#at my roots i am such a lesbian
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#i am decidedly not over it#had myself convinced there for a solid few days#but we've been spending more time together and it's hard not to notice#the feelingstm#and i'm trying to be a normal human around her like we were in a group and i participated and talked and stuff#but i'm still a homo#at my roots i am such a lesbian#and by default#i am a fucking disaster#y'all don't understand they're so pretty#to everyone who likes these posts i hope you enjoy a useless lesbian useless lesbianing#i hope its entertaining or cathartic or something#this is MY blog if i wanna be gay and useless i can damnw ell do it!#it's so early to be typing like these sweet jesus
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As I grow older and realize what it means to be a woman, I've begun to mourn the possibility of a "traditional" life. I mourn the fact that I will never be able to create a child with someone Im in love with, because, no matter how hard I've tried, I cannot love a man. I mourn the fact that I cannot give a woman a child, not in the way I want. And I've grown and accepted this fact and for the most part I've loved being a lesbian. But as I grow older and realize how important family is, how sacred and beautiful childbirth is, and what it truly means to *create* a child with someone you love, I want to scream at the universe at how unfair it is that I'll never be able to experience that. And logically I know that families can be created in many different and beautiful ways. I'm old enough to begin to understand the beauty of a family, but too young to truly understand the multiple ways one can be created. Perhaps I can't understand simply because I've never seen any other way in my immediate life. I hate how so many women feel their worth is equated to their ability to give birth, and I hate how I've fallen victim to it - is this just universal womanhood?
#wlw#wlw post#lesbian#lesbian problems#being 19 is hard#i dreamed my straight who im lowkey in love w had a baby and now im spiraling bc i want to be able to provide that experience#perhaps the deep rooted southern-Baptist-internalized-homophobia i experienced as a child and early teen never truly left#woman#womanhood#sapphic yearning#lesbianism#sapphic#obviously womanhood is not the excluded to the womb/uterus but weve been so conditioned that it is and unfortunately i am ia victim to this
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omg happy phlesbian day y'all
#i may not id as a lesbian anymore but i am rooting for you always#im sorry im so gone blame the hurricane#currently shaking in my boots#ks talks
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hot blonde woman on bb who i thought maybe this time the hot blonde woman will not flop on me & will be a good player i was soooooo hopeful of course she immediately aligns w the ppl who i do not like & is having group delusions w them abt how they’re the best players in the house when they have no power at all omg i am doomed w these blonde women legit just texted my friend that i will never trust a hot blonde woman on bb again i am DONE…..look at the world’s saddest progression of texts between thursday night & last night 😩
#michelle speaks#let me explain my deep rooted logic to u. see i am very attracted to blonde women it’s my curse#so i would like them to stay for longer so i can stare at them bc they r beautiful#however if they r playing a game i do not like i want them gone which must battle w my lesbianism#yes there are other hot women for me to appreciate. but this is just abt the blondes in particular 😩#i have my other women……..i just want to catch these blonde women like pokemon idk. but it’s like u see her stats & ur like oh. nvm.#idk ive only ever played pokemon go i’m assuming that makes sense as a statement. i’m also very tired#bc i did not sleep a lot last night bc i was watching feeds & i have been trying not to fall asleep since like 6pm#so i will go to sleep now perhaps but i will remain angry that i have witnessed another blonde FLOP. i dont deserve it 😩#i just want a blonde woman i can root for so i dont have to feel bad abt wanting her to stay so i can stare at her…..ok#why must i be cursed to be so into blondes it isn’t fair 😭😭😭 they either flop on bb or are icons and WAY less r icons i’ll say that 😔#anyway i will not post abt bb again i promise i know no one cares 😭 i just wanted to update abt Her
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I’m gonna be 80 and sat on my front porch, telling anyone and everyone the entire history of clexa (the ship, the fandom, the drama), it was unmatched and nothing has filled the void ever since.
#i have not moved on and i WILL BE HERE FOREVER#every few months i rise to the 2017 clexa stan that i truly am#u dont get chemistry like that anymore#where are my shitty cw show lesbians#the roots of my lesbianism stemmed from them and i will NOT FORGET
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#slowly coming to terms w the fact that maybe the men that i would be attracted to just don’t exist#like sure a lot of men are beautiful gorgeous even#but then im like…… realistically i just don’t see myself in a relationship w them???? is this my deep rooted insecurity speaking or#is it something else???#like realistically speaking i just don’t see myself walking down the street w them like we just wouldn’t look right together you know???#is that insane of me to even think about?#and then when i find a man that im attracted to and i could perchance see myself in a relationship w i get stuck on thinking thoughts like#what if our world views aren’t compatible what if his personal hygiene sucks etc#i have not had a crush on anyone in literal years at this point i just need to make peace w being destined for solitude#also…..#never beating those lesbian allegations btw#no jk i am like 80% sure that im actually attracted to men my venus is just in virgo#(so are my sun and mercury btw but those aren’t super relevant to this situation i think)
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hello my besties this is just an fyi that while i’ll probably still have recs going every day until the season starts, i’m gonna be a bit MIA on the blog for a bit
#didn’t wanna just up and disappear if i end up not queuing up enough fics and going kinda quiet online#someone (me) is having a minor health thing that’s requiring me to spend less time looking at screens#and unfortunately i am forced to exist under capitalism so i have to prioritize my job for screen time rip#anyway i will be using my new screen reader app to listen to 500k of person of interest fic for root and shaw bc i love lesbians#and probably to reread tnno since no podfic for it exists rip 2 me#me and the parasocial relationship with the robot voice reading me fic#gritposting#anyway send podfic recs or podcast recs if you have them
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Proud of all the L fuckers crawling out of the woodwork on that lawlight poll since I reblogged it
#Light was winning by a large percentage when I first reblogged it#I voted L and I choose to believe I am swimming in a pool of mostly L fuckers#it's complicated bc it's like#ok neither of them really you know i'm a huge lesbian but also i LOVED L at first sight#but fem!light would be actually my type and light is more my type but i relate more to L and i have more of a crush on L#ANYWAYS i voted the way i did because I must stay true to my teenage roots#p
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btw of the Discworld books I've been reading over the last couple weeks, by far my favorite is Men at Arms and the reason is 50% there's really excellent writing, and 50% HOLY SHIT ANGUA AND CARROT ARE SO GOOD TOGETHER
#I haven't used this term much recently but I have no choice...#Angua and Carrot are OTP#I remember really rooting for them when I read Discworld books back in high school#and my opinion if anything is stronger now that I am wiser and more worldly and also less oblivious#also uhhhhh looking back I know why I latched onto Angua back then#she is a kickass blonde werewolf with a troubled backstory and hot DAMN does that make feel lesbian feelings#why is it I never see posts about Angua and/or Carrot on my dash#sure I don't follow any Discworld blogs but every now and then I see Discworld posts#and they're almost always about Moist and I don't think I read the books he's in bc I do not recall him At All#(then again I forgot Vimes was the protag of the Night Watch books so maybe I did read the books featuring Moist)#I also don't see NEARLY enough posts about trans icon Cheery Littlebottom HELLO???#who is one of the few characters I recalled but not as much as Angua and Carrot#bc again Carrot and Angua are my fave. to the point I remembered actual quotes from the books ft. them#anyways this has been ''speechie reminisces about Discworld'' time to go back to whatever I was doing before#speecher speaks
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KEELEY AND JACK THOUGH MMMMMMMMM
#ted lasso#LOOK I KNOW I SAID I'M ROOTING FOR THE OT3#and i AM#BUT NOW MY LESBIAN HEART HAS SEEN THEM TOGETHER I'M LIKE HHHHH BUT WOMEN WLW GAY#keeley x jack#jackeeley#ted lasso spoilers#THEY'RE SO AAAAAAAA
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idk if id argue nem is Canonically a Lesbian but i do think writing her that way is really fun wwwww
#even in a colony where dating nayone is ok its like. still hard to figure out whats a crush and whats not#and i think her feelings for vace being rooted in trauma is just. interesting and fun LOL#idk exocolonist does gender+sexuality in fun ways and i vibe#tbh ive been thinking while writing teenexo fic abt how like. m/m f/f m/f are kidn of like..... reductive categories#its hard to tag some of my sol stuff sometimes bc theyre on like 3d gender chess levels u kno#agender sol using he/him out of laziness dating dys. its not m/m but tagging it as a catchall 'other' also feels kind of weird i wont lie#genderfluid lesbian sol dating nem i dont want to tag as f/f but also what else am i gonna tag it#i dont want ppl thinking its m/f bc its not. even when its Boy Day its not quite f/f u kno#IDK ITS JUST INTERESTING anwyays play teenexo. join me in thinking#teenexo stuff#makes this non rebloggable and adds the Im Cis! disclaimer wwww#these are just my personal thoughts but u kno. u kno.
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biggest lesbian protector in the business not that they need me i’m just twig arms mcgee they carry around in their back pockets so i can kill lesphobes with my arsenal of bladed weapons don’t forget the L and men have nothing to do with lesbians ୧( Ò ᵕ Ó )୨
#evidence of life#really upset again lesbians are the backbone of society i believe that with my whole heart argue with the wall even if the weren’t their#identity deserves respect they are human people and deserve respect i will block you and put you on blast if you’re a lesphobe#and yeah you’re a lesphobe if you think lesbianism includes men or male influence#also if you decide this means im trashing gender diverse lesbians [read trans nonbinary] that’s on you#ALSO if you are a nonlesbian and think a gnc lesbian calling themselves a lesboy husbutch boyfriend boi etc is the root of male entitlement#to lesbian spaces please educate yourself and learn not victim blame#girl i am angry
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there's a wayv fanmeeting in paris next week???? on sunday?? at fucking 8pm??? am i spontaneously spending 100€ on the wayv fanmeeting in paris on a sunday at 8pm????
#i NEED to look into ten's gay little eyes and tell him how strongly i'm rooting for him#i'm gonna wear the snapback i painted for the 127 concert in 2019#THE LESBIAN SENSE BABY!!!! lgbtzen of the world unite#im talking about it as if it's already a done deed#it's really gonna sting my asshole to spend this much money i never buy shit im not used to it#anyways i heard about this event thru sun who heard it thru their colleague how am i always the last to know shit around here#it's such a bad time who does anything on sunday evenings sundays are made to do nothing and stress about monday#who's responsible for this
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People be like: they can't be queer bc they didn't say out loud they are!!!
The person in question: the gayest bitch you have ever seen
#flsgging is a thing that exists dgdg#i don't go around saying i am a lesbian but i do live as a lesbian#if you talk to me i won't deny or hide it i have done my time in the closet#but nobody is entitled to a get a i am gay! confession#if you are too dense to pick up the sign that it's on you#this is not about making uo theories and forcing labels on people who openly deny queerness btw!#if people do not talk abt it and don't shut down the ideas and live their life in queer spaces the answer is there already#they don't have to speak it to the world#the lack of comprehension is funny at times but soo frustrating#also bc a lot of times it comes from an homophobic root#implying that the standard is het for all the people that don't say it out loud lol#yapping time#lgbt
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its baffling to me seeing people on tiktok say that straight men and women shouldnt wear carabiners bc its a lesbian thing. babes. people in general have been using carabiners to hold keys like this for ages. yes its historically been a flagging thing! however. its not strictly a flagging thing. people in other spaces use it because its convenient. you dont get to dictate other people's harmless fashion choices. you sound fucking stupid
#i love carabiners as a lesbian flagging thing and i know its been around for a long time#but i literally just saw a commenter on tiktok say 'i had to lecture my straight male friend on why he shouldnt wear one'#i will NEVER be the first person to defend cis straight men for anything. but come on#like ?? bro WHAT#you did not actually have to do that and he is actually allowed to do whatever he wants!#the carabiner is convenient! carabiners are not just for lesbians! you sound insane!!#i understand the pov thats expressing disappointment in the carabiner on belt loops becoming popular#but it really truly does not feel that serious to me. they're acting like its blatant discrimination because its becoming trendy#and like yeah! i see where that can be an issue rooted in homophobia and hypocrisy#but to be so honest i think they're taking it too far#and look. maybe im completely wrong. if i am i would genuinely love someone to explain to me why i should think otherwise#like legitimately maybe im missing something and just truly do not get it#i dont know
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exactly what looney said.
to add on, the reason many of y’all feel this way about ellie is because you have yet to deconstruct the idea that women = femininity.
masculinity does not equal stoicism and being emotionally + vocally inhibited. masc women are not less of a woman if they cry or talk a lot. masc women are perfectly capable of being as soft-hearted, teary-eyed and talkative as feminine women are. being masculine does not exclude them from womanhood.
compare ellie to some of the other women in the game. her demeanour, her physicality, the way she carries herself is far different from the rest. the other women don’t wear dresses & skirts or wear makeup either. you’re right: it’s a post-apocalyptic world, so ellie dresses “practically.” but so do the other women in the game. so why exactly does ellie stand out from the rest? because masculinity is not limited to clothing.
i know that this post wasn't made with ill intent or anything. but you all need to analyze and interrogate why your instinct is to see masculinity in women almost like a failing. most people's automatic response to masculine women is to punish them for their existence and/or feminize them in order to make them more "acceptable." it is not misogynistic for writers wanting to write characters in a way that stays true to their essence.
ellie is also not only a masculine woman, but a masculine lesbian. the attraction & love that a man can have for a woman will never, ever compare to the love a woman can have for another woman. and regardless of how masculine a lesbian may be, they do not benefit from sexism like cis men do. in fact, they are the victims of a distinct, almost violent form of misogyny that the rest of us will never experience.
being cocky, confident, commanding—all these different traits we as a society have decided are inherent and exclusive to men—choosing to be this way when you're a lesbian is not perpetuating misogyny. that's not to say there aren't lesbians who are stuck in a bigoted, sexist mindset. but women, specifically lesbians, being masculine is the ultimate "fuck you" to misogyny.
so please stop trying to feminize clearly masculine women. i know that we are inherently taught to exclude them from womanhood, but we all need to unlearn that and understand why we are taught to think that way.
ellie williams is not just masc presenting; she is masculine and that does not make her less than.
The way ppl write Ellie sometimes…ugh like she’s not a woman, she doesn’t get her period or would wanna be taken care of sometimes, like she wouldn’t cry at 3 am midst watching a random ass documentary and have an existential crisis and end up calling you just to go off on a tangent about it at fucking 3 am just because she isn’t traditionally feminine more masc presenting honestly I think she’s just a practical person in general she just kinda wears what’s comfortable isn’t the type to follow latest fashion trend or anything but it’s hard to say if she would be masc presenting considering she’s fighting for her life in a damned world
that misogynistic roles/traits/attributes are assigned to her like she’s some kind of sexist alpha het male and not a lesbian who loves women more than anything would wanna treat them as equals AND be treated as an equal??
#okay i'm so sorry for going offfffffffff#but this is not only something i am very passionate in#but as someone who's been an out lesbian for a long time now#i've made an active effort all these years to understand and learn lesbian culture#(can you tell how deep into the bowels of lesbianism i was in during college)#and these types of posts are rooted in misogyny and homophobia in ways many people don't recognize#and like i said i don't think that op made this with ill intentions or anything!!!!#but y'all HAVE to start examining why you feel the need to defend women from masculinity#ellie being masculine is such an inherent trait of her character cmon now 😭#obvi we're boycotting season 2 BUT even in the show they made an effort to point out that ellie is NOT girly#let's wake it up people!!#alright sorry for this looney my love sldkfjdsl#back to finishing my fanfics SAURY#looney ♡︎#belle speaks
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