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I Donât Smoke // Jason Todd x GN!Reader
this is the last song my band covered before we disbanded so i was feeling sentimental đââď¸đââď¸ but i do not encourage smoking to be clear!! jason is a coin flip and a brick wall, a brick wall you are unfortunately attached to. this was supposed to be done alot earlier but turbulent times! ended up cat sitting for my cheater ex bc his house burnt down đ¨đ
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You remember the first time you took a drag out of a cigarette. It hit the back of your throat before you knew you were breathing it, and burned the whole way through. Bitter and brute. As you coughed your worth out of your body, expelling smoke and air and tears, you were convinced then that your lungs were blackened and would be forever. Your friends laughed and you told them youâd never smoke again.
That was ages ago. You were ashamed of it, the pack of Winstonâs you always kept tucked away in your nightstand and the matchbox that accompanied it. But on nights that were long and extra quiet, like this one, youâd slip one to remember the taste.
Winston was Jasonâs brand. He liked them because they were smooth, sweeter than your average while still strong enough to bite in the aftertaste. Balanced. Metaphoric in a way, for the way he acted.
He didnât always smell of tobacco, only when he suddenly appeared to you during later hours, a visage of smoke and sweat, or when he wore that one leather jacket that the smell couldnât be washed from. Youâd get a whiff of it when he leaned over to drape an arm over your shoulder; you learned to hate it less.
But he always tasted like them, unmistakable and permanent. It lingered on his lips every time you kissed, and then it became synonymous. You learned to miss him, the sweetness and the bite.
It was hard to say you and Jason were ever going steady. There was an awkward push and pull game both of you played, and neither of you had the courage to question it; at least, you didnât.
When things were good they were almost domestic. You went out together fairly often. Heâd make you soup if you were sick, pat the sweat off your brow. Youâd hold him through lightning storms, when the clash of thunder sounded too much like clanging metal and triggered a childlike fear in him.
But heâd never move in with you, heâd get defensive at the notion, and that hurt more than it needed to. Youâd hinted at it before, after heâd known you long enough, but you only asked once. You knew it was a mistake when he tensed up, but at first you couldnât tell if it was nerves or anger talking.
âWhat for?â Whatever playful tone he had before had a coldness injected into it now. You shouldâve known it was anger, he didnât react on nerves.
âYou always stay the night,âdespite the pit forming in your stomach, you tried to be lighthearted about it. You could smile like it wasnât a big deal. âYou know my kitchen, and I do your laundry. The guest room is your room.â
âSo what? I leave a couple shirts and that means I live with you? That doesnât mean anything.â There were times that felt like an unscalable wall divided the two of you, and this was one of them. It meant less than you thought it did. He couldnât be blamed for it. You couldnât have helped it.
âOkay. Sorry I brought it up.â
Jason had a habit of turning into smoke sometimes, very quickly out of sight and undeniably out of reach. Going no contact with the whim of the wind, it was like you werenât a priority. You probably werenât. He never breathed a word about where he would disappear to, and you knew better than to prod too much.
And when he was back sometimes youâd feel the wall again. Bruised and brooding, untouchable by your hands or your mind. He felt violent, the way he was rougher when he grabbed things and avoided touching you. Jason wasnât the type to hurt you or actively lash out, but you felt the anger anyway in the glass shards you found in the trash or the tinkling sounds of trinkets against walls in his room.
It didnât make you mad, or even scared. It just hurt to know he wouldnât trust you with it. To know that his temper wasnât going anywhere, and you werenât adequate to touch it. The anger had to leave him somehow, and surely hiding it behind broken vases wasnât enough. But you didnât have the gall to say much about it, he was deeply distrusting and you were deeply complacent.
You werenât yourself when you met him. That was your excuse. In a way, it set the tone for everything. After a particularly bad break up, you found yourself on the messy end of one too many mimosas and a handsome, tall stranger that was willing to listen to you slur about the cheater this and that asshole that.
The same stranger took you to his cozy apartment after you couldnât hold your head up and decreed youâd forgotten your address.
Despite being a greek god of a man, he was awkward when you couldnât help but cry, overwhelmed with emotion and alcohol. He didnât touch you the whole night, just watched like a cornered dog. And he didnât bring it up in the morning when you threw up on his carpet before passing out.
Anyone else wouldâve left you at the bar, and if you were anyone else he wouldâve done the same. But supposedly you were special, he said. Captivating and sincere, in a kicked puppy sort of way, and it was enough to wipe your vomit off the floor without a fuss.
It was hard not to like him after all that. And his chiseled jaw didnât hurt either.
But sometimes you wish werenât so casual about things when youâd met. If you explained that waking up in someone elseâs apartment with no recollection was something alien to you, instead of playing it off, things might be different.
You thought he liked you because you were casualâ cool, easygoing. He knew you as someone who didnât overreact or get flustered easily or clutch caution. Thatâs who you were from the morning you woke up, asked who he was, and apologized for inconveniencing him. And it was the desire for consistency, fear of hurting what you built, that you remained complicit.
Your lungs were black now; jet black, like his hair and his favorite pair of boots. You were as casual as you were a smoker when youâd met, but when the smell lingers it doesnât leave and the desperate desire to remember taste creeps in again. And sometimes you missed yourself, but not as much as you missed him in his increasing absence. The way the smoke seeped in, it clung to your walls and your favorite sleeping shirts and it was impossible now not to miss him.
You could always kick the habit, but not the taste of his lips. All of this, for him to hold you at armâs length. After clinging to your walls and clothes and bed spreads, he had the nerve to say nothing. Sometimes the smoke was enough to kill fear for frustration, you had to deserve more than that. It had to hurt more to stay silent. He meant too much for you to be nothing.
So you ran it over again, your worth and your hurt, flicking the ashes off the half burnt roll. It wasnât so disgusting anymore.
âHey,â a familiar voice called out behind you. You didnât hear him slip in, silent as ever. âItâs late.â
âIt is,â you affirmed. Pressing the charred end of the cigarette against your banister put it out cleanly.
âYouâre not sleeping?â A strong pair of arms caged your waist as you stared out at the pitch black skyline. Jason felt warm, as he usually did, a welcome contrast to the cold of the outside air.
âWell, youâre talking to me.â He hummed in response while you flicked what was left of the cigarette into the dustbin you kept on your balcony. Then, you asked a question you knew he wouldnât like. âWhere were you?â
âBusiness.â The answer was immediate and final. And vague.
âWhy wonât you tell me?â you probed.
Jason stiffened, you could feel his arms tense around you, a warning. âDonât start.â
His tone was callous, like all the affection and warmth he had dried up all at once. This was a different person.
âDo you hate me? Sometimes I get the sense that you do.â He let go of you and it was cold again, you didnât have to turn around to know he was walking away.
âGo to bed. Youâre not thinking straight.â
âNo. I need you to give me something.â Before he could get too far, you caught him by his hand. He had rough hands, capable of violence, you knew, but you were never scared of that from him. âIâm what you want until you disappear again and you tell me nothing. And you come back and do it all over again, and I donât know what Iâm supposed to be to you.â
âGoodnight.â But he was stronger, you knew, and had no trouble ripping out of your grip to stalk off. If it ended like this youâd be at square one again. Heâd lock his jaw and youâd bear the bite.
âCanât you just yell at me!â You werenât a beggar, but youâd never known desperation like this. That you could give someone else so much power over you. âI know youâre mad, just yell at me. It wonât hurt my feelings if you yell. Be mean. I can take it. But donât sit with it and hate me, you canât hate meââ
âWould you shut up?â At the very least he stopped, you were on the brink now, of your limit and his patience. Youâd never seen him scowl like that, not at you, but it went as quickly as it came when he turned around. Heâd never seen you cry like that, not over him.
âI donât know where you go when youâre angry, but you can yell at me and stay. You always leave and if itâs because youâre mad at me then say so, I can listen.â You werenât thinking, just spitting whatever bubbled up, âbut I canât be nothing to you, I have to matter enough for you to yell at me at least or tell me anything, I donât have anything of yours and you are in everything I own.â
He paced over as you babbled, wiping off the forming tears with his thumbs. But Jason wasnât an apologist or an open book, and once the smoke cleared from your lungs, youâd remember that. He held your heart in his volatile hands, and heâd decide how to break it. So he kissed your head and left anyway.
âWeâll talk in the morning.â
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I Wish You KnewâŚ
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You sat on the dull bed. Awaiting nightfall to come. You hadnât eaten, the games made you so distraught you couldnât bother to work up an appetite.
â(Y/n)? Whatâs wrong?â Young il asks you. Breaking you from your dead stare.
âI hate this place. I wanna go homeâ you look up at him with big, teary eyes.
âBaby girlâ he said sweetly, sitting at your side. âItâs gonna be okayâ he wrapped you in a hug.
âItâs not okay!â You cried loudly. âIâm stuck here. I hate it, thereâs nothing here for me. I donât even want the stupid moneyâ
âIm here.â He says calmly. His heart took a hit, you said there was ânothingâ here, what was he then? Nothing? Or was he the exception? He ruled it as you were just emotionally distressed.
âWell, yeah. You. But nothing else. I miss my bed, I miss homeâ
â(Y/n)âŚâ he sat pensively, what do I say? He thought. Do I tell her? What if she hates me, Iâll lose her forever⌠how the fuck do I make this better? Think, In Ho, THINK. He argued with his thought for too long. He sensed your emotions shift.
âWhateverâ you say. âI donât expect you to understand, youâre home anywaysâ his eyes widened. Did you know my secret? What do you mean âIâm home anywaysâ ? (Y/n) what the fuck do you know.
â(Y/n), I feel the same as you. I just donât know what to say to make you feel better.â Young il replied. âI just donât know -â
âYou donât know what to say. Yeah, I know. Same as every boyfriend Iâve had beforeâ you roll your eyes gingerly as you lay back. Your stomach growling loudly.
âPretty girl, have you eaten at all?â
âNo. Iâm not hungryâ you turn away from him. âI just want to go homeâ he sighs, standing up and walking into the food line. He awaited his turn, peeking over his shoulder to check on you. He felt miserable⌠maybe getting you out was a good idea⌠youâre not eating, who knows if youâre really sleeping.
âHey, can I get two of each, please? One of the other players⌠she isnât strong enough to stand on her own and she needs to eat.â Young il spoke in a low voice. The masked men bowed quickly and handed him 2 of each item.
When Young il returned you were still in the same position he left you in. Your eyes puffy and red. He looked sadly upon you. Oh (y/n), I wish you knew⌠he thought to himself. I wish you knew the things I really did.
âHere babyâ he passed you water. âYou need to drink something, you need strength for the next gameâ you pushed his hand away.
âI donât want it.â His shoulders tensed in annoyance.
âIf you donât sit up and drink something water, right this minute, I swear Iâm gonna IV your ass and MAKE you drink waterâ he said sternly. You sat up. Your eyes bloodshot. You took the bottle from his hand, squinting your eyes at him as you did so.
God definitely sent you down as punishment. You were his girl, but you were a pain in his ass since he took you in. A lonely girl, who didnât have a team. The 6 legged race was stressful, though you saved them time with your amazing gong gi skills as Dae Ho took on Ddajki.
âNow take a biteâ he held out a spoon for you. You turned your head. â(Y/n), stop acting like a decrepit child and eat. You will die if you have no strengthâ he said pressingly.
âFine.â You snatched the contain out of his hand. Scarfing down your food like you were never going to see it again. You glared at him as you handed the empty tin back to him. âIâm laying down nowâ
â(Y/n)â Young il said gently. He laid down next to you, his food forgotten on the floor. He held you in his arms. Stroking your hair gently. âI love youâ he said.
âI love you tooâ you sighed gingerly.
Time skip: the middle of the night
â(Y/n)â young il shook you. â(Y/n), wake upâ
âHm- what?â You say tiredly rubbing your eyes.
âCome on, youâre going home.â He said. You stood up and followed as he led you out of the door. âListen, youâre gonna go home and youâre gonna wait for meâ Young il told you.
âHow will you find me?â You ask as a pink man grabbed you.
âI will, I promiseâ young il said as you were being taken away.
âWait! Young il!â You shouted frantically. âI said âfucking waitââ you punched the guard, forcing him to let you go. You ran to Young il. Jumping into his arms. You kissed him passionately, a tear falling from your eye. âYou better get out of here alive.â
âI will. I promise you, Iâll meet you on the outside.â He said, kissing you back. Laying kisses all over your face.
âMeet me at 111 Dokseodang-ro Yongsan-gu, Seoul 04419.â You tell him. âApartment 206â
â111 Dokseodang-ro Yongsan-gu Seoul 04419. Apartment 206â he repeated. âGot it. Iâll see you in a week at mostâ he kissed you one final time before letting you go. He smacked your ass as you turned to walk away.
âI love youâ you shouted to him from down the hall.
âI love you more (y/n)â he shouted back. âI love you more than anythingâ he said quietly watching you turn the corner.
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Glorimas malleus be upon ye
Also, here's my yuusona! / Yuu oc? Yuu...idk but basically my version of Yuu. Hopefully I'll make a proper intro post for her soon
Anyways, I wanted to make something for glorimas since it came to the en server so here it is!
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#twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#twst#twst fanart#twst glorious masquerade#twst yuu#yuusona#twst yuusona#twst oc#kinda???#not maleyuu btw they're besties here#hope yall don't mind that i gave malleus some extra scales bc of my hc#i wanted to put his tail too but it didn't come out right#anyways when i tell you that this took forever i mean it#you guys wouldn't believe the amount of times i changed my yuu's glorimas design#it is pretty simple especially compared to malleus but man i had enough of details with drawing him alone#also i ain't no fashion expert or anything ofc so i just. put and took out some stuff till it looked right to me#i feel like i'm missing some tags idk#maybe i just overtag stuff#is that a word?#maybe???#i drew something#oh that's the tag i was missing!#idk how i always forget it
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FINALLY!! At long last, I've gotten my hands on a Pumpkin Kitty, after a whole year of wanting and waiting.
Her name is Latte! (Short for Miss Pumpkin Spice Latte) You can also call her Miss Spice!
#I spent 10 minutes picking her out omfg#not even exaggerating. I was deciding between this one and one of the last 3 unstuffed PKs#altogether there was only 5 of them left in the store including the 2 stuffed displays#the other one I was looking at had a nearly perfect pumpkin eye patch but less pumpkins overall#and their face wasn't as nice plus the ears were a bit wonky for my taste.#tho it was really hard to tell which would be better while they were unstuffed and flat#in the end I chose Latte because right away she looked to have a sweet face. her ears were nice and she had better patch placement#including a couple full patches on her tail#tbh if I'd had the money I might have bought both because the decision was hard#the bear builder actually asked if I was alright while I concentrated on studying each of those damn cats#I apologized and explained wtf was up with me. she was very understanding#I've always had this quirk where sometimes it'll take forever for me to pick between plushies I really want#especially if they're both the same exact plush. because then I gitta focus harder on finding out which has the better personality#you get what I mean?#anyways this has been a thing for me even as a real little kid#I remember spending and hour-hour and a half almost every time when my dad took me to choose my monthly webkinz#âmy monthly webkinzâ god that makes me sound so privileged. it was the nicest/best thing my dad could afford to get me because we were poor#he wanted to spoil me as all good fathers do but that was the most he could afford and I was always so grateful and still am! but I digress#anyways I took way too long to pick which kitty would become my Latte#but I'm glad I had the opportunity to choose yet alone to actually see pumpkin kitty irl available for purchase#what do you guys think of her?#stuffed animals#plushies#plushblr#build a bear#BAB#pumpkin kitty
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âI hope Iâll find all the pieces of my mind that fell out of my head over all those years, and that Iâll be able to put myself together again. I hope the echoes of pain will fade, and memories of sorrow will die, and that youâll visit me here some dayâŚâ
âAnd I hope you have a happy ending of your own.â
#NICHE BALDURS GATE CHARACTER FANS COME GET YALL JUICE#I may be the only one getting juice but hey. yknow#obligatory if hope has one fan it is me if hope has no fans it means I am dead etc etc#hope bg3#house of hope#baldurs gate 3#bg3#I love her sm you donât understand#sheâs so silly (clinically insane) and sheâs brave and beautiful and UGH. hope. my beloved.#hope my fucking beloved#anyways this took fucking forever#Iâm not super happy with it but i AM done with it. so. yeah#I was gonna do a bg and stuff but like. Iâm sleepy#so you just get the window#also I feel like the light coming through looks a bit shit but again. itâs done for now.#Iâve never tried to draw stained glass and when I tell you it was not fucking easy lol#oh itâs just like drawing regularly but with LESS DETAIL I thought like a smooth brained foool#INCORRECT#there was maths involved#anyyyyywho. all for now. enjoy. please enjoy. if this gets no notes I may cry. a little.
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this was painfully slow to go through, please don't ever do this again Hoyo :_)
#abbey plays honkai star rail#like okay I appreciate being able to get HMC Eidolons for free#and it made me see a lot of stuff I missed. but man#it took forever#people complained about March's event being repetitive#and I get that#but at least it was more straightforward#for HMC you have to basically just explore everything#fight any strong boss you encounter do a lot of hidden quests#it gets tedious#and the game doesn't really tell you anything on how to get them#anyways. I guess I'm officially ready for the new Penacony story bit#incoming kinda Worried Rambling but#I don't know how Penacony has anything to do with what happened in Xianzhou#like Star Rail's pacing is becoming kind of a mess#I mean. we should have gone to Amphoreus asap but then they got like#'actually we should stop by Xianzhou there's no rush!'#and now Xianzhou's story bit ends with Ruan Mei and Tingyun and then what?#we just forget about them and move on? and go back to Penacony of all places when we just bid our farewells to the place?#I don't know I mean AGAIN I love Penacony and I can't wait to see what they are cooking#but I'm worried about the way they deal with cliffhangers by leaving super important things aside#while a lot of things are happening at the same time#we all expected 2.4 and 2.5 to be fillers but they really weren't so#there's too much on the table right now#hmhm....
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RAFE CAMERON ⢠the language of roses
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SUMMARY: your entire life rafe had been giving you roses in different colours, but you never knew what he really wanted to say
WORD COUNT: 3956
GENRE: fluff
CONTENT WARNING: english is NOT my first language, soft!rafe cameron, oblivious!reader
rafe cameron was the kind of kid who never sat still. always running, climbing, jumping off something too high just to prove he could. but there was one thing he always slowed down for: you.
you didnât know why, back then. it wasnât like youâd done anything special. you were just the girl who lived two houses down, the one who tagged along on all his adventures because you were good at keeping up. youâd follow him through the woods behind the cameron house, across the sandy dunes near the water, and even onto the roof of the clubhouse his dad had built in their backyard.
but every so often, heâd stop, like heâd remembered something important, and heâd disappear for a minute or two.
the first time it happened, you were seven. youâd been playing hide-and-seek in the cameron yard, and youâd been crouched behind the garden shed for what felt like forever, waiting for him to find you. when he finally did, he was grinning, his hair messy and sticking to his forehead. in his hand was a single yellow rose.
âwhatâs that for?â youâd asked, wrinkling your nose.
âitâs for you,â he said, holding it out like it was no big deal.
âwhy?â
heâd shrugged. âjust âcause. youâre my best friend.â
that became his thing.
when you scraped your knee climbing a tree, rafe handed you a yellow rose from his momâs garden and said, âitâll make you feel better.â
when you had to spend a week at your grandparentsâ house and came back sulking about missing the beach, there he was with another yellow rose.
âwhat does it mean?â youâd asked one day, sitting cross-legged on his bed as he sorted through his pokĂŠmon cards.
âwhat?â he asked, not looking up.
âthe roses. why do you always give me yellow ones?â
he paused, his hands stilling. âitâs just⌠you know. the prettiest one i could find.â
âoh.â
heâd gone back to his cards, but youâd stared at the flower on the bedside table, something about it making your chest feel funny.
by the time you were ten, the roses felt like part of your routine. if you had a bad day at school, rafe would show up with one tucked behind his ear, waiting for you at your front door.
âhere,â heâd say, handing it over with a grin. âitâs magic. makes everything better.â
âthatâs not how magic works,â youâd reply, but you always accepted it anyway.
it wasnât just the big moments, either. sometimes he gave you roses just because. like when youâd meet him at the playground on a sunny afternoon, or when heâd knock on your window late at night to tell you about a new fort he wanted to build in the woods.
âanother one?â youâd tease, twirling the stem between your fingers.
âyep.â
âwhatâs it for this time?â
âi dunno. just wanted to give it to you.â
you never questioned it. rafe was rafe. the roses were just part of the deal.
but one day, when you were twelve, something changed.
heâd been quiet all afternoon, which wasnât like him. usually, rafe was the loudest person in the room, always cracking jokes or talking a mile a minute. but that day, as you sat side by side on the dock near his house, he barely said a word.
âwhatâs up with you?â you asked, nudging him with your elbow.
ânothing,â he muttered, staring at the water.
âyouâre lying.â
he looked at you then, his blue eyes serious in a way that made your stomach flip. after a long moment, he reached into his bag and pulled out another yellow rose.
âhere,â he said quietly.
you took it, studying his face. ârafe, whatâs wrong?â
ânothing,â he said again, but this time, he gave you a small smile. âi just wanted you to have it. thatâs all.â
you didnât push him. instead, you leaned your head against his shoulder, the rose resting in your lap.
âthanks,â you whispered.
âanytime,â he replied.
by the time you were twelve, the yellow roses were a part of you. a part of him. they showed up in places they didnât belongâpressed between notebook pages, tucked into old shoeboxes, even wilting in jars on your windowsill. you didnât really know why you kept them, but you couldnât throw them away. they were yours.
but then, something changed, again.
it happened on a random summer afternoon. the sun was blazing, and you were sprawled out in the cameron backyard, sipping lemonade while rafe fixed the broken tire swing.
âyouâre gonna break your neck,â you called out, watching him balance precariously on the wooden frame.
he rolled his eyes but didnât answer. rafe never did listen to you when it came to stuff like this.
when he finally hopped down, covered in dirt and grass, he didnât head straight for the lemonade like you expected. instead, he disappeared into the house without a word.
âwhat are you doing?â you shouted after him, but he didnât answer.
a few minutes later, he came back, holding something behind his back.
âclose your eyes,â he said, a grin tugging at his lips.
âwhy?â
âjust do it!â
you sighed but obeyed, covering your face with your hands. âthis better not be another bug.â
âitâs not,â he promised, laughing. âokay, open.â
when you did, he was standing there with a single white rose.
âwhatâs this for?â you asked, staring at the delicate petals.
he shrugged, looking almost shy. âjust thought youâd like it.â
âbut⌠why white?â
âi dunno,â he said, scratching the back of his neck.
you didnât know what to say, so you just smiled and took it from him, your fingers brushing against his for half a second. you didnât notice the way his cheeks turned pink, or the way he stared at you a little too long before turning back to the swing.
that was the first white rose.
after that, the yellow roses didnât come often anymore. instead, youâd find white onesâon your doorstep, in your locker, or handed over with a casual, âhere, this is for you.â
you never asked why.
by the time you were fourteen, white roses were the new normal. rafe had grown taller, his voice deeper, his confidence sharper. but when he gave you roses, he was still the same boy youâd known forever.
âfor me?â you asked one day, twirling the stem of yet another white rose.
âwho else?â he replied, grinning.
then came your sixteenth birthday. you didnât expect anything bigâjust a day at the beach with rafe, like always. but when he showed up at your door, he wasnât empty-handed.
âwhatâs this?â you asked, staring at the bouquet of pink roses in his hands.
he shrugged, but his usual confidence was missing. âbirthday gift,â he said, thrusting them toward you.
you took them, your heart racing. âtheyâre⌠really pretty.â
âyeah, well. so are you.â
the words hung in the air, heavier than they shouldâve been. you stared at him, your cheeks burning, and for the first time, you didnât know what to say.
by the time you were seventeen, things had changed. it wasnât just the way you and rafe had grown upâit was the way heâd changed.
you could see it the moment he introduced herâlily, the new girl with the perfect hair and the perfect laugh and the perfect smile. she was everything you werenât, and you hated how easily rafe seemed to fall for her.
but that wasnât the worst part.
the worst part was that the roses stopped.
it was a sudden thing. at first, there were other flowersâa bouquet of daisies here, a random tulip thereâbut never roses. not the yellow ones youâd grown used to, not the white ones or the pink ones that had become a quiet declaration between the two of you. just... no flowers.
at first, you told yourself it didnât matter. it didnât. rafe had a girlfriend now.
he didnât owe you roses anymore.
but you missed them. you missed the thoughtfulness, the friendship, the feeling that, no matter what, you still had a place in his life.
and then the your biggest fear came trueâhe stopped being your friend altogether.
lily didnât like how close you and rafe had been. she didnât want him hanging out with his girl best friend anymore. so rafe, being rafe, did what he always did when he felt cornered: he let go.
you didnât get it at first. heâd stopped answering your texts, stopped showing up at the usual spots. at school, heâd walk by you without even looking up. youâd sit at lunch, watching him and lily from the other side of the cafeteria, and it made your chest ache in a way you couldnât explain.
there were no more texts to plan beach trips or late-night talks. no more spontaneous hangouts. nothing.
you tried reaching out once, twice, even three times, but it was always the sameâshort answers, distant replies, the kind that made it clear he didnât want to try anymore.
it was too painful. so you stopped trying.
instead, you focused on other thingsâother people.
it wasnât like you didnât have friends, but the friends you had before had always been people who had fallen into your life by default. you had never needed to work for them. they were always there, easy to hold on to. but now, as you walked down the hallway of your high school with a new group of girlsâgirls who wanted to be your friends, who made an effort to include you, to laugh with you, to spend time with youâyou realized something important.
you were learning to let go too.
the girls were different. they were fun and supportive in ways you hadnât realized you were missing. no one ever told you to back off from their boyfriends. no one ever gave you that uncomfortable look when you were laughing too loudly with one of the guys in the group.
it was easier, in a way. no complications. no unspoken feelings. just fun, carefree friendships.
but you couldnât help but feel that gnawing ache in your chest whenever you saw rafe and lily together. it was like a quiet reminder that everything between you and him was over.
and then, one day, you saw it.
lily posted a story on instagramâa picture of a vase of flowers. they were bright and pretty, but there was something painfully obvious about them. they werenât roses.
never roses.
they were daisies. lilies. tulips.
anything but roses.
you looked over at your new group of friendsâlaughing at something ridiculous, pulling you into their conversationâand for the first time in a long while, you realized something important: you were okay.
no, you werenât fine. you missed rafe. you missed your best friend. but you werenât going to stay in the past.
there was a part of you that hoped rafe would realize what heâd lost, that maybe, one day, heâd come back and apologize. but for now, you had other things to focus on.
and maybe that was enough for now.
but still, you didnât expect to see rafe cameron waiting for you after school.
the day had been uneventfulâjust the usual classes, the usual laughs with your friends, the usual reminder in the back of your mind that rafe wasnât part of your world anymore.
but there he was. leaning against the wall near the parking lot, his hands shoved deep in his pockets, his hair a mess like heâd been running his fingers through it all day.
your first instinct was to ignore him. he hadnât spoken to you in months. months. heâd chosen lily, chosen her rules, chosen to let go of everything youâd shared.
but something about the way he lookedâlost, broken, sadâstopped you.
you stepped closer, hesitant. ârafe?â
his head snapped up, his blue eyes locking onto yours. for a second, he didnât say anything, just stared at you like he couldnât believe you were real.
âhey,â he said finally, his voice hoarse.
âwhat are you doing here?â you asked, your tone sharper than you meant it to be.
he flinched, but he didnât back down. âi... i needed to see you.â
âwhy?â
âbecauseââ he broke off, running a hand through his hair. âbecause i screwed up. and because i didnât know where else to go.â
you crossed your arms, trying to ignore the way your chest tightened. âwhat about lily?â
he laughed, but it wasnât a happy sound. âsheâs gone. we broke up.â
âoh.â
you didnât know what else to say. part of you wanted to walk away, to tell him it wasnât your problem anymore. but the other partâthe bigger part, the one that still caredâcouldnât do it.
âcome on,â you said, jerking your head toward your car.
he blinked, surprised. âreally?â
âyeah,â you muttered. âletâs go.â
the drive back to your house was quiet, the air between you heavy with things unsaid. when you got home, you led him to your room, just like you always used to.
he sat on the edge of your bed, looking around like he couldnât believe he was there again. âyou changed it,â he said, his voice soft.
âyeah,â you replied, sitting cross-legged on the other side. âitâs been a while.â
he nodded, staring down at his hands. âiâm sorry.â
âfor what?â
âfor everything. for shutting you out. for choosing her. for being an idiot.â
you didnât say anything, letting the silence stretch between you.
âi missed you,â he said finally, his voice barely above a whisper.
you looked at him then, really looked at him, and you saw itâthe boy youâd grown up with, the one who used to make you laugh until your stomach hurt, the one who always brought you roses.
âi missed you too,â you admitted.
his head snapped up, his eyes filled with something you couldnât quite name. âyeah?â
âyeah,â you said, smiling faintly. âbut youâre still an idiot.â
he laughed, and for a moment, it was like nothing had changed.
you talked for hours, just like you used to. about everything and nothing, about the way life had shifted and the things youâd both been through. it was easy, familiar, like slipping back into an old rhythm.
when he finally stood to leave, you followed him to the door, your heart heavier than you wanted to admit.
âthanks for... for letting me in,â he said, his hand lingering on the doorknob.
âyouâre always welcome,â you said softly.
he nodded, gave you one last look, and then he was gone.
when you turned back toward your room, something caught your eyeâa splash of color on your bed.
frowning, you walked closer, and your breath caught in your throat.
a single purple rose rested on your pillow.
you picked it up, your fingers trembling as you held it to your chest.
you sank onto the bed, staring at the flower, your mind spinning.
he hadnât said it, but he didnât need to. the rose said everything he couldnât.
and for the first time in a long while, you felt like maybeâjust maybeâyou and rafe werenât finished after all.
by the time you were eighteen, you and rafe had found your way back to each other.
it hadnât been easy, not at first. there were awkward silences, half-finished sentences, and moments where you both stumbled over how to act around each other. but slowly, the cracks healed. the space between you shrank. and before you knew it, you were best friends again, just like youâd been before everything fell apart.
except now, things were different in a way you couldnât quite put your finger on. it wasn't different as in your roses changed from yellow to white, it was just... different.
rafe spent more time with you and your friends than he did with his own. heâd show up at your place unannounced, invite himself to girlsâ nights, and make himself at home in your little world. your friends loved himâwho wouldnât? he was funny, charming, and could win over just about anyone with a crooked smile and a well-timed joke.
and then there were the roses.
at first, it had felt like slipping back into an old routine. rafe had always given you flowersâyellow for friendship, white for something deeper, pink for gratitude and love. so when he started showing up with four roses every time he saw you, you didnât think much of it.
a pink rose, soft and sweet. a white rose, pure and delicate. a yellow rose, bright and cheerful. and a dark pink rose, richer, deeper, full of meaning you didnât quite understand.
âwhatâs this for?â youâd ask every time, your voice teasing.
âdo i need a reason?â heâd reply, smirking as he handed them over.
youâd roll your eyes, tuck them into a vase, and move on.
it wasnât until one friday night, when rafe wasnât there, that your friends brought it up.
you were sprawled out on your living room floor with your two best friends, abby and jen, eating popcorn and flipping through magazines. the absence of rafeâs usual presence was noticeable, but you didnât mention it.
âso,â abby said, sitting up and tossing a kernel into her mouth. âare you and rafe, like... a thing?â
you blinked, startled. âwhat?â
jen raised an eyebrow. âyou and rafe. are you dating?â
you laughed, the sound a little too loud. âno. what? no way. weâre just friends.â
âjust friends?â abby repeated, her tone skeptical.
âyes,â you said firmly. âweâve been best friends since we were kids. thatâs all it is.â
jen exchanged a look with abby, then turned back to you. âokay, but... the roses?â
âwhat about them?â
âhe gives you flowers every time he sees you!â abby said, throwing her hands up.
âso? heâs always done that.â
âalways?â jen asked, her eyes wide.
âyeah,â you said with a shrug. âsince we were six.â
both girls gaped at you like youâd just confessed to a crime.
âyouâre telling me,â abby said slowly, âthat rafe cameron has been giving you flowers for twelve years, and youâve never thought it was weird?â
âitâs not weird,â you said defensively. âitâs just... a thing we do. it doesnât mean anything.â
âit definitely means something,â jen said, crossing her arms. âguys donât give roses to their best friends for over a decade unless theyâre in love with them.â
âheâs not in love with me,â you said, rolling your eyes.
âbabe,â abby said, leaning forward. âdark pink roses? those mean, like, admiration and gratitude, but also... yâknow. romance.â
you opened your mouth to argue, but the words stuck in your throat.
âand white roses? purity. pink? love. yellow? friendship. heâs literally giving you every part of him in flower form,â jen added.
you stared at them, your mind racing.
âheâs... heâs just being rafe,â you said weakly.
âexactly,â abby said. âand rafe is in love with you.â
their words echoed in your head long after the conversation ended, and when you went to bed that night, your eyes drifted to the vase on your desk.
four roses. pink, white, yellow, dark pink.
youâd never questioned them before. but now, for the first time, you wondered if maybeâjust maybeâthere was more to them than youâd ever let yourself believe.
your nineteenth birthday was minutes away, and you were already in bed.
well, technically you were sitting on your bed, legs crossed, scrolling through your phone while waiting for the clock to hit midnight. your hair was twisted into perfect curls, your nose strip was firmly in place, and your face was freshly moisturizedâyour skincare routine impeccable as always.
you werenât expecting anything. your friends had already promised to make a big deal out of it tomorrow, and you figured the actual moment of your birthday would pass quietly, just you and your phone and a sleepy smile.
but then you heard the faint scrape of your window.
at first, you froze. was someone trying to break in?
ârelax,â came a familiar voice, low and teasing. âitâs just me.â
ârafe?â
you slid off your bed, rushing to the window to find him perched on the ledge, one hand gripping the frame, the other holding something behind his back.
âwhat are you doing?â you hissed, trying to keep your voice down. âitâs midnight!â
âexactly,â he said, flashing that boyish grin that always got him out of trouble. âhappy birthday.â
you blinked, completely thrown off. âyou climbed up here for that?â
he shrugged, effortlessly pulling himself through the window and into your room. âyouâre worth it.â
âyouâre insane.â
âand youâve got... something on your nose,â he said, his gaze locking onto the strip.
your cheeks flushed. youâd completely forgotten about your skincare situation.
âoh my god, i look ridiculous,â you muttered, turning away from him.
âno, you look... like you,â he said, his voice softer now.
you glanced back at him, narrowing your eyes. âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âit means i like you better like this,â he said simply. âno makeup, no filters, just... you.â
before you could respond, he brought his hand forward, revealing the bouquet heâd been holding.
âhere,â he said, holding it out to you.
you stared at it, your heart doing a strange little flip. the roses were beautifulâsoft pastel purple, deep dark purple, a single vivid red, and of course, the familiar yellow.
ârafe,â you whispered, taking them from him. âyou didnât have toââ
âyeah, i did,â he cut you off. âyou deserve them.â
ârafe...â you started, but the words wouldnât come.
he shrugged like it was no big deal, but the way he looked at you told you otherwise. âhappy birthday,â he said again, his voice soft, his eyes searching yours.
you stared at him, your heart thudding in your chest. the weight of the flowers in your hands, the warmth in his gaze, the fact that heâd climbed through your window just to be the first to see you on your birthdayâit was all too much and somehow just enough.
âthank you,â you whispered, your voice unsteady.
he stepped closer, his hand brushing against yours as you clutched the bouquet.
âyouâre everything to me, you know that?â he said, the words tumbling out like he couldnât hold them back any longer.
your heart stopped for a moment, then started again, faster, louder.
ârafe...â
he shook his head, his hands moving to gently frame your face. âyou donât have to say anything. just... can Iâ?â
he didnât finish the sentence, but you understood.
âyes,â you breathed, barely able to get the word out.
he leaned in slowly, giving you plenty of time to pull away, but you didnât. when his lips brushed yours, it was soft at first, tentative, like he was afraid youâd disappear.
but then you kissed him back, and something inside both of you broke free.
the roses slipped from your hands onto the bed, forgotten as you melted into him, your arms winding around his neck, his fingers tangling gently in your curls.
when you finally pulled back, your forehead rested against his, both of you breathing heavily, the world outside your room completely forgotten.
âhappy birthday,â he whispered again, his smile so full of affection it made your chest ache.
âbest one yet,â you replied, your own smile matching his.
and as he stayed by your side, your head resting on his shoulder, the roses scattered around you, you couldnât imagine a better way to start a new year of your life.
and for years, you kept them allâpressed between the pages of your favorite books, tucked into jars on your windowsill, little pieces of rafe that made you feel like the most important person in the world.
because to him, you were.
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âcould you be seen with me and still act proud?â
⢠Jing Yuan, Argenti, Aventurine, Dan Heng, Blade, Xiao, Childe, Wanderer, Zhongli
⢠Star Rail / Genshin x [GN] Reader
⼠(their answer + reaction to this question)
⼠(comfort / fluff)
⧠- JING YUAN
âWhy, of course. I would hold your hand up for the whole of the Xianzhou to see.â
This was pretty expected of the sly general. However, what was unexpected was the way he took you in his arms and lifted you upâbridal style. You begged him to put you down as he opened the doors of his and your room, now making his way outside to remind the whole Xianzhou that you're his and he's yours.
⧠- ARGENTI
âDearest loveâof course, I would be so proud to have the chance to take the hand of mortal beauty itself, and, if it were chivalrous, I would boast about your beauty everywhere I go.â
Ever so poetic, Argenti pulls your heart strings again with his creative (yet cheesy) lines. He loves you; that's a fact that nobody can deny, and he believes that you were sent down by Idrila herself with how attractive you are. Without a hesitant thought, he backs away and offers you his handâwill you accept the offer in which he takes you from place to place, hand in hand, to show the whole world that your his love?
⧠- AVENTURINE
âYou wanna take a bet? Here, I'll take you out to dinner if you guess my answer correctlyâget it wrong, and I decide on what I'll do with you.â
With a wink and a smile turning into a smirk, it's always hard to guess what Aventurine is thinking, but with the clock ticking, you hardly get time to really think, and so you curiously answer with âno.â A smile grows on his face, and he leans in close, holding your arms. He whispers in your ear, âI guess that means you have to do what I tell you tonight.â
⧠- DAN HENG
âOf course. I do... I do love you, after all.â
His sentences are kept short and simple (with a little bit of blush), just like how they always are. Now, unlike most people on this list, he isn't bringing you outside to let the world know that you're dating, but he would feel and does absolutely feel proud to have you as his love. He reassures you that he would never feel embarrassed or feel the need to hide his love for you, no matter the crowd he's surrounded by.
⧠- BLADE
âYes. Nobody's taking you, and nobody's taking me. Everyone had better know that you're mine, and the same goes for me.â
His response was rather threatening, but that's typical with Blade. His words are as sharp as his sword, but they're also as meaningful as sharp; his intent is nowhere near ill towards you, and he only means that he's dedicated himself to you already, and it's a dedication that he would never feel embarrassed or guilty for. Now, take his handâhe'll promise the world that you're his tonight.
⧠- XIAO
âYes. Why wouldn't I be?â
In Adeptus Xiao language, he means, âyes, of course I would. Archons, holding your hand is a blessing itself.â And, though he doesn't admit it, he still feels it. You are his first and only love in several millennia. You, of every person to ever set foot in Liyue, managed to capture his heart when nobody else could. Xiao loves you, and he feels that he will forever, so he prays you'd banish him if he ever hurts you or hides his love away for something trivial because that means the karma got to him and that he's gone mad.
⧠- CHILDE
âOf course, babe! You know what? Let's go on a date right nowâ everything's on me!â
And that's simply Childe. Without a word, he disappears and reappears with your favorite outfit in hand, and has you put it on (in private as he waits outside the bedroom door), and when you're done, he's suddenly dressed nicely with roses in hand, and he takes you out on a date. How? No clue, but know that he's letting the whole region know that you're his right here and right now.
⧠- WANDERER
âHuh? That's a stupid question. Why are you asking me, anyway?â
Yes. He means yes in every way possible. His sharp tongue speaks the opposite, but Wanderer truly means that he would show you off to the world if he had to. If he has to, mainly because he finds the concept of love in its entirety as stupid, but he also loves you too much to let you leave him, let alone have someone else think that you're some vacant partner just waiting to be taken. Now, hold both of his hands. He'll glide you above Sumeru City and show everyone there that you're his if you're still thinking about the question.
⧠- ZHONGLI
âWell, of course. Would you like to take a walk around the harbor for me to prove that?â
Zhongli senses your insecurity, and he wishes to alleviate your worries, so he takes you to a popular teahouse by a bridge. It's not that grand or special, but he keeps you close to him as you both sip away at your tea and embrace the company of one another.
yes, this was a heathers reference.
#character x reader#genshin x reader#star rail x reader#jing yuan x reader#argenti x reader#aventurine x reader#dan heng x reader#blade x reader#xiao x reader#childe x reader#tartaglia x reader#wanderer x reader#kuni x reader#scaramouche x reader#scara x reader#zhongli x reader#genshin fic#genshin impact fic#honkai star rail x reader#star rail fic#honkai star rail fic#fluff#comfort#character x y/n#genshin x y/n
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Jod Na Nawoodâs backstory is FASCINATING!! And makes SO much sense!!! Order 66 fucked up SO much in the galaxy, itâs so interesting (and tragic) to see what itâs done to the force sensitive children who were unable to be taken into the Temple. It truly supports how GOOD the Jedi Order is. How good the JEDI are. I canât even fully comprehend everything the galaxy lost and suffered without them. And- Jodâs master. She didnât have to take him in. He knew that. He knows she was desperate. But she took him in anyway and taught him what she could. We only get a very tiny glimpse of that backstory but itâs utterly gut-wrenching.
Imagine the survivor of a genocide. A Jedi on the run, desperate and hungry and grieving, running into a little kid just as lost as her and seeing that LIFE in him. Feeling the FORCE in him. What would that have done to her after feeling everyone she knew and loved ripped away from her. But here is this kid and he needs help and maybe she does, too. Maybe they can help each other. And so she folds him under her wing just as any Jedi would have done. She teaches him the ways of her people, knowing that their way of life lives on in her and that she is passing it on to a new generation. And that probably hurt. It probably hurt SO much. Because she canât give him what she could have if the Order was still alive. And heâll never understand what it means to be part of something so beautiful and long-lasting. But she does what she can, and they maybe never would have met if Order 66 didnât happen. And itâs an awful thought, the worst kind of thought, but she canât help but be relieved they found each other. Because she loves this lost little kid and maybe theyâre broken together, but theyâre more whole together, too. And maybe without Jod she could have run and hid forever. Maybe she couldnât have, plenty Jedi were caught and murdered. But she knew the risk and she took it- and the way Jod talks about it (âthey made me watchâ) makes me think that he feels heâs responsible for her getting caught. And it makes me wonder how she felt when she was caught. Knowing she was one of the last of her kind, and that this kid was going to be alone again. Orphaned in a completely new, terrible way.
And I wonder, too, if looking after the kids reminded Jod of his old Jedi Master. And maybe he thought âI canât get attached because then theyâll catch me too and Iâll die just like her.â And you know what, Jod? It did happen that way. You got caught because of those kids. But only because you forgot what it means to be a Jedi, which is to say that after your Master died you tore out that softness within you. Abandoned love for fear. Exchanged generosity for greed. And itâs true grief and trauma changes people. That a little kid alone in the galaxy does what they can to survive. But Jod isnât a little kid anymore and it doesnât excuse the choices you make. Itâs a wretched world, one without a Jedi, and Jod suffered all the more for it.
And I wonder, too, what Jod thought when Wim paused in the elevator. When that little kid called out to him, despite everything Jod had done to him. Did Jod look at Wim and think: âYeah, thatâs what a Jedi would beâ and then hate himself all the more for it? Well, who can tell. Jod is a fascinating character and Iâm excited to see where the show next takes us.
#jod na nawood#star wars#skeleton crew#skeleton crew spoilers#Jedi#Jedi order#Sw meta#meta#cross meta#cross talks#listen Jod is a DICK but heâs SOOO interesting#order 66
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âScary? My god youâre divineâ
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PLEAAASEE german shepherd x golden retriever is one of my faaavvv tropes OAT !! itâs so so adorable and especially with katsuki cus i know he just thinks heâs so scary ! i got a lil idea after the recent manga chap that just came out, so this might be a liiiiiittle super small spoiler but i think its so cute ! hope you enjoy anon tysm for the ask ! much luv xxx
fem reader, super duper minooor spoiler but katsuki has stitches !, mutual pining, idiots in love, soft katsu (cus he has to be but also cus heâs whipped) (but hes still a little piece of shit) reader is a lil sweetie, short lil fluffy fic, touchy katsuki bc i cannot help myself, lmk if i missed anything else !
before the war, bakugou had made a lot of new little habits.
heâs made it a habit of waiting for you to head out of class so you could walk together. heâs made it a habit of sharing just a portion of his lunch with you, because apparently heâs constantly been making too much, ignore the fact that he only letâs you have those âextraâsâ that doesnât mean anything.
heâs made it a habit of carrying around an extra water bottle with him because you always forget to keep yourself hydrated after training, heâs also made it a habit to scold you for it endlessly. heâs ruthless even as you whine about how mean he is, saying that âhe wouldnât need to be on your ass so much if you just remembered to grab your damn bottle.â he ignores the fluffy feeling in his heart and tells you to shut up when you tell him that he always has your back anyway, swiftly looking away from you and cheeks turning red.
and since you're on the way to his house, he's made it a habit of walking you home. you call it hanging out after school, he calls it 'just making sure you don't get lost somehow..hah ?! don't ask me how ! your dumbass would probably find a way to !'
anyway, he's made it his mission to grace you with his presence every day after school. you always bid him a cheery goodbye, "see you tommorow !" you say, and he always looks forward to it, even when he turns away, nonchalantly throwing you a quick wave over his shoulder.
usually you wake up at completely different hours, so he doesn't pick you up the morning. you always wished you could see him first thing in the morning, but seeing him waiting by the school gate's was more than enough to make your heart soar, you were more than happy with that.
but today you can finally go back to school. after dealing with non stop fighting for what felt, and probably was, hours and hours on end during the events of the war. and being stuck in the hospital for a few weeks, it feels nice to wear your school uniform and feel somewhat normal again. you'd get to see all your friends again and you'd official be a second year. you smile softly to yourself in the mirror.
katsuki had sent you a text a few minutes ago. he'd asked if you were almost ready, and you'd responded that you were only for him to leave you on read. you didn't mind much and shrugged it off.
but today, when you walk out the door, you see katsuki waiting for you on the sidewalk.
you blink twice, eyes widening. katsuki turns and looks up from his phone screen at the sound of the door he also blinks, although he's more unbothered then you as he simply stands up, pushing himself off his knees with a groan "took you long enough." he drawls. his eyes are warm and his lip twitch just the slightest bit at your expression "thought you'd keep me waiting forever."
"katsuki !" you exclaim, eyes still wide "what're you doing here ?!" you quickly walk to him, standing close enough to see the marks on his face, and the unmistakable stitches on his cheek.
he raises a brow like you're crazy, tilting his head "m'walking you to school."
"bwuh-are you even allowed to go to school ?" you sputter, realising he had his school uniform on, you liked it when he started making it a habit of wearing his tie more often. katsuki grumbles at your worries "shouldn't you be in the hospital ?" he scoffs at your fretting, but his eyes soften as he leans in closer to you. you see his battle scars better that way. you gulp at the sudden proximity, he's never been shy about getting in people's faces, although it was never meant to be intimidating when he did it with you, if the pink tint of his cheeks meant anything.
"doc said it's fine as long as i keep quiet.." he scoffs after finishing the sentence, rolling his eyes and causing you to giggle. hearing the sound he hadn't heard in what felt like ages made him sniff in amusement. you reach for his hand then, and he doesn't take his eyes off you while intertwining his fingers with yours. both your eyes shining with longing and affection for the other. you smile brightly at him and even though the doctors had told him to be careful with his heart, it seemed you were gonna make that hard for him. it didn't matter though, he was always up for a challenge.
pulling him along, you decide to tease him "guess that means you're gonna have to be on your best behaviour today, huh ? so you can't go gettin' mad at kaminari for no reason !" you playfully scold.
he rolls his eyes at the mention of your friend, though he doesn't hold back his smirk, he's definitely more open then he was compared to when you'd first started school. thinking about how far you've come together makes you happy, but it also feels bittersweet. "dunce face s'the who keeps pissin' me off, not my fault he can't handle it." you snicker and he snorts in amusement, squeezing your hand and making butterflies squirm around in your stomach. you don't mention the tight grip he has on your hand, probably because you're gripping his just as tight with no intention of letting go anytime soon. you probably look like a couple to the people walking by, you realise. and the thought does not displease you at all, far from it. it makes you a little too happy.
"behave." you squeeze his hand.
"i do." he growls, squeezing back, "he keeps trying me." you respond with a snort. your eyes occasionally fly towards his face, to the stitches on it more specifically. he's caught you looking multiple times on the way to the bus stop, not like you were exactly being subtle. your stare makes him nervous and he decides to finally confront you about it when you get to the bus stop.
"spit it out." he says, hands clammy in your grip, he hopes and prays you don't notice because it's so unbearably embarrassing to have to admit he was worried about what you'd think about his new look. he'd been anxious on your doorstep but you didn't give him much of a reaction, too shocked to even see him at the time, but your constant shifty glances made all the anxiety crawl back up again. so he speaks, keeping these distracting and frankly irritating thoughts to himself just irritated him.
you blink, humming curiously. katsuki grumbles to himself, keeping his eyes from yours. "ya keep staring at me, so what's up ?"
"it's strange seeing you with stitches." you answer bluntly. usually, he likes how honest you are, but right now it does nothing but stress him out. "i heard you messed your face up pretty bad, but i'm glad it didn't leave too much of a nasty scar." you muse. katsuki hums but his eyebrows furrow as he catches your last words, he's a little pissed off that you'd heard about what happened during the war. he'd wanted you to know as little as possible to keep from worrying you, or at the very least he'd wanted to tell you himself. he'll make sure to thoroughly question his fuckass friends later. of course, it also could've been her.
"..how'd you-"
"your mom told me."
he grunts. of course, it was his mom.
that damn hag..
"of course." he mutters bitterly. you don't respond, and to him that's all the answer he needs. a pit settles in his stomach.
"yeah, it's weird, isn't it ?" he agrees bitterly, unconsciously tightnening his grip on your hand. "it looks kinda creepy, right ?"
"what do you mean ?" his jaw tightens " i mean..like, on my face..." he sputter and mutters to himself, unable to properly say what he wants. you understand him though and immediately you turn till your face to face with him. your expression determined as you grab his other hand, both of his scarred hands now in your grip. his eyes widen in shock, embarrassment creeping up on him.
"there's nothing wrong with your face, katsu." you reassure, you'd made it a habit of calling him all those stupidly endearing nicknames, and it doesn't help taming the blush on his face slowly bleeding onto his cheeks. he pouts, fixing his gaze onto you and towards the floor.
"but doesn't it look..i dunno," he mutters, suddenly feeling self conscious "scary ?"
"scary ?" you tilt your head, he squints and looks away.
"i guess." he grunts with a nod, trying to save face. obviously it doesn't work by the look on yours. you're always so bubbly and sweet, he hates seeing such a pained expression on your face. you tug at his arms to get him to look at you "scary ? there's nothing scary about you.." you say sweetly, shaking your head. "i personally think you look really cool.." you mutter. katsuki feels his face heat, but his heart soars nonetheless. his eyes have been stuck wide for a second.
cool.
you think he looks cool.
"i was just wondering if they hurt ?" he tilts his head back in thought at that. instictively running his tongue on the inside of his cheek.
"nah, just felt weird when they were numbing it. but i didn't feel a thing." he shrugs, he suddenly smirks, the stitches being pulled up by the movement "wanna touch em ?" he teases, pulling you closer by the grip he still has on your hands. your eyebrows shoot to your hairline and he barks out a laugh.
"i-i can't do that ! what if i touch them and they come loose or something !" katsuki rolls his eyes at your jittering, using the hand still in his grip to bring it near his cheek, you desperately pull back and his evil smirk widens.
"katsuki, no !" you protest. he cackles meanly.
"it's fine." he insists, your pointer finger grazes his cheek and you turn your head away.
"i don't wanna !" you shake your head, your shoulders shaking as you hold back a giggle.
"yn. you're fine." he insists. he'd made it a habit of calling you by your first name after you'd started hanging out more. you called most of your friends by their first names pretty quickly into the year, your cheeriness making it easy for you to get along with everyone but you always were a little on guard with katsuki at first. he'll never admit it, but he was a little jealous that you'd call everyone in your shared friend group by their first name except for him. the sweet bubbly tone in your voice when you called for sero or kirishima made a nasty feeling bubble up in the pits of his stomach he'd desperately tried to push away. until one day he'd snapped during your group outing at the mall (outing he was coerced into going to by kirishima after finding out you where going too)
he'd regretted how whiney and bitter he sounded at the time, but he thinks it was worth it every time you'd look at him and say his name so sweetly, definitely worth it, as embarrassing as it was. and he'd started calling you by your first name too shortly after. all your friends do, but it felt so, so different with him.
finally your fingers make contact with the staples on his cheek. you peek up to look at him then. you run your fingers across them ever so softly, making sure not to hurt him. katsuki slowly let's go of your hand. unmoving and unnervingly still as you take your time scanning his face.
"so ?" he raises a brow, smirk slowly melting into a softer smile as he sees you smile to yourself.
"it's..not bad.." you tentatively start, still too worried to move too suddenly. he hums playfully. "and you don't feel it at all ?" you ask
"at all." he softly shakes his head. you don't realise you've gotten closer to his face but he sure has, and you end up realizing a little too late, but neither of you move away. you try to, but katsuki pulls you back in before you can get far. "do i still look cool up close ?" he jests, but there's some seriousness and vulnerability in his gaze. you smile warmly.
"yup," you say softly, you hear katsuki inhale sharpy, eyes never leaving yours "definitely still the coolest. not scary at all" you giggle, he rolls his eyes but chuckles. before you can question your positition or move away (or closer) to him you see the bus arriving in the distance. he notices it too and you share a look before you take a step back, smiling shyly at the floor while he keeps his gaze on the bus on the way.
untilâ
"OW, fuck !!"
your eyes snap up to see katsuki holding his cheek in his hand, your heart hammers and your eyes widen. you're next to him in two steps. "what, whatâwhy-what happened ??!" you stammer, your hands reaching up to grab ahold of his face though you stutter, maybe it was your fault ?!
untilâkatsuki bursts out laughing. mean, but undeniably cute watery cackles that have you furrowing your brows in confusion until your jaw drops in realization.
the. asshole.
"you're not funny !" you whine, pushing at his arm although pushing might be the overstatement of the century. it could be more comparable to a nudge because even though he is an asshole, you wouldn't want to hurt him. even if he deserves it, you're better than that. you'll just think about hurting him.
katsuk chuckles breathelessly, grabbing your arm while you walk closer and stretch your arm out to signal the bus to stop. "it was funny, admit it !"
"you suck. you're the worst." scanning your bus ticket and walking ahead ignoring him, katsuki quickly scans his ticket and follows diligently behind you.
"you thought it was hilarious." he smirks.
"the absolute worst, the lowest of the low." you huff, ignoring the persistant heat of his eyes on you. he only snickers.
"i see you laughing."
today, you arrive to school with katsuki not at the school gates waiting for you, but walking together with you to start your new school year as second years. and you both hope you can make a habit out of this.
#thanks for the ask anon!#it was super fun to write and a fun way to come back from break !#bakugou katsuki x reader#katsuki bakugou x reader#bakugo fluff#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou katuski x reader#katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugou katsuki#bakugou imagine#bakugou fluff#katsuki bakugo fluff#bakugo katsuki x reader#katsuki x you#katsuki x y/n#bakugou drabble#bakugou x you#bakugou x y/n
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Ah...
In a world where people get born with the first sentence their soulmate shares with them tattooed on their wrist, Y/N and Oscar are probably not the ones with the easiest story to tell.
note: first Oscar fic! this is prep for a longer 1k followers celebration...i'm a little too excited for that one
warning: pure fluff
Not everyone got to meet their soulmate, and that was totally fine. Her parents weren't soulmates and they still managed to have an amazing life. Why waste time waiting around and looking for a guy who's first word he'd ever say to her was suppose to be "Ah."
"Ah."...? What was that about anyway? Stupid wrist tattoo, marking her forever with a word so unimpressive.
During her teenage years, it became an inside joke between her and her best friend. A word to overuse so much it could truly mean anything. Ah.
Her boyfriend was definitely not her soulmate. He was blessed with having a full sentence on his wrist - but in French, a language she did not speak. The hot, dark haired boy was too obsessed with studying physics to take the whole concept of soulmates seriously, so when they met in university, it was a no brainer to follow the path set by hormones rather than fate and date together.
Only after they graduated she realized just how soul-crushing it was to spend time with him. When the social circles broke down and they were left alone, it was more than clear they were not a good match. But it's hard to see the tornado when you're standing inside of it.
The vacation was suppose save the relationship. Instead, their fights were laced with her running away and him having his eyes wonder around any girl walking by.
Only two more days, she said as she walked hastily around a garden adjacent to the villa they were staying at, once again. It was like a dance - they'd fight, she'd run away, he'd search for her and they'd go back to their room for a night of silence. On repeat for the whole vacation organized by the devil himself. The plan was to turn her life upside down once she arrived back home. Start fresh. At that moment, she had no idea just how fresh that would be.
She stood in the middle of a pathway leading to dimly lit swimming pool, tired and impatient. By this time her boyfriend would usually be on his way to get her back.
Finally, grass cracking sound that followed any footstep in this garden. She closed her eyes, unable to do this dance anymore.
"I want to break up," she whispered and turned around.
Oscar did not plan on speaking with this woman standing in the middle of the way back to his hotel room. He was just coming back from his late evening swim session.
When she uttered those words, it was like each of the syllable burned on his skin. Hundred questions answered and thousand new on the table.
Absolutely baffled, yet in his typical stoic style of keeping it together on the outside, while exploding internally, he couldn't bring himself to a more than..."Ah."
//
Oscar fully believed in the concept of soulmates and had no doubt that he would meet his, that's why he refrained from dating anyone who did not have the specific, very strange, words on their wrist.
"I want to break up"...? Why would this be the first thing you ever say to someone?
Over the time, he figured it would just be him overhearing the words. Or that he was one of the lucky ones, having a soulmate who has a special catch phrase they use when introducing to anyone new. He imagined his soulmate to be clever and cunning. And like the dreamer he was, he already had several versions of their meet up in his head, usually followed by their whole life together playing out. Oh, what a bliss when the moment would finally come.
But when it came, it took him totally of guard. Somehow, in all the scenarios he thought about his whole life, he missed probably the most realistic one. He was only trying to get back to his room and this girl was standing in the middle of the only clear pathway, as if it was nothing. She spoke with her back turned to him.
"I want to break up."
And when she turned around, after mistaking him for someone else, he saw a beautiful face, all puffy with smudged make up. And obviously in a really bad mood. He was, as they say, too stunned to speak.
"Ah." He said bluntly, too quickly for him to even notice it, processing the fact he just heard that one specific sentence, the one that should define the rest of his life.
She stared at him, as if he just offended her entire family. "What?!"
He felt..nothing. She couldn't be his soulmate. No way. Most likely because he had his response to "I want to break up" rehearsed his whole life. It was supposed to be "Worry not, now I am here." A lovely sentence to walk around with, right? He wanted his soulmate to wear the tattoo proudly, not with - what was it he even said? Did he even say something? He didn't, did he?
"Worry not, now I am here," he tried, feeling like he had nothing to loose. The words came out clumsily, as if they tripped over one another.
He was sure her face was already the most confused one could make, but she proved him wrong, quickly.
"Sorry, I'll leave you to it. This was obviously a misunderstanding," he said, trying to be polite and took few steps ahead to get going. She reacted and stepped right into his way.
This surely couldn't be it. But, emotions were running high, she thought she was addressing her boyfriend and was somehow trying to comprehend the fact she nearly broke up with him. And then she hears an "Ah." "What did you say?" she shot at him, no filter whatsoever, watching him with fascination and some flavor of anger.
Oscar was beginning to regret ever engaging in this conversation. "Worry not, now I am here...There, now, is that tattooed on your wrist? I imagine not, so, apologies and I'll leave you to whatever you're doing," he said, without giving her much space to respond. He felt slightly guilty about leaving an obviously distressed woman alone there, but his social awkwardness won this round and he just wanted this to be over.
"No, you didn't," she said, not intent on moving anywhere. Determined look replaced her sorrow.
"I'm pretty sure I did."
"And I am sure you didn't," she said, raising her wrist all the way to his eyeline. "You said this, didn't you?!"
It was not a tone of playful or even hopeful realization. Her delivery was spiced with unresolved anger that grew inside. He squeezed his eyes, having hard time seeing the small letters in the light of the nearing night. "What's that?"
She put her hand down, having a really hard time believing this was actually happening. It took him by surprise the speed with which she reached for his own hand, but his racer reflexes kicked in and he managed to avoid her.
Annoyed sigh left her mouth. "Will you show me your hand? I've already had a pretty shit day without you making obstructions."
He looked deeply in her eyes. This was a lot of emotion battling each others, little too much for Oscar.
"I'm pretty sure we're not soulmates," he said dryly.
"Tell me what's on your hand and I'll let you fuck off from when you came from."
"I'd actually like to go the other way-"
"Show me your hand!"
Visibly taken back, almost offended by her shouting, he reveled his wrist.
Time stopped for Y/N for few seconds. She was staring at the words she uttered just a minute ago. Decided to take a deep breath before she looked in his eyes once again. "Sorry for...screaming. We're almost definitely soulmates...You said "Ah." It felt good to finally know what kind of tone this sound was spoken with. End to the endless possibilities.
The irony of the fact that Oscar had a hard time remembering if he had actually said something so stupid dwelled on him. Did he? Knowing himself, he probably did.
"Ah," he repeated with a much heavier, slightly bitter, undertone.
"Yeah."
They just stood there, staring at each other. Was this suppose to be it? The moment he longed for and the one she already mourned? Just now she noticed that he was a gorgeous guy. Heavenly actually. Such a kind smile. Innocent look with a hint of spice. But she believed in love, not necessarily soulmates. Even if she did, this was the worst moment to do this. Little, almost invisible, tears started rolling from her eyes.
"Can I take a photo of you?" she asked, with defeated smile, wanting to walk away with a tangible evidence for her lonely evenings in the future.
Oscar was still processing. "Sure," he replied to a sentence he heard thousand times each month. Very automatically his body moved for a classic hug with a fan - which she rejected and just snapped a photo of his face.
"Nice to meet you. But I have my shit to deal with. I'm not good for you anyway," she said and sprinted back to he hotel room, to her current boyfriend and a deadend life. He just stood there, unable to comprehend. When he finally did, she was gone.
//
"Mr. Piastri, you understand that I can't just give you a room number to someone who you don't even know by name," the receptionist said, not backing down to his urgency.
"But she is my soulmate! She just passed by, surely you would know which one of the guests she is," he said, both hand on the counter, towering the poor reception lady.
"I'm going to have to ask you to stop this request or we might be forced to cancel your stay and remove you from the premise."
He rolled his fingers into his first, mad at himself the most out of all the people. "Yeah. Great. Understood."
//
Y/N didn't sleep for a minute that night. When she returned back without a word, her boyfriend didn't even look up. She didn't really care.
"Let's just get through these few days," he said and she just nodded.
Mind racing around new set of eyes she memorized from the photo she had, not having a clue that he in fact was a racer.
//
Breakfast. Oscar's chance to take destiny into his own hands. He was the first one to arrive and planned on being the last one to leave. And should she miss her breakfast, he'd move into the lobby. Determined to talk to her at least one more time. Sat there, drinking his juice and bouncing his leg up to the point it annoyed even him.
//
He'd probably be at the breakfast, she realized as her sleep deprived body walked towards the elevator. A stolen glance at her partner. They hadn't said a word to each other the whole morning. To think she once thought one of them would bury the other after a nice full-filled life. Coffee and croissant was her only hope now. And of course the guy from yesterday was there. Sitting at a table, alone, very obviously finished with his breakfast. Arms crossed and eyeing all the entrances. She couldn't help but smile and light up when she saw him. He sat there. Waiting. Was there even a possibility he'd be waiting for her? Like a soulless ghost, she followed her current partner and sat down to the table he picked.
Oscar was a secret over-thinker. He spent every minute going through every possibility of what could happen. So of course he was ready, in theory, for her entering with another guy or a girl. However, the whole nature of her first sentence to him was about breaking up. And you don't say that in a healthy relationship.
It was now or never for him. He watched the pair grab a seat few tables away from him. God, she was gorgeous. Seeing her walk in, summer dress proving the internet was right once again, made him weak in his knees and unable to look away. She paused upon noticing him, eyes shyly flashing back and forth, absolutely no plan or idea what to do. Awkwardly put her things down the at the table, fumbled around aimlessly and proceeded to walk over the breakfast bar. As she walked, she could almost feel his eyes piercing through her back. For some reason, it felt as if he knew something she didn't. she had to actively convince herself to act normal, as if this was her first time having breakfast at a hotel. Copy others. Oscar did indeed stare at her as if there was no tomorrow. Eyes glued to her back, cosplaying as the worst private detective this planet ever produced. He found himself getting up and approaching the bar she was standing by, the guy she came in long gone from her close proximity.
Oscar gulped before speaking, standing right beside her, pretending to be interested in a stack of apples. Her eyes flashed to her left, but she already knew who was standing next to her. It was as if she could hear his energy, something divine, intoxicating and most importantly - inevitable.
"Morning....I hope you've had better night than when you left yesterday," he opened with, desperately trying to break the ice. He was absolutely hopeless with small talk. His tone created a small smile on her face. This sort strange and unique tonality, which was exceptionally hard to decipher, mixed with his Australian accent. Again, so many questions popping up in her head - her body wanted her to find out everything about this guy.
"I'm not sure that's the case. But thank you for asking I guess," she said and leaned over his hand to reach for a fresh peach. It was not her conscious decision to brush his hand, but it definitely could have been avoided. Neither party mattered. Two shy smiles were created at that moment.
"Would you mind sharing your name with me?" he asked, as she glanced over to his wrist, to look at his tattoo once again.
She answered, slightly hesitantly. "Y/N."
"Uuh,"
"Are interjections the only language you speak?" she whispered, still not over the whole "Ah." thing and finally stopped pretending to be interested in the breakfast bar. She did the best she could to meet his eye while not turning around and becoming too obvious.
Oscar was having trouble processing his body's reaction to this girl being so close now. "No, but I am happy you seem interested to know that."
It was impossible to fight of the smile. "I'm not, you're the reason I'm walking with this my whole life," she said, lifting her wrist once again.
He fiddled with some apples, trying to keep his hands busy. "I'd like to object that in this pair I'm the one who lost"
"Don't say the word pair," she said in a tone so unserious even she couldn't pretend to believe it.
"Why, does that idea make you nervous?" he clicked his tongue, feeling more confident with every second she stayed there with him.
"I have a boyfriend," she stated, lying to herself anyway.
He smirked. "Apologies, must have misread my own hand."
"I can't break up with someone on a holiday," she responded, reaching for straws, not even knowing why. She took two steps to the coffee line and to no surprise, he followed.
"You didnt seem to think as such yesterday," he said in more serious tone. "Look, I don't know you-"
"No, you don't," she jumped in before he continued.
"-But...let me present my hypotheses, so that we can test the whole soulmate thing. Does that not make you at least a bit excited?" he said, trying to hide his own excitement, which was something he did not have to do often, so he was not really good at it.
She found his confidence mixed with clumsiness so intoxicating. "It's overrated," she argued, perhaps trying to see how much he's willing to defend it.
"I'm so much looking forward to proving that theory wrong." There is was. The point of no return.
"Well before you do," she bit her smile, accidentally leaving a pause for him to fill.
"Ah, so you believe that I will," he said sith his signature "I won" smile.
"Again, with the interjections, you gotta unlearn that," she said, happy he couldn't see directly into her face, as she felt the blush spreading.
"Teach me."
"Stop it...." she froze, searching in memory a moment when he'd introduce himself.
"Oscar."
She finally paused and dared to look at him, or more specifically stopped resisting her wondering eyes. Her mind rushed through all the Oscar's she had the pleasure to meet and absolutely none of them did justice to the name. His kind eyes, while somewhat giving shy guy vibes, pierced through her fearlessly. So sure of himself, et somehow humble. An impossible enigma she could see herself deciphering for the rest of her life.
"Nice name," she said, in a completely new tone, one he hadn't heard yet. Calm, kind and intrigued.
"Thank you." They stared at each other for few more moment, utterly inappropriately for two strangers in a coffee line. Taking in the little intricacies about the other, as if memorizing for a test.
"You said you had a hypotheses?" she broke silence, not quite sure they were at the same planet as their surroundings anymore. All around them sort of blended together into an unclear, totally unimportant mush.
"I do. Hope I don't overstep."
"I think that does not matter now," she said, walls crumbling down one by one.
"Good. I think you don't want to break up with your current boyfriend now that you'd met me," he said boldly.
"Astonishingly obnoxious," she teased, unable to believe he caught her.
"Fair. But, yesterday you wanted to. Now, it serves like a perfect excuse why run away from this," he said and stepped just a little bit closer to her.
"I don't want to be a slave of some destiny bullshit," she said, while absolutely agreeing with destiny this time.
There was no way back for Oscar. Looking into her eyes was making him drown in lands never explored before. "Yes, but why reject it before we even get the chance to discover if we like each other."
"I don't even know you."
"Your parents didn't know each other at one point," he said matter-o-factly.
The reality was creeping into her mind. "I hardly know anything about you! Like where you live, what you do..."
He was not letting her go. "All over the globe, I am a racing driver. You?"
How come it seemed so easy and obvious for him? "Oscar, I'm..I'm scared." Intimidated was the word she wanted to use, but it felt a little bit too much.
"Of what?"
"I dunno...? Of this working out?"
"Do you realize that sounds quite ridiculous."
"...Yes".
"Well, I believe this is going to be great fun. Listen, it's not socially acceptable for me to bother you for longer. But I desperately hope this is not the last conversation we share," he lowered his voice, parting ways with her being the last thing he actually wanted to do, but his intuition told him, that he had to give her some space to come forward to his, her decision.
Y/N's head was a mess, truth slipping through, passing all the filters that seemed to have stopped working. "I am afraid it's not."
He smiled. "Good. Now, I'll leave you to your life - do whichever you think is right. But please give me your number."
"No, you give me yours so that I can call you when i want to. You know, boundaries," she ordered, trying to keep some control in her hands.
He trusted his gut. "Fair."
//
"Lady, I can't tell you where's Oscar's room." It was a different receptionist that Oscar had dealt with, but probably with the same training.
"But it's a suprise! Look, I have his number an everything."
"Why don't you call him?"
"You're familiar with the concept of a surprise?"
//
Unlike Oscar, she managed to convince the reception into giving her Oscar's room number. It was all the way up at the last floor. Fancy, she thought. It's impossible to convey the energy and adrenaline cocktail that Y/N was on when she was on the way to knock on his room and announce that she actually went though with the break up and the guy was on his way home, cutting the vacation early. It was unhinged, reckless, addictive. She had to stop herself several times, as the excitement mixed with fear was making her put on faces very strange to anyone who should pass by. If music was on, she'd dance for hours. Hell, she had no idea what was suppose to happen now. And that had never felt so exhilarating before.
With one last breath before her life changed for good, she knocked on the door.
After the longest few seconds ever experienced on this planet, he finally opened the door.
She physically couldn't hold it anymore. "I broke up with him," she blurted out the moment their eyes met.
Oscar tried to take in the image of his soulmate, standing there in front of him, flustered and ready to take the leap with him, once again, having trouble holding his smile in.
"Ah."
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Benefit of the Doubt PT.2
Adam x 3rd Spouse! Reader
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Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Fluff to Angst to comfort, General Adam TWâs, Reader lowkey-highkey has a complex about being loved, Panic attack (Iâm not even sure if this is correct term or not), Adam is afraid of heights (makes sense in story) This is set way before the show, and Gn! Reader (Y/n is once again not used lol)
Part 1 Part 3 Part 4
Request Box: Open
Word count: 3136
A/N: Hi! Iâd like to Thank you all for the love and support on Part 1! It means a lot that you all enjoyed it as I loved writing it! Iâd also like to apologize for this being a week late, I honestly had 0 idea on how to start this one and then a bunch of stuff in my life happened, so it was a mess.
So as an apology I tried to make this one longer than the first! (I seemed to go a little overboard but itâs fine)
Anyways I hope you all enjoy part 2 to âBenefit of the doubtâ and as always, if you do, please tell me if want another part in replies/requests/DMâs!
Proofread but of course could have missed something
Tags: @tired-of-life-86
To think love could feel this good.
You were made for it, to give it, receive it⌠Youâve waited your entire existence for this love, This closeness. It doesnât even feel real now, even as youâre walking down the golden lined streets of heaven with his arm wrapped around you, all while youâve been showing him around. The best places to eat, entertainment, or just a nice park. You made sure to show him all of it.
He kept his wings tucked to his sides, the gold contrasting with the white of his robe. The feathers at first glance looked sharp, but now, being so close to him, you could see each of them individually and how soft they must be.
âHey Sweetcheeks, my eyes are up hereâ
You jump slightly âSorry⌠Adam.â You avert your eyes away from him and focus them in front of you.
Adam laughed âI didnât say you had to fuxkinâ to stopâ
His wings truly were beautiful. It was hard to keep your eyes off them. Adam had only got to heaven recently, it made you wonder if he had the chance to use them yet. You remember when you were first created, wings took forever to get used to. You crashed and fell so many times before you figured out how to use them
Properly.
âOk seriously, you keep staring, what the fxck is up with you?â
âItâs nothing, justâŚ. Have you tried out your wings yet?â
âUh, yeah totally, theyâre rad as hellâ Adamâs voice drifted off, the LED eyes of his mask looking away from you as you both walked. Was he⌠lying? Why would he lie?
You quickly walked in front of Adam, leaving his warm embrace, gently you took his hands as your wings picked you off the ground. The gust of wind with each flap softly blew around you.
âWell, come on, it will be faster than walking.â Your voice was soft and airy. Slowly, so very slowly, you lifted yourself higher from the ground, Adamâs hands locked firmly in yours, as he was pulled with you in the air.
âW-Wait a- shit- Wait a- motherfuxking secondâ Adam yelled strand after strand of curses as you both lifted further and further into the air. His body flailed and his legs kicked against nothing. You pull him to you, his arms quickly snake around your waist, holding on for his dear After-life.
âAdam⌠did you lie to me?â Your voice was still so soft, so calm, so sweet.
âFuck- yes I lied, Iâm sorry, so put me the fuck down you crazy asshole-â Vulgar as ever, his voice had fear in it, the LED eyes were forced shut and his grip around you was getting tighter and tighter.
Your arms wrapped around Adamâs head as you laid back, letting The wind breeze from the air pull and push you along its path with your wings soaring through the clouds..
âAdam, itâs ok, I promise youâre fine, all you have to do is open your eyes.â
You pet the back of his neck trying to sooth him which seemed to work after a few seconds. Adam didnât want to, he really didnât want to open his eyes. But the longer he kept them close, the more you would whisper soft words of encouragement to him. Eventually, his eyes slowly but surely opened.
âSee? There is nothing to be scared of. Iâve got you.â
You hold him closer in your embrace. Adam looked below, the white vastness of heavenâs clouds beneath you both felt unreal, but as amazing a sight it was, Adamâs grip on you didnât loosen.
âSo⌠Iâm guessing you donât know how to fly yet?â You laugh a little, rubbing a spot on his back, just between his wings comfortingly.
Adam huffed and looked away âoh! I couldnât fxcking see that!â
You held him close to you. The embrace seemed never ending, and you loved every second of it. Feeling the warmth of his plump body next to you was like a dream come true.
âHere let me justâŚâ
You moved your hands slowly down his arms, caressing the soft flesh as they moved to eventually be at his hands behind you. You began to leisurely undo the grip he had around you.
âWhat do you think you're doing-â
âShhh, relax, just trust me, ok?â
With each finger being removed from you, the grip lessened bit by bit, until eventually his hands were fully in yours. Your face leaned closer to his,
âCome on, just give your wings a good flap, trust me.â
âUghâŚ. Fine but I swear to god if you let go-â
âI wonât.â Your voice was firm, yet still remained reassuring.
Adam didnât want to do this. He really didnât want to. But what other choice did he have? He gruffs and extends his wings from his body. The wind brushed and tickled at his feathers. The way the light hit them caused a glare of gold to be cast from them, enveloping you both. Then, he gave two hard flaps of his wings, he lifted up slightly before quickly falling back to where he was.
âThere you go! Now keep doing that.â
Adam continued, his wings slowly pushing him up and up before being sent back down when he stopped. This repeated for a few minutes until he finally got a grip on it. The entire time, you were laughing. Pure unadulterated laughs of joy.
Truly, to think love could feel this good?
âSee? You're a natural!â
âOf course I am! Iâm the Original Dick, obviously Iâd⌠be good at this⌠flying⌠shit.â With all the parading he was doing he kept forgetting to use his wings causing him to fall. âA naturalâ may have been an overstatement on your part, but hey? At least he hasnât fallen flat on his face yet!
Gently, you led him through air, giving him reassurance every few feet you flew, never letting go. Seconds turned to minutes, minutes to hours. Before you knew it a brisk orange sunset encased you both with its hue. Thatâs when you realized just how long you both had been flying.
âYou must be tired with sightseeing all day⌠I think itâs time we go home and rest, yeah?â
âHome?â Adamâs voice sounded for a moment genuinely confused. Had he not been told heâd have a place to live in heaven? As much respect you had for Sera, youâll have to file a complaint to avoid this with future souls.
You gripped his hand and opened your wings letting the wind lead you through the clouds and above the city. The angels below look like ants at the height you both were. It was peaceful, the flight back home. But it did seem⌠off? So⌠quiet? You couldnât put it together, at least not at the moment, But Adam hadnât spoken a word since you both left.
Adam, while yes, he was initially confused, it made sense to him, why wouldnât heaven have a place for its people, a place for each of them to relax, to feel safe, happy, at home.
Home was such a weird word for Adam. Has he ever felt like a place was his âhomeâ? The closest thing to it was the Garden of Eden but even that proved to be anything but a home for him. Ever since that snake entered his garden.
No. He canât think about that now. He doesnât want to have to think about that again. But oh-do thoughts love to worm their way back into your mind when you least want them to. Heâs snaps out of his thoughts when your voice picks up
âOk, weâre here! Just get yourself settled in and Iâll go make us something to eat. I didn't really know what food youâd like so I mainly just have junk food⌠I hope that's ok.â
Adam nods his head nonchalantly
You smile, waking him over to the small, plush couch in the living room and handing him a blanket and some pillows. Telling him to wait a second as you fetch some food, leaving him alone.
Adam thought your house seemed welcoming enough, âwell⌠our houseâ Adam thought. The living room was dark aside from a few luminous lights around the room as well as the small blue gleam from the windows from the night sky.
The couch was comfortable and the pillows just as much. And the blanket you gave him was soft and warm. This really was heaven, huh?
His thoughts are, once again, interrupted by your voice, âOk here we go, Iâve got snacks and some sodaâ you say, handing him some of the many food you ravaged from your fridge and sitting beside him, wrapping yourself in the shared blanket.
Grabbing the remote lying next to you, you flick on the TV flipping through the channel before ending on a cheesy sitcom, you keep the volume low wanting to enjoy any conversation with Adam. Except⌠he never started one. So thatâs what felt off.
The entire time you flew back home, got snacks and found something to watch. He hadn't said a word. You may not have known him long but even you had already picked up that he was an advid talker in a conversation.
âIs⌠everything ok Adam?â You whispered, not want to scare him with your random words.
âWhat kind of question is that, Iâm fxcking fine⌠Iâm fine.â His voice trailed off at the end almost getting as quiet as yours.
âAre you sure cause-â
âI said Iâm fuxking fine!â His voice roared through the dark room. Gritty and callous, but you could tell it was meant to hide something. Something he didnât want you to see.
âIâm sorryâŚâ you paused. What did you want to say from here? What could you say? You took a deep breath and tried to continue. âI⌠I know I said this earlier⌠when Sera left.â
Adamâs LED mask looked away from you half shut eyes and a frown forming a scowl on it, but still he let you continue.
âBut Iâm going to say it again anyways cause⌠I mean it. Iâm really happy to have you here. To finally have you homeâ you place your arm around Adamâs back rubbing it soothingly as let your head slowly lax onto him, gently cuddling close to him.
That word again⌠home. Thatâs all he could think about ever since he first heard you say it. Why? Why couldnât he get it out of his head? His breathing was becoming unsteady with each new thought and image his brain made. Lilith and Eve, they were made to be apart of his home, for him to be apart of their homes. So why? Why did it end that way?
Suddenly Adam leap from the couch as fast as he could, the shear force knocking you to the other side of the couch, sending the food to scatter and drinks to spill to the floor.
âAdam!?â Your voice was frightened at the sudden movement. Adam looked just as frightened as you, at least from what you could tell through the LED mask. He suddenly began running, where? he didnât know, the rooms in the house looked the same. But all he knew is that he needed to be away from you. You followed quickly behind him and pleaded for him to tell you what was wrong, but eventually he ran into a room and locked the door.
He looked around, already out of breath. He was in a bathroom. He felt his knees give out under him as he tried to slowly sit down by the tub. His breath heavy, it was hard to breathe, this stupid mask. He needed it off. But just as he went to do so,
*rattle rattle rattle*
The doorknob began to move followed by frantic knocking on the door.
âAdam! Are you ok?!â Your voice pleaded through the wood of the door.
âFuxk- I'm fine! How many times do I have to tell you that shitâ his voice cracked a few times followed by a strand of curses leaving his lips.
Home. The word repeated like a mantra in his head. Like it was mocking him. Was he not meant to have a place he called a home? To have someone to return to, who would tell him âwelcome back!â Without even being told to?
Lilith hated him, Eve betrayed and hurt him like no one else before, ever. They were made to be with him, one was literally made to be his other half. The garden, his home, was taken from him because of something, someone he couldnât control. it all comes back to him. That albino snake in the grass.
Lucifer, âThe dreamerâ⌠was this some sort of game to him? To toy with his emotions, treat him like some kind of plaything to mess with, to screw over? What kind of life was it? To have every opportunity and opening be broken down by him, And Adam being powerless to stop it?
âAdam! Please open the door!â Your voice was even more frantic now, knocking every few seconds before it quickly quieted down. Your body slumped against the door.
âAdam⌠Iâm sorry if I hurt you or⌠or if I was going too fast⌠I didn't mean to⌠Iâm so sorryâŚâ your breath hitched with tears.
And then there was you.
You have been nothing but kind to him since you met him. You showed him around heaven, taught him how to fly and welcomed him home without having being told to. You were so different. So, so very different. Adam figure that out a while ago now. But in reality, itâs exactly why he was terrified.
To have someone who loves him so... unconditionally.
*click*
The sound of the door unlocking drew your attention and was followed by it slowly opening from Adam on the other side, still on the floor.
âAdam!â Your voice was low, already tired from crying. You crawled your way toward him before stopping in front of him, tears still falling from your face, âIâm sorry Adam, Iâm sorry-â you were cut off by a quick movement.
Warmth enveloped you, clouding your senses as a soft weight laid onto you. Arms wrapped their way around you in an embrace.
âShit- it's not your fault, it was never your faultâŚâ Adamâs voice was surprisingly soft, a stark contrast to his regular tone. Sincerity evident with each word. All you could do was hide into his large frame and cry at the words.
Adam was never good at comforting people. He himself was never comforted, so the concept was more than a bit foreign to him. But even still, he tried. Slowly he helped you both up from the bathroom floor and made your way back to the couch.
The floor was covered in the discarded food you both left behind. The spilled soda is now dried and sticky. Crumbs everywhere.
âHere.. let me get a mop and broom-â
âNo just sit down, Iâll clean up the shit I madeâ you lay down on the couch and watched as Adam swept and mopped the mess from the floor. The entire time the silence hung in the air by a thread. Neither of you wanting to be the one to snap the string and speak.
Finally Adam got done cleaning the mess and made his way to the couch. He sat down and gestured for you to come closer. Crawling over to him, he wrapped the blanket around you both allowing you to snuggle into him.
âDoâŚâ your voice barely audible âDo you want to talk about it?â
Adam looked hesitant but nodded.
âYou know about everything, right? About⌠what all happened in Eden?
You nod against his chest content on listening.
âWhen⌠When Lilith left me, I thought I didn't care as much as I did. I thought she was a bitch and that was that. And it didnât help that as soon as she left, I got EveâŚâ
He paused
âThen, when I found out about that shit between Eve and Lucifer⌠I didnât care then either, but I didnât understand whyâŚâ his voice hitched âbut when I ate that damn apple⌠I realized how hurt I should have been. All the concepts of right and wrong, good and evil, learning all of it through that fruit, I realized one shitty truth⌠that the one I loved betrayed me.â
You hugged him tighter softly, your hands caressed his stomach as some form of comfort before he continued.
âFor the same person- Both of them for that snakeâŚâ
âAdam⌠Iâm so sorry you had to go through that.â
âAnd thatâs why⌠Iâm scared. Scared that I will fuxk up again and get⌠attached to you. Because every. single. time. He ruins it. And I don't want to see that happen with you.â
Your heart ached for him, the saddening look of his LED mask as he talked only furthered your emotions. Slowly your hands made their way to his face, he looks at you confused, your fingertips crept under the mask before his hand shot up and held your wrist slightly, carefully not holding it too tight.
âSorry fuck- Iâm.. Iâm not ready.â
You smile and nod understanding âAdam. I love you⌠with all of my heart. And I would never do what those two done to you. â
Adam thought for a moment deciding what to say.
âPromise?â was all he could think of, his voice, mind, and body were all too tired to speak more about it.
You slowly remove your hands from his mask, instead taking one of his hands into yours.
âI promise, I would never betray you, let alone talk to that manâ ever-so lightly, a soft golden glow burned between yours and Adamâs hands, the gold flame was warm and comforting to both of you as it rose and grew in strength.
From the flame, a string wrapped and warped itself around both yours and Adamâs pinky fingers. The string tightened and loosened as it moved, before finally melting away leaving only two solid gold rings behind, One on Adamâs finger and the other on yours.
âWhat the hell was that?â Adamâs voice was filled with bewilderment
âA deal- or I guess a promise. In this caseâ
âShit, You didnât have to do that-â this time it was your turn to interrupt him. You bring Adamâs hand to your lips, and give a kiss on his newly formed ring before lying down and cuddling into Adam.
âI know.â
For once in his life, Adam felt at ease with love. How easy it was to fall for you.
Is this what home feels like?
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"Yes, my mom is a witch. Yes, my birth parents sold me to her. No, I do not hate her. She treats me like I'm her own son. Does that answer all your questions?"
Tim asked with crossed arms. Batman and his family recently discovered you, his witch mum, and now refuse to let it go. They've been badgering him all day.
"How does that work? How did Bruce adopt you if you already have a family?"
Dick was so confused. How did Tim hide you for so long? How did he sneak out when he lives with a family of detectives? Tim merely sighed and explained,
"My mom told me it's okay. She said I'm magically hers, so a sheet of paper means nothing. She knew my path would always lead me here, so she didn't stop me. She trusts that I will make good decisions for myself."
You had kissed his forehead that day and gave him a hug before telling him he's always your baby and you want him to follow the path he forges for himself.
"Can we meet her?"
Dick asked. He wanted to know more about Tim's secret mother figure. Why did Tim keep you from them?
Tim paused. He didn't know how good of an idea that would be. He loved you dearly, but you are introverted like him. He wouldn't want to meet the family, especially with how huge it got over the years, so why would you want to meet them? Tim conceded,
"I'll ask her, but she would have to come here. Her home is impossible to break into with all the wards and all the magic she poured into our home -- that's irrelevant. I'll ask if she wants to come over. Don't be surprised if she popped in during dinner."
With all that said, Tim was out the door, leaving the family with millions of questions. They knew they wouldn't be able to trail Tim without him knowing. You seemed impossible to reach anyway.
You seemed to ponder Tim's request for what feels like forever. You love your solitude, but you decided that you love Tim more. You asked him seriously,
"Do you want me to go or are they forcing you to ask?"
Tim considered his feelings for a moment. Does he want to keep you selfishly to himself, or does he want to share? He's not sure. He's positive you would hit it off with Bruce, and that might lead to you joining the family and eventually tying him to them permanently. He admits,
"I'm not sure. You'd love them, but I don't trust that you'll be treated with the respect you deserve."
Your gaze softened and you lightly kissed his cheek. You told him,
"Little dove, you do not have to force me on the family if you don't want to. I love you and you are the only one to make this decision."
He didn't like that you turned the decision onto him, but he should have expected as much. You hated making decisions. He decided after a couple of minutes,
"I... I want you to meet them."
You took his hand in yours and teleported both of you into the manor. Tim hugged you tightly the entire time it took to teleport. He loved you, but teleporting sucks to experience. It feels like reality itself warped like one of the circus mirrors and suddenly poof.
You're standing in the middle of dinner, like he told them you would do. Tim's hand was still in yours as you looked through the room. Your eyes finally landed on Alfred, and you walked over to him.
"Well, it's lovely to meet you. You must be Bruce."
You took Alfred's hand in yours and shook it with a kind smile. The kids all snickered at the offended Bruce. It's partially true that Alfred is a father figure, but ouch.
"Miss, master Bruce is at the head of the table."
You didn't seem embarrassed at all as you walked to Bruce with Tim trailing behind you.
"I'm sorry about my abrupt entrance. It's good to meet the part-time father to my little dove."
Bruce watched you carefully. You seem like a nice person. No wonder Tim turned out so kind.
You sat down with Tim on one side and Dick on the other side. You took a deep breath before saying,
"Ask your questions."
Tim gave you a shocked look. You evaded questions like the plague. Why is it so different now?
Well, it's different because your Timmy cares about them, and they would obviously have a lot more personal questions than questions from a stranger.
"How did you meet Tim?"
Dick asked at your side. You smiled and looked at Tim with soft eyes. You delved into the story,
"He must have been two or three when his parents found me in the forest outside my house. Everybody knows about the witch in the woods who grants wishes for a price."
You sighed. You hate your reputation, but there's nothing you can do about it. You continued,
"A couple appeared with a toddler. I originally thought they would ask for an illness to go away in their child, but instead they offered the toddler holding his mother's hand in exchange for riches."
You frowned. Tim knew you always get upset by the story and wrapped an arm around you protectively.
"I thought to myself. 'Why would anyone offer me their child?' But, I ultimately decided he would be better off with me, so I accepted. I took tiny Tim in my arms, and he melted into my arms. It seemed like he had never been hugged before me, and it broke my heart. The magical contract was signed, and the couple walked off child-free and rich."
All eyes turned to Tim. He told them a different story of his childhood, but what did they expect? For him to disclose, his parents abandoned him to a witch and subsequently was raised by said witch? Sure, there are crazier backstories, but that would look terrible from any angle. It would look like a kidnapping when it was really more like saving. You saved Tim from the pain of growing up in a loveless home. You save him from the pain of cold isolation. You raised him, praised him, and adored him. He was your child, no matter the DNA.
You didn't even want kids until Tim was in your arms. You became the mother all children deserve to have regardless of your lack of desire for children.
The story seemed to satisfy most of their major questions. Jason eventually asked,
"Why did you let him join us?"
You smiled and ruffled Tim's hair affectionately, who grumbled in a very disgruntled tone.
"This one loved Batman, and he thought he needed a Robin. I told him to follow his own path. He'll always be my son, both magically and in our hearts."
Bruce was beginning to like you. However, they were all a bit salty about the fact that none of them have a mother. Dick grinned and elbowed Bruce.
"That just means you have to give us a mother to make it even. Tim can't be the only one with a mom."
You laughed, but Tim looked like he was contemplating bringing you into a relationship with Bruce. Bruce asked,
"Would the magic transfer if you got married?"
You shook your head. You decided to be kind and elaborated,
"Tim is strictly mine for as long as I live according to the signed contract I made with his original parents."
Bruce didn't like that Tim isn't his son and never will be. You gave a contemplating hum. Technically, there is a way, but it would never happen. You weren't very interested in the second option. Still, you told him,
"Unless we married magically. Then we are tied together, and that means Tim would be tied to my husband indirectly. He would still have no real authority, but he'd have a small claim over him."
That caught Bruce's attention. He has a chance to keep Tim more permanently. He asked,
"What does it mean to marry magically? What's the difference?"
You quirked an eyebrow at him. Why was he so curious? You didn't have plans to marry. Then again, you didn't plan to have a child either. Sure, you've helped a few people with their fertility issues, but it was a joke to ask for their firstborn.
"We sign a contract that would tie our souls together. We could sign a legal document as well, but the magical contract must be signed for the claim to settle."
Tim whispered in your ear soft enough for only you to hear,
"Mom, will you marry Bruce? I want to be his son."
You straightened in your chair. You were startled by the request and asked back equally quietly,
"Are you sure? This is your soul, Tim, not just some flimsy legal document."
Tim nodded. He already figured he'd be part of the family, but he wanted to make it more permanent.
"I'm sure, mom."
You sighed softly in your spot. You were so weak for your Tim. You'd give anything to make him happy. You frowned before conceding,
"If you can convince him."
Tim kissed your forehead gratefully and began negotiating with Bruce and feeling out the situation. Dick took your hand in his and said to you light-heartedly,
"I'm gaining a mom after all."
And that is how the Batfamily gained Batmom. What a mess.
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âËŕżBrahms Heelshire thoughts~!đđËâ
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A/N: jus some thoughts Nâ personal feels bout one of ma fav boys, Nâ written specifically for @creepy141dollie <33
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Personally I like thinkin Brahms Sâ a big Ol baby, heâs touch starved atâ death Nâ when youâre his new baby sitter all he can wonder asâ whyâre you a boy? Whereâs his nanny atâŚheâs silent as always creeping through in the walls just watchin the way you do things- he canât deny how good ya are at all tha domestic stuff, house hubby material Sâ what he first thought when he seen ya. Youâre a sassy man he can tell that much bout you from the way you scold him and push out your bottom lip when lookin up at him, he doesnât know how you made it past his old fashioned parents- maybe ya charms work on everyone.
Brahms Sâ a total creep, he gives no privacy he stalks ya like a dog, he lurks even when ya ask him not to, he is obsessed all tha time- his infatuation holds no bounds Nâ he isnât afraid Tâ watch your most intimate moments in tha shower or when you touch yaâself, Brahms hates when you lecture him, talkin bout how you wont let his cock near you sayin stuff like, âI only reward good boysâ even tho knowin you, youâd start Tâ feel bad Nâ give into him by the end of the nightâ how could ya not with the way he begs you, his voice cracks Nâ you can practically feel his tears behind that porcelain mask.
Bein his babysitter means giving up your life- heâs crazy Nâ heâs toxic for you but you canât bring yourself to leave himâŚyou jus feel bad- he holds you anâ praises you like a god when he wants but he screams Nâ throw fits over you when heâs upsetâ Yâ know you should runaway but you jus canât- youâre in too far now anyway Sâ why even bother to try Nâ leave him? Ever since you took that job everything feels cold- the air, Your body Nâ itâs all porcelain like, just like his mask. You used Tâ love shopping but the most you do is go out into town Tâ pick up groceries then ya go back to BrahmsâŚthat house has made you isolated from thâ world Nâ Brahms doesnât care at all, he jus wants you to himself.
Brahms is a manipulator, he uses your soft spots to get his ways, he promises all ya wanna hear jus to get you Tâ stay. Brahms acts all innocent like he isnât tha reason for your change in personality Nâ he isnât the reason youâre starting Tâ slowly lose that sass, heâs worn ya down into a tired parent like person. Brahms uses his tears Tâ wrap you around his finger knowin you canât resist the way he clings to you like a god, Brahms worships the ground you walk on when you give him what he wants which is to ultimately have you forever.
Brahms Sâ pent up all the time, sneakin off into your room when he needs tha love, not Carin bout anything jus getting your shorts down enough Tâ shove his dick in ya while you sleepily hiss into the pillows whining bout how heâs bein rough- Brahms whimpers- he tryâs ta be quiet but when your hole sucks him back Nâ he loses it like a puppy poutin and moaning away on top of you clutching onto you hard while his hips erratically fuck you in ya sheets
Brahms fav position is cowgirl tho it should probably be cowboy Wâ you on top- your hand gripping his shoulders working up Nâ down taking his cock with ease while his eyes hold contact Wâ yours- his breath is shaky Nâ he canât control how weak he feels but somethin bout his fave being covered starin into your soul the whole time has ya buckin down on his cock wildly âplease- please, I need you, only you- just you- pleaseâ your body melted when those words left his mouth oh so pathetically- how could this be the same man who broke you down? How could he.. before you know it his semen Sâ floodin inside you filling ya all full.
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So miserable
steve harrington x reader
Summary: The kids try to set you up with Steve.
"Ain't no way you never hooked up with someone"
You were sitting at the Scoops Ahoy table eating a banana split, when Will, Lucas, Dustin and Mike started to bomb you with stupid questions. Again.Â
"You guys don't have to do anything with my love life, freaks." You didn't even know them that much. You were just here for Robin, anyway. You two met when you still were in high school, in the band. Ever since then, you become quite the duo. What you weren't aware of was the secret pack that Robin came with: six random kids and Steve the hair Harrington. You were quite surprised he did, in fact, change after high school. He became quite tolerable, and if Robin liked him, you couldn't see why you couldn't. So when the kids started to get to like you - and you didn't even know how you did it, you were quite mean with them sometimes - you were another one to the pack.Â
"Well, about that." Dustin looked into your eyes, intertwining your hand with his. "We need you to do us a favor." You looked at both of your hands together and started wondering when did your life became like this. When you didn't answer, the boy took the chance to continue. "You know Steve, right? Robin's best buddy"
That's when you let go of his hand. "Hey, I am Robin's best buddy."
He didn't seem to agree. "So, our boy Stevie," he pointed out the male with the stupid sailor hat. "He is so miserable."
"Like, so miserable," Mike chirped in.
"So, we were wondering - if you don't have a boyfriend or whatever - if you could go on a date with him." You almost spit out half of the banana you were eating. "Just one, to get his hopes up."
Before you could answer him, Lucas shut you down. "He hasn't been on a date since god knows when, we believe that if you could let him see he is still handsome and cool, he might get to his tracks again"
"So, first of all." You cleaned your chin, furrowing your nose. "You want me to go on a date with Steve just because he hasn't gone to one since... forever?" All the kids agreed with their heads. "If he is so desperate, why hasn't he asked anyone?"
Mike started babbling, "Well, uh, he might have asked some girls, but all of them declined. At least that's what we think. No girl will go out with him if he believes he is a loser."
"Steve is no loser," You murmured.
"Well, we're glad you think like this." Dustin looked at Steve, who was brushing his hair with his fingers, while he looked at his own reflection from the glass of the ice cream stand. "But don't lie to yourself like that."
You sighed, biting your lip.Â
"Alright, but I can't promise anything"
All the kids got up and started to thank you, but you couldn't look at any of them. You could only look at your boyfriend, who was now serving some young boy.Â
You couldn't wait to tell him everything tonight.Â
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HII I LOVE YOUR WORK SM!! I literally can't stop reading them đ I love you so much for making all of them !!
May I ask if we could get more of shy Remus?? As soon as I read the first one I immediately fell in love !
Thank you so much!! đŤśđ˝
Hi lovely, thank you! Sorry this took me so long, I've wanted to write it ever since it came into my inbox but it took me forever to come up with an idea </3
cw: very vague implication of smut
shy!Remus x fem!reader ⥠1k words
Remus looks surprised when he opens the door, and immediately after that embarrassed. For what, you never know.Â
âHi,â he says, lips curving into a smile as if of their own volition. âUm, I havenât missed anything, have I?âÂ
You laugh. âNo, youâre fine. I was just nearby and thought I might return your jumper.âÂ
Itâs a half-truth. Youâre ambushing him and you know it, but Remusâ reticent disposition means you know next to nothing about his life and after weeks of dating youâre really itching for a peek behind the curtain. Youâve brought chocolate muffins to make up for it.Â
âOh, thatâs thoughtful of you.â Remusâ voice is soft as always, that adorable smile still playing on his lips until you both hear footsteps bounding down the stairs inside. He glances behind him, moving a bit more in front of the door. âWhile youâre here, maybe we could go have coffee orââÂ
âWhoâs that?âÂ
The voice seems like a sound of much dread for Remus, if his expression is anything to go off of. He ignores it, speaking only to you.Â
âOr thereâs a park just down the wayââ
âRemus.â Itâs a different voice this time, yet the effect upon Remusâ countenance is the same. âWho do you have there?âÂ
âHi!â you say over his head, mutinous.Â
âA girl?â Remusâ entire body seems to sag in resignation. âRemus Lupin, stop hiding her from us immediately.âÂ
âSod off.â He says over his shoulder, as brash as youâve ever heard him. Itâs a bit thrilling.Â
âI will not. Reveal your secrets, you dirty dog.âÂ
You actually do feel quite bad for Remus, a blush spreading all the way up to the tips of his ears, but he lets go of the doorframe, letting himself be wrestled out of the way.Â
âHello.â A dark-haired boy weasels his way into Remusâ place, giving you a salacious up-down. You raise your eyebrows at him, delighted. So this is who Remus associates with when heâs not with you. âMy, youâre a pretty thing. And youâre here to see Remus?âÂ
âI am,â you confirm. âIâm here to bring back his jumper.âÂ
âWhich would lead one to believe, âa second boy appears behind the first, both of them keeping Remus from reclaiming his spot at the door, âthat youâve seen him before.âÂ
You laugh. âI have. Weâve been dating a few weeks now.âÂ
âRemus!â The second bellows, eyes blowing comically wide behind his glasses. âWeeks? Weeks, and you havenât said a word. How could you?âÂ
âI donât suppose you have a bit of time on your hands,â the first boy says smoothly.Â
âIâveâŚâ You check the time. âI do, actually.âÂ
He grins, wolflike. Youâre not sure who the prey is. You worry itâs your date.Â
âYes!â The one with the glasses is effervescent, brimming with eagerness. Itâs contagious, you find; youâre smiling too. âYou have to come in, please.âÂ
Youâre dying to, but you peer past them, locking eyes with Remus. He looks to be wishing for a swift and painless death, but he gives you a soft smile anyways. Nods.Â
âSure,â you say, âI could join you for a bit.âÂ
Some of the boisterous energy settles as they usher you inside, the need for urgency vanquished now that theyâve got you in their clutches. Begrudgingly, Remus introduces you, and the other two hassle him about taking off your coat and showing you where to put your shoes before he gets a chance to do either. Soon youâre settled comfortably in the armchair they tell you is Remusâ favorite.Â
âCan I make you a cuppa?â Remus asks, and James and Sirius both oooh as he rolls his eyes. You nod at him, eyeing the other two amusedly.Â
âHe must really like you,â James says, âif heâs offering to make you tea.âÂ
âHence why youâre not getting any,â Remus says over his shoulder as he stalks for the kitchen.Â
âPrick,â Sirius calls after him. âWe didnât want any anyways.â But he crosses his arms, sulking back against the couch cushions. James, on the other hand, leans towards you.Â
âSo,â he says severely, âwhat are your intentions with our Remus?âÂ
A quiet sound of distress comes from the kitchen, but you all ignore it. âYour Remus?â you ask.Â
James nods self-assuredly. âWeâve known him since primary school. If you two get married, Iâll be the one giving him away.âÂ
You raise your eyebrows. Remusâ head pops out of the kitchen, glaring daggers in a way you didnât know he knew how. âYou will not.âÂ
âWhat?â James looks gutted.Â
âThatâs not the point.â Sirius waves both of his friends off, though James looks like he would very much like to continue on the topic. âTell us about you two, gorgeous. Where did you meet, how long have you been dating, has Remus told you where he hides his chocolates?âÂ
âAlright, thatâs enough,â Remus says, coming back with your tea. He passes it to you carefully, handle out, and both you and James hiss at him for holding the hot part.Â
âWe havenât even gotten her to answer anything yet,â Sirius complains.Â
âItâs not her fault you havenât given her the chance.â Remus perches on the armrest of the chair. It's probably so he can avoid sitting next to his nosy friends, but pride swells in your chest anyway at being chosen. You take his hand, and he squeezes your fingers in response.Â
Sirius coos. âOnly a few weeks of dating and heâs already holding her hand. Iâm so proud.âÂ
You grin up at Remus, knowing what you could say to really shock his friends but not wanting to embarrass him further. Heâs already flustered enough that his scars stand out in stark contrast against his flushed skin, but his look softens as he meets your eyes. Something about him eases, a small smile curving his lips.Â
You decide itâs permission enough.Â
âYouâve been a bit bolder than that, havenât you, handsome?âÂ
James and Sirius erupt in hoots and hollers. Remus looks like he might well fall off the edge of the chair for how stiff heâs gotten.Â
âSorry,â you whisper, leaning up to kiss him on the cheek. Itâs burning. âIâm not trying to torment you. We can go be alone in your room, if you like.âÂ
âNo-o.â James waggles a finger at you. âNow that we know what youâre up to, you wonât be getting him alone in our house. Youâre set on corrupting him!â
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