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1eos · 1 year ago
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Hello! If it's okay, can I ask you for some advice? I was recently fired from my job after missing too many days...my Crohn's was flaring up and accommodation wasn't enough. There also was a change in management and I could tell they wanted to be rid of me. I was there for 7 years and I don't know what to say on future applications when asked about my employment history, like am I allowed to lie? Or how do I spin it in a different direction, it was my first job and I guess I'm just scared for the future if that makes sense. I understand if you don't answer this, but thank you for reading and sorry for the long ask. I'm a longtime follower and your blog, or rather you, are so lovely; I hope that only good things come your way. 💞💞
😞im so sorry to hear you got fired anon. i actually read this to my mom who's a manager who does hiring at her job and got her opinion as well. she said when asked just say that you left due to complications change in management bc essentially everything was fine until management came and its best to paint it in the most neutral light bc u wanna use those 7 years of work experience but just in case new jobs call the old job you don't want to have a totally different story.
and what *i* would recommend is to 100000% use that job on your resume bc you stayed a good long time and employers love to see that. if you can for references from that job if possible use the names of managers that you worked with BEFORE the ones that fired you. bc theyll obviously have better things to say!!!!! and idk if this will help you any but askamanager blog has really helped me figure out how to play the employment game a lot better and she has some articles on navigating making the best out of being fired when you're moving forward so maybe this will help?
no matter what you end up doing ill be hoping praying manifesting that you'll find an even better position that caters to your needssssssssssss 😣💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖and thank you SO much for the well wishes may we BOTH have nothing but good things in the futureeeeeeeeeeeeee mwah mwah mwah
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myladyofmercy · 3 years ago
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young royals rewatch
episode 6
i love this opening montage so much
right until the credits come up over wille screaming
wish we got that scream scene without the credits for edits tho
the little girl looks at simon as if she personally has seen the video
it must be so weird to see your face on a magazine cover. i wonder what the article says
he's wearing purple (in solidarity with simon)
you have nothing to apologize for wille baby
did simon go to the police tho?
love the little detail of clothes we seen on the show already laying folded up on the washing machine
is the floor of the library so clean that they can lie and sit on it? aren't there any chairs?
august just listening to the theories like the little bitch he is
I'm calling the cops if you don't leave
i love stellas clothing style so much
sara putting 1 and 2 together
rosh and ayub are back!!!
i have not seen kim ks sex tape and i don't intend to watch it
I really hope simon doesn't change schools in s2. I'm with rosh on that one
why is the sky so yellow? light pollution?
willes pajama pants from ep 2 are back
august you little shit stop spitting live lessons and spill the truth
fish scene flashback
the looney tunes shirt is back
first kiss fit
yellow tshirt, yellow shirt, yellow backpack. i know you're the center of willes universe but do you really have to look like the sun?
footsies
wille matches the blue background but simon sticks out like a sore thumb
this scene is so poweful even without a kiss
oh no i know what's coming
sara pls don't do this
she's wearing purple (in solidarity with simon)
wilhelm doesn't have everything he has nothing you piece of shit
and he will lose simon because of you too
oh doobidoo i wanna be like you u u
why does sara look kinda sad when august kisses her neck tho?
as someone who rarely sits at the dining table for dinner and watches tv during 99% of meals i relate to simon and his mom
how does felice dress fit sara so well tho?
simon you are not her father
linda you are her mother. pls act like that more often or i will have to rewoke your best mom card
the star behind simons head looks very pretty
simon saying annan and dum in this conversation makes me think of certain songs by a certain artist
sara and wilhelm both called simon fin
why do felice and maddie have their own bathroom and wille the crown prince has to share with the other guys on his floor?
the mirror shot of them on the floor
i don't think simon really believes wille will tell the truth
it's their last kiss and it breaks my heart
the sad scarf is back
why do the subtitles say how do you do??? simon says good day. that is way more formal than how do you do! simon isn't joey from friends
this car conversation is so frustratingly sad
love how many words i understand bc they sound so similar to the german word in this conversation
let wille and simon have sex in his royal bed in s2 petition
willes tie looks very yellow (simon anyone?)
why is rosh never included in eriksson family time?
poor simon
(love his sweater tho)
who put the name joakim for willes second bodyguard out there? is it canon?
i hate this scene so much
simon did the right thing even though it breaks his (and willes AND MY) heart
hemlighet
love how we see simon leaving blurry in the background
felice being the best detective
also she calls the guy she asks where willes room is edvin
why isn't there a bodyguard in front of willes room?
willes little flinch when he sees simon on the screen
yes the confrontation scene!!!
august is working out again. of course.
why didn't wille mention erik in this scene tho? something like erik told me i could trust you
edvins acting is so good in this scene. rising star award winner indeed.
this phone call hurts so much
love how him hanging up stops the background music and we are left with silence until the match strikes and the choir begins singing
wille and simon are wearing so much more hair product than they did during the whole rest of the season
god jul
the sad scarf is back again
is simon talking with sime choir kids?
falling
we are falling now
förlåt
jag älskar dig
hoppas du fan en fin jul
tack simon
running with a crown on your head
he wants to run bad so badly
city's on fire but it's beautiful
chills literal chills
i hope they continue with the 4th wall breaks in s2
i love this show
i hate this show
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notnctu · 4 years ago
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sugar | s.j ❀
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━ listen to: sugar by brockhampton 
❀ johnny suh x fem!reader ❀ genre - smut, angst, fluff? ❀ details - fwb!au, kinda unrequited love? who knows lol, sweet love makin ❀ word count - 2k ❀ synopsis - he’s always a call away, ready to love you when you think no one else will. and this will be the one time you ask him to spend the night because johnny suh is the only sweetener you need in your bitterness. 
❀ a/n: hello its author doie❀! its based off of the song sugar which is one of my favs ever so i hope u enjoy this smut, rlly this was just me avoiding explicit words lol ps i have never laughed harder in my life when @legendnct​​ (ily hannah) asked me if i was J O R N Y when i told her i was writing this at 4am 
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The honey dripping, rush of candy goodness, and sugar high of a man --- Johnny Suh. He’s like walking on sunshine, no other cares in the world can harm him, and with a bright happiness that promises anything worth fighting for.
He stands six feet tall of sunflowers that turn up to the clear blue skies and soak up the positive energy needed for growth. Johnny Suh, the man that has sugar addicts craving for a slice of his attention; Johnny Suh is the epitome of goodness and virtue.
And the puzzling, estranged question of why you are his subject of sweetness is beyond any galaxy and he’d never tell a soul his reason behind his many dazed gazes, or if they even had much meaning to them. Johnny Suh is the one boy that wears his heart on his sleeve, but holds your’s at his fingertips.
There have been many countless encounters of long and, some unfortunately short, nights of sleeping with bodies that only add to the list of people you’ve kissed. But to have consistency in that aspect? Quite hesitant, to say the least.
While you are able to tolerate a random one night stand with no necessary remembrance of the individual’s name, to give your vulnerability and consistent attention to one person is asking for too much. A flawed characteristic of yours is falling in love too easily.
The hookups are meaningless, quick fucks to fill the evening and rid the irritable desire of lust. The muscles involved exclude the heart because there is no opportunity to fall for someone if you are only going to part ways right afterwards.
Yet, the one remarkable night with Johnny turned into several nights which led into your current relationship with the glowing sun. The one thing you had wished to steer away from --- a friend with benefits.
There was no metaphorical gun to your head, you weren’t forced to sign a contract, there were no ridiculously restrictive rules. No boundaries to hold you back.
When there is no fencing around the edge of a cliff, is that grounds for people to free fall? Regardless, your lack of self control and demising loneliness had you jumping and falling into Johnny’s comfort. The golden boy is someone hard to come by, and you’re not foolish enough to turn down this once in a lifetime chance to be intimately acquainted.
But as you continued to see him, there was an unconscious decision to stop your other random flings. It felt like you already had someone to fulfill the ache, someone to spend your nights with. If you needed him, he’d be there. So, unknowingly by choice, you made yourself exclusive to him, even though Johnny did not decide to do the same.
That shouldn’t bother you, right? But it does. The worst part is that it’s no one’s fault but your own. Johnny’s harmless actions affect you because your feelings allow them to. As much as you ignore the fact you two are nothing more than friends with benefits, the annoying drumming of your foolish heart reminds you of your denial.
While you’ve always had a bitter palette, the dash of sweetener never hurt anyone. He never hurts anyone, with his best efforts. And the intent should have been made clear, that your nightly hookups are an unhealthy coping mechanism. Too much sugar has your glucose levels derailing and seeking out the one person that lights up your endorphins.
The love for Johnny stems from his warmhearted character. His bubbly, goodwill nature that has him overextending himself for people who take him for granted. An extroverted, head-turning personality that you can’t despise and look away, instead are easily attracted to.
Johnny is kind, he’s thoughtful, yet entirely complex as a human being with a fair share of cloudy days. He is simply someone you want to get to know because he makes the atmosphere a safe space and he reads like an open hardback book.
Everyone has a small crush on him, it would be a complete tyranny of your feelings to deny it. Some infatuations are bigger than others and you’ll shamefully admit that you fit under this group of individuals.
On another lonely night, you wonder if he’d be at your will and call, if he would drop the world to come make you feel better. One moment, you are staring at his contact name and imaging the deep voice answering with his signature greeting. The next, you’re actually hearing his voice on the other end of the receiver and panic settles as it’s too late to cancel the call.
“Hey baby, what’s up?” The nickname sends a crown of hearts swirling around your temples. However, he sounds rushed, like he had been in the middle of a strenuous activity.
A nervousness has stammered words falling from your lips, and you’re too incoherent for even your own mind to understand. Johnny chuckles lovingly, and the slight rustling that distorts the background has you imagining that the phone is pressed between his cheek and shoulder. “Collect your thoughts, babe. I’m ready whenever you are.”
A heavy notable sigh erupts into Johnny’s ear, but he doesn’t pull away from the device. He’s all ears, attentive and patiently waiting for you to speak, despite having company on his bed.
“I need you. Can you come over?” If only pride wasn’t so hard to swallow, the question would have flowed much smoother. As if your heart grew hands, it chokes your throat from the inside and you’re preparing yourself for the rejection.
Truthfully, he isn’t obligated to come and there have been rare nights where he declines your offer. But your hope holds onto the slipping strands and the tension of your nerves have fists forming and eyes squeeze shut.
Johnny takes a fast peek at the girl already in his sheets, mindlessly and effortlessly scrolling through her social media. There is a hint of sadness in your voice that he can’t let go and while that’s usually not entirely uncommon, he can tell it took a lot for you to call tonight. So, he finds himself pulling up his sweats and a clean shirt over his head.
“Be there before you know it.” And the clench in your throat relaxes, along with the other parts that had your nails digging moon crescents into your palm and wrinkles forming at your tight creases.
And with a sweet goodbye, he hangs up the call and politely offers to take the girl home as he makes his way over to your place. And you’re dosing yourself in puffs of fruity scents and cleaning up the runny mascara around your under eyes.
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With no words exchanged, Johnny knows every way to heal you and dawn a warmth that coats your darkest corners. All you have to do is open the door and let him in. His strength has you lifted from the ground, lips hungry to devour your softness.
A few fumble steps, he reaches your room at ease and gently lays you on your neatly made sheets. Johnny is consistent, no missed beats when it comes to loving you, and without a fail, he always takes a moment to himself to step back and admire your beauty. And your priceless shyness is also an added delight to the scene.
Each article of clothing is discarded and left at different areas of your small room, kisses lining your worst parts to you, but the best parts to him. When you can’t love parts of yourself, Johnny loves them for you and makes you whole.
“Were you in the middle of something?” It did not become aware to you of the possibility that you had interrupted something else, or someone else. And even if Johnny did choose to see you over spending time with them, you have the decent courtesy to make sure he is okay with his decision.
“Nothing important.” You’ll never be able to read him or notice any lies he tells. His smile is enough reassurance, and your question is quickly forgotten when his fingers dive into your wet flower. He uses his thumb to soothe circles around your growing bud, making your whole lower half blossom with trembling ecstasy.
His lips leave soft reminders to love your thighs, your legs, to not overlook their importance: they carry your graciousness into new ventures. Then, he pushes them wide open as he bends your left knee and your right dangles over his sturdy shoulder. The tight grip on your hip is bound to leave marks the next morning, along with the dark love bites he leaves across your canvas.
But his thoughts are focused on the meal ahead, your sugary juices coat the plush of his tongue. He remembers exactly how you like it, where melodic sounds hit the silence in gasps or groans. He suckles, he licks, he kisses your bead in a speed that has his brown locks tangled in between your fingers.
He drinks up more than your wetness, but also the pure image of your fucked out expression and the twists of your reacting body. He wants to surpass your limits, max you out until there isn’t a hint of melancholy in your tone anymore. To remember, to remind, to recall your happiness through heightened pleasure.
At the announcement of your high, he enters your spasming hole with rubber already on and groans at your walls squeezing around him, which halts him in place. However, the dragged movement of his length hits your sweet spot, your orgasm prolongs into a rapturous euphoria and you’re no longer in control of your body.
Johnny’s toned arms hold you close to him. The chemistry in your gazes has your heart pounding faster than his hips. As ruthless as each thrust is and each push moves you an inch upward on the bed, Johnny’s eyes are still kind and loving.
His fluttering kisses are delicate and nurturing. The marks resemble a healing touch that will settle you enough for the next day. For the night, he rids any angst that corrupts your mood by loving you when you think no one else will.
Together, your bodies fall into one another with a bite of elation as he finishes into the protection and your walls hug around him for the last time tonight. Even when your bodies disconnect, the feeling of fullness lingers and you wish to keep this for as long as you can. No more emptiness, not right now.
Perhaps it's the daze of your orgasm, but your hand reaches for his wrist to stop him from making his exit so soon. Selfishly, carelessly, honestly, this will be the one time you ask for him to spend the night. You can’t stand seeing him go, not at this instant. You refuse to spend one more night alone when your heart longs for him to be by your side when you fall asleep.
While the big heart of his beats speechlessly at your request, he lays down to draw you into his toned chest and pampers your forehead with honeyed pecks. Like many times before, no words need to be exchanged for him to know the remedy to your somber.
Possibly, the scene with Johnny caressing your chin and tracing your smile lines is all too perfect for your imperfect reality. And him whispering and wishing a happier narrative for you is more than what you had asked for. Nonetheless, he’s very good at it, mentally noting the fact that he’s probably done the same to other hookups or broken friends.
While you can get used to this form of aftercare, the guards you put up tell you that this is a one time thing. So, you’ll take and indulge all of Johnny’s affection and false love for the next few hours you had left of the night.
Nevertheless, even sweetness can be an overpowering flavor when consumed in tremendous amounts. And you wonder when you’d grow sick of his candied sugar or if you’d just forfeit your health to keep indulging more into your addiction. A sickly saccharine question of your own will be the pit of your downfall: do you love me?
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iguessilovebakugou · 4 years ago
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Beautiful  ||  {Dabi/F!Reader}  ---  Heathers: The Musical --  Cause I’m a stupid fuck who can’t control themselves
Me:  *Doesn’t post anything for 2 years*
Also Me when Dabi is on screen at any point ever:   👁👄👁
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I’m also throwing this out there because like...I highly doubt anyone still looks at my blog, so I can hide my fucking shame that I’ve been thinking of this idea on and off for almost 2 years now. 
Now...spoilers under the cut because I have to explain some things...
I know they just recently announced that Dabi “died” when he was a kid.  So I will have to specify that I’m aging him up to be 17, since that would just...make sense?  
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“Venti salted caramel coldbrew, extra foam.”
There was a raid against villains that day.  It had been the only thing anyone could talk about.
You had overheard the editors talking about it as they made their coffee.  It was a good thing, right, that they were taking the fight to the bad guys?  That not all hope had been lost?  Most people just wanted an ounce of good news.  Some confirmation that the way of things would hold strong - a nice sugar coat to swallow the hard pill.  Though, it seemed like all any report worth their salt - you included - could discuss was the fall of society, what people were going to do if...or...when, rather, the heroes were yanked from their spot light and cast down in the dirt with the rest of civilization.  
You weren’t a giant fan of them, considering, but you understood the necessity for someone to hold the mantle - someone who guaranteed the safety the mass populous required to keep them from falling to complete anarchy.
Your phone buzzed as a message appeared at the top, blocking the article’s title from view.  Your boss, Fumihiro...again...for the 8th time since you left the office.  
[INCOMING MSG] ::  Where are you right now?
“Venti salted caramel cold brew, extra foam for...”
Your brows furrowed, your stance shifting from one foot to the other.  
[OUTGOING MSG] ::  Getting the coffee.
[OUTGOING MSG] ::  Why?  Want me to get you something?
Heroes.  The way of things.  Society.  
Most people didn’t seem to care too much about it once their phones locked and it was out of their line of sight.  When the terrible wasn’t in your face, it was easy to forget that everything hung on a tiny thread that was always threatening to snap.  It was hard, you figured, to care about the state of the world when you were more concerned about mundane matters that were pressing in the moment.  The rest of the world seems small when you have everything else to pressure you.  It was easy to forget.
[INCOMING MSG] ::   www.wtxz319.rdio.com/live/93901_error
[INCOMING MSG] ::  u need to watch this
You wished you could forget about it.  Wished that it hadn’t been looming over your head since...well...
Your thumb hovered over the link, the screen went black and a stream started loading.  Some radio podcast?  You read the title:  ENDEVOUR TAKING ON U-A’S BEST AND BRIGHTEST?! UNLIKELY SON AND FATHER DUO?
“Venti salted caramel cold brew, extra foam!!”
Your heart leapt up into your throat as your eyes met the kid behind the counter.  He paused only a moment before using his fingers to nudge your drink closer to edge.
“Oh.  Sor-”
“Have a good one.”  
You locked your phone as you shoved it into your back pocket, grabbed your drink and made a beeline towards the door.  The streets were busy, given the hour. You had just enough time to get back to the office and finish your article on  before the evening - just enough time for an editor to look it over, to do some quick fixes and-
You phone buzzed again, and Fumihiro’s face once again flashed on the screen.  
[INCOMING MSG] ::  Did you see it?
[INCOMING MSG] ::  We need to be the first people on this.  I don’t care about what else you were working on.  This is more important.  
You stopped at the crosswalk, staring at your phone and ignoring the woman who had to move around you with a huff.  But...you were so close to getting to the meat of what the Safety Commission was hiding.  You were so close getting to the heart of it all and, maybe - just maybe - throwing away some of the uncertainty that was hanging over everyone’s head after All Might’s retirement.  
After the weeks you spent staking out police stations, hounding hero agencies, digging through dumpsters for any shred of proof the Pros and Police were hiding something - the favors you had to call in for breadcrumbs and scraps alone?!  And just like that, he wanted you to drop it all?  For what?  Some stupid radio show speculation?
You didn’t hesitate to hit the phone icon in the upper corner, stomping towards the intersection.
“Hey-”  You cut Fumi before he could even finish your name.
“What do you mean ‘drop the article’?  Do you know-”
“I don’t care!  This is bigger!!”
“What’s bigger than-”
“Did you even watch the link I sent you?  Every station across Japan is getting hacked and it’s been playing on loop for a few minutes now on a few stations.  It’s slowly moving to others now.”
“Fumi what the hell are you talking about!?”
 “I, TOUYA TODOROKI, WAS BORN THE ELDEST SON OF ENDEVOUR.”
It...was hard to think for a moment.  Like a memory, reaching up from the dirt to grab you, to finally take you down to hell.  
That voice.
It felt like he was right in your ear, in your head.  It had been so long since he had done it to you, since he...no...not him.  He was dead.  His father confirmed it.  You confirmed it.  You knew he was gone and there was no bringing him back and - 
“I’VE KILLED OVER 30 INNOCENT PEOPLE UNTIL NOW.”
No.  No, no no no no it wasn’t in your head - because if it had been, the sound of blood pounding in your ears wouldn’t be able to mask it so well.  You froze, your hands shaking as your breath caught in your throat.  It couldn’t be him.  I couldn’t, it couldn’t...
“You need to get back to the office - I want you on this.  I already have a copy of it in case you can’t screen capture it -”
“I WOULD LIKE TO LET EVERYONE KNOW WHY I’D END UP COMMITING SUCH A HIDEOUS ACT.”
Because you’re a fucking monster.
Someone next to you stopped and looked up.  Then another and then another. You knew what they were looking at.  Who they were looking at.  And still, you couldn’t bring yourself to look up.  You couldn’t do it - not again.  Not now.  Not after so many years of him being dead and buried where he deserved to be.
But he always had a hold on you.  Something that drew you to him.  And so...you looked up.
And as your phone and drink clattered to your feet, you felt the world stop.
“...Touya?”
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September 1st, 20xx
Dear Diary - I believe I’m a good person.  You know?  Like, I believe there’s good in everyone.  But um...here we are!  First day of our Senior Year and I look around at the kids I’ve known for so long and I can’t help but think to myself - what happened?
You hadn’t really wanted to be friends with the Nori’s.  Not really.  They were stuck up snobs who made everyone below them miserable.  But there was a power to them that everyone respected.  You had been taught that knowledge held power.  And the Nori’s had power because everyone knew if you double crossed them, your life would be a living fucking hell.
“Ah, Nori and Nori.”
You grimaced into your knees as Nori Ueda vomited for a third time since you had been hiding out in the bathroom.  The teacher paused before sighing. “And Nori.  Perhaps you didn’t hear the bell?  You’re late for class.”
“Nori’s sick!  We’re helping her.”
You had given the low price of just sitting at their lunch table - once, no talking would be necessary - in the hopes people would leave you alone.  It was a simple fact of life:  Where there are teenagers, there are winners and there are losers.  And you had spent the majority of your High School career on the low end of the totem pole.  You were so low, in fact, it seemed talking to you was all but taboo.  Anything other than bullying, shoving into lockers, or calling out unfortunate break outs was strictly forbidden by anyone not wanting to suffer the same fate. 
But the Nori’s?  Solid Teflon: never bothered.  Never harassed like you had been.  They had a mystique, a pull, a confidence that couldn’t be matched.  And you would have killed to be like them.  
Perhaps that why you reached into backpack and yanked out the pad of hall pass papers.  
You opened the stall door and slipped out, making your wave over to the group.  Nori Ueda wiped her mouth.  Nori Makino was leaning against the bathroom counter, focusing on making sure her bright red lipstick was perfectly placed.  And Nori Kaneko?  She was staring down the teacher, hands on her hips, completely equal and completely ready to start a fight.  
The teacher laughed, so sure and so pleased that she had been the one to stumble upon the trio in the bathroom.   “Not without a hall pass, you’re not.  A week’s detention.”
“Uh...ma’am.”  Your voice trembled out and reverberated off the tiled wall.  It had been louder than you originally intended.  Everyone turned quickly to you, only for their attention to be immediately drawn to your outstretched hand you held.  “All of us are out on a hall pass...yearbook committee.” 
She snatched it from you.  For a moment, she simply glanced back between you, the paper, then the Nori’s, then back.  After a heavy moment, she nodded.  “It looks like you’re all listed.”
Nori Kaneko took it from the teacher, looking it over herself.  You tried not to make eye contact as she looked at you.  You instead focused on the teacher as she made her way towards the bathroom door.  “Hurry up and get where you’re going.”
You heaved a sigh of relief.
“This is an excellent forgery.  Who are you?”
You stuttered your name, shrinking under her sharp gaze.  “I uh...I crave a boon.”
“What boon?”  You weren’t sure if she was simply aggravated you had dared do more than answer the questions she asked or if the annoyance was just a constant manner of speaking for her.
You could forge anything thanks to your quirk - Copy.  All you had to do was see someone or something once or twice, focus on it as best as you could and like that, you could be that person.  From their mannerisms, their voice, to their penmanship.  Its why you stole the pad of hall passes, to skip class whenever you wanted, to have an excuse to be hiding out in the bathroom.  
It had worked...sometimes...
You stuttered out your name.  You could see the two Nori’s snicker in the background.  They had no clue who you were.  It was...somewhat insulting.  Their “friends” had done their best to make your life a living hell and yet you had flown under their radar.  
Your eyes darted between the three of them.  Nori Kaneko stared down at you, foot tapping and arms crossed as she took you in.  You couldn’t help but feel like a prey animal, stuck in the line of sight of the Apex Predator.
But your mama didn’t raise no quitter.  You swallowed and stood up just a bit straighter.  “Let me sit with you at lunch, once.  No talking necessary.  If...I mean, if people think you guys tolerate me, they might leave me alone.”
The laughter was instantaneous.  Kaneko looked back to the other two, her laugh light and condescending.  The audacity, it said.  The gall of you to ask to sit with them, of all people.  “Before you answer, I also do permission slips, report cards, and absent notes.”
“What about prescriptions?”
“Shut up, Nori.”
“Sorry, Nori.”  Ueda immediately slunk back to the shadows, gaze downcast.
Kaneka stepped forward and you thought for a moment she was going to shove you onto the floor.  You braced your feet, mentally preparing yourself for the force of her push...but it never came.  She was in front of you for a moment, and then the next, she was at your side.  She hummed under her breath and you could feel her eyes trail over your body.  Your school uniform a size too big, the bulky cardigan you had worn over it, the scuffed shoes and year old skirt.  Your hair was a mess, your face was bare, and you could hear the sound of your knees knocking together in fear.
“For a greasy little nobody,”  She started, reaching out a smooth hand and brushing some of your hair back and out of your eyes.  “You do have good bone structure.”
Nori Makino perked up, coming over to take a look at you.  She took your face in your hand, causing you to tense and try to pull away.  For a girl bordering 90 pounds soaking wet, her grip was rather strong.  “And a symmetrical face.”  
“A...huh?” 
“If I took a meat cleaver down the center of your skull, I would have matching halves.”  She looked back at you, nodding.  “That’s very important.”
“Of course,” Ueda added, glaring at you from over Kaneka’s shoulder.  “You could stand to lose a few pounds.”
You opened your mouth to argue, to gain some sense of control over the conversation - but like everything, Kaneko had the power.  She gripped your shoulders and turned you towards the mirror.  You tensed, feeling her arm wrapped around your shoulders.  You watched as she tilted her head this way and that before...smirking.  “You know...this might be beautiful.  Mascara, maybe some lip gloss and we might have something.”
You let out a breath you didn’t know you had been holding once she moved away.  “I’ll need some blush, Nori, get your brush.”
You were frozen, watching as each item was brought out and laid on the bathroom counter.  A new jacket, skirt, perfume, a pallet of...color?  You gripped your bag, trying to figure out what on earth was going on.
“Take that thing off - it smells.”
The...thing?  You saw the Nori’s staring at you, waiting for you to comply.  You glanced down at your cardigan, pausing only a moment to sniff the sleeve.  It...wait, did it smell?  Would they lie to you?  You fumbled with the buttons, sliding it off your shoulders.  Makino snatched it out of your hands and before you knew it, it was tossed in the garbage.  
“Now, let’s make her beautiful.”
In that moment, you understood what was happening.  As Kaneko stepped forward, the smirk on her face, she watched you.  This...was an invitation.  Into their group.  Into the inner sanctum of popularity and the safety it brought.  No more bullies, no more humiliation, no more terror.  
“Okay?”
“Okay!”
They don’t tell you that being popular is more hell than it’s worth.   
You wouldn’t say you and the Nori’s were...friends.  It felt more professional than anything else.  You had a strict uniform you had to stick to - above what the school required.  Any accessory had to be approved by the trio. All meals had to be approved by Ueda - needless to say, the packed lunches your mother made every morning every morning included with a handwritten note never seemed to make the cut.  The make up you did every morning never was good enough.
They had high standards, more inline with a sort of...job than actual friendship.  In fact, over the past few weeks, it had been hard to tell if the three Nori’s were even friends to begin with.  There was definitely a power struggle between Kaneko - the obvious leader - and Ueda - who tried to exert her dominance every chance she could but was shot down by Kaneko.  Moniko was harder to figure out, more happy to follow than to lead.  She was...nicer than the other two, though you weren’t entirely sure if it was simply because she didn’t want the drama or if she just...simply didn’t understand that what she said held weight beyond being...noises in the air.
Dear Diary - It just seems like our job is being...popular and shit.
“There you are!”
When Kaneko wasn’t around Ueda was hardly as docile.  It was hard to tell she had thorns at all when she was standing next to the Cactus that was the head Nori.  But any chance she got, she made sure to inform you in less subtle ways that you weren’t welcome among the three of them.  
Which was obvious.  Your name wasn’t Nori.
You jumped as Ueda’s hand slammed your book shut on your fingers.  “Nori wants you in the caf - now.”  
Moniko hardly offered you a glance as you flexed the pain from your joints.  “Is that so?  What for?”
Ueda snorted, “I don’t know.  She just said to get your ass there...now.”
You normally punched out for lunch.  You sighed, pushing yourself away from your desk and standing up.  “How very.”  
If the two Nori’s heard your remark, they didn’t say anything.  Nor did they relay it to Nori Kaneko when the three of you had reached the cafe.
The Nori table was the nicest table in the entire cafeteria.  With the perfect white table cloths, centered exactly in the middle of the room, other kids from the “popular groups” would migrate around it like a port.  They would stay for the entire period or would flit about from table to table.  And at it’s head, sat Nori Kaneko.  She sat with her legs crossed, talking to another student who’s name you couldn’t quite place.  You always thought you had been good with names.  Turns out, you just didn’t know many people.
“Ah, you’re finally here.  Took you long enough.”
When Kaneko had offered the make over and...”admission” into the popular crowd, you had thought maybe you pegged her wrong.  Maybe she was just a normal kid, wrapped up in the politics of High School.  It didn’t take long for you to realize she was still the same mythic bitch you had thought she had been - you just did things for her now. 
“I need you to forge a note - in Souta Ishii’s handwriting.”  With a snap of her fingers, the boy she had been talking to reached into his pocket and yanked out a few folded up pieces of paper.  You didn’t need to open them to know what they were.  But when you did, you couldn’t find yourself surprised at the fact Souta was barely passing most of his classes.
“You’ll need something to write on.  Bend over, Nori.”
One day, it would stop shocking you how quickly Ueda would act to Kaneko’s command.  You paused, looking to your superior for a moment.  “Uh...I could just-”
“You’re not sitting with us.”  She answer simply.  
“...right.”  You took the paper and pen offered by Moniko.  You flexed your digits, feeling the flutter under your skin.  “What do you want it to say?”
“‘Hey baby girl, I’ve been watching you and thinking about us in the good old days.  I hope you can come to my party this weekend.  We can talk about us.  Love, Souta.’“  She leaned over, watching your hand glide over the paper in barely legible chicken scratch.  “Put an XO after the ‘Souta’ too.”
It was gone the second the O was done.  She looked over the note again.  “Perfect.”
There was a glint in her eye that didn’t...settle well with you.  With your quirk, you noticed certain...things about people.  Little ticks and tells that everyone has.  Ueda scrunched her nose when she didn’t like something - like everyone.  Moniko would fidget with her hands when she was nervous - like everyone.  And Kaneko would get a little sparkle in her eyes when she was about to ruin someone’s life.  
With each fold of the paper, you stomach dropped closer and closer to your feet.  “What’s that for, anyway?”  
You never really questioned why she did half of what she did.  It wasn’t like you could do anything to stop it.  “You know how Souta used to hang out with Arisu Nomaru?”
Of course you did.  You considered Arisu a friend - a good one.  She was the really only nice person at this school.  Of course, hanging out with the Nori’s meant that quality time with Arisu was...well, all but non existent at that point.  But she assured you, through texts, that everything was fine.  It was exciting!  That maybe, she could join you and the Nori’s for lunch one day.  It wasn’t possible, of course.  You never even bothered to broach the subject to the three.  Arisu was never going to be in the popular crowd and would be stuck watching them from a distance.
The only other constant in Arisu’s life - aside from her kindness and her exile from popularity - was the undying love she had for Souta Ishii.  Ever since...
“We all hung out with Arisu.  In kindergarten.”
Kaneko scoffed, looking up at you from under perfect lashes.  “Well, we didn’t all kiss her on the soccer field.”
You had to fight your body’s desire to snatch the paper out of Nori’s hand.
Monika gagged next to you.  “Oh my god!  I forgot Souta kissed Arisu Nomaru.  It was disgusting!!”
It took everything you had not to hit her.  She met your glare with cool indifference, adding a laugh for good measure.
“Souta!  Just the man I wanted to see!”  
Souta was a...handsome man to say the least.  You didn’t blame Arisu for having the crush she had on him, not by any means.  But what he had in looks, he lacked in anything worthy of personality - aside from just being a huge dick.  And where there was a Souta there was Jun Goto.  His best friend.  He was the smartest one out of his group of friends.
Which amounted as much as being the tallest dwarf, but hey - credit where credit was due.  They were both smart enough to know to come when a Nori called you - no questions asked. And in a flash, the two pulled themselves up and made a beeline for the table - not after giggling to themselves first.
“Be a sweetie and give this note to Arisu Nomaru for me.”  
Dread immediately filled your stomach.  “What? No!”
“What the hell are you talking to Arisu for?”  Jun demanded, reaching for the note.
“Don’t read it!  She was having a heavy flow, and wanted some advice from Gyno.”
“That’s fucking disgusting!” You would have thought the boy had been burned with the way he flicked the paper onto the table, back away and retreat to the table he had come from. 
“Yeah, I’ll take that.”  You snatched the note up, gripping it tightly in your hand.
It had been a while since anyone had stared at you with such venom.  If looks could kill, Kaneko would have you dead to rights.  Her eyes darkened as she glared at you, hands slowly moving to her hips.
But you weren’t going to allow yourself to back down.  Not over this.  This was too much.  “Arisu has had a crush on Souta for 13 years.  This...”  You waved the note.  “This would kill her.”
It was quiet for a moment - and in that moment, you realized you made the biggest mistake of your fucking life.  Nori smiled, stepping forward with a soft chuckle.  “I didn’t realize we had a problem.”
“We’re not but-”
“Are we going to have a problem?”
You faltered for a moment.  
“No, I just-”
“So you have a bone to pick.”
“No, Nori I just think you’re bigger than-”
“You know, when I dragged you out of the dredges of inferiority, I was shocked how far you would go.”
Before you knew it, she had succeeded in pushing you down onto the bench.  Your elbow slammed into the top, causing you to cry out.  Immediately, all eyes were on you.  “So you wanna tell me, why now, are you pulling on my dick?”
“Nori!  I’m not trying to argue with you!  Just doing this-”
“I know!”  She snatched the note from your hands.  “It will ruin her.  That’s the fucking point.”  She offered the note to Ueda, who happily took it.  You watched helplessly as she skipped back over to Souta.  While he didn’t seem too pleased to be the one to deliver the note, he begrudgingly got up from his spot and headed to the corner of the cafeteria.  
"You still have a lot to learn about how things work around here." You swallowed, digging your nails into the palm of you hand. "This whole school is my own personal candy store. I do what I want, when I want."
You watched as he slammed a fist on the table, causing Arisu to jump.  She froze, stuttered, and then almost dropped the note when he tossed it to her.  Your heart hammered - maybe if you got there fast enough, you could stop her from reading it.  You could distract her and -
You were forced back down in your spot and perfectly manicured nails dug into your skin.  “You got a good thing going here,”  Kaneko stated, very matter of factly.  “You could join the team, or you could bitch and moan.”  You winced when her nails dug deeper into your skin.  “But if you test me one more time, you will end up just. Like. Her."
Ueda grinned, an ugly, spiteful thing. "Welcome to our Candy-"
"Shut up, Nori!" All three of you flinched as your leader stood. Fixing her skirt, she offered you a sweet smile that made your stomach roll. "We'll see you after school."
They left you in that spot for a long time, staring at your hands.  It wasn’t until you felt a tap on your shoulder that you finally looked up.  And there above you was Arisu.  She grinned and offered you the note.  “Look!  Look what Souta wrote me!  He invited me to his party this weekend.”
You stared at the paper, then back up at her.  You tried to smile - though it didn’t look like she noticed.  “This proves he’s been thinking about me!”
She...seemed happy.  And you knew in this school that happiness was hard to come by.  Especially with people like Nori’s.  You opened your mouth, before closing it again.  You stared at that letter, at the handwriting that perfectly matched the papers left on the table.  You could tell her, warn her it was a prank.  Just...break her heart and tell her Souta wanted nothing to do with her.
“...color me stoked!”  You grinned.
You were happy when she left.  With a heavy sigh, you buried your face in your hands and ignored the bell above your head.  You listened to the shuffling of your peers as they made their way towards the doors.
What the hell were you doing?  What the fuck did you just do?  Arisu had always been a good friend to you and you threw her under the bus?  For what?  Popularity?  Safety?  
“You shouldn’t have bowed down to those dogs.  They’ll eat that girl alive.”
You had grown used to most voices, labeling them by people who was more likely to hit you or simply ignore your presence entirely.  
But his voice? You had never heard that voice before.  It was pleasant in it’s own way - low, guttural, and deceptively indifferent to the advice he was giving you.  You sat up, turning to look over your shoulder.  Your eyes trailed up to stark white hair.  Bright blue eyes stared down at you, hands in his pockets.  Your breath caught in your chest and your mind scrambled for a response.  “I’m...I’m sorry, what?”
He watched you for a moment.  Sizing you up.  “Look,” He continued, “You clearly have a soul.  You just need to work a little harder to keep it clean.”  With a final shrug, he turned on his heel and made his way for the door. "We're all marked for evil."
Did...did he just...quote at you?  It took you a moment for your mind to catch up to what he said.  “Okay, don’t just quote Baudelaire at me and walk away.  Excuse me?”
You scrambled to your feet.  He stopped and turned to look at you.  He didn’t move to say anything else however, leaving you in charge of continuing the conversation.  You looked him over, took in his long, lanky form, the mess of white hair, they...very pretty eyes.  You cleared your throat and motioned to him.  “I...uh...I didn’t catch your name.”
He waited a moment before shrugging.  “That’s cause I didn’t throw it.”
You watched him turn back around and make his way towards the door, mouth hanging down to your chest.  It didn’t take long for you to realize how hot your cheeks were burning, how fast your heart was racing. You couldn’t help as your lips broke out into a smile.
You swore he stole another gaze at you him slip out into the hall.
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So yeah.  I’ll edit this later.  Promise.
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Fic: frost on the frozen ground
Relationships: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Lán Huàn | Lán Xīchén/Mèng Yáo | Jīn Guāngyáo
Characters: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji, Lan Huan | Lan Xichen, Lan Yuan | Lan Sizhui, Lan Qiren, Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian, Wen Qing, Fourth Uncle, Jin Zixun
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Modern AU, Corporate Espionage, Bad Uncle Lán Qǐrén, Anxiety, Confrontations, Family, References to Depression, Bunnies, Found Family, Podfic Welcome
Summary: Wei Ying and A-Zhan are still dealing with the fallout weeks after the public arrest of Meng Yao and Jin Guangshan cleared Wei Ying's name, when an uninvited visitor shows up. Second in the moonlight falls corporate spy AU series, inspired by @angstymdzsthoughts.
Notes: See end.
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Wei Ying was exhausted. It wasn’t even a physical sort of exhaustion, but one brought on by the absolute circus the last few weeks had been, following the very public arrest of Lan Xichen’s fiancé for the exact corporate espionage Gusu Lan Tech had accused him of and ruined his life over five years ago. 
Trust Nie Huaisang to somehow convince the FBI to arrest Meng Yao during a major family dinner for the grooms that was well-attended by the media as a sort of social gala, and to also ensure they arrested Jin Guangshan at the same time. He was only the head of Jin Enterprises, so it’s not like it didn’t send that company’s stocks tanking immediately while also humiliating Gusu Lan Tech. 
Nie Huaisang did petty well. 
Wei Ying just wished the aftermath hadn’t meant reporters hounding him and A-Zhan almost constantly, though that wasn’t Huaisang’s fault. At least, that he knew of—his old friend hadn’t reached out, and Wei Ying didn’t know whether to expect him to. 
They’d had to start screening their calls and if they did go out, it was wearing disguises and usually separately. 
It had started when Jin Guangshan’s shitty nephew had attempted to ambush interview them while they were shopping for groceries with A-Yuan. 
Everyone knew he was a hack. Jin Zixun had majored in history at a university his uncle was on the board of (the only reason he was even admitted) and barely got his degree. He’d been resoundingly rejected by every reputable employer despite his uncle’s best efforts, and could only get a job at some hack blog site pretending to be news and to have journalistic integrity. He was largely known for ludicrous conspiracy theories, vehement misogyny, and, weirdly, white nationalist talking points, but his articles and livestreams apparently got enough advertising revenue to merit his continued employment. 
He had the nerve to imply Wei Ying had somehow framed Meng Yao and Jin Guangshan. 
On the bright side, the camera had been livestreaming, and A-Zhan had verbally eviscerated him and implied that he probably had a hand in the corporate espionage, that maybe the investigation should look into him. 
“I recall your name and the insulting things you said and wrote about Wei Ying. You claimed, without evidence, there was a connection with Compu-Jiang, and then they took a financial hit. Trying to take out your uncle’s competition?”
Jin Zixun’s face had turned interesting colors and he cut the camera, but the damage was done. They learned the next day he was canned from the pseudo-journalist farce and the FBI had declared him a “person of interest” and seized his electronics. 
The interest in that led to more media coverage looking at the Weis, rekindling interest in the false accusation and Wei Ying’s blacklisting from the industry. Uncle Four had banned reporters from the premises, and since he owned the building that meant they at least weren’t buzzing the apartment from the lobby or, worse, somehow getting in and knocking on their door, for the most part at least. Now they were simply waiting across the street and accosting them if they spotted them, something that most often happened if they were together, and less if they were separate. 
Wei Ying didn’t want to revisit the year or so following the blacklisting. Even with A-Zhan beside him, it had been like a montage of humiliation and pain. He hated that these reporters wanted to put all that on display again.
The Wens had been amazing, often bringing them groceries and cooked meals, but they couldn’t stay cooped up—they had a son, and he was fond of parks and libraries. Sometimes his aunts or uncles or Granny would take him out for them if there was a congregation of reporters, and that had at least ensured the parasites hadn’t caught on to A-Yuan’s existence connected to them yet. 
As a bright spot, A-Li had contacted him. With her father-in-law in prison for the corporate espionage Wei Ying had been framed for, her husband had consented to let him meet his nephew. She was excited to meet A-Yuan. They were just waiting for some of the furor to die down. 
Even though it was Saturday, Wei Ying was finishing a coding project while A-Zhan was taking A-Yuan to the library and then a different park than usual. He wished he could go with them, but it was better not to tempt fate. 
He was nearly finished sorting out a coding error when the bell for the apartment building buzzer rang. Sighing in irritation, he stalked to the door and pressed the button to respond, careful not to press the one that unlocked the door.
“No comment. Please leave the premises.”
“I am not the press,” a gravelly male voice responded.
Wei Ying blinked. He knew that voice, but he couldn’t place it.
“Name?”
“You know perfectly well who I am.”
It was the haughtiness of the tone that pinged his memory. How could he forget, being lectured by Lan Qiren on his ungrateful nature and ruining of his nephew when he was being fired?
Just the memory made him nauseous. As far as he knew, Lan Qiren hadn’t reached out to A-Zhan, though Lan Xichen had, apologizing that they would be dragged into this again.
Quickly, he pulled his phone from his pocket and fired a text message off to A-Zhan. 
Your uncle is here
“You’ll need to make an appointment,” he said blithely. “Have Lan Xichen set it up with A-Zhan. He has his number.”
His phone dinged as the uninvited visitor made outraged sounds that he very carefully refused to allow to register as words. Then the buzzer started up again, and he ignored it.
Not invited. Do not let him in.
In spite of the seriousness of the situation, Wei Ying had to smile over his husband’s use of proper punctuation and capitalization, ever proper even via text.
on it, he replied. will let you know when clear
The noise from the intercom/buzzer ceased, thankfully, and Wei Ying moved back toward the office, stepping over the barrier that kept Turmeric from getting to all the cords. As he did, he texted Wen Qing to let her know what had happened.
a-zhans uncle buzzed from lobby
told him to make appt
idk what he wants
He sat down with a sigh and stretched before trying to immerse himself back in the code. He’d just found his line of coding error when a knock on the door reverberated through the apartment. Before he could even contemplate getting up, his phone chimed, a text from Wen Qing.
Auntie 6 came to me
He followed her in
Uncle 4 and I are on it
Which meant, of course, that Lan Qiren had breached the building, likely not even registering that he was trespassing, or so privileged that he felt trespassing laws didn’t apply to him.
Fuck.
He could feel his anxiety rising, something he didn’t need. Now was not the time for a Xanax, no matter how much his heart was fluttering at the idea of having to deal with A-Zhan’s uncle.
lmk when i can escape, he sent back.
Then he texted A-Zhan.
breached perimeter
qing-jie & unc 4 to rescue
will come to u
where r u?
Wei Ying crept to the living room, trying to stay quiet as the intruder knocked again, more forcefully. He debated for a moment, fiddling with his phone nervously before slipping it in his pocket, then grabbed Turmeric’s carrier, leash, and harness. The bunny needed some outdoors time, and Wei Ying would probably be able to meet A-Zhan and A-Yuan at the park.
The knocking continued, and he was certain before long Lan Qiren would lose all sense of decorum and start yelling through the door. 
plz hurry, he texted Wen Qing.
He donned a hat A-Yuan had gifted him for Father’s Day, an adorable white bucket hat with bunnies and carrots on it, and a pair of big sunglasses. He was wearing torn jeans and a black t-shirt with a binary code motif Wen Ning had given him for Christmas—it read “fuck off,” but wasn’t too inappropriate given that only coders could read it. He was as decent as he was going to get.
Wei Ying opened Turmeric’s hutch and scooped him gently into the carrier, hushing him even though he was completely quiet and cooperative. He felt like an intruder in his own home, and it left a sour taste in his mouth.
Finally, he could hear voices outside the door—Uncle Four’s boisterous voice asking what he could do for “the gentleman,” Wen Qing mentioning trespassing, Lan Qiren’s haughtiness slowly sputtering out, growing distant as they led him away.
His phone dinged twice, A-Zhan texting the location of the park, and Wen Qing giving the all-clear. Wei Ying grabbed his shoes, keys, and wallet, Turmeric’s crate and his sundries, and slipped out of the apartment in socked feet, easing the door shut and locking it as quietly as he could.
He practically tiptoed down the side staircase, the one that didn’t lead to the lobby but straight outside, and slipped his shoes on in the vestibule before slipping outside into the sunshine, making sure the door shut behind him without anyone getting in.
The park, thankfully, was not too far away, and he didn’t see any reporters on this side of the building. Likely they had seen Lan Qiren enter and were all crowded on the side near the lobby hoping to see something good.
Fat chance.
Wei Ying booked it the first few blocks before he felt like he’d escaped and started to calm, but he didn’t really relax until he could see A-Zhan in the distance, looking in his direction, A-Yuan beside him sipping on a boxed apple juice. His husband folded him into a hug, and he could feel the tension ease from his body with a soft sigh.
“I brought Turmeric. He could use some outside time.”
The tiny smile he got from A-Zhan finished the job of easing the worst of his anxiety, and they sat with A-Yuan on the grass to bring Turmeric out of the carrier and belt him into his little harness.
His fingers fumbled on the buckles and he sighed in frustration. 
“Sit, A-Ying,” A-Zhan said. “Relax.”
There was a bit of worry in his eyes, and that told Wei Ying he must look frazzled. A-Zhan knew his anxieties, knew what Lan Qiren had said to him, something he’d opened up about long ago, when they’d learned to communicate and work as a team, and when Wei Ying was learning not to push him away. 
And so Wei Ying settled back and let him finish with Turmeric, focused on the sunshine and the breeze and the soft grass beneath him. His fingers itched to pull out his phone, though he’d received no notifications, and he resisted it, instead rubbing his hand along the surface of the grass, letting the individual strands tickle his palms.
Before long, their absolutely adorable second son was contentedly exploring the grass, and curious children were starting to gather. A-Zhan explained bunnies didn’t like loud noises and sudden movements, and told them if they had permission from their parents, they could approach one at a time to pet him. 
A-Yuan tumbled into Wei Ying’s lap, content to watch Turmeric from there, and he had no doubt his son had picked up on his anxiety. He was a bright boy. 
Eventually, the children wandered away, a calm bunny only so interesting, and A-Yuan was half-asleep on his lap. A-Zhan’s phone dinged, and he handed the leash to Wei Ying before fishing it out. A bit of texting and a few alerts later, his mouth was downturned. 
“A-Zhan?” he asked.
“I sent Xichen to retrieve Qiren, but he insists he must speak to me.”
Wei Ying fantasized briefly about Lan Qiren being led from the premises in handcuffs, yelling, but he knew that wouldn’t solve anything. It could well make things worse, so he wasn’t even able to enjoy the fantasy. 
“The board voted to remove xiongzhang,” he added. “Likely he wishes to insist I take over the company.”
He felt his chest clench at that. Pity toward Xichen, who had done what he could to keep Wei Ying out of prison even if only for A-Zhan’s sake, and the grief he was facing as his life fell apart around him. But more, there was fear that A-Zhan would take it, would leave him behind—not a rational fear given everything they had weathered together, but anxiety was cruel. 
“You can take it if you want it, A-Zhan,” he said after a minute. 
A-Zhan made a noncommittal noise. 
“I am texting Wen Qing to prepare a conference room so we need not open our home to him,” he replied after a moment. “I should hear him out.”
Wei Ying looked away, swallowing hard at the taste of bile. His vision was blurred, but he kept a handle on it, refused to cry again over this.
“I… I’ll stay with A-Yuan while you meet him.”
He startled when A-Zhan knelt in front of him and took his hands.
“We are together in this and all things. Granny will meet us and watch A-Yuan during the meeting. I need you there, A-Ying. I will say no.”
Wei Ying glanced up at him.
“He will hound us until I meet with him, but I will not go back to Gusu Lan Tech,” A-Zhan said, his voice insistent, worried. “My place is with you, at Dafan.”
“You’re sure you don’t want it?” he couldn’t help asking.
This was, after all, a chance for A-Zhan to reconcile with his family and further his career. But his husband’s expression turned stormy at the question.
“They will never admit to having wronged you, A-Ying. I cannot abide that.”
Wei Ying manages a weak smile. 
“They’ll never admit they wronged you, either.”
A-Zhan nodded, the corners of his lips taut with stress. 
“Wen Qing will sit in with us since this is now a Dafan Applications matter. Uncle Four, too.”
Wei Ying blinked at him blankly for a moment before he understood. Technically Gusu Lan Tech was trying to poach A-Zhan from Dafan Applications, which made it company business. Lan Qiren was trespassing on Uncle Four’s property, which made it his business. And it meant they’d have witnesses. His husband was clever, and so was Wen Qing. 
“A-Die, baba, okay?”
A-Yuan looked up at them solemnly. The poor child had been with them at the grocery store when Jin Zixun had ambushed them, had seen so much these past weeks that he didn’t understand. He deserved some explanation. 
“We are, baobei,” Wei Ying said firmly. “Bad things happened a few years ago. Someone made it look like a-die did something bad, and they just got caught.”
He could see the moment their son understood. 
“That’s why the mean man said it was your fault?”
Wei Ying nodded, and A-Yuan squirmed out of his lap to give him a giant hug. 
“Thank you. Now baba’s uncle wants to talk to us, so we need to go home. You’ll visit with popo while we find out what he wants, okay?”
A-Yuan bit his lip, looking more anxious than a child his age should.
“Baba’s uncle won’t be mean to you, will he?”
His heart broke at his son’s concern. It was clear he’d picked up on undertones they thought they’d kept away. A-Zhan wrapped A-Yuan in a hug. 
“Baba won’t let shufu be mean to a-die,” A-Zhan said seriously.
“And your gugu will be with us, so she won’t let him be mean to either of us,” Wei Ying added. 
A-Yuan brightened—Wen Qing had a reputation, one even her five-year-old nephew was aware of. He trusted her to protect his dads. 
“Okay,” A-Yuan said. “If you bring Turmeric with you, he’ll comfort you if he’s mean!”
Wei Ying smiled at that.
“That’s why we’re leaving Turmeric with you, so he can comfort you. I know you’re worried, but baba and I will be okay. We’ll come right home when we’re done and snuggle with you and Turmeric.”
Their son seemed to accept that, and A-Zhan deftly removed Turmeric’s harness and placed him in the carrier. He pulled their disguises from a bag. Wei Ying was delighted when A-Yuan put on his brown bunny bucket hat, and he reached out to arrange the ears once the boy had it on. A-Zhan was wearing his own bucket hat, green with frog eyes, also a Father’s Day gift from A-Yuan. 
Honesty, he hadn’t expected that fatherhood would make A-Zhan even sexier, but he wasn’t complaining. 
The walk home was quiet. Wei Ying dreaded reaching home and hated that he felt that way. The home he had made with A-Zhan and A-Yuan was precious to him, and it felt like a sacred space had been violated. 
As they drew nearer, they planned to separate, A-Zhan taking A-Yuan to one side staircase, and Wei Ying taking Turmeric to the other, the plan to meet at the apartment. 
Wei Ying was actually surprised when it went off without a hitch, and he opened the stairwell door to see A-Zhan unlocking the door, Granny already hugging A-Yuan. Just a few years ago she’d have picked him up, but he was a bit big for that now. 
She smiled at his approach, reaching up to pat him on the cheek. 
“Aiya, you look so stressed. Popo will make dinner,” she said. “Auntie Three is making baozi for the building, too.”
Several of the aunties loved cooking different things in excess, so every few weeks they would make a huge batch of something delicious for the whole building, since everyone in the building was family. Auntie Three’s baozi were a favorite of his; she remembered his love for spicy food and always accommodated that in his. 
“Extra spicy for A-Ying,” he chirped, though popo clucked softly in a way that let him know she saw through his attempt at cheer. 
She headed straight for the kitchen, where she would likely catalogue the fridge to decide what to cook. Whatever she made, it would be delicious; his mouth was almost watering just thinking about it. 
He focused on getting Turmeric settled in his hutch, and A-Zhan got A-Yuan situated with a coloring book and crayons. 
“I should change,” Wei Ying said, remembering his torn jeans and the shirt Lan Qiren might be able to decode. 
He’d probably think Wei Ying wore the shirt on purpose to send a message. Frankly, Wei Ying wouldn’t mind that interpretation, but he didn’t want to antagonize. 
“What you are wearing is fine,” A-Zhan said, catching his wrist. “He interrupted our day, and he can get us as we are.”
A-Zhan was still wearing the frog bucket hat, with apparently no intent on removing it. His light blue shirt, Wei Ying noticed for the first time, was the one with a print of a rabbit wearing glasses and a bow tie, with ‘daddy’ in script underneath. Wei Ying snagged his hat with the bunnies and carrots motif from where he’d placed it atop the bunny hutch and put it back on. They’d match, to a certain extent, present a united front. 
“Be good for popo,” A-Zhan directed A-Yuan, as though their son would ever be anything but good. 
The boy simply nodded and discarded his crayon to run over and hug them both. 
The first two floors of the building were Dafan Applications office space. Though the first floor also held a lovely coffee shop and several other stores open to the public, the core of the building was the headquarters. An elevator and staircase serviced the offices, accessible with employee IDs. Each office was accessible only by swiping employee IDs, and record was kept of who entered and when. 
Since the apartments were held entirely by family, it might have seemed paranoid, but Wei Ying was glad for the security the building had—after all, the lack of it at Gusu Lan Tech had led to him being framed for corporate espionage. Poorly, but it ultimately hadn’t mattered. 
He hadn’t understood why he’d been framed, only that he’d had to correct Su She’s subpar coding many times when he’d worked there, so it wasn’t very surprising that he’d fuck up installing the code to the point where it would be caught before it could do damage. Since he’d never been anything but pleasant to Su She, that he’d been targeted had surprised him. 
When he had mentioned his confusion to A-Zhan, about a week after the news broke, he learned that Su She had tried to tell A-Zhan that Wei Ying was a poor choice as a romantic partner, implying he would be better. 
“I told him he was not qualified to speak with me,” A-Zhan had recollected. 
It made a sick sort of sense—if Wei Ying was out of the way, fired or imprisoned, Su She might think he had a shot. And given that Lan Qiren had hated him even before he and A-Zhan started dating, the frame up job was sufficient.
A-Zhan took his hand and led him into the elevator, and he realized he must have blanked out because he hadn’t even heard it arrive. His husband was watching him in concern, and he hated how much this invasion by Lan Qiren was messing with him, but he absolutely wasn’t going to abandon A-Zhan to face him alone. 
“I’m okay,” Wei Ying said. “I just want to get it over with.”
Uncle Four was waiting for them by the elevators. He offered a smile.
“I’ll bring by a few bottles of my newest brew later,” he said in greeting.
“That bad, huh?” Wei Ying asked ruefully. 
“I don’t wish to speak ill of A-Zhan’s family,” Uncle Four said deferentially. 
‘But that man…’ was heavily implied. 
A-Zhan inclined his head. 
“He decided Wei Ying’s guilt on flimsy evidence,” his husband said, his tone dismissive. 
Wei Ying squeezed his hand—it was as close to disparaging as A-Zhan had ever come toward his uncle. More often, they simply pretended he didn’t exist, which prior to this had been fairly easy. When they had spoken of it, when he had finally told A-Zhan in one of his darker moments what Lan Qiren had said to him when running him out of Gusu Lan Tech with security, his husband had simply folded him in his arms and told him he was wrong, over and over again, and reiterated that he had chosen Wei Ying. 
A-Zhan was angry, he realized. Perhaps over Lan Qiren returning to their life with all of his customary arrogance, or perhaps in defense of his brother, who was being excised from the company. He remembered, early in their relationship, learning that both brothers had been told what to major in, prepped for what Lan Qiren thought their careers should look like at Gusu Lan, which was why A-Zhan hadn’t been able to pursue music as he had wished. It was why he had expected him to break up with him, as ordered. 
He wondered what Lan Xichen had given up, what dreams he had let go to serve his family. 
“Tomorrow,” he told Uncle Four. “I think we’ll need tonight for us.”
The older man offered a sympathetic smile and escorted them to the conference room. 
It was the ostentatious one they used for particularly obnoxious or status-obsessed clients, with handsomely-carved panels with the Dafan Applications logo and an imposing table that looked expensive but were actually the work of a family member with a woodworking hobby. It had two doors, one on either side of the long table, which was ideal—they wouldn’t have to walk past Lan Qiren to get in or out. 
When they entered, Wei Ying’s gaze was drawn to Lan Xichen first, seated at the side of the table. He looked… defeated was the first word to come to mind. He glanced at his husband, could see he too was looking at his brother, concerned lines at the corners of his eyes betraying his emotions. 
“Finally,” Lan Qiren commented, drawing their attention. “I don’t have all day.”
His gaze was, as usual, disapproving, and he completely disregarded the fact that he had been the one to crash their day, not the other way around.
“My husband told you to schedule an appointment,” A-Zhan said in lieu of greeting.
He tugged Wei Ying to the head of the table, where someone had thoughtfully placed two chairs. Qing-jie was his guess, letting them present as the team they were. She was on one side of the table beside the seats, and Uncle Four sat on the other, probably as owner of the building. Wen Ning was too faint-hearted to handle this, he knew, even though he was technically the head of Dafan Applications.
“An appointment, to see my own nephew?” Lan Qiren grated, glaring at Wei Ying like it was his fault.
“You told me five years ago that I was no nephew of yours,” A-Zhan said, his voice dispassionate.
Wei Ying knew how much that had hurt A-Zhan. Part of him wanted to tell Lan Qiren that, rail at him over every emotional scar he had inflicted on the both of them, but he also knew there was no point in it—he wouldn’t listen, and he knew well enough that it wouldn’t be cathartic. It was better to let A-Zhan get this over with and be here to support him.
“You were making a mistake!”
His continued glaring at Wei Ying made it obvious what “mistake” he was referring to, and he barely managed not to flinch. It was clear this conversation was not going to be pleasant. A-Zhan took his hand, lacing their fingers together and squeezing gently. 
“As I recall, the evidence that he was not making a mistake has been all over the news,” Wen Qing drawled.
“What business is it of yours?” Lan Qiren demanded. “Why are you here?”
“As witnesses,” she replied. “And A-Zhan and A-Ying are family. We’re here for them.”
Warmth spread through Wei Ying’s chest at her pronouncement—he often referred to her as Qing-jie, but hadn’t known the sentiment was returned. 
“And I own the building in which you are currently trespassing,” Uncle Four added.
Where he was normally a jovial and friendly man, his expression was serious and bordering on unwelcoming. Apparently Lan Qiren had made quite the impression on him. 
Lan Qiren sniffed disdainfully, but finally focused on A-Zhan. 
“The board has decided Xichen’s… indiscretions make him unfit to head the company. You have been appointed in his place. You will, of course, be expected to take the Lan name again, as will the child you’ve adopted. I’ve taken the liberty of securing housing for you, and I suppose we can find a place in the company for your husband, on a provisionary basis, of course.”
Dead silence followed his pronouncement, and Wei Ying felt dizzy with the presumption of all of this—A-Zhan was being ordered back to Gusu Lan Tech as though this wasn’t the first they’d seen or heard from Lan Qiren in over five years, clearly expected to obey without question. 
“Provisionary?” A-Zhan murmured, his voice icy with what Wei Ying recognized as fury. 
He squeezed A-Zhan’s hand, silently asking that he not be angry on his behalf. After all, he expected nothing but this treatment from Lan Qiren, so he wasn’t surprised to receive it. 
“He’ll be expected to prove himself, of course.”
“He already has,” Wen Qing cut in. “He’s been an asset to Dafan Applications since the day we hired him, paramount to our success.”
Lan Qiren sniffed dismissively. 
“Yes, well, his previous stint of employment at Gusu Lan Tech left much to be desired.”
A-Zhan’s jaw clenched. Wei Ying’s stomach roiled, remembering the constant criticism he’d faced there, how ultimately he wondered why they’d even agreed to hire him.
“I will not subject my husband to further abuse at the hands of the company that attempted to ruin his career.”
To his surprise, Lan Qiren looked satisfied by that statement. 
“Then we’ll arrange for your move. You’ll be expected to dress more professionally in the future, as the representative of the company.”
He eyed A-Zhan’s hat and clothing with distaste.
Wei Ying stole a glance at Xichen, who looked haggard and drained and was barely listening to the conversation, and felt empathy for his situation. Xichen had always treated him kindly, until he went no-contact after A-Zhan’s resignation, something he was likely ordered to do. Even so, he also sought to warn them of what had happened, and had informed A-Zhan of Lan Qiren’s intentions. And he had stood fast against the board’s desire to have him prosecuted. 
And now the man he had been set to marry is in prison, having brought Nie Innovations to its knees and attempted the same with Gusu Lan Tech, and what happiness he’d been looking forward to was just so much smoke. 
“You misunderstand,” A-Zhan said. “I do not intend to relocate, or take on the Lan name, or chair Gusu Lan Tech. I will continue to work at Dafan and live in my apartment with my husband and our son. I will remain Wei Zhan.”
Lan Qiren looked shocked, almost as though he had been physically slapped, and then the anger returned. 
“You leave me no choice. It will be a simple matter to buy out Dafan,” he said. 
Wen Qing laughed at the threat. 
“Dafan Applications is a worker cooperative. You have no power.”
For the first time he’d known him, Lan Qiren seemed incapable of words. After all, it meant that he and A-Zhan were part owners of Dafan, as all employees were, something he would never offer at Gusu Lan. Wei Ying privately hoped he was having an internal fit over the socialism of worker cooperatives. 
A-Zhan, however, had plenty to say. 
“You disrupted our Saturday after five years of silence to demand I change my life to suit your whims,” A-Zhan said coldly. “You didn’t even have the grace to apologize to Wei Ying, whose life and career you tried to destroy.”
Lan Qiren’s expression turned stormy. 
“You chose this ill-bred miscreant over your family, and you expect me to apologize to him?”
“No,” A-Zhan said. “I chose the truth. I chose love. A-Ying is my family.”
“You,” Lan Qiren snarled, turning his attention to Wei Ying. “This rebellion is all your influence! A-Zhan was filial until you came along!”
Wei Ying stayed silent. His anxiety spiked but was soothed by A-Zhan’s hand in his, in the feeling of his fingers entwined. Lan Qiren could do nothing to them—he’d already tried, and they’d ultimately come out stronger. They’d built a life and found new family. 
There was so much he could say, but he knew better than to think Lan Qiren would listen; he was a convenient scapegoat, and nothing would convince him otherwise. 
“Have you nothing to say, you ingrate?” Lan Qiren demanded.
A-Zhan tensed, but Wei Ying squeezed his hand.
“I see no point in speaking to you,” he said honestly.
“You dare!”
Lan Qiren stood, quivering with rage.
“You broke our family as completely as you broke the Jiangs, and you have the gall to sit there smirking, enjoying the mess you’ve made!”
Mention of the Jiangs hurt—it had been weeks and only A-Li had reached out, but she had never broken contact to begin with. 
Wen Qing slapped the table and stood, startling them. 
“I’ve heard quite enough. You can’t bully your estranged nephew into uprooting the life he built after you alienated him, so you go after A-Ying again. You act the victim, but you drove A-Zhan away with your unmerited vitriol toward A-Ying.”
Uncle Four stood as well. He was a calm man, but Wei Ying could see him tremble—in anger or nervousness, he didn’t know.
“You are not welcome here, Lan Qiren. Leave or you will be removed.”
“And given that you attempted to poach two of our best employees and threatened our company, you can tell your board that Dafan Applications will never do business with Gusu Lan Tech,” Wen Qing added. 
Wei Ying knew her level of petty and wondered if their new apps would unexpectedly glitch on Gusu Lan products in the future. Probably not, since she was focused on user experience. 
Maybe he was the one feeling petty, but he doubted anyone who mattered would judge him for it. 
“Clearly attempting to reason with any of you is an exercise in futility,” Lan Qiren said.
It took far too much energy to suppress a nearly-hysterical giggle building in Wei Ying’s chest at his complete lack of self awareness. 
“Come, Xichen. We’re done here.”
A-Zhan bristled further, glancing at Wei Ying with a question in his eyes, and he nodded. Xichen deserved to know he still had family. 
“Xiongzhang may stay for dinner, if he wishes,” A-Zhan said. “Our son would love to meet his bobo.”
A tiny smile lit up Xichen’s features, and Wei Ying got the impression it was the first time he’d smiled since his fiancé’s arrest.
“I would be honored to,” he said softly. 
His voice was hoarse, as though he was no longer used to speaking, or was overcome with emotion. It could easily be both. 
“Thank you, didi.”
Lan Qiren scoffed, and Wen Qing pointed at the door, raising an eyebrow. When he stomped out, she and Uncle Four followed him to escort him from the premises, leaving the three of them alone.
“Were you offered another position in the company?” A-Zhan asked after a moment of uncomfortable silence. 
Xichen shook his head, the fleeting smile gone. 
“No. Uncle believes I need time to reflect on my mistakes.”
Wei Ying didn’t hold back a scoff, given that Lan Qiren had referred to him as A-Zhan’s mistake. 
“You didn’t make any mistakes. You had no way of knowing.”
The smile Xichen offers is wrong, bitter. 
“I should have done more. Instead of letting them scapegoat you, I should have insisted on a full investigation. Maybe we would have uncovered the truth and protected you. Maybe we could have prevented the damage to Nie Innovations and Mingjue’s health, too.”
He had forgotten that Xichen and Mingjue were friends somehow. Wei Ying wanted to tell him the guilt he carried was a burden that shouldn’t be his, but he also knew from struggling with his own that it was something Xichen would need to come to terms with himself. 
“You should reach out to him,” A-Zhan said, looking at Wei Ying like he knew what he was thinking. “I doubt he blames you, and perhaps he could use the help.”
Xichen looked torn on the idea. Wei Ying could almost see the thoughts running through his head—that he would be unwelcome, a burden on his friend, but that it was a way to do penance for the sins he believed he’d committed. 
“I’ll think about it,” he finally said.
Wei Ying walked around the table and patted his shoulder, gesturing to the other door, the one that led to the interior of the building. A-Zhan had offered an olive branch with the invitation, and this was his. 
“Come on. Popo is cooking, and Auntie Three made baozi for the whole building. And A-Yuan is waiting.”
The smile returned, a little stronger this time, and Wei Ying smiled back as Xichen levered out of his seat to follow them home. 
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Jin Zixun’s background is maybe based on a very well-known “journalist” who just constantly looks confused and outraged. To narrow it down, John Oliver did a segment on him recently. Uh, and maybe slightly on two other conspiracy theorists who pretend at journalism, one of whom keeps getting sued.
Also, I am old enough to text in full sentences most of the time. I had some friends check over Wei Ying’s panic texts so hopefully they’re believable.
This was difficult to write because of the anxiety Wei Ying was feeling and the uncomfortable conversations.
Also, I forgot the Nie company name and had to check—I couldn’t remember if it was Nie Innovations or Nie Industries. Turns out I accidentally used both in the first fic in the series. Fixed it now.
I maybe spent too much time researching worker cooperatives and employee-owned companies. It’s not a major part of this fic, but I thought it was a cool detail to bring in.
The title is, again, from the Li Bai poem.
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Breathe Me - Chapter 1 [nct vamp au]
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Description: After dropping out of college and coming home for the first time in two years, 22-year-old Ava Lee gets caught up in a mystery surrounding the people she thought she knew for so long. Between friendship, affairs and true love the young women finds herself being pulled into a  nightmare she would never wake up from.
Pairing: Oc x Taeyong , Oc x Johnny [several side-pairing involving Mark, Ten, Lucas and Jaehyun.]
Included Members: Taeyong, Johnny, Mark, Lucas, Ten, Jaehyun, Doyoung, Haechan (maybe more)
Genre: Drama, Romance, Angst, Action, Fantasy
Warnings: none (this chapter)
suggestive content, strong language, violence, blood, death. probably more, not sure yet (later chapters)
a/n: Here it comes! After years of procrestination I finally managed to write the very first (very boring) chapter of my vampire au with nct! Anyway, the main drama will start in the next chapter so stay patient and bear this one with me. It took me long enough, haha. All the warnings will be for later chapters so don't start reading if u dont feel like reading stuff like that qq If someone wants to get tagged please send me a message, ask, comment or whatever qq
I really hope you guys enjoy it, it was a very heavy birth. ♥
ch.2 || ch. 3
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The girl sighed deeply and took a look outside the small airplane window. She saw how the plane slowly drove into the prepared parking lot and felt how her level of anxiety rose with each second. Even though the flight was 18 hours long and her legs started to hurt she didn't want to stand up. Standing up meant for her to actually leave the plane, get her luggage and meet her family which would sooner or later lead to them asking all these questions. It wasn't like she didn't miss them.
She missed them very dearly. She missed the Sunday morning brunches with her neighbours, the movie nights where her dad would always pick out a movie because he'd pout if not, she even missed  her little brother Mark bursting into her room without knocking and asking her some totally stupid questions. She missed catching up with her best friend. She missed all these sleepovers when all they had to worry about was who the cutest boy at school was and what they'll do together once they were adults. She craved for all these past memories. The last time she set foot onto this ground was two years ago at her very first spring break after leaving home, moving to a town thousand of miles away, not knowing anyone.
She heard a beeping noise which indicated that the passengers could stand up and get out but she waited. All of them seemed in such a hurry to leave the plane, grabbing their belongings, everyone trying to get out first which ended in a crowded queue inside of the plane. She stretched her legs as much as possible, not making the slightest move to stand up.
Her eyes wandered back to the window, allowing her to take a glance at the sky, she wished to be into again. It was still quite bright outside, even though it was nearly evening, the sun nearly blinding her when she looked up, leading her to cover her eyes with her hand. The sunsets were so different in the States than here, in South Korea. Her eyes tried to focus on the slowly fading sun, leaving the sky in beautiful pinks and oranges with just a hint of soft white clouds.
Her mind started to spin, thinking about all the things she had to explain to her family sooner or later. But for now she needed to stay positive and hide the fact that she – the oh-so-perfect – student managed to drop out of a university, her parents nearly went insolvent to pay for to allow their daughter to get the best medical education they could think of. At the beginning the girl actually thought that it was her biggest dream to become a famous surgeon but after a short while she had to face the ugly truth that the job she so desperately wanted to do as long as she could remember just wasn't her thing.
She tried so badly to keep on and thought that it's just a phase every young adult went through when they started university but every time she talked to her friends at university she saw that that wasn't exactly the case. Everyone was so focused and motivated to become a successful doctor or surgeon they underwent the torture of endless sleepless nights, insane pressure and the feeling of not being able to even cut an onion correctly, which the professor didn't even care to make better. Every day she got told that she would never be able to work in the medical field and could try herself with some more basic and easy studies. It didn't matter how hard she tried to remember all the lectures and do her assignments – she failed miserably at everything.
Of course, her family didn't know. She was way too afraid to burst the bubble her parents created around her, leaving her in that perfect, white spotlight, portraying her like some sort of angel on a pedestal for everyone to see. They loved to talk about her in front of everyone, telling them that she'd be a successful surgeon, working hard and publishing groundbreaking articles, making herself a name in the medical community. Maybe even getting some famous award. Everyone in that small town knew about the smart daughter who got into one of the best medical universities in the United States, who worked so hard she was barely home.
She couldn't bear to see the disappointment on their faces once they see what she really was – a failure. She managed to hide her dropping out of university so well, she created her web of lies carefully over the last year, she sometimes even believed what she was saying. But as soon as her alarm clock went off, remembering her to go to work at a small corner café to pay her rent and even save some money in case her parents might throw her out, she had to face real life again. The life in which she dropped out only one year after starting, loosing hundreds of thousands of dollars and leaving the incident in her resume forever.
She was glad she got a job in the café as it belonged to the parents of one friend she met at college, who managed to get in because of a scholarship. They allowed her to work as much as she could to save money and even helped her sometimes.
“Excuse me, Miss?”, a soft and gentle voice made the girl leave her deep thoughts and look up. A beautiful, young flight attendant smiled down at her. “You need to leave the plane, please.”, she said in sweet yet demanding voice  and got her luggage out of the cabinet above for her. The girl didn't realise that the plane was already as good as empty. She thanked the attendant, grabbed her bag and went out of the plane into the airport, feeling her legs shaking more with each step she took.
She pulled out her smartphone, turning off flight mode only to get bombarded with dozens of messages, mostly from her mom asking if she already landed and that they waited for her at the gate. After that she only texted emojis. Hearts, heart-eyes and some other stuff which made her feel even more anxious. How could she disappoint a mother as proud as her? No, she needed to keep her secret for a bit longer. Maybe until her brother messed up. But what could he possibly mess up which would overshadow her dropping out of college? Maybe if he committed a crime.
Mark was different from her, She didn't know how but he actually managed to tell their parents that he doesn't want to become a doctor or lawyer, and instead insisted of becoming an author or journalist. To say her parents were unhappy would be an understatement. They were more than angry and told him to pay the tuition himself. They believed it was just a small teenage dream he had but when he finished High School and started working at the local bookstore to save some money to actually study creative writing they realized that he was serious. That small incident happened just 14 months ago, yet he continued to work there and save up. He even managed to visit her every couple of months, as she didn't want to come.
When she arrived at the luggage claim the suitcases were already out on the baggage belt and she waited as long as she could, watching her lonely suitcase making its turns on the device, purposely ignoring it until it was the only one left and she had to grab it. Her phone vibrated in her pocket again.
Mark [06.07pm]: Where r u?
She rolled her eyes and just put it back in the pocket of her jeans as she headed towards the exit. The girl took a deep breath, putting on the brightest smile she could manage and stepped out of the doors. Her family wasn't hard to notice. Her parents held a way too big and bright  banner in their hands
WELCOME HOME AVA
Ava tried to keep her smile up and waved at them. “Oh, honey welcome home!”, her mother shouted as she lowered the banner to hug her daughter tightly. “I'm so happy you're finally home again, our doctor!.”, she said and patted her back softly. She felt her dad joining the hug and giving her a warm smile as well, joining her mother in telling her how happy he was to have her back home. Ava clenched her jaw, trying to smile as honest as possible.
“You're really squishing me to death guys.”, Ava chuckled and was glad when her parents finally let go of her. She looked up and saw her brother Mark smiling at her.
“Come on, give your favourite sister a hug.”, the girl laughed, making her brother chuckle before embracing her in a loving hug as well. The last time she saw him he visited the campus a few months ago. Of course he didn't know she dropped out then and nearly choked on his water when she told him. She knew he wouldn't tell their parents but he thought it would be better if she told their parents as soon as possible, which she didn't of course.
“Happy to have you back.”, Mark said and squeezed his sister one more time before he let her go and took her suitcase.
Ava stretched her body slowly before getting into their car, really not wanting to sit down for another hour but apparently she had to. As soon as she sat down and put on her seat belt her mother turned around to look at her and smiled.
“Tell us, honey, how is Stanford? Is it going well, yes?”, she asked and Ava felt like she needed to throw up.
“Yeah, everything is fine. I handed in all assignments last week and I have a good feeling.”, she chuckled and felt guilt crawling all over her body. She smiled slightly and turned her eyes away to avoid her mother proud gaze, yet she could feel Mark eyeing her.
“Ah, that's so great, honey. Your father and I just talked to the Lee's from across the street and they told us their son wants to apply to Stanford, too. We told them you could talk to him and give some advice.”
“Sure.”, she just sighed and pulled out her phone again, hoping her mother would understand her silent plead to leave her be. Her mother smiled again and turned back to talk to her father about what she'd make for dinner on this special occasion.
Ava checked the other texts she got, scrolling through them. She smiled when she saw a text from her best friend, sending her a picture from her in her nurse uniform. She looked so cute, proudly standing in front of the mirror in the dressing room, posing with a finger heart.
[Ava 06.54pm] Cute! Just landed, on my way home. Wanna hang out later?
[Yunmi 06.57pm] Can't. Night shift today but pick me up tomorrow morning and get breakfast? The café next to the bookstore finally opened!
[Ava 07.00pm] absolutely! Can't wait. Miss you so much ♥
She scrolled through the remaining texts just to feel a little disappointment in her body after not seeing what she so desperately wanted to see. But then again, she didn't expect to see a text from him after he ignored each and everyone of hers the last two years. He didn't even care enough to wish her a happy birthday in November so he probably couldn't care less texting her when she came home.
She sighed lightly and looked outside the car window, seeing how the landscape came and go in front of her eyes and how the sky got all these beautiful colours in it, she could even see the moon already. A wave of tiredness crashed over her exhausted body as she decided to close her eyes for just  a moment.
The girl felt someone poking her arm multiple times, calling her name.
“Wake up, we're home.”, she heard Mark say and groaned, before rubbing her eyes.
“Yes, I'm awake, you can stop poking me.”, she said when her brother continued to poke her arm with a grin on his face.
“Don't make me hit you.”, she warned and slapped his hand away.
“Pff, please.” he answered mockingly and jumped out of the car before her fist could reached his body.
Ava chuckled , getting out of the car stretching her stiff body slowly, hearing all her joints crack at once.
“How old are you? 80?” Mark said teasingly, getting out her suitcase from the trunk.
“Trust me, I feel like it.”, she yawned loudly and slowly got up the stairs to their house.
She inhaled the sweet and calming scent of her mothers vanilla candles as soon as she set foot into the house, taking of her shoes before she walked further inside. It hasn't changed a bit. The beige coloured walls still had pictures of the family on them. Ava smiled and looked at the picture of her and her family from her Highschool graduation three years ago. She smiled when she saw the exact picture her parents had chosen. Mark and her making some weird pose while her parents rolled their eyes.
“Honey, dinner will be ready in half-an-hour, okay?” she didn't realize that her mother was standing right next to her and flinched a bit.
“Yeah, sure, thank you, mom. I'll start to unpack then. Love you.”, Ava said, kissing her mothers cheek softly before going up the stairs into her old room where Mark already put her suitcase and bag.
Her room hasn't changed either. Of course, it looked a bit colder as she took all her personal stuff with her to the US when she moved out, but it still felt comfy with it's cozy beige sofa and her queen sized bed, which her mother already prepared for her. She closed the door behind her and looked outside the big windows, which connected to a small balcony, which was only hers. She remembered how mad Mark was when she got the room with the balcony and not him and grinned. She stepped outside for a moment to breathe in the still warm air, listening to the rustling sound of the trees as a mild breeze blew through them.
The small wooden bench she made herself with her dad back when she was younger still stood in the very same corner and even had pillows on it and a blanket, indicating that someone still used it even while she was gone. Probably her mother when she wanted to have some time and space for herself, she thought and smiled before going back into her room.
She stretched her stiff body once again before squatting down and opening her black suitcase to unpack her things. Ava only brought some clothes and other necessities with her as she didn't believe of staying home for a longer period of time. She rented her tiny apartment, or as she preferred to call it, her shoebox to a friend from university who looked for her own place as long as she stayed with her parents so she didn't need to worry about paying rent. So she just packed her essentials and hoped to keep her pretty little lie for some more months to figure out what she actually wanted to do with her situation now. She wasn't even sure if she wanted to stay in Stanford . She just knew, she didn't want to stay here in this tiny town where everyone knows everyone.
She loved the size of New York, she loved the vibes, the people and even the stink it had. It was charming in some kind of way and she enjoyed the anonymity she had. She liked living in the famous city which never sleeps but it didn't feel like a complete home to her yet and maybe never would. Not to mention, that she was just working in a café which was barely enough to live so she needed to get something more permanent very soon. But she had no idea what that could be. Maybe she'd apply to another university, maybe she didn't want to go to college at all. But what were her options anyway?
Ava groaned, throwing a stack of clothes into her closet in frustration, before squatting down again to fold them neatly. She felt her phone vibrating in the pocket of her jeans and sighed when she saw the name of the person who messaged her blinking in front of her. She opened it and thought about her answer for several minutes before she decided to ignore it for the moment and maybe get back to it later, unsure about her wanting to meet the sender or not.
She furrowed her eyes as she looked at the clock hanging at one of her walls, showing that it was way later than she expected and her mother still hadn't called for dinner yet. She put the last of her belongings in the connected bathroom she shared with her brother and checked her phone to make sure she didn't receive a text from him telling her dinner is ready. Ava didn't realize how hungry she was until she thought about the dishes her mother was probably busy making and her mouth started to water. She really missed good Korean food. There were quite some Korean restaurants in New York but of course nothing tasted as good as her mother's home cooked meals.
Just as she wanted to open her door and check downstairs she heard her mother shout from the kitchen that dinner was finally ready. She opened her door and could already smell the kimchi and meat her mother apparently made and couldn't wait to finally taste it.
“Coming! I'm getting Mark”, Ava shouted back and wanted to knock on Marks door, telling him to come down but the boy who opened the door wasn't her brother.
“Oh, hey Ava. Haven't seen you in forever. How are you?”, Johnny asked, seemingly surprised but a small smile appeared on his pretty face.
He hasn't changed a tiny bit. He still looked as gorgeous as three years ago when she left and never heard of him again. His hair was still black but a tad longer than before. It framed the contours of his face just perfectly which made it hard for her to look away and think about how she was mad at him for ignoring her for the past years, even though the last thing she remembered with him was actually something very nice. Or that's at least what she thought it was. Apparently he thought differently and had to treat her like air. Not even daring to step a foot in their house when she came home for spring break once.
“Umm, fine. Are you staying for dinner?”, she asked, trying to sound as calm as possible but she couldn't hide a tint of anger in her voice, yet the anger mixed up with other feelings she was way too bad at hiding.
“Yeah, I invited him. He basically lives here anyway.”, she heard Mark say behind Johnny who didn't seem to sense her displeasure over his invitation. Why do they have to be best friends? She asked herself and secretly hoped for Johnny to disappear or something. But of course that wouldnÄt happen.
“Please, the food gets cold, come down.”, she heard her mother saying from the foot of the stairs with her hands stemmed in her hips, still wearing her red-dotted apron.
“Actually, I'm not hungry.”, Ava said taking a step away from Johnny as his simple presence made her legs feel stupidly weak.
Her statement got quite unbelievable when her stomach started to growl from the heavenly scent of her mother's food.
“Doesn't sound like it.”, Mark said and raised his brow looking at his sister questionably.
“I'm really not hungry and I'm meeting a friend. Can we postpone our family dinner to another time?”, she said while purposely emphasising the term family to show her displeasure about the clearly unwanted guest guest.
Before her mother could answer something Ava ran down the stairs, giving her mother another short kiss before running outside, leaving her house behind.
She took a deep breath before letting out some vulgar curses towards the situation and especially the person causing her to still feel all these things.
Ava pulled out her phone and messaged the only person she could think of, who might get her thoughts somewhere else, even if she might regret it in the morning.
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Chapter 5: The Reveal
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You were great at running. You’d been running from your problems for year, both figuratively and literally. Before however, your problems followed you, now they simply wait on bated breath for your return. What’s the point in running, though, if no one’s chasing you?
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TRIGGER WARNING: (Y/N) IS GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK. IF THAT WILL DISCOMFORT YOU, THEN PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER. I WILL HAVE A SUMMERY OF THE CHAPTER AT THE VERY END, SO SCROLL ALL THE WAY DOWN IF YOU DON’T WISH TO READ ABOUT A PANIC ATTACK.
Bruh, this is one of my longest chapters. I’m very happy about this one. I’d say this is a tipping point in (Y/N) and Tenya’s relationship, so please enjoy. :)
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If that goddamned thing goes off one more time, I’m going to stab myself in the eye. You thought bitterly, kicking your cell phone away.
The offending device had been ringing incessantly for the past four minutes, and kept going off with text alerts every thirty seconds. You were too tired, and your hands too full of needles and yarn to care.
“A little preoccupied at the moment!” You yelled at your phone, as if that would make the calls stop coming in.
You growled, quickly slipping your needles under and over the yarn. This better be important.
Your knitting needles clicked together pleasantly as you quickly finished your row, and set the work aside.
“Now,” you stooped to pick up your phone “what the actual fuck is going on?”
Disregarding the eighteen missed calls for the moment, you winced at the sheer magnitude of text notifications. You had a plethora of messages from your colleagues and the few friends you had outside of work, including Iida and Taiyo. They all said the same sort of things:
Did you see it???
Are u ok?
I’m so sorry
“What the hell happened?” you murmured, navigating to Iida’s text thread. He had sent a link, and a single line: I’m here if you’d like to talk.
Anxiety starting to coil in your stomach, you tapped the link. Your eyes widened as the web page loaded.
It was a news site. The article that Iida had sent was titled CRIMINAL WORKING FOR MUSUTAFU POLICE?
Oh no.
The Musutafu police district has worked with heroes in the past, but now they appear to be branching out to accept the assistance of villains as well. An exclusive interview with as anonymous police investigator reveals that a former inmate of the high-security villain prison Tartarus has been working with the police station for several months now.
The interview revealed the existence of (Y/N) (L/N), a slippery criminal whose name has been kept from the public. In 20XX, (L/N) was arrested for check fraud, but the chase they led from the law was legendary in criminal standards.
At age sixteen, (L/N) ran away from home and began making money by forging and cashing checks. They posed as a pilot for about two years, cashing much larger fake checks in uniform and traveling around the globe.
“(L/N) never actually flew any planes,” our anonymous investigator assured us. “However, pilots can hitch rides on a flight for free, so for years they gave us the slip by escaping to different countries. It was a nightmare.”
The article went on to detail the whole story of your chase and capture, going into your other disguises, and mentioning some of your more risky escapes. Your fingers were numb. You couldn’t feel your feet. You weren’t even sure if your heart was still beating, or if you were breathing. All of the sudden, everything got so much worse when a name caught your eye. It was a name you hadn’t spoken or seen in years, but you remembered it clear as day.
“We actually came very close to catching (L/N) because they fell in love, believe it or not. They tried to settle down with someone, and in that time, they couldn’t change their name.” Our interviewee said “(L/N) had to completely abandon them so we wouldn’t get them. It was actually kind of sad.”
The person in question, who’s asked to be known simply by their surname, Tsuki, has denied us an interview.
No. 
Oh god, no. 
Your phone clattered to the floor, and you stumbled, falling right on your backside. Hyperventilation ripped through your lungs, and you felt tears streaming down your face. You fumbled to hold your phone steady as you haphazardly pressed buttons, hoping muscle memory would guide you. 
“(L/N)? How are you doing?” Iida’s deep calming voice resonated from the device.
“Not good,” you gasped “Iida, I-I’m not ok, I’m-oh god-”
“Ok, ok, (L/N), breathe for me, ok? Please take a deep breath.” IIda pleaded.
You tried to comply, but your hiccups and whimpers kept cutting through.
“I’m scared,” you sobbed quietly.
“I know, just keep breathing. Do you need me to come over? What’s your address?”
You told him, doing you best to steady your breathing.
“I’ll be there shortly. Stay on the line with me.” you heard Iida moving around, and the faint clink of car keys. “Here, breathe with me. In for four, out for five, ready?”
He counted you off as you inhaled, and then exhaled a quivering breath.
“Perfect. You’re doing perfect. Again. In, two, three, four, out, two three, four, five.”
You kept inhaling and exhaling shaky breaths as Iida cooly guided you through.
“You’re doing great, (L/N).” he praised. “I’m right outside your apartment complex. You said 312, right?”
“Yeah, I’ll buzz you up.” you sniffled, slowly rising to your feet.
“Take it easy,” Iida reminded you.
A few long minutes later, you heard a sharp knock. You scrambled to let your friend in. 
You were lucky it was late and he was off work. His hair was ruffled and his shirk was uncharacteristically wrinkled and untucked. He looked as though he had only just ditched his hero uniform.
You collapsed into his arms, still crying quietly. “I’m sorry,” you croaked. 
“Please don’t apologize, this isn’t you fault.” Iida readjusted his grip on you so he had one arm around your shoulder as he led you further into your apartment. “Do you need anything? I can make some tea if you’d like.”
You nodded pathetically, sitting back down on your couch. “Tea bags are int he cupboard top left of the stove.” you called after his retreating back.
“Alright, don’t worry, I’ll take care of it. You just relax.” he turned to you, flashing you a small concerned smile.
A few minutes later, you found yourself with a mug of steaming hibiscus tea as Iida sat down next to you with a mug of his own. “Give it a minute, it may still be too hot.”
You nodded, blowing on your beverage. “Sorry I only have one kind of tea. I live alone, and I don’t ever have friends over.”
“Not to worry.” he reassured you. “Are you feeling any better?”
“Yeah, a little. Thanks for coming over.”
“You’re welcome, but it’s not trouble, really. I got off work a little wile ago, so you caught me at just the right time.”
“Or you caught me.” you muttered, gingerly sipping your tea. “Then again, what with everyone I’ve ever known blowing up my phone, I would’ve figured it out eventually.”
“I ought to tell you it wasn’t just an online article,” Iida hesitated, staring at you in concern. “I actually discovered it from the news on the TV. I just went to the web page to see how far it had spread.”
“This is just getting better and better, huh?” you groaned, resting your head on the back of the couch.
Iida placed a hand on your shoulder, causing you to flinch.
“Oh, I’m sorry,” he retracted his hand, looking abashed. “I should’ve asked.”
A large rough hand gripped your shoulder, harshly pulling you forward.
Your mind was hyper-aware of the handcuffs around your wrists, and every single hand touching, pushing, pulling, and forcing you into the back of the police car.
“It’s fine,” you said quietly, criss-crossing your legs.
“Do you want me to touch you at all?” Iida asked, an anxious expression crossing his face. 
“No, just-uh-give me a minute.”
“Ok, let me know if you change your mind. Is there anything you want to talk about?” he asked soothingly.
“Can you just sit here with me? No talking or anything?”
“Of course.”
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SUMMERY FOR THOSE WHO ARE DISTURBED BY PANIC ATTACKS
(Y/N) was trying to enjoy a quiet evening, but their phone was going off without signs of stopping. When (Y/N) finally checked their phone, they saw a lot of texts saying things like “did you see it?” and “I’m so sorry”. They were incredibly confused, and saw that Iida had sent them a link to a news site. The article had the story of their criminal escapades that they had hoped to not share, including several sensitive pieces of informations, such as the name of a person they had had a relationship with during their life on the run. The article revealing all their secrets, and a past they wished to run from, pushed them into a panic attack. They called Iida, who guided them through a breathing exercise as he drove to their apartment. When he arrived, he made them some tea, and they sat together. Iida touched (Y/N) on the shoulder in an attempt to comfort them, but they flinched away, remembering how they were touched and manhandled during their arrest. Iida gives (Y/N) the space they need to collect their thoughts, but per their request, he stays with them and just keeps them company.
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The full Esquire Spain interview translated from Spanish:  
Eddie Redmayne trial: guilty of being the most talented (and stylish) actor of his generation
The Oscar winner talks about what it means to premiere a film with Aaron Sorkin (The Chicago 7th Trial on Netflix) and filming the new part of the most famous saga of all time under the watchful eye of its author, J.K. Rowling.
By Alba Díaz (text) / JUANKR (photos and video) / Álvaro de Juan (styling) 10/23/2020  
At the Kettle’s Yard Gallery in Cambridge, stands alone and leaning on a piano Prometheus, a marble head made by Constantin Brâncusi, and the only piece of art that Eddie Redmayne (London, 1982) would save from possible massive destruction. He tells me about it as he leaves the filming set of the third installment of Fantastic Beasts in the early days of an autumn that, we suspect, we will never forget. It begins to get dark as the actor nods seriously: "I promise to do my best in this interview."
Eddie Redmayne made himself in the theater despite some voices warning him that he could not survive in it. "Many people were in charge to tell me that it would never work, that only extraordinary cases make it and that I would not be able to live from this professionally." Even his father came home one day with a list of statistics on unemployed young actors. Redmayne, who is extremely modest, polite and funny, adds: “But I enjoyed theater so much that I got to the point of thinking that if I could only do one play a year for the rest of my life… I would do it. And that would fill me completely.
Spoiler: since then until today he has participated in many more. He set his first foot in the industry when he debuted at the Shakespeare’s Globe Theater and won over critics and audiences. He then landed his first major role in My Week with Marilyn opposite Michelle Williams. And then came one of the roles of his life, the character he wanted to become an actor for, Marius. With him he sang, led a revolution and broke Cosette's heart in Les Miserables. “I found out about the Les Misérables auditions when I was shooting a movie in Illinois. Dressed like a cowboy. I picked up the iPhone and videotaped myself singing the Marius song. I always wanted to be him ”.
Now Redmayne is an Oscar winner - thanks to his portrayal of Stephen Hawking in The Theory of Everything - and the protagonist of one of the most important sagas in history, Fantastic Beasts. He plays the magizoologist Newt Scamander in it. When I ask him what it means to him to be the protagonist of a magical world that is so important to millions of people, Eddie sighs and takes a few seconds to answer. “I have always loved the Harry Potter universe. Some people like The Lord of the Rings or Star Wars ... But, for me, the idea that there is a magical world that happens right in front of you, that happens without going any further on the streets of London, that. .. That exploded my imagination in another way.
During the quarantine, J. K. Rowling, who has been in charge of the script of the film, sparked a controversy through a series of tweets about transgender women. Redmayne assures that he does not agree with these statements but that it does not approve of the attacks of some people through social networks. The actor was one of the first to position himself against Rowling alongside Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and other protagonists of her films. "Trans women are women, trans men are men, and non-binary identities are valid."
After having spent a while talking, Redmayne confesses to me that he has never been a big dreamer not to maintain certain aspirations that ended up disappointing him. So he has always kept a handful of dreams to himself. One of them was fulfilled just a few weeks ago with the premiere of The Trial of the Chicago 7, a film written and directed by Aaron Sorkin that can already be seen on Netflix and in some - few - cinemas. “I was on vacation with my wife in Morocco and the script arrived. I think I called my agent before I even read it and said yes, I would. She probably thought the obvious, that I'm stupid. After that, of course I read the script, which is about a specific moment in history that I knew very little about. I found it exciting and a very relevant drama in today's times. "
And it is that having a script by Aaron Sorkin in your hands is no small thing. Eddie Redmayne has been a fan of his work ever since he saw The West Wing of the White House. “His scripts have delicious language and dialogue. As an actor, it's fun to play characters that are much smarter than you are in real life. That virtuosity is hard to come by. I really hope that audiences enjoy this movie and feel that there is always hope. " He remembers that since he released The Theory of Everything he has recorded, to a large extent, English period dramas, “and although the new Aaron Sorkin is not strictly contemporary,” says Redmayne, “to be able to wear jeans and shirts and sweaters instead of so much tweed is great ”.
Besides acting, art was the only thing the actor was interested in, so he ended up studying Art History at Cambridge University. “My parents are quite traditional and when I told them I wanted to act they gave me free rein but on the condition that I study a career. And I'm very grateful for that because ... Look, beyond that, when I play a real character I usually go to the National Portrait Gallery in London quite often. There I lock myself up. Now, for Sorkin's film, I went through a lot of photographs and videotapes. Art helps me to be more creative, to get into paper ”. If he were not an actor, he would be, he says decidedly, a historian or perhaps a curator. "Although I think he would be a very bad art curator."
Against all logic, Eddie Redmayne is color blind. But there is a color that you can distinguish anywhere and on any surface: klein blue. He wrote his thesis on the French artist Yves Klein and the only shade of blue he used in his works. He wrote up to 30,000 words talking about that color with which he became obsessed. “It is surprising that a color can be so emotional. One can only hope to achieve that intensity in acting. "
Like his taste for art, which encompasses the refined and compact, Redmayne seems to be in the same balance when it comes to the roles he chooses. When I ask him what aspects a character he wants to play should have, he takes a few seconds again before answering: “I wish I had a more ingenious answer but I will tell you that I know when my belly hurts. It's that feeling that I trust. In my mind I transport him to imagine myself playing that character. When I read a script I have to really enjoy it. You never fully regret those instincts. It's like when you connect with something emotionally. "
So we come to the conclusion that all his characters have some traits in common. "You know what? I never look back, and this is something personal, but I do believe that there is a parallel between Marius in Les Misérables trying to be a revolutionary, someone who is quite prone to being distracted by love but at the same time is willing to die for his cause, and Tom Hayden from The Chicago Trial of the 7 who was a man who had integrity and was passionate and fought for the things he believed in. So I suppose there may also be similarities between a young Stephen Hawking and Newt Scamander. There are traits in common in all of them that I don't really know where they come from ”.
When we talk about the year we are living in, in which it is increasingly difficult to find hope, we both let out a nervous laugh. "There must be," Redmayne says. “There is something very nice that Tom Hayden, the character I play in Sorkin's film, said to his former wife, actress Jane Fonda, just the day before she passed away. He told her that watching people die for their beliefs changed his life forever. In that sense, I also think about what Kennedy Jr. wrote about how democracy is messy, tough and never easy ... As is believing in something to fight for. I look at history and how they were willing to live their lives with that integrity to change the world and I realize that somehow that spirit still remains with us. " We fell silent thinking about it. "There must be hope."
I tell him about my love for Nick Cave's blog, The Red Hand, and one of the posts that I have liked the most in recent weeks. In it, the singer affirms that his response to a crisis has always been to create, an impulse that has saved him many times. For Redmayne there are two activities that can silence noise: drawing and playing the piano. “When you play the piano your concentration is so consumed by trying to hit that note that you can't think of anything else. Similarly, when you draw something, the focus is between the paper and what you are trying to recreate ... There I try to calm my mind.
Before saying goodbye, I drop a question that I thought I knew the answer to, but failed. What work of art would you save from mass destruction? "How difficult! I could name my favorite artists but still couldn't choose a work. Only one piece? Let me think. I am very obsessed with Yves Klein, but I would stick with a work by Brancusi. There is a sculpture of him, a small head called Prometheus, in Cambridge's Kettle’s Yard, on a dark mahogany piano. The truth is that I find it very ... beautiful ”.
Before leaving, he confesses to me - with a childish and slow voice - that he would like to direct something one day. We said goodbye, saying that we will talk about his next project. Next, the first thing I do is open the Google search engine. "P-r-o-m-e-t-h-e-u-s". Although Eddie Redmayne has trouble distinguishing violet from blue, he doesn't have them when choosing a good piece. He's right, that work deserves to be saved.
* This article appears in the November 2020 issue of Esquire magazine
Source: esquire.com/es/actualidad/cine/a34434114/eddie-redmayne-juicio-7-chicago-netflix-entrevista/
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cabin pressure
pairing: taehyung x y/n
glimpse: pilot!y/n who accidentally became famous bc of a viral post about her, best friend!jimin!, taehyung having a shy lil crush on you aND ot7 being meanies for a tad bit :((
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notes: this is my first bts fic im gonna post and for sentimentality’s sake, im paying homage to the bullet-point format™️ because this is the same thing i use for my reviewers and it’s v effective in making me focus and not lose interest!!! 
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jimin really misses you :((
you’re his longtime friend!! someone who’s stuck with him even before he was famous!!
unlike tHose who suddenly appeared claiming that “aHHHHH jimin from bts aha actually we were friends even tho i have never spoke to him once hE’s actually asking me out and-“
and he loves u to death even the both of you fond each other annoying at times
like that one time he pretended he was sick with a bug just to get u out of your very important meeting just bECAUSE he wanted u to cook up a meal he missed
“hey why are u crying and also can you pls still cook why you’re crying”
“jimin i fucking hate you”
:((
and needless to say he really made up for it because he may have screwed up your job bc he wanted you to drop EVERYTHING to cook cheesy tonkatsu for him
so yes he really went up and above just to get you to forgive him
and u know what
jimin misses his best friend so much that he’s thinking of you in the middle of a meeting
and literally at the mention of bon voyage, the gears in his head start spinning!!!!
basically his thought process was:
bon voyage = abroad = y/n = oH DAMN OH RIGHT Y/N’S A PILOT = airplane whoosh = abroad = BON VOYAGE!!!!
“PD-nim!!!!!!”
“what”
and he’s really gonna make a leap for this because it’s given that him and the boys ride in private jets and first-class and all
literally everyone is looking at him now because his previous outburst of a call was surely attention-grabbing and it makes him shrink a bit because aha :D oops lol okay so what i was saying
“i-i was thinking uhm like since, abroad, right?? my friend y/n y/l/n is a pilot!! and the airline she-...”
“you know y/n y/l/n??” bang si-hyuk literally asks with his eyes wide and everyone could tell that it was the positive type of shock
wait
what
everyone in the room is like divided with some nodding and some clapping excitedly and some just with their mouths agape
and that confuses jimin because
“you know y/n??”
bang si-hyuk, ceo of big hit entertainment, his boss,,,, knows you, his childhood best friend-
and it’s not like jimin is territorial when it comes to his best friends and most esp you!!!! but yeah he realizes that he is now, especially because everyone in the room apparently knows you??? and he’s only ever introduced you to the boys???? briefly?? hope and jin have yet to meet you in person???
“how could we not?” jungkook interjects with a bunny smile on his face and everything is seriously confusing jimin rn because honestly
“do you like live under a rock” yoongi has the most confused face ever to jimin’s cluelessness, the situation being ironic because normally the hyung is slower when it comes to these type of things
“y/n went viral all over the news like last week!! up to now even” it’s no joke that namjoon knows everyone that his members know but for jimin to hear joon speak about you in THIS degree offends him
because wait he’s your closest friend he should know these things
he’d like u to know that he isn’t bitter :)
and his eyes go wide at that because oH GOD WHAT DID YOU DO
everyone agrees to what namjoon said, still a bit dumb-founded as taehyung practically yanks jimin’s chair to sit closer near his and almost shoves his phone to his face
it’s you
in your pilot uniform with your luggage at tow
sunglasses at the top of your head and phone on-hand
your id still worn around your neck and
oh
jimin basically deduced all of these things with a couple swipes:
a) ok you look ethereal in those pics
b) it was supposed to be a stolen picture of this dude but you were in the background and you cOMPLETELY stole the show
c) someone zoomed in on you and edited so now basically your ethereal being got even more magnified
d) someone zoomed in on your id (he got a lil bit mad at that)
e) aha the internet loves you
f) edits and i have thirty minutes i am free this saturday retweets and digging into your images in social media EVERYTHING!!! the whole nine yards!!!!
when you woke up to that frenzy though
you literally couldn’t function for five minutes and then you started catching up and digging in on what was happening
“but i don’t look ethereal!! my skin is dry n oily at the SAME time because of cabin air and my eyes are stinging!!! i look ghastly and only a little bit fresh because of the air u get when you’re 50,000 feet up in the air!! but im-...”
oh that’s it you went viral completely on accident
you were just waiting for the free service back home your airline offers it pilots, because you brought your car to work but you were too tired to drive back home
but now you are viral in the worldwide interwebs with articles and twitter threads about you and multiple multiple DMs that make your phone freeze and
wait did your airline just email you about that :D
oh lol did beyoncé just follow you :D
basically jimin got his brothers giving him a three-minute crash course each about what happened with their managers even stepping in to gush
he basically can’t believe that he didn’t know that!! even if you didn’t mention it to him, he should’ve known because it was practically everywhere!!!!
bang si-hyuk is well-pleased and even got jimin to tell how he knew you and what you were like and he was very much :O when he got into the word that aish!!! his employee has really been living under a rock lmao
by then, the conversation about bon voyage has been slightly derailed to talk about you
who knew that jimin simply mentioning your name (lol he didn’t need to because the conversation about you was nearing anyway) would land the meeting to
“oh! actually! the airline y/n works at reached a couple of weeks ago about a proposal to get bts to star in a commercial for them!!”
and now they’re hyped because yes they endorsed clothes and food and malls and establishments but never did they endorse an AIRLINE!!! a damn airline!!!!
okay so now not only did they tackle that you would pilot for them in bon voyage
“ah! you could like also play games on the way there with y/n!!”
“wHO WILL PILOT THE PLANE THEN??? we’re gonna crash!!!”
“you’re thick, jungkook, and not in the way you think so lmao”
“maybe we could extend their vacation! shoot a skit or two with them being flight attendants for run!! one week for shooting, two weeks for resting!! two birds with one stone, really”
an airline commercial
a couple run bts! episodes
a whole season of bon voyage (with a longer production because they have longer vacation days)
more traction for them
more time than he ever wished for to be with you!! :D
soon enough the meeting is finished and it went so good that the boys were gonna be treated to a beef dinner so
everyone’s scattered and dispersed, some making small talk w him about you that makes him smile
taehyung’s lingering behind him with his hands on his back
“what is it, tae?”
the younger boy is just giggling and fiddling with his hands, a careless shrug to his shoulders
“can i have y/n’s number :D”
...
...
“aish!! if jungkook were to ask for her number, you would’ve given it to him in a heartbeat because he’s the youngest!! and-...”
“ya!! thanks for reminding hyung! jimin-hyung may i also pls have y/n’s number :D”
...
...
...
jin had to drag jimin with him bc he wasn’t done shooting the both of them glares and his cheeks were practically pink with how annoyed he was at the younger two
needless to say taehyung and jungkook didn’t have any extra portions of beef from him
he is very protective of you and even if he’s become closer with his brothers more than he’s been close with you he jUST can’t help it!!
not that he doesn’t trust them or anything
not that he doesn’t trust you either
but he doesn’t want figurative blood on his figurative ledger because he feels that it would be his responsibility if ever yOu and someone became a thing and HE was the one who inteoduced you both :(
it’s not just a him thing :( he can’t put it into words but he’s just looking out for both parties!!!
kinda figured out that taehyung may or may not have a shy little crush on you
spoiler alert: it was HUGE
for their entire dinner, every single time your name was brought up, tae instinctively has his ears perk up at the mention
simultaneously he shrinks to his seat and purses his lips and looks around to what’s being said
why are u mentioning y/n’s name?? what is happening??
and taehyung having a serious case of sweater paws doesn’t help him from jimin’s observing gaze
and yes he feels a bit sorry because taehyung kinda looks a bit upset; that little “oh :((“ on his face when jimin snapped at him so quick
he’s not gonna force him to tho,, out of respect since someone else is involved (and in this case it’s you and your number)
jimin nudges him by the shoulder to get his attention
everyone’s passed out at this point because the beef was so damn good
tae kinda looks spaced out so he turns his head immediately and he forgot for a second that he was supposed to be cold with jimin
“what?”
“..... do you still want y/n’s number?”
taehyung almost fALLS out of his chair as he nods eagerly, making jimin shake his head to himself as he hesistantly takes out his phone from his pocket
oh god jimin’s phone is on his hand now oh god that’s your picture oh god that’s your number oH-
“i’m not gonna text her tonight if that’s you’re worried about?? i mean we barely know each other!! consider me asking for her number to be used for future references only :D”
“what does future references even mean?”
...
“... luggage. i want y/n’s luggage bag.”
...
“i also want y/n’s-...”
“BUTT OUT JUNGKOOK!! BUTT !! OUT !!”
when you open up your company’s email to you, you really can’t help but to feel nervous
today was your off-day and they specifically requested that you come to the main office at 10 AM sharp
and in your off-day, you aren’t even awake at that time of the morning!!
it wss both a blessing and a curse that you slept early the night before so your body clock just went “lol u wake up early today get up at 6”
and not to mention the fact that it was the same day you learned that you went viral last night when you were peacefully asleep
so the last few hours have been WILD and it kinda put you into shock
the closest you’ve ever been to fame was having your pictures leaked with jimin when you were still kids!!
if you were lucky enough, your face would be covered by every possible animal emoji that was ever released
apart from that, it was the occassional mention of your name in stan twitter and that was it
but THIS type of fame is on a whole another level!! higher than being tagged as jimin’s best friend outside of bts!! higher than having your face covered with animal emojis
when you thought that you were gonna be fired over being viral for some reason unbeknownst —
even if you know that you haven’t violated anything and if anything, you were the one who got violated because someone uploaded a picture of you without your consent!!!
so when you learn that they aren’t mad at all and ecstatic in fact
because your airline basically got free publicity and promotion just because you looked so good in pictures that weren’t even intentional
and that there is a more than noticeable spike in the bookings of flights
and that people were cALLING to ask if you would be the one to pilot that flight
AND RIVAL AIRLINES WERE CALLING IN TO ASK WHEN YOUR CONTRACT WOULD EXPIRE
and that said rival airlines were pitching in salaries that competed with your paycheck now aND THAT THEY WERE EVEN higher
needless to say that your day was more than eventful
you don’t know how to cope up with it either so while the meeting drags on to talk about your newfound fame you’re just :O the entire time
“i believe that park jimin from bts is a close friend of yours, correct?”
wAIT what
you shouldn’t be shocked by now because practically everyone’s familiar with him and the rest of the boys
but it still takes you off-guard because as much as he is your friend
and as much you admit that you miss jimin :(
or that you haven’t talked to him as much these past few days
you genuinely don’t see the connection of why jimin would be brought up into this conversation that doesn’t involve him in the first place
there’s a self-pitying realization in between that it seems like your only determining factor these days was to be known as a best friend of a kpop idol and nothing else
:(
that’s a sad topic you’d rather not delve in at the moment
:(
“prior to you being catapulted into fame suddenly — we reached out to their company for them to become our endorsers. a commercial and a billboard and some other things.”
“and this is just the pERFECT timing because you’re famous now and people love you!!!”
this was it
the stars were aligning for you
not only do you get to hang out with jimin, but now you’re launched into much more job opportunities!!
when the meeting concluded, you narrow it down to the conclusions that:
a) you’re most likely to film a commercial and some adverts and perhaps be included in a billboard with them (their company has yet to confirm within the week but your ceo ji-eun is damn sure at this point or else she will flip
b) you’re now getting an agent :D because apparently offers have been waiting for you left and right and they already got you one before you even said “yeah sure i guess???”
c) you’re getting a RAISE
d) sooner or later you’re gonna do this photoshoot so your own company could post about you this time
e) interviews. you’re gonna be asked to chat your heart out intentionally. i n t e r v i e w s
and it’s a humbling moment for sure because it’s like 
oh. you didn’t mean for this to happen but it’s here now and you can make the most of this while it’s still here!! you get to do what you love and be with the people you love and basically get paid for it!!
oh is this what jimin feels like all the time then??
maybe you should apply as the 8th member of bts
it’s during an intentionally cold night in your apartment that your phone basically vibrates itself off the table
right when you were still in the bathroom taking your time because you were getting PR!! and the mask you just put on happens to be something you’ve been curious about but it was too expensive for you to be curious about lol
also: curiosity that leads you to buy either new skincare products or makeup are either a godsend or a godforsaken situation because 6 out of 10 times you do that, you breakout!!! 
the sound of something clattering to the ground immediately makes you scramble towards your living room, phone flipped over to see jimin up close, eyes even in a picture enough to intimidate you for not answering immediately
“Y/N!!!”
“JIMIN!!!”
the both of you put each other on speaker mode because while you didn’t want to risk ruining your mask, the rest of the boys wanna listen in
the entire phone call was so intense because even in speaker mode you were still yelling at each other
and it was spent with so much enthusiasm on trying to catch up with the past days and jimin apologizing profusely because he’s been living under a rock
“i can’t believe it!! I CAN FINALLY RIDE IN ON A FLIGHT YOU’RE GONNA PILOT”
what
wait
“... jimin what do you mean”
because as far as you knew, the airline commercial would be done with a green screen to ensure that it’s of the best quality
not a gopro type of thing because ur flight attendants would yell real-time to the camera crew and the boys when they try to do something and the seatbelt sign is still on!!!
“wait jimin i think y/n wasn’t supposed to know that yet”
you hear a voice in the background and it’s very much familiar and it’s now hitting you that there’s an audience for your entire call
“namjoon, is that you???”
“Y/N IT’S ME!!! NAMJOON!! OMG”
and then you hear this scuffle over the line and a very slight commotion
it’s jimin holding his phone away with his arm and the other fending off namjoon while hobi scrambles to steal it back
jin is helplessly saying hello to you in the background while jungkook is hopping around going all “miss y/n i am a fan of you!!!”
taehyung is going all sweater paws again while yoongi is desperately trying to shut them up because he’s still listening into yours and jimin’s conversation and he’s genuinely engrossed ok
and now everyone’s calm and collected especially since jimin gives them a death glare each and nobody admits but angry jimin scares the shit out of them
he’s back to being soft-spoken now because he realizes that he may have slipped in saying information he probably shouldn’t have yet, a sheepish scratch at the back of his head
“uhm well you see you’re gonna fly us over for bon voyage and uhm kinda stick around for some pieces here and there?? uhm that’s from what i know hehe”
right now you’re just blanking out and staring into the distance and you’ve suddenly gone awfully quiet
yoongi’s on the background like “yo i think you just broke her”
“is y/n’s cell broken? i’m gonna get her a new one”
“is she okay?? wHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPENED TO HER???”
“jimin-hyung you said y/n sometimes forgets to lock her door right??”
it’s once again another frenzy and once you realize that you’ve blanked out, you immediately shush them and they miraculously do
it’s a feeling of being overwhelmed and disbelief because this is more than you’ve ever asked for
to think that just last week you were tired and was about to pull off an AWOL because your off-day couldn’t have come nearer
“i certainly didn’t know that”
and there’s a nervous chuckle and a nervous silence that encompasses and for a moment, jimin frowns because he thinks that this is all too much for you and you’re gonna turn down the offer even before it’s gonna be officially pitched to you at a meeting tomorrow (you have yet to know that there’s gonna be another meeting tomorrow)
“oh my god i get to be with the lot of you!!!”
one excited shriek from you and that’s all it takes for hell to break loose
“JIMIN I MISSED YOU SO MUCH I CAN’T WAIT TO WHACK YOUR HEAD AGAIN”
“i can fINALLY meet jin and hope!!”
“where’s namjoon?? this old lady from one of my flights own a stall at the airport and she’s afraid of riding in airplanes! and i was apparently so good and she wasn’t scared and that she waited for me outside the cockpit! she gave me a written note saying that i could come to her stall anytime and the bOOKS I’M GONNA CHOOSE WILL BE FREE OF CHARGE EVERY SINGLE TIME”
“yoongi if you’re hearing this; i heard kyle kuzma’s gonna fly first class next week and i fly that same aircraft do u want me to ask for an autograph”
“we have a boatload of dog treats we give for lil ones we have onboard so they stay behaved!! taehyung can have them for yeontan”
“tell jungkook that he can finally have my walkie-talkie he’s been bugging me about!! i have a new one anyway”
it’s official
they love you
they are practically swooning right now and are mad at jimin because wHY DIDN’T YOU LET US KNOW Y/N SOONER 
they only met you a couple times in the past and hobi and jin are jealous because atleast they got to meet you :((
and all of them are willing to take a splinter for you no doubt 
everyone goes to sleep that night all warm and fuzzy and content
not to mention taehyung being so giddy about what you said
not only did you think of him you also thought about yeontan aNd you haven’t even met the little devil yet!!
and he isn’t the only one who thinks of this but
there’s just something about you that is so warm and so genuine
like you could be as introverted as yoongi and be as much of a team player and and extrovert as taehyung is when needed be
but the point is that there’s always something about you for everyone that makes them gravitated towards you
of course jimin explains this to you and you basically shut him off
“aish don’t put me in a pedestal because i swear that i’m not that special”
“why won’t you believe me??”
“because it isn’t true now eat your cereal jimin i will pinch you thru the screen”
the meeting comes soon enough and you have to pretend that this was your first time hearing this bit of information
the pilot you were helping learn the ropes, hyunjin, will take over your normal workload for the meantime!!
in less than one week’s time, you have to pack your bags for three-ish weeks!! because as from what you can tell, things are gonna be a bit more hectic for you because you’re not only gonna fly planes
for a run episode, the boys are gonna be your flight attendants in a mock flight with the passengers as staff members
but the plane being in the air and them wearing flight attendant uniforms will be very much real
and then another episode to be squeezed in with them trying out flight simulators and quizzed with aviation facts 
and whether u did the best or the worst with the two-part episode
they’re still gonna go skydiving :)
they’re really milking out the sky motif but ok it wasn’t your show anyway and you were just gonna guest so they can go off by all means
after all that work, you’re gonna fly them off again but it’s for bon voyage this time!!
they basically res for two-ish weeks and you can tag along behind the scenes because i mean like you’re flying them home too so might as well
get some clips in between to be used for the commercial
and said commercial would be shot a few days after you all get back from said vacation!!
that’s it narrowed down and as you were taking notes, you can’t help but to feel very excited and nervous at the same time
a few days pass and it’s finally time!! yeah sure run episode but JIMIN AND THE BOYS CAN FINALLY SEE YOU NOW
you were supposed to reunite in the aircraft itself but jimin is an impatient baby which is why he’s called you insistently to say some excuse of “you have to go back to the empty boarding gate u need to meet your camera director”
lol but in truth you really don’t need to and where they are now is what you need to pass to get to said boarding gate
so when jimin sees you by the jet bridge they were all at, he sprints
like actually SPRINTS to get to you 
and he attacks you with a massive bear hug and sprinkles you with noisy cheek kisses
“Y/N *kiss* I *kiss* MISSED *kiss* YOU *kiss* SO *kiss* MUCH *kiss*”
no lie you really did miss him too
and once you get him to calm down because he was crushing your bones and you return his cheek kisses
the boys are all just looking at the scene in front of them with awe
jungkook’s looking at namjoon with his eyes saying “lol imma do that too” and namjoon’s staring back going “NO”
taehyung’s extra pouty right now
he didn’t conisder the fact that maybe you and jimin were an unspoken thing and that his crush on you is now something he shouldn’t hold onto
he got discouraged very quickly
hobi is waddling to you at full-speed and goes for a hug which is wild move for someone who he’s just met (but u don’t mind)
“you’re adorable your uniform is so cute omg”
jin goes in for a hug too and you say something along the lines of “i could see the handsomeness they were talking about” and he goes absolutely rED
he’s laughing uncontrollably like a seal 
namjoon was about to go in for a hug but then he sees your wrist and-
“iS THAT A KAWS WATCH???”
“OH MY GOD YOU NOTICED???”
“HOW COULDN’T I? THAT’S LIKE LIMITED EDITION HOW DID YOU GET IT”
“I HAVE A FRIEND THAT’S A COLLECTOR HE GIFTED IT TO ME I CAN GET YOU CONNECTED TOO”
you are now being wrapped with namjoon’s long arms 
he doesn’t seem to be letting go of you soon
yoongi just has his arms wide and his eyes in a faux irritated manner
“what are you looking at”
and then his gummy smile appears when you just cave into his hug and jin is like??? “aH! y/n’s power is unparalleled”
jungkook immediately goes in for an embrace and even twirls you around
“ooh!! you have more piercings now than the last time i saw you!”
“i can pierce ears now!!”
“jungkook can you really”
“lmao no”
and now that it seems like hugging is the new norm, and taehyung being the last in line for you to greet, that kinda burns your nerves becauseif you were to “admit, you may or may not have a little crush on taehyung ever since the first time jimin introduced the both of you to each other
so you do the sensible thing and don’t think about it
no thoughts head empty head first
“tae!!!”
“aha y/n :D”
you hug him and well
taehyung blanked at that and panicked internally
the stark difference of your enthusiasm and his timid response was cringeworthy and it makes you screw your eyes shut as you hug him
but the moment tae realizes this, he holds on as you were trying to let go of him as qUICK as possible because it was too awkward for you to bear
and a little crushing if you were being honest
taehyung now takes first place for wanting to be reincarnated as a rock in the next life
after yoongi seeing that interaction he was just like ᵒᵒᶠ
before it goes anymore awkward though and tae starts squawking, jimin thankfully whisks you away 
“you look so badass in your uniform will u let me wear it”
“let me wear your hoops and i’ll let u borrow”
“lol forget that i even asked”
no matter what, jimin doesn’t let you borrow his earrings!!
like even if the boys borrow some from him time to time
he absolutely does not let you borrow and when you ask why, he just rolls his eyes and smacks his lips and goes N-O
and then eventually he has to shoo you out because they have to film the intro at the jet bridge and you’re not supposed to be there really
jungkook excitedly squeezes you again and goes “see you later!!”
jeon jungkook knows what he’s doing
so right before the cameras start rolling, he’s just staring at the side of taehyung’s face in close proximity with a teasing smile on his face and then wiggles his eyebrows in the slightest when tae finally returns his stare with a knowing glare
“what was that awhile ago, hyung?”
“one more word out of ur mouth and i’m ratting you out to-...”
“i was just kidding hehe don’t rat me out to namjoon that i accidentally stained his precious table hehe pls”
and he blinks at that and is taken aback
because that was supposed to be an empty threat
and now that jungkook realizes he’s fallen smack-dab into the trap, he now wants to ignite himself
taehyung now has blackmail material :D
jungkook is now held captive by said blackmail material :D
they eventually get done with their intro and into the aircraft itself!! jimin is the one to introduce you and throughout the whole ordeal they’re just hyped-up bc it’s the first time they get to do this type of episode
and they’re doing it with you so that’s a plus
and they get changed into their custom flight attendant attire
snug pink get-up with a silk navy blue scarf tied around as the uniform’s collar 
and golden nameplates engraved with their names on it
and AIR BANGTAN embroidered into the breast pocket!!
they looked absolutely good
your work would be lighter if only they were your actual flight attendants
you’d work every single day
even though they could be tiresome at times bc they could be all over the place
taehyung was admittedly swooning the whole time
the production staff made you alter your speech a bit so you could insert air bangtan and introduce all seven of them individually for the skit
and then everyone’s briefed with what they have to do and how safety should be the no. 1 priority
and then it’s takeoff time!!!!
jimin is really really proud of you
he takes advantage of this as his bragging rights
“aha that’s my best friend who’s flying the plane we are in right now :)”
“lol i love y/n i was best friends with her first :)”
“best take-off ever in your life amirite :)”
“i’m friends with a pilot in case you didn’t know :) no big deal”
“technically that’s captain jimin to you too now :)”
it was a fun and a chaotic episode
a bit unsafe? yes
but then the icing at the top was taehyung swooning at everything you did and cussing at himself every time he remembers how he screwed up earlier
he is the most behaved person in this flight and he wants you to know that :((
yoongi’s mercilessly teasing him
“y/n’s gonna come out to do her landing speech soon; you should pretend reading the safety manual now”
“somebody give taehyung a barf bag and a pen he’s gonna ask for an autograph from y/n”
“ey jimin do they sell y/n’s perfume in this flight?? someone just wants to ask”
the episode wraps soon enough but not without jimin rowding everyone to CLAP FOR THE PILOT WHO ALSO HAPPENS TO BE MY BEST FRIEND AHA EVERYTHING WAS SO SMOOTH SO COMFY QUICK TAKE A PICTURE OF ME N MY PILOT BEST FRIEND :D
and there’s just this innate feeling everyone feels every once in a while
that everything feels so right and so complete
it’s like complete nirvana
and before you know it, bon voyage is already happening
a vacation with seven best friends (jimin insists that he has the superlative best when you’re talking about them as friends) 
(and maybe one of them you don’t see as a best friend and perhaps something more and that person really doesn’t show much enthusiasm for you as you do for him)
(it’s taehyung)
and it’s not like taehyung isn’t fond of you
in fact, he very much is!! believe him!!
it’s just that he’s paralyzed over his crush on you and the fact that he sees you often because of these circumstances and he can’t believe it
too paralyzed over the fact that he might and may have already made a fool out of himself
and that he’s afraid to make moves on you with the boys here because jESUS CHRIST
he knows he would be teased mercilessly or he would be teased mercilessly while they help him out but they would never let him live this down
and jimin
oh god jimin
because as much as jimin loves him, he knows that one wrong move on you and he knows he’s gonna yeet him to the han river
he doesn’t know either what would be jimin’s reaction if he knew of his crush on you!! will he flip? will he be happy? wILL HE FORBID HIM FROM SEEING YOU EVER AGAIN????
at times he could be very overbearing
and he admits that
but all for good cause as he tries to explain
oh and jungkook
damn jungkook
he’s caught on pretty quickly about tae’s crush on you
and kook likes you but not in the way tae likes you
it’s just a fuzzy, warm, and platonic type of like like what the other boys have for you
but with fLIRTINESS
jimin’s the same but it was natural since you’ve been friends for absolutely ages
jungkook’s however was very fresh and very aBRUPT
it’s him trying to get a rise from taehyung and urging him to just make a damn move on you
he hopes that his flirtiness with you would just intimidate his hyung to the point that “open your eyes!!! oh what am i doing?? don’t you feel that i’m trying to steal y/n away from you?? MAKE A MOVE!!” gets across
taehyung has yet to realize that though
bon voyage doesn’t really include you (as you also try to remove yourself out of the picture as much as possible)
the cameras aren’t always turned on and not all hours of the day are spent on filming
so they can still get to do things and activities without staff members flooding the house!!
the house you’re all staying at is a gigantic one
so it got divided into two wings and you can even close it off!!
one wing solely for the boys and the other for you and the production staff
you were at their wing more often than you are in yours though
and during these past few days that turned into weeks, you’ve been closer to them more than you could imagine
they were easy to get around with!! them knowing that jimin knows you is a plus factor if you think about it
and even if not for that fact, they still think not much would’ve changed in your present friendship dynamic right now
it was comforting to be with them, really
the other way around!!
and you could also hang out with them either individually or as a group and it wouldn’t be awkward!!
.. taehyung may or may not be a slight issue though
you honestly think that he hates you :(
and you’re trying to backtrack your actions to see if you may have done something to him
you always try to keep up with his energy
jungkook was fooling around with a drone and trying to experiment flying it
and then he suddenly had this idea of “tae do you think you could outrun my drone”
and kook’s whipping his head around for you as if in a silent question to ask “wait is that possible”
and you’re just over there narrowing your eyes like “jungkook just because i’m a pilot,,,,, it doesn’t mean i know every flying object in the air and how to operate it,,,,,”
...
“but y/n can you outrun my drone tho”
it’s the sudden challenge that takes you aback and makes your eyebrow raise
and then it’s become a cHALLENGE
taehyung’s competitiveness making him forget that you’re even there and that he’s not acting all conscious
so it’s literally all fun and laughter
and the both of you may or may not be so caught up into this stupid challenge you stupidly both participated to
you’re not even sure if there was a rEWARD for this
so stupidly caught up to the point that jungkook’s already led the both of you to the beach that you were overlooking from the house you all stayed at
(jungkook’s running with the drone and that completely destroys the purpose of the drone but he’s having fun too ok)
before you knew it, both you and tae are crashing full-speed into the beach and it takes a collective second for you to realize that you both were indeed wet when you’re hip-deep into the water
and it sends another burst of laughter and you’re just looking at him helplessly and out of breath
“oh my god i didn’t even-...”
it hits taehyung now that he’s having full-on eye contact with you on what the fuck is he doing
he just immediately tenses and all the alarms in his head are going off
‘hahahaha yes :)”
and there it is again
that noticeable shift in the air that makes your mouth dry at what could you have possibly done
he’s quick on walking himself out of the water, quite literally leaving you there
jungkook’s by the shoreline laughing himself to death and sees taehyung waddling himself out
“hYUNG OMG YOU DIDN’T EVEN-...”
ok what was that
what the fuck was that
he only gets a blank laugh in return and it’s a dampener for his mood right now
and it only sinks in now that why is taehyung returning by himself
“y/n did you drown????”
no you didn’t drown
but the idea did seem enticing because you felt so embarrassed and down with what just happened
so right now jungkook just has his arm around your shoulders as he’s trying to figure everything out
“did i -- did i do something wrong?”
and even if the context isn’t clear. he immediately says no
the both of you are just walking back to the house while the sun sets and he still isn’t sure of what happened but he knows that it’s enough to make you sad and most probably has something to do with taehyung
he just wants to cheer you up :(
so mid-way he kinda picks you up wordlessly and you don’t fight him about it
you’re completely drained of your energy both physically and emotionally
you melt into jungkook’s grasp on you as your way of thanks and he acknowledges it with a squeeze on your arm
by the time you get back, everyone’s just doing their own thing because it’s nearing dinner
kook kinda plops you into the couch yoongi’s sitting on
his eyes question that something’s kinda off but he doesn’t question it
and you just crawl the short distance so that you’re laying on his lap and be sad in peace there
all he does it just past your head once and that’s it
and he’s just watching a replay of a basketall game because he hasn’t had time to catch up with those championship games (even if he knows who won and who lost)
and out of the blue yoongi just hears you softly pipe in
“my ex is a professional basketball player”
“wHO’S YOUR EX WHAT KIND OF PROFESSIONAL ARE-...”
and you shush him bc you don’t want anybody else to know
“omg jimin doesn’t know this?? and i’m like the first one to know?”
“yes”
oh and he kinda huddles because after all, this is a secret and it does have something to do with basketball
“professional as in he played in this show you’re watching rn”
“is he in this game????”
“lol no from what i know, he got injured even before championship but yeah his team’s playing right now”
“what’s his name???”
“theo. i call him theo”
and then that name sounds awfully familiar and he’s specifically requesting to see what he looked like and even tries to get hobi to look for your phone
but your pictures with him are all deleted now so you just make yoongi search up his name and he’s like :O
“....... why did you break up then..,,.,”
and then you just gently explain that it was a mutual decision and that both your jobs were demanding
so yeah it was impossible to happen
and yoongi forgot that fifteen minutes ago, jungkook just plopped you here because you wanted to lie down and were too sad to function
and he made you retell what happened to you and your ex that only he knows about
so he feels a little guilty
“you don’t have to speak if you don’t want to :(”
and you just wave him off that catches him off-guard
“nah it’s all okay :)”
man were u selfless
yoongi now loves you more
jin and namjoon finish dinner soon enough and everybody goes down to eat
even taehyung who’s with jimin
and it doesn’t even look like something’s wrong
but jimin’s counting all the heads in the room and was like ‘wAit where’s y/n???”
he sees you getting yourself out from lying in yoongi’s lap and he’s there with you in a heartbeat cooing at you
“y/n baby what happened”
and you’re back to lying down again but this time it’s jimin pushing you to lie on his shoulder as he’s stroking your hair
you said “nothing”, you know...,,., like a liar
jimin throws yoongi a questioning look and the older boy just shrugs his shoulders because he doesn’t know either
taehyung’s abandoned at the edge of the stairs
and you were about to scoff but that obviously doesn’t hurt as much when he abandoned you hip-deep into the water
“mhmmm i see :D”
jimin most definitely knows you’re lying but he doesn’t want to prod into it because it’s obvious that you weren’t in the mood to be questioned
at this point he’s just trying to cheer you up but in the same time give you sustenance
he’s literally feeding you right now
jin cooked up a lot of box mac n’ cheese (he transferred it into actual bowls) from the conveniece store and you know what
he wanted to try it out
it is not the healthiest thing in the world but atleast it’s somehow foreign right???? 
as much as jimin loves you, he does want to eat though
so he asked jungkook to get him a big-ass bowl with a portion big enough for the both of you and he did just that 
but you aren’t that much cooperative because you’re not eating that much and jimin is really really enticed with the smell of the food rn and jungkook senses that
“i’ll feed her, hyung!! go get another spoon for you or something”
he is really thankful for that so he just pushes the bowl to kook and scrambles for a utensil and perhaps even his own bowl
jungkook’s feeding you now and without jimin sending you a questioning glance every two seconds, you’re more cooperative 
taehyung is sitting by the far corner of the couch parallel to yours and he is CLENCHING
and he’s groaning to his mac n’ cheese and namjoon is ??? why are you like this ???
“good. it tastes so good.”
he nods but he’s still sending tae a questioning look
you eventually gained the appetite to eat
but jungkook was in charge of the dishes tonight and he doesn’t want to wash one more spoon so he insisted that you just share one instead
taehyung is gonna COMBUST
he is now practically yelling into his mac n’ cheese
everyone is now ??? at him and he makes a show of just shoving the bits of pasta to his mouth
“jin-hyung :) namhoon-hyung :) this is so delicious :) how did you do this :)”
“...... taehyung that’s instant,,,, boiled water and the cheese powder...,.,”
“aHA so that’s why :)”
his actions are v fishy and v funny 
but deep down he is boiling angry and frustrated both at himself and a jungkook
kook is giggling to the bowl right now that you had to pry it away from him
you’re not even LOOKING at taehyung’s direction
usually you did
but your will to treat him like how he treats you is stronger
that’s it that’s gonna be the rest of the trip
if there’s any personality trait you’re gonna pick up from jimin from having been his friend for so long
it would be the stubbornness
you avoid taehyung like the flu
AND HE NOTICES THAT
AND THE BOYS ARE STARTING TO NOTICE IT TOO
jimin is the one most on-guard about that 
and he is whispering to everyone except taehyung 
“if you see something that relates to y/n and taehyung tell me ok tELL ME!!!”
and even tae feels sad about it to the point that he’s trying to make a conscious effort in making conversation with you
when you’re on the floor with your laptop turned on and they’re surrounding you trying to help you out with your emails
emails that don’t relate to aviation work and more-on to the viral side of things such as designer !!! brands !!! reaching out to you personally instead of your agent!!!
“mhmm they have really good shoes. what’s your favorite color anyway?”
and he says that in the midst of voices overlapping bUt the boys realized that taehyung gave input into the conversation and wAS LIKe wait wait tae’s speaking shut up shut up
but jimin answers for you in a heartbeat and hobi pinches his arm and he was laughing suddenly
he’s looking around trying to say something with eyes
“lol i’m sorry did i ruin his move on y/n”
and his subconscious-
“WAIT WHAT TAEHYUNG IS MAKING MOVES ON Y/N???”
it takes all four of his hyungs to plead him to shut up with their glares and don’t make this anymore awkward as tae wants to be swallowed wholly by the ground
your resolute will doesn’t crumble until jimin makes it his ultimate mission to find a drink that’s gonna sink you
because your alcohol tolerance was brought up again when they were talking about buying drinks
and jimin tells the story of how you outdrank him one night and didn’t wake up with a deadlier hangover than he did aNd he was still curious to how you did it
you don’t know either but you’re as interested as them in finding a drink that’s gonna sink you
hobi’s random pick in the grocery store did JUST that
you finally sunk
you finally got as drunk as jimin’s level
as in a shit-faced type and not just a happy buzz you usually felt
you and jin have been laughing without end for five minutes now
no one even joked
you just made eye contact with each other and you both immediately started to wheeze 
he was starting to get so red he looked borderline pURPLE if you were still seeing clearly
yoongi was laughing by seeing the two of you laugh because it was starting to get contagious at the point 
by now namjoon’s back was being slapped carelessly by yoongi who’s pleased with himself
taehyung has a grin on his face because you were so adorable
as if his cheeks weren’t warm enough just by seeing you so happy and bubbly
and the heat in his chest isn’t just because of the alcohol nor the warmth his sweater provided
maybe this isn’t a little crush anymore :((
while he’s ignoring that possibility, everyone else is considering it
everyone besides you :((
jimin’s on his feet at the moment because oh my god it’s happening!!!
good news because you’re drunk out of your mind
and bad news that you’re drunk out of your mind
so he’s tending to you with a glass of water and you won’t drink it
he’s trying harder this time by putting the glass to your lips but you were flailing around so much by laughing that it spilled some to you and jimin himself
he’s now looking for a straw
this one’s for boba but he has to settle for this now
and he’s trying to coax you into drinking it
hE’S EVEN USING A VOICE HE USES FOR BABIES
“but water tastes like nothing :((”
“which is exactly what you need”
“but i want it to taste like something”
he’s about to groan but then he sees your eyes glossing 
and oh god did he hear a whimper
“y/N BABY DON’T CRY OK OK WHAT DO YOU WANT????”
he’s now looking for an ice cold chocolate drink that isn’t overly sweet
namjoon has made it his personal decision to follow jimin around
and with his twofold clumsiness at this state, yoongi follows him but not without holding on to the back of jooni’s shirt so he could be slid around
jin stands up and follows them but he’s not sure why
“why are you all -- this is NOT a conga line!!!”
hobi’s staring into the distance turned into snoring
taehyung isn’t all that drunk
but you, on the other hand, are very much drunk
tae’s not sure to why you’re approaching him
maybe it’s because the hoodie he’s wearing now is jungkook’s
maybe it’s because jimin’s scent is on his hair from having borrowed his shampoo
maybe it’s because you’re drunk and your first thought is him even if drunk
but all his thoughts fly out the door when you’re squeezing yourself into the couch he’s lying on at the very moment
one that’s too small for the two of you and that he had to grab you split-second because you were about to fall out of the couch so hard if not for his strong grip that holds you
“y/n.”
taehyung’s not sure either to what his tone contained
whether it was for warning or for reprimanding, literally all his thoughts are crushed once again the moment you speak
“you’re voice is very deep.”
he’s not sure if you know this either but you were unconsciously cuddling up to his side, filling in the gap at the couch that just made you barely fit
you’re
cuddling
him
“a-and it’s very calming.”
he’s not sure to why but the moment you put your hand on his chest because you were basically almost lying on top of him
his first instinct was to put his hand on the small of your back
and the moment and the feelings were so warm that fuck this isn’t the alcohol anymore
nor the sweater
so warm to the point that the both of you don’t notice jimin’s :O and everyone else’s :D
because the make-shift conga line has arrived right in front of where you are and hobi just woke up
and right when everything feels surreal 
taehyung watches a split-second decision happen right in your eyes
you just kissed the tip of his nose
:’)
taehyung thinks he’s gonna ascend to heaven
it’s the softest moment ever because you pull away trying to gauge his reaction
he’s all red with his bottom lip in between his teeth and oh my god his eyes are so expressive
jimin steps in tho
and he clears his throat and taehyung iS SUDDENLY BACK TO EARTH
oh my god oh my god that just happened oh my god
this is a bit more scary and intimidating now
because jimin doesn’t look neither thrilled nor angry
he looks neutral
neutral blank-faced on the verge of who knows what jimin is the most frightening jimin
“hey baby here’s your chocolate drink you asked for :)”
and with just a head rub you immediately come to your senses and are already making grabby hands to the cold mug (with a straw!!) and you’re scrambling to stand up and jimin’s helping you to stay stable because you’re attached to him now
taehyung is now looking at his hands as if they were the most entertaining things in the world “wow look at my rings i have never seen them before so shiny so silver”
and he knows jimin can see right through him
jimin has the tiniest hands out of all of them while he has the largest
and u know what
he could be still strangled with those same hands 
and u know what too
maybe he’ll accept that wrath because he kinda deserves it  
he’s sent a brief look that’s enough to let him know that the both of them will talk
that taehyung shouldn’t leave this couch
nor leave this house
nor this country
you know what maybe tae better start timing his record on how long he can go without breathing
he can do that for a minute and a half underwater
soon enough jimin finally tucks you in with not much protest
much force from him tho but much more apologies and coos when he apologizes and you do as asked
got to make u brush your teeth and change into a fresh set of pajamas
he has to trick you into “seokjin would be mad at u when he learns that you went to sleep with dirty clothes on”
and him being the good friend that he is
since he also achieved of getting to sink you with a drink
he’s gonna go the extra mile
went so far as to wipe you with a wet towel and dry you off since you didn’t want to shower and he’s afraid ur probably gonna fall asleep not even midway
he even does your skincare routine for you
you kept giggling when he was patting your face so he did it more but now you were in the verge of tearing because in your drunk state you tHOught he was slapping you over and over again with both palms at the same time
and after all that
jimin finally gets around with taehyung on the couch and the younger boy just immediately straightens his posture
...
“...,.,., so you and y/n.,.”
there are literally no words in his mouth
“aha yes me and y/n :D”
and it’s a habit of tae’s to be incoherent whenever he’s flustered
that kinda doesn’t help his case because jimin needs ALL of his brainpower and coherence
“what are your intentions?”
“uhm i uhm aha :D great pilot. no jet lag.”
he’s nodding even there isn’t something to nod at
god he didn’t even drink much but he feels just as floaty and as spent
“calm down, taehyung.”
he SOBERS at that
jimin even pats at his knee to try and ground him
“y-you’re not mad at me??”
“lol i kinda am to be honest”
:(
“but i’m only mad because you treated her from the start as if you didn’t like her!!”
“but hyung you knOw it’s hard and -- wait was it really obvious??”
“there’s a difference between being shy AND being an insensitive ass that leaves the room whenever she enters!!!”
“but-...”
“and i know that people cope with things differently but your mechanism with your little crush on y/n was just kinda off for her, y’know? like this is the time she genuinely gets to know you and not just a five-second introduction by me!! and it’s just kinda a ballsy move because she just got to know you in this level and you’re acting like an ass and she doesn’t know why!!”
“ok but-...”
“and ok the boys and i aren’t mad that you kept from us because it was pretty obvious but i mEAN like you could have just went to us, ya know?? even if some would give poor advice, it’s the thought that counts!!”
“jimin-...”
“oH also what if y/n fell for jungkook instead of you, huh??? he has balls and he doesn’t even like her in that way!!”
this effectively shuts tae up because he hasn’t really considered that possibility
and it’s a dunk at sobering reality that each one of these days he let pass could have been the moment but it was just him hindering himself
because he is a shy boi for you and the crippling fear of rejection just always paralyzes him
aND NOW THAT TONIGHT HAPPENED!!!
with his nose still tingling and his cheeks still flushed because of that kiss
with somehow permission from jimin
with you in the picture now and everything in place
taehyung really can’t help but pout adorably and cry up tears of happiness a bit
jimin hugs him for that with a pat on his back
they both know though that even without any verbal warning that jimin will give taehyung hell if ever he breaks your heart
tae kinda pales at the realization because it may be a conflict of interest
and jimin would be like
lol :) why would you be afraid of me when you have no intention of hurting her :) 
tae SWEARS he could hear jimin in his head and he was about to reply but he realizes that he’s just a little bit worried and much more overwhelmed
needless to say that things really did do change overnight
you were trashed yet thankful that you remembered most of how the night went including that bit in which you were drunkenly topping and cuddling taehyung then pressing a soft little kiss to the tip of his nose
you could still hear your internal monlogue of “boop :D” when you kissed him
you’re woken up by the boys (yoongi included because it turned out you slept in for much longer) since today was a no-film day and they basically get to do anything in this vacation without it being documented and such
it was just a never-ending warm feeling with tae
throughout the whole day he was just grinning at you and maintaining eye contact and at times when you’re not even doing anything
(he’s glued to your side much to the grumpiness of jimin)
it was a slow burn at most
bumping shoulders and squeezing of wrists 
having his hand casually on the small of your back and around your shoulders
taehyung scrunching his nose SO MUCH
hobi is genuinely concerned
“tae do u have a cold??”
yoongi is fucking relentless
“what? what? what did the good boy smell???”
seokjin keeps pursing his lips intentionally after trying to gain tae’s attention and he = would shrug his shoulders excessively
“i saw that u little punk i SAW that”
namjoon would be on tune with how yoongi just won’t stop
“tie that bandana around your neck instead and sTOP sniffling”
jungkook would roll his eyes and scoff playfully whenever taehyung would glance at him
“do i need to kiss y/n so you’d be jealous enough to do so??”
jimin would be the mediator with all the teases but that doesn’t exactly mean he’s on tae’s side either bc the one time taehyung bragged that jimin was protecting him, he got whacked on the side of the head
“lol no this isn’t for u taehyung,, i’m just doing this because y/n’s cheeks are so hot and they’re burning a hole on my shoulder”
as much as your relationship was slowly but surely blossoming with taehyung
it happened for the boys as well!! even with jimin who you didn’t even think was possible to get closer to
bonding with jin was spontaneity and strict adherance to plans combined
“jin do u know milktpapi on twitter”
“bubble would have been a better name for that puppy”
following twitter recipes that are fast-paced and a little vague became a big hit for the both of you
he went on a watching binge one night and the morning after there were just paper bags on the counter of ingredients upon ingredients that he so sweetly asked the staff to get for him
DC CUPCAKES!!!!!!!
he liked that there has to be some type of drama between those two sisters
jin would just be ranting to you with no end
“they were on CONEy island,,, C O N E ,,,, and she made cupcakes in cONES but they still chose the sister who thought hAMBURGERS,,, in C O N E y island,,,, was a good idea!!!”
another inside game was to guess the personification of inanimate things but to food
“what must sadness taste like”
jin and you and the never-ending bickering between the two of you almost always fills in as white noise
yoongi and you are rather a quite dynamic duo
and as hobi explains that you could just really really catch on with his tempo
like at times they would just catch the two of you lying on the same couch but at the opposite ends with your feet meeting in the middle
awake and in complete silence
jungkook has his eyes squinted
“why are you texting each other????”
and it has him genuinely baffled but he’s just answered with a grumble and he CAN’T tell whether it’s from you or yoongi
just like with jin, there’s also a food approach
“that dumpling kinda looks like namjoon”
“i was JUST about to say that”
it wasn’t a showy type of friendship with yoongi; rather a more silent concern type of thing and the occasional hug
love language with him seems to be the both of you having a drum-off because he has a nervous habit of tapping his fingers
and he’s v thankful because oh :) you’ve just distracted me from that thing i was nervous about :)
also likes snoozing off so whenever you can, you squeeze in a pillow when his neck’s in an awkward position and when he wakes up and realizes he’s just like :) gummy smile :)
hobi is a force to be reckoned with
asking “hey r u ok” out of the blue even if you weren’t particularly sure how the other one felt and sometimes one of your heads would just whip and go “you noticed???? :(”
hanging with him whenever he scrolls at his phone and online shops
the only difference is that he buys what he wants
“you’re telling me that we scrolled for like an hour and you’re not buying any of the things you saw????”
and you just pass it off every time because although a pilot’s wage is above average salary, your future and earning isn’t as sECURED and SOLID as his was
that doesn’t stop him peeking at your cart when you aren’t looking and adding it to his and perhaps checking out :) i mean it’s definitely not from him when you see some parcels in your doorstep by the time you get home :) not from him :)
it’s become a constant thing to link your arms together!!!
even if you’re not necessarily walking, it is essential to link arms with you as he argues
one time jimin tried getting in between your linked arms with hobi bc he wanted to join
hobi IMMEDIATELY glares at him and jimin backed off like sheesh ok but u don’t get to do the things i do with y/n either
writing on each other’s forearms is a thing too
sometimes it’s to conversate when you’re not in the mood to talk verbally
sometimes it’s just about talking shit but don’t tell jin he has his coat on backwards he looks laughable
“can u choreograph something for twinkle twinkle little star”
“y/n i-...”
nAMJOON however feels like he should’ve met you earlier like WAY WAY EARLIER
he gets on with you so well and sometimes he just sulks to jimin
“why didn’t you introduce y/n earlier to me god what was life like before y/n”
brain talk is more prevalent than ever because there are thoughts that delve deep into your mind that sometimes only namjoon could get
noah fence but if you were to rant about this to jimin, he would just drone off and grumble and he’d turn to sleeping because he just can’t help it
movie symbolisms????? count that to him and jungkook
after watching parasite for the nth time, you’re sure all three of you had all bases covered but nO it was somehow bottomless
“isn’t it ironic and somehow oxymoronic that...”
he is eternally grateful for you because one night the boys wanted to have a seafood night and u may or may not have had some recipes sent in your airline gc with how your airplane food was made
(surprisingly it didn’t suck)
and you considered him since he hates it and you know what,, he gets something else cooked for him
god namjoon gets why taehyung is smitten with you
also joonie is a bit oblivious to this fact but the other boys notice that you always bring him back a trinket of some sort
you noticed (and jimin might have pointed out one time) that he tended to fiddle with things and do small tasks whenever he was ticked off or stressed out
you keep note that you should gift him one of those fun kiddie entertainment packs when you’re back to regular programming as a pilot
it’s also a constant thing for you to bury your head to his chest
for no reason at all
it’s really comforting to say the least
he could be preparing breakfast and you’re just trudging down the stairs still not fully awake
“hey. i’m making-...”
boop
“oh ok jus hang there if you want but u might get burnt by the pan but it’s ok it’s ur call”
jimin has become even much more of a precious being
gets in your nerves a bit more often than the last time but it’s normal at this point
head rubs that lull you to sleep are the best :((
taehyung sometimes looks to his hands because jimin got you to sleep instantly and he pouts
“how do you do that?? i wanna do that too pls”
jimin’s voice feels like a warm weighted comforter,, that you gotta admit
“your voice is very velvet-y and it’s unfair because i can’t stay mad at you”
“𝓲 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀“
you still make an awed face whenever jimin cracks his bones
you’re in the middle of being fond and being disgusted at the sound so it’s still a 50/50 whether you grimace or gasp at him
“can i pls borrow your hoops”
“you could ask a million times and i would still say no”
playing with his rings whenever you’re sad is a habit you would never grow out of
which is why you were attached to him by the hip,,, or rather hands ,,, when taehyung was in the verge of being an ass to you
jungkook is something ELSE
if you aren’t lingering around jimin or taehyung, you would definitely be around him
taehyung is most jealous with the two of you but no he didn’t say that :)
annoying each other is the no. 1 task 
but lately annoying feels like second nature now so it doesn’t seem like tradition anymore
you would be his audience whenever he’s drawing because you’re genuinely enthrilled with him and his work
“how are you so good at this”
you’re almost always trying to copy what he draws
“what were you attempting with this”
“i was attempting your drawing”
“lmao are you sure with that???”
jungkook likes playing with you by pretending that he’s annoyed
but when he sees that u made his art your lockscreen, he was so awed that he was literally about to BAWL
he pretends not to notice when you push your food to his plate because you either aren’t too keen with the dish or you’re just too full
when jimin calls you out for “y/n why are you putting ur food on jungkook’s plate” and jungkook with “and jungkook why are you accepting it”
kook just shrugs and comes to defend you
“nope i didn’t see anything hyung :D”
if you liked shoving your head to namjoon’s chest, you liked leaning on jungkook’s shoulder
seokjin looks most offended 
“not even half of me y/n not even H A L F of me”
this really warms taehyung’s heart
because not only are you close to him but also with his brothers!!
even if he wants to deck jungkook sometimes
and that he may need to work on his jealousy
but none of those things matter because he’s given the assurance that you’re exclusive
that he may be yours and you may be his 
as cheesy as that sounded
taehyung’s working on a plan to properly ask you out once bon voyage ends and not just steal cheek kisses from time to time
or hold your hand and avoid your gaze because he too will surely combust
or hug you from behind tenderly 
much to the teasing and the hoots of the boys
and jimin’s occasional scowls but that’s ok he’s moving on and slowly starting to accept the fact that he can’t be overbearing this much anymore
bon voyage wraps soon enough
and truth be told you didn’t want it to end because you were in such bliss!!
it was a very memorable trip that you now carry close to your heart
and the fact that they still have a commercial to be filmed with you and some billboards to be shot makes you very :D
since the commercial was to be filmed tomorrow and you lived close to the airport, jimin initiated the idea of “hey what about if we just sleep over at y/n’s place??” which was very applauded
taehyung squeals the loudest when the idea was pitched in
“lol no you don’t get to sleep in the same bed as y/n”
namjoon shoots jimin a look that he was being overbearing again
“or you could just let her decide :)”
it’s only been four days since they last saw you but needless to say that it was borderline chaos when they met you at your apartment that was more on the spacious side
“y/n’s uncle kinda owns the building” jimin explains at first because the building did look more lavish than the average complex
“d-do i get to meet y/n’s uncle??” 
taehyung is a bit nervous because he didn’t know that fact obviously and now he’s meeting the family and he is unprepared jesus christ and-
“no he probably won’t like you”
“jimin sTOP making taehyung nervous because he’s gonna start sniffling again”
the lot of them get to your apartment before you because your flight got delayed and therefore jimin just had to whip out his key you gave him as an extra
he does it fast enough before taehyung takes a deep dive to how he doesn’t have an extra key from you or something like that 
jimin does feel like he’s being a bit hard on tae so he lays off of it for now
taehyung has the ultimate heart eyes for you the moment you come home
“i missed you” in the most adorable and heartwarming tone
and there it was again
a cheek kiss and not just a quick peck!!
a tight hug to your waist and a nuzzle against your hairline!!
MUCH WARMTH AND FUZZINESS
once jimin finally got to pry taehyung off of you because he claims that he’s hogging you all to himself, you’re met with very eager hugs and greetings
seokjin and basically everyone else are still in awe seeing you in your uniform so he squeezes in a quick pic in his phone 
you sent him a look and when you peered in, the picture turned out really cool with the nice lighting your apartment had
AND he’s really pushing it that it was good because of the app he downloaded that made pictures have a vintage film cam aesthetic to it
so you yielded and just told him to send the picture to you later 
aha ego boost :D
they insisted on cooking dinner since you did look a bit exhausted from your round of flights even if it was routine at this point (the highlight was when some people recognized you from the pics that went viral and asked to take a pic with you when you were greeting them out!!)
“are you really sure you’re gonna cook dinner, tae? i could always order-...”
“you don’t need to!! i wanna cook for you anyway!!”
that was heartwarming more than usual
jungkook clears his throat
“....,., and us”
“aha yes of course i meant for you and the boys as well :D”
you go to change clothes more than enthusiastically now
because things just seemed to be good with no complications at all
the idea of domesticity with taehyung makes you iMPLODE just by thinking about it
the thought was too soft and too fuzzy that you’ve become energized
maybe reading a couple of emails before taking a shower and cleaning up and getting yourself to look a bit more presentable isn’t a bad thing
it isn’t anything but sheer giddiness when you check your inbox and see an edited version of a run bts ep from a staff member you befriended during bon voyage!!!
you kinda get now what jimin was saying that you had the ability to have people wrapped around your finger
maybe it’s charisma you picked up from wanting to please people just so you could have extra credit???
anyways
it’s a run bts ep you get one of the first dibs on to watch so that’s always a reward
basically the context for it was that it was a hot tub confessions type of thing!! the twist was that they had to speak their heart out (their dislike is very much encouraged) over a certain someone bUT they had to rely on their ~telepathy because names wouldn’t drop
and it was a random selection to who would start the confession first and the others had to go with the flow and basically hope that they’re talking smack about the same person lol
only the name blank would be used and it for the pronoun!!
you were already making assumptions to who it would be about
it could be about jungkook because throughout the whole trip, he would literally gasp out of the blue and take the others in shock like seagulls going WHAT WHAT WHAT IS IT WHAT WHAT
or maybe jimin because he’s a lil shit and would pull chairs and that hobi fell victim and was so annoyed because he fell on his ass so hard 
last prospect was seokjin simply because,, as jungkook emphasized throughout this whole trip,, “ʲᶦⁿ⁻ʰʸᵘⁿᵍ ᶦˢ ˢᵒ ᵒˡᵈ ᵒʰ ᵐʸ ᵍᵒᵈ” just because he complained about his lower back one time
speaking of jin, he gets chosen to open the game!!
and he buffers for a moment that gets another tease from jungkook 
“ᵒʰ ᵐʸ ᵍᵒᵈ ʲᶦⁿ⁻ʰʸᵘⁿᵍ'ˢ ᵐᵉᵐᵒʳʸ ᶦˢⁿ'ᵗ ᵍᵒᵒᵈ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ ᵍᶦᵛᵉ ʰᶦᵐ ʰᶦˢ ᵐᶦˡᵏ“
“blank bought me an actual film camera!! bit more complicated than taehyung’s!! keeps telling me every five seconds about my settings and i!! i KNOW HOW TO WORK IT THANK U VERY MUCH!!”
although jin is a bit guilty about that because he admits that he has a more-than-sure feeling that most of his pics may or may not be either over-exposed or too dark
this reminds you of that time you bought a film camera for jin on a whim because it was on sale and you were talking about it the night before
lol what a coincidence
hobi takes second call
he is only about a quarter-percent sure to who jin was pertaining to so he trails around for a bit
“blank is like a broken kitchen timer”
he plays it safe with that one 
although there is some sort of edge with his bluntness because everyone might be a little drunk hehe 
“blank looks at things as if it was born yesterday!! literally goes :O”
even goes so far to imitate said expression and it makes everyone gIGGLE
yoongi snorts with that and now he’s a bit more feisty since he’s tipsy
“it joins me in my silence”
wait
“texts me even if i’m in the same room like wtf i can see you”
wait
hold on
“likes hUGGING ME TOO MUCH”
you really didn’t like making things about you because other people doing that makes you tick
but there’s this unsteady feeling in your gut
something that makes you think deep in thought and in doubt
jimin was next to speak so that calms your nerves
he would never, right??
maybe you’re just taking things to heart!! the boys really aren’t talking smack about you, right??
your breath is just held because jimin was surely taking his time in making a show with inhaling so deeply so he could yell a bit more dramatically
“DOES IT NOT HAVE ITS OWN CLOTHES????”
oh
your eyes flicker for a moment to the sweater that’s by your dresser
something of jimin’s that you forgot to return
oh.
“needier and whinier than jungkook”
it was the youngest’s turn to cackle
and at this point you’re only half-listening
you’re a bit too preoccupied with the hurt blooming in your chest
“i!! am!! not!! a!! baby!!”
jungkook’s meltdown makes everyone else laugh because right now he had his fists clenched and his face looking like a baby’s
“blank always wants to be included it’s not funny anymore”
there was just a little bit more hope lingering that this may no be about you at all
but god it was getting too specific 
too specific when it came to namjoon who was a bit more eloquent in speaking and wanting to get his point across
“.... trying to memorize my rap in UGH! .....”
fuck this really is about you
and it’s not just sadness that’s overtaking you
makes you more than deflated than you thought you could ever be
“at this point i sometimes avoid her”
and god there’s this more than familiar laugh that fills your ears through and through
“lol namjoon where do you hide?? i hide in the pantry”
taehyung even?
at this point you can’t even bear watching the video anymore
willing your laptop closed so forcefully that it bOUNCED back open but you can’t even begin to worry that you might have put a crack on the screen
shoving it to your desk with the screen facing anywehere instead of you being the best option
the hurt is painfully fresh and oddly felt so surreal
god were you really that intolerable?
you didn’t know how to cope with what you’ve just heard nor experienced
but the only thing you were sure about is that your situation has just been too good
perhaps this was the complication you were looking for because you weren’t used to things being so good
and you know for sure that this feeling isn’t good at all
and you hated it
at this point you’re just trying to go about your previous plans of showering and cleaning up but the eagerness isn’t there anymore
nor is the eagerness to see the boys
nor is the eagerness to see taehyung
didn’t even notice that you were taking up much time that jimin was at your door knocking, voice gentle and inquiring
“y/n did you fall asleep??”
you’re very much tempted to not go out at all because you lost your appetite for eating too
very much so that you make no move at all and actually think that jimin’s given up on knocking at your locked door
but then your phone rings and he knows for sure that you haven’t gone to sleep because it would’ve been put on silent
“are you hiding???”
you pretty much are and you don’t wanna go out at all
but you basically had no choice to
it was a pressure to wipe at stray tears and say “i’m coming” in an unwavering voice and even more-so pretend that nothing’s wrong at all
or the fact that everyone’s eyes are on you and jimin’s prodding makes everyone else wonder
“are you crying??”
the question doesn’t faze you but it does take you by surprise now that you aren’t comfortable with the situation nor the new attention
taehyung’s getting worried because now he notices the redness in your eyes and the bit of puffiness in your lips
“just sleepy. my eyes tear up when i’m sleepy, right?” you’re using jimin’s knowledge about you against him and he agrees to that almost instantly
can’t help thinking that something was fishy though
you weren’t telling him off when he was bickering to taehyung that he shouldn’t sit next to you for dinner
didn’t react either when tae let off a little victory giggle and grinned when he sat next to you not one bit of acknowledgement when a replay of cake boss was on your tv with jin’s eyes flickering over to you repeatedly but he doesn’t receive an excited glance back
even yoongi found you oddly too quiet and he was tempted to pull out his phone to text you
it’s weirdly off
there’s something missing
namjoon was starting to get worried because you aren’t really engaged in this conversation with a topic he’s direly interested about
“and something done to that degree would just be far too suspicious, right?”
“mhmm yeah”
:(
even jungkook who’s kinda throwing himself at you and you’re just barely responding
he’s wriggling himself to fit by your side and just curl up and when he looks at you expectantly to do something, he just gets a pat on the head
a pat??????
hobi’s being over the top with his reactions right now to try and gauge a reaction from you but to no avail at all
normally he would’ve made you laugh or atleast smile at this point
but there’s nothing
just nothing
taehyung gets you alone on the couch because everyone else was just dispersed at this point and are bumping into each other asking if they knew what happened to you
jimin himself is pressured because he prides himself in being your closest friend aND HE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT’S GOING ON WITH YOU
tae is a lil bit more confident that he could coax out to why you were acting so differently
even gets far as to hold your hand and nuzzle his face to the crook of your neck
“everything okay, baby?”
god and he’s only called you baby only for a handful of times
“yeah”
that didn’t hurt taehyung’s ego
not at all
or make him overthink to why you’re not all that willing to open up to him nor even look interested in this conversation he’s carrying alone on his back
no not at all
not even when jimin has the most balls out of the group and is the testing point to see how the waters would go
while the night’s coming to an end and everyone’s slowly starting to settle in
“aha so where are we gonna crash anyway?”
you know what he’s trying to get at 
but seeing to it that what you just watched prior to this and perhaps for even a longer period besides that particular episode you don’t even wanna watch
you might as well not give anyone the sense of satisfaction nor pride; even if the question took you by surprise with how bluntly he addressed it
“uhm well the guest room now has two beds since some friends come over from time to time”
“but-”
“yeah the huge couch could fold over as a bed”
“but-”
“i could also-...”
“but y/n you have a king-sized bed!!”
jimin blurts out and almost whines out, a frown evident on his face as you keep your will not to break
“oh. just wanna sleep alone, jimin, yeah? kinda tired because of work today.”
he almost always gets what he wants and this blooming feeling inside him isn’t because of the embarrassment that you didn’t grant his wishes of just plopping beside you on your bed 
it’s because he’s thinking of why not
taehyung tries his best to just swallow the lump in his throat because he may or may not have daydreamed that he’d get to share beds with you
nothing but cuddling in his mind and the tiny bit of friskiness but that’s beside the point
he doesn’t wanna think about how there are no goodnight hugs
the closest thing to it was jungkook receiving a pat on the shoulder
because it happened that his arms were outsretched awkwardly
no cheek kiss for taehyung either
yeah it’s perhaps just fatigue as hobi tried to reason
they don’t know if they’re convincing each other or just themselves
maybe tomorrow would be better :D
...
aha no 
in fact at this point of morning when everyone knows that you’d be awake and it happens to be your off-day before the shoot tomorrow
and that whenever they’re around, you’d rather linger around them than to stay cooped in your room because you would be too sluggish then go back to sleep again
“blank always wants to be included it’s not funny anymore”
yeah you’d rather keep your pride at this point
jimin knocks again and you know you have no choice if you wanted this to go as discreet and as smooth as possible without raising suspicions that you knew
jin panicked for a moment because he was making french toast that he saw from damn milktpapi to try and catch your attention so when he hEARD your door click he was rapping litanies faster than the rapline ever could
they unconsciously just gravitate towards the couch and are practically hovering around you
you’re awfully quiet and the only input you give is when you’re asked a direct question
the only noise was coming from them reminiscing about their bv trip 
namjoon keeps bringing you up with “yahhh do u remember when y/n-....”
yoongi makes a point to keep laughing and have his arms protruding and therefore nudging you each time
at one point he almost shoves you but he’s barely met with a reaction
goddamn does he need to throw you off a cliff or something just to get a rise out of you
they really think that there must be something wrong 
so right when they wanted to open it up, they literally get interrupted but this time with a doorbell
you practically leap at that opportunity because quite literally were you saved by the bell
you don’t know who’s ringing your bell and why but you’re willing to take it 
jimin knows that you aren’t expecting anyone besides them as he’s made you promise
he might as well square up right now and be huffy about it
you’re bordering on confusion and curiosity as you open the door and even more-so your audience behind you who may or may not be in the same state
“theo??”
yoongi’s ears immediately perk up at that while his eyes go the widest
he’s toppling over as he scrambles for a vantage point that would get to see theo but without neither you nor theo seeing him
oh my god is this really your prfoessional basketball player for an ex-boyfriend
the boys are panicked to how yoongi’s acting and they even help him adjust his position even if they don’t know what it’s for
“wHAT YOONGI WHAT WHAT WHAT”
“BE QUIET”
he’s racking his brain for the description you gave and the picture you showed him
tall? intimidatingly. shoulders? perhaps even broader than seokjin’s. muscles? even more defined than jungkook when he lived in the gym. fluffy and silky-looking hair? enviously so :((
oh god it is theo
is he supposed to fanboy now
wait 
what was your ex doing here anyway
“i’m just gonna be out for a second, yeah?”
you say aimlessly and yoongi catches your gaze and he pretends to eat french toast while he’s stretched out on the floor to not break his cover
no one even has a chance to question nor respond because you’re already shutting the door
“WHO WAS THAT”
“WHY IS HE HERE”
“i sWEAR i saw him on tv once”
“taehyung are you ok”
yoongi’s bombarded and even if he’s shocked at the the turn of events because one second ur eating french toast with them and the next you’re out the door; he does have a bit more of an idea
“oh that was theo”
...
“are we supposed to automatically know who tHEO is???”
“you gonna add more context to that or????”
“even jimin doesn’t know!!!”
“theo’s a basketball player”
there are a couple of awed reactions
even namjoon’s explosive “aHHHHH so that’s where he’s from”
but there’s this question that’s begging to be asked
jimin taking front line as he asks with so much spite
“why is theo here then??”
this baffles yoongi too
most times he just doesn’t sugarcoat things and his mouth speaks the truth before he could even think of something else
“aish i don’t know i just know that she’s y/n’s ex so stop asking me if-...”
jimin’s in the corner with his mouth dropped, tongue poking at his cheek
“oh uhm i didn’t know that”
taehyung is sat on the floor with his attention not on the french toast anymore
eyes distant and not blinking as he’s nodding
“i see”
both jimin and taehyung clearly need time to process this bit of information
the conversation ends at that and everyone else staggers around
jimin’s in thought because why didn’t he know that??
shouldn’t he know that?
and what’s it with yoongi knowing instead of him?
taehyung, on the other hand, is conflicted with what he should feel
he’s jealous that’s for sure
the both of you covered masses of topics during the outing
but it never came to the topic of past flames
were you meaning not to tell him? or theo wasn’t talked about because the topic never came????
is this insecurity that he’s feeling
jungkook has to hold taehyung’s head still because he’s still nodding while deep in thought
you really weren’t expecting theo to show up at your doorstep
it’s in good intentions and you remained as friends but he was just too unexpected
“didn’t you know?? i’m gonna be one of those extras tomorrow for your airline commercial and it’s just a lil cameo but still!!! i don’t know i just wanted to visit you since i was in the area too :D”
and that’s what ended up with you coming with him to the little cafe at your complex with the promise that it was just gonna be quick and you’ll show him out
and perhaps that you don’t wanna be in the same room as them either
avoiding is good
yeah it would be good
:)
jimin doesn’t know what he’s trying to prove either but there’s this tug on his chest that basically yelled at him that he was a shitty friend
hasn’t been an hour ever since you left but he’s kinda sitting there fazed, whatever the other was saying coming in his ear and going out the other
“i lost my charger :(((”
jimin’s mindlessly answering to a pouty namjoon
“y/n has the same laptop. you could just get the charger by her desk”
he says naturally as if it’s clockwork and only waves him off when namjoon asks if it would be okay with you
he smiles at that and practically bounces to your unlocked room
quickly finds your desk and looks for a familiar charger
oh uhm it’s still connected to your laptop
jimin already said it was no worries so namjoon sleekly takes it out of the port with little hesitation
why did your laptop turn on
wait
is that his face??
is that
is that them in a hot tub
jimin’s wondering why namjoon is taking so long
he himself hasn’t been in your room for a long time and the thought makes him spring up
“hyung??”
fuck
oh god
it feels like freezing cold water was just splashed onto their spines without warning
jimin immediately pales
it’s taehyung who piles in last to your bedroom with all the commotion he could hear
he wants to absolutely deck himself 
everyone’s just speechless when they clicked play on the video even when they had this underlying feel to what it was
there’s a collective intake of sharp inhales because they couldn’t even finish the episode in which they basically talk shit about you for a solid three minutes
jimin has his face on his hands and he’s visibly stressed as everyone else is
couldn’t even tell on which blow was the hardest because they were all so harsh in their own ways
basically hit where it hurts most 
they were drunk beyond their comprehension and weren’t necessarily thinking
the episode was filmed pretty much in the first day of bv 
and whatever circumstance that night was in, it was still no excuse
absolutely no excuse to how they acted
maybe they took joking and overexaggerating too far
but whatever route they took, be it honest or not, no doubt that they were sure it hurt you
god a mental breakdown is already creeping at the back for all seven of them
tAEHYUNG’S SOBBING
jimin’s shaking
jungkook’s rubbing his eyes
jin and namjoon are repeating themselves
hobi’s dead silent
yoongi’s hands are practically trembling
it’s when you go home that you’ve momentarily forgotten that everything was going downwards because you spent the last hour or two being distracted by theo in just your pajamas
but it’s when you know that they know
and some can’t even look you in the eye
jimin’s the first to shoot up from his seat and god he looks somehow wrecked
“y/n i-...”
“m’sorry for being introlerable and all of those things, yeah? won’t happen again.”
everyone tenses at that
you shouldn’t even be apologetic!!
in fact they’re the ones who fucked up and you’re the one who’s acting as if you did
this makes them even more guilty
they all pipe in and try to point that out but you just easily drown them out with a tilt of your head
taehyung who’s standing by your doorframe just buffers as if to reach out for you but he retracts it quickly
they’ve really done it this time huh
it’s all just in characteristically empty spirits
the shooting next day was painful
having to drive together and be squished in between yoongi and jungkook whose mouths were so dry and eyes glossy
“i didn’t mean it”
jungkook first says under his breath and it’s quite a hitch in his throat when he adds on to it
“we weren’t thinking at all”
it’s a quiet show as jungkook and yoongi try to apologize to you and you’re in the middle trying to just sit through it all
it’s a quick nod as you have for a response before you hurriedly go down the van in perfect timing
you did listen and the apologies were sincere and heartfelt
just not too keen on forgiving something of that gravity in an instant
even with their promise that they could work something out to have that bit cut out or even scrap the whole episode if necessary
you just couldn’t wait to get the day over
you’re rigid with them and them trying to get to talk to you in between takes
the skits required more of them than you anyway so you just sat that one out
all while they try to get genuine with the feelings and lines indicated in their script
taehyung was the most distracted
even if people expected more of him given his acting credentials
and when it’s your turn to be filmed at, he can’t help staring
you looked blank
there’s this certain hyunbin (and also to your surprise) that’s gonna act as your co-pilot that got to make you smile a time or two after making a fool out of himself
if only taehyung knew that theo’s gonna be here as an extra
he would flip and THEN bawl
and as if things wouldn’t get even more unfavorable for you, they decide to cram in the photoshoot for the billboard at this very day too
multiple shoots of you being in the middle of them with a commercial-like smile
you having a solo one
them having one too
the boys wearing your airline’s flight attendant uniforms
trying to have a candid shot but all of you should be laughing and smiling as per the director
that was painful
that was really painful for the staff to watch
most painful for the eight of you
they even had to count to three so you could laugh together even if that takes away the essence of a candid shot
jimin wants so badly to hold you and talk to you
taehyung wants to get on his knees desperately if it means earning your forgiveness
the shoot raps and you’re zooming out the set
tae breaks down yet again because they’re gonna be held up by your ceo for awhile
:(
things feel empty and slow
everyone got around to texting you their apologies because as much as they’re desperate to apologize, they’ve done enough damage and respecting your space is the least they could do
that doesn’t stop jimin dropping in from time to time to leave something by your door
nor taehyung who doesn’t give up with all his texting and calling and sometimes waiting on your door
jimin and him coincidentially went at the same time and they just teared up and sulked together
you weren’t even home at that time
of course you’ve read their messages
trying to talk it out too as you’ve refused to succumb into your passive-aggressiveness
admittedly
you don’t wanna lose what you have either
:(
it’s only been two weeks so far
progress as you reply to texts here and there
slowly warming up again!!
namjoon earning back his partner for talking about movie symbolisms and perhaps everything wrong in this barren earth
seokjin getting to send you incorrect quotes from cake boss again left and right
hobi gaining his online shopping partner back 
yoongi making you promise that you’d hug him when he gets to see you again
jungkook vowing to teach you how to draw and makes sure to send daily content so he could make you switch wallpapers
jimin
well jimin
jimin’s going over the top as he has a lot to mend
but forgiveness was clear in the path and when you finally agreed to meet up with him after your shift
(he’s made the effort to wait for you in your lounge hours before as he got to pull some strings)
and then when you have a drink over it and talk about what happened properly, it just ends in a massive hug and some tears shed :((
“i missed u so much”
“i know”
“i could really be a fucking asshole sometimes”
“you are”
“you are none of those things and i don’t ever wanna stop having you as my friend”
“aha yes”
“you love me too much and i love you too much and this is forever now ok pls don’t get mad at me ever again”
basically everything was slowly returning back to normal
taehyung hasn’t texted you for a couple of days
even if you barely responded and miss him as much
it’s something you still have to come to terms with because his blows hit the hardest
you’re losing sleep just by thinking about him :(
you try to get on with your days with the knowledge that you get on with the six of them
things becoming more hectic for you because sometimes you forget that you’re famous now
but sometimes it was just lackluster if you were to admit
you basically sprint at the chance to pick up a normal shift again because you’ve missed flying
you liked being pampered for shoots but being tired from flying is the ache you’ve been craving for :((
it’s when you’re briefed that the plane you’d be flying isn’t your usual aircraft yet you still have the clearance for it
it’s when you just had the kick to be extra punctual and jump at the chance to greet passengers boarding
it’s these little extras in your day that you were so eager for things
that things just seem to be aligning
:)
taehyung’s by the front-most seat
hyunbin by his side as he gets up and goes to the cockpit to do nothing but take your place
it’s oddly warm just by looking at taehyung
no apologies have been said yet and it’s when that hyunbin practically says over the mic that “y/n take a seat and put your seatbelt on jesus christ” you do beside tae
the atmosphere’s just a loving type of warm
you really can’t explain it
it’s the same type of slow burn the both of you felt in the outing
the same anticipation you had for each other even if the other was doing the bare minimum
“hi”
taehyung croaks out after an eternity, a grin he tries to earnestly keep as it breaks out
“let’s talk.”
he’s nervous as he sees you relax to your seat, knowing in routine that the plane was to take off 
taehyung ever-so slightly shifts in his seat, shoulders touching with yours and hand in an armrest as he flexes them so slightly -- only supposed to be an attempt at a loving tease but it’s when you shift towards him and have your hand skim his for the slightest fraction
:)
“let’s talk.”
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Book Recs
Hello! so for my first post, I'll recommend some books, so y'all can have a closer look at some fandoms I'll post about! enjoy!!
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Harry Potter By J.K. Rowling is definitely an interesting, well-written series! there are 7 books however, and the books get bigger as the series progresses. It's sometimes difficult to know the exact order, so I'll list it below:
Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone (Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone)
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Although the movies are great, they don't include all the amazing details, as with all movies. A short summary:
Harry Potter, a young boy who’s being constantly abused by his uncle Vernon and aunt Petunia, gets a peculiar letter from the magical school of Hogwarts, where he spends most of his time, becoming his home.
Quotes:
“To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure." ― Albus Dumbledore
“You’re just as sane as I am" - Luna Lovegood
“Mischief managed" - Fred and George Weasley
It is Important to know that j*r is a huge transphobe, along with other things, and is currently being erased by the fandom itself.
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Percy Jackson and the Olympians, along with the other series by Rick Riordan, is a definite must-read. With each book, you can really notice the character developments and a lot more! There is loads of representation in this one, with lgbtqia+ characters, black characters, Muslim characters and more. It's very action-packed and addicting, sucking you into the magnificent world of Half-Bloods and Demigods within the first page. The first series consists of 5 books, in the following order:
Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief
Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters
Percy Jackson and the Titan's Curse
Percy Jackson and the Battle of The Labyrinth
Percy Jackson and the Last Olympian
THE MOVIES ARE TRASH SO I DEFINITELY DO NOT RECOMMEND WATCHING THEM BEFORE READING THE BOOKS!!! There were many changes and the movies aren't nearly as good as the books. A short summary:
Percy Jackson, a 12 year-old who lives with his mother, Sally, and step-father, Gabe, attends the private boarding school Yancy Academy. While on a school trip, his teacher, Mrs. Dodds, turns into a fury and attacks him. This, in turn, triggers a series of other problems and adventures.
Quotes:
“If my life is going to mean anything, I have to live it myself.” - Percy Jackson
“With great power, comes great need to nap. Wake me up later." - Nico Di Angelo
“Even strength has to bow down to wisdom sometimes." - Annabeth Chase
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The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins is one of my most recommended series! With everything it deals with, from the Capitol to the districts to the champions, the books are amazing! 
Order:
The Hunger Games
Catching Fire
Mockingjay
Starring the movies is the amazing Jennifer Lawrence, but with all books, the movies have slight differences, although I definitely recommend watching them when you're done with the books.
A Short Summary:
In what was once North America, the Capitol of Panem maintains its hold on its 12 districts by forcing them each to select a boy and a girl, called Tributes, to compete in a nationally televised event called the Hunger Games. Every citizen must watch as the youths fight to the death until only one remains. District 12 Tribute Katniss Everdeen has little to rely on, other than her hunting skills and sharp instincts, in an arena where she must weigh survival against love.
(FILM SYNOPSIS)
Quotes:
"May the odds be ever in your favor." - Effie Trinket
"Fire is catching, and if we burn, you burn with us!" - Katniss Everdeen
“Hope is the only thing stronger than fear.” - President Snow
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Divergent is another book with a huge fandom, and rightfully so. This book is amazing, and you honestly can't live without having read it!
Order:
Divergent
Insurgent
Allegiant 
Surprisingly, I haven't watched the movies yet, but I hear that they aren’t that bad, so you should give them a go!
Summary:
In a world run by fictional classes known as factions, children who reach the age of 16 begin to choose which factions they wish to call home for the rest of their lives. Each faction comes with its own ups and downs, so it's definitely a hard choice, especially for someone as unique as Beatrice.
Quotes:
“Becoming fearless isn't the point. That's impossible. It's learning how to control your fear, and how to be free from it“ - Four
“We believe in ordinary acts of bravery, in the courage that drives one person to stand up for another.” - Dauntless Motto
"We are not the same. But we are, somehow, one." - Tris
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You might have heard of this series, and it's really addictive, trust me! The Mortal Instruments is one of the most astonishing books I've ever read, and it's most definitely my go-to when recommending a book series!
Order:
City of Bones
City of Ashes
City of Glass
City of Fallen Angels
City of Lost Souls
City of Heavenly Fire
Again, (I know this is rather disappointing) I haven't watched the movies, but do check them out!
Summary:
Clary Fray's search for her missing mother leads her into an alternate New York called Downworld, filled with mysterious faeries, hard-partying warlocks, not-what-they-seem vampires, an army of werewolves, and the demons who want to destroy it all.
via: https://shadowhunters.com/shadowhunters-novels/the-mortal-instruments/#:~:text=Clary%20Fray's%20search%20for%20her,want%20to%20destroy%20it%20all.
Quotes:
“Heroes aren't always the ones who win. They're the ones who lose, sometimes. But they keep fighting, they keep coming back. They don't give up. That's what makes them heroes.” - Clary Fairchild
“If I cannot move Heaven, I will raise Hell.” - Sebastion Morgenstern
“The descent into Hell is easy.” - Motto of the Nephilim
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Gay. What more needs to be said?
SADLY, there isn't a movie yet, but I think they're working on one, or sure though
Summary:
Set in a world in which a female Democrat from Texas wins the presidency in 2016, Red, White & Royal Blue chronicles the illicit romance between the president's son, Georgetown senior Alex Claremont-Diaz (Dad is a Mexican-American senator), and Prince Henry of Wales, his childhood nemesis.
Via: https://www.wsj.com/articles/red-white-royal-blue-book-summer-beach-read-11565285001#:~:text=Set%20in%20a%20world%20in,of%20Wales%2C%20his%20childhood%20nemesis.
Also, classic enemies-friends-lovers arc and honestly it's amazing
Quotes:
“As your mother, I can appreciate that maybe this isn’t your fault, but as the president, all I want is to have the CIA fake your death and ride the dead-kid sympathy into a second term.” - Ellen Claremont 
" 'that’s because you can’t hear all the menacing gobbling.' 'Yes, famously the most sinister of all animal sounds, the gobble.' " - Harry and Alex
"History, huh? Bet we could make some." - Alex
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I’m sure you've heard at least a little bit about this book. While not nearly as famous as ones mentioned above, it's still just as good, of not better. I'd say this book is one of my favorites, to be honest. It speaks about a lot of topics people usually find disturbing, and it makes me so happy that it's there, it's written, it's amazing. PTSD, coming out issues, abusive relationships and more, this book is truly awesome.
TRIGGER WARNING 
Summary:
A young boy named Charlie usually dissociates, and pushes other people away. He’s afraid of beginning high school, until he meets two other students who show him how bizarre and amazing the world is.
Quotes:
“And in that moment, I swear we were infinite” - Charlie
“We accept the love we think we deserve” - Mr. Anderson
“You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love" - Sam
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This book is honestly pro-feminist and I think that's much more than enough
Summary:
Kaur explores the true impact of sexual abuse and harassment, as well as the difficulties of immigrating, being a female, and depression.
It's also a poem
TRIGGER WARNING
Quotes:
“what is stronger
than the human heart
which shatters over and over
and still lives”
“you do not just wake up and become the butterfly 
- growth is a process”
“on the last day of love
my heart cracked inside my body"
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This book isn't very well-known, which really sucks because I really love how it speaks about the consequences of WWII from the German point of view. And about the Germans who did not believe in Hitler's ways. It's also based on a real story, and it's so cool
Summary: 
A nurse working in a nursing home meets a peculiar old lady who decides to tell her her story when she meets the nurse's younger son, Karl, who reminded her of her brother. Lizzie (the old lady) speaks about life in Dresden before the war, and even after it. She also tells them the story about the strange, magnificent elephant in her garden.
Quotes:
“That was the only way of keeping our hopes alive, by looking beyond all we were seeing around us, and the shadow of disaster that hung over us.” - 
“I think I have always had a strong sense of justice, of fair play, of what is right and what is wrong.” - 
“Our home should be an oasis of peace and harmony for us in a troubled world.” - Lizzie (Quoting Papi)
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This book is pro-blm and it's ahead of its time (by like 2 years but still). 
Summary:
Sixteen-year-old Starr Carter moves between two worlds: the poor neighborhood where she lives and the fancy suburban prep school she attends. The uneasy balance between these worlds is shattered when Starr witnesses the fatal shooting of her childhood best friend Khalil at the hands of a police officer. via: https://socialjusticebooks.org/the-hate-u-give/#:~:text=Sixteen%2Dyear%2Dold%20Starr%20Carter,hands%20of%20a%20police%20officer.
Quotes:
“Sometimes you can do everything right and things will still go wrong. The key is to never stop doing right.” - Lisa
“Daddy once told me there’s a rage passed down to every black man from his ancestors, born the moment they couldn’t stop the slave masters from hurting their families. Daddy also said there’s nothing more dangerous than when that rage is activated.” - Starr
“Everybody wants to talk about how Khalil died,” I say. “But this isn’t about how Khalil died. It’s about the fact that he lived. His life mattered. Khalil lived!” I look at the cops again. “You hear me? Khalil lived!” - Starr
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purplesurveys · 4 years ago
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What’s the most historic thing that has happened in your lifetime? I can think of a few things. There’s 9/11 though I was barely conscious then, Osama Bin Laden’s death, the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami, 2011 Japan earthquake, and the H1N1 and Covid pandemics. In my country, there were typhoons Ondoy and Yolanda, the Manila hostage crisis, and the Hello Garci election corruption scandal. Out of these, though, I’d say the heaviest ones to bear have been 9/11 and Covid.
What happens in your country regularly that people in most countries would find strange or bizarre?
We use a spoon and fork to eat and only really fancy shmancy restaurants give you a knife and a fork. Many eat with their hands as well, though this is way more common in provinces.
Everyone is late to everything and punctuality isn’t a thing, which is a big culture pet peeve of mine and I still like arriving early/on time anywhere.
This applies to Asia in general lmao, but shoes typically aren’t allowed or at least frowned upon if they go beyond the main entrance of houses.
We start Christmas as early as September, and we end it by the last week of January
When families get together, aunts/uncles will usually greet their nieces/nephews by asking if they already have a boy/girlfriend and/or telling them that they got fat. Horror relatives will greet you with both.
People generally like to keep to themselves, so striking a friendly conversation with strangers even if you have the pure, genuine intention to be simply friendly will just lead them to think you’re being a creep lol
What has been blown way out of proportion? The effects of video games and the question of it increasing violence among kids. Sure there’ve been gruesome accounts and no one’s invalidating those, but the overwhelmingly vast amount of people who play video games end up okay. I had so many killing binges on GTA but to this day I can’t even look at a real gun without shuddering, lol. When was a time you acted nonchalant but were going crazy inside? This is me every morning at work. 9 AM-11 AM is always the busiest period and it’s a lot of shit happening at the same time and a lot of morning deadlines to meet, but unlike college I can’t exactly call for a timeout whenever I want and have panic attacks anymore.
What’s about to get much better? I hope my fucking life is next in line. I’m tired of being tired of being tired.
What are some clever examples of misdirection you’ve seen? Probably all the times WWE would mislead viewers on a rumored return or debut of a big name by saying they’re in another city, implying that there’s no way they’d be appearing on a WWE show. This happened with Ronda Rousey and it was so fucking exciting when she finally showed up, haha.
What’s your funniest story involving a car? I don’t know, really...I don’t try to be funny when I’m on the wheel lol. Probably the time I let Angela use my car on campus, and when she needed to make a u-turn she ended up doing an awkward 90º turn and had an SUV nearly crash towards us. She had only driven a handful of times at that point so she was a little clumsy, but neither of us had any idea she’d fuck up a simple u-turn as badly as she ended up doing lmao.
What would be the click-bait titles of some popular movies? I can think of more clickbait posters than titles, but I can’t seem to remember what those films are called right now.
If you built a themed hotel, what would the theme be and what would the rooms look like? Themed hotels generally make me cringe. The most theme-y place we ever stayed at was the lodge in Sagada and it was really just more homey than anything. I’m not into themes when it comes to hotels as I find it a little cheap lol and I’ve always preferred a straightforward experience in the places I stay at for vacations.
What scientific discovery would change the course of humanity overnight if it was discovered? A way to live forever. < This is a good one. Also, maybe a huge asteroid or meteor bound to hit the planet that will make widespread extinction a certainty? I can’t even begin to imagine the panic that will rise from something like that.
Do you think that humans will ever be able to live together in harmony? I doubt it. It sounds difficult especially when you realize we’re 7 billion in total.
What would your perfect bar look like? As long as there aren’t any annoying younger college kids, who are almost always the loudest crowd and not in a good way, I’m okay with any kind of bar.
What’s the scariest non-horror movie? Some shots in 2001: A Space Odyssey are freaky as fuck. There were several scenes that included sudden HAL shots, and I did not enjoy those. How the fuck Kubrick managed to make a computer scary is beyond me. I’ve also always skipped the vortex scene with the creepy face shots after seeing it once.
What’s the most amazing true story you’ve heard? This is a really vague question... a few months ago I watched this video diary of parents who had a child born at like 25 weeks. Just way too early, basically. And they recorded the kid’s weekly progress, how she kept fighting, and her journey of being transported from one machine to another while she still needed them. It was beautiful to see her get bigger and plumper with each week that passed and it was just such a feel-good story to watch. I was so relieved when they showed footage of her as a normal, healthy toddler by the end of the clip.
What’s the grossest food that you just can’t get enough of? I know balut is pretty unpopular in the Western part of the world, but I’ll gladly eat a dozen of them in one sitting. In general Asian street food is usually considered gross - pig intestines, chicken intestines, chicken feet, pig ears, etc., but all are normal in the culture I was raised in.
What brand are you most loyal to? It’s annoying and I can’t help it, but Apple.
What’s the most awkward thing that happens to you on a regular basis? I try not to make it regular, but sometimes a mistake on my end will slip through in an email I’m sending and I have to send another email correcting myself and apologizing for the oversight. One of my least favorite parts about work.
If you had to disappear and start a whole new life, what would you want your new life to look like? I’m not wishing for much. I just wish it was easier to remove any trace of me on social media sites and have it be as if I never existed because I think that would make it easier for me to move on from...well, you know what. I still have trouble verbalizing it and I don’t feel like mentioning it tonight.
But idk, I like staying connected to my family and friends, so idk if I can ever achieve that. And that said, I think I’m bound to always keep seeing her around.
What movie or book do you know the most quotes from? I memorize a pathetic amount of dialogue from Love Actually, Twilight, Titanic, and The Proposal.  What was one of the most interesting concerts you’ve been to? I guess Coldplay? They gave assigned lightsticks for each section and the crowd looked amazing when the production crew activated the lights for certain songs. I still have some of the clips because I posted them on Snapchat, so I’m really glad I did that; otherwise I would’ve lost the videos forever.
Where are you not welcome anymore? I’ve felt pretty unwelcome around her. How she could do a 180 and just not be interested in having anything to do with me is really soul-crushing.
What do you think could be done to improve the media? Fact fucking check, please. Also keeping sources balanced, avoiding clickbait headlines, being more objective than neutral, and don’t fucking sensationalize. How timely that this landed on a journalism graduate, hahaha.
What’s the most recent show you’ve binge watched? Start Up but I haven’t continued in the last two weeks :/ I think it’s because I know I’m nearing the finale and I subconsciously just don’t want to run out of Start Up episodes to watch lol but yeah, I still have four episodes left and I have no clue when I’ll watch it again.
What’s a common experience for many people that you’ve never experienced? Being close with their mom and considering them as their rock.
What are some misconceptions about your hobby? I don’t know enough about embroidery to know misconceptions about it.
What did you Google last? 2001: A Space Odyssey because I needed to be sure of the scenes I planned on citing in the question above that made me mention the movie.
What’s the dumbest thing someone has argued with you about? Not being able to find a restaurant to eat at. The backstory is a little complicated but it’s the same fight that led my younger brother to slap me across the face, and what subsequently led me to stop speaking to him.
If money and practicality weren’t a problem, what would be the most interesting way to get around town? Probably a tank.
What’s the longest rabbit hole you’ve been down? It’s always the ones on Wikipedia lol. I find weird and interesting articles on there all the time; there’s always something new to read.
What odd smell do you really enjoy? The rain, though sometimes it can be too overpowering when the humidity has been high. I like it for the most part, though.
What fashion trend makes you cringe or laugh every time you see it? Streetwear is so fucking dull to me. I never saw the appeal.
What’s your best story of you or someone else trying to be sneaky and failing miserably? Hahahaha this happened just a few weeks ago actually. My parents and I were headed out to have some ramen, and I opened the car door to hop onto the backseat. They didn’t prepare beforehand and they left the Christmas gift I asked for - a corkboard - in the backseat, so I was able to see the whole thing, unwrapped and with price tag and all. Their mortified faces knowing that their secret’s been blown were hilarious. They had no choice but to just give it up, and the corkboard has been on my wall since.
If you had a HUD that showed three stats about any person you looked at, what three stats would you want it to show? I guess the stability of our relationship, their general mood for the day, and erm how badly they need a hug because I’m always willing to give some.
What’s the best way you or someone you know has gotten out of a ticket / trouble with the law? My mom fake-cries her way out and it’s always been hilarious to see a grown ass woman do it and pull it off every time.
Tear gas makes people cry and laughing gas makes people giggle, what other kinds of gases do you wish existed? I don’t really want to manipulate people’s action in this way, so pass.
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thewritingginger · 5 years ago
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Sending Pictures -  Jumin Han x Reader
Warning: this is a crack fic and may cause you to cringe, viewers discretion is advised 🙃
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You feel yourself stir awake, the morning rays basking your room in warm light. 
Sitting up in nothing but one of Jumin’s stripped dress shirts and black underwear, you notice on your bedside table there is a little note that has your name printed on it. Once you open the note a smile paints across your face.
The note read, “Have a great day, my love. ~ Jumin”
Placing the note back on the table you get up to the bathroom to brush your teeth and wash your face. 
After you were done in the bathroom you go back into the bedroom to get changed for the day. But before you did that a mischievous idea popped into your head. With a glimmer in your eyes and smirk on your lips you grabbed your phone and propped yourself atop your bed on your knees to take a little ‘good morning’  picture for Jumin. 
Fixing your hair slightly, placing one of your hands behind your ear you give a sweet smile to the camera. 
You send it with the caption, 
“Morning Jumin ~ ❤️”
Once you pressed send you released a slight giggle, feeling giddy from your actions. 
You get up and head to the kitchen to make breakfast as you await Jumin’s response.
Jumin is currently in his office going over reports and responding to emails when he hears his phone ding. After finishing up a thought for an email he pulls away to check who had messaged him. 
A small smile makes its way to his lips when he sees your name with a good morning text. Seeing you had sent a picture, out of curiosity he opened up your message. 
His eyes damn near fell out of his head when he saw what was on his phone screen. He eyes are glued to the naughty photo you had decided to send him while he was at work. His eyes racking your figure in all its glory. How your hair falls perfectly around your face, the light pink hue thats dusts your cheeks and the look you are giving him through the camera. Pairing such an innocent look while baring your form to him brings a war between his mind and his body.
Trailing his eyes from your lips, down the peaks and valleys of your breasts and hips. Admiring the way his shirt hangs on your smaller frame.
Once he had thoroughly examined the image, he sees another message.
“Can I see a picture of you too?”
Once those words had entered his mind it took him a minute to register what you had asked of him, and in that moment with out thinking he started fumbling in his desk chair, taking off his blazer, tie and shirt. Articles of clothing seeming to be strewn about without question. 
Taking off his belt deemed itself challenging for it didn’t seem to want to come off. Throwing in on his desk with with a clatter, undoing the button and zipper pf his pants. He hits his knee under the desk, but that doesn't stop him he has to fulfill his kitten’s wishes. 
Pulling himself out of his trousers he tries to take a picture.
During this process a knock sounds from the door, “Mr. Han, is everything alright in there?” Jeahee’s voice is heard on the other side obviously concerned from the raucous from inside her bosses office.
In his flustered state he responds, “U-uh yes, everything is under control in here.”  cursing under his breath he whispers “Fuck, why is every picture I take blurry?” 
Still worried by the state Jumin seems to be in, but she doesn’t know if she really wants to know what is happening on the other side of the door, so she just responds with “O-ok if you say so...” before she heads back to her desk slightly confused.
After many what seem to be failed attempts he finds what he believes to be the best picture and sends it.
You are now sitting at the dinning table eating your breakfast watching T.V. when your phone buzzes. Taking the bit had on your fork before setting it down you quickly grab your phone hoping Jumin had replied back. 
A surge of excitement rushes through your body when you see that it was in fact him. You open his message and your jaw almost dropped to the ground when you see what looks to be a slightly out of focus, half nude photo of your lover with the words, “I hope this meets your expectations 💜”
A part of you was surprised he did it at work, but another part of you liked really liked. 
While giving the photo another gander a small voice in your head says, “I gotta teach that boy how to take a proper photo.”
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Welp... I did a thing 😝
I hope whomever fold themselves reading this enjoyed it
Never wrote a “crack fit” before and I hope it was good 😅 
I had fun making it! 
This was inspired by @thwippersnapple‘s art
Here is the link to what inspired this :3
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tiredbiostudent · 5 years ago
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hey! I'm also a bio student in my first year. any tips on surviving uni as a science student? 😊💕
disclaimer I am absolutely the worst person to ask for university advice but I will try my best! might be unconventional but if ur a chronic procrastinator slash don’t have motivation or know how to study slash have mental Chillness™ this could be for u! kinda general, kinda science related. enjoyyy
-Mendeley is a GODSEND. it’s a program you can download for free to your laptop and makes organizing/reading through and annotating scientific papers so much easier. plus it recommends articles relevant to ones you’re using! this could be helpful in a lot of ways but it provided me a ton of cool papers I want to read related to my interests (bc I wrote a paper on what I’m into yk)-kinda related: if you’ve found an awesome article that supports your data/argument, check the references to find more useful papers!
-you don’t always need to buy the textbook. if the professor says they won’t be testing you directly on textbook material, don’t buy it! even if it’s recommended. I mean if you gain a lot from reading then go for it, but usually it’s friggen expensive and you never end up using it (plus they usually have a couple books on hold at the library for students to use)
-do not pull all nighters. one hour of sleep is better than zero, pleaseee trust me. (source: I have pulled too many all nighters, once even two back to back! yikes! and the aftermath is always shitty)
-kinda obvious but... keep everything organized! find what works for you. personally I like to have everything scheduled on google calendar + my bujo, but also keep a sheet posted in my room with only things I have to hand in or tests in chronological order, so I know exactly what I have to do/hand in each week
-for labs- do as much prep + as much of the in lab assignment as you can beforehand! labs can get stressful and time flies quickly
-you’re not gonna remember anything you think you will so write that shit down bruv
-did you procrastinate too much and now you have to watch a 45 minute video before your class that starts in half an hour?? don’t fear, just put your playback speed to 1.5x or up B)
-go to lecture bro. even if you aren’t able to focus or take notes, at the very least you’ll have some sort of idea of what was talked about and things to focus on or not
-when picking courses- try to find the most recent syllabi. sometimes the department website will post them, other times you can try googling the course name and it’ll come up. this is super helpful bc it gives you an actual insight into the content and marking scheme
-chronic procrastination gang: GO SOMEWHERE TO STUDY. I cannot study or get anything done in my room literally at all, so find 3-5 solid spots on campus (or wherever) you’re able to be productive, and cycle thru them during the week.
-if you’re scared to ask ur prof questions (like me!) ask your TA during lab/tutorial- usually they’re way less intimidating and usually are a student who took the course fairly recently, so they can give u legit advice
-if you’re having a shitty day, blast music while walking thru campus and pretend you’re in a movie (recommendations: the less I know the better by tame impala, remember when by wallows, myth by beach house)
-listening in on questions ppl ask in lab and exams is actually so helpful dsfshdfjfksd
-you don’t have to start the assignment right away, but it’s always a good idea to at least look over the guidelines so you know what you have to do.
-research experience can be pretty important but also intimidating and stressful. I always wanted to get involved but never knew how! I wish someone told me straight up what to do when I was in first year so: a. go to the bio (or whichever) department website for your university and search through the professor listings. usually it’ll include a blurb about what their research focuses on, if they have a lab with the university.b. find a lab you’re interested in, read a bit about it, and send a professional-ish, friendly email telling them you’re interested in getting involved in the lab! include things that stood out to you too. and you don’t need experience either, just let them know you’re enthusiastic and eager to learn, or any other relevant stuff.
I hope this was kinda helpful? feel free to message me or send more asks if you want anymore /bad/ advice :)
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saint-patrice · 5 years ago
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“Tbh I would like to have the 34 *other* Bergy pics on your shortlist, complete with commentary lolol. And then (if you’re still waiting that is) any other Marchy pics with commentary? xD xD” 
here are some more of my favourite marchy pics, complete with my bizarre personal commentary, for anon! the 34 bergy pics can be found here also!
Note: a few people have said they like these posts, so i’m up for taking people’s requests if there’s a particular player they’d like to see! inbox is always open (and anon is on) so just drop me your request and i’ll get working on it :)
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okay so this is some absolutely premium cute marchy!! the smile that manages to be completely self-confident yet in no way cocky? the polite little wave as he surveys his audience who, if i recall correctly, were booing him heavily?? oh i do love you mr rat. marchy is fantastic and i have so much respect for the way he deals with his reputation across the league and the excessive amount of shit he gets.he knows what people think of him yet doesn’t seem to let it get to him. i have so much love for him.
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KATRINA IS LEGENDARY. before moving on to the part of the image that gave me whiplash when i first saw it, we’re back to talking about brad’s smile. i think i said it in my last post but he really is one of those people who smiles with their whole face - even if you just saw his eyes in this photo you can immediately tell that he’s got that little grin on his face and that’s adorable tbh. now onto the d*lf mug (censored bc i fear the dodgy underground porn blogs these days)… i don’t even know where to start. i feel like he very proudly bought it for himself. and it’s like the only mug he ever wants to drink out of. just my take. i also think the longer hair really suits marchy ngl
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ahhh the boys and their dirtbag christmas suits 💛 highlights of this image are the suit jacket that is definitely just one size too small for this absolute man rocket, and the pants with “FRAGILE” plastered all over them - very relatable if not at all festive.
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gay rights are stored in the rat!!! i’m glad marchy has been pretty open about his support of LGBT stuff, particularly within hockey. also i feel like some of the stuff he’s said in interviews or social media (esp re: lickgate) manages, even if not intentionally, to be quite diminutive towards implicit homophobia or ‘toxic masculinity’ within hockey. okay maybe that that was poorly expressed but basically he just doesn’t give a shit and appears very open and accepting and i think that’s super nice. this picture also makes for a good reaction image when someone says something dumb
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short kings love.jpeg !! a wonderful example of the love that brad shows his teammates on a regular basis, despite his constant chirping. i have no real opinions on torey krug (no h8, i just don’t think i’ve seen that much of him off ice so idk) but him and marchy are quite the duo tbh, i live for their back and forths on twitter - more on that later - and they seem to love each other an awful lot, it’s v cute :^)
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that’s my pest™. honestly i think lickgate is one of the best scandals in recent hockey history. when looking for a good image of this is saw an article where some dipshit reporter was outraged about it and was like “how would you feel if someone just came up and liked you?” i mean what if someone just came up and started punching you or hip-checked you into the wall????? hockey is a nasty game a lot of the time, and instead of giving people concussions or broken bones (not that he hasn’t in the past ik…) marchy managed to make opposing teams just as angry, if not moreso, just by licking players. i think it’s fucking hilarious. and most of them took it well in hindsight anyway - i think it was komarov who said he kinda liked it lmaoooooo. peak bradley kevin antics if you  ask me
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every pic from the china trip has such a special place in my heart. this is just an all-round adorable photo and brad is looking gorgeous in the sunlight and his backwards cap
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brad waving the towel in surrender is just about the funniest thing i’ve ever seen someone do in the penalty box… i can’t believe they gave him a 10 minute misconduct for it, something i think they’d wouldn’t have done if it had have been someone else. at least someone in this league has a goddamn sense of humour. the penalty minutes stat in the corner just makes this even better
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brad, once again, showing us how we should deal with people talking shit about us - just get on board with it. i love how much he’s just embraced his massive nose and his height and his general reputation. idk if it’s really deliberate but i think it’s such a good message to send, and it makes for some pretty funny stuff too.
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brad single-handedly keeps nhl refs in a job. in my bruins drinking game™ you have to take a shot every time the ref has to physically restrain marchy (2 if it’s because he was going to get revenge or fend for bergy) and you could get fucked off that alone during some games. it was nice to see him not actually get suspended this year, but i will always love that he’s such a physical player and quite the pest on the ice :))
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me: *slaps helmet of brad marchand* this bad boy can fit so much personality.
really though, can you believe he’s managed to squeeze more charisma into only 5 feet and 9 inches than 85% of the league combined… very cute picture, and always lovely to see him by bergy’s side on the ice where he belongs
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oh my goddddddd how fucking cute is this though!!!! the hat! the dad energy those jeans and the boots give off!!! his face!! his little daughter!!!!! i can’t take it, my heart is going to burst.
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(gif via @kureally) this is also just so cute, i need a minute. brad has some very powerful eyebrows and this gif displays them wonderfully. this section of behind the b was also pretty sweet all round, and i agree with pasta that the hair is looking pretty first class
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(gif via @murlin09) i am not like into marchy (no tea no shade if u are though), but this gif… whew. i’ll let you come to your own conclusions on this one, gang
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i was not lying when i said more on the brad-torey social media antics earlier. there are some truly iconic chirps (the zamboni one is lethal), but this self-roast just kills me every time. i never once thought i’d read a tweet from the official brad marchand twitter account that opened with “hey shorty” but here we are. “my nose wouldn’t fit” i astral projected the first time i read that. and if you’re wondering what torey said to prompt this, it was simply “hey marchy”. it doesn’t take much for brad to light on you, huh? we better watch our backs
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definitely a favourite marcheron pic right here - the pucks and paddles (i still think that’s a questionable name but maybe that’s a me issue) content is always top notch. if you can find the video, it’s even better, but this picture captures the general energy of the video perfectly. the only thing missing is that brad’s feet aren’t actually on the floor because the height difference is so pronounced that bergy has to lift him. beautiful
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return of the cute brad smile!! a cute yet mischievous little grin, i can only assume he’s restraining himself from laughing at m*tthews fivehead (although who is he to talk with that schnozz. at least he rocks it tbf 👃🏻). not sure blue is really his colour but he’s going for it anyway. that’s my all star!
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it’s been days since this photo first surfaced and i haven’t stopped palpitating. the cutest photo ever, they all look so happy and i love that!!! also how are their wives so beautiful….!? oh my every pixel of this image is just stunning
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i know i included this in my last bergy list but if they can name new york twice i think i can put this on 2 lists, because lord knows it’s even more iconic. i feel like this is a good metaphor for brad marchand: getting up to no good, although still relatively harmless, all the while supported by the considerably more sensible, yet still entertaining, patrice bergeron. additionally, another excellent display of the oft-overlooked fact that this man is built like a motherfucking tank. holy shit
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i wish i could see these boys in suits without my brain immediately trying to think of some sort of au. anyway, i really like this look on brad (unpopular opinion - i love his loud checkered suits as a concept but i don’t think they look good). although he has dark hair, strong eyebrows, and dark facial hai, the all black actually looks really good on him. coffee in hand really adding to the look too - well done, brad “fashionista” marchand.
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ahhhhh i love nothing more than family man marchy 💛 his daughter is adorable - those tiny jerseys kill me - and i love that his son is wearing the all-star jersey omg how cute (he is definitely going to end up taller than brad lmao)
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sometimes i forget that brad is short and then i see photos like this (brandon is 6′5 for reference)…amazing. i relate to the lady on the left on a spiritual level. brad’s face is a mood and a half. his feet are half a foot of the ice at least. i adore this photo.
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(gif via @brandoncarlo) absolutely one of my fav things about watching bruins games is how brad and patrice will always find each other during a celly - nothing beats the 100 hug. this is also just a very satisfying skating gif that i love.
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last but very very very far from least is this. there is literally no need for me to make any comment on this so i’m just going to leave it and go. bradley kevin marchand you are iconic and ily
ayyy this was super fun to do, thank you for requesting it anon, i hope you like!! again, i’m absolutely up for taking requests for more of these lists so hmu if you have ideas :) 
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Snow Over Insomnia: ch. 1
Pairings: Gladnis, promptis
Theme: snowed in
Summary:
Once a year, Shiva blesses Insomnia with snowfall. This year's snow day finds four friends in transition. There's Noctis, who's trying his best to enjoy freshman year. With his best friend Prompto enrolled at a different college, it hasn't been easy. When a particularly controversial lecture puts Noctis on the spot, he says some things he regrets. Can he make amends before their friendship freezes over?
Meanwhile, there's Gladiolus, who's finding it increasingly difficult to deny his feelings for coworker and friend Ignis Scientia. The appearance of a mysterious figure from Ignis's past might just be the sign that it's time to come clean. Will Gladio make a move, or will he let the opportunity melt away?
PT. I: 10:12 hours
It was a good thing Noctis had remembered to mute his laptop before class started, because he received his first message from Prompto just twelve minutes into the lecture.
Prompto: brrrr! Freezing my a$$ off this morning
A selfie instantly followed: Prompto in a warm jacket and white beanie, grimacing up at the camera with a steaming coffee cup clutched in his gloved hand.
Noctis: heh. nice pic. whatcha drinking?
Prompto: mocha moogle latte. Yummm ;P
Noctis: all that sugar is gonna give you a headache
Prompto: hahaha yeah, probably. but i need some caffeine. i couldnt sleep all night thinking about that presentation!!!!  。゜(`Д´)゜。
Prompto: so we still getting snowed in tonight?
Noct's smile widened. It wasn’t often that Shiva graced the arid landscape of Lucis with her affections, but at least once a year, snow fell on the city of Insomnia. Sometimes it was a few flakes, sometime just sleet. On rare occasions, such as the one predicted by Insomnian weather channels on this particular day, it was a blizzard.
Noctis: heck yeah! hope you're ready to binge some King’s Knight.
Prompto: ugh am i ever. so ready to chill after getting this presentation out of the way…
Noctis leaned back in his chair, brow furrowing. He cast a quick glance at projector screen down at the front of the hall: a slide about the Lucian civil war.
Noctis: y? U nervous?’
Prompto: yeah
Prompto: stomach hurts
Prompto: p sure im gonna throw up
Noctis: relax, prom
Noctis: you've been practicing a lot, right?
Noctis: you're gonna be great
Prompto: dude you have no idea what id give to hear you say that rn
Prompto: i wish we still went to the same school
Prompto:  。゜(`Д´)゜。
A dull, tight ache formed in the center of Noct's chest. He shifted uncomfortably in his seat, the reply coming slower this time.
Noctis: me too.
Prompto: yeah...
Prompto: too bad my best friend has to go to a fancy schmancy ivy league school for geniuses (¬‿¬)
Noctis rolled his eyes.
Noctis: im not here cuz im a genius, prom
Prompto: his majesty is sooooo modest ;)
Noctis: srlsy
Noctis: im like most of the ppl here. average.
Noctis: the only genius ive met so far is specs
Prompto: lol youre just saying that to make me feel better
Noctis: nah. youre way cooler than like half of the people here
Prompto: ♥‿♥
Prompto: too bad i cant afford the tuition lol. id kill to have iggy as my teacher
Noctis glanced up from his computer. From his own seat in the center of the hall, Ignis was just a small figure behind an even smaller podium. Still, Noctis had to admit that Specs was definitely in his element at the front of a classroom. His fitted grey sweater, crisp collar and perfectly coiffed hair were every bit the image of the up-and-coming academian. The freshmen in the front row hung dreamily on every elegant gesture of his gloved hands as his voice rang out through the hall, crisp and clear as water. He said something that sent a murmur of laughter through the rows of desks. Noctis smiled.
Noctis: yeah its not bad
Prompto: duh!! hes probably way cooler than all of my professors combined
Prompto: anyway, g2g. Gonna try to run through my presentation one more time before class starts
Prompto: (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)
Noctis: dont worry prom. Youre gonna kick this presentation in the ass.
Prompto: thanks dude
Prompto: catch ya later
Noctis let his gaze linger on the final message, Iggy’s melodic tones lilting in the background. He tuned in long enough just to get the gist of the topic (ugh - still on the Lucian civil war). He turned his attention back to his laptop and clicked on an open tab, which took him directly to Prompto’s ChocoGram feed. There weren’t any new updates, but that didn’t stop him from smiling as he reviewed some of the earlier posts: Prompto getting ready to dig into a steaming, greasy pizza; a #tbt selfie featuring the baby chocobo they’d helped rescue during their summer road trip to Lestallum; a prank-selfie with a drooling, sleeping Gladio. Noctis chuckled. He’d been there when Prompto had taken that one. Even Gladio had agreed that the shot was just too good not to share.
He continued scrolling. A bunch of people Noctis didn't know, probably at a party; a filtered, black-and-white shot of a glistening, neon lit alley; a selfie with some guy Noctis had never seen before; a picture of the school’s mascot, tagged #gocactuars; Prompto wearing glasses…
Wait a second.
Noctis scrolled back to the photo of Prompto and the stranger. “Hanging with the coolest TA around,” read the caption. Tagged: #whenyourfriendhasthesamemajor, #collegelife #insomniaboys.
Friend, huh?
Noct’s eyes narrowed. He silently listed off any names he’d heard Prompto mention over the past semester as he analyzed the man’s features: platinum hair; a strong chin; sharp, intelligent eyes whose color he couldn’t quite discern through the ChocoGram filter. He let the cursor hover over the smug, obnoxious grin. A tagged username appeared: “Ghiranzenator.”
Before Noctis could really stop to self-reflect, he was scrolling through Ghiranzenator’s feed. It was the kind of content you’d expect from a twenty-something with a pompadour and generic good looks. Gym selfies tagged #fitnesslifestyle; poses in scenic, well-known locations captioned with thought-provoking yet totally irrelevant quotes (ugh, so pretentious). He wondered how Prompto even knew this guy. Was he the TA for one of Prompto’s classes? Did they have mutual friends? If so, why hadn’t Prompto mentioned him before? But now that Noctis thought about it, like really thought about it, he hadn’t really heard Prompto say a whole lot about any of the new friends he was making at school.
Wasn't that kind of weird?
A crumpled wad of paper plummeted through his thoughts, ricocheting off his forehead. Noct's head snapped in the direction it had come from. His eyes were met by a vision of Gladio, squeezed into a desk barely large enough to accommodate his lanky frame.
“Pay. Attention,” he mouthed, cocking his head in Iggy’s direction.
Noctis scowled. That was the one downside of having his bodyguard disguised as a classmate. Gladio was just all too ready to make sure Noct behaved like a good little student. The plus side was that Noct had at least one friend who could commiserate with his suffering.
Like now, for instance. A fan club member from the front row was monologuing, earning exasperated looks from his classmates. Noctis and Gladio exchanged a few muffled snickers.
“Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, Cleetus,” Ignis cut in, his voice laced with a strain so barely audible that Noct and Gladio were probably the only ones who even picked up on it. “As you have noted for us, it is quite interesting that most rebel demands would be considered centrist by modern standards. However, we should recognize one deconstructionist philosopher whose theories remain polarizing even to this day.”
Ignis went to the next slide. A portrait of a wide-jawed man with a face only a mother garula could love brooded down from the display screen.
“Oh great,” Noctis muttered, drawing a confused look from Gladio. “Not this guy…”
"Regulus Invicta," Ignis continued, "is remembered as one of the strongest advocates for freedom of speech throughout the history of Lucis. However, what is less commonly remembered are his persistent demands for the de-establishment of the monarchy in favor of what we would now refer to as a democratic socialist republic. Even during the Lucian civil war, Invicta was a controversial figure. At first his philosophies were embraced by the deconstructionists, who sought to overthrow the Lucis Caelums in favor of a fragmented nation-states ruled by regional noblemen. They were less in favor of his leanings toward a democratic socialist republic. Despite this difference of opinion, Invicta was one of the few intellectuals of his time that insisted on the right of deconstructionists to espouse their ideals without punishment or censorship. Unfortunately, this insistence, combined with his involvement with radical circles, led to his eventual imprisonment. He would die of consumption shortly thereafter.”
A hand shot up - the same wind-bag from before.
“Yes, Cleetus?” Ignis’s smile was tight.
“Professor Scientia, as you were speaking I couldn’t help but remember an essay I came across in the Lucian History Journal the other day. The article was about the evolution of Lucian collective memory of the civil war.”
Gladio chuckled. “Oh boy. Here he goes again. This guy really can’t stop himself, can he?”
Noctis wasn’t laughing. He wanted Ignis to get back on topic and finish explaining why Invicta and the deconstructionists were wrong.
“According to the arguments propounded throughout the essay” - Gladio actually snorted at this point - “collective opinion regarding Invicta and the deconstructionists split after Lucis became a constitutional monarchy. Invicta was distanced from the deconstructionists and by means of propaganda -”
Bells went off in Noct’s head. Propaganda? What was this guy trying to get at?
“ - and state sanctioned school curriculum -”
Noctis gripped the arms of his desk, knuckles whitening.
“ - Invicta gradually became celebrated as one of the fathers of free speech. Meanwhile, his links to deconstructionists were covered up, preventing further instability to Lucian society while conveniently appropriating the parts that aligned with contemporary values.”
He paused for a breath. Ignis stepped out from behind the podium, quick to seize back control of the conversation.
“Your statements indicate a very post-modern interpretation of the historical records, Cleetus,” he remarked politely. “It’s interesting that you bring up social instability. Although not as commonly espoused today, there are ideologues who from time to time self-identify as deconstructionists. However, they are often ridiculed by both leftists and conservatives, rarely gaining any political legitimacy. In this way, the general public remains largely unexposed to contemporary deconstructionism outside of the occasional satirical representation on late night TV shows or the funnies.”
“You’ve gotta be kidding me.”
There was a rustle as heads turned in Noct's direction. Ignis adjusted his glasses.
“Is there something you would like to share, Prince Noctis?”
Shit. Gladio slid down low in his seat, muttering something that sounded a lot like, “Smooth move, Noct.”
Noctis cleared his throat. His cheeks felt like two flames. “N- not particularly.”
“Very well.” Ignis returned his attention to the slides. Noctis averted his eyes, only to be met by the expectant gazes coming his way from the next row down. His gaze happened to fall on Cleetus, he shot him a particularly snide smirk from over his shoulder.
Something in Noctis snapped.
“It’s just that, you said ‘satirical.’”
Ignis stopped mid-sentence. Scandalized whispers rippled throughout the hall. Gladio was actually facepalming. Meanwhile, Noctis’s cheeks somehow managed to get even hotter. He felt the need to continue.
“I just thought - well, it sounds like you think those depictions are kind of inaccurate, or something.”
Gods, he was sounding extremely upset and defensive right now, wasn’t he? What had happened to all that training in diplomacy and public speaking? Embarrassing.
“Satire is merely a genre, your highness," Ignis demured. "One that hyperbolizes a real-life topic or theme with intent to criticize, ridicule or expose. We may identify this genre from a neutral standpoint without either validating or condemning the arguments contained within the work itself.”
Noctis schooled his expression so it’d look like he’d understood this last bit.
“But you said the satirical representation is the only representation people see. Doesn’t that imply that there’s another representation that most people don’t get to see?”
“There normally is more than one side to every story,” Ignis said lightly, and his lips curved in such a smug, handsome grin that Noctis could have chucked his laptop at him.
“Yeah, but sometimes one side has better evidence than the other one. Shouldn’t that also be part of the discussion?”
He was pressuring Ignis to agree with him, to say that the deconstructionists were “wrong” and the monarchy was “right” and therefore Noctis was right, too. That the deconstructionists were just radical, terrorist nutjobs whose hogwash theories did more harm than good, so why even bother discussing them at all? Noctis knew it. Gladio knew it. Most of all, Ignis probably knew it.
So why were they still disagreeing?
“Indeed. However, the objective of today’s lecture is merely to review the deconstructionism as an historical movement. I will leave the evaluation of the ideas espoused by said movement to all of you in your term papers.”
A smattering of chuckles. Oh yes, how adorable, how clever. Noctis opened his mouth to let loose another retort when Gladio nudged his foot.
"Let it go," he mouthed with a slight shake of his head. Noctis grit his teeth with an audible “tch,” nails biting into the surface of his palms. He deliberately avoided Gladio’s gaze, instead fixing his attention on his laptop. The Ghiranzenator taunted him from the other side of the screen, all chiseled jawline and knowing smile.
Noctis closed the laptop with a ‘snap.’
PT. II: 13:00 hours
“I was too hard on him, wasn’t I?”
The words were out of Ignis’s mouth before Gladio had even stepped through the door. The office was tiny - more like a closet, really. Gladio tossed a small paper bag onto the desk and pulled up a seat, careful not to spill the coffee in his other hand.
“What’s this?” Ignis asked, peering owlishly from behind his computer. Gladio handed over the coffee.
“Thought you could use a pick-me up," he replied. "And nah; Noct is tough. He gets worse from me during an average training session.”
“You’re just saying that,” Ignis mumbled, raising the cup to his lips and taking a sip. “Mmm, Gladio, this is delicious. Thank you.”
Gladio crossed his legs, leaning back with a pleased smile. “Heh. Thought you’d like that. And no, I’m not just saying that. Noct is pissed off, but he’ll live. Try some of the scone.”
Ignis reached into the paper bag obediently. “I should have waited until after class,” he muttered. “Or warned him about the topic before hand.”
“Yeah, that probably would’ve helped.”
“I just don’t want to allow him more special privileges than I already have! How am I supposed to prepare him for his future responsibilities if I keep treating him differently from the other students? Can you imagine, just last night he actually asked me to check his homework!”
“Did you?”
“What do you think?” Ignis snapped. “We live together for Eos’s sake, of course I did!"
“Yikes. How’s the scone?”
Ignis scowled. “You really must stop bringing me sugar. This is why my skin is breaking out.”
“One bite won’t hurt, prince charming.”
Ignis broke a off a tiny piece and popped it into his mouth, but not before shooting Gladio a glare.
“Relax, Iggy. Just give Noct a little time to cool down, think things through. He’ll come around.”
Ignis gave him a doubtful look. He took another bite.
“At least this scone is palatable.”
Gladio flashed him a cheeky smile. “Does that mean you’ll raise my grade professor?”
“I’ll consider it. After all, for an auditing student you do have unusually consistent attendance.”
“Someone’s gotta show up and keep the crown prince in line. Who better than his protector and professional babysitter, the royal shield?”
“Pity you have to sit through my lectures. I imagine it’s dull.”
“Nah. You’re way more interesting than the profs I had during my undergrad.”
‘A lot easier on the eyes, too,’ he thought. His gaze lingered on Ignis’s full, rosy lips before silently flickering away.
“There’s no need for flattery, Gladio. It’s not like I can actually give you credit for the course.”
“Sorry. Guess your little front row fan club is wearing off on me.”
Ignis reddened. He took a hurried sip of coffee, obviously stalling. Gladio grinned, letting himself indulge in the rare sight of a flustered Ignis.
“If the students show enthusiasm,” Ignis began, once he’d finished composing himself, “it is merely due to the engaging nature of the subject.”
“Oh, right. Lucian history makes me blush and squeal, too.”
“Did you come here for the sole purpose of force feeding me scones and distracting me from my work?”
“Why, is it working? Just kidding,” he added quickly at the stern look he received. “Actually, I thought we should touch base on our lovely royal charge’s training schedule over the Solstice. Iris has been bugging me about plans. She wants to invite the entire Amicitia clan over for a get-together.”
“Let me pull up my calendar.” Ignis swiveled in his chair, facing the computer monitor. Gladio contemplated his profile, thrown into sharp relief by the glow of the LED back-light. A million potential lines ran through his head. ‘It should be illegal to be so gorgeous.’ ‘You ever seen an angel up close? Because those cheekbones are high enough to graze the heavens.’
“Got any plans for the Solstice, Iggy?”
“I’m hoping to finish drafting my thesis proposal,” Ignis answered, with a light click of the mouse. “I’d also like to try my hand at a leiden sweet potato casserole. See if I can get Prince Noctis to eat something other than meat for a change.”
Gladio snickered. “Good luck with that last one. By the way, what’s your thesis about again? Food politics - “
“ - with Duscae as a case study for increased multifunctionality in agricultural policy making, yes.” Ignis spared him a brief glance, eyes crinkled with amusement. “I’m impressed you remember.”
‘Course I do,’ Gladio thought dismally. ‘I’ve Moogle searched every article you’ve ever published.’
Fortunately, he was spared the need to reply. One more click of the mouse, and Ignis was tilting the monitor in his direction.
“There we are. So, which dates does Iris have in mind?”
“She’s really got her eyes set on the day of the Solstice, as well the day right before and after. She needs me to help cook, put out decorations…”
‘Basically all the stuff we used to do when mom was around,’ he thought.
“I see. Why don’t I just make a note on my calendar for now? We can continue meeting as planned for the next two weeks. When it comes time, we'll evaluate how Noct is doing. Perhaps it won’t even be necessary for us to meet over the week of the Solstice.”
“Thanks Iggy. I appreciate it.”
“Certainly. It’s imperative that you spend quality time with your family over the holidays, uninterrupted.”
His smile was sad. Of course; Ignis didn't really have any family around to celebrate with. Gladio jiggled his knee, hesitating.
“H-hey, Iggy,” he began cautiously. “Y’know, if you don’t have any plans for the Solstice, you’re always welcome to - “
“Ah, Ignis! Just the man I was looking for.”
Ignis stood as two people Gladiolus had never seen before entered the office. The first was an attractive, bespectacled woman with golden hair swept back in an elegantly casual updo. Gladio, always the gentleman, rose instantly to his feet, pushing in his chair and squeezing back against the bookshelf in an effort to free up some space for her in the tiny room. She was followed by a pale young man who stood shoulder to shoulder with Gladiolus, which was a rare enough occurrence. What was really odd was Ignis's reaction. He blanched as the man entered. Then he was turning away to face the woman, almost as if he'd never even noticed the other visitor at all.
“Dr. Trepe! To what do I owe this pleasure?”
Her lips curved in a perfect cupid’s bow. “Ignis, dear, how many times must I remind you? Call me Quistis. Anyway, I was just giving Prince Ravus a tour of the department.” She gestured toward the man beside her.
Oh - so that’s why he looked familiar. Gladio had often seen the royal Nox Fleuret duo on magazine covers or on TV. Ravus cut a striking figure in person, with his wintry complexion and dual colored eyes. He seemed to resent being watched, interrupting Gladio’s examination with a peculiarly frigid glare.
“Prince Ravus will be joining our department as a research scholar next semester,” Quistis explained. “Your majesty, Ignis is a grad student and TA in our department. As you may be aware, he also serves as the royal advisor to Crown Prince Noctis. He’s quite the feather in the department’s cap.”
Gladio beamed, eyeing Ignis with pride. What he saw surprised him. Iggy’s shoulders were tense, his face frozen in a mask of false politeness.
Something was wrong.
“Thank you, Dr. Trepe. As it stands, I’ve already had the good fortune of making Mr. Scientia’s acquaintance.”
Gladio’s eyes snapped in Ravus’s direction. His expression was unreadable, but his tone of voice suggested that whatever fortune had been at play was anything but “good.”
“Indeed.” Ignis mustered a weak smile. “I’m honored his highness remembers me.”
Ravus flinched, the movement so quick it was barely perceptible. Gladio glanced between them. Whatever vibe was going on here, he didn't like it one bit. He asked the question before he could stop himself.
“How do you two know each other?”
Ignis gasped. “Oh, by the six - where are my manners? Dr. Trepe - “
“Quistis.”
“Quistis” - Ignis blushed - “and Prince Ravus, please allow me to introduce Gladiolus Amicitia, Prince Noctis’s sworn shield, as well as one of my dearest friends.”
Gladio’s chest swelled until it threatened to burst. He crossed his arms, lip quirking up into a satisfied smirk.
'Dearest friend, huh?'
“I see,” Quistis murmured, tapping her chin. Her eyes ran up and down Gladio’s frame with an openly appraising look. “I apologize for interrupting your discussion, Gladiolus. I doubt we made a very good impression.”
“Meeting a colleague of Iggy’s is never an imposition,” Gladio assured her. “Especially not when that colleague is as elegant and beautiful as yourself.”
Quistis blushed, blue eyes sparkling behind her spectacles. “I never imagined the royal shield was such a charmer. You’ll have to bring him around more often, Ignis.”
There was a momentary, infinitesimal fracture in Ignis’s facade. “Yes, well, I daren’t keep his majesty any longer," he said quickly. "I’m sure you’re both quite eager to continue the tour. Prince Ravus, it truly was a pleasure seeing you again. I look forward to our collaboration in the coming semester.”
“As do I,” Ravus snapped, his words laced with such venom that even Quistis sent him a mildly startled look. “Dr. Trepe, shall we?”
“C-certainly. Gladiolus, it was a pleasure. And Ignis, we’ll be seeing you tonight at the reception, won’t we?”
“Of course. The Grand Hotel Insomnia at six o’ clock, correct?”
“Not exactly ideal weather for an event, is it?” Gladio interjected, frowning. “The roads are supposed to freeze after seven.”
Ignis dismissed him with a breezy laugh. “Yes, well, you know what they say Gladio - the show must go on! Until tonight then, Dr. Trepe...Prince Ravus.”
He bowed at the waist. Gladio rushed to follow suit, but not before glimpsing the pain that flashed across the prince’s strange, distant eyes. Then he was gone, sweeping off down the hall without a word of acknowledgement. Quistis rushed after him. Gladio waited until he no longer heard the clicking of her high heels before he spoke.
“What was that all about?”
Ignis began fussing with the papers on his desk. “Dr. Trepe was introducing the newest addition to our department.”
“Who you just happen to already know.”
“Is that so odd? You and I often cross paths with royalty in our line of work.”
“Uh-huh.” Gladio approached the desk, leaning over and splaying both hands across the surface. “So, you gonna tell me how you two actually know each other?”
“I don’t see that it’s any concern of yours,” Ignis replied, voice unusually clipped. Gladio ignored the sting.
“I’m just curious - y’know, as a dear friend and colleague. Why so defensive?”
Ignis slammed down a folder, nostrils flaring. “Fine. Spring 752. I did a semester in Tenebrae. Prince Ravus was a student at the university. We made acquaintance.”
“And?”
“And what?”
Gladio shrugged. “Dunno. Just thought I sensed some hostility between you two.”
“Enough, Gladio!”
The outburst stunned them both. Gladio took a step back. He ran a hand through his hair, trying fiercely not to look as hurt as he felt. After a long moment of silence, Ignis heaved a sigh.
“Forgive me, Gladio. It’s just a rather...unpleasant story, if I’m being honest. I wasn’t expecting to meet him like this, and...I’d rather not talk about it all just yet.”
Gladio chuckled harshly. “Why are you apologizing? I’m the one being the asshole here. Sticking my nose in your business. But if you ever do feel like talking about it, or there’s any way I can help...just let me know.”
“Thank you, Gladio,” he said softly, and the smile he turned on him was so full of warmth and relief that it hurt to look at.
Gladio hurried to change the subject.
“You sure you’re good to go to this reception thing? Ravus will probably be there, too.”
“I’ll be fine. I merely need a moment to compose myself. I do apologize I won’t be able to join you at the gym today. I was quite looking forward to showing off my new gains.”
He wiggled his eyebrows. Gladio snorted.
“Save it for next time, hot shot. But seriously, Iggy - the roads are supposed to get pretty bad tonight. Call me if you need a ride.”
“Certainly; I’m sure Dr. Trepe would just love it if you popped by.”
“Iggy.”
“Don’t worry; I promise I’ll behave myself.”
“You better. Don’t wanna go setting a bed example for Noct.”
Ignis’s smile fell. Gladio rolled his eyes, reaching for the half-eaten pastry on the desk.
“Talk to ‘im,” he said through a mouthful of scone. “Better yet, feed him and then talk. He’s always in a better mood when his stomach’s full.”
“Oh Gladio.” Ignis shook his head. “If only I could be as certain as you are.”
‘But I’m not certain,’ Gladio thought to himself. The uncertainty followed him as he took his leave, wandering through the empty halls of the department alone. Noct could be stubborn, and Ignis had a tendency to cave in. Hopefully they'd be able to come to terms without too much of a fuss.
He was so lost in his thoughts that he didnt see the figure rounding the corner, hurtling straight at him. He barely managed to come to a stop before they collided.
“Whoa there!” he exclaimed, stumbling backward. “My bad, are you - ?”
The charity in his voice withered and died as he looked up into the face of the passerby.
Ravus Nox Fleuret.
“Ahem. Pardon me, your majesty.” He stepped aside, the polite gesture a reflex after so many years as a retainer. Ravus, however, stood quite still, eyes fixed on Gladio intently - almost as if he were measuring him up.
Gladio’s jaw clenched.
“There a problem, highness?”
Ravus looked away, making a soft, dismissive noise in the back of his throat. He strode past Gladio with his nose held high, sharp footsteps echoing off the walls like a hailstorm. Gladio’s eyes narrowed, gaze following him over his shoulder. The uneasy feeling was back, creeping up from the pit of his stomach like clutching vines.
Whatever history Ravus and Iggy had together, Gladio had a sneaking suspicion that it wasn’t the good kind.
He tore himself away with a sigh.
“Forget about it,” he muttered firmly. “Iggy can handle himself. It’s not like you have any say in the matter, anyway.”
Still, it was a good thing he kept a spare set of clothes locked up at the campus rec facility. He was gonna need an extra challenging workout today.
TBC...
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personagf-moved · 6 years ago
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alphabet & soft questions ✨
I was tagged by my bb’s @prksjmiin (alphabet ask) and @joonieblossoms (soft ask) and i didn’t want to make two separate posts so im gonna apologize in advance bc i decided to stick both posts together :’) dkdkkdkd yall aint gotta read everything but if u do ily and im sorry i write novels on novels dlfksdkf
i’ll tag @koyasdad, @1ovegf, @joonlit, @sleepyyyoongs, @constellationstars and @capgi 💘
honestly feel free to do either one or both or none if u want dkkdkdkd i just wanted to tag u guys bc ily
Alphabet ask:
a // age: 21
b // birthplace: new jersey!
c // current time: 1:17 am
d // drink you had last: coffee
e // easiest person to talk to: my brother when he isnt being an absolute fool
f // favorite songs: 
aint it fun - paramore
trivia love 
honey - kehlani
abbey - mitski
moonlight - ariana grande
g // grossest memory: i was in the city one time and a bird shit on my forehead. i think about it at least twice a week 
h // horror yes or horror no:  H O R R O R   Y E S   B A B E E E Y Y Y Y Y Y Y im the absolute worst person i’ll dead ass watch a scary movie/video or read horror stories by myself just bc. 
i // in love: with my whole ass soulmate namjoon. i luv u string bean man
j // jealous of people: im not even gonna try to lie i am a very jealous person and i am so sorry about it but i really cant help it lmfao. blame my scorpio venus i guess
k // kids of your own someday: when i say i have been thinking about this everyday.........! i wanna have it all i want the kids the white picket fence the dream house everything. i cant wait to be a mommy one day and love n support my bb’s :’)
l // love at first sight or should i walk by again: we a whole ass fool on main and believe in love at first sight!!!! i really do believe soulmates are a true thing and if a love is destined to be across an infinite span of lifetimes and universes then it will always find its way back. when you know, you know, and i genuinely believe that. 
m // middle name: padilla
n // number of siblings: 1 older brother, 1 half brother (older), and 1 half sister (older)
o // one wish: to find true love
p // person you last called: my manager bc i had a work question lol
q // question you’re always asked: “why are you like this” (usually friends @ me when i wild out...which is like everyday), “are you mad?”, “how old are you REALLY?”, “how’s your brother?” (bc he ghosts all family n i have to speak on his behalf like always fsdfjksdf)
r // random fact about you: i once used a horrible bootleg copy of the force awakens to make a star wars crack video dubbing the part in shrek when he first meets donkey over the scene when rey first met bb-8 and it went viral and has like 200,000 notes and even had articles written about it. also i had a weird fascination with jar jar binks and danny devito when i was in high school and i had a habit of making either one of them my icon on school accounts so i could make people laugh when they emailed me or saw me in a word document skfkkkfkf
s // song you last sang: “abbey” by mitski :’(
t // time you woke up: exactly 10 this morning and it was weird bc i picked up my phone and it had JUST turned 10 when i looked i was so shook lol 
u // underwear colour: she be black 
v // vacation destination: paris bc im a basic bitch :’) also japan/all asian countries. i wanna connect with my roots more :/
w // worst habit: yeeting the fuck outta people’s lives when i think they’re getting too close/when i get overwhelmed. im sorry im a flighty bitch @ anyone i’ve ever ghosted :( i love anyone who’s ever tried to talk to me and its never ur fault, i just get the urge to escape sometimes and i’m trying to fix it 
x // x-rays: omg @ tori dead ass me too tho, i had x-rays when i broke my arm when i was around 6 :o
y // your favorite food: my mom’s spaghetti! and sushi. also i love any and all filipino food but specifically i like nilaga and kare-kare oooo baby
z // zodiac sign: we’re a proud libra sun 
Soft ask:
What’s the smell of your shampoo?
we got them fruity scents up in here we keep that shit smellin like a goddamn strawberry field take a fuckin whiff babes
What’s your aesthetic?
the moon and stars, soft pink and purple sunsets with a burning red on the horizon, sunrises as well, paintings and generally all art revolving around flowers and the celestial, pretty pastel pink and yellow, the sound and smell of rain falling against the window while being curled up in bed uwu 
What’s your favorite time of the day and why?
lately it’s been night time. i generally get more creative and feel more at home during the night. i miss being a morning person tho. 
What do you most like about the beach?
not a lot fklsjdjfkslkdflksdlkf i usually only go to get a tan and walk the boardwalk with my friends, but if i had it my way i would never step foot in the ocean for the rest of my life sdjdjdjdjsj we dont trust her!!!!!!!!!
What do you worry about constantly?
when i’m gonna figure out what i wanna do with my life lol. i took a year off to think about it but all i ended up doing was working myself to exhaustion and getting comfy in a work only mindset and now i’m only even more confused about what i want to pursue. i’m just glad im going to chicago next week because i feel like a change of setting for even just a week could give me a much needed reset on my mindset going into the next year. i worry about the future but the problem is i worry about the present too lol. oh well, we’ll figure it out!
What is a song you’ve cried to before?
oh boy...
trivia love
moonchild
first love
she used to be mine - waitress soundtrack
20 something - sza
26 - paramore
the letter - kehlani
landslide - fleetwood mac
when you see my friends - mayday parade
and many........many many more...... skskskks music is my main emotional outlet so naturally im gonna cry over anything that reflects my heart
What are some relaxing tips for your followers?
as The World’s Number One Most Stressed Out Human Being™️ i am definitely in no way fit to give advice on how to relax LMFAO 
but i guess something that always works for me is putting on music i KNOW will make me sing a long or make me happy to distract me from the nerves i’m feeling. also putting on my favorite comfort movies to make me feel better (they’re big fish, scott pilgrim vs the world, and spirited away btw lol)
 What are some things that make you tear up?
the ending of coco, seeing my mom cry, or anyone i love cry tbh, when children are neglected/abused, thinking about the world i’ll have to bring my future children into and how i’m going to be able to teach them to stay strong and bright in the face of it, lyrics that hit too close to home, absolutely anything tbh i cry easy
What is your favorite from each sense?
sight - the view of my cherry blossom tree against a pink sunset in the spring of my childhood home, a person’s eyes and how they light up when they smile, especially when they crinkle as they laugh
smell - the earth after rain, a forest in autumn
taste - my mom’s cooking, good coffee on an early morning
sound - beautiful melodies and harmonies to accompany them, a baby cooing, birds chirping at sunrise
touch - my pillow when its nice and cool, a cat’s tummy, a baby’s cheeks, fingers running through my hair
What is an alternative reality you’d like to live in?
one where im married to namjoon n we have a lot of smart musical prodigy babies who have his dopey smile and i live comfortably in our big ass home in korea where i raise our babies n get that good pipe down every night like i should
jk i wanna live in a reality where magic is real and i can cast spells and live my best life as the true witch that i am
What are some troubles you face on a daily basis?
for starters im ugly as shit so theres one
if we mean practically then i have really bad knees and i recently busted them again so its been really hard getting up and down stairs lately and bending over 
but idk theres not really much. emotionally i just tend to get withdrawn and timid in public so it can be hard for me to speak up when i go out
What is one scene from a book that makes you really sad?
unfortunately i haven’t read as many books lately as i did when i was younger...so a lot of my memories are from books that i read like as a kid lol......THAT BEING SAID i think rue and finnick’s death in the hunger games was truly heartbreaking to read, the spine of my copies of both books have cracks on those pages bc i had to read it several times just to really believe it. also i thought it was written so heart wrenchingly well that i had to go back.  also in looking for alaska when pudge, a man who loved to know people’s last words, realized that he would never know alaska’s last words. im also really thankful for that book bc it introduced me to wh auden’s poetry and to this day he’s still one of my favorite poets of all time.  
Say something to your followers:
thank you thank you thank you thank you THANK YOU for following me and for some reason deciding to stay after how many times i act up on the daily. all jokes aside i really appreciate every single one of you no matter the number and i sincerely hope that you always have love and joy in your heart and that 2019 treats you well. i HONESTLY mean it when i say that i am always here if you guys want to talk or send me things or roast me or talk shit seriously i wanna hear it all and talk about it all i think all of you are so interesting and so beautiful and i’d love to get to know more about you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS! yeet!
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