships with disability are meaningful parts of the intersex community.

8. What is intersex oppression/intersexism/interphobia/compulsory dyadism?

Intersex people face a lot of oppression in many ways in society. At the core, intersex oppression relies on the idea that the only acceptable sex traits are sex traits that fit into the sex binary. Intersex oppression relies on mythical ideas of the “ideal male or female” body, where someone's chromosomes perfectly line up with their genitalia and internal reproductive organs, with perfectly normal hormone levels and perfect secondary sex characteristics that don’t have any variation. When people don’t fit into that “perfect” sex binary, they are seen as less valuable, abnormal, and threatening. There is then a societal pressure to eradicate any traits and people that fall outside of the sex binary, which causes a lot of targeted discrimination of intersex people. This form of oppression is called “compulsory dyadism,” and was coined by Celeste Orr.

Compulsory dyadism is also rooted in, overlaps with, and is the foundation for many other types of oppression. For example, ableism is another form of oppression that creates ways of harming people whose bodies and minds are labeled as less valuable for societally constructed reasons. Check out Talila Lewis’s definition of ableism for more information. Another example is how racialized people are targeted by sex testing policies in sports--both intersex and perisex women of color are consistently targeted by sex testing policies designed to exclude intersex people from sports. Another example is that homophobia and transphobia contribute to why intersex bodies are seen as threats that need to be eradicated--society views existing with intersex sex traits as a slippery slope to growing up as a gay or trans adult. Compulsory dyadism is also at the root of a lot of transphobic rhetoric about how transitioning “ruins” people’s bodies. All these forms of oppression are connected.

There are a lot of ways that compulsory dyadism causes intersex people to be targeted and discriminated against. A huge issue is nonconsensual surgeries at birth, that attempt to “normalize” ambiguous genitalia, remove intersex people’s gonads, and otherwise alter genitalia or internal structures. These surgeries are often referred to as intersex genital mutilation, or IGM. These surgeries do not have any medical necessity, but doctors lobby to continue to be allowed to perform them anyway. These surgeries can sterilize intersex people, cause lifelong trauma, and also cause many disabling medical complications. Alongside IGM, intersex people also face a lot of different types of medical abuse.

Besides curative violence and medical abuse, intersex people also face discrimination in our schools, jobs, and public places. We face legal discrimination in changing our names and sex markers. We face discrimination from institutions like CPS, which often target parents, especially people of color, that refuse to put their children through intersex genital mutilation. Many intersex people survive targeted sexual violence. We have a widespread lack of resources, visibility, and representation. Many people still have prejudiced ideas about intersex people and call us slurs. These are just a few examples of the many way that interphobia/intersexism show up in our lives.

9. What is intersex justice?

Intersex justice is a framework created by intersex activists through the Intersex Justice Project as a way to fight for intersex liberation.

“Intersex justice is a decolonizing framework that affirms the labor of intersex people of color fighting for change across social justice movements. By definition, intersex justice affirms bodily integrity and bodily autonomy as the practice of liberation. Intersex justice is intrinsically tied to justice movements that center race, ability, gender identity & expression, migrant status, and access to sexual & reproductive healthcare. Intersex justice articulates a commitment to these movements as central to its intersectional analysis and praxis. Intersex justice acknowledges the trauma caused by medically unnecessary and nonconsensual cosmetic genital surgeries and addresses the culture of shame, silence and stigma surrounding intersex variations that perpetuate further harm.

The marginalization of intersex people is rooted in colonization and white supremacy. Colonization created a taxonomy of human bodies that privileged typical white male and female bodies, prescribing a gender binary that would ultimately harm atypical black and indigenous bodies. As part of a liberation movement, intersex activists challenge not only the medical establishment, which is often the initial site of harm, but also governments, institutions, legal structures, and sociocultural norms that exclude intersex people. Intersex people should be allowed complete and uninhibited access to obtaining identity documents, exercising their birth and adoption rights, receiving unbiased healthcare, and securing education and employment opportunities that are free from harm and harassment.” (Source: Dr. Mel Michelle Lewis through the Intersex Justice Project.)

There are seven principles to intersex justice:

Informed consent

Reparations

Legal protections

Accountability

Language

Children's rights

Patient-centered healthcare

10. What is intergender?

Intergender is a gender identity for use by intersex people only. It doesn’t have one specific definition-it is used by intersex people to mean a whole variety of things. It’s used to describe the unique ways our intersex experience intersects with and influences our gender. Some people use it as a modifying term, such as calling themselves an intergender man or woman, as a way to explain the way being intersex affects their identity. Other people identify solely as intergender, and have that be their whole gender.

11. What is dyadic/perisex/endosex?

All are words that mean “not intersex.” Different groups will have different preferences on which one they like to use.

12. Is hermaphrodite an offensive term?

Yes. It is an incredibly offensive slur that perisex people should never say. Many intersex people have a very painful history with the slur. Some of us reclaim the term, which can be an important act of healing and celebration for us.

12. Can perisex people follow?

Feel free, but understand that questions by intersex people are prioritized! Anyone is welcome to follow.

13. I’m writing a character who’s intersex…

Check out this post: https://trans-axolotl.tumblr.com/post/188153640308/intersex-representation. If you’re writing about intersex people for a paid project, you should pay an intersex person to act as a sensitivity reader before publishing.

Check out our Resources and Intersex Organizations pages as well!

#faq #intersex #actually intersex #actuallyintersex #lgbtqia #intersexism #disability #intersex resources #you can also find this post as one of our pages at intersex.support.tumblr.com/faq

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icarusredwings · 21 days ago

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Thinking about Logan taking Wade to Hank's and wade getting all nervous because the last time he tried to get help (and honestly- all of them) it has turned out terrible and the only person he trusts is his female Urologist because thats who gives him his bi monthly sti checks. Him bouncing his leg and being silent. Him staring at the door and the floor, breathing with skips and picking his nails.

Logan gently taking his hand and squeezing it, leaning over to kiss his head. "Don't.. I wouldn't let anything happen to you." He whispers but this isnt the first time someone has failed wade.

"Y-you know what-" he says, changing his mind, standing. "I think I left the curling iron on. We should leave. Like right now."

"Wade... Sit."

He whines, staying standing for a couple more seconds, trying to think of an excuse to leave before sitting, curling up into his arm, clearly scared. Because without his powers what is he? No, really. Take away his neat new powers and who is he? Useless. That's what.

The x men barley wanted to take him now WITH his powers, not even the goverment will want him without them. The wolverine wouldn't want to be with a measly crazy human, Someone so insane that when he formed his own team they all left him too. Everyone left him, so why wouldn't Logan? "D-do I have too?"

"It'll be better for you this way."

"B.. but I dont want too."

"Darlin' I swear you'll be okay. Everything will be fine."

Little does he know that Logan would love him with or without powers.

#deadpool and wolverine #poolverine #logan howlett #wade wilson #deadpool #wolverine #deadpool 3 #deadclaws #hank mccoy

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batmanisagatewaydrug · 5 months ago

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Hiya sex witch

Hope ur having a good one!

I have a sexual health question. Im 28yo M and am as far as i am aware overall healthy, but sometimes i have trouble orgasming during sex, but rarely during masturbation. Im aware that contrary to popular belief men dont always orgasm 100% of the time and that there is nothing wrong with having difficulty with "keeping it up" so long as its not health related (i dont usually have difficulty with this part specifically, i just feel from experience that some times this is forgotten among people so i wanted to mention that)

I enjoy sex with my partners and im mentally very in the mood for it! Im not really nervous and havent felt pressured with them but some times it takes a very long time for me to finish, like more that 1.5 hours and up to 2 or 3 one time, and understandably my partners dont usually want to go that long lol i also find it frustrating because i feel the need around the 30-40minute mark but like i dont get that final push if that makes sense?

I did online searching and most answers are kinda wishy washy about causes other than excess masturbation, ive cut down on masturbation because alot of places say that that can be a cause but i only masturbated like once or twice a week and now im down to twice a month but it still happens.

Ive also heard that a too tight circumcision can lead to desensitisation and is what im kinda thinking this might be, i was circumcised at birth and have what the forskin restoration website ( www.restoringforeskin.org ) says is a RCI-0 or maybe RCI-1 which are considered super tight or tight respectively, both of which can lead to lack of sensation. And am considering maybe working on restoring my foreskin due to this, but i wanted your opinion on how like legit this all is considering it kinda sounds idk farfetched to me? Like being able to just stretch the skin back out with tape, is that even a thing? And does this sound like a possible cause?

Thanks for all your hard (no joke intended)'work and ur also awsome!

P.S. tumblr is being fucky on my phone all the time so if this is not anonymous please ignore/dm me to say make it anonymous again or whatever tanks

hi anon,

thank you so much for your question! it sounds like you've put a lot of thought into it already, and it was very interesting to read.

I have some hesitation in declaring that something is physically the matter with your penis, mainly because you mention that orgasm tends to come at a much more typical speed when you're masturbating. in the case of a physical problem I'd usually expect to see similar results whether you were having sex solo or partnered, which to me suggested it might be more of a mental/emotional blockage here?

but, having said that: I'm not a healthcare provider! and it sounds like a visit with one to discuss your observations might be really beneficial at this point.

while foreskin restoration is a thing, it's also a thing that doesn't have much research backing it up, and long-term results aren't very well known. consulting with a urologist before attempting a restoration sounds like it would be a great idea for you, as they could help confirm whether your foreskin is the problem and advise you on safely practicing restoration if it's an appropriate treatment. or, if that isn't the case, they're likely to have a much better idea about what else might be causing your situation.

best of luck!

#sex edventures 2024

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kamyru · 25 days ago

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Attack on Titan characters as doctors from different medical fields (Headcanons)

Author's note: Some lore about me - I'm a 5th year med student and went on a few international exchanges. However, don't take everything in here too serious. It's just to make fun of the stereotypes.

Levi Ackerman = Emergency medicine

You know the type of emergency medicine that the other doctors are complaining about because it's not efficient at all and tries to get rid of the responsibility as fast as possible? Forget it, it's not about Levi.

He looks like he will yell at you if you go to the emergency at 3 in the morning because you ate an expired pastry three days ago. But, in reality, he will tell everyone that no person wants to go at 3 AM to a hospital for their own pleasure. With very rare exceptions.

And regarding this exceptions, he has no tolerance with them.

If anyone has a problem with a rowdy patient, they'll call Levi to intimidate them.

He is also the one to help the nurses when a patient is getting aggressive.

And Levi also respects the entire personnel and is the mediator in the team when the chief doctor is not getting along with the chief nurse.

When the nurses are full with taking analysis and everything, he can do it himself without three free trials of poking the patient's vein.

He is prepared for all type of emergencies and even more. Urban, mountains, catastrophes, war. EVERYTHING, you name it.

If the shift is calm, Levi is willing to listen to the old patients stories. And everyone is in awe how calm he can be with that one-hundred-year-old grandpa who doesn't know what silence it.

And his personal life? There are thousands of rumors regarding him sleeping with the nurses, students, and whoever else, but none of them are true. He is just a workaholic.

Mikasa Ackerman = Urology

Your local #womeninmenfields

Can't pee? Ask Mikasa. Need a kidney extraction? Ask Mikasa. Have an emergency? Ask Mikasa.

Hates emergency doctors because they say that more than half of the abdominal pains, and most of the flank pains are from urological diseases. And they would have been right, if they made an ultrasound or some blood analysis first.

Though, she respects Levi because he knows that a patient with no kidney on the right flank won't accuse kidney pain there. (True case from my urology practice, where the professor was called in the emergency to diagnose a kidney stone in a patient that was born without a kidney on that part.)

When men find out that she is an urologist, they either run away, or try to impress her. She is not impressed. She doesn't care. She has seen enough.

Has some beef with the cardiologists that want every single patient to have a Foley catheter. Tries to educate them regarding the risks of infections. Has to be stopped by others from punching them after they don't understand.

Is sick of answering why she chose urology and not ob-gyn.

Doesn't laugh at Eren's jokes about her being a "cock doctor".

Eren Jaeger = Psychiatry

He once asked himself if it is nature or nurture and boom!, he woke up in the psychiatric ward as a doctor.

Probably at some point even worked in a prison, but gave up after a few years because it was too much.

Armin tries to teach him to read and ECG every half a year, and two weeks after the lessons, he forgets it.

However, he knows how to read and EEG, after hanging out with the neurologists too much time.

One of the few to laugh at Hange's jokes, because he has seen just as bad.

Is not often accused of malpractice, but often thinks about what can be called malpractice regarding his profession. And has some guilt because of this.

Is the type of doctor to tell others that if a person has hallucinations, it doesn't mean they can make fun of them or disconsider them.

Loves interacting with his patients way more than with their families.

One of the few to understand what a clinical pharmacologist is for. Moreover, he even works with them.

Can't watch movies or TV series in which a character is said to have a mental disease, because most of the times it's portrayed outrageous.

Armin Arlert = Immunology

When he talks, everything makes sense. But if you are not attentive for more than one minute, it will start to sound like an alien language.

Tells everyone he is doing what he is doing for his patients, but secretly dreams about winning a Nobel Prize. Thus, he starts all his first lessons at university with: "Immunology is the medical field with the most Nobel Prizes in the past years."

Is sick of explaining what is the difference between an autoinflammatory and an autoimmune disease. But he will. Even if he is asleep, he will explain it.

Friends with everyone, but everyone uses him as their daily paragraph guy regarding the news in the medical field.

Probably learned a few foreign languages to get access to more studies.

Thinks that immunology is very important, but will pass his students even if they are not the brightest because he knows how hard it is.

Probably got a barely passable grade during his immunology exam in med school too. But it made him fall in love with the subject even more. Also, it was the highest out of his entire class.

His CV is probably as big as a 200k enemies to lovers fanfic, if he puts all the studies he took part in.

His students love him because he is one of the few to actually try to integrate them in the research field.

Knows how to read an ECG because he thinks it's an important skill to call himself a doctor.

Jean Kirschtein = Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery

Of course, of course Jean is a plastic surgeon.

Plastic surgery is one of the few surgery fields that are popular among students.

Money, comfy life, money, probably a little bit more free time than other surgeons, money. And did I say money?

But you can't imagine the shock Jean had when he understood that plastic surgery has one of the highest risks of malpractice.

So, he sulked a little. But only till he understood how much he loved reconstructive surgery.

It's not tickling his ego so much, but it's still the same field.

All of us know that he is actually kinda soft inside. So, he has to be more of a reconstructive surgeons than a plastic surgeons.

He loves to make people better in their own skin and he will do everything possible for this.

But damn, he has an entire pack of super sad stories about how people ended up needing a reconstructive surgery.

After a few years in the field, he stopped being as happy and optimistic he was in the beginning, but he definitely is as enthusiastic. By the end of the day, he has a goal now, doesn't he?

Everyone thought he will retire pretty fast, or at least stop operating. But he found himself and would do it for as long as he can.

Hange Zoe = Forensic medicine

They didn't choose forensic medicine because it doesn't interact with people. They chose it because they genuinely loved it.

All the dark jokes that you ever thought about? They made it during their first years of residency. Now, their humor is not for the weak.

Likes to know what others can't see. Will explain to you how to understand if someone was killed or not.

It's impossible to make them gag now with any type of gore conversations.

Are you a true-crime lover? They are the true-crime. The amount of investigations they partook into is impressive.

They are also a professor and from time to time, the students complain about their humor.

Probably lost any type of belief in something bigger after seeing that dark of things. Or, if they still believe, they are not afraid of anything.

From time to time, fall into an apathetic state. Expectable. It's hard to make your rounds in the forensic department. Working there day to day is more than impressive and respectable.

Erwin Smith = Neurosurgery

"I want to become a neurosurgeon to understand how people work," he said and acquired a god complex.

Okay, I'm joking. Or not?

He is probably the work-husband of half of the psychiatrists because they hang out a lot, to discuss about how brain works. But he will never admit it, because he tell everyone he is all the time in the operating room.

Out of everyone, he is the closest to get a Nobel Prize, except the immunologists. But they don't really interact with each other, so he has never heard about them.

When he is not operating or hanging out with the psychiatrist, he is at international conferences.

And Erwin is also the type of the professor to keep his students over the lesson time, after half of them are already asleep because they don't understand a thing that he is teaching. Even if he tries his best.

No one knows it and it's a secret, but he actually visits the patients from the neurology. Especially the ones with degenerative diseases. He nearly cries every time, but he needs a reminder to know what he is working for.

He will, he definitely will, find all the secrets that the brain has. And will help everyone to stop their suffering.

Sasha Braus = Orthopedics

She's your local ortho-bro.

Another #womeninmenfields

Are you hungry and forgot to bring your lunch? Go to orthopedics, they, and more exactly, Sasha, will definitely have some snack for you.

Are you a sad med student that want to cry? It's okay, your local ortho-bro, or more exactly, ortho-sis will hug you in her big, buff hands, and check your scoliosis in the meantime.

She has beef only with neurosurgeons. But she is also one of the few doctors to get along with them. They fight from time to time during the back surgeries, but they know how to work together.

Also, don't make her mad. She can legally use hammers, saws, and a lot of not-very-medical-looking tools.

When she is not looking like a barbarian in the operation room, she eats while looking at the screen, trying to understand if the kid has a fracture or not in their growth plate.

Most probably doesn't know how to read an ECG, but knows how to transfer a menisci from a dead person to living person, and to make your grandparents walk again. So, isn't it just fantastic?

Keith Sadies = Clinical pharmacology

This guy is smart as hell.

And of course, he is also a professor. But you know what kind of professor? The one that everyone in the university knows about and gives you the wake-up call that you are in a med school.

He tells you to study 14 h a day and sleep max 7 h (real thing my pharmacology professor told us).

Only the toughest students passed his lesson from the first try.

But we are talking about him as a doctor, more than a professor. So, how is he as a doctor?

Actually, no one knows. People has seen him every now and then at the emergency department, or at the psychiatric ward. But no one knows what he actually does.

Fun fact, everyone wants to write their thesis with him, because he is so serious and will definitely help the students.

Makes jokes about what a double-blind study is. And they change regarding who is the listener: two surgeons reading an ECG, one dermatologist and one radiologist reading an ECG, two psychiatrists reading and ECG.

But does he know how to read and ECG? Probably, yes. He has to give medications for arrhythmia.

Also, this guy has the memory of an elephant. Even after years, he remembers his students and now that they are adults, he is not as scary as he used to be.

But still, no one has any idea what he does as a doctor.

Pieck Finger = Oral & maxillofacial surgery

It's not as if I met any O&MF surgeons yet, however...

Dentists and medical doctors are always fighting. But she, she is both of them.

She is one in a million. Only a few students a year choose this path because they need dual degree. So now, you understand what kind of tough pokemon is Pieck.

Most of the people don't even know she exists, but trust me, it's not as if she doesn't have patients.

Cancer, traumas, esthetics, say it and she knows how to treat it.

Pieck also probably dyes her hair every two weeks, because there's no way her hair didn't go half gray yet after she studied so much.

She is also the one with the best roasts regarding both parts of her degree. Are you a medical doctor? She knows how to press on your buttons to annoy you. Are you a dentist? She is ready to make fun of you not being enough of a doctor. What are you going to tell her, to go study more? She already did.

#attack on titan #levi ackerman #mikasa ackerman #eren jaeger #jean kirschtien #hange zoe #reiner braun #erwin smith #sasha braus #keith sadies #armin arlert #pieck finger

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candywife333 · 10 months ago

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One of the guys

pairing: OT7? alphas X chubby wingwoman HYBE counselor Y/N (omega in hiding)

NEW MINISERIES (almost resembles a series of just drabbles)

Summary: She's the man. No literally. She totally is. At least in the perception of everyone at HYBE. She hangs out with the guys like a pro , strategizes with them to get them any girl of their choice, gets rid of their one night stands with ease, convinces their FWBs to leave them alone, provides constructive criticism about their sexual techniques, and even counsels them when they are having mental breakdowns. In essence, she makes MEN out of boys. Is that her job description? Not exactly. But she does it anyway. Because Y/N just happens to be one of the guys.

Warning: cursing, crude language, eventual smut

PART 2

"Y/N!!!! Y/N?!!!! PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR. I NEED YOU!! I AM GOING TO BLOODY DIE OTHERWISE!! PLEASE GIRL, OPEN THE DOOR AND I WILL GIVE YOU MY FIRST BORN CHILD". y/n scoffed as she heard the ruckus outside of her door, first born child? What was she the antichrist, or a demon? The closest to that she ever got was using cow placenta face masks on a Sunday and babysitting her niece.

She opened the door in bewilderment adjusting her thick specs, goddamnit, the constant disguise got on her nerves some days. She stared up blankly at a perspiring, anxious looking Namjoon who was frothing at the mouth. "Sure Namjoon, come in and while you are it, why don't you tell me why you want to sacrifice a squealing, diaper pooping little human being to me? Maybe we can work that into a schedule".

He sat on the comfy couch on her office, as she blew out her lavender aromatherapy candle, turning off her zen bamboo lights. He blurted without preamble in a nervous frenzy, " I am not able to take my penis out of my foreskin ".

Y/N was the only one he would ever come to with such a concern, because she wouldn't laugh in his face and judge him. Y/N tapped her floral pen on her stationary sheet and wooden pad. Her tapping brought his attention to nails painstakingly painted pale pink color with a pink diamond ring surrounded by a halo of smaller diamonds on her left hand that twinkled in the dim light. That was new. He never had noticed those on her before.

She calmingly inquired, "Are you on any medication Namjoon? Any antidepressants or heart medication, or did you ingest any herb recently"? Namjoon stuttered, somewhat soothed by her expressionless, blank face, "No. Not that I know of". She continued asking him, "Were you getting your morning erections and any nocturnal ones prior to this? And also, do you have diabetes or atherosclerosis"? As he answered negatively to all these questions, Y/N sighed. Then she quietly asked, "Do your regularly clean down there, with soap and warm water"?

Namjoon froze. "Ex--x-xcuse me"? Y/N sighed again, she rephrased , "To your own knowledge, do you clean up every time you have a shower down there by retracting back your foreksin from your penis and washing it with at least some warm water". He remained silent til he gasped out ," Yes ....I think I do ". Y/N put down her clipboard , keeping her hands on her thighs, looking directly in his eyes.

"You have a few options Namjoon. Either you can go to the clinic a few blocks away, and get it checked out by the urologist, who I can notify regarding your complaints. And he will get it figured out. Or, I will have to examine the situation since I am a licensed psychiatrist (a doctor nevertheless)".

Namjoon sat there in confusion, Y/N was a licensed psychiatrist, an actual doctor? Since when? So, her counseling idols was the usual for her? Then it all made sense. So that is why nobody had to actually go outside of HYBE to get basic medication/psychiatric medication prescriptions. That is why the prescriptions would always be written in her loopy cursive handwriting.

Then he realized he had to answer her. He decided to let her examine, as embarrassing and humiliating as it was. He didn't have time with the upcoming showcase the day after tomorrow to run to an urologist. "Please examine me y/N".

She nodded in assent and told him to get on the examination table which had been lined with a long white sheet. She turned on a circular examination light told him, "Take your pants and underwear off, and lie down flat on your back. I will examine you, so let me know if I am hurting you. I will stop or be more careful if that is the case".

She turned around , her back briefly facing him so that she could get sanitize her hands before placing gloves on. Namjoon noticed a protruding mass wrapping around her long baggy shirt. Did she by chance, have a big ass? It was a little silly to think that way, but they had never seen her in anything else. And her specs occluded her face, so they couldn't tell what she looked like without them.

Y/N took off her tinted glasses, and low and behold, Namjoon was starstruck as he saw her beautiful face. She had the biggest eyes and a classic round face, with beautiful lips the color of carnations. He was so distracted at her gorgeousness, he didn't realize she was trying to retract his penis from his foreskin. He erupted loudly, "OWWWWW. PLEASE STOP". She held his member more gently as she sighed, stating in a placid manner, " You have to clean down here a little more frequently Namjoon. After sexual intercourse, when in the shower regularly, and especially after a workout. This is called smegma, this white stuff. And it is basically dead skin cells that don't get cleaned off and build up as gunk. Let me get some saline solution and a pair of artery forceps and I will try slowly retracting it".

Namjoon blushed in embarrassment. Y/N took some saline solution on a gauze pad and gently started working it around his penis , making him slightly wince due to the sensitivity. Y/N internally sighed. Thankfully she didn't need to use artery forceps to pull it down. After dislodging the smegma, she was able to pull his skin off of the penis. It took some more time than usual, because there was a good amount of buildup and the man had a big D. Surprise, Surprise.

After fixing the situation, Y/N motioned for him to dress up once again. Namjoon, looking less stressed, but still flushed from the somewhat humiliating experience thanked Y/N, " I am so sorry to waste your time Y/N". Y/N waved away his concern, "That's what I am here for man. Just make sure to regularly clean that area with warm water okay"? Sheepishly smiling in agreement, Namjoon, taking a seat gingerly at the edge of the sofa.

Nodding reassuringly at him, Y/N concluded, "If that will be all, then I will talk to you later. Please let me know if you have any concerns later on, and I can help you out".

Namjoon walked out breathing a sigh of relief, that his problem was easily resolved even though he was mortified that she had to see something so intimate. He shouldn't be so inquisitive, but how was it that her face was so pretty but she covered it in thick framed glasses? And the rest of her appearance was drab and uninspiring expect for her pink accented nails and earrings. Surprisingly ,he had even gotten the faintest most alluring whiff of strawberries and cream that he couldn't place. Not her usual scent. Something alphas like him catalogued frequently, scent patterns. He had a feeling she was hiding a whole personality this entire time right under their noses.

If she was hiding her appearance and her scent, what else could she be hiding?

#chubby reader #bts x plus size reader #bts x reader #eventual smut #bts x chubby reader #bts x curvy y/n #bts x fem reader #bts x omega #alpha bts x omega y/n

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the-soliloquies-of-sadists · 2 years ago

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#370

“Here we are boy, once again. The last time we met, you ran screaming like a nellie girl. I haven’t changed. I’m still the sadistic asshole I was two years ago when we reconnected. If anything, I now demand more. I told you before that I ain’t changing who or what I am nor what I want and expect from a faggot bitch cunt toilet. I have to ask, what’s different about you?...

“Oh, you have embraced chastity. Well that’s a start. You wearing the cage now?... Let me see…. Faggot! Do you really think I want to see it hanging out of a zipper? Don’t be so stupid. Get the fuck naked. The cool spring morning doesn’t bother me. That means it doesn’t bother you.

“…Wait. Stop. Did you shave your chest?... No, you had your hair removed. Continue stripping…. Faggot, I have to say, I’m surprised with that. Pleasantly surprised… Take all your clothes and place them in the bed of the truck. Fold them first. Place your phone, keys, ID, and any money on top of your clothes.

“Good Faggot. Now, bring that pee pee in a cage to me.

“Where’s the key? At home? Faggot, you are going to get beat for denying me access to my toys. The cage is one of those cheap assed ones that slaves can pull out of. With a yank, I got the shaft out. And if I squeeze these balls. Shut up! I don’t want to hear a cunt scream this early in the morning. You know these balls are going to be in perpetual pain from this point on. Finish stripping and let me get my bag….

“…Hold this. What you are holding is a proper cage for a faggot bitch. Notice how there’s virtually no room at all for your pee pee shaft? As small as your thing is, this cage will keep it from wanting to get hard. Here, take this water bottle. That’s my morning piss, nice and cold. Before you chug it down—and yes you will—take these two pills. One keeps you limp, and one keeps your horniness down. I own a urologist slave in Memphis. who told me about how to administer them. I order it to take them daily to negate its own pee pee as well. It hasn’t had a hard-on for years. In fact, each of my long-distance slave properties takes them. When I return back home to Denver and you are here alone, I expect you to send me a video text of you swallowing your daily dose. Slaves are not entitled to sexual gratification unless I say so. That ain’t happening…. Ever. Drink up.

“The only time a slave is permitted to cum without permission is if it does it hands free while being beaten by me. I’ve only seen it happen with one property. It was from Miami. Its pee pee was soft in the cage the entire time. It was great. I even kept on beating it after its climax. Its almost lost all interest in serving me in that moment. That’s why no cumming for any of my property.

“You are shivering. Let’s get you some heat. Remember this tiny bottle? No? I never used this on you? For the longest time, I couldn't find it in any drug store. Recently I found it on-line. It’s called Heet, and it’s an old school pain reliever for arthritis. Stand still. I need to wipe this dauber along your pee pee shaft, and around the head. Your ball sack should be covered too. Turn around and pull your cheeks apart. Let me see your cunt. Nice. And a swipe up the crack, and a double swipe along the cunt lips. Now stand up and face me.

“Now I wait a few moments… There it is! What? Does your pee pee and balls feel like a thousand hot needles are being shoved in? Your cunt too? You are in excruciating pain? Well let me see. The instructions say, ‘Do not apply to sensitive areas.’ I thought it said, ‘Do apply…’ Oops. My bad.

“Ha ha ha. I’ve been using this on faggot bitches for years. I’m surprised I hadn’t used it on you on one of my visits here. Well I need to make up for that. Quit fidgeting. It’s only temporary, about three or four hours of nonstop pain.

“Focus on me. Quit thinking of the burning sensation in your crotch. That’s nothing compared to the hell I have in store for you this weekend. The last time you tried to submit to me you had an issue with eating my shithole. I have a test for you. You fail it, I will drive off, leaving you buck naked out here at this dead-end road. I’ll throw your car keys out of my window as I drive off.

“It’s time for you to eat my ass. Here, help me get out of these jeans and briefs.

“There is no act that a slave can do to accept its role as my property more than sticking its tongue into my shithole for an extended period. If I remember, this is what made you run last time. Don’t worry, I already had my morning dump. Oh wow, look at my skid marks. It’s going to be nasty for you. The hotel I’m staying at has the worst toilet paper. I do prefer the tongue of a faggot slave to clean me up.

“I want to feel those hands pulling apart my cheeks, followed by the wetness from your tongue on my hole…. I’m only feeling hands. Fag, if you balk on this, I’m out of here. I know you hate the idea. That’s what makes me want to do it more. You want to be a slave to a sadistic cruel master, that means doing nasty shit. If I don’t feel a tongue in the next…

“There you go…. No fucking retching. You told me that you want this life as a total faggot toilet cunt slave, you accept your role and its responsibilities. You yearn to serve me with your disgust. Your revulsion gets me hard. If I find out you like to do something, I lose interest in doing it. You want to stop doing toilet duties, then love it. You have to really mean it. I can recognize when a faggot bitch is trying to manipulate me. It’s obvious, and it never ends well for the cunt toilet.

“This is what, my fifth time with you? You ever wonder why I keep coming back and giving you a try? I mean, each time you put up limits for me. I should just dump you. But I don’t. One could say it’s pity. Another could say that it’s hard to find a cunt bitch when I come to town. While both of those reasons contribute, no there is another reason.

“Stick your tongue in my shithole. Clean what you can on the inside, toilet cunt.

“Do you remember your ad on Craig’s List that got me to contact you? I do. ‘Oversexed 23-year-old seeks dominant top to expand kinky limits.’ That was about ten years ago. When I walked into your apartment, I encountered something I don’t encounter that often, truly. I have said that I don’t care to piss off 99% of the population to get that 1%. Not only did you have the demeanor, you craved to serve me. Back then you didn’t have that much experience in anything. You had that hunger. You took my beatings. You suffered with every lash. I could tell that you wanted it to end, but you saw that I was enjoying it, and you pushed through. With each visit, I saw your growth. Hell, I tell you to get your hair removed last time, and you went ahead and did it,… permanently. It took a long time to get you to this place in your head. I’m here to take advantage of it.

“You can take a beating, but it’s the extra raunch that bothers you. I told you that if I came back this time, that you will either make the commitment to me or that I will be done with you. On this visit, you will become a full-fledged toilet, my toilet. That won’t happen unto Thursday night. You have three days to put your head in the right spot. Normally I wouldn’t dream of telling a faggot bitch slave what I had planned, but for you, I need for it to stew in your head.

“For the next three days, you will be my urinal, drinking every drop. You will give me a blumpkin and be my toilet paper, just like you are doing now. You will stay with me at my hotel, sleeping on the bathroom floor chained to the toilet. I’m gonna beat the fuck out of you. I may even fuck you. The next three days is going to be hell.

“You done back there? Pull back. Your face is a mess. Good keep it that way. I want you to smell me throughout the day. While I am planning on taking you around with me to the sites I need to hit, you will probably remain in my truck. You did pass this test.

“Stay there kneeling on the gravel.

“Thursday night however, your suffering, your submission, your service, and your sacrifice will be tested. If you pass, I will take ownership of you. My urologist slave will come in from Memphis, as I want a doctor nearby. We are going to an old friend’s ranch out of town. He too has slaves. He’s allowing me the privacy to take ownership of you.

“After a day of not eating, you will straddle a wooden sawhorse. Your ankles will be secured stretched painfully apart, making the ability of pulling off of a very thick butt plug impossible. After taking off your cage, I will drive a two-inch common nail through your dickhead into the sawhorse. I will hit the nail on its side to bend it, to make removal quite painful. I will hand you a plate with my dump from the day. You will be expected to eat it all. While that is happening, I will be using my favorite whips and belts to turn your back into hamburger. I will only stop when the plate is licked clean.

“Help me get my pants on. I can see the revulsion in your eyes. Look at my dick. I am rock hard and leaking. You know that the next few days is going to make me horny and happy.

“Your suffering will bring me satisfaction. My gratification is your motivation.

“But should that change, or should I feel you are not living up to your full potential, we can end this. Either one. All you have to say is you want out. Disappointingly, I will say that I will be giving up on you. I will pull over in the truck and let you out. You’ll have to fend for yourself to get back home or here to your car. You’ll be naked of course.

“Speaking of which, I’m going to pull out, leaving you and your locked car here. I’m going to be waiting at the fork in the road, which was about a quarter mile back, or maybe it was a half mile. I’m going to wait for about 20 minutes for you to come to me. No, make it 30 minutes. This is a dirt road, and you have no shoes. During that stroll, I want you to think about what lies ahead of you. If you decide to back out, no problem. I’ll just pull away. I’ll drop off your clothes, keys, phone, etc. on your front doorstep. You still live in the same house? Good.

“Hey! The sun is coming up. That should help you to warm up. It’s a beginning of a new day.”

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furryprovocateur · 4 months ago

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it's funny because i still think about the doctor who was like, borderline shaming me for having supplemental testosterone prescribed to me. you know. for when i was in the hospital for pneumonia + acute heart failure. like he took time out of his day to tell me i shouldn't be on testosterone because i didn't need it. all without even seeing or asking what my testosterone levels were prior to being prescribed it (read: they were depleted and, to quote my urologist, "they would be low for a 50 year old man, no less a guy in his late 20s"). like he was very confident he knew more than me about my own body despite lacking all the evidence or life experience that led me to this point. i'm not saying all doctors are like this mind you but that would probably the solitary doctor experience to summarize my biggest grievance with them: the insistence that they know more about everything than you.

#also to be fucking frank like. what does it matter if i need it or not. i want it. my insurance covers it. who cares at that point

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tornprince · 5 months ago

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Hey, so not to leap into your ask box as a total stranger, but you mentioned in the tags that you were willing to answer questions about phalloplasty. I’m still figuring out if I want it, and if it’s not an inconvenience, I’d like to hear about what it’s like, or any common misconceptions or things you’d be ok with sharing. You don’t have to answer it publicly if you don’t want to, or answer at all. No pressure!

Howdy, I’d be happy to! This turned out a lot longer than I thought it would so sorry for the little essay lol

Since there are a lot of little variations on phalloplasty both in the type you get and the “stages” I’ll explain that first.

I got RFF/forearm flap phalloplasty with urethral lengthening, clitoral burial and a full vaginectomy. My first surgery was a hysterectomy and partial vaginectomy, about 6 months after that I got the phallo itself, urethra lengthening and the rest of the vaginectomy, and then a couple weeks after that I got glansplasty. I’m scheduled to get the erectile and testicular implants later this month. All of this was covered by insurance.

I am overall extremely happy with my phallo, it’s really been everything I could have wanted. I’ll just give a kind of random run down of some things:

Healing: If you count the time for all of the above surgeries I took roughly 2 and a half months off work. 2 weeks for the hysto/vaginectomy, 6 weeks for the phallo and another 2 for the glansplasty. I’ll be taking a week off for the next one.

I spent 5 days in the hospital after the phallo, those were by far the roughest days. Like the first day after surgery the big thing they had me do was just sit up in bed, and even that made me feel very dizzy and sick.

By far the most painful parts of healing were the vaginectomy and the thigh graft. I had a catheter for 6 weeks which was a pain in the ass, and the forearm graft needs daily dressing changes for several weeks. Once you get past those first few days though, it’s kind of surprising how not terrible it is. I was walking my dog after like 3 weeks.

The part that has the highest complication rate is the urethral lengthening, I was told by my urologist that the percentage of urethral complications after surgery was somewhere between 60-70%, I was basically told to go into surgery kind of just expecting there would be some sort of urethral complication.

This did happen to me and I got a stricture (urethra healing tight enough you can’t pee through it) twice. The first time they fixed it while I was getting the glansplasty, the second time I had to go in for an extra minor surgery to fix it. Since then I have had no issues.

Here is what my urologist had to say about the urethral complications when I asked for details: in quite a few cases they just heal on their own with a little additional time using a catheter and they never need surgical intervention. He said if it ever became necessary, they could just “disconnect” the new urethra and have you go back to peeing the way you did before surgery.

He also stated that they had never had that happen and had always been able to get the new plumbing working, even if in some cases it took longer.

Sensation: I did not lose any clitoral sensation, it’s just buried in the base of the phallus so you have to kind of rub/squeeze harder to get there. I was able to orgasm as soon as I was cleared for sexual stimulation after surgery, which I believe was 2 months?

My surgeon said that although the degree of sexual sensation a person has after surgery can vary, they had never had anybody completely lose sensation or be unable to orgasm after surgery.

I won’t get too detailed on this public post but it has been less than a year since my phallo and I have enough sexual sensation on my penis to orgasm just from it being touched, the buried clitoris doesn’t have to be stimulated (though it does help!)

Visual: I don’t have too much to say here but I’ve often seen people say that phallo dicks “look weird” or whatever. Mine looks….like a normal penis. It has been seen by many people of all genders and sexualities and nobody has ever said anything was off about it.

Really there is enough natural variation in native penises that I don’t think you’d end up with anything that wouldn’t be possible on someone born with a penis.

Hope this was helpful! If you have follow up questions feel free to bug me

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