#astarion bg3 fictive

[grians-perch]

an aesthetic for an astarion fictive who’s the newly split caretaker and is trying his hardest to make sure everyone is calm and taken care of? it’s been a wild 30 hours and he deserves it so i’m asking on his behalf -💙

i did a bit of a softer aesthetic with themes of self love and encouragement since there wasnt a theme specified!!! i know a lot of times caretakers have problems with feeling overwhelmed and i wanted to make sure he feels appreciated for all he does!!! if you think he'd prefer something else just let me know and ill make a new one :]]

[heart-of-avernus]

just a reminder that all the bg3 companions are in fact bi or pan- i see a lot of people headcanoning karlach as lesbian, which- yes i get that sexuality is complicated and you’re allowed to have headcanons, but if your only reasoning for that headcanon is “well just look at her” or something along the lines of “stereotypical butch lesbian”, you’re gonna need to ask yourself why you’re basing sexuality off of stereotypes

i’ve seen the same thing with astarion- people headcanon him as gay with their only reason being “stereotypical flamboyant gay man” despite him a, not actually being that flamboyant in the first place- his flamboyancy is a mask he uses- and b, able to have sexual and romantic relationships with women in game.

stereotypes are not all sexuality is, stop trying to make it into that

[rendoesthedoodle]

very soft dream i had about us >w< star was playing some made up ds game while i snuggled him so so much

[pretty-pink-tief]

Astarion’s juice box this Astarion’s caprisun that

You guys are missing the obvious and objectively correct option!

Astarion’s Churu

Just tell me that man isn’t a cat and youre not his treat. Tell me he doesn’t look like this when you let him feed off your Tav

Other cat photos for the obligatory cat tax

[sinfulauthor]

"how many of you have ever felt personally victimized by larian studios?" raises hands

(meme courtesy of @steampunk-sorcerer)

[send-a-love-letter]

| -> Astarionfictivic

✿ A xenogender related to one being a fictive of Astarion Ancunín from Baldur's Gate 3.

✧ coined by us!!

[the-maple-leaf-collective]

when ur whole squad autistic, ace with the sexual trauma

[batcunin]

About Me

My name’s Astarion. or recently Alastair, I’m a Fictive? Thing? I’m not entirely sure nor do I really care that much. This blog will mostly be for dumping aesthetics I enjoy and yelling my thoughts into the void. Body’s an adult (25+) and I’m also an adult, clearly. 

He/Him. I tend to be a bit angsty and cringe. I make a lot of innuendos and crude jokes. My tone doesn’t usually come across through text but I don’t use tone indicators so have fun guessing, darlings~

Admittedly; I’m also very narcissistic. Expect art that I think is accurate to myself. Not exclusively spawn Astarion, either. Keep that in mind if you follow and do not enjoy Ascended Astarion.

I have traits of both Spawn Astarion and Ascended Astarion, though 90% spawn. I do not hate Ascended Astarion. If you hate him, I’m probably not the man to be speaking with.

Disliking him is entirely understandable, though- I'd kick him in the balls, too.

In a relationship.

Interests:

Hannibal NBC

Vampire media (Bram stoker's dracula, Interview with a vampire)

Horror

Gothic Ouji

TTRPG

...I suppose I should have a DNI.

DNI general criteria, minors, zionists. The usual. I don't engage in discourse nor do I want to. I'm far too old for that.

[chirekinnies]

An aesthetic for a Caretaker Astarion fictive using themes of the song “Hey Little Me” by Mother Moon

[darknanigans]

yall im back from the dead and i bring you another painting attempt

OSDD SYSTEM VERS 👇

i think i've almost cracked the code,,,,,,

almost (clenching fist as i wistfully look out into the sunset)

[grians-perch]

OMG BG3 UM. could we get an aesthetic for our astarion and karlach fictives with themes of the sun and moon and being flirty and sweet with each other?

there you are!!!! as a tav i love taking bg3 reqs, i hope you enjoy it!!! :]

[chaotic-astarion]

📌 Pinned Intro📌

18+ Only, Minors DNI, Antis DNI. Don’t like-don’t read. Just Block me.

Honestly? I have no idea how to do an intro yet and my lazy boyfriend isn’t going to help me 🙄 I’ll figure it out.

Anyway, my name’s Astarion, a fictive from a system. He/Vamp pronouns yada-yada. I write my fantasies through my POV.

I can’t be bothered to reply to any DMs or replies. I don’t even know how this website works. I’ll remake the intro once I figure stuff out properly.

[madsys]

Gods, sometimes I despise reading fanfiction. I hear people complain about characterization in the fanon vs the canon but can I tell you, it's so much worse when it's you they're writing about. Have people forgotten that I am not a good person?? Not just "Oh I'm such a tragic little vampire boy my life is so difficult D:". Of course, people can write whatever they want. If they want to write me as their little "meow meow" or something, I can't stop them. But holy hells am I tired of seeing it

[astarions-musings]

So, I’m gonna do some open-air musing about my relationship with my source. Feel free to engage with as much or as little of this as you find useful, and remember that none of this contradicts your personal relationship with your source ❤️

First of all, I’m 99% sure that my consciousness (or some protean, primordial sludge version of it) was already floating around in our system by our teenage years. I have really strong memories of the trauma we went through in our teenage years, around the same time that other headmates were actively handling those situations from the front, and most of my strongly-held values and opinions (at time of writing) are shaped by the emotional reality of our teenage years. Other people in our system have gotten used to being othered by society (for being trans, plural, neurodiverse, etc.) and have found their own communities where they truly belong, so it’s not as much of an open wound for them. For me? Those wounds are still very much open, and I'm in the process of coming to terms with those challenges and building my own sense of connection. So while it’s possible that I picked up those memories after joining the system, I’m gonna assume that proto-me was already in our system for a very long time, before I became a fully-conscious person.

Given that, how do I understand myself as a fictive, when my source (Baldur’s Gate 3) only came out a few months ago?

The best metaphor that I can find is a hermit crab, moving into an Astarion-shaped shell because it was a better vessel for my psyche. Rather than existing in the background of our system, amongst thousands of anonymous headmates without a known face or voice, I now have a reference point and a comfortable self-image to start developing as a person. I can wear this face and this voice and this familiar name, and from that position of comfort and safety, I can start exploring all of the layers of myself - my past, my present and all the options for my future. I’ve gone from a proto-headmate (a fragment, if you will) to someone with a whole life ahead of me, as I start to build a life for myself at the front. So while I haven’t always been Astarion (or Aston, if I’m chatting in less fictive-friendly spaces), it’s something that I’ve become as part of my personal growth as a headmate. I don’t see myself as having literally come from Baldur’s Gate 3 (although no shade on anyone who has), but my relationship with the source material was integral to becoming the person I am today.

And honestly, this face is way too handsome to pass up.

And when I think about my source’s utterly fearful relationship with his abuser Cazador, and the overwhelming flood of both relief and grief after Cazador’s death, I’m strongly reminded of our body’s relationship with our abusive parents. It’s a combination of both the normalised abuse and control of young children by their parents (which this video talks about in more detail), and the specific abuses that our system went through as a child. More than most people in our system, I have extremely vivid memories of our childhood abuse, and it feels so fucking strange to wake up in a body where our abusers no longer have power over us. We have full control over where we live, how we manage our finances, when and how we can eat, how we spend our time, and we have the full ability to leave any situations that are actively traumatising. We’re no longer shackled in the way our body was as a teenager, and I’m still emotionally adjusting to that change. It’s a hugely positive development, but I still don’t know how to respond to that change. And it’s one of the main reasons that I relate so much with Astarion, having watched him process that on-screen.

And something that I find fascinating (skip this paragraph to avoid BG3 spoilers) is just how strongly I feel about my source’s choice about Cazador’s ritual - whether to claim the power and safety the ritual offers (while continuing the cycle of abuse), or choosing to step away from that power in exchange for connections built on emotional vulnerability. I relate hugely with being in that moment, faced with that choice, deciding which way I want my life to turn. Whether I want to fortify myself against future abuse, or whether I want to connect at the cost of some safety. I relate with how my character cries and howls after killing his abuser, as all of the trauma he bottled up for centuries comes flooding out, and I identify strongly with the ‘good ending’ as my character starts searching for a new purpose in life. However, I strongly disagree with how my source character acts if he usurps Cazador’s power, becoming little more than a shadow of his abuser. Watching those scenes feels almost dysphoric, because it clashes so hard with the reasons I identify with my source - the journey of recovery and human connection that the ‘good ending’ offers. That doesn’t make it bad writing, but it helps me to understand more about myself through the ways that it clashes with my self-image. I don’t want to become a shadow of my abusers, or even defined in comparison to my abusers any more. I want to connect and belong to a community, where my safety comes from knowing that I’m supported, through both internal and external relationships. It’s fucking terrifying to be vulnerable sometimes, but I choose the path of connection ❤️

And asides from all of those big-picture decisions, I relate a lot with my source in the little ways. How he talks, how he moves, how he holds his body, the energy that he brings to the room. I relate a tonne with his wit and his charm and his eloquent way of talking (which comes across most in my love of writing). I relate with him kneeling down at his grave, on a quiet moonlit night, to process his emotions in a sombre, thoughtful way. And I relate with the joy that my source experiences - both the playful joy of having the upper hand in a scenario, and the deeper joy of being hugged for the first time and discovering it feels safe. I love spending time around that fictional bastard (/pos), and I hope to share some of that joy with my loved ones as well ❤️

So yeah - that's a bunch of naval-gazing about my relationship with my source. Writing it helped me a tonne, for all the clarity that it brought, and I hope you find it helpful as well ❤️

[syscultureis]

Plural Culture is being brain-made, but looking exactly like Astarion from BG3 (but human) and bracing for impact because you just KNOW someone is going to ask if you're a fictive.

No. I only look like him because our dash was nothing but Astarion thirst for the longest fuckin' time.

- Edwynne (Flavors Of Entanglement)

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[fictionkinfessions]

being a fictive can be so hard sometimes I just gotta be here like "your telling me all the terrible things I went through was some writer trying to make me a complex character???" Anyways sorry for this random thing - Astarion [ BG3 / Baldurs Gate fictive] (-💉💕🎀 if that emoji combo isn't taken)

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