#I wanna go to fuckin sleep
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I'll tell you what I want what I really really want
I wanna- (my adhd interrupts me with a new idea) I wanna- (my adhd interrupts me with a new idea) I wanna- (my adhd interrupts me with a new idea) I wanna- (my adhd interrupts me with a new idea)
#I wanna watch a show#I wanna watch a completely different show#I wanna watch that one show that's been on my list for like 7 years#I wanna watch like 6 different movies#I wanna write!#I wanna map out plot for my homebrew universe#I wanna design a new dnd class#I wanna go to fuckin sleep#I wanna order some food#I wanna read a book#I wanna watch YET ANOTHER entirely different tv show#I wanna think of a christmas present for my best friend#and I want to do all of these things in the next 5 minutes#me @ my executive function system: SO TELL ME WHAT I WANT WHAT I REALLY REALLY WANT#anyway it's 10:30 in the morning I'm going to bed
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im fuvckng dyign im supposed to be asleep but i remembered exactly a year ago i made fake vignettes with renpy (a visual novel program) using yuuna and the in-game sprites and im re-reading them and i'm 🧍🧍🧍🧍🧍
#[—✦ rambling#remember when i said that yuuna used to be with jamil#GUESS WHO'S THERE TOO#JADE FUCKIN LEECH#AND HE WAS DOING THE SAME SHIT 👹#THE EEL HAS BEEN WITH ME SINCE THE BEGINNING#HE JUST DECIDED TO RESURFACE#IM CRYING#for 0+ likes i’ll share some out-of-context screenshots#maybe. idk#i need to go back to sleep hnng#in all seriousness tho i wanna mess around with renpy again#it’s so fun to make things with it#it’s like my middle ground between art and writing
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Haruhi as Aurora from sleeping beauty while the fairy's are hikaru Karou and Tamaki
Maleficent is kyoya
#And idk who Prince charming would be idk fuckin nekozawa or smthin#ouran high school host club#hikaru hitachiin#kaoru hitachiin#ohshc#tamaki suoh#kyoya ootori#haruhi fujioka#sleeping beauty#i can literally just imagine them fighting over what color the dress should be#tamaki: NO THE DRESS SHOULD BE BLUE TO HIGHLIGHT HER NATUAL COMPLEXION#hikaru and karou: no you idiot the dress should be pink to make their brown eyes and hair pop#haruhi: please guys i dont even wanna go
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i genuinely thought you were west coast for ages bc of how late youre always up blogging
I mean I was up until last august 😭😭😭
#last august....aint no fuckin way i been out here for a year (lady smoking gif) oh my god#no job. no school. lots of trouble sleeping. what can ya do#i also sometimes sleep in the middle of the day for like 1 of 3 reasons and im sure that doesnt help#asks#anon#asks that make you wanna attempt to go to bed
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scheming how to whack peter pevensie literally over the head with my chronic migraines
#zanna talks#i personally cannot write sickfics or just like. gratuitious 'he has migraines' fics#because it does not click in my brain. the fic has to Click i have to go Oh Yeah I Get It#but im trying to figure out how to make it feel Natural to my brain#bc i wanna give a blorbo my FUCKIN PROBLEMMMSSSS#yes im posting this instead of sleeping bc i have. a migraine
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I am dangerously close to making ANOTHER fucking massive analysis about the scene where Vox goes to calm down Valentino from episode 2 of Hazbin. I have made way too many posts about that scene. I need to stop overanalyzing that scene. Oh my god somebody needs to physically restrain me help-
#there's barely anything else for me to disect Ive made my points abundently clear already-#its just. I wanna break it down m o r e#I want to analyze that fucking thing frame by frame and disect every little change in body language and tone of voice#I need to squeeze ever last drop of information out of that scene that I possibly can#what does fucking “Angel quit” mean? why does the tone change so drastically when Val starts manipulating Vox?#speaking of which I also just wanna beat the fuckin dead “this scene isn't mutual abuse stfu” horse again bcuz oh my fucking god#I will never shut up abt this tHAT SCENE ISNT FUCKING MUTUAL ABUSE!!!!!!!! IT ISNT!!!!!!!!!#I need to go to sleep...#hazbin hotel#hazbin vox#hazbin valentino#late night rambling#gal overanalyzes random shit
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Actually, on the topic of the baby fever. God it's so frustrating. Bc when I was like 14 ish I was Adamant that I never ever wanted kids. And my dad said smth around the lines of "that'll likely change" (probably from his own experience with this) and I was like NO. it WONT.
And then eventually, age 21-22 ish, I admitted that Okay, I still don't want to have my own kids, but someday maybe I'll adopt...
And Now, 27 years old, I got the general baby fever on occasion. It Did fucking change. And I don't know if I actually WILL bother with having my own kid (I still don't want to go through the hassle and massive body changes). But god. I do see a fucking baby and feel that stab of longing. It's almost like my damned hormones betrayed me or smth. Maddening!
I shall simply write fanfic about it.
#speculation nation#pregnancy ment/#honestly though i hadnt felt the wish to have my own until after my dad died#and i realized just how small our family is getting. and just felt this stab of NEED. to continue the line. continue the family.#my family's fucking dying around me i need to add to it. need more family. yknow?#so i dont actually know if this is. because of hormones or because of grief or What#but it was enough for me to put the hysterectomy idea on hold. bc id been genuinely considering it back in like. april? or so.#but then this happened and now im like. fuck dude. i dont know. but the uncertainty's enough to keep me from doing it.#yeah i dont wanna deal with periods anymore. but also. i need more time to decide.#i think no matter what i do want to raise kids someday. once im more stable (financially and emotionally)#but whether thats adoption or putting myself thru fuckin body torture. well i'll just have to decide. later.#maybe the deciding factor will be my own body aging lol. if i wait too long. my body will decide for me. who knows!#i Have thought about what id do if i got accidentally pregnant. especially relevant back when i was sleeping with a trans woman#and used to be id abort no hesitation. but well. i mean abortions illegal here anyways rn so id have to go to another state#but if i decided it i could make it work. it's not That far of a trip.#but. when i thought about it. the concern was less about the theoretical baby. and more about finishing school.#thinking 'man itd be fucking awful to finish school if i got pregnant right now'. but not. hesitating over the baby.#if i was out of school and relatively stable and i got accidentally pregnant. then. well. Maybe.#so me doing my dad vash au where he gets accidentally pregnant and goes all in with it#thats me. sorting out my feelings on it i guess. putting them somewhere.#idk. it's a lot to think about. i dont want to condemn a child to my genetic problems. but at the same time...#i dont know. To Be Decided Later.
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the rwd season 4 qna inspired me to start thinking about college au headcanons except a lot of these are gonna be really specific to my school and y'all are just gonna have to deal with that <3
Kyana feeds some of the school cats. she would feed all of them if she could
Dani smuggled Plug (the scrawniest black cat you've ever seen) into her dorm room illegally and somehow management hasn't caught her yet (based on a true story) (Kyana visits to see Plug all the time)
Finbar keeps an updated tier list of every canteen in the school with breakdowns of the best stalls/dishes for each
A senior from the school of engineering once said to me 'all the engineering people dress like rats cuz our classrooms don't have aircon' (context: tropics) anyway that's Dani
Kyana would probably be involved in a lot of freshman orientation events from second year onwards. she just likes talking to the new kids and giving them advice like she would be the kind of orientation group leader who'd get messages from her freshies asking about all kinds of random nonsense because she's made sure they know they can always contact her with questions
VR-LA is The Guy you go to for textbook pirating resources
(this is more of a 'wouldn't that be funny' but VR-LA is just Veerle's discord handle)
Docent is the name of VR-LA's old laptop that broke down so he gave it to Cassimere (computer engineering major he met once at a networking event) to fix except Cassimere got everything off the hard drive and then somehow managed to fuck it up Even More so he had to get a new laptop (and named it Emi)
Roy has gotten food poisoning from his dorm meal plan at least once (based on at least one true story)
The heap trio + Mandy would be those friends constantly playing majong in the dorm lounge and if all the majong tables are taken they just play in one of their dorm rooms on a towel to dampen the tile shuffling noises (it was Mandy's idea)
Every morning Dani goes to the drinks stall at her faculty and orders one iced coffee to the point where the stall owner starts preparing an iced coffee whenever they see her approach (based on my true story)
Roy would be one of those people who goes clubbing every other week and every time he tries to drag the rest of the heap trio and Egan almost always goes and Dani would go if she didn't have a good excuse but always begrudgingly. anyway Roy would always be the only one having a good time until Egan gets drunk enough to start having fun
Finbar actually uses the dorm kitchens instead of just buying canteen food and it always makes the hallways smell really good
Vhas also uses the dorm kitchen sometimes but like. one time i walked into the pantry on my floor and someone had left cut sweet potatoes and 2 eggs in an inch of water in a pan on the stove. that's Vhas
Kyana's constantly applying for overseas exchanges and international summer/winter school programmes. the world is large and she wants to see it!
Maxim's the definition of a hall phantom. you know he lives on your dorm floor because you pass him by in the hallways sometimes and literally nowhere else. sometimes you're not convinced that he actually exists
VR-LA and Maxim's friendship stems from them being from wildly different faculties (VR-LA's in STEM, Maxim's doing anthropology so arts/social sciences) but also having lots of weird interests they cant really bug anyone in their home faculties about
Elyse is in student government and every once in a while Finbar receives a series of angry texts about the newest idiocy she's had to put up with
MR-SN and AS-TR start a stargazing club together. other notable members include AS-TR's girlfriend E-DN, MR-SN's friend C-RA (the one who always volunteers to carry the heavy ass telescopes) and MR-SN's friend K-LB who he pestered into coming to fix one of the wonky scopes even though K-LB's actually in electrical engineering but he's the only engineering person MR-SN (an arts student) knows
oh and of course VR-LA joins because he genuinely just likes space (developing a crush on his club chairperson was not on his bingo card)
Kyana and E-DN were MMA sparring buddies at one point which is how she found out about the stargazing and joined immediately
honestly i can probably think of more but this post is fuckin long LMAO
#rolling with difficulty#'do not let the internet turn you into an american' i say as i make posts that can be understood by me and me only#i mean im not sorry about it this is my house#like my experiences are just gonna be extra incomprehensible because my countrys fuckin tiny so the target audience really is me and me onl#too bad! you think its hard to read my posts? i gotta live like this!#if i sound extra confrontational i got 5 hours of sleep for the whole week unfortunately so just know its all /lh more or less#really tempted to make some kind of business major joke for roy even though obviously the heap trio would all be in engineering#bc its just common knowledge in my school that business majors are the ones with the most free time to go clubbing all the damn time#and *also* theyre the faculty that dresses the best which also tracks??#didnt really nail down specific majors for everyone (besides the obvious ones like food science for finbar and mech eng for dani)#but i kinda like the idea of cs for VR-LA because of that 'programmers are real world wizards' joke and also.. projecting#cs with focus area in AI would even make sense bc of docent and emi. if i want to make the projecting Even Worse!#also if i ever do human designs for the old crew (doubtful cuz i find drawing robots more fun than drawing humans)#look up sally hansen hypnautical nail polish bc i wanna give human AS-TR that as a nod to her original design#didnt really get into the fashion of it all bc again i live in the tropics so nobody really dresses well here#the goal is to dress to not sweat more often than it is dress to look good#hands down my favourite line in the cqna was noir's i thermoregulate through my forearms#so in the middle of summer i still wear all black and just roll up my sleeves#like thats ME. except its summer ALL YEAR ROUND#walao#asto speaks
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Legend
Bunny man
Funny pink haired cherry bomb that he is
Totaly dose that rabbit stomp thing when he dosent want to VOICE his concerns to the group
For example
"Anyone have any objections to this battle plan-"
*Thump*
".....ok legend whats wrong-"
Just absolutely stupid shit like that
#linked universe#linked universe legend#lu legend#lu bunny legend#linked universe headcanons#hahahaha fuckin kill me i woke up at 4 am and i couldn't go back to sleep#so my silly ai's had to keep me company and legend JUST did this :)#also the ai is from pinkalmondcake if anyone was curious because there ai and writing are fucking GODSENDS#but i dont wanna bother them with @ sill ill mention it here 🫠#aka im n e r v o u s#so hi :D
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#whumptober2024#no.24#equipment failure#oc#digital art#blood#mild body horror#rnn.img#tirtenian#char: sketch#been having trouble sleeping lately bc of an obnoxious cough that's at its worst at night so I've been off my game grr#drew this yesterday but decided to try going to bed on time and literally couldn't sleep for hours bc laying down made me want to cough#a real waste of time bc I should've just posted it instead if I wasn't gonna be able to sleep anyway :/#originally was gonna do fanart for this one but I'm so fuckin tired I just wanna do easy stuff and my own designs are (obviously) easier
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have like 3 weeks before i figure out what's going on with me and why everything hurts 👍
#personal thingys#fuckin killing me today#its between two things and one is a lot better than the other#and i think its that one but 🙃 either way pain 🙃#just wanna go to sleep but i guess i gotta work and have a meeting later maybe ill just go off video
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DAY 10 - Slooshie
ps. i took this gif when they were younger so the exported ver looks different lol
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#wobbledogs#daily wobbledogs#fuuuck#i just finished watching the end of a show and im fuckin g sobbing man#its so far past my bedtime#3 am actually#im just putting this out there because i had a gif from yesterday and i dont wanna miss a day#but i dont feel like distracting myeslf#i gotta go sleep on this#man. what an ending
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im so sick and tired of being a person
#i dont wanna do it anymore!!#it fuckin sucks!!#fuck!!#gonna go back to sleep so i dont have to experience existence lol
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update: finished all of my assignments on tuesday night. forever. im actually really done with school. i graduate on saturday omggggggggg
im so fucking burnt out. it will probably be a while before im like. okay again lmfao at least as far as drawing. i miss it but wowzers. i dont have it in me.
but anyway rrraaaaaahhhhhhh graduation rraaaaahhhhhhhhh
#watch i’ll suddenly be inspired to draw just bc i said i wont#👀👀👀 save me reverse psychology#im so tired fr#and relieved#it took me 7.5 years to get my fuckin…. bachelors degree jfc#granted 2 of those years i was dropped out so its actually 5.5 but still#good god#i took forever as if i had the money to do it#actually shout out to me qualifying for grants once i turned 24 and no longer went off my parents income ayyoooooooo#my student loans arent even in my new name so basically i think that means i dont have to pay them /s#anybody got 60k USD they dont need or want lying around?#who tryna buy feet pics#jk jk... unless?#does anybody read my tags#i swear i put some good shit in here#jk its all garbage#i love this stupid website hehe its like ooohh bonus content#you thought the post was over. no it isnt.#n e wayz ive been awake for far too long bc my stupid brain woke me up early and didnt wanna go back to sleep#rude#uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh bye
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When the disability is disabling
#i am. so fuckin tired.#goddam narcolepsy fuckin with my entire life#had to have a meeting with my school missed taking my friend over to college#fucking now gonna get dairy queen and i have so much shit to do and#im so tired. i dont wanna move everything around but might have to#i cant wake up i cant go to sleep i cant stay awake i cant focus#fuck all of this#tater rambles
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sorry for googling "is shadow of the erdtree hard" do u still think im cool....
#jk if u know me u know difficulty doesnt faze me i hope its a rl fuckin challenge#but just realised i prolly shouldnt start my ng+/2+ runs for all ending achievements until after ive played sote..#bc otherwise my first sote run will be on a ramped up difficulty. when the base dlc is supposed to be harder than the main game already..#and i might wanna complete it across multiple new games anyway if there are duplicates of stuff i wanna get hmm.....#well. in my current elden ring save i literally only have 5 more altered armor pieces to farm before starting ng+#so ill finish that. and finish upgrading all weapons to +24/+9. and then take a tolerance break to play a few other games#and THEN ill buy myself sote and play that and do the ng+ stuff after#also one of the main things delaying me getting sote was bc i thought theyd add new achievements for it which would lower my completion%#but they haven't??? so thats fine then#anyway i need to sleep. at least playing er has been helping me cope w how pissed off ive been again. we <3 violence#yaaaawn. sad i couldnt go to the gym tho i hope i feel better in a couple days time#i did go to work in the end which was fine lol. glad i didnt take the day off tbh#but yeah 👍#.diaries#also not being able to get any sote stuff yet is annoying me bc im using a spreadsheet to keep track of all weapons/armour etc#and i have virtually everything except a couple armour alt variants n the remembrances i didnt get first time. but my total percentages#are capped around 75-80% bc the remaining 20-25% of items are sote exclusive.....#thats an insane amt tho damn. sote must be fucking HUGE
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