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iceagebaby · 7 months ago
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Despondency / Refuge
that's supposed to be Bennys lighter, the Courier is dealing with cosequences of being thrown into a mess they had nothing to do with
the halo was something that turned out on an accident but i love it
Rant below
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anonymouscheeses · 9 months ago
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Gimme them gimme them dope and diamonds
Diet Mountain Dew, baby, New York city
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love...?
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54625 · 8 months ago
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"Have you no more memories?"
I am made of memories.
"Speak, then."
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ruporas · 2 years ago
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cheers to the future of humanity (and the future of us)
[ID: Digital illustration in color of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun. The illustration takes place during the ship/home arc, specifically chapter 21. At the center, Vash is grabbing Wolfwood by the collar and pulls him into a kiss in the middle of a celebration. The pair is colored in vibrant warm hues while their surroundings are colored in cooler colors like green and teals. Luida, Brad, Meryl, and Milly are shown amongst the crowd, occupied in the celebrations as Vash and Wolfwood share a moment by themselves at the center. END ID]
#vashwood#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#hospital yuri (explodeds) like any average vw enjoyer i will never get over that arc#specifically the scene where they heard the news of earth ships coming and did that little handshake they somehow conjured or#Had already. and then the entire ship had a party... meryl and milly started drinking immediately from joy and dragged vash and ww to get#wasted too and overall celebrate together. the chapter moves quickly just like how the hope was quickly withered out and died just hours#later when knives destroyed it. BUT IM JUST THINKING ABOUT IN THE MOMENT OF IT ALL bc in the same chapter#ww asks for a chance for tomorrow and then gets news of earth ships coming. in this same arc vash is thinking of all the things he needs to#resolve so his home doesn't get attacked so the people he love doesn't have to die and the humans he wants to protect gets to live.#i feel like deep down they both semi-recognize that it can't be this easy and regardless of earth ships coming- there's still a wait for#them to arrive and they have to hold out. and regardless ww still has a mission to follow through and vash knows knives would find out#but in that mood of celebration the entire ship brought in - they can at least let themselves relax for a moment and indulge#how they basically engaged with no violence for the few days they were on that ship coaxing them into domesticity... i feel like their#thoughts would wander to somewhere soft and all#allowing them to push aside the tiptoeing and tenseness and be sweet for a night#ruporas art
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juan-francisco-palencia · 2 months ago
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For all mercy hearts please
Save us from the genocide
Share my post and donate if you can
I'm vitted by 90ghost and northgazaupdate
https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-mohamed-and-his-elderly-parents-from-genocide
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Well, I think I understand that in some way you ask for help through me and everyone. Honestly, I don't have many resources, but I offer my help by providing first aid to injured people, since I have medical knowledge, and my specialty is channeling those who have suffered first and second degree burns. If you feel that my medical knowledge could be of use to you, I am more than willing to help.
I wish you good luck. ⚘👋
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lorebird · 4 months ago
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In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if he’s really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.
#my art#gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#bill cipher#comic#eye strain#TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY#OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) aren’t. yk. identical. shouldn’t Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him#finally free of new jersey‚ finally somewhere he belongs#a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily#the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left#then out in the wilderness of gravity falls‚ his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront#he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3#color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid#the further from humanity the subject is#bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa#I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals#MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime#which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes#SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY#BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN#anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole#ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area#and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3#I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me
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bucketsofmonsters · 7 months ago
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Deep Water - Part 5
cw: the ocean, begrudging kissing done for practical reasons, discussions of drowning, blood, malnourishment, more tags to be added as the story continues
merman x fem reader
Word count: 3k
read on ao3
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5
Simon wretched. He wretched in front of them and it burned his throat and stung his ego as he emptied his stomachs of human food in front of his human and your awful little friend.
Finn had brought him this. Maybe if you'd brought him food it wouldn't make him feel this awful.
Probably not, but maybe.
He didn't like being brought food by this man anyway. It felt too much like courting. 
He would preen at the idea of you bringing him food if he weren't currently emptying his stomachs in uncomfortably shallow water
Shallow water he bore for you. Not for him. Stupid little man.
He hated that he needed him. Needed him to bring him fish and these horrible toxins they’d decided to try. 
“Probably not bread then,” he heard you say and he shook his head
No. No more of this bread. Not if he had anything to say about it, thank you very much.
“Okay,” your stupid little human said, still looking nervous. As he should be. If you hadn’t stood between them, he’d be dead. Even in the state he was in, he could lure him right in past the rocky shore and into deeper waters. 
But he wouldn’t, for reasons he didn’t like to think about, his stomachs turning again as he did. 
The two of you exchanged words once more, ones he hadn’t been paying attention to, before the stupid human left again. 
You sat on the shore beside him and he pulled himself out of the water next to you. 
His gills ached a little as he shifted so frequently from water to air but he couldn’t pass up the opportunity to lay beside you. 
You stared out at the sea, eyes a little distant and yet still warm. Even when they weren’t looking at him.
He couldn’t bring himself to feel jealous, not when he got to look at you like this. Even if that look wasn't directed at him. 
You spoke softly and contemplatively when you did. “They were together. Finn and Isobel. She was my sister, I don’t know if I ever told you about her.”
He shook his head, wishing he knew more of you. Wishing you’d share more of yourself with him.
But he couldn’t really blame you, what had he told you of himself?
“She’s smart,” he said, contented at the fact that Finn had apparently already been rejected by one of your own. 
“Smart?”
“You said were. He is not a suitable mate.”
You shifted on the rocks, something he’d come to realize you did when you’d been made uncomfortable, usually by him. He could rarely understand why, despite how frequently it happened. This was one of those times and he waited, patiently, for you to make it clear to him what he had done. 
“She never left him. They were together until she died.”
“Oh.” A horrible sense of dread overwhelmed him. “How?”
“She drowned,” you said, picking up a rock and throwing it out into the water. 
He was glad you weren’t looking at him, eyes locked into the horizon as you spoke. He was certain the worry was written across every feature on his face. 
Did he do that? He didn't know. That felt worse almost, that someone so dear to you could have been so insignificant to him that he may have killed her without even knowing
“Simon?” you asked, words fading in past the intense, buzzing panic. 
He wasn't sure how he felt when you called him that. A foreign, half-remembered name. You'd seemed displeased the first time he’d told it to you but you continued to use it so it couldn’t have been that bad. 
He’d caught himself calling himself that in his own mind, of late. It was easy to when your voice was the only thing that filled his head. 
He wished he had a name like you did, one he’d been given at birth so that when you said it it felt as if you were speaking him, like you could pour his essence out of your mouth with the affection he often heard in your voice. 
As he focused once again he saw the horrible human, holding a fish this time. He looked worried too and Simon wanted to snap at him for the look. How dare he pity him, he wasn’t to be pitied. He could swallow him up, could fix this problem easily, all on his own. 
And then your panicked eyes under choppy water filled his vision. 
He lowered his head, violence seeping out of him, sufficiently cowed, and took the fish. 
They’d been dead a while and he took no satisfaction in sinking his teeth into the soft flesh. 
Eating above the water was messy. The blood clung to his jaw, dripping down his face as he tore a chunk out of the creature.
If he weren’t so hungry he might’ve cared. 
A ravenous force took him until all he was left with was stubborn meat stuck on bones. 
Only then did he look at you. You looked disgusted with him, eyes wide and mouth slightly agape. He shied away from your gaze, tears welling up in his eyes. 
It felt like everything he did was wrong, displeased you and made you look at him like that. 
He slid wordlessly back into the water, not emerging onto the shore until all the blood had seeped into the water.
The concern was back on your face when he returned. 
“Was that okay?” you prompted him gently as he stared up at you. “You feel a little better now?”
He nodded, eyes locked on yours. 
A soft sigh escaped you, lips barely parting to let it leave you. He wanted to feel it, the gentle air passing over his skin, the soft lips he’d felt against his before. 
“Good,” you said, and your smile reached your eyes. 
It didn’t take long for you to depart, leaving to sleep far away from him. 
He did his best to rest and then he did what he’s begun doing most days, he milled about in the water, lonely and near the shore.
He felt an intense panic when he didn’t have eyes on you. If he could get his hands on you, cold and vulnerable in open waters, so could someone else. 
He wondered what he’d do if someone pulled Finn under. He liked to think he’d be noble and protect him, save someone so dear to you. Or at least that he’d turn and choose to let him go, allow him to be dragged under.
He knew that in all likelihood, he would freeze. He found himself doing that a lot lately. It seemed to come alongside the panic more often than not. 
Later, you came to the shore with your soft eyes and he did what he always did. He fought down overwhelming urges to pull you under, to drown you and feast, to protect you as his mate, to beg you to hunt for him as his body became more and more convinced he had lost the ability to do it himself, to do any number of things you’d despise him for wanting. 
He lay on the shore, frozen, until he felt his mind come back to him. 
The fish had helped, he thought. It didn’t take quite as long for the urges to leave him. 
You came bearing more of them. 
Well, you didn’t. Finn did. But he could pretend, think that maybe he was just carrying them to the shore, that really they were from you. 
He knew that they weren’t but he was no stranger to trying to read intention into the things you did. 
It was so easy to slip into, to pretend every action was a secret message of adoration, just like his were for you. 
But they weren’t and when he allowed himself to pretend all he’d done was hurt you, so he needed to be done with that now. 
If you wanted something from him, you’d tell him. 
If you felt something for him, you’d tell him. 
But you hadn’t, and that was fine. He wouldn’t push. 
But he couldn’t quite stop himself from pretending. Surely it was fine, so long as he didn’t act on it. 
Finn dropped the fish on the shore and Simon dove for them. 
It was unseemly but he couldn’t help it. The hunger had left a steady ache inside him and he would take any chance at relief. 
The basket held a few fish, five or six of them strewn inside. 
It was enough to be full. He could’ve cried at the sight. 
But he had more important things to be doing and so instead, he grabbed the basked firmly and slid back into the water, dragging them under. 
He flipped the basket as he immersed himself in the water so the fish wouldn’t escape him and rise to the surface, holding them protectively to his chest. 
He’d wanted to tear into them on the shore but he’d seen your face the last time. He could not see it again, the revulsion that had painted itself there. 
So instead, no longer dissuaded by your presence, he devoured them.
Blood clouded the water as he ate, swallowing mouthfuls of flesh one after the other.
It wasn’t the safest way to eat, could surely attract attention from other hungry creatures, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. He’d done as much caring as he was capable of. 
When he was done, he returned to the two of you. 
Some of the foam lining the gentle waves ran red, stained by remnants of blood washing to shore. 
You both had the decency not to comment on it, though he watched your eyes flick down and then quickly back up. 
He wondered if you’d begrudge him this too. Your food wasn’t quite as messy as his was, was further from the creatures you ate, even when you ate meat just as he did. 
He’d seen it before, basically unrecognizable, no blood pooling or ripping out bones as you ate. A more seemly affair. 
Finn’s eyes lingered longer on the red, something quietly sad in his eyes, before they darted up to Simon. 
As you sat, fawning over Simon and ensuring he had enough to eat, he found it difficult to bask in your attention the way he wanted, that gaze remaining steadily on him. 
He tried not to notice Finn as often as he could. He brought about feelings that were better avoided, especially in front of you. 
Currently, that was difficult, due to the fact that he was staring Simon down, some horrible thought forming behind his eyes. 
“What’s it like?” he blurted out, cutting you off in a way that made Simon want to snarl at him. “Being under the water like that?” He sounded eager.
“Horrible,” you said with a little huff, your words turning bitter. 
He did not begrudge you for the harshness of your words. He would move to land if he could, to prove to you he held no loyalty for the ocean. 
“No,” Finn tried to clarify. “Not just swimming, actually being able to stay down there, to breathe it and live it.”
“I know,” you insisted. “I’ve been down there. It’s awful.”
Finn’s eyes flicked between the two of you like he was trying to decipher something. “How do you… please tell me you're human. I don’t know how much more of this I can take.”
You reeled back a little at his words, like the thought of you being like him had never occurred to you. He supposed maybe it hadn’t, maybe the possibility of what things would be like if you were the same hadn’t haunted you as it did him. 
“No,” you said with a swift, decisive shake of your head. “Nothing like that. He just does this strange thing where you can breathe underwater. It’s happened a few times now. It’s awful, I don’t recommend it.”
Your unfavorable words did nothing to snuff out the excitement blooming across his face. “Could you do that to me?”
Simon’s nose wrinkled at the thought. “I’d have to kiss you.”
“Oh. Well, it wouldn’t mean anything, it’s just practical.” 
A spike of panic shot through him at the thought that you believed the same about the kiss you had shared with him. That second one that changed his life.
It was practical, he supposed. At least the first one, underwater with panic in your eyes. The second couldn’t be. He couldn’t make sense of it, refused to accept it. 
But this one could be, he supposed.
He turned to you, unsure what he was looking for. 
You seemed just as uncertain as he felt. You spent a while searching for words, mulling them over, before settling on, “It hurts like hell.”
He was quick to reassure you both that it was fine and he didn’t mind. Simon didn’t much care what he minded. 
But then you sighed, slow and resigned, and gave him a look that if he was reading your expression right, which he’d discovered he often wasn’t, was saying ‘please.’
And he couldn’t disappoint you. 
With a huff and a frustrated look directed at you, he grabbed Finn’s hand and began yanking him back into the water. 
Of course, it would have been easier to simply lure him in, but he had a feeling you would not have approved of that.
So instead he yanked him, slowly but surely, into deeper waters. 
The brush of his lips, however brief, revealed rough lips, not like yours, not soft and sweet and so dear to him.
He did his best to lose the touch in the scramble of pulling him into the water. 
He watched the fight that went on in Finn’s eyes as he tried to convince his brain that he was allowed to breathe, saw the moment of panic when his breath could be held no longer and his body forced him to inhale a heavy breath. 
He knew it was wrong to feel a little swell of satisfaction now that he knew that it hurt to suck in water where air should be, and yet he couldn’t quite muster the shame that should follow such a feeling. 
Only as he saw the pain in his eyes did he realize how horrible of a decision this was for Finn. He’d put himself in so much danger, offered himself up to a siren, for what? To be able to see under the waves for a few more minutes? Surely the man could just go for a swim. 
He didn’t know the truth, that he was probably safer with Simon because at least this way, he’d be left alone by other creatures. He didn’t know that his devotion to you kept him from pulling him down and calling it a freak accident. 
All he knew was that he’d put himself in the water with a starving siren. 
Finn left him behind pretty quickly, moving to investigate the floor of the ocean, trying to look at fish before they swiftly swam away, leaving him behind in cloudy water. 
It felt like an uninteresting affair to Simon but Finn seemed to be getting something from it. 
Some amount of time passed, slipping away as Simon distractedly followed the irritating little human around. 
Eventually, after far too long, he appeared to be done. 
Or maybe he didn’t. Maybe Simon pulled him to shore without a signal. It was hard to read body language when one was irritated. 
With another burst of satisfaction, he pulled Finn onto the shore and watched him heave water from his lungs, some of the embarrassment from the human food incident sinking away. 
Strange. He’d never thought it embarrassing when you’d done it. Now, watching Finn deposit ocean water onto the sand with wet hacking noises, he thought that it was a shameful affair. 
“That was incredible,” Finn managed to gasp out after a few minutes of heaving. 
It didn’t feel right, that he’d taken him down there. That his lips had touched Finns.
He turned to look at you, sitting beside him on the shore, a sympathetic grimace on your face as you watched Finn. 
And then he leaned in and kissed you. 
Not a practical kiss, with no intent to put you anywhere near the water, but one born of only affection. 
It was a brief thing and when he pulled away, you looked almost panicked. 
His heart sank at the realization he’d messed it up again, done something strange and wrong and made you afraid of him. 
But then the tension began to fade from your body, panic shifting into confusion.
“Why did you do that? Am I going into the water?”
He shook his head, face still inches from yours. “I just needed to. I’m sorry if I was wrong.”
He heard something from Finn and refused to turn and look at him when you were so close. It sounded almost like a cough, but not the painful, wet coughs of breathing air once more. It was a short stunted thing. 
Simon, without turning, announced in response to this strange noise, “You can leave.”
A fit of laughter escaped you at his words, burying your head in your hands as you giggled.
He hadn’t been joking.
That was fine though. He liked it when you laughed, even if it was at him. It was never cruel, always soft and with nothing but shining amusement in your eyes.
He wished he was better at making jokes.
When he tried you just stood and stared and when he did not you laughed.
But then, he was never the best at knowing when to laugh either. There was a kinship in that, at least.
When he thought he might be laughing out of turn too much, he suppressed it. You didn't. He thought maybe your smile was too bright to keep down, that maybe it would hurt you like keeping in your air did.
His heart sank a little as he remembered.
Hurting you. The horrible realization that he'd hurt them all.
Maybe some of them laughed out of turn too. He'd never know.
Maybe your sister had.
He turned to leave. He couldn't stand to be here any longer.
He should tell you. He knew he should. But his jaw felt locked shut and his body felt like it was being pulled away, out of his control. 
And so, like a coward, he fled, the water drowning out the sounds of laughter that he left behind.
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artuurle · 11 days ago
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Human!Clicky: /Autistic in the way he doesn’t emote a lot
Human!Thespius: /Autistic in the way he DOES emote a lot and can pick on the little things to sense other’s moods, especially Clicky’s
Exactly!!! To me Thespius is very good at picking up the emotions of the people around him, though I'd confidently wager maybe he isn't 100% accurate on reading Clicky sometimes... either out of his own biases or self doubt. 100% better at reading him than anyone else as a mortal though.
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hands you some bonus stoic clicky's as a gift.
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poorlydrawnandroids · 10 months ago
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Unfortunately they did not get burgers for Hank, but Connor at least learned a valuable lesson. I guess Nines suffers from Amelia Bedelia Syndrome.
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Hi guys, this is actually a comic I drew and basically finished 11 months ago. And it’s been just about then since I’ve last really opened my iPad and did any drawing. There’s a ton of half-completed works on there and they’re pretty cute, so I’ll try to post them as I get the motivation. My therapist says posting to this blog will probably improve my mental health and he’s right but >:3c
So yeah! Let’s see what I can toss out this year, wooo!!
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rexonalapis · 22 days ago
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it is very telling that average genshin players cannot comprehend seeing an actual mature, qualified leader that is actually good at taking her job seriously after meeting archons who either is still childish, clowning whimsically, or straight up incompetent.
#it's kinda funny that the best God in terms of actually fulfilling their duties to the T is the mortal one#there's absolutely nothing wrong with the other archons their flaws make their characters extremely compelling#but it's kind of insane to call mavuika bland for being good at her job as if she's still not inherently flawed with the martyrdom complex#people keep pointing out to her: aren't you tired? don't you have dreams of your own? isn't your want important too?#she's such a fascinating character yknow#mavuika#that is#she cares so deeply about the humans in natlan and she has abundant love for them and actively doing things to give natlan a better future#and yet she could NOT remotely take her own advice and wisdom for herself#you kinda have to remember not all archons are here because they want to be archon#nahida did not ask to be an archon neither did ei#and don't even get me started on furina#zhongli and venti take archonhood like parenting as expected from them but they're so ancient that they're entering their silly granpa era#focalors is the first instance we see of 'new' god doing something... godly#she is forever the punkest archon for what she did but her plan still equired a great suffering nonetheless#after all when you want to save your nation by going AGAINST the system you cannot do it without sacrificing a soul or two#which leads me to why people think it's irrational to kill off capitano when what he's doing is also punk#focalors dared celestia by returning the hydro authority to the dragon they stole it from and destroyed hydro throne#forever changing the institution that is The Seven#capitano dared ronova by giving his immortality to lord of the night and by that rewriting ronova's curse on him#he changed the rules of the ley lines forever#anyway.#narratively speaking capitano is a great foil for mavuika and I'm just glad it's him we met in natlan#hyv didn't make the short animated for mavuika just for you to call her bland
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canisalbus · 11 months ago
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It's quite funny having followed you for years and years and knowing Machete as his dark, bloodied, cunning (and always on the edge of getting horribly murdered for his hubris) incarnation, and coming into 2024 and just... yeah he's gay now. Maybe he's even happy. Redemption at last... perhaps he DID get assassinated indeed and all those AUs are just his personal afterlife (does he get to go to Heaven? Seems so!)
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chasedeys · 2 months ago
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Joe Burrow and Ja'Marr Chase's Thanksgiving Menu!
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turtleblogatlast · 7 months ago
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i see your post about leo being relieved that hes trans because he learned his stripes would go away and i raise you: leo, who spends his entire childhood in fear because donnie told him that he will lose his stripes when he is younger, only for them all to realize hes trans when they dont
Oh…Leo having so much value in his looks and especially his stripes because they’re what make him stand out the most, and in turn it helps solidify himself a role in the team as the “Face Man.” Sure, he absolutely thinks himself good looking with or without the stripes, but his stripes are striking and he knows it, and they mean more to him than just looks anyway. Knowing all this time that his stripes were going to fade and yet still taking on his title and still being as confident as he is - imagine he’d already come to the conclusion that his worth on the team, in his family, was always on a timer.
Then that timer goes away. And he’s left with relief and tells himself that hey, he’d have been just as cool looking without the stripes anyway! But…he’s glad to keep them. Even if his role isn’t quite just “Face Man” anymore, his stripes are a part of him.
And it’s been really scary to think that someday he’d look in the mirror and see a part of himself missing.
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infernal-lamb · 9 months ago
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Hey, I've seen your drawings from Neves. They are brilliant. I like her a lot, and are you writing fanfic about her?
Ahh thank you!!! That's really flattering fkljgfjf....It's always a pleasant surprise that people like Neves :'-) (and I love when I get an excuse to post my doodles of her and the Lamb lol)
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I am in the works of trying to write a cotl fanfic abt this specific au (I call it The Apostate & The Martyr in my head lol), but writing doesn't come as easily as drawing to me SIGH. I've actually written quite a bit, but the problem is putting all these random excerpts together to make something coherent LOL. But yes, the fic is intended to be the story of The Lamb and Neves' friendship amidst the brutality and terror of the Lands of the Old Faith, how to deal with the consequences of their choices, and the mutual alienation they experience in their positions....as silly as that sounds lol. It's very self-indulgent! I just liked the concept of the "Outsider" POV, so to speak, being subjected to the sort of normalized violence that exists in cotl. Though, I might end up just making comics if I can't pan out this fanfic well enough!
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dayurno · 1 year ago
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this is somewhat of a vent post & something i said i would not do again but has been plaguing me enough that i think getting it out might feel better. so. has anydoggy else been. Baffled and upset by nora sakavic’s refusal to speak on how terribly aftg has treated its characters of color? with the author of the series coming back with a new book and starting up on her online activity again, and questions of what she’d change about aftg bubbling up, it’s particularly glaring to me that we are all playing this very long game of pretend where we ignore how badly the non-white cast has been treated & her lack of thoughts on it
and i understand not wanting to bring up nicky and thea because people pick on her for it. i’m not trying to discredit nora sakavic’s terrible history of getting harrassed online by aftg fans. but i think it is very cynical, and it is very juvenile, and most of all very cruel, that she gets to ignore the very real ways the books have set up these characters to be hated. i think it’s obvious why the characters who get the most hate are the only canonical characters of color, and i think we do not get to treat this like a deliberate decision on the fandom’s part when the books have put these same characters in degrading and embarrassing and terrible positions in the first place. aftg is not a story about nice characters with clean pasts, but there is a very specific nastiness to the only characters of color being a brown man who sexually harasses and later assaults the main character, a black woman whose only scene is her lashing out at her love interest after being ignored for the first two books, and the japanese villain who gets maybe two lines of complexity before he goes back to being a terrible person. the white cast, in comparison, while not at all free from flaws, are never shown to commit mindless evil; all of their actions are ultimately justified. the book goes out of its way to give them concession after concession. we know exactly who to side with, because aftg tells us who these people are. does nicky’s assault ever get addressed in the books? does riko’s reasoning to be the way that he is ever gets more than briefly aluded to? is thea reserved even a shred of humanity or grace in her one scene?
anyway. it’s been years of talking about this and the fandom has been constantly hostile to criticism in this regard, and more recently any criticism at all, and it’s Grating to be on the other side of this discussion. it’s exhausting to know that in ten years we do not get even an acknowledgment besides the author saying she will not answer questions about nicky and thea anymore. it’s upsetting and it’s ugly and i wish no one had to talk about this again, but we do because what i thought was common sense has been washed away by a sudden influx of no-nuance adoration for the trilogy. basically i hope we all explode
#this has been so upsetting to notice but 🥹whatever#there is a different kind of bitterness to thinking about how ten years have passed#and we are getting new content that changes and maybe even rectifies many of the ways we see and interact w aftg#and none of it not a bit of it addresses the racism#how it’s been ten years and the only thing we really get to show it is a book about a ship between two white men the fandom came up with#after seeing them be Suggested to interact in canon#i understand not wanting to hurt nora sakavics feelings by asking her about this#but imagine how tired we are. Imagine how tired we are#do you know how bad it feels to read through nicky’s worst moments in aftg#and know that he was written this way because he looks like me?#do you understand how exhausting it all is. can you imagine?#the fandom has been so quick to undo the criticism fans of colors have been making since day one#and for what. for what! my doves. for what?#have we come out of it any greater? have we done anything but lie to ourselves?#and anyway this is not some mindless pessimism#this is not me telling you that aftg is bad and you cant love it; cant have it mean anything to you#this is me saying that when we acknowledge these things it makes us better readers and better people#nora sakavic if you are reading this from whatever hellhole america you find yourself in#grabs you by the shoulders. This is not the end#this is not something to sit back and feel bad about#you have opened the floodgates of hell with tsc. kick the door in and release a revised version of aftg#there is a real material way for you to make this better. it is possible and it will not kill you#i would read a revised aftg. my mutuals would. many many many many fans would#making mistakes is not just a human right its a human inevitability#but we do not have to let ourselves get defined by them. We can do hard things#lets go of nora sakavics shoulders. anyway. where were we#aftg#txt#tsc
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ask-cloverfield · 6 months ago
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Wonder if part of the reason he was so awed by this body, was like because when the kid he fumbled saving gave him a physical form, the kid directly based it off what he saw as an ideal hero.
Rution probably needed that
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