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hiii question! i’ve been looking for some kutner lives!au’s that deal with the repercussions of kutner trying to kill himself but surviving the attempt, but i’m finding them pretty hard to find. do you have any recs/ ideas about how i could better search for fics that fit this niche?
Hi!! First off I am so glad I am now the Kutner mutual, goal achieved
Secondly, I have the gone through the first 5/20 pages of fics tagged with Kutner (don't worry, not just for this ask) and have come up with only "you are spring" by emptylakes, which you have probably already seen. I will continue to dig through, and let you know if I have any better advice in the future.
On the whole though—I think you're right. Kutner Lives, Kutner!Lives, and Lawrence Kutner Lives do not seem to yield anything specific, unfortunately. We may just need to propose this to fandom as a group?
#kind of a bummer tbh#but it was a good time digging through fics#been on my to-do list for a minute#asks#asks answered#lawrence kutner#suicide attempt#suicide reference#lawrence kutner lives#kutner lives#kutner!lives#dr kutner#fanfic#fanfiction#fanfic recs
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I'll tell you what I want what I really really want
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#I wanna watch a show#I wanna watch a completely different show#I wanna watch that one show that's been on my list for like 7 years#I wanna watch like 6 different movies#I wanna write!#I wanna map out plot for my homebrew universe#I wanna design a new dnd class#I wanna go to fuckin sleep#I wanna order some food#I wanna read a book#I wanna watch YET ANOTHER entirely different tv show#I wanna think of a christmas present for my best friend#and I want to do all of these things in the next 5 minutes#me @ my executive function system: SO TELL ME WHAT I WANT WHAT I REALLY REALLY WANT#anyway it's 10:30 in the morning I'm going to bed
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Doodles based on my terumob sims save
Someone ask him for the love of god
#art#artists on tumblr#mob psycho 100#mp100#teruki hanazawa#terumob#shigeo kageyama#i had forgotten I made a teru who was a 5 star a list celebrity#and had him meet a shigeo who I hadn’t done much with#he fell in love with him immediately???#like within 5 minutes they had a romance bar already#I don’t know what happened#I do have some mods but its never done anything like that before#also don’t worry#im still working on my detective au#I’ve just been addicted to playing sims 4
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i may be a bit too late but here's squilf playing with her tail for the squilf anon!!! i hope they see this :,-)
#I GOT THE ASK but i just got so busy and i thought it was cute so i kept it and i wasnt even taking wc requests but i still put it on my to#do list but i got so busy with finals </3#my art#do not copy trace or steal#squirrelflight#wc#wc art#this is super sketchy because i just saw what happened with the squilf anon and its been like. almost a week but xd#^ forgot to finish my thought its also seven minutes to midnight and i woke up super early and i am very tired#but i felt a sense of urgency to do this#i know i cant speak for everyone but i personally found the ask cute :( i hope this makes up for it and one of these days when i can give#it genuine time ill redo this
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Kudo makes funny facial expressions
#i bet this guy was actually a hoot to be around#with his low voice short stature bricks on his forearms#he seems like a guy with a lot of sass#and being stubborn or deadpan#he smiles like a damn quagsire its amazing#i use him in fic stuff to help push stuff along cuz if its left to bruce things will never progress. hes too roundabout and careful#hes all serious and driven but i bet hes the kind to chew faster when hes in trouble#bruce: leader have you seen the peanuts i was gonna have for lunch?#kudo: *chews faster*#his quirk - Gearshift - literally has the user move their hand as if switching gears in a manual car to change the gears of the quirk#kudo has to have something with manual cars methinks. maybe he had one or something. or hes just a bit old in tastes#how else would kudo realize he was Meta if Gearshift required the user to make said movements? or does that part only come AFTER it evolved#i was put in a manual car for the first time and. like a nerd. realized this is the same as kudo#and i got it to work. THANKS KUDOOOO *sing song*#also that post i made about kudo being kind#kudo cant lie or hide stuff for shit. hes so obvious and knows what hes doing with en#NOT EVERYTHING IS GONNA KILL YOU IF YOU STEP WRONG KUDO. he was being so serious the whole time with#“youre gonna die” “the world will end in 5 minutes” “its only just starting now”#this list could be longer if KUDO HAD MORE SCREENTIME-#the gearshift hand thing with midoriya mightve just been midoriyas mental imagery tho#kudo#bnha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#mha#spoilers#how could i forget these tags
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Maladaptive daydreaming.
#daydreaming#maladaptive daydreaming#maladapting daydreaming disorder#maladaptive behaviors#maladaptive coping#dissociation#immersive daydreaming#dimond speaks#yeah so adding this to my list here lol#my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams#they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really.#i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh#my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream)#but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work#and they can last for a LONG time too#i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before#this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao#weeeee#anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post#it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post#it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y#but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams#like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it#the void is the general dissociation from reality#then you emerge in the dream#i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch#and i'll stay there until something snaps me out#strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot#anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there#if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.
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so i got some really great feedback on the final draft of my star trek strange new worlds spec and i'm hoping i can ride that high through next week when i'm starting my second-last class in the tv writing program. mostly posting this so i have documented proof that i am in fact a good screenwriter so that when i inevitably start second guessing myself i have a post to beat myself over the head with.
#i've been doing some serious work wrt my self confidence but man it's rough!!!#i am getting better with it though#anyway#note to self#in other news i'm working on fic today as is custom on this most important of international holidays (deancas day)#i'd like to try and hit post on something but we'll see#cass says things#about the blogger#by great feedback in this context i mean ''positive and complimentary''#though earlier in the process i got great feedback as in ''helpful questions and suggestions''#but wrt my final draft the instructor just listed things she loved for several minutes and pointed out a couple of missed typos#while everyone else in the class still got structure/dialogue/etc notes#so i'm feeling pretty good about it honestly!!
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@wayhavenots tagged me to match a song to every letter in my user name [lmao]!
Gotta Tell You - Samantha Mumba
River - Leon Bridges
Anna Sun - WALK THE MOON
Paint - The Paper Kites
Evacuate The Dance Floor - Cascada
Creep (Cover) - Postmodern Jukebox (Hayley Reinhart)
Abigail - Paolo Nutini
Sanctuary - Utada
Every Time We Touch - Cascada
Spiracle - Flower Face
Can't Take My Eyes Off You - Frank Valli
Hear You Me - Jimmy Eat World
Ophelia - Lumineers
I Know What You Want - Busta Rhymes, Mariah Carey, etc.
Courage - The Tragically Hip [My fave version tho is this one]
Endless Love - Lionel Richie and Diana Ross
Say Less - Rosie Darling
tagging @pollard-zero @quinnorion @quaxorascal @laufire @mt07131 @bansheeheart @lelianasbong
and anyone who wants!
#considered quiting after the second e but was like no ima do this#if ima do it ima go all the way!#tag meme#wayhavenots#grapecase memes#i really dont remember my tags lmao#been a minute since ive done these regularly#music#music recs#just plucked the first one in my liked list#1000 plus liked songs need to be good for something beyond nostalgia#but anna sun is actually a song i play on repeat until i tire of it and then come back to it -- like clockwork roflmao#paint is also a song i really wanna force into a hawke or andy playlist [or warden. i feel it might work for certain wardens. aeducan maybe#]#alcohol mention cw#[in abigail]#grapecase playlists#lol so i can remember my thoughts
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my friend thinks i have ADHD and started listing a bunch of traits i don’t have and was reacting like im crazy when i told her i don’t have those traits
#she says i’m super impulsive and the things she listed were#no joke#getting a tattoo and going to a birthday party#it’s like she thinks if i don’t narrate my entire thought process to her about everything i do i must not be thinking about it before#she was like from my perspective it seems impulsive because i didn’t know about these events beforehand#and it’s like yeah. because you were not involved in them#this went on for like 20 minutes and she wasn’t listening to me#and i came to the realization that she doesn’t know or understand me at all#and everything i do reads as impulsive and thoughtless because she’s giving me no credit for having any sort of thoughts or inner life#i’ve known her for like a year and a half i’ve never been this badly misunderstood by someone before#which is weird because i’m very cards on the table up front what you see is what you get#and she seems to think i’m very very different than who i am#has anyone else had this experience lmao i was super anxious the whole convo#and had to private message another person in our group message to make sure i wasn’t being crazy
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just made a doctors appt for something i wanna get out of the way before i start hrt, and i feel like im gonna throw up .
#i still have to look into doctors for testosterone and stuff but. i have so much i have to do before that#so it feels kinda impossible#but this appt is a baby step and that makes me nauseous#jts so stupid its like an appointment ive been meaning to make for a year#and i just did it online in 10 minutes#didnt even have to call them#i have a few more other things on my Before HRT list lmao. but im getting to them slowly. and thats a little terrifying
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Hey I have nothing better to do, here’s some fic recs for y’all!!
If you have followed me for any amount of time you know which one I’m about to lose my mind over—
Bloodletting by agentgenevra / @agentgenevra
Nancy is a vampire hunter… And also a vampire. Robin is a vampire. The plot of this fic is SO incredibly woven, I am NOT kidding guys. Every character has their place, and everything connects in just the coolest way. I’m literally obsessed. The slow burn dynamic between Robin and Nancy is incredible and full of tension as well! I am feral about this fic.
dancing in the moonlight by summersociety
Nancy is a monster hunter and Robin is a werewolf. This fic is the PERFECT mix of wacky and serious and I adore it for that. The tension is incredible, I would kill for the side characters, the internal struggle for Robin is so well written! The way this author writes for the werewolf in a different way is such a cool creative choice. This fic will have you crying over “aroo.” Just saying.
a never ending story by summersociety
Robin and Nancy play D&D and their in game romance definitely has nothing to do with Nancy having a big fat crush on Robin. Their dynamic in game and out of game is just so lovely and we love a little comphet Wheeler. Plus!!! This author just has some very poetic writing and I adore it
Raise Dead by EskaWrites / @eskawrites
Robin died in the Upside-Down. Nancy is grieving, but the kids are scheming. One (1) fic has brought actual tears to my eyes. I don’t usually cry over media but this one will pull at the heart strings. Go in knowing that this fic will devastate you, but it will fix you afterwards. I found myself holding my breath through some of the more intense portions, and the way this writer describes Nancy’s grief and uses symbolism just broke my heart.
you’re the reason that i’m hanging on by EskaWrites / @eskawrites
Robin gets Vecna’d. INCREDIBLE angst, I don’t want to say too much and spoil it, but the dynamics are wonderful and the ending is fantastic.
choke up (on my bat and on your heart) by gfbuckleyxwheeler / @werewolfxwheeler
As a bitch who didn’t think I’d be into sports aus, this fic!!! Ronance are on a softball team and they have a wonderful hate/love relationship and I adore it!! And Max and Chrissy are both lovely in this au <333 Em also has a wonderful blog here, please check them out!
feels like I’ve been gettin’ anointed (ever since the day that I met you) by khalasaar / @sapphicriley
Catholic school au with the partner project trope PLEASE. This one is spicy. The writing is incredible, the tension is fantastic, and also I think you can tell she writes/reads poetry in her writing, which I happen to think is cool as shit. Inappropriate use of religious imagery my beloved <333 Did I mention tension—
put me in the movies (on a king sized silver screen) by khalasaar / @sapphicriley
Robin works at a drive in theatre and Nancy keeps visiting her because she’s a dumb lesbian. This is one of my favorite fluffy, sweet stories, oh my god. They are so!!! I want to squeeze them. Their dynamic and their banter and Nancy being So Totally Smooth is the best. I need to reread this one
Handle With Care by ElFandomBirb / @el-fandom-birb
Centering around Robin thinking about love and her Handle with Care patch. Oh. My. God. The types of love actually killed me, this fic is so soft and so sweet. Repetition as a plot device!!! Seriously one of my favorite one shots. Also another great Ronance blog
400 Bones [series] by DearApparition / @anxiouswerewolf
You want to read some of the most delicious angst out there? Here you go. Ronance is messy and angsty but they’re there for each other and I could easily cry about any of the fics in this series
here and wherever you are by penguinwritesbooks
The Half Of It au. Steve recruits Robin to write love letters to Nancy. One of my favorite movies and my favorite ship lovingly rolled into one. Everything feels very true to the characters and the dynamics without being a scene by scene retelling!! There’s a Steddie sequel if that’s your thing
#will probably do another list soon#I’ve read so many incredible fics#this was also an excuse to yell about how cool my mutuals are#fic recs#ronance#ronance fic rec#robin buckley#nancy wheeler#robin x nancy#nancy x robin#werewolf robin buckley#monster hunter nancy wheeler#stranger things#forgive me if any descriptions are a little off#it’s been a minute since I’ve read some of these :#vampire Nancy wheeler#vampire robin buckley
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tagged by my beloved no.1 chappell roan stan @cordiallyfuturedwight thanks my darling <33 i can only apologise for the lack of ms roan here... i swear good luck babe has been on repeat i don't know what happened
tagging the usual suspects, apologies if i've already missed yours: @aprylynn @jiminsproof @thvinyl @cosmicdreamgrl @visionsofgideontheninth @hoseeok @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi <333 and you dear reader
oh and see here for more of my self-proclaimed songs of the summer if you're interested in that kind of thing
#director's commentary--#comin' around again - they call her amber MARK because she never misses. this one is particularly delicious#the thrill is gone - it's stunning. listening to raye again to prepare myself for genesis#bring back the seven minute songs i say!!#i'm fighting my own diminished attention span tooth and nail but i'm losing badly because i keep getting distracted#helen of troy - we all moved on from solar power a little too quickly actually this summer we should throw our cellular devices in the wate#whatcha doing - yeah i have this song on repeat to fund dua's next vacation and it's an honour to contribute.#ALSO did everyone see the chris stapleton x dua acm performance? exquisite. they served AND they ate#bodyguard - still my fav. ryan beatty i could find you anywhere#skip to the good bit - rizzle kicks are making a comeback and my god it has been twelve LONG years without them.#nature is healing. i can hear the trumpets#ok love you bye - anyone who decides to use the line 'if you can't see my mirrors - i can't see you' is an instant icon#it's uncanny - hall & oates deep cut. it's obviously fab#so sick of dreaming - maggie rogers i will follow you to the ends of the earth. album is phenomenal. what a loser!!!#aw shoot - cuntry and music global pop sensation cmat has done it yet again. happy pride my queen#honourable mentions - rachel chinouriri's new album is really great. listen to 'it is what it is'#obviously rm made it to the artist list. who else up thinking about nuts and groin rn!!!!!#vampire weekend's new album is like something from a peanuts comic and st. vincent's new album is indescribable#but if i had to try i'd say like something from a peanuts comic but if woodstock had an insatiable bloodthirst#okay i think that just about covers it! thanks darlings#MWAH#receiptify#tag
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oomf right honestly drawing faves and ocs like ponies is fun :3. pretty slay for a first attempt i think
#youd think i wouldve drawn a pony at least once in my life since i enjoyed mlp/equestria girls as a kid & yet... <- avoided horses artwise#honestly still very ehhhh abt how much i should share since its a game related chara from my datesim im working on >_< but hey#whatever ig. i can reblog it to the gamedev account later. or delete as well. who cares yknow#pre-game treat ig whatever still need to figure out proportions.. think i will draw more of the dateables n not post those tho#-w- maybe i should add em to my commission options. idk its kinda fun. what its like to be cringe and free ig#my art#ocs#not using anymore tags than that for the reasons listed above heh -w- but i fink he'd be a lil earth pony...#no clue as to a cutiemark yet. perhaps cooking or kindness related. let me go look at the carebears for a minute#but yea... maybe something to do with bravery or being sturdy... or heart related since his name has a valentine pun#-w- he wouldve been such good friends with fluttershy. and perhaps he would like rainbow. shes so similar to his younger sister#so i think in turn he'd view her in the same exasperated but fond vein or whatever. anyways back to the canvas for me#<- one of the few ways i regain my sanity in the midst of solodev work and commissions
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yknow i was a little miffed when yoimiya got her second story quest but i can't even be mad that cyno's getting his. he's been around since manga days he deserves it
#personal stuff#delete later#like good for him. also who is that. i know a playable design when i see one#like we are FINALLY GETTING PERMANENT HERMANUBIS LORE.#ARLECCHINOOO. OH MY GODDD#I CANNOT BELIEVE SCYTHE ARLE REAL. i avoided looking at leaks for so long and her animations are SO nice wtf#her WING???#OH MY GODDD??? SHE'S THE NEW WEEKLY BOSS???#SHE LOOKS SO FUCKING COOL. HER WINGS#HEY WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE. FURINA OR NEUVILLETTE STORY QUEST 2 WHERE?#are they pushing stuff back. no dain quest last patch no archon or equivalent quest this patch :(#yes i am soo excited to see her lines about the other harbingers#still biting the bars of my cage why are there so many black white and red hyv characters coming out at the same time#STILL CANNOT BELIEVE WE'RE GOING TO REMURIA. RIPS AND TEARS#OH SHIT IT'S RELATED TO PETRICHOR. WE'RE GETTING THAT TOO.#wtf kitty event was foreshadowing. new talking cat#so we're not getting dornman port... :(#oh hey cool dvorak is coming back#new horn instrument!! it looks neat#ah. windtrace :/ i'm not one for co-op events i was hoping fr something else. good for you guys though#NATLAN CRUMBS WOOO#okay. overall looks like a neat update i'm looking forward to petrichor a lot. PLEASE say gourmet supremos. PLEASE.#i've been waiting so long to see them please let them come back...#also arlecchino looks cool as hell.#a little disappointed that no furina or neuvillette or dain quest but what can you do.#maybe we'll get a dain one next patch since we're getting remuria now? probably not but i can dream#checked the voice actors list under the trailer. oh hey we're seeing childe again
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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it
#re:kinder#not art#so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me#i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on#but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE#i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games#and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line#i did not know the context but it was devastating#AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me#I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS#then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art#so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU#personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood#AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids#but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy”#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED#many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough#IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize
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Holup, they’re all rocking the same inclement weather gear
#ok the ascent is season 5 of ds9 and they are still in the black uniforms#they switch to the new uniforms LITERALLY the following episode#the timeless timeline is 15 years in the future but they stole the delta flyer#conceivably they outfitted the flyer with the uniform cold weather suits#when Chakotay and Harry got back they decommissioned the Flyer as is#but damn space ships require a hell of a lot of maintenance so how is it still up and running after sitting for 15 years#like how long was it sitting in the shipyard? the whole 15 years?#also they have two suits when quark and odo had to share the one#I’m as confused as the EMH#also lmao at the cold weather overalls#they’re so shiny and quilted I love the costuming so much#it’s been a minute since I’ve seen the ascent but do we see the overalls or just the jacket?#have we even seen these outfits on commissioned officers? hmm#oh god does this mean these ridiculous suits are going on my never ending dream cosplay list? oh god#Actually the timeless cosplay is uniformed and frozen sprayed down with fake snow hilarious#how easily I latch onto the costuming like damn
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