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blueindigo17 · 10 months ago
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hi writeblr!! it's nice to meet you!!
I’ve had this blog for years but never posted anything bc to be honest I was a little afraid of tumblr when I first joined, but recently I decided that since I like talking about my wips so much to my friends/family irl, why not blog about them? I also want to find some writing mutuals, since I like hearing about people’s stories just as much as I like telling them about mine. Feel free to interact, follow, message, etc. I love making friends :D
About me <3
I go by Blue or BlueIndigo online, so feel free to use either of those :)
My pronouns are she/her
I’m 19, which also happens to be my favorite number :)
I have five (sort of six?) wips and over a hundred characters. I may have a problem.
I am a BIG swiftie (favorite albums are 1989 TV and TTPD), and I listen to a lot of Sabrina Carpenter, Conan Gray, Olivia Rodrigo, 5SOS, The Scarlet Opera, Chappell Roan, and Gracie Abrams.
I love reading!! My favorite books are Carrie Soto Is Back by Taylor Jenkins Reid (my fav author) and She Drives Me Crazy by Kelly Quindlen.
I've played ukulele for a few years, and I recently started learning guitar. there's a greater than zero chance I might post any music things in the future. ig we'll see.
I have a thing where my wip titles have to make good acronyms or I don’t use them. idk why either.
I can and will talk your ear off if you let me lol. #blueindigo says things for non-wip related stuff <3
tag games are an ABSOLUTE YES my personal brand of yapping is answering questions
I like to write…
Realistic/contemporary fiction
Young adult/new adult
LGBTQ+ characters
Coming of age
Romance
Friend groups/found family
otherwise just people being people :)
More about my wips below !!
My WIPs
Never Have We Ever (NHWE)
Tags: #wip: never have we ever #wip: NHWE
Summary: Liz has the best friends a girl could ask for. Harley, Mikey, and Natasha have been her people since elementary school, and Trevor and Amanda since middle school. Their whole lives, things have been pretty much the same. Same kids in their classes every year. Same streets between the same houses. Same, same, same. At the end of her freshman year of high school, just about when Liz is wondering how much same she could possibly handle, she catches Trevor’s eye as he laughs at someone’s joke, and something deep inside her lights up. Something she doesn’t know what to do with. Something she can't push back down once it comes barreling up to the surface. So much for same. After that, things can’t stop changing. And not just in her own life—her friend group starts pulling apart at the seams. Harley begins withdrawing from everyone with no explanation. Mikey gets in bigger trouble with his dad than ever. Natasha only has a year before she has to move off to college. Amanda is stuck between the person she is and the person the world wants her to be. Trevor seems to have gotten off easy, but Liz can’t be around him for more than a minute without falling head over heels all over again. In this collection of short stories, Liz has to wonder if the change of pace she thought she wanted is worth it. Sometimes it’s hard to be brave, and she’s never been the most open to change, but unfortunately, that does not stop it from happening. The only question is: what is she going to do about it?
Genres: short stories, realistic fiction, young adult, coming of age, contemporary Themes: found family, first crushes, dealing with change, growing up, maintaining friendships Characters: Liz Stanton 🩵, Harley Wilson 💚, Mikey Miller 💛, Natasha Knightley 💜, Trevor Marshall ❤️, Amanda Hamilton 🩷
NHWE is my oldest WIP, started on December 16, 2019. It’s been on ice lately, since the plot has gone through so many changes that I haven’t known what to do with it in a while, but one of my goals with posting about it is to warm myself back up to it. I think writing that summary was a good place to start. Wish me luck :D
The Together List (TTL)
Tags: #wip: the together list #wip: TTL
Summary: Audrey is in her first month of college. Within three weeks, she’s moved out of her childhood bedroom and into a room with a window that seems to open on its own and a door that creaks loud enough to wake up the whole floor, she’s stumbled into a friend group that seemed to pull itself together like drawstrings, and she’s gotten a job at an adorable independent milkshake shop with her roommate and one of her new friends. What more could she possibly ask for? The world, it seems. Audrey has a list ten miles long of all the little things she wants college to be. One night, she starts listing them out loud. Her friends—Logan, Lennon, McKinley, Aspen, and Levi—chime in with their own after a moment, and before anyone knows it it’s been three hours and they haven’t stopped. They aren’t even sure whose idea it is, but they start writing it down. Every box on this ridiculously decorated list will be checked off by the end of the year, they swear. Someone makes an Instagram account as a joke, but by the first post it’s become as serious an endeavor as they’ve ever had. They wouldn’t call themselves local celebrities, but they certainly wouldn’t correct you if you did. The thing about fame at this age, even at small amounts, is that it's bound to go to someone's head...
Genres: realistic fiction, young adult fiction, new adult fiction, coming of age, LGBTQ+ fiction Themes: LGBTQ+, friendships, fame, college, becoming an adult, relationships Characters: Audrey Marshall 💙, Logan Levine 🧡, Lennon Adler 💛, McKinley March 💜, Aspen Brady ❤️, Levi Jackson 💚
TTL was created on August 18, 2021. I saw a post on Pinterest of someone's summer bucket list and that sounded like such a fun thing to do with friends that I had to write about it. Two and a half-ish years later, TTL has also gone through many changes, so I'm sort of trying to refresh it now. I'm very excited to see where it takes me!
(Fun fact: the main character, Audrey, is the older sister of Trevor from NHWE!)
The Violet Sisters Club (TVSC)
Tags: #wip: the violet sisters club #wip: TVSC
Summary: The Violet Sisters Club, a world famous all-female pop rock band, is facing a very public lawsuit from a former hotheaded manager over their most recent album. Following the conclusion of their case, lead singer Naomi Tyler, drummer Inez Wilde, guitarist Chrissy Cameron, and bassist Francesca Sheridan escape to the luxurious Overlook Estate, a privately owned rental property on an island off the southern coast of California. Here, they can spend the summer out of the public eye, writing songs they don’t need to worry about releasing and letting the public wonder what they’re up to as they let the tension out of their muscles. With a property four times the size of Alcatraz Island and a beach over a mile long, the Overlook offers the band a respite from the go, go, go of touring, the privacy invasion of paparazzi, and the exhaustion of being micromanaged every minute of every day. Four pools, seven hot tubs, the aforementioned private beach, a high tech recording studio (just in case), a few golf carts just to get around the property and a Jeep to get to town. It’s unimaginably expensive, it’s incomprehensibly big, and it’s everything they need. But this escape may not be the relaxing California beach paradise they imagined. Soon, it becomes hard to hide how much the stress of fame was eating away at each of them—emotions run high, patiences run thin, days run long, nights run longer, and the strength of the band is questioned as the girls’ insecurities and anxieties bubble to the surface after a lifetime in the spotlight.
Genres: realistic fiction, contemporary fiction, literary fiction Themes: fame, music, romance, found family, secrets, breakups Characters: Naomi Tyler (lead singer, songwriter) 💜, Inez Wilde (drummer, vocalist, songwriter) 🩷, Chrissy Cameron (guitarist, vocalist, songwriter) 💙, Francesca Sheridan (bassist, vocalist, songwriter) 💚
TVSC was created on February 5, 2023, but the characters have been around almost as long as TTL. Initially, I created the Violet Sisters Club as a fictional band that would exist within The Together List, but at some point I couldn't get the idea of a TVSC-focused novel out of my head. I'm glad I never did, because some of my favorite ideas I've ever had have gone into TVSC. If I could have one wish, it would be for all of TVSC's songs to be real so I could listen to them without having to write them first.
Now That We Don’t Talk (NTWDT)
Tags: #wip: now that we don’t talk #wip: NTWDT
Summary: There are two important things to know about Hazel Henry and Saiah Bradford.  One: They kinda-sorta hate each other after they broke up last year at prom. (The same prom that ended with the school almost burning down and Hazel's twin brother's best friend going to the hospital. Bad memories all around.) Two: Someone on the planning committee for their senior class trip must be out to get them, because when they arrive at the hotel, they find out they’ve been assigned to the same room. This should have been impossible; Saiah requested to be paired with her best friend, Tory, who's going to have some explaining to do later, and Hazel would bet her life on the fact that she requested a room alone. Now, for the next two weeks, they’re both stuck in the same narrow room with its little square bathroom and practically-nonexistent privacy. The air conditioner turns on at random times, they seem to be paired together for every single scheduled activity, and perhaps worst of all—their friends all seem to find this situation absolutely hilarious.  But it’s just two weeks, right? It’ll be over before they know it, and soon they can both go back to pretending their relationship—and each other—never existed. Right? Right? Happy senior year to them. 
Genres: realistic fiction, young adult fiction, contemporary fiction, LGBTQ+ fiction, romance Themes: reconciliation, romance, friendship, forgiveness, guilt, regrets, family, growing up Characters: Hazel Henry 🩷, Nick Henry 💙, Saiah Bradford 💚, Tory Whitehouse 💛
NTWDT was created on October 18, 2023. Hilariously, I came up with the plot after making Hazel and Saiah in the Sims, and I literally couldn't stop thinking about them whenever I wasn't playing. As I do with every character I create, I became obsessed with them, and now here we are. And in case you're wondering, yes, I named it after the Taylor Swift song lol.
Trouble In Paradise (TIP)
Tags: #wip: trouble in paradise #wip: TIP
Summary: Sixteen years ago, Joe Alexander and Ben King drove across the US in the pursuit of Joe's true love. Today, Joe is preparing to move out of his and his ex-wife's house and drive across the country once more, joined by his daughter, Bryce, and his best friend/his daughter's biological father, Ben. It's all familiar—the long stretches of empty fields, collapsing onto a cheap hotel bed for the night, never being able to decide where to stop for food—and yet, Joe has no idea what he's in for.  This is a story of two cross-country road trips, and the lives that one woman is able to ruin in between. Joe Alexander and Ben King have both lost their entire worlds to Lilly Alexander. But the ones they’ve gained after her might be—in some weird, unconventional way—a little better.
Genres: realistic fiction, contemporary fiction, adult fiction, literary fiction Themes: reconciliation, moving on, guilt, parenting, cheating, manipulation, mental illness, past sexual assault Characters: Joe Alexander, Ben King, Bryce Alexander, Lilly Alexander
TIP is technically my newest WIP, since I came up with the full plot earlier this year (February 13, 2024). I've had the vague idea of it for just over a year, but I didn't quite know what to do with it until recently. It's definitely more mature with its topics than my other wips, as you might be able to tell by the themes, but I really like the concept and I've had a lot of fun plotting it so far, even if it's a little out of my comfort zone.
(Fun fact: the original title way back when the characters didn't even have last names was High Infidelity, after the Taylor Swift song, since I thought it was so thematically appropriate.)
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OKAY I'm pretty sure I have officially run out of things to say. If you made it all the way here, thank you so much for reading! Like I said earlier, feel free to interact any way you like :D
This post is sort of a masterpost for all my wips, but I'm also doing posts for each wip separately so I can go into more detail. Those are/will be linked in the title for each wip.
Thanks again for reading, and have a good day/night !!
―BlueIndigo <3
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fishnamedsushi · 1 year ago
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On the nocturnal habits of Hamsphire’s elusive owls (Pt. 1)
[In which I cannot wait 3+ years for the Jane Austen flashbacks we *better* be getting in Season 3, so I made up my own.
Featuring, in no particular order: a secret smuggling ring, Aziraphale annoying the local wildlife, and Crowley making a new friend.]
In the remarkable quiet of her rather unremarkable Hampshire cottage, Miss Jane Austen had taken a defensive position behind her writing desk. Her quill, having downed one too many pints of ink, was weaving a delightful drunken waltz across parchment, breathing life into the characters of her latest work, although somewhat against its own will. However, even as her hand was forced to document the scandalous affairs of society balls and romantic mishaps, her keen mind was having a party of its own somewhere else.
Resting on a random corner of her desk, as if it had just wandered off from a dull social gathering, was a letter. While about as inconspicuous in appearance as a piece of parchment could be, the letter, much to the annoyance of her fictional characters, was the real protagonist in Jane's thoughts. With the execution of a final full stop, she finally allowed herself to eye the letter with her full attention.
"An intriguing little fellow, isn't it?" she mumbled to the four walls. Her fingers gingerly navigated the unfamiliar terrain of the fine linen paper with a hint of the trepidation you'd feel before opening a suspiciously ticking box. It wasn't the typical love letter from a fan or a persuasive piece from a money-hungry publisher. No, it had all the trappings of a secret thriller, without any of the appropriate background music.
Without further ado, she rose, pushing the chair back with the aplomb of a magician revealing his final trick. She tread across the room, the wooden floorboards protesting beneath her feet. At the fireplace, a fire, the warmth of which was doing a poor job of countering the cool British draught, crackled in varying degrees of discontent.
She reached above the mantelpiece, where an innocent-looking set of her books sat. She selected one - a copy of 'Emma', rather fitting considering the meddling she herself was about to conduct. The book, in reality, was not a book at all, but a cleverly disguised secret box. It opened to reveal a fine selection of ciphering tools, looking as if they belonged more in the hands of a learned detective than a gentlewoman of her standing. But then, appearances could be as deceiving as a flattery-spouting suitor.
Settling back at her desk, she retrieved the coded message and the cipher from 'Emma's' secretive interior, the two entities meeting like old friends who had many a scandalous tale to share. Her quill, recharged after its dramatic performance earlier, dived headfirst into the decoding process. Decrypting was a favorite pastime, her mind working as smoothly as a well-oiled conspiracy theory, and with far more proficiency than the Reddit-that-would be. This was a world that operated in the shadows, where Miss Austen, the revered author, metamorphosed into "J" the underappreciated secret agent.
"Why, this is most bewildering," she muttered. Words emerged, and altogether made no sense: consignment, midnight, rookery? 
Then, like the striking of a well-tuned piano, it hit her. "A gathering of local intelligentsia?" she read aloud, her eyes widening with recognition. An idea began to form, as enticing as a plot twist in a novel, as she connected the dots.
"Mrs. Norris, we are off to a soirée!" she announced to her cat, who responded with the kind of disdain only felines and dowager countesses can muster.
In the next room, a clock chimed the eleventh hour, its sound seeming as out of place as a cucumber sandwich at a demon's feast. Time, it seemed, had a knack for making itself known when least welcome, much like a nosy neighbor who'd decided to 'pop by' right when you're in the middle of something terribly important.
"Dear me, look at that," Jane tutted. "Agent Austen, it seems your services are once again required." It was less a murmur and more of a statement that demanded a whimsical score in the background. With the decoding done, she reached for a bottle of disappearing ink. She quickly scribed a response, her hand elegantly conveying her words of acknowledgement and confirmation, weaving in coded phrases as easily as Mr. Bingley danced at a ball.
Her task complete, she sealed the letter with a wax emblem. The insignia, a simple-looking quill, was as deceptive as the rest of her evening had been. She surveyed her work, a smug satisfaction twirling in her eyes. "Just a night in the life of Jane, the novelist slash spy for King and country," she announced, to the distinct lack of applause from her audience of one.
She then returned her attention to the half-written manuscript, her mind shifting from dangerous intrigue to witty banter at a society ball. "Why, Miss Austen, you are as enigmatic as a heroine in one of your own novels," she mused, adjusting her bonnet with a flourish. Just as well, Jane thought, exiting her chair, there was never a dull moment. As she often noted, life was a lot like her favorite stories. It was full of twists, turns, and drama. Except, life also had a tendency to go off script and demand rewrites at the oddest times. 
She left her home with a bounce in her step, off to mingle with the intelligentsia and perhaps unmask a plot as twisted as any she could pen.
Mrs. Norris, left to her own devices, merely yawned and settled into a comfortable slumber, unimpressed by the human propensity for drama. After all, real intrigue involved strategically knocking objects off shelves, not gallivanting off to gatherings with intellectuals.
[Part 2 coming soon]
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cottegecorepanarabread · 4 years ago
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10 Things I Hate About Tsuki pt.4
I'm on the verge of a category 4 mental breakdown. I have not studied for my ap bio final on the 10th and 11th nor the ap bio exam on the 14. I wrote this tho. I hope you enjoy. Send me one shot requests if you want. as always a big thank you to the writers of 10 thing I hate about you
transition song 1- pink socks by mickey darling
transition song 2- go home. play music. feel better. by Michael Cera Palin
transition song 2- I forgot to take my meds today by Prince Daddy and The Hyena
“I’m starting to think like my car more than me Tsuki.” Tadashi laughed when they saw Tsuki leaning against their car again. 
“What can I saw she’s beautiful.” Kei smirked.
“Assuming my car’s pronouns now huh. How will I ever forgive you.” Tadashi crossed their arms.
Sugawara and Akaashi came up behind Tadashi and laughed. Kei looked down in embarrassment.
“Is this guy bothering you Yama?” Suga said.
“No it’s fine.” Tadashi unlocked the car, “get in we’ll be done in a second.”
They climbed into the car leaving Tadashi and Kei alone again. 
“Look I’m sorry if my friends embarrassed you. They can be a lot sometimes.” Tadashi’s suddenly turned sympathetic.
“I’m sorry too for possibly misgendering your car,” Tadashi snorted at that, “or you.”
Tadashi was touched. No one, other than family or friend, had ever felt that bad about misgendering them. 
“I use he/they but on some days I lean more to one or the other. Today it’s they but you could really use either.”
“Thanks for telling me. Now will you tell me if you will go to Kuroo’s party with me.”
“You were just being nice to try and take me out. Why are you so annoying. I don’t understand.” Tadashi snapped.
“Pick you up at 9 then.”
“Shut the hell up”
You say you just wanna be friends
And I’m not mad, bitch I’m livid  
So now I’ve been fucking all of your friends 
Every night, cause I’m desperate
“Terushima!” Kei yelled down the hall.
“What do you want glasses?” Terushima spit back.
“He’s too much trouble. I don’t care if you want to rail his brother, but I was $100 a day if you want me to keep doing this.” Kei snapped.
He had Terushima against his locker and held him there with one arm. 
“Fine just let go of me. I don’t want you ruining my perfect body for my photoshoot tomorrow.” 
After being released, he handed Kei $600 for payment in advance. Kei smirked. He had Terushima in the palm of his hand. 
I will not falter, I will not budge
I will stop trying to say it doesn’t matter so much 
Take on a cause, hold for the applause
Impulsive vanity’s a common crutch
“Hi I’m Hinata,” he stuck his hand out to Kei, “So we are the real masterminds behind this operation. Terushima is just a pawn.”
“I asked him to pay you so Hinata could really date Kageyama.” Bokuto said.
They had stopped him during another science lab.
“Jesus Christ,” Kei muttered going back to the beakers in front of him.
“Wait, please, I can help. I’ll get Kageyama to tell me what Yamaguchi likes so you know what he likes.” Hinata grabbed his arm.
“Look,” Kei yanked Hinata’s hand off his arm, “I don’t care as long as I’m still getting paid.”
“Hey Kageyama I need your help. So I got this guy to try to take out Yamaguchi but I need to know what your brother likes.”
“You act like I care to know everything about them. Also it’s sibling not brother. We need to search their room.”
Later in Yamaguchi’s room, Hitana went through stacks of CDs as Kageyama rummaged through his closet and drawers. 
“Why do they dress like this?” Kageyama sighed, “it’s like they don’t want anyone to date them.”
Hinata came to help Kageyama after making a list of bands.
“I mean it’s not that bad,” Hinata pulled an item out of the closet, “I would wear this.”
Kageyama blushed upon seeing the skirt he held up. It wasn’t anything against skirt wearing, no. He was just imagining Hinata’s legs in the skirt. No, bad brain!
Later that day Hinata handed Kei the list of likes. It included Wes Anderson films, punk and soft music, Vietnamese food, the color black, and…blonds. At the bottom of the list was a date: Prince Daddy and They Hyena at Club Skunk, April 24th. Kei shrugged. Why not go?
I forgot to take my meds today
I can’t believe it’s only Tuesday 
Figures it hit me on the highway
I forgot to take my meds today
Kei walked into the club. He wished he had just stayed home. He definitely should have looked into the band before coming. Screams and heavy bass filled the room. 
He went to the bar to get a water and hopped it would calm his nerves. He almost choked on his water when he saw Tadashi. 
He bounced along to the song (I imagine it to be Trashville 1/3) while holding onto another boy’s arm. They sang along together. After the attitude, the outfit drew his attention next. He wore a cropped black turtleneck with black ripped mom jeans. His hair was up in a bun showing off his various piercings. Every time Tadashi raised his arms, the shirt revealed more of this chest. 
Tadashi whispered something to his friend then made his way to the bar. Kei leaned his back against the bar. Tadashi saw him and rolled his eyes. 
“Are you following me?” Tadashi snapped crossing his hands over his chest. 
“Can’t I just come see a band I like in concert. I mean they aren’t Ashes to Amber but their good.” Kei smiled at him.
“You know who Ashes to Amber is. Well, you really are full of surprises aren’t you.” Tadashi drank the water the bartender handed him.
Kei followed him back to the stage to where Suga was standing. They went back to dancing. 
“You know,” the song ended and the room went quite without him noticing,” I was watching you out there and I’ve never seen you look so hot.”
People around them laughed, and these the lead singer noticed and poorly held back a smile. Kei blushed. It wasn’t really a lie. If they weren’t somewhere so crowded Kei would have taken Tadashi on the closest table. Kei pushed the idea quickly from his mind as the song restarted.
“Come to Kurro’s party with me, please?” He pulled Tadashi close.
“What is with you and this” he groaned.
“I just want to have fun with you.” Kei was being honest even if he was being paid. 
“Maybe.” Tadashi smirked.
“I’ll pick you up at 9 then.”
“I said maybe”
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imma-sucker-for-a-beard · 2 years ago
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Office secret
Character pairing: Elijah Mikaelson x You (Female reader
Word count: 2662
Warnings: Smut, 18+, NSFW, Secret, Office sex, Oral female receiving, F word, Slight manipulation, Light teasing, Fluff, Slight possessive behaviour, Pussy play, Fingering, Multiple orgasm, Tongue fucking, Pet names, Aftercare, Light feel of Dom/Sub, Praising, Fast penetration,
Author's Note: Since money doesn’t grow on trees and still wanting to give each other a Christmas gift, we decided to write each other a story based on random photos that were provided by the recipient. So this is my Christmas short story for @ajs-playroom-you-may-enter
All mistakes are my own.
Moodboard is my own creation.
Disclaimer: This fiction is not to be used or translated without permission. Reblogging is allowed directly from this post.
Summery: Elijah is your boss and together you have a secret.
>>> Happy Holidays and Happy New Year Babes. Thank you for being the best support I could ever wish for. And for being my sister by heart. Love you always and forever. <<<
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You were in over your head since you had agreed to plan the office Christmas party, on top of doing your daily job. You hadn’t anticipated that you would meet so many obstacles, the date of the party was now only two weeks away and you heard some of your colleagues, that had everything together, talk about how they planned to nail the Boss or his brother. You mostly kept your thoughts to yourself because you had learned the hard what could happen if you spoke about who you liked. You were lost in throught looking through a website that had decent prices for both food and catering then you heard that velvety voice by your ear.
“How’s my favorite woman doing?” You blushed looking up into his beautiful deep brown eyes.
“Elijah! Stop that, you probably call every woman you meet, ‘Your favorite’.” Nudging him slightly still blushing.
He chuckled and winked at you. “Only my favorite, love.”
He walked all the way into your stall now and leaned against your desk. “How’s the party coming together, Y/N?”
You looked at your to do list and bit you lip. “It could have been better.”
He reached for the paper and took it before you could stop him. He looked at the paper and lowered it just enough to look at you with a raised brow. “It. Could. Be. Better… Really… You’re only missing music and food!”
You snatched the paper from him. “Do you have ANY idea how difficult it is to find music and food in December? It’s a freaking nightmare!”
He smiled his charming warm smile at you and whispered, “Get a bunch of pizzas and a jukebox”
You looked at him like he had just fallen from the moon. “You can’t be serious!” and he let out aloud as he pushed of the desk again.
“Alright, as you wish, love. I believe in you, Y/N!” squeezing your shoulder lightly as he left you stall and headed to his office.
…………
Moments later, three of the ‘model’ looking colleagues of your hung over the wall of you stall. “HOW the fuck do you do it….” One asked, another continued “Like how…” and the shortest finished “you’re… so ordinary!”
You breathed in deeply and looked at the last one. “Why Thank you. I’ll take that as a compliment.”
Closing the folder and looked at all of them as you stood up. “Maybe it’s because I’m ordinary, that’s how I do it.”
Staring down the last one as you walked past her. And headed to the copy room with your head held high.
On you way back from the copy room you received a text. “Y/N, come to my office now… please.”
You frowned a little unsure why, looking up from the phone you saw him in the office doorway looking stern. “FUCK!” you whispered to yourself because he looked so fucking hot. Squaring your shoulders, you headed over to him.
“You wanted to see me, sir.” You could see he was fighting back a smirk behind the stern look.
“Do I ever, Ms Y/L/N” Once inside he shut the door behind him and looked at you as he walked close to you cupping your face pressing his lips against your lips kissing you deeply.
“Mmm, I wanted to kiss you the moment I walked in, Kitten.” His whispered against your lips.
You were holding onto the sides of his shirt and breathing in his scent. “I wanted you too.” You whispered back.
He lifted his head kissing your forehead on your third eye. “Then why do you insist on keeping this a secret?”
You stepped into him embracing his neck. “How do you think this would look.”
He smirked running his hand down your back and cupped your ass giving it a good squeeze. “I don’t give a fuck how it looks, you’re my woman and that’s just how it is!”
You chuckled looking at him giving him a quick kiss. “You’re cute when you get all possessive that this.”
…………
He smirked lifting you of the floor, wrapping your legs around his waist bringing you to his large oak desk placing you on it, kissing your neck deeply, whispering seductively in your ear.
“I could possessive you, claim you right here on this deck, telling everyone that you’re mine and I’m yours!”
You chuckled pushing at him. “As tempting as that would be. That won’t happen today.”
You laughed seeing him giving you puppy eyes and playfully whimpered before smiling. “Okay, Love.”
He sat down in his massive deck chair and pulled you with him as you straddled him, so your skirt pooled around your hips. “Then I want you to go away with me over the weekend!” He demanded.
You looked at him not sure what to think. “I can’t… I still haven’t found the music or food.”
He smirked against your lips and his ran a hand up your inner thigh slipping a couple of fingers past your panties feeling how moist you were, slowly pushing his fingers in you finding your sweet spot as he whispered in a husky voice.
“Y/N, you’ve done enough, I’ll make sure there’ll be music and food.!”
You whimpered against the crook of his neck. “Elijah… Please…” Not sure what you were bagging for.
“Just say, yes, baby… Let me spoil you.!” He whispered in your ear.
Your breath hitched in your throat as he slowly but expertly was bring you to a much-needed climax.
“Okay… Yes… Elijah… I give.” you moaned cupping his face, pressing your lips against his as he brought you to your release.
…………
Both of you were panting with hunger and perspiration on your skin.
“Fuck this... Baby I need you to be a quiet as possible.” He told you and you looked at him with question and quickly realised what was happening when he lifted you back up on the table and ripped your panties off and buried his face in you sex licking you in deep long stroke. Tongue fucking you, nipping your clit only to repeat the thorough treatment, bringing you to another and another climax.
You grabbed his hair whimpering deeply. “Elij… I.. Pleas…. Arrgh. Ple.. Eliiiijaaahhh…” Moaning as you withered under his expert hands and mouth.
After you lost count of how many climaxes, he had engulfed you, you pleaded. “Plea stop, Baby, Sir…. Eli…”
“Breathe deeply love...” You heard Elijah cooing softly into your ear, he had stood up resting his cheat against your, kissing you deeply as he slowly pushed his erect manhood into your love tunnel. “I need you baby..”
You cupped his face feeling tears running down the side of your face. “Daddy, please be gently.!”
His smiled and kissed you softly. “Always, I promise baby.” Thrusting torturously slow all the way in resting against your cervix only to pull back slowly and repeat. This went on for what felt a moment yet an eternity as the same time.
He bought you to three more climaxes before you felt his movements becoming more urgent and feeling him pulse deep inside of you as you felt his release shoot inside coating your insides, feeding you eager womb.
“aagh, fuck” He grunted hooking his arms under your shoulder, kissing you deeply, resting his forehead against yours, smiling deeply looking into your eyes. “Sorry Love..” Half breathing chuckling. “You said no sex at the office.”
You laughed and moaned, still feeling him inside. “It’s interesting meetings you want, Sir.”
He slowly pulled out making you whimper which in turn made him smile.
…………
He held out a hand helping you up. “Come my love, Let’s get you cleaned up!”
You took his hand and followed him to his office bathroom, you took a seat on the toilet seat, gasping at the coolness against your throbbing and well fucked sex. You watch him as he found a washcloth and rinsed it in warm water before kneeling before you.
“Spread your leg, Lovely” You did as told and moaned softly feeling the warm cloth against you sex.
“Tsh tsh tsh. What a mess I made.” He whispered and you giggled. Your eyes meeting and he winked at you.
After he finished cleaning you and himself. He helped you to stand again. No words were spoken, and it felt natural, safe, and perfect.
Walking back out to the office you found your panties, once you picked them up you saw that they were truly ripped apart. “ELIJAH!.. You’ll be the end of my panties!” You said half chuckling half scolding him.
He walked over and took them from you and put them in his pocket. “Easy access for me then.” He said winking.
“I have to go back out there you know…” you looked at the time and saw that you had been in his office for three hours. “HOLY FUCK ELIJAH!!!”
“WHAT?” He asked until he saw the time. “Oh.. Look on the bright side. Problems solved, no one’s out there now.” He said flashing you a grin.
“You’re lucky you’re cute, that’s the smile that got me in trouble in the first place!” You told squinting your eyes at him.
…………
Wednesday evening you got a work message from your calendar. You checked it and saw that you had gotten all of Friday off and Thursday from noon AND from 1 pm there was a private note which informed you that you had a three-hour spa appointment at a high-profile spa that you knew Rebekah visited frequently. Smiling to yourself you texted Elijah
~Thank you for the day and a half off, but you really didn’t have to. ~
Seconds later you got a text back.
~You’re welcome, My Lovely. Yes, I really did have to. It’s a pampering day before we leave at noon Friday. ~
The way he wrote you knew that you would never get him to agree with you, so you replied with a simple text.
~Very well, Sir. Love you. ~
His reply was. ~Good Girl, I love you too… See you Friday. ~
…………
Thursday came and went and the night to Friday you had a hard time falling asleep because the anticipation and suspense was getting the best of you. Elijah hadn’t told you anything about where you were going, not even given any hint with what to pack. The only thing he had instructed you on was not to pleasure yourself in any way because that was and would always be his job, this resulted in you being soaked like you had never be before.
…………
Friday morning you were woken by the smell of breakfast being made and the sound of Elijah humming in the kitchen. You smiled and moaned as you stretched before getting out of bed, finding the one shirt of his you had at your place and walked into the kitchen to see him stand there only in sweatpants and bare upper body, which made you sex tighten, and you had to suppress a moan.
When Elijah saw you, he smirked and mouthed. “Damn, I’m a lucky man.” Reaching a hand, out to you, you took it and smiled as he kissed the palm of your hand. “Good morning my love, are you ready for the weekend?”
You smiled and hugged him. “I suppose I am, only you can truly say if I am.!”
He chuckled and nodded. “Ah, yes. that’s true. then I can say that you are…”
Leaning in whispering to you near your ear. “In more than one way I sense. I can smell your arousal.”
You blushed instantly and nudged him. “Well, you told me not to pleasure myself, so it’s your fault.”
He chuckled “That fault I’ll happily own”
You ate breakfast, not really speaking much in verbal manner but your non-verbal communication was of the charts. Just the way you kept eye contact with each other while eating, or the way his lips pressed against the glass when he drank or the way his fingers caressed the edge of the plate, it was becoming too much for you.
Finally, you were in the car and on your way, you arrived at the airport and entered a private plane and were quickly on your way to your destination, two hours later you landed in Canada and were picked up a private chauffeur that drove you to the destination.
You gasped when you realized that you were going to spend the weekend in one of the glass globes with direct view to the northern light.
“Oh my god!!! Elijah… Are you for real!?!?” Running around the car, you jumped up wrapping both your arms and legs around him. “I love this.” Elijah caught you and chuckled.
The chauffeur laughed as he opened the car door. “Enjoy your honeymoon.”
Not bothering to explain Elijah just said. “We will, Thanks.”
…………
That evening, the fireplace was heating up the room, as you were lying in bed naked, snuggling and caressing, giving each other light massages.
You were on top of Elijah then his eyes gleamed and he just whispered. “My Love… Look.” As he looks slightly past you.
You looked up, to see the most beautiful night sky, with a mix of blue, green, purple-ish colors dancing across the night sky, he moved os you plopped back down on the bed beside him, and you laid wrapped in his arms.
Again, no words were spoken as you laid there in silence only the soft crackling from the fire broke the silence.
After some time had past Elijah move to lay between your legs.
Smiling down at you. “Y/N? Will you be mine?” he asked, and you reached up cupping his cheeks wrapping your legs around his waist. “I’m already your, Elijah.!”
He smiled deeply. “That’s not what I mean…” He said breathing deeply. “What I’m trying to say it…. Will you be my wife?” He said the last part giving an insecure smile.
You gasped and pulled his face to your and kissed him deeply before whispering. “Yes… Yes… Yes… I’ll be your wife, today, tomorrow, always and forEV…Arhhhh” the last part was spoken in a moan as he thrusted balls deep settling there feeling your walls massaging his length, kissing you back hungrily. “I love you, Y/N… Always.”
You wrapped your leg tighter around his waist forcing him deeper inside, he groaned deeply as he slowly started pumping in and out of you gaining thrust as your juices coated his member.
It didn’t take long before you there basking to the first Climax and Elijah had quickly pulled out and buried his face in your sex prolonging your climax with his expert tongue.
After your climax calmed enough, he took your hand “Come, I need you here on your knees.”
You trusted him with your life as you took his hand and followed his lead, and as you stood on your kneed in the middle of the bed Elijah positioned himself on his knees behind you, bringing your back, back against his chest, He trusted up into you this time rougher and more animalistic.
“Arh Baby…” You moaned aloud letting your head drop back against his shoulder reaching back holding onto his hip.
His right arm wrapping around your chest cupping your left breast increasing his speed.
Panting in your ear he spoke words of endearment. “You look so beautiful, Y/N.”, “You feel amazing.”, “You’re my everything.” And as he felt that you were about to climax again, he let go and climax with you coating your insides with his seed.
Panting deeply, he kissed your temple as he whispered. “MY Wife!”
You collapsed back onto the bed and slipped into a deep sleep.
You were the first to wake in the morning and found that he had placed a beautiful sapphire ring on you finger.
Now you truly felt ready for the office to know whom it was that you truly loved and belonged to.
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Nightingale Chapter Seventeen - All Around the Cobbler's Bench
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Summary: Jensen Ackles seemed to have it all. A hit television series fifteen years running, a budding music career and a stunning wife. To the casual observer, his life was perfect. But it was a façade. No more real than the supernatural world created on a soundstage.
That day on the lake had started with uncertainty, but when he pulled you from the water everything became clear. The truth was, he’d been the one drowning.
Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader, Jensen x Reader, Jensen x You
Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Genevieve Padalecki, Misha Collins, Reader
Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Hospitals, Drowning, Fluff, Angst, Smut, unprotected sex
Chapter Seventeen: All Around the Cobbler's Bench
Word Count: 5279
Author’s Notes: This is a complete work of fiction about a real life person. The circumstances are totally made up and are in no way a commentary on the fantastic Jensen Ackles or his family.
This is also a unique reader insert story as I have given the reader a physical description including hair color, eye color and body type. Hopefully you can still lose yourself in the utter fantasy where Jensen is the hero and you are ripe for rescuing! Author's Additional Notes: This is it. The last chapter. The Conclusion to my story! (There will be an epilogue to follow) I started this over a year and a half ago, and here we are, finished!! There were plenty of times I wondered if I'd ever get there. But with the steadfast encouragement of all of you, I found the inspiration and the drive. Thank all of you who read this and showered me with love. I am forever grateful!
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     Jensen checked his watch again while he tapped his fingers against his leg trying to rid himself of the anxious energy.  You’d been in the restroom for fifteen minutes and while women tended to take longer in the bathroom, it was unusual for you.  Other girls had come and gone in that time, and he was beginning to worry.  Deciding to hell with it, he knocked loudly to announce himself and entered.
     “Y/N?  Sweetheart?  The play is starting…”
     The room was empty and something about the eerie silence sent an ominous chill down his spine.  Not a trace of you anywhere, as if you’d evaporated into thin air!  Desperate, he pushed open the stall doors and last one revealed a woman crumpled against the wall.  He recognized the scuffed sneakers as your favorites and the denim jacket with the frayed sleeves.  And the fall of golden hair.
     Frantic, he dropped to his knees, “Y/N!  Baby?!” 
     He grabbed hold of your shoulder and pulled.  Your head rolled back and revealed a deeply slit throat and a stranger’s face.
     Dead.  He could tell it at a glance, but it wasn’t you!  The poor soul had been dressed in your clothes and a very convincing blonde wig. 
     “Shit!”  Jensen scrambled to his feet and burst out of the room.  He frantically searched the crowd of people while dialing his emergency number.
      “Solomon.”
      “She’s gone!  She’s gone, you son of a bitch!  You said she was safe!”
     “We show Y/N in the ladies’ room on the east end of the pavilion.” 
      “Her clothes are there along with a fucking dead body!  He’s got her!  Fuck!”
      “Stay where you are,” the agent barked through the phone while people shuffled in the background. 
      He took off at a jog, trying to scan the faces for yours, “Like hell I will!”
      “That’s an order, Ackles!  I need details, not another missing person.  I have agents converging on your location.”
      Jensen ended the call and tried your number.  It rang several times then went to voicemail.  “Sweetheart, if you get this, just hang on.  I’m coming.  I swear to God… I’m coming to get you.”
       Consciousness came to you in fragments.  Different parts of your body were numb.  There was a pins and needles feeling that came with having been in one position for too long.  Your eyes felt dry and raw, although you hadn’t opened them yet.  Your throat felt the same and there was a really unpleasant smell coming from somewhere.  An artificial and over-powering cherry scent mixed with sour sweat.  Suddenly, your whole frame was jolted, and the side of your head connected with something cold and hard.  It was enough to pull you out of the semi-conscious daze you’d been in, your eyes popped open as your head bounced off the passenger side window. 
     You sat more upright with a groan and rubbed your head, “What…?”
     This wasn’t Jensen’s car.  The dashboard was faded blue and cracked from the sun.  An ancient radio with silver knobs played an old song from the sixties.  The cardboard cherry air freshener swinging from the rearview was at least partly to blame for the oppressive stench.  The man in the driver’s seat was to blame for the rest.
     “Pharmaceuticals have come such a long way, haven’t they?  That little trip was courtesy of a new and very effective benzodiazepine.  Administered through absorption through the skin.  Remarkable.  It’s hung up in clinical trials, but those of us with connections can still have our fun.”
     Your gaze slid to the man behind the wheel and your stomach knotted.  Now that he had his glasses on and his hair was brushed back from his face, he looked much like he did back in New York.  Large, hawk-like nose.  Sharp cheekbones, eyebrows like dark slashes over nearly black eyes. 
     “Of course, the best part is that although you looked like a drunk sorority girl, you were still wide awake inside,” his lips pulled into a disturbing grin.  “Hate for you to miss out.”
     He was right.  You’d been awake while he and that girl stripped you naked and dressed you in her clothes.  You’d been useless to fight them as they pulled a wig down on your head.  You were trapped in your own body, only able to witness the horror has he killed her right in front of you.  In your mind, you screamed while he seamlessly ushered you past Jensen and into the crowd.  Right under the noses of the undercover agents who were meant to protect you. 
     You forced your mind to focus.  Agent Solomon had gone over countless scenarios with you, and this was one of them.  You quickly took inventory and noted that every scrap of clothing had been removed or replaced.  Your tracking monitor, your cell phone, your pepper spray and pocketknife.  Anything that might have been useful was long gone. 
     Except the blue paisley tie Jensen wrapped around your wrist.  You could still feel the cool silk against your skin.  Your tether to him and a reminder that you still had access to one thing that might help you.  The fourth wall.  The stage was set, and this was just another part to play.  If you gave a convincing enough performance, you might just come out of this alive.
     “Where are you taking me?” you asked as you pulled the frayed seatbelt over your shoulder and secured it.
     “Tsk, Tsk!  Telling would ruin the surprise, and you know how much I love a good surprise.”
     You scanned the scenery whizzing past and found it unfamiliar.  A two-lane road cut through thick woodland as the sun began to set.  No signs other than the occasional mile marker and warnings about rockslides.  Your ears popped, confirming you were headed to higher elevation and farther away from civilization.
      Show time.
     “Why haven’t you killed me?”  You ripped the auburn-colored wig from your head and tossed it to the floor. 
     “Do you want me to?” he returned, patting the handgun in his lap.
     Panic tried to rise like bile in your throat.  You pushed it down and snatched the half full pack of cigarettes from the dash. 
     “What I want is to wake up safe at home with a beer and left-over pizza in the fridge, but we don’t always get what we want.”
     “Beer and pizza,” Arthur repeated with a scoff.  “Sophistication never was your strong suit, Y/N.  One of Colin’s many grievances about you.”
     “What I lacked in sophistication, I made up for in eagerness.”  You lit a cigarette and took a long drag, “I certainly never heard any complaints about that.”
     “Slut.  Useless whore.  No wonder you shacked up with a Hollywood scumbag like Ackles.  You probably fuck him for a weekly allowance.”  His fingers tightened around the wheel as he spoke, “Colin deserved so much better than you.”
     “Someone like you, I suppose.”  You barked out a laugh as Green turned red from the neck up, “Jesus, you’re not still carrying a torch for a dead man, are you?  That’s pathetic, Artie.  It really is.  You know he just kept you around out of pity.  Poor little Artie from the block…”
     He backhanded you right across the mouth.  Your lip split and you tasted blood.
     “Shut up!  Just shut your whore mouth!”  He grabbed your hair and bashed your head against the window, making you groan and slump in your seat.  Your vison went hazy, but you kept conscious.
     “You conniving bitch… you had to go to the feds!  If it wasn’t for that I’d have killed you quick and been done with it.  One last loose end… but not now.  Now, I get creative.  I’ll start with your little boy toy; carve his pretty face up so not even his own mother will recognize him.  Your bestie with those cute kids?  I’ll strangle her to death while they watch.”
     You didn’t say anything, waiting him out as he raged on, “Oh!  But what about your baby sister?  Frankie.  Well, let’s just say she’ll wish she’d died in that car wreck by the time I get through with her.”
     With Arthur’s rage distracting him, you saw your opening and you took it.  The cigarette was still clenched in your fist.  Your hand shot out and you crushed the glowing cherry into his face.  It sizzled and he screamed.
     He howled in pain, and you grabbed the wheel, yanking it with all your might!  The two of you fought for control and sent the truck into a spin.  The back end fishtailed, and the tires squealed.  The world went topsy turvy around you as the truck went careening off the road with a deafening crash.  Then, silence.
     “Black SUV, headed east on Market.  That’s the last we see of it until it popped up abandoned in the Whole Foods parking lot.”
     “We got the video from them?”
     “Nada.  Their surveillance system went down last week.”
     “Safe bet that was our perp.  Get the last recordings they have in the database, let’s see if Green shows his face.”
      “SUV registered to Mrs. Barbara Perkins, deceased.”
     “Naturally.  Get a trace on that name, address, bank accounts, the works.”
      Jensen had never felt more useless in his life.  While the FBI agents bustled around their make-shift headquarters, he was sitting in an office chair.  Waiting.  There was literally nothing else he could do.  They already knew what Green looked like, even disguised as a fangirl.  The pics of Jensen signing autographs went live on social media almost instantaneously.  There were all sorts of video surveillance of him walking around the park and walking a stumbling girl through the parking lot.  It was as if he was showing off.  Flaunting his deeds to the authorities who were oblivious to it all.
      Jensen felt sick at the thought of how close you were.  Green had walked you right by him and he didn’t even know it!  His mind kept going to the dead woman wearing your clothes.  Blood everywhere.  Running like a river from her slit throat.  It could have so easily been you.  It still could, and that thought chilled him to the bone.
     The video was good for one thing though, it confirmed that you had been very much alive when you left with him.  Jensen was holding on to that fact like a lifeline!  You were smart and you were a fighter.  You’d come back, you had to.  He had a whole life planned out and every day of it included you.  Marriage.  Children.  Big family Christmases.  Quiet date nights.  He even planned a proposal in Paris.  You told him you always wanted to go and making your dreams come true had become an obsession for him.  Nothing made him happy like making you happy.  His life wasn’t his own, it was forever intertwined with yours. 
      In the immortal words of his alter-ego, “There ain’t no me if there ain’t no you.”
      When his phone rang, his heart nearly stopped.  He didn’t recognize the number, but knew it was you.  “Y/N?!”
     “Jensen!  Oh God…!”
      Agent Solomon was on him instantly to hand the phone over, he refused.  But he did put it on speaker.  “Sweetheart, where are you?  Are you okay?!”
     The connection was tenuous, making your voice fade in and out. 
     “I’m okay… not… don’t know…. Arthur crashed…”
     “Crashed?!  What happened?”
      Solomon grabbed the phone, “Doctor West, are you with Green right now?”
     “No.  We crashed…. Left…”
     “Was he alive when you saw him last?”
     “…. Unconscious… don’t…. “
      “What kind of vehicle was he driving?”
     “Blue pickup… Dairyland.”
      “Dairyland?”  Jensen repeated. 
     “AJ… 677.”
      “Wisconsin plates,” Solomon signaled to his agents to run a search.  Even fragmented information would pull up something.
     “Doctor West, do you know where you are?”
     “Highway.  I don’t… mountains.  Jay!  Its… otter… Kimmy…”
     The agent locked eyes with Jensen, “What is she talking about?”
     “I don’t know,” he shook his head.  “Kimmy who?”
     “Kim… makeup… otter tattoo.”
     It clicked for him then.  The makeup artist who designed her own tattoos, Kimmy.  She’d been quite taken with Y/N when she went to the set that day.
      “It’s Mount Harvey, the snow melt on the south face looks like an otter playing baseball.”
      “Good.  Doctor West, we’re coming to you.”
      If she heard, she didn’t reply.  The phone screen showed the call dropped.  Solomon handed the phone to one of his team to pull trace information while he barked orders.  The well-oiled team shifted into their roles.  Dispatch communicated with local authorities on every level.  One of the advantages of working with the FBI, they were practiced in the art of the manhunt.  It wasn’t a question of if they would get Green, but when.  And would it be in time?
     “Ackles, you’re with me.”
     Jensen looked up in time to catch a bulletproof vest with FBI printed across the chest. 
     “I don’t have civilians on my tactical team as a rule,” Solomon informed him, zipping up his own vest.  “But you know Y/N better than anyone, I need your insight.  Let’s move.”
     You weren’t sure how far you’d gotten or how long you’d been walking.  It seemed like forever.  That ancient truck Arthur had been driving actually turned out to be a blessing.  The frame was good, old fashioned American steel and took the brunt of the crash without much damage.  The seatbelt did its job and prevented you from being thrown through the windshield.  Although, it dug into you with enough force that you likely had a broken clavicle and possibly a dislocated shoulder.  It throbbed like a son of a bitch, but you still made out better than Green. 
     He was going over sixty miles per hour when he crashed, and he wasn’t wearing a seatbelt.  He was slumped over the steering wheel, bleeding from a deep gash on his scalp and covered in broken glass from the shattered windshield.  The doctor in you wanted to check for a pulse, but your visual assessment would have to do.  He was breathing, and that was enough.  You knew time wasn’t on your side, you needed to put as much distance between the two of you as possible. 
      You made a quick search of his pockets and found both a phone and a handgun.  The passenger side door was bashed in, making it impossible to escape through the door or the window.  With a quick glance to confirm your kidnapper was still unconscious, you freed yourself from the seatbelt and climbed over the dash and through the shattered windshield.  You ignored the pain of the broken glass tearing into your hands and legs. 
     You had to get out and make a run for it, it was your only chance!
     The charge on the cell was dwindling as it searched for a signal, but the fates were with you, and it connected.  The sound of Jensen’s voice nearly broke you.  You held yourself together enough to get as much information out as you could before the call dropped. 
     “No, no damn it!”  Your fingers shook as you tried to call again, only to be me with no service.  You looked around at the dense trees lining the two-lane highway and the rapidly setting sun.  Tears blurred your vision and the weight of your situation hit you in force.
     There was nowhere to go for help, you didn’t even know where you were!  The adrenaline in your system was fading and you could feel the effects of shock setting in.  Injured in a car wreck coupled with who knows what the side effects of that drug Arthur shot you up with.   You well and truly screwed.
     You bent at the waist; your hands braced on your knees as you fought the rising panic.  The blue patterned silk tied to your wrist peeked out from under your shirt cuff. 
     “Breathe, Y/N.”
     “I can’t.”
     “I’m right here, Sweetheart.  I’m with you.”
     “He’s going to kill me!”
     “You can do this, come on.  Deep breath.  In and out.”
     You closed your eyes and rubbed the silk between your finger and thumb.  Like magic, you saw the closet.  Warm and filled with color-coded clothes.  The scent of cedar and vanilla cologne and Jensen smiling. 
     “You’ve got this, Y/N.  Keep moving, keep fighting!  I’m coming for you.”
     The actor’s trick worked.  Your mind cleared and you focused.  Obviously, continuing on foot was only a decent option when you knew where you were going.  You didn’t.  Which meant it was a drain on your energy reserves.  Plus, it would make rescuing you that much more difficult for the people looking for you. 
     You eyed the woods.  It was risky, with nightfall fast approaching, you would have wildlife to contend with and falling temps, but then… so would Green.  If he came to, he’d be looking for you.  Best to make that as difficult as possible. 
     “Stronger together,” you muttered the motto that became a mantra.  Even though he wasn’t holding your hand, Jensen was still with you.  You could still count on him, to remind you what was worth fighting for. 
     With the gun heavy in your hand, you climbed down the embankment and disappeared into the forest.
     “R.C.M.P. clocked a vehicle matching Green’s heading north on 99.  Last spotted an hour ago just passing Lion’s Bay.”
     “Any confirmation on passengers?”
     “Two.  A male and a female.”
     “Given the timeframe of the crash, they couldn’t have gotten much farther than that.”
     “Any hits on the cell?”
     “No, sir.”
     “Keep trying.  If she’s on the move, we might get lucky.”
     Jensen kept quiet as he sat in the back of the SUV.  The flurry of clipped commands yielded no new information.  They were racing towards you, but there was no way to know if they would make it in time.  Jensen tugged at the tie on his wrist while his mind worked over-time.  Were you hurt?  Scared?  Running or hiding?  Were you alive? 
     God please, let her be alive!
     As if on cue, his cell phone rang.  Only once, before the call dropped, but it was your number.  And it was enough.
     “Got it!  Moving slow, heading north by northeast towards Tunnel Bluffs.”
     “We’ve got local law in the area about ten minutes out.”
     “All units converge on new coordinates, be advised our witness is currently on foot.”
     “The assailant is considered armed and dangerous, use of full and deadly force authorized for all personnel.”
     The trees on Mount Harvey were thick and grew to impressive proportions.  Massive, monolithic firs and pines that held the record for some of the biggest on Earth.  Tangles of undergrowth and roots covered every inch of the forest floor, you lost your footing more than once.  Every fall slowed you down and added to your injuries.  The sun dropped to just below the horizon and the temperature went with it.
     You leaned heavily against one of the pines to catch your breath.  Your physical reserves were nearly gone, and you knew it.  There was just enough daylight left to make out a tree a few feet away.  It had an unusual split in its trunk.  Limping and cradling your arm to ease the pressure on your shoulder, you poked around in the gap.  Mostly filled with decomposing leaves, but big enough to shelter you for the night. 
     You squeezed your body through the opening and bit back a grunt as the bark scraped your injuries.  It wasn’t comfortable, which was for the best.  Your exhausted body was already vying for sleep, anything to counter that was welcome.  The opening wasn’t wide enough to see much, but it was still a defensible position.
     Your frozen fingers flexed around the gun as your eyes worked to adjust to the darkness falling.  The weight of it in your hand was unfamiliar and uncomfortable.  You were a doctor, you saved lives you didn’t take them.  Your thumb clicked off the safety as you committed to the only course of action that would leave you alive.  It would be a long night and you were damn well going to survive it. 
     “All around the cobbler’s bench, the monkey chased the weasel.”
     Your eyes popped open.  When had you shut them?  The phone in your pocket died long ago, so it was impossible to tell how long you’d been in hiding.  The woods were still.  There was no wind or sounds of scuttling wildlife.  But a child’s song, so faint you thought you’d imagined it. 
     “The monkey thought was all in fun.”
     “A penny for a spool of thread, a penny for a needle.”
     “That’s the way the money goes.”
      “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     There it was again.  Singing.  You were sure you hadn’t imagined it, it had to be Arthur.  God!  It seemed like you were making a racket!  Your breathing, your heartbeat, your eyelashes blinking rapidly as you desperately scanned the inky shadows.  Why did sound amplify in the cold and the dark?  It all seemed to be announcing your location to the man who was coming to murder you. 
     “Up and down the London road.”
     “In and out of the Eagle.”
     “That’s the way the money goes.”
     “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     He was playing with you.  The monkey and the weasel.  Cat and mouse.  You should have kept running!  Should have kept to the road, someone would have seen you.  You would have stood a chance!  Now you were in a trap of your own making.
     “I’ve no time to plead and pine.”
     “I’ve no time to wheedle.”
     “Kiss me quick and then I’m gone.”
     “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     The echo of the woods distorted Arthur’s voice so that you had no clue where he was coming from.  Running now would do you no good.  It was too late.  The son of a bitch was closing in on you now.  Would they even be able to find your body?  Would Jensen ever know what became of you?  You should have ran the minute you remembered your name. 
     “All around the cobbler’s bench.”
     “Arthur chased the doctor.”
     “The doctor thought was all in fun…”
     God, please keep him safe from the psychopath.  And Frankie!  Make sure they know I love them!  No matter what happens to me… I love you!
     “Pop!”
     Arthur.  Blood, dirt, and broken glass.  A twisted grin split his grotesque face. 
     Time stopped; a shot rang out.  Then, nothing.
     Jensen stood with the small, second group of agents investigating the crashed truck.  Two sets of footprints disappeared into the woods and the first round of FBI had already spread out into the wilderness to join the Mounties and broaden the search.
     The report of a gunshot echoed all the way back to the road.
     His blood ran cold.  “Y/N.”
     A hand went to Jensen’s Kevlar covered chest before he could move.  Bruce, the iron faced agent assigned to the actor, held him in place.
     "Let me go!"
     "Not a chance."
     "That was a fucking gunshot!"
     "Yeah, it was.  You take off now, the next one might have your name on it."
     “I don’t care!”
     "Right now, every resource we have is focused on Y/N.  You go out there and those resources get split, cutting her chance at survival in half.”
     Jensen turned away, running his hands through his hair.  “Fuck!”
     "We've all got a job to do.  Yours is communication,” Bruce put a steady hand on Jensen’s shoulder.  “You want to help your girl?   Stay put.  Be here and be ready to answer when she calls."
     Knowing Bruce was right didn't make the next hour of waiting any easier.  It was agony.  There was no word.  Not a sound from anyone.  Radio silence, Agent Bruce called it.  He seemed to think it was a positive sign, but it was driving Jensen insane.  Each minute that passed brought a horrible new thought.  A potential nightmare that could play out right in front of him.  And he was powerless to prevent it.
     He was past the end of his rope when an ambulance came into view and sped past them.  Traveling at breakneck speed up the mountain. Flashing lights bouncing off the trees and rock face. 
     Bruce held a finger to the tiny Speaker in his ear.  A grim look passed his features.
     "Let's move."
     He said nothing more.  No word on if you were alive or dead.  No hint at who that ambulance was for.  An hour ago, Jensen would have sworn he'd reached his capacity for worry and stress.  But that was nothing compared to the five minutes it took to reach the clearing.  There was a mass of people milling around.  F.B.I. he recognized and a few others outfitted in uniforms for the R.C.M.P.  That ambulance was parked off to the side, the back door was closed but the lights were still flashing.  Several other official looking vehicles showed up, including one for the coroner’s office. 
     Jensen was out of the car before Bruce even put it in park.  He caught the slender build of Frank Solomon, casually talking to a couple of other agents by the rail guard.  The son of a bitch was acting like he’d completed a milk run!  Jensen’s nostrils flared with rage as he made a direct path for him.
     The young man looked up, seemingly unphased by the Texan’s aggressive approach.
     "Ackles.”
     "Where is she?!"
     Solomon’s mouth opened, but it wasn’t his voice that was heard.  A shrill, terrified scream came from inside the ambulance, cutting through the night.
      "Jensen!"
     He'd spent fifteen years stepping into the boots of Dean Winchester.  Fighting monsters.  Some you could see, some you couldn't.  But no matter how close he was to the hero he portrayed; it was still an act.  Though there were plenty of times he’d wished it were real.  Wished he were more like the enigmatic man in the ’67 Chevy.  The man who always knew what to do.  The man who always saved the day.
     And yes, he would let his ‘Dean’ show from time to time.  That was a blurred line that proved useful more than once.  But in that moment when you screamed for him, there was no line.  There was no Dean, there was clarity. 
     Solomon got exactly one word out, “Wait…”  
     Jensen pulled back his fist and punched him square in the face, knocking him on his ass.
     He ran to that ambulance.  On a mission and with one purpose, he tore the door open.  
     You were sitting on a gurney, struggling against the medic who was trying to keep you from bolting.  Bruised and bloody.  But breathing!  The second you saw him, you went still, your bottom lip quivered.
     “Jensen.”
     The medic proved smarter than the F.B.I. agents and moved out of the way, allowing Jensen the room to take you in his arms.  That was when you broke completely.  Sobbing and desperately clinging to him like a child.  You weren’t sure how you got there.  One minute you were in that tree being stalked by a killer, the next you were being bundled into an ambulance.  It was so surreal!  It wasn’t until you heard Jensen on the other side of the door that you snapped.  Reality crashed over you, and you couldn’t breathe. 
     Jensen tried to will his own panic away.  You were alive.  He had you.  Bloody and trembling, but in his arms.  He could hear himself telling you soothing things.  Comforting words that he would never be able to recall later.  He was sure you couldn’t understand him anyway, you were crying so hard that your whole body shook. 
     But his voice was a balm, the timbre of it washed over you.  After a time, the raw shock wore through to numbness.  You drew a shuddering breath and tried to speak. 
     “I’ve got you,” he said, his voice coming from just over your head.  “I’m right here.”
     You released your death grip on Jensen’s jacket and snuck a look at your hands.  There were burn marks there from the gun powder.  Across the clearing, two men were maneuvering a stretcher over the gravel.  A black body bag was strapped to the top.
     “I killed him.”
     Jensen gently brushed the tangled hair away from your face.  His gaze followed yours to the body being taken away.  It could have so easily been you.  He rubbed his hand down your back and tucked your head under his chin.
     “Don’t look, baby.  Don’t think about it.  Never again.”
     The EMT reappeared, insisting that you go to the hospital.  He listed a number of injuries that needed attention.  Including another fucking concussion.
     You managed a weak laugh, “Look at us, right back where we started.”
     “At least you didn’t drown this time, your average is improving,” Jensen said, kissing your forehead.
     With practiced efficiency, the medic had you secured and ready for transport.  Just as the door was about to shut, Frank Solomon appeared.  His jaw was discolored and starting to swell where Jensen landed his punch. 
     Jensen smirked, “Back for round two?”
     “The ambulance is already at capacity, let’s not chance it.”  Solomon’s dark eyes shifted to you.  The arrogance drained away, and he seemed softer.  Almost repentant. 
      “Doctor West, I wanted to let you know that the death of Arthur Green officially closes this case.  You are no longer under any obligation to the F.B.I. for any purpose and you are free to resume your life.”
     “You won’t need me to make a statement?”
     “We have everything we need.  And I have to say, without your cooperation and your bravery, we never would have gotten Green let alone shut down the drug ring.  This victory is yours.”
     “I shot a man.  Deserved or not, that doesn’t feel particularly victorious.”
     Solomon blinked slowly, “You didn’t shoot Arthur Green.”
     “What?”
     “Barely clipped his shoulder, but I hardly call that a shot,” the agent shrugged, his casual manner back in place.  “One of the Mounted Police got him… Roberts, I think.  One clean shot to the head.  Green was dead before he hit the ground.”
     You could have lived with the death on your conscience, knowing it had been self-defense.  But the fact that you didn’t have to, freed you.  Well and truly.  Lightness settled in where guilt had been only a moment ago.  Words failed you.  An astonished gasp left your lips, and you let you head rest against Jensen’s shoulder.
     “Goodbye, Doctor West.  Mr. Ackles.”  Solomon shut the door and thumped it twice. 
     The ambulance slowly rolled away to begin its descent down the mountain.  Jensen’s hand found yours under the emergency blanket tucked over your lap.
     “It’s over.”
     “Yeah, it’s all over, Sweetheart” he murmured, kissing your temple.
     You and Jensen would talk about the incredible circumstances of how you got together often over the years.  You would muse on the workings of fate and God’s grand plan.  You would wonder at the impossibility of it all. 
     Surely, there must have been an easier way for two lost souls to meet.
     But then, meeting wouldn’t have been enough.  The two of you were drowning; separately but equally.  The miserable details of your own lives were pulling you under like a riptide.  It was so all-consuming that you couldn’t break free.  You weren’t strong enough, not alone. 
     It was like Jensen said that day in your old apartment, make a different choice.  The two of you chose to save each other.  But you also chose to let yourself to be saved.  It wasn’t passive and it wasn’t by chance.  It was a decision.  Perhaps not always an easy one, but it had power. 
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Nightingale Chapter Seventeen - All Around the Cobbler's Bench
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Summary: Jensen Ackles seemed to have it all. A hit television series fifteen years running, a budding music career and a stunning wife. To the casual observer, his life was perfect. But it was a façade. No more real than the supernatural world created on a soundstage.
That day on the lake had started with uncertainty, but when he pulled you from the water everything became clear. The truth was, he’d been the one drowning.
Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader, Jensen x Reader, Jensen x You
Characters: Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki, Genevieve Padalecki, Misha Collins, Reader
Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Hospitals, Drowning, Fluff, Angst, Smut, unprotected sex
Chapter Seventeen: All Around the Cobbler's Bench
Word Count: 5279
Author’s Notes: This is a complete work of fiction about a real life person. The circumstances are totally made up and are in no way a commentary on the fantastic Jensen Ackles or his family.
This is also a unique reader insert story as I have given the reader a physical description including hair color, eye color and body type. Hopefully you can still lose yourself in the utter fantasy where Jensen is the hero and you are ripe for rescuing! Author's Additional Notes: This is it. The last chapter. The Conclusion to my story! (There will be an epilogue to follow) I started this over a year and a half ago, and here we are, finished!! There were plenty of times I wondered if I'd ever get there. But with the steadfast encouragement of all of you, I found the inspiration and the drive. Thank all of you who read this and showered me with love. I am forever grateful!
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     Jensen checked his watch again while he tapped his fingers against his leg trying to rid himself of the anxious energy.  You’d been in the restroom for fifteen minutes and while women tended to take longer in the bathroom, it was unusual for you.  Other girls had come and gone in that time, and he was beginning to worry.  Deciding to hell with it, he knocked loudly to announce himself and entered.
     “Y/N?  Sweetheart?  The play is starting…”
     The room was empty and something about the eerie silence sent an ominous chill down his spine.  Not a trace of you anywhere, as if you’d evaporated into thin air!  Desperate, he pushed open the stall doors and last one revealed a woman crumpled against the wall.  He recognized the scuffed sneakers as your favorites and the denim jacket with the frayed sleeves.  And the fall of golden hair.
     Frantic, he dropped to his knees, “Y/N!  Baby?!” 
     He grabbed hold of your shoulder and pulled.  Your head rolled back and revealed a deeply slit throat and a stranger’s face.
     Dead.  He could tell it at a glance, but it wasn’t you!  The poor soul had been dressed in your clothes and a very convincing blonde wig. 
     “Shit!”  Jensen scrambled to his feet and burst out of the room.  He frantically searched the crowd of people while dialing his emergency number.
      “Solomon.”
      “She’s gone!  She’s gone, you son of a bitch!  You said she was safe!”
     “We show Y/N in the ladies’ room on the east end of the pavilion.” 
      “Her clothes are there along with a fucking dead body!  He’s got her!  Fuck!”
      “Stay where you are,” the agent barked through the phone while people shuffled in the background. 
      He took off at a jog, trying to scan the faces for yours, “Like hell I will!”
      “That’s an order, Ackles!  I need details, not another missing person.  I have agents converging on your location.”
      Jensen ended the call and tried your number.  It rang several times then went to voicemail.  “Sweetheart, if you get this, just hang on.  I’m coming.  I swear to God… I’m coming to get you.”
       Consciousness came to you in fragments.  Different parts of your body were numb.  There was a pins and needles feeling that came with having been in one position for too long.  Your eyes felt dry and raw, although you hadn’t opened them yet.  Your throat felt the same and there was a really unpleasant smell coming from somewhere.  An artificial and over-powering cherry scent mixed with sour sweat.  Suddenly, your whole frame was jolted, and the side of your head connected with something cold and hard.  It was enough to pull you out of the semi-conscious daze you’d been in, your eyes popped open as your head bounced off the passenger side window. 
     You sat more upright with a groan and rubbed your head, “What…?”
     This wasn’t Jensen’s car.  The dashboard was faded blue and cracked from the sun.  An ancient radio with silver knobs played an old song from the sixties.  The cardboard cherry air freshener swinging from the rearview was at least partly to blame for the oppressive stench.  The man in the driver’s seat was to blame for the rest.
     “Pharmaceuticals have come such a long way, haven’t they?  That little trip was courtesy of a new and very effective benzodiazepine.  Administered through absorption through the skin.  Remarkable.  It’s hung up in clinical trials, but those of us with connections can still have our fun.”
     Your gaze slid to the man behind the wheel and your stomach knotted.  Now that he had his glasses on and his hair was brushed back from his face, he looked much like he did back in New York.  Large, hawk-like nose.  Sharp cheekbones, eyebrows like dark slashes over nearly black eyes. 
     “Of course, the best part is that although you looked like a drunk sorority girl, you were still wide awake inside,” his lips pulled into a disturbing grin.  “Hate for you to miss out.”
     He was right.  You’d been awake while he and that girl stripped you naked and dressed you in her clothes.  You’d been useless to fight them as they pulled a wig down on your head.  You were trapped in your own body, only able to witness the horror has he killed her right in front of you.  In your mind, you screamed while he seamlessly ushered you past Jensen and into the crowd.  Right under the noses of the undercover agents who were meant to protect you. 
     You forced your mind to focus.  Agent Solomon had gone over countless scenarios with you, and this was one of them.  You quickly took inventory and noted that every scrap of clothing had been removed or replaced.  Your tracking monitor, your cell phone, your pepper spray and pocketknife.  Anything that might have been useful was long gone. 
     Except the blue paisley tie Jensen wrapped around your wrist.  You could still feel the cool silk against your skin.  Your tether to him and a reminder that you still had access to one thing that might help you.  The fourth wall.  The stage was set, and this was just another part to play.  If you gave a convincing enough performance, you might just come out of this alive.
     “Where are you taking me?” you asked as you pulled the frayed seatbelt over your shoulder and secured it.
     “Tsk, Tsk!  Telling would ruin the surprise, and you know how much I love a good surprise.”
     You scanned the scenery whizzing past and found it unfamiliar.  A two-lane road cut through thick woodland as the sun began to set.  No signs other than the occasional mile marker and warnings about rockslides.  Your ears popped, confirming you were headed to higher elevation and farther away from civilization.
      Show time.
     “Why haven’t you killed me?”  You ripped the auburn-colored wig from your head and tossed it to the floor. 
     “Do you want me to?” he returned, patting the handgun in his lap.
     Panic tried to rise like bile in your throat.  You pushed it down and snatched the half full pack of cigarettes from the dash. 
     “What I want is to wake up safe at home with a beer and left-over pizza in the fridge, but we don’t always get what we want.”
     “Beer and pizza,” Arthur repeated with a scoff.  “Sophistication never was your strong suit, Y/N.  One of Colin’s many grievances about you.”
     “What I lacked in sophistication, I made up for in eagerness.”  You lit a cigarette and took a long drag, “I certainly never heard any complaints about that.”
     “Slut.  Useless whore.  No wonder you shacked up with a Hollywood scumbag like Ackles.  You probably fuck him for a weekly allowance.”  His fingers tightened around the wheel as he spoke, “Colin deserved so much better than you.”
     “Someone like you, I suppose.”  You barked out a laugh as Green turned red from the neck up, “Jesus, you’re not still carrying a torch for a dead man, are you?  That’s pathetic, Artie.  It really is.  You know he just kept you around out of pity.  Poor little Artie from the block…”
     He backhanded you right across the mouth.  Your lip split and you tasted blood.
     “Shut up!  Just shut your whore mouth!”  He grabbed your hair and bashed your head against the window, making you groan and slump in your seat.  Your vison went hazy, but you kept conscious.
     “You conniving bitch… you had to go to the feds!  If it wasn’t for that I’d have killed you quick and been done with it.  One last loose end… but not now.  Now, I get creative.  I’ll start with your little boy toy; carve his pretty face up so not even his own mother will recognize him.  Your bestie with those cute kids?  I’ll strangle her to death while they watch.”
     You didn’t say anything, waiting him out as he raged on, “Oh!  But what about your baby sister?  Frankie.  Well, let’s just say she’ll wish she’d died in that car wreck by the time I get through with her.”
     With Arthur’s rage distracting him, you saw your opening and you took it.  The cigarette was still clenched in your fist.  Your hand shot out and you crushed the glowing cherry into his face.  It sizzled and he screamed.
     He howled in pain, and you grabbed the wheel, yanking it with all your might!  The two of you fought for control and sent the truck into a spin.  The back end fishtailed, and the tires squealed.  The world went topsy turvy around you as the truck went careening off the road with a deafening crash.  Then, silence.
     “Black SUV, headed east on Market.  That’s the last we see of it until it popped up abandoned in the Whole Foods parking lot.”
     “We got the video from them?”
     “Nada.  Their surveillance system went down last week.”
     “Safe bet that was our perp.  Get the last recordings they have in the database, let’s see if Green shows his face.”
      “SUV registered to Mrs. Barbara Perkins, deceased.”
     “Naturally.  Get a trace on that name, address, bank accounts, the works.”
      Jensen had never felt more useless in his life.  While the FBI agents bustled around their make-shift headquarters, he was sitting in an office chair.  Waiting.  There was literally nothing else he could do.  They already knew what Green looked like, even disguised as a fangirl.  The pics of Jensen signing autographs went live on social media almost instantaneously.  There were all sorts of video surveillance of him walking around the park and walking a stumbling girl through the parking lot.  It was as if he was showing off.  Flaunting his deeds to the authorities who were oblivious to it all.
      Jensen felt sick at the thought of how close you were.  Green had walked you right by him and he didn’t even know it!  His mind kept going to the dead woman wearing your clothes.  Blood everywhere.  Running like a river from her slit throat.  It could have so easily been you.  It still could, and that thought chilled him to the bone.
     The video was good for one thing though, it confirmed that you had been very much alive when you left with him.  Jensen was holding on to that fact like a lifeline!  You were smart and you were a fighter.  You’d come back, you had to.  He had a whole life planned out and every day of it included you.  Marriage.  Children.  Big family Christmases.  Quiet date nights.  He even planned a proposal in Paris.  You told him you always wanted to go and making your dreams come true had become an obsession for him.  Nothing made him happy like making you happy.  His life wasn’t his own, it was forever intertwined with yours. 
      In the immortal words of his alter-ego, “There ain’t no me if there ain’t no you.”
      When his phone rang, his heart nearly stopped.  He didn’t recognize the number, but knew it was you.  “Y/N?!”
     “Jensen!  Oh God…!”
      Agent Solomon was on him instantly to hand the phone over, he refused.  But he did put it on speaker.  “Sweetheart, where are you?  Are you okay?!”
     The connection was tenuous, making your voice fade in and out. 
     “I’m okay… not… don’t know…. Arthur crashed…”
     “Crashed?!  What happened?”
      Solomon grabbed the phone, “Doctor West, are you with Green right now?”
     “No.  We crashed…. Left…”
     “Was he alive when you saw him last?”
     “…. Unconscious… don’t…. “
      “What kind of vehicle was he driving?”
     “Blue pickup… Dairyland.”
      “Dairyland?”  Jensen repeated. 
     “AJ… 677.”
      “Wisconsin plates,” Solomon signaled to his agents to run a search.  Even fragmented information would pull up something.
     “Doctor West, do you know where you are?”
     “Highway.  I don’t… mountains.  Jay!  Its… otter… Kimmy…”
     The agent locked eyes with Jensen, “What is she talking about?”
     “I don’t know,” he shook his head.  “Kimmy who?”
     “Kim… makeup… otter tattoo.”
     It clicked for him then.  The makeup artist who designed her own tattoos, Kimmy.  She’d been quite taken with Y/N when she went to the set that day.
      “It’s Mount Harvey, the snow melt on the south face looks like an otter playing baseball.”
      “Good.  Doctor West, we’re coming to you.”
      If she heard, she didn’t reply.  The phone screen showed the call dropped.  Solomon handed the phone to one of his team to pull trace information while he barked orders.  The well-oiled team shifted into their roles.  Dispatch communicated with local authorities on every level.  One of the advantages of working with the FBI, they were practiced in the art of the manhunt.  It wasn’t a question of if they would get Green, but when.  And would it be in time?
     “Ackles, you’re with me.”
     Jensen looked up in time to catch a bulletproof vest with FBI printed across the chest. 
     “I don’t have civilians on my tactical team as a rule,” Solomon informed him, zipping up his own vest.  “But you know Y/N better than anyone, I need your insight.  Let’s move.”
     You weren’t sure how far you’d gotten or how long you’d been walking.  It seemed like forever.  That ancient truck Arthur had been driving actually turned out to be a blessing.  The frame was good, old fashioned American steel and took the brunt of the crash without much damage.  The seatbelt did its job and prevented you from being thrown through the windshield.  Although, it dug into you with enough force that you likely had a broken clavicle and possibly a dislocated shoulder.  It throbbed like a son of a bitch, but you still made out better than Green. 
     He was going over sixty miles per hour when he crashed, and he wasn’t wearing a seatbelt.  He was slumped over the steering wheel, bleeding from a deep gash on his scalp and covered in broken glass from the shattered windshield.  The doctor in you wanted to check for a pulse, but your visual assessment would have to do.  He was breathing, and that was enough.  You knew time wasn’t on your side, you needed to put as much distance between the two of you as possible. 
      You made a quick search of his pockets and found both a phone and a handgun.  The passenger side door was bashed in, making it impossible to escape through the door or the window.  With a quick glance to confirm your kidnapper was still unconscious, you freed yourself from the seatbelt and climbed over the dash and through the shattered windshield.  You ignored the pain of the broken glass tearing into your hands and legs. 
     You had to get out and make a run for it, it was your only chance!
     The charge on the cell was dwindling as it searched for a signal, but the fates were with you, and it connected.  The sound of Jensen’s voice nearly broke you.  You held yourself together enough to get as much information out as you could before the call dropped. 
     “No, no damn it!”  Your fingers shook as you tried to call again, only to be me with no service.  You looked around at the dense trees lining the two-lane highway and the rapidly setting sun.  Tears blurred your vision and the weight of your situation hit you in force.
     There was nowhere to go for help, you didn’t even know where you were!  The adrenaline in your system was fading and you could feel the effects of shock setting in.  Injured in a car wreck coupled with who knows what the side effects of that drug Arthur shot you up with.   You well and truly screwed.
     You bent at the waist; your hands braced on your knees as you fought the rising panic.  The blue patterned silk tied to your wrist peeked out from under your shirt cuff. 
     “Breathe, Y/N.”
     “I can’t.”
     “I’m right here, Sweetheart.  I’m with you.”
     “He’s going to kill me!”
     “You can do this, come on.  Deep breath.  In and out.”
     You closed your eyes and rubbed the silk between your finger and thumb.  Like magic, you saw the closet.  Warm and filled with color-coded clothes.  The scent of cedar and vanilla cologne and Jensen smiling. 
     “You’ve got this, Y/N.  Keep moving, keep fighting!  I’m coming for you.”
     The actor’s trick worked.  Your mind cleared and you focused.  Obviously, continuing on foot was only a decent option when you knew where you were going.  You didn’t.  Which meant it was a drain on your energy reserves.  Plus, it would make rescuing you that much more difficult for the people looking for you. 
     You eyed the woods.  It was risky, with nightfall fast approaching, you would have wildlife to contend with and falling temps, but then… so would Green.  If he came to, he’d be looking for you.  Best to make that as difficult as possible. 
     “Stronger together,” you muttered the motto that became a mantra.  Even though he wasn’t holding your hand, Jensen was still with you.  You could still count on him, to remind you what was worth fighting for. 
     With the gun heavy in your hand, you climbed down the embankment and disappeared into the forest.
     “R.C.M.P. clocked a vehicle matching Green’s heading north on 99.  Last spotted an hour ago just passing Lion’s Bay.”
     “Any confirmation on passengers?”
     “Two.  A male and a female.”
     “Given the timeframe of the crash, they couldn’t have gotten much farther than that.”
     “Any hits on the cell?”
     “No, sir.”
     “Keep trying.  If she’s on the move, we might get lucky.”
     Jensen kept quiet as he sat in the back of the SUV.  The flurry of clipped commands yielded no new information.  They were racing towards you, but there was no way to know if they would make it in time.  Jensen tugged at the tie on his wrist while his mind worked over-time.  Were you hurt?  Scared?  Running or hiding?  Were you alive? 
     God please, let her be alive!
     As if on cue, his cell phone rang.  Only once, before the call dropped, but it was your number.  And it was enough.
     “Got it!  Moving slow, heading north by northeast towards Tunnel Bluffs.”
     “We’ve got local law in the area about ten minutes out.”
     “All units converge on new coordinates, be advised our witness is currently on foot.”
     “The assailant is considered armed and dangerous, use of full and deadly force authorized for all personnel.”
     The trees on Mount Harvey were thick and grew to impressive proportions.  Massive, monolithic firs and pines that held the record for some of the biggest on Earth.  Tangles of undergrowth and roots covered every inch of the forest floor, you lost your footing more than once.  Every fall slowed you down and added to your injuries.  The sun dropped to just below the horizon and the temperature went with it.
     You leaned heavily against one of the pines to catch your breath.  Your physical reserves were nearly gone, and you knew it.  There was just enough daylight left to make out a tree a few feet away.  It had an unusual split in its trunk.  Limping and cradling your arm to ease the pressure on your shoulder, you poked around in the gap.  Mostly filled with decomposing leaves, but big enough to shelter you for the night. 
     You squeezed your body through the opening and bit back a grunt as the bark scraped your injuries.  It wasn’t comfortable, which was for the best.  Your exhausted body was already vying for sleep, anything to counter that was welcome.  The opening wasn’t wide enough to see much, but it was still a defensible position.
     Your frozen fingers flexed around the gun as your eyes worked to adjust to the darkness falling.  The weight of it in your hand was unfamiliar and uncomfortable.  You were a doctor, you saved lives you didn’t take them.  Your thumb clicked off the safety as you committed to the only course of action that would leave you alive.  It would be a long night and you were damn well going to survive it. 
     “All around the cobbler’s bench, the monkey chased the weasel.”
     Your eyes popped open.  When had you shut them?  The phone in your pocket died long ago, so it was impossible to tell how long you’d been in hiding.  The woods were still.  There was no wind or sounds of scuttling wildlife.  But a child’s song, so faint you thought you’d imagined it. 
     “The monkey thought was all in fun.”
     “A penny for a spool of thread, a penny for a needle.”
     “That’s the way the money goes.”
      “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     There it was again.  Singing.  You were sure you hadn’t imagined it, it had to be Arthur.  God!  It seemed like you were making a racket!  Your breathing, your heartbeat, your eyelashes blinking rapidly as you desperately scanned the inky shadows.  Why did sound amplify in the cold and the dark?  It all seemed to be announcing your location to the man who was coming to murder you. 
     “Up and down the London road.”
     “In and out of the Eagle.”
     “That’s the way the money goes.”
     “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     He was playing with you.  The monkey and the weasel.  Cat and mouse.  You should have kept running!  Should have kept to the road, someone would have seen you.  You would have stood a chance!  Now you were in a trap of your own making.
     “I’ve no time to plead and pine.”
     “I’ve no time to wheedle.”
     “Kiss me quick and then I’m gone.”
     “Pop!  Goes the weasel!”
     The echo of the woods distorted Arthur’s voice so that you had no clue where he was coming from.  Running now would do you no good.  It was too late.  The son of a bitch was closing in on you now.  Would they even be able to find your body?  Would Jensen ever know what became of you?  You should have ran the minute you remembered your name. 
     “All around the cobbler’s bench.”
     “Arthur chased the doctor.”
     “The doctor thought was all in fun…”
     God, please keep him safe from the psychopath.  And Frankie!  Make sure they know I love them!  No matter what happens to me… I love you!
     “Pop!”
     Arthur.  Blood, dirt, and broken glass.  A twisted grin split his grotesque face. 
     Time stopped; a shot rang out.  Then, nothing.
     Jensen stood with the small, second group of agents investigating the crashed truck.  Two sets of footprints disappeared into the woods and the first round of FBI had already spread out into the wilderness to join the Mounties and broaden the search.
     The report of a gunshot echoed all the way back to the road.
     His blood ran cold.  “Y/N.”
     A hand went to Jensen’s Kevlar covered chest before he could move.  Bruce, the iron faced agent assigned to the actor, held him in place.
     "Let me go!"
     "Not a chance."
     "That was a fucking gunshot!"
     "Yeah, it was.  You take off now, the next one might have your name on it."
     “I don’t care!”
     "Right now, every resource we have is focused on Y/N.  You go out there and those resources get split, cutting her chance at survival in half.”
     Jensen turned away, running his hands through his hair.  “Fuck!”
     "We've all got a job to do.  Yours is communication,” Bruce put a steady hand on Jensen’s shoulder.  “You want to help your girl?   Stay put.  Be here and be ready to answer when she calls."
     Knowing Bruce was right didn't make the next hour of waiting any easier.  It was agony.  There was no word.  Not a sound from anyone.  Radio silence, Agent Bruce called it.  He seemed to think it was a positive sign, but it was driving Jensen insane.  Each minute that passed brought a horrible new thought.  A potential nightmare that could play out right in front of him.  And he was powerless to prevent it.
     He was past the end of his rope when an ambulance came into view and sped past them.  Traveling at breakneck speed up the mountain. Flashing lights bouncing off the trees and rock face. 
     Bruce held a finger to the tiny Speaker in his ear.  A grim look passed his features.
     "Let's move."
     He said nothing more.  No word on if you were alive or dead.  No hint at who that ambulance was for.  An hour ago, Jensen would have sworn he'd reached his capacity for worry and stress.  But that was nothing compared to the five minutes it took to reach the clearing.  There was a mass of people milling around.  F.B.I. he recognized and a few others outfitted in uniforms for the R.C.M.P.  That ambulance was parked off to the side, the back door was closed but the lights were still flashing.  Several other official looking vehicles showed up, including one for the coroner’s office. 
     Jensen was out of the car before Bruce even put it in park.  He caught the slender build of Frank Solomon, casually talking to a couple of other agents by the rail guard.  The son of a bitch was acting like he’d completed a milk run!  Jensen’s nostrils flared with rage as he made a direct path for him.
     The young man looked up, seemingly unphased by the Texan’s aggressive approach.
     "Ackles.”
     "Where is she?!"
     Solomon’s mouth opened, but it wasn’t his voice that was heard.  A shrill, terrified scream came from inside the ambulance, cutting through the night.
      "Jensen!"
     He'd spent fifteen years stepping into the boots of Dean Winchester.  Fighting monsters.  Some you could see, some you couldn't.  But no matter how close he was to the hero he portrayed; it was still an act.  Though there were plenty of times he’d wished it were real.  Wished he were more like the enigmatic man in the ’67 Chevy.  The man who always knew what to do.  The man who always saved the day.
     And yes, he would let his ‘Dean’ show from time to time.  That was a blurred line that proved useful more than once.  But in that moment when you screamed for him, there was no line.  There was no Dean, there was clarity. 
     Solomon got exactly one word out, “Wait…”  
     Jensen pulled back his fist and punched him square in the face, knocking him on his ass.
     He ran to that ambulance.  On a mission and with one purpose, he tore the door open.  
     You were sitting on a gurney, struggling against the medic who was trying to keep you from bolting.  Bruised and bloody.  But breathing!  The second you saw him, you went still, your bottom lip quivered.
     “Jensen.”
     The medic proved smarter than the F.B.I. agents and moved out of the way, allowing Jensen the room to take you in his arms.  That was when you broke completely.  Sobbing and desperately clinging to him like a child.  You weren’t sure how you got there.  One minute you were in that tree being stalked by a killer, the next you were being bundled into an ambulance.  It was so surreal!  It wasn’t until you heard Jensen on the other side of the door that you snapped.  Reality crashed over you, and you couldn’t breathe. 
     Jensen tried to will his own panic away.  You were alive.  He had you.  Bloody and trembling, but in his arms.  He could hear himself telling you soothing things.  Comforting words that he would never be able to recall later.  He was sure you couldn’t understand him anyway, you were crying so hard that your whole body shook. 
     But his voice was a balm, the timbre of it washed over you.  After a time, the raw shock wore through to numbness.  You drew a shuddering breath and tried to speak. 
     “I’ve got you,” he said, his voice coming from just over your head.  “I’m right here.”
     You released your death grip on Jensen’s jacket and snuck a look at your hands.  There were burn marks there from the gun powder.  Across the clearing, two men were maneuvering a stretcher over the gravel.  A black body bag was strapped to the top.
     “I killed him.”
     Jensen gently brushed the tangled hair away from your face.  His gaze followed yours to the body being taken away.  It could have so easily been you.  He rubbed his hand down your back and tucked your head under his chin.
     “Don’t look, baby.  Don’t think about it.  Never again.”
     The EMT reappeared, insisting that you go to the hospital.  He listed a number of injuries that needed attention.  Including another fucking concussion.
     You managed a weak laugh, “Look at us, right back where we started.”
     “At least you didn’t drown this time, your average is improving,” Jensen said, kissing your forehead.
     With practiced efficiency, the medic had you secured and ready for transport.  Just as the door was about to shut, Frank Solomon appeared.  His jaw was discolored and starting to swell where Jensen landed his punch. 
     Jensen smirked, “Back for round two?”
     “The ambulance is already at capacity, let’s not chance it.”  Solomon’s dark eyes shifted to you.  The arrogance drained away, and he seemed softer.  Almost repentant. 
      “Doctor West, I wanted to let you know that the death of Arthur Green officially closes this case.  You are no longer under any obligation to the F.B.I. for any purpose and you are free to resume your life.”
     “You won’t need me to make a statement?”
     “We have everything we need.  And I have to say, without your cooperation and your bravery, we never would have gotten Green let alone shut down the drug ring.  This victory is yours.”
     “I shot a man.  Deserved or not, that doesn’t feel particularly victorious.”
     Solomon blinked slowly, “You didn’t shoot Arthur Green.”
     “What?”
     “Barely clipped his shoulder, but I hardly call that a shot,” the agent shrugged, his casual manner back in place.  “One of the Mounted Police got him… Roberts, I think.  One clean shot to the head.  Green was dead before he hit the ground.”
     You could have lived with the death on your conscience, knowing it had been self-defense.  But the fact that you didn’t have to, freed you.  Well and truly.  Lightness settled in where guilt had been only a moment ago.  Words failed you.  An astonished gasp left your lips, and you let you head rest against Jensen’s shoulder.
     “Goodbye, Doctor West.  Mr. Ackles.”  Solomon shut the door and thumped it twice. 
     The ambulance slowly rolled away to begin its descent down the mountain.  Jensen’s hand found yours under the emergency blanket tucked over your lap.
     “It’s over.”
     “Yeah, it’s all over, Sweetheart” he murmured, kissing your temple.
     You and Jensen would talk about the incredible circumstances of how you got together often over the years.  You would muse on the workings of fate and God’s grand plan.  You would wonder at the impossibility of it all. 
     Surely, there must have been an easier way for two lost souls to meet.
     But then, meeting wouldn’t have been enough.  The two of you were drowning; separately but equally.  The miserable details of your own lives were pulling you under like a riptide.  It was so all-consuming that you couldn’t break free.  You weren’t strong enough, not alone. 
     It was like Jensen said that day in your old apartment, make a different choice.  The two of you chose to save each other.  But you also chose to let yourself to be saved.  It wasn’t passive and it wasn’t by chance.  It was a decision.  Perhaps not always an easy one, but it had power. 
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podcastsaremyjam · 4 years ago
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Podcast Recs!
Sometimes it can be difficult to find new fiction podcasts through the jungle of nonfiction ones. I LOVE finding new podcasts through other people’s recommendation’s, so I figured I’d take advantage of tumblr’s “pin a post” feature to pin a list of my favorite podcasts to the top of my page! Be sure to check out the tags on this post too—I try to be pretty consistent with tagging on this account. I’ll keep updating as I find new podcasts!
Fantasy
The Adventure Zone
If you’re into D&D, you’ve probably at least heard of this one, but it’s definitely worth the hype! TAZ was created by the McElroy brothers who, along with their dad Clint, play D&D together. The whole thing is INCREDIBLY hilarious, but each story really gets more complex and interesting as it goes along. The first “season,” TAZ: Balance is my favorite—classic D&D setting following Magnus, Taako, and Merle as they adventure and a larger mystery slowly unfolds. #adventure #dnd #found family
Unseen
A collection of stories set in the same magical universe by the team who created Wolf359. Each episode has been really interesting, and the worldbuilding is really great! #magic #lgbtq+ rep #mental health
The Two Princes
Rupert and Amir are princes of two kindgoms at war who decide to take destiny into their own hands by pursuing the cause of the curse plaguing their kingdoms. To do so, they will have to create an uneasy truce as they forge deeper into the enchanted forest. This podcast is so lovely. The characters growth is just *chef’s kiss* I just found out that seasons 2 & 3 were released exclusively on Spotify, so guess who’s “to listen” list just got longer? #princes #lgbtq+ rep #prophecy #enemies to lovers
Sci-Fi
Girl in Space
Our narrator (who’s name has not been revealed as of the end of season 1) is a young scientist who’s parents have died, leaving her as the sole living inhabitant of the research station Cavatica. Space seems so vast when you only have yourself to talk to...until it isn’t. One of my all time favs—there is so much depth in the story and characters! #space #research #mental health #grief #space station
Directive
Y’all, this one made me cry the first time I listened to it! The story (in season 1) follows Frank as he works as a caretaker watching over the cryogeniclly stored bodies of people on their way to a space colony. It’s such a poginant exploration of the social bonds we take for granted. #space #mental health
Wolf 359
Told through the audio logs of Communications Officer Doug Eiffel , Wolf 359 follows the crew of the Hephaestus as they monitor the star Wolf 359. If I could only recommend 5 podcasts to someone, this one would definitely make the cut. Each of the characters is so well flashed out as the podcast progresses, and the conversations it has about mental illness are handled so well! #space #mental health #space station
Moonbase Theta Out
Ugh, this podcast is so good! The first season follows the researchers and workers on Moonbase Theta as they prepare for base shutdown. However, with political issues threatening the safety of family planetside and those in charge being suspiciously unwilling to provide information on certain topics, our narrator pushes for answers before he goes into cryogenic stasis. Note—the narrator of season one and his husband are sappy and adorable. I love them so muchhhh. #space #politics #lgbtq+ rep #space station
The Orphans
If you love sci-fi, this is the podcast for you! The Orphans tells the story of a universe full of future technologies and humanity continuing to push forward into unknowns. Each season tells a different story arc set in the same universe, interconnecting and building on past seasons. #technology #space #survival
Burst
An adorable anti-capitalist comedy set in space! #space #aliens #lgbtq+ rep #space station
EOS 10
OMG This podcast always makes me laugh so hard! It follows two doctors, a nurse, and a hypochondriac alien patient as they navigate medical appoinments and daily life on the station EOS 10. Shenagains ensue. #space #medical #lgbtq+ rep #aliens #space station
The Strange Case of the Starship Iris
Hooooo boy! Bring on the found family adventures in space we all deserve! Something here about the Each character is just beautifully written, layered in complexities that start to peel away as we get to know them. #aliens #space #found family #lgbtq+ rep
The Bright Sessions
Therapy session recordings of Dr. Bright’s patients. Only, her patients aren’t there for help with anxiety or depression. They’re there because they’re “atypicals,” people with incredible abilities. I love each of the characters in this podcast, and learning more and more as the plot unfolds!
Horror/Supernatural
The Magnus Archives
I don’t normally listen to horror, but I started listening in the middle of the pandemic and HOO BOY. It did not disappoint! The story follows Jonathan Sims working in the archives at the Magnus Institute, an institute dedicated to gathering information about strange and unusual occurances. Each episode is Jon recording himself reading statements people have given in order to better organize the Archives. Starts off a little slow in terms of Jon’s interaction with other characters, but that aspect starts picking up halfway through season 1. #horror #supernatural #lgbtq+ rep
King Falls AM
Though not as terrifying as the other shows in this section, King Falls AM can definitely be unsettling. The show follows Sammy Stevens and Ben Arnold as they host a late night radio show in the not-so-sleepy town of King Falls. Though newcomer Sammy is skeptical of the town’s reputation for supernatural events, there is definitely more to the town and its inhabitants than meets the eye. #supernatural #mental health #lgbtq+ rep
Welcome to Nightvale
My first ever podcast! You’ve probably already decided if Nightvale is your cup of tea if you’re on my blog, but basically WtNV is a radio show covering events that happen in a town where glowing clouds rain dead animals, a country of tiny people exosts under a bowling lane, and librarians will must not escape the library. Vaguely creepy and definitely weird! #supernatural #lgbtq+ rep
Other
Levar Burton Reads
If you love short stories, definitely check this one out! As the title suggests, the immensely talented Levar Burton selects a different short story for each episode and reads it. His selections span lots of genres, and he’s read stories from some of my favorite authors like Neil Gaiman and Nnedi Okorafor!
Me & AU
This podcast is sooooo cute! It follows Kate as she hyperfocuses on a new show called Selkirk and becomes friends with a fellow Selkirk fan named Ella.
Under Pressure
Follows a doctor of literature aboard a deep sea research station three miles underwater.
36 Questions
A musical three part mini-series about the relationship fallout between a husband and wife after the husband discovers that his wife isn’t who she says she is.
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aliceinteyvat · 4 years ago
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Genshin Impact Idol AU ideas
So we all know the groups Veechu made with 4nemo, DCKZ, L/yue and, TVT DREAM however, I thought it was a crime the actual idol Barbara wasn’t in a group so, I made my own! I do not have the skills to draw this so, I will be including concept photos by actual groups(older and newer as well as the time in those examples i think suits them just for an example bts run era - dope era for a boy group) for the general vibe. Click on their names for a link to the kpop wiki about them. I also won’t include Lumine because many fans have made their own headcanons for that I like.
Feel free to use the ideas I added to this in fanworks just please credit me for the idea of the groups I made myself if you do. All will be under the read more so mobile users don’t break their fingers trying to scroll past. Wiki links are included for each real world inspiration. If looking for a specific character use ctrl+f on PC to search for them to make your life easier.
Note: their stories can be changed if you would like to make it different for your art/writing/whatever. I just think a bit of drama makes them feel more real. None of the stories are 100% based on any real group even their inspirations aren’t direct copies. As new characters are released/shown in stories I will be adding onto existing groups I made up or, making new ones so if you like my ideas save this and come back to it.
                             7evelUp! [pronounced Level Up!]
A rookie girl group created from the top seven trainees(voted by judges & public vote) in a survival show that quickly gained international fame from their debut single and, performance. No one doubts their talents however, some question how legitimate the voting/ranking was in the show.  No one blames the girls themselves for this and, there is no real evidence to prove this. All of the members believe the show to be real due to their own experiences too although, a few of them due to their low self-esteem believe other trainees would’ve been better suited in the group even if they are thankful for the support. It will take a while for all of them to adjust and, have it all feel real. Will they rise to super stardom or, crack under the immense pressure?
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Amber (leader, main dancer) 3rd place(got the leader position because she is the one who brought every team she was in together to usually win the challenges showing her leadership skills not from ranking)
Barbara (main vocalist,maknae,center) 1st place
Noelle (lead dancer,visual) 6th place
Sucrose (lead vocalist) 7th place
Xiangling (lead dancer, lead rapper)  5th place
Yanfei (main rapper,oldest) 2nd place
Yoimiya (lead rapper, vocalist) 4th place
- Real World Inspirations
Weeekly(Tag Me era - 7Days Tension era)
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Girls’ Generation(Into the New World era-Gee era)
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TWICE(Like Ooh Aah era - Heart Shaker era)
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                                                                                                         SYZYGY
An unconventional girl group with a unique sound. Despite their enormous amount of talent/skill , they haven’t been as successful as their small company had hoped. However, they continue to invest everything they can into this group much to the displeasure of the other idols under the company. Will their burning hot passion find success with the masses or, will they disband early leaving their company in complete ruin?
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Hu Tao (leader, main rapper, vocalist)
Fischl (lead vocalist, lead rapper, maknae)
Mona (lead dancer, vocalist, visual)
Rosaria (main dancer, vocalist, rapper, oldest)
Xinyan (main vocalist, dancer,center)
- Real World Inspirations
Dreamcatcher (Chase Me era - Odd Eye era)
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1NB (Stalker era - Once again, Winter era)
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                                    1MP@CT [prounced Impact]
A previously underrated boy group that seemingly appeared out of thin air on the #1 spots of all major top music charts. Most attribute their overnight success to their newest song going viral on social media but, some who work within their company secretly wonder if it has anything to do with the CEO’s private life and, the new anonymous investors. Regardless, they have made a name for themselves. They have a work ethic like no other and, will do whatever necessary to rise to the top. Even though fans are starting to worry their agency is pushing them too far. Will they become legendary performers the kind that future generations remember by name or, will their boss’ dirty little secrets make them guilty by association to the press when/if the time comes?
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Baizhu (leader, lead vocalist, lead dancer)
Dainsleif (main rapper, lead dancer, maknae)
Scaramouche (main dancer, lead rapper, oldest, center)
Albedo (main vocalist,visual)
- Real World Inspirations
Big Bang (Fantastic Baby era - Bang Bang Bang era)
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ATEEZ (Wonderland era - Fireworks era)
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B.A.P (Badman era - Hands Up era)
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                                                    DoDoCo
A junior girl group for kids/tweens made(and managed) by Alice to promote her daughter Klee and, have her gain experience for her dream of being a real idol. Although they perform, act, model and, release music similar older groups they still are children so, their concepts are always wholesome feel-good things to appeal to kid’s even younger their age or, younger. They also don’t have the same restrictions or, work hours due to their age. This group is very popular with Elementary schoolers and, sometimes even their families but, can be annoying to anyone older due to how cheesy it all is.
(Note: I don’t personally agree with kids being idols irl especially some I’ve seen that look like older teen/adult idols it’s scary. However, since it is a thing that exists and, this is a fictional head canon let’s pretend this is a world where none of them get hurt and can live pretty normal lives during & after their time as idols if they choose to do so. I just didn’t want to leave a playable character/important story character out of the AU entirely. Also, Sayu would be here but since she’s not officially released yet and, we don’t know any story about her I think it’s best for her to join later.)
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Klee (leader, main dancer, vocalist, maknae,center)
Diona (main rapper, dancer)
Qiqi (vocalist, oldest)
Yaoyao (main vocalist, rapper)
- Real World Inspirations
RE:KIDS ANGEL (Ocean era) note: also their only era so far it seems but, apparently RE:KIDS is a larger thing with many other kids kpop groups so I assume others would have a similar concept.
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CutieL (Debut era - Jungle Journey era)
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                                                Dandelion
A girl group that has stayed at the top for the past 7 years known for their elegant concepts although, they have had other concepts in the past(sexy, cute, etc.). Not only is Dandelion super famous but, each member has their own solo careers just as successful. Outside of the group Jean is known for her solo albums and, charity work. Lisa is known for her modelling career and, secretly is a successful author under a pen name. Eula is known for her many wins on dancing contest shows and, the many important roles she plays in dramas. Since this year marks the dreaded 7 year curse fans worry they might disband or, go on a permanent hiatus. Before this year they seemed inseparable to fans but, something happened during their last tour. Jean and, Lisa who were known to be best friends suddenly won’t even sit next to each other. Eula who was usually more reserved during interviews is having to do most of the work since they’re just awkwardly sitting on the opposite sides of her. Eula has never been the best at public speaking and, her blunt responses are causing antis to go on huge smear campaigns on social media. Jean who previously wanted to renew her contract is thinking about starting her own company. Lisa who previously wanted to renew her contract now wants to leave and, join a modelling agency. Eula still wants to renew her contract but, she doesn’t want to be solo yet. She is trying her hardest to get the group back together but, her harsh personality is only making the problem worse she feels. Will they stay together or, will they split? And if they stay together, will it be the same Dandelion fans fell in love with or, are some bridges burned forever?
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Jean (leader, main vocalist, center, dancer)
Lisa (main rapper, visual, sub vocalist, oldest)
Eula (main dancer, vocalist, maknae)
- Real World Inspirations
IZ*ONE (Violeta era - Panorama era)
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GFRIEND (Sunrise era - Mago era)
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TWICE (Fancy era - Alcohol Free era)
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Solo Idols
- Ayaka
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From a wealthy Inazuman family Kamisato Ayaka (known as Ayaka) shocked the entire nation when she decided to stop pursuing traditional dance(which she had earned many honors and, was famous for since she was a small child) and, instead go overseas to become an idol. Due to her connections it wasn’t long after becoming a trainee that she was put on the same survival show that formed 7evelUp!. However, her good luck ran out when after filming she got into an accident in her company’s car on the way to her company’s trainee dorms. Thankfully, no one was seriously injured but, she sustained an injury to her ankle that made her unable to perform for the rest of the show and, therefore was disqualified. She was a fan favorite and, everyone was heartbroken that she couldn’t compete. Due to her popularity, her company decided that if she could prove she was able to work after being healed they would let her have a solo debut. She far surpassed their expectations being even better than she was before, resulting in her debuting the same time 7evelUp! did. She doesn’t have any negative feelings towards those girls but, she views them as her rivals. She is quickly gaining popularity for her insane talent in singing, dancing, acting, modelling and, song-writing. She is known to the media as “The Idol Princess” for her family’s wealth, her talent and, her graceful demeanor. Don’t put her into a box though, she can pull off any concept with ease. The question is though, will her company allow her the freedom to express herself to the fullest?
- Real World Inspirations
Note: I am not saying she would be super similar to these artist’s work but, I am saying she has the range and, the potential to reach this level of fame. Since I can’t pinpoint a single solo artist that has what I think she would do I’ll put the ones I think have the insane talent and fame I think she would have as well as a similar feeling although it will take a while for her to get to their level
- IU
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- Taeyeon
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That was all of the Genshin Impact characters that I know enough about currently to feel comfortable making headcanons for them! Let me know what you think and if you make fanfic of or fanart of these ideas please credit me for these specifically and veechu for the idea of the idol au in general! Feel free to spread this post around if you want to or repost it too with credit. I also would love it if you tagged me if it’s on here or would be kind enough to send me a link to your work/work you find of it.
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I read some amazing books in August, but I was in a weird mood for most of it. So at the beginning of this month, I gave myself a break to rethink my priorities. I think I've been facing reading as a daily chore, and with all the other things in my life, I feel tired. I'm working through a way to be here on Tumblr (that makes me want to read more and more) and my enjoyment for reading.
Anyway, talking about all the books I read in August under the cut!
In reading order:
Winter Counts by David Heska Wanbli Weiden
It's a super interesting thriller set in an Indian reservation and dealing with violence, drugs, corruption, and what justice means. I liked all the twists of the story, although the pacing felt a little bit off in the middle.
Read if you want: short thrillers, vigilante stories.
The Ancestors by Tananarive Due, Brandon Massey and L.A Banks
There are three novellas in this book, and I enjoyed Tananarives's story about ghosts and ancestors. It was spooky and tense, and it lived up to my expectations. Brandon Massey's one had cool elements, but it never really got suspenseful. And L. A Banks's story was not for me.
Felix After Ever by Kacen Callender (x) (x)
I loved this book so much! It deals with painful topics, but the problems and teenagers are so realistic! I laughed, got mad, and cried, and it made me feel so many things and go back to my teenage years. In the end, this is a beautiful story with a message about loving yourself, being open to constantly discover more about yourself, and accepting that we deserve love, an easy and comfortable love.
Read if you want: realistic ya, trans characters, characters questioning their identity, ya about art.
Championess by Tarun Shanker, Kelly Zekas and Amanda Perez Puentes
It's a fun and short graphic novel! See my review here.
Read if you want: historical fiction with non-white protagonists, women challenging gender norms, action graphic novels.
In Deeper Waters by F. T. Lukens
I don't usually go for romance with fantasy, but the blurb mentioned Pirates of the Caribbean, and I got excited! I thought the prince was a bit annoying and naive, but Athlen's story is cool. The resolution of the problem at the end was a bit off for me, but at least it was a happy ending.
Read if you want: lighthearted romance with fantasy.
The Beautiful Ones by Silvia Moreno-Garcia
This story, unfortunately, fell flat for me. I didn't care for the characters and the magical aspect of it was so underused! I kept listening to the audiobook waiting for some interesting turn of events, but it never happened.
Hana Khan Carries On by Uzma Jalaluddin
This book was so good!!! I think I loved the family aspects of it the most and the sense of community. I loved how family stories and secrets are a theme throughout the book! And Hana is such a lovely character, and I cheered for her all the time! I'm soft for stories with podcats, and I loved that she works in the radio industry!
Read if you want: family secrets and stories, enemy to lovers, stories dealing with food, podcast and radio shows.
When Tara met Farah by Tara Pammi
It also fell flat for me. It started with some embarrassing scenes, but at least I was laughing. But it became too cheesy, and the writing was not that good. I was excited about the cultural aspects, and although there are some entertaining themes regarding that, I had to push through the second half of it.
Sadie by Courtney Summers
This book is devastating! It touches on some heavy topics, like abuse, pedophilia, and rape. I knew from the beginning that there'd be some kind of abuse, but all the indications leading to the final revelation shocked me. I liked the structure of the narration, changing from the podcast to Sadie's narration. I loved Sadie as a character. Also, I liked the commentary about how this is a common and overseen story. It's a sad book but beautifully written.
Read if you want: ya thrillers, revenge stories.
The Summer of You by Nagisa Furuya
Read my review here.
The Last Story of Mina Lee by Nancy Jooyoun Kim
It was an emotional and very slow-paced story. It deals with complicated feelings, family relationships, mother and daughter dynamics, immigrant life, and family secrets.
Read if you want: family secrets, complicated family dynamics, immigrant stories.
Grown by Tiffany D. Jackson
This book wrecked me emotionally. It deals with an abusive relationship and the dark side of the music industry. It's the second book by Tiffany D. Jackson that left me devastated, and she's becoming one of my favorite authors. Read the trigger warnings if you're interested.
Read if you want: the dark side of the music industry, ya thrillers/mysteries.
Now Entering Addamsville by Francesca Zappia
I chose to read this book because of the ace mc and the spooky vibes, and I liked Zora a lot. I don't know what exactly I didn't enjoy about the story, but I didn't care much for the other characters or the mystery.
Re-read:
Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen (x) (x) (x)
Disponíveis em Português (links para os meus reviews no skoob):
O Mar me Levou a Você de Pedro Rhuas (x)
Quem Matou Capitão Gancho? de Anna Anchieta (x)
A Mariana Errada de Julia Braga (x)
And feel free to talk to me about the books of this list :)
Read in: Feb | Mar | Apr | May | June | July
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thero0ks · 4 years ago
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Fanfics & Coffee Shops <Mike Zacharias>
Mike see's the reader writing at a coffee shop. Levi decides to be a wingman, but fangirls instead.
Slight NSFW featuring Erwin Smith ahead. Please don't read if you're under 18.
The aroma of coffee beans engulfed her when she entered the small coffee shop. The barista smiled at her presence, “the usual?”
Y/N nodded, swiping her debit card, before throwing some cash in the tip jar. She eagerly made her way to the small table in front of a large window pain. The leather seat squished as she sat down.
Reaching for her bag she pulled out the small tablet before attaching the keyboard. Turning her attention to the window the drizzling rain brought a smile to her lips. Rainy days were her favorite for writing. Work had been hectic this week, and she just wanted to escape in her favorite fandoms. Another reader-insert to share with others who shared the same love for her favorite characters. Pulling up Tumblr and AO3 to check for any updates, she settled into a blank Google Doc page.
She thanked the barista when she sat the drink down, and went to work typing while her coffee cooled to a drinkable temperature.
* **
Mike hadn’t expected to ever return to this coffee shop when he originally walked through the door. The coffee was great, but the shop was out of his way. A lone figure in the corner typing away caught his attention. He took a seat observing her. It was cute when she’d stumble over a word, and pause briefly to push her glasses up before carrying on. There were other times when she’d have her cheek pressed against her hand trying to overcome the dreaded writer’s block. He especially found the changing facial expressions adorable, or the way she’d occasionally bob her head to the music she was playing through her head phones.
When he returned to the coffee shop the next Saturday around the same time he was pleasantly surprised to find her occupying the same seat, typing away. Mike’s curiosity ran wild. Perhaps she was an aspiring author, or maybe she ran a blog? The dedication to her craft was admirable.
So it continued on. For weeks he would watch her write, and she seemed mostly oblivious to his presence.
His friends eventually took notice when he always came up with excuses as to why he was busy every Saturday morning. Levi was determined to find out his secret. After much convincing Mike finally allowed him to tag along.
They walked into the coffee shop around ten that morning, and Mike’s heart raced at the sight of her. Levi eyed his taller friend suspiciously before they stepped forward to order.
“So what? You just watch her type?” Levi inquired, pouring a cup of black tea.
“Not exactly, I read too.” Mike raised his hands defensively.
Levi snorted, “you’re such a creep.”
Mike’s face turned red at his friend’s statement, “I just enjoy observing her.” He mumbled, “she’s just existing in her own world, she doesn’t want some random guy hitting on her.” Mike said, running his fingers through his golden locks.
Levi observed the little habits that Mike seemed to adore. “I wonder what she’s writing?”
Mike shrugged, “no clue. That’s all part of the mystery.” He said, taking a sip of his coffee. “Whatever it is, she’s certainly dedicated.” He added, “she shows up every week without fail.”
Levi stood up. He heard Mike hiss a ‘what are you doing?’ Before waving him off. He made his way over to her table. She was too wrapped up in typing that she hadn’t noticed him hovering over her shoulder, peering at the screen.
* **
“He sat her on the desk, and her back shivered as it hit the cold mahogany. Papers and ink scattered as he leaned over her. Erwin’s pupils were blown wide, a black hole devouring every inch of her flesh.
Her body let out an involuntary shudder at his predatory gaze. “Do you want me to fuck you cadet?” He growled, low in her ear. Awakening something primal inside her.”
Backspace.
Backspace.
“Awakening something primal in her bones.
‘Please Commander! I want you to fuck me.’
“Get on your knees cadet.” He ordered, as Y/N slunk to the floor.”
* **
Levi’s eyes flickered to the open internet tabs. The AO3 logo was in the left hand corner along with her username. “Wait, you’re (username)?” The statement fell from Levi’s lips before he could stop it, causing her to jump.
Panic flooded through her as she quickly closed her internet browser. “How long have you been standing there?” She inquired, as a blush painted her cheeks. Her ears felt hot at the embarrassment coursing through her.
“Was that the next chapter in My Biggest Gamble?” Levi inquired, taking a seat across from her.
“You read my work?” She inquired, pulling her headphones down.
It was Levi’s turn to blush, “I have it bookmarked.” He admitted, his eye catching Mike’s who mouth “what the fuck?”
“Well I’m happy you enjoy it.” She said, offering him a bashful smile.
“The real reason I came over is because my idiot friend has been pining over you for weeks.” He said, gesturing to Mike.
“I’ve noticed him.” She admitted, brushing a piece of hair behind her ear. “I’ve been looking at him too.”
Levi smirked, “tell you what. I’ll introduce you two If you turn this situation into an Erwin oneshot.”
“Deal.” She said shaking his hand.
Following him over to the table Mike abruptly stood up. “This is Mike.” Levi said, gesturing at the towering man. “Mike this is (AO3 Username).”
Mike shot Levi a confused look, “it’s Y/N.” She said, offering him a small wave. “Did you maybe want to…” she trailed off.
“Get dinner sometime?” Mike offered, eagerly his heart warming at the soft blush that dusted her cheeks.
She nodded, handing him her phone, “if you want to exchange numbers…”
He quickly unlocked his phone handing it to her. He glanced down at her wallpaper. A sketch of a blond haired man gripping a glass of whiskey. Mike quickly opened up her contacts and imputed his information. Exchanging phones once again she shouldered her bag. “Text me, or call me.” She said with a smile. “That chapter will be out tomorrow.” She said pointedly to Levi.
“I look forward to it.”
She gave them both a wave before disappearing out the door.
“Did you ever figure out what she was writing?” Mike inquired.
“Tch. She writes fanfic.”
Mike furrowed his brows, “fanfic?”
Levi laughed motioning for his phone. Reluctantly Mike handed it over. Levi made quick work pulling up AO3, and finding her account. “I recommend reading anything marked NSFW.”
“Wait, did she write all this?” Mike said with wonder scrolling through the various oneshots.
“Those stories labeled NSFW will give you a pretty good idea of what her kinks are.” Levi said, pouring himself another cup of tea.
Mike clicked on the first story he saw with a NSFW warning. Levi smirked behind his teacup, enjoying Mike’s shock as he kept scrolling.
“Wait her phone wallpaper….is she writing about that guy?” Mike asked, glancing up.
Levi shook with laughter as he nodded. “You’re going to have to share her with several fictional men.”
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the-queer-observer · 4 years ago
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The TOXICITY of straight dating culture: Do you even realize what you teach?
A few months ago, a straight teenage girl explained her crush to me with the sentence “He’s so toxic.”
I know a 17-year-old girl with a little to no clue of how a non-toxic relationship should look like.
I started noticing a certain pattern online and in my real life too.
Now it’s a time for my first disclaimer: I am not straight myself. Nope. Not at all. Perhaps that’s why I see through it.
To this point, all I have done about this is that I have complained to some friends, got over it and went on with my life.
Today, a girl, no older than twelve, has told me about her crush on a “bad boy” and we talked about him for a second. He really did seem like what the definition of a bad boy is for tweens.
I snapped.
And here I am, writing my first tumblr post ever on this very topic.
I want to make clear, this is not an attack on those girls. This is an attack on the society, what it taught them and what it failed to teach.
The youngest girl and me, we talked about music. She said she liked “dramatic” songs and played me some of her favorites.
Disclaimer number two: I did know both the artists, but I don’t actually listen to them. The closest to mainstream music my playlists get is Take me to church by Hozier, the rest being a wide range of songs, interprets and genres from pop punk to death metal and everything in between.
I was actually surprised. One of the two artists she played for me was Billie Eilish. The beginning of the song went:
Don't be cautious, don't be kind
You committed, I'm your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger
But your trigger finger's mine
The second song was by Maroon 5.
It was even worse:
So what you trying to do to me
It's like we can't stop, we're enemies
But we get along when I'm inside you, eh
You're like a drug that's killing me
I cut you out entirely
But I get so high when I'm inside you
Yeah you can start over you can run free
You can find other fish in the sea
You can pretend it's meant to be
But you can't stay away from me
I can still hear you making that sound
Taking me down rolling on the ground
You can pretend that it was me
But no, oh
I am not going to argue about whether it’s appropriate or whether she understands the lyrics the way I do. It doesn’t even matter. She understands the drama in the song. She understands it enough for me to be concerned.
There are other songs like that. There is a whole culture teaching pre-teen and teenage girls, that “they can’t get away”, romanticizing toxic people and toxic relationships, blurring the lines of consent and guess what? The girls believe it’s the way it’s supposed to be.
I texted my girlfriend and we spent some time looking for straight love-songs, celebrating healthy relationships. None of them were mainstream, but we found things like:
That the world is ugly
But you're beautiful to me
Are you thinking of me
Like I'm thinking of you
I would say I'm sorry, though
Though I really need to go
I just wanted you to know
I wanted you to know
I wanted you to know
I'm thinking of you every night, every day
(My Chemical romance)
And
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now
(Lifehouse)
First of all: Those are 4 extracts of songs, chosen by me to demonstrate my point and they may or may not reflect the reality, you (the reader) see: those two songs might be just an exception, but in that case this post is still not canceled, because there is enough of other correlations and causation for me to have a reason to write this.
Those songs are “dramatic”, but the drama shifts from the relationship itself and its toxicity to the circumstances and environment. My girlfriend even recommended a punk song called Ne touche pas moi (Do not touch me), which is entirely about consent.
I am not explicitly saying that the songs she played for me are bad. It’s not for me to decide.
But all Billie Eilish’ fans I ever met were in the age range between eleven and fourteen, so I am supposing that’s her target audience. As for Maroon 5, I have no idea. However, music influences us. The girl is old enough to know what kind of music she likes and wants to listen to and with the peer pressure going on there, her parents do not really have a say in what she listens to and they are not to be blamed for this.
It’s the culture.
Toxicity is not a positive trait to look for in a potential partner. Even if he is a good looking one.
Enough of music.
Do you know who the toxic crush was?
Draco Malfoy.
One of the most famous of all characters in media, famously portrayed by Tom Felton in the Harry Potter film series.
Disclaimer number four: I have a problem with the books and movies and I also have some issues with the author.
Still, I see a fandom celebrating the love of Severus Snape for Lilly Evans Potter. Except it’s not love and it’s not a crush either. It’s an obsession. One that has become so iconic, the word “Always” is one of the main symbols of Harry Potter.
It shouldn’t be.
It should have never happened.
Draco Malfoy is quite the same thing. He is a racist, a bully. He is raised to be one, sure... That’s not an excuse. He doesn’t actually have a canonical redemption arch (not counting the deleted scene from the last movie and the Cursed child). If he came up to Hermione, acknowledging his mistakes, apologizing for his behavior, then maybe. Perhaps... That’s another story though. My point is, Rowling fails to actually depict problematic characters as actually problematic, they are romanticized by her, the filmmakers, the fandom and the wider audience.
Girls are taught to be the ones to make the redemption arch happen, irl or in fiction. They are supposed to date whoever is into them, regardless of whether they like the person back, and it’s unbelievably often I see them crushing on villains and problematic people like Draco Malfoy, because they are taught, he would change for them or that they could change him.
Toxicity is not a positive trait to look for in a potential partner. Even if he is a good looking one.
Those together result in a complete lack of knowledge of how a healthy relationship should look like. That’s the case of the third girl I mentioned. Being best friends with both her and her current boyfriend, I had three points of view on their relationship. It’s only been the past few weeks, not more than two month it has shifted to a more positive, healthy relationship.
It’s not the girl’s fault. They learn what a healthy relationship is the hard way, mostly after going through a toxic one(s).
WHY?
The sentence: “I always fall for the bad guys.” lacks the essential: “because the society taught me to” part.
It’s so common.
It’s too common.
It’s not even that we wouldn’t talk about it: we do. But you celebrate it. And that is not okay and that is the reason I am typing this.
Disclaimer number 5: The gender roles in this post are based off of my observations. I do acknowledge the fact that girls can be and sometimes are the toxic person in the relationship and that the lesson boys are thought is no way better (more freeing perhaps, but not right either) . It might not be specific to the straight culture either, but again, my observations were.
I was about thirteen, when I figured out I was gay and I had to learn everything on my own. How the relationships should work out, what is healthy and what is not... I had to learn on my own because the society failed to teach me anything. I am yet to decide whether that’s better or worse than teaching the wrong one.
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sherrybaby14 · 5 years ago
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Bang for Your Birthday
Summary:  Your boyfriend gives you the ultimate birthday gift
Pairings:  Loki x Reader,  Surprise characters x reader,
Warnings:  Gang bang? GANG BANG!  Dubious-Consent.  
A/N:  This is super SELF-INDULGENT (I wrote this on my birthday)
   His tongue was Valhalla.  You peeled off his top, breaking the kiss.  He licked his lips as he looked down at you.   You grabbed at his shoulders, wanting him back on top of you.  
“Are you ready for your birthday gift?”  Loki’s eyes got that evil gleam.  
“This wasn’t it?”  You looked at the diamond bracelet.  Not to mention the lingerie, countless flowers, perfume, chocolates, and fantastic dinner.  
“No.”  He slinked down, making you whine.  “This is special.  All for you Love.”  
You sat up on the giant bed.  Your green neglige dropping off your shoulder.   Loki took your hand, the two of you both on your knees.  His hands found your waist and he pulled you close, resuming the kiss.
Part of you wanted to dive back into it, but your mind raced with what he had in mind.
“Relax.” He pressed his forehead to yours.  “This is all about you.”  
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The kissing resumed.  You tried to listen to him, you trusted him, one of the few people in the nine realms who did.  You hoped that wouldn’t prove faulty.  
His hands went to the silk of your nightie and he pushed the other strap down, guiding the garment down to your legs.   You shifted your knees and climbed out of the thing, naked for him.  
Your hands went to his pants, wanting to feel his marble like skin on your own.  
Lips touched your neck and you gasped.  Pushing away from Loki.  You pressed your head to his chest, for protection as you turned.  
“I’m sorry my lady.”  The guest shifted on the bed.  “I did not mean to frighten you.  Quite the opposite in fact.”
“NO!”  You turned and looked at Loki, unable to control your features.  “Is he real?”
“Tonight he is.”  Loki’s devilish grin grew as he took in your amazement.  “It’s all about you.  Enjoy.”
“You see.”  The guest moved closer.  “I was on my way to join the fellowship,  but I got lost.  Then I spotted your magnificent form.  I could not help but join you.”
The long blond hair, the alabaster skin, the changing eye color going a deep brown.   His clothing was gone, but there was a bow on the bed.  
“I am Legolas of the Woodland Realm.”  He was hesitant as he kissed your shoulder and took your wrist.  “And your beauty could make kings fall to their knees.”
You were awe struck, staring at the man.
“Go on Love.”  Loki moved you so your back was to Legolas’ chest.  “Enjoy your gift.”
Before you could respond Legolas began kissing your shoulder.  Loki used the opportunity to dip down to your breasts.  He looked up at you as he sucked a nipple between his lips.  
The elf slid his hand down your stomach and cupped your mound, rubbing his palm against your sensitive clit.   You moaned and relaxed.  
“That’s it.”  Loki released your nipple, now stiff.  “Good girl.”
You moaned as a finger traced up your thigh, sliding into your pussy with ease.  You moaned and started to rock between the two.  Four hands, two mouths on your body.   All rubbing and working at you.  
The sensations were putting you into overdrive.  You let your eyes shut as your body came to life between the two.  
“You’re not doing it right.”  A deep voice came out of nowhere and your eyes popped open.  “Too soft.”
Before you could react a hand was on your neck.  Pushing you away from Legolas and Loki.  A scared face looked down at you, heavy with authority.  
“She needs to be controlled.”  He pushed you down on your back.  “Shown what she is capable of.”
“You’re….You’re Kylo Ren?”  You blinked as the sith glared down at you.  
“See?”  He grabbed your chin and stuck a finger in your mouth.  “Already too mouthy.”  
You were about to gag, when he pulled the digit out and positioned himself between your legs.  You looked at Loki, this was starting to feel like cheating, but your boyfriend just grinned down at you.  
“Ahh!” You back arched and your neck popped up.
The view almost made you cum, dark hair between your legs, his tongue working your slit, before his mouth found your bundle of nerves.  You let out a squeal and tried to shut your legs in response, but his grip was too hard.
“AM I THE ONLY ONE DOING ANY WORK AROUND HERE?” Kylo’ s voice boomed. “THE GIRL!”
Loki and Legolas appeared on either side of you.   Both of their cocks were inches from your face.  You opened your mouth.
“Not yet pet.”  Loki ran his dick across your nipple.  “Much more to enjoy.”  
You whimpered, but then gasped as Kylo’s tongue returned to your pussy, working it like the master he was.  Loki turned your head and you met Legolas’ lips.  His kiss was light.  If this was all Loki he was doing a damn good job at each character.  
Lips found your breast again and you wiggled underneath the three of them.  Fingers stroking your flesh as Kylo’s tongue worked you into a frenzy, his mouth sucking and teasing you.  
“Mmmm.”  Your vision was starting to blur.  
“A true gourmet knows to tenderize first.”  The accented voice made you sit up.
“NO!”  You looked at Loki.
“Oh yes.”  He grinned.  “You think you can hide those fantasies from me?”
“Never let something so delicious rest.”  They left your body and you whimpered as you looked at Loki.
“Don’t be ashamed Love.”  He stroked your cheek.  “I want you to enjoy. Welcome our newest edition.”
Hands lifted and guided you to your hands and knees.  
“Hello Doctor Lecter.”  You looked up at the man as he moved on his knees to his face.  
“Good evening.”  His hand ran over your hair.  “Tonight, I am inviting you to the feast.”
Before you could object he gripped your head and guided it to his erection.  You moaned as he slid into your mouth.  
“As a man well versed in anatomy, I can tell you gentlemen all of her eroginous zones.”  
“No need.”  Legolas chimed in.  “I have found little flowers can protest, but they blossom under my care.”
A finger slid inside your pussy and you moaned around Hannibal’s cock.  Then it vanished, and your eyes bulged as you felt pressure on your ass.  You tried to push off of Hannibal.
“None of that Love.”  Loki whispered in your ear.  “You want to be a generous host to our guests, don’t you?”
You whined as the digit slid inside of you.  
“Yes girl.”  Kylo sounded like he was below you.  “Listen to your master.”
You grunted and gave Loki a side eye.  He smirked.  But Hannibal started sliding your head faster.   Then Kylo’s mouth was back on your clit, sucking and teasing.  
Loki began kissing your shoulder as his hands went back to teasing your nipples, pinching and releasing.  Your moans returned, to the point you didn’t notice when a second finger slid into you asshole.  
“She is preparing quite well.”  Hannibal slammed your head down hard.  “Quite the dish.”
“Agreed.”  Legolas started scissoring his fingers.  “I think she is ready to be fulfilled.”
You whimpered again and Hannibal let go of your head.  You tried to pull back all the way, but he stopped again, choking a little on Hannibal’s head before he let his cock drop out of your mouth.  You coughed and sputtered.    
“Our final guest has arrived.”  Loki was too pleased with himself.  
You felt a hard bite in your neck and a shriek came out.   Your head whipped to the side and you almost came at the sight of the fangs, a small drop of your blood visible.  
“Dracul—AHH!”  Legolas’ fingers were replaced with something larger and you fell forward.  “FUCK!”  
“You will get used to it soon.”  Loki rubbed your head.  “I promise you will take nothing but pleasure the rest of the night.”
You panted as the men looked down at you, trying not to envision the elf’s dick sliding into you ass.  You mewled at the burn of it.  The wonderful stretch.
“Breathe Darling.”  Loki stroked your hair.  
You shut you eyes and willed yourself to relax.  
“Wonderful.”  Loki kissed your cheek.  
“He’s in.”  Kylo’s voice made you look up.  
Five gorgeous men towered over you on their knees.   The bed below you shifted.  Hands moved you like you weighed nothing and soon Kylo was underneath you.  
You bit your lip as they lowered you onto his dick, Legolas’ making it feel that much larger because of your stuffed passage.  
“It hurts.”  You looked at Loki.  “Too much.”  
A finger found your clit, and hands went back to your breasts.
“Not for you Love.”  Loki ran his hand over your hair.  “It feels good.”
“Fuck.”  You dropped your head, because he was right.  
In fact, it felt amazing.
“I know my girl.”  Loki’s hand found your jaw.
He dug his fingers into your mouth and you opened while he guided your mouth back onto Hannibal’s cock.  
Teeth dug into your neck again and you groaned.
“What beautiful music.”  The Transylvanian guided your hand to your neck and wiped away some of the blood.
He brought it to his cock and started to stroke, making you jerk him with your own blood.  
Hands and lips and tongues and teeth were all over you.  It was impossible to keep straight who was where.   But every time you focused on Loki he just grinned down at you.  Nothing but pride on his face and your favorite fictional crushes fucked you in every way.
“Just beautiful.”  He licked his lips.  “What a sight. Enjoy.”
You did as you were told.  Even if you had wanted to object, there was no room for it.  The men were working your body like none other.  
Your eyes rolled into the back of your head as you came on their cocks.  You didn’t know if you had been close or just had no dominion over yourself.  Either way, you didn’t care.  
Like a chorus of champagne bottles they went off.  Each blowing inside of you.  Hannibal tasted like steak.  Filet.  
You collapsed when him and Dracula let you go.  Legolas slipped out of your ass and Kylo rolled you on to your back.  
The room was spinning as they stared down at you.  Your body shaking from the finish and their absence.  
“Thank you.”  You reached for Loki’s thigh.  
“Happy birthday Love.”  Loki looked down at you.
“Eat shit!”  A new voice made you dip your head into the mattress.  “Did I miss the party?”
“Of course not Mr. Drysdale.”  Loki laughed.  “It’s only just begun.”  
Ransom fucking Drysdale.  You looked back up at Loki.  Best. Present. Ever.
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Your guide to the singer-songwriter’s surprise follow-up to Folklore.
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CARL WILSON
When everything’s clicking for Taylor Swift, the risk is that she’s going to push it too far and overtax the public appetite. On “Mirrorball” from Folklore, she sings, with admirable self-knowledge, “I’ve never been a natural/ All I do is try, try, try.” So when I woke up yesterday to the news that at midnight she was going to repeat the trick she pulled off with Folklore in July—surprise-releasing an album of moody pop-folk songs remote-recorded in quarantine with Aaron Dessner of the National as well as her longtime producer Jack Antonoff—I was apprehensive. Would she trip back into the pattern of overexposure and backlash that happened between 1989 and Reputation?
Listening to the new Evermore, though, that doesn’t feel like such a threat. A better parallel might be to the “Side B” albums that Carly Rae Jepsen put out after both Emotion and Dedicated, springing simply out of the artist’s and her fans’ mutual enthusiasm. Or, closer to Swift’s own impulses here, publishing an author’s book of short stories soon after a successful novel. Lockdown has been a huge challenge for musicians in general, but it liberated Swift from the near-perpetual touring and publicity grind she’s been on since she was a teen, and from her sense of obligation to turn out music that revs up stadium crowds and radio programmers. Swift has always seemed most herself as the precociously talented songwriter; the pop-star side is where her try-hard, A-student awkwardness surfaces most. Quarantine came as a stretch of time to focus mainly on her maturing craft (she turns 31 on Sunday), to workshop and to woodshed. When Evermore was announced, she said that she and her collaborators—clearly mostly Dessner, who co-writes and/or co-produces all but one of these 15 songs—simply didn’t want to stop writing after Folklore.
This record further emphasizes her leap away from autobiography into songs that are either pure fictions or else lyrically symbolic in ways that don’t act as romans à clef. On Folklore, that came with the thrill of a breakthrough. Here, she fine-tunes the approach, with the result that Evermore feels like an anthology, with less of an integrated emotional throughline. But that it doesn’t feel as significant as Folklore is also its virtue. Lowered stakes offer permission to play around, to joke, to give fewer fucks—and this album definitely has the best swearing in Swift’s entire oeuvre.
Because it’s nearly all Dessner overseeing production and arrangements, there isn’t the stylistic variety that Antonoff’s greater presence brought to Folklore. However, Swift and Dessner seem to have realized that the maximalist-minimalism that dominated Folklore, with layers upon layers of restrained instrumental lines for the sake of atmosphere, was too much of a good thing. There are more breaks in the ambience on Evermore, the way there was with Folklore’s “Betty,” the countryish song that was among many listener’s favorites. But there are still moments that hazard misty lugubriousness, and perhaps with reduced reward.
Overall, people who loved Folklore will at least like Evermore too, and the minority of Swift appreciators who disapproved may even warm up to more of the sounds here. I considered doing a track-by-track comparison between the two albums, but that seemed a smidgen pathological. Instead, here is a blatantly premature Day 1 rundown of the new songs as I hear them.
A pleasant yet forgettable starting place, “Willow” has mild “tropical house” accents that recall Ed Sheeran songs of yesteryear, as well as the prolix mixed metaphors Swift can be prone to when she’s not telling a linear story. But not too severely. I like the invitation to a prospective lover to “wreck my plans.” I’m less sure why “I come back stronger than a ’90s trend” belongs in this particular song, though it’s witty. “Willow” is more fun as a video (a direct sequel to Folklore’s “Cardigan” video) than as a lead track, but I’m not mad at it here either.
Written with “William Bowery”—the pseudonym of Swift’s boyfriend Joe Alwyn, as she’s recently confirmed—this is the first of the full story songs on Evermore, in this case a woman describing having walked away from her partner on the night he planned to propose. The music is a little floaty and non-propulsive, but the tale is well painted, with Swift’s protagonist willingly taking the blame for her beau’s heartbreak and shrugging off the fury of his family and friends—“she would have made such a lovely bride/ too bad she’s fucked in the head.” Swift sticks to her most habitual vocal cadences, but not much here goes to waste. Except, that is, for the title phrase, which doesn’t feel like it adds anything substantial. (Unless the protagonist was drunk?) I do love the little throwaway piano filigree Dessner plays as a tag on the end.
This is the sole track Antonoff co-wrote and produced, and it’s where a subdued take on the spirit of 1989-style pop resurges with necessary energy. Swift is singing about having a crush on someone who’s too attractive, too in-demand, and relishing the fantasy but also enjoying passing it up. It includes some prime Swiftian details, like, “With my Eagles t-shirt hanging from your door,” or, “At dinner parties I call you out on your contrarian shit.” The line about this thirst trap’s “hair falling into place like dominos” I find much harder to picture.
This is where I really snapped to attention. After a few earlier attempts, Swift has finally written her great Christmas song, one to stand alongside “New Year’s Day” in her holiday canon. And it’s especially a great one for 2020, full of things none of us ought to do this year—go home to visit our parents, hook up with an ex, spend the weekend in their bedroom and their truck, then break their hearts again when we leave. But it’s done with sincere yuletide affection to “the only soul who can tell which smiles I’m faking,” and “the warmest bed I’ve ever known.” All the better, we get to revisit these characters later on the album.
On first listen, I found this one of the draggiest Dressner compositions on the record. Swift locates a specific emotional state recognizably and poignantly in this song about a woman trapped (or, she wonders, maybe not trapped?) in a relationship with an emotionally withholding, unappreciative man. But the static keyboard chord patterns and the wandering melody that might be meant to evoke a sense of disappointment and numbness risk yielding numbing and disappointing music. Still, it’s growing on me.
Featuring two members of Haim—and featuring a character named after one of them, Este—“No Body, No Crime” is a straight-up contemporary country song, specifically a twist on and tribute to the wronged-woman vengeance songs that were so popular more than a decade ago, and even more specifically “Before He Cheats,” the 2006 smash by Carrie Underwood, of which it’s a near musical clone, just downshifted a few gears. Swift’s intricate variation on the model is that the singer of the song isn’t wreaking revenge on her own husband, but on her best friend’s husband, and framing the husband’s mistress for the murder. It’s delicious, except that Swift commits the capital offence of underusing the Haim sisters purely as background singers, aside from one spoken interjection from Danielle.
This one has some of the same issues as “Tolerate It,” in that it lags too much for too long, but I did find more to focus on musically here. Lyrically and vocally, it gets the mixed emotions of a relatively amicable divorce awfully damned right, if I may speak from painfully direct experience.
This is the song sung from the POV of the small-town lover that the ambitious L.A. actress from “Tis the Damn Season”—Dorothea, it turns out—has left behind in, it turns out, Tupelo. Probably some years past that Xmas tryst, when the old flame finally has made it. “A tiny screen’s the only place I see you now,” he sings, but adds that she’s welcome back anytime: “If you’re ever tired of being known/ For who you know/ You know that you’ll always know me.” It’s produced and arranged with a welcome lack of fuss. Swift hauls out her old high-school-romance-songs vocal tone to reminisce about “skipping the prom/ just to piss off your mom,” very much in the vein of Folklore’s teen-love-triangle trilogy.
A duet with Dessner’s baritone-voiced bandmate in the National, Matt Berninger, “Coney Island” suffers from the most convoluted lyrics on Evermore (which, I wonder unkindly, might be what brought Berninger to mind?). The refrain “I’m on a beach on Coney Island, wondering where did my baby go” is a terrific tribute to classic pop, but then Swift rhymes it with “the bright lights, the merry go,” as if that’s a serviceable shorthand for merry-go-round, and says “sorry for not making you my centerfold,” as if that’s somehow a desirable relationship outcome. The comparison of the bygone affair to “the mall before the internet/ It was the one place to be” is clever but not exactly moving, and Berninger’s lines are worse. Dessner’s droning arrangement does not come to the rescue.
This song is also overrun with metaphors but mostly in an enticing, thematically fitting way, full of good Swiftian dark-fairytale grist. It’s fun to puzzle out gradually the secret that all the images are concealing—an engaged woman being drawn into a clandestine affair. And there are several very good “goddamns.”
The lyrical conceit here is great, about two gold-digging con artists whose lives of scamming are undone by their falling in love. It reminded me of the 1931 pre-Code rom-com Blonde Crazy, in which James Cagney and Joan Blondell act out a very similar storyline. And I mostly like the song, but I can’t help thinking it would come alive more if the music sounded anything like what these self-declared “cowboys” and “villains” might sing. It’s massively melancholy for the story, and Swift needs a far more winningly roguish duet partner than the snoozy Marcus Mumford. It does draw a charge from a couple of fine guitar solos, which I think are played by Justin Vernon (aka Bon Iver, who will return shortly).
The drum machine comes as a refreshing novelty at this point. And while this song is mostly standard Taylor Swift torrents of romantic-conflict wordplay (full of golden gates and pedestals and dropping her swords and breaking her high heel, etc.), the pleasure comes in hearing her look back at all that and shrugging, “Long story short, it was a bad ti-i-ime,” “long story short, it was the wrong guy-uy-uy,” and finally, “long story short, I survived.” She passes along some counsel I’m sure she wishes she’d had back in the days of Reputation: “I wanna tell you not to get lost in these petty things/ Your nemeses will defeat themselves.” It’s a fairly slight song but an earned valedictory address.
Swift fan lore has it that she always sequences the real emotional bombshell as Track 5, but here it is at 13, her lucky number. It’s sung to her grandmother, Marjorie Finlay, who died when Swift was in her early teens, and it manages to be utterly personal—down to the sample of Marjorie singing opera on the outro—and simultaneously utterly evocative to anyone who’s been through such grief. The bridge, full of vivid memories and fierce regrets, is the clincher.
This electroacoustic kiss-off song, loaded up with at least a fistful of gecs if not a full 100 by Dessner and co-producers BJ Burton and James McAlister, seems to be, lyrically, one of Swift’s somewhat tedious public airings of some music-industry grudge (on which, in case you don’t get it, she does not want “closure”), but, sonically, it’s a real ear-cleaner at this point on Evermore. Why she seems to shift into a quasi-British accent for fragments of it is anyone’s guess. But I’m tickled by the line, “I’m fine with my spite and my tears and my beers and my candles.”
I’m torn about the vague imagery and vague music of the first few verses of the album’s final, title track. But when Vernon, in full multitracked upper-register Bon Iver mode, kicks in for the duet in the middle, there’s a jolt of urgency that lands the redemptive ending—whether it’s about a crisis in love or the collective crisis of the pandemic or perhaps a bit of both—and satisfyingly rounds off the album.
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witch-of-ren · 4 years ago
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hi!! I saw your post titled "Hades' library" and was wondering if you've read anymore books with him since then? im a huge book reader and a Hades devotee that's trying to get back onto better devotionals for him since ive been struggling, so I thought I'd share that w him :) is the night circus good? id love more recs, im more into fiction books but anything u got I can try!! tysm
Hi! 
I have not read anymore books with him, or even finished Night Circus. I’ve been struggling to really get into books recently and reading has seemed like a chore rather than something fun for me recently. BUT that doesn’t mean that I don’t have a ton of books to recommend. I got carried away, so they’re under the cut. :P
The Night Circus, for one. It’s very good! Erin Morgenstern is one of my favorite authors and that book is beautifully done. It has magic, mystery, romance...pretty much everything you could ask for. Including POC cast (Tsukiko being one of my favorites) and LGBT characters. “The circus arrives without warning. No announcements precede it. It is simply there, when yesterday it was not.”
Next up...The Starless Sea. Another Erin Morgenstern book. I daresay this was better than The Night Circus. Again, POC cast and LGBT. The main romance is LGBT and done very well. Mystery, magic, witchcraft...it’s got a wonderful plot. I read it all in two days, the majority in one sitting and it felt like coming out of a deep sleep when I was done. One of the tattoos I plan to get is going to be related to that book.  “Strange, isn’t it? To love a book. When the words on the pages become so precious that they feel like part of your own history because they are. It’s nice to finally have someone read stories I know so intimately.”
It’s been awhile since I’ve read it, but Even the Darkest Stars (Heather Fawcett) was a good one. It has a sequel now and I keep meaning to read it. Another fantasy one. Magic, witches, demons, adventures. This is similar to the Grishaverse (Shadow and Bone series/Six of Crows) with its setting and some of the magic, but there’s some solid differences. The ending made me mad but I think it sets up the sequel well.  “I wanted to push against the world and feel it push back.”
The Deep by Rivers Solomon is a short novel, perhaps one would call it a novella. It’s POC centered and it has an intense storyline. LGBT if I remember, too. Gorgeous story about mermaids who descended from African people thrown overboard on slave ships as they came to America.  “What does it mean to be born of the dead? What does it mean to begin?”
While we’re talking about mermaids, here’s my plug for the Waterfire Saga (starting with Deep Blue). It’s actually really good and I adored reading it. I think I read through the whole series in one sitting while I was sick once. “One is not born knowing how to lead, one learns.”
These next few are going to be more in the realistic fiction, young adult fiction genre but there’s a reason for each. A piece of what, personally, working with Hades is supposed to mean and what he can represent in a relationship.
My Fairy Godmother is A Drag Queen (David Clawson). It’s a new take on an old fairytale in a modern age, but the message underlying is to be yourself and be that unapologetically. And that money and fame don’t buy happiness. It’s a humorous book and I really need to read it again. “I just felt like . . . me. And whatever “me” meant, that was perfectly fine and absolutely enough. Everyone should feel that kind of peace and self-acceptance far more often than I think most of us do.”
Starfish by Akemi Dawn Bowman (I’d say any of her books besides Infinity Courts, since that’s a different genre, but there’s two I’d like to talk about in particular). This book features POC cast. I believe Kiko, the protag, is half Japanese and half white? The message here is similar to the one above, but it deals more with breaking away from the trauma added on to expectations or an external force. I saw a lot of my relationship with my step-grandmother in this story and I sent a copy to my cousin. We both learned and grew and healed from this story and the lesson taught.  “I want to find self-worth without needing it to come from someone's approval.”
Summer Bird Blue (Akemi Dawn Bowman). This one is a lot heavier, topic wise. And actually, it’s really fitting for me at the moment. The main character loses her sister and has to figure out life without her. She goes through a period where she loses touch with her music, one of the most important things to her. It’s written partly in Pidgin (a mix of English and Hawaiian) so good luck, but it’s a beautiful story of healing and recovering from losing your other half. “Grief is a monster - not everyone gets out alive, and those who do might only survive in pieces. But it's a monster that can be conquered, with time.”
Broken Things (Lauren Oliver) Murder mystery! Uncovering the truth and laying an old friend to rest. But with drama and healing. It’s told really well and the ending caught me so off guard. I usually can’t read murder mysteries because I always guess the ending and am disappointed when I’m right. Couldn’t have guessed this one.  “That’s the thing about hearts. They don’t get put back together, not really. They just get patched. But the damage is still there.”
Finally...They Both Die at The End (Adam Silvera). Coming to terms with the inevitable end of life. This book follows to characters who know they’re going to die. LGBT romance in here as well. It’s a wild ride of a book and well, the title is completely true. There’s dealing with guilt, regret, anxiety, and other feelings that someone on their deathbed would usually have.  “Maybe it's better to have gotten it right and been happy for one day instead of living a lifetime of wrongs.”
I hope that gives you some ideas! Some of these deal with really heavy topics, so please look into that just to be sure so you’re not caught off guard. 
- Ren
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talkfastromance4 · 5 years ago
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I Will Wait for You--Michael Clifford (Running Back to You Part 2 wwii au)
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Here’s part 2! So sorry it took so long to post, I started  writing it but then changed the dynamic halfway through so this would be Michael’s point of view. I can do a final part in Luke’s perspective and to wrap it up, so please let me know! :)
A/N: “lovie” is reader from Running back to you:)
Running Back to You
Word Count: 2.6k
Warnings: slight trauma from nightmares, not too major, implied smut
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. *copyright is listed below*
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Michael jerked awake. A choked gasp escaped his lips as he took in his surroundings, he could still hear the echo of the bomb that went off in his subconscious, leaving his ears ringing. He blinks as hard as he can, recognizing the shadows of his new apartment he rents then panics when he can’t see through his left eye.
The memories come fast as flashes. The grenade that sent him flying from Luke. Flash. Immense pain that soon disappeared on the left side of his face. Flash. The doctor telling him his eye is gone. Flash. Staring at his reflection in the mirror for hours trying to adjust to the bare, sunken in skin where his eye used to be. Flash. Being half in the light and half in the dark for the rest of his life.
He’s thankful he just lost the eye, he’s thankful every day that he’s still alive but it’s taking him a lot longer to adjust than he thought. Swinging his legs over the edge of his bed, he snatches up his eye patch and slips it over his head. He presses down on the edges making sure it’s secure before pushing off the bed and pushes the curtains open.
It’s almost dawn, the burning orange and brilliant pink sky greet him in good morning over the waves of the ocean. Michael cranes his neck to the right and he can just see Luke’s new house. Guilt creeps up Michael’s neck, he hasn’t spoken to Luke in three weeks. He felt embarrassed to see him and confront him with the truth after they left the train station.
After meeting his girl and new daughter, Michael was desperate to see his own dame, Peg. After assuring Luke that Michael would be fine getting to her house on his own, he was filled with nerves once more. Still in his uniform, Michael stepped heavily on her front porch steps then knocked twice and rang the doorbell.
He twiddled the brim of his hat, breath shaking as he waited for the door to open. There’s a commotion behind it, then he’s looking at Peg. Her golden hair pinned up with a barrette made of pearls, she’s prettier than he remembered. Her eyes widened as she took him in, Michael noticed her gaze linger on his eye patch.
“Hi Peg,” he sighed unsteadily, still twisting his hat, “I’m sorry I didn’t get to write. After the liberation and between my surgery I didn’t have time to write to you.”
“That’s…that’s okay, Michael,” she said quietly still staring at his patch.
“I know it’s a lot to get used to, I’m still getting used to it myself,” he chuckled touching the protruding fabric. “But the rest of me is still here, I’m home. Don’t I deserve a hug?” he was half joking the last bit but after witnessing Luke and his girl embrace so tightly back at the station, it left him in uneasiness that Peg didn’t react the same way.
“Oh…yes,” she said then wrapped him in a loose hug.
Michael could only get a small whiff of her lilac soap before she pulled away too quickly. Something was wrong. Has she already decided not to love him anymore because of his eye?
“I’m sorry—”
“Who’s at the door darling? Dinner’s getting—oh, hello,” a man appeared behind Peg. Tall as Michael but with slicked back black hair and a crisp suit.
Michael understood everything. Why Peg seemed so uncomfortable, why she didn’t jump into his arms like Luke’s girl did. She’d already moved on and left Michael none the wiser.
“I’m Chip, who are you sir? Thank you for your service,” Chip held out his hand, but Michael didn’t take it.
“Why don’t you tell him who I am, Peg?” Michael said in a clipped voice.
“Chip this is Michael, he’s my—he was my—”
“We were seeing each other,” Michael added in, his anger rising over the hurt he was trying to push down. “Clearly I didn’t get the memo it’s over while I was halfway across the world.”
“I thought you were dead,” Peg tried to reason, her eyes filled with tears. Chip stood there awkwardly during the exchange.
“Couldn’t wait to get actual word before you found someone to cure your broken heart?” Michael shook his head and turned from the door. He ignored Peg’s voice begging for him to come back, to let her explain but Michael kept walking.
He’d wanted to go to Luke but after witnessing his perfect reunion with his girl and new baby Alice, Michael felt ashamed. He felt subpar compared to what Luke had and it gnawed at him in the worst way. He read the letters Luke sent but didn’t reply to them. The guilt pressed on, but his nightmares pressed harder.
Michael changed quickly into dark slacks and a buttoned shirt; suddenly his apartment became too suffocating. He walked along the street, breathing in the fresh ocean air until he stopped at The Comfort Diner, his new favorite spot.
He’s thankful for it because it opens early and doesn’t close until extremely late in the evening. So, whenever he can’t sleep because of the nightmares, he finds himself in one of the red chairs at the swirling counter and orders the same thing. A strawberry milkshake and a burger with fries.
One of the waitresses, Cherry, always took his order with a kind smile. He likes Cherry because she never gawked at his eye patch but treated him like any other customer. Michael told her what happened with Peg and she offered her apologies and even called Peg some very rude names for what she did.
She’s also incredibly beautiful.
Michael is shocked and frozen in the entrance when he spots Luke sitting at Michael’s usual place. There’s already food in front of him, and Cherry stands nearby with a book propped open next to the register.
“Hi Michael,” Cherry greets cheerily. She bookmarks her place then skips to where Luke is sitting. “Your buddy here said you’d show up this morning, and he’s right. Can I get ya a coffee?”
Michael’s eye darts between Cherry and Luke, who is also staring back at Michael. His expression is unreadable as Michael shuffles to his chair. He sits down heavily then nods to Cherry. When she disappears behind the kitchen door, Michael glances at Luke.
“I’ve been waiting here since half past four,” Luke says, his finger circling the rim of his own coffee mug. “Cherry and I got to talking because my nightmares leave me awake and she said a fellow soldier frequents here with the same type of nightmares. Funny how it’s my best friend who lives just a few minutes from here and a few blocks from me.”
“Luke, I’m sorry. I—”
“Why didn’t you tell me what happened with Peg?” Luke cuts him off, his eyes piercing Michael’s green. “We fought the same war; we see the same nightmares and we could have helped each other all this time. Lovie told me to give you space, let you cope but after two weeks I didn’t know if I’d see you again.”
“I felt embarrassed,” Michael confesses. “You have the picture-perfect life and I’m damaged and loveless. I didn’t want you to see me as weak.”
Luke rolls his eyes. “You aren’t weak at all, Mike. Don’t disappear on me again, yeah?”
Michael nods and accepts Luke’s pat on the back just as Cherry bristles out with a steaming mug of coffee.
“Milk and sugar’s already in there for ya,” she smiles.
“Thanks Cherry,” Michael sighs and accepts the hot liquid. It helps ease his tangled thoughts; it quiets the buzzing.
Luke watches her skip back to her place at the register, opening her book once more then squints his eyes at Michael.
“What?”
“Cherry’s quite the dish and she clearly thinks you’re good looking as well. Ask her on a date.”
“I don’t think so.”
“Why not? Are you still hung up on Peg? What she did was horrible, you don’t deserve that, and she doesn’t deserve you feeling this way.”
“What nightmares do you see?” Michael asks taking a sip of his coffee while also trying to deter the topic of conversation.
“Everything. The bombs, the towns…that officer’s family,” Luke finishes hollowly. “I wake in a cold sweat every night.”
“I see them too. But I mainly relive the bombs, and when I wake up, I forget my eye is gone. I have to process that loss all over again…do you wake lovie up?”
“Sometimes, but that’s when I’m…screaming,” Luke gulps. “I forget where I am sometimes but when I hear her voice…I know I’m safe.”
“I’m glad she’s your safe space, Luke. And I’m sorry for disappearing, I promise I won’t do that again. Solitude is worse than I thought.”
“It’s the beast in you, yeah?” Luke grins and they’re back to normal. “Come out with me and lovie tonight. There’s a dance club near the boardwalk that always lingers to the beach.”
“I’m not much of a dancer,” Michael shakes his head.
“Neither am I. Hey Cherry, do you like to dance?” Luke calls over. Michael is horrified but Cherry is radiant.
“Sure, I do!”
“Meet us at the Nostalgic Club say about eight o’clock?”
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When Luke and lovie came to retrieve Michael for a night of dancing, Luke made him change into his uniform. Apparently, it was a special night for those who served, a welcome back home soirée.
“Cherry’s one lucky lady,” lovie smiles at Michael when he comes out in his uniform.
The nightclub is already hopping when the three arrive. A jazz band plays loudly and exuberantly onstage while couples are jiving and flipping over each other with the music. There are indeed a lot of men in uniform, and a few ladies as well. The atmosphere is buzzing, and Michael lands his eye on Cherry who’s wearing a pearlescent dress, her hair pinned exquisitely atop her head. She’s breathtaking.
The group cross the dancefloor to a smiling Cherry and Michael feels self-conscious. How is he supposed to dance with her looking like a vision? He’s surprised he didn’t trip over his feet already.
The girls are introduced and soon they all have drinks in their hand, feet tapping to the music. It’s not long after that lovie pulls Luke to the dancefloor, the pair stepping in time with the other couples easily. Michael and Cherry exchange nervous smiles.
“You’re not a dancer, are you?” Cherry asks kindly.
“Not the fast-paced kind, no,” Michael chuckles watching her sip her kiddie cocktail.
“Do you want to head out to the beach? It’s a little stuffy in here,” Cherry scrunches her nose up in an adorable way.
Michael is quick to agree, leading her outside with his hand on the small of her back. Once they reach the beach, they sit on the cemented steps along the perimeter of the sand. Michael sets his hat next to him and Cherry sits a little close, he can smell her perfume. It’s floral and fruity, almost like strawberries.
They sit in silence watching the waves crash upon the shore, the moonlight glittering the spray. The music can still be heard along with laughter and chatter. It’s a comfortable sort of silence.
“Michael?”
“Hm?”
“What happened to your eye? I know I’m prying, but I’ve heard talking about it helps and I’m willing to listen. If you’d like to, that is.”
He looks at her with his good eye, he desperately wishes he could see her without the feeling of being half in darkness. He can tell she’s genuine in her questioning.
“It was a grenade,” he starts quietly, “we were walking in the street of a small town. I have no idea where it came from. All I remember is being flung away from Luke and everything went black. When I came to, everything was…red and black and blurry. My ears were ringing but Luke was talking to me…I think I was running on adrenaline. Sometimes it feels like it’s still there.”
Cherry grabs his hand, lacing their fingers together.
“That’s what my nightmares are about. In my dreams I can still see, then the bomb goes off and I’m back in this weird…dark and light space.”
“How often do you dream of that?”
“Nearly every night,” he sighs, he gives her hand an involuntary squeeze.
They’re silent once more, Michael hopes he hasn’t scared her off. They listen to the big band play, more swing music and then it switches to a softer ballad, one that Michael likes. The familiar trumpet croons into the late summer night, and the lead singer’s voice starts the rendition of Harry James’ ‘It’s Been a Long, Long Time.’ Michael stands to his feet, pulling Cherry up with him.
“This, I can dance to,” he smiles. She returns his smile and fits into the curve of his arms perfectly. They sway in the sand and Michael starts to sing softly in her ear, “it’s been a long, long time haven’t felt like this, my dear since I can’t remember when…”
“You have a lovely voice,” Cherry sighs and hums along with his singing.
The song comes to a close, Michael stares down at Cherry as she stares back at him.
Kiss me once
He leans down and gives her the faintest kiss.
Then kiss me twice
He pulls back and looks at her once more, she gives him a gentle nod, so he kisses her twice.
Then kiss me once again
It’s only a fraction of a second that he pulls back before he presses his lips to hers for good. They kiss and dance under the moonlight until Luke and lovie find them.
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It’s their twelfth date and it’s ended at Michael’s apartment, the record player playing their song as they kiss silently on his couch. Their fingers worked on buttons then Michael hoisted her onto his lap, his fingers slipping beneath the skirt of her dress. Cherry’s fingers scratched up his sideburns and into his hair. When she meets with the strap of his eye patch he freezes.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” she pants removing her hand quickly.
“No, it’s—it’s okay,” he swallows harshly, his green eye focused on her. “Do you…do you want to see what it looks like? It usually starts to hurt around this time, the fabric digs into my skin.”
“Only if you’re comfortable,” she nods leaning back.
Michael lifts his arms and removes the strap from behind his head, then lifts the patch off his face. The skin is sunken in and folded over a little in the center, but the circumference is smooth. Cherry lifts her fingers then pauses midair, eyes shifting to Michael who nods giving her permission. She touches the skin delicately.
It’s plush yet tough at the same time, Michael sighs at her caress.
“What do you think?” he asks.
Cherry looks into his eye then cradles his face in her hands.
“You’re the handsomest soldier I’ve ever seen,” she smiles then attaches her lips to his.
Being vulnerable in front of Cherry filled Michael with a new form of confidence. Soon, both were bare in the most intimate way, their bodies joining as one. Fingers locking and unlocking as pleasure rippled through them. They declared their love at the same time and when the moment of euphoria passed, Cherry kissed the space of skin.
“The beauty fell in love with the beast,” he whispers on her neck and her giggles drift into the night.
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tchaikovskym · 4 years ago
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SUPERNATURAL SPOILERS WARNING (people who don't know nothing about supernatural you can still read this bc without context this is a wild ride)
I did not watch 15 seasons of supernatural not to post my live notes abt the latest episode because I saw that destiel is canon? And there is putin? Will see:
Jack: "I'm sorry." *explodes*
Man I hoped the empty would die and not take cas back ;( I haven't seen the episode but I have. A bad knowledge.
Guess whose back? Back again? It's Jack. It wasn't even 5 minutes. He speedran through his childhood now he is doing the same with his "all Winchesters have been dead" phase
Noooo the hot black wlw gf something bad always happens to the best 😪
Is God like. Trying to torture Winchester closest friends one by one so they spend their last moments in absolute suffering bc God is a psychopath?
I forgot that Bobby is there. But it is the other Bobby so? It is not the same
Wait no?? It is Billy doing the making people disappear thing! Aren't the Winchesters concerned though?? Like hello? How many times have you resurrected? Traveled through universes? Be scared for yourselves?
Billy has a death note (? Never seen it know nothing about it)
Dean is like woohoo aha let's kill death. And I am like,,,, again???
Looks like Jack is finally having existential crisis and it was about time. Like how old is he? 2? 3? And everything that has happened to him?
What is this dramatic music with the (future) boyfriends storming in the bunker oooOooH I always liked power couples
Ah man right I have to be sad about the deaf hot gf too ;(
Charlie I was already gay??? And you just?? Walk?? Breathe?? Man.
Everything jack touches dies??? Interesting.
Why do they always come to deaths office at the letter "W"? Only one entrance? At that weird place?
A human and a fallen angel just comes into death's office and goes like "we kill you aha" and death is like "aha i don't think so"
Dean really has the guts to threaten Billy djdjdjdkdn that's a peak white man behavior
Aahaa it was not Billy! I was right! It is god! All their friends will have their loved ones disappear until it will happen to them themselves because God is a bored whiny good for nothing.
Ah man Donna.
Ahaha of course death is not going to let them kill her djdjsnsjjs what did they think. Idiots.
They are touching 💖 because one of them is dying 🌈 imagine having physical contact with your crush only in times of being close to death djdjdj
Dean having a realization? That develops his character? It took 15 seasons.
Man the set up is really. Like. Reading fan fiction.
The tumblr post that said Castiel's true happiness will be when he is together with Dean i bow down to you
The... romantic 💖🌈🌈💖 music
Did the authors read that tumblr post because it seems like it. They just read multiple i guess.
They def read tumblr posts when writing this. Did their homework at least.
Oh god. Oh good. Cassss. Cas. Man. Dude. Bro. Will they kiss? Or was the destiel is canon because of this speech only?
I love you djjdjd
Kiss your man a goodbye dude? Don't push him away 😢
Well my favorite character just. Died. I guess and never coming back? I watched supernatural mainly because of Castiel? And now he is just gone?
Same dean. Same. Oh my god he is not even answering sam because cas died. Oh god he loved him back. Oh no. Oh nooo. Oh god this is supernatural I thought I wouldn't feel anything about it since season 7ish but here I am.
I still don't get the thing about putin??
In conclusion it is a good thing I completely disconnected from the show in the last few seasons or else I would be crying my eyes out rn. I am still feeling things but yeah. If no one comes back from the dead in future episodes maybe I will even have tears in my eyes.
Also dudes, Dean??? Has gone through so much?? And cas is what makes him cry and not answer to his brother??? Man that is. Cutting deep.
Also also I don't want to be that pessimistic but technically castiel's speech could be seen as non romantic so I feel kind of lied to from spoilers? Don't get me wrong I want it to be a proper confession but they can still squirm through this as no homo. I mean at this point they have had so many "romantic" scenes that lead to nothing? I have been disappointed for so many times I do not want to get my hopes up. And maybe they will leave cas dead so they can have the "we served the gays" while at the same time having "dean is a straight womanizer yeehaw". They will def leave cas dead won't they. I still have some hopes? Maybe God will destroy everything, try creating new things, realize nothing feels right and then bring all the winchesters and their loved ones back because he realized Winchesters were the ones making his existence worthy? Because they are interesting? So he wants to reward them. And then they all live together happy. Dean and Cas get to be pretty boyfriends. Sam and Eileen are together. Maybe sam goes to college even? Jack lives with his 3 dads and meets his mom maybe? Let me dream folks, let me dream. As you can see I am clearly in the first stage of grief.
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