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dol--blathanna · 2 months ago

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I have mixed feelings about Zerxus in season 3 of TLOVM, but I’ve gotta say hearing him give a Totally Unbiased Account of EXU: Calamity with Definitely No Omissions Whatsoever was kind of funny. Like “ooh I thought I could count on my friends….they condemned our civilisation….” Ok Zerxus. Buddy. Last time I checked, Nydas was actually the only one trying to stop Laerryn from blighting the tree. You sat there like a chump and did not help whatsoever. And uh. “They condemned our civilisation with their hubris” ummm pal I think you’re missing an important detail there. Like yes the point of EXU: Calamity is that everyone played a role in the disaster, everyone was responsible in some ways for that ship crashing into the iceberg, but uh. Zerxus I think some people were maybe a little more responsible than others. Like, for example, the certain someone who pulled the Lord of the Hells into Exandria. I think that individual’s hubris is maaaaaybe a little bit more important than some of the other hubris on the table here.

And like, this isn’t me bashing the writing, I think it is in-character for TLOVM!Zerxus to say this, since he’s been a jaded miserable devil for a thousand years. But omg when he had the CHEEK to be like “in the chaos I found myself face-to-face with the Lord of Torment himself” like EXCUSE ME??? Buddy you just happened to “find yourself” face-to-face with Asmodeus huh??? Just coincidentally, on accident??? You were just taking a stroll around Avalir and he ran into you without warning??

Zerxus. Please. Be serious for a moment. Would you like to explain to Pike the exact circumstances of HOW you found yourself face-to-face with Asmodeus, hmmmmm? A certain “pulling Asmodeus through the tree and unleashing him upon the world” situation?

Like, I know it was meant to be a serious moment with lots of Calamity-related hype but like, it was really giving “Girl what were YOU doing at the devil’s sacrament” energy. In the most literal way possible

#i just know nydas is in the afterlife listening to this and is absolutely PISSED #Like in his dying moments Nydas gave Zerxus an out to avoid becoming a devil and Zerxus willingly decided to become one anyway #and then spends his time bitching about his friends to random strangers in the hells. the Disrespect is Off The Charts #i'm sure people have already spoken about this but i just thought it was so funny #and also this isn't me hating on Zerxus I think his character is super interesting and engaging and I love how Luis played him #but like Zerxus please. You need to learn about the phrase “pot calling the kettle black”#esp bc he's seemingly like “welp time to worship The Whispered One” bro did you learn NOTHING #non witcher #critical role #the legend of vox machina #tlovm #lovm #lovm season 3 #zerxus ilerez #exu calamity

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secriden · 14 days ago

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*cracks knuckles* Okay lets talk about the elephant in the room: Style going to the support group for those who've suffered loss and telling what appears to be a fake story about losing his pet dog.

I'm going to point out a few things that I think provide a framework for Style's actions here. Not because I think it excuses what he did, but because I think a nuanced read is what the character deserves.

Point 1: An irresistible opportunity

The subs put the "Support Group for Loss" on the image in the notebook, but I'm not sure there's anything to suggest that Style would've known that was what this image represents until he showed up and saw the sign on top of the door.

In episode 2, Bison says, "He plans everything down from years, months, weeks to days" and then tells Kant:

So Style is literally just going to addresses/locations at given days and times, potentially not knowing what to expect. And as much as Fadel is certainly attending this meeting as a response to having that heartbreaking flashback (😭), this is also something he attends regularly and has planned to attend way in advance. So Style has no reason to think Fadel is attending this meeting because of a recent resurfacing of his pain.

What we, the audience, and what the characters know are very different things.

Now, should Style have turned his cute ass right around once he realised what this meeting was? Of course he should. But that wouldn't have been true to Style's character. We've been told by his best friend that he is "crazy" and been shown repeatedly that he lives right up to that description.

Style is impulsive. He's all base instinct and he acts on his desires without thought or contemplation. And by this point he is desperate for a deeper connection with Fadel. He's fascinated, captivated by the mystery that is Fadel and this is an excellent opportunity to finally see behind the wall Fadel so carefully maintains.

When Style sees the sign above the door, Style looks at the notebook (which, again, shows nothing but people sitting in a circle with the words RISE UP) like he's just realising what it means. He then gets this amused, almost rueful look on his face (like he's thinking "am I really going to do this?") before it shifts to determination and he walks through the door.

(My soul for the ability to once again gif something because FUCK Dunk is doing SO MUCH in this show!!)

To Style, this is just too good of an opportunity to give up.

Because let's be real, Fadel is so clearly lying and hiding something:

Fadel is shady as FUCK. He is simultaneously actually a really good cook (Style finally tries his burger so he knows, now), and also has the skills to work at a strip host club, and also can take on 3 guys in a fight, and also can break a man's arm with his thighs. Can you honestly blame Style for losing his mind just a little bit about wanting to get his hands on something, anything, to figure this man out?

Style is being absolutely consistent in his persistence to understand Fadel. This isn't about the car or about finally 'winning' the fight (thank you @airenyah for giving such a detailed framework to understand what Style's been doing until this point) anymore. This is about Style wanting to know Fadel himself.

Point 2: The potential implications of the setting

Now, what might give us a bit of insight as to why Style is this way? I have a theory (albeit one that could prove to be very wrong, but hear me out). I think this whole entire show is set in what could potentially be quite a small town/suburb.

There's a few things that make this theory plausible:

(1) Fadel and Bison are in hiding after Bison blew their previous cover. They're probably on the run from some section of the authorities and so it makes sense to settle in a quiet/out of the way place.

(2) Style seems to be really familiar with the people in the area. Like he grew up there and its the kind of small town where everyone knows everyone and everyone is in everyone else's business.

(3) Style is clearly the darling of the market aunties and uncles.

Style just lost her a sale and potentially a loyal customer, and she's still rooting for him? In episode 2, when Style asks the uncle to let him borrow his cart, it takes nothing but his word for the uncle to give Style his entire cart of produce for his ridiculous scheme.

Style is so clearly someone they all know well and have great affection for, and a very plausible explanation for this is that they all watched him grow up and the entire market (town/village) is fond of him.

And honestly?? Yeah, we see the way Style is actually quite sweet in that careless, guileless, thoughtless way. He goes the extra mile to fix his mistake with Fadel by replacing his car parts for free in episode 1. He helps out by taking orders in episode 2 without being asked and takes it seriously. In episode 3, he tries to drive more business to Fadel's store (bless him, he so clearly does NOT understand how restaurants work, but he MEANS well!!), and can we all acknowledge that it works?? He understands how to appeal to potential customers in the area because he knows the people there. It's not (entirely) his fault that Fadel wasn't remotely prepared for an actual rush crowd and Bison was off getting kinky with Kant and not doing his (fake) job. He is so clear about not judging Fadel's host job and tries his hardest to help him (to absolutely NO effect, but still) when the 3 guys gang up on Fadel.

Style is so loved and more importantly so very loveable.

Point 3: What this could mean for Style's character

So, potentially, Style is someone who grew up in a small town, who has been well loved, potentially spoiled and coddled, but also very much kept within the confines of the narrow viewpoint that a quiet, country town places on you.

It's in the way his dad scolds him as if he was still a child when he's at least in his mid to late 20s. It's in the way Style was so mad at Fadel for scolding him ("thanks for the lecture, dad"), like that hit a sore point for Style. It's in the way no one in the market takes him seriously; they're fond, but he's still a kid in their eyes. It's in the way he has an abundance of free time like he doesn't REALLY need to work at his dad's shop. It's in the way he sees Fadel beat 3 guys up with ease, starts wondering if Fadel is an assassin or a hitman, and is completely unfazed like he doesn't quite have a handle on reality.

It's in the way his best friend is a man who has no qualms about lying to him and putting his life in danger, and how Style seems to have no other friends or people (aside from his dad) in his life.

@wuxian-vs-wangji made a comment to me about Style being desperate for a meaningful connection, and I think she hit the nail on the head. Because along comes Fadel, a mysterious stranger with a suspiciously versatile set of skills who is also very hot and keeps giving Style these wonderfully complex reactions? Who sometimes wants nothing to do with Style, but at other times seems to be at war within himself about desperately wanting him? Who treats Style with anything but apathy?

This is catnip to Style; he never had any hope of resisting this.

Breaking news: Style is a complex and imperfect character...

Here's the thing, though: he was never going to try. The show has been incredibly upfront about who Style is as a person. Regardless of whether I'm correct about why he is this way (ie. that he is very much the product of the environment that didn't know how to handle a kid with Style's personality), episode 3 shouldn't have surprised anyone about Style. He's been incredibly consistent and true to himself.

He wants Fadel and he's "crazy" enough to go all in, no holds barred about it, and the Support Group was the biggest doorway to finally discovering something REAL about Fadel.

And its not just about sex or to prove his superiority anymore. Because if it was just that, then Style would have reacted very differently to their first time.

In this scene, Style is pleased and evidently enjoying himself, but he isn't exuberant. He isn't overcome with joy. If anything, he was more happy and excited when Fadel let him help out in the diner (I mentioned this in the tags in this post too) than he was when Fadel is literally fucking him. He lets Fadel set the pace; barely moves to touch Fadel except to hold him close. Almost like he doesn't want to accidentally mess this up, like he's worried he'll take too much, so he'll take what Fadel gives him and no more (please appreciate @braceletofteeth's amazing tags on this post). For a character that has been so aggressively on the offensive, this is shocking until you realise that sleeping with Fadel - while it's a step in the right direction - isn't Style's end goal anymore.

And he makes that abundantly clear in this episode:

Does Style even fully realise the weight of this desire? I doubt it. But I do believe that Style is in earnest. He doesn't fully understand his own feelings, but he also doesn't really care to either. All he knows is that he wants Fadel, wants his attention and his passion and his focus and his heart.

...but Style is also kind of, sort of, perfect.

Because he's exactly, precisely, breathtakingly exactly what Fadel needs.

Because Fadel is hurt and broken and bleeding inside. Because Fadel is barely holding it all together for Bison's sake, but has already given up hope for any true happiness for himself. Because Fadel can't trust anyone or anything in his life, when he's been used and used and used by the family who should've loved and cared and protected him.

Because it's going to take nothing short of this kind of unwavering, unshakable, uncomplicated determination to give Fadel even a chance of healing and opening his heart to love again.

#<my posts>#saw a post about style being one-dimensional and boring and I nearly had a breakdown because what are you TALKING about???#he's so perfectly messed up and terrible and unfiltered and WONDERFUL in all the wrong and right ways #and others have pointed out there's potentially even MORE to style's backstory because of the “coincidence” of Lilly meeting with #someone with the same name as the dog Style talks about in his story #listen the story telling in this show drives me inSANE in the best way and i'm baffled at some of the takes i'm seeing #can we at least... let his story play out maybe before dismissing or hating on Style?? its literally ONLY episode 3.#anyway yes its me your resident style apologist back to be unnecessarily emotional about style again #the heart killers the series #thk meta #the heart killers #style sattawat #fadelstyle #also FUCK ME dunk is just constantly serving every single episode and i've seen so many posts appreciating joong's acting (RIGHTLY SO!)#but not nearly enough love for the frankly INSANE performance dunk has been giving every single episode #i love him i love him I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OKAY T_T #dunk natachai #ALSO (not that this means i can speak for everyone in a similar circumstance)#but as someone who lost my father to cancer as a teenager i DO understand and relate to the FURY Fadel must have felt in ep 3 #and i DO think style was wrong to have treated the situation so lightly #but like literally WHAT in this show sets up any expectation for style to have the emotional maturity to do that?#and also this doesn't make him an inherently bad person ACTUALLY #it makes him an idiot and needing to be taught the right way to respond to people who are grieving. but guess what; he's NOT ALONE??#because let me tell you the amount of times i wanted to punch FULL GROWN ADULTS for giving me “well meaning” platitudes at my dad's funeral #...but the thing is they DID mean well. they just didn't realise how hurtful their words were #and life is filled with imperfect people who make mistakes and part of our journey is learning from them and trying our best to be kind

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peace-hunter · 13 days ago

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ok so i'm still a bit shaky on it but i would loooooove for orion's character arc in the baby prime orion au to be actually about learning that he's not. inherently special. which i know it sounds backwards because this au makes him primus' specialest little guy but hear me out.

in this au when optimus is born he is his siblings' miracle child, their little blessing, the most precious gift they could've gotten.

they love him so much that even when they die and orion grows up and forgets them, he still knows what being treasured and loved beyond measure feels like.

and part of the reason he believes that the system is wrong to treat cogless bots as lesser is that he cannot accept that he is as worthless as the world wants him to believe when someone once loved him like that.

it's a very... self-centered point of view even if it does come from a place of genuine love. he was loved, he was worth something to someone once, so if the world tells him he's worthless then the world must simply be wrong.

and don't get me wrong he still genuinely does believe others also deserve the choice to decide for themselves what they want to be, that they also deserve to be treated with the same respect and dignity that cogged bots do, he still wants to make things better for everyone.

but a good part of it is because he thinks he deserves better. because he knows he was once loved enough for someone to want to give him the moon and stars if he'd asked for them. and he's still chasing that feeling, even though he has long forgotten where he got it from in the first place.

so when he finds out he's the lost little prime, as much of a shock as it is, it is also sort of vindicating. it's a little bit like "oh. so that's why i always felt especial different".

he thinks that him being a prime is the reason for why he always aspired to be more, for why he always believed he deserved better. he thinks being a prime is what makes him worth loving more than he'd been told.

except that... well, he's obviously wrong. him believing he deserved better, that he was worth more than the system wanted him to believe, had very little to do with him being a prime and everything to do with his siblings loving him so very much he could never forget it even as he forgot them.

the reason he always felt there was something utterly wrong with the way they were treated and had the courage to constantly speak up against it when everyone else around him didn't was not because he had some divinely given wisdom or that he was inherently better than them and could feel it.

it was simply that he, unlike the rest of the miners, had someone to instill in him how loved and valuable he truly was. he had someone to let him know he deserved to be treated with kindness and dignity. he had that privilege even if it was taken away from him.

so. the second half of his arc would be him realizing all of this and taking upon himself to be that someone to everyone else. to be to others what his siblings were to him. that gentle voice that says "you deserve to be cared for, you deserve kindness, you deserve better".

i don't know i'm still working on it akjshdjka

#i talk a lot <3 #tfone #transformers one #optimus prime #baby prime orion au #this is heavily inspired by the song 'miracle child' btw. like. i was listening to it on a loop yesterday and it caused irreversible damage #to my brain so. this is what came out of it.#i don't think i'm doing a good enough job of explaining exactly what i mean with this but i'm Done i want this out of my drafts ajshdasfds #ANYWAY #i just think it'd be funny if op's character arc is him learning that he's Not That Especial.#and then the moment the lesson truly sinks in (preferably with half of his chest being blown off in the process)#primus swoops in like 'okay now time to be the most important guy in the planet good luck kiddo!'

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whiskeyswifty · 5 days ago

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Taylor Swift - In The Trees Tour (If Folklore went on tour)

The summer after her blockbuster indie-folk double album, Taylor Swift embarks on a tour befitting of the acoustic tales Folklore and Evermore weave. All outdoor venues in forests and parks and canyons across America, some of the most iconic stages once helmed by the greatest storytellers to ever pick up a guitar. Among others, Red Rocks, The Hollywood Bowl, the infamous Woodstock grounds, and one intimate night in Central Park beneath the stars. Folklore and Evermore come to life from the steps of a traveling mid-century cabin, where Taylor can gaze out upon her audience each night, nestled among verdant trees, sprawled out on grassy lawns, or cradled by the mountains. Buy tickets now to the concert of the summer and experience Folklore and Evermore as Taylor herself wishes to be pictured; In The Trees.

#taylor swift #folklore #evermore #eras tour #i loved planning this and i would have LOVED attending it #i KNOWWWWW the delacourte is way too small but i couldn't resist #and i KNOWWW most of these venues are too small but in my defense #she had 4 shows total planned in the US for lover so #her anticipated audience was much smaller then #anyway what a DREEEAM to listen to taylor outside with the breeze blowing and grass beneath my feet #it was also really fun learning about all the lesser known outdoor venues across the country #DYING to go to the washington one #don't yell at me for not doing enough nights at a certain place ok i'm not a tour manager #mine

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crescentfool · 1 year ago

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the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)...#i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect.#a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

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gideonisms · 2 months ago

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Does a podcast ever release a take you disagree with so strongly it makes you question everything you heard on it up to that point

#this is so niche and only interesting to other people who spend 10 hours a day listening to podcasts so i'm putting it in the tags #but s1ep3 of invisibilia about the blind guy who learned to echolocate so well he could ride a bike was fucking wild #the take was like. okay okay backing up a bit we all agree disability is socially constructed in some ways right?#ie people treat blind people in certain ways that reinforce an inability to function in society get jobs etc #they have certain expectations of people who are blind that can be limiting. right. so we all agree on that #but that was not the end of the take! the take was that because disability is socially constructed the solution is #to expect the same level of independence from blind people as you do from seeing people #and that also was not the end of the take because the way this man tried to accomplish that was forcing blind children to climb trees #this guy had achieved a high level of independence but in the process of learning to echolocate had knocked out multiple teeth #he was like 'the biggest barrier to blind people's ability to function in society is their parents' love for them'#because parents prevent blind children from exploring getting close to roads etc #and anyway i think that although parents may infantilize blind children more than necessary there is a strong financial incentive to #make sure they do not get hit by a car or break a bone #the solution of just getting blind people to act exactly like seeing people also seems odd #what's wrong with requiring help from others? why have we decided independence is the only way to function in society?#should all disabled people just be willing to injure themselves in order to get as close as possible to independence #in order to hold down a job which we have decided is the only way to earn the right to live #is there only one correct way to live a life?#it truly baffled me. i was sorting that mail going 👀👀🤔#anyway. this has been your podcast take of the day

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natelia-aldelliz · 2 years ago

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Soap : Is something wrong with Price? I don't think I've ever seen him in such a bad mood!

Ghost : Even when you accidentally blew up the unauthorized explosive experiment you were illegally working on in your room?

Soap : Even then! And he wasn't that pissed off, he was more.... Disappointed... which honestly is way worse...

Gaz : I know, right, it's horrible when he looks at you like that, last time I almost cried!

Soap : Yeah! Right Ghost?

Ghost : I wouldn't know, I behave myself like a normal adult. Why do you think he's mad? Have either of you done something recently?

Soap : No! That's why it's weird!

Gaz : Not me either. You sure it's not you this time LT?

Ghost : Of course it's not me.

Gaz :..... Could it be... A spat?

Soap : A spat?

Gaz : Yeah, with Nikolai. Y'know, trouble in paradise?

Soap : I don't think so, last time I heard them talking to each other he was complimenting him, saying he made so much progress in Russian that he'd start teaching him cursive, that's good, right?

Ghost : Russian cursive? Good? No need to look further Johnny, you know why he's pissed off. Nik's probably having so much fun with it too.

#cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #captain john price #cod nikolai #ghostsoap #soapghost #nikprice #just imagine them supposed to train some recruits and instead they're in a circle gossiping #and the recruits are trying their best to listen in inconspicuously #this is based on the six months i spent trying to learn russian in college too many years ago #russian cursive is a nightmare #and this is coming from someone who reads 18th century french priests little baptism certificates books for fun #anyway i'm still pushing my nikprice propaganda they deserve it #too few of us out here smh

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uncanny-tranny · 9 months ago

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Finally listened to Dylan Mulvaney's song and?? I don't get the negative hype about it, it was frankly a cute song. Also the "playin' catch-up 'cause we missed the pre-game" made me laugh, it was a good line. Dylan, you've done it again!

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #it just sounds like... a normal pop song. the only problem is the auto tune. i'm not against auto tune but whoever mixed it...#...did not make it seamless. i'm bad at recognizing auto tune but i could hear it #the thing that sucks is auto tune is now like... industry standard but nobody who is responsible for doing it seems to do it right #to me it's justa cute song about learning to appreciate and admire life and the women who helped. like it's pretty normal #i don't even follow dylan i just think she's. a relatively normal person as far as being a former theater kid can get you #if you were in theater or band your normal rating goes down at *least* a tier level. often more than one. ask me how i know.#anyway. listen to the song i think it's cute as hell. i'm always a sucker for songs about appreciation and gratitude

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corallapis · 1 year ago

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We're opening up a rift in the Braccatolian space. Won't see us coming. Kind of scary. Then stop. Once the Empire is established, and there's a new Gallifrey in the heavens, maybe then it stops... the drumming, the never ending drumbeat. Ever since I was a child, I looked into the Vortex — that's when it chose me. The drumming, the call to war. Can't you hear it?

#tenth doctor #simm!master #doctor x master #dwedit #dw #*#i was gonna strategically crop lil guy out of that 3rd gif but you know what? i'm not a coward.#woe lil guy and his tiny custom-made pinstripe suit be upon ye #ANYWAY. why did the master say ''good'' here. hello. i'm rattling the bars of my fuckign cage why did he say that #is he glad the doctor is spared from it??????#also the doctor like. not listening. at all. not even trying to listen apparently #since all it took was one lil forced contact in eot #still giving him an absolute for an answer. ''it's only you.''#all the shit ten says throughout this oh we're the only ones left it's the two of us blah blah blah. but where it counts? IT'S ONLY YOU.#see obv i'm master biased but all this shit makes me crazy abt the stuff 12 said to missy. ''you never learned to hear the music''#bro you NEVER LISTENED to him. you're still not listening to her!!!!!#araghghagh. ok.

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runefactorynonsense · 2 months ago

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Melotober - Day 23 - Honey

I wonder where the kids have gone...

#Melotober #Listen. I knew this prompt was either 'I be a big sap' or 'I draw something stupid'. Frank and I decided 'BOTH'#Rune Factory #Rune Factory 2 #RF2 #Rune Factory Kyle #RF Kyle #Rune Factory Rosalind #RF Rosalind #Rune Factory Aaron #RF Aaron #Rune Factory Aria #RF Aria #This is a decision I am glad Frank encouraged me to make- to do both. We do not compromise ideas just to 'catch up'#I get to draw my RF2 otp?? family?? YES.#But YEAH I just. Definitely one of the first visions I had when looking at the prompts. Nice sweet conversation. Screaming incoming #THE WASPS ARE SO HUGE IN THE GAMES I HATE IT.#I will say one thing I have learned during this challenge is I am getting a fun little way to do depth in trees and I'm like...#okay I need to use this later #anyway time to nap a lil before work #Margot's RF Art

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girlwiththegreenhat · 4 months ago

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hey when they wrote "knight behind bars" and they wrote kitt helping a couple get together and they gave him the line "Some day, it will be my turn" [to find love]. did they know what they were doing. did they know that in some 40 years some gay autistic robot-obsessed little freak on tumblr would not stop thinking about it for weeks and write literal dozens of paragraphs screaming about it on discord. did they know they were going to ruin Me, Specifically, with this concept that feels like the culmination of everything kitt has gone through through the show and such a fascinating thing to think about in regards to michael and kitt's relationship,

one of the themes of knight rider is kitt developing as a Person, developing a line between the Knight Industries Two-Thousand, and Kitt. discovering humanity, his own emotions, the joys of the seemingly and logically pointless, and often through the lens of his own driver, his partner, his friend, Michael - his primary guide through all these experiences, his reference for those human things he doesn't understand. and as much as he initially claims to not be capable of experiencing emotions, of understanding feelings, he learns to. he experiences a wide range of emotions through the show even while claiming he doesn't, he even learns fear and insecurity. perhaps it's only natural a robot would learn to love, or at the very least be terribly curious about it and wonder if such a thing could ever exist for Him

the majority of people are not exactly kind to kitt. they talk about him like he's not there, they talk about him like he's a machine, a novelty, some people are even scared of or disturbed by him when all he's trying to do is make polite conversation and company. he's always Othered - there's no other cars like him (at least not anymore), but there's no other person like him either, he doesn't truly belong among humans or vehicles. some of the technicians at FLAG don't even seem to fully respect him as a person, at least they don't based on my vague recollection of how they talk about him in Junkyard Dog. when Michael asks him after KARR is destroyed if it feels good to be one of a kind again, he doesn't say yes or no - he only says it's a "familiar feeling." it may be familiar, but it's surely also isolating, and i think that's something he'd realize as he slowly picks up this curiosity about love. where could he even find it when so few people see him as an equal person to begin with?

and then there's michael. oh my god, and then there's michael. no matter what flavor you choose to read it in, the whole show is about their relationship, they're a duo, a set Not to be separated, they're Partners. they work together, they worry about and look after each other (forever insane about when kitt was a melted shell, Michael stuck around the garage for hours, waiting for any news like a worried spouse, constantly checking on him every opportunity he got... encouraging him to recover, and even helping paint back on his protective coating... kitt always looks after michael, but for once, it's michael's turn to look after Him), in a way they were Made for each other - Kitt more literally, being programmed for Michael and holding his namesake, but Michael was also made in a sense for the pilot program, hand picked and given a second life to work for the foundation and with this strange supercar. and even if they had a rocky start, michael comes to view kitt as a person - car, TV set, or computer core, Kitt is his partner, his buddy. he helps him find himself, guides him and teaches him about these things that make us human, and in a way, kitt becomes human - but his entire experience is still through the perspective of an AI in a car, it's still very unique and isolating, and I think he sort of grows into his own limitations, he's finally brushing against the walls that define him.

he learns of love, and then he learns to dream Of love. these things he sees in the movies, that michael tells him about, that he so often sees michael Partaking in that he gets so oddly jealous of, doesn't it all seem so wonderful? he's very curious. but who could ever love steel and circuitry, who could ever see him as an equal let alone a partner in a romantic sense? who would ever love a car and all the limitations That comes with? it's a problem for a hypothetical hopeful Some Day, in the meantime stuck between two worlds where he doesn't perfectly belong to either, where no car Can love him and no human seemingly Would love him...

and michael loves him anyway. before either of them really realize or talk about it, in spite of everything, in any form, regardless of the fact it wouldn't be a typical relationship by absolutely any means, michael loves him anyway. kitt is as much a person to him as bonnie or devon or RC, and that person is someone he loves and cares for deeply. the feeling is mutual, kitt's world revolves around michael, he's one of the most important people in kitt's life, and he'd do anything to protect him.

and it is michael that will finally teach him to love, and what it means to feel loved in turn, to be loved as the person he undoubtedly is.

#liz blogs #kr #knight rider #michael knight #kitt #robots #gay #this isnt writing. its rambling. its very insane rambling.#WHAT is the ship tag. i dont even know. fuck it we ball #michael x kitt #sure #knight rider spoilers #i saw someone make up a really good one but i cant remember what it was-- oh my god was it MK2000. was it. was that iT-#mk2000 #retroactively gonna go tag all the fruity posts with that i dont care #do not even get me started on michael learning to love for the first time in This lifetime. ... literally dont get me started i havent seen #the last stevie episode yet. thats next weeks crying fit. but i feel like that's a piece i need #but stevie was michael Long's girl. part of His life. michael Knight can't go back to that. and maybe he Shouldn't #listen. its about michael teaching kitt to love. and kitt Letting him learn to love Again. something real besides his weekend flings #i need a lobotomyyyyyyy i need an ice pick to the brain i need to stop being completely fucking insane about robots #IF BEING INSANE ABOUT FICTIONAL ROBOTS WAS A JOB I WOULD BE A MILLIONAIRE #anyway michael is bisexual and a dashboard smoocher thanks for coming to my ted talk #homosexuality is rampant in the military jerry. thats a bisexual if ever i saw one. have you seen the way he dresses. he calls his car baby #if you dont watch knight rider and you read this i'm sorry i must look deranged #this ship is queer flavored even besides the fact its two guys. there's like four levels of queer flavoring in this bitch

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