#back to normal life ig .

[sweetlullabyebye]

Charles' thing is that he wants to feel alive and that's part of the reason why he decided to never move on to the afterlife right? Meanwhile Edwin thinks Charles will move on and that he'll be alone again because 'he isn't good with people'.

But then when the Night Nurse shows up a second time Charles is ready to go wherever -including Hell- as long as Edwin shouldn't have to go back there, meanwhile Edwin refuses that they be split up, and both are okay with being sent together to the Lost and Found Department to be sorted out later as long as they're together-

[apollokyler]

NOBODY MOVE *flower petals fly across the screen and music from a romance dorama starts playing*

[badlydrawndedkidz]

hello there! it's me, Tortilla, known mostly as Mod by the people who have been following this blog for a While!

if you've ever scrolled for a bit here, you've probably Seen that I've tried a few times to get back into posting more often and failed comically as i grappled with the dreaded Mental Eel Nesses and Executive Dysfunction, among other things. especially since ask blogs aren't as popular as they were back in the day when i made this blog (2015! turned 9 years last aug 15th! that's an entire child. jin owes me a lot of child support,)

(before anyone gets scared, no I'm not deleting anything lol gimme a sec to word this thought)

okay so like. cutting straight to the point not gonna get sentimental right now I'll save that for later: i want to keep this blog active REALLY bad, but as much as I'd like to, for multiple reasons i cannot draw as much as i did back in the day, which is like... the main thing i usually post here. so I've been pondering for the past year or so What to Do about it

my one idea is to turn this into a general kgpr blog and reblog other people's art and official stuff and the alike here, instead of keeping it Just My Stuff

but the thing is, if i DO that i would want to change my url, because reblogging art to a place that's named "badly drawn--" whatever is. i Don't Want That y'know? it's disrespectful lol

the thing is that that's soooo many links that would Break. among other things. (+ i have nooo clue what id change the name to but that's a different issue)

so like, my question here is,

[nomairuins]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[honeyteastar]

Fantasy au delusion GO!!!! The idea was i like the outfit shinichi wears (black knight outfit) it'll be insane in a fantasy setting using it me thinks

Then evolves to it'll be funny if he gets "curse" and his soul gets bind to the armor instead like yknow insta killing or whatever! Living armor Shinichi is born and to be fair is very self indulgent :3c the horrors and whimsy go! Also Kaito design is inspired from witch hat atelier! To alter his ykniw kaitou kid regalia moment :Dd

[vermillioncrown]

technically i've been "out" of school for about 6 months now but there's so much fucking damage done from years of forcing myself through it, and only recognizing i've been maladaptive coping within the last two years (aka 7.7% of the time i've been in formal education lol)

can't sit and enjoy things without it being fueled by escapism

impatient

guilty all the time. why? i should be working/studying/beefing up knowledge base

so used to needing to be right, tied to self-worth -> makes it terrifying to jump into things blind and voice a low-stakes opinion of it (why you never see me making specific meta posts, and why trying to get into media with sprawling canons is a nightmare)

tendency to panic and overexplain everything, every question feels like an interrogation

but when you're not busy you feel useless or that you're tending towards obsolescence -> dread. perpetual dread

can't work without a deadline (though that's getting much better, but it's active effort)

like, i feel like a car that's reached the finish line but everything's on fire and the driver's upside down and needs to be cut out of the harness

[boxowo]

i forgot to claim the free caliban.

[cryptidapprentice]

genuine question: is it normal for me to have such intense negative moods the week before my period (+ its Super Hot) 🧍🏽‍♀️

[autism-corner]

the girly...... my wife.....

(yes. it is that miku figure.)

[saetoru]

it’s so wild that my first blog was haikyuu centric for 9 months straight. like literally almost a year i was hooked on one fandom and now i cannot stick to a fandom for longer than a week like what happened

[semiotomatics]

bloodwork came back normal (derogatory) and its gonna be at least 2 weeks till i can talk to my dr abt next steps, tried to find another clinic to go to but got scared off by bad reviews/my own prior bad experiences for the close ones, the distance/inaccessibility for the far ones, and cant get a virtual appointment anywhere until august, so like. that sucks

[mosspapi]

Gonna b honest. I kinda preferred being actively and pressingly suicidal to whatever the fuck I've got going on now. At least then I knew what I could do to keep myself reasonably safe. Whether I'd do it is another question entirely but at least it was cut-and-dry and made sense. Idek what my brain is doing atp, much less what it needs from me

[girl-bateman]

Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍

[imfromthemiddlekingdom]

Miriel chose to stay dead, repeatedly.

Look if you’re repeatedly pressuring a depressed woman who had postpartum depression to come back just to have more kids without letting her work through her problems for a bit you’re responsible for her very anger filled hateful /spiteful reply that “fine I guess I will just stay dead Finwë!!!”.

You don’t pressure a depressed person to ‘just be happy’ so why would you pressure someone who died due to postpartum to come back JUST to do it ALL OVER AGAIN???

And the whole ‘she chose to stay dead repeatedly!!!’ Yet when she was offered a chance to come back after Finwë died she did so she obviously didn’t wish to stay dead forever and her response to Finwë and the Valars repeated pestering could be chalked up to frustrated spitefulness cuz god knows how many times normal, non depressed, people say spiteful petty shit just to get people to back off and have rest so god forbid a dead woman who died after postpartum say anything she didn’t mean.

[binders-and-beanies]

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[wondersbeyondcompare]

🔉Loud Sound Warning🔉

its the sega meme lol

Played around with rough doodles of my twst OCs’ potential overblots!! But honestly I just did this for Yuusuke’s part at the end, so don’t take this too seriously design-wise 🥴