#at least I got ben tho :D

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The United States of America🦅

[anundyingfidelity]

I'M A RUIN — Soldier Boy/Ben (Part VII)

Series summary: After the events of the Seven Tower, you present Grace Mallory a new secret project you're working on already to develop a cure to Compound V. The only problem? You need Soldier Boy for that.

Pairing: Soldier Boy/Ben x female reader.

Word count: 3.2k.

Warnings for series: set after S3 (spoilers), some OOC!Ben, some depressed!Ben, angst, hurt/comfort, eventual smut, slow-burn, language, PTSD, reader has Compound V (she's no Vought supe tho), Soldier Boy being an usual asshole, reader is a fucking liar.

Warnings on this chapter: sexual tension, suggestive stuff.

Notes: bonding chapter of this slow burn aaaa thanks again for reading :D

this fic tags: @k-slla @syrma-sensei @mostlymarvelgirl @cheynovak @drasticemotions @soldirboy @deans-spinster-witch

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Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V | Part VI | Part VII | Part VIII

GEN MASTERLIST! — SERIES MASTERLIST!

Part VII: No More Doubts

When you left the motel early after a quick and dull breakfast, Ben was a pain in the ass as he kept asking question after question on the road. You knew he could just leave you alone but it wasn’t really something you’d like him to do. He was a fugitive, so were you. Soldier Boy knew better than that and he only had to stay by your side as much as he hated the idea. The only thing you could truly answer was that you were driving to a safer place. At least you were hoping it was. When you pulled the car after driving hours between the grove, Soldier Boy was waking up from his nap. You thanked heaven for that.

“We’re here,” you announced, turning off the engine.

Ben stirred on his seat, taking in the view of the house and nature and got out of your car, following you to the front door. He couldn’t help but to look around in somewhat awe. It was a large cottage-style house decorated with earth tones, great walls and columns. The place was surrounded by countless trees, making the weather bearable and somewhat nice due to the hidden location. The leaves climbed on some of the windows and the plants and flowers rested on the ground perfectly neat. He assumed you came here often. But it wasn’t really the place you used to come by and sleep every single day. It was too far away from the facility. As you unlocked the door, Ben followed inside, not without taking a last glance at your surroundings. No homes were near, nothing was to be seen. Only you and him inside this big fucking house.

The indoors were no different from the impression he got first. The decoration, the expensive sofa where you threw the sports bag, and the paintings and pots all over the place were saying you were rich. Of course, a fucking rich whore you were, he thought to himself. And he wondered where your real place was located.

“So, I’m gonna show you a guest room and then around, please don’t screw my house,” you said, giving him the sports bag.

“Got something to drink?” he asked, a smirk plastering on his face as he stepped closer to where you were standing.

“Water I do.”

Ben chuckled for a bit, eyes not leaving your face. “You’re so fucking boring, you know?”

“Yeah, well, alcohol is not really an important supply. Just follow me and maybe I’ll get you some later,” you said, turning around to get to the stairs.

You knew he did as you asked when his big steps echoed around the place. Once you were on the second floor, you motioned him to the next room a couple of feet away from yours and gave him directions about the bathroom and the manners. If he was going to be in your place, then he had to behave.

“I told you already, I’m not a fucking animal,” he complained after hearing your orders.

“Sure,” you dragged the word, eyes narrowed. “Because last night you were so civilized in the bathroom.”

He scoffed and then chuckled. “Did I get too loud?”

“You fucking tell me,” you replied with a much annoying smile on your face to match his own.

“Could’ve joined me. We’re not patient and doctor anymore,” 

“No.”

Just as the last word fell off your lips, your phone rang. Quickly you took the call, realizing it was Grace. You left Soldier Boy in his room and walked down the stairs a little too fast.

“You made it?” she asked on the other line.

“Yeah, arrived just minutes ago,” you answered, checking the stairs in case he followed. “Where are you, Grace?”

“That doesn’t matter. I have something for you.”

“Okay, tell me.”

“I will text you an address and an hour. Today. Don’t miss it.”

Your phone buzzed, announcing the information had arrived.

“I won’t.”

“I’ll keep calling through different phone numbers. Do what you have to do to complete the cure,” she said, like if she knew what was happening between both now.

Soldier Boy was unbearable but you had to keep him on track. Luckily, you were back home again and you’ll be working on the Anti V soon, praying the last bits of information and results of the last test were there for some reason.

“I’m doing my best,” you sighed.

Grace hummed.

“Good.”

“Any updates so far?”

Ben’s smooth voice woke you up from your daydreaming while you sat together in the dining room.

You had been able to make something quick for lunch after Grace called and you found yourself all jittery and tense, hoping Soldier Boy wouldn’t notice. But he did sense something different from you. So he kept insisting on what was going on.

“I don’t know,” you whispered, taking the last sip of water from your glass. You avoided his eyes, looking away.

He rolled his eyes and narrowed at you. “Has your office contacted you?” 

You shook your head.

“So they’re dead,” he said. Not asking, but affirming it.

A heavy sigh left your lips, your eyes going back to his harsh ones. “Leaving was the best.”

“Who’s that you keep in touch with?”

“What?”

Ben groaned slightly before snapping back with a low voice. “C’mon, Y/N. You called yesterday on the road, and now you receive a call. Who the fuck is it?”

His question is not just an inquiry anymore. He’s demanding to know. But you also know he hated Grace Mallory for putting him to sleep again, confined to a chamber where he’d be a trophy for the government to do whatever they wanted, how they wanted. Until you appeared, offering him empty words. Just like everyone.

“My superior.”

Your answer hit him like a truck. He knew it was Grace, but he didn’t like hearing it from you. 

The truth was, Ben didn’t like you… Not that much. Sometimes he did, sometimes he didn’t. Sometimes he wanted to kill you, sometimes the small common sense he still had on his head would say you’d be better alive. He had been thinking of going away, but not he didn’t really want to. He knew you had been working with Grace, he was no idiot. So maybe staying close should get him even closer to Homelander and Vought. He also thought of Ryan back in the cell you had put him in. He was so damn afraid Ryan would become like his father. And since the brat has been protected before by many people, finding would not be easy. That’s where your contacts and network would be a help to him. He was hoping to find something at your place to find them and the information he craved.

“Right,” he said, alarmingly calm and quiet. He took the last bite of pasta on the plate and swallowed down in silence under your gaze. You didn’t know what else to say.

“So, these powers of yours,” he continued, drinking the last sip of juice. “How’d you get them?”

“Why do you want to know?”

He shrugged. “I mean, they’re pretty fucking useless against me,” his words made you chuckle. Of course you knew that. “But I’m just wondering if you’d be with them.”

Your face turned back to a somber demeanor. “The Seven?”

He gave you a nod.

“Well, it’s not like all supes dream of that,” you uttered. “I just wanted to be normal.”

Ben raised a brow at your sudden confession. “Someone exploded everyone’s heads at the CIA. Sorry to say, sweetheart, but you suck at being normal.”

“Yeah, details I have to work with.”

“I take it you never went to them,” he continued and saw confusion on your face. “Vought.”

The word made you shudder for a slight moment, and you quickly tried to collect yourself to avoid him noticing.

“No, I never did.”

He scrutinized your eyes, hearing the poor increase of your heartbeats. They were enough to tell him something was wrong. But he decided to play along, so he nodded and gave you a rather compassionate look.

“Must be thankful they didn’t fuck up your life then.”

He had no idea.

You had parked the car outside an abandoned gas station; it was one of the nearest grocery stores to your home years ago. The now wasteland was almost two hours away, with a gas station around ten miles elsewhere. You had been waiting for Grace outside the car, leaning against the hood. Bored, you checked your phone again. When you arrived it was already past three o’clock. When twenty minutes went by, you wanted so badly to drive and get inside the next store you see and buy yourself food and supplies enough to survive a week or two with the idiotic supe now staying at your home. Grace said would be calling through a different phone but you received no calls so far. You’ve been waiting for more than an hour and the drive home wasn’t going to be shorter. Suddenly another car came into sight, pulling over near yours. Two men came out of it.

“Doctor Y/N?”

The stranger with the unknown voice and a weird accent caught your attention. Soon, you found the two tall men standing in front of you in the parking lot.

“We’re here on behalf of Grace Mallory,” the man continued.

He wore a long dark trench coat, looking rough and intimidating. The total opposite to the younger one, who gave you a kind smile once your eyes settled on him.

“How-”

“We have something for you,” the younger man continued. “I’m Hughie. Hughie Campbell,” he introduced himself, giving you a hand and fixing the backpack on his shoulder with the other one. You took it after a moment of hesitation. “He’s Billy Butcher, we’ve worked with Grace before.”

You nodded. “I thought she was the one coming.”

“She’s not in shape for that,” Billy answered. He realized your face changed at his words and quickly explained himself. “Vought’s cunts are looking for her, not safe.”

“Fuck,” you mumbled under your breath. “Great, awesome. So what do you have for me?”

“We, uhm, we made it to your facility and thought these could do some help,” Hughie took out a pouch and gave it to you.

With trembling hands you opened the pouch and sighed in relief. Five test tubes of the Anti V prototype were laid there. “You found them.”

“And we found a little bit more,” Butcher continued. “Victoria Neuman exploded the heads of your employees back there. We believe Vought had been sneaking and getting spies for themselves.”

“Victoria is a supe,” you voiced out. “A supe is running for vice president…”

“Yeah, long story,” Hughie commented. “She’s obviously linked with Homelander and Vought. Everyone was dead when we arrived; lab assistants, guards, agents, the supes… We believe her mission was to just let you and Soldier Boy out, besides stealing information about the cure you’re working on. Probably to give it to Vought.”

“Anything weird happen there before the attack?” Billy asked, not giving you time to swallow Hughie’s words.

“Uhm, yeah. Actually my lab assistant… She tried to warn me and, well, she was crying and asking me to leave. I didn’t know why until her head just- you know…”

You choked a little with your words. The picture of her body and the last seconds of her life were all you got. Everything was equally horrible that day.

“I’m sorry,” Hughie whispered.

“It’s fine,” you cleared your throat. “And I assume you didn’t find anything else? Information? Files?”

“Computers were destroyed. No files. No info. Nothing,” Butcher answered. “Grace says you’re the leader of the project. You have copies, right?”

“Why everybody keeps fucking asking me that? Of course I do!” you almost yelled, eyes full of rage staring at him.

“Easy there, doc,” Butcher lifted up his hands in surrender. “We just wanna get rid of those cunt supes as much as you want. Nothing wrong to make sure.”

“Well, I do have them,” you replied with a cocky smile. “Thank you very much for your concern, Adele.”

Butcher rolled his eyes, sharing a look with Hughie before switching his attention back to you.

“Yeah, sure you do, luv.”

It was already seven o’clock when you arrived home with supplies and food. Ben, as usually, acted like a fucking caveman claiming he was hungry and you had to act like the housewife, serving him a fucking hamburger and a glass of wine. That was the only liquor you bought. Despite his complaints, his hunger was greater and he devoured the greasy food with no table manners at all.

“You could chew your food like a fucking human being, you know,” you said, eating the last french fries you had. 

He turned his eyes to your face, pointing with his finger. “You were gone for like five hours.”

“So? There’s fruit in the fridge.”

Ben narrowed his gaze, like if he had been offended.

“Don’t tell me you don’t know how to serve something for yourself,” you teased. He didn’t say a word, and you giggled. “That’s fucking pathetic.”

He leaned towards the dining table, eyes locked on yours. “No, you just don’t know your fucking place, woman.”

“I just saved your life, Ben. At least say thanks,” you beamed, having too much fun by seeing him upset for mundane things.

“No, you didn’t.”

You rolled your eyes and took a sip of your wine. “Fine. I didn’t. Let’s go past this and start over. If you’re gonna live here, for now, then you’ll have to learn how to respect me.”

His brows raised. “I thought I already did.”

“Offering yourself to fuck me in a cheap motel is not respectful, Soldier Boy.”

“Well, I didn’t try anything, did I?” Ben finished his sentence at the same time he finished his dinner.

He waited for a smart comeback from you but it never came. He wiped his mouth with a napkin and a stupid grin appeared on his lips. “Unless you want to.”

“No, we’ve been through it. My answer is still no.”

“Then, mind to fucking tell me if you found something by now?”

He changed the topic swiftly. His playful demeanor switched immediately and you sighed, knowing he might have to hear anything to keep him down.

“You’re in danger.”

“I’m the strongest supe ever, that doesn’t make any damn sense,” Ben scoffed.

“Listen, we need to hide from Vought. Hide and not leave a trace, because now I’m involved with you and they’re absolutely looking for your ass,” you gave him a stern look as you went on. “If I fall, you go with me. And if you fall, then I don’t know if they’d still want me. But you’ll be fucked anyway.”

Ben nodded. In his mind, it didn’t sound like a bad plan. In the end, that’s what he wanted; to get closer to Vought and Homelander to get over with them. The world didn’t deserve those fuckers. And as much as Homelander was created with his own DNA, he knew better than to let a scum like him walk around the planet. You already gave him something, a clue. He had to play along for now. If they took you in first, then he might probably bargain to be him instead. It was only fair. He was the one that mattered anyway.

“Okay, I get it. I’ll stay here. But I don’t want those fucking therapies anymore,” he expressed, his gaze not moving away from the surprised look on your face. “Understand?”

You blinked a couple of times, shifting on your seat and chuckling under your breath. “It’s fine, believe me. I can’t stand you more than you do.”

Ben held your gaze, daring you to try something else. Instead, you smiled and got up and took your empty dishes to the sink. His eyes followed your moves, focusing on your small shorts and the softness of your legs. And you knew he was definitely checking you out when you talked.

“By the way, you’ll have to help me wash the dishes.”

He stood up, plates on his hands and walked behind your figure, putting them on the sink as you opened the faucet. His arms surrounded you once he did so and you flinched a bit. Ben smirked, feeling the reaction of your body trapped against his.

“Get away,” you ordered in a whisper, unable to move.

“I’m helping you, Y/N,” he breathed your name against your neck, his hand wrapping on yours gripping on the edge of the sink.

The only sound now was his hot breath on your skin and the water flowing. You quickly turned the faucet off, but you didn’t try to push him away.

It was the second time during the day he had said your name, ever. And you wouldn’t deny it sounded fucking delightful. He had only addressed you as his ‘doctor’, but now it was different. Though, you didn’t want to give into him. He was a huge douchebag and you were basically forced to spend time with him, in your home, without really wanting him there. You felt his lips ghosting over the sensitive skin of your neck, and the primal part of you yearned for his touch, but the rational one won over and you freed yourself from his arms.

“Stop doing that,” you warned once you were face to face. His eyes were dark already and had a sparkle you knew too much since the day before.

“Alright,” he nodded.

“Just- let’s just wash these. I want to sleep.”

With a tired sigh, you walked down the basement. It was already midnight and Ben was locked inside his room, probably jerking off or something since you, once again, rejected him in your kitchen. Inside the dark room, you found the metal door that let you inside the bunker and unlocked it with the code. When you stepped in, you made sure to turn on the power and lights that illuminated the room and the small lab in the back. The computers started to run and you sat down on the main monitor, leaving the pouch with the Anti V tubes on the side of the desk.

Yeah, you might have told Butcher and Grace you had copies of every detail of the project. But you were afraid of the last stuff you discovered just before the attack. You knew well how the information was protected and encrypted, but it didn’t really assure you the profile of Solaris would be there. He was the first and last supe who had his powers off for a couple of hours at least and the feeling of losing it all had been eating you the last few hours after meeting with Grace’s messengers.

It took you a while to decrypt the system, something you had been already used to doing every time you got there to keep working on it, just to make sure no one would steal it. Hopefully, Vought hadn’t discovered it before destroying the facilities, you thought. And after a while, you found the last updates of the last test your team ran. Solaris profile and test was there. Not just in written letters, but the footage of the test and the exact formula that was used too. Now, you were so lucky.

“Well, thank you, Bianca. Wherever you are,” you whispered to yourself and took a tube from the pouch the men gave you earlier. You had a busy night ahead.

[nemmennem]

Creepypasta see you sleeping in a chair after come back from mission (what will they do tho?)

Jeff the killer

Would draw smile face or dick on your face - Wtf are you doing jeff? :/ - Nothing ;) Jane the killer

Would throw blanket on you - Thank you Jane :) - it's not a problem just remeber that there is at least one kind person :) Drowned Ben

Would wake you up and maybe help you go to your room (he just wanted to sit on the same chair) - Waky waky sleepy head :3 - What - still being concious in 50% :o - Its time to go to your room :3 Eyeless Jack

Would wake you up (he just wanted to be kind) - Wake up :| - What? oh, thank you bro :) - No problem :) Laughting Jack

Would sit on you to wake you up that way and would not stand up until he got bored of you - It would be nice if you stood up :| - Not feeling like it :P Nina the killer

Depends if she's still obsesed with jeff

If yes, then she would just throw blanky at you

If no, then she would throw blanky at you and lay down with you still on the chair hugging you - What are you doing on me? :/ - I really wanted to cuddle with you :D homicidal liu

Depends if he's gonna listen to sully

If yes, then he would draw dick on your face and maybe throw blanky at you, if liu isn't in mood he would just kick the chair

If no, then he would throw blanky at you - Liu? :\ - Yes - said Liu backing up and with guilty in his voice :| Kagekao

Would spill his wine on you and maybe kick the chair - Wtf man?! :[ - あなたはバカだよ、相棒 :3 - I dont understand your funny words you funny man :| Sally Williams

Would wake you up or ask somebody to help her carry you to your room - Hayoo ツ - Hi sally :) Clockwork

Depends on her mood, she could either throw blanket at you, wake you up, kick the chair, carry you to your room, etc. - Ughahaht - with sleepy voice '~' - Dont get used to being carried by me :] Hoodie

Would wake you up nicely - wake up bro :) - thank you :) Masky

Would just wake you up - wake up :| - hey masky :| Toby

Would wake you up very nicely - Wake up buddy :3 - thx toby :) Judge Angel

Would wake you up and give you lecture about sleeping in mansion full of creepypasta - Its not smart to sleep in this place :\ - thanks for advice :) Blood painter

Would not wake you up but would paint you sleeping - Do not even move :| - what? :/ Zero

Would kick the chair - You MF! :( - Lmao :3 Jason the toy maker

Would not give a fuck about you and just let you be - sup buddy :) - sup buddy? :) Slenderman

Would pick you up and carry you to your room - Thank you boss :) - Just call me Slender Child Zalgo

Would put you on fire * Dies in fire - Great :}

[milo-igidk]

Hiii! Random question, did you ever watch rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles

if so what was your opinion on it

Also heyyyy fellow kotlc fan :D

(you don't have to answer this ask if you don't want to lmao)

LOOKS AT YOU WITH AUTISM IN MY EYES

yeah i watched rottmnt. and by watched, well, heh. let’s just say hyperfixated on it for a year or so 🧍

i love rottmnt so so much one of my favorite shows it made me so insane, the fandom is so so silly (at least the side i was in ig) i love the animation SO MUCH FLYING BARK PRODUCTIONS SAVE ME, its so funny, the characters are all so well written and entertaining to watch, the plot is so good, the voice acting goes hardd, (i love ben schwartz, sue me)

honestly miss the era in my life when i was in its fandom, i met my best friend and a lot of other cool ppl there, and it was just like a rlly nice comunity ig (again it definetly depends which side of the fandom youre on lmfao). i think i joined in between s2 and the movie, and i loveeeed the movie fucking soooo good. the other time i joined a fandom right before the movie came out was tales of arcadia and,, yeah we dont talk abt that movie.

i love the character dynamics sm i could talk abt them a lot, all the characters are so lovable and funny and have silly sibling dynamics, i couldnt pick a favourite so dont ask me 🙏 i do kin leo tho hes so me fr (guy who kins keefe from kotlc also kins leo from rotmnt, shocker!)

the show has such a special place in my heart and im forever mad it got cancelled :[[

the silliesss, oh youre gonna make me rewatch it annon

[ladyartforone]

Alternate Bens Paradox has met (me pretending like I didn't disappear for 10 years lmao)

1- Anodite Bens. Although rare, they do exist.

2- A cyborg Ben. In the battle against Vilgax and Albedo, he gets caught in the explosion and sufferes serious injuries. He goes into a coma, and wakes up in azmuths lab as a half robot. He can't wear the omnitrix anymore because his DNA is infused with alot of technology to keep him alive. But he's inhanced with badass cyborg weapons.

3- A Ben with time powers, who he secretly takes as a student.

4- A Ben that takes a more rough approach with villains. He lost his grandfather to Vilgax, and ends up becoming less sympathetic to villains. Though he is a good person, he's evil to evil people.

5- A Ben who grows up as Gwens brother. He was adopted into the family after his parents died in a crash. They are by far the best, strongest Gwen/Ben duo Paradox has ever seen.

6- A Ben that got stuck in his werewolf form. Kai takes care of him, though he became a bit viciousne in his years of frustration.

7- Omnifuseres. Bens who ended up fusing with one of the aliens in the omnitrix, gaining the abilities of the alien without fully transforming into them. Tho they can't turn into other aliens, they have the bonus of never having to wait for the omnitrix to power up at least.

8- Many, MANY mom Bens. Wearing an alien watch means popping out babies every now and again lmao. And not just from big chill...

9- A Ben who ended up being the one to change colours instead of Albedo. Paradox likes to call him Albino Ben.

10- A Ben who ends up becoming the leader of the forever knights. He leads them to do good.

Sorry for being gon :D

[whole-circus]

I was wondering what your take on how the creepies would react to a Verosika Mayday reader? I wonder how they would react \ (^⁠ω⁠^)/

PS: drink lots of water, take care of yourself and sleep well <333333

You feed us simps well :D

Creepypastas with Verosika Mayday reader!

➥ Jeff the Killer, Ben Drowned , Nina the Killer, Eyeless Jack

Muahaha im so glad to feed you guys!! I havent watch hazbin hotel or helluva boss so i hope its at least ok!! gosh you has waited so long im so sorry, and its short and shitty T^T Again im sorry!! !!<3 As always - feel free to want even more characters :)) And once more - im so sorry!!

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Jeff the killer

He would match your energy i guess? Not like he is your clone or something, but you two can and will get along (just give it some time). Jeff is a mean and teasing person so he totally gets you, he is the first one to bully someone or manipulate them in order to get what he wants. He also have some sort of god complex, he is the best and always right (well yeah sure no cap), so it may be something that you dont like. I believe you two would constantly fight over everything Also congrats, you got yourself a drinking buddy!! Loves that you are so..confident..in yourself?? He kinda likes a bit slutty people (and i mean it in a good way i swear), that have tendency to flirt and show their body? And they have even bigger sex drive? Is that suprising? Maybe not really, but Jeff is often horny!

Ben Drowned

Yeah, Ben would be blushy and all submissive becasue of your personality and the way you live your life! Like okay, it can be a lot but not necesserly in the bad way. I feel like he would also flirt back, he is head over heels when he sees you and its just so hard for him not to simp for you... Ben doesnt have many braincless yet they are all horny. You dont even have to manipulate him, he would do literally anything for you - he is on his knees barking and meowing. Ben has huge sex drive anyway, so its not like he will complain. Isnt bothered by drinking alcohol or other drugs, Ben is pretty cool to do all that with him. You being you is perfect for Ben, could he even been happier? This boy is great for both - having fun or talking shit about others.

Nina the killer

Okay, its not too complicated - you would absolutely get a long with Nina!! Like she is just walking energetic ray of sunshine?? You can be annoyed by that, but there are many similar aspects when it comes to your personality - even tho its not always shown in the same way. Nina of course has her vulgar side, I mean, she is a killer after all..?? And a huge gosspier, she just loves causing chaos!! I also feel like Nina would be your fangirl, loves having popular partner and loves that they are all to her! Nina is such a huge flirt too, she is very confident of her way of being and her body. She doesnt say no to a party too, so you wont be bored with her.

Eyeless Jack

Jack would be actually the one to try stop you from drinking? And the one who would be pretty concern with your way of life? Dont get me wrong, he does like you but come on.. its not like your life style is healthy and perfectly normal, but who is he to judge? Whatever makes you happy! Propably one of not so many things that makes you both similar is being demon kind of stuff? I cant think of other things to be honest, well okay, maybe not including his sex drive not from this earth. But no worries, guess what - opposites attract! But on the other hand he kinda gets it? You are cool and powerful so its not like you should be good and innocent, just have something from you life!

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[e-adlirez]

Geronimo Stilton Pokemon AU

So some time ago I made a post asking about a potential Pokémon AU for Geronimo Stilton, which didn’t get much notes but y’know wut two-ish ideas was enough to get the brain juices rolling so I made this :D

Name says all, this took longer than it was supposed to ue,,, there will be a Thea Sisters edition of this post at some point

My lil’ rule for this AU: NO LEGENDARIES, because that’d be too easy and overpowered. Giving them mere mortal Pokémon is more fun because we got more flavors to play with :]

HEADCANONS:

Geronimo’s goldfish Hannibal is now a Goldeen. The two adore each other, and G doesn’t care much about getting Pokémon besides Hannibal. In fact, Goldeen is legally Geronimo’s only Pokémon, and it’s more of a pet than anything

Thea and Bruce both really love their Fighting types because of their active lifestyles (I can see either of them having at least one Flying type tho). Bruce is more of a Machamp-and-Hariyama type, while Thea’s more into the Hisuian Lilligants and Mienshaos. Th-that is to say, she likes them stronk but also pretty (Disclaimer: Thea unfortunately does not have a Hisuian Lilligant because they don’t exist in the present time anymore). Mienshao is such a Theacore Pokémon it’s literally a match made in heaven I can’t believe it and I was so tempted to give her a Miraidon because of the motorbike—

As you can see in the sketch, Thea is arguing with a Riolu. So allow me to explain that :] Thea got a Riolu egg from a breeder friend, and uh from the time of its birth onward, it’s never liked Thea. They’d argue a lot and be frustrated with each other a lot— Riolu would never listen to Thea and would always run off on its own, Thea would put it in timeout a lot, that whole thing. Then one day, Thea visits G, and Riolu suddenly pops out of its Pokéball timeout corner to vibe check G. G passes the vibe check so well that Riolu basically ditched Thea for G. G has a little blue son/bodyguard now. Riolu still has the desire to train, which G isn’t always able to satisfy, but he tries his best :’3 he even made a little gym for Riolu in his garage

There were many choices to give Ben, either to fit show!Benjamin’s nerdy aesthetic or book!Ben’s general wholesome adorableness that we all love. I went middle of the road and gave him Pichu, a baby electric mouse :3

Trap has a Munchlax. Very self-explanatory, Trap has a Munchlax. They’re both very slobby and both of them really like raiding buffets together (and then forcing G to pay the bill if he falls for that trick). Munchlax is rather independent and walks around town to beg for scraps. He’s very good at seeming adorable, so most mice cave and give him a little snack. Just like Arizonans and their relationship with javelinas, giving Trap’s Munchlax a snack once is a bad idea, unless you’re okay with this little gremlin following you all day and asking for more scraps.

Part 2 involving the Thea Sisters will be coming soon, so lemme know what you think :D

[idleglowingpixels]

Okay so, I watched the Miraculous Ladybug movie...

Originally I wasn't going to because the show was such a massive disappointment (mainly Seasons 4 and 5), and I mentally put my foot down saying I wasn't gonna consume anymore official content from the franchise. But morbid curiosity be damned, my God, it was probably everything I could have asked for from a movie for the franchise.

(Spoilers Ahead)

I'm gonna start with my critiques, with a lack of chronology, only so I can save the good parts for the end. I have a lot of nice things to say and I wanna end the post on a good note!

They really could've spent the time it took for Tikki and Marinette's song for the kwamis to explain the powers to Marinette and Adrien (and, in turn, the audience that might not know about/haven't seen the series). I love that song, and I thoroughly enjoyed Tikki's more sassy mentor-like position she takes in the movie, but I do feel that the powers are a bit difficult to understand if you're a newcomer to the show.

The fact Plagg, my favorite character from the series, got dumbed down to a fart joke made me so upset. It felt a lot like when Plagg got dumbed down to purely cheese puns and poor writing, he didn't feel as significant to Adrien's side of the story as Tikki was to Marinette's. RIP Plagg with nuance. :') To be completely honest, I think Plagg was really the only downgrade in characterization here though.

Did anyone else notice Nooroo had a different English VA in the movie??? I heard it and was like "WAIT YOU'RE NOT BEN DISKIN NOOOOO" haha. In fact it made me TERRIFIED they replaced Tikki and Plagg too, but I'm so happy they didn't. I don't hate the new voice tho! It does fit the character, but definitely leaned too grown-up and feminine sounding for me. I got too used to the squeaky, scared little baby voice Ben gave him. (EDIT: I actually really like the new voice lowkey, I think it's just as good as Ben but I do miss Ben for sure haha)

Obviously, the pacing had to heavily rely on montages throughout to move the story along due to the 90-minute runtime. I think of all children's film franchises to deserve a trilogy, this was the one, especially because of its international and overlapping appeal between its target audience and older fans. If we got the 3-act structure of this film evenly divided between 3 separate movies, it would've had much more time to flesh out the current cast of characters and narrative they were trying to tell. It's definitely the movie's biggest fault in my opinion, but I think fans of the series who have a baseline knowledge of the plot at the very least will enjoy the movie (unless they don't like musicals, I suppose).

I thought the best way to describe what it felt like watching boils down to "if someone took the series and wrote it into a 10k-to-20k-word oneshot fic." And I mean this affectionately, but with most fanfiction, generally you'd have pre-established knowledge of the world and how it works. The movie kind of goes off the assumption you have a baseline knowledge, so I wouldn't recommend it as a starting point for the show (tho I'd NEVER recommend the actual show to anyone), if only because it's so jarringly different in terms of their powers and characters. You'd only be setting up your poor friends for disappointment. :'D

The songs were fun, they're nothing crazy, but they're adorable. My only complaint for the songs is Marinette's singing VA being different than her speaking VA, another common complaint I've shared with others. Her singing VA is a wonderful singer, don't get me wrong, but Christina Vee/Valenzuela is such a talented singer and I would've loved to hear her sing for Marinette. I know Bryce wasn't singing for Adrien either, but his singing VA sounded similar enough that it wasn't as bothersome.

Okay, the best parts, let's go:

Now, admittedly, the story is rushed to hell and back. As a writer, I can't understate that. But what I can give the writing props for, unlike the show, is having its narrative not get overblown and out-of-focus. By the end of the series, there's so many characters and micro-arcs to keep track of -- Kagami's friendship with Lila, Luka's awareness of Ladybug & Chat Noir's identities, Alix being forced out of the picture at the start of Season 5, the ZagHeroes and Fae from the two specials that aired between S3 & S4, the fact I could go on should speak volumes enough -- that the actual story of the show crumbles beneath the weight of it all.

The movie condenses this narrative, and in doing so, it sets up the main characters of this film and what's looking like the next film, should this movie succeed. The main focus is on Marinette, Adrien and his father Gabriel, all of whom are well-known as the main heroes and villain of the series respectively. Through their stories, we somehow have that "vintage era" Miraculous charm that the first season or two of the show had, and also gave an ACTUALLY GOOD AND SATISFYING CONCLUSION TO THE STORY -- Sorry, I got sidetracked, we'll get back to that point later.

We also have Alya, Nino, Chloe and Nathalie, all in the movie BUT as a minor focus. The trio of kids get a bit more screentime than Nathalie, but they're present just enough to imply that they'll be important for the next film (Which I assume will have a return of Rena Rouge, Carapace, Queen Bee and Mayura respectively).

The animation, the big selling point of this film for most people, is incredible. Even seeing leaks before the movie dropped, you could tell this thing had cost big bucks for its animation. Apparently it was one of France's highest-budget animated films? It was gorgeous, I don't have much complaints with it, the style they were going for was just eye candy animation. Everyone's designs got elevated in this style, I think the only criticism I have for that is that Alya's hairstyle could've been changed to reflect the volume it has in the show, it looks a bit too thin and flat for my liking. But I guess that's just personal preference.

Master Fu! He's back, and he's a cooky AND wise old man! I was ecstatic to see him back. Once he was written out of the show in S3's finale, the show hasn't felt the same tbh. Idk why, but I didn't realized I missed him as much as I did until seeing him at the start of the movie. XD

No sentimonster bullshit shenanigans, THANK GOD. I really like the concept of senti-people, but good lord, the show's story was overly complex as it was, the movie didn't need to go making it worse. (Note, I got nothing against the theories! I just can't stand how the show executed that aspect of the plotline. It's awfully vague for absolutely no reason and screams that it was shoe-horned into the plot around mid-S3 for fan interest. The show only suffers from the inclusion of implications for the theories.)

And I'm SO HAPPY they gave Adrien some motherfucking agency. That scene where his father walks down the stairs looking disheveled af, demanding Adrien listen to him only for Adrien to say he doesn't have a father or that he lost his father a long time ago?!? Amazing. Bare minimum shit, yes, but it was executed so well. And him being an angsty teen, drowning out his solitude through music, and getting a bit of an ego through his Chat Noir persona? When I tell you this movie feels like a fanfic (affectionately), I mean it. It feels like the writers were actually competent enough to understand how to make a character 3-dimensional.

Same goes for Marinette. As much as I miss Rose, Juleka, Mylene and Alix being her friends, I think having Marinette start as a loner with no friends made her parallel with Adrien's feelings of isolation. Her arc of gaining her confidence and befriending Alya, Nino and Adrien, while Adrien's arc focuses on his grief and learning to open up to others again, was a nice contrast. And both of them actually felt equally important, which was probably the best part for me. (Side-tangent; If they introduce Kitty Section into a possible next film (which would make sense since they're a band and this movie is a musical adaptation), Marinette could befriend the old friend squad through the band. Maybe they could even be manipulated by Mayura in the next movie, and we could get a 5v5 battle between the Miraculous 5 and Rose, Juleka, Mylene, Luka and Ivan's amoks...? Just an idea I thought of on the spot.)

I didn't hate any of the songs, and the general consensus I've seen is that Hawk Moth's villainous song in the midst of the film was the best one (an opinion of which I agree, I had watched this with my cousin and we both agreed to start the song over after listening to it the first time, and it was the only song we did that to on our viewing). It also made the transformation into becoming Hawk Moth truly feel like a Jeckyll and Hyde style situation for Gabriel, like Hawk Moth was the alter-ego he could use to let his grief consume him and drive him mad. I'm a sucker for Jeckyll and Hyde tropes, and while it might've been intended, that's how I'm interpreting it. It was honestly a great change, and I joked that the top hat during the song made Hawk Moth officially a Tumblr sexyman lmao.

The 3-way reveal. WE GOT THE 3-WAY REVEAL. NO PREACHY, TIME-WASTING REVERSALS, NO BULLSHITTING FROM ASTRUC. WE ACTUALLY GOT THE 3-WAY REVEAL BETWEEN LADYBUG, CHAT NOIR AND HAWK MOTH. And it was just as fucking fantastic as the show ABSOLUTELY SHOULD HAVE made it. There was NO EXCUSES for the show's ending for Gabriel/Hawk Moth to be as atrocious as it was, nor for Adrien to be completely fucking absent and not have an identity reveal -- and I refuse to let anyone say executive meddling was the reason for it. Jeremy Zag was Astruc's executive, and clearly with the movie being his passion project, Zag cares enough about the franchise that he wouldn't prevent Astruc from writing a good story. But Astruc is a horrible writer, whose faults really began to shine the more tone-deaf and preachy his writing of the show got. Istg, half of the episode's "lessons" was just Astruc venting his frustrations against fans who had valid criticism of the writing. But goddamn, it's gotta be real embarrassing for Astruc to have his own franchise/story made and written better for a 90-minute film by his colleague than he could write with 5 seasons and over 100 episodes...Yikes. XD

When I tell you some parts of the movie -- the kwamis having a bit more agency themselves (Nooroo popping out of the brooch was so cute!!! :'D), the characters in general, Gabriel's story (tho it could've used more GabeNath imo lol), the focus on the characters while also having some engaging & wild battles, the long-awaited identity reveal, the masquerade ball trope -- felt like aspects the series just completely didn't have or vastly underutilized, it's insane. The difference between the film and series is like night and day.

Overall, it wasn't the best-written movie, but it's EXACTLY what I assume most Miraculous fans desperately craved from the show that crumbled its quality in its hands, spat on it, threw it in a garbage bin and lit it on fire. I genuinely saw parts of this movie that paralleled the rewrite fic I wanna write for the series soon (THE CAT IN ADRIEN'S ROOM WHEN HE FINDS THE RING BRUH), and unlike the series, which inspired me by how bad it was, the movie had a few parts that were so well-written that it inspired me to write scenes as good as those (THE FUCKIN PART WITH LADYBUG SAYING "I need to go..." AND THE DESPERATION IN CHAT'S "...Don't...").

I feel similar after-the-fact as I did with the Super Mario Bros Movie -- imperfect, but satisfactory to pre-established fans of the franchise. If anyone you know ever wants to give the franchise a chance, I'd honestly exclusively recommend this movie, and maybe S1-S2. A solid 8/10, only having a high ranking because of how much fun and entertaining this film was to me, a fan since around S2's airing.

[lowkeyclueless5137]

Hmmmm, Did Riddle, Kalim, Epel, and Idia ever use their omnitrix during a certain bean fest. I mean the watch and its alien technically don’t use any form of magic so it’s not really breaking any of Vargas’ rules there.(heck what about during Camp Vargas itself, omnitrix alien powers are very helpful[plus I can just see Idia just fiddling with his being uhh bored and yet technically not that bored cause well, he can just go full alien later. Ben did first get his omnitrix during a certain camp trip)

BEANS! BEANS! BEANS!

If it wasn't for glorious masquerade (and that Phanthom thief/Gothic ball theme) Beanfest would be my top fav: Good cards, chaotic storyline where everyone gets to shine a bit and most importantly: ✨violence✨. It's probably the only story where everyone punts everyone for the mere motive that they are petty and want to win.

Camp Vargas... Meh... I mean it was funny... I did enjoy it... But kinda ya know... The real deal started like... Post a long exposure that kinda got me a bit bored. Pretty good event, a bit difficult of a playthrough and the cards are meh for me...

BUT! We are here for the aliens!

Camp Vargas:

Riddle

At first, boi wanted to do everything by the book. You know, no alien powers, generally just having a nice camp experience.

When Ace dissapears tho, Riddle has some alarm bells ringing. Ace was a lil shit, but he wouldn't simply dissapear in a forest, where he has no shelter besides the campsite and no proper food. In fear that Ace might just eat poisonous plants, Riddle offers to search up for him. Sebek and Silver were great for leading the equestrian club on their own and the members did a pretty good job, so a worry less.

That's when he uses Wildmutt to try and pick-up Ace's trail and find him. It was pretty dark and in 10 minutes Riddle didn't get a great lead mostly since there was a lot of other scents that covered up Ace's.

But he stumbles upon tied up students to trees. That when Riddle realises that Vargas is fucking nuts and they are hunted for sports in the middle of the night.

Surprisingly, the first one Riddle finds is Deuce, thinking that Vargas might use the mine as a place to hide other students. The 2 escape and manage to reunite with the rest of the survivors.

Cue Jack and Deuce helping Riddle get 'kidnapped' so that the redhead can have an entry as Wildvine (on half since he was calm, knowing the whole situation at hand) and catch Vargas in a swamp then tie him up with vines to a tree so they could ensure this man won't hunt them for sports again.

Kalim

He's trying to prove Jamil that he is capable and reliable. So he tries to do everything by the book too! :D

But Idia dissapears, then it's installed a whole bunch of chaos with more dissappearances and the wierd monster. Oh Kalim is 100% squaring up.

Kalim punts Vargas in a tree and it's glorious✨

There is also Crewel in there, so there is that. Kalim also squares up, but like, man feels SO guilty afterwards. Even if no one knew he was the alien hero. :'3

But overall, Kalim has a pretty nice camping experience. And he learned from Jade some cool fungi facts. :D

Epel

Oh heck yeah, Epel is absolutely thriving with the whole camp idea. No Vil? No Rook? Liberty, bitches! He is more free than a bird and he's feeling awesome. He wants to try everything, he tries everything, he gets tired from trying everything and eats then repeats until he has to go to sleep. :'3

The dissappearances occur and Epel immediately is ready to square up. He just yeets Vargas across the forest like a ping-pong ball.

He also fights the mine monster the same way. The poor Phanthom had 0 chances. :'3

Idia

Man doesn't wanna go camping. PERIOD!

But he finds his super cool 50+ attack stick so he's happy. Ortho said that he shouldn't use the omnitrix just to skip over his tasks, so at least he hs his super cool stick. :'3

Idia gets the first dissappearance. He was tired from the whole running around and picking sticks, so he fell asleep than poof! He woke up in Vargas's cabin and had to do squats as punishment.

Unfortunately for Vargas, he disclosed his plan to Idia, including Crewel's involvement, so the firehead was very aware of the whole situation and DID NOT like it.

But also it was the absolute best prank idea known to man, to just play as a 3rd party with a similar approach to Vargas's, but make it unbeknownst to anyone else. No one would know if he uses the omnitrix for this. They are in a goddamn forest, for all one could know, some of this NRC Students were petty enough to square up with a bear.

It is mandatory to note that before the camp commenced, Idia and Ortho argued about weather the camp was good or not. Idia was absolutely against the idea of camp being 'fun', while Ortho saw it as a great opportunity. Of course, now with this goldmine of prank material, Idia wanted primarily to use it so he could prove his brother that camp was NOT fun.

He ends up have a whole load of fun while enacting his plan. Everyone was screaming and running around like headless chickens and Idia loved every second of it. He initially wanted to have Ortho for last, because Ortho would absolutely know Idia was behind a good chunk of the dissappearances if he targets him early or mid plan.

But Vargas and Crewel strike first on Ortho and that's when Idia doesn't have that much fun anymore. It was supposed to be his hit! It was supposed to be glorious and induce even more panic since Ortho was a pretty reliable and an important factor of the survivors team. He was supposed to get Ortho, not them. Plus it adds salt to the wound the fact that Vargas and Crewel tied up his lil bro to a tree while shut down so like, where's the care? Ortho was a robot, some things are fragile still!

So Idia takes out Ortho first, which unintentionally creates even more panic since now the 'actual wild monster' is targeting students that are also tied up. Idia ends up punting the teachers and all is good in the end.

By the finale of the whole thing, Ortho tries to admit defeat, that this camp was clearly a bad idea and it wasn't that fun. Idia tho, corrects that he had loads of fun and was down for a part 2.

Beans day! :D

Riddle

Oh he's out for BLOOD! Man doesn't fucking hesitate. He punts Ace and Jack in a heartbeat. He is one force to be reckoned with and he will do anything to win.

In reality someone made fun of him for being smol and an easy to catch target so y'all know where this went.

Kalim

Bby wants to have shawarma. Let him have his fucking shawarma in peace.

Jamil attempts to catch Kalim, but he gets captured instead because Kalim had his half transformation as Wildvine and they were in the botanical garden, where it was LUSH of plants. Same thing for Rook and Trey. The whole shawarma thing was a 100% trap that Kalim had in order to catch the monster team in a flytrap style. Doesn't mean Kalim won't get to enjoy sum nice shawarma. A double win! :D

Epel

Breaking news: kid commits usual property damage.

Epel is absolutely abusing of his omnitrix advantage. Monster team is absolutely useless against Epel who's more than ready to throw them in trees.

Vil does put him in place at one point, but Epel escapes his sight for 1 second and 4 monster players are found hung up on trees. :'3

Idia

Ortho ended up on the monster team so Idia fears for his ass, since he was in the farmers team and knew his brother was out for BLOOD. (Vargas said for the 2 to be in different teams so Idia couldn't 'use his brother to take the easy way out') Oh Ortho was absolutely merciless. Doesn't help that he teams up with Azul and Jack.

Idia's only objective: survive. He struck days prior an alliance with Azul for him to help him with loot so that he won't be targeted, but that won't fly by Ortho. Azul might spare him, but not Ortho. Idia just runs and hides all the event.

Ortho catches him in the end. Omnitrix or not. :'3

[amyyscorner]

Live reaction: Goosebumps (2023)

Spoilers below the cut

ok emo i hope he dies WAIT IS HE SUPPOSED TO BE RL STINE?? ding dong bitch DONT WALK OUTSIDE JESUS HAVE U NOT SEEN A FUCKING HORROR MOVIE??? mans gon die the doorbell ghost really be trolling LMAO THE CHANDELIER candles. ofc he has candles. sth gon burn HIS NAME IS HAROLD? LMAOOOOO i knew there was gonna be a fire. mans burned i love being right ooooooh pretty introoooo me likey NOT UNHOLY BY SAM SMITH PLEASE I THOUGHT THIS WAS A SHOW FOR LIKE 12+ NAUR Ayo AYO IS THAT HER???? OMG I LOVE THAT HER NOT THE BIKING ACCIDENT LMAOOOOO i love lucas already PLEASE NOT MORE UNHOLY I AM GIGGLING oooh its the same school as the guy who died harold isaiah is the jock lucas is the nerd/idiot margot is the girl thats not like the others NOT HER READING AT THE EVENT PLS HARRY STYLES WONT PICK U BESTIE PLS THE POOR GUY LEAVE HIM ALONE D: isabella seems like the girl who is actually chill and just wants to do her thing AYO SAM BE CUTE im in love with james i need james in my life james is me oh so jocks gf is an insta popular girl "im literally super nice" "so why am i being trolled?" maybe bc u called it being trolled jock who doesn't get good grades? i hope they get less...two dimensional like give the jock an actual problem maybe he has adhd or a learning disability so he focused on physical activity now who tf is glasses nathan bratt BEN HOLY SHIT U ARE FATHER PARENT ok so nathan is the lil nerdy weird adult the parents were grieving their kid wtf dude??? nathan has killer vibes hes gon die or at least get hurt HE GOT HURT LMAOOOOO yeah nah he deserved that ben tho? king. love him NOT THE BLOOD KEY LMAOOOOOO OH IS BEN JOCKS DAD? oh baby :( now he is too scared to tell them he won't be playing in the game bc there is no way he will be able to get that A THEYRE TALKING IN THAT IDIGAH LANGUAGE margot is not for me but she seems like a good friend to him ayo you know but hamilton seems like helpful dont help him cheat just help him study yeah nah thats so dumb yall deseve to fail trust me i can say it bc i used to cheat in this one class HOW OBVIOUS CAN U BE JESUS CHRIST okay so margot likes isaiah but he is dating allison so far im not as invested as i could be tbh not the murder hourse being the new place jesus this is so stupid all of you deserve to die all of you so fucking dumb like i get the rush of it. i've been in an abandoned psych clinic before a few years before it burnt down but this? idk besties, you should know this is dumb thor he is obviously thor he has a blonde wig and a hammer actual stupid people dont go to the basement please YES IT IS HAUNTED YES IT MAKES FOR A GOOD PARTY UNTIL EVERYONE DIES BESTIES so far i hate the main characters dont go down there dont go to the basement dont walk TO THE DOOR THAT MAGICALLY OPENED TO THE BASEMENT WHERE A DUDE DIED "i bet the fuse box is down there" - okay video game main character oh okay so allison knows she likes him and is insanely jealous girl why are you such a bitch to her?? she just didn't know to be late to parties wtf fuck them yes walk down the creepy stairs i hope u get hurt for being such an asshole cause wtf stop exploring and just find the fuse box ur not a video game there r no secrets to find good attempt at the jumpscare. unfortunately not random enough oh no the ghost door to the ghost basement closed how unexpected i'm so surprised wow this was so surprising omg hes fine he will walk up and scare you guys SEE i knew it SHAKE IT LIKE A POLAROID PICTURE

okay we finished the first half of the ep 2nd half reaction coming soon

[mirrorballwhoistrying]

10 Months Sober (01.11.24)

huh, it's been 10 months in 2024? Lowkey, I have lived so many lives in 2024 for real. So much has happened in October that I should have processed it one by one before.

I passed the AAS now, then what's next? The idea of "I make it!" is absurd somehow or at least to me. No amount of achievements could keep me stimulated. I always keep looking for what's next.

October started with Pchum Ben. On the first day, I went to a pagoda with my mom and brother. Then I started swiping on Tinder as usual and matched with a foreign guy. Normally, I would respond very slowly until they lost interest, but maybe the energy I got from meeting Suchi made me braver. We went on a date in the evening at Bassac Lane. He's from Syria and working here. We lowkey clicked tho.

On the 2nd day, I went to Frog Restaurant with K Y and D L. I started spewing on plans for the rest of the year. She was totally on board and it was understandable. I can't expect people to see things exactly as I do.

on the 3rd day, I went on another date with that guy. We had steaks at his apartment and yeah then sxx and movie. It felt so good to meet someone great but not when I was about to leave this country in 3 months. I had to break the news to him that day as well.

I also met March and went on test-running that weekend. Things started great though. I went on 3rd date with him and even slept over.

What did I do in the 2nd week? I think I just spent time panicking because my first choice of university is no longer available. I reached out to seniors for advice. It stressed me out so much to study outside of Melbourne for less than 1.5 years.

I went on another test run with Kouy Y at Koh Pich and met that guy again. This time my anxiety and insecurity were over the top. His ex is a famous MC here and he has many famous friends. I think I just had too much free time and let my mind roam free to dangerous places. We had a little fight or at least it was me. I felt like he wouldn't want to see me again.

on the 2nd week Sunday, we went to pick a booth for the Bookfair. It went okay.

On Monday, it was AAS Induction Day. I wasn't chosen as an AUS4ASEAN awardee. I'm not sure I need that though.

the 3rd week of October was the last straw for real. I started preparing invitations for the 1st run club and also booked tickets and prepared for the trip to Thailand with my family. At that moment I realized I was really broke, broke. My savings weren't even enough to book flight tickets for my family. It went okay.

I sent out the invitations and October 20th came. NONE OF MY FRIENDS SHOWED UP! I said I was okay, but my first thought was that wasn't I good enough of a friend for anyone to show up for me? I had a fight with Hato too. I was really emotionally at rock bottom. I messaged that guy and he didn't respond to me at all. I knew he was at the opening of a new store though.

Maybe these feelings are all fake news, maybe it’s because these incidents just happen at the same time, maybe because these 4 walls of the room that surround me every day forged these negative feelings that make me forget to count the blessings that I have. I know I’ll get over these soon. Everyone faces different sets of problems. I feel so vulnerable writing this but also feel empowered at the same time. Writing this down does help the clarity of my thoughts and makes me feel so much better. 

Emotionally, I was on the ground. I knew I'd get out of it but it didn't make that time any easier. I posted a story about my feelings and some friends responded back and apologized.

Then came the Thailand trip. I arrived there on Thursday and Friday. Suchi was busy with her workshop. Over the weekend, my family arrived. We traveled around and I took them to tourist spots. I did great and did what I could though. We checked all the famous spots. After they left, it was another 2 miserable days. Suchi did all that she could though to accommodate me but it was just bad timing because I was only available on weekdays.

That was how October ended. I think if there was one running theme throughout this month be that, expectation leads to disappointment.

When I had expectations of of how people should treat me or behave I was setting myself up for disappointment. They have their own lives and actions and could never live up to what I imagine them in my head. The best thing we could do is to let people show us the ways they show love in their ways and we just have to be ready to receive it.

I was walking in the mall in Thailand then there was this realization came. How comforting it would be to know that I'd be okay no matter what even if I'm alone. I'm going to spend most of my time with myself. Isn't it comforting to know that I'd be okay no matter what?

I feel kind of better now. at least I get out of the basement? I'm looking forward to the remaining 2 months of 2024.

[wonderousflames]

Thunderbirds has been a big thing in my family, so this movie holds a very special place in my heart;

I completely agree with pretty much everything you’ve said, it’s a pretty poor script with sloppy characters and I do absolutely hate their disregard of the main tract bros, basically making them cocky douchebags. There are may aspects of it that make it a bad movie - I also hate Transom the nerdy lady sexually harassing Brains, and the ford news 🤮

But, all that being said, this remains one my favourite movies of all time, due to the simple, mindless joy it brings me (and a bucketload of happy nostalgia)

Out of the characters, Ben Kingsley is great as the hood but the character’s writing is meh, kinda just basic villain stuff. The amazing late Bill Paxton as Jeff was a great choice, he plays him so well that I wish we got to see more of him (the plot lets him down a bit).

Out of the three main peeps, Alan is a pain in the arse but at least he has an arc - tintin is just there for her connection to the hood and to be Alan’s love interest (she does have some cool moments tho), and Fermat is, uh, a nerd. Jk I actually kinda like Fermat he’s quite a strong character even if he has his dumb moments

LADY P AND PARKER are by far the best characters in the whole movie; they have great boss/butler chemistry and their characterisation is brilliant. Ron Cook looks a little bit like my late grandfather so he always makes me smile. I love how penny used her feet to operate the TV/computer in her huge bathtub - such a ridiculous idea but very funny. Also love the bit where she’s changing outfit and saying a bunch of things that make sure you know she’s rich

TECH: I actually love the tech in this movie, it has such a grounded feel to it whilst actually being amazing CGI for 2004ish. The thunderbirds are cool, with all of them apart from TB2 being welcome upgrades from TOS. I really love the graphical style they went for with the interfaces in all this ships, it’s complicated but pleasing. One of my fav moments is when brains is forced to unlock the command and control centre and we get to see its full transformation, it’s so goddamn cool

But my favourite tech moment is FAB1’s liftoff: the amazing music combined with the car’s (weird but) futuristic design, and the sfx of Parker’s viewfinder will never not give me chills. Then the cool transformation and liftoff are just awesome. This scene will never not make me smile :D

The best scene of course has to be the old rig scene, allowing us to see some actual Thunderbird action, which a more faithful adaption would focus much more on. I really like Scott in this scene! Also when they show off on their way home is funny

Lastly, the music: done by the amazing Hans Zimmer and Ramin Djawadi, this score is a regular on my soundtrack playlist. I love the use of the original theme, its variations, and the new themes made just for the movie. The synths add the futuristic vibe. Oh and course how could I not mention the busted song, which has the same amount as nostalgia as the film for me :D

My recommendations of tracks from the score: International Rescue, You need to grow up, Can’t wait to be a Thunderbird, TB3 takeoff, Thunderize!, and F.A.B - all the other tracks r still great too.

Thanks for maybe reading!

“I am an undercover agent Alan, so do try to be discreet.”

- Lady P whilst wearing a bright pink outfit and walking up to her bright pink futuristic car

Thunderbirds (2004)

A review by me, CutCat! This is 8-ish pages long!

Spoiler for the end of the film warning: Alan is in International Rescue. What a twist!

Totally Turbulent

Soooo, Tbirds ‘04 is one of those Infamous Adaptations, at least among those who enjoyed Thunderbirds (’65) and of more recent times, Thunderbirds are Go (’15). It’s one of those Bad Live Action Adaptations to a near sacred property, making it dubious contemporaries with Dragon Ball [Evolution], Avatar [The Last Airbender] and suchlike.

But wait, is it really That Bad?? Why is it as divisive as it is? What caused the film to be the way it is, and quite unpopular at that?

First I’m gonna make a long story very short by saying that a Live Action Thunderbirds movie was on and off production for many years, and that the script we ended up with is apparently better than another one that was pitched… but there are reports of cooler scripts further back that never made it, for various reasons. It’s almost a story of it’s own right but I’m only going by 2nd hand information at best, so I’d rather just link them at the end for Additional Reading if y’all felt so inclined.

With that out of the way, we have the Takes from the Andersons to look at. Sylvia had a very favourable reception to it:

“I felt that I’d been on a wonderful Thunderbirds adventure. You, the fans, will I’m sure, appreciate the sensitive adaptation and I’m personally thrilled that the production team have paid us the great compliment of bringing to life our original concept for the big screen. If we had made it ourselves (and we have had over 30 years to do it!) we could not have improved on this new version. It is a great tribute to the original creative team who inspired the movie all those years ago. It was a personal thrill for me to see my characters come to life on the big screen.”

Whereas Gerry had a considerably blunter response at the opposite end of the scale:

“the biggest load of crap I have ever seen in my entire life.”

As for me, a mere fan of predominantly the TAG series with limited but fond memories of the 90’s TOS reruns, I’d been inclined to ignore it and write it off as a DBE or TLA lost cause. But the combined effect of me deciding to check out unpopular media for myself, namely Dragon Ball GT and the live action Super Mario Bros. movie, and thoroughly enjoying both; and the other effect of TAG finishing but my fixation reawakening with the need to consume More, I dived deeper into the fan base than I had dared to before, in which I found more reasons to watch it and make up my own mind fairly.

Find out what I thought, and a review of the movie itself, below the Cut! ✂

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[mariailoveyou-guerin]

I stopped watching the rookie and haven’t watched new Amsterdam in while because I got so fucking tired of how every show on made it seem like a woc couldn’t possible fall in love with a man of color which just got me so annoyed! Like sure I love Sharpwin they my otp but the fact they had Sharp break up with two perfect fine Asian men for no rzn and made the most lame bs excuse ever just to get her with the yt male lead got me so triggered couldn’t they just not set them up to fail or just for the plot if they wouldn’t wasn’t everrrrrr gonna make them happen in the first place so we some of us wouldn’t get excited to attached or get our hopes up about the ships! don’t get me wrong I love sharpwin but it was just so annoying especially as someone who is huge fan of her and my girl is always paired with the yt lead and in 90% she gets hate for it by yt fans of the show cough doctor who fans my poor queen the hate pain and suffering she’s endured bc of whovivians is unimaginable so yeah glad she’s loved in yt ship now

then there’s the rookie that I stopped at first I loved Chen and Bradford they 2 of my favs but I didn’t like how they seemed to just have my girl go from one old yt cop to the next then they had her date another 2 guy in uniform but didn’t even give them a chance and they were both moc I think so it was like nah let’s not give them a chance so she too can end up with the yt lead man again like she didnt start the show with being into the white male lead! That’s what I hate them not even giving woc a chance to find happiness or date or love with moc! look at Bobby and athena love that ship it wasnt just let’s have the black woman with the yt male lead it was build up it had romance it was a ship with substance like they didn’t break her and her moc up just bc they wanted her to end with the yt lead there was a whole story seasons before they happened all of that great writing great plot great storyline then just thinking every show has to have the woc end up with yt male lead bc thats what they think everyone wants it for some odd reason especially blackpeople god knows where they got that from but I’m sure it’s their thinking no one wanna watch a black/poc ship be happy in love and that people just want yt leads in all and every one of the ships bc that’s the only way anyone ever wanna watch enjoy the show that ship right or even root for the blackpoc ships characters as love interests or as in general their whole characters arcs! and it seems sadly right on some parts bc yts defently only ever wanna watch a show or ship if there’s at least one yt lead as part of the ship and as face of the show! Anyways im so fcvking tired of it! that’s why I ain’t getting my hopes up about popecleo in obx and that’s why they making jiara happened now bc that theory of theirs sadly has merit! I won’t even start on Bridgeton fcvk that whole show but ben polin edwina and ! that’s why I say Mr. Malcom’s List is far far far superior period drama then anything bridegerton could ever think of or ever do.!!

Heard something reverse went down in show resident it’s been a while since I watched was on s3-s4 I think and I stopped bc I saw a spoiler that I’m still not ready to face like my queen Emily whom I’ve watched every shows she’s been in d worded so I can’t get myself to watch but saw some clips here that it was reversed tho

there’s so many shows I could tag that did this sh*t if there’s any y’all feel so strongly about like me with the ones in the tag do share might have started that show but given up when all that shit went down who knows y’all could surprise me an it could be a show I aint seen

[brascu]

The Invisible Men

HEY I wrote a fanfic about Klaus and Ben’s relationship. Old Ben, that is.

I know I said I don’t ship them, but, hm, I don’t know how to explain how I see their relationship lol So if you’re anti that ship, don’t read it, tho they don’t kiss or anything. They simply share everything?

It’s a story about Klaus sleeping with his head inside the toilet :D

Be mindfull that when I say “sleeping”, I mean dying, but it’s Klaus, It’s just something he does. And it’s an OD. So, yeah, That’s the warning, be safe, love you.

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The Invisible Men

They were invisible, both of them. They were the same and yet so different. No one saw them, but one was said to be a hero, a great guy, someone they’ve missed; and the other was known for being useless, trouble and someone they would rather miss.

And Klaus was too high again. He could barely see Ben. They were at the bathroom, Klaus wanted to puke. Ben wished he could touch him, just so he didn’t end up sleeping again with his head inside the toilet.

Ben was worried, he always was. But specially when Klaus seemed to be running after death itself. It was ironic how this guy, who was so afraid of the dead, was always trying to die. 

Ben was pissed. Klaus thought that, being dead, he wouldn’t be able to see the dead? That they’d leave him alone? If that was true, Ben would’ve been free from the Horrors a long time ago, but they were still there and they would always be.

It hurt seeing his brother like that, doing everything and anything to die. He wished he was alive. Couldn’t they swap places? Klaus could rest and Ben could have some ice cream. Ben really wanted some ice cream, he thought. 

“Klaus, are you done? Let’s go get ice cream, I want to see you eating. What do you think?” 

Being dead for so long, they developed ways for him to enjoy the little things. Klaus would eat whatever Ben felt like and tell him how it was, how it tasted. Ben loved it when he was just a little high from pot and gave him these descriptions in metaphors, in music or even poetry. When he wanted to watch a movie, Klaus would get two sits, and would hiss at anyone that tried to get his brother’s place. Even when hooking up they would decide together who Klaus was going to go with. They had this rule that Ben was not supposed to look at Klaus, but they both knew Ben watched the whole thing.

It was not as if it was dirty or anything, it’s just that Ben’s existence was basically being Klaus’ voyeur for everything. He lived by empathizing with his brother’s experiences. Maybe that’s how he was able to grow older.

“Klaus?” 

Klaus was taking too long to take his face out of the toilet, his body looked too relaxed. Looking closer, Ben could see some blood in the middle of all that puke. And Klaus’ green eyes wide opened, looking nowhere. No response.

“Shit.”

Ben wished he was corporeal so he could check his vitals, anything. But he couldn’t. 

Instead he got off the bathroom and could see Allison and Luther chatting. He ran towards them, panicking.

"... I can’t believe he’s here again…” Allison said silently. Ben wanted to tell her that Klaus–

“And Pogo said some things are missing again… ” Oh, great, they were talking about Klaus. “I’m sure he’s here stealing things to buy drugs, again…” Of course he is! He doesn’t have a job!

“When will he grow out of it?” oh, yeah, He’s gonna wake up tomorrow and be free from addiction! Go check on him! “One day we’ll end up finding his body… I wish we could help, but…” You can!!! Get him out of the fucking bathroom! He’s dying! 

“Buuut it’s Klaus, he won’t change…” they both sighted and Ben’s throat felt heavy, they couldn’t hear him. “He could at least do those things out of here…”

Ben was pissed. That guy didn’t have a place to go! This is his house, for god’s sake! He is not just a problem, he’s a person! He’s their brother, and he needs help. Ben knew it better than any of them, but he couldn’t do a thing. They had to go see him, go help him, now!

“He’s been in there for a long while. Don’t you think we should check on him?” YES ALLISON, PLEASE!

“Don’t worry, mom will check on him later.” WHAT? Where did this information came from? Mom never checked on Klaus when he was high. Ben did, it was always Ben. And Ben was so frustrated. “C’mon, let’s eat something before bed…”

And they left. They simply left. They could’ve just looked at him, but guess it was too troublesome. No one would help Klaus.

Ben was shaking his non corporeal body, he felt scared, pissed, but mostly scared. And he could not just stay there, he should go see if something changed. If Klaus died, at least they could share immortality together, right? Their duo shouldn’t end like this. It didn’t end when Ben died, why should it when it was Klaus’ turn?

But god, how relieved Ben was when he got back into the bathroom and saw his stupid brother looking at him from the floor, with a stupid smile on his face.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

“I thought you left me…” Klaus was also relieved, Ben could see in his face. “I thought…” he cleaned his bloody running nose. “you got tired of my bulshit and finally went to heaven…”

Ben giggled to hide the fear that was glued to his face for those last minutes.

“No, I just excused myself from watching you sleep with your face in the toilet.” He kneeled by Klaus’ side and both couldn’t hide their smiles. “There’s only so much second hand embarrassment one can endure.”

They just stood there, looking at each other, happy they were not alone right now. And that they were not invisible.

Ben watched as Klaus washed his face poorly. That’s good enough anyway. He turned towards his brother who stood in front of the door and, asking for him to let him open it, he asked: 

“Do you think mom has ice cream here? I woke up dying for it…”

Ben smiled, happy to live by his side.

[mortiflyer]

okay I have way too many thoughts about sab season 2 so here goes *deep breath*

on the "main storyline" side: as someone who hasn't read the sab books but has read soc duology, I rlly liked alina's storyline this season and thought it was decently paced for how few episodes there were. i loved mal and nikolai being friends and not having a random awful love triangle and that alina didn't love nikolai except for platonically! made sense.

baghra kicked ass and ben was again amazing as the d*rkling. loved seeing alinas struggle and his side even though i hate him, because we got to see genya. (SIDE NOTE GENYADAVID WRECKED ME.)

mal being sturmhond was actually a nice twist imo. the twins ROCK and i love tamar and nadia sm. adrik too he's so cute.

on the crows side: even though i adore the crows (and there were zero faults with the cast's performances, as usual), i found myself a little disappointed with some of the writing. some decisions to put book scenes in early made sense (MORE SENSE THAN SOME OF YOU WILL GIVE THEM CREDIT FOR, considering they want to feed us crumbs IF the show gets cancelled), but generally it was disorienting to see the ck plotline, or at least part of it.

i think that the one great thing abt the ck plotline is that it opens up new implications for matthias and pekka's motives, both towards each other and towards kaz, and i love that idea. it's something i'm the most excited for, honestly.

kaz's backstory was well-done and well-acted by jordie, young kaz, and current kaz! freddy continues to be an absolute superstar and one of my favorites in the cast. one thing about kaz, tho: i HATED that the dregs weren't already his crew...like girl who tf is running the crow club. kaz is older in this iteration but not by THAT MUCH...anyways i do think it'll provide basis for the big bolliger/not trusting kaz scene at the beginning of the real soc plot but i still didn't like it.

the other major thing i hated was how rushed wesper was (this one is pretty obvious), but let me also volunteer this: it made sense. of the crows, they have the least traumatic relationship (even tho they have personal traumas yk), and because we can't guarantee that the show will get a spinoff, SOMEONE has to end up happy. thus, no slow burn. annoyed about it, but it's not unreasonable + i adore jack and kit together.

kaNEJ THIS SEASON OMG. the scene in the chapel at the end of the season...wow. i thought it was superbly done and made sense in the storyline of the show, despite being from the books. yes, they had some slightly rushed moments, but again, no guarantees for another season. also this means they're probably planning even more development for a spinoff!!

helnik...cal and dani blow me away even when they're not together?? how do they do that?? amazing. i loved the tension; it was just like the books.

jesper's powers becoming stronger after he hallucinates aditi were a nice touch imo. when colm comes around he'll have to reckon with himself even more now, so that's actually interesting + good setup. he was amazing in episode seven!!!

INEJ SAVING ALINA AGAIN. the implications it has for her religious beliefs are so wow. also, her looking for slavers with sturmhond (MAL!) and the crew is great bc we'll see her again, but it also gives her a minor amount of closure. not full closure, but enough to keep fans wanting to see her again.

on a general note: my favorite episodes were five and seven. i thought five did character interactions super well (specifically nina/kaz and kanej), and seven brought the characters from both storylines together in a way that was, imo, better than last season. also, in episode eight: ALINA USING THE DARK CUT ON THE PAREM SOLDIER?? WOWOWOWW I LOVE THAT I'M SO EXCITED. people will be mad kaz knew about parem before van eck told him but my guess is that the van eck kidnapping stuff DID happen and we just didn't see it yet (wait for spinoff!!)

i'll definitely have to write more posts as it settles in, but yeah...that's the gist of it lol. basically: i will always be a show defender, even if there's clumsy writing and some hamfisting!! i love that damn show!! i am really excited to see them again (praying for a spinoff) and i loved the way the season ended tbh.

[ghost-rule0]

German! Ticci Toby Headcanons

ATTETION: yet unedited

Wanted to write this since I found out he was part german so enjoy :D

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-Toby grew up bilingual. His parents moved when he and Lyra were around 5 or 6 because his mother wanted to move closer to her relatives. 

( note here I am not sure which part of his parents IS german because I have never seen it being mentioned in a character sheet or post by the creator (or at least I have not seen it))

-Since he was homeschooled he rather stayed inside to avoid people making fun of his tics (both motoric and verbal) so it didn’t take him long to discover early 2010 Youtube.  -His current humor matched most Youtube Channels that were popular back then like YTitty, Apecrime, Applewar or IBali, tho I am pretty sure his favorite Youtuber was our Queen Coldmirror.  -The internet, by the time he grew older, had to go to school, face bullying and the contant abuse of his own father, was a safe place for him. 

When he didn’t stay at other peoples places or hide in his sisters room, he spend most time in his room reading or surfing the internet.  -You could say he grew up along with the internet. He watched youtubers rise and fall, websites become popular and die and people change.  -Of course he was a Minecraft teen what would you expect? His sister and mother got him a computer for his birthday once and he not only watched letsplays but also played on his own or on server.

He decided to stay out of Teamspeaks as much as possible because of his verbal tics but other than that his tics didn’t affect his gaming experience that much. Motoric tics calm down when he himself is calm so he could peacfully play for hours when his dad wasn’t home.

-He often played together with Lyra of course -Popular letsplayers around that time were GermanLetsPlay, Taddl, Gronkh, Dner and Ungespielt.  -After Lyras accident he locked himself in his room more than ever. He tried to drown the Opertors (Slendermans) effects with music but that didn’t really work.

 Around that time his day also became a lot more agressive and started to drink more beer 

(German beer is a lot harder than americans btw) which stressed him no end, making his tics hard to conrol and for him to play games almost impossible. ------------------------------------------------------------------------

Coming to his mansion life. -Because most of the Creeps speak english he rarely says something in german. The fact he grew up bilingual made most of them didn’t even notice he could speak german since he lacked the accent. -People only started to notice because he curses most times in german. -He also switches languages when he forgets words. 

If people understand what he means he just shruggs it off tho if they stare at him confused as he tries to explain he gets nervous and his tics start to act up more and more

And when they still don’t understand what he means he can snap under the stress.

-be careful around him, special when he acts calm but randomly starts saying german words you don’t understand.

Most time that indicates that he is mad. -despite Ben and Jeff telling they are most resistant to alcohol out of the group never mess with Toby (or europeans in general) 

-He isn’t even tipsy if one of the two already is passed out. -He is also the one that gets other alcohol than Beer. 

-He is not afraid to teach Sally curse words. Of course only when his boss isn’t watching. -I know I know, the waffel joke is old and over used, I know. 

-Tho i can see him having a sweet tooth, specially for nutella. Which he buys as if an apocalypse starts the next day.  (Because the best nutella still comes from europe and import takes ages).

-He still is a gamer so it’s obvious he often hangs out with Ben. 

-when I said he grew up with his youtuber I really ment that.

Tho of course he couldn’t use wifi on the run from the police -From the youtubers he watched back as a teen he actually only watches Taddl, Ungespielt (Unge) and GermanLetsPlay (GLP) anymore.  -Because most people probebly don’t know them: Taddl or T had a long pause from youtube where he started a band with his best friends and got into rap. By now he is back with Twitch streams and still plays games but also makes music now. -German Rap is bullshit I tell you that. So he has a pretty solid opinion that T is the only good german rapper he listens to.  -He hates german schlager, not only because its bad (and only bareable when you are hella drunk) but I can see his mom Connie as one of those german schlager moms lmao. -when he isn’t out on jobs for his boss he is in his room and just chills. Even years after the accident he isn’t really the most social person

but that doesn’t mean people like Ben, Jeff or Tim and Brian just come to his room and chill with him. -his room is still his favorite place after all -I have a personal headcanon that Ben just puts stuff like LED lights or consols that HE doesn’t have a place for in other peoples room, which is why Toby also has LEDs in his room  -plays the Hypa Hypa Mama Mia Remix to party (IT’S SO GOOD) -most important. He is a stoner like ben. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ IT’S SO LONG MY COMPUTER IS LAGGING AHAH- 

anyway that are my first headcannons I have ever written omg most of the stuff here is based on my own childhood  I couldn’t put as much character interactions in here as I would like to but when I dont get hated for this one I will write a second one :DDD also I tried to leave his tics out because even tho they affect his character they don’t define his entair character (like i have seen some people comment)