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elegyofthemoon · 7 days ago

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i'm writing this before new years actually happens bc idk if im even gonna be awake at midnight but I did this last year too I think but I wanted to keep up with it because I feel like...there's a lot that went down this year so :) cheers

I was reflecting this time last year I was still in medschool and studying in the UK for a dream that I honestly didn't really believe in, just following what was expected of me and just hoping for the best.

But at the end of 2023, I swore to myself that the shit year that 2023 was, I'd never take those grievances with me into 2024.

And I didn't. 2024 marked a huge huge turning point and a big leap for me as a person where after all these years of wondering and feeling very disconnected with myself, I finally took steps to seek myself out - to reconnect with the things I love and am passionate for.

And I'm so glad that I took those steps - leaving medschool and pursuing my hobby in voice acting - a dream that I just accepted as a dead dream - because now we're in the new year, and the amount of VA projects I got in was awesome. Not to mention now turning one of my big interests into a personal VA passion project as well...

This doesn't mean anything to anyone but me but

This was how much work I did as a VA starting end of May. It's not even an entire year, and that's amazing to me because getting 20 roles is crazy. Albeit, a lot of those are projects that never went through, but the fact I got that many is still astounding for someone who just restarted her career again in VA.

So I'm proud of it. I'm proud of what I accomplished there. And while I'll be pursuing something else in line with psychology and peds, I think at the end of the day, my greatest love is in VA.

So I'm happy for 2024, even despite all the hardships that I had to go through (mostly familial drama). I'm proud of myself for pursuing something I genuinely love and finding something that makes me happy to do rather than burning myself out so much that I lost interest in living.

And for the people that had been very supportive me during that whole journey because it was quite the rocky road. idk if Ev is gonna read this but Ev and my irl friend Nick have been really supportive of me on my journey and having to hear the va updates all throughout the journey and all the ups and downs that came along with it, so I really appreciate them for being there while I was trying to find myself.

So I really really hope that I can bring that joy I found and that confidence that I have of my future into 2025. And I hope that confidence continues to grow in the next year so I can be happier to share all these things I accomplish and continue to grow and develop further as a person.

2024 was my first step into becoming me. Let 2025 be the plunge into myself.

#avil speaks #theres probably a lot more i'd like to say about this but. i really dont remember what else i wanted to say #but thats the main thing on my mind at least right now #because its been on my mind all morning #like truth be told: it started off a really really lousy morning #but i said this already to ev but today seems like a perfect summary of how this entire year went for me #i almost want to laugh bc its just something out of a book the way that its a perfect summary - like the author had written it out and #plotted this perfectly #awful really lol #but yeah. ill just write that for now. if i come back later with more things to yap about . dont worry bout it slkdjfah

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artsymeeshee · 2 months ago

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A quick idea I had to sketch out because sometimes I think about how Ford still views himself as a bad brother sometimes but Stan’s there for the very needed reassurance that Ford is a good brother and Stan can see how Ford is trying every day

#gravity falls #stanley pines #stanford pines #stan twins #sea grunks #sketches #my art #stan pines #ford pines #woke up with feelings so must make feelsy art lol #i kinda centered the idea around a nightmare #where ford couldn’t really protect and save stan #and it spiraled into him thinking he’s an awful brother #but stan says to hell with that thought #and he goes to list off all the things that make ford a good brother #because he is #queue

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anne-is-confused · 10 months ago

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Captain Francis Crozier, at Furthest North.

#the terror amc #francis crozier #my art #can't believe it took me 2 rewatches AND getting refs for this to realize it's the hungarian state opera house. girl i was there last month #anyway yeah i was looking at gifsets of the last shot of the show and feeling nauseous with emptiness etc etc when #the thought struck me that it looks an awful lot like the tableau vivants from the ep1 flashbacks in its stillness #i have no idea whether that was an intentional reference (a sort of twisted mockery of how that scrubbed and polished portrayal of history #contrasted with the deeply sad and inglorious reality #or some sort of meta about storytelling itself. i'm not really smart enough to say lol) but i made this anyways. enjoy #pattern recognition go brrrrrrrrrrrrrr #i bent over backwards trying to make this symmetric and harmonious. it isn't but if i don't post it now i never will

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bunnieswithknives · 2 months ago

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Thanks.

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #fop nature au #fop dev #fop dale #dev dimmadome #dale dimmadome #art #digital art #comic #The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why #I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that #He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him #Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying #I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you #is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway #Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic #He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL

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lave-ium · 6 months ago

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panel redraw from the skybounds yessss

under the cut is non text ver

#IM SO SORRY I HAVENT POSTED HERE IN SO LONG #mostly cuz i have been working on artfight stuff and i cant really post that here lol #but anyways this scene after is so awful but. this shot is so good i love how shockwaves leaning forward its so silly #transformers #maccadam #lavesartstuff #transformers fanart #transformers art #shockwave #soundwave #transformers skybound

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medicalunprofessional · 8 months ago

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never change, man !

#phantom of the paradise #potp #swan potp #nightmaretheater #65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp #Look into my beautiful mind boy #Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw #but i had to push a specific look for this piece #hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look #Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan #I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That #as awful as he is he desperately needed help #it might seem like vanity on the surface #but i think its… more than that #long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry #It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again #i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems #he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away #anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal #sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick #i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad #*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha #sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please #adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse #to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like #the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this #sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol

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vaguely-concerned · 1 month ago

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the mourn watch background gives you such a GIFT in having other characters notice and call out on-screen that rook code switches like a motherfucker. the whiplash of hearing my snarky 'heeey I'm just a little guy! :>' funnyman rook speak the heightened ritualized phrases of the mourn watch with perfect seriousness and gravity completely naturally and/or break into an academic tone that can keep up with emmrich at the drop of a hat never stops giving me such endless delight. truly their real mind is a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside some hideous mourn watch casual wear

#that last one was just for comedic purposes rye would NEVER wear the mourn watch casual wear willingly #he hated the new livery so much he hoarded every pair of the older watcher robes he could hunt down so they'd tide him over #in the hopes that the next uniform design would be less awful. he is a fancyboy at heart. he should be wearing so many earrings #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar #A Watcher's work is never done #rye's whole deal is half built on the feeling of 'we've had a lot of fun here today folks. but at the end of the day I have given my oath #and I mean to fulfil it. so either help me do that or get out of my fucking way' that sort of naturally rises out of this contrast #and everyone who has for a moment doubted his complete seriousness and sincerity about it so far has ended up much deeper #than six feet under by the end of it all haha #I've found I've actually been able to build a really good sense of character here (with some reloading to see different options #to be sure lol I am a control freak) -- mixing in a stoic response in certain situations for example can inform so much with so little #and the contrast works out to be so much greater.#just this sense of a layer of levity and awkwardness on top of an immense and unflinching seriousness #that sometimes shines through. it's uh. it's been really good for me

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saltpepperbeard · 1 year ago

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is this anything

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Edit #okay stay with me here lol STAY WITH ME HERE #ed's face really has me feeling some kind of way #((i mean that's a given lol but his EXPRESSION there more like))#i keep staring at it and going back and forth between thinking it's awe/reluctant intrigue #as though he's furrowing his brow because he WANTS to not get butterflies for stede but stede is making that Very Difficult HSDJKLS #OR #and hence me making this set-#he's feeling some sort of complicated emotion in seeing stede step away from the person he met him as #the colorful bitchy poised fine thing he fell in love with #because i am ALSO sitting here wondering if stede is doing this all entirely on his own volition #or if he was ENCOURAGED to do so by izzy or someone else as like a #'it'll win you more respect and win you back ed's heart if you act and dress this way' type deal #like something something another ongoing commentary on masculinity something something #but it could ALSO be stede really wanting that world/respect/look for HIMSELF #something something stede and ed wanting to be each other and delving into each other's realms something #but just as it soured a bit for ed #i have to wonder if it'll also sour a bit for stede #and they'll consequently find 'the other home' they're looking for in EACH OTHER #and settle into a mixture of swashbuckling ruggedness/finery and subsequently complete/compliment each other #IDK i'm not being very coherent about it HA but i have many many thoughts of course #stede changing up his entire aesthetic just has me very very intrigued on how he's going to move forward #and how others are going to perceive him

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leafywillow · 2 months ago

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some of hazel's fits because who ever said you can't reap souls and be fashionable while doing it?

#hazel lockwood #sims 4 edit #ts4 edit #ts4 #the sims 4 #simblr #pls ignore the awful quality lol #i really need to dl srwe on #my new computer #but im lazy lmao #but ANYWAY #im obsessed w her

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risibledeer · 7 months ago

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hello! Hope you’re having a lovely timezone! I have come to request some Ethoslab art? Your style is very cozy and yummy looking. Thank you! <3

ethorot is going strong lol

ps ty for the req! and the compliments

#so is my art-rustiness #haven't really drawn in two weeks #freckled etho supremacy btw #ethoslab #hermitcraft #etho #ethogirl #ig?#life series #trafficblr #hermitblr #life smp #it looks better here then on procreate =_=...#also y yes that is joel on the side y'd u ask #never not going to be a jeremy lol #i tried to draw anakin today i really did like three different times! animated one even -looked awful (to the person whom it may concern)

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khattikeri · 4 months ago

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lan wangji would be annoying online but not because of discourse, he'd be that completely silent mutual who spam reblogs like 5000 yiling laozu lovecore posts without tagging a single one

#lan wangji #mo dao zu shi #wangxian #?? i guess LOL #keri chats #in that way hes really not even annoying. to many he inspires awe even for his dedication gegdhdkslejwgsj #mdzs #danmei

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saturnvs · 8 months ago

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bright horses of wonder

#yay nick cave reference #art #illustration #watercolor #horses #horse art #my art #brought my watercolors to school because i’m cool #bright horses is my fav nick cave song #i always take awful photos of sketchbook drawings #i did this with one of those small watercolor brushes you fill with water because it was all that fit into my travel watercolor set #it was kind of awful and made the background really annoying to do lol #kuretake watercolors my dearly beloved

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kaereth · 7 months ago

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YOO This blog has been way too inactive!! Sorry!! I had some construction done on my office and a buncha other stuff, but I'm gonna be opening for kofis again on Saturday probably! :D

In the meantime if you wanna drop a draw request in the replies i wanna draw some quick stuff!

#txt #this month has been crazy #both awful and really nice in varying amounts lol #really looking forward to things settling down

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butchvamp · 13 days ago

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also it is really funny even with the chantry basically removed from the game it still gets handled with more care and respect than any of the other religions, the fact that you get so many options to comfort the andrastians when it's revealed their maker may not be real, and you can even pray at the temple later with the viper after minrathous is attacked... every character is just assumed andrastian, and if they're not it's always used against them in some way (dalish elves are repeatedly punished in these games simply for being dalish and are depicted as being foolish for wanting to connect with their gods and culture instead of assimilating and "moving on from the past") it's always amused me in that way even when trying to be critical of the chantry, the writers still manage to always grant it and the andrastians so much grace because of their real world bias (white + culturally christian) and the obvious real world inspiration for andrastianism. even with it's absence in veilguard it's still There in more subtle and even insidious ways given that all blame is placed on the evanuris instead.

#characters like harding and sebastian and aveline and cassandra all get kinda elevated in game because theyre andrastian #even if harding turns to the stone towards the end it doesn't change that fact #sebastian lectures fenris on having faith and insisting it was the maker that freed him from danarius which is an insane thing to say #and extremely inappropriate but again sebastian is given way more grace to be awful w/o the game allowing u to challenge him #versus like. being able to tell anders to basically kill himself LOL and fenris you can say pretty horrible shit arguing with him #and harding in veilguard you literally Cannot challenge her at all ever. only niceys #versus bellara who is made to feel guilty and is punished a second time with the death of her brother #merrill and velanna are also punished in previous games #bad templars are always depicted as lone wolves like sir alrik #but then when you go talk to cullen he actually agrees with his ideas and then we just never address it again lol #somehow cullen does a complete 180 between games and we never get to really see that but again he is granted way more grace #and all his past wrongs forgiven #he has faith and also now he's nice and hot so who cares!#da posting #datv critical

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theborzoiarebackintown · 3 months ago

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