#bad maymay

[mayax81]

The Spell

On the 12th of October, I went to the river.

There are six known fashions of interacting with other worlds in Kingdom Hearts lore. The first is by dark portal. The second is by Gummi Ship. The third is by wayfare suit and skif. The fourth is by the Power of Waking. The fifth is by starfall, the likes of which Kairi landed on the Destiny Islands, Mickey bounced about the cosmos, and Roxas entered the final battle in his new replica body. Finally, the sixth is by bottle message at sea.

Words of the spell:

"Thine resurrections "Be faithful, O Phoenix. "Our shared sky watch over you. "Heavens keep you. "Love reach you. "Thine foes be as mice 'neath wise, silent wings."

Contents of the letter:

Love confession, Image of Papou Fruit, Spell

Components:

Music (optional), Image, Letter, Red String (Connection), White Ribbon (Love), Bottle, Altar Cloth (I chose green, for the color of his eyes), Herbs (Earth) (Rosehip, Lavender), Match/Lighter, Wax (Seafoam, Red) & Seal (if applicable), 8 Candles, (Fire) (+Holders, if applicable), Offering Containers (Water), Feather (Air) (Pelican), Athame, Boline, Statues (I chose wolf and fox), Fatebeads (Red, Black, Seafoam, Red string), Stones (I chose Turquoise, Variscite, Chalcedony, Rose Quartz, Fire Opal, Emerald, Eclipse Pendant, Petrified Wood, Sand Dollar, Quartz Lunar & Solar Wheel, Tiger's Eye, Beach Agate, Moonstone, Sunstone, Coral, Celestine), Offering Coin (if applicable) (CH'IEN-LUNG)

If you have alternative components affiliated with Axel, substitute or add them freely. Both he and Deity Loki share certain traits, so I've incorporated them, as well.

Preparation:

Write and draw the contents of the letter (the image of the papou fruit, your love confession, and the spell.)

Lay down your altar cloth and arrange the other items in a way that best speaks to your intention (for an Axel-oriented spell, arrangements that emphasize the numbers 4 or 8 are more suitable.)

The athame & boline should have been used to harvest any organic items.

Process:

Please use fire responsibly--you must take absolute care with it if you choose to use it instead of its substitutes.

It is also crucial to clean up after yourself. Avoid littering, and protect our shared environment.

Lay out your altar space. Witches say the phase of the lunar cycle (and others) is important--I've chosen to initiate this on the waxing gibbous moon because the weather is proper and the intention of the spell is simple--I wish to confess my love into the void.

Write your confession on a parchment of your choosing. I've chosen brown-tinted sketch paper.

Whisper the spell as you adorn your parchment in whichever iteration of Flame feels right to you. I've chosen colored wax.

Place your finished parchment in a sealed bottle.

So as to avoid littering, simply run water over this bottle (or dunk in a nearby body of natural water). All waters on our planet eventually run together, so most molecules that touch its surface will see the sea at one point or another.

Cross your fingers, place them over your heart, close your eyes, and whisper, "May our hearts be our guiding keys," to complete the spell.

The spell I made for the Subway Bosses of Pokemon, if anyone is interested

[thefloatingstone]

So my friend's been keeping me up to date on Veilguard

[sharingoreozwithbeelfox]

The "IT GAVE BIRTH" spider TikTok but it's the brothers freaking out when Satan was born

[diamondnokouzai]

theres a cat outside freaking out my baby maymay and i cant get to it because its undera big fuckin evergreen bush

[scrubbinn]

Mimic Memoirs: Walk with me

HRT month 23

The streets of Hyper city

Picking up Erian from a halloween party

The city lights had long since dimmed. Halloween had passed hours ago, and now Dr. Theodore Hans Erian was walking back home in the empty streets well past four in the morning. His form and general mood would tell anyone that he was completely wasted on alcohol.

A small round car rolled up slowly behind the doctor. Trying to keep pace with the erratic rhythm of a man who clearly had none, even when sober.

“Theo. Buddy.” Mayday called out in a tone that would normally be perceived as irritated, “could have sworn you said you’d wait at THEMS for me to pick you up. Why didn’t you wait?”

Theo shouted back in a boozy breath, “Ms. Maymay! How wonderful to see you here! The night is young. What is on the schedule?”

“The schedule says we’re getting you home, you lousy loon. Seriously, I can’t believe you decided to bring a whole bottle of gin with you to a halloween party. IN A CARE CENTER OF ALL PLACES!!” She said, trying not to wake the whole neighborhood.

Mayday pushed open the car door in the back and dragged Erian into it. She let out a sigh as she confirmed no one was watching and mistaking this for a kidnapping. 

She scowled at him. “Fine, whatever. I am too tired for this. What was your address again? 350 something street. Ugh, forgot it’s like half an hour away. Ok, well, just make sure you’re comfortable. Don’t spill anything in my car, or I’m making you pay for a new one.”

“Well if it makes you feel any more comfortable. It was a travel sized bottle.” He spoke with the certainty that this would make Mayday happier to hear.

Erian began to mutter. “No, not the needles…”

The small round clunky car puttered out onto the empty streets. The lights of the city streamed into the car like flowing water in slow motion. The sounds of the city were barely present with only the hum of the engine to keep the two company. Soon, the street lights grew dimmer as the apartments and offices disappeared. Eventually, the number of street lights were equaled by the number of trees. It had already been 15 minutes before something caught her attention.

She called to him, “Theo? Are you asleep?” 

Erian muttered again “look out Mayday… I'll save the… snore”

An eye peered from the back of her neck. She saw his face smooshed against the car window and completely conked out. Mayday briefly thought about recording this. Her boss, drunk and asleep. Arguably one of the most important people in Hyper city, having a bad dream.

She couldn't help but smile. “Thanks for the save, I owe you one.”

“You have to go now…”

Mayday froze for a second. “I'm sorry, what did you say there boss?”

“...go now, I don't want… look at you.” Erian's mutterings grew fainter, turning into light snores.

Mayday’s grip on the wheel grew tighter. “Mood killer,” she said.

The suburbs of Hyper city were dark. Barely a single light remained on. Anyone from a world that had halloween had already snuffed out their pumpkin's flames. The only motion was the cold winds blowing winter inward. Every so often, it howled off of knot holes and windows. It was oddly calming tonight. The screaming cold winds made it too loud for Mayday to get stuck in her thoughts. It should feel moody and frightening. Instead, it was just peaceful.

“No, no, no, no!!!” Mayday screamed as she rushed out to check the damages.

Suddenly, the car's engine began to sputter. Smoke rose from the hood as the car slowly came to a stop.

He cleared his throat and spoke confidently. “Allow me, Ms. Mulberry. It may have been a long time ago, but I know a thing or two about motor vehicles.

Erian, now awake from the smell and the shouts, tried to get a bearing of his surroundings. He saw the hood pulled up and decided to follow. His assistant, fanning away smoke as she stared in horror, clearly unfamiliar enough with cars to have no idea where to start.

She looks at him with suspicion. “Look I appreciate your help, but I don't trust a drunk to fix my car.” 

“Oh, you can see the damage right here. It looks like you have a gas leak. I know a good temporary fix,” he said as he ignored her. “This will just take…”

He spent the next few minutes attempting to keep his hands steady, holding out a scrap of cloth. Eventually, Mayday had to tie it around the leaky tube herself.

“Ah, perfect. Just another nugget of wisdom for you,” he said. “Now that will hold for a day. Do you have a spare tank?”

“This isn't a minivan, I don't pack spare gas in my car. I'll have to push it to the nearest station.”

“You steer. No offense, but I think you're a little too old for this sort of manual labor,” she smirked.

“I'll help you push Ms. Mulb-waugh!” Erian was cut off as Mayday gently pushed him into the driver seat.

He fought back, “I'll have you know these gray hairs are from stress, not age.” 

Her smug aura grew even more at that comment. Retorting, “That's sad. Guess you can relax in the car seat as you steer. Have fun Dr. Drunk driver.”

“So… How was your party?” He spoke.

The car slowly trotted along the road. Erian stuck inside, keeping the vehicle moving straight ahead. After a time of awkward silence, he rolled down the window.

“After you ignored my warnings and nearly got yourself killed. I warned you about using that book. But no one listens to the trained professionals!” He shouted.

Mayday grunted out each sentence in time with a step. “Eh, it was ok. Met some friends again. We got to chat for a while. They helped clean up. Honestly though. I hate parties. I just needed to be around people. After. You know.”

Mayday made note that Erian doesn't seem to have a filter when under the influence.

“Sorry. You were right. It was a dumb idea. You get one win.” she said.

He turned to look at her with fire in his eyes. “I deserve a hundred. Do you know the effort I put into my life's work?! I'm the best doctor ever! And no bone headed patient or government official is going to take me down!”

Mayday can't help but smile at his own bone headed statements. He's allowed a little bit of pride.

“How do you do it boss?” she asked

He thought about it for a bit before responding. “Well first a witch will find you.”

She blinked. “What? No. I mean, how do you get proactive in a community? I want to know how you make such a big impact on the world. My friends, the people at the party. They're active, they make changes they want to see, they don't run in fear, and they stand and fight. They impact the whole world with a single step forward. I've only gone backwards.”

Erian let out a loud sigh and mumbled to himself, “What a time to start sobering up.”

He gently pressed down on the brake pedal and stepped out of the car. He stared at Mayday for a few seconds, thinking of the words to give her.

At last he spoke, “I'll help push, I know you can steer and push at the same time.”

He took off his lab coat and placed it on Mayday's shoulders. It barely had any effect on the frigid night, but it was a nice gesture regardless, and despite her protests, the extra muscle helped move the car along faster, even if Mayday could tell she was still putting in most of the work.

Mayday couldn’t help but stare at him in confusion. “What fortune cookie did you steal that ridiculous thing from?”

Eventually, the two made it to the gas station, and Mayday started pumping gas into the tank. Erian walked out of the store with a bag of doughnuts and other assortments. The coffee stains in his mustache showed he was fully sober at this point.

“You know what, Ms. Mulberry, I gave some thought to your question. I think you're undervaluing yourself a bit. Often, we hear about the exploits of others and think very little of our own deeds. Sometimes, a simple kind gesture is all you need. Just because you haven’t seen it, doesn’t mean your words haven’t saved others. Small kindnesses are what let your friends do big things.” He spoke with certainty as he handed Mayday a pack of heat pads.

“I’m offering you the sage advice of experience! You should be grateful!” He barked.

“Ah, there’s the Erian I know.”

The sun had started to rise as light reflected off the metal signs of the gas station. Cutting clear blue sky throughout the scenery.

Erian bit into one of his doughnuts and, after some grumbles, decided to reply, “Well if you must know. I learned that sort of thing from all of you. You don’t spend your best years helping a group like yours without having some understanding rub off on you.”

The ground was all Mayday could look at in response to his words. “I’ll… I think I’ll keep what you told me under consideration for now.

He stared longingly into the distance. “Now then, I think I can manage a walk back home from here. Give me a call if anything comes up at the clinic today. I might be asleep, though.”

“I’m sorry, what did you say? You think I’m letting you just take a day off when I spent an hour searching for you to begin with? My car is busted. I deserve the day off. If I don't see you in that building in four hours, I will end you,” she spoke calmly.

Mayday looked at him with a smile across her face, now with a better understanding of her boss.

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Erian smiled as he walked off into the sunrise. And then proceeded to walk faster as Mayday gave chase. Confident that everything would be ok, and that he could lose her in the suburbs eventually.

Mention list: @a-shramp, @calliecwrites, @be702, @respectfulevil, @hyacinthdoll1315

@aster-is-confused, @bloodandbrandywyne, @glitchgloop, @nyxthewary, @lunadook,

@celestemysterios, @i-am-trans-gwender, @reliablegal, @bookmothic-dyke

[mcondance]

It's award season (unconfirmed)! Give some of your mutuals silly little awards.

@hanasnx hi indy!! u get the writing idol turned moot turned someone i need to kiss award i love u and ur writing hi

@kazushawty gets the best themes award!!! her themes r always insane (miss seein u on the dashboard karmalicious <3)

@rayemelanin gets the funniest mf around award. even when she’s thirsting she’s on some comedy shit 😭 love her lil brain blurbs <3

@cybercandy1 gets the first mootie award <3 love u bae <3

@prettyfilmz gets the just like me fr award!! we rlly share a brain like we rlly think the same

@loversreligion gets the sexiet moot award. she so damn bad.

@takemichiluvr gets the perfect supporter award. always reblogging n showing love

@rkivian maude u get the cutest blog award. it's so aesthetic n cute :3

@toruro gets the fastest moot award. mika you write soo much and it's all so good like.

@clemleur gets the GET A FUCKING JOB award (just kidding i love you maymay you get the og award :3)

@cognacrevived youuu get the most entertaining asks award. i love your little updates and perfume rants and everything. still thinking about that scrumptious looking bread.

@mmamina gets the most insanity inducing award. you... you make me crazy man.

[skaruresonic]

About Sonic 3, I feel the only reason the fandom (and what I assume is non-fandom becayse most of their exposure to Maria as a character amounts to "she dies lmao") wants to see her death on-screen so much is because it'll be a "funni maymay" like "this kid-friendly movie has a freaking child get shot on-screen, funniest shit I've ever seen".

Like, remember the very first trailer for the first movie? Did you know that a good number of recent comments under it are actually sad that the movie didn't turn out as bad as it could have been and wasn't a "giant memefest" that people could "enjoy" in an ironic sense? It's just the lowest hanging fruit for those who just want to meme on the movie.

Tangent, but I'm actually interested to see how much this crowd overlaps with the crowd which swears up and down that Mr. Principles is Quintessential Sonic, and if you don't agree, something must be wrong with you on a moral and psychological level. Folks who cry the moral high ground the hardest tend to make for the biggest hypocrites lol.

Dead Maria jokes are nothing new. Fandom's cracked them since time immemorial. The thing is, though, I would think that 23 years since SA2's release, people would be past that and maybe try to follow in ST's stead of giving her life more importance than her death. Because there is absolutely merit to the idea that she only died to give the men around her something to angst about... But the solution to that isn't to voyeuristically focus on her demise to the point of making it a meme?

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Like, remember the very first trailer for the first movie? Did you know that a good number of recent comments under it are actually sad that the movie didn't turn out as bad as it could have been and wasn't a "giant memefest" that people could "enjoy" in an ironic sense?

(and what I assume is non-fandom because most of their exposure to Maria as a character amounts to "she dies lmao")

Well, considering nonfans seldom respect Sonic as a franchise because of muh inconsistency, I'm inclined to not give their opinion any merit. They can come back when they've played the games. Not holding my breath for that one lol.

I'm just baffled that fans are also clamoring to see Maria get shot onscreen because it's like, et tu, Brutus? You should be past this kind of childishness by now. Much like how Shadow's backstory cannot retroactively become any Deeper by cramming in more pointless angst, seeing her die for the hundredth time will make her death seem more overplayed than poignant. At this point, asking to see her die is just a voyeuristic desire to see suffering for suffering's sake.

Also, if you think about it, neither X nor ShTH showed her explicitly getting shot. They just heavily implied it, to varying degrees of tastefulness (including the sound of the gunshot was... not ShTH's best decision, to put it extremely lightly, but at the very least the game didn't show the bullet going into her body).

I really don't mean to be the "don't have fun" guy. However, seeing everything about Maria online get boiled down to her death, her memory being dangled like a carrot to get a Pavlovian reaction out of Shadow, or her being dismissed entirely as a "generic" character really bugs me as a fan of the character. I'll be the first to admit her handling has flaws and maybe isn't the most fleshed-out portrayal around, but I also feel fandom exacerbates these problems by further objectifying her in this manner. Again, nobody's out here cracking Tikal stampede jokes every time her name crops up.

The whole point of Maria's character is that she's a normal girl, and it is a tragedy that her life was senselessly cut short. She isn't some great scientist like her cousin and grandfather, nor does she need to be. She represents humanity's capacity for goodness in spite of the horrors it inflicts.

Can you imagine the strength of character it must take not to hate the people who hunted you down and shot you, and instead retain your hopes for mankind's happiness? Where do you think Shadow gets it from? Gerald didn't give him a soul identical to hers for no reason.

but nah let's pop a cap in her ass so Shadow can do a cri

[dramarising-replacement]

why you post fatphobic bait but you won't post my hilarious maymay 😔 I've submitted it multiple times in case the image broke 😔

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That was my bad 😅, I thought I had deleted it not posted it. BTW I have not seen any post matching that description so Tumblr might be eating it.

~Dadmin

Ps. Really sorry guys that post getting through was a complete mistake.

[mayisgoingnuts]

Maymay? :(

Holding you and hugging you,

Hugging you back dearly/p

It's justjshdjsjdjs AAAAA

I TRY TO AVOID IT BUT I ALWAYS KEEP SEEING IT AGAINNNNN STUPID ASS PR#SH1PPING AND D4RK M3DIA DISCOURSE.

BRINGS ME BACK BAD THOUGHTS THAT ME HATES. /LH

[a-silly-lullaby]

It's okay my love, I'm here, we're here, no bad people are here anymore oky? Just us

The bad dream is over <3 you're not going through that ever again

Try watching something you like to distract yourself!! Or anything nice, really

I'm still going back home BUT once I get there I can talk or RP with you to help you pass the time!

Hidingn agaisnt you

Thank you maymay :((

Ghgeh I’m a lil begter but I’m just like. ough /neg

Thank you for being here:(( I lobe you/p

[adelle-ein]

making nazi slang into mainstream slang is bad. it's a bad thing to do. adapting alt right and incel memes, graphics, phrases, etc, is bad. in doing so you are actively making it easier for nazis to blend in, spread their rhetoric, and recruit others. nazis have realized this in the last few years and that is why you've seen such an uptick of this bullshit recently. it is getting VERY difficult to identify anyone who isn't extremely overt about being a nazi on twitter, etc. it used to be far, far easier, but now random people will happily blow dogwhistles all day long bc funny meme and it is very common for me to genuinely not be able to tell anymore. and THAT IS WHAT THEY WANT.

stop with the aryan wojaks, the chads, the tradwives, the "embrace x reject y" (ESPECIALLY when it's straight up the original phrase!), x supremacy, the fucking office worker sexual harassment meme (this one is pure evil and it really gained a lot of traction during the heard trial, i noticed), fren, pepe, all of them, just fucking stop. your funny little maymays are actively making the world a more unsafe place. if you really wanna punch nazis so fucking bad than stop pretending to be one.

[one-coming-is-enough]

is your url supposed to be a sex joke?

if yes, damn, i feel bad for mary

Mom was fine. Don't worry about Mom. I honestly know more about My Mom's love life than I ever really needed to, and let's just say that I'm really happy for her and Dad.

...oh you meant Mags! Maymay Maggie!

Okay, well, this is embarrassing, but. Uh.

... nobody even came once. I cried.

She was like "Do you just wanna try it out once" and I'm like "Well, y'know, okay", and then she shows Me how to do that thing with the sheep guts so We don't accidentally conceive a Kid I am not ready to Father, and I'm sitting there with this bit of sheepskin on My bits going, "This just feels like I'm gonna fuck a sheep or something" and she's like, "Uh, do you want to, like --" and I'm just like, "Yeah, let's... Let's try it, I guess?"

And it was like, just. So, so awkward. We didn't really, like, even bother to finish. Just kinda untangled ourselves and went, "Okay, no". She went and took a dip in the river, and I went and got in a cuddle pile with some of My Guys.

So yeah. That didn't go anywhere, but like at least it didn't ruin our friendship. We even kinda joked about it the next morning.

[justanothergeneralkrow]

Thoughts on the UKvsTW s2 Talent Show

Choriza May, Lip Sync Performance (Party in Hell) She opened the show really well. Probably the best song we heard that night alongside Marina's Amafilipina. The outfit was designed by mr.oystr and looked spectacular. Her energy was vivacious and infectious as she performed. Though I did feel like I was having more fun listening to her song rather than having fun by her performance.

Scarlet Envy, Live Singing Performance (Bad Advice) I actually quite enjoyed Scarlet's performance. When she was kept on stage I thought they were going to praise her but instead she was mostly negatively critiqued. Though I don't disagree with the critiques I thought she did well enough to be safe. I just think her mistake with the talent show was that the song's humor was a bit lax. Some of the bad advice was more nonsesical than bad or too general. I feel like if she had referenced herself and her drag race run more the performance would've been much better. The line I laughed at the most was: “Keep losing like me and soon you’ll be, Invited back more times than Jujubee.” Nevertheless she looked stunning so it's fine.

La Grande Dame, Soundboard Comedy Performance Truly frustrating that someone that gorgeous is also that stupid and funny. She stepped on that stage in an LBD, a blonde human hair unit and a mic then proceeded to laugh, grunt and press buttons. It was a phenomenal performance and my favorite details were the reference to her first talent show with the saxophone and at the end when she put the mic under her dress and laughed one more time. Definitely the second best performance of the night.

Gothy Kendoll, Lip Sync & Fire Performance (Inferno) I was really rooting for Gothy here, I love seeing early outs get an opportunity to return but this performance was just not it. The song wasn't very good which made the start of her performance hard to watch. When the fire tricks came out my interest was piqued again and while the tricks were impressive her lack of confidence really brought down the performance. She just looked uncomfortable on stage, even the way she walked looked a bit off. I am glad she got to stay though I hope she's able to build up her confidence and really perform.

Marina Summers, Lip Sync & Silk Poi Performance (AMAFILIPINA) "Born in an island and raised by the seas, Gold in my skin I'm the Filipina queen, I'm a Filipina, Filipina Winner." I loved her performance, pure pinay pride, pure pinay talent just amazing. I could keep talking about how amazing she is but the performance speaks for itself. I will say her doing her own version of AMAKABOGERA by Maymay Entrata sent me into a laughing fit of pure entertainment and joy. (Also that song was a lip sync on her original season and resulted in a double shantay between Minty Fresh and Brigiding).

Keta Minaj, Lip Sync & Gymnastics Performance (Yay2theK) I was so excited for Keta to return, she remains the only queen to garner 3 wins and not make the finale. Truly a robbed queen. She's super talented and her Holland talent show was amazing. Unfortunately she did not live up to the hype. I was expecting a lot from her and I was disappointed. I wasn't enthused by her song it was weird in a forced kind of way and her performance wasn't the best. I'm convinced her gymnastics got her the safe placement but I think she should've been in the bottom 3.

Mayhem Miller, Meditation ijbol

Hannah Conda, Live Singing Comedy Performance I feel like she could've been in the top 3 over Choriza. Her performance was really funny and she sounded great. The false piano playing to the false reveal. It was all really well conceived and showcased her personality really well. As someone who didn't watch Down Under this talent show was a great introduction to the Hannah Conda and I'm excited to see more.

Jonbers Blonde, Lip Sync Performance (In Fashion) A really fun performance from Jonbers. Her personality is just so bright and captivating and it's great to see it shining through her performance. I will say this is like the third "fashion" song in a talent show. (AS3 Milk & AS4 Naomi) So it's a bit of a tired thing to do for a talent show, in my opinion. I did love her look at the start of the performance. The coat played well with the dress and she looked really good, less of a fan of dress' bodice though.

Arantxa Castilla La Mancha, Comedy Performance It was funny when she called them idiots but I felt like the performance went on for a bit too long without a punchline. She just kept saying her name and there is comedy in the absurdity of that but personally I just felt a little uncomfortable. Love her though and while I was uncomfortable I was also laughing and giggling.

Tia Kofi, Live Singing (Read my Lips) I didn't like this performance. It reminded me of Megami's and Ginger Minj's talent show. It was sincere and subpar, to speak a bit bluntly. Her vocals weren't that amazing and the performance felt a bit stilted. I feel like this performance needed dancers or something that could help Tia keep the energy up.

[adachilovebot]

i know bp ended a week ago ( and thank goodness for that ) but its still mind boggling to me how some were entertaining the idea of hui debuting in another group during ptg's 7th year and a few months away from contract renewal after cube CANCELLED their november 2022 cb

as their leader signing an exclusive contract for 2.5 years prohibiting him from ever mentioning the tagons would send ptg to the shadow realm immediately

I've been loving ptg unconditionally (unhealthily too but that's a topic to discuss next time) but I'd never be this blinded to think this situation isn't a massive threat to the group's survival . I've joined the fandom right before rtk ( terrible timing i know) the hui i saw there was determined to disprove mnet's pity party editing " people around me told me if a group doesn't make it during their 3rd year they'll never make it out group is 3.5 yo but I'll prove everyone wrong " i was questioning myself where was THAT hui i fell in love with

I do believe hui was forced to join it was pretty obvious from the "exceptional" audition tape accepted on november 2022 .mnet needed him to create bad buzz around the show the same way yujin did with gp999 tho unlike clc ptg weren't dismissed so they had to create the narrative themselves. tbh I'm still confused as to how hui blurred what he did abt ptg being dead in the eyes of the industry when it was factually false ( the triplets were actively working on music wooki especially had multiple BB50 producers visit for a prod session ) i am *personally* still pissed at him for that ( i know it could be edited but that clip was over 2min long)

a segment that made me cry was during the pentatour to gapyeong where he recorded a message to the boys where he praised them for protecting ptg while he was away and promised hell do his best for the group . this makes everything he's doing even more illogical because buddy you might debut elsewhere for 2.5 years ,????

I'm not gonna hyper analyse a stranger more than what I've already done here but I'll assume he was himself totally lost within his decisions especially after leaving the industry for 21 months he must've felt totally disoriented

but i am still pissed at any ptg fan who was actively campaigning for his debut tho that was S.T.U.P.I.D

fast-forward to now the little 9 boys are all doing well and thriving in their respective programs jinho in phantom singer and yanan in π plan wooseok was featured in maymay entrata's autodeadma ( massive slay go watch it )

although the fandom is full of bp hui akgaes parasites i guess they'll at least buy a ptg album to get into a 1v1 hui fancall we'll have to either tame them or bully them into shutting the fuck up

[moonlit-trolls]

So, what exactly do you do for a living, Mousie?

[Docs for your sake]

—Hello I am Janett with The Empress’ Daily. We interrupt your normal daily broadcast to cover the most recent news that happened. We find ourselves in the scene of one of the largest bank robberies in the history of the north-west side of alternia. There was a bomb threat sent out to the Local Bank Seventy miles from here and the fleet were on high alert at the location of the bomb threat, Location was evacuated and all they ended up finding was a Briefcase with a Confetti and Glitter Bomb Inside, That had a decorative Cheese wheel as well as the word “Mouse’s got your tongue” with what seems to be an online communications Emoticon of someone Smiling.

    Currently we find ourselves in the general bank of the Northern East Side of the City, Where an Explosion alerted the people inside, Furthermore it seems like it was not an actual explosion but a sound coming from a machine able to do an extremely loud Booming sound without any actual damages. The Scene of the crime Appears to have been destroyed by a Construction Grade Wrecking ball. For the damage to the bank’s Vault and Side wall can be related to similar attacks of Property By Wayward Drones. The Bank’s Vault door is Inoperable if you do not have the Bio-metric scanners corrected, but it seems that the lock and main entrance was melted by what authorities affirm was extremely Rusted metal combined with black gunpowder. To create the Thermite Chemical Reaction. The metal oxidized within seconds and the Rusted Iron was melted with a flame ranging 1400°-1900° Celsius. It seems as if it was a Soldering torch that did the job. No suspects have been seen, but the same Internet Communications Emoticon has been sighted inside with the same Decorative block of Cheese with the words “Mouse Is Out of The House” written on the wall—

    Click The television makes a sound as it goes off, You are slouched over the reclining chair in bad need of Repairs eating mozzarella sticks straight out of the bag,You can see and hear your Nannybot with the blues painted Black, humming a mechanical song that doesn’t sound natural, Sounds scripted

    —C’mon MayMay, Cut the song and dance. Play some real music— Your voice echoes on the run down hive As the nannybot does as she is asked. Her audio system makes a noise as it adjusts and begins playing something more your style, The strumming of a badly tuned guitar, the off-beat bass and drums, Everything sounded Perfect As the band yelled their name for the nonexistent stage “WE ARE THE THREE MOUSEKETEERS!” Your voice was the one that boomed out. Alongside it the Fond memories of the band also came to mind.

    Personally you are proud of the job, Maeyie had already counted the bills to a perfect $200,000 Duffle bags as well as suitcases held it all under the floorboards you walk atop of to head to the kitchen area, Small apartment means that it’s all one singular room, not that you care. You want toast in this rainy mid-day, butter, two slices of bread into the frying pan. you believe that any bread can make pan toast, but you prefer sourdough, other people may wish for whole wheat or nuts might go for raisin bread. But you like the consistency of Sourdough, and you are not a simpleton to go with white basic bread. 

    –There is always a method to my madness– You thought to yourself as you ate the first bite of the first slice – I know what I am doing – You say looking out of the blinds, the police sirens finish what the music that Maeyie was playing lacked, The rhythm made sense and the lyrics tracked as the cars wooshed past your window leaving the strange neighborhood you found yourself in with dust to the roofs of buildings due to their speeds. as the sound of music is stopped you hear

    —Master Bonnie, Would You Wish For Me To Make You A Proper Diner?— Her voice was sweet, something you heard not once before from someone as earnest as her… Deeply you wish she was more than a robot so you could be actual friends. But you know that  behind the sweet voice and gestures, lies nothing more than ones and zeroes, and last time you spoke to numbers they called you crazy. But nonetheless you answer.

    —I, yeah man, we got some leftovers, can you mix it all with manioc flour and make some canned beans?— and the machine smiled —Of course Master Bonnie!— and began with the cooking. Her arms moved faster than you cared to look, it’s almost natural how well she knows what you enjoy. She bakes you cupcakes, and brings you what you want… She has to be more than just a bot. 

After leaving with notes that are not marked you come back with groceries, There is a warm plate of food on the table, a little card with a crudely drawn picture of Maeyie smiling, as well as a cup of Strawberry soda, your favorite, As you can see your nannybot Recharging on her station a bit off the wall. –Tastes good as always…– you say eating it, Manioc flour goes well with everything. lightly roasted before being added to dishes, it adds a depth of flavor and filling that no one would believe. you learned that from someone who you haven't talked to since you were basically a kid. but his teachings remain in your head. you warm the second slice of bread you toasted earlier to eat with, it never hurts to add some sourdough to a plate of rice and meat, Never hurt you at least.

    — This feels familiar… — you mutter to yourself looking at the empty chair in front of the counter —Eh, Doesn’t matter— the voice that comes out of you is strained, as if you were lying more to yourself than to the ghosts that are sitting on your broken down chair as you turn the television on. and the broadcast has a random Indigo-blood in custody for the robbery of the bank. 

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Reunion of Requited

For the past year and a half living in complete love with someone who has passed away. I now understand why nanny would say the things she did about being alone after losing pawpaw. I wondered for the better part of my life why she would'nt move on because this world is such a dismal place without love. Now, having lost my girlfriend Alyvia, who was and is still my muse of an absolutely beautiful true bestfriend from the moment we met till probably forever. Nomatter where how or when I wake up everyday longing for her, (if i can even manage to sleep) | now understand why nanny had bad sleep for such an old person, lol. After hearing this news, Im grateful i know my grandmas heart very well, after countless sleepovers falling asleep to fresh prince on the airmatresses and waking up to CMT music videos every morning to get me pumped up for a great day at school! I fell in love with music because of Nanny as well as love haha which i can say proudly she created the most hopeless romantic the world has seen. Im so grateful for the countless drives we all had together mostly maymay kayla cody and I really haha. Im so glad i got to cry to her last summer after Allyvia died. I sold my car to just fly in without notice and all I could do was cry no matter what state or city I found myself lost in looking for home because the only place i felt truly ever home was with Lyv. Nothing was helping heal this pain drowning me and in all honesty i came to Florida to tell everyone i loved them and give one last goodbye because this heartbreak is literally killing me. I remember when i was much younger nanny would go out on the porch at night and look at the stars and show me which one was pawpaw, because he was always the first star to come out at night and ever since then i always see pawpaw when i look at the stars. And shed always just say i just miss pawpaw here and there and i didnt get it then but wow. I can barely get a sentence out without it having something to do with Alyvia.

If i know my grandma like i think i do, the day her spirit left the body we know she'd been waiting for that moment in awe since the day pawpaw passed away. Love has now been refurbished and thats such a very beautful thing.

I think i kissed nannys forehead before i ran off that porch last time haha and im so happy i did.

I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said

"love is blind. Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded.

The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space!

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your friends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood.

And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were once that happy. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back.

, ,jtr

xoxo