#augh i will never get over them
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until forever
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picture: faces of two lovers, Nicky and Joe, rendered in blue, green, and orange. they look into each other’s eyes, sharing a tender moment together. Nicky wears a hat over short straight hair; Joe has short curly hair.
#joe x nicky#immortal husbands#nicolo di genova#nicolo di genoa#yusuf al kaysani#joe al kaysani#augh i will never get over them
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redrawing my favorite gba chain of memories scenes with my own interpretations part 1(?):
“You’re thinking about me… You’re afraid of the darkness I command.”
#beep boop you want fries with that#kingdom hearts#riku#ansem#GBA CHAIN OF MEMORIES IS SO GOOD. please play it over the remake im begging. it also plays a lot better too.#every ansem scene is better in gba com because i dont have to listen to richard epcar attempt to be intimidating#they altered so many scenes in the remake and a lot of the changes suck !! just straight up !! i will never forgive them for changing#this scene and the previous lexaeus scenes. like why did they have riku get possessed for a second only for the next cutscene to#literally be about riku trying not to get possessed. like that makes no sense. its just cheap shock value and just treating lexaeus#like shit. at least he mentioned zexion. ok if i knew how to do rom hacks i could literally change the dialogue myself to mention zexion.#ok sorry for complaining. uhhh#the composition is clearly ripped off from the owl house. sorry. season 1 belos scene.#and the background is just the original gba bg of the scene but blurred to look less pixelated#sorry the anatomy sucks. i know rikus arms shouldnt be that long but too late. kms.#this scene is so good because augh. this is the first time in this game we come face to face with the real ansem. not just diz pretending#to be him to just shove down ‘darkness bad’ down his throat. this is why mickey comes to save him in this scene. because riku is in#real danger here. thats also the reason why mickey sends his power again when riku is being dangled like a puppet BECAUSE ANSEM WAS THERE#FOR REAL THIS TIME. anyway yeah i know ansem’s sprite doesn’t appear when he says that but the portrait is a silhouette so i went#weh. why not !!#anyway im obsessed w/ cryptid ansem. ghost inhabitanting a fallen kingdom. continuing the fucked up experiments like if they never stopped#OK IVE ALREADY RAMBLED ENOUGH AND THIS SHIT IS GOING INTO RE:KH TERRITORY. (hunter voice) BYEEEEEEE
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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)
#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper#Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed#with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi#all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement#english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS#where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to#like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect#score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol#I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret#meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you#get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized#speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea#ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different#ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one#liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate#in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since#I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small#character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility#question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju#t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually#is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so#is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i#2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have#SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and#talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem#harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically#just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl#in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for#Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol
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having had a hyperfixation on what we're studying in class is Such a bizarre sensation. like yes i could listen to you just talking generally about this for hours and not get bored. i know this better than anyone but there is also so much left to learn. i am vibrating in my seat bc you mentioned themes of loss in a really smart way.
#also hem twelfth night ur arrangements are literally SO GORGEOUS!!!!!! i want to eat them.....#never Quite realized that we never actually get viola back in the world of the play......absolutely should have before this but#viola loses viola and viola loses cesario..... augh#unfortunately this prof also didn't think that orsino's speech was misogynistic. but that's bc she is so so right about some things and so#- INCREDIBLY wrong about others oh my god.#okay i'm typing this post instead of writing my paper on it. but i'm tired and idk how to answer this question.......#elinor fuchs girl i think ur everything but can you phrase this a little clearer.....#i Am gonna be listening to His version over the weekend like. very soon#twelfth night#ted talks
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i wanna draw freelatta. i need to draw freelatta. oh my GOD THEY MAKE ME SO SICK.
i need some sort of outlet for this freelatta craze and blowing them up isn't enough im talking full on nuclear warfare time
#frenreylatta is also good#buuuuut#i need them. theyre so.#THEY DEPENDO N EAHC OTHER. THEY HELP EACH OTHER. AND I NEED MORE M. MORE CONTRENT#WITH THAT#LIKE#NON GAME AUS TOMMY AND GORDON COULD TOTALLY WORK TOGETHER AN. THEYRE IN THE SAME SECTOR SOMEOnES GOTTA GET ON THIS#even then he was the only one that never strayed. i love all the other guysy i really do#and i know it wasnt a proper betrayal and theyre sitll freinds!! like yeahh yeah i know!#but tommy... walking with gordon#and keeping him put together while hes stressed tf out#AUGH#talks from the grave#ded freaks out over 20 year old polygons again#freelatta
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omfg chara is the funniest mother fucker in the whole room. i never realized just how badly i need chara and asriel on good terms content where they just joke around. like, oh my god, they're besties!
like we do get snippits of it in the comic but the plot is always barreling down at full speed so we just don't have time for them to be silly. happy to say the redraw absolutely fixes this.
#really really wanna show off their friendship and love past just play fighting and and heartfelt conversations#let them be goof balls! not everything has to be plot focused!#and i do think having frisk chara and toriel seprated from asgore and asriel makes the most sense#the story serves to break down the AU concept and the “happy ever” notion that western media loves#like it wouldn't be simple and being alive is SO messy esp when trauma hits you as hard as they have had it#so breaking the two up esp over a “fight” sets up the larger plot line but the two can get over it and its fine. totally fine#until christmas when chara realizes they never apologiezed and its left a giant stain on their relationship and asriel feels its too late#to mend it. because they feel isolated and othered by their family and their secrets#AUGH WRITING AM I RIGHT AUGHGHG
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(venting in the tags ignore this lol)
#minhmy.rambles#(i just need to shout this somewhere where my friends don't see so they don't worry too much about me)#but oh my god work just got worse for this week im already working every day but tomorrow (aka in six and a half hours)#i will start at 5am and end at 9pm aka a double shift bc my coworker tested positive and there's no one else that can work#just for tomorrow but the rest of the week ill be working 1-9#which i hate even though im used to it night shifts are just boringgggg and takes up a lot of my time#which i already have so little of#my mom said i should clean my closet and i was going to tomorrow bc i wanted to play grandfest today but now i cant do that#bc ill literally be at work all day lol#and god its just so hard its so so hard but it could be worse. it literally could be worse#i cant be here as much anymore bc im so busy and tired i just draw when i can and drop them all here and leave#and i miss writing a lot but i have even less time and even less motivation and the more i work the more awful i feel#and i don't want to worry anyone like . i just don't#but its so difficult for me it really is#theres so many things i want to do but i cant do any of it and im so tired im literally so tired#like im not gonna end my life kinda tired i have a lot to look forward to. but work just really sucks and i am Tired#and i Like my job its literally the easiest and ill never have something like this again#but urghghghh. urggfhhghgh. death pain and suffering#if i draw more sif and loop suffering lol. this is why. i need to get the emotions out somehow and i don't want to cry over it#i cant cry bc i need to work i just have to keep my head up i just have to keep at it i just have to be strong and not break#i can do it i can.. i know i can i've been through worse#its just. augh.#ok done. sorry i rly rly should sleep soon bc of my 16 hour shift tmrw lol its past 10:30pm already
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screaming sobbing crying internally because I still think about people i used to be friends with who, in hindsight, helped me grow into who I am today, who saw this unsocialised shaking anxious chihuahua of a chubby insecure utterly dysfunctional teen and wanted to spend time with me and teach me social skills anyway, who literally taught me to stand up for myself and got me comfortable with positive human interaction and physical touch after years of physical and verbal and emotional abuse, giving me some of the first hugs and headpats and cuddles i had recieved in years at the time. I wanna reconnect, and see what they've been up to, how they have grown and evolved over the years we've not spoken or seen each other, wanna tell them how much I appreciate all they've done for me, apologise for not being able to fully appreciate or reciprocate in the moment years ago because I was still growing and learning and in the thick of mental illness and trauma, try to give it all back tenfold because THEY DESERVE TO BE SHOWERED IN LOVE AND APPRECIATION!!!!!!!!!!!
#i already tried reaching out leaving them the option to reply if they feel comfortable#but it has been A While and i have not gotten anything back yet#i probably never will and i gotta be okay with it#BUT STILL!!!!!!!! (pointing at the wall of text above)#i sometimes just. think about them. and i get the most complicated mix of Big Emotions over it all.......#either way. i really hope they're doing okay wherever they are and whatever they're doing with their life now#just. sending my love and appreciation out to them mentally and hoping it reaches them somehow#i really do not want to annoy them by trying to reach out again after they haven't replied to my first attempt augh#anyway. feels of the night. had to get them out
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i must be the only (kind of) unironic aldella shipper in this entire fandom.
(ranting in the tags)
#kotlc#kotlc aldella#kotlc vackers#kotlc della#kotlc alden#alden vacker#della vacker#aldella#does it matter that i kinda headcanon them to be slightly toxic? no no it does not thanks for asking#they could be so interesting if their relationship was explored more in-depth#and i am NOT saying it's shannon's fault that it hasn't been explored btw i am NOT blaming shannon#obviously since the story is told through sophie's eyes we only get what she sees but augh i want more#hanging my hopes on that short story collection shannon claims she'll write after the series is over#i want more of them from THEIR perspective#just! the lack of trust! the regret! the performative (imo) relationship! the strangely idealistic marriage! the emphasis on beauty!#and! the stiffness around each other! going through the motions! doing their part in the relationship but something feels off!#it's so good i need more i need them to be more fucked up i need them to be more toxic#but in the end they still love each other (or at least they think they do) but it's . . . warped (maybe they really DO love each other?)#the perfect marriage with the perfect children in the perfect family . . . will the facade last . . . and is it really even a facade#just#THEM#they need to be head over heels for each other and yet it's performative at the same time do you see the vision tell me you see the vision#they each NEED to have a side the other has never seen and nobody else has ever seen and they are each terrified of it#and don't want the other to know#because then they'll be less perfect but in reality telling each other would make them stronger do you see what i see#the two-faced-ness would make them more fucked up and less fucked up all at once because they are scared of it but it brings them closer#*shakes you* DO YOU UNDERSTAND TELL ME YOU UNDERSTAND#anyway#*scoots away from you* totally normal about aldella nothing going on here nope no siree
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please excuse the weird amount of blank space but tumblr's image cropping is conspiring against me
ANYWAYS YAY WOMEN - silly Plumes sketches bc I haven't drawn her very much and she's such a cool character !!! i was originally just going to do a couple headshots but then i just ... kept going w the first LOL
junebug would be super intimidated by her at first, but slowly over time they'd be able to be more normal around her LOL I don't think they ever get over their intimidation and awe entirely but that's alright fhdsgjkl
#she's just so confident and talented fdsfjkl she's incredibly skilled as a trainer... i would be so nervous around her HDFSJKL#there were a couple ppl who remind me a bit of Plumes in highschool and i was so intimidated by both#and never really fully got over the intimidation even though i became good friends w them for the time we were in school together#i just get intimidated by ppl easily fdsjkl i have a friend nowadays that im still intimidated by even though she's SO goofy fdsjkl#but she's also SO talented and smart. augh. ppl are so cool idk#im a little wurmple and these ppl have all been super cool legendary types smh /silly#dandy.cmd#doodlebug.png#junebug 🪲
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It Will Come Back by Hozier reminds me so much. of that one au, with thieving sneaky Killer busting into and stealing from fancy people at Rich Himbo Cross’s fancy people party
like. hell yeah
the idea ive come up with in my head is that killer is like, a street-living fella who swiped some fancy-passing clothes from a clothesline on an upperclass house’s balcony and periodically goes around taking from places that are rich and panhandling and shit and like
i keep picturing cross dressing in some lower class style clothes and going out with killer on dates in the Fun Parts of Town, where rich folk like him can’t go because they will get jumped and killed or just get tricked or something because they don’t know the culture in these streets well enough and like cross is like.
“so is there any particularly cool spots?”
and killer goes to be like, “oh well there’s a fight club in the market warehouse”
and cross is like “no, no, i mean like.” he points at the trees that can be seen over the houses and stuff and he’s like “in there?”
and killer takes him to a big water hole, and he’s like “ight rich boy, you gotta be careful, the tree rootsstick up from the ground-“
and cross, already really fucking giddy, has thrown his shirt off and he’s sprinting past and just leaping into the water and killer is like, taken aback for a moment and then cross comes back up and holds up a rock he hit his head on at the bottom of the lake thing and he’s got a big goofy grin and he’s like “A ROCK :D!!!!”
and then he spits out some mud and idk killer would lowkey be like, amused at it? cuz he had this idea that cross was a rich dude who’d spent his life in safety or something and never really had a taste of nature, so he thought cross would be hesitant at best, so to him, cross looks really out of place
and cross is like, bored of waiting, so he like, ducks into the water and scoops up the mushy swampy mud and hurls it at killer’s face and anyways im loving the idea of them goofing off in critter infested waters (cross totally gets snipped by a small mollusk or crustacean)
also, they’d totally use the vines that stretch around to swing into the water and climb them and shit
and then the rock cross found ends up like, being one of his decorations at his fancy house
so like imagine you go in a nice nice house, marble floors, chandeliers etc, and then there’s just an ugly ass rock with moss on it and it smells of dirt and it’s like, one of cross’s prized possessions and no one but him and killer understand why and i just love the idea lmfao
also, alternatively, cross has to go to some meeting and he shows up and one of the fellow rich dudes is like. “sir. is that. is that mud.” and there’s a smear on his forehead and he’s like “…it’s uhm. a birthmark.”
anyways ive been doing much think (literally made this all up as i went) on this au
OHHHH FUCKING ABSOLUTELY DUDE I LOVE THAT SO MUCH WAIT
Godddd absolutely. Absolutely
Augh I love that AU I really should write more for it
ALSO ALSO. about the lyrics and song and all that. YEAH. IT IS ITS SO THAT AU very real so true
#Answering asks#Augh. Shaking you shaking you sha#chair asks#chair!!#Those versions of them are so silly I love them immensely#I love the rich boy and street thief thing so much dude like#there’s so much you can do with it#especially with Cross and Killer specifically#mostly I always find myself gravitating back to the. Killer getting Cross to get out of his safe pampered wealthy mindset or comfort zone o#whatever y’know#getting him to be all goofy in a river somewhere. Which he definitely wouldn’t do on his own time if Killer hadn’t taken him out#to the less regal bits of town#Or like. Entirely sidetracking here#Killer throwing rocks at Cross’s window one night#and like Cross goes over and Killer just grins up at him#and Cross rushes down to him and they go running around town together. Stumbling upon street fights and underground markets#and things Cross’s never really seen before and he like learns things about this city he’s in#and idk.#really rambling here good lord#I just. Think they’re neat
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me when i see someone make the most insufferable tt post absolutely bashing 2012 for no fucking reason other than the fact that they want rise to be good but they don’t understand that multiple iterations can all be good. all of it can be good. saying multiple things are good don’t make you favorite thing bad. please.
#rise can be good without other iterations being bad#for reference the post was smth like#‘Rise leo watching all of 2012 be bad at each others weapons’#and its just RTHGHGCGSG THAT IS A FUCKING SEASON ONE EPISODE#AND ALL their WEAPONS are WILDLY DIFFERENT IN TERMS OF RANGE AND TECHNIQUE?#Obviously they won’t have mastery over them immediately#Because they aren’t supposed to start out perfect at everything!!#Worst part is this also comes up in rise when they get their asses kicked in the premiere!#And that’s with the weapons they’ve presumably trained with all their lives#just augh. Rise is good without all other iterations being bad#Plus they’re wildly different in terms of formatting aswell#Rise is so episodic and we almost never see them doing actual weapon training#because that’s not the tone of the show; it’s supposed to be spontaneous and fun#In 12 we DO See a lot of training because it fits the show’s aesthetic#And establishes character arcs or relationships#gughghghg#I can try and elaborate on this tomorrow#Or like in august
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anyone have anything about the resistance they wanna share in my inbox
#i know the answer is no but AUGH#im having Thoughts but i cant get them into words and it's aggravating me each time i try to type it lol#im sooooooooo normal about the new lore that dante had no choice in this war#he never believed that. he never believed anything. he did what he was told#maybe he did believe that stuff to some degree but he was never told there was another option#the resistance probably did surprise him. why would anyone dare oppose shen? oppose ME?#do you think he could have been a better person if he had been saved from all that before the resistance#or do you think he was just as messed up in the rift#i like to think there was hope for him in some reality out there#jhksdgnsdglsdl..... i need to beam my thoughts directly into someone's head#ark get over here im having a moment we need to be in a 7 hour discord call#chat#sorry (not sorry) for the sudden activity after not posting much the past few days#im pretty much immobile today so i have nothing else to do#and i cant sit at my desk so no games either. hurts too much :/#i already said all that but im saying it again bc if i stop typing i will explode
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swear to god if i open a fanfic ONE MORE TIME only to be greeted with an author's note saying "i asked chatgpt to tell me a story about-" i am going to go fucking NUCLEAR
#it's NEVER tagged!!!#i am so sick and FUCKING tired of hearing about chat bot shit. it's irresponsible tech that is only gonna help spread misinformation#/be used as a tool by corporate America to crank out shitty computer generated content#bc anything is better than having to hire people and pay them what they're worth am i right guys!#my job won't shut up about chatgpt i don't wanna have to see this shit on AO3 dot gov! please! is anything sacred!#I've already started running into endless variations of the same regurgitated paraphrased clearly AI-written garbage misinformation article#half of the time whenever i try to google something! i just keep getting AI generated garbage instead of any actual helpful information#side note: is Google like... super fucking broken for anyone else in terms of 'i can't find any useful information about anything anymore'?#or is it just me?#but AUGH. tech bros will be our downfall i swear to god#keep the AI shit out of art and creative endeavors it's a slippery slope and it's not leading anywhere good#this is fucking nfts all over again#or at LEAST if you're gonna be posting chat gpt prompts to ao3 fucking TAG THEM AS SUCH#I'm at the point where i hear someone say AI or chatgpt in an excited tone of voice#and i just consider it an immediate red flag#I'll delete this later it's unnecessarily cunty and i realize that but my GOD im sick of it#is it not enough that all of these writing bots are training on ao3 fics without the authors consent or permission?#now we have to encourage it by putting AI shit on there to begin with?
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my phone isabout to die but i need to complain abt how people draw martin tma RIGH NTOW
#LISTEN LISTEN TO ME. HE IS NOT WHITE & BLOND/GINGER HE DOES NOT HAVE CIRCLE GLASSES OR WEAR WOOL VESTS DO YOUUNDERSTAND.#no one gets me & my polish/filipino martin hc it is so sad#i do love that he is usually drawn tall & fat but he does not look like a BABY AUGH#plesaaase give that man some eyebags and stubble and acne scars esp in s5 i am on my hsnds and knees crying#makes me annoyed how people see a guy who is sweet and a lil clumsy and turn him into the image of british innocence . do u know what imean#he isn’t a child he isn’t a doormat he’s a whole grown man and it’s awesome#and jon . it bores me the way ppl give him gaunt or chiseled features n a sharp jawline like . he is the definition of average .#n the fancy clothes ? please he is so painfully uncharismatic at work he wouldnt even have a cool tie. he’d have piercings tho that is true#andthe way people make him ambiguously brown .. i wish people took more care to accurately draw ethnic features#or at least figure out what ones they’re trying to represent#face shape variation is really really cool if u pay attention to it !!#also my personal propaganda is jon is hoh in the right ear & wore a (gray) hearing aid and had super generic glasses pre-coma BTW#i should draw season lineups for them i love them so much#i just have to figure out how long jon’s hair is😢that’s something i have 0 thoughts on😭#WAIT ALSO. u know how people draw martin’s hair turning white during the Lonely segment. i don’t get why they don’t just give him vitiligo#it makes perfect sense to me and it would be so swag awesome but i’ve never seen anyone draw it but me .. falls over#talking tag
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if I had the attention span I would play every nancy drew game
#smudgy.txt#ive had this thought since i was a teen ive never gotten over those games despite knowing very little abt the series#just smth abt the way the older games look & feel has me hooked#& theyre so cheap on steam too.... augh...........#i wish i didnt ask my brother to get me the syberia games id trade them all for nancy drew.........#dont get me wrong i loved syberia 2 for the aesthetic alone but it looks like the later games move completely from that style & its got me#salty. like i thought the silent hill camera was weird but they made it So Much Worse in 3. & im scared 4 wont be much better#plus everything is so smooth now..... i miss the crunchyness of older games...........
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