#because I already fucking grieved

[incorrectinfinity]

When the delusions

[crookedfivefingers]

3.13 | ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀꜱᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ʟᴏʀᴅꜱ

link to the post I accidentally wound up prattling endlessly about in the tags 💀

[imavikingo]

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Jack au where he's a psychic who can commune with ghosts. Almost every major character from Supernatural is a ghost. Including Sam Dean and Cas. This would serve these major tennants of his relationships:

Isolated. The people Jack spends the majority of his time with are NOT part of the normal world. Sam, Dean, Cas and Mary live in a bunker and don't know how to be people. The AU hunters are literally from another world. His mom is dead. Kaia is split between realms. The only Real people he knows well are his young adult nerd friends and arguably Harper. You don't want 1/4 of your tie to reality to be a witch who wants to be Cheryl Blossom from Riverdale as her life's aspiration. That's no way to live!

Intangible. Because of Jack's immense power, he is, in a sense, untouchable. He is stopped when people hug him or push him or shoot him because he chooses to stop. There is a veil between him and them. There is also a scarcity of common ground. There is nothing else out there like him. Dean might stomp and bark and howl but, ultimately, what can he do to Jack physically? Nothing. The only power the ghosts have is emotional and social. Imagine being outcasted by the ghosts who can only see you and each other. Ouch!

Fleeting. Everyone he cares for is doomed to die. This happens even before he's born with Cas and Kelly and Mary, but also throughout his life. He both has long strings of tragedy in short periods AND he's immortal and worries about it. Loss and loniness are inevitable for him on a massive scale. Cas might claim that he'll be there with him but he dies like twice a year at least. Picture ghost!Cas midway through a reassuring speech that he's always going to be there with him fading out into the veil mid-sentence.

Guilt-ridden. Life is wasted on the living, isn't it? Youth is wasted on the young. He's got dozens of ghosts needing him to live in the way they want him to so they can feel alive again, and he's not capable of being that (literal) lifeline. He needs to learn how to say no and stick to it. He needs to learn how to live with the fact that he has to disappoint people to live well sometimes. He has to engage with the living, because the dead are going to kill him if he hangs on to them too long.

So if someone could write this devestating yet beautiful 25k+ fic for me that'd be really swell.

[bloodyarson]

okay but a thing i think about every time we have one of those few day periods where the weather is not fit for even a dog being outside is how the hell are homeless people surviving this. like i said in a previous post it's currently -40 degrees with the windchill and i honestly cannot imagine how someone who does not have a place to go inside and spend the night is supposed to not freeze to death. it makes me upset every time the temperature drops like this, i cannot imagine how many homeless people will be frozen to death in the next 24 hours if they somehow haven't already. the fact that there are hundreds of empty houses sitting there empty with totally functional heating while people are DYING from the cold on a street corner makes me SO FUCKING ANGRY while at the same time my heart is breaking in pieces for them. rest in peace to every poor person who will not make it through the weekend. i am so sorry.

[mamawasatesttube]

i have to speak my truth. i think timkon clone baby aus fucking suck

[fideidefenswhore]

'Thus he ended his speech, and he doesn't say That he had wronged or spoken ill of the king, But he prayed that God long keep the king In life, in happiness, [in honour], and in contentment. And when, to the people in attendance, he said, With a steadfast countenance, "Pray for me," With a firm heart he presented his head To the sharp blade that carried it off in one blow. [And not fearing the great cruelty Of the sharp blade [...] Each one seeing that people bore great grief from it] The [three] who had to die afterwards Said nothing, as if they intentionally Had entrusted Rochford Alone to speak for their conscience [...] [The Queen] was still so curious [...] Therefore, they tell her that her brother had shown The greatest strength of any man ever seen [...] The story of the death of Anne Boleyn : a poem by Lancelot de Carle, JoAnn DellaNeva (Translator, Editor, Writer of added commentary)

"'I will,' he said in a good lawyerly fashion, 'not in this point arouse any suspicion which might prejudice the king's issue.' Unwilling to drop his line of questioning, Hales next claimed that George had spread malicious reports which called into question the paternity of Anne's child, Elizabeth. George did not dignify this with an answer. He knew his own sister." Hunting the Falcon, John Guy & Julia Fox

"But George refused to answer the question with the required yes or no, not wishing, he said, “to engender or create suspicion in a matter likely to prejudice the issue the King might have from another marriage.” Nor would he respond to any suggestion that he had spread a rumour that Elizabeth was not Henry’s. The idea that he believed Elizabeth was not the king’s child and that he had repeated such an untruth was, to George, so contemptible that he would not even dignify it with a reply." The Infamous Lady Rochford, Julia Fox

"George Boleyn's real 'crime' was to be Anne Boleyn's brother and Princess Elizabeth's uncle. He was intelligent and spirited enough to mount a powerful defence of his sister. He was powerful enough to provide the focus for Boleyn followers and, especially, those who would assert Elizabeth's rights as heir to the crown." Anne Boleyn, Josephine Wilkinson

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

[heybaetae]

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[lloydfrontera]

oohh sort of building up this idea by @lunacurse but regression au where javier goes back in time after lloyd goes through the gate instead of crossing universes for him but something goes wrong and instead of replacing his younger self completely they just end up sharing body, with younger javier being behind the wheel more often and habiel only being able to take control for short amounts of time and always ending up sort of sleepy and tired afterwards

javier is extremely suspicious of this guy who claims to be him from the future and also insists that the future of the entire continent depends on his young master but habiel is so passionate about it that he more or less ends up being willing to go along with it reasoning with himself that it's ok because he has to protect lloyd anyway and he can easily take control back from habiel if needed

(and there's a small part of him that can't bring himself to distrust habiel because the way his soul just lights up when he sees lloyd... that affection, that trust, that complete and sheer devotion... that's something that can't be faked and javier is painfully curious about what could lloyd possibly do to make any version of him feel like that about him)

habiel doesn't tell him everything right away because he knows himself and he knows javier wouldn't take well to knowing lloyd is a 'fake' without first building some trust, but he makes the journey easier by explaining to javier some of lloyd's most infuriating quirks (and giving him warning that yes, lloyd will make him fight a dragon but it's ok they can do it no yeah for real) and also by convincing him to take the leaps of faith he had the most trouble with himself

basically it's just them constantly going

javier: he's a fucking ass and i won't do shit

habiel: yeah but he's right and also not as much of an ass as he can be :) so be nice and help him :)) or i'm gonna make you fall on your face once a day in front of everyone :)))

javier: ... fine >:(

and then lloyd goes and does his thing which makes habiel very smug about being proven right and leaves javier sulking a little but reluctantly pleasantly surprised until it gets to a point where he's not even longer protesting and it's just the two of them commiserating about how annoying lloyd can be sometimes

which in turn makes lloyd (who has no idea what's going on) relax and lean more on javier because it doesn't feel like javier is fighting him every step of the way nor that he has to prove himself every time he comes up with some crazy plan. and it's,, sorta nice. to have a friend someone who trusts him like that.

he's very confused about why javier seems to go from completely comfortable in joking and bantering with him one minute to sorta awkward and bewildered with him the next though. not that he cares right, as long as he's willing to go along with his plans it's fine, it's not like he cares if sometimes he goes to joke about something they were laughing about a little bit ago and instead of laughing javier just stares at him like he doesn't know why lloyd's telling him that or how he's supposed to answer, it's fine whatever lloyd doesn't care, let javier be his weird hot-and-cold-self if he wants.

and meanwhile javier and habiel are bickering inside their head because habiel keeps taking control to spend time with lloyd and then that leaves him all exhausted and sleepy which!!! it's not good!! because habiel is supposed to be there to help javier protect lloyd!! an he can't do that if he's all sleepy!!! there can only be one sleep deprived bitch in this body and it's gonna be javier dammit he only just learned what a blessing lullabies are and he's got years of sleep deprivation to make up for >:(

and then we get to the trip to hell where javier learns that lloyd is a fake and he's,,, stunned. completely dumbstruck. he asks habiel if hew knew about it and habiel finally comes clean to him, telling him he didn't tell him because 1. he wasn't ready at the beginning 2. he already doubted if habiel was from the future he would've struggled with believing lloyd was from another world and 3. he thought it'd be best if he heard it directly from lloyd instead of secondhand.

javier feels a little betrayed at first but he comes to understand why habiel had waited and then he decides he's gonna wait for lloyd to trust him enough to tell him.

except habiel goes "nope we're not doing this again get in the backseat" because he already did his waiting dammit and it got him nowhere but to a letter not meant for him and a dead master so he's not doing that again

so instead when lloyd comes back he grabs him by his stupid coat shakes him a few times and then just spills the entire truth while also berating him for being so dumb and not trusting him and for fucking dying on him and he's not allowed to do that again does he understand habiel won't allow it-

and the shock makes javier take control again because habiel never told him lloyd died that's important information what the hell habiel-

and lloyd is just reeling because that was way too much information all at once. two javiers? from the future? restoration of fate? gate of reincarnation??? what????

it's a long, long conversation lmao

[pink-vulpix]

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[crittertalez]

everythings making me sick right now. all the posts i see are about staying positive keeping hopeful staying strong constant reminders other people are doing worse right now you need to stay strong for them anyone who is crying and upset right now is a white liberal blaming other people stay hopeful stay positive stay strong stay strong stay strong stay strong stay strong stay strong if you cry remember someone else is doing worse someone else is dying or losing someone or something and its like jesus fucking christ

im a black woman in a red state and ive been staying strong this whole time staying hopeful staying optimistic for the sake of everyone around me and today it feels like i woke up to a death sentence. one of the most fascist bigoted men in the world right now won against a black woman in a country where neo-fascism has been on the rise and all the people i care about have either already lacked rights or been in danger of losing them. and yet i still have to Stay Strong because crying about how your life could suddenly end in the next 4 years is a white thing to do. give me a break

[finiteframe3]

I’m so fucking tired of this

[bunnyburrowsys]

i despise those who say taco is an abuser and then don't listen to those who try to say their point of view

"im not reading that" go fuck yourself then.

(this is about a certain microphone fan that i will not name but if you know, you know)

(and NOT targeted at any of my moots i will love and cherish you till the end of my days istg)

Fronting: Lollipop ~ She/He | Julius [He/They/Mew]

(lolli is the one who's typing she's uh filled with hatred and anger)

[liamslarents]

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[daffodil--lament]

i keep remembering and feeling sick to my stomach. it's like finding out for the first time every single time. god i am so tired