#being a boy is scary lol

[buntress]

this in the context of being transmasc though

[turtleblogatlast]

Big Mama must have lost some serious standing in the yokai underworld because it’s gotten apparent that she keeps being beaten by a small group of teenagers and the occasional rat man, and when it’s not them then she’s taking L’s from her own schemes working against her.

And in the ensuing power vacuum, the Hamatos accidentally become the most feared crime family known to all the big bads of the Hidden City.

After all, they’ve publicly outplayed Big Mama multiple times, a couple of them have taken out the heads of two of the most well known criminal organizations, one took out Heinous Green, two are responsible for the destruction of Witch Town, they have ties to both the infamous Baron Draxum and Captain Piel, they won the Doom Dome death race, they’re Battle Nexus Champions, they’ve displayed insane feats of power and defeated impossibly strong enemies, most of them have been to jail, and they regularly mingle with humans.

You can just imagine the notoriety they’d accumulate from word of mouth alone.

[fatedroses]

dont know what possessed me to draw an au where lucius lives, mostly by making a deal with golbez (as a deal of basically sustaining him through the illness he gets and helping him deal with the damage after in exchange for helping him look for a way to help the 13th from the sources side), but here we are.

[vehemourn]

this is my other neopets oc his name is grumble and hes a really nice guy

[blue-eli]

Unlocked au Skuld! And motorcycle vigilante X

[sysig]

Destined to lose an eye in every timeline (Patreon)

Bonus alt:

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

[good-wine-and-cheese]

Gambling Apocalypse Tenma AU

As I rewatch Kaiji I inevitably end up wanting to combine show I like with other show I like and stuffing fav characters into show. So here we are.

This was uh going to be a short summary type thing but I accidentally wrote a novella about it sorry

This AU starts off with a much more depressive Tenma. After Tobio's death, rather than immediately pour his grief into developing a robot version of his son, he recedes into himself, psychologically paralyzed, likely turning to alcohol to drown out his anguish.

His mental state is taken as an opportunity within the Ministry of Science to have him ejected from his position; Tenma was never the most well-liked director, and there were those with ambition to usurp him that would jump at the chance. Not that he especially cares in his state.

He's eventually dragged out of his stagnation by Ochanomizu - who, inadvertently, becomes the very catalyst pushing Tenma to develop a robot replacement to his child. This was not what he meant by encouraging Tenma to fill the void left by his son.

...But, well, he is no longer the director of the Ministry of Science. His access to limitless government funds and resources for "scientific research" has been cut off, and this is a project he cannot finance on his own. He can't ask Ochanomizu for help, but...interestingly...a representative of a certain shady organization known as the Teiai Corporation reaches out to him, offering to finance and support his project. A sane and well-minded Tenma might think better of it, but grieving and desperate, Tenma accepts their offer and is able to create a robot in the image of his beloved Tobio. For a while, there's joy in his life.

But the bill, as ever, comes due: Tenma must pay up, and the very resources that had been at his disposal will certainly ensure that he will, or else. Of course, he doesn't have the money; instead, he is given a choice. He can relinquish the robot Tobio in order to wipe out his debt - the child is a sophisticated and powerful robot, after all - or he can participate in a certain illicit event hosted by the Teiai Corporation.

It's nothing major...just a four-hour gambling cruise with a collection of desperate, damned souls that were also swept into debt with Teiai. The conditions are simple: Those who choose to participate are given a chance to clear their debts wholesale should they win. And should they lose...?

Well...no one really knows what happens to the losers seized by Teiai. It's said that they labour away their debts under Teiai's watchful eye and are freed once their work has covered their debts, though it's rumoured that most perish before they reclaim freedom.

There's only one answer Tenma can give, of course; he's not willing to lose Tobio again.

Thus is Tenma's debut into the Gambling Apocalypse, where he must become cutthroat in order to survive; if he wants to see his son again, he must make choices that will doom the hapless to miserable servitude, with a nonzero chance it ends in their death.

He survives the cruise, but of course, it was hardly enough to clear his debt; the cruise was never going to be the end of it. Teiai doesn't let go of its victims that easily. He will be called on again: this is a weight that hangs over him, all while he returns to his son Tobio. The same hands that have pushed innocents into hell must now be the hands that can embrace his child.

He wants to protect Tobio from the truth and enjoy what peaceful moments he's allowed with his son, but it's difficult. It's difficult to be the parent of a child who cannot understand the danger that looms ahead; this "happy" home is not to last. Tenma angers quickly and easily. He turns that anger onto Tobio.

As Teiai's games become more and more vicious and unrelenting, as his conscience holds onto the last vestiges of thread that remain, Tenma even threatens, once, to give the boy in: it would all end, then; the debt would be clear and no longer would he have to endure Tobio's childish annoyances, his ungratefulness.

The next time that Tenma is beckoned, Tobio takes matters into his own hands. He does understand, now; and he would have, if only Tenma had bothered to explain sooner. If it's a debt that needs clearing, he will work. He will help his father clear his debts however he can. Of course, it's difficult to find work as a child; but a circus troupe finds amusement in the idea of a child robot, and takes him in. He is whisked into a certainly unpleasant working situation, but he remembers his father, and what he must be enduring. Tobio, also, will endure.

When Tenma returns, Tobio is gone.

All that held Tenma back from becoming something monstrous has disappeared. All that kept him going has disappeared. When he is called upon by Teiai, there is no knowing what sort of person might come out the other end; whether a monster clawing his way to freedom regardless of what actions he must take, or a desolate husk surrendering defeat.

There is still a light, however dim: Found by Professor Ochanomizu and rescued from the circus, Tobio - now Atom - is able to shed light on the situation which Tenma took great pains to keep hidden from his old friend. With time running out, Ochanomizu and Atom must do what they can to save Tenma - from Teiai, and from himself.

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UHHH and that's a wrap!!!! I couldn't quite decide which way Tenma would go after hitting Rock Bottom in this AU, and tbh it would really depend on the kind of mental state he's in at the time. On the one hand I like the narrative of Ochanomizu and Tobio racing to prevent Tenma from crossing a line (actual outright murder probably) - or having to pull him back into humanity (and yknow, his ensuing penance)

But on the other hand having him get sent to Teiai Evil Hell Prison would be interesting because a) there's a lot of narrative potential having Tenma faced with what Teiai is doing with the people that lose the games and b) need him to decimate the foreman at chinchirorin Kaiji style

Tenma's whole character is definitely a much different guy in this AU, he starts off pretty sympathetic, the guy you wanna root for, he just ends up having an inverse character arc where he gets worse instead of better. His conflict with "Tobio" is also kind of reversed, less about being unsatisfied with Tobio as a son and more not being able to handle the fact that he probably has intense PTSD now and isnt capable of coping with it in a way conducive to being a parent (or like, coping at all)

Anyway that's gambling apocalypse tenma!!!

[stabbyfoxandrew]

me when my old dog who has seizures has a seizure:

[madnglorp]

How I feel after reading 20 essays on characterization and symbolism from anti-bl tumblr users; watching 1980-2000s anime to have cultural references; trying my best to absorb random osokun manga; and ONCE AGAIN fucking rewatching/replaying utena/twin peaks/lisa/disco elysium/whateverrrr for 84727th time for emotional and thematical inspo.

All just to write Osomatsu and Choromatsu as well as Jyushimatsu and Ichimatsu giving up on life and future and the expectations society places in "cishet" men and deciding to have evil codependent sex that is somehow both psychologically damaging yet uplifting because it's the first time in their lives they're doing something Nice for each other

[blujayonthewing]

As someone with adhd who only got diagnosed and medicated within the last year- I highly suggest talking to your doctor. I spoke with my med doctor before ever starting to ask her how difficult it was to get the meds. She said that while the shortage is real and affecting people, she hasn't seen it happen locally yet, which made me feel safer. Your doctor probably has inside knowledge since they prescribe it to others!

It truly has been life changing for me in numerous ways, so if you're diagnosed or even just have a suspicion you're adhd, I really encourage you to go for it 💜 Regardless, best of luck!!!

aauuugghhh I knooooow but.... scary...... :') I know 'well just doing bad all of the time is better than doing good sometimes and bad other times' is very obviously flawed logic, but it's hard not to fall back on nonetheless. AND yeah I guess 'well a facebook friend who lives in the same state I do was having trouble with her son's prescription two years ago' isn't a professional assessment of the supplyline situation right now and where I actually live, lmao. Either way I suppose one upside of being a wiener about it is that if I ever do talk to a professional about this, 'I've been putting this off for years and years because I have a whole laundry list of doubts and misgivings about getting on medication' might help guard against getting marked as drug seeking kfjdghgdf

[sentimental-sil]

one very good thing about Knowing Bugs that I hope to impart on people who are Afraid Of Bugs (that's okay!) even just a little bit is that once you get to Know bugs, you can feel something crawling around on your leg at night in your dark bedroom and when you turn on your light to look at it you can assess that hey. This Particular Guy is harmless and fine. and instead of feeling scared you can make that assessment and brush him off or put him outside or whatever feels comfortable to do and just go back to whatever chill thing you were doing! because hey you've Noticed and Observed enough bugs now to differentiate the ones that might be dangerous* from the ones that are largely neutral to you! and it's nice to have that knowledge because it helps you feel more secure in your environment (a home is an environment too!) and more comfortable and less scared, and it's always nice to be Less Scared I think <3

*disclaimer: even "dangerous" bugs are inherently valuable and worthy of their own buggy life opportunities, and with time you can learn to be very relaxed around them too! but at the same time if there is a tick crawling up your leg at night unfortunately you do have to recognize that and remove it :/

[girlivealwaysbean]

on one hand completely ignoring your emotions is soo good for my mental stability and productivity but man i miss staring at the ceiling and listening to sad songs on loop

[kagedbird]

Continuation from this *Team Dragonborn + Taliesin are sitting in camp. The boys bought an extra tent for Taliesin at the last pit stop near a town, along with plenty of supplies. It is currently early evening, and the group are settling down for bed.* Kaidan: I'll take first watch. Allora: You always take first watch, Kai. *shakes her head with a soft smile* I don't think, outside of you being ill, would we ever be able to take first watch ourselves. Lucien: She has you there. I suppose that means I'll be taking second? Inigo: I do not mind taking second if you'd prefer to sleep in a little more, Julian. Lucien: *chuckles* Thank you, Indigo. Allora: *cheekily* Oh goodie, my cuddle buddy gets to stay in longer. Lucien: *flushes and huffs, rolling his eyes* Yes, yes. We have one sleep over in a tent... Taliesin: One? I was under the impression you always slept together. Allora: I don't like sleeping alone. It's safer with people around. Taliesin: Yes, I'm sure that's the only reason... Allora: *scowls, debating on throwing something at him or not before huffing* I'm going to take a bath. Inigo, come keep watch for me please? Inigo: But of course my friend! I will have your back, while wash yours. Kaidan: Be safe. Call for anything. Allora: Yes, mother. *waves and heads off with her supplies with Inigo in tow* Kaidan: Keep an eye on 'em Lucien. I'm going to patrol the area. Lucien: *sighs and salutes* Yes, yes. Kaidan: *gives Taliesin a glare before going off to patrol* Lucien: *sits and glances over at Taliesin awkwardly* ...So... erm... Taliesin: Oh how fun. The Imperial man gets to watch over me today. Lucien: Just because Allora is gentle and kind doesn't mean you deserve any of that she's sharing you know. Taliesin: *dryly* There aren't many threats you all can make before you start repeating yourselves. Lucien: Then how about this one? My friends don't feel safe with you, and I find a problem with that. You seem otherwise like a... nice, murderous chap... And despite her history and trauma, I know Allora wants nothing more than to be friends with everyone she knows. She's very soft like that. So please, do rethink your actions and reflect on them. Atone for what you've done. That would certainly set her at ease. Taliesin: Not the brute? Lucien: Oh Kaidan will probably never trust you. He barely trusts me to keep an eye on you. But Kaidan trusts Allora, and it will keep him from lopping off your head at least. Taliesin: *huffs* Fantastic... Lucien: Now, if I may, can I ask you a few questions about your history with the Thalmor? Taliesin: I suppose...? Lucien: Wonderful! *scoots close, his face strangely cheerily intimidating* Where were you during the last day of the Great War for the battle of the White-Gold Tower? Taliesin: *sweating, confused at the sudden dark aura surrounding him, thinking: I thought he was the nicer one?!*

[dandyshucks]

I FORGOT TO MENTION IN THE ANSWER YESTERDAY but part of the post-canon stuff is also starting Guz's journey into sobriety! (along with encouraging the rest of the team who might've picked up bad drinking habits too)

with my own experiences around substance abuse and addiction (growing up surrounded by it), I think getting Guz to start on his sobriety journey would definitely be an important part of our story together :] and while everyone's end goal is different with sobriety, I think Guz would probably decide to stay entirely sober once he gets to that point, no more alcohol whatsoever. I've thought about it a bit and I just think he'd figure it's best to stay away from it entirely,,,, so actually he'd probably be a big proponent of encouraging the rest of the team to become/stay sober as well !

[alisaint]

i feel like sometimes (many times) people get realism / "if this were to happen to a real person in the real world context, then this character would experience and grapple with x, y, z" mixed up with text / what that character is actually going through in the story which is always going to be constrained by time, space, and the creator's biases and experiences