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This morning I was just reading through a loass twitter I like with lots of affs about being spoiled by men, just for fun, and I realized..

Later after class, one of my male classmates drove me home (even though usually he doesn't drive to class) and another literally opened the door for me, held my bag and helped me get out.

Like this stuff works so fast and easily, sometimes I don't even notice

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say it with me love:

it already manifested. it already all manifested. it’s all done, i manifested it. i have all of my desires, i literally have all of my desires. everything manifested. all of my desires manifested. i am in my desired reality. i am literally living in my desired reality right now. i literally have everything i’ve ever wanted. i have all of my desires. i have everything i want.

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I have faith that everything is working in my favor.

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where?

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I'm not gonna lie, even though I've had recent successes, I feel weighed down a little and I really wish I could go back to the state of mind and feeling when I first discovered the law of assumption around the start of 2021.

Everything felt magical, truly, serendipitous, maybe it was because my life had been so boring since covid. But I would do things like "accidentally" turn down the right street, meet nice people, manifest my family getting food delivered effortlessly. I felt good. Life felt full of possibility, like a dream world, even if not much had changed.

What I really wanted was the opportunity to move out and start having fun again, and I got that too, just with the state of knowing. But then life got real- I actually was busy with a new job, new friends, new roommates. I almost stopped practicing loass except there was still one thing I wanted, my sp, so I did love meditations for a while.

Then, when I didn't see movement with my sp by my self imposed deadline, I basically gave up and forgot about loass.

Which was fine- I kept doing my life. Until I met someone who reminded me way too much of my SP. I think this is what you'd call a bird's before land situation that got way too serious. Because, predictably, I liked him. We bonded really quickly and started hanging out a lot. And then I got scared and genuinely forgot who tf I was. I forgot all about loass. And because my deep seated beliefs from the past were basically that guys I like always go cold and stop talking to me, I had fears of that happening and guess what, it did.

Somehow when it started going to shit, or when my mindset did maybe, is when I remembered loass. And I affirmed like crazy, tried to fulfill myself, but it didn't work.

This event is really the one that destroyed my confidence, my faith in myself and my faith in the law. I was having a blast and then maybe a month later was crying and screaming because I didn't understand why someone that I clearly manifested to be with me, would just start acting like he hated me. And I didn't understand why I couldn't fix it, if I was truly the operant power and manifested him in the first place.

Somehow my confidence with loass has never been the same after that. Since then I've read a lot, watched a lot of videos, tried to understand different methods and perspectives. Tried to come to terms with the fact that I did all of it and caused my own suffering, but it's hard.

I've noticed the state of knowing that I had a few times to get the job, get into uni before that (Before I knew loass) is just harder to get to now because I simply don't feel as good. I don't know, it's just like this heaviness of life. When life used to feel serendipitous and fun, sometimes now it feels like a lot of little things go wrong just to piss me off, things I shouldn't have to deal with. So I do other things, sats, affirmations. I just wonder sometimes why it was so easy in the beginning. Maybe I can manifest the heavy feeling to go away and to get back that mindset from 2021.

Anyway, sorry if this is negative, I just felt like I should really get these thoughts out as it's been long enough. I want to turn a new leaf and start being positive and happy again.

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I came across this at the right time. I have parts of my life in 2 different countries, my school/job in one and my sp in the other, and I never really know what to do when we have to separate again. But maybe the answer is: nothing but persist. If it takes another year for us to live near each other, he'll wait for me and I'll be happy in the meantime no matter what. If he relocates sooner, great, but I realize I shouldn't be analyzing all the possibilities or worrying that it won't work out. It will!

"my wishes are conflicting and I don't know what to manifest" - stop "building a masterplan" right. now.

(if you're struggling with manifesting different things - an sp, a career, because you think they should match: this is for you.)

Before anything else: you need to have a heart-to-heart with yourself.

Now, ever since I was a teenager I do it in the bathroom. That's right. I sit on the toilet and have endless conversations with myself. I play two characters: myself and myself as a therapist (what would I say to this person if they came to me for advice?). When I'm "portraying" the therapist, I do it with an open heart; "those are not my problems, I'm just listening to someone else, so I can be fully honest with them" (if that makes sense). Like REALLY find that counselor inside your mind; they are there, they just need to be called. It's like doing self-parenting work to heal from mother/father wounds.

I had a heart-to-heart with myself last night. I was experiencing a lot of anxiety regarding what I actually wanted, specially career-wise and "how that related to my sp". Here are some "highlights" of what my inner therapist told me.

WHY exactly do you want this career? What is your TRUE motivation for wanting this?

Me: "I am extremely focused on an sp right now, an sp who doesn't know me. A celebrity. So I keep trying to find the jobs that will give me the biggest chance to run into him. I want to become someone he admires."

Well, you say you believe in this law (of Assumption), right? Then why aren't you practicing it? The law says it is done. Doesn't matter how, or where, or why, you already have it. If you manifest that your sp is crazy for you no matter what you do for a living, if you manifest you two are together, if you have it in your 4D, if you REALLY have it on your 4D (if you can feel it, if you can live it in your mind, if thinking about it makes you happy, if you KNOW you have it because 4D IS THE REALITY), the Universe will make it reflect on your 3D, not you! Stop trying to generate situations, it's a lot simpler than you think: assume and continue assuming. It's done. It already happened. It'll reflect on your 3D one way or the other; it is not your job to choose/plan how or where or why it'll happen, it just will! In fact, if you keep doubting it will happen because you don't know EXACTLY the circumstances in which it will, this means you are doubting! And if you persist on your doubt, you are not persisting on your assumption. The doubt is taking control of your mind, not allowing you to persist on your assumption. If you don't ASSUME IT'S DONE, THEN I'M SORRY, BUT IT REALLY ISN'T! Trying to DIY the law (picking careers, fixing ways to get near your sp) is NOT TRUSTING THE LAW WORKS.

Now that you've realized you don't need to follow a specific path to have your sp, what exactly do YOU wanna do? What is that career that makes your heart beat faster, that makes you shiver; what is your dream job? Don't consider any other factors; forget about your sp, don't reminisce about it being "hard to get", don't think about money. And SPECIALLY don't think "what will I do if it doesn't work?" - that doubt is exactly what is going to keep you from living it. Think about that. What do you truly want to do? What do you want to do the most? If you take a minute to eliminate every obstacle society has invented for you, you'll find that answer inside of you.

Stay true to your heart and trust the process.

That's really all it takes. No masterplan, no connecting the dots. That is the Universe's job, not yours.

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Ok, I'm affirming that I'm done with little pick a card readings at least on insta, so many readers there are highly negative for no reason. When I got a message that aligned with my desires it would boost me a little but honestly it's not worth it when there's another reading or zodiac "predictions" that just has all negativity, like first of all how would you know my life better than me, second of all why are you putting so much negativity into other people's minds... Anyway.

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On god

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Me applying to only 1 foreign grad school because it had the only program I wanted in that city

Make the decision of what you want and stick to it! It will manifest. Saturate your mind with the new story, you can not fail!

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Success story!

I genuinely forgot that I posted this (privately as a scripting method) but guess what babes... It came true. I'm going back to school :)

"Got accepted to a foreign master's program! Let me tell you, the requirements and paperwork were annoying and I started the process late, but I wasn't gonna let that stop me. In the end I got everything in by the deadline and of course, my foreign degree was approved, and my application to the master's itself was accepted too. So I'm studying something really cool this year (and it's only a year long course.) in one of my favorite cities because I didn't want to move just yet. I'm so happy :)))"

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My toxic loass trait is laughing when I see coaches, mainly on instagram, who are always advertising like they have THE secret or THE key to manifesting and that everyone else is "doing it wrong" etc etc but then you go to their page and their face card is DECLINING! I'm like how are you gonna tell me I'm manifesting wrong LMAOOO

Like I'm sorry but if you're going to be that obnoxious about advertising you have to be at least an 8/10. Otherwise like what are you even doing with your power? Because I don't see it LOL

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Me thinking about finally reviving my instagram and I see this Lmao fine

oh you have a killer self concept? post a snippet of your personality on your personal instagram then.

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Two images to inspire you today. Remember: your thoughts control your mind and your emotions, if you're not ok right now, you have all the tools to change it inside yourself! Whether it be meditation, journaling, engaging in a hobby, scripting, reading your affirmations, listening to music that matches your intent or that makes you feel better, drinking a cup of coffee or eating your favorite chocolate to release dopamine, dancing, singing, playing a game, learning something new, etc.!

And if your 3D is giving you a hard time and not showing you what you want yet, tell it to GO FUCK ITSELF cause THE 3D IS BULLSHIT and it is bound to your 4D, which is YOUR ACTUAL REALITY. remember: you are always inside your mind, your mind is always inside of you. THAT is your home. keep it clean!

I wish you a great Sunday!

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Anyone have the Wave I - Discovery tapes from Hemi-Sync/the Gateway experience? I found a gdrive link that was on tumblr and on one place in reddit but the Wave I folder is empty. And I can find the first audio on youtube but not the others from Wave I.

Ideally I'm trying to use this to get to the void, or just have a bit more effective meditations.

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Just wanted to share some other audios for lucid dreaming:

This one is by Sapien Medicine uploaded on his patreon

This is an updated and free version of the previous track by Energetic Alchemy (sister channel of SapMed)

Sapien is a highly reputed creator in the subliminal/frequency community so y'all can trust these audios :)

Thanks for sharing. If anyone's interested, check these out 💟

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loa girl terminology versus loa guy terminology is so funny to me!

loa girly: hey girly! remember you're the creator of your reality, go manifest you dream life!! ❤️

loa guy: soldiers, we must escape the matrix. do not allow society to confine you. 🪖💪

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Things I've manifested in the past 6 months

Getting a job offer in the center of the city that I wanted

This job could have placed me in a few different cities but I wanted the specific one and I did NOT want the suburbs, that's exactly what I got. I ended up realizing that I didn't want to do that job or move to that city though so I didn't take it.

Solo travelling and having a good experience

I stayed in two cities I'd never been to, I wanted to not feel lonely so I scripted that I would meet nice girls in the hostels I stayed at and I did. I went to the clubs/went dancing with them. I also had good experiences with the hostels, they were clean and in the second one, there was some mistake with my room so I got put in a more expensive room for no extra charge, and for the first night I had no one else in it (which I liked, I could sleep easier lol).

Fun times ;) with a guy I met travelling

In one of the hostels, I really briefly saw this guy and held the door for him (LOL) and I thought to myself, not even trying to manifest or anything, that he's my type/I'd like a guy like that etc. Then not an hour later I went to the hostel bar to find the girls I met and guess who they were talking to? That guy and his friends. So we talked and ended up making out by the end of the night lol.

Fun times / a handsome guy to do things with

My romantic life was pretty slow for a bit. One thing that I had been wanting for a while was a connection with someone where we could do romantic/s*xual things together and I would feel comfortable, because there were things I hadn't done. Now I know this sounds like a boyfriend but I also had my SP who was living somewhere else, I had feelings for him obviously. And I had learned my lesson that I DON'T want to fall in love with someone else, but I DID want to "practice" and get experience so when I get with my SP I won't feel so nervous and inexperienced. So one random day I met this guy in a class and he kept looking at me and during the class I was kinda manifesting him, he ended up talking to my friends and then me and I got his number. Long story short we went out, he was extremely sweet and attentive, like paid so much attention to me and what I said. Also he was really stereotypically handsome (but not quite my type). He was very non-threatening if that makes sense so I felt comfortable to do physical stuff with him and he took it very slow and was super sweet. Eventually I felt like he liked me more than I liked him and I broke it off nicely, but it did accomplish what I wanted. He also set the bar higher in certain ways.

My SP coming to a nearby city

My SP had been travelling for a bit and I knew that his friends lived in a city near me, so I had been assuming for a while that he would visit them AND that when he did he would invite me too. (Of course I also was manifesting he would visit me in my city but I had beliefs that it was less likely, oops.)

That's exactly what happened, his friends were super nice and had a huge apartment so I stayed with them, we had a nice time together. Staying comfortably in an expensive city for free >>>>

Fixing bus schedules and making them less full

This one seems small but the public transport to get to my job was really pissing me off for a few months. The buses would come super late or not at all making me late to work and if they did come they would be packed and I couldn't sit. So I manifested that they always come on time (or when I need them, like 2 minutes late lol), they get me to work on time and that there's always seats available. At some point the schedules and routes changed (twice even?) and it happened. Made my mornings much nicer.

I probably manifested a lot of other little things that I don't remember but these are a few highlights.