#as always: very indulgent and very hashtag me

[bigbrotherlouis]

let the world spin madly on (dylan larkin/zach werenski // 14k // married in vegas)

Quietly, Dylan taps the screen and lets the live photo play— laughter and a bad Elvis announcing their marriage and then the two of them dragging each other in, a messy kiss that’s almost more giddiness than any romance. the 2022 all-stars, two old friends, and the aftermath of a wedding in vegas.

you knew it had to happen eventually so here's dylan and zach waking up married

[444mera]

CHRONICALLY ONLINE!

hey, you've reached suna. leave a message at the beep.

after a week straight of being holed up in the dorm working on your finals, with an annoyingly noisy next-door neighbor at that, you're finally out at a party. with the stress of piling assignments, deadly deadlines, and an infuriating neighbor who you've endlessly tried to confront but somehow have never seen the face of — it was time to get drunk. usually, the more alcohol you drink, the more single you feel; you're blackout drunk. now flirting with the guy you've been eyeing the whole night, everything's going well. but why does his voice sound so familiar?

pairing: suna rintarou x f!reader

status: ongoing (started may 31, 2024)

genre: 18+ romance, smau + written

tags: social media au, college au, strangers to lovers, crack, fluff, angst, smut if i feel like it

warnings: swearing, alcohol, drug use (marijuana), suggestive and sexual themes, probably a lot of kms jokes/crude humour

taglist is open! comment to be tagged :)

profiles:

art students (and atsumu) | Freaky Singles Looking For Love (18+)

teasers:

semi's gig | where's bo taking us this time?

the setup.

01. hashtag pregame

02. boiler room ☆

03.

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05.

☆ mera's mail ! hey divas this is my first actual smau (but i've always wanted to make one lol!) i've regressed into my 2020-2022 haikyuu phase and i've been trying to look for smaus to no avail ... so i decided to make my own instead because i'm self-indulgent like that. ALSO the cover photo for this took me an egregious amount of time because i had to start over so i hope y'all like it. recommend some series' you think i'd enjoy! you can send me questions, suggestions, etc. in my ask too. i am also very open to moots mwahahah

[angel-skin]

INTRODUCTION POST

HII, my name is Melissa! I'll tell you a few things about me below!

( i am very new here... mostly been on Twitter ^ ^; !!! )

I'm an artist and a writer! - I might make jirai, genshin, vkei, nso and pjsk content...!

About me! ( Info )

☆ ! 3teen yrs old, INTJ, bisexual - She / Her ! My interests are Death Note, Genshin Impact, Vkei, Chiikawa, Needy streamer overload, mindless self indulgence, project sekai, kamisama kiss, alice in borderland, gods will !

DNI : Weird people and NSFW content!

That's all! Thank you for viewing my post

⁠♡ Always open to make new friends...

Uhm,,, how should I tag this??? Uhm... Hashtag... whatever... #followme...

[shallowseeker]

Zachariah I

Zachariah II

Zachariah III - YOU ARE HERE

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This is a collection of many of the same snippets from the Cas death rambles over here. But I feel like some of these are important enough to pull out and talk about on their own.

Oh, oh, oh. Ouch.

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Zach's whole attitude in this scene is just awful. It's very, "Well, so much for your "champion," I guess."

(((Fuck you, Zach.)))

And Dean? Dean's upset-upset.

Zach notices.

Like Chuck's exhilarated, nervous smile, Zach will mirror it with a pleased beat of surprise, visibly taken aback.

Again, Dean instinctually recoils. Keep your distance, he says to Zach. This echoes their very first meeting: The "GROSS." & "NO, THANK YOU."

DEAN: "Keep your distance, asshat."

Vibes: Stay the Hell away from me.

And it's here that Zach keys into it. This upset.

The whole scene is about Cas. It begins with Cas's blood, and it book-ends with Dean's blood.

But soon, Zach pivots to his same old obsession:

✨Recruiting Dean. ✨

"Synergy"... right.

Ew.

UGLY.

Again, Dean's hitting Zach where it hurts: right in the vanity.

"Ugly."

ZACH: <:(

(((Stop insulting me during my pitch, Dean. I'm not even hitting on you. I don't even want you. I swear it on your mother's grave. Forget I ever said you were looking fit.)))

Anyway, back to ✨The Pitch (TM) ✨

Ah, this pitch again.

With Zach, it's largely about power and domination, about Dean bending the knee and submitting in the way Zach thinks he should.

Boom.

Aside/// it's interesting to me that after Cas dies, Dean uses things he learned from Cas to fight. This is a beat echoed in early s13, when he uses a triple-bladed angel knife in 13x02 in the same manner Cas does.

(Yes, Dean's always been good with throwing knives, even since s1, but in 13x02, he uses a beat-for-beat Cas throw of a highly specialized knife. It's very fitting to assume he learned it from Cas in some way or another.)

Oh, this.

Cas.

This is what's been eating Dean during this whole scene and will constitute a moroseness that continues throughout the entire episode.

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And later, Zach's disrespect... will only deepen.

Dean is not getting much respect in 5x01 at all. Not from Zach, not from Meg, not from Becky.

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Ah, Becky... after being so excited to meet Sam, who more than lives up to her fantasies, she looks to Dean and...

:(((((( * cringe* *wince* *disappointed* *you're a real boner killer for me personally wow ugh #hashtag NotMyDean*

This is interesting to me, because this spectacle of Becky, with her fetishistic incest interests... actually pairs really well with Zachariah.

Not in terms of her interests per se. (I mean, she's fine, so long, and she's not using her interests to denigrate real people. But here, she's toeing the line with Dean and stepping over it with Sam.)

But it's more than her disdain. She cringes at the sight of Dean, and she comes off as rude like Dean's yet again failing to live up to impossible expectations.

It's giving real "I guess I'm not the main either of our fathers wanted us to me" vibes.

It's interesting, then, that Becky should be the one to deliver news of Dean's souped-up relevance to The Plot(TM), about the Michael sword plotline.

Becky just barely holds back her voyeurism in the moment:

And she does indulge too much with Sam, ignoring his pleas for dignity and respect:

Actually, looking at this in totality, she pairs pretty well with Zach, actually.

[slightlyunconventional]

my. h/awks snzcanons under the cut okay ! these have been brewing in my phone notes for a little while and ive been steadily adding to it sooo yeah :) this is to tide you over while i procrastinate finishing my fic. expect part two probably (d/abi coming soon)

also!!! pls pls pls share your own d/abih/awks snzcanons with me <3 im collecting them

- hawks’ wings reflexively like. splay out when he snzs but hes sooo embarrassed by that so to counter it he closes his wings around himself (when he actually feels it coming. surprise snz is a whole other story) which is!! so cute!!

- mentioned in a post before butttt when hes at home hawks paces around the room fanning his face just. desperately when he needs to snz (like why does it always take so long to come out) he just cant keep still

- hawks’ colds are always sooooohohoooo sneezy like he just cant catch a break from it. he’ll snz like five times back to back without a pause and as soon as he thinks hes done he’s gearing up AGAIN

- not allergic to much but hawks’ hayfever is absolutely awful. all through spring and half of summer he’s unbearably itchy and with a tingle in his nose that never seems to leave, no matter how many times he sneezes

- hawks is super sensitive to physical touch though- like physically tickling his nose with a finger or a FEATHER. or something

- stifler by habit, and he can do it hands-free (HASHTAG CANON!!!). however during a fit, he can easily start off stifling but very fast do the sneezes become entirely too difficult to contain

- his number one tell for when hes sick is that he talks so much less. becomes so subdued and reserved which is a crazy contrast to how much he usually just waffles

- this one is probably overly. indulgent. but i like to think his nose is very pliable okay. AM I GETTING TOO HORNY HERE…… anyway yeah it probably squishes a lot when he rubs at it. im so normal

- nose scruncher!! at any given moment right. particularly strong smell? nose scrunched. trying not to sneeze? nose scrunched. trying TO sneeze?? nose. scrunched. hes a nose scruncher

- sometimes he deliberately flexes his muscles like. crosses his arms over in front of his face when he sneezes and deliberately flexes because he knows it annoys dabi (bro editing this post rn LMAOO this one is so funny)

- never has cold or allergy medication in his apartment he just firms it until dabi either forces him to buy some or buys it for him. maybe he has a really bad hayfever day at one point and dabi is like have you tried taking medication for that you havent stopped sneezing all day and hawks is like theres MEDICATION for this?????

yeah okay thats all. i thought i had more than this but apparently not ! hope you enjoyed and i hope theyre coherent

[frenzyarts]

Do you have any advice for an aspiring artist to find things I want to draw?

It sounds like what you’re looking for is some inspiration!! Here’s some stuff I do that gets me inspired:

- watch other people draw on YouTube! I always want to try out their techniques

- look at all the art I’ve saved (if you don’t save art, try looking at artist hashtags on social media) usually there’s a few that have something I want to try!

- fanart! No need to even think of a character design, just draw the blorbo

- sometimes I’ll find myself really wanting to use certain colors or a certain composition and I’ll just go from there to try and create a piece that allows me to try the technique I want to use

- I started drawing as a kid because I love to draw women, and women will always inspire me to draw. Think of the reasons you started drawing and draw something very self indulgent!

I hope this was helpful!!! 🥳

[big-meows]

ty @bobtheacorn for the tag!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

25 written/cowritten, 1 I provided illustrations for

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

161,862 give or take! I subtracted the contents of This is How We Grow by @partly-cloudyskies which I only drew for, but not the self indulgent OC project cowritten with @jofngve, even though they did most of the writing

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently: Twisted Wonderland; Historically: Ducktales, Infinity Train, Luca, Outer Wilds, Trolls World Tour, Zelda, Vtubers. Some of those are only one-offs because I said the thing I needed to say and moved on.

4. Top five fics by kudos?

God Only Knows (Luca) @ 1380

Something to do with my hands (Infinity Train) @ 945

Anthem for the Motel Tamarack (Infinity Train) @ 550

Albireo (Infinity Train) @ 526

Stand By Me (Ducktales) @ 488

Wild to me that the rymin series is so far up there? I was not in IF fandom for very long before the community soured and I bailed BUT I shant complain, those were good boys and I liked the time I spent with them (HASHTAG RENEW INFINITY TRAIN)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try. Like, especially if someone took the time to write a lot, I try to engage to at least say thank you, because it makes ME really happy when an author responds to MY comments (and assures me I didnt just stick my foot in my mouth or overstep a line or something lol) I have a lot of anxiety about leaving comments because I followed a writer in the Zootopia fandom who was REALLY vocal about how she hated certain comments or commentary, typo corrections or "I've never read this kind of au BUT..." comments and I got REAL in my head about comment etiquette for a LONG time. BUT! Comments and feedback are so vital to me so I try to comment and respond to comments so everyone feels seen and maybe we can make a connection? My Luca fandom friend group is still going strong because we were so incredibly aggressive about supporting one another.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

The Apex of a Bad Decision. It's a canon-compliant Outer Wilds, fic, so. :,)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of the rest of them! I'm squishy!!! But I think the most obviously and deliberately triumphant one is God Only Knows.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I don't think I've gotten hate on a fic since I posted Wilbur Robinson self-cest to Livejournal in 2007, when WHY IS THIS GAY was a common response to slashfic. I've gotten plenty of hate for having an online presence while shipping kids or teenagers, but not on the fic itself (that I can recall!)

9. Do you write smut?

Sure! Not often. It's always a character exploration and I know how that sounds but I promise its true! It's always about being open and vulnerable and baring souls and loving and taking care of someone who needs to be loved and taken care of. I don't think I've ever written genuinely horny smut, not that I'd know because I dont really get horny. People (antis) have this idea that everyone is writing smut with one hand down their pants and that we're "getting off" on it and are perhaps ignorant to the fact that sex is not inherently a base filthy thing, its emotional and vulnerable and full of feelings and teenagers have those feelings too and writing about teens having those feelings does not mean I am inherently jerking it to teenagers fucking. Im EMOTIONALLY jerking it to teenagers having BIG FEELINGS. that's different.

10. Craziest crossover?

I've never written a crossover! FUCK I forgot the mystery teens summer. There was a specific summer (*googles* August 2012!) when gravity falls was at it's peak and Paranorman had just come out and tumblr as a hivemind decided Norman Babcock, the Pines twins, Raz Aquato (Psychonauts) and some other kids from various supernatural media needed to meet and hang out, like a much briefer superwholock or rise of the frozen tangled dragons. the big ship at the time was Dipper/Norman. I mightve done a quick ficlet posted to tumblr in that time frame. When summer ended, the phenom ended abruptly exactly as if we had all left summer camp and gone back home.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nnnnot to my knowledge!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've had plenty of requests! I don't know if they've ever finished/gone through with it, though. I'd be a hypocrite if i wasnt in favor of it, considering how much time I spend screenshotting jamikali doujin and feeding it through google translate lmao

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I didn't think I ever would, but the time jo and I spent doing OC stuff together was a delight, though tbf they did most of the heavy lifting. I don't know if I would do it again...I feel like the OC stuff worked because we built it from the ground up but idk if I could do a fandom thing the same way, what if we had slightly different opinions on a blorbo and I had to COMPROMISE? idk man

14. All time favourite ship?

ohhhhhhhh idk if i can answer that. Whatever I love in the moment is is my otp. The rest simmer on the backburner but whatever the mental illness deems is the priority is the only thing I could ever conceive of loving this much. I think Weblena might have done the most brain damage to me. I wrote the most fic for it, I made the most art for it, I was team weblena for more years than anything else, I endured the most shit for them without giving up. But at this exact moment in time I'm like "those were very nice girls and i loved them very much and I know they made me insane for literal years but surely they dont compare to the truly unhinged mania i feel for sexy anime schoolboy jafar and sexy anime schoolboy sultan of agrabah" (it is the same level of mania, actually)

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

idek if i want to finish it but I had a few sunfish (iykyk) drafts kicking around that could have been good. Its a good ship imo and I wanted to get into the whole "I know I've kind of adopted you as my surrogate dad but what if that was a hasty decision and we kissed instead" angle but then I developed a severe case of cringe avoidance and I wont be doing anymore vtuber fic lol

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'm told I do good at characterization which is a relief because when I write I feel like the first stage of any "galaxy brain" meme where I'm thinking in only two dimensions orz Also! Its very flattering but whenever I create an OC to fill a necessary role in a fic people really seem to enjoy them.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Action... The boring but necessary filler that gets you from point a to point b.... I can only write in 2nd person and i know I KNOW everyone fucking hates it and people wont even TOUCH 2ndPOV but it flows so EASILY when i dont have to stop and juggle pronouns or even names!!! i feel more thoroughly seated in the POV character's head! it lubricates the process and sometimes I think i only ever get anything done ever because i write in 2ndPOV im sorry!!! Im sorry but I wont change!! its more important that I get the demons out than it is that you read my fic.

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Sparingly and with Purpose! (<<Bob I'm stealing your answer) (i realize your name is not actually bob but I've been calling you bob in my head for years now sorry) I used italian vocab occasionally in Luca fic because it's used heavily in the movie to create a sense of unfamiliarity for the boys who were trying to integrate themselves into human society but didn't understand most things they encountered. It's soooooo bad when done wrong, though. I'll never shut up about the jamikali fic i opened that had Jamil call Kalim habibi in the first paragraph, I almost threw my phone across the room. Like first of all they don't do that in the source material, any arabic used is very clearly in the context of an "old/ancient language" that no one is speaking on the daily and second of all he would not fucking say that!!!!!

19. First fandom you wrote in?

The Sonic 2 fanfic i tried to write back in 1993 is between me and the lisa frank notebook kept under my bed. My first published-on-the-internet fic was the aforementioned Wilbur Robinson (Meet the Robinsons) self-cest. I went back to ff.net to see if it was still there and if I could rewrite it (it would rule in 2ndPOV actually) but..........its gone. Either it got purged or I purged it myself during the ducktales cyberbullying fiasco. First fandom of current era fic writing was Ducktales. (thank you ducktales for all youve done for me)

20. Favourite fic you've written?

God Only Knows is probably the best thing I've ever written, but picking apart the world building in Outer Wilds for Apex was really fun and rewarding and when I get feedback on it its always (crying emoji) (crying emoji) (sad face emoji) (skull emoji) which is ALSO fun and rewarding but in a totally different way.

tagging @jofngve @partly-cloudyskies and uhhhh anyone else if they wanna!

[floorpancakes]

i entered rosemi’s outfit prediction hashtag! as always i tend to follow my own tastes when trying to stick to the outline as perfectly as possible, but this turned out crazy good for quite a limited coat looking silhouette! working within constraints from time to time is pretty helpful for my design skills

i went for a chocolate themed rosemi reimagined as a fancy lady walking the streets of paris on an outing to a cafe for desserts!! the rosebud is there for emotional support, and the outfit is COVERED in sweet chocolate heaven!

my favourite parts are the asymmetrical coat length to show off the pants, the chocolate box ribbon (although the way I drew it it became a case of trying to wrangle it into place with the predrawn lineart i was fighting for my life) and ESPECIALLY the beret, which is to die for and I must own it immediately

very self indulgent for a prediction but would you expect anything else from a self imposed dessert theme? in all seriousness tho I hope it’s still a fancy ojousama going-out outfit and that I got most of the general outfit piece placement right (other than the asymmetrical coat, that was just me going crazy) can’t wait for the stream!! i hope I get picked to be shown on screen but I might have submitted a little bit too late for that, idk 😭

[qtsp00k]

I was actually looking for something specific and didn't find it. The inspirational tag is certainly lacking in inspirational content if you were to ask me. And of course you didn't. Hashtag abuse am I right yo. But this reminds me of what I say and I were talking about last night so maybe this is something I've stumbled upon to hand off to him although I was going to hand off the thing it was specifically looking forward to him also so that rather make sense doesn't it. I don't even remember putting the Tumblr app on my Animal Crossing phone but here it is. So the phone rang and woke me up from dreams that I really would have liked to remember better. One because Keegan was there and two because there was a lot of repetition as if I were doing a scene and doing different takes of it and that's always an interesting occurrence and dreams. I was also going to neighbor's houses at like 1:00 in the morning for the purpose of indulging their gambling addiction I suppose you could say. I had my certified document that I'm someone you can place bets with and I had paperwork of the high and low roller explanations so that was interesting. But yeah Keegan. That was really cool he said he missed me and kissed me on the cheek and I told him I miss him too. I don't know if I'll ever have another gay best friend. I've asked Rob a few times to do Keegan as a member of the 27 Club but he doesn't listen to me. But yeah I just didn't feel like going to church and initially that's because I did not feel like being the person that I need to be in order to go to church. I don't want to talk to people I don't want to smile at people the obligation is too much. And I'm not even talking about like in the church at this point I'm talking about the church van. Having to socialize on that very long very bumpy van ride and getting my migraine triggered because the smokers in the van. And the van is very hot because it's winter and most people don't want to be cold like winter weather but I overheat super easily as part of chronic lyme disease being a chronic inflammatory condition I assume. And I'm just like laying here like thinking of like all of these excuses for not going to church and like who cares if I go to church. I just sit on the stairs behind a wall anyway. The fluorescent lights they have their trigger my migraines even though humans aren't supposed to be able to see them flickering I see them flickering. And I can't go downstairs and join people for breakfast because there's stairs and that's problematic for my ambulatory wheelchair body. And probably I can't eat the breakfast anyway because they don't offer gluten-free so unless it's just scrambled eggs I can't eat breakfast anyway. But I hope to have energy for Firefly Jeff this evening and that's part of it too. And maybe Isaiah. I don't know. I feel like I've already gotten weird about Ozzy like I like him I want to continue to know him which makes me think I need to mask something of myself but probably I don't cuz I've already communicated that I'm the craziest girl that anybody ever met in their life. And it's not me saying that it's everybody that I meet saying that. And not like sheltered people either. People who have been around the world and I just take that cake. I'm the girl with the most cake LOL

Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?

Charles Bukowski

[the-dalseum-duet]

cra-chea-ing out

i’m. actually tweaking.

also on my period so that’s probably why I’m on the fucking verge of tears over this shit.  funny pun title tag (brief Kai name drop tag too) : @svwhssftr

Adrienne Lenker is an indie artist who does very much sad soft teenage lesbian music. The Phoebe Bridgers type. But GOD. SHE IS A LYRICIST. They’re very simple but so damn effective which is what always gets me good. It will kill me every time. I haven’t heard a lot of her discography but rn. But Always is getting to me

I tend to focus on a lot of the very flashy and entertaining aspects of Dalseum and I do this on purpose. Because I physically cannot bring myself to think about the more domestic aspects without FUCKING CRASHING OUT. kai must be there to soften the blow or else i physically cannot finish writing it because i will break down. i will hysterically sob. but I heard the lyrics

“I don’t want to be the owner of your fantasy, I just want to be a part of your family”

 and I was just like “sonnit che…” so. here we are. a spiel abt sonnet and noeul’s relationship bc i do not write nearly enough abt them

and the rest of her songs are VERY sonnet coded I just cannot bring myself to write abt it. cannot. I will sob. anyway. I very violently paced circles in my room over “I could be a good mother, and I want to be your wife. so I hold you to my knife and I steal your letter”

NOT A LOT. JUST FOREVER. INTERTWINED. SEWN TOGETHER I’M CRASHING OUT OVER THESE TWO I’M CRASHING THE FUCK OUT 

so of course. we gotta start w sonnet’s past. grew up very sheltered in a monastery and went to an art school in Britain where they met Adam and realized all that was out there in the world. something abt sonnet choosing to abandon their monastic practices for the glamour of Dalseum… something abt becoming someone who could never return to your family without them seeing you as a moral failure… hashtag relatable. back to sonnet 

so they’re desperate for human connection with people their age. which is why I think they get so attached to Noeul. he makes them feel special and physically loved even though he treats them like shit outside of their hookup sessions. bc sonnet doesn’t understand this yet. they just see the part of him that cherishes what they offer him.

sonnet’s also definitely has some form of personality disorder. theeeeere is something VERY wrong with them. probably bpd if I’m being honest but I’m just not educated enough about it. their behavior toward noeul is very similar to having a favorite person though. 

and ofc the whole Blaire thing happens after Sonnet leaves the Council to focus on healing after what happened with Adam. this really gets me tbh. bc they tried to fix what was wrong with them. they knew they could do better. they TRIED to do better so fucking hard but the life of the council was too enticing. and they gave back in. and they just… do whatever noeul tells them bc it’s easy and they don’t have to worry about being a good person anymore. they don’t have to focus on healing when they can just keep destroying their self image because it feels so much better to indulge in whatever Noeul does and his praise than to face the implications of what they’re doing 

and Noeul knows sonnet is doing this. and he really doesn’t care because it’s easier for him, too. he doesn’t have to think about what might have been if he tried to better himself for Charlie. (SPOILER: SOMETHING HAPPENS APX. NINE MONTHS AFTER THIS THAT FORCES HIM TO DO EXACTLY THAT FOR FIFTEEN YEARS!) but people know Sonnet, and Sonnet knows how the Council works and all the ways they bullshit their way to seem prestigious. They were who a Sang man was meant to marry, and Noeul is no better than the thousands of men who came before him. No matter how much he tried to change that. They both gave in to the easiest option. 

But here’s the kicker. Neither of their strategies work. Sonnet doesn’t fill the void that Charlie was, and Sonnet fucking knows this. THEY KNOW THIS. THEY KNOW THIS. DO YOU HEAR ME RN THEY KNOW THIS. THEY KNEW THEY WOULD NEVER BE NOEUL’S FIRST CHOICE. SONNET KNOWS THAT NOEUL PRETENDS THEY’RE CHARLIE the shotgun is in my mouth right now actually 

And they know that everything they do is for show. they’re Charlie without the rough bits. without the arguments. without the social awkwardness. without the small, unimpressive body. without the longing for more. WITHOUT THE LONGING FOR MORE!!!

and Sonnet is fine playing this part for a few years until Marie starts getting a little older. they see her love for her family and her love for them. and suddenly Sonnet has a purpose again, and that’s to be Marie’s parent. like, they enjoyed taking care of Crow as a baby bc that’s just the way sonnet is. they’re naturally VERY empathetic. they ALWAYS put others above themselves. which is incredibly tragic considering they’re the main antagonist for half of the entire plot

but Marie was different because Marie was their daughter. ofc they don’t really have that initial biological connection the way Noeul connects with Crow (and i could absolutely talk abt sonnet’s distress over their own inability to carry children. for a very long time. but not now) but Marie is the closest thing they’ll ever get. and by God is she more than they could have ever wanted and hoped for. Marie makes Sonnet feel like Sonnet again and not just some stand-in for some girl Noeul never got over

and Noeul and Crow have this parallel connection for a while. Crow makes Noeul realize that he’s more than just his job and that he can have meaningful connections with others that are just. meaningful connections. and not just business transactions. even if that comes in the form of his illegitimate son

(and yeah I could also talk abt Noeul always seeing Charlie in Crow and Sonnet doing the same seeing how he connects with Crow more deeply than connects with Marie but the gist of that is self explanatory. very angsty! but age old trope there)

But this is the key difference between them:

Sonnet raises Marie to be Marie.

Noeul raises Crow to be Noeul.

And this is evident over the course of Blackbirds and how Sonnet and Noeul react to Crow betraying the Court’s values. Noeul thinks Crow is just being immature and isn’t a legitimate threat because he assumes Crow has the same thought process he did at that age. He only takes him seriously when he realizes Charlie is with him.

But Sonnet sees Crow for all he is. They see that yes, he is just a scared and confused kid, but they know he doesn’t want to inherit the role of his father. He sees how his loveless marriage and alcoholism has destroyed him. They know Crow’s smart and driven as hell. They know he’s just like his dad at that age. 

That’s why they only intervene when Marie gets involved. Because Marie is their heart and soul. Marie is the good they gave to Dalseum. As the Court proves to be less and less stable, they confine themselves to their sacred room just. to get high and play music and shit. because they know everything around them is collapsing and there’s nothing they can do because their role on the Court has been reduced to Noeul’s arm candy. Marie is the only person left who truly sees them for who they are. 

and once Noeul announces that Marie is going to become empress and Sonnet will no longer have any say on the Court, they disassociate entirely. like the entire week before Marie’s coronation they just get stoned out of their mind and. I’m actually debating having them attempt to overdose on Crow’s leftover pain meds bc damn that shit has to mentally kill someone. they just fully embrace their dehumanization. but after none of that works they launch Operation Doehunt with Gale and we all saw how that went (spoiler alert: gale had a closed casket funeral)

I had a point here. Oh yeah.

Sonnet didn’t care that Noeul didn’t find them specifically attractive. They just wanted someone that made them feel important. They jumped through the hoops he told them to jump through to prove to him that they were EVEN WORTHY of his time and attention… even though Sonnet was worth so much more than that. But, after all the dust settled, they just wanted Marie to be happy. That was all they cared about once their entire life as they knew it was jeopardized. 

They didn’t want to be a part of Noeul’s fantasy. They just wanted to be a part of his family. 

Tune in next time for a potential “not a lot, just forever” analysis. that’s it for now. 

update: wrote this like a day ago but you called me in the middle of my crashout so I had to put it on hold. so here is the finished product that’s literally unintelligible bro what does half of this mean

[catnherthoughts]

the note 10/7

*hopefully one day i'll look back on this and just be grateful that the only way to get past it is to go through it.

As much as everyoneeee hates to hear it, i always knew it was gonna come to this. most people who feel suicidal get help or find some sort of meaning to life that makes it all worth it. you don't just go through all of life wanting to kill yourself and just never do it. The feeling is like a distant friend. sometimes she is just a memory and sometimes she is with me, staying in my apartment. then of course as all good house guests do, she knows when its time to leave but still keeps in contact. so i dont forget her of course. like i could ever.

maybe i wouldn't have had to come to this if my life was different. i would say if i was prettier but i think i look very gorgeous.in fact, that's one of the few things that keeps me going. when i was ugly i used to attempt every other day. now its just a voice screaming at me that i try not to involve myself with. maybe if i had a more emotionally available father. maybe if i had a more emotionally mature mother. maybe if my friends reached out more. i could blame every person on this earth for not doing something but at the end of the day this is my fault. i'm the one who let the brain disease get to me. i take my meds regularly. i exercise and try to eat well. i do self care and still, i cant get myself to care about myself.

i came to the realization the other day that i am not living for myself. that was such an insane realization. i was driving to my human rights and digital media class and the thought came into my mind. i am only alive because i don't want to make people sad with my death. how sad is that? my mom would be devastated and maybe off herself. i hope she never has to read this but if she does i would want her to keep going. my friends would be in eternal torment wondering what they could have done. you did all you could. my dad would maybe just be a bit more numb. or maybe he'd upheave his own life, then again i don't think he'd care that much. he gave me the opportunity to have a good life while i could. my boyfriend would have everlasting grief. "my dad died, my mom threatens to kill herself, my brother has tried multiple times." gosh how guilty do i feel even mentioning anything is wrong. i understand i have a certain amount of accountability when it comes to sharing my emotions but how do i say anything in that situation?

i'm usually very good at hiding this feeling. i used to never let anyone even for a second know what i was going through. i have a twitter account where i sometimes indulge in the idea i have some feelings about things. it has been very concerning recently. i don't know if the feeling has been this strong in a very long time. every morning, i rise to start the day and i dread going out and doing things. i know its like hashtag dont wanna go to school but it may become an issue when the work becomes so suffocating that i can't bear to do it. i push through because my grades are one of the most important aspect of my being to my father. he is also spending a great deal of money on my education so i get it. whatever. i go through the day and count the hours until i can be in bed. once i'm in bed, i rot and rot and rot. i torment myself in every free moment, asking myself why i keep going. i dont know. i dont know. i dont know. i see my boyfriend and as much as he doesn't want to believe it, he makes me feel better. he is the person i can be emotionally vulnerable with, or at least who i feel comfortable enough with, so i show how i feel when we are together. he sees how tired i am. he's worried. he would be very upset if he knew what i was writing right now. i love him very much and i'm glad that in this life i have someone who showed me what love was like. maybe if heaven is real i'll watch over him like an angel and make sure his life is the best that it can be. i'd negate his suffering as much as i could. maybe i'd get a therapist for my mom. maybe i'd give my dad signs that its okay to feel things. i hope he'll cry at my funeral. i wonder if he'll bring his girlfriend and her daughter. i wonder what they'd think. he would probably make a joke about me starving myself to death. he tries his best to get it but i don't think he even gets that i have depression, clinically diagnosed. i dont think my mother knows that it isn't about her. she'd have more to talk about with her friends if i did it.

i wish i had some advice to give. like; "If you're ever struggling, make sure to ask for help so you don't end up like me". I wouldn't know how to ask for help if it hit me in the face. I used to, very often. it didn't go well. i've never even been hospitalized. one time the morning after my attempt my dad yelled at me and told me to stop being stupid. my mom, in one of my deepest pits, told me i need to eat breakfast and stop taking my meds at such a high dosage. i've been told recently that i should get help for the sake of my relationship, if not myself. i've been told to talk to someone about it. i don't want to talk to anyone about it. i dont need to make anyone worried and then when i get to the point where it does happen, leave them thinking they could have done more. they can't stop me.

i can't keep going through everyday wishing for it. crossing the street ever so slowly. even stopping in the middle. smoking so much maybe my lungs will never recover. pursuing a communications degree that i know i'll regret. i'm just an unlucky woman. i was born to kill myself. that was the plan. i wish that instead of the other baby, i was miscarried. that i never got the chance for people to love me. if no one cared then it would make things so much easier. alas, i care too much for those around me that its killing me slowly. i wish i was in a coma. i wish i was diagnosed with a disease that gives me 2 weeks to live. i wish that i had a way out. everytime i drive my care i imagine going 100 mph straight into a tree. then i remember how mad my dad would be that i messed up his car, and i drive safely. the thought of me taking a razor straight down my arm and letting myself bleed out in the shower, then i think about who would find me and everyone finding out. i wonder who would show up to my funeral.

my roommate just asked if my writing was going well. if she knew she'd have a panic attack and i dont need her to suffer. how much longer do i have to suffer so others don't have to. its my life and if i decide it's over for me, i should have the right to end it on my own terms. there is no free will, if there was i'd be dead a long time ago. because of everything that has lead up this point, i am simply a piece of seaweed in the ocean, drifting by waiting to be eaten.

i'm too tired to keep writing but i feel like this this isn't a sufficient enough note. if i could, i write a suicide letter book. that way at least i'll be able to say i published something. in a perfect world i would be a philosopher and have a phd and people would read and love my work. sadly, life is not perfect, not even good enough for me to want to be apart of it. thank you everyone for making it so hard to say goodbye.

[therapycord]

❝ 透過、「また会いましょう」 ❞

❝ 天国も地獄も無いのなら ❞

riri ♡ they/he/she ♡ istp ♡ akito & shizuku kinnie ♡ nagi seishiro & keqing fan

♡ hi! I'm Riri and this is just an archive for all of my ao3 fics since my ao3 page has become a very large mess :)

━━ ♡ please read the full pinned post, thank you!

★ ! '07 · bllk · literature ! ★

— 🎧 !! 𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑎 !! 🎧—

喚く踏切が遮って、

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. ABOUT RIRI !!

♡ please refer to in 3rd person or use the they/he/she pronouns

♡ minor, high school 2nd year, biromantic asexual

♡ very big fan of Keqing (genshin), Baizhi (wuwa), Nagi (bllk) and Mizuki (prsk) so please don't slander these characters in front of riri

♡ hyperfixations and adhd

♡ likes to yap about their interests a lot, please use tone tags when speaking with them since they're terrible with social interactions

♡ uses CAPS LOCK while typing and rambling. likes desserts, animanga, vocaloid and badminton. dislikes spiders and mornings

♡ absolutely adores the hirakagi/kagihira and kyoru ships

♡ akiyama mizuki (prsk) and mitake ran (bandori) oshi but never gets them in game </3

♡ really loves to read novels, classic literature and manga! always open for recommendations to add to their to-be-read list!!

これで全て終りなんだろう

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. ABOUT THE BLOG !!

this blog is for two purposes: 1. to archive and keep track of all of my ao3 works 2. to post my opinions on manga i've been reading recently this blog is mainly to keep a track of my ao3 works since my ao3 page is extremely disorganized and a mess with over 200 fics (some aren't even completed) i will be using this blog ( and another priv. blog) to post my opinions and review on manga - mainly so i can finish reading all the manga i own. the manga review is for a school project.

さよならの合図��轟いて

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. FANDOM WORKS !!

♡ MASTER-LIST/DASHBOARD ♡

Project Sekai Colorful Stage ft. Hatsune Miku

Fruits Basket (anime + manga)

Hirano And Kagiura

Miraculous Ladybug

Genshin Impact

My Hero Academia

Haikyuu !!

Assassination Classroom

━━ ♡ plus a lot more but they all have like 1~5 works so I didn't bother including links

溶ける飛行機雲

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. SERIES !!

Chatfics

Fandom Snippets!! (Completed)

Violet Ballroom (Fandom Snippets Part 2, completed)

Kagihira Week 2024 (Completed)

━━ ♡ I have a few more series posted but they're mostly incomplete so I didn't bother. They can be found under the series tab on my ao3 profile.

がなる現世の境界で

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. SUBMISSION GUIDELINES !!

♡ Please include the title of the fic + author when submitting fics for me to read and add to my bookmarks, it's super helpful!

♡ You can submit nsfw fics but please put a trigger warning before you add the link so I'm aware, thank you!

♡ Include trigger warnings if the fic involves triggering/dark topics (that aren't horror)

♡ I read fics of any and every fandom so don't be afraid to submit fics from fandoms that aren't animanga or video games! I'm always looking to expanding my reading horizon :)

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♡ Feel free to ask me anything that aren't the following:

my age, where I study, my birthday and other personal information

♡ I will do my best to answer any questions!

♡ When requesting, please write out the full name of the fandom and particular ship you want me to write for. I accept rarepairs as well.

♡ And please make it clear what you'd like: fluff, angst, crack or a combination when requesting.

♡ Unless it's for my own self-indulgence, I will NOT be writing nsfw.

薫る夏風に誘われて、

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. HASHTAGS !!

fanfictions = » eulaexe

original character stuff = » therapycord

project sekai = » pjsk🎀

bandori = » bandori🎍

enstars and other rhythm games = » es+others💿

gacha games (genshin, hsr, wuwa, etc) = » gacha🔮

manga reviews / posts = » manga review📖

unrelated rambles / random posts = » chaos

悲しくなどないさ

୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ. EXTRA STUFF !!

♡ favorite song(s)

とっても素敵な六月でした (It Was A Very Beautiful June) - Eight Piya O Re Piya - Atif Aslam, Shreya Goshal JUDGEMENT - ASH DA HERO STORMY - Nissy x SKY-HI

♡ carrd !

♡ ask to add me on genshin (asia server), honkai star rail (asia server), wuthering waves (asia server), roblox, ensekai and jpsekai !

天国も地獄も無いのなら こんな泥塗れの現実を誰が裁けるの

[pendragonthegreat]

All numbers for ya boy spader, ofc

:3 :3 :3 my boy spader

My first impression of them:

i think i have always liked him.. it's hard for me to say exactly because of the hashtag memory issues but i wouldn't be surprised if he was my fav back when i was 8 and reading for the first time .

When I think I truly started to like them:

well i reread the series when i was 13 and that's when i really developed my special interest in it . and i started liking spader a lot on that reread of the never war :) i think he's just so good in that book

A song that reminds me of them:

hmm fathoms below from the little mermaid always makes me think of that old au i had (which i still love even though i will probably never write it). spader was prince eric so i guess all the songs w eric remind me of spader. but i like this one "the salt on your skin, and the wind in your hair, and the waves as they ebb and they flow..."

How many people I ship them with:

well really it's just bobby sorry guys. i'm not really opposed to other ships but they're literally number one of all time to me

My favorite ship of them:

yeah

My least favorite ship of them:

well it's hard to say since no one else really ships him outside of bobby either

A quote of them that you remember:

"besides, nothing's gonna happen to you so long as i'm around."

Your favorite outfit of them:

that part in book3 where they go to the party for jinx. bobby talks about the fancy waiter uniforms they wear and i always though they sounded nice :)

Your least favorite outfit of them:

this isn't a real answer but his like normal outfit that bobby meets him in is just kind of boring. it's just a plain black swimskin with no sleeves which means in picrews and the sims and whatever i'm always just putting him in a black tank top (when i'm trying to be accurate to canon lol)

Describe the character in one sentence:

my little thingy

What’s the first thing you think about when thinking about the character?:

his stupid australian accent. why does he have it. i love it

Sexuality hc:

i think he is bisexual (explosions)

Your favorite friendship they have:

i can't say siry since you know they don't actually know each other in canon.... um i'd say him and gunny then :]

Best storyline they had:

he really only got the one storyline across the books but i already said i think he's really great in book3

Worst storyline they had:

i think he is honestly fantastic in every book he's in

A childhood headcanon:

shrug i'd have to think about general headcanons for growing up on cloral first

How do you think they were as a kid? (Like, were they shy, noisy, wild, etc):

probably the same as always.. getting into trouble but everyone likes him anyway

The most random ship you've seen people have with them:

i honestly don't think i've seen any besides bobby and courtney

A weird headcanon:

um (he's about to drop the most self indulgent headcanon you've ever heard) his digimon partner is gomamon :3

When do you think they were at their happiest?:

before he knew he was a traveler LOL (cries)

When do you think they were at their lowest?:

when bobby broke up with him i mean sent him home

Future headcanon:

in like, an au where he got to exist after the war, i imagine he'd be very involved with the effort to rebuild cloral after ravinia

What do you think is a secret they have that they never told anyone?:

honestly he's pretty much an open book. the only thing he really keeps secret is being a traveler

When do you think they acted the most ooc:

honestly i don't think he was even in before the war

When do you think they were being "themselves" the most?:

i don't really get this question but i guess in book10 after he's spent all that time on eelong and he's sort of grown into himself

If they could meet a character from another show/movie/etc, who would be the most fun for them to meet?:

ohhh i don't know. maybe tucker from sylo since they both have revenge issues

The most unnecessary thing they ever did?:

hmm i don't have an answer for this one

How do you think they would be as a parent? (and if they are a parent, how do you think they would be if they weren't?):

i've never really thought about it before.. i think he'd really love his kid(s) and like just being friends with them

The funniest scene they had?:

i can't choose here's some funny moments off the top of my head:

[rosewinterborn]

So I'm not sure what substance you're actually referring to lol

Long answer:

In case you mean the smutty romantasy aspect (which wasn't my first reading of the question but the books being seen as pure porn is weirdly common on instagram so idk), then i actually read a truly brain-melting amount of fanfiction which often includes smut. I genuinely consider these books pretty vanilla in comparison and have done full rants about people who think otherwise.

In case you mean that it's just a badly-worldbuilt fantasy novel with questionable plot choices, then there are definitely some things i don't like about it. I don't think the worldbuilding makes a lot of sense if you out it under a microscope, and i think that there are a lot of writing decisions that were made with so little thought that i can't actually fathom how they happened. There's also an aspect of gender essentialism that drives me up the wall (not limited to acotar but a frequent occurrence therein) and truly sometimes i wish these alpha males would get their asses handed to them in a way that would actually humble them.

That said.

It was/is a really immersive series for me to read (which plays nice with my adhd), with characters i like and want to spend time with, and a reasonable expectation of a happy ending (a hallmark of the romance genre that i deeply appreciate). Its an indulgent, vividly-written daydream with a protagonist that reminds me of myself and overcomes depression that reads like mine, dressed up with a fantasy aesthetic that was, at the time, just outside my usual fantasy settings. At the time that i first read it, it was truly novel to me because i hadn't dipped into romantasy as a genre yet, but now it more or less gives me the same nostalgic comfort I'd get from rereading harry potter, only without the guilt of being an adult who thinks jkr can get fucked but hasn't completely excised harry potter from her life.

Short answer:

Its fun and its not that serious, and I'm very tired of everything being not fun and always serious so. Hashtag fae smut life i guess :P

7. What is your favorite book cover?

Idk that i really have a favorite but i *did* specifically buy this acotar cover set (which meant i had to get a whole other set of hardcovers to put them on) because i hated the updated covers so much, so i assume that counts

(They're not perfect but they're better than the neon covers on my paperbacks)

[letsliketurtles]

shipping does not equal morality (personal rant)

Hi to whoever found this and wants to take the time to read my personal thoughts on something I investigated and spent some genuine reflection time for several weeks. 

If anybody has been following my posts, you’d know that I commented on the Encanto fandom’s TW/Madrigalcest shippings and gave a respectful heads up that I wouldn’t be commenting much on it, although I am proship. I wanted to follow up on that and come out here to say that I am no longer against it and for me to have been against it reveals my own hypocrisy in proship. This absolutely does NOT mean I condone incest in real life, nor does it mean anybody else who creates works for it does. I just wanna take this time to dive deeper into why properly discussing proship within fandoms is becoming increasingly important in understanding how people engage with each other. The Encanto fandom is still quite young but the tendencies occurring within it must be discussed respectfully. 

After exploring the Encanto fandom spaces across social media, there is without a doubt an extremely large audience that indulges in Madrigalcest, canon x oc pairings, nsfw, and all different kinds of head canons. I have nothing against this, in fact, I encourage it. On Twitter, some of the Encanto animators have been questioned whether or not they are aware of all of this “sinful (as the morally righteous fans would argue)” fan content being made and they’ve acknowledged it in a positive manner by stating that they don’t mind and enjoy seeing how other people interpret their works. The animators have literally answered before that they are not disturbed nor against it. 

Does this mean you, whoever you are, have to be proship/tolerant too? Of course not! Everybody is free to interpret media in their own ways and find comfort in whatever way suits them because SHIPPING DOES NOT EQUAL MORALITY. Fictional writings, works, drawings, etc. are NOT always a direct introspective look into the artist. In 2022, I would’ve thought that internet fandoms would be “woke” enough to understand that there is no reason for anybody to harass fans through public callouts, threads explaining why they are horrible people and should harm themselves, or wish sexual abuse upon others over FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. If anything, we’re approaching a limit where I am STUNNED by how many younger fans are the very ones smiting each other with such violent words. There are many adults inappropriately engaging in this disgusting behavior as well with little to no regard that there is another human being behind that user screen. Where is the humility when it comes to REAL fans and internet users? Is it only reserved for fictional comfort characters or for people who strictly agree with you? 

I have a high tolerance for what people will interpret/create in their fictional works because I understand the human complexity that exists in trauma works. Does everybody forget that some of the most famous works were written out of needing to cope with trauma, such as death and abuse? But I also understand that sometimes people just create things for the hell of it! Both are perfectly fine. I believe that any attempt to put a morality spectrum on somebody’s fictional works, unless they are explicitly meant to portray moral correctness, is a waste of precious time and energy. 

The Encanto fandom is an interesting example of where the international majority across Tik Tok, YouTube, and Instagram is rooted in understanding that most of their fan works are fictional and most importantly, for fun. On Twitter and other parts of Instagram, there is an extremely resilient American minority who attempts to oust the majority who exhibit proship tendencies and overall tolerant towards differing fanon opinions/art. Their fandom discourse has become so extreme to where trending hashtags such as “#ShutUpGringo2022″ were used in opposition to the minority who keeps attempting to police how the majority enjoy Encanto and other Latine works. This is such an unfortunate event and it saddens me to see how it is also not the only instance of this fandom’s conflict. There is no point in policing somebody’s experience online in fandom spaces unless they are directly harassing or causing harm to you. We have so many methods of blocking and muting users/tags, yet people will still go out of their way to express their anger against other fans. 

I could understand the upheaval of the minority if Disney or the Encanto animators directly spoke up against it. However, they do not. Why wouldn’t they? Hello? Any sort of fandom attention is better for their product than no attention at all lol. It wouldn’t be the first Disney controversy either. Until then, I don’t understand why would anybody go out of their way to express such deep opposition when majority of the international fandom across various social media accounts will post Madrigalcest...

ANYWAYS, I still won’t post much about those ships because I can appreciate it from the distance without having to trash others for enjoying it. Cmon, stuff like this is supposed to be fun. It’s 2022, just let people do what they wanna do online so long as it’s legal and it doesn’t endanger anybody. Most of us are strangers to one another anyways. It’s just as easy to hit the block/mute button and get on with your life with good vibes. Peace. ✌️ 

[spiked-tea-writing]

Haha We’re Married

Wilbur Soot x Fem!Reader

Summary: After successfully hiding your relationship for years, twitter fucking comes and exposes you

Pronouns: She/Her 

Warnings: Swearing

Word Count: 1kish

A/n: TBH I’ve only listened to Wilbur’s music, I don’t watch his streams. I just really wanted to write this trope for a streamer. This was kinda self-indulgent *cough* hella self-indulgent *cough*, so sorry if it’s choppy and poorly written. Also I’m trying out headcannon forms. Unedited and unproofed

The situation at hand was very complex

The two of you had been able to keep your relationship under wraps for a very long time.

-Since you were both pretty major streamers on the platform, it was just easier to eep your relationship a secret instead of in the public eye

Y’all were young when you got married had already faced judgment from the surrounding community, and you guys didn’t want to deal with the entire fucking internet questioning your relationship

The decision was made before he joined SootHouse, mainly so that your entire personas wouldn’t be based on being a couple. 

It wasn’t that hard, considering that your internet careers had started separate from each other, but it was increasing in difficulty as your popularity grew and you guys had to interact more, especially on Dream’s sever

Then when Wilbur had started streaming in the apartment, avoiding revealing everything became damn near impossible

Of course, there was speculation, rumors, fanart, and a lot of shipping, but the two of you had never addressed it. 

Fun fact: One fanart of you two was so good it was hung up in your flat, right next to a picture from your wedding lmao. 

Twitter was always breathing down your necks, especially since yall both wore wedding rings, but there was never enough evidence to put two and two together

They were thrown for one hell of a loop after both of you had been on Love or Host

The backlash got so intense to the point where you both made statements about how you both weren’t cheating since the relationships on Love or Host aren’t always real-life partnerships. 

Since you were known for your chill streams one day you were streaming a “painting and inevitably smudging my nails” stream when someone made a donation

It was for eight pounds, and the automatic voice read “when is your birthday, and what is your zodiac??”

You let out a giggle

“Um I’m in September and a Virgo I believe. Actually, funny story, my husband and I share a birthday which makes us both Virgos so I’m actually not sure what that means for our compatibility”

The stream carried on like normal and you didn’t think much of your answer

Then the motherfucking robot voice came for your weave as you were blowing on your fingers

“Are you and Wilbur dating???”

You went beet reed. 

“Haha no, we aren’t. I’m happily married.”

And yet again, the stream went on with any further hiccups. 

After the stream ended, you went to find Wilbur somewhere in the kitchen.

“Hello darling”

His arms wrapped around your waist as you let out a sigh. 

“Stream was very long but at least my nails look nice”

He laughed and started fidgeting with your hands

Your wedding band caught his eye

“I’m glad I tied you down.”

“My husband, the romantic.”

Smiles grace your faces but the sweet moment was interrupted by a phone call coming from your streaming room.

“Ahh fuck, I should get that. Could you call the Thai place for takeaway??”

“Sure thing.”

You made your way down your phone kept ringing

You glanced at the caller id which read Father-In-Law before picking up

“Hey, Phil what’s up?”

“Hey, you need to check Twitter. And get Will.”

The line went dead

You were wondering if that was a advil enduced fever dream when you called for your husband

The sound of shuffling feet against the carpet followed by your lank boiTM walking into your room snapped you into reality

“I was thinking Pad See Ew and-“

“Phil called and told me to check Twitter, and I’m hella scared.”

You could see his face drop. Twitter never meant something good/ Either someone died or someone got canceled for being a perv

“Might as well rip off the bandaid and look.”

You nodded and pulled up Twitter

The number one hashtag on trending was #SootMarriageGate

“What the actual fuck.”

“I’m scared”

With a bit of hesitation, you clicked on the hashtag, which directed you to the top of a thread

“After Y/n’s stream today, I’m thinking that her and Wilbur are actually married. Like it’s no longer a bit”

That tweet had an insane amount of replies, and before you could change your mind, you started scrolling

There were a few arguements, but most of the replies consisted of evidence the audience had found of your relationship.

There were so many clips that either had you mention something about the other person, to that time you walked behind Wilbur’s chair, face just out of the frame of the webcam. 

Unfortunately, people seemed to really be catching on

On reply had caught your eye

“We know Wilburs birthday is September 19, and if you look at Y/ns last birthday post, it was the nineteenth of September. And remember, she and her husband share a birthday. I think that that’s not a coincidence.”

You turned to Wilbur

“Maybe it’s time we just straight up tell them.” 

“You’re right. Should we tweet it?”

“Or maybe stream. Just confirm it and answer a few questions. Is that alright?”

“Of course. Should we do it tonight with the Thai food and make it chill??”

“Sounds like a plan.”

And so you guys waited for a few hours before streaming, during which you guys kept an eye on Twitter and got the food. You built a sort of nest on the floor in the streaming room to eat dinner in and give the stream some cozy vibes. 

After stalling for long enough, twitch got booted up and a stream was started. 

“Hey guys I got Wilbur here with me and we are having a chill stream and eating some Thai.”

The stream was just y’all chatting about the food for a few seconds, ignoring chat until finally Wilbur casually said,

“Oh, and what do you want for our wedding anniversary?”

He turned to look the camera directly in the lens, face deadpan. You let out a giggle before playing along

“Hmm, maybe we should just have a day out as HUSBAND AND WIFE.”

Chat blew up as you both stared at the camera, stone-faced. Wilbur stood up, still emotionless, and ended the stream.  

He turned to you with a smile

“That was easier than expected.”

“Honey the stream was 3 minutes long.”

He disregarded your comment. 

“Well now that that’s out of the way, shall we ignore Twitter for the next day??”

You rolled your eyes at your fantastic husband 

“I couldn’t have had a better idea myself.”