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Going by mylestoyne headcanon of arthur i feel like he and jaime had a similar relationship to that of sansa/joffrey. Like not being cappable of acknowledge that they are 🌠crazy🌠 for a while
What so you think?
idk what Lee’s exact hcs are, but I think Arthur is a very functional character in canon anyway. He exists more as a romanticized concept to most characters than an actual human being. He is a legend personified, and I am obviously not gonna be shocked if George is gonna reveal things about him that will deconstruct his myth more. I personally do not think Arthur is on the level of someone like Joff though, nor would I find that to be necessary to subvert his character. He is the legendary knight for Jaime, as Joff is prince charming for Sansa, sure, like I think you can apply parallels to their quixotic view of such things, but I do not think the twist would have to be him revealed to be someone deeply evil or cruel or fucked up in the head for it to still be thematically meaningful.
Some passages that I do find very informative so far though:
This is a very symbolically rich ritual that is happening here. Even Jaime himself specifically points out how young he was. The language is very interesting: “bled anew” and “a boy knelt; a knight rose”. The language used is establishing a form of parallel between the monster that little girls face (marriage, bridal slavery) with the monster that little boys do (knighthood). These are violent and fatal constructs designed around gender by westerosi society. Just as Arthur seems to embody the virtues of knighthood (his chivalry, his martial prowess), he seems to perpetuate its flaws too. The image that is being conjured here is the sacrifice and bleeding of a 15 year old boy at the altar of knighthood, along with the whole coming of age parallel. But still, there is a darker layer to it that clearly comes across.
This is not a groundbreaking interpretation or anything but I also think Arthur is supposed to be the embodiment of an idealistic image that covers up systemic cracks:
Ned is faced with a certain reality in this dream. One very relevant to him in particular since his relationship with honor. The Kingsguard are upholding their vows above all else. Based on what Gerold says, it is not just about loyalty to Rhaegar, but also Aerys, who they know to be a maniacal tyrant, and we know to be a man ready to commit mass murder on the scale of about half a million people. I said this before but the Kingsguard abide by deeply flawed moral constructs that are designed to serve a feudalistic system. It is framed as more moral for them to passively stand by and serve their king as he commits atrocities than to protect the innocent:
We do also know that Arthur was closer to Rhaegar than anyone else on the KG, so his actions of passivity and following orders might not have been the same as a blind loyalty to his vows. Rhaegar wanted to make changes, he tells this to Jaime directly before riding to his doom. Arthur could very well have been acting primarily in the hopes of serving Rhaegar’s supposed better world. We have ways that he is characterized, and i think he is juxtaposed with Gerold enough to establish conflict in his character and frames him pretty differently. That still does not change the reality and consequences of his actions though.
Another key passage:
This paints him in a pretty moral light. However, how I read Jaime’s description of this: I do not think that can be conflated with a purely altruistic desire to aid the smallfolk. Gaining their love was a tool for a goal, a means to an end: getting the Kingswood Brotherhood. Sure, the effects of that are objectively good, and it meaningfully aids smallfolk, so one could argue that these things matter little, but there is a key issue here. There is an ulterior motive. The moment your goals do not allign with morally good actions, and your king does things that makes the people suffer, the whole thing falls apart. This is something that Jaime’s AFfC arc deals with constantly. It is how I read the golden hand, the one that covers up the ugliness of his stump. He should know this, the kingslayer will always be more honorable than golden hand the just. True “honor” does not come with glory (you better leave that horse behind my guy).
Nonetheless, I believe George does really like to play around with the idea that, at the end of the day, his characters are not just gods, monsters, or legends, but humans. They are also not just metaphors. There is a lot on the shoulders of a man that is a living legend. Many will inevitably crumble under that weight, so that is another interesting layer worthy of exploration. Arthur could have been a man with good intentions who was “soiled by the white cloak” along the way.
In terms of the relationship of these two, I want Jaime to realize that Arthur Dayne is not the one he should try to emulate.
He might have dreamed of him as a young boy, but he dreamed of Brienne as an adult.
but if you hc him as westerosi patrick bateman thats funny asl too
#this is longer than it should have been but i didnt ever talk about arthur in depht anyway#also unedited so might be full of mistakes idc tho#barely slept today#arthur dayne#asoiaf#valyrianscrolls#jaime lannister#brienne of tarth#knighthood#ask
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Elrond: I have a migraine.
Galadriel: Ibuprofen's in the bathroom cabinet.
Elrond: I'd rather suffer. Wake me up in two days. Peace.
#You get an extra quote today cause I got hot chocolate and can't sleep(slept all day so can't sleep tonight)#What last night was like between me and my mother#I hate taking meds for pain or just meds in general#I barely got out of bed today and probably won't do much tomorrow either#I get ocular migraines and last night I was seeing sparkly stars in my vision which is different from the black holes I usually get.#lotr#lord of the rings#incorrect lord of the rings quotes#incorrect quotes#elrond#lotr elrond#elrond peredhel#galadriel#lotr galadriel
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#watcher#watcher entertainment#ryan bergara#shane madej#steven lim#buzzfeed unsolved#buzzfeed worth it#ghost files#watcher weekly#shane is a demon#sleep paralysis demon#puppet history#I have an exam today and I barely slept help
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quick bojan again
#havent slept today and instead of taking a nap in the morning i had to wait 5 hours for the man to show up to fix my filters lmao#and now the whole day is just....sitting here barely alive waiting til the evening so i can pass out#we love#l o v e#art#joker out fanart#joker out
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Attention seeking
[MC doting on needy Asmo and Belphie]
Lucifer: MC, stop coddling them. They just want attention.
Belphie/Asmo: And?
MC: What’s wrong with wanting attention? Even you want attention sometimes. Exhibit 1: three nights ago, you sent me a text at 11:43pm saying “MC, are you awake, per chance?”
Asmo: No way! You seriously sent a “You up?” text?
Lucifer: I had the decency to use proper grammar.
Belphie: You could have just been honest and said you were trying to get laid.
Lucifer: Oh? Like you lot are any better.
Asmo: Uhm, yeah. For example, the other night, I sent MC a text saying, “I was about to take a bath, but then I thought about you. How about you come over and we get real dirty before we get clean 🩷”
Belphie: And I sent them a text that said, “MC, Lucifer was so mean to me today. I overslept a little after staying up late to complete the assignment he insisted I finish, so he lectured me for 2 whole hours. I’m so upset. Can you come hit it until I forget it. It being the lecture. Or the day. Or how to think. I’m not picky. Just cum here soon.”
Lucifer: You’re both shameless.
MC: He spelled that last “come” c-u-m, by the way. But honestly, Lucifer. I can stop indulging everyone if that suits your tastes.
Lucifer: . . .
MC: So, that’s settled. Now, let me cuddle my precious baby boys. You can join too, Lucifer.
#chat with the bisexual flag brothers#take this offering and wish me luck today. I barely slept and I won’t be able to go to bed for another 21hours or so#I’ve also had a headache for +3 hours and it’s making me nauseous now… woo#lucifer#asmodeus#belphegor#gn!mc#obey me chat text#obey me#obey me lucifer#obey me asmodeus#obey me belphegor
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a fun little thing about growing up as a chronically ill child with invalidating parents is that as an adult i feel like a criminal when i call out of work
#what if i’m not sick enough to miss things!!!!!#what if i’m making excuse to get out of having to do work!!!!!#what if i’m making it up!!!!!!#i understand that i’m a grown ass adult who is recovering from covid calling out of *one* more day of work#i know this#i also simultaneously feel like i’m being hunted for sport#i barely slept last night debating whether or not to go in today#which of course does not help the situation#:/#chronic illness
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Kinda cool to think that in two weeks, there's just gonna be everyone's Rook everywhere before the place goes silent for a bit lmao
Have to admit though, I am looking forward to seeing how everyone's Rooks and Inquisitors are gonna look now that the CC seems a bit more versatile lol
#dragon age#veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard#datv#she talks!#yapping#wheee 2 weeks today til it preloads on the ps5#but it preloaded yesterday on my xbox so ive hidden the achievements page so i dont look lmao#incredibly bad english but i barely slept last night tbf rip
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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!
#cats#holiday#OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few#days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart#rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart#so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag#and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day#last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few#hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent#ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect#because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make#me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these#'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a#few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is#getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better#and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo#I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c#Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after#like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was#doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally#ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully#whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos#ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely#though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart#stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive#things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***
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I think one thing that is increasingly confusing me is the people obsessively trying to push for like some universal definition of what a woman is. As a trans woman, I've thought about my gender identity and my sex for a long time now. I've always had this weird relationship with considering myself male trying to become female, always being a female but my soul being stuck in the wrong body, someone that's socially constructed themselves into feeling female, someone that had a genetic predisposition to being trans and sometimes wondering if what I'm doing absolves me of an identity.
I think there's something odd about trying so hard to push being female into this strict tight label. Any definition is going to end up excluding some people. Some women can't have children, some women don't exhibit socially stereotypical aspects of themselves, some women don't follow the beauty standards of white women and some of us don't have the same genitals.
I myself have been called a trap and lusted over because of my feminine body yet male genitalia. That kind of thing has left me confused and sometimes made me feel extremely uncomfortable. But because I didn't know what the correct way to see myself was, I just uncomfortably agreed to whatever stuff was ascribed to me by others.
From what I understand, cis women can also find it difficult to fully understand what it means to be a woman, to be female and so on. We don't have as strict standard paths towards femininity and womanhood anymore. Not all women have to marry and be housewives. Not all women have to bear children. And not all women have to even look like women.
So, how do you even define your womanhood?
My own conclusion is that thinking on it this deeply isn't going to satisfy me or give me the needed answers. I don't know. I just feel female. I identify as female. I am female. I am a woman. I don't feel the same need to think or worry about it so much anymore. I feel like finding comfort in who you are is nice. It's a good way to be. Lately I just find safety in knowing I can just be myself and not care much. It feels like those that really want to push for a concrete label are most interested in controlling us. I don't think this is just a trans issue. I think this is a women's issue in general. It's a right's issue. It's a patriarchy issue.
And well, I see a great deal of joy from trans men seeing themselves as men too.
I think if we're to break apart this strict gender binary and this patriarchal system, we have to make it so gender roles become pointless. So that there's so many ways to view and understand yourself, that you can feel happy and comfortable with yourself, without having to punish others for "falling out of line" with their own identity. I think the simple way in which I understand myself as female is wonderful. There's no need for debates, for weird "male" or "female" sex. Just say how you feel. We already have a new set of words that can describe decisions we couldn't consent to. That's why AMAB and AFAB exist.
You're you. You don't need to be anyone else. So just embrace yourself.
#rant#lgbtq#lgbt#queer#gender#trans#transgender#transblr#a little rant on gender identity#gender identity#i've barely slept today please help
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today MIGHT be tenma day :]
#inazuma eleven#matsukaze tenma#my beloved silly... yesterday i barely slept because i wanted to draw smth for today but i was art blocked and I DID IT FINALLY#happy tenma day i love him 😞😞#draw tag
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HEYYYYYYY CHAT ITS USSS
HEY GUYS! It’s me and my fuckin hot as hell wifu and we are vlogging TODAY inside the VCT-Tech jail cell 😎😎😎😎😎😎
So basically when we woke up we had these weird ass suits on :((((
there’s these weird masks on us and they are uncomfortable as FUCK! Also these weird straw things are coming out of them. Tbh I have no guesses on what they are for
they Uhm- kinda restrict us from using out hands and in my case my wings, BUT! I still can use my tail so I used it to log on and post this 🔥🔥🔥🔥
These mfs have been watching us the whole time! Hell these even watched me log onto tumbler! Surprised they aren’t doing anything nor did they ever even take our phones away! We both have them and everything else we had on us!
there’s some weird electric force field thing preventing us from leaving rn so yeah-
Also this weird key hole thing is on our masks :(
I think you need some weird key or just a lock pick to take them fully off, annoying as balls. Tbh maybe I can try to use my tail to pick them off..
Anyways chat just thought we’d say hi!
also Uhm Tanya, prism, fushi, blacky, halo, sode pop, blast, P, Xavier (I guess but still I hate you bitch boy), coffee I guess, and oleander if she does that thing where she magically shows up on tumbler during the middle of a big drama can y’all help us?????? :(
it’s really boring in here, the Clyde’s are no fun and this room has nothing in it. Just us and we are inside a boring as fuck metal box because I guess the ceo bitch didn’t want to add anything here…
you know I feel like I have seen this before…. Eh maybe something similar happens in SSS :(
( @thesunlightvoid @Tanya4455 )
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#undertale#grillby#grillby/reader#oof extra#shorby#guys listen listen#i slept literally 20 hours on monday#i was a vegetable today and i am just barely coming back to life
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brb gonna take a power nap
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I don't care if the texts are about what you're eating for dinner, I'll take all the crumbs I can get !!
LMAO yeah okay here you go. And upon reading them this morning it wasn't that funny so idk why I was laughing almost hysterically last night about it ahskalslal
#not snz#he's so right i did sound insane lmao#i always manage to forget how weird i get when I'm overly tired ahskalsl#in my defense i was texting my fire coworkers like this too ahskalslal#six of them texted me to make sure i survived my drive home and a few texted me later in the evening to make sure i was still alive#i got progressively weirder the longer the day went on lmao#passed out at like 11pm which is unheard of for me#it's 10am now and honestly i still don't feel like i slept enough#vaguely headachy and still kinda tired#i know migraine hangovers are A Thing but I've never had one so maybe I'm just going crazy fr lmao#at least i don't have to do anything today#also several people i know said to drink caffeine??? like will that not make it worse?????#the most caffeine i consume is maybe a cup of black tea and that's not even everyday#it just makes me so tired lmao and doesn't caffeine make headaches worse#i think the coworkers are just trying to fuck with me idk#i am kinda hungry tho i barely ate yesterday bc i was nauseous af#maybe food will fix me#partner posting
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the thing you need to remember is that luo binghe is a domesticated yandere. he learned that you can't make other people love you or choose you.
now for shen qingqiu... what do you call a character that treats you like a child and doesn't respect your agency but comes to learn from his mistakes and in fact makes a point to have good communication with his partner? a bad dilf? milf? a domesticated bitch?
#svsss#that's for today's randomness#i barely slept three hours orz#im tired i want to sleep but i gotta work#thinking about svsss stimulates me
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Normally I’m a hard avoidant person when things go to shit, but for some reason I have been so attached to feeds/updates about Quinn these last few days, and now with the episode about to air, and knowing basically everything that’s been going on I’m even MORE stressed, and wish I could just skip the episode 😭 he’s just a funny little guy please let him stay 😭
#bb26#I barely slept too because I kept being like this is his last night so enjoy the feeds#and I even watched until they cut it off for today#Quinn#Quinn Martin
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