#ashen rambles

[ashenworth]

okay I know this is the selfship blog but it's also the love blog and I looooove my wife I love her sooooo much she's so sweet to me,,, she makes me so happy and she's so understanding of my... issues. with relationship stuff. and I feel like I dont deserve her but I'm so happy to have her... I can only hope she still feels the same but it's been two years and we still get giggly about each other like we just just fell in love and waauaauuaua

[asheneclipse-journal]

I'm scared. US politics are scary right now, people keep saying 'both sides are bad' and I'm just like one is REALLY REALLY worse. Am I thrilled about Biden? No. But he is so much better than the alternative and right now it feels like the alternative is winning.

I don't know how to talk about this. I don't know how to be like 'please just vote for Biden because the alternative is them going after birth control. they already repealed roe vs wade. they are going after LGBT rights. women's rights. we are going to slide backwards and that's their POINT.'

I don't talk about this stuff. A minor disagreement with a friend over their thoughts on a show or book makes me sick to my stomach - let alone something as big as this. I feel dumb.

I'm scared. I'm scared for my friends. The dread is overwhelming and I don't know what to do.

[ashenstarbat89]

So sorry for the inactivity i had to unfollow several accounts for drawing the welcome home cast during pregnancy

[gorgynei]

i LOOOOVE the new minecraft wolf recolours but i had to fix their names. due to the wolf autism. you understand

[ashencreations]

Anthro leg tutorial or whatever

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[the-ashenstreaked-doctor]

So what’s the deal with the Ashen-Streaked Doctor and the Scarlet-Fanged Dreamer?

Well, first comes the difficult question of what he is. The easiest answer is ‘werewolf’; he is still chained to the moon and its phases, and stress transforms him, too. His body twists and cracks until it becomes lupine, and all his rational thoughts vanish behind a new, animalistic front. He remains like this for a night on average, and then the painful process of returning to a human shape begins. Most of the time, he remembers nothing from his time transformed.

But why?

The Doctor, in a way, becomes trapped within his own mind. He is caged within dreams and nightmares alike, interacting with them as though they were Parabola itself— maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. Regardless, his mind does its best to fill in the blanks on how he got into a dream scenario; sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Lately, he’s been more aware that he’s dreaming, which means he’s transformed…

What about the Scarlet-Fanged Dreamer?

Even though his rational thought is locked away in a dream, a body needs something to pilot it. What lays behind is his animal instinct: the beast that comes out to protect itself and provide for its master, the body. Doc has taken to calling her ‘Scarlet’, in an attempt to both separate the horror from himself and to lessen his fear by giving her an identity.

Are they separate beings, though?

That is… a complicated matter. Doc would say yes and no. He has had dreams of interacting with Scarlet, trying to tame the beast or fight her off. He has felt her impulse on occasion, tempting him to shed his human form in times of great stress or danger. But… those are just his thoughts, aren’t they? His dreams are symbolism, those temptations the result of adrenaline and strong self-preservation. Maybe. Maybe not.

Perhaps, either by outside intervention or a will to distance himself from the monstrosity he has become, he has willed something new into existence.

Or maybe She is Him, even if He refuses to truly see himself as Her.

After all, she dreams. Just as he does.

[kadenmew]

Here, have some more Ashen Frost-Adjacent artwork from my backlog, as a treat. I cannot stress ENOUGH that Pokemon enjoyers NEED TO PLAY THIS GAME. PLEASE, ITS SO GOOD.

[onyxedskies]

according to the dream interview, cindered shadows is supposed to take place right after byleth gets the sword of the creator, in case anyone was wondering

[ashenworth]

pacing around the room wanting to write a comfort fic but there's a mental roadblock in my brain telling me what I want to write about is weird despite being an actual thing I do as a result of mental illness

[myurucrie]

imagine dying 17 years ago to your best friend, making your kids think that you abandoned them, and then living with your niece when she’s 12 and then locking her in a tower where you died with you when she’s like 18 because the whole town wants to kill her because she’s a witch

[milktian]

does anyone know if there's a place to see elden ring scenery like exteriors, interiors, architecture etc? it's for science (fanfiction)

[omarwolaeth]

Might be strange sounding, but the card reveals/banlists always come in 2 different perspectives for me, irrelevant of which banlist I'm playing under; because I write fics, I have to contend with the banlist at times (a majority of the time it's based on the sort of half-tcg, half-ocg Master Duel banlist with Anime Specific Additions.)

So when new cards come out I have to judge them not only by what I can figure out from their effects and traits (combined with what's currently meta, and if there's anything that wants to play the new cards, whilst being mindful of banlist differences), I also have the joy of internally discussing the value of a deck when its in a fictional setting.

I don't think anyone normally thinks about if a deck's theme is strong enough to tie a character to it, let alone if a deck's theme is too strong and tying a character to it is like Akihiko Sanada's obsession with protein in anything that isn't mainline persona (Like the Q games.)

Also makes engines less appealing.

[the-ashenstreaked-doctor]

Hello! I was trying to write up a calling card from Jules/The Partial Performer, but I'm not sure what they and Doc might have in common- that being said, this is now an excuse to ask if he has any strong opinions on theatre in general or in the Neath!

Hello! Let’s see.. On the surface, Doc’s experience with theatre was pretty nonexistent. When he was younger, his parents didn’t really bother with the arts much- besides, seeing plays and operas/operettas and ballets was a waste of money (in their eyes) which would be better spent on supplies or saved up for the future. The Doctor never really agreed with them on that front (as he rarely did anyway), but he didn’t control the finances.

The first (and likely only) time he’d ever seen anything in theatre was 1874, during his schooling, when he was invited by some of his higher-class friends to accompany them to Vienna. There, he saw Die Fledermaus’s premiere; he can’t remember much of it musically, nowadays, but he recalls being highly amused by the sheer amount of antics at play in the plot. Sadly, that would be the only thing he’d get to watch in theatre until coming to the Neath- he quickly grew too busy with school, and then life. He just didn’t have the time to see more, nor the immediate need. Not to say he hated theatre! He definitely respected the arts and wished he had more time to watch things! He just.. got busy. Really busy.

In the Neath, however, he quickly grew to find interest in theatre- every so often, he takes a break from work to see some play or symphony. Now that he’s found a footing in high society (and made an acquaintance of a rather affectionate devil…), he frequents the theatre more often than he ever did before.

He even penned his own tragic play for the Empress’ court! Forced to make a 14 act play by the ones who employed him, Doc decided to work around that by making a splitting narrative… A tale of two lovers, torn between the surface and the Neath… The acts are split between both mains, with the Neath lover trying to return to the surface while the Surface lover tries in vain to move on (while still hoping their lover returns…)

[wandering-wolf23]

The worst part about being in a super niche fandom after you had a falling out with someone is seeing their work everywhere.

The second worst is wanting more material for it and realizing you have to write it yourself.

On that note, if you're into T-34, drop me a line? Please? I'm dying over here.

[ashenworth]

something that makes me genuinely so so sad is like. I love the story in obey me genuinely so much like I got very attached to these characters and would love to be able to keep playing and reading the main story but also like. I don't have the patience for gacha games anymore. I used all that energy on llsif and with obey me is just. crazy how pay to win it can be. like I had been playing for so long and I still need to use glowsticks to even PASS songs it sucks so much!!!!!!