#at first I was just gonna say yeah <3 but no I have articulated thoughts on this

[pasteldritchwhispers]

bap. favourite sekaiju creature(s)?

If I had to genuinely pick it would be the Ghost Dragon line probably

Not even for Sekaiju related reasons, but because it was my Favorite favorite Fierce creature and holds so much sentinental value

Barring that uuuuh

FishDog n PulsarWyvern were some of my favs when the game first released. They also mean much to me

Also OilAvenger line

Generally I'm a HUGE little guy enjoyer. I don't care about big secret cool guys with lore, I care about funny creatures that skitter

I used 2 love TriangleMan from when they were still testplace. You will live on forever in my heart

And uuuuuh

You'd think Undeniable would mean more to me, being my first mutant. You're incorrect. I don't think abt that guy at all

GenesisChild is banger design also. Super super neat.

[Sorry for the AUTARCH paragraph. Sadly they were my most lovehate creature ever]

AUTARCH and it's relateds were also super neat but I had a personal vendetta against it bc imo AUTARCH was the first of what I'd call bastard level secrets that you were Not going to reasonably figure out. You just weren't. You had to ask ppl or dig in the discord to get anywhere. I think it is somewhat funny that a bit after it's removal was when a bunch of updates came into place making certain guys easier to access. The piece of me that held that vendetta feels vindicated but in all it's just my own old pettiness towards that like game direction LOL (being a fierce player at heart, which to my memory didn't Have secrets to begin with?? Not like sekaiju does. Not that secrets r bad just that my brain hated the convoluted ones) (which is even funnier considering the first mutants were equally as difficult to locate??? Ig my brain just Hated AUTARCH bc of the amount of steps. Easier to rationalize a few secret hidden guys w convoluded access points vs the multi-step grinding for one guy ig)

In spite of the above I did love the design I just had to let it grow on me. And now it is shattered into ten billion little pieces. Sad!! I'm sure whatever replaces it will be super sick tho the recent designs are on point

Idk all the new creatures are just bangers. All the old creatures, no matter how janky, are still strongly sentimental. What more do you want from me I just like Guys but I think this is a good approximation of ones I'd pull as favorites.

Ily GhostDragon you mean the world to me <3

[aakariiiii]

A Manga Date ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

contains: Chifuyu x fem!reader but can be read as gn!reader.

in which Chifuyu’s idea of a manga date results in your first kiss

a/n: This isn’t proofread!! so there might be some spelling/grammar mistakes but hopefully not!! also this will kind of start a series where toman members take you you on dates that matches their likes/hobbies like chifuyu taking you on a manga date, mitsuya on a date where he teaches you sewing or tailoring (hopefully this makes sense) but yeah, please enjoy and have a good day or night guys!!!! <3

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Nothing other than yours and chifuyu’s soft breathes and the occasional gasps of awe and chuckles tiptoeing out of Chifuyu’s mouth could be heard in your room, punctuated by the gentle rustles of manga pages turning.

The both of you were currently seated in a love seat in your room, knees and sides touching as both of you had a manga in your hands after Chifuyu proposed the idea of a manga date.

You and Chifuyu have been dating for a few months now but you haven’t gotten to a point where a kiss was shared between the both of you, and you were always okay with it.

Well, up until now.

You’ve been gaping at a panel of Chifuyu’s so called favorite romance manga for the past half an hour. The panel depicted a tender first kiss, forcing a familiar yet tantalizing sensation to creep in. The simple act portrayed in the manga now ignited an unspoken yearning within you, a desire that had previously remained dormant.

Your mind kept wandering into the uncharted territory of what it might feel to touch chifuyu’s lips with yours. The mere thought made your blood dance in curiosity.

While contemplating whether your should voice your thoughts or suppress them as just thoughts, your train of thought was cut off by Chifuyu’s arm draping around your shoulder, pulling you closer to his chest and radiating warmth onto your body.

“Everything okay, y/n? Liking the plot?”

“Y-yeah! I can see why this is your favorite manga,” hesitation seemed evident in your voice but you prayed that he wouldn’t notice.

“I know! It’s so good, wait till you read the second volume, you’ll love it!” he replied excitedly, happy about the fact that you are enjoying it.

The both of you were again surrounded by silence, but this time, you couldn’t help but steal glances at Chifuyu’s lips. Desire was getting to you and you couldn’t suppress it, not this time at least.

After a few minutes of stealing occasional glances and gaping at the panel, Chifuyu broke the silence.

“Y/n…is—is there something on my lips?” chifuyu chuckled, slightly embarrassed as he brushed his bottom lip to ensure that nothing was there.

brush my lips as well! something inside of you voices as you were caught off guard, flustered by the fact that he did notice.

“H—huh? N—no, its just…” You trailed off, unable to articulate a single thought as your cheeks flushed crimson.

“Is that so..?”

You gulped as you nod, embarrassment swimming around you.

You then hear chifuyu hum and say “y’know, if you wanna kiss me that badly you can just ask for it,”

You drop the manga in an attempt to hide your pink cheeks with your hands.

“T—that’s not it,” you protest into your hands as you could feel your heart beating faster by the second, embarrassment captivating your body and every thought of yours.

“Awh, what a shame. And here I thought we were gonna share our first kiss today, but I guess we’ll save that for another time,” he unknowingly teases you as he’s able to read every small gesture you make.

Although you truly wanted the kiss, you felt embarrassed and so, disappointment sank deep within you as a frown made it’s way up to your face, hidden by your hands.

But then, what caught you off guard even more was the way Chifuyu’s fingers brushed against your face, moving some of your hair away from your and forcing you to drop your hands and meet Chifuyu’s gaze.

A gaze filled with need more than want, screaming at you to come closer, to which you did.

And with hands cupping your face, you were pulled onto Chifuyu.

The warmth of his breath collided against your lips, making your breath hitch in response. An instinct instructed you to close your eyes whole both your lips met in a hesitant yet tender kiss. A kiss filled with unspoken emotion that has been lingering within you for too long. He tasted sweet, and you wanted more, or rather, needed more.

The sweet and innocent exchange that spoke volume without words came to a halt as the both of you pulled away, and a moment of quiet remained in the air. But Chifuyu being Chifuyu, decided to break the silence with a sense of humor, to which you were grateful for.

“Who knew a manga date would break our kiss record that I worked so hard to maintain,” he jokes to which you shrug in response.

“Blame it on that cliché manga of yours for giving me ideas,”

“Oh really? So was the kiss up to my cliché manga standards?” he cocked an eyebrow.

You jokingly contemplated the answer, a smirk making it’s way up to your lips. “Hmm, needs a bit more of a drama, maybe? Oh I know! We should get stuck in the janitors room once, that’ll add up the spice,”

A chuckle escaped out of Chifuyu’s lips as he leaned to give you an affection peck on the cheek.

“Yeah? Fine then, I’ll plan a more cinematic scene for next time’s kiss if you’d like that,”

[doeeyeseddie]

For the soft prompts:

16, Buddie

how could i resist writing something for "laughing while kissing"? thank you for sending the prompt <3

[read on ao3]

It’s late, the kids are in bed – even Chris is in his room, though he’s probably still up reading or on his phone, Buck only made sure he turned off his laptop – and his husband is waiting for him by the back door with a smile.

“Sit outside with me?” Eddie asks, and Buck grabs the hand he’s holding out. He’d follow Eddie anywhere, and their backyard is one of the least scary places he’s followed him to.

The backyard is lit by the string lights they put up last year, a few months after they moved in. One of the neighbors is having a party, laughter and the distant sound of music wading over to them.

They’ve got a Hollywood swing on the porch, one of the big 4-seater ones that Christopher insisted on getting, now that they have the room. Buck and Eddie often sit on it in the evenings, and Buck always thinks of that cliché of an old couple on their rocking chairs. If he and Eddie get to grow old together on this swing, he’ll have fulfilled a dream he’s had since before he could articulate it.

Tonight, though, Eddie leads him past it and off the porch into the middle of the backyard.

“Where are we going?” Buck asks, curious but not worried. “I thought we were just gonna sit out here.”

“Changed my mind,” Eddie says, grinning in that playful way he’s only started doing in the past few years, in the time after his breakdown and his way out of all the pain and repression. Buck loves it.

Eddie pulls on his hand sharply, and Buck stumbles into him, bracing himself with a hand on his chest. Still grinning, Eddie wraps an arm around him and lifts their joined hands in the approximation of a dancing pose.

Buck laughs. “We’re dancing?”

“Yeah,” Eddie says, swaying them back and forth in the rhythm of the song playing in the distance. “We’re dancing.”

Buck smiles and steps closer, letting go of Eddie’s hand so he can wrap his arm around his shoulders instead. Eddie adjusts easily, leading them in small circles around their backyard.

“Did you ever think we’d end up here?” Buck asks quietly after a few minutes, his temple pressed to Eddie’s.

“If someone had told me that first day we’d end up here, I would’ve sent them in for a brain scan,” Eddie answers, and Buck pinches his chest lightly, grinning into his neck. Eddie laughs. “No, I don’t know. I mean, after a certain point I hoped we would, but I don’t think I really believed it until we got married.”

“Sometimes I still don’t believe it,” Buck admits, and Eddie turns his head to kiss his cheek, his lips trailing all the way back to his ear.

“Well, believe it,” he murmurs. “None of us are going anywhere.”

Buck smiles, thinking of the rest of their family in their house behind them. This is his life, and he gets to keep it. Gets to keep them, be kept by them.

“I love you,” he says, and Eddie squeezes his waist, kisses the spot right below his ear.

“I love you,” he echoes, and Buck will never ever get tired of hearing those words from him.

The music in the distance switches to a more uptempo song, and Eddie speeds them up too, spinning faster. Buck grabs his hand again and lets Eddie spin him, laughing.

“I’m gonna get dizzy,” he warns, and Eddie wraps him in his arms for a moment before twirling him again.

“I’ll catch you,” he promises.

He will, he always has, but Buck changes the placement of his hands anyway, using Eddie’s surprise to spin them once quickly, and then dipping Eddie.

Eddie lets out a yelp that turns into a laugh halfway down, his hands clinging to Buck’s shoulders tightly.

“You dick,” he laughs, and Buck kisses his bared throat, keeping them in this position for now. 

“Revenge,” he says, laughing when Eddie kicks a leg up and tries wrapping it around the back of Buck’s. 

It’s not a big change and doesn’t make Eddie much heavier in his arms, but it’s still enough to make Buck lose balance. He tries to catch himself unsuccessfully but topples over, trying to control Eddie’s fall as much as possible, which means that his hands are so busy catching his husband that he can’t catch himself and lands right on top of him with a breathless, “oof.”

“You okay?” Eddie asks, and Buck lifts himself onto his elbow so he doesn’t crush him anymore.

“Yeah, are you?” he asks back. “I’m sorry–”

“It was my fault, Buck,” Eddie interrupts him, grinning again already. “And you know I don’t mind having you on top of me.”

Buck snorts. “You could’ve just said. There are easier ways to get me in this position.”

“Yeah, I know exactly how easy you are,” Eddie teases, and then he’s laughing again, his body shaking under Buck’s, and Buck can’t help but join in.

“You’re an idiot,” he says without any heat, and Eddie’s hand comes up to cup the back of his head.

“But you still married me,” he says, sounding so pleased about it that Buck has to laugh again, and bend down to kiss him.

“What can I say,” he murmurs, his grin meeting Eddie’s. “You’re my idiot.”

Eddie laughs into his mouth and keeps kissing him, right here on the dry grass in their backyard, someone else’s music the distant soundtrack.

[godtier]

so i wasn't gonna make a separate post about this but @sapphire-weapon had a post (that i reblogged a few days ago) in which someone mentioned that they think it was a missed opportunity in RE6 for jake to not have spoken to wesker. i had a p long conversation with sirea about it and my thoughts about that sentiment, but it was also nearly 3 AM my time when that happened so i dunno if i was even articulating my thoughts properly lmao

and yes... this is technically a meta post and i know i said i was gonna do the mmx meta post first... but this one isn't gonna be nearly as long (i hope) and i gotta get the brainworms out before i die

(quick edit note: i reworded the list item below from saying he was "likely a drug addict" to "likely a recreational drug user" because i feel like that better encompasses what i'm trying to get across

(another edit note: i made another post regarding jake's usage of drugs that stemmed from this post! it's marked as mature bc of drug usage, so it won't show up in tag search. if you're interested in that, look here!)

so the idea that wesker being alive in OG RE6 would have brought an opportunity for jake's character is kinda, imo, antithetical to the purpose of jake's character in the first place.

when we meet jake, we know a few things about him, right off the bat:

he's a mercenary

he's likely a recreational drug user or at least heavy/risk-taking user

he doesn't give a fuck about anything but making money

his whole character journey is going from this selfish, money-focused dickhead to someone who actually cares about doing something good, just because it's the right thing to do. at the start, jake refuses to simply give his blood away when sherry mentions needing it for a vaccine. no, he wants a cash payout. 50 million dollery-doos for a pint of his blood. by the end, he lowers the price to a mere 50 dollars. one could argue that was symbolic and he actually didn't care if he was paid or not, but that's neither here nor there.

but why was he like this? because his childhood was shite; his mother was sickly, he had no father figure, and by 15-ish, jake had to learn how to hustle to keep food on the table. and by "hustle" i mean "do a bunch of mercenary work and killing people." and when shit went south with his little group of mercenaries (their entire group was sold out by a heel-turner), jake basically went "fuck alla y'all" and lost all sense of conviction or morals.

during the game, he expresses his bitterness for his father, wesker, pretty clearly. even though his mother still loved wesker, tried to raise jake to respect him despite never knowing him, it didn't matter to jake. he hated that guy. well, really, who doesn't?

we're not gonna talk about excella rn ok

jake's entire character arc is built up around this hatred as well as a subconscious fear of becoming his father. the fear part doesn't show up until later in the story, after he and sherry were captured by the Big Bad's organization. they were both experimented on for several months, during which jake overheard the researchers talking about his father, wesker. this gives jake a sort of "explanation" as to why he is the way he is; he takes the "nature" side of the nature vs nurture argument.

ofc sherry scolds his ass and basically tells him "grow up and take responsibility for your actions."

and here's the thing... this fear, narratively, works just fine without wesker being there.

(since this got obscenely long, pls continue below for the actual explanation lmao)

jake eventually comes to the conclusion that yeah no it's definitely up to him to not become wesker, not his genetics. he does this without wesker being there. that's the entire point of his character journey. in order for an interaction with wesker to even matter or have any sort of impact on jake's character arc, his character arc as a whole would need to change.

see, imo, wesker being there diminishes a lot of the power of that journey. in the game, he isn't there for jake to scream at, to question. all those thoughts in his head that might be circulating around, like why he left his mother, why he did what he did, etc, cannot be answered. this is not a bad thing in a character arc as this is shit that happens to people all the time. people don't always get the answers they may want from family members because those family members are dead. they have to learn to move on without those answers or they have to rely on people who knew that person to fill in the blanks. this is what jake already does in game. he has to rely on sherry, and by a smaller extent, chris, to fill in those blanks for him.

but we as players, observers of the narrative, already know the answers to some of those questions. why wesker did what he did, primarily. anything else is only pertinent to jake and him knowing those answers doesn't change anything for his character arc as it is.

if wesker was there in the game, what would that even add to jake's narrative? a scene where jake yells at his dad? asks him "why did you leave?" when wesker wasn't even aware that he had a kid in the first place? remember: wesker had no fucking idea that he had a child. there would be no reason for wesker to even believe jake in the first place. sure, there could be a scene where he goes "well i'll be damned, ig he really is my misfired chromosome," but... then what? what does that add?

you could argue that wesker could use jake, maybe try to manipulate him into doing shit for his plans, but... that wouldn't work with the way jake's characterization is mapped out. his entire characterization would have to change for this to work in a satisfying way.

jake already hates wesker without ever meeting him. he would not willingly participate in anything wesker offered to him. he already knows that wesker nearly destroyed the world multiple times and had a hand in destroying an entire city. even if jake has no moral compass at the start of the game, by the time he learns about what wesker really did, who he really was, he's already showing that he does have one, it was just dormant up until that point. he's clearly disgusted by what wesker did. what foothold would wesker have that wouldn't immediately result in it just falling flat?

given how wesker is, i could see him perhaps belittling jake, maybe saying "wow you suck for being my spawn," or something during a fight with the intent to rile him up. would that work? no, not narratively nor not in the way jake is characterized. again, jake doesn't want to be like wesker. why would insulting him and saying he's not "as good" as wesker expected him to be motivate jake or even anger him? it shouldn't, because jake doesn't want to be anything like wesker. if anything, it may annoy him, but that's kind of a lame reaction, right?

if anything, the most i could see culminating out of this would be jake standing over wesker after he's defeated again (because it's resident evil and obviously wesker can't win) and having a "wow idk what i was worried about" moment. that's it.

but he doesn't need that. having a scene like that cheapens the weight of him figuring that out himself, without wesker there as "proof."

because the point of his story, of his character arc, is that he figures that out on his own (and with the help of sherry and the events he witnesses) because he has to. he doesn't need wesker there to spoon-feed that to him. he figures that out by working with sherry, by seeing the effects of the C-Virus on everything that it infects. wesker being an abstract entity in his life is enough, because the frustration of not seeing him, not being able to put a bullet in his skull himself, fuels the rest of his journey.

this is where i think that people who make these observations or criticisms (primarily those who think that jake's character would have been improved if wesker was there) need to understand the difference between what's good for a character as a person and what's good for their arc.

interacting with wesker would be good for jake as a person, in that he would no longer need to wonder about it. the answers would be spelled out for him, and he wouldn't have to do any wondering about the what-if. he wouldn't have any doubts left that he'd need to untangle.

but in doing that, it cheapens his arc; it would do more of a disservice to it, imo, than anything else. it would make his journey more formulaic and boring.

it would also clutter up the already cluttered narrative of that game. you have him not only struggling with his heritage, struggling with the fear of becoming his father, struggling with needing to be the "savior" by giving his blood, struggling with his moral compass, but now also struggling with seeing his father for the first time in person?

it makes his arc top-heavy. in that scenario, you could easily replace him with another, completely new character who has zero ties to wesker and the story wouldn't change in any meaningful way. the reason why it works the way to does now is because wesker is already dead. it creates that internal conflict, that internal frustration, that jake has to learn how to deal with since he cannot take that frustration out on his father in-person. he has to make peace with that struggle in other ways.

now, that's not to say there aren't ways that adding wesker into the story of RE6 that don't disrupt that balance. primarily, when it comes to a potential RE6 remake, the writing team can (and hopefully will) rework aspects of the entire game to make the plot more streamlined. this could include adding wesker in and redoing jake's characterization and character arc entirely.

this would be the only way i could see it working out. if jake's entire motivation was changed, his entire backstory was tweaked, then wesker being around could probably work! an interaction between them could be made to make sense and not bog down the rest of the plot as a result.

sirea also mentioned to me in our conversation that adding wesker in to RE6 remake could actually help streamline the plot and i do agree with that. she mentioned that all of the main characters have a tie to wesker in some way, which is absolutely true. having him there would neatly tie their campaigns together in the plotline and make the game as a whole feel less disjointed and messy.

this is especially true when we consider there are 4 fuckin campaigns that all run alongside one another and intersect at random points. it gets so fucking difficult to page through and figure out when certain things happen in the plot. you'll see them happen in order in chris's campaign, for example, then you go start leon's campaign and have to start over again and try to remember what happened at the same time during chris's campaign and so on.

now imagine that not with just two campaigns but four. it gets gross quick. sure, there are parts where the characters run into each other and that helps ground a general timeline in your head, but as far as time elapsed... it's so fuckin hard u guise

there's a reason why it's so hard to summarize the plot of RE6. it's because there is just so much going on in that fucking game.

anyway, that's my rant/sort of meta analysis about why i think wesker didn't need to be in OG RE6 and probably would have made jake's entire arc stupider than it already was

[yetanothergreyjedi]

Left and Returned: Definitely Nothing Wrong

Danny Phantom x Supernatural Crossover

Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 part 6

Ao3 (includes additional notes)

Chapter 7: Bleed the Same Light

Dean wasn't going to dwell on the chick flick stuff. They got the kid home. They stayed until it was awkward again. They went back to hunting. They spent a week unraveling a spell of a Mesopotamian goddess, revealed some creeps,  and hopefully prevented a childhood of bullying. 

They'd established that Sam sees nothing wrong with using demon controlling powers for exorcisms and that nothing Dean can say will change his mind. This is partially because Dean can't articulate why the fact that something demonic should in itself be a red flag. He didn't think he'd ever need to explain that, but here they were. The argument hung over their heads, waiting to be revived when either of them had something to elaborate on, this wasn't that unusual for them, if Dean was being honest.

For now, they're hustling pool, also like usual.

And it was going well, they were about to get five hundred off this guy and—

"Keep the money." Sam tells the man, already walking to the other side of the room. They were about to take 500 dollars?! That was a hunt or two's worth of supplies.

"Keep the money? What—" Dean follows his brother's path. There's a woman by the windows and Dean can tell immediately that something is off about her. Off enough that maybe they can scrounge enough cash to hustle someone else later.

"What is it?" Sam asks her.

"I just have some info, and then I'm gone."

"Okay." Dean frowns. Sam didn't mention an informant of any kind, but it also hadn't come up and there was plenty to cover of the past year. It didn't explain… Dean hated it, hated the word that Danny had so neatly infected into his vocabulary. Her vibe was awful.

"Girl named Anna Milton escaped from a locked ward yesterday. The demons seem pretty keen on finding her." 

Demons?! Okay, who is this chick and why would she have the inside scoop of— oh. "Ruby?!"

"Hi Dean,” It's like flipping a switch, how she goes from conspiratorial to mocking. “How was it down there?"

He doesn't dignify that with any response more than a glare. Sam stays on topic.

"And who is she?"

"No idea…” Ruby turns back to Sam. “But I'm thinking that she's important, 'cause the order is to capture her alive. Thought you might want to find her first."

"Dean?"

"Sam?"

"What do you think?"  Oh... okay, so Sammy was gonna let him make the call. Weird. And really not what he was expecting after the fight about demon controlling powers.

"Why bring this to us." He asked the thing wearing a girl.

"I brought it to Sam."

"Because you want him to use more freaky demon magic." She glared.

"I'm just delivering the news. You can do whatever you want with it."

Dean sighed. He was going to regret this.

---

Trickery, disguises, and emphasizing the right words at the right time, gets them the girls sketchbook.

The sketchbook told them they were dealing with something very real. Broken seals and familiar symbols, their names repeated again and again in a fervent skrall that covered pages, the word ‘inevitable’ in oddly neat letters under a pocket watch, only tiny pieces of the book made sense. But the little sense it did make was very real and very terrifying.

Her home had been invaded but the church she grew up in seemed firmly in-tact.

It was their only guess. And they were right.

"Anna? We're not gonna hurt you." They lower their weapons. "We're here to help. My name is Sam. This is my brother, Dean."

"Sam? Not Sam Winchester?"

"Uh, yeah."

"And you're Dean. The Dean?"

"Sure. The Dean, I guess." This was weird.

"It's really you. Oh, my god. The angels talk about you. You were in Hell, but Castiel pulled you out, and—" she rambles, telling them about themselves as if they didn't live it... or maybe just, assuring herself it's not imaginary?

They ask their questions. She answers, she hears them, doesn't talk to them, she's just tuned into the angel messaging radio frequency like he's tuned into the weird vibe thing. And it all started the day he dug himself from his coffin.

"First words I heard, clear as a bell -- 'Dean Winchester is saved." What does it say that he hates how she says it, quotes it really— like its capital S saved, like its missionaries knocking at your door saved; but what other way is there to put it when you pull someone out of capital h Hell?

There's not time to dwell on it. Because either the church's attic doesn't count for some reason or Ruby is apparently strong enough to tread on holy ground.

"You got the girl. Good, let's go."

"Her face!" Anna shrieks, and Dean remembers how her true form looked.

"Yeah, she's an ugly mother—"

"We have to hurry."

"Why?" Seriously, this whole trip has been pretty casual for someone the demon's want so bad.

"Because a heavy hitter's on his way, that's why."

"Conveniently right after you showed up, huh?"

"He followed you from her house." Says the one who just happened to get here first anyway. "We go now ."

"Dean," he follows Sam's gaze. A decorative statue cries bloodly tears.

"Too late." Ruby growls.

She's right.

In the next minute, Anna is shoved in a closet, Sam fails to use the magic exorcism that Ruby had insisted on and instead gets thrown across the room. Dean tries to stab the demon. He's disarmed. The demon introduces himself. Alastair, the only bastard Dean wants dead more than Lilith, taunts him as Sam lands a hit with the blade Dean dropped. But it's not a killing blow, Ruby's gone and the closet is open, Alistair grins as he pulls their best weapon free from his shoulder, the only escape is to shatter through an attic window.

---

They're in pain but they're alive. They stitch flesh back together and force joints back into sockets. And Dean acknowledges to himself that while Sam hasn't told him everything about his time while Dean was in the grave, he's been good about bringing things up when they're relevant.

He sighs. "I remember Hell."

"Dean," Sammy's startled, and that's fair given he hasn't exactly given context.

"I never forgot it. I just..."

Sam nods. "What is it?"

"I know Alistair. We need to find Anna."

"She's with Ruby."

"Great! So she might as well be handed over already."

"I don't think so."

"You don't."

"She's had opportunities to betray us before."

"She's a demon."

"And that means she can't change?!"

"Yes!"

"Why?"

"She's a demon!"

"Fright Night changed. And I'm sure Danny knows others."

"And Fright Night went back!"

"So that means everyone else will?"

"And how do you know we can trust him?" Dean points out, because it's very easy to get caught up when the kid is around, and— “We don't actually know what Jack Montgomery is doing. We don't even know that the Coconut Vampires were even real! All we know, right now, is that Danny's philosophy means you're comfortable leaving a helpless girl with a demon!”

“A demon who hasn't ever done anything to hurt us! Look at what she's, done Dean, not what she is.”

“and all of this is coming from him, and he's not human!"

Sam flinches. And Dean abruptly remembers Sam talking about a DNA test.

"Sammy, I didn't mean..." He meant that leniency towards monsters might get people killed. He meant that Danny was more than a little biased. But he cant say it, he watched a cloud of darkness curl and wither as the kid ran it through. 

There's a knock at the door. Ruby, as housekeeping, tells them their next location. They go. They don't continue their discussion in the car.

---

Ruby is at the door when they arrive at the address she gave. "Glad you could make it."

"Yeah, thanks, " Sam walks into the old house. "Anna, are you okay?"

"Yeah. I think so. Ruby's not like other demons. She saved my life."

Dean frowns, but doesn't refute it. "Yeah, I hear she does that..."

He glances at the demon, he can't help but wonder who's face she wears. But there's not time for that yet, Ruby asks about the knife, Anna asks about her parents and they have to inform them that both are gone. So they get to deal with fury and grief (respectively) until there's a knock at the door.

Angels, of course the angels were getting involved now . "Please tell me you're here to help." Dean didn't quite beg. "We've been having demon issues all day."

"Well, I can see that." Uriel glares at Ruby. "You want to explain why you have that stain in the room?"

"We're here for Anna." Castiel ignores his coworker.

"Here for her like... here for her?" Dean checks, because the last time he spoke to them they talked about obliterating a city.

"Stop talking. Give her to us."

"Are you gonna help her?" Sam demands, mimicking Uriel's posture.

"No," Castiel tells them. "She has to die."

Dean sighs.

"You want Anna? Why?" Sam demands again, it doesn't do much better than the first time.

Uriel pushes him to the side. "Out of the way."

Dean has to scramble to keep someone in  between them. "Whoa, whoa. Okay, I know she's wiretapping your angel chats or whatever, but it's no reason to gank her!"

"Don't worry. I'll kill her gentle." Uriel tells him. You know what, maybe Ruby isn't so bad, forget that she's down to sacrifice virgins whenever.

"You're some heartless sons of bitches, you know that?"

"We do not have mothers," Castiel informs, "but the sentiment may be correct."

"And? Anna's an innocent girl." Sam asks, still disbelieving, still hurt that these are angels.

"She is far from innocent."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means," Uriel explains. "She's worse than this abomination you've been screwing. Now give us the girl."

"Sorry." Dean snarks, wondering if Jazz is also a monster or if Uriel has drastically misread the situation. "Get yourself another one. Try JDate."

"Who's gonna stop us? You two? Or this demon whore?" Uriel throws Ruby against the wall in a move eerily similar to how the demons do it. Either he's going for irony or... or Dean will finish that thought when he has time for it.

He lunges for Uriel, surprising them both when he knocks him to the ground. His punch connects, but this is probably what punching superman is like! OW!

Then in a flash of painful pull Uriel is gone. Dean's head throbs as he whips his head to see— Castiel is gone too. Sam is laying on the ground, out cold, and Ruby kneels to help him. Anna steps out of the other room, dripping with blood.

"Anna! are you..." he trails off, seeing the sigils she's drawn in blood on the old cracked mirror. They're not like Danny's, they're like the ones in her sketchbook.

"Are they -- are they gone?"

"Did you... kill them?" That would be cool, terrifying too, but also very cool.

"No. I sent them away... far away."

"You want to tell me how?" It would be very useful if they end up in another city that's an acceptable loss.

"That just popped in my head. I don't know how I did it. I just did it."

"Angel frequency?" Dean asked, because what else could it be?

"I don't know, maybe?"

Dean sighed, but the fear in her eyes was real. "Right, well, lets get you patched up. We've got bandages in the impala."

"We need to get out of here." Ruby added, and she was right, the angel's might've been sent to the outfield but they'd definitely be back.

---

Ruby slumps to the ground as she crosses the FentonWorks 'employees only' door , well her body does, the dark angry cloud that is actually Ruby swirls in violent circles. Dean crosses the threshold to get away from her storm.

"Demon?" Danny asks, checking the girl on the ground's pulse, then he frowns.

"Yeah, the body's a Jane Doe, a coma patient, the hospital was going to pull the plug..." Sam explained. "Ruby said the spirit had left?"

"She's right." Danny told them. Dean wavered, unsure whether to trust this information. But if it was true... maybe he's been a little unfair?

Danny flips a wall switch that doesn't appear to do anything? Ruby the cloud rushes back into Ruby the human. He flips the switch back on after she crosses. "Ethically sourced physically form. I appreciate the effort."

"Glad someone does," She sits up.

"Flip the switch before and after you cross, I'll key it to your signature so it won't zap you."

"So the switch... makes the place demon proof?" Dean asks.

"The barrier." Sam corrects, pressing his hand against something solid in the middle of an empty doorway. "It's kinda hard to interact with, I barely notice it."

Dean waves his hand through the air where Sam's clearly touching something. There isn't anything there?

"I thought it was the lights." Ruby complains.

"That's kinda the point. Ecto-sheild blocks any ectoplasmic entity that isn't tethered to its form. It works better when people don't know its there." Danny tells them. "Should work against the angel's too. Regardless of if their host consented or not. If they really want the angel in their body they can scoot back out."

"How do you know the angel's aren't..." what was the word he'd used? "Tethered?"

"Cause you shot and stabbed Castiel. If he was fully utilizing his flesh he'd feel it, regardless of healing abilities. Guy didn't even flinch."

"Huh,"

Anna waved her hands through the doorway before crossing. "It tingles."

Danny tipped his head at her. "It does?"

"Yeah, like when a limb falls asleep but..." she holds her hand to her heart, "but here..."

"That's... can I ask a weird question?"

"I mean, my whole life has gone weird, what's one more thing?

"Have you ever died?"

"Um, no? I don't think so...?"

" Huh ."

"Is that a problem?"

"No, not at all! I just don't usually see humans have a reaction to the shield without ectoplasmic exposure. Most commonly, it’s brushes with death. Plenty of other stuff could cause it though, we don't have to make it an interrogation."

"Oh, okay..."

"Please, make yourself at home, go upstairs, nap in a guestroom, raid the fridge. Whatever makes you comfortable. We're going to figure this out."

---

Sam and Dean left to search up some background. They were apparently worried about some spell she casted to banish angels. They're right that something like that would be robust magic, but Danny’s less concerned. Anna's aura reads clear to him. Ruby's on the other hand is like trying to dig a pebble out of a mud pit filled with teeth.

When Anna's settled he asks the demon. "Can I get a blood sample?"

"What?"

"A sample of your blood, for testing. We've tried some substitutes for Sam and they're never quite right. Having an actual sample would be helpful."

She blinks at him.

"You're not going to try to stop him?"

"He's tried to stop. It almost killed him. I'm mostly worried about the human element."

"And what does that mean?"

"If you’re not around to donate, and don't say you will be, we both know you can't control that with the price you've admitted is on your head. Current stuff is okay, but it won't cut it long term and that sort of hunting…” Danny shudders, he was very glad they'd worked out the ghost hunger stuff. 

"How much has Sam told you."

"I don't know how much there is to tell. I know about the blood stuff, about Lilith, about how everyone's panicked about your loyalties."

"But you're not? Even though I'm a demon ?"

"You're an ectoplasmic entity, ectoplasm is malleable. What separates you from countless other entities are traits derived from nature, and nature is made up of by choices. If you think you're defined by it, then you will be. But if you don't want to be a demon, then stop being one."

She scoffs, "If it were that simple—"

"It's not."

"What?"

"It's not simple. It will be the most difficult thing you've ever done, and it will probably take a century or three." Danny smiles at her. She was standing on the same crossroads Fright had long before Danny had existed. Danny wonders if anyone had tried to help him then, if any of those people were still around. “From what I understand, you've made a good start. Just keep making good choices, and keep ignoring everyone who says it's impossible."

Danny doesn't know what to make of the look on her face, she holds his gaze for far longer than he's really comfortable with but he doesn't look away until she finds whatever she's looking for.

"So a blood sample?"

---

"We're back!" Dean announces at the base of the stairs. He listens, trying to decide whether they should go down to the lab or up to the living area.

"Up." Pamela tells him, moments before the announcement comes from above him.

He steps aside so Pamela can take the steps first.

She'd already berated him about how she can see and doesn't need his help, so he doesn't guide her by the arm, but he's still nervous about it. He doesn't exactly understand how heavily impaired eyesight works when you also have psychic knowledge, so he'll stay out of her way but be ready to help if she asks. Sam managed not to offend her, but he still follows suit.

They hear Danny's cheerful "Pamela!" As she makes it to the top. He makes introductions that she interrupts to show off her magical ability to tell everyone's names.

They share their findings about Anna's childhood psychosis, and their... admittedly a bit far-fetched plan to hypnotize her back to the time where she believed her father wasn't her father and the real one wanted her dead. They'd ask child Anna some questions, and hopefully get some context.

Preparations, triple confirmation that Anna was okay with this, and one hypnotherapy session began... Anna's pleas make it nearly impossible to get answers and their attempts to calm her only stress her futher.

Then the lights flicker, once, twice. The nearest light bulb shatters and Danny swears and runs for the fuse box. A humming whine fills the room, Anna's words echo in its call but there's  something more. A cry for help.

"Anna," Dean approaches, his boots crunch glass as he reaches for her.

"Dean, don't." Pamela warns.

But he has too. The only other person who might hear her plea is stopping the building from frying itself.  She needs to know she's not alone. He touches her arm and the world stops.

Where the second lightbulb had broken,  tiny flecks of tiny glass hang in the air. Everything is utterly silent, then Anna breathes sharply and everything is back to how it was. Er- kinda. But there's no more unnatural whine and the power's been successfully shut off.

"It's okay, Anna." He says, and she settles back into the weird semi-consciousness that is hypnosis. Her hand claspes around his. "We're here with you. We'll keep you safe."

"I believe you." She says, and across the room Danny makes meaningful eye contact, though Dean couldn't guess what he's trying to say.

Pamela carefully continues.

"Who is your father? Why does he want to hurt you?"

"He's God. And I disobeyed."

"Most children disobey their parents, what makes this different?"

"I fell."

"On the ground?"

"To earth. I became human."

"Wait a minute. I don't understand. So, angels can just become human?" Sam interrupts. Pamela glares in his direction, but Anna answers.

"It hurts, like cutting your kidney out with a butter knife. That kind of hurt. I ripped out my grace."

"Your Grace?"

"My grace. It's... energy. Hacked it out and fell."

"Her core," Danny whispers, horrified. "She split it, that's why she can feel the barrier... but... ask her how she's human?"

"How did you become human, Anna?"

"My mother, Amy, couldn't get pregnant. Always called me her little miracle. She had no idea how right she was."

"Did you remember?" Danny asked, and Pamela doesn't give him a dirty look for some reason.

"The older I got, the longer I was human, the more the memory faded."

"Well fuck. I don't think you all appreciate how completely screwed we are." Ruby exclaims. Anna whimpers. Danny throws a pillow at Ruby.

"Any more questions, or should I wake her up?" Pamela asks before they can devolve further.

"Wake her up." Dean decides for them.

"Wake in 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Anna... Anna? You all right?"

Anna sits sharply, she doesn't let go of his hand.

"Ruby's right. Heaven wants me dead."

"And Hell just wants her. A flesh-and-blood angel that you can question, torture, that bleeds. Sister, you're the Stanley Cup. And sooner or later, Heaven or Hell, they're gonna find you."

"I know. And that's why I'm gonna get it back." Apparently they were breezing past the fact that Anna not only remembered her past, but also remembered what happened while she was under. Pamela seemed much more disturbed than everyone else.

"What?"

"My Grace."

"You can do that?"

"Yep." Danny said.

"If I can find it." Anna agreed.

"So where is it?"

"Lost track. I was falling about 10,000 miles per hour at the time."

"Wait. You mean falling, like, literally?" Sam asks.

"Yes."

"Like the way a human eye can see? Like a comet, maybe, or a meteor?"

"Please say yes." Danny adds, grinning wide.

---

Danny is a nerd.

Dean knew this, but having a list of every meteor landing site in the country already mapped and dated on his wall... Danny was a nerd.

"Meteorite." Danny corrected.

"What?"

"Anna didn't burn up in the atmosphere, she'd be a meteorite, not a meteor."

"It felt like I burnt up." Anna ponders.

"It really does. Heat shielding is such a good invention and I really could've used it."

"What?"

"What?"

"He's messing with us." Dean concluded.

"Maybe. Maybe not." Dean rolled his eyes.

"Here?" Sam asks, "Kentucky, In '85, there was an empty field outside of town. Six months later, there was a full-grown oak. They say it looked a century old at least."

"The Grace. Where it hit, it could have done something like that, easy."

"So grace ground zero -- it's not destruction. It's..."

Anna speaks at the same time as Danny.

"Pure creation." "The Ideal becomes Form."

They look at each other, eyes narrow like they agree but also both want to argue about choice of words.

Dean will let them argue as they drive. All that's left is to find the stuff and hopefully they'll have less worries tomorrow.

---

"This is definitely the place, I can feel it," Anna tells them as she steps out of Danny's van. She looks to the magic tree. Danny follows with his scanner.

She places her hand on the oak's trunk. "It's not here... someone took it."

"I'm picking up some other ecto-signatures. I think I know who."

Danny holds out the device. Sam takes it and frowns at the screen. It gets passed around and Dean catches a glimpse of meaningless numbers.

"You're gonna have to clarify."

"That's Uriel's signature."

"We need a plan."

---

"You're sure you have to do this alone?" Danny asked as he follows Ruby out into night air. The ground would frost completely tonight and probably linger throughout the day tomorrow. Danny had left his jacket inside and he was pretend to shiver around her.

Ruby turned, hesitating. "I don't think they'll  believe you're on their side."

"They're not going to believe you are either. We're already counting on them thinking we just want out of no-man's land."

She sighs, "I don't think it's going to be that simple."

"All the more reason to have backup."

"So go give backup to the three humans."

"They have specter deflectors and Anna has her banishing spell if they need it. You can't wear one, and your banishing spell requires components you don't have." She glares, probably annoyed that he knows about that. 

"We need to get far enough away, and I can't teleport us both." She argues. 

Danny lets his transformation wash over him. He falls back, floating off the ground a bit. "I fly fast, where are you thinking?"

"Fine."

---

The field is in the middle of nowhere, it has enough space for a proper fight  without alerting any potential bystanders if it come to that. Danny nods his approval and settles back into human form.

Then, after a second thought, he pulls Soulshreader from her pocket dimension and lets her materialize a sheath on his belt. Ruby's eyes catch on the blade.

"You're not Samhain."

"Obviously."

"How—" She opens and closes her mouth, trying to word her question.

"Samhain is dead." Danny tells her, Soulshreader hums a grief filled note. She'd only awakened after Fright had shed his old name, it had been a painful and confusing time after the summoning.

" You killed him?"

Danny nodded.

"And you took his blade?!"

"Not exactly." Soulshreader was allowing him to carry her, keeping her unwillingly would be... just no.

"That sure looks like it."

"She. Soulshreader prefers she." Ruby made a face, and Danny checked to make sure he wasn't growing a second head. Usually he was aware of when his body felt the need to be weird, but when people looked at him like that... no head #2, and all his limbs were correct. "What?"

" Her ... her name is Soulshreader...?"

Danny nods.

"Right... sorry..."

Soulshreader hums.

"She accepts your apology."

"...Right... I'm just gonna," She holds out the lighter and the hex bag.

He nods.

"Out of curiosity, is there a reason you can't like, chuck it in the woods or something?" He asks while it burns.

"What?"

"So you can collect it later instead of making a new one?"

She starts to answer, but is cut off by the appearance of someone new.

"Hello, Ruby."

"Alastair."

"I have to say, I'm surprised to find you out in the open like this."

"Yeah? Desperate times."

"That they are. You looking for this?" Alistair pulls the blade Sam had lost. "Your gawky human friend gave it to me."

"Keep it. I just came to talk."

"About what? About how a demon is protecting an angel? We really must revoke your membership." Was that a thing they could do? It might make Ruby's next steps easier, if she really wants it.

"Look, I know I'm not employee of the month, but this— I never wanted to get in the middle of this."

"Why are you here, Ruby?" Alistair asks with new interest.

"I'll give you the angel."

"Will you? And in return?"

"We walk away." She gestures to Danny, forcing Alistair to stop ignoring him. Not that Danny minded, being underestimated helped. "Us and the Winchester boys, both of them. This angel business is none of our business."

"Hmm. You know...I'd always heard that you were a devious, cowardly little slut. You don't disappoint."

"So, what do you say?"

"It's interesting... Prudent. But, uh... Let me make you a... counteroffer."

Danny is grabbed from behind, and he throws an elbow back before he truly processes what's happening. It connects, earning an "Oof" from his attacker.

He whirls, grabbing at the demon. Note: he means grabbing at the demon, not the human host. You might think it's impossible to grab their smoke-like forms, but in reality, smoke is less their actual shape and more of a human brain's approximation of their shape. Danny, as a thing who is also capable of being fluid-like or gaseous, is more than able to grab the demon themself. And he does so, a twinge of intangibility helping him free them from their host's flesh.

He brings Soulshreader up with his other hand—in a move that is horribly unbalanced and annoys her greatly, but that's just as effective as he intended— and slashes at the thin line of black, sending the demon to Soulshreader's realm.

It won't hold them forever, the place of nightmare is not that different from Hell, in Danny's opinion, he hasn't actually been to Hell to compare. But it will hold long enough to keep them out of this fight. The host falls back on the grass, looking up at him with wide eyes.

"Run." Danny tells them, and they do. He turns back to Ruby only to see that she's stopped struggling in favor of gaping at him. As much as he wants to sigh, he turns back to Alistair, Soulshreader at the ready. "And here I thought our offer was perfectly reasonable. Do I need a counter-counteroffer?"

"Who, exactly, are you supposed to be?" Alistair tries for demeaning as his aura flairs. It's hot and angry— a fire core— but not enraged, he's still assessing.

Danny replies with a flair of his own, cold and determined. Alistair shivers, and Danny knows that if this turns, he has the advantage. The demon lives in an inferno, the night air that isn't nearly cold enough for Danny's tastes is already well past Alistair's comfort zone.

"Let her go, then we can bargain."

"You are not in a position to make demands."

"Aren't I? We have what you want, and you'renit the only ones looking for her." If the bluff is going to fall apart it will be now, Danny's not the best of liers and if his distaste for the concept shows through… Alistair tips his head to the demon to the demon holding Ruby.

"Hurt her, and you make an enemy." Danny warns, this he can say without hesitation. 

Alistair frowns, "And here I thought you already were?"

"I'm not your ally, I don't like you, and I'm going to help my friends. But I've never gone out of my way to hunt you or yours. I only bother with them when they go after mine ." Possessiveness was a trait most ecto-entities understood.

"I let her go, you take us to the girl."

"And."

"And we won't touch you or yours..." Alistair caught himself, adding quickly, "Tonight."

Danny carefully kept his grin off his face. Alistair hadn't asked who he counted as his. "Deal."

---

"Little early for that, isn't it?" Anna asks as he puts down the flask.

"It's 2 a.m. somewhere." He says instead of explaining that it is just water and he uses the flask because he's broken far too many plastic water bottles to keep bothering with them, the large ones are too large to comfortably carry around anyway and this flask has held up since his dad bought it when he was a kid.

Though maybe if he had said all that she wouldn't be asking "You okay?".

"Yeah, of course." Just extremely nervous. He'd feel much better if he knew Ruby and the demon party were also on their way.

The doors burst open behind him. He knows it's Castiel and Uriel by the feel of their presence, he turns to look anyway, unsurprised.

"Hello, Anna. It's good to see you." Castiel tells her, ignoring the rest of them.

"How? How did you find us?" Sam pauses, buying what time he can. "Dean?"

No one crashes through the other doors, not yet, every second counts. He turns to Anna, hoping the angel's will let them give goodbyes. "I'm sorry."

"Why?" Sam asks him.

"Because they gave him a choice. They either kill me... or kill you. I know how their minds work." Anna explains, and wow, that's scary accurate. Dean hadn't described his dreamscape, only told them they were coming. Anna kisses him. Not as long as earlier, and as much as Dean would love to see how long the angel's would put up with this, she pulls away.

"You did the best you could. I forgive you. Okay. No more tricks." Hah! "No more running. I'm ready."

"I'm sorry." Castiel admits.

"No. You're not. Not really. You don't know the feeling."

"Still, we have a history. It's just—"

"Orders are orders. I know. Just make it quick."

"Don't you touch a hair on that poor girl's head." Dean never thought he'd be glad to hear Alistair's voice, but here they were. He stands at the other end of the room with another few demons and Danny and Ruby.

"How dare you come in this room, you pussing sore?" Uriel demands.

"Name-calling. That hurt my feelings... You sanctimonious, fanatical prick."

"Turn around and walk away now." Castiel also demands.

"Sure. Just give us the girl. We'll make sure she gets punished good and proper."

"You know who we are and what we will do. I won't say it again. Leave now... or we lay you to waste."

"Think I'll take my chances."

All as planned, Dean presses against the wall as demons and angels scramble at each other. Surprisingly enough, rather than killing each other, they preform exorcisms, angels sending demons back to hell and Alistair apparently knowing how to do the opposite to angels. Dean watches Alistair pin Castiel and shout words in Latin and he wonders if he should do something. Castiel never tortured him, but Alistair never threatened to destroy a city. His indecision holds him in the spot, but Anna, out of some old loyalty, hits Alistair over the head with a crowbar.

Alistair turns, lunging to attack her with his friggin knife but, he freezes even before he even gets in range of specter deflectors shock.

Danny notices, and practically drips with satisfaction. "You really should've taken Ruby's deal. She binds with the spirit of the law, but I bind with the letters ."

Alistair snarls at him, and begins to move, but this time notices the fighting freeze on the other side of the room.

Ruby holds a shining pendant over her head. No, Ruby holds Anna's grace in triumphant threat. "You should leave now." She tells... Dean isn't sure who she's threatening, other than the fact that she's definitely threatening Uriel.

Uriel throws insults but doesn't dare to get closer. No one does, even Alistair afraid of what she might do.

"You define your own nature, Ruby." Danny tells her, gently and sympathetic. Then he says,  "We are not what we eat."

Which might be a joke?! Ok. Dean didn't know what he was afraid was happening here but that was worse. Dean didn't know what eating a chunk of angel power would do, but that was clearly exactly what Ruby wanted to do. She holds Danny's gaze for an eternity, then she does the same to Sam.

She lowers her arm slowly, her decision clearly made but which decision none of them know. She looks to Anna, who takes slow, careful, steps forward. It's another eternity before they're within reach, and Ruby's hand shakes with the effort of holding the glowing light.

Gently, she presses it into Anna's hands and Dean breathes too soon.

Uriel lunges. Anna shrieks, "Look away!"

And it's all Dean can do to follow her instruction as the world burns with radiant light.

[queerdiazs]

20 questions for fic writers

i was tagged by @callmenewbie, @hippolotamus, @watchyourbuck, @thewolvesof1998, @jesuisici33, @wikiangela, and @exhuastedpigeon 🫶🏼

i'm gonna put it under a cut because phew it got kinda long

how many works do you have on ao3?

31

what's your total ao3 word count?

uh, 301,903 which... goddamn look at me go

what fandoms do you write for?

i've written for stucky, geraskier, yenskier, steddie, and buddie, but it's only buddie right now. those 2 losers are really rotting in my whole brain and i'm loving every second of it 🤭

what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

(i cheated and used only buddie okay) the side effects of eating too many clementines at 759 the dinosaurs smelled magnolias at 722 this is why you shouldn't piss in the ocean at 668 you'll feel the rush of it all at 511 all things bright and beautiful at 453

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i absolutely respond to comments! it might take me a while because i'm not articulate enough to convey how much i adore everybody, but i love talking with people that enjoy the silly goofy stuff i write!

what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

burned on the pyre, a steddie timeloop fic. the ending isn't exactly angsty, but it isn't as joyous as all my others because it was important to me to keep it as realistic as i could + it reflects my mental state so, uh, oops

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

mm, i think you can argue all my fics have happy endings but if you go down in the woods today has the FUNNIEST ending and that's important

do you get hate on fics?

yeah lmao

do you write smut? if so, what kind?

yes i do! and, um, the explicit kind? i don't know how to answer this because my porn varies for each fic but they fuck nasty regardless!

do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've written?

no. that's not for me.

have you ever had a fic stolen?

absolutely i have <3

have you ever had a fic translated?

i have not!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

nope. i tried once when i was younger but it didn't work out because i'm a dickhead and found that i was not only writing my parts but fixing theirs as well.

what's your all time favorite ship?

i've had a lot of ships over the year and i'm never going to forget any of them, ever, but buddie gives me so much joy and good times and i think... yeah they're probably my favorite ship

what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

none of them honestly? i'm going to finish all of them.

what are your writing strengths?

uh, dialogue. maybe.

what are your writing weaknesses?

angst, emotions, porn, things that make sense, action, romantic relationships, ANGST.

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

god, so i'm pretentious and while i know some spanish i'm definitely not fluent but i refuse to use google translate so a friend of mine helps me with translating as straight across as we can—so like, long story short, it's a yes from me

first fandom you wrote for?

maximum ride on ff dot net 💀 why was i 12 years old learning how to navigate that fuckin site my god

favorite fic you've written?

but i've got my teeth in you, a bad things happen fic where buck gets a tooth knocked out during the lafd annual baseball game and somehow proposes to eddie, who of course says yes. it's just so FUN?

i'm no pressure tagging @honestlydarkprincess, @shitouttabuck, @giddyupbuck, @callaplums, @daffi-990, @try-set-me-on-fire, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @eddiediaztho, @nmcggg, and honestly anybody else who wants to be a lil chatty mwah

[stardustpr1ncess]

Desperately trying to get the words out in order to articulate why I really don't like what they did with Arcane season 2 but, I just keep wanting to say "not good." Like at one point I audibly yelled; "WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?" but not in an amazed way, in a really fucking annoyed way. May break it up into multiple posts because this is taking longer to process than the other acts.

So... I guess the most encompassing problem is the scope just became WAY too big. The first season, despite having Lean that can turn you into a giant purple monster and magic-powered weapons, was very grounded in its #1 plot #2 locations and #3 characters. Let's discuss what season 2 did with each of these categories.

"The" plot. There's too many of them at this point, barely related to each other, and not enough fucks to go around for each one. The main plot however, would I guess be Viktor and the Glorious Evolutions™.

Firstly the floating in space shots to represent his conciseness connected to everyone's and how he's so ascended looks stupid and boring. Just straight up, they're silly to look at. Secondly the concept that he's now using some unknowable cosmic power to make all life a hive mind that will infect and destroy the planet along with turn everyone into the coolest looking mannequin is just so... WHY?! Like if I told you that's the s2 a3 climax 3 years ago you'd spit in my face (would not wipe it towards my mouth like Caitlyn tho that absolute horndog). The show was a political dispute between an oppressed city who wanted independence from a really wealthy and powerful city. Now it's for the sake of not only the world but like, EVERY REALITY NOW?!

Gonna try to make the other 2 points quicker but fuck there's so much going on.

Locations. Season 1 had Zaun, Piltover, and essentially just mentions of Noxus. Season 2 we have MULTIPLE DIMENSIONS MOTHERFUCKERS WOOOOOOOOO! Look I'm sorry if these points are articulated a lot worse than my prior essays but I'm running out of ways to say it's dumb because it's stupid lol. Within 7 episodes after the (probable) start of a civil war between 2 cities... There's now an infinite number of realities. Just the most insane stake raising they could've done, with a season not even 10 episodes long.

Too many characters for this post so again I'll focus on Viktor since he's now the main antagonist and, protagonist? Him being the wizard that saves Jayce, along with EVERY Jayce in EVERY reality, is simply something that did not need part of the budget put towards it. Genuinely just, the wizard did not need fleshing out. The multiverse in a contained 2 season show did not need to be this crucial last second. This is like if Optimus Prime showed up in season 3 of Avatar, it's just so pointless and diminishing of the story that came before.

So yeah needless to say, I thought this season was terrible. But hey, I'll probably buy the steelbook anyway.

Thank you for reading.

[solar-halos]

ballad appreciation post

i’m so happy :D. i’ve watched ballad twice this week. the second time i watched it w my brothers i didn’t have anything to say about it bc i was mostly just on edge about not getting kicked out of the theatre but since i teased a breakup over this Boyfriend was on his best behavior so i actually got to watch the movie without anyone asking a million question a scene. in related news we have another lucy gray truther on our side. here are some of my thoughts

1. tom blyth opening screen …. i still got jumpscared seeing him in the nude

2. the way they pronounce lucy grays name still catches me off guard. i’ve been ignoring the “i” completely and just say “bard” in my head (yk bc she’s The Bard). with that being said i know the mayor was in like 2 scenes but i think he did a really good job picking out lucy grays name he looked crazy

3. hunter schafer is my eyebrow inspo. also i’ve mentioned this before w the bathing suits having a 1920s and 50s vibe but she’s giving 1940s to me. but obviously glamor 1940s not war ridden 1940s

4. watching this w someone who hasn’t read the book is so enjoyable. when lucy gray dropped the snake down mayfairs shirt Boyfriend got SO tense “waitwait did she just try to fuckin murder her??” god forbid women do anything

5. okay sorry but the first time i watched it i was trying not to smile (in a laugh-y way) when lucy grays singing part came on. when i read it i thought that part ate but actually seeing it was so different for some reason. i think this feeling might be amplified if you’ve never read the book bc my sister felt the exact same way she said it was kinda fuckin cringe. idk if it was just bc we were at home or she was just feeling silly but she started singing that one camp rock song that’s like “we can’t back down.” which ok yeah that was kinda lucy grays song in a nutshell but it kinda did piss me off bc the “you can kiss my ass!!!!” part was coming on soon and i was stressing over them missing it. also didnt lucy gray have a full on dance break in the book?? god. they should have kept that in

6. okay that scene where she bowed and d12’s nasty ass coal industry being in the background is still one of my fav scenes. ugh loved it

7. wovey idk what it was this time but when she was like “im rlly good at climbing” i almost burst into tears. guys she’s really good at climbing

8. hunter schafer literally killed this. i’d argue that tigris is just as much of a product of her environment as snow is but i don’t rlly know how to articulate that

9. speaking of the reading vs watching thing i mentioned earlier: it rlly jumped out with grandmaam. idk why but when i was reading it grandmaam was SO scary and intimidating to me but watching her so frail and skinny and slightly senile talk about how lucy gray is a killer just seemed so crazy. especially since we know snow believes her

10. “they’re gonna get bombed aren’t they” wtf i walk into every movie clueless how are ppl straight up predicting entire events. but again w the reading vs watching i was GAGGED when they got bombed in the book but in the movie it seemed weird?? like “get the camera on her” and then it just feels like they’re trying to take up space until the actual bombs land. but whatever im being so bitchy i wasn’t surprised bc i literally knew it was gonna happen

11. “i want coral making my latte” and i want tanner on the grill

12. i think it was tanner, but i rlly liked his outfit. i liked all their outfits actually. i’ve been watching so many reels abt the costume designer explaining her inspo for the costumes (like tigris and her 1940s glamor thing going on)

13. okay seriously why did they cut out the kiss… and then when they actually did kiss why did they have lucy gray pull away at first…… i know francis lawrence saying this was a love story was icky but he did a bad job at portraying that so maybe we were worried for nothing (jk we were worried for all the right reasons bc if i had a nickel for every time someone said “i thought they were gonna get married!” about lucy gray and snow i’d have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice). also not to be a hater but snowbaird fans actually fucking irritate me. like the fans that are like “but what if it was wholesome 🥺🥺” what if lucy gray tried to kill him and he tried to kill her back? what if he managed to track her down and she bit him again? what if they hate each other so much that they’re only together bc they wanna see the other person suffer? what then

14. tbh seeing billy taupe made me feel a bit guilty 😭😭. almost terminated my ao3 acc but i get that feeling every time someone mentions something im obsessed w in a very casual way so it wasn’t rlly that serious. also someone either on tiktok or insta was like “was i the only person who preferred snows curls to his buzz cut?” and i genuinely couldn’t tell if they were joking bc like. everyone prefers snows curls to his buzz cut. even snow prefers his curls to his buzzcut. with that being said billy taupe needed to lose the cap

15. ngl the ballad of lucy gray baird actually did make me cry a bit… lucy gray was only 16 she needed to be on tumblr

16. where’d she get that guitar from tho

17. i wish they would have kept in the tributes death parade. that part was icky

18. okay there was a scene where lucky had a drink and then he flicked something off it and pup (i think that was his name) flinched cos it landed on his neck that was so fucking funny i hate that this was the first time i noticed it

19. okay seriously why did they make dill get poisoned. also that cornocopia scene. hmph

20. the first time i watched it i remembered being really confused why lucky called mizzen Merciless Mizzen. but omg after he tried chasing lucy gray down in that vent i understood that was crazy of him. and it did seem like he was an actual teenager which actually made it more unsettling. i feel like rachel zegler has a baby face (i actually think she was 17 in west side story and she looks the exact same now) but mizzen’s actor sing singing her name was perfect

21. lamina at the beam… didn’t she manage to kill someone in the book??

22. “does this mean we get to go home??” god i wish

23. but also “please lucy i can’t have killed all of them for nothing” i liked that she didn’t call her lucy gray that was a nice touch. but also. what a crazy thing to ask. i wonder if she thought lucy gray would be chill w that

24. take this with a grain of salt i haven’t read the books in so long but when snow snuck up on lucy gray in the meadow didn’t she level her guitar at him and then be like “sorry lol i still have one foot in the arena :P” they should have had her hit him in the face w it

25. the old therebefore still hits. i wish they would have included scenes where snow is shown to genuinely dislike her songs like in the books. in the movies he seems more disinterested in what she’s doing which is still bad but also it doesn’t seem as overt as him literally hating on her for no fuckin reason. which i guess is bc we have no insight into his head, like i think someone pointed out that in the book and movie he cried over sejanus being dead but in the book we know it’s bc he was scared it was gonna be him next but in the movie it just looked like he was sad. which i get it he’s perceived as nice by other people but the audience is not supposed to be other ppl we know what his motives are. im not sure how that’d be solved, cos i guess it would be pretty annoying to have him voice his thoughts and you also don’t wanna spoon feed ur audience but like. idk. seems like something you’d wanna make super clear bc to me it didn’t seem like you were supposed to like / sympathize with him, but the way it was done kinda seemed half baked

26. speaking of that… Boyfriend did not get the memo that snow was fucking crazy. “i thought he was gonna marry lucy gray in d12” WHY? like why would you even think that. were u not paying attention during the hunger games trilogy marathon where would lucy gray fit into that. since my sister thought the exact same thing she tried being like “see? it’s confusing” but it actually isn’t. that’s still a better reaction than my brother he was actually being a fucking weirdo about it cos when snow found lucy grays scarf in the woods and then the snake bit him this mfer went “she tried to kill him” no!!! but i think there might be something to be said about how snow, completely sober, came to the same conclusion as my brother, who was so high he couldn’t even remember who sejanus was

27. okay that’s a lot of sibling lore so atp i think i better end the post. bye

[lumiereandcogsworth]

hiii!! I was wondering if you had any head cannons about adam and belle when they get in a serious fight ?? may seem silly lol

i’m not gonna lie i’m so bad at thinking about actual conflict dialogue between them. i fully know that they do argue, because they’re both so stubborn, and they’re a married couple and that’s just part of it, but usually when i imagine their arguments, it’s like a silent film sjdksj. but here are some thoughts i have about it!!

the main thing that they argue about is, ironically, lack of communication skills. adam has quite literally never shared his deep feelings with anyone, even himself in many ways, so suddenly having a partner who is a million times more emotionally stable is quite a change! and it’s difficult at first, and at least for a little while. especially since belle is sooo inquisitive, and so enamored with him, she always wants to dig deeper into his mind! but that kind of insistence just shuts him off. and, in the early days, that’s gonna result in him getting angry/defensive and biting back at bit

but belle is, of course, persistent with him. so they have their argument about stubbornness and just not quite being in sync about emotions, and then they have their time to cool off, and then they come together later and there’s quiet but sincere apologies. on both ends! adam is always working on his temper, he understands that she’s just trying to help, he just can’t articulate himself yet. and belle very much needs to learn patience. he’s starting at level zero in vulnerability, it’s gonna take some practice!! she just gets frustrated when she can’t immediately solve a puzzle. but adam is her favorite puzzle, so she’ll keep at it!! <3

over the years though, adam Does get better about sharing his feelings with her. i think i have a silly line in one of my fics set further down the road and it’s something like “after twelve years of marriage, adam was almost certain that belle did want to hear about his problems.” afjskdj. like yeah my guy that’s your wife of twelve years. you traumatized goober. anyway my point is the vulnerability and communication DOES improve! but it absolutely takes time and he’ll still never be as free with his feelings/thoughts as belle is. he’ll always be the black cat of the relationship, lmao. so those bickering matches won’t ever truly cease, but they get less intense.

another thing they very occasionally argue about is work. this is rare because they, in general, do different things. belle, as queen, focuses a lot more on human relations, social structures, the people themselves. i’ve always said that working on improving the education system is her number one priority. so she’s always in that line of committees, community action, local infrastructure. that kind of stuff. adam, as king, does more of the overarching government type of crap. bigger political decisions, taxes, business with allied kingdoms. gosh, he hates it lmao. but he just hates working in general so that’s not gonna change. my point HERE is that, while their lines of work don’t regularly cross, every now and then they do have to collaborate, and i think they butt heads when this happens because they work very differently. (adam is more organized and detail-oriented, whereas belle is. more loosey goosey and doesn’t always get things done on time. and belle says “oh you mean on Adam Time🙄” and he’s like “no i mean ON TIME!!”) but in general their work is kind of separate, which is nice! they have different things to talk about at the end of the day <3

(i can’t help but note though that when there are actual huge big political decisions to make, adam absolutely includes belle. like he intentionally made sure that they were coronated together, and that they’re equals on the throne. and politically speaking they generally agree about those kinds of big decisions, or at least they come to a good agreement after debating each other for a bit. but anyway just had to add that.)

another thing they definitely argue about is founded in adam’s worries about belle. i go into more detail about this here, but when belle is pregnant, adam gets overprotective, to the point of being very annoying to belle. so they have lots of very little arguments about him needing to CALM DOWN and her needing to BE CAREFUL and it just goes back and forth. they also obviously bicker while raising their children, but again it’s nothing more than normal. i think the hardest arguments are when they have their first child, and adam is just so uncertain about how to care for her, and belle sometimes offers too much help, to the point where adam gets insecure and thinks that She Thinks that he’s doing everything wrong. so he gets all defensive again and blah. but they work it out. that’s in the same period of time as him not being able to communicate his feelings well so it’s just all a lot.

the first couple years of their marriage are just insane because not only are they learning how to be a partnership, but they’re also learning how to be king and queen, and not before too long, they’re learning how to be parents. and they’re a great team! but they are different and have such different life experiences that it, of course, will inevitably lead to heads butting and unintentional words. but they’re always just as easily able to apologize and forgive and carry on. it’s difficult to navigate but they love each other so endlessly that it’s never truly hard. even when adam feels at his worst, or when belle feels so out of her depths, they know that they CAN always rely on the other. so while things may be intense in the moment, there’s always love there, and things always get figured out together 💖

[thegeminisage]

ok. it's fuckinggg star trek update time. last night even though we were gonna start voyager we once again did not start voyager so we watch "heart of stone" which is maybe the best and most evil thing that's ever happened to me. let's FUCKING get into it.

heart of stone:

we're doing the b-plot first because i need a moment to collect myself (just rewatched the confession bit)

i forget that i actually like nog so much. this show will do something like have him demand his date cut up his food for him or have quark try to record kira for the holosuite and i'll be like yeah no we have to keep being racist against ferengi but then nog will be like my dad's life sucks and i don't want that to me be me and i CAN fucking inventory that room in 5 hours, just try to stop me, and like. damn. alright.

i did like that sisko, despite brushing him off at first, walked it back and gave him a genuine fair chance. i also like that not even his BEST FRIEND took him seriously...jake is not exempt from ferengi racism either. like, from nog's pov it shows just how much of a struggle it'll be to even apply to the fucking academy

i'm also proud of him for doing a good job. AND proud of his dad for standing up for him. fuck quark! i'll get over it but i'm feeling v anti-quark lately

ok, the goods..........

going into this i know from vague spoilers that kira and odo are canon. and that it doesnt happen until like s5 or s6. so IMAGINE my shock when he is out here confessing in SEASON 3??? and she is CONFESSING BACK???

here is the thing. firstly, odo makes hands to touch people with. also, he will protect her from a cave-in with his goopy body.

secondly, I DIDN'T KNOW IT WASN'T KIRA. i was fully 100% invested in this. but i DID do a double-take when she said it back because her boyfriend died like LAST episode. i didn't realize anything was shady with HER bc i was lost in the sauce but ODO DID. odo KNOWS HER...................

i also felt like they did a good job with odovision. every time the camera was on her it was like oh this is how odo sees her aka the most beautiful woman who ever lived

ugh. "so now you know" and him literally fucking collapsing. and then it was for NOTHING i was so furious

hey, also, this lady manipulating him by 1. pretending to be kira 2. if she can perfectly imitate a humanoid and odo can't, that means when she looks like him she's looking like him on PURPOSE, not because she can't choose another form

anyway do you ever realize that the people you've been looking for your whole life are monsters and the people who love you deserve your loyalty and love more even if you don't always understand them even if you don't know how to be a part of them. do you ever meet a bajoran terrorist and have her change the meaning of your very name from "nothing" to "someone who is loved" im gonna fucking kerm

"she said something you would never say" AAAAAUGH and kira innocently going "oh what?" and he LIES!!!!! LYING LIAR WHO LIES im in agony i thought about it nonstop last night driving 1h+ to the fucking airport to pick up my brother

i feel like i had more articulate thoughts previously but they've all fled my brain because i'm rolling around on the floor like my clothes are on fire. i hate this show this is KILLING MEEE this is one seriously slow fucking burn

ANYWAY! TONIGHT! FOR REAL THIS TIME: VOYAGER! i'm actually glad we're leaving ds9 on this note for half a dozen voyager eps or so because then i get to live here for a few days. just basking. AGHGHGH

IMPORTANT EDIT: i nearly forgot about this but the conversation sisko and bashir had about the male ensign who is "budding" aka "pregnant with twins" and is getting a hatchling pond made for him and the babies. 10/10

[dballzposting]

Insane about Aro GT Trunks in the best way possible because to me he still pretty much loves Goten in a totally platonic way but also they are forever soulmates so i think they're more than friends and i dont think Goten and Trunks ever had like any boundaries at all because Goten is a weird dog and Trunks is like just down for it and thats just how they grew up so i feel like Trunks is so used to Gotens bullshit that if like Goten started kissing him on the mouth or something he'd be like "huh, so we're doing this now" and he'd start doing it too once the fact settles in and if Goten like told him he loved him or he liked him or whatever the fuck he'd be like "yeah man, same, i thought that was a given" because GT Trunks is like the least affected by my "Trunks is Lowkey a Stupid Tsundere" tinted glasses, AND IT'S BECAUSE HE'S ARO, he just doesn't even care but one day he's gonna end up practically dating Goten and he'd be like "damn" and he'd just go along with it because its Goten and he loves Goten yknow but not that way but ENOUGH in another way that he would be down with the romantic affections even if he doesn't get them at all and he would just unironically kiss the homies goodnight because he doesn't give a shit and he's used to Gotens bullshit pseudo affection like ear licking is kinda gross but as Goten grows up it gets a little less gross so Trunks doesn't mind anymore and it's not like he wants to date Goten, that's like his best buddy ever dude it ain't happening BUT they totally do like dating stuff and Trunks seems like he's in a glass fucking closet with how much he denies liking Goten but he just fucking doesn't, sure he loves him but he doesn't like LIKE him, yes he will kiss him or whatever weird bullshit Goten came up with today but in a completely platonic way because Trunks just doesn't feel it yknow he just doesn't get it but he's not opposed to it he just does not care and he's so chill before he goes insane in space so i don't think he actually minds,

am i making any sense

@yu7i <- The genius behind the text.

You are making so much sense. I am honored to offer a platform for which you may speak the #TrutenTruth through.

When I read this through the first time I started counting on my fingers and saying outloud “YES” to every agreeable clause and fragment and by the end I was over 20 and then it ended and then I heard the knell of a gong in my head signifying the end of the most intense round of TrutenTruth ever.

Much of this I have either said or felt was true myself before, but all of it is readily understandable and immensely agreeable. I have a lot of iterations of Goten & Trunkz in my head and occasionally I will see a post that is like ... one of the Consummate Tenets of Goten & Trunkz to me. Whether it’s expressing something I was personally trying to get at or not. And every time that happens I feel a little closer to fulfillment and satisfaction. Like I need to talk about Goten & Trunkz less and less because more and more of the truth is being successfully articulated and communicated and understood.

This is one of those posts. This is THE CONSUMMATE TRUTEN TRUTH !

Breakdown of personal opinion under the cut:

1.  “Insane about Aro GT Trunks in the best way possible” - YES.

2. “because to me he still pretty much loves Goten in a totally platonic way” - YES.

3. “but also they are forever soulmates” - YES.

4. “so i think they're more than friends” - YES.

5. “and i dont think Goten and Trunks ever had like any boundaries at all” - YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6. “because Goten is a weird dog” - YES.

7. “and Trunks is like just down for it and thats just how they grew up” - YES.

8. “so i feel like Trunks is so used to Gotens bullshit that if like Goten started kissing him on the mouth or something he'd be like ‘huh, so we're doing this now’ and he'd start doing it too once the fact settles in” - YES ! What good would rebuffing it do, he would get nothing out of denying him? Like whatever lol. They’ve always been in each other’s space so WHY NOT? Their doors are wide open for each other.

9.  “and if Goten like told him he loved him or he liked him or whatever the fuck he'd be like ‘yeah man, same, i thought that was a given’” - YES!!

10. “because GT Trunks is like the least affected by my ‘Trunks is Lowkey a Stupid Tsundere’ tinted glasses,” - YES !!! He just doesnt act that way in GT. In fact I feel like we see behavior directly to the contrary of the theoretical tsundere nature. He truly has a healthy amount of self-assurance in GT.

11. “AND IT'S BECAUSE HE'S ARO,” - Y.E.S. ! ! !

12. “he just doesn't even care but one day he's gonna end up practically dating Goten and he'd be like ‘damn’ and he'd just go along with it because its Goten and he loves Goten yknow” - YES.

13. “but not that way” - YES.

14. “but ENOUGH in another way that he would be down with the romantic affections even if he doesn't get them at all” - YES. Sweetness is sweetness and affection is affection and his best friend is his best friend and love is love. Physical affection is sensory input and he likes it all the same.

15. “and he would just unironically kiss the homies goodnight because he doesn't give a shit” - YES. Especially in GT he seems confident enough to not have unorthodox expressions compromise his sense of self. I mean it’s a 90s anime so it is what it is BUT ALSO even though he strongly disliked having to dress as a bride on that one episode he GOT OVER THAT RIGHT QUICK and was able to MAKE IT WORK BABY! Because he works with what he has and is resourceful and is happy to grab ahold of the tools that life hands him. So he’ll kiss the homies goodnight because it’s beddy bye and they need it.

16. “and he's used to Gotens bullshit pseudo affection” - YES. His BULLSHIT PSEUDO AFFECTION. It’s real to him but like COME ON MAN !!

17. “like ear licking is kinda gross but as Goten grows up it gets a little less gross so Trunks doesn't mind anymore” - Slonks your ear with dignity and valor.

18. “and it's not like he wants to date Goten, that's like his best buddy ever dude it ain't happening” - Y.E.S. !!! In some ways it’s completely improper, like, too close for comfort. And like, who’s gonna be his BFF if they start doing romantic shit ? If they start caring about things that couples care about then what will become of them .. Trunks generally has agreeable opinions about the way that things work in his culture and he feels no strong reason to usurp the status quo by turning what he has with Goten into romance.

19. “BUT they totally do like dating stuff” - YES !! Becasue it’s not too close for comfort if theyve always been the other one’s Other, the other one’s Favorite Friend. Theyre special friends. They are of converse blood and their fathers rival in their twin Saiyan strength, and theyve merged before, and NO ONE ELSE WILL TOLERATE THE OTHER LIKE THEY TOLERATE EACH OTHER !!!

20. “and Trunks seems like he's in a glass fucking closet with how much he denies liking Goten but he just fucking doesn't,” - T.R.U.E. ! ! ! It literally SEEMS like he’s full of shit, and maybe he even begins to doubt himself, but it’s never been in his nature to doubt himself for long, because he’s pretty fucking sure of who he is (like in GT when he was strong enough to reject Baby during his first possession). So he knows what he means and how he feels. He DOESNT LOVE HIM IN THE TRADITIONAL ROMANTIC WAY THAT YOU MAY (rashly) CONCLUDE BY THEIR BEHAVIOR!! 

21. “sure he loves him but he doesn't like LIKE him,” - Yes.

22. “yes he will kiss him or whatever weird bullshit Goten came up with today but in a completely platonic way” - YES. HE’LL GO ALONG WITH IT. LIKE WHEN GOTEN WANTED TO GIVE HIM A WEIRD SENSUAL MASSAGE IN THE BATHTUB WITH ROB ZOMBIE PLAYING. And Trunks loves him deeply and they have an invincible bond.

23. “because Trunks just doesn't feel it yknow he just doesn't get it but he's not opposed to it he just does not care” - Yes. The way that Trunks feels is not romantic but it’s deep and sustaining and nurturing and supportive, and it is the truth. It lacks the thrill and titillation of fuzzy feelings - it is just the comfort and the marvel of what’s always been, and what continues to define and uphold the world.

24. “and he's so chill before he goes insane in space so i don't think he actually minds.” - So true.

25. “am i making any sense” - YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like Trunks needs Goten as a LIFE PARTNER, because he’s not especially keen on meeting new people and trying to pick a wife. If it happens naturally then that’s fine, but he doesn't want to have to put in the effort, he has no real “objective” to shoot for in doing so. He has no burning desire for romance or for children. But he does need support and friends and love, and the family he has is important to him, and Goten is a very special pillar in his life. And whether Goten is wholly committed to him or if he takes on a wife of his own DOES NOT matter to Trunks - just as long as they keep being quintessential in each other’s lives, just as long as they maintain that sustaining bond.

THANK YOU. This has been essential. I zoned out for 15 minutes responding to this ask becasue I started thinking about a truten story in my head. But I’ve returned and now the world has seen this ask. Stay gorgeous everyone. And always be sure to bite life with all of your teeth. Dballz Out

[squigglywindy]

I’m baaaaack !!!

…ish. Gonna go ahead and preface this to try and minimize stress, I’m not gonna be super active. I’ll pop up now and then. If you see me interact with one thing, and get sad because I didn’t interact with a different thing, please please do not take it personal. It just means I opened the app, grinned at the first thing I saw, and promptly had to leave because my life is a dumpster fire (and also please ping me if there’s anything you’d like me to see! I wanna! Just can’t feasibly scroll through it all). I love you all, I’m tired of hiatusing, but I simply cannot keep up what I attempted to keep up last semester. This one’s worse, I have no life, everything is in shambles, but I do love stopping by and waving happily at y’all so…yeah. So to get a lil personal? I feel weird being here without contributing anything. I have no time to write or draw, and a huge chunk of me is like ‘…so why would they want to see me?’ BUT I have never ever ever thought that about any of y’all. Sometimes we get busy, and when it happens to y’all, I absolutely adore seeing whatever you have the time to swing by and say. So, I’m going to try to give myself some grace and allow myself to exist here without contributing anything. I probably won’t be sharing much for the foreseeable future, but…yeah. I’ll be here cheering from the sidelines :D. I have to take a step back this site has eaten so many of my hours and…I don’t have those. So I need to acknowledge that now so it doesn’t come back to bite me later (what’s up November 2022, let’s not repeat). I am rambling so much but the moral of the story is I’m here, I’m stressed, I don’t know what to say, I’m riding the struggle bus to victory, I can’t even articulate whatever my headspace is, I feel like I should say something cool but I’m just tired and this is not that big of a deal, but I’m here to vibe if anyone wants to. Greetings <3

[bookinit02]

HI im so sorry i just finished reading the e4 script and i am just . fuckign speechless i cant articulate at all lol it was soo amazing when i finished i needed to stare at a wall for like three minutes straight just to process hang on one sec hang on a minute let me uh let me jsut two seconds here hangn on HDSHHSDCHSCSCVGSCVGDVGSCDCGSXCGXSCXSCGSGSCGCGHCXGHCGXHCHXHXFFHCHXD#DFFDCEFHDFSNCNKSDCNJDSTHFH3489FDJNHJFVDSHJFDHSDFDHVHGSDCVDGHC489FHJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am literally SO OBSESSED you are such a talented writer and im so sorry once again for dumping all my thoughts in ur askbox especially when most are just incoherent but i have so many of them 😭 and this has been on my mind like all day lmao chewing on drywall actually<3333

okay first of all i LOVE HOW EVERYTHING IS COMING TOGETHER IT'S SO INTERESTING all the little plotlines feed into the bigger ones,,,,,, th hive mind isn't toxic plot which means SHITT vecna isnt trying to kill them he's trying to do something Else WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT PLOT TWISTS AAAAAAA and the back-and-forth between dustin and robin, the reveal that vecna was trying to force someone out ("where's will?")CHILLS. THE CHILLS. GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD it was so cool omgg omgomgomg. also max's storyline is literally INSANE i am SO INVESTED and i love how you've handled it so far i can't wait to see where you're gonna go with it!! <3 like. LIGHT. run the other way run to the light,,,, and the whole thing with TERRY is so genius it all makes so much sense but i never saw it coming and it was just SOOO SICK to see play out on the script i was on the edge of my damn seat the whole time you are literally SO TALENTED i am yelling sosososo loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kind of continuing on from that i love all the references to past seasons :D the heart motif with lumax and byler has me in a chokehold btw grnjfrgnjfdjknnfjdgvknjkgfdjnkhehe!!!!!!! and the "you can leave, it's---" the rain is DEAFENING. will FLINCHES. THE RAIN SCENE??? also HELLOOOOOOO EMOTIONAL RAIN SCENE i think i can speak for all of us when i say im FLOOORED!!!!! gahhhhhh I CANT I ACTUALLY CANNOT YOURE AMAZING AND SO IS YOUR WRITING!!! plus the curiosity voyage WHO CHEERED :)

the. the byler quarry scene i. the lead up to it was INCREDIBLE and the gut punch sliding down walls head in hands heartwrenching 1000year brainrot is REAL because it has been my resting state since i read it when it dropped!!!!!! <3 basically my quick review is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA and woag the slightly less quick review is also AAAAAokay no im kidding dont worry i have soo many thoughts head FULL girl i am so unwell over it "stay" THE CHEEK TOUCH THE HAND OVER HEART THE "i cant" and then it's TOO LATE.throwing up!!!!!THROWING UP and the jump and the running start and the rainstorm as a whole i am . I AM !!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOqhjwhjsdhjjhdjhdsjwjsdjhhjdhjehjwejhogufdoudfgjgdfjjwhdjhd dyinf a thousand deaths passing away rn

ANYWAYYY looking back on this i realize how long it is I AM SO SORRY JESUS😭😭😭 but yeah thats my roundabout way of letting you know that this rewrite and the s5 plot and scripts and fic and shoutout to the characterization which you NAILED it's absolutely EVERYTHINGGGG okay i promise im done now im so sorry like i said this got Way Unreasonably Long but thank you sosososo much for sharing this with us i hope you have a great rest of your day!! :D

this is the comment that made me cry at work btw so please never apologize for it being long😭😭 this was soooooo nice of you and it makes me so happy to know that all the work i put into these scripts is being recognized!!

one of the biggest challenges of this script has definitely been all the intersecting plot lines. i’ve never really attempted anything this expansive or complicated before, so there’s definitely a learning curve to it! i’m glad you’re enjoying it so far. & while i don’t think this plot twist is one of my best by any means, and honestly i wasn’t even thinking about it as a plot twist, i’m still glad you liked it! i really adore writing plot twists, and i love the feeling you get when reading something that has been so cleverly executed. it’s really the same feeling that i strive to emulate in all my fics!

i just said this in another ask, but i am SO psyched about max’s plot. i was really stuck on what to do with her, but i didn’t want to sideline her. pairing her up with terry was something that i never considered, but i literally had a revelation one night and was like oh my god that’s PERFECT!! & i haven’t seen anyone else do anything even moderately close, so i’m very excited to try something new.

i love a good reference!! parallels make my heart so happy. or so sad. depending on the circumstance. the rain fight one was a little bit evil, i’ll admit. the curiosity voyage was a lot more fun!

i was also unwell over the quarry scene. i literally cried writing it. i had to take multiple breaks. just ask suni i was SO unwell oh my god😭 so i’m right there with you.

again, please don’t apologize!!! this was incredibly kind of you, and it makes me so unbelievably happy to get comments on my script. this is an episode that i was insanely proud of, and i’m really happy that everyone has enjoyed it so much. thank you so much for all your kind words!!💗🫂

[perexcri]

Perexcri, my beloved perexcri, it’s time to talk about aftry…

So first off i’m just gonna say i absolutely LOVE when authors and artists use light as a metaphor. Idk why but it always hits me so hard. This is probably the most obvious thing ever so i’m sure this is no grounbreaking observation but I took the light vs shadows metaphor as a stand in for depression. The voices that whisper to you that nothing but bad is coming for you but the light of hope that breaks through when you can share things with those you care about perfectly sums up how i personally feel when mine flares up bad. It was haunting, thoughtful and beautiful

As for the story itself, while yeah the action of thaba might have been missing here i definitely feel aftry was more of a ride. I love a good action piece as much as the next person but i also love the more character study driven stories like aftry just as much, probably a little more so because i tend to be a pretty emotional person in general so stories like these tend to get me a little more. The way relationships are explored here was also truly special. Getting to grow with them with all their ups and downs was so fun

As a musician i am always looking for new inspiration and you definitely provided! I wrote two pieces based on byler fics I absolutely loved and i think i feel one coming on for this one! I’ll keep you updated!

As always lovely i thank you so much for your gifts and sharing your stories with us! They are such a bright spot on my shittiest days and i appreciate you so much! Wishing you gentle days and nothing but love and light 💜💙💚

Jon i need you to know i read this message and couldn't stop smiling, so thank you for that :]

now *cracks knuckles* onto my beloved aftry. again, i cannot thank you enough for reading it. tbh, if i was forced to delete all but one of my fics from ao3, this is the one i would keep up. which is all to say it makes me overwhelmingly happy when people read it :')

ahhh yes, the depression metaphor!! listen, i am also a sucker for light metaphors. it's such a simple one but always so lovely to draw out and think about.

and now it's time for me to be personal on main, though i know i wrote about some of this in the author's notes in some of the chapters in aftry. basically i felt horrible when i wrote most of aftry; all of the first three parts and a few sections of the fourth part were all written in the span of about 3 weeks, but leading up to those weeks, during those weeks, and for several weeks afterwards, i felt horrible, but i couldn't really place what was wrong. i'd actually started feeling that way around posting the last ~10 chapters of thaba, and it just got worse and worse. in a weird way, i couldn't articulate what i was feeling to myself, but what i ended up writing (especially with Will's own thoughts and emotions) were very much what i was going through at the time. it's like i couldn't see how much pain i was in until i'd written 70k words of the fic, and even at that, i still couldn't really understand? it wasn't until i took some steps in my own life to get better that i was able to start looking back and realize how much pain i was going through

so, here's a fun easter egg for you: this actually kinda shows up in the story itself! i had originally intended for Will's interaction with the mindflayer-esque shadows to give him prophetic visions or something of the like, but by the time i got around to writing that third part where they're kids, i started describing the shadows in a way that i would typically reserve for mental health matters, and i genuinely couldn't get myself to stop no matter how much i wanted to go with the prophetic visions route. so, i think there's a conversation between those two in one of the earlier chapters where Will asks about an uncle who tried to kill the king? yeah, that's what was originally gonna happen: Will was gonna predict the uncle's betrayal, and then the king would exile him for treason or whatever. i had already changed the story by the time i posted that chapter, but i was so miserable that i couldn't think of a way to change it and just kept it lol

wow okay!! sorry for the rambles about light and dark and depression lol. onto the next things!

i'll just be straight up with you: nothing makes me happier than hearing you say aftry was more of a ride than thaba because of its emotional ups and downs. it's like i beat myself in a competition or something lol. but seriously, i'm glad you enjoyed it!! i am also a huge fan of character-driven stories and emotional studies of our dearly beloved blorbos. i'll take a story where nothing but a conversation or thinking happens for 20k words over an action-packed 5k words

and this is a small thing, but i like that you said you enjoyed growing together with them, because that ended up being such a big theme of this fic for me: growth. i wanted a story that was really emotionally messy and showed both of them failing and having to try and reconcile their differences, and i'm really proud of the end product and how it incorporated those things :D

also i know you're super talented musically, and if you write a piece for aftry, i think i'll be forced to retire from writing tbh. like that would be the peak for me. but seriously, no pressure whatsoever to do so!! it does make me happy when something i've made inspires other people to make things, though, mostly because i think the world is a better place when people are making things they care about :D

which is a really circular way of saying create if you so desire, but if you end up not wanting to, no worries at all!! i expect nothing and this ask alone is enough to have made me feel the happiness of a cat happy-rolling in a patch of sunlight on the floor

and how am i supposed to top your ending paragraph :') you're always so sweet and nice, and are a genuinely bright spot in this fandom. i know i appreciate your presence because i know you're a positive force in a world where it's very easy to not be so. i'm grateful for these little interactions via shared blorbo brainrot (lol) and for everything that is to come! i wish you flowers and light :] 💐

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary25

9/29-30/2023

late night, tonight.

i was out super late after this very bad poetry reading here for some of these creative writing majors. i don't have a lot to say about it, it was bad and the writers make some people close to me miserable because they fail at being kind basically. kind in a real way, the kindness that lets you have some give for meanness when you actually articulate/show effort put towards anyone else, people who are utterly shallow, you know. i believe it must be the case that we all know of people like that essentially.

i didn't get to work on music today really, that's kind of good, tomorrow i will try to write some stuff, i did work on music actually i guess, i wrote a riff, and i'll see where that can take me, or less writing the riff, i wrote some chords to mess with. a fun shape that has a good sound, disso and freaky when inverted.

anyways tonight was good, or like, half good. it's given me a lot to think about, with people who do certain things (like 'ethical' nonmonogamy and if that can exist when the presupposition is monogamy in the first place). i met new people who i like, who are really nice and fun to be around, who got drunk and told me dirt about some old people i knew. or really, one person. that doofus from the noise band, actually. i don't mind saying that. i won't discuss the dirt. it just kind of makes me feel something sad, about people like that, and i guess at large people who in some sense resemble the poets, shallow engagement and deeply troubled ideas of what being an artist means leading to difficult lives, miseries that begin loud and only grow quieter, never actually dissipating.

my gf really wanted to take me to this, the reading and the afterparty, she and a friend really wanted to hear my thoughts on these people because supposedly i'm very funny about that kind of thing, she forgot i guess the bore of the poetry, and the fact that as time goes on, the ruin of these lives is exposed more and more, rich (really i don't actually know, it's the impression i get) developing bad habits and using people, and the drama, while never uninteresting to someone like me (maybe it makes me evil to want to hear), is always sad.

sometimes i am like a child and i just wish everyone could be okay and fine, i'd sometimes light myself on fire to make that possible, but someone i used to be obsessed with told me that me wanting to be jesus or buddha (he said both) so bad wouldn't do anything for anyone except feed how badly i like to see myself hurt. he's right. i guess that's what knowing things does too.

maybe my whole life i'm just going to be hurting myself in new ways.

so i made 3 new friends, or 4, let me count, yeah, 4, i think. and i actually saw 2 friends i knew before tonight, and i was with my one girl friend. so 7 people, i'm gonna see some tomorrow at a gay bar to see a drag show, super exciting stuff. hopefully there won't be any pangs of sadness over the fact we are living in hell sort of.

i guess everybody has really unpleasant fascinations sometimes.

one conversation tonight, one of the new friends told me about her research topic, modern apocalyptic media and its convergence with evangelical christianity, just talking about all that stuff and its evolving state, the dwindling numbers of evangelicals and their panic, her past, and stuff. i liked that. i liked all of tonight, even the sadder parts.

i'm listening to the song theory on sex as an art form, by camera obscura, on repeat. a really great track, it's just so perfect, i love the synth-y punky part especially, but i guess it's also perfect next to a perfect melodic release, this movement that recalls something tumbling downhill, or leaves off petals, while the first part is this total mania.

anyways i am exhausted now, and tomorrow is another day of socializing and stuff.

had an awful thought, or not awful, i dunno. someone posted the song absent friend by bark psychosis, a song that takes me to two specific moments in my life. one was when i'd listen to this song, thinking about the man i loved who would disappear without a word because he was awful, and i'd lay in bed without anyone to talk to, and the second place, is years later, when a friend who loved this record to bits, killed himself, and the song was so pointed, it felt like it said something. the night i found out i walked around and listened to this song.

both times, the lyric "that's the biggest joke of all" took on pretty different meanings. right now it means something else i guess.

the awful thought was about my dead friend rather than the friend who is dead to me. my dead friend, the thought was: the most meaningful thing he'd ever do for himself was kill his own self, that's where all the force of his life would end up, and missing him, and not wanting to forget him and wanting other people to know him, all i am left being able to do is revive the corpse he made of himself and tell others, this is what he did, this is his monument and it's an awful one but it is his. i don't know what else to say about it, i'm staving off the wish to tell a stranger in a server about him because they posted this song, all i can say is i guess, beautiful song, one of the best ever, and they won't know how much i mean that. maybe i mean it less because it means such particular things to me, and rather than thinking it's the best song ever, it's just clusters of memory and feeling forever tied to it. whatever, though, that's fine.

anyways, byebye!!!

[gobbluthbutagirl]

I’m not either of the anons but THANK YOU. I just didn’t really care about any of the characters and it all just felt a little flat. David was so extra it felt like they overbalanced by giving his partner no personality whatsoever. And there’s no real redemption? All of the characters were mean and awful at the beginning and now they’re still mean and awful but the townspeople just consider it quirky. The closest anyone got to character development was Alexis

yessss like i kept watching in part because i wanted to see david and Some Guy(i forgot his name too lol)’s relationship because i was like. Well i hate everything about this show so far but maybe having a gay couple will make it better. and it DIDN’T!!! and it’s honestly because they failed to get me emotionally invested in any of the characters. it’s like yeah it’s cute…ish…at times but like…that’s it??? and Some Guy really did only exist to be david’s partner. like he had nothing going on outside of that whatsoever. he felt less like a character and more like a vehicle for saying, “look! we’re depicting a gay relationship on our tv show!” and i think they kind of thought like, oh well people love david, people relate to david, look here’s a relationship for david with a happy ending! except that like… i did NOT love david. i thought he was kind of annoying. and then Some Guy was just like…nothing. so you’ve got a guy who’s kind of annoying and a guy who barely even exists and if you already don’t like the show that really does nothing to redeem it.

i think there’s a post i reblogged sometime in early 2021 where someone articulated this way better than i can but schitt’s creek is basically like if you took arrested development season 3 episode 9 “S.O.B.s” and removed all the irony. even in the very first episode it’s like, “oh no!!! it’s not their fault they lost all their money!!! their lawyer(or whoever) was corrupt and they didn’t even know!!! ):” and then they proceed to just be awful and it’s like. Come on man. if you’re gonna have a family of rich bastards at least lean into it. don’t give me all this corny shit about “heartwarming” and “life lessons” and “they’re not actually bad people” and whatever. like genuinely HOW do you take the concept of a rich family losing everything, which has so much potential(as evidenced by arrested development, which had already aired 4 of its 5 seasons by the time schitt’s creek aired its first), and turn it into something so lackluster???