#ashen rambles

[asheneclipse]

I am SO MAD that Murderbot book 6 takes place before Murderbot book 5. Should it matter? No, not really, but I personally would have liked a big ol' warning so I could have read them in the chronological order. I don't know why it is bothering me so much but it IS.

It's like 'But I ALREADY KNOW what happens!!'

(Maybe it's being neurospicy. maybe it's a quirk of personality.)

[ashenworth]

okay I know this is the selfship blog but it's also the love blog and I looooove my wife I love her sooooo much she's so sweet to me,,, she makes me so happy and she's so understanding of my... issues. with relationship stuff. and I feel like I dont deserve her but I'm so happy to have her... I can only hope she still feels the same but it's been two years and we still get giggly about each other like we just just fell in love and waauaauuaua

[asheneclipse-journal]

I'm scared. US politics are scary right now, people keep saying 'both sides are bad' and I'm just like one is REALLY REALLY worse. Am I thrilled about Biden? No. But he is so much better than the alternative and right now it feels like the alternative is winning.

I don't know how to talk about this. I don't know how to be like 'please just vote for Biden because the alternative is them going after birth control. they already repealed roe vs wade. they are going after LGBT rights. women's rights. we are going to slide backwards and that's their POINT.'

I don't talk about this stuff. A minor disagreement with a friend over their thoughts on a show or book makes me sick to my stomach - let alone something as big as this. I feel dumb.

I'm scared. I'm scared for my friends. The dread is overwhelming and I don't know what to do.

[ashenstarbat89]

So sorry for the inactivity i had to unfollow several accounts for drawing the welcome home cast during pregnancy

[gorgynei]

i LOOOOVE the new minecraft wolf recolours but i had to fix their names. due to the wolf autism. you understand

[ashencreations]

Anthro leg tutorial or whatever

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[unxpctedlygreat]

Spinning wolves for @sevarix-blogs 💜

[the-ashenstreaked-doctor]

So what’s the deal with the Ashen-Streaked Doctor and the Scarlet-Fanged Dreamer?

Well, first comes the difficult question of what he is. The easiest answer is ‘werewolf’; he is still chained to the moon and its phases, and stress transforms him, too. His body twists and cracks until it becomes lupine, and all his rational thoughts vanish behind a new, animalistic front. He remains like this for a night on average, and then the painful process of returning to a human shape begins. Most of the time, he remembers nothing from his time transformed.

But why?

The Doctor, in a way, becomes trapped within his own mind. He is caged within dreams and nightmares alike, interacting with them as though they were Parabola itself— maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. Regardless, his mind does its best to fill in the blanks on how he got into a dream scenario; sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Lately, he’s been more aware that he’s dreaming, which means he’s transformed…

What about the Scarlet-Fanged Dreamer?

Even though his rational thought is locked away in a dream, a body needs something to pilot it. What lays behind is his animal instinct: the beast that comes out to protect itself and provide for its master, the body. Doc has taken to calling her ‘Scarlet’, in an attempt to both separate the horror from himself and to lessen his fear by giving her an identity.

Are they separate beings, though?

That is… a complicated matter. Doc would say yes and no. He has had dreams of interacting with Scarlet, trying to tame the beast or fight her off. He has felt her impulse on occasion, tempting him to shed his human form in times of great stress or danger. But… those are just his thoughts, aren’t they? His dreams are symbolism, those temptations the result of adrenaline and strong self-preservation. Maybe. Maybe not.

Perhaps, either by outside intervention or a will to distance himself from the monstrosity he has become, he has willed something new into existence.

Or maybe She is Him, even if He refuses to truly see himself as Her.

After all, she dreams. Just as he does.

[kadenmew]

Here, have some more Ashen Frost-Adjacent artwork from my backlog, as a treat. I cannot stress ENOUGH that Pokemon enjoyers NEED TO PLAY THIS GAME. PLEASE, ITS SO GOOD.

[onyxedskies]

according to the dream interview, cindered shadows is supposed to take place right after byleth gets the sword of the creator, in case anyone was wondering

[asheneclipse]

Ready to ask one of my friends if they either threw their phone into the ocean or if they ran away to the moon and lost cell service. Not sure which one as of yet.

[ashenworth]

pacing around the room wanting to write a comfort fic but there's a mental roadblock in my brain telling me what I want to write about is weird despite being an actual thing I do as a result of mental illness

[myurucrie]

imagine dying 17 years ago to your best friend, making your kids think that you abandoned them, and then living with your niece when she’s 12 and then locking her in a tower where you died with you when she’s like 18 because the whole town wants to kill her because she’s a witch

[ashenious]

The drakenier game series is just what happens when reverse isekai goes horribly wrong

[milktian]

does anyone know if there's a place to see elden ring scenery like exteriors, interiors, architecture etc? it's for science (fanfiction)