#autistic brain

[adhdxxsdiary]

[adhd-worlds]

Autistic ppl (me) making lists: idk what it is about lists but I swear there's crack in it

[ch3rubpuppi]

Scream Characters And Their Melanie Martinez Songs!

Crybaby (extra clutter) + Dollhouse EP

Sidney - Crybaby, Carousel, Tag, you're it, Milk and Cookies, Teddy Bear, Cake, Bittersweet Tragedy, Dead to Me

Tatum - Alphabet Boy, Mrs. Potato Head

Randy - Pity Party (Because he lonely)

Stu - Dollhouse, Crybaby, Soap, Pacify Her, Mad Hatter, Play Date

Billy - Sippy Cup, Mad Hatter, Dollhouse

K-12

Sidney - Wheels On The Bus, The Principal, Drama Club, Detention, Recess

Tatum - The Principal, Strawberry Shortcake, Orange Juice, High School Sweethearts, Recess

Randy - Lunchbox Friends (not saying they fake but man he was treated like dirt in the movie 😭😭)

Stu - Detention, High School Sweethearts, Class Fight

Billy - I'm not even sure man- Maybe Detention?

After School

Sidney - Notebook, Test Me, Brain & Heart

Tatum - Test me, Glued

Randy - Numbers, The Bakery (BC HE GOT FIRED TWICE BUT STILL GOT REHIRED??)

Stu - Brain & Heart, Glued

Billy - Test me

PORTALS (deluxe)

Sidney - Void, Leeches, Tunnel Vision, Battle of the Larynx, Moon Cycle, Evil, Milk of the Siren

Tatum - Death, Light Shower, Nymphology, Moon Cycle

Randy - Spider Web

Stu - Death, Void, Faerie Soirée, The Contortionist, Light Shower, Powder

Billy - Pluto, Faerie Soirée

Some characters have the same songs due to personal headcanons, their personalities, their relationships with others/my headcanon relationships (which is Tatum x Sidney and Billy x Stu!) And what happened in Scream 1996.

[amihungryorbored]

If you are autistic PLEASE VOTE

(I'm trying to learn something. research if, you will. pls help me out:)

If you DON'T HAVE ASD PLEASE DO NOT VOTE this is not for you i want to hear autistic voices if you want to see just use the answers option

please please REBLOG to reach more people please and thank you

[crimzonquazar]

Why are so many household items designed to be loud, I just want to vacuum or blend something without having to wear headphones

[lifeonkylesfarm]

each year I sense more strongly that autistic childhood is so inherently traumatizing because of ableism that a truly untraumatized autistic person is an essentially impossible find.

[neurospicy-diaries]

Dear diary,

this gif is probably the only thing I feel proud I did today.

Altough I almost drank all my supposed water quota and at least I contacted the wife of a friend to resolve how to access a surgery consult for the breast mass.

I also got to work, had lunch and now I'm going to take a shower.

Now I hope the gif is searchable in the tumblr system or I'll have to manually put it every-frigging-time.

[myautismranting]

APRIL 30 2024

Special interest update

I now like pokemon

Also I have a trip to an airbnb that's 3 and a half hours from home

[thesaltdragon]

So my cousin asked how I describe scenes so well in my writing, and I said "Oh it's easy, I just think in 3D" only to have him explain to me that he can't do that, and that no one else he knows can.

[kiamescribbles]

My brain (yes, I see myself as separate from my brain and body) sometimes just panics and rages for no discernible reason before chilling out suddenly. Felt it would be humorous enough to draw out one of its "episodes"

[buuuuggggggggggg]

My psych teacher talked abt ppl with autism and was like

They'll never form bonds or connections, no autistic person can live on their own. They feel little to nothing, and will likely need care their whole lives.

Meanwhile my autistic ass seething with rage

Because fair enough, i know i wouldn't be able to live on my own. But i am not dumb or incapable. Yes i struggle with facial expressions and tone and social rules, but I've fallen in love and i have friends i care immensely about. I, and others like me, are not just some machine looking like a human. Why is this mindset being taught in schools? Fucks sake.

[lvl-one-nd-halfling]

No idea where this came from - if there’s someone to credit lmk

[heresiae]

so, I'm finishing watching Preacher on Netflix and I can't wrap my head around Cassidy because, the first time it came out, I didn't have the patience to wait for the next seasons and went off directly to the comics.

problems is, it's a Garth Ennis' comic.

if you don't know who Garth Ennis is, just know he's one of the sickest comic writer on the scene. except that "sick" in this case has its regular meaning. Garth Ennis is sick. his characters are sick. his stories are sick. everything is sick and when you think he reached maximum level of sick, he will throw at you a way more sick thing (be aware, he's not the sickest of all, but for occidental standards he's... well... lets just say his name it's a trigger warning for literally everything).

not only Cassidy. many characters were given some way to inspire some compassion when, in reality, Ennis wrote everyone in a way that you can't help but highly dislike everyone.

I mean, it's absolutely fine. if they didn't washed some of the sickening away it would have been unwatchable by anybody that is not a regular consumer of hard core splatter movies. I surprised they could make God give off jerk vibes.

but my brain has kept yelling in every Cass scene "don't trust that bitch! DON'T TRUST THAT BITCH!" since season two and, I mean, dude, I understand, Cassidy is the worst but... can you shut up and just drool on Dominic Cooper?

[menanddogsscareme]

I enjoy watching science videos. But something I notice whenever they bring up certain health statistics is that for sure not many of the subjects for this test are neurodivergent. Which I understand why , but in recent years shouldn't tests that take into consideration the difference between neurotypicals and neurodivergent ppl be at least a little more common

[idkimnotreal]

i think it is a product of my autistic brain that i never really “know” things, that is, i never feel that a thought i have is right, i’m never really sure about stuff; what i would describe my thoughts as instead (or my process of arriving at a conclusion or decision, which is what most thoughts are about) is having a map of information laid out and being able to access all the pieces of information about something whenever i think about it (every thought i think about has several other thoughts connected to it, it’s about perspective, if i focus on one of those other thoughts then it will have other thoughts connected to it too), but it never becomes more than that - a map of displayed information. 

it’s not that i can’t connect the dots (or thoughts, or pieces of information), but there are so many dots that i can’t ever connect all of them at once, and once i’m done connecting two dots, some other connection is already undone, left behind, and i can’t make out the entire picture. medication (stimulants) helps with this, but then i’m always afraid it makes me have so much tunnel vision that i am finally able to connect all the dots available to me at the time, but i’ll miss out on dots i might otherwise know of when my brain is unmedicated (what i would describe as unmedicated “horizontal thinking” vs. medicated “vertical thinking”). in other words, it makes me able to conclude/decide, but leaves my thinking “incomplete”, which is why i prioritize thinking some things in advance before taking my meds, and think about other stuff while on it as it suits me.

[crimzonquazar]

I have to be honest

I find these as entertaining and fun as cats do