#autistic brain

[adhd-worlds]

Autistic ppl (me) making lists: idk what it is about lists but I swear there's crack in it

[clairedelune-13]

Telling a neurodivergent they “should watch/play/read this thing” when its not their current hyperfixation is a mistake.

“Play Origins” “Play Witcher 1” “Watch GoT”

Except its not my Special Interest atm. so I literally can’t.

My brain just doesn’t work that way. Its rigid as fuck.

I can’t “just start” something completely new just cuz you say.

I hate when people don’t understand this.

[ch3rubpuppi]

Scream Characters And Their Melanie Martinez Songs!

Crybaby (extra clutter) + Dollhouse EP

Sidney - Crybaby, Carousel, Tag, you're it, Milk and Cookies, Teddy Bear, Cake, Bittersweet Tragedy, Dead to Me

Tatum - Alphabet Boy, Mrs. Potato Head

Randy - Pity Party (Because he lonely)

Stu - Dollhouse, Crybaby, Soap, Pacify Her, Mad Hatter, Play Date

Billy - Sippy Cup, Mad Hatter, Dollhouse

K-12

Sidney - Wheels On The Bus, The Principal, Drama Club, Detention, Recess

Tatum - The Principal, Strawberry Shortcake, Orange Juice, High School Sweethearts, Recess

Randy - Lunchbox Friends (not saying they fake but man he was treated like dirt in the movie 😭😭)

Stu - Detention, High School Sweethearts, Class Fight

Billy - I'm not even sure man- Maybe Detention?

After School

Sidney - Notebook, Test Me, Brain & Heart

Tatum - Test me, Glued

Randy - Numbers, The Bakery (BC HE GOT FIRED TWICE BUT STILL GOT REHIRED??)

Stu - Brain & Heart, Glued

Billy - Test me

PORTALS (deluxe)

Sidney - Void, Leeches, Tunnel Vision, Battle of the Larynx, Moon Cycle, Evil, Milk of the Siren

Tatum - Death, Light Shower, Nymphology, Moon Cycle

Randy - Spider Web

Stu - Death, Void, Faerie Soirée, The Contortionist, Light Shower, Powder

Billy - Pluto, Faerie Soirée

Some characters have the same songs due to personal headcanons, their personalities, their relationships with others/my headcanon relationships (which is Tatum x Sidney and Billy x Stu!) And what happened in Scream 1996.

[crazycatsiren]

Anxiety. It was anxiety. Alexithymia can be so obnoxious at times.

[alvinmichaelmurphyseville]

“I downloaded not one but TWO physics quiz apps on my phone.”

“This special interest is out of control….not that I mind! Because I don’t! Physics and I are as inseparable as Jeanette and I!”

[amihungryorbored]

If you are autistic PLEASE VOTE

(I'm trying to learn something. research if, you will. pls help me out:)

If you DON'T HAVE ASD PLEASE DO NOT VOTE this is not for you i want to hear autistic voices if you want to see just use the answers option

please please REBLOG to reach more people please and thank you

[crimzonquazar]

Why are so many household items designed to be loud, I just want to vacuum or blend something without having to wear headphones

[countessravengrey]

Okay, I feel like I read something to this effect, but hopefully, my AuDHD/Neurodivergent siblings can help me out here.

There's two (at least) types of autistic burnout?? (and I don't think these are the terms, but that's why the query):

Ongoing - as in I've been exhausted since middle school (a long, long time ago in this galaxy of a human), and that will probably never get better unless I become rich and never have to work/worry about money/stay in this collapsing empire of a country ever again.

Episodic - basically a collapse that happens every so often because all the self-care, reducing triggers, shadow work, etc won't change the fact that i still have to mask in most of my everyday life because the society I live in won't let me just EXIST so I can get some fucking rest. It feels like I'm sick, but like, what are the symptoms? Besides I CAN'T��️ and lots of sleeping. I don't know what feeling rested when you wake up feels like, but I know when I'm so far beyond my usual exhaustion that I cannot get out of bed and canceling entire days' worth of appointments, work, and social events is just *snaps fingers* fine (not fine; I've had multiple panic attacks all week) when it's normally impossible for me to even consider canceling things. Executive function, self-care, totally kaput. Nothing in the tank.

This latter one could possibly be classified as shutdown, but I generally think of that as a sudden temporary thing with a very specific trigger that lasts a few hours, maybe as much as a day or two, and then you recover to your base level.

What I'm talking about lasts a minimum of a few days and usually longer (weeks), depending on how quickly i just give in to it, instead of trying to fight my way out of/through it.

Whereas a shutdown feels instant and very temporary, like someone unplugged a jukebox (because tags in my shirt in the middle of this crowd under florescent lights), this feels more like when a building is on fire for some time and most of it has burned away, and finally, the skeleton structure of it just...... falls over in a semi-slo-mo heap, just...

collapses

There's a trigger, yes, but the house was already on fire, and it's more like the straw that broke the camel's back or a stiff breeze hitting the burning building just so. And it's still burning after the collapse btw. It just...I don't know, turns to embers after a while and you get on with life.

Does that sound right? Or is there a whole layer I'm missing?

[Comment, reblog, tag people you think will have a useful take on this, etc]

[neurospicy-diaries]

Dear diary,

this gif is probably the only thing I feel proud I did today.

Altough I almost drank all my supposed water quota and at least I contacted the wife of a friend to resolve how to access a surgery consult for the breast mass.

I also got to work, had lunch and now I'm going to take a shower.

Now I hope the gif is searchable in the tumblr system or I'll have to manually put it every-frigging-time.

[myautismranting]

APRIL 30 2024

Special interest update

I now like pokemon

Also I have a trip to an airbnb that's 3 and a half hours from home

[thesaltdragon]

So my cousin asked how I describe scenes so well in my writing, and I said "Oh it's easy, I just think in 3D" only to have him explain to me that he can't do that, and that no one else he knows can.

[idkimnotreal]

i think it is a product of my autistic brain that i never really “know” things, that is, i never feel that a thought i have is right, i’m never really sure about stuff; what i would describe my thoughts as instead (or my process of arriving at a conclusion or decision, which is what most thoughts are about) is having a map of information laid out and being able to access all the pieces of information about something whenever i think about it (every thought i think about has several other thoughts connected to it, it’s about perspective, if i focus on one of those other thoughts then it will have other thoughts connected to it too), but it never becomes more than that - a map of displayed information. 

it’s not that i can’t connect the dots (or thoughts, or pieces of information), but there are so many dots that i can’t ever connect all of them at once, and once i’m done connecting two dots, some other connection is already undone, left behind, and i can’t make out the entire picture. medication (stimulants) helps with this, but then i’m always afraid it makes me have so much tunnel vision that i am finally able to connect all the dots available to me at the time, but i’ll miss out on dots i might otherwise know of when my brain is unmedicated (what i would describe as unmedicated “horizontal thinking” vs. medicated “vertical thinking”). in other words, it makes me able to conclude/decide, but leaves my thinking “incomplete”, which is why i prioritize thinking some things in advance before taking my meds, and think about other stuff while on it as it suits me.

[heresiae]

so, I'm finishing watching Preacher on Netflix and I can't wrap my head around Cassidy because, the first time it came out, I didn't have the patience to wait for the next seasons and went off directly to the comics.

problems is, it's a Garth Ennis' comic.

if you don't know who Garth Ennis is, just know he's one of the sickest comic writer on the scene. except that "sick" in this case has its regular meaning. Garth Ennis is sick. his characters are sick. his stories are sick. everything is sick and when you think he reached maximum level of sick, he will throw at you a way more sick thing (be aware, he's not the sickest of all, but for occidental standards he's... well... lets just say his name it's a trigger warning for literally everything).

not only Cassidy. many characters were given some way to inspire some compassion when, in reality, Ennis wrote everyone in a way that you can't help but highly dislike everyone.

I mean, it's absolutely fine. if they didn't washed some of the sickening away it would have been unwatchable by anybody that is not a regular consumer of hard core splatter movies. I surprised they could make God give off jerk vibes.

but my brain has kept yelling in every Cass scene "don't trust that bitch! DON'T TRUST THAT BITCH!" since season two and, I mean, dude, I understand, Cassidy is the worst but... can you shut up and just drool on Dominic Cooper?

[menanddogsscareme]

I enjoy watching science videos. But something I notice whenever they bring up certain health statistics is that for sure not many of the subjects for this test are neurodivergent. Which I understand why , but in recent years shouldn't tests that take into consideration the difference between neurotypicals and neurodivergent ppl be at least a little more common

[myceliumhash]

✨️my brain✨️

• special interests (cannabis, mushrooms, Rain World)

• stress about being an adult

• not feeling right but not knowing what I need

• sleep

• need to do thing but don't have energy

• wonders why stomach hurts, remembers haven't eaten in at least 2 hrs

• lick/bite boyfriend

• forgets water exists

• stimm

[dognerd2]

Real