#because if we don't treat everything as a competition we get nothing done in this house 😅

[steelthroat]

My artist grandpa approves of my transformers art and my sculptures and says I've gotten a lot better and is very happy...

So I guess I can die at peace with myself now :D

[zodiactalks]

Zodiac Signs Who Think The World Revolves Around Them

Attitude matters.

How we choose to present ourselves and the face we show to the world are crucial elements in our life experience.

Popular wisdom tells us that we need to treat others how they'd like others to treat us and that we should always be aware not only of how we come off but also of what we put out to the world.

However, there's a growing current of thought that tells us that we should also just expect good things to happen to us. Not because we're good or anything like that, but because we deserve them.

If that attitude comes off as entitled to you, you'd be correct, because that's the whole point.

Entitlement as a form of self-improvement might sound counterproductive to you and might even seem like a recipe for disaster; but for the following zodiac signs, it's just how life has always worked.

Capricorn

As far as they're concerned, Capricorns have nothing to prove: They're great because they know they're great and they don't care if you agree with them or not.

This bold attitude allows Capricorns to feel like they own the world and that the world owes them, which often leads to a sense of entitlement that rubs other people the wrong way.

Regardless of what other people think, though, that confidence always pushes Capricorns to excel in whatever they set their eyes on, so we can't fault them for feeling like they do.

Leo

Bold and grandiose, Leos don't only expect the world to bow down to them, but they also expect to be admired by friends and enemies alike.

Known for their love of luxury and comfortable living, Leos will cruise by knowing that they deserve what's best, for merely being themselves.

Luxury accommodations, high-end gifts, and people falling over themselves to get on their good graces are things that should just happen, whether Leos have done anything to earn them or not.

Virgo

Virgos aren't known for their expensive tastes or their high-maintenance personalities. They can do with very little and, while they appreciate luxury when it comes, they don't expect it.

What they expect, though, is obedience.

Virgos know themselves the heroes of their own story, which means you should trust them without question.

You're with them or against them, and there's no in-between.

This wouldn't be so bad if Virgos were flexible individuals, but their black and white mentalities make them see all criticisms as personal attacks, so even if you're trying to help them, they might see you as the opposition.

Aries

No one is surprised at seeing Aries on this list.

Entitled, competitive, aggressive and bold, Aries’s like playing life at a hard level and will make absolutely no accommodations for anyone else.

It's their way or the highway, and it's not because Aries can't take criticism or opposition but rather because they just won't wait for anyone.

Aries don't settle. Aries don't make do with less. Aries takes what they want because it's owed to them, and you can either get with the program or fall behind.

There's no in-between.

Gemini

Pretentious, high maintenance and demanding, Geminis believe the world owes them something and they can turn bitter because of this.

If things are going the way they want, then everything is fantastic.

If things are going badly, however, Geminis will perceive it as an attack and will look for someone to take out their frustrations on, whether they're responsible or not.

Sagittarius

Another fire sign makes the list!

Sagittarius are known for their desire to live life on their terms and their love for freedom.

While this doesn't scream "entitlement," wait until you get between a Sagittarius and their life goals. Then you'll be able to see the entitlement just fine.

Nobody treasures their freedom as much as Sagittarius does, and they simply won't listen to anyone who tries to control this willful soul.

Sagittarian entitlement shines through in their pursuit of a free life. They'll chase after their dreams without ever thinking about how it'll affect those who surround them.

[astridthevalkyrie]

One of my least favorite things about The Regina Show is that all her 'ooh girlboss snarky' comments are either kinda bigoted or just unnecessarily cruel towards people who haven't wronged her.

Like 'where you come from people bathe in the river and use pinecones for money' wasn't clever or cool or funny or anything it was literally just classism. Classism directed at a man who helped her, no less, so like 'fuck you for not letting me burn my own arm off' isn't a good look either why the fuck should I like her. And she keeps doing it! All her early banter with Robin where she's so snarky and cool is actually just classism. Why would he fall in love with her

Her constant bullying of the dwarves? All ableism-based. Why are we rooting for this person why would any of us root for this person.

Everything she says to Hook either reads as 'why are you as a man wearing eyeliner you queer' or again ableism. How is that supposed to indicate someone we're meant to like.

Oh also Emma's getting mentioned twice but the way she treats Emma is so unnecessary and cruel like why would we think you like this person when all you do is tell them they're not enough for the task at hand or they're not as good a mother of Henry as you or they'd be nothing without your help like you don't care about this person at all and it's ludicrous that we're all expected to believe she does.

Plus the way she constantly mocks or undermines Emma and the Charmings like. You haven't become a good person and you haven't suddenly started caring about the people you hurt you are one hundred percent here just because you want Henry to like you and even then she still does things that make his life harder all the fucking time basically unrepentantly.

(A few other standout moments include random xenophobia in 'that's a mouthful' to the dunbroch language which is an irl gaelic language so it's shitty that the writers will crap on it to elevate her, the very specific and quite frantly fucking bizarre treatment of Sidney, the fact that every other character of color is usually in competition with her or eliminated to return the spotlight to her which isn't an in-canon flaw of hers necessarily but when combined with everything else ain't great)

Why should the show continuously praise her for contributing every now and then and bullying the rest of the team incessantly?

yeah, I've noticed that too. her classism with robin is so forced too. not that she's not classist to other people, but she's also not being like haha peasant peasant in every interaction so her digs at robin are literally just there for ✨enemies to lovers vibes✨

"handless wonder" "captain guyliner" we get it bro? you don't think men can wear eyeliner?? feminist queen ig :/

and don't get me started on sydney oh my GOD. what were the showrunners thinking when they were like let's cast this black actor to be the enslaved genie/man in the mirror to a white passing woman, and CONTINUE this treatment i.e. he's still in love with her during the curse (which regina could have done away with just like she forced graham to have feelings for her) and we find out in season 4 that she's CONTINUED TO KEEP HIM LOCKED UP FOR NO REASON????????????? HOLY SHIT WHAT????

and marian. that bitch. how dare she *checks notes* be married to robin when regina was still in love with him. but it's okay for her to see her son reject her and her husband cheat on her with the woman who executed her, because the whole time it's zelena anyways lolz

she has absolutely no right to be snarking at emma, snow or chaeming. none. and yet we're given, again and again, these godawful oneliners that are supposed to be girlboss and hashtag slay. we're given that horrible moment where she uses the dark ones dagger to tell emma to be quiet after which she smirks and says "ooh i could get used to this." and then we get henry being like "dw mom you're the bestest person ever you can be a hero too! 😁" this fucking show man.

[peachymilkandcream]

Written In Blood|Part 7|Modern Yandere Levi x Evelyn

(A/N: The petty drama and competition between Evelyn and Petra about to start reminds me so fondly of Break Me Slowly and I freaking love it! Hope you enjoy and comment to be added to the taglist!)

WARNINGS: implied noncon/dubcon, graphic descriptions of violence, domestic violence, manipulation, mind breaking, yandere behaviour/themes, forced marriage, forced pregnancy, misogyny, mentions of child abuse, etc.

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Now it was onto phase two, he had been hot with passion and affection and now he was cold, bitter cold. And would be. Petra would be stuck wondering what she had done wrong to illicit such an indifferent treatment of her. Before he had answered every text, made sure to talk to her whenever she called, now he didn't speak to her at all, or gave one word answers.

On the other hand, Levi spent a lot of time getting to know Evelyn. While it had been halting and hesitant conversations at first, soon she began sharing the distance between her and her boyfriend, confiding in him when he pried for answers. He made sure to give her all the attention in the world, making her feel special and cared for at all times.

This particular evening, he was over with Evelyn since her boyfriend was out of town and she felt afraid of her stalker returning while she was alone. Graciously, Levi volunteered to keep her company, bringing over his favorite wine and making sure she relaxed fully.

However right now she was shaking her head and clearly annoyed while looking at her phone.

"What's the matter?"

"Just Petra, we've been in kind of a fight this week, and it's just stupid-"

"Really? But you two are so close?" He slides closer, putting his arm on the couch behind her. "Talk to me."

"I think she's upset that I'm spending so much time with you, and maybe she's right, you were going out with her and now you're ignoring her- Maybe you should just talk to her and clear everything up-"

"I will eventually, truth is, I was interested, and then she became just so much, I didn't want to deal with a psycho girlfriend. I tried to let her down gently but she won't take no for an answer."

"Well she did say you gave her the most mind-blowing sex of her life, would be kind hard for a girl to come to grips with losing that."

Levi laughs slightly. "We didn't have sex, she sucked me off and then fell asleep because she was drunk and I had to push her off. She basically assaulted me and then expected a relationship after lying to herself and to me and saying we had the most passionate sex she's ever had in her life."

"Wait are you serious? But she's been telling me this whole time-"

"Because she's jealous of you Evelyn, you have it all and she has nothing. She wants to make you jealous while also judging and looking down on you for wanting to wait with something so precious."

"Everyone thinks I'm nuts for that, she wouldn't be the first."

He pauses. "I don't think you are. I think that's very admirable of you, and I respect it wholeheartedly."

She blushes a little. "I still feel bad for her."

"Don't, if she can't be happy that you've made a new friend then was she ever one in the first place?"

"Maybe you're right-"

"I am. " He leans closer, staring at her lips. "People around you treat you like shit, and you've been beaten down to take it. I won't let that happen anymore."

"Why...?" Now she leans in slightly, giving him a look that made his erection throb with desire.

"Admittedly I looked into you when I took on the case, and what I found was heartbreaking. No one deserves that, especially not someone as special as you." His face is so close his breath is on her lips. "You're special to me."

Suddenly she blushes and starts to back up. "What am I doing, I'm in a relationship I don't think it's a good idea-"

She's cut off with his lips on hers, tender, soft, Levi was using every ounce of his strength to not let his aggression and need for dominance to come out. He had to be tender with her for this to work, his more dangerous urges would have to be suppressed for right now. In time he would make room for that, all in good time.

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When Levi left her for the night, he made sure to wipe the lipstick off his lips. It stained his face with a reminder of his recent conquest, it had never gotten further than tender and soft kisses, but that would change. The poor girl barely knew how to kiss, something he'd have to remedy, but she had that naivety that drove him mad. Something he desperately wanted to shatter.

As he stepped out of the apartment building doors he nearly collided with Petra on her way in, making him stop.

"Oh, Petra. Nice to see you again."

"Levi? What are you doing here? Were you- with Evelyn?"

"Yes I was, great time. Thank you for introducing me to her properly."

"But what about us-? Why haven't you been answering my calls?"

"Should I have been?"

"Yes you should have- We had a thing, and you just ghosted me for no reason."

"What thing? A drunken mistake?"

That had hit a nerve, clearly she was upset by that. "It was more than just that-"

"Not the way I see it, I see it as a mistake that I wish had never happened if this is the way you'll behave."

"Then why? Why did you lead me on? Why did you pretend like you were interested?"

"I was, for a time. But then I got close to your friend upstairs. She's just so, much better- everything about her, how could you even compare? And she's just so amazing, and charming and sweet, she completely captivated me. So I started getting closer to her, I'm sorry you had to find out like this. Have a good night."

He turns and starts to walk away, leaving her upset and tearing up behind him. He knew she was going to march up those stairs and let Evelyn have it, and he'd be there to catch the fall when she lost her best friend.

Poor Evelyn, she didn't even see what was coming.

[caffeineandsociety]

Do you notice how being progressive is in vogue these days, but you just don't want to put in the work? Want that feminist cred, but don't want to have to consider you may, potentially, at some point in your life, possibly have had a teeny tiny misconception or two about how gender works? Well, have I got a solution for you! Welcome to:

A Quick And Dirty Guide To Turning Trad Gender Roles Into Feminist Theory!

How does it work? Why, it's mostly just a simple phrasebook! In order to do the bulk of the work, just rephrase your statements like so:

"Men should be the breadwinners; women belong in the home" -> "Ladies, fuck the grind and hold out for a guy who treats you like you deserve, don't settle for some lazy bastard who makes you support him!"

"Women are too weak to hack it in the dog-eat-dog real world, their job is to be wives and mothers, they're not tough or competitive enough to do anything else" -> "Women are socialized to be the caring, kind, Safe gender"

"Men are just stronger than women and that just plain makes them more capable and competent" -> "Men are stronger than women and that makes them SCARY and DANGEROUS"

"Boys will be boys, men are just GOING to be crude especially toward women, get used to it" -> "Men aren't taught self-control or manners and teaching them NOW is not your job at best and a hopeless endeavor at worst, they're too far gone, they're dangerous by nature, and there's nothing to be done about it, so they're not worth your time" (or, "kill all men"/"all men are trash")

"Men just can't help themselves, if you don't want men sexually harassing/abusing/assaulting you then don't tempt them, you're totally asking for it, how do you expect men to control themselves?" -> "We must protect the sanctity of Women's Spaces; any woman who wants to let a man in is a traitor who can't be trusted, doesn't she KNOW what will happen if we let men close? Men can't be trusted to behave ever so the only way to be safe is to keep women away from them" (or, "kill all men"/"all men are trash")

"Men wearing dresses is degrading and a sign of weakness" -> "men wearing dresses is cute and funny for...some reason, but it's totally empowering! If he doesn't find it to be, that's not a matter of personal taste, it's 100% toxic masculinity and THAT'S shameworthy, if we're laughing at him THAT'S why, it's not because WE think it's degrading!"

"Man up, don't be a pussy, men don't cry" + "MOC/disabled men/queer men are a danger to white men and especially Their Women" -> "Talking about how maleness and masculinity intersect with oppressed statuses is taking away from and talking over women, we need to focus on women's needs, stop making things about you, you get enough support already, cry more fragile male tears about it"

"Women are too frivolous and impulsive and prone to mindless bandwagoning to deserve agency, from finances to their own bodies" -> "We have to fight the coercive marketing influences in society looking to prey on vulnerable women" - BONUS: you can even avoid reckoning with certain forms of transphobia with this one, just by railing against the evil plastic surgery industry coercing poor, innocent little girls into irreversible things they're sure to regret - just make sure to say "trans women are women and trans men are men" in your next internet post, so people don't get the "wrong" idea! ;)

Some things might take a little more work than just find-and-replace, but with a little practice, they're super easy too:

"Everything women and especially teenage girls like is stupid and frivolous" -> "Everything white/straight girls like is problematic" - now, you can't just say it outright, you have to put in a little work to make the association from case to case, but with just a little creativity, you too can spin hating on pop music and current popular fashions and pumpkin spice into anti-racist praxis!

"Women shouldn't have sex drives, they should put out for their husbands but otherwise be pure and chaste and DEFINITELY not actually seek sex out themselves" - SAY that women's sexual liberation is important (to an extent), but spin every possible example as being harmful somehow. Here are a few good stock examples:

-> Romance novels and fanfiction are too full of tropes that tell men that sexual abuse is okay and teach women that it's what a good boyfriend SHOULD do (look, you get to undermine women's intelligence by implying that they collectively can't tell fantasy from reality, even!)

-> M/M shipping/BL is just for straight women who fetishize gay men (BONUS: you can call any gay man who likes it a self-hating traitor to the community and deny the identities of trans mlm with this one!)

-> Free The Nipple will traumatize children and possibly even normalize child abuse

-> Attraction to anime men is pedophilic because even the ones who are nominally over 18 look too young to actually be (BONUS: you get to imply that Japan is an evil den of pedophiles and/or avoid confronting any biases about POC and apparent age! Racism? Of course not, this is feminism!)

-> Attraction to celebrities is for creepy people with no sense of boundaries, ESPECIALLY if you talk about it

-> And, of course, you can pathologize most cases of sexual forwardness in women, no matter how slight or how willing to accept no for an answer, as a maladaptive trauma response, if you just give it a little thought!

Congratulations! By following this guide, you too are now A Feminist, without ever having to do any of that pesky introspection that might make you feel bad!

[taehyungfirst]

https://www.tumblr.com/taehyungfirst/750293624732975104/httpswwwtumblrcomtaehyungfirst75024992077945?source=share

I'm going to be pretty honest and you (plural) might not like it but I hate the fact when it comes to Taehyung's sabotage people always point out how Jungkook gets special treatment. Do company have a bone to pick with Taehyung? HELL YES. Does Jungkook get good promo? TRUE. But so does everyone!! Hell RM's album was better promoted than Tae's ever everything. Only because Jungkook is a main singer and is chosen to be pushed towards US he got good promotion. There is nothing personal here. Company's contention or hate towards Tae is not a mark to carry by Jungkook. So everyone stop hating him for company sabotaging Taehyung. I don't carry what their fans think but the way I know them both they are close and respectful towards each other choices. I'm sure Tae knows what company does to him. He is sweet but he is also smart. He may have re-signed because of members but I have confidence in him he has a plan up his sleeve. So till then I'm not going to hate any member.

Additionally, I think the OG anon talked about fandom and not company, if I'm correct. And fandom literally shit on them both. Hating on tae, leaving his songs out, etc. They do so with Jungkook also crediting all his success on hyungs. They don't even leave his parents alone. This reminds me of a recent incident when RM new album was promoted with Tae's and Jungkook's rumour. Funny how everyone else was spared even though they also have shits attached to them.

As I say again, it's not a competition. People should be able to call out company or fandom for taking multiple members name if they feel sabotage has been done because at the end company is incompetent and should be left to be bankrupt. Of course before my tannies sell their shares.

P.S. Not targetted to you blogger but to everyone in general who hate them together.

P.P.S. I wouldn't have made this post but I've been seeing people reacting so harshly to taekook. Earlier there was a fight when a taekook shipper defended them and then those jkk people fighting with blogger and now this.

Hi, I partially agree with what you said because at the end of the day yes it’s NOT Jk’s fault if he got a push, or better treatment, it was never about him, the complaints (in my case) are always targeted to the company. What rubs me the wrong way is when tkkers wanna talk about Tae’s treatment and think that Jk got the same. That’s not true and it’s never gonna be true. They don’t get treated the same, their releases don’t get treated the same and even a child can see that Bongo has some weird beef with Tae.

This, however, has nothing to do with their bond so I disagree on people dragging them. And as I said some days ago, every member’s release get treated better than a Tae release and that’s why I always wonder about his individual contract.

We kinda have the same problem but in different shades lol

[xxstarryxeyedxx]

[Ballrooom e Youkoso]

(anime) 24 ep, 24 min. 9/7/2017

Studio: Production I.G

Script:Kenichi Suemitsu

Producer: Tetsuya Kinoshita

Sports anime focused on ballroom dancing.I remember seeing this anime around shortly after I saw Yuri!!! On Ice and thought it would be a similar vibe.I was excited when I saw the visuals,the dynamic,elongated and kind of uncanny proportions the characters had.It's theme as well,as I am not drawn towards sports anime.To my dissapointment,the plot was quite mediocre,pretty much everything was,to the point where I'm still confused.Did I watch this anime because I did want to see what happens,or was it a comfortable backround for multi-tasking and I felt too far in to find another one and just cut it entirely?

We see Takara Fujita,a highschooler struggling to find what he wants to do with his future.He seems to have quite a few "basic" options but his lower class life and the fact that nothing moves him enough to pursue it passionately,leave him frustrated and confused.He stumbles upon a dance studio,by accident,with one of the tutors there,a world-wide ball room dancing champion,thinks that Tatara wants to take lessons in dancing and drags him inside.Coincidentally,in the same studio,a girl that Takara has a crush on from school seems to be taking lessons as well.Only difference is that she,is a pro competitor athlete.Seeing his confidence slightly boosted from immersing himself in the world of ballroom dancing and his sights on said girl,he is motivated enough to give it all a try.

I don't know much about ball room dancing and having this series as a first major contact with it aside from a few performance videos,I don't think I am doing it much justice.It always rubbed me the wrong way,how in the latin category of this competitive sport,even the younger competitors had to look "sexy" and mature.And I am talking 10 year old kids.In Ballroom e Youkoso,they are teens and it doesn't go much into that category of the sport thankfully,but,in classic anime degenerate fashion,comments are made towards the women and girls of the story,no matter their ages,for the sake of comedy.As if that was not enough there is a lot of,in my opinion,blatant sexism or not so blatant in other cases regarding the roles of men and women within ballroom dancing,with the rhetoric used.This,could be something prominent in the sport itself,but I am in no position to comment on that,aside from the anime's presentation of it.You have your slight touch of body shaming as well but unfortunately,typical for such a setting.

Story wise,it really is nothing special.Though some plot points and the drama of it all,had me wanting to see how would the series go about the fundamentals it had set.Of course,on the topic of drama,you get your overdramaticised dancing scenes where the characters talk so unbelievably much or are presented so intensly,it kind of becomes laughable rather than immersing.As much as there were moments that peaked my interest there were just as many that had me quite bored.Admittedly there are some pretty well written characters.There is a general "air of queerbaiting" in this series,however I have to give to them the inclusion,though quite sneakily (because of TV guidelines I assume),the inclusion of a clearly queer woman near the end of the show,who has a longtime crush to one of the female leads of the story.

There were definetly moments that a scene made me shiver from how nice it looked or moments that made me smile by how wholesome they were however I feel like they could have done so ,so much more with the story.So many more characters to be given more important roles that went to waste,moments that could have been much more tension-filled or elevated.One of the main female leads I had mentioned before,speaks up about how she feels with the way women are treated in this sport,actively making a point about it and standing her ground.However,she oftne times gets ignored or does things that are entirely out of character ,in favor of the more male centered narrative surrounding Takara.As much as I personally enjoyed him as a protagonist.A smaller and probably the last issue I have with this show and will talk about,circling back to what I mentioned earlier,is how the characters are supposedly 15,16 maybe 17 at most and the way their bodies are drawn,they look like grown adults.It's an aesthetic choice,to hyper focus on the athlete body,but it still rubs me off the wrong way.

This is my longest entry yet I think,because this anime dissapointed me more than I thought it would and ended up finding myself expecting more of it.In my opinion it's mostly suitable to have into the backround,if you decide to watch it.I will not be reading the manga and truly,all the credits go to a few super nicely written characters and the pretty visuals in this series.

6/10

[crystalelemental]

...yeah. Yeah, of course I think they should've done better, and the answer to a majority of "how" was already in the post.

Easy start, make mega evolutions for the Gen 6 starters. Wrap in the Ash Greninja bullshit into a much more sound mechanic that isn't a bunch of favoritism nonsense.

Make a Pokemon Z. Failing that because your corporate overlords only give you three years to churn out an entire generation's worth of games and we shifted to the 3D models instead of sprites, at least include something on Zygarde so it's not a completely irrelevant lump in its own generation. I'm not saying it has to be a full Delta Episode kind of scenario (though that would be the ideal), but something.

Related, what about Southern Kalos? You know, the part of the region that seems very strongly like it got cut, but was supposed to have stuff to do and may have been significantly related to Volcanion? Do we want to do anything with that? How about either of Diancie or Hoopa getting, like, anything? No, flaccid time-limited distribution at competitive readiness level? Gotta love the classics.

For gen 7, how about regional varaiants that aren't Kantonian? How about committing to a different league structure, instead of "Oops, the trials are basically just gyms, and the E4 and Champion are the same as ever because we're trying to emulate Kanto." I had a friend drop the game entirely when Kukui first mentioned that, and I don't blame them. Imagine being sold how different this region was and finding out halfway through it's exactly the goddamn same.

Give signature Z-Moves actual effects. Kommo-o got one, but the others are flat damage, and the main utility in most Z-Moves was coverage. Give them added effects to make them worth using, since the majority of the time, they did nothing. In fact, drop Z-Moves entirely. They were a shitty gimmick and we should've stuck with Mega Evolution, but Gen 6 barely integrated Mega Evolution into the core gameplay, because the series started over-focusing on competitive as the endgoal of the games rather than a full experience of the main game. "What if we made this cool gimmick, reference it constantly, then make a huge chunk of it completely inaccessible until post-game for no reason?" Brilliant decision everyone, claps all around. Dunk on Dynamax all you want, but at least it was intelligently integrated.

Speaking of megas, maybe instead of focusing your resources on making two Charizard and Mewtwo, because obviously the Gen 1 options were the most important things, you could focus instead on creative efforts to actually make a Mega Flygon.

And all of this around the story issues. Gen 6's story is a whole mess. Too many interruptions for nothing, too little actual development for any characters compared to even one generation ago, poorly fleshed-out villain motivation, Champion is wholly irrelevant. Then pivot to Gen 7 where it's more of the same, but nothing outside of Lillie's story even matters. Everything about Gen 7 hinges on Lillie's story, which is why you have the tolerable one (Sun and Moon) and the one that feels like no one cared about what was happening and hand-waved the entire conflict (Ultra Sun and Moon).

I could probably keep going, but you get the idea. Gen 6 started this trend of, very likely, "we do not have the time or resources to make a truly great game," and corners got cut. Gimmicks were not properly integrated with gameplay until Gen 8. Competitive aspects started being seen as more important than core gameplay (Look at all these QoL features like hyper trainer and EV training that only matter if you're competitive). A Pokemon's general popularity was the only thing that seemed to matter, given Greninja's absurd Gen 7 buffs for literally no reason, and Gen 1 is treated as the most significant thing to ever exist, so they consistently get all the attention. The games simultaneously start having more and more dialogue and cutscenes with less and less meaning behind them, going through USUM's refusal to engage with its material, and SwSh actively writing the protagonist out of any action occurring. Gimmicks come and go with no rhyme or reason. So yes, they could have, and should have, done better. If they couldn't because of the graphics changes, then they either shouldn't have changed or extended the timeline for development. If neither was permitted, then the problem lies squarely at the feet of the administrators who refused to emphasize a quality experience over churning out something for a tight deadline.

It’s because, and I say this with malice, they stopped giving a shit in Gen 6. Gen 6 was the Nostalgia Bias Era. It’s when everything became about Gen 1 shit, and “remember this thing?” Gen 7 amped it up. But you get the sense in the 3DS era that the newer stuff just does not matter. No megas for any Gen 6 Pokemon, Gen 7’s signature Z Moves are largely useless, but constant attention is given to Kanto. Greninja got an exception because it’s the only Pokemon to ever beat Charizard. It won a popularity contest in that era. So it got attention, but no one else mattered to them. They couldn’t even give Zygarde a fucking game.

[showtoonzfan]

(A lil rant about Stella, I just want to share some thoughts)

I don't get why HB fans said it's good because sometimes villains are just assholes, female or male but like, this would work if the protagonists are on the same level of complexity but there's clearly a different, heck look at characters like Griffith or Odalia, they're horrible but they're complex enough to pair with the protagonists and let us wonder what they're planning, but Stella?all she does is screaming and mocking, to the point we all know what she'll do next, she's just abusive and angry, literally that's all she is, I wouldn't have mind it she was a minor villain, how can I enjoy a show where our protagonists work through their trauma and emotion when the villain is just "I hate you>:(" Like fr, why do people justify lazy writting because it's "representation" when the representation drags everything down? Yeah, bad people exist and a lot of them are just assholes but realistic=/=satisfying, like when people complained about the s*xual assaults in a lot of movies, yes it's realistic but is it lazy and is just there to add shock values? Also yes in a lot of cases, that's how I feel about Stella currently, especially with the pattern of under developed female characters in HB, I really don't buy into the representation thing.

Agreed with all of this. Also, the problem with Stella is that when I call her character “lazy writing”, it’s not because I’m shocked that she’s a bad person, I just wish she was LAYERED. Not all villain characters have to be layered of course, but for a show where you have a bunch of demons who are flawed people and layered themselves, why make their villains one note? Not only does that make the character journey the protagonist has to go through be boring and shallow, but for a character like Stolas, a person who has done horrible things HIMSELF, it insults me how Viv writes her as this one note bitch and nothing else, because she’s clearly doing it to excuse the cheating, and make the audience feel bad for Stolas when our sympathy for this character should be EARNED, not because something bad is happening to them. It’s the same with Angel Dust and Valentino. You have a horrible character, but then you pair them with someone who is worse and one note, automatically making that said OTHER character look good. And people can get mad at me all they want, but the hypocrisy in this fandom is WILD. Y’all will say the meanest nastiest things about Stella and Valentino, because one is a bitch and the other is an abusive pimp, (as well as getting on people’s case who simp for them) but then characters like Alastor are applaud and simped over when he’s LITERALLY a serial killer, and Angel is a murderer. And yes, I get that we’re supposed to LIKE the protagonist and hate the antagonists, but the problem is that the fandom will argue over which character is worse, when it shouldn’t be a competition. They’re ALL bad, yet most of this fandom will have a cry fit if I say that. Stella is bad, but in her character’s case they could have made her layered, but of course no. We have to make her a bitch so the audience can feel bad for Stolas, a person who treated his partner like a sex slave and nothing else, as well as was more focused on getting his bird dick arise then mending to his daughter in Loo Loo Land. But yeah, Viv really needs to up her game in the writing department. I’m tired of her desperately trying to make her heavily flawed characters look good while the universe works in their favor for the sake of the plot, as well as her female characters being fan service bait, and not developed at all.

[toonblabbers]

Balls to the Walls Random Headcanons

A/N: Just trying to flex and expand my writing with other characters: Ace Edition - Ushijima, Iwaizumi, Aran, Hoshiumi, Asahi, Yamamoto and Sakusa!

I didn’t write about my big sexy himbo Bokuto because my blog is like almost 90% him

This contains some mentions to smut so hey: minors DNI! Thanks!

 Ushijima:

Service top with a dash of Dom. Got a big cock but he doesn’t know what to do with it so please help him out.

Had one (1) partner before you and they told him he can be too rough so now he’s the literal definition of Gentle Giant. Again tell him what to do and how you like it

He on the other hand…Well he’s got a hard body from years of strength and endurance training. He has very specific spots where he’s super sensitive, but he’s easily embarrassed about them

One spot is right behind his earlobe. Sit in his lap, pinch his ear and gently rub it between your fingers. The sight of Ushi’s eyes fluttering closed as his breathing picks up is truly a sight to behold

Another spot is his wrist; stare him in the eyes and kiss his wrist before a match to have his knees quake a little and shorts feel a little tighter

Actually loves to discover new kinks with you. He finds it more romantic than having a quiet dinner with you in an expensive restaurant

Can be a big ole needy baby during the off season of volleyball. Tugging on your shirt when you leave the bed, follows you into the bathroom, stands behind you in the kitchen or when you’re doing laundry. He’s not vocal with his words but more with his body

Don’t tease him though; it’s still a very new feeling for him to express

 Iwaizumi

Hates fighting with you but loves to pull you close and soothe you with a hot kiss

Has big Dom Daddy energy, but there are a few ways to make him start to crumble under you touch

If you use any piece of clothing to pull him in closer to you like his collar, his tie when he wears one, or his belt. Lean in like your gonna kiss him, stare at his lips then his eyes and then just walk away like nothing happened. You bet your sweet ass he’s gonna follow you to get that kiss

Another way that he refuses to admit he likes: play with his nipples. He’s got some fairly big and dark nipples compared to his friends and they get hard easily. Brush your fingers over them when you lean in to kiss and he’s got diamonds poking through his polo shirt

One way that he will admit is ass play. Now he’s not ready to full on take a cock in his ass, but things like your fingers, anal beads, or a vibrator? Makes him practically cum on the spot

Loves it when you get rough on him. Not like in a “I’m gonna slap you” kind of way but in the “grab him by the hair and demand he fucks you properly when he’s taking it too slow” kind of way

His cock pulsing hard inside of you and his eyes dilating is a dead giveaway of how much he loves it

 Aran

Admittedly, he doesn’t have a monster dong (sorry not sorry, not all fucking black guys have a big cock so stop fetishing it thanks – from a black woman) but it does have a nice curve to it

He’s a disgusting romantic so full on he will bust out the candles, the rose petals, and the silk robe waiting on the bed for you. He saw it in a movie once as a kid and wanted to try it ever since

He so cute though because since he is a big romantic, he’s always cooking you breakfast and singing a little song in the morning for you. He even does a little dance while carrying the tray off food just to see you smile in the morning

He’s also such a soft Dom dude. Admittedly a little scared to try an bottom for you but man does he make you feel loved when he’s in between your legs

Loves to hold your hands or hold you close when he cums. Wants you to feel how his whole body shudders because of how good you make him feel

Big ole cuddle bug so it’s best to have some towels and water bottles by the bed cause neither of you are moving unless he says so

He’s a man a of quality and not quantity, so yeah you guys only go one round of sex cause he’s bone tired after he cums. That doesn’t mean he can’t make you cum multiple times though

Hoshiumi

 A short King. We stan (I’m 5’9 so he’s short to me)

He is a meeeeessy boi dude like if ya’ll in a hurry to fuck, he’ll quickly slobber all over you and use as much spit as he needs to slide home. Loves how tight you are, but he’s careful enough to make sure it doesn’t hurt you…..too much

Loves. To. Fuck. You. Both. Dumb.

Did you just cum? Well he’s not stopping until he cums. Did he just cum? Well he’s not stopping until you cum. Wants to keep it equal

Please sit on his face. He loves it. And if you play with his balls like rolling them in your hands and squeezing them? He’s whining and panting while eating you out like a mad man

He adores it when you play with his hair when you’re cuddling. Just don’t be surprised if he starts humping against you. It just feels so good

He’s very competitive so god help you if you’re with his friends and they start talking about their sex stories.

If there’s a friend there (Hinata) that talks about the kind of kinks they do with their partner and it’s something you guys haven’t tried before? Guess what’s on the list tonight

 Asahi

God just hold him. He needs it. Another one that's is a great service top for someone who loves to lead from the bottom (me @ me)

Not the biggest set in the world but he's got passion so sex is almost always soft and sweet

He's still hot in his own ways like the way his deep grunts start to turn into softest and sweetest moans

Or the way he stares at you; eyes swirling between lust and loves with tears threatening to spill

Please don't be mean to him unless he asks. It's evident that he holds a lot of insecurities and he's trying his best for you. Love and dote on him because his aftercare is top tier

Even if you guys don't do anything special or crazy. Just some straight vanilla sex, he always makes sure that you're comfortable before you go to bed

Also he helps you establish a nightly routine with him so what's not to love about that?

Yamamoto

SIMP ALERT. Be ready for one of the LOUDEST simps out there. 

I'm talking a bigger simp than all the setters for Hinata or all the captains for Daichi

You can fit so much passion and respecting people juice into this boy right here

I don't see him being a wild boy but if you're into it then so is he. Want him to spank you? He's gonna ask how hard baby.

However if you want to do something that he seems a bit hesitant on, he’s gonna try to be overconfident with everything. Make sure you talk to him and make sure you have a solid agreement with with him. Communication is key with him!

He's a little sloppy and lazy with his aftercare but you know what, it's always fun with him

I don't know much about him but he gives off that vibe of a man that runs on pure fiery passion and motivation. Like if he’s feeling like loving on you tonight? Be ready to not do a damn thing cause youre gonna be his precious pillow gem (idk if there's a gn term for ‘pillow princess’)

Sakusa

Ooof. Where do I begin with this beautiful man. Pretty body with a pretty cock to match for starts

He’s sexy man but he has these cute little moles all over his body. He personally doesn’t like them but please kiss each one even the one on his butt. He may not voice it but he loves it so much

He will gladly do the same for you; kissing you every part of your body that you may not like about yourself.

Doesn’t have a high sex drive, but when he’s in the mood, damn you better clear your plans. He believes in both quantity AND quality so you will be thoroughly fucked out when he’s done with you

I see him as the kind of dom that goes for the kind of pleasure that benefits you both. Not a selfish lover but also not an absolute giver like the others

Yeah there are nights where he wants to treat you but others nights he’s gonna make you work for it

Tagging: @hiddenbluee, @kou-taro, @justcoffeewithoutcaffeine​

[soullikethesea]

My doubt is so clearly linked to the clinic.

Deep inside, I trust my experiences. I know that DID therapy has worked for me. I love the alters I came to know and was able to realize are a part of me (in the same way that I am a part of them).

The clinic experiences feel like a stain, like an attempt to break that down. I learned some important lessons from it and it made me a whole lot less naive.

So what happened?

Treatment with my T at the time was stagnating. We figured out that my current daily life was far from safe, and yet we'd done intense trauma work in the midst of it. My T was in way over her head. I asked her to specialize so we could continue treatment, but she realized that it was too much for her and not worth it to her, because she was likely not going to treat another person like me in her career (as she was seriously considering retirement).

During the overwhelm, she had unwittingly also harmed me. Because she was not being supervised and guided properly, she had focused a lot on individual alters and was mostly "fascinated" and convinced we had to come up with our own treatment because we had to pioneer like that.

When I confronted her about the fact that there *are* treatment guidelines and when the weekly sessions became mostly her reiterating that she couldn't help me and that I asked too difficult questions... we started to look into potential referrals. There was this trauma centre that worked with the Coping book and I liked the idea of more structured learning.

So I was referred there. I had never been in a big place like that rather than with a private T, so everything about it scared me. So many people and procedures. Administration that took ages. No one remembering or knowing your story. I only had three appointments with them.

Online questionnaire, indicated possible dissociative disorder. Interview. The interview was so bad... they just went on and on and on until they made me cry. Then it suddenly stopped and I was sent away.

Then the diagnostic interview, which was so so so terrifying. Then the meeting in which they said that I probably had some sort of personality disorder with an extreme amount of dissociation and also C-PTSD. But they couldn't be sure. Either way, I was not welcome. Oh, and should stop reading the Coping book.

And looking back I'm so glad I wasn't welcome. They were forced to close less than a year later, so I would have been left with nothing. And by now I've heard about many more bad experiences with them.

So it was a blessing in disguise, even though they contributed to the breakdown of the relationship with my T back then. They were extremely sceptical of her. They thought that we were both mislead, mistaken, wrong. I was stereotyped as a typical med student thinking that I had all diagnoses I read about. (They could only see the "competition horse" side of me, the successful high-achiever). And when I don't know people or don't feel safe with them, I very skillfully and unconsciously hide every potential speck of emotion. I avoid vulnerability like a pro. I talk around questions, make everything vague so that I don't have to come close to my emotional truths.

So yes, I brought it upon myself. Not by choice, though.

I just can't get the feeling of their judgment out of my body. So much fear. Old T told me at the first or second appointment that she thought it could be DID. Then she repeated that it *was* DID a lot. And then, by the time I had accepted it, she didn't want to specialize. And then, after the clinic thing, denied that she'd ever said it was DID, or had ever treated me for it. When clearly she had focused so much on it, and on working with parts (who she treated as completely separate people).

So what did I take away from this?

Make sure that your T knows what they are doing, or at least make sure that you know what they are *supposed* to be doing. Specialize, become as knowledgable as you'd want your T to be. If only so that you can recognize when things are going awry. There are decades of research and scientific literature. Of course every approach has its limitations, but you don't have to reinvent the wheel.

Psychology and psychiatry are very powerful disciplines and hurt their patients. (Naivety spell was definitely broken).

It also reminded me so much of the gaslighting I've been through. I think that's what it made it traumatizing, combined with the trust in my T that it hurt so deeply. It negated all that treatment. It made me so scared that I'd trusted the wrong person.

So yes, it was traumatizing even when for most people it probably wouldn't have been.

It also made a big impression on me that much of the process was handled by an intern and I could tell she wanted something else for me, but she didn't have the power to change anything about it. It made me feel afraid for my own future as an intern somewhere and I think it steered me away from clinical psychology forever. I know she had to write a report about me. She sent me like 8 extra questionnaires after they'd rejected me, which likely showed more suspicions of OSDD/DID because I'm much better at giving clear answers to questionnaires. It's just less scary to me than people are. Writing is also less scary than talking is.

It was a good thing that I slipped through the cracks. It was a good thing. But man, the whole thing was painful.

[hiyorisarugaki]

“Girl story time! How long did it take for noodle brain and you to hook up?”

"WEll... depends how long ya have. This ain't some story that'll take six minutes! I mean... we got loads'a years 'ta cover!"

"I've known him for at least 250 years. And I've liked him for at least 200 of them. Not that I'm countin' or nothin'. It started the moment he started tutoring me when I was in the academy. He'd tutor me, a gifted student- obviously- who had trouble with reading kidou and well... he was roped into lookin' after me. Back when he was a green bean shinigami in the twelfth division. Anyway, I treated him 'ta a meal cuz I'm a generous god and had passed the academy with his help durin' examinations, but when the order arrived, his plate looked better. He swapped ours round and well... I mean... nobody's done that for me before. It's not just the way he's casually feedin' me... but like givin' me something he was looking forward to as well. Who does that? Only... only like family does that. And I'd never had a family. Not a proper one, anyway. Certainly none enough to care 'ta give me a full portion of what they wanted. So... so I guess... I started thinkin' and noticin' him more. Seein' how popular he was. How strong he was. His talent was gonna take him far. More than just a seated officer. I had 'ta catch up if we could still be friends. It meant working my ass off every day. Especially when he became a captain and left the 12th division. I was desperate 'ta catch up and become someone important in the gotei, too. So I worked hard 'ta be lieutenant. I know some people think Hikifune-Taichou just gave me the position, but I never got anythin' just given 'ta me in my life except for my cute fangs. So yeah. I worked for everything. I made all the budgets and rotas and even filled in every position when a shinigami needed days off or wanted'a visit their family. I was relied on by Hikifune-Taichou. But yeah, I became a lieutenant. And that way, I was almost closer to Shinji too. But it still don't mean... he noticed me. Not like a woman, anyway. Like, he didn't sweep his cape of hair and go wow, that's a strong and cute woman right there. Let's make her my bride! Tch. As if. He was too busy going around flirting with so many girls. Geez. I don't even remember their long legs and stupid, swooshy hair." She obviously does remember them. Probably even better than Shinji, because she's grinding her teeth. If it wasn't for her bothering and pestering him for meals, she'd never have got his attention. And of course... she grabbed his attention in violent ways, too.

"Anyway... he never noticed a damn thing. So we get 'ta the night of the hollowfication where Sosuke reveals his slimy ass plan. We survive his experiments, but then... I kinda knew, that even if I did have a chance with him, I couldn't get with him. I mean, what.. he's stuck with me in exile, we actually got a chance now since there's no other competition... but, it ain't easy 'ta confess. Especially when Aizen's out there and we're all... dealin' with a mountain of shitty inner hollows. And then, on top of that... he's got this guilt about what happened since Aizen was his responsibility. It's too much for him. Being responsible for us and the situation and to put my feelings on top of that...?? That's... not good. Plus, I'd changed too. I... I'd lost my rank and prestige and... really anything I could offer him. I wasn't a good prospect for him. I also... had planned on killing Aizen or die trying. And... I almost did die trying. I wanted 'ta confess then,too... y'know when Gin got us. But... that would also have been shitty. Who would say no to the feelings of a dying girl?"

She takes a breath then. The things after that were murky. Or Hiyori had purposefully blanked them out because... Shinji had left. She has believed that there was nothing else she could really lose, other than her life. She'd lost her home already, her rank, her position, her ability to form rational thoughts... even her strength after the bifurcation. Really, nothing else was left for anyone to take.

But Soul Society decided it wasn't enough.

They took Shinji and her friends too.

Hiyori swallowed hard. She still does, hate Shinigami...

"Well... I guess... I guess he missed me when he became captain again. And I behaved less violently too. I mean, how can ya really smack a guy that lives a dimension away? He gained a thousand new friends in Soul Society. I was left with minus three. I think... he must've started worrying and thinking of me more then. That's how he came by often 'ta check on me. Then he kissed me. And we started courting each other and now we're married after I said I'd start looking for houses in Soul Society again. I was happy when he asked. It's like a dream come true..."

[suganovakawa]

𝐒𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐃𝐄 .

PAIRINGS : tooru oikawa x fem! reader , slight hajime iwaizumi x fem! reader

GENRE : angst , romance

WARNINGS : cursing , car accident , recovery from amnesia

SYNOPSIS : tooru doesn’t understand how special you are to him until he comes close to losing you forever . as he struggles to comes to grips with his feelings and balance it with his future , you still have to recover from your own injuries , but without your memories to assist you .

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 < [ 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐄 ] > 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐓𝐄𝐍

he knows what could happen if you remember. he’ll do anything to prevent that.

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saudade masterlist .

SAUDADE

( 𝐧 . ) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant , or that has been loved and then lost ; “ the love that remains ”

⠀whatever iwaizumi was thinking, he certainly had no logic. honestly, he probably would've been better off just not telling you a thing about oikawa. after all, he should've known from the start it's in human nature to want to push past restrictions forced upon them. and as much as it pained him, he knew he had messed up bad, his anger getting the best of his common sense and regretting it a day later.

⠀he knew you were curious about your boyfriend.

⠀rather, the boyfriend you didn't even know you had.

⠀from the very beginning, hajime could see it in your eyes - the natural attraction your body held as you and oikawa first exchanged short glances towards each other in class. volleyball had taught him to be quite the observer, and you made no effort in being subtle. unfortunately for iwa, oikawa noticed your innocent curiosity as well.

⠀he was afraid to ask you more about what you remember. it was different from the first day you had woken up from your coma, you were completely out of it so your muddled brain couldn't have remembered nor recollected much. now that you were spending regular time at school, just like normal, your memories might have just resurfaced sporadically. as far as hajime knew, you remembered everything, just pretending like you're still suffering from memory loss.

⠀but he knew you weren't like that. you wouldn't do that to him.

⠀you two weren't best friends before the accident, basically just friendly acquaintances who shared the same pain in trying to make the aoba johsai volleyball captain learn how to stop and take a damn breather. you had made it quite obvious in the past that you were an admirer of oikawa's, much to hajime's dismay - but he suppressed such feelings, in fear he'd be seen as too selfish.

⠀and he paid the price by seeing you happy in oikawa's arms.

⠀maybe iwaizumi was biased, but tooru really was more on the shitty side when it came to being a boyfriend. he had asked his peer countless times why he had accepted your feelings when he knew he didn't have time for a relationship; and every single time, hajime would get the exact same answer:

⠀"she made me happy at the winter tournaments, i'm only returning the sentiments."

⠀does causing your car accident count as making you happy?

⠀seeing how determined tooru was to get close to you again, pissed hajime off. what was there to be pissed off about, though? if this was a game, iwaizumi was winning. oikawa lost everything, from his reputation to his girlfriend. hajime was on his way to making you happier than tooru ever could. there was no competition here - he had this hook, line, and sinker.

⠀at least, he should have it in the sinker.

⠀a part of him knew, deep down, he was always default to second place. even without your memories, you still had your conscience, that internal voice in the back of your head that still held its senses. and if your conscience was stupid enough to adore oikawa even after everything he's done to you, how could the ace possibly fight against it? you could've died. and it would've been oikawa's harsh words as the true perpetrator.

⠀he wanted to prove a point to himself, you, and oikawa. that he was worth it. that you shouldn't have to waste your time with a scumbag who took your adoration and admiration for granted. the entire team knew that tooru wasn't the type to put anything over volleyball, and he displayed that when it came to your guys' relationship. while the captain was deserving of any praise he received that was volleyball related, hajime knew that it was unfair for you to be neglected because he spends so much time and energy on it.

⠀"hajime? are you listening to me?"

⠀he turned his head towards you, your words shaking him out of his daze. he blinked a couple of times and sat up, turning his head so his attention was fully on you. "sorry, y/n. a bit tired today. what do you need?"

⠀"huh? i don't need anything." you shook your head. "i was telling you that makki and mattsun were inviting me to go out with them today, just out to eat so they can also fill me in on random things, and to talk a little more. i said yes because they seem nice enough, and you seem to trust them, so i didn't have a reason to say no. i just wanted to tell you because i'm not going to be walking home, so you don't need to take me today."

⠀hajime's heart dropped to the abyss in his stomach.

⠀you were going to what?

⠀he knew exactly what those two were planning on telling you, and he was not having any of it. panic bubbled and almost erupted out in the open, but he saved himself with a deep breath and a plastic smile, nodding his head slowly. "right, i trust them... yeah. you have fun with that." you appeared happy with what he said, giving him a quick hug before walking off. he waited for you to turn the corner before walking off on his own, his jaw clenched and his destination set.

⠀"iwaizumi, where's - " hanamaki was grabbed by the tie as the brunet glared at his former teammate, his eyes anything but nice. "what are you doing? let me go. i'm supposed to be meeting - "

⠀"i know what you're fucking doing," he spat, his grip around makki's uniform only tightening. "this isn't just some random meeting. y/n asked you for this meet up, didn't she? she wants to know stuff, and figured you two would willingly comply." he laughed, more of a mocking volume. "and what do you know, she was right."

⠀"iwaizumi, let me go." the male with pink hued hair snapped more sternly the second time around; hajime hesitated for a few moments before reluctantly releasing his grip on his fellow third year, who pressed his lips together as he fixed his uniform hastily. "you got us," he muttered, his eyes finding iwa's. "she came to us during lunch and kept asking us. you were already on your way back to the table so we simply told her we'd tell her after school. that's all."

⠀"that's all, my fucking ass." pointing an index finger in takahiro's face, hajime shook his head. "you better not tell her about oikawa. she's much better off without that piece of shit in her life."

⠀"but she has a right to know."

⠀iwaizumi's face paled, taking a step back as makki crossed his arms. holy shit, he was serious. he and makki were going to tell you everything. "she's a big girl, iwaizumi. she wants to remember her life before the car accident. i can't imagine what she's going through, having her memories blacked out like that. i know if i was her, i'd want to know every single detail." makki's eyes narrowed. "including the memories that could hurt me."

⠀hajime's hands clenched into fists as he shook his head again in protest, sticking his foot out to prevent the other from walking forward. "over my dead body will i let you do that. the last thing she needs is a reminder of the nightmare he put her through. you won't tell her a fucking word about it."

⠀"or are you just scared you'll lose her to oikawa again?"

⠀just that question was a punch to the stomach as hanamaki observed iwaizumi's reaction. a corner of his lips protruded upwards as he stared at the other male in the hallway, the truth so horribly obvious. "doesn't take an idiot to see how set you are in making y/n fall for you. using her amnesia to your advantage to brainwash her into forgetting oikawa and becoming her new boyfriend... i was on your side at first, iwa. now? you're being just as shitty as he is."

⠀"don't you fucking compare me to him. i'm not like him, and i will never treat her like shit."

⠀"maybe not like shit, but she's certainly more like a prize than an actual person in your eyes."

⠀takahiro watched the frustration boil to hajime's face, taking a deep breath and walking around him before he could be stopped again. "if you excuse me, you made me late. i'm sure y/n will - " he grunted as a sharp pain grabbed hold of his wrist, his eyes widening slightly as hajime seethed at him, jaw clenched and face glowing angrily.

⠀"i said, you're not telling her anything."

⠀"who's going to stop me?"

⠀iwaizumi's smile was anything but pleasant as he pointing towards the school entrance. "mattsun and y/n are waiting for us, right? we shouldn't leave them waiting for too long."

⠀makki's breath hitched in his throat at the realization and cursed to himself quietly, shaking his head as he had no choice but to pull hajime along with him. "your logic is fucked up. y/n is nothing but a trophy for you to show off."

⠀"y/n means more to me than what you could ever hope to understand. keep walking, bastard."

⠀"hajime? what are you doing here?" your face revealed genuine surprise as he had appeared right beside hanamaki, releasing his iron grip on his wrist before exiting aoba johsai. "i thought you were walking home?"

⠀he could see the silent exchange of glances going on between the other two, and he could tell by matsukawa's quiet but exasperated sigh that he understood what was going on. iwaizumi pretended to not notice, however, as he moved to stand next to you. he saw the confusion flickering within your irises, how they were averted towards the ground instead of looking at him. if only he could tell you how important you were to him and why he was acting this way for your own good, maybe you'd understand his side better.

⠀"i figured since i was hungry, i'd join you guys. after all, we all trust each other enough to discuss anything, right?"

a / n : second post today! promised it would come out soon 🥳 ALSO, THANK YOU SM FOR 900 FOLLOWERS !!! it truly means the world to me that you all decide to stick around my profile, i promise i’ll do the best i can to provide content worthy of your attention 🥺❤️

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I've no idea if this is the right place to ask this, probably not but I'm a bit desperate since I've got no one to talk to irl about this. I feel massive, my bmi is considered healthy, people would describe me as average in every aspect, at least from the side. From the front I feel I look like a personified bulldog, an ox, stupid dumb eyes, weirdly shaped mouth, and my face is still kind of my main selling point. I've got big shoulders, broad hips and upper tights, mostly muscle, I done very little to get them. When I went to the gym I built up a bit more muscle and quit immediately it just highlighted everything even more, that stuff luckily went away after a while but only as far as what I gained through the exercises, the rest stayed. I probably would be completely ok with myself if I had grown a bit taller, the proportions would fit a lot better then.

Next to other women (and enough men) I feel like a cartoon character that was placed into the wrong series, a completely other "drawing style" for lack of better words. I hate myself so much, I don't leave the house other than for work and chores anymore, I always feel like a clown. I apologize for the word vomit, but I'm desperate, do you have any suggestions? Anything I could read, listen to?

You seem to have a very skewered perception of your body. From what you have written, you’re healthy and strong, so you have little to worry about health wise? You don’t describe having trouble to carry out any action physically, so you are in good physical condition? And apparently, you get strong fast when you put yourself into it? All of this sound great to me. We often aren’t good judges of wether we’ve put a lot of work into getting things done, so I’m taking your affirmation that you did very little to earn your muscles with a grain of salt. It’s more likely that you have fallen into a habit of discounting your own work. That, and the fact that not all women have the same metabolism. We don’t all built muscle the same way, and in that case you’d certainly be better served by working into looking at it gratefully, instead of putting yourself down for something you’re naturally better at than other women. Life is not a competition, we have different characteristics and advantages from the beginning, and denying it or pretending it has any moral weight does not help you move forward.

You’re not a clown, you very likely look nothing like a bulldog nor an ox. You’re maybe a little on the short side, but a strong woman. You would feel better about yourself if you focused on what you have: a functioning, healthy, strong body, one which allows you to carry out the tasks you want to do. What others think about your face is irrelevant, because 1. you can’t do anything about it (you can’t control their minds) 2. you can’t do anything about it (are you going to get plastic surgery? to switch bodies?) 3. do you really want to hold yourself to the irrealistic standards of social media? there’s nothing genuine about full make-up photoshopped faces and bodies, so your scale of judgement is never going to be satisfied 4. why do you let others have all the power over your feelings about yourself?

Do you judge other women you see in the street like this? Do you think to yourself “oh she’s an elephant”, “oh she has a dog’s face”, “oh her proportions are crazy”? I bet not. You’re walking and worrying about how they judge you. Except they aren’t, just like you they are wondering “does she think i’m too short and too wide?”, “does she think my haircut makes me look old?”, … There are way less people judging you than you think, and for those who do, do you think they obsess over you specifically all day? At worst, they see you, you register in their brain, they make a comment to themselves, and then they move on. You don’t live rent-free in people’s heads. We all have better things to do and bigger fish to fry than ponder the BMI of strangers on the street and then obsess over it for days.

A small exercise to put things into perspective, would you talk about one of your friend like this? Would you disparage her like this? Then why is it acceptable to do it to you? You should treat yourself like you would a friend. You need to be your own friend.

Being short is not a moral failing, it’s just a fact. Being strong, having big shoulders, broad hips, strong thighs and muscle is not a bad thing. It only makes you a normal woman. And we all have to accept that we are just ourselves, nothing more, and that we’ll never be anybody else. There’s no point in wishing you were more like “other women” because it won’t happen, you’re just setting yourself up for lifelong misery. I guarantee you that you are not a cartoon character next to other women. Women have an extensive range of body shapes, we’re not all just carbon-copies of each other with you as the single outlier.

Maybe you’re not looking at yourself enough, or looking at yourself too much with others’ eyes. By the latter I mean that you’re always looking at yourself in mirrors or in pictures, in the reflections in glass windows when you go out. You’re not looking directly at yourself. You’re looking at a distorted, at a filtered image of yourself. You’re looking at something distinct from yourself, something alien. Cover mirrors, stop taking selfies, try to forget that constructed image for a while. Look at yourself with your own two eyes and nothing else if you really have to look. Don’t focus so much on having an appearance while you exist and instead focus on existing. Pretend you’re invisible. Wear your sloppiest clothes on a grocery errand and realise that no one cares. You’re not going to be arrested over it, the cashier is not going to refuse your money for it. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t have to matter.

You have nothing you need to hate yourself for. You are just a woman, alive. That’s what you should focus on. You’re fine, you’re normal, you’re average, you’re just alive. Push yourself a little, get out there, nothing will happen to you and it will become easier.

If anyone has any reading or listening to suggest, feel free to link it in the notes. But I think that what you need most, here, is to cultivate an attitude of not caring about it. Try to relax about existing. There’s mental reframing to do, certainly, but most important is repeated practise. Go out there and exist.

[stargaze-issei]

— "𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝" (𝐤. 𝐞𝐢𝐣𝐢𝐫𝐨𝐮 𝐱 𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭; kirishima is your best friend, who you had absolutely fell for. does he like you back? or is he too oblivious to even notice?

𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞; fluff, angst if u squint.

𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬; none.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭; 1.7k

when you got into u.a., last thing you hoped was to actually make friends, you expected for a remastered version of middle school, where no one would hang out for several reasons that you couldn't quite understand. so when you arrived at the classroom on your very first day, you almost pass out at so many people talking to you at the same time, wanting to know your name, your age, your quirk, everything they could. overwhelmed from the attention, you shyly answered your name before seating in the first empty spot you saw. a few minutes later, your new homeroom teacher, aizawa shouta, the eraser hero,  appeared. 

"hey, y/n, right?" said the person next to you, low enough to not distract aizawa sensei "i'm sorry for what happened earlier, we're way too excited" his voice and his whole self made you feel comfortable, he irradiated warmness "i'm kirishima, by the way". 

little did you know, that was the first time you spoke with who would be your best friends a few months from now. kirishima just made himself loved by everyone, even bakugou, earning a place in every friend group in the class. he always asked you to have lunch with him and his friends, and somehow you, the most quiet person in class a, ended up being part of the bakusquad. it was one time, hanging out with mina, that it hit you.

"wait, he dyes his hair?" the alien queen had been telling you stories from middle school kirishima, and she swore you never seemed as focused as you were right now, trying to mesmerize every word she said.

"what? you thought he had matching eye color and hair?" both laughed, besides eijirou, mina was the closer thing to a sister you could have. "so, since when?" her question was totally out of nowhere, making no sense in your head.

"since when what?" 

"oh don't act all innocent on me, you like kirishima" in less than a second, your face heated, your hands started to sweat and you bit your inner cheek. you haven't actually liked anyone since... ever, of course you didn't like him, how could you? you met a few weeks ago, it was impossible, even with his pretty red eyes that gave you confidence with just one look, or his soft cheeks that you wished to grab between your hands, or his hair, so soft when he didn't had all those layers of gel, or–

"i like kirishima" you said, more to yourself than anyone "oh my god, i like kirishima" mina, who had witnessed your whole realization just now, combusted on laugh once again. 

"congrats, you are officially the last one to know" she talked between laughs. your eyes opened wide when a thought struck your mind.

"does he know too!?" with that, mina started to shed tears of laughter, enjoying way too much your not-so-inner struggle.

"if there's anyone more oblivious than you, it's him. there's nothing to worry about".

after that, you started to continuously talk to her about your obvious crush on the red hair, and she would listen, thinking about how could he be your best friend if you didn't tell him something that big. mina thought you two would make a wonderful couple, he took you out of your comfort zone and help with your lack of confidence, and you... he just seemed way happier when you were by his side. if only one of you realized, things would've been easier.

*.✧☆ﾟ.*･｡✧*⊰⊹ฺ

the dorms had already been settled, after continuous attacks against your own class, it did help you feel safer. you liked the dorms, you could be with your friends as long as you wanted, have sleep overs with the girls, idiotic competitions with the boys, but the best part was him, being able to see him all day, every day. you thought kirishima was perfect as he was, not just his personality, his looks were amazing too. you proved yourself wrong the first time you saw him with his hair down. mina had to practically catch you from passing out, it was just too much of a shock. if you thought he was pretty before, now he had surpassed all your expectations, but after a few days of getting used to it, you could safely say that your heart didn't race that much anymore. 

you were in your room when he came in, asking yo to help him cook. how could you say no when he had the biggest puppy eyes in history?, so you were making him some pancakes for dinner. your phone rested in the counter, in front of him, who animated spoke about his new training equipment. your phone vibrated, indicating that a someone texted you. kirishima checked without even asking, not that you minded because... it was him, you told him almost everything.

"mina says 'where are you? i need you to braid my hair please!! you can talk about your boyfriend'. i didn't know you had a boyfriend" he read the text out loud, his voice wasn't bright as usual and his eyes never left your phone, maybe looking for an explanation to what he had read. his mood decreased noticeably, but you thought it was because you kept a secret from him.

"no! no, that's not– i don't, i swear" you were really struggling, between keeping the pancakes from burning and explaining the whole situation without actually confessing.

"it's okay, i just thought that we– nevermind, it's fine" his face was inscrutable, maybe he was sad? angry? annoyed?, the uncertainty was killing you "you can go, mina needs you, i'll finish here"

"but you said you didn't know how" his whole persona towards you had change, he wasn't your usual sweet friend, if anything, it seemed he wanted you out of his sight as fast as possible. 

"of course i know how to do pancakes, y/n, i'm not dumb" that was the last hit. despite the tears in your eyes, you smiled at him. if he wanted you gone, there wasn't anymore you could do. 

you washed your hands before going into mina's room and finally let everything out. your friend, even though surprised, hugged you, comforting with her unspoken kindness. you stayed there until no more tears came out, she stroking your hair. even when you stopped crying, mina held you in her arms, saying that she'd hug the sadness out of you. when you where completely sure you wouldn't cry anymore, you told her everything that happened and had to stop her from going and kick his manly ass. 

"stay here tonight, please?" she asked you, both because she was worried of you spending the night alone, and for giving you some more comfort cuddles. you said yes without giving it second thoughts. 

hours went by, and you were in the fifth dreamed, so mina took it as her sign to leave. when she reached her destiny, after knocking on the door, a sleepy kirishima appeared. 

"i love y/n, she's an awesome person. and i feel really fond of you too, but if she ever cries like she did today again because of you, i'll make sure she never even look at you anymore, got it?" to say he was confused was an understatement, why was mina so angry at him? did he made you cry? dude, he was the one who should be crying. you had a boyfriend, after giving him all the signs needed, you were with someone else, and somehow he was the bad guy?.

"look, i–" 

"she likes you! you, it's you, you are that boyfriend i was talking about, you dumb!" right now nothing made sense to kirishima "i did what i had to do, you'll see what you do now" and with that, mina went back to her room, where you still slept. 

you liked him? so his assumptions were right, then? what if mina was wrong and you didn't like him in that  way? he had so many questions in his mind, and not a single answer.

*.✧☆ﾟ.*･｡✧*⊰⊹ฺ

for the whole day, you avoided kirishima, despite the urge of talking to him, or looking at him in class. you really were hurt by how he treated you, but in time, you would get over him. it still sucked that the first person you actually liked had done that to you, but as mina said last night, you didn't need a man to be happy, and to have him as a friend was enough for you, of course, once you didn't want to cry at his sight. he had tried to reach to you, but the curly girl had stopped every move he made, being carefully enough to not disturb you. until eijirou had it. 

he was sure of one thing, he liked you so much, and he needed to know if you actually felt the same way. kirishima had no room in his mind for doubts. despite of his efforts to get to you, mina had been in his way. he understood, though, she was trying to protect you because that's what friends do. he would probably do worse if anyone else made you cry. at lunch, his patience was running out. screw it, he though. 

"y/n!" his voice came to your ears from behind, why was he screaming in the middle of the cafeteria? oh. his built up figure was standing on a table, and was smashing two lunch trays together to get everyone's attention. "you are the best friend i could ever ask for, and you are beautiful, and funny, and smart, and always there when i need you, and i could stay here talking about you for hours but i guess that what i'm trying to say is... i like you, i like you, i like you. i was an idiot, i'm so sorry, but i really like you! please, go out with me!" while he talked, he started to walk closer to you. your heart was beating harder than ever, like in any moment, it would explode. you whole body shaking, and your mind blank, only wondering if this was actually happening. when kirishima got close enough, he cupped your face in his warm hands, staring lovely at your eyes. "go out with me, please" his lip curved in a pout, what made you melt in place.

"of course i'll go out with you" you whispered, a little uncomfortable because of the staring. he leaned a bit before crashing his lips against your, and the cafeteria launched in claps and shouting. you were just to astonished. eijirou's lips felt so good. 

[strangertheory]

okay but can we talk about how 'weird' people say that byler's friendship is over or that mike hates will??? even after he went out in the rain just to apologize to will and the final scene of s3 w mike talking about will join another group?? even after ALL the times that mike demonstrated to care a lot about will?? friends fight (unless I don't see byler as friends), the fight was a good thing for their development, and in fact, I liked it, their development for me is better than many !!

Completely illogical.

Mike most definitely doesn’t hate Will. And Will absolutely doesn’t hate Mike. That’s not merely a shallow reading of their relationship and where they are at by the end of season 3, that’s an objectively incorrect reading of their relationship.

In season 2 Mike confessed to Will that asking him to be his friend was the best thing he’s ever done while crying and staring into Will’s eyes and hoping to help encourage Will to overpower the Mindflayer. (”You said yes! You said yes.”)

So. Putting aside the other potentially foreshadowing layers of that entire scene for a moment: there’s nothing casual about their friendship that can be casually ripped away by one awkward summer of hurt feelings and misunderstandings.

They first met when they were five. Nine years of going on D&D adventures, trading favorite comic books, biking to school together, telling stories in Castle Byers, going to the movies together, AV Club shenanigans, Science Fair competitions, Halloween costumes and trick-or-treating, and standing up to school bullies has a weight and importance that cannot be easily dismissed no matter how frustrating one summer of poor communication might get.

They have spent most of their lives as close friends supporting each other.

Anyone that has had a very long friendship knows what I’m talking about. I have a best friend that I’ve known for 21 years. I know not everyone is fortunate enough to have the opportunity for such a long friendship but please trust me when I say that I know how deep the roots of long-term friendship go and you’re not digging those roots up easily. Even the most unexpectedly vicious misunderstandings and fights won’t erase what you’ve shared together even if you wanted it to. And Mike and Will clearly do not want their fight to change things between them even if they haven’t taken the opportunity to discuss the feelings that were involved in that conflict quite yet.

In fact: because they were both still willing to be affectionate towards each other and reassure one another that everything is okay during the final episode of season 3 (in spite of those unresolved issues and misunderstandings!) I am even more convinced that they trust in the future of their relationship and are both equally committed to it.

In that final episode of season 3 they both demonstrate through their words and their body language that they have faith that things will work out even if they haven’t had the time to work through everything.

Many fans have discussed how intentionally subtextual and careful Mike and Will’s brief conversation in that final episode is, and I agree with them. Mike panics when he sees Will put his D&D manual into the donation box (”Woah, dude! That’s the donation box!”) and Mike is worried that Will no longer wants to play D&D because of their fight. Will reassures him that they can just use Mike’s copy of the manual when Will comes back. Mike cautiously asks “Yeah, but... what if you want to join another party?” and the implied question here is “Are you moving on from our Party, Will? Are you moving on from us? And... are you cutting ties with me?,” but Will replies “Not possible” and smiles, and Will sees Mike smile back warmly in relief.

And if that careful conversation reaffirming that things are okay wasn’t clear enough: Will happily skips away. You can hear Will’s feet skip along the floor. It’s audible. The post-production team chose to keep that sound (or added that foley!) of Will’s feet hitting the floor as he bounced away. You can see and hear how Will is giddy with happiness and relief after their conversation, and I think that’s adorable. It’s one of my favorite tiny details. In my opinion Will has every reason to still be angry and not want to forgive Mike for what he said but he’s clearly allowing his fondness for Mike to take precedent and he is ignoring that pain for now. He surely can’t ignore the wounds from that fight forever, but in this moment he clearly wants to. And that matters.

Their mutual affection towards each other is blatantly obvious at the end of season 3. Their friendship is still strong. (And maybe there’s... something more?)

If people really want to insist that Mike and Will’s friendship is over when all evidence points to the contrary then I suppose they can look forward to being disappointed in seasons 4 and 5. That’s not what’s going on here.

(Thanks for submitting this Ask!)