#beauty talks about stuff

[beauty-and-passion]

A wrap up of 2024 - and a look at 2025

I know, this post should've come earlier.

But this is the third year in a row I have gotten sick right in time for Christmas. First year it was the flu, then Covid, now it was the flu again.

And so, once again I didn't feel well for a couple days before Christmas and spent the remaining ones from Christmas to New Year trying to speedrun my recovery, because even if I didn't plan to travel anywhere, I still had small plans and didn't want them to get ruined.

In the end, I managed to recover just in time to celebrate New Year in a nice restaurant with some friends, while on January 1st I celebrated my birthday with a full day in a spa with my mother.

And yes, it was amazing. The place was extremely relaxing, filled with soft lights, sweet perfumes and a nice ambiance music. We had lunch and it was very tasty, despite not being filled with a ton of dishes. Also, we had unlimited water and a delicious herbal tea with ingredients like licorice, chamomile and fennel.

And the saunas? Oh, they were amazing! There was a bio-sauna and a steambath with a temperature around 50°C and a Finnish sauna (70° C).

Speaking of the Finnish sauna, the spa also offered a specific ritual in which the temperature slowly rises in the span of 15 minutes until it reaches 105° C.

Of course I had to try it. And it went as follows:

5 minutes: the temperature rises from 70 to 80° C. I feel sweat run down like water, it's pleasantly hot, the rose essence is pleasant and I feel great.

10 minutes: the temperature rises from 80 to 90° C. Heat presses on me, but not in a bad way: it's like hot, gentle hands. The essence is now mint and I feel even better.

15 minutes: The temperature rises from 90° C. The heat is so strong that I can feel the first layer of my skin burn. I had to leave, and so I did.

Long story short: I managed to resist for 11 minutes in total, before leaving the sauna and moving to the frigidarium. And even though the temperature inside was -2° C, I barely felt any cold for a solid minute.

However, once I was out of the frigidarium and back into the pool, my head and body were as light as a feather. Best experience ever.

And this is why yesterday I went to the spa again, this time with my brother.

We did every sauna at least two times, we did the ritual two times (the first time, I tried to resist a bit more and almost fainted from low blood sugar - so the second time, I stayed inside for 7 minutes only), we spent all the time in the swimming pool and took a nap in the relaxation rooms after lunch. And we also did a relaxing massage.

So at the end of the day, we were both very relaxed, smooth, satisfied and extremely tired. But at least, we closed the holiday season by feeling new people - and we're ready to tackle 2025 at full strength.

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A look at 2024

2024 has been a busy year for this blog. I said I would've moved from being Sanders-Sides-themed only and so I did, by talking about a ton of different projects and works.

So let's take a look at each of them, shall we?

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Lore Olympus: it has been very refreshing to finally take out all I had bottled up inside about this webcomic. And it has been even better, to see its end and talk about it for the last time.

Do I miss it? Absolutely not. It was stupid and its stupidity was fun to read. But there were also too many pointless things, that diluted the story too much and made me waste a ton of time.

So, I would still not recommend it to anyone. Sorry people, you will miss the cartoonish supervillains, the Avenger Assemble part and Gaia-Ex-Machina, but I can assure you, you can live without knowing them.

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CCCC: oh, now we're talking! This album was amazing, the themes were super interesting and it has been wonderful to see an artist like Chonny put so much care and attention to detail to a project that was clearly extremely personal for him.

Listening and talking about CCCC has been a beautiful experience for me and I am still very grateful to the anons who made me discover this little gem. I had a lot of fun writing about it - and I'm happy others enjoyed it too!

And if you know nothing about this album, please try listening to it. It's clever, it's mature, it's definitely worth your time.

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Epic the musical: this also deserves a place among all the beautiful experiences. I found out about this project by accident and I imagined it would've taken a very long time before seeing it complete. Instead, Jorge Rivera-Herrans finished it in record time. And he did it, while keeping quality, care and attention to detail to the max.

It has been fun to see every step of this project, to be jumpscared by a sudden data release for a new saga. And I'm happy to say that, despite the small imperfections, this album is still great, Epic is still a wonderful retelling and it doesn't ruin the spirit of the original work at all - on the contrary, it makes me want to re-read the Odyssey!

I've been very happy to listen to these songs and write my thoughts regarding each Saga. And I will gladly write more about Epic in the future, once we will see more of the upcoming projects.

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Sanders Sides: and if we see a project wrap up beautifully, we also see a series that will never have a good ending - or an ending of sorts for that matter.

Some people still want to believe the finale will come one day and I'm glad for them: hope is a wonderful thing and if they're happy, good for them. But my hope for a satisfying conclusion for this series died long ago (hence why I wrote my own ending and moved somewhere else).

All I do now is check the only place with real updates (the criticism tag) and wait for the day Mr. Sanders decides to make a new SaSi video. And, once that day comes, I will write a post about it.

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Gravity Falls: all-absorbing, all-encompassing and all-consuming, just like it was the first time and I wouldn't want it any other way. This series will forever have a special place in my heart, writing nine analysis posts was just my way to reconfirm that yes, I still love it.

Aaaand yes, I still have a fanfiction draft. It's still in my drive. But I don't feel very inspired at the moment. Maybe because I don't have enough time to do it, considering that real life is taking most of my attention at the moment.

However, I won't rule out a possible resurgence of Gravity Falls again. And not just on my blog.

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TMA: I started this series with low expectations, just because I wanted to see what was the fuss about it - and have some fun in the meantime.

But then my expectations rose, my attention grew and now I'm involved, curious and with way higher expectations than before.

I still have to finish it, but for now, TMA looks like a very promising, interesting series. There is a big attention to detail and, despite the imperfections, there is a ton of love and care behind every new chapter.

So if you enjoyed my "reaction posts" in 2024, get ready because they will come back in 2025. The story is not over and I need to see how it goes.

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A look into 2025

TMA posts will come back very soon: I am already checking the first chapters of season 3 and writing down my thoughts. Hopefully, they will start to come out before the end of January.

I also plan to finish TMA as a series, wrap my thoughts about it and maybe write more posts about it - like a list of my favorite MAGs? Still don't know, I'll see when I'll cross that bridge.

And yes, I want to start The Magnus Protocol too. But TMA comes first, so I want to focus on that for now.

Then... who knows? I don't have real plans for now aside TMA, just random ideas. And that's great, because I have a lot of free room: I can discover more stuff, talk about more random things and check what you will suggest.

We have a ton of time to find out more and have fun.

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Once again, thank you

I would like to take this moment to thank you, you wonderful people who interact with me and my posts: without your comments, hearts and asks, I would be just an idiot shouting into the void. If I'm not, it's only thanks to you <3

And I would like to thank even more all the incredible people who follow me: you gave me your trust and I will always do my best to make my posts enjoyable, interesting and as fun as possible.

And long. Yep, they will keep being long, sorry not sorry, I just love to babble <3

I hope 2024 has been a good year for you and I wish you all a wonderful 2025.

Stay tuned and we'll see each other (hopefully!) soon.

[sp00ky-scary]

hai guys :] finally settled on some eah designs, perhaps I may even go into detail about some of my au soon

design notes under the cut MADDIE USES THEY/THEM BTW, thanks ^_^

omg design notes

bonus cerise sneak peak, the next group is cerise cedar ashlynn and hunter

[queenkinqs]

people love to talk about invincible for it's over the top gore and violence, but i really do think the show's writing is at it's best when it's just two people have a conversation

[cheesymorgue]

*takes a drag of my cigarette* so there's this movie...you might have heard of it

[izuke-the-zombie]

This is a little head cannon/What if Macaque had more original powers, a little more Starry Night dreamlike powers leaning into the more nurturing kind, you know, the moon and sun kind of powers? 🌙☀️

 

Maybe in the past, he was like a therapy friend to Wukong, someone he could really be himself with, vent, and tell his secrets without being judged in the safety of his own dreams. Someone he can truly trust, and that was Macaque.

Skip to Redemption Ark for Mac

Now he's a therapy friend to the whole MK team! (Against his will) They cuddle, pet, and vent to him with their problems. He's like one of Sandy's therapy cats, just bigger and grumpier.😾💕✨ he just has this way with people I guess

Okay, this is how it starts: Macaque and Wukong's first encounter was in a dream.

Wukong would not shut up about the pretty demon in his crazy dreams, often to his sworn brothers; he talked about all the fun and crazy adventures he'd have, the long meaningful conversations and jokes, and the occasionally moving pictures of otherworldly strong magical humans with sparkly eyes and spiky hair who wield giant weapons that shoots Fire called anime, and that this had been going on for a few months now.

This annoyed and concerned them; they think it's a demon trying to take over the Monkey King's mind or trying to brainwash him somehow, so Azure Lion and the Sworn Brothers all brainstormed together to devise a plan to somehow confront this tricky dream demon. Wukong doesn't want the fun dreams to end or scare off this other celestial monkey, so he decides to talk to his friend in his dreams. Wukong casually brings up the idea that the macaque should visit Flower Fruit and meet his sworn brothers! Macaque of course hesitates, not sure of the idea of traveling to an unknown island and meeting The Monkey King's questionable choice of sworn brothers, but of course, Wukong, sad and a bit offended, but he doesn't give up.

He decides to bring upon the Ultimate Weapon, begging and whining until Macaque crumbles and gives in, which eventually does. Mac reluctantly agrees to travel over to FFM in disguise, just to be safe he tells Wukong he'll be there. Within a month, Wukong couldn't be more excited; he was like a little kid waiting for Christmas day!

So this is what kinds of powers I think he should have.

😴 the first pic is crossing over to other people's dreams and making their experience life-like he has illusion magic so this makes sense to me. Wukong and macaque would prank the Brotherhood or play tags and hide and seek in their brother's dreams. 🌸The second pic is the soothing ability to calm one's nerves if they pet or cuddle him like a therapy cat,🐈 Wukong would groom him for hours to calm his nerves. now come copes with food🍑🍔🍭

🌸🎶I saved the best one for last the cute/sad little head Cannon I have

At the end of every dream Mac visits they would end it by dancing to music Mac would bring from the future laughing and stumbling while wukong slowly wakes up, wukong has always gone to bed early But now he goes even earlier to bed. Wukong always thought he was the luckiest monkey in the world he gets to have two Adventure and one of them is with his prettiest best friend Macaque 😚✨the monkey of his dreams.

🌸 Wukong couldn't truly dream of a world without his bestest friend🥰✨

[krussyarts]

Miku? Heul leise.

[tathrin]

Hey, so do you ever stop to think about how the premise of Lord of the Rings being an in-universe book written by some of the characters who lived through that story means that they decided what parts and perspectives to use to tell that story...?

And when our authors weren't there to experience the events themselves, they have to rely on what they're told about them by the characters who were there, right...?

Okay so stop and think about the Glittering Caves.

We never actually go to the caves in the narrative. Tolkien LOVES describing nature and natural beauty, but we don't actually see the caves described "by him" the way we do other places. Obviously Gimli's words are Tolkien's, yes; but we only see the caves filtered through his words about them, after the fact.

When Gimli and Éomer and the other Rohirrim take refuge there, the narrative doesn't follow them. Obviously from a narrative standpoint this is to keep the focus narrow, and not to interrupt the battle-sequence with a long ode to the beauty of the caves, and to create tension in the reader who doesn't know if these characters are okay or not. Which all makes sense!

But think about it in terms of the book that was written in Middle-earth by the folk living there. Why DON'T we get to have a direct experience of those caves? Gimli obviously related several other parts of the story that none of the Hobbits were there to witness to them, and which were written into the books as Direct Events Happening In The Narrative (think of the Paths of the Dead scene, for one of the more visceral moments!). So why not the Glittering Caves?

Was it because they wanted to keep that narrative focus and tension, and so they didn't include his perspective on that part of the battle? Perhaps, that's certainly a possibility to consider.

But also consider: when we do hear about the Glittering Caves, what we hear is Gimli telling Legolas about the Glittering Caves. THAT is the part of that event that is considered of importance to include in the book: not Gimli's actual experience when he was in them, but rather the part where he relates that experience TO Legolas.

And I kind of just THOUGHT about that today.

And went HUH.

[lovedecoded]

fucking with bearnelli soooooo heavy pre-2025 just feels like me and three other crazy people running around in circles for very good reasons and everyone else just looking at us like hm. i’ll get back to this later

[iron-sparrow]

And it starts sometime around midnight Or at least that's when you lose yourself for a minute or two

Then she leaves with someone you don't know But she makes sure you saw her

ft. @abyssalmermaiden's Aryaille

[sebdoesthings]

I'm so glad i watched Sk8 the Infinity as an adult and not a teen so I didn't turn into one of those annoying idiots who complain about "renga not being canon because they didn't kiss"

[cementcornfield]

Some of Tee and Ja'Marr's thoughts on the Tee Situation

Tee said to me 'right now I get to play with one of the, if not the, best quarterbacks in the game, I get to play with one of, if not the, best wide receivers in the game, that opens up so much more for me.' And then he said 'this offense is designed for so many different players to be spotlighted, the way that I am used in this offense so plays to my strengths.' And then he said to me, 'can you guarantee I can have that exact situation anywhere else?'

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So do I think he's taking a home discount? No. But I do think that he is very very smart, he sees the whole picture out there...

....

It's very easy to compare this situation to what Ja'Marr had at LSU with Joe Burrow and Justin Jefferson. And Ja'Marr has said Tee is very different than Justin Jefferson. That every single minute with Justin Jefferson was a competition. That everything was who makes the more dynamic catch, who has more catches in practice, who runs faster? Everything was that way. Ja'Marr had to speak up and demand the ball a lot at LSU, because so was Justin. Ja'Marr told me that he doesn't have to do that in Cincinnati because Tee, and this is a quote from Ja'Marr, is one of the most unselfish humans you'll ever meet.

[beauty-and-passion]

Beau!! Hello! How have you been?

My dearest! I'm sorry for taking this long to reply, but things happened, which means one thing and one thing only: time for a life update post. This time, with healthy tips included ✨

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Sleep is for the weak (and the not-weak)

Last week my mother had knee surgery. She had to do it something like 5 years ago, but hey, better late than never.

The problem wasn't the surgery per se: that went well and she's currently in a clinic for a rehabilitation period, so she can be followed by professionals.

The real problem arose right after the surgery: for the first three days, she was supposed to recover, sleep and start working out asap. But she couldn't do shit, because her roommate was an older lady, who:

had just recovered from Covid but was still suffering from heavy coughs

had dementia and talked by herself all the time

was half-deaf

And that means every goddamn night, that lady kept coughing, snoring and talking. For the entire night non-stop. Loudly.

My mother spent three days without being able to sleep. She managed to get 3/4 hours of sleep in total. With a throbbing, constant pain in the knee because of the surgery.

She asked to be moved elsewhere since day one, but no other room was available. She waited for three days, protesting and crying, until the doctors finally managed to find another room and moved her in immediately.

Now she's still suffering from the pain, but at least she can get some sleep. And the sleep did wonders already: she can bend her knee some more, stand up longer, and do more exercises at the gym. So the moral of the story is that if sleep is important for a healthy person, it becomes essential after such an invasive surgery - and even more if you're stuck in a bed because you can't go anywhere else.

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There is never enough time

This year I finally entered the list of teachers in my area. Thanks to my degree (and the course I followed), I have been able to apply for two positions: German teacher and/or special educator. However, I am also working on getting enough credits to apply for English soon because... well, it's the language I use daily. Even now.

English aside, I know there are a ton of people on that list, so I didn't expect to get a call very soon. And yet, I got one last week and it was for German! Hence why, now (and for a month) I will replace a German teacher in two different schools.

I made something like 6 lessons for now and immediately learned a lot of things, like:

Every student has a different vibe: there's the 16yo who is overexcited, the 17yo who is full of personality and the 18yo who is interesting on a human level. There's the aloof student, the one who wants to learn and the one who looks at you with the happiness of a dead fish.

Speaking of grammar, I don't remember shit about German. Hence why my first "teaching days" have been a race against time of me trying to summarize all the rules of the German language on slides. Imagine putting down all the rules of a language on slides. Now imagine doing it in 3 days, with the nagging fear of "what I will say to the kids next week" and a mother who is constantly crying because she cannot sleep. The word "stress" doesn't convey enough of what I experienced, I was on a tightrope.

There is never enough time. I barely entered the school and immediately found out there are councils to attend and tests to do and students need grades and I should plan them too - but I should prepare the lessons as well and 24 hours are not enough for all this shit.

My need to get everything under control is becoming even more compulsive than usual: every free moment is made of planning, planning and more planning. And yes, that's the reason why I disappeared from Tumblr and from life in general. Only now I am slowly trying to get some of my life back, because after that huge peak of stress, I really need to relax a bit and do something for me and me only - like writing.

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Being healthy can be fun

I've always had symptoms of gastrointestinal reflux, like stomach pains, slow digestion, late meals and being a fast eater in general. And, of course, a goddamn cough that keeps tormenting me for the entire winter, only to magically disappear as soon as spring comes.

Hence why last year I finally went to a gastroenterologist. He too thought I had all the symptoms, but I needed some medical checks to be sure.

Also, since I was bloated and overweight, he told me to follow the typical diet of someone with reflux. Which means:

No milk and dairy products (except very aged cheese), no red meat (i.e. beef, pig), no seafood, no bread, no pasta, no cookies/sweets, no legumes, no fruit (only apples, bananas and kiwis allowed), no drinks except for water, no fried stuff and no spicy/too seasoned stuff

Yes to white meat (poultry, rabbit), fish, vegetables, gluten-free pasta, rusks, eggs

That meant changing A LOT of things. Before that diet, I was eating healthy stuff overall, but I was also eating milk, dairy products, bread, pizza once a week, legumes and a ton of fruits with seeds. Heck, my breakfast was cookies and milk only, every day. Two of the things I couldn't eat anymore.

But hey, the doctor said it, so I followed his advice: I came back home, ate the last piece of my leftover pizza for dinner and gave all the stuff I couldn't eat to my mother. Then I went shopping the day after and got all the "allowed" foods.

I have been following this diet for one year and a half by now. And if the first day I was asking myself "will it work" and "what the heck can I eat", now this is how I live. And a lot of things changed.

First, my breakfast was boring and repetitive. Now I have a ton of options: any kind of vegetable milk, from oat to almond. But also soy yogurt, hummus, rusks, overnight porridge, fresh fruit, almonds and walnuts with honey, aged cheese, prosciutto, bresaola or eggs with vegetables. And always a cup of herbal tea.

Herbal teas are a blessing: almost no calories, but fill up nicely. And I can make them with stuff that grows in my garden, like laurel or mint leaves. Even apple peels are great!

I didn't always eat vegetables before. Now vegetables are on my table 24/7: as a salad, with couscous, with rice, with gluten-free pasta, in a soup, with eggs, together or by themselves.

Vegetables fill you up WAY more than junk foods, for less calories and for a longer time. That means I always eat a full plate of vegetables (sometimes even two plates) and be full for hours, while still losing weight.

Before, I ate too much processed food. It looked healthy (like premade rice, fishsticks, frozen minestrone and so on), but it was not. It never is. That's what made me gain so much weight and I realize it now.

I rediscovered the pleasure of cooking my own meals. Now I cook once a day (for dinner only) and double the amount, so I have the next day's lunch ready. And still, it doesn't take a lot of time: the stove or the oven does most of the job, all I do is cut stuff with a mandoline slicer and put it on a pot/on a pyrex. Also, it's cheaper than premade foods: if I buy the raw ingredients, I spend less money and can make more meals.

Before, my meals were too complicated and I used too many ingredients. Now my meals are much simpler - and that's not just great for my digestive system, but for me too, because I can enjoy the single ingredients more. Also, it takes less time to cook.

In conclusion: what I feared would've been an oppressive regime with limited choices was instead a way for me to discover foods I would've never eaten otherwise. Brussel sprouts, broccoli, cauliflower, rice cakes, oatmeal, hummus and Greek yogurt: those are all part of my life now and oh boy, how delicious they are.

In addition to the new diet, I also added a more serious exercise regimen. I am too lazy to go to a gym and I hate having people around, so I brought a yoga mat, put the gym clothes in the same spot and set on a daily alarm. Also, searched for different apps to guide me throughout the exercises and make a training session in my place.

I started with 20-min yoga sessions almost every day. Then added more beginner's training. Then tried tabata, moved to HIIT, then pilates. I just kept raising the bar and made my sessions last longer, until it became a routine. And now my routine includes:

20 min HIIT training (I switch focus between cardio, abs and core, lower and upper body)

20 min pilates

20 min yoga

I follow it 3 to 5 times a week, but I also walk more, use the bicycle and take the stairs. This alone would be pointless, if I am not as active as possible the rest of the day.

The result? I am 153 cm (5ft) tall and before I started this new regime, I weighed 64 kg (141 lb). Now I weigh 46kg (101 lb). I lost 18 kg in total and it has been a constant, slow change. At first 2 kilos every month, then one, sometimes not even one.

And during all this time, I never had huge expectations. I didn't even step on the scale for a long time. I just kept following the diet and doing sport and enjoying it. My only goal was to not get the winter cough.

I didn't even notice real changes, until after a while. They came all together and one day, all my pants were too loose and clothes that were too tight before now fit me perfectly.

And now I still keep that chill attitude: I plan my meals at the beginning of every month, so I can be sure of what to eat every day (also, it makes me happy to know what tasty meal will wait for me). I keep doing my exercises, because they help me relax (especially in these last stressful days).

And yes, once in a while, I get a treat not included in my diet. I mean, a diet is supposed to be what you habitually eat, not a temporary thing: it's only fair there may be things you're not supposed to eat too - like sweet treats, seafood, some dairy stuff or a pizza. What matters is that I can control myself, so I know that I get this treat now, but the rest of the time I will stick to my diet.

And, honestly, most of the time I don't even crave these things. I can eat just some and be okay. I am far from starving, after all, especially if I get some nice food, like today's meal: basmati rice with peas, Brussels sprouts, zucchini and pepperoni for a total of 500 grams aka 2 full plates. As I said, starving is out of question :P

So the moral of the story is:

If you're trying to lose weight and you're doing everything right but still don't lose it, seek medical help. I had no idea what I was doing wrong, until I checked with an expert.

If you get a diet, stick with it religiously, especially at the beginning. Ran from all temptations, because they can be very strong - especially at the beginning. Then you can come back and face them, when you will be in control.

Do some sport, especially yoga. It doesn't just help you lose weight, but clears your mind and makes you feel better. And don't push yourself too much: you're supposed to do it more times a week, so just start slowly and build resistance. It's better to do a little every day, than give your full self one day and recover the next 2 weeks because you're too sore. Once you will get enough strength, you will be the first to realize you want to do more.

Have fun and chill. Results won't come the day after, just do your things, eat good food and do some good exercise. And enjoy life in general: it would be all pointless, otherwise.

[ridragon]

Genuine question. Have you people ever actually seen hazbin or helluva or do you just fucking bitch about it because it's the trend to do. Like. Helluva has kinda shit first few episodes that are way over the top with sex jokes, but it gets better when it gets to the actual story and they cool it. I bet no on complaining has seen it

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something’s wrong?

[thelilylav]

I’ve gotta admit as much as I know Darabella is a flawed ship (and some of the ppl who are anti for it have legit criticisms I love y’all for pointing it out cause it frustrates the hell out of me too trust) they’ll always just kind of be it for me.

Because as much as it was an “I can fix him” trope, as much as Rosabella could be selfish and Daring’s flaws got cranked up to 1000, she was also the first person to look at him after his destiny, the thing he dedicated his life to, failed, when people were questioning him as a prince and putting pressure on his and Apple’s relationship and tell him that, like, maybe it would be alright? Maybe this wasn’t his destiny, and maybe that was okay.

And the part that really gets me? She’s the first person after this happens to tell him that it doesn’t matter what’s on the outside, which as much as you can like other Daring ships or him whatever he desperately needed to hear. Not even cause he was selfish, that’s not what I’m saying, but bc he placed his whole identity on this image that people concocted for him based on him appearing the perfect prince. He was handsome, he was talented, and he was handsome! So who cares about him as a person?

Idk man. You spend four seasons (I watch the specials on Netflix so that’s why four idk if it’s three to some ppl or whatever tho) watching him be praised for his looks, watching girls fawn over him, and of course he enjoys it so nobody really questions how much he enjoys it. And then you get this girl, this girl who owes him nothing, this girl who (contrary to popular belief apparently) has a life of her own and people she cares about outside of him, and she’s nice to him. And she’s the first person after everything happens to just be nice to him, for the sake of being nice. Something about that will always hit different for me

[momentomori24]

The way people get so weird about Shadria makes me wanna scream. What do you mean "well in CANON they're [insert label] and they CANONICALLY don't see each other romantically so it's weird and you can't ship it!!" My sibling in Christ, Sonadow is the most popular ship in this fandom. Y'all don't gaf about canon 💀

People will preach about not letting canon shackle your shipping experience in fandoms until it's a ship they don't like or deem "problematic" then all of a sudden the canon relationship status matters and shipping it now means that you think it's canon. But the same rules don't apply to other non canon ships. Just say you personally don't like it and pick a lane for goodness' sake.