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andipxndy-writes · 1 year ago

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meet the writer: aj

(a.k.a. my writeblr intro, done properly)

heya!! i’ve had this blog for a while now, but i realised i haven’t ever actually done a proper intro on here, so here it is!! (also did i want the opportunity to make an aesthetic of myself??? absolutely. image made in canva and portrait on the left is from picrew, all other images were taken from unsplash)

my name is aj (she/her pronouns pls)!! i’m 26, black, and i live in the uk. i graduated from uni 3 years ago and currently work in lab admin, but i’ve been doing creative writing for 10+ years!! i’m currently trying to get back into reading by reading a book a month (i usually share the book i’m reading in the sidebar of my main blog, which i follow back with as this blog is a sideblog: @andipxndy), and i write a variety of fanfiction and original works (both based off my own characters and those i currently/have rp’d with in the past). i also take requests for fanfiction, which you can read about below the cut or in this post (i’ve made some changes which mean the post is not relevant atm)!! but in general i love being asked questions about my WIPs and my characters and basically any characters i write, because i love delving into character thoughts and doing character development (so please send me some!!).

this blog started off as a way for me to share my fanfiction writing, which is how i got into writing in the first place and how i came to love it, but now i’m wanting to expand some more share/talk about some of my original works too!! i write ya sci-fi in my original stuff, but i’m known to drift into romance, action-comedy and crime when it comes to fanfiction works. i’m also over on ao3 as andipxndy.

my main fanfic writing fandoms are abbott elementary and alex rider, just to keep things managable, but i also enjoy watching ncis, criminal minds and lockwood & co., and sometimes dive back into old favourite animes (k-on!! is my current anime obsession). i may be slow to write or respond to stuff but i DO enjoy diving into discussing fandom stuff too!! i also like playing video games like sims 4 (ea is a money grab pass it on) and cities skylines, and enjoy dnd and rping with friends!!

before this intro gets too long, here are my main WIPs:

power play (1st draft completed, left to stew)

the first original wip i planned, the story is intended to be part of a 5-book series about a 20-year-old who accidentally gives himself powers, and ends up drawn into the science underground whilst trying to save people that he may or may not have also accidentally given powers. and all whilst trying to appear completely normal to his mum and get a summer job whilst home from university.

the crossover (still working on 1st draft, is my main/november nano project)

this is an adaptation of an old rp au i had with one of my closest friends, adjusted to have new, original characters despite the same plotline. it follows a 17-year-old girl as she’s accidentally transported into a parallel universe, where her parents aren’t her parents and she doesn’t exist. in an attempt to get home, she ends up crossing paths with the people who are meant to be her family, and finds out that they’re all superheroes. insert drama and shenanigans here.

the rich life: a modern bourgeoise au (working on 1st draft, is my camp nano project)

a passion project that i’m completing for my rp partners, this au is split into a 3-book series following the lives of our characters in the upper class, those who work for them, and eventually their children, going through the drama of their lives and how they try so hard not to have it all end up in the press. that obviously doesn’t work.

fanfiction fics and requests (ongoing but this is technically a wip)

technically counts as a wip as i have a backlog of fics in progress to write and share for requesters (and some ideas i’ve had myself), but these are mainly either alex rider or abbott elementary fanfics that have been sent in via ask. you can see extra info below the cut after the next paragraph. my requests are currently closed, and i’m working through my backlog. the request(s) active for the forseeable future are:

will you be my maybe? - an abbott elementary fanfiction (gregory x janine - injury + fake dating)

anyway, this is all i’ve got for now!! i do take part in things like nanowrimo and camp nanowrimo, so if anyone takes part in those too i look forward to writing alongside you!! other than that, that’s about it!! i’ll be sharing snippets of my work, and maybe eventually you’ll even get aesthetics eventually!! i’ve you’ve read this far, i applaud you, but thank you so much for reading!! i’d love to get to know more writers on here, both inside and outside of fandom spaces, so please feel free to jump at me and send me asks and messages and stuff!!

~ aj xxx

(for more info on fanfiction stuff, read below the cut:)

i’ve been writing fanfiction for over 10 years, and as something so dear to my heart i can’t let it go - it’s helped me to develop my writing and character development skills!! i have, however, grown in the fandoms i write, so please see below for more info:

I WRITE FOR:

alex rider

abbot elementary (more specifically, gregory x janine. i ship only those two. with my whole heart.)

fics getting to know my original characters (oneshots)

(i realise that this is significantly cut down, but i have other projects in mind that require more of my time and can no longer spend as much time on requests!! for this, i apologise!!)

GENRES WRITTEN (not completely restricted):

family/friendship

romance

hurt/comfort

action/adventure

IMPORTANT TO NOTE:

MY REQUESTS ARE NOW CLOSED

all fanfics will be cross-posted to ao3

please give me up to a month to get fics written and posted - if not done within a month, feel free to message me about it [please DO NOT pester me about it] - i work and am also writing original things, so do not always have the time

i preferably write oneshots, though the occasional multi-chap will appear - a fic ends up longer, well, it happens 🤷🏾‍♀️

i am a rambler so you are almost always guaranteed a longer fic

please try not to give me word count limits or specifications on fics - they are discouraging

that being said, any writing requests/prompts fulfilled will most likely be 20k words or less (though they may be longer if the inspiration strikes, don’t hold me to it)

i do not write smut, or any nsfw other than possibly gore/torture/violence. this is a personal preference and i will not change my stance on it

if you have any triggers that you do not want included in the fic, please message me and inform me of this

i have a ko-fi! if you would like to tip/donate to me for any of my writings, check it out here

all fics may or may not include a level of humour/sarcasm - i’m not sorry for this

#writeblr #writeblr intro #writeblr introduction #writing #writer #writers of tumblr #andipxndywrites #creative writing #fanfiction writer #fanfiction #ao3 writer #introduction

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hells-greatestdad · 7 months ago

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Summary of major events (so far) + random facts about the long running and ongoing discord based RP in the verse where Lucifer is with Mayleene (@hellsmayflower 's OC)

Fair warning that in this particular verse, Lilith is not a likable character.

Pretty sure this is all the major stuff, or close to it

- started out with Lucifer dating Mayleene on the basis that he had an open marriage with Lilith (even though Lilith is still absent at that time)

- not long into the relationship and they have an "oops" pregnancy

- they tell Charlie about their relationship and that she's going to get a younger sibling

- Edith Morningstar is born (she looks a lot like Charlie, but with her mother's hair color and eye color)

- Lucifer gets summoned to Heaven on trial because they are really not liking the fact that he's had another kid (Charlie ends up going with him)

- they run into Sir Pentious while up there! Happiness ensues at having proof that redemption is possible!

- Lucifer offers up his ability to father more children in exchange for Edith's life (this is accepted)

- Lucifer is taunted by Lute about Lilith and it's revealed that Lilith is up in Heaven

- Lucifer demands to see her, but Sera is insistent that this goes against the deal that was made and after some back and forth will only allow him and Charlie to see Lilith if he agrees to let Lilith decide if she wants to send Mayleene and Edith away

- Lucifer and Charlie both agree that this is a cruel decision to be met with and as much as they both want to see Lilith they really aren't willing to take the risk (and they are abruptly sent back to Hell at this point anyway, since the trial was concluded)

- Emily becomes fallen and lives at the hotel

- at some point Alastor and Lucifer end up taking their bickering too far and Charlie makes them wear a "this is our get along shirt" all day (it ultimately only lasts a couple hours before it's given up on, but man, was everyone else entertained during that time)

- next major major event I remember is Alastor becoming an actual threat and Lucifer and Charlie end up meeting to discuss how to deal with him

- things happen, Alastor ends up imprisoned

- Alastor reveals to Lucifer that Lilith has his soul and that Lilith also left him and Hell for good (which Lucifer actually hadn't known), and that the reason he was suddenly attacking Mayleene and Edith was because Lilith told him to (Lucifer is understandably incredibly devastated)

- Charlie is devastated because Alastor was a friend or so she thought

- Lucifer and Charlie have a talk the next day, him placing aside his own grief to support her. Lucifer offers to mention about Lilith, but he just says it's "more bad news" and Charlie says she's had enough bad news for now, so he resolves to bring it up at some later date. They go get ice cream and spend time at the park as a distraction from all the bad things

- a few weeks/ months later.... everyone goes to LuLu World!

- Lilith shows up at the hotel that night and attempts to discourage Charlie's idea about the hotel, which gets an immediate response from Lucifer

- Lilith threatens Mayleene and Edith, cue drama. Also, Charlie was never yet informed about her mother's involvement with the Alastor situation, so this is the first she's hearing about that. It's a big shock

- Later on that night, Charlie texts her dad and asks to talk with him about everything that just took place, mainly just needing his comfort. They talk for a good while and he lets Charlie vent as much as she needs to

- Lucifer decides it'd be wise to teach Charlie how to hold her own in combat, so he's giving her lessons in this (emphasizing capture and restraint rather than use of lethal force, since Charlie doesn't want to use lethal force)

- Mayleene's birth parents show up one night, being in Hell as Sinners. But turns out they are only interested in money since they learned their daughter is married to Lucifer

- Mayleene's parents end up hiring Striker to kidnap Edith

- Lucifer rescues Edith but does end up with an injury from an angelic weapon. Not a super major injury, but enough to have needed medical assistance

- Lucifer is called to a royal meeting regarding Stolas and his lending the grimoir to IMP, which brings us to the present (this is still playing out on discord)

Other events/ things of note in this verse:

- Mayleene is a human who arrived in Hell because of a cursed artifact, so she is not a part of the Sinner population

- Lucifer does not like Mammon at all but does attempt to tolerate him (just barely), at least until latest events

- Lucifer has a wholesome friendship with Beelzebub and Asmodeus

- the other royalty really do not like that Lucifer married a human, which means she is the queen in place of Lillith since Lillith left Hell and divorced Lucifer (essentially abandoning the position) (Lucifer does not care what they think, he's the king, he can marry whoever he pleases)

- I forget when, but at one point or another, Lucifer learned about the interaction between Valentino and Charlie, and he pays him a "visit" (ie, shows up and threatens his life, makes him beg for mercy. In the process, Angel gets released from his contract with Valentino )

#ooc #discord based rp verse #i spent an hour recalling all this and typing it up

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wardenred · 1 year ago

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Flash Fic Masterpost

All the original flash fic and snippets ever posted on this blog,to be updated sporadically.

Post-Final Girls 'Verse

In a dystopian world of cyberpunk and superpowers, three women keep coming together and apart. Snippets in chronological order:

Back in High School (Flo and Mel snip at each other about Jules)

Back in High School-2 (Flo and Jules talk about robots and kindness)

As an Experiment (Jules gets Flo to try living together)

Like Gravity (a typical instance of Flo and Mel running into each other)

Kitchen Talk (Jules & Flo, ethical disagreements in some unidentified probably peaceful time)

Pillow Talk (another moral conundrum convo)

"But what does it do?" (Flo gets a regular piercing that isn't a cyberpunk device; Jules is suspicious)

Anniversary (Flo takes Jules out on anniversary date and possibly does some crime on the side)

To Make Amends (an AU version of Flo and Mel being led to reconnect and start working together, based on an early iteration of the outline)

Language of the Revolution (based on an actual scene from the draft)

"I thought you were dead" (an AU where Mel gets captured by the Big Damn Villain; in the actual draft, it's Flo who draws this short stick)

The Morning After (the immediate aftermath of book one)

A Hologram (Jules & Flo beyond the city limits)

Plastic and Chrome (Mel: meanwhile in X-City...)

Hypervigilance (Flo tries to be introspective about her feelings for Mel; takes part after Flo and Jules leave the city, technically, but is really an extended flashback)

Neon and Moonlight (Flo, Jules, a brief trip back to the civilization)

Letters (Jules starts writing to Mel)

Numbers and Pixels, Smoke and Mirrors (on the verge of a reunion in VR)

Extra: a trilogy of whumptember snippets set in the same universe, probably in a different city, with charaters I know little about other than that they want me to know more and write a book about them:

[1], [2], [3] (captivity, brainwashing)

Tales from the Witch House 'Verse

In a kitchen sink urban fantasy world, a bunch of young supernaturals are squatting in a derelict house under the protection of a mysterious witch who claims to have their best interests at heart.

Tim and Leo Angst

Tim and Leo Fluff

"I hate this song" (takes place soon after the one linked above)

Xan and Gella Fluff

Flame & Moth 'Verse

Based on a RP my friend and I have had going on for year. A potentially evil superhero agency, an amnesiac pyrokinetic searching for the truth of his past, a villain who keeps showing up to save him and make his life harder. You know, the fun stuff. Snippets in roughly chronological order:

Out of the Rubble (one of the many instances of the villain coming to the rescue; written for whumptember)

"Is that blood?" (sometimes, Flame can rescue himself! with a little help from his Agency partner Batshit)

Searching for memories in a house on fire (Flame, mortal peril, Moth shows up right on time; written for whumptember)

"There's nothing I can do" (Flame looses a trainee)

Oops, the Agency isn't happy (look, Flame's suffering again; written for whumptember)

Flame is getting rescued from the above predicament (or is he?)

"You said I'd be safe here" (right, apparently he did get rescued)

You Can Doom Everyone (maybe it's a nightmare sequence, maybe it's not)

Bonus: same universe, different hero and villain Bonus-2: not sure this takes place in the same universe... but hero and villain, too

More Than We'll Never Know 'Verse

Snippets related to an ongoing WIP set in a D&D-esque world of adventurers, living legends, and evil capitalism. Mostly focused on a single messy adventuring found family of six.

A version of Vezee and Dagatha's first meeting

A random corn maze adventure

Bariq Being Bariq

Ice by the Fire (Sufjen and Vel getting to know each other)

Trinket (Sufjen and Vel late-book fluff)

Tired of Fighting (Bariq being a shitty friend to Vel)

"Your Magic Is Awesome" (Rinouk being a good friend to Vel)

The perils of getting too close to the villain, might be where the plot is headed, might be an AU/theoretical snippet

Not Mad, Just Disappointed (Dagatha reconnects with her mentor, sort of)

"It's a trial, not a party" (fluffy Dagatha/Vezee sequel to the above)

Vezee and Dagatha's Happy Ending (possible version)

Unwanted Rescue (it is possible Bariq will continue being himself even after the end of the story... or maybe I'll figure out how to give him a better arc after all)

And maybe sometime after the ending Vel and Sufjen will adopt a baby dragon: [1] [2]

Champagne Problems 'Verse

Snippets related to an ongoing WIP set in a city full of corrupt nobles, eldritch cults, angsty magic Academy students, portals that might connect all that to our world, and lying liars who lie.

Secret Meeting (prior to the book's events Elair meets with his evil employer)

Not At All Serious (pre-book Elair, the perils of falling in love under a fake identity)

Rainy Day (pre-book Elair and Miq fluff)

Sweet Tooth (more pre-book Elair and Miq fluff)

Outdoor Event (even more pre-book Elair and Miq fluff)

Practice at the City Hall (pre-book Elair and Miq again, poor Miq is clearly planning the proposal at the end there...)

"I've Got You" (Elair and Miq fluff, just might be a rough draft for late in the book)

Cults and Blood Sacrifices (absolutely unrelated to the book's events, I don't know these characters; absolutely takes place in Mramorsten, though; written for whumptember)

Kingdom in Peril Plot Bunny Exploration

Just a bunch of characters and a slowly forming setting existing rent-free in my mind. No idea where I'm going with all of this, but the journey will involve court intrigue, royals behaving badly, randomly appearing gothic vibes, mysterious dark threats, and possibly soulmates.

Surprise Visitor on a Rainy Evening

No One's Happy about Going to the Royal Court

Oh, Look, the King Has a Brother (He's My Favorite)

Royal Siblings Flashback

Alita Alone in the Garden

Royal Chessboard

Random Randomness

Consider this a catch-all category that I may eventually reorganize by genre.

Dead Gurdian's Dolmen (fantasy, worldbuilding-focused)

The Frozen Giant (sci-fantasy, worldbuilding-focused)

Dragons are fairly splenetic creatures (cozy fantasy, predictably turned into a trilogy of novels with one drafted already :D)

Bucolic Living (cozy lovecraftian post-apocalypse)

Sapphic September: Portal Fantasy (YA, parallel worlds)

"Our job isn't to too god, it is to make right" (fantasy, gods and heroes that fight them, evil mentor, written for whumptember)

An unplanned sequel to the above (in which things get darker)

"Let me do this for you" (fantasy, some kind of secret agents, self-sacrifice, written for whumptember)

Sapphic September: 3 AM (some kind of post-break-up drama?)

"Don't come home" (dark fairytale with a soul-eating dragon)

Around the Oak (a weird sapphic time warp flash fic)

"This was always going to happen" (fantasy, character death, guard captain x spy)

"If that's what it takes" (fantasy, an adventurer attempts to rescue her brother from an evil wizard; written for whumptember)

Mother's Matchmaking (space opera/melodrama of manners, enemies-to-lovers, will be a book someday)

The summer weeks by the sea are long (a sapphic vacation with revelations)

Life on Mars (sometimes, people just keep coming back and you can never let them go)

Dystopia Tropes (random modern-day slice-of-life romance)

Waiting for a Call (angsty sapphic magical girls)

Always Sunny (a monster hunter comes back to her hometown to reconnect with her ex-girlfriend, definitely will be a book someday)

Home (mad science and eldritch tentacles, written for whumptember)

Gears (a steampunk tinkerer and a rogue, for Sapphic September)

The Better Bad Idea (something something sapphic Regency-inspired fantasy, for Sapphic September)

"There are no aliens on the abandoned atomic station" (something something scientist and journalist, for Sapphic September)

Fool's Gold (a dark fantasy snippet, friends to enemies)

When you're escaping confinement, why not take your captor with you, right (written for whumptember, hero and villain)

Dreamscape Navigation (pretty much a novelization of a stray magic system... or a flashficization, rather)

On the Porch (a half-baked tropey idea about sisters reconnecting because of a condition in their grandmother's will)

What You Swore to Destroy (angsty YA horror with a touch of eldritch past lives)

Lessons in Failure (not all heroes get good mentors)

Picking Cherries (something very random; kids and cherries sometimes make things better)

A Maybe, a What If, an Almost (stream of consciousness friends-to-enemies flash fic)

Won't Forget (tiny 100-words drabble about memory spells)

Also, a whumptember two-parter with potential for more parts about a sassy imprisoned prince:

[1] [2] (warnings: imprisonment, sensory deprivation, torture)

And another whumptember two-parter: in part one, someone just tries to survive in a city his twin has ruined; in part two, the twin is in an even worse pickle.

#iHunt Rpg Fanfic (based loosely on a campaign I was in, you don't need to know anything about the game, it's just a small wrong number flash fic)

My tag for all the flash fiction and snippets: #warden's random scribbles.

#warden's random scribbles #original fiction #flash fiction #masterlist #writeblr #writblr #writers on tumblr #my writing

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the-wanted-man · 4 years ago

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The Ex-Con | ‘Lawrence’ ⌐ LFRP

THE BASICS –––

Name: Roman “Lawrence” Wyld In-Game: The Outlaw

Age: 25

Nameday: Uncelebrated or unremembered. (29th Sun/4th Umbral Moon.)

Born: The New World (Raised in Garlemald)

Race: Hyur - Whalaqee & Garlean

Gender: Male.

Alignment: Chaotic Good w/occasional deviation towards what feels good.

Marital Status: Easy come, easy go.

Orientation: Poly. Mostly straight.

Server: Balmung

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE –––

Hair: Short to Mid length and unkempt. Dark brown w/ white highlights.

Eyes: Silver. A swirling mix of mercury and ash.

Height: 6′3

Weight: 238 lbs

Distinguishing Marks: A long scar over his left eye reaching brow to cheek. Various other mappings of scars across his body. Particularly stabbings, bullet wounds, and burns.

Build: He’s tall, almost lanky for a normal hyur with strong shoulders that slope downward over a broad chest. His waist is tapered, his legs are long. His hands calloused. Both his weight and musculature are practically built, and his lifestyle keeps him lean like a coyote with a noticeable lack of fat to spare. If he missed a meal he’d surely feel it. He seems the type for dexterous tasks, but carries deceptive strength.

Common Accessories: Two loaded six shooters, a cutlass or his Gunblade. A bowie knife/ hatchet, some lock picking & whittling tools. Paracord or rope. Extra revolver cartridges (regular and aether loaded). A deck of cards numbering 51, or magitek dice for recreation. Magitek gizmos. Peanuts, Cigarettes, a flask of whiskey. A single tarot card (The Star), kept in his left breast pocket. A red bandana. Compass / Pocket Watch. An eagle totem necklace. (2) multitools: one with eating utensils, bottle/wine opener, and knife. The other with Magitek specialty tools. A big, gold belt buckle. A cowboy hat, usually dark. Wolf fang earrings. (1) perfectly weighted coin.

PERSONAL –––-

Profession: Handyman. Gun-for-hire. Gardening & Gravedigging. Naturalist & Survivalist.

Hobbies: Finger dexterity puzzles. Card games. Gambling. Sketching, whittling.

Languages: Common. Garlean. Whalaqee. Some Ishgardian.

Residence(s): Nomadic, favors Wellwick Woods and the Burning Wall. Any wild will do though. Has an unknown location of interest in the deep Shroud.

Religion: His religion has no name.

Patron Diety / Spiritual Guide: The Wanderer | The Eagle

Fears: Cleithrophobia. He’ll get really freaked out if he thinks he’s stuck somewhere.

Distinguishing Traits: A rural drawl that lilts and flows.

Relationships ––– -

Spouse: Never.

Parents: Augustus cen Ferox & Valentina wir Maximian

Siblings: An older half-brother, Leviticus wir Maximian

Other Relatives: Cousins he’s not close to.

Pets: No pets, just all manners of beasts both companionable and not. • A paint mustang named Trigger • A multi-colored dog w/ no name yet.

Traits ––– -

*doing something a bit different

5 Positive Traits (Generally beneficial)

Truthful • Hardworking • Easy going • Agreeable • Optimistic

5 Neutral Traits (Can be good or bad)

Lustful • Restless • Pensive • Observant • Trusting

5 Problematic Traits (Generally never good)

Mercurial • Irritable • Reckless • Trigger Happy • Indulgent

RP Hooks ––– –

Past History: Lawrence has had a variety of names and sobriquets he’s gone by. He’s wandered wide and far. Significant history points can be from his growing up in Garlemald, or his crash landing in Eorzea. He’s been imprisoned in several Eorzean Gaols, and has had cellmates. He’s saved and helped commoners and utilizes allies to do that as well. He robs the rich and gives to the poor.

Present Hooks: He can meet people just about anywhere and will generally be found getting up to trouble, or working his way there. Known to be an ex-convict of some caliber. Can more commonly be found out in the wilds, but on occasion hits cities and residential zones. He’s been known to pick fights with bullies, and be fairly helpful. Clever minds and observant eyes can likely piece his bounties together to determine his identity, or recognize him from some old wanted board.

Hiring Hooks: As an ex-convict, he’s in constant need of employment and is more than willing to work. He’s got a wide set of skills that are largely based in that of a naturalist and outdoorsman. He’s also a fine craftsman, and has been known to tend estate gardens and gravedig for local churches. He can be consulted for knowledge on the flora and fauna of the land, as well as knowledge on native beast tribes and their relations with other spoken.

Ally Hooks : He’s in constant need of healing and safe spaces, given his ongoing fugitive status. ‘I need healing’ would be a common phrase from him if he was an NPC. He can always use teachers or mentors to help him learn more - particularly when it comes to magic, aetherology, and demonology/voidsent. Posse members, and people who do crime for good reasons can become fast allies. Closer relationships can be talked down like family, or ex loves, etc.

Friction Hooks: I always welcome friction. Not every interaction is a great one and I like to embrace these ideas on an IC level. He could certainly use some rivals, or people with conflicting mentalities to him such as bounty hunters, corrupt officials (or lawful ones), bullies, villains. People that can challenge him, his morals, his limits, etc. As long as the dynamic isn’t one sided. The goal here isn’t ultimate capture or ultimate defeat to me but rather the growth developed through antagonistic engagements.

Contact Information ––– –

Discord: Message me here first and I’ll pass it.

Additional OOC:

Shipping: I prefer slow burn ships for anything specifically serious and won’t jump into ERP with anyone unless it makes sense story wise. Even then, FTB is a high possibility with strangers. Sorry. Additionally, Roman is poly and will be unlikely to solo-ship.

Will Nots: I don’t engage in explicit self-harm/suicide/extreme depression storylines or scenes of sexual violence/abuse. Vague references or allusions I’ll deal with, but prefer any explicit detail 1000 miles awaaaaaaaaay.

Boundaries: I like making friends and highly value platonic relationships IC and OOC. That said, I am skittish and will cut engagements if I feel discomforted by something. This includes the pushing of character boundaries I’ve established as not possible without my consent. Please, if I have discussed something as a lacking possibility, do not keep suggesting it.

Communication. This is big for me. I will speak up if uncomfortable, and encourage the same! This is a definite requirement if we’re doing deeper plotlines. I don’t need to be talked to every day, just let me know if something’s up so I can adjust. We’re all here to have fun!

Health & Scheduling: I have a pretty shit schedule being an essential worker and all, on top of being PST. 44 hours a week without a phone, no less. Mon-Thur I’m basically non-existent until the weekends and these will be the days I am not as talkative/active. Coupling that with chronic pain and mental health that is also affected by my job, some days I am just not capable of being around. I try to be up front about this. I don’t always have the energy. If I’ve dropped off, there’s a high chance my health took a serious dive and I just can’t bring myself to be about. All I ask is patience. Move on if you need to, but don’t be a jerk!

#LFRP #The Outlaw #Balmung Server #Crystal Data Center #FFXIV #Final Fantasy XIV

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ncstalgiaz · 4 years ago

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𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐘𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐇 — a new, small, 10–mun discord rp.

clarydach ... you haven’t heard of it ?? it’s a town in scotland, around ten miles west from edinburgh, neighbouring queensferry. still doesn’t ring any bells ?? ah, alright. well, it’s a small town— very small— spanning about 1.5 square miles. we all grew up here, us lot, the gang ... and look at us, we’re still here, so it can’t be that bad. bit boring from time to time, i suppose. but it’s got that small town charm, with the greatest people. truth be told, i really hit the jackpot with my group of mates, and i’d never wanna leave them behind. that reminds me— i’ve gotta go !! we’re all meeting down the pub in ten. maybe i’ll catch you there some time, if you’re ever in clary.

𝘼𝘽𝙊𝙐𝙏

clarydach is a brand new discord verse, based around the younger generation of regulars at a pub, the steel flagon, in the fictional scottish town of clarydach. each of the regulars have been drinking at the pub since they first turned 18 and at some point down the line, they found themselves part of a close-knit friendship group that find themselves there together every single weekend.

the rp will focus on the relationship between the friends and their intertwining lives and relationships. there will be the opportunity to write the typical one-on-one para threads found in most group roleplays, but also ongoing group threads for shorter / one-liner interactions happening between all of the characters at once ( in a similar style to the old-school rp events held on chatzy )

this is intended to be a close-knit, long-lasting roleplay with no activity limit ( instead opting for regular interest checks ) and a mun cap of 10, to accommodate those who get anxious in bigger groups ( myself included ) however there will be the opportunity to write multiple characters and you can apply for two from the get-go if you would like to.

while the pub is a central point to the storyline, not all threads will be set here and the rp will have a sandbox element in which all muns can create their own locations, npcs, headcanons etc and build the town of clarydach collaboratively.

𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙇𝙄𝘾𝘼𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉

❛ 🍺 · » faceclaim, gender, pronouns « you’re looking for firstname surname ?? oh, you’ll definitely see them down at the steel flagon later— once they’re done with hobby / occupation, that is. i think i’ve seen them there every weekend since they could legally drink, and they’re age in letters now, i think. their typical bar order is a(n) drink order ( can be alcoholic or non-alcoholic ) and as a person, they’re... a typical star sign. or, i guess they’re what people would call a character label. quite positive trait yet also negative trait. you’ll know it’s them when they walk through the door, because they’re the walking embodiment of some aesthetics, no more than four. ( penned by ooc name or alias, age, tz & pronouns )

extra ( optional ): tell me anything else here. could be a little about why you want to join, some headcanons about your muse, a link to a pinterest board or playlist or mock blog etc, literally anything to help me make my decision for acceptances, since there are only 9 available spots.

𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍𝙎 / 𝙏𝘼𝙆𝙀𝙉 𝙁𝘾𝙎

❛ 🍺 · » bjorn mosten, cis male, he / him « you’re looking for arlo floyd ?? oh, you’ll definitely see them down at the steel flagon later— once they’re done with hopping random freight trains for fun, that is. i think i’ve seen them there every weekend since they could legally drink, and they’re twenty-four now, i think. their typical bar order is a pint of lager and as a person, they’re... a typical leo. or i guess they’re what people would call a nomad. quite charming yet also recalcitrant. you’ll know it’s them when they walk through the door, because they’re the walking embodiment of a mischevious grin illuminated by flame as your cigarette is being lit for you, watching the summer sun rise over your hometown on a rooftop at 5:30am, the same scuffed denim jacket worn for years & filling awkward silences with crazy spontaneous ideas. ( penned by jess, 23, gmt & she/her )

𝙃𝙊𝙒 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝘼𝙋𝙋 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝘾𝙀𝙎𝙎 𝙒𝙄𝙇𝙇 𝙂𝙊 ( & 𝙊𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙍 𝙁𝘼𝙌 )

there will be twenty-four hours from the moment this is posted to send in your apps. i will try my best to keep an up-to-date app count ( in the source of this post ) and acceptances will be held tomorrow night at 12:30AM gmt ( 7:30PM est ).

use of gif icons is not mandatory but is encouraged.

i will be mainly picking the successful applicants with variety in mind, trying to get a good mix of muses’ personalities, hobbies, etc within our little group of friends. everyone’s apps will be considered for acceptance but those who have supported this rp since it was just an interest check post will be given special consideration. i hope this is fair.

all muns must be 21+. muses should be between the ages of 21 and 25.

#discord rp #new rp #semi-appless rp #discord verse #oc rp #small town rp #good luck everyone!#i can't wait to see everyone's apps!!!!#sorry this is up so late :(

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jack-o-chica-multiverse · 5 years ago

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Since it’s been a while since I’ve posted this, here’s a little introduction and PSA for Jack-O’s blog:

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Just to get this front-and-center, I want nothing to do with maps, LBGTQIA-phobes, transmeds, exclusionists, terfs, racists, and anyone who is even complacent with pedophilia or incest. If you fall within any of those categories, don’t interact with my blog. And hey, do yourself a solid and learn about why those leanings not only hurt you and the people around you, but society as a whole. Hate and abuse are not welcome here.

Also no shipping/romantic rp’s with Jack-O, please. She’s got a lot of love in her charred little heart, but it’s all platonic. And it’s going to stay that way.

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Multi-fandom and OC friendly! Seriously, OC’s are amazing and I love having Jack-O meet them!

Mostly long-ish form rp’s/replies. I ramble a lot … in case you couldn’t tell from this post, heh. Sorry. I do try to tag longer threads with #long post once they take a couple swipes to scroll through.

I’m prone to fewer/slower replies, especially during weekdays. Fyi, mun lives in the Pacific Time Zone, and is more likely to be active in the evening.

This blog can tread some pretty dark/angsty/violent/emotional ground and I’m fine with that … but I know not everyone is. I try to tag the big triggers, but if there is ever anything anyone wants me to tag - no matter if it’s a trigger or squick or whatever - please let me know.

And since we’re here: please, if you feel like you need to unfollow for any reason, you do you boo! That’s not just for subject matter but also because I’m an adult mun and I know that’s something that not everyone’s cool with. Your well-being will always be more important than following me - or anyone, for that matter! You are the curator of your Tumblr experience and if I can help you keep it safe by tagging or just not being part of it, that’s totally ok!

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Jack-O: she/her. Was human and female-presenting back in ye olden days (aside from that – up to interpretation). Besides her murder she doesn’t really remember her life, but she does get the faintest sensations of déjà vu that call back to who she once was.

Mun: she/her (but I’m comfortable with nb adjectives like they, too). Ace panro and more-or-less cis (I think?). Adult. Absolute nerd with too many hobbies and never enough time. RP-main is @Malady-red-rp (’Malady’), non-RP-main is @Inga-DON-Studio.

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Jack-O is based on the non-canon Halloween-y version of Nightmare Chica from FNAF4: The Halloween Update with … a lot of creative license thrown in.

Basic backstory below if you want to read it (it’s sort of ramble-y - eventually I’ll try to simplify it but hopefully it does the job for now):

Essentially, she’s a several-hundred-year-old dream-demon (aka a Nightmare in her universe) who took the shape of her prey’s greatest terrors and fed on their fear via relentless, ongoing ‘hunts’ in the mindscape and in waking nightmares. She would usually be freed from her chosen form once her prey’s mind was too shattered-apart from the constant assault to maintain a singular, cohesive personification of their fears, but on that last hunt … the situation never reached that conclusion. Thus, she’s stuck in the form that The Crying Child’s mind created for her before his death as a result of complications from The Bite of ’83 and his weakened state from the Nightmares’ attacks. Some things went down with the other Halloween Nightmares that night, resulting in her complete abandonment of the hunt and what it was to be a Nightmare (the birb done woke). Thirty years of coming to grips with all the evil she had done over the centuries and one hell of a massive guilt complex, she wants –more than anything- to try to put some good back into the world, even if she knows it will never balance out what she has taken from it.

She awoke to October’s calling on Oct. 1st, 2018 to find herself in a multiverse of sorts- and just kind of rolled with it. There were plenty of familiar faces – and many, many new ones – and she quickly embraced the chance at a new start, silently promising to try to stand up against the literal and metaphorical representations of what she once was. As she made friends who have become the truest sense of a found family, she has become fiercely protective of the people she cares about … even if sometimes she’s a little lost on how to really help them. Hey, just cuz she’s a few hundred years old doesn’t mean that there isn’t still plenty left for her to learn - and she knows it.

I do reference back to some past events (like Ink Stains) and she mentions other muses on occasion – some no longer active around here but remembered as cherished friends who left a lasting, important impact on her. No, you’re not expected to know about them. It’s just an important little part of who she is- that she doesn’t let go of things easily now that she has people and memories worth holding onto…

(The Ink Stains event was a biggie because she was one of the corrupted, and for the first time it forced her unwillingly back into something like the Nightmare she once was. It also cemented in her mind how important the people in her afterlife are to her, and how much she needs them. So, mentions of ink and corruption still find their way into conversations fairly often.)

#It's been way too long since I posted this - especially since a couple things needed to be updated #OOC #PSA #About The Blog #Added this to the 'About' header #Yeesh I really need to streamline that back-story section :P

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all-of-your-mercy · 5 years ago

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Based on my own roleplaying experience, I can pretty much say this:

- Avoid form of writers that will not match up to the level/amount of writing as you do.

It both applies to writers who write “little”, or those that write a reply equivalent of 3 chapters in a book.

You / will / find yourself exhausted/stressing over not being able to meet the amount as the other writer, or will be frustrated over the fact you can’t compress your writing just enough so It doesn’t look stranger of the reply difference.

- You do not have to work your ass off to make the thread work.

If you genuinely struggle with writing, feel free to communicate with the other writers and explain the situation. If It is to the point that you no longer wish to even write with them, also explain them that.

- Stressing over not being active is just a problem you formed yourself, while your thread partners won’t really care how long you will take.

If the ones DO have a problem

(exception if the writers lightly joke about it, without any malicious intent)

then, they are simply not compassionate/understanding, nor have had some sort of writing block/inability to write.

A struggling writer knows the struggle and will understand, no matter how long It will take. As long as you make it known of your return and will appreciate your writers for the patience. Loyal one will be there for you.

- The vast majority of writers are anxious as much as you are.

Their way of writing to you while discussing/chatting may seem they are not enthusiastic, but you can’t exactly tell that -- Sometimes they are anxious internally and do not express it.

Most of the time if they do interact with you now or eventually -- Then there is genuine desire to write with you.

- OOC posts are 50/50. You can make a lot of them, but keep in mind that not everyone will like them.

Some writers simply have a desire to write with you, and some might find it strange if you post your personal/graphic details about your life in a roleplay account.

Best solution is to rely all personal stuff on a personal blog / that isn’t a roleplay blog, because It simply makes the navigation through the dashboard easier.

People are not selfish if they do not wish to see personal stuff on your roleplay account, feel free to vaguely / in small amount state some details in your RP account, and imply that more details/clarification is stated in your personal blog.

- Do not, and I can’t stress this enough - STATE your dislike about a writer your writing partner is familiar with.

It simply brings some tension to the main person and It becomes some sort of eggshell walking game in that scenario, with both of those parties.

If you simply do not like the person -- Simply tell your writing partner to provide tagging (based on a few writers requesting me this exactly) and do not go into some tangent about it.

If the reason is serious to why you don’t like this particular person -- Explain in full detail and be reasonable with your words. You may come off as dramatic antics seeking based on how you describe the situation.

- Images, icons, audio added on to replies are not necessary. There are a lot of writers that have either of those or all of them, but It is not the definition of their actual writing.

Writing =/= Aesthetic of blog.

The blog may be eye-catching because of the theme and comfortable to look at, or It has the color tones the visiting writers' likes -- but the rose-tinted glasses will fade the moment they begin discussing with the writer or end up seeing the threads at their account.

It doesn’t mean that ALL well-done blogs are secretly by anyhow -- but there are a few types like these, that only thrive simply because their blog is comfortable to look at.

You can have, what’s considered a bad theme (hard to find buttons maybe, color choices merging with one another, or the colors are too bright/dark and mashing together and just making it an annoying experience) but you can be a great writer, too.

There are the gems who are great writers with good themes, but I simply wanted to point out some scenarios I have personally seen that may have done an impact to how I should recognize potential writing partners.

- “Suck it up-express”

A title, I would give for this section. But writers suddenly avoiding you, refusing to communicate or even write to you all suddenly, happens.

Do not aim for dramatic antics when such situation happens, because the majority of these type of ghostwriters may be linked to drama in the first place.

Seek for some form of communication, and do not press for more If you do not get a response right away, or for even a long while.

This can be also linked to neurotypical people with disorders that have people completely forget some ongoing conversations and discover them after a long period of time, but that is 50 / 50.

The rest are simply ghostwriters that were not kind to you and did not understand how much you wished to write with them and build some connection/mutual world-building spiel.

- Do NOT do things when you are REALLY, REALLY excited.

This is how people garner +100 threads and will eventually drop 2/3 of those threads because they no longer have enough creativity for some particular themes and only have enough creativity for some topics/themes.

It can cause hurt to the other writer if you drop them all suddenly due to your own lack of interest, or have them have a bad taste in their mouth about you.

Sometimes such thrown out writers can have a bad opinion of you and not recommend you to their writers' partners, who might be actually your type of writers.

If you do get excited and are in the way of forming a thread -

Please discuss the possibilities of the thread actually working out before you even start it.

Some writers do not like pre-established thread discussions, but they are very much recommended when you are in the daze of excitement.

Some pairings, interactions may seem fun -- but may not be enough for it to become into a potential thread for now or a later time.

- Friendship rank with writing partners.

Some will not become your close friend, some will. Those that will not get to the step higher as a close friend, do not mean that they aren’t interested in writing with you or hearing some ideas about your character/ideas and all that.

Sometimes It takes a while to build a friendship, sometimes It doesn’t.

While there is, understandably some hesitation to excitedly speak of things to the partners that you haven’t bonded that much aside from writing -- You shouldn’t treat them as a threat in any way.

Sure, sometimes being a great friend with a writer can do a LOT - but so can a mere bond with a writer can do as much, It depends on how people communicate with one another.

Sometimes people are simply that extroverted that they seem to be your friend but do not claim as one that much, and that’s okay.

- Take teenagers being present in the RPC with a grain of salt; watch out for writers that do not give out much information -- especially their age.

This is not all about teenagers, but It applies since It used to be a huge issue back in the day -

Teenagers go through a phase where they do feel to be mature than they usually are. Sometimes It is the mentality, the influence or even the society impacts them to present themselves mature than they should be --

Which has them believe that It is fine to write adult-oriented themes with actual adults. A lot of Americans DO express the severity of issues this can cause, so please do listen to the people who do say that It can bring them to legal trouble.

It doesn’t matter whether It actually does or not - You are still considered a younging up until you are 18. Even then, sometimes people will see you as a baby adult and prefer to write adult themes with someone older. Stuff like that happens.

There were teenagers that are now adults that have gone through such mistake, but now they are old enough to write such things without consequences.

It doesn’t mean a teenager won’t make such mistakes, had they never been told that, in fact, It’s really wrong -- They will eventually find out, either through such posts, whether a lightbulb dings in their head with the realization, etc

Those that acknowledge the possibility of endangering the writing partner that IS an adult and writes adult-oriented stuff? You need to recognize, that It’s really fucked up that you are risking one’s life over your puberty brain.

No. Adults don’t hate teenagers. They hate/dislike the ones that intentionally try to ruin someone’s life or put it to a risk, just because of their selfish desire.

It’s not really that wrong for teenagers to communicate with adults in normal conversations or in light themed roleplays, but the adults will still, most of the time, treat you like a kid and will not comply for more mature stuff (exception if It’s about some advice, but that’s not relevant to the RP stuff.)

Waiting out to write porn/gore until you’re 18 is SO much rewarding than playing this hide and seek spiel. Trust me.

To note additionally:

People still make human mistakes and they usually learn things through making such things, so don’t feel like you’re going to get whipped by me / someone else just because you accidentally broke some kind of part in the list, be it in the past or now. It’s simply important to recognize some things and make the roleplaying community much more fun than It can be sometimes. And, when you do recognize your mistake -- Keep in mind to not repeat it again.

#long post #rpc #related #aaaaa #just some stuff I had in mind that I wanted to write it out #some are based on my experience #based on what i saw #based on what my friends told me #all the works

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surveys-at-your-service · 5 years ago

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Survey #211

"i was told when i get older all my fears would shrink, but now i'm insecure and i care what people think."

What is your favorite time of day? Morning. What is your third favorite color? Ummm maybe peach. Do you care what others think of you? In most contexts, very much so. How would you dress, if you were the opposite sex? Same style I do now, really. Though not tank tops and dance pants; I'm sure I'd mostly wear loose band or graphic tees and sweatpants. Can you remember your first phone? If so, what kind was it? I think I might? I believe it was a blue one where the keyboard slides out from the bottom. Small and square-ish. What do you do to maintain your eyebrows? Nothing. What was the naughtiest thing you did when you were a child? I bit my sister's back so hard that I made her bleed, lmao. Sorry Ash. What, in your opinion, is the most thirst-quenching drink? COLD WATER. Who is your favorite character from Alice in Wonderland? Cheshire cat. Name the closest body of water to where you live: Atlantic Ocean. What do you like to put on toast? Light layer of butter and then cinnamon and sugar. The true cinnamon toast. Do you like art? Of course. How about theater? I don't have too much of an opinion... other than it has potential to be incredibly cheesy. Have you ever made breakfast for someone? Yes. Do you talk to your crush? If you have one. She's way more than that, and we talk every day. If yes, what do you usually talk about? Loads of stuff. What was the last thing you bought? With my own money, I don't have a clue. Have you ever been considered popular? No. Your signature perfume? I don't have one. Favorite undersea creature? Sea turtles, seahorses, jellyfish... Describe your room with just 5 words. Small, crowded, zoo, artsy, and... idk. Favorite type of chocolate? Milk. What types of things would you plant in a garden? If I actually wanted one, lots of flowers. Maybe tomatoes because fresh tomatoes + bacon and mayonnaise sandwiches are fucking incredible. Favorite attraction at a carnival? Ferris wheel. What toys did you play with as a child? Plastic animals, Pokemon figures, and stuffed animals were common. Oh yeah, I loved Lincoln Logs too. What types of music do you listen to? Various kinds of metal and rock as well as indie. What, without fail, makes you cry? Mufasa dying lmao. What makes a movie really enjoyable for you? A cool plot. Usually fantasy elements. Favorite way to decorate a cake? *shrugs* What gift(s) did you get for your birthday last year? I don't remember. What do you daydream about the most? My future. Name a game you are really good at. Shadow of the Colossus probably, but considering how infrequently I play games now, I'm sure I'm nowhere near as good as I used to be. Whenever I get a PS4 and the remake tho, I'm getting that goddamn white Agro. I never did the timed challenges before, but I think I could do it. What kinds of snacks do you munch on? I don't really have snacks anymore; I try to keep them out of the house so I'm not tempted. If anything though, it'll probably be some kind of chip. What emotionally exhausts you? Socializing. What accessories would come with a doll version of you? A laptop, iPod, and medication lmao. Favorite thing to do when it’s night time? Sleep? I've sure grown into a fun person. How do you like to bathe/shower? With hot-ish water. The most childish part of your personality? I absolutely hate chores. Favorite type of fantasy creature? Dragons. Do your arms move when you walk? I... actually don't know and can't even visualize how I walk right now. Favorite photo search engine? Google. Are there such things as stupid questions? Depends on your age and some other factors, I guess. Do you celebrate April Fools Day? No. I hate it, honestly. Do you doggie paddle or actually swim in a pool? Both. How do you cure boredom? I'd love to fucking know. I'm always bored. Ankle socks or knee-highs? Ankle socks. Do you know how military time works? Yes, but I can't comprehend the time immediately if it's passed 12. What’s your daily routine? Wake up, check the time, use the bathroom, have breakfast, feed my cat, sit on the laptop doing nothing, maybe or maybe not have a nap at some point, shower if I need to whatever time I feel like, also brush my teeth at some random point during the day (unless I have to go somewhere; then I'll do it before I leave), eat dinner, feed the other pets, and go to bed. Did you get in trouble for cussing on accident when you were a kid? I literally yelled "HOLY SHIT, I THINK I SEE A SHARK!" when we were all in the car driving over a bridge and I swear I saw a fin in the water, lmao. Mom was. Not happy. Ever made a snow angel? Yes. Are you short or tall for your age? I'm average. At what age did you learn the Pledge of Allegiance? Idk, early elementary school. What’s the longest you’ve gone without food? When my appetite was like non-existent and I lost a shitload of weight, I think I almost went a full 24 hours. What do you think about most? What's stressing me out. Are you honestly a good person? I don't think I'm a bad one. Where would you like to be buried? I'd rather be cremated. Do you use Bing or Google? Google. Last song you listened to? "Damage" by Fit For Rivals. Last movie you watched ALL the way through? The Shining. Howwww had I not seen it sooner. Last thing you wrote down? The time I was meeting with my job coach on the calendar. What was the last movie you saw in theaters? Detective Pikachu. What is ONE thing your fridge or pantry ALWAYS needs? My day will feel so off if I don't have one Mtn. Dew Voltage. Do you believe more in luck or hard work? That's a good question. Sometimes you can work your ass off and yet reap inadequate - or any - rewards, while some people pick up a lottery ticket once in their life and are suddenly a millionaire. Life's not fair, kids. But I like to think hard work usually prevails. Do you have any metal on or in your body right now? Piercings. What is your favorite thing to eat with dip? Plain chips with sour cream dip... yum. Do you consider yourself a heartbreaker? Nope. Who was the last person to tag a picture of you? Who even knows. I don't get tagged in pictures because I'm never with people to take and tag me in any lmao. Have you ever liked someone much older than you? No. Is there someone you always, secretly hope will talk to you? It's not a secret that I want to talk to Jason ONE last time to apologize on MY end. What was your first favorite band? Backstreet Boys. Are you friends with any bands? A local band, yeah; their guitarist is an old friend. Do you stay up ridiculously late for no reason? Very very rarely now. What’s your life motto? Idk, I've never really thought about it. Last year for school, we had an assignment where we had to choose a popular song to write a story based on. What song would you’ve picked? A popular song? Oh boy, idk. I don't really know what's popular that I like... Well, guess I'll think of old songs I know were. Um... Oh well I love writing sad shit, so maybe "Runaway Love" by Ludacris ft. Mary J. Blige. I already had an RP plot that was kinda inspired by it lmao. Do you like 3OH!3? If I said I wouldn't belt "'CUZ I'M A VEGETARIAN AND I AIN'T FUCKIN' SCARED'A HIM" at a club at 2 in the morning I'd be lying. Did the vacuum scare you as a child? No. Do you have a long driveway? No. Anyone’s grave you visit, regularly? No. Who was your first kiss? First person who kissed me was Juan, first mutual kiss (which I consider my "real" first) was with Jason. What was it like? Were you disappointed? Juan's kiss I didn't want, and it made me confused at the time. I had no clue how I felt about him back then. With Jason, it was incredibly sweet. I was lucky to get like a fairy tale one and not a horribly awkward memory lmao. Do you have an older brother? If so, what’s he like? Yeah. He's super super intelligent and a deep thinker. Very mature and has a great sense of humor. Are you confident? hunty- Have you ever begged someone to stay with you? Yes. Who do you want around you when you’re afraid? More than anyone, Mom. Had separation anxiety as a kid, obviously grew out of it, but if I'm seriously scared, I want my mom's presence. Like if I'm sick (I'm petrified of vomiting alskdfjaowie) or we're having risky weather, stuff like that, I want her with me. Have you ever mistaken something’s shadow for something else? Probably at some point. Indie, rock, electronic, techno, dubstep, or ‘crunk’? The hell is "crunk" music. Rock. Do you know how to read a map? I have no clue 'cuz I've never actually used a real one. Have a friend that looks JUST like a celeb? Not off the top of my head. Are you good at basketball? I used to be, but I haven't played in forever. It was probably my favorite sport that I ever played. Or softball. Are you friends with anyone missing one of their five senses? Not that I know of. How many times have you moved in your lifetime? Three. Are you good at Pac-Man? I was never exceptional. I haven't played it in yeeeaaars. Have you ever been called 'jail bate’? No. Have you ever been seriously addicted to anything? Technology oops like I barely know how to function without it, sadly. Ever lied to get out of going somewhere with someone? Yes. Where did you meet your current or last significant other? YouTube. Do you like to eat pasta? Yes. Do you enjoy wine? Most bitter shit in the world. Noooooooot a fan. How long have you been driving? I've had my permit since senior year of high school (I think senior???), but I still don't have my license. What’s your lawyer’s name? N/A What’s the last thing you watched on Netflix? Good question. Do you play any video games? The only one I play regularly is World of Warcraft; it's the only "ongoing" game I play. Why were you last in the hospital? My sister got into a wreck. Would you ever get a face tattoo? Possibly something small and subtle, but I doubt it. Have you ever gambled? No. What has been your most epic cooking failure? I split a hot dog entirely in half in the microwave because I thought it'd take much longer to warm up than it actually did. Do you read other people’s survey answers on here? Sometimes. Do you agree with the saying ‘distance makes the heart grow fonder?’ With my experience with Sara, yes. Do you know any transgender people? I knew someone who like... swapped back and forth five thousand times. Then one of my friends had a transgender "phase," if it's appropriate to call it that. Have you ever had a parrot sit on your shoulder? Don't think so. In the morning, do you eat breakfast first or brush your teeth first? Eat. Why would you eat RIGHT AFTER brushing your teeth. What sort of window coverings do you have in your living room? Blinds. Has anyone in your life ever treated you abusively? No. How long has it been since your last breakup? A year and a half. What’s the name of the amusement park closest to your house? Uhhh I think Busch Gardens in Virginia? Do you like The Rolling Stones? Yeah. What was the last single item you spent over $100 on? A plane ticket. Can you read tarot cards? No. What is the last non-fiction book that you read? I have zero clue. Do you prefer lemons or limes? Lemons. Do you prefer peppermint or spearmint? I don't think I even taste the difference. Have you ever written a special note in a book? Yeah, I did in a book Jason lent me. Turns out it's a bad idea to write in pen a lil love letter on the back of the front cover to a book that was also for collection purposes lmao, but he wasn't mad. Would you rather have a house exterior made from wood, brick, or stucco? I like wood aesthetically, but I think eliminating wood housing would be a good idea, so brick. Brick also makes me feel safer. What is your favorite candy bar? Those big rectangle Reese's ones with individual blocks. I fucking love them. Have you ever thrown up in public? I know at least one occasion in I believe kindergarten where I did on the classroom floor, oof. Pepsi or Sprite? I hate Pepsi and I'm not a Sprite fan either, but if I had to, I'd drink the latter. How many video games do you own? We have an old CD case just about full of them. Have you ever stripped? No. Even if you are not Christian or never celebrated Christmas, do you think you will raise your (possible future) children to believe in Santa Clause? Why or why not? I don't want kids, but if I did, I probably would. It's just a magical, fun thing as a kid. Who has the most interesting phone cover you know or what was the most interesting one you have come across (in store or online)? Sara has a really cute chameleon one. Would you rather play a game such as World of Warcraft, League of Legends, or an app/Facebook game (Candy Crush, Bejeweled)? Y'all know. What’s the most amount of messages you either woke up to on a social media site or your phone? Idk, not a lot. When you have nightmares, do they normally have the same theme (ex. always being killed) or do they just relate to something going on in your life at the moment/random? They're very commonly either with me dying or about to be raped. Some surveys ask if you ever stepped in dog poop. However, have you ever stepped in animal pee? Yup. When’s the last time you or someone else has overstayed their visit? Whenever Girt last came over forever ago. He always does lmao. Have you ever consumed a full bottle of liquid medicine in one shot? Is there ANY medication you can actually do that with and not die???? Have you ever had a hamster? Yes. If you had a choice, would you rather eat chicken or beef? Chicken. What was your favorite birthday cake like? I don't remember any specifically. Would you prefer bacon or sausage? Tough call, but probably bacon. How many books have you read in the past YEAR? Zero. Do you type with all of your fingers, like you are taught in school? Yes. Have you ever put gum on the bottom of your desk/chair? No, grosses me the hell out. At what age were you the most physically attractive? The least? During high school; 2016. If you intend to get married, what are you looking forward to/dreading about wedding planning? I think planning the vows will be fun (I don't want references to God, fuck saying my dad has to "give me away," etc.) as well as the theme, and then I don't think I'm dreading anything about planning. Who are you most nervous about introducing potential significant others to? Mom. What is the craziest thing you have done to lose weight? I haven't done anything "crazy." Which parent do you most resemble? Idk. What is the best job you’ve ever had? Never had one I liked. How do you feel about monogamy as a whole? It's definitely what I find to be the better option. You're minimizing the risk of spreading STDs, and plus I personally see love as a one-on-one thing, not open to multiple. What is the most exciting thing about your life right now? LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL What was the most important non-academic thing you learned in high school? Probably some life lessons from my favorite teacher. Have you ever lived alone? Do you prefer living by yourself or with someone else? No. I never want to live alone. Do you and your friends ever talk about your sex lives? I don't have a friend to discuss that with, but I also don't have a sex life. Has anyone ever criticized your appearance? What did they say and how did you take it? Yeah. It was typically about my piercings or how I dressed (particularly ripped skinny jeans), and neither of those ever got to me. I love my piercings and style. How common is it for you to get jealous in romantic or platonic relationships? It's rare. When someone asks you about your number of sexual partners, do you include oral sex partners? I probably would if there was anyone who fit that criteria but I wasn't "fully" sexual with. It's still sexual. Have you ever had a job that deeply affected your personal life? How so and do you still work there? No. What is the most serious injury you’ve ever sustained? When I passed out onto my chin and ended up with a really deep cut, broke multiple teeth, and got a concussion. What were the best and worst interviews you’ve ever had? What made them so good/bad? None stand out for either end of the spectrum. List three people you’ve had crushes on. Just to make it interesting, I'll name people I had crushes on but never dated. Sebastian, Kyle, and Mini. How old were you when you were first head over heels in love? 16. Has loving someone ever made you miserable? Boy, have you heard about my Historical Breakup? How bad are your worst cramps on a scale of 1-10? They used to be easy 10s, but now that BC helps me, I'd say the worst are like... rarely 7-8s. Have you ever thrown up from cramps? No. What is the most physically painful thing you’ve ever experienced? I 110% should've been under anesthesia when I got an infected cyst drained. I wanted to fucking die to get it over with. Do you have an embarrassing period story? If so, what is it? No. Did your school allow you to have pain medicine on you? I think so? I do know you couldn't share it, though. Do you ever comfort eat? I get the urge to when I'm depressed, but I stopped doing it. If applicable, what form of birth control do you use? Pills and not being with a man. What is your sexual orientation? Bisexual. Have you ever questioned your sexuality? Yes. What gender do you identify as? Female. What gender were you born as? Female. Have you ever gotten high off a prescription medication? No. Can you still wear clothes from the children’s section? Pf, hell no. Are you lonely? Very. Do you have allergies? Yes. How old were you when your parents talked to you about puberty? However old I was in 5th grade when we had family life class. Do you take vitamins? Only one I'm prescribed for for vitamin D. Do you like fantasy better than reality? Yep. Have you ever contemplated suicide? Yeah. Have you ever self-harmed? Yes. How many people have you known who were suicidal? Multiple, sadly. What’s your favorite pain reliever? Advil. Who has the cutest baby/babies you know? My acquaintance has an absolutely beautiful daughter. What’s the most expensive thing your car needed to get done? N/A If you had a thousand dollars to spend on a pricey brand you like but can’t really afford (until now of course), which ONE brand would you chose? I have no clue. I don't really know pricey brands that don't have the ugliest shit. How many pairs of flip flops do you own? One. Do you still talk to any of your old teachers? One, yes. She's a family friend now. What color was the dress you wore to your senior prom? Black. Ever go to another school’s prom? No. Ever take Melatonin supplements to help you go to sleep? When I used to have AWFUL insomnia, it was the only way I could sleep. Do you like burning candles or incense? Incense especially. Ever throw a pair of your shoes in the washing machine? How did they come out? Not that I remember. Do you ever venture into the woods? What do you normally do in there? No. Do you like to wear shorts or capris in the summer? No. I hate my legs, nor do I regularly shave. Does your phone have a keyboard, touch screen, or neither? Touch screen. How did you dress your freshman year of high school? Emo. Were you obsessed with the Spice Girls back in the day? Obsessed, no, but I liked them. Have you ever had an encounter with the paranormal? Yes. Would you do your own surgery so keep yourself alive? (ex. stitches) I mean yeah, if I had no choice. Would you rather read poetry or write poetry? Write. Have you ever had any really infected injuries? An ear piercing got an infection once. Is there any band out there that you like every song by them? No. Would you ever work for Google? I mean, I don't see why not? Do people that are ungrateful for everything bother you? Immensely. Are you popular on any websites? No, not really. If you ruled the world, what is the first law that you would make? Probablyyyy the banning of at least single-use plastics, but hopefully plastics as a whole if doable. When was the last time you played jump rope? Not since being a kid, probably. Do you hate it when people look over your shoulder? I can't do ANYTHING if someone is. Do you know anyone who has had a heart attack under 30 years of age? No. If you were starving would you eat food out of a garbage can? If I found something that didn't look dangerous, yeah, in order to survive. When is the last time you had your vision checked? Like two months ago. When is the last time you had your hearing checked? Some time last year when I had that whole ordeal with my ears. Do you know your blood type? It's A-. Do you donate blood/platelets/plasma/etc.? No, I don't drink enough water. Ever been in the emergency room? Way more times than I like. Have you ever been robbed? No, thankfully. Ever kiss someone on the first date? No. Do you own any Burt’s Bees products? No. Dr. Pepper or Root Beer? Dr. Pepper. What’s your favorite picture of your mom? Dad? I have one of Mom I took for a photography course of her laughing, and I fucking love it. She rarely laughs. Dad, I'm not sure. Are you subscribed to anything (Magazines, monthly boxes, streaming sites, etc.)? No. Favorite flavor of cream cheese? ... It has flavors? Do you have any board games? If so, where do you keep them? Yeah; they're at the top of a cabinet in the living room. Is there an ice cream flavor you don’t like? Of ones I've tried (I'm not very adventurous with food), I loathe strawberry. What’s the raunchiest thing you’ve ever stumbled upon? I don't know, don't wanna know. I steer clear of that side of the Internet. Hm, it was probably something on dA that had a mature content filter that I looked at anyway because it had an intriguing name. That site can have some wild-ass shit. How rude is it to snap your fingers at a waiter or waitress? Have you done it before? That is incredibly rude. They're not dogs. I've never done that. Best way for someone to bond with you? Let's talk about deep shit and philosophy. Discuss interesting, unorthodox topics. Show me you have an open mind. What is the first meme you remember seeing? BOY, I don't know. Maybe Overly-Attached Girlfriend? Suitcase, duffel bag, or backpack? Duffel bag. Sci-fi, fantasy, or superheroes? Fantasy. Favorite font? Out of the default options, Garamond. Favorite fairy tale? Fucking FIGHT ME if you say Shrek isn't one. Forget the memes and such, I genuinely love the movies. Favorite tradition? By this point in my life, we don't really follow any traditions... but I do know as a kid I would NEVER let Mom forget we had to make "reindeer food." When a Christmas light show was still here, we would also go there and grab hot chocolate and chocolate-covered peanuts. I miss that. Talent you’re proud of having? I think I'm an above-average writer. Favorite website from your childhood? Webkinz. :') Any good luck charms? Nope. Least favorite flavor of food or drink? Cranberry. Least favorite pattern? Uhhh... I'm not big on animal print. Favorite potato food? Fries my man. Do you call them fireflies or lightning bugs? Fireflies. Lamps, overhead lights, fairy lights, or sunlight? FAIRY LIGHTS. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? Two lmao. Favorite historical era? The Renaissance. What are some must-have Google Chrome extensions? If you don’t use Chrome, how about on other internet browsers? AdBlock. What piece of stand up comedy (10 minutes or less) has successfully made you cry with laughter? Oh boy, a lot. I love stand-up. What little “Easter Eggs” on websites do you love? If you don’t have one on a website, how about in a game, TV show, or movie? Boy, got plenty in games. The secret Silent Hill 4 replica room in Silent Hill: Downpour I especially love; I had no idea it was in the game 'til I played it and found it myself. Then the butterfly barrel in the PS4 remake of Shadow of the Colossus in reference to The Last Guardian is awesome. World of Warcraft's Robin Williams genie tribute is lovely as well. Besides pornography, what is a website you frequent and don’t want anyone to know? Nothing. What GIF reduces you to hysterical laughter every time? Don't know about every time. What things that are legal do you think shouldn’t be? Smoking, but I understand why we can't do that now. What is the closest you have ever been to a major historical event? Idk. What is a skill someone can learn in 6 months that will impress employers on a resume? Microsoft Office programs. What are some meals that are simple to make, but easy to impress people with? Idk. I know nothing of cooking. What bizarre celebrity encounters have you had? None. What is your favorite picture on the whole internet? Oh don't make me go through my Pinterest of Mark pictures. What is a “dirty little (or big) secret” about an industry that you have worked in, that people outside the industry really should know? N/A What is the most outlandish (hilarious, surprising) thing you have ever seen go down in public? OKAY SO one day otw home from my psychiatrist appointment, there was a man dressed in horrid drag walking on the side of the highway in the middle of winter. It was. An experience. If you met someone who has never heard music before (born deaf or what have you), what music would you introduce to them first? Gentle, soothing instrumental things. Like let's listen to the soft SotC pieces, please. What’s a little-known site you think everyone should know about? I don't really know of any. What is a MUST SEE movie that is highly overlooked and is on Netflix? If you don’t have a Netflix, just say in general. Johnny Got His Gun. What quote gives you chills every time you hear or read it? From Amnesia: A Machine For Pigs: "I have stood knee-deep in mud and bone and filled my lungs with mustard gas. I have seen two brothers fall. I have lain with holy wars and copulated with the autumnal fallout. I have dug trenches for the refugees; I have murdered dissidents where the ground never thaws and starved the masses into faith. A child's shadow burnt into the brickwork. A house of skulls in the jungle. The innocent, the innocent, Mandus, trod and bled and gassed and starved and beaten and murdered and enslaved. This is your coming century! They will eat them, Mandus, they will make pigs of you all and they will bury their snouts into your ribs and they will eat your hearts!" Not even mildly exaggerating, I get coooovered in goosebumps every time I come to that point in the game. I just read it twice lmao. When was the last time you bitched someone out? A while back I lost it on Mom about Dad and his wife. Have you ever given a lap dance? No. Are you afraid of plane rides? No, not really. Do you like unique or common names? Unique. Have you ever made a turkey dinner all by yourself? As if. Do you prefer running or yoga? Yoga. What continent would you most like to visit? Africa. Who do you wish you were dating? I'm happy with who I'm dating. What did you always want to do as a kid but were never allowed to do? Hm. I'm sure there's something... What is your favorite ice cream topping? Hot fudge. Is your Bible falling apart? I don't have one. Would you rather have a tail, fin, or wings? Wings. If you live in an apartment, is your landlord mean? N/A What products do you sell, if applicable? None. Is abuse in your past? No. Is there trauma in your past? Yes. Do you know anyone who’s been raped? I don't believe so, thankfully. Of the many different American accents, which one is your favorite? New Yorker. What was the last thing you watched on Youtube? Watched and not just listened to, it was an 8-BitRyan gaming vid. Do you know anyone who had a kid before they were financially stable? Probably half the people I know or more. But I think that goes for everyone. What’s your phone’s wallpaper picture? Darkiplier rip. Have you read any of Shakespeare’s works other than Romeo and Juliet? Yeah - Beowulf and Macbeth. Maybe Hamlet? Is there anything hanging from the doorknob in your room? My purse. Why did you move to where you’re living now? We got evicted and had to find something cheaper. What’s your opinion on wearing pajamas in public? Do you yourself do that? I sincerely don't care, especially if there is damage on the person's state. Like if you're suicidally depressed or very sick in another way and have to go out, don't be a fucking ass and force them to do something that can legitimately be hard for people just to appease the standards society set. A basic rule to me is never make assumptions or ask why they're in their pj's. I do it a lot, depending on where I'm going. Like you have clothes on at least, why the hell does it matter. What’s something you’re really bad at compared to others? Math. Knowing the names of cars. Giving directions and knowing where I even am in comparison to everything else. Do you know anyone who treats retail/restaurant employees poorly? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA BOY DO I but she's been removed from my life. When was the last time someone betrayed your trust? What happened? Idk. But I can say with near certainty aforementioned friend posted our entire last convo on Facebook as she'd done previously, so there's that. Do you usually fill up at the same gas station? Mom usually does. What are some odd habits you have relating to food/eating? I hate eating biscuits in front of new people because I dissect mine to parts, lol. Like I open it and eat what's in it individually, the bread being the last. Do you like Oregon Trail? I love that shit. As an adult, do you want to live in an apartment or a house? A house. Do you like the stem or leafy part of the broccoli? Stem. Do you believe in the “innocent until proven guilty” idea? Depends. Not always. Do bats frighten you? No, I love bats!!! What’s a song that reminds you of your special someone? THERE'S SO MANY!!!! Does Paris appeal to you? Yeah. Are you a KPOP fan? No. Do you believe in the phrase “if it’s meant to be, it’ll be”? Nope, bullshit. First time you kissed the last person you kissed? June 2018. Do you have to really know someone to kiss them? Absolutely. I have to actually be romantically interested in you. Well, to kiss you on the lips. Kissing family on the cheek and such is different. Were you anyone’s first kiss? No. Will you keep your last name when you get married? No, please take that shit away. Where was the last place you held hands at? I'm not sure. If you could live in any home on television what would it be? BITCH take me to the Addams' Family home. Do you think morals are universal or relative to the beliefs, traditions, or practices of individuals or groups? Mostly universal. Like just to give an example, some Christian religions forbid eating shellfish, so while avoiding shellfish is moral to you, is it really immoral to eat it? Is torture ever a good option? If no, why not? If yes, when? No. It's just... so inhuman. Regardless of what one has done, never lose your grip on being one. Be a moral human being. Don't succumb to that evil. What do you think is one one of the most undervalued professions right now? Teaching. Have you ever seen anyone have a heart attack? No, thank Christ. Have you personalized your answering machine/voicemail? No. What’s your favorite horror movie? I really love both The Blair Witch Project films, The Shining definitely joined the top tier when I watched it recently, and The Crazies is great, too. Would you say you have a high sex drive or not so much? I'd say it's normal. What was the worst thing a friend has either done or said to you? Oh boy, who knows. One of the billion things Colleen said and did. Something you feared as a kid but don’t fear anymore? Taking the last answer because it's like the #1 thing: death. It's inevitable, and immortality seems horrible. I just hope I go with the least pain possible. What is your opinion on girls who become obsessed with their boyfriends? lmaooooo been there sweetie, don't do it. Are you biracial? No. What’s the most unique pet you’ve owned? My champagne ball python. Do you have a fence? On either side and at the back of the house. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? Just my psychiatrist. I feel bad for not including Dad, but nightmares fucked me up hard. Does your family use coasters? Is anyone in your family excessively tidy? No. Do you still have your tonsils? Yep. Do you think making out is slutty? ... No...? Well, at least if you're in a relationship and love the person. Just casually doing it, quite honestly yes, I think it's slutty.

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amethystdarkwolf · 6 years ago

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Emotionless Emotionals [Chapter Two]

AU: College

Ship: Eventual Analogical

Warnings, for the entire fic: Swearing, self-harm (both mentions of past and present), Panic attacks, emotional detachment, mentions of past eating disorders, hints of present eating disorders, homophobia,

Word count: 1,715

Okay! So this is a fic based on an Rp I am currently doing with @side-for-sides it’s going to be incredibly long and there are bursts of both angst and fluff.

As it’s ongoing, there may be more warnings added if need be, so be cautious and actually read them before each chapter in case I have updated them.

Hope you enjoy!

[Ch. 1] / [Ch. 2] / [Ch.3] / [Ch.4] / [Etc. Soon]

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Overall, Virgil thought he was settling into the college life extremely well. He was a few weeks in and hadn’t fucked anything up so far, which was nice. His anxiety hadn’t been through the roof since move-in day, which was an incredibly nice change... but he wasn’t surprised when it resurfaced again. He scrambled to unlock the door to his dorm, slamming the door and locking it once he was inside Accidentally startling Logan. He closed his eyes and breathed out a low sigh, sinking and sitting on the ground. "Um..." Logan paused trying to decide whether to ask 'are you okay?' Or 'what happened' Seeing Virgil in an almost panic attack like state he already knew the answer to the first question so he asked the second, "What happened?"

Virgil jumped when Logan awkwardly spoke up, feeling a surge of guilt. “Fuck, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to disturb you,” he said. “It’s stupid, really, don’t worry about it, I really am sorry-“ Logan holds up his hand to non verbally and calmly stop him, "Virgil, it's alright... I wasn't doing anything majorly important, just breathe," He and Virgil had discussed different ways to help Virgil calm down, and seeing how he was currently was he realized that he most likely just needed to be reminded that he was in the safe space, Virgil considered their dorm a safe space, he’s away from people that would make him panic, away from the stressful classes, nothing can hurt him here… "You're safe, it's okay..."

Virgil nodded and focused on his breathing, using the technique that his old therapist taught him: in for four, hold for seven, out for eight. In for four... hold for seven... out for eight... Virgil repeated this exercise and listened to Logan’s soothing words, calming down after a few minutes. He started to apologize, but corrected himself, murmuring, “Thanks for helping me.”

Logan nodded, "it's not a problem, are you okay, now?" He asked to verify before he went to ask about what had caused him to go into that state. Virgil gave him a small nod and slowly stood up, grabbing his small grocery bag. He put his ice cream in the mini fridge, leaving the rest of his snacks on the ground and climbing onto his bed. After a moment’s hesitation, he shifted to one side, hesitantly gesturing to Logan. “Join me?” He asked quietly. Logan paused considering the request before saving his work, shutting his laptop, and making sure it was plugged in so it wouldn't just die, that’s happened to him too many times already. He made his way over to Virgil's bed, sitting down beside him. Virgil’s face turning pink when he did so there was a moment of silence between them until Logan spoke up "So, what happened?" He asked, again, hesitantly.

Virgil chewed at his lip nervously, looking down at his lap. “When I was on my way back from the campus store, a drunk girl started flirting with me.” Better to just blurt it out, get it over with. "Oh...." Logan drew in a sharp breath, "That... Obviously was not very pleasant... That's exactly why I prefer not to leave the dorm on the weekend." He mentioned casually. Virgil snorted dryly at that. “Brilliant observation,” he said sarcastically, though there was no real contempt in his voice. He kept his eyes down, muttering, “Yeah, I’m not used to people... noticing me like that. Especially not girls.” His heart fluttered. Fuck, Logan didn’t know he was gay. Was now a good time to come out? Should he come out? What if Logan found out anyway? He gripped at his sheets, his anxiety starting to grow again.

Logan, obviously, noticed him doing so, but decided not to say anything in case he made it worse and continued the conversation. "Neither am I," he spoke clearly. "I'm not a romantic person so I've not had many relationships that lasted for very long.." He mumbled under his breath. Virgil changed a glance at Logan, his eyes full of curiosity. “I’ve never even been in a relationship before,” he admitted quietly. Logan's expression turned into one of confusion, "I don't see why, you're incredibly nice and-" he cut himself off the second he realized what he was saying, his face flushing red, he cleared his throat, Virgil’s eyes widened at that and he turned away from Logan, his face turning bright red in embarrassment as Logan continued, "Well, um... The relationships I was in weren't anything that spectacular or, special... So I'm not one to give an insight on what being in a relationship would be like..." He explained quickly.

“T-That’s, uh, that’s really nice of you to say,” Virgil managed, picking at his fingernails. “I mean, that’s still more experience than I’ve ever had. I haven’t...” He swallowed nervously, then mumbled, “I haven’t even had my first kiss.” Logan took a breath obviously incredibly hesitant to speak about what he was about to say, "Um... Actually, Virgil, before this conversation goes in the direction I believe it's going, You should probably know... I'm... Gay..." He stated, waiting for Virgil to push him away and call him disgusting as that's how a strangely large portion of straight people acted.

Virgil’s breath caught in his throat and he turned to look at Logan. His eyes were wide and his face was red, but a small, bashful grin crept onto his face regardless. “Dude, same,” he said, feeling most of the tension he had held inside of him release all at once. Logan grinned, "Well then... That makes this so much easier.." He paused to let his nerves calm back down before continuing. "My first kiss was with a guy, back in high school and it was incredibly quick, subtle and meaningless. He just basically pulled me off to the side in the hall between classes it was a quick kiss then we parted... And it meant nothing as we broke up the literal next day so... Again, I can't offer you much..." He shrugged

Virgil listened contently as Logan talked about his first kiss, his heart doing weird things. Why was he so flustered?? Geez! “I want my first kiss to be at least a little special,” he said. “I’ve had a few crushes on guys I went to high school with, but all of them were straight.” Logan sighed, "See that I can't relate to, then again I sort of choose to distance myself from those feelings a bit so emotion doesn't cloud my judgment... I've never fallen for someone and not had the feelings returned, or... Never really fallen for anyone the only reason I've been in a relationship is that it was very difficult to say no at that moment for me for some reason." He shrugged.

“I wish I could distance myself from some of my emotions more,” Virgil admitted. “They can get... messy. And all of my crushes have only led to inevitably finding out they’re straight.” He turned to meet Logan’s eyes again. “I hope you’re able to be in a better relationship one day,” he breathed. Shit, they were sitting really close... Logan caught his bottom lip between his teeth subtly, trying not to think of how close they were, trying not to think of how easily he could kiss him, that'd be ridiculous, he probably only sees him as a platonic friend. He nodded, "and I hope for you to have a mutually beneficial relationship," he stated, his words quiet and almost a whisper, he felt like he should stop and distance himself from this, these feelings but... He didn't want to, not yet at least...

Virgil’s eyes wandered down to Logan’s lips, his breath hitching when Logan’s bottom lip was caught between his teeth. He quickly snapped his gaze up to look at Logan again, praying that he somehow hadn’t noticed his horribly obvious staring... even though Logan was one of the most observant people Virgil had ever met. He opened his mouth slightly to say... what? What was he going to say? His mind was completely blank. His attention was focused on the man in front of him. Logan obviously noticed Virgil staring, he wanted Virgil to say something to break this silence, the way his lips were subtly parted was teasing him, but no... Logan decided to be reasonable, don't let emotions cloud your judgment, Virgil wants his first kiss to be special, not with someone emotionally inept. he thought. Virgil had just started to lean closer when Logan broke the spell of the silence that had fallen over them. He pulled away and let out a very obvious fake cough, clearing his throat harshly, hurting his throat ever so slightly. "I... I have ... Work to finish, a project..." He spoke as he got off the bed and went back to his own hastily, it was almost like he couldn't open his laptop fast enough, he just wanted to get lost in his work forget this happened, forget these feelings, they aren't real they're just really close friends, that's it. They won't be anything more. Ever.

Virgil’s face turned dark red and he quickly moved back even as Logan climbed off of the bed. “Yeah, uh, you do that,” he muttered vaguely, grabbing his phone and turning to face the other way. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Just because he’s gay, doesn’t mean he feels the same way about you, Virgil thought to himself harshly. His eyes started to well up with tears, but he quickly blinked them back. Stupid. He wished he could push his emotions back like Logan. Emotions were stupid and never worked out well for him.

Logan tried to get to work and forget but his thoughts were jumbled, he hated these feelings, these feelings of uncertainty, doubt and inadequacy, they all stemmed because of feelings of trust, comfort and he hates to admit it but possibly even love. He doesn't want to ruin that for Virgil... Ruin this amazing thing for him... He always ends up ruining good things anyway. He then realized as he snapped out of his thoughts that he had gotten absolutely no work done, that he had been completely spacing out. He sighed and finally managed to get to work.

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heelsheadandstandardshigh · 7 years ago

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WIP Meme

I was tagged by @avaalons (who is one of my FAVE readers, btw)

List all the writing projects your currently working on with a bit of detail and tag some friends to do the same.

HERE WE GO!

1. I just submitted Chapter 23 of my first venture into RPF, Lawyered (hosted over at @chrisevans-sexualfrustrations , which is one of my favorite blogs). This is a Chris Evans/OFC fic that I first started when I was in law school, but really started to more actively update after meeting Chris a little over a year ago. (It probably helped that he accidentally grabbed my ass and turned into an adorable, blushing goober.) The story revolves around the friendship that forms between Chris and a law student after a chance meeting at a New York City bakery. As their friendship deepens, neither really knows how to deal with their palpable chemistry. WARNING: This is a major slow burn. 2. Of Whiskey and Tequila is a Leonard McCoy/OFC fic that arose out of my RP blog and my OC’s ongoing main verse relationship with a McCoy RP blog. Though that McCoy blog is largely inactive these days, it sparked the inspiration for this story and has just sort of snowballed from there. This was the first fic I started to write in a very long time after a foray into wrestling fics -- don’t judge-- in high school and WIPs that never really got finished for SPN (Dean/OFC) and Doctor Who/Torchwood (Jack Harkness/Jenny - aka: Ten’s Daughter). It is probably one of my favorite works to date and considering that I do plan on this covering at least up to and through Star Trek Beyond, it has no imminent end in sight. Although, I have finally reached the events of Star Trek into Darkness and Chapter 25 is just about finished. 3. Hell in High Heels (Sebastian Stan/OFC) is honestly the first smut fic I have written and terrified me to write and post. It was inspired by some of my past encounters (not those kind of encounters!) with Sebastian that confused me at first, but became a bit more clear after stumbling upon a few choice quotes of his in interviews. The fic is less of a continuing story and more akin to a collection of one-shots with each chapter themed around a particular pair of high heels (images and links included). Definitely NSFW.

I think that these three fics have kept me more than occupied and will continue to do so for the imminent future. Lawyered does have a general ending date in terms of the timeline, but is just the first story in a series, which does not have an end in my mind quite yet. I also can’t be sure that I’ll finish OWAT prior to the next film in the ST series (considering how long just getting through the gap between ST 09 and STID has taken me), so we’ll see what happens. HIHH is just ongoing and sporadic based on what inspires me.

Trying to think of who to tag here... how about @renntastic because we have lengthy discussions about ridiculous things for the sake of “accuracy” and she is a constant enabler. Also going to tag @iwillcaptainkirkyourfaceoff if she has any WIPs she’s working on because she is not only my beta for all my fics, but a constant sounding board.

#meme #WIPs #this was fun!

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You: When he realized it had only been a week, it finally hit Ron just how exhausted he was. Between the second and ninth of May, there had been so much cleaning up to do, so many funerals to plan and attended, so many details to figure out... Merlin, it almost felt like they were still camping. Just this time there were several more people and full stomachs. He hadn't been sleeping well, and figured no one really was. How could they after all that had happened. Ron scrubbed his face with cold water and looked up into the mirror, before drying his face and hands with a cloth. Dark circles sat below his eyes and he had a gaunt look to him he could never remember seeing. He turned away from his reflection and stepped out of the bathroom, passing the door to the sitting room, before back tracking to see Hermione deep in thought on the sofa. He entered the room and approached her, careful not to give her a fright. They hadn't had time, in all the recent mess, to discuss what they were now. What the kiss had meant. He slowly sat down next to her and heaved a sigh. "Blimey, can you believe it's just been a week? Gin mentioned that to me earlier and practically blew my mind." He paused. "You okay?"

Stranger: A warm tea rested in Hermione's hands as her gaze fixed on the fire. It had been a strange day, returning to the Burrow knowing it didn't feel quite as full. Supper had not seemed entirely right, nearly pretending that Fred wasn't gone, and that things were alright. They had reason to be happy, to celebrate the end of an awful era in history, but there was still so many to mourn, so much grief to feel. In the end it left Hermione's heart feeling heavy. There had been some distraction from it while they were eating, and then as they sat together by the fire and talked, but everyone had gone off to sleep one after the other. Harry and Ginny had been the last to go, heading up the stairs together, earning them both arch of her brow. Now she sat in her silence, in her thoughts, wondering just how she was to proceed from here. As she heard the floorboard creek, she tensed as she looked over to Ron, relaxing a bit as she saw it was only him. Once he sat down beside her, she took a sip of her tea and rested her back against the sofa. "I feel as if it's been hard to tell the passing of time for a while. It's only gotten worse." The months in the tent had really changed that. "I'm not sure yet. I'm alive, and so many of my friends and people I care about are alive as well, but not everybody."

You: The house was silent around them. Ron glanced up to where his mother's clock normally hung, but it was covered with a sheet. She hadn't been able to look at it since Fred's hand had fallen off and Ron couldn't exactly blame her. He kept forgetting his brother was gone and then he'd remember again like a hard punch to the stomach. "I know what you mean," he murmured, raising his brain-scarred arms to rest behind him - and her - on the back of the sofa. "We're so lucky to still be here. It could have been... so much worse." It felt odd to say that, even as his family was in mourning, and yet it was true. "But that doesn't make the bad stuff any less painful, does it?" He had so many questions he wanted to pose, but he didn't want to get the timing wrong. "Anyway, I can't sleep."

Stranger: "No it doesn't. It still hurts." Hermione spoke softly in return, sharing the sentiments of his pain. There was nobody who could tell them how to feel, or how they should feel in this situation. It was something to grapple with minute by minute, day to day. Eventually it would hurt less, the pragmatic side of her knew that, but it did not make it better. Letting out a long a breath, she felt some of the heaviness in her tension lift. Maybe just a few deep breaths could help. "Neither can I. I'm having a really hard time of it actually. Even after it, well, ended, it doesn't feel like the end. It's like I'm in a dream, and every time I wake up, I'm going to wake up from that dream. I'll be back in our tent and Harry will be on watch and it's my turn to stand outside and wait."

You: He had to hold back a bitter laugh. "I keep wondering if we'll find clues to even more horcruxes. That he won't really be gone, again, and there'll be even more work to do." He rubbed at his face with one hand and sighed. "Doesn't help that there are still Death Eaters out there." Dolohov, Yaxley, Runcorn - and so many more had been in hiding since the war ended. Kingsley and several other Order members were working with the Ministry Aurors to track them down and bring them to justice. Still, for all they knew a new leader was forming. None as terrible as You-Know-Who, but it still meant more worry. "So in it's own awful way it hasn't ended, even now. I mean, when we were kids it almost felt like a game, you know? The Devil's Snare, the chess match. Life threatening, but a game. This is just..." There wasn't a word heavy enough.

Stranger: "It's harrowing." Hermione could not help herself from finishing the sentence, her mind have put her feelings into a sentiment. That did not begin to describe every emotion they felt, all the joy and pain they would experience, but the distress was captured. Tilting her head, she leaned in onto Ron's arm that rested behind her, eyes still fixed to the flames of the fire, yet to meet his. "I don't think I entirely understood the gravity back then, when were younger. I wouldn't change any of it though. Meeting Harry, going through all of this with him, being a part of it. It's surreal when you think about it, but I never thought I was fighting a war. I was just being his friend."

You: Ron turned his head slightly as she did and met her eyes, illuminated by the firelight. He settled a bit closer to her, finding comfort in Hermione's presence as he had so long ago in Grimmauld Place. "You not understanding something? I don't believe it," he teased, always needing to make light of a situation. But he nodded solemnly just after in total agreement. "It felt normal. Just what anyone would do for their mate." He'd started to understand, recently, what Harry meant when he said he had never tried to be the hero. He was just doing what had been natural, the same way helping him and standing by his side had been natural. Even on a broken leg. "Blimey, we were a bit nuts. Still... like you said, I'd do it all again." He half nodded his head as he considered his own words. "Well, might be a few things I'd change."

Stranger: "Funny." The corner of her lip twitched up for a moment in what could have manifested into a smile on most other days of her life. Today it was a bit harder. Her eyes lingered on his for a moment, taking in the blueness of them, how they too looked as tired as her eyes felt. This was able to get a smile out of her, small, barely there, but present for just a moment. Turning back to the fire, she rested her head onto his shoulder as she sipped at her tea once more. "What would you change?" Hermione asked curiously, voice still soft and quiet like the room around them. It was then she realized they hadn't been alone together in some time, just the two of them.

You: He had thought, for a moment, he wouldn't get a smile from her. But it did bloom as he had hoped, if small and short. Gone in a flash like it might not have ever been. He sighed at the question, not sure which to pick first. "Definitely wouldn't have done the spiders. That was a waste of time." He shivered just thinking about it. "Might have been nicer to that annoying girl in my first year. Course, then I might not have gotten to save her from a troll, so..." He trailed off, not really wanting to move on to his biggest regret. He had the feeling, though, that she knew it without him even needing to voice it. That which he was most ashamed of. "I wouldn't have left you. And Harry. That night." He cleared his throat and looked away, cheeks a bit pink.

Stranger: "Yes maybe I wave a regret about letting myself cry over what people had to say about me. It also lead me to one of my best friends who has done years of making up for it. And also years of making me go mental. Maybe it evens out." By no means did Ron and Hermione have an easy friendship. It was a relationship of growth, reflecting their development into the people they were now. Who was to say if all the problems they had before would continue on in the future. She was not surprised as Ron mentioned his regret, the one answer she had been expecting to hear. "At least you know it was bad." Hermione could not pretend to be okay with him leaving, almost feeling personally betrayed by the act. It had struck her deeply. "You came back in the end. That's what matters."

You: He felt a small smile twitch at his own lips. Blimey, did they make each other mental. He could count his number of fights with Harry on one hand; with Hermione, there had been a time when ongoing fights merged with new fights. And all the while she was still his best friend. Ron swallowed hard and nodded, only half believing her. "Well, at least me coming back brought the sword and a dead locket." He could remember it mocking him, the sneers and the glares and the kiss. He'd never told Hermione. Never would, if he could help it. He looked away and couldn't hold some of his questions back any more. "Is that all we are still? Best friends?"

Stranger: As Ron breached the question, she took a moment, a pause to think over what he had said. It was the question that had been mulling over in her mind now that the heightened emotions of war were settling. "Well regardless of anything we still would be best friends." That's not something she wanted a snog to change or ruin. "Whether if that's all we are, well, I think we've made that a bit complicated." At their base, they were friends, but now could they be something more. The tops of cheeks glowed a soft pink as she remembered their lips pressed together, the intensity of the moment. "Do you think it was just the moment?" Hermione asked suddenly, looking up to him. It had been the question on her mind, the one she felt herself mulling over.

You: Ron couldn't help but snort at the word 'complicated.' He supposed that was the right word for it, all the turmoil and questions and thoughts of ifs and buts. How he'd spent his already sleepless nights thinking about that kiss to keep from thinking about darker, sadder, worse things. And Hermione was right - or at least he hoped she was right. Could their friendship last with all these questions dogging them? He could feel her staring up at him but he continued to stare into the flames a moment or two longer. This answer would change everything, for better or worse. He was standing at a precipice and, like the brave lion he was, knew to jump. He had to disregard any possibility of rocks below. "No. I mean, I think the world falling apart helped." Ron cleared his throat and finally met her gaze. "But no. I think- I mean, I... It was a long time coming. For me, at least." It was almost a relief to see Hermione blush, because damn if his ears didn't feel hot.

Stranger: "I think there was some inevitability in it, yes." She didn't mean to come across as unemotional or detached, but there was a pragmatic nature about her she could not shirk. It was hard to express what had been bits and pieces of their history. Feelings for him she did not like that she had, that she had tried to ignore. He made it easy to do when he constantly found ways to bother her, often without even trying. Even in her anger, at the peak of it when he had left her and Harry, she still felt an ache due to the lack of his presence. "I don't want to lose you as a friend. I don't want to be angry with you either. You mean so much to me." These were thoughts that didn't quite string together. So much of her anger had come from the place she was in now. Partly at herself for not knowing what she wanted, or why she felt the way she did, and partly at Ron for making her feel this way, for this uncertainty. Her eyes flitted to his lips subconsciously, returning back to his eyes again.

You: Well, if that didn't sound like the Hermione he knew, he didn't know what would. Much as she might mock him for having a small emotional range, she often fell back into sounding like a textbook. There was some inevitability to their kiss as there had been to the goblins rebelling in fifteen-whatever. It drove him mad - and didn't he just love it? Ron shared her worries, though. If they moved forward with this, it would affect their friendship. And they did fight. A lot. But in trying to hold onto something good they might miss out on something great. "You mean a lot to me, too, 'Mione" he answered, gently taking her tea from her hand and placing it on the table. This done, he took one of her hands in his own. Blimey, did he want to kiss her. This step is where he had always faltered, though. The first time was always hardest - not that this was their first time, but it certainly felt like it. Both first-times that he'd had before had been initiated by the girl. Would kissing her cross a line? "Maybe we could try it again? See if it feels... like it did. Without a sodding war going on in the background."

Stranger: Her eyes followed the movement of his hand as he took the cup from hers only to have his fingers find hers. The weaved together with his, her small palm fitting inside his. Silence had always been her friend, a constant companion in her studies, but right now even the silence felt loud. Was it her own breath, her heart, or just her thoughts that seemed to make it that way? She felt herself leaning in as her body turned to his, before his words cut the silence, changing the moment. The eye roll that followed was habitual at this point, a sort of reflex to the things Ron said. "Ronald, are you really asking?" There was almost a laughter in her voice though, an lightness to it despite the roll of the eyes. When they had snogged last it had been so dramatic, so momentous. They weren't running toward each other know, leaping into arms, but somehow the suspense made this feel even more dramatic.

You: He was flushing further towards red and wondered if he was ruining it before it had even started. She'd turned towards him and then he had to be stupid and ask. It had seemed like the thing to do, be a gentleman or whatever, but it wasn't right still. He couldn't do this right. Still, Ron felt almost empowered by her saying his name, like when it had come floating up and out of the Diluminator. His free hand rose to cup her cheek and then he was kissing her. Even without the worry of losing her tomorrow, the desperation of finally, finally - without all of that, the kiss still sent shockwaves down his spine. He leaned a bit further into her, hoping she felt the same, praying they could make this madness work.

Stranger: There was a soft smile on her lips before they met Ron's, softly pressing against his as. It was just her lips against his, not moving yet, simply feeling the warmth of their lips as a swooping sensation came into her chest. As she began to move her lips slowly, she leaned into his hand at her cheek. The feeling in her stomach rose to her chest, prompting Hermione to reach her hand out and place it on his neck. Pulling back slightly, ending their slow, tender, curious kiss, she kept her nose resting against his, their lips still close together.

You: Ron wasn't sure when he'd shut his eyes, but as Hermione pulled back, he finally realized they were closed. They sat there like that just a moment, noses and foreheads touching, the only sound their breathing. His eyes fluttered open and he scanned what of her he could see. His thumb lightly caressed her cheek and he hoped beyond hope he wasn't dreaming this. That exhaustion hadn't taken him while he sat on this sofa. His eyes fell back shut and he leaned to kiss her again, this time hoping for a bit more.

You: [[I hate to do this to you, now of all points, but I've gotta go. It's 2 am here and I should get to bed.]]

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#Harry Potter rp #omegle #romione

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