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HAII CAN YOU DO AFTERGLOW HCS WITH A S/O WHOS SUPER CLINGY??
YIPPEE OFC‼️‼️‼️ I CAN FINALLY WRITE FOR MOCA (●♡∀♡)
-ˋˏ s𝗍ᥲᥡ gᥣ᥆ᥕ ˎˊ-
┆Afterglow x clingy!reader headcanons!
-ˋˏWarning┆none!ˎˊ-
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Reader is heavily implied to be fem but pronouns are never mentioned! Ft. Ran, Moca, Himari, Tomoe, and Tsugumi respectively! Not many hcs sorry anon! :( I am so burnt out from all my school work so far help I took 'clingy' in a more physical way, hope that's okay! May be OOC
Not proofread cuz I suck :c
-♯ rᥲᥒ mі𝗍ᥲkᥱ
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ If you're the type of person that follows her everywhere she goes no matter if she's in the toilet or smth, she'd probably tell you to stop-
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ She doesnt really mind you being clingy other than that! If you're physically clingy she'd probably get shy and flustered.
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Absolutely loves the fact that you consider her special enough to cling to the way you and just generally loves going to a lot of places with you!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ I'm almoat positive she'd start to get a bit clingy because of you. Of course she doesnt cling to anyone but you!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Hates it if or when you cling to others. Especially if the other person reciprocates. She'd probably ask you if you could maybe tone it down at the very least if you're just a touchy/clingy person. If you usually don't cling to other people, she gets really mad at you and gives you the silent treatment until you tell her you're sorry :((
-♯ m᥆ᥴᥲ ᥲ᥆ᑲᥲ
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ She's already a clingy person so she'd love having an equally clingy S/O!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Her absolute favorite activity is cuddling in bed under like 500 blankets, watching a show while you guys eat bread.
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ She doesn't follow you everywhere you go but she definitely holds you by the waist whenever she gets the chance.
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ On that last note, I have no idea what it is about Moca in specific but she gives off waist lover? Like- if she has to pull you in, she'd do it by the waist everytime without fail <3
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Moca is probably the least jealous of any of them to be completely honest. I just can't see her getting jealous. She knows you and trusts you wouldn't betray her ^^
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Oddly feel like she lovea kissing your tummy? Whenever you guys cuddle, she asks first ofc pulls your shirt up and kisses just above your tummy. I think it's her cheeky personality that makes me think these things 😞🙏
-♯ һіmᥲrі ᥙᥱһᥲrᥲ
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Another grade A clinger!! She loves hugging you and keeping you as close as she can!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Absolutely hates being away from you! She calls you- not to check on where you are- and practically begs you to come back!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Gives you tons of kisses all over your face! She loves kissing your face more than she does your actual lips-
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Gets jealous when and if your clingy with others, much like Ran. She doesn't get mad at you though! She just gets very noticeably sad :(
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Also a grade A cuddler!! Must hold you in order to fall asleep whenever she's over at your house or whenever your over at hers. She just won't be able to sleep! X((
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ I can imagine you two just hugging eachother really tight in the winter and just bundling up like little cuddle bugs. At that point, you guys are just a ball of warmth and comfort! X3
-♯ 𝗍᥆m᥆ᥱ ᥙძᥲgᥲᥕᥲ
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Doesn't mind it! As long as you don't get in the way of her work of course! She actually likes it! It makes her feel a lot more comfortable to hug you and just be affectionate with you in general.
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Actually really likes holding your hand everywhere and kissing your cheek in public. It may or may not make her fans upset but she doesn't mind because she lobes yes that was intentional you <333
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ I can see her getting jealous as well but she isn't petty about it! If you get clingy with others, you don't ever see her giving you the silent treatment Ran..!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ If you take up any of her jobs just to be near her, she loves it! As long as you actually do your work and let her do hers! If not, she doesn't mind you dropping by to visit whenever she has freetime to spare!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Absolutely the kind of girl to let you cling to her and secretly loves it but never shows it she's literally chill guy.
-♯ 𝗍sᥙgᥙmі һᥲzᥲᥕᥲ
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ GRRRR THE ABSOLUTE SWEETEST GIRL :((((
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ She gets you coffee if you ever come by and let's you cling to her!!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ She gets supersupersuper flustered when you get especially clingy! At least warn her beforehand so she has time to prepare her poor heart!
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ Never really takes the initiative to show her affection but that isn't much of a worry since you wanna be around her so much! But if she's ever feeling particularly clingy, she lets you know by curling a strand of your hair with her finger I AM SO SORRY TO ANY OF MY BALD READERS :(((
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ I feel like she's the type to come up with a melody for her keyboard while you guys cuddle. She needs something to distract her poor self! X(
⋆ ˚🪻 ⁀➴ ꒰ I am positive she's the type of girl to give you very subtle and little kisses whenever you guys hug! She's too scared and nervous to give you full on kisses anywhere -ᴗ-
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Thank you for reading! Reblogs are appreciated! -🪻
#─🫧 bandori/bang dream!#rhythmstage#bandori#bang dream#bang dream girls band party#bang dream gbp#bang dream x reader#afterglow#afterglow x reader#ran mitake#ran mitake x reader#moca aoba#moca aoba x reader#himari uehara#himari uehara x reader#tomoe udagawa#tomoe udagawa x reader#tsugumi hazawa#tsugumi hazawa x reader#request#headcanons#hcs#x reader#author is burnt out#no pronouns mentioned#is my love for moca obvious?
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Progress update
Been a while! I'm dropping the schedule for updates entirely, as it isn't working for me right now. Once i'm in a better spot it'll be back to how it was, but currently i just don't have the mental energy for it. Thanks for being sweethearts about all this
Current update progress:
I've also added progress bars to the directory and the index so that y'all can check how far along i am that was all, byeeee
#im also probably burnt out according to co-author#but like. not with the comic. just in general ahahah#anyway im seeing a doctor about it#because persistent exhaustion is Not Normal lmao
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i need more dyhard fics soooo bad, and yet i am too lazy to write more of them myself
#the magnus protocol#alice dyer#gwendolyn bouchard#gwen bouchard#dyhard#tmagp#tmagp vague#tmp#magnus protocol#i wrote 9 fics in September and got burnt out#ao3 writer#writer#fanfic writer#fanfic authors#archive of our own
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"ill finish it tomorrow" i say as i wrap up my classwork and open my draft for the fic im writing
"....ill finish it tomorrow" i say after closing the doc and opening my sketchbook
#HELPME#i need motivation#so bad#ykw happens after 30 minutes of drawing?#youll never guess#“ill finish this tomorrow” i say putting my dinner in the fridge so i can laydown and sleep#im so burnt out#ao3 author#type shit#procrastination#random#??? ramblings#i bring a “i can do this later” vibe to my projects that my mental health doesnt really like
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fic rec friday 37
hello and welcome to fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.
1. Fade to Black by @yokohogawa
Things between Keith and Lance are changing but Keith is restless, especially with Shiro still weak, and ends up taking a bad decision: he leaves Lance alone in the Castle with a Lion he cannot pilot. Unable to form Voltron without the newly appointed Red Paladin, the four Paladins left struggle against the sudden attack of a Galra ship and later on take damage from the explosion of a star in close proximity. Lance, on the other end, is left to defend the Castle by himself and has little time to succeed: without energy, the Lions have only 6 hours of breathable air. Beyond that point, his friends will be dead.
okay yes technically this series is unfinished. HOWEVER the first two works ARE finished, and they are amazing showstopping incredible etc. tbh im not much of a black paladin lance fan, i genuinely think solo leadership is not what he is suited for, but this fic made me way more open to it. the way he handled severe crises was as fear stricken as it was awe inspiring highly recommend
2. once again i am a child by @lilaclavenders
“You’re not a spare tyre,” Adam interjects. “I know that,” Lance says, too unsure to sound completely defensive. “That almost sounded like a question.” “No... it didn’t,” Lance says.
Lance and Adam talk.
i have always been a fan of lance and adam even tho its the most evidence lacking fanon thing in this fandom. its truly just so interesting. and to have lance as a young cadet getting slammed so badly just in so many different directions being given at least one grownup in his corner...its a good read.
3. Lance the language man by @irish-vampire-blog
Lance didn't really try to learn a language. He just, kind of, picks up the basics and then works from there. Its usually unintentional. Ish.
He isn't stupid though. He isn't an idiot. He just isn't the same kind of smart as his friends are.
this kind of smart for lance is so REAL bc no he cannot do like quantum physics or whatever probably but the way he seems to have a pretty innate ability to successfully do many things that he tries. he just can u know?? thats the autism with the gay audacity i would imagine but i love seeing fics like this
4. my boyfriend's back (and you're gonna get in trouble) by teacupfulofbrains
hey la, hey la, my boyfriend's back
Keith Kogane has never heard of Vine. Lance McClain takes personal offense to this, and makes it his personal mission to teach his boyfriend to meme. Keith is confused, mostly.
(OR: several instances of Keith not getting the meme™ and two times he did)
I LOVE THIS FIC SO BAD I CANT BELIEVE I HAVENT RECCED IT BEFORE. yes i am a cringe zillenial who still finds vine funny and quotes it on the internet but truly idc idc. this fic is funny. this fic is cute. established klance my love and light. also keith comparing lances eyes to the star of bombay is some of the gayest shit ever and also the only time i will entertain blue eyed lance
5. The Most Dangerous Thing is to Love by running_downn
Last time something like this happened to Lance, Keith wasn’t there. He’d thought he would have been able to do something if he had been there, or at least if he was, the guilt wouldn’t be so heavy on his chest. But this time he was there. He was right fucking there and he decided that it was infinitly worse.
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Basically there's a new threat after the Galra and it almost kills Lance. Desperate making out ensues, but it's okay to recognize when it's not the right time for it. Keith cries a lot cause he's older and grizzled and therefore not as emotionally stunted.
green sock reality? team still out fighting as adults and lance isn’t a fucking farmer while the rest of the team isn’t? keith’s abandonment issues treated with respect and dignity and also the acknowledgement that he’s older and therefore mature enough to handle those issues in a way that doesn’t risk a relationship that is important to him? lance understanding all this and using the supportive nature he is known for??? yes yes yes. stellar fic that should have way more hits than it does
that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!
#more than one author this week lol#and sorry it took forever and it’s rushed!!#summers almost ending and i’m burnt out and also wary of change as always#i’ll mellow out soon#vld#voltron#lance#lance mcclain#keith#keith kogane#klance#established klance#bamf lance#black paladin lance#langst#keith angst#klangst#adam & lance#fic rec#fic rec friday#longpost
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Feel free to not answer this if its too invasive but what do you do for work? how do you manage your time to still create such awesome things while working? sorry if this comes off as weird I just want to find a way to work while still having time for my art
hoo boi ok i went into the job field hellbent on getting a more heavy duty job like welding and just do art as i please and preserve my passion for it so i dont get burnt out from an art job, but bröther ive realized the hard way my body just don't have the energy to balance working my ever sweatin ass off all day and Also have the energy to draw. I used to have a factory job building coolers but the management went to pure shit, all my good coworkers got fired or quit, and i was beginning to not trust myself holding a framing gun sOOO as of rn i '''technically''' don't have a job, my patreons payin the bills (and then some praise the lorTTTT) rn plus i got that mural gig that came at the most perfect time but im currently perfecting my craft at tattooing so i can get into that field eventually 🤙 i worked my ass off and drew my ass off for a while but my lack of energy made me crash and burn so i may not be the person to give advice on that AHHAAaa
#like im currently on a tightrope having the time of my life but im just free rangin it#i was determined not to get burnt out on drawing all day from an art job but i realized i literally just want to draw all day#and the fact that i was using all of my energy working at some souless meaningless job and then i barely had the energy to draw#shit got real fucked up in the cranium thats all imma say#it almost feels illegal not having anywhere to go i deadass feel like some authority figure is gunna bust down my door 😭 i lOVE IT#like the amount of lucky circumstances that allowed me to save my own ass from myself is sooo :''')#im so glad i started up that patreon when i did cause boy is it coverin for me#i remember 2 days b4 i quit my team leader was bitching me out again In Front of Everyone makin me feel like a useless dumbass as always an#i thought to myself clear as day im either quitting or killing myself so i plotted out my financial situation and stopped showin up!!!#working at a shitty job that deteriorates your health and will replace you in a second when you die for most of your life man just kill me#all i wanna do with my life is draw n inspire other ppl w my creations bro thats iT#suicide mention
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I got to see Wicked tonight since my mom took me. Man. D.efying Gravity still hits me straight in the gut 😂.
#&&. I've never seen the musical on broadway#&&. never had the chance to#&&. But I did listen to defying gravity A LOT when I graduated high school in 2012#&&. because for reasons I won't delve into#&&. just know a close family member who I got betrayed by thought my art would NEVER amount to anything before they left#&&. once upon a time I used to practice art using pure spite and I listened to that song religiously to remind me that their words won't#&&. hold me down#&&. I've long lost the need to practice out of spite since that burnt me out around 2017 haha#&&. Thankfully I've figured out how to improve without that negativity and it's done me a whole lot of good#&&. but man that song hits me every time it plays a huge role in me starting out as an artist haha#&&. the author speaks ( ooc )
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seeking currency chapter 29 mood
(contains SPOILERS!)
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#ff: seeking currency#au: TheWorldIsEnding_AndImLateForWork#shuggy#shanks x buggy#i know i did say i want to post my reaction on the chapter but i explain feelings more with memes#also im burnt out of writing for the day bc i already wrote my heart out in the ao3 comments#which you should!! authors want to know how much they broke you. not an author but i imagine they would#i still might write my reactions out. who knows...#but for now have memes. because i need to cope somehow.#and expect me to react to fanfic chapters this way too. i either meme or am crying over the comments and/or analysis#one piece#seeking currency#TheWorldIsEnding_AndImLateForWork
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I'm so bad at actually remembering to recommend fics I like, but I was just reminded of "You And Me Were Built for Violence" and I wanted to take a moment and recommend it to folks if they haven't had a chance to take a look at it yet! It's a Fuga Impossivel + 2b2t crossover fic where Tazercraft are washed up on 2b2t shortly after their escape from Alcatraz and are found by none other than FitMC. It's got some great Fit/Pac content and some really good Tazercraft content. 10/10 fic! There's only two chapters so far, but they're both very satisfying and well written.
#i talk#fic recs#qsmp talk#I've got a ton of fics I need to recommend ahhhhhhhhh#I'm so burnt out I used to be so good at leaving giant paragraphs of comments on people's fics and making giant lists of fanfic recs#:(#ah well#anyways the author is on tumblr @ wsdanon if you'd like to follow them!#they just posted a bit about the fic and I was like OH YEAH I haven't recommended that yet#I'm sure most people in the Hideduo community have read it by now but if you haven't. you should#I like that Pac AND Mike were both stranded#I know a lot of people focus on ''what if Pac was stranded on 2b2t???'' but no. Tazercraft are a package. Do not separate them and all that#pftt#very well written Tazercraft (and Fit too ofc)#speaking of Fit - I'm taking some notes from his Egg event VOD because there are a lot of interesting tidbits in there#and I think folks will enjoy it as much as I am
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#editing an article for work that is about choosing a career and it's like#'try to pick something that aligns with your passions and strengths and that you find fulfilling!'#in esta economia??? okay. i just sort of like. wound up in my career#i do love to write. but i rarely write about things that are 'fulfilling'. i write for seo. i write what algorithms want.#if i wrote about what i found fulfilling i'd be going on about dolls. and lesbianism. and like. crafts. or at LEAST food.#or i'd be a published author. but i don't think i can ever be that. for various reasons.#and anyway. in this role i don't write at all i mostly just edit#which does involve SOME writing but ykwim#a fulfilling career simply will not pay my bills.#i think i'm just very burnt out right now#work is not fulfilling. work is just. what you must do to survive
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I was wondering if you'd be willing to offer free content in the near future on Patreon/Tumblr. I know you've mentioned Tumblr is a bit overwhelming. And that's totally understandable. This isn't a critique or anything. I used to support every month but the few content updates are always posted for paid members. I was hoping (I'm sure i'm not the only one) To get some free updates here and there. I hope you're doing okay regardless. Have a good day.
I totally get where you're coming from, and I hope you know where I'm at too-- currently I'm working two jobs, searching for an apartment and getting through a separation that for all intents and purposes is just like a divorce with its own legal processes and emotional turmoil. In Sweden you don't have to get married to be in a legal relationship. Anyway, I am also just now getting back into ouro development and the Patreon has been for people who want to support me during this transition, it's completely voluntary! If not for Patreon, I would declare a hiatus, so I hope you understand that I update patreons as a thank you for their help. If I gave those updates to everyone, what would be the point? Besides that, I don't want to share my innermost feelings and my personal journey in public but keep it with those that are in the inner circle of my dev journey. But! I will resume public posting as soon as the new public demo is out! And answer asks and engage with the crowd once again, rest assured<3
#ouroboros-if#interactive fiction#its just a weird time anon. im not sure what you mean about free content as the benefits of patreon is ofc there for patreons#but there is a free story over there with idren already#and the demo is free#if someone is paying me for something I can't just invalidate that by posting it for everyone you know? there is no fairness in that#but i hear you on that i have been quiet for a time. it's just how i am as a person and im honestly done trying to change my personality to#please the public. it only got me burnt out in the first place. so sorry if i can't be that author for you! but there are PLENTY of other#authors out there that love being public :) <3
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why do i like break-up AU’s, you ask? WELL, child, it’s because i relish the fact that i can hurt someone so bad, fuck things up so much, and there’s still a chance that they still want me. that i can be haunted by them, broken by them; haunt them and break them. and there’s still a happy ending.
#writeblr#vent#light academia#poemblr#chaotic academia#dark academia#poetry#quotes#burnt out#aesthetic#ao3 fanfic#writers of ao3#ao3 writer#ao3 author#ao3#ao3fic#fanfics#readers
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selfship AU prompt:
imagine your f/o has a fanfic series they’re dedicated to finishing, but life* gets in the way.
* the trials and tribulations of the canon and/or your plot with them
once they get to a safe place to update their fic, what would their Author’s Note be like?
#thirsty ramblings#selfship prompt#selfship imagines#this is a riff on the meme of AO3 authors having wild update notes#ie sorry I haven’t finished this fic my house got burnt down and I found out I was being carbon monoxide poisoned
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it's not as much as other ppl but if i read 5 more books before the end of the year then i'll hit 30 for the year
#i do this thing where i'll read like 3-5 books in a row SUPER fast and that fucks me up and makes me not read for months at a time#my storygraph graph is fuckin wild#i just started another book after reading two in a day (one was less than 100 pages)#(i've read 14 books in oct/nov alone)#im reading all the same author bc god she has a large catalogue and while most of them are like. 7 outta tens#they're easy reads#i think after i finish this one tho im gonna go back to the series i got burnt out on but loved earlier this year#tho there's a handful of books i'd kill to read that aren't on the libby for the three libraries im apart of sadge
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...well, sweet princess aside from the severe degree of burnout it's obvious pretty much every author is feeling toward the end of this initiative but that's neither here nor there nor specifically a high republic problem
#light and life#star dorks#sw negativity#idk I know I joke about being impatient for new stuff but I would have been fine with a slower pace#is that best for the writers—having that take even more of their time? idk#but there's one confirming a departure from star wars and others hinting similarly or scaling back#(now granted I do support them going full-bore on personal non-IP projects)#that plus the cancellation of the acolyte and. well!#granted it seems like a labor of love for a lot of people involved#but definitely labor#though to add to my point in the op while crunching is (sadly) an industry standard#these are all authors who were familiar with IP work and were hired for that reason#and I think it's the fact that none of them are spring chickens and still feeling this is what's getting to me#I think many of us have been burnt out with work. it frankly sucks.
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An internal monologue written in Fyodor Dostoevsky’s style in Crime and Punishment based on the satirical article A Modest Proposal written by Jonathan Swift.
Enjoy. I know i’ve been MIA because of classes so here’s some creative writing I did for one of my classes.
Maeve sat alone in that dim room, the air thick weighed down by the decisions she had yet to make. The cracked mirror opposite her reflected fragments of her face---the dark circles framing her tortured eyes, her trembling mouth, lips pressed together in dismay. A modest proposal, indeed. The words echoed, taunting her.
It had begun as an idea, a dreadful little seed planted deep in her skull---a solution, a thought too despicable to be uttered out loud. Yet there it was, flowing through her veins, a secret she was too ashamed to carry yet too weak to release. Why not? the voice hissed, sly and serpent like---surely not her own. Why not Maeve? Is it not practical? Is it not, in its grotesque way, just?
“No,” she herself hissed aloud, clutching her temples as if she could crush the thought itself. “No, no, no. This is madness. It’s monstrous. What kind of mother would even---”
But the voice interrupted, unrelenting. A practical one. A mother who sees the world as it is, not as she wants it to be. You think that they have not already taken them? ---May it not be physically--- They’ve taken their futures, their dignity, their worth. All for their own gain. Now, all you’d be doing is formalizing what is already done. Making them part of the system. Turning them into a resource.
A resource. Maeve's stomach turned at the word, but she couldn’t deny the truth of it. He was already truly nothing more than a resource in the eyes of the elite. What did it matter if she surrendered him willingly, offered him up like lambs to the slaughter? Perhaps, in some twisted way, it was better to hand him over herself than to watch the world take him piece by piece. Repaying her debts through labor, whatever it may be. Surely, surely this must be the choice she should make. One must be better than the other.
And yet… how could she look into his eyes again? How could she face the wide-eyed innocence of her own child, knowing she had bargained away his very life. Her breath came in shallow gasps as the weight of her thoughts pressed down on her, suffocating and inescapable.
“Am I not his mother?” she whispered breathlessly. She staggered to her feet, pacing the dark and narrow room. “Perhaps,” she muttered bitterly, her lips curling into a sad smile “perhaps this is the only justice left. To offer my child to the wolves, so that I may survive the pack.”
But even as the thought crossed her mind she knew it was a lie. There would be no survival, there would be no redemption. Only the crushing weight of guilt, the everlasting torment of knowing she had betrayed the only good thing she had ever created. Maeve sank back into her chair, staring blankly into the cracked mirror.
The reflection mocked her, fractured, broken, a woman split in two. A reflection she no longer recognized as her own. In her mind, the proposal lingered. She thought of her child sleeping soundly in the next room, unaware of the storm raging in his mothers soul.
And Maeve wondered, for the first time, if the true monster was not the proposal itself, but the woman who could imagine it.
ⓒ onehopelessromantic, December 2024
#onehoplessromantic#whoops i’ve kinda been mia#crime and punishment#fyodor dostoevsky#a modest proposal#school#i’m burnt out#creative writing#monologue#author
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