#bad experiences

[tamurakafkaposts]

Loved italian sunsets....

[thevoidstaredback]

I'd love to play DnD, but I don't think I ever will again.

The first and only time I ever played a proper game of DnD, no one bothered to help me build a character, figure out stats, nothing. I was left high and dry. Every time I asked for advice or help on something I was told "It's pretty easy, you'll figure it out." And when I finally did get to the actual game part, the DM (and the rest of the party) made it seem like getting excited over my first ever Nat 20 was a bad thing.

Anyway, I love the Tiny Epic Dungeon games, and I love interacting with the DnD community online, but I don't think I'll ever even try to play a proper game again

[call-me-a-simp]

Heal My Wounds

What are you hiding (part 28)

Rhea Ripley x Reader

Tw: physical and sexual abuse, toxic relationship, selfharm, eating disorder

Summary: You are in a toxic relationship with an abusive man but manage to run away. A tall, black haired woman picks you up from the streets just in time so your ex doesn't get you. But who is she and why does she seem so familiar to you? As you get to know each other you start to notice weird feelings you never had before whenever she's around.

Dominik drops you off at Rhea's apartment and declines your offer to come inside with you.

You're greeted by your girlfriend who seems like she couldn't have waited any longer for you to come home as she was very bored and didn't know what to do with herself.

"So, where's the dress?" she asks excitedly and pecks your cheek. "We didn't get one" you chuckle and put your purse down.

"What do you mean you didn't get one? I thought I told you to not walk outta that store without the perfect dress!" she teases you and pokes you with her index finger.

"I know, I know.." you chuckle "but it was really tiring and we got hungry so.." you shrug. "So you're gonna continue tomorrow orr..?" Rhea asks curiously.

"Yeah probably. 'M thinking 'bout also bringing some girls. Like, Dom has great taste, not gonna lie, but I think I also need some real girls opinion on it.."

Shit why' d I lie? I shouldn't do this she is my girlfriend! You begin to panic a little but try not to show her.

" 'kay, if you say so" Rhea brushes it off. But something' s different, there isn't this ease in her voice like usually. It's worrying you a little, is she suspecting something?

She walks into the kitchen to get herself something to drink and you follow her. "Is everything okay love?" you ask her carefully.

She huffs "I don't know. You tell me, is there something I should know? Cause I feel like you're keeping something from me"

Shit shit shit why didn't I tell her the truth in the first place?! Now she's mad and it's my fault!

Rhea sets her glass down and turns around, scanning you with a look as cold as ice. Her arms crossed in front of her chest.

"I- Rhea you're scaring me a little" you stutter and raise your hands in defense. She sighs and lowers her arms again "sorry darling, I just overreacted, don't worry" she tries to calm you down.

You let out a small sigh of relief and relax a little again. "Okay.. But you were right, I was hiding something.." Rhea takes a step in your direction and is standing right in front of you now.

She cups your cheeks making you look at her. "Then tell me, you know you can tell me anything" she says and gives you a sympathetic smile.

You try to smile back and nod. You exhale a shallow breath again before telling her what happened today with Dom and how you're not sure how to feel about it.

You spend a little moment in silence, you leaning against the counter with your back and Rhea standing in front of you, unsure if she should cross her arms again or touch you in some sort of form.

She eventually breaks the silence. "Okay uhm.. I don't wanna talk anything less bad here but.. I'm sure Dom didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable with his actions or anything I- I'm not sure why he did or so but.. Let's just talk it out with him okay? I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding plus your bad experiences with men, it's just not that easy I understand that"

She offers you a warm smile and you gently return the gesture, pushing yourself off the counter and into her embrace. The feeling of her warm skin on yours, your head against her chest, hearing her heartbeat.. It's just so calming and always making you feel safe.

"Okay, he's picking me up tomorrow at around ten, I'll ask Liv and Raquel if they wanna come too. Thank you Rhea!" you say and stand on your tiptoes to kiss her.

"You know it's so cute that you have to stand on your tippy toes to kiss me" Rhea giggles and you act offended and punch her slightly in the arm.

You two laugh a little and she puts her arm around you leading you to the bedroom where you decide to watch a not so creepy horrorfilm.

"You sure you wanna watch this? I remember last time you had pretty bad nightmares" "I know, but I've got you now and I really wanna see how far I can push my limits with it. I wanna see the films you like with you one day you know?" you grin at her and she smiles back.

You hit play and snuggle up to girlfriend, hiding under the covers every now and then when you think there might be a jumpscare or anything, but most of the time rhea warns you as she's already seen almost every horror movie there is.

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Part 28.. At least I think so..

Taglist:@babybatlover @legit9thlunaticwarrior @thatonepansexual2000 @nox-fire

[shyticklee02]

kinda just had a moment where I thought about my first tickle session ever and it was actually like, probably the worst experience. I was 19 at the time so I didn't know any better and didn't know what to do to defend myself.

I was tied down pretty tightly where I was almost immobile, which now I think was uncomfortable for me but I never said anything. some spots he tickled me and it felt fine but the moment he was getting my sides, ribs, and hips, it was over, and not in a good way. I was bruised in those areas and I did let him know. I can't remember if he apologized or not, but I do remember him being like "well you could've said something," but I 100% recall saying here and there "go light go light," indicating that it was starting to hurt more, but he didn't care. Also, he never asked throughout the session if he was going too hard or not, AND HE KNEW I WAS NERVOUS ABOUT THE SESSION.

another thing he did that I didn't like was when he'd tell me "say that I'm the tickle master and I'll release you." to be very honest, I HATE when I'm forced to do something like that. I'm not the type to call my partner daddy or something, so this is already bleh. Mind you, I was 19, and he's close to or in his 30s!

there was then a moment where he worshipped my feet, which I don't care for too much. Since I was trying to let him do his thing, my eyes went to the tv, but he saw that I looked elsewhere and he told me "you should be looking at this instead," indicating that I should be watching him worship my feet.

Now, here comes the best part. he had the videos ready and whatnot within a few months. I did not realize that I had to PAY FOR MY OWN VIDEOS. I asked him if I really had to pay for them, and he responded with something like "well this is how I make money." I was so shocked when my 19 year old self had to pay for these, and tbh, it wasn't like a low price, at least for me. at one point he was telling me along the lines of "I guess I could give you one video for free." Like wdym you guess????

Btw, this first session, some small clips are posted on my page. these were the parts where I actually felt the tickling sensation and wasn't uncomfortable.

Anyways, thank you for reading my rant <3

and I don't plan on working with him anymore (this session was back in the beginning of 2022)

[lettesuniverse]

sometimes I'm having this feeling like they were just waiting for me to leave...

[luna2-5]

I almost die yesterday😢 I’m still not sure how but I’m here and I never been more scared in my life than when that car was tumbling around. Life is juts so crazy and unexpected ( and everything hurts, I’m okey but it hurts)

[refuge-301]

5 REASONS WHY YOU MUST NOT KISS YOUR CHILDREN ON THEIR LIPS

I know you probably have only good intentions and for you this is a cute way to express affection, but since you don't know how your child will react and it is very risky it is better not to do it in our culture. Here is why:

1. Your child DOESN'T NEED OR DESIRE your kisses on their lips, at least not until you create this desire as a primary way to make them experience love from you. You are the one that want it or need. You can express love in many different ways, I can assure you your child won't miss not being kissed on their lips.

2. It CONFUSES ROLES AND AFFECT YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM. Lips kisses are primarily associated with romantic relationships, and since not all parents do this, children can make question and feel confused about the meaning of it. This habit can also negatively affects family roles, in fact the impact is also stronger when there is not a strong romantic relationships between the parents and when there are single parents. Therefore the child could perceive him/herself as a parents's romantic partner, so this habit can make the definition of family roles worse and in your relationships with them.

3. It can NEGATIVELY AFFECTS CHILDREN'S SELF PERCEPTION WITHOUT THEM OR YOU REALISING. Children always think that what happen to them is their fault and so they usually don't express what they think, so you don't know now if in years later this habit can result in feeling of self-disgust and shame, to feeling violeted. These negative sensations, maybe unconscious can stay also in teen years creating an unease feeling with the relationship you have with them until they realise or remeber and process what happened.

4. Kisses on the lips CREATE ADDICTION. Kisses on lips wake up the need of lips to kiss, I don't think it is ok for a child to experience this in such a young age. This can have consequences as starting very young to have a little boyfriend/girlfriend just for satisfy this need.

5. There are many STORIES OF PEOPLE WHO REMIND THIS PARENT'S HABIT WITH UNEASY FEELINGS. Children accept this habit because they love you and trust you and they are too young to know its impact. But there are many experiences of grown-up that, even if their parents were good parents, still remind this habit with uneasy feelings. Some forgot this experience since it created shame, felt violeted without knowing why during teen years and when adults they remember it and talked about it with their parents, got healed and the relationships with them got repaired.

Maybe kissing your child on the lips won't have consequences, but why to risk?

Are there also good reason why to do it?

No, since your child doesn't need your kisses on their lips.

There is no reasons to do it and many and many reasons not to do it or to stop.

What to do if you already started to kiss your child on their lips?

This post is not to make you feel bad about yourself but to be aware because even with all the good intentions we can still hurt without realising, and this can be totally avoidable with more knowledge.

So just stop kissing, it is better if you do it, gradually and by substituting it with other expression of love (so they won't experience a reject), without them asking later to stop maybe with shame.

What to do insted:

The impact of your acts on children surely depend also on the type of family you are and how much parents express affection on each other, so finding balance will look different in every families. For any cases, use all love languages, and for the physical contact, hugging and kissing them on their cheeks and head will satisfy their needs. Avoid also kissing their neck and using other typical romantic expression of love (romantic candlelight dinners only with your child, etc.), children are not completely unaware and one day they will process it and may feel bad for these things.

Normal cheeks and head kisses are absolutely perfect and children will feel loved receiving normal parent-children expression of love.

[bryqe]

i found the perfect knee high boots on vinted with just 2 saved before mine 2 hours ago and i’ve just came back to buy them and a b1tch have. bought. them. i’m so mad i look like pearl WHY YOU LEAVING ME?

[katchleeifyoucan]

reminder to get to know a person at least a little before having a hookup, session, etc. this even goes for rp for a lot of people!!

this applies to tumblr, dating apps, and just all interactions with people.

it’s okay to not want a relationship or anything too serious, but that doesn’t make it okay to talk to someone like they’re an object or just a means for you to get off. at least try to make some sort of connection. geez.

or if you both just want to get off and agree on that, fine. it’s your life. but if someone is trying to get to know you before doing anything intimate, respect that or stop talking to them.

[hoe4kai]

still not getting over the time when my ex (bf at the time) went on call with his ex gf and her 5 other friends, which all liked him and they took loads of screenshots on call and put it on their story. then he proceeded to tell them that he'd fuck them all. can't trust any man istg.

shout out to my bsf for telling me about it <3

[tamurakafkaposts]

I never thought meeting you would be this boring. I thought we'd put our Italian emotion into gear and scream the place down. I never expected indifference.

Melina Marchetta

[kaiju-shenanigans]

Day 13

I had such a shitty day lmao. Did my first exam for cinema studies today and it was the WORST. Our lecturer misguided us in the scope they gave us so some things in the exam were so foreign and I was STRUGGLING to make sense of what I was writing. I honestly just hope I did well enough to pass cos I don't have high hopes for this module anymore.

Had a bad headache after the exam so I took a nap. Then got back to studying for my next exam on Cultural Studies cos that's how we move with uni life🥲 the exam is next week Thursday and it's being set by the same lecturer who did today's paper so I'm honestly so scared, but I'm gonna try my best to learn everything I can. I just hope I don't have to write supps for these modules cos those are usually way harder than the main exam. I'm holding out hope for myself🫤🤞

[serowebs]

Hey I am sorry but like- I had a memory recently and just like-

I used to go to therapy actually when i was like 16/17 somewhere around the age and the therapy itself was kind of dogshit wich I didn't notice becuase how tf am I supposed to know if i have had no prior experiences and like

there was a time at the end of one of our sessions where I brought up that I absolutely hate having my mom shout at me and THE ADVICE I FUCKING GOT?

LISTEN TO LOUD MUSIC/NOISE TO GET USED TO IT

I don't know if that is like a legit memory I have because I am confident it is but i am also kind of sceptical because it just doesn't sound fucking real :sob::sob:

And funfact all that I was listening to already at the time was loud music and such and it still didn't help because golly gee maybe that shit won't help me in the first place-

have some more shitty advice below

Some other advice I remember was that I should never fidget with stuff atleast not out in public or when interacting with people because it will make me look like a fucking wierdo [I used to fidget a ton with my housekeys at the time and I also used to wear it around my neck wich I lost the habit off because my therapist insisted on me having it in my backpack until I actually needed to use it]

I was also never allowed to describe any of my problems/symptoms with medical terms because blablabla self diagnosis but like- how tf am I supposed to describe that I am paranoid wihout using the word paranoid? anxious or AfRaId is not the right word for what I am experiancing so what the fuck am I supposed to use? I get that "oh hey dont actually self diagnose" but like- How the fuck am I supposed to describe shit at all? [I already have a very bad time actually wording myself properly to get my stuff across, especially when new stuff is happening and at the time I was actually starting to have my first few times dissociating [probably] and while describing my experience to my thera she just didn't get it and just said lmao sleep more + eat healthy and while that can be helpful I KIIIIIND OF doubt that does a huge impact]

HELL I could probably give a list of what I think I possibly have and my thera could just correct me with "oh you actually have this and that and that is the more appropriate terms for that" instead of just having me water my own problems down for the sake of not self diagnosing

All of my internet friends are also not real people, oh and if your partner in another country is struggling Just ditch them and choose a "real" person to be with! and you must have "real" friends or you will stay depressed forever and always! [I have a partner who I meet up with on a more regular basis + some irl friends yet I may be clinically depressed so where tf is that logic I-]

so yea fun, i hope my next therapists will be more respectful with me if i even manage to find one-

[byyliss]

Currently am crying a lot bc og somthing thats happening in my dnd campaing.

So, I play a character named Gin, shes a goblin who due to her backstory, can be very naive and oblivious, which in turn makes her more childish. Shes very similar to me, i always have a hard time playing charcaters that are too different from myself, so they are usually more silly and innocent inconciously. Im also autistic, and many traits i have end up in Gin by accident, but i try to accomodate that to her backstory.

And since the begining, two of the party members have been very rude to my character (one more than the other), they are always insulting her, being rude, and recently just said that the enemy from my backstory wasnt as important as other ones (we found out the place Gin is from, which is a slave circus, is still active, and I wanted to focus on it more now since most of the missions have been focusing on evryone else's backstory). I know its a chacrater, and i know they are just roleplaying, but that shit hurts. A lot. Bc some of her decisions come from me as a player, bc we both think alike, so it hurts a lot and i feel insulted whenever they rltreat my character like shit.

Today the DM told me these two players dont like my character and are annoyed by her, and i need to change bc they get annoyed while playing. And while my charcater can be a bit annoying, jfc you dont see me shit talking their charcaters, even tho both of them persoanlly hurt me a lot.

Like, they are making the game unbearable for me, bc it feels like Gin cant express any opinions or do anything other that be useful on combat. They made a bunch of jokes as their charcaters that hurt, but then they want to act as if im the problem?

Im currently crying a lot and have a headache over this. Sorry for the rant, im just....idk, i just needed to vent

[lettesuniverse]

yeah, sometimes I make mistakes, but they don't even recognise how badly I'm trying and trying to keep everything together in the meanwhile. I'm deeply sorry when I lose my track and screw up, but you shouldn't treat me like I'm the worst person, because of that and that I will always screw up...

[gooseprostoi]

(Warning! English isn't my native languages, so I'm sorry if my texts looks weird...)

If someone interested why I don't want to have connection with Rain World...

I was in this Fandom when this game wasn't popular(since 2019?).

I had a fan characters and I'm really love them...

I was in Russian Rain World ASK. The most active member of this group. I made a lot of comics about them. I even got a first girlfriend, we had a mutual project with her.

But something bad has happened.

She cheated on me and left for another person. She started to do a bad things which effect me and some of my friends. She trown in garbage our project, our ideas and my feelings towards her... I wanted support, but the group of Rain World became more toxic and aggressive towards me. I can't be here anymore.

So I left it. I destroyed my fan characters, my projects and everything that relate my ex and this aggressive people...

Even now when I see something about Rain World, I can't stop see in this pictures my ex. I don't hate this game anymore, I thinks that DLC is amazing and I'm happy that interesting game get more popular!

But I prefer don't have any connections with this. I still need some time for recover...