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rearranging-deck-chairs · 2 years ago

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i really wish caffeine worked on me because i have not slept nearly enough to attempt to finish editing like 15 thousand words today but im gonna do it anyway

#you know in wolf 359 when hera gets put in uhh pryce and carters ship=#and shes like HOLY SHIT THE AMOUNT OF PROCESSING POWER IN THIS THING #and she goes 'is this what it's like for you guys on caffeine because i tooootally get the coffee thing now'#i want my brain in a big ship SO bad yuo dont even knoww #anyway i can do it i believe in myself #it's 8:30 and ive been uup for 5 and a half hours and ive got until. i fall asleep so #i can do it #just write until i pass out #is the plan #and hopefully when i do i'll have finsihed it

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albaharu · 8 months ago

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gale holding a sword its just so funny to me

#anyways maybe i woudl have the fuckign weave scene in my wyll origin game!!!!! if gale wasnt like!!!#“oh i would teach u magic...if only our bond was stronger”#gale i have u at maximun at the tieflin party what more do u want from me!!!!#cant believe i blocked myself by doing it too well... but thats ok im going with bae'zel...#the good people at the wyll discord are convincing me of #bladeweave #but this also can work as platonic so whatever floats your boat #wyll ravengard #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 #baldur's gate #baldur's gate iii #baldur's gate 3

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magicaldreamfox1 · 10 days ago

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watch the heart killers ....

#im proud of this colouring. many things i can do with just a selective colour layer #anyway this was unhinged. fadel's concerned look.... girl get up.....#i can't believe i haven't seen anyone gif this so i did it myself #stylefadel #fadelstyle #style x fadel #fadel x style #the heart killers #the heart killers the series #bl shows #my gifs

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egophiliac · 7 months ago

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I feel like F/P/S was still a pretty weird one, even by Lance's standards.

sorry for (in an ironic twist) not doing much Ride Kamens art now that it's actually started; I've been pretty slow going through it and I feel weird posting about things I'm not caught up on! though I'm. definitely gonna have to set aside some time to actually get through episode 13, after what they posted today. (w-what did they do to my Leon) (NOBODY TELL ME I HAVE TO FIND OUT ON MY OWN) (LEOOOOOOOON)

#art #ride kamens #f/p/s #freedom/play/slam #it's probably not as dramatic as i'm imagining i'm just terrified for our sweet boy #smh can't believe leon's bald now #this is why i don't like to post before i get caught up i have NO IDEA #anyway sorry this. kind of sucks. it just made me laugh #i love the sheer absurdity that must be lance's day-to-day #it's amazing what you can get used to i guess #event chaosworlds are bizarre even for chaosworlds though #(poor shizuru...he was SO confused about the bread...)#i admit the events are one of the reasons i've been so slow at the main story #i told myself i was going to put my foot down and prioritize and not get distracted by the next event #and then they announced frilly prince froufrou tea party wisdom boys and RUINED MY LIFE #how am i supposed to get anything done when all i can think about is jou just going absolutely ham on some tiny cucumber sandwiches #how dare they do this to me

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dilfmobius · 2 months ago

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all this love i've got to keep to myself (x)

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blank-house · 2 months ago

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Don't believe in love, but no one makes me feel like you do~

Jamie Porter in casual wear. Jamie Porter with his hair up. Jamie Porter with a soft smile on his face. Jamie Porter as he lets you pull him to whatever adventure because at least it's something with you.

Yeah, okay I'm normal about this.

Art creds to Alyx~

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ahsdlkahd ignore previous countdowns— 48 hours left if I can count right!

Kickstarter -> Keyframes: First Summer Game -> Keyframes: First Spring Steam -> Keyframes

#keyframes vn #jamie porter #blank house announcements #kf ks tings #part x of ??? “using business as an excuse to commission my favorite artists” saga #reminding myself to keep those tags the same so people can clock guest art more easily uwu #can y'all believe 30 days are almost over?#wild as hell?#anyway- save me jamie porter save me #I really do have a soft spot for this man *sigh*

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gomzdrawfr · 1 year ago

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it's hard loving yourself

#i can't keep lying to myself #how do you love something that is so unlovable #i'm poison. i come from poison. i have poison inside me and i destroy everything i touch. that's my legacy.#i pour alcohol into the gaping hole inside my chest. it does not heal. not today. maybe tomorrow. maybe it wont heal ever #smoke fills my chest . empty it can be #yet so full of your absence #im nothing but an empty husk of what I once was #and a big part of me was already forcefully ripped away from me when you left #hello hi im back with ghoap angst #can you believe its been a whole week since i drew them #anyways #gummmyart #doodle #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soapghost #ghostsoap #angst #implied mcd

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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was talking to my brother the other day after i rewatched dark phoenix and he was like 'why is everyone so mean to charles in this movie?? were they always this mean to him ?? is it cause he's bald now- he lost his pretty privilege??' and i fear i havent recovered

#xmen #xmen movies #dark phoenix #charles xavier #professor x #snap chats #LIKE HE'S RIGHT 1000% I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT HIM TO SAY IT VLERKVJAKLJ #ANOTHER banger of a quote from my brother chat i screamed when he said that #adopting that into my belief system i fear #like really thinking on it they really did only start being especially rude after apocalypse im crying #dont quote me on that i have to rewatch apocalypse but as far as im aware. yeah 😭😭#and its SUCH a travesty cause i love how mcavoy looked in DP SO much he looks so good bald #like please if we were going to wrap up this era of xmen films why did we have to rerun DP #can we try again. please. i need him bald one more time in a movie i dont have to argue with myself i like #see DP wasnt the worst thing ever. probably. like scott got to do things again ..... and kurt .......#and the paris proposal. never forget that.#ALSO THE FUCKIN. 'no one cares charles' BIT ???? 97 ref'd that directly i know they did and i cheered #listen if they can ref the 'black leather suits' from the xmen movies i can believe they called back to that too <- delusional #anyway when james said thats the meanest thing erik could say/do to charles .... he was cooking ....#'thats the type of thing your wife/husband says' he was so right .... we know james never misses with the cherik takes tho #ok bye i have obligations that i need to complete so i can draw my favorite cue ball

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nicollekidman · 2 months ago

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realizing that people who equate cynicism with intellectual rigor are often just being lazy and pathetic has been so helpful tbh

#like the endless amount of cynicism i see on here particularly amongst american leftists just very much reads to me #as a combination of moral ocd and identity politics / optics #where if you’re sad/angry enough it excuses you from participating in the real world #instead of like. funneling a real desire to see positive change into channels of action #anyways. aoc and rashida talib the only bitches out here i respect #i am never going to be a person who responds to like. paragraphs about how electoral politics are evil or america is evil like yeah. true.#but i live here. people i love live here. strangers i love live here. so now what do i do that is Real outside of the whining chamber #optimism = stupid / fatalism = intellect is like. LOLOLOL #we all have to chose to believe that we can create a world that is livable #which is not to say i am #at all aligned with the dem #establishment or the liberal agenda but like. i’m not taking myself out of the game bc i believe i can Do Something and it’s my duty to do

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daisybell-on-a-carousel · 3 months ago

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Still very wild to me when people try to gotcha Jason with the whole "if you can kill other people for being evil why can't they kill you" when jason is like. One of the most passively suicidal characters I've ever seen. What if man

#augh i dont want to cw this because im just talking about The Character and i feel bad when i do it for characters but i probably should #suicide mention #ask to tag #while im here i do absolutely believe hes been suicidal since jaybin times. maybe even before just in different ways. but like #going into that building with shelia? yeah #now. i DONT think he was aware of it and if youd ask him hed say no fully believing thats the truth #but like if a ghost jaybin had some introspection time i think he'd maybe eventually be like yeah #his outcomes to him were have a loving parent or die and hes a very big fan of ultimatums like that.#but he doesn't fully see it like that as jaybin because oh hes a hero and saving others when no one else can is what heros do :)#ramble. ivee been feeling it lately yknow how it is #ive once saw a post saying jason was planning to die after the joker was dead in utrh and yeagh i can see that #he puts A BOMB in his HELMET #suicidal characters in the context of hero stories are so fascinating to me. the self sacrifice.#the not caring about your own safety as long as you save someone else. the pushing yourself #the way itd be so easy to make it look like they just fell in battle. to be considered a hero in the end #anyway ive been glancing at suicidal jason todd fics. how bad is it that im still getting mad about characterization #because theyre not killing him right #AND ANOTHER THING. since im here and i try to avoid making posts about The Character like this so might as welk get it all out #think about suicidal jaybin as well as the fact 80s bruce very much considered suicidal people/people attempting like #weak and lazy? yells at them? i think thats about it. Very Much. je seems to straight up just hate them #again very much feel free to ask me to tag this one ^-^'#and i hope no one thinks im being callous here im very worried about that. i just its a very important part of his character to think about #and its fun to explore as someone who is passively suicidal myself #jason todd analysis #anyway no one look at me i am in my corner just rotating him #WAIT to clarify i dont think jaybin fully realized Just becauceof the heros sacrifice thing. i made it sound like that i believe #anyway. if you read him as suicidal since jaybin times and go to ditf with that lens like i did. well. the post death victim blaming..

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bluespiritshonour · 9 months ago

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here's 18-19 year old aang sketches. been hearing aang is ugly discourse—no he ain't. he was just 12.

#i really wanted to take part in zukaang bingo but the urge to art struck me a little later #i still might make something else later #enough art for now #i'd try to participate in maiko week but i'm not sure #it's smack in the middle of end semester exams #ink blot #avatar fanart #avatar the last airbender #atla #artists on tumblr #fanart #avatar aang #why did i never use the pencil brush before?!?! i seriously have a personality flaw where i just don't explore stuff.#can you believe i've been using the same fucking brush for lineart ever since i started digital art?#anyways! i don't know how the pencil brush would feel like if i go for colours but this is impeccable.#I have more control over stuff and i love the result #so #i have promised myself i'd be fucking off this hellsite because i have a huge backlog of work that needs to be done #and i'm presently suffering from “can't help but art”. so #yeah. y'all would probably see me around maiko week. byeee!#if i deprive myself of drawing for too long it bursts out of me like this where i do nothing but draw #not healthy at all

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spookythesillyfella · 2 months ago

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remember when i had that dream where you [Y/N] have a sleepover with tumblr sexyman tony and sketchbook where you guys just end up in a polyamorous relationship ??? well . i tried to find a fanfic that would even slightly line up with the description. even if it was only vaguely

but uhhh ....

there were none . so i had to do it myself

#have i ever told you how fucking scared i am of tumblr sexyman tony and paige ?#actually . im not scared of them – but seeing them just makes me go into a fight or flight state #i hate my nine year old self for being obsessed with them . and i think they'd hate current me for being obsessed with digitaltime #so . really . i think we're even #can you tell which one i hate less ? [hint : it's not the blue twink]#anyway . im doing this more for you – the people who follow my account – than i am for myself #i tried to make it believable for the 2014 era of padlock but like i dunno how good or bad of a job i did (⁠~⁠_⁠~⁠;⁠)#i hope they all get obliterated ; blown up to smithereens #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis fanfic #dhmis tony #tony the talking clock #dhmis sketchbook #dhmis paige #paige the sketchbook #dhmis padlock #apparently there are no tony x reader or paige x reader tags on tumblr . so whoops #x reader fanfiction #x reader fic #for the first time in my life . i hope one of my posts / fanfics absolutely flops #my fanfiction #archive of our own #pls ignore #its not finished btw #and i don't know when ill be updating it #shrug

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i-dreamed-i-had-a-son · 4 months ago

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Broke (2016): BBC Sherlock is a phenomenal piece of media and anything that seems like a flaw just hasn't been fully explored yet

Woke (2020): BBC Sherlock is an incredibly flawed series run by an egotistical writer, it never deserved the hype and is actively bad on so many fronts (especially representation)

Bespoke (2024): BBC Sherlock is flawed and bogged down by increasingly poor writing, which many fans refused to see while it was airing, leading to hugely misplaced expectations (particularly for the final series), AND it has the seeds of some compelling characterizations and portrayals, some genuinely solid performances, and touches--albeit imperfectly--on complexities that are still being discussed today (particularly as it relates to the relationship between Sherlock and John). The huge cultural impact of the show has created a massive pendulum effect in its public perception, leading to most people today remembering a caricature of the show (whether positive or negative) rather than appreciating its nuanced merits and failings...that being said Season 4 sucked

#these just sum up my personal takes at the years in question and also what i'm seeing on tumblr/other social media #bbc sherlock #sherlock holmes #and i actually have a lot more thoughts to share on this series #specifically relating to the cultural impact #there is SO much about the show that goes unappreciated in hindsight because of how public perception of it has soured #and i totally fell into this as well--i still regularly rewatch hbomberguy's video absolutely dismantling the series and he isn't wrong!!#but what i'm saying is that i think it's easy for us to look at a piece of media (especially one so massively popular) like sherlock...#with very black-and-white lenses. it wouldn't have become so popular if there wasn't something inherent in it that resonated with people #and that's being buried (and i totally forgot it) because 'sherlock is cringe and problematic. can't believe i liked that'#which again it IS full of issues and those are well-documented as they should be. future portrayals should not repeat those mistakes #BUT being able to impact so many people is a merit in itself. and that's only possible because of other genuinely good things about the show #yes the way they handled the relationship between john and sherlock was riddled with problems YES it was often queerbaiting #AND the way they portrayed that relationship had a deep effect on me. i saw a lot of myself in sherlock and the complex way he loved john #the nuanced feelings he had about john's marriage to mary. the part (in s4!) where john calls him inhuman for not feeling romantic love #there was genuine intention and care put into some parts of this show and it comes through in scenes like those. they impact people.#and because of this realization i'm going to (eventually) do a rewatch of the show. i'm much older and i want to see how i'll view it now #but i want to go into it--and i want everyone who engages with it still--to have an open mind and evaluate it for what it is #not what we expected it to be (secret episode anyone?) or what the cultural drift has turned it into (the tiktok of sherlock's mind palace)#but the messy problematic somewhat-heartfelt massively significant and ultimately meaningful piece of media it actually was #anyway that's my thoughts would love to hear y'all's perspectives #funny how after all this time making a sherlock post still feels like i'm poking a bees' nest lol please be kind!#kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags

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undefeatablesin · 1 year ago

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My angel, my pride and joy, my beloved AKA the Good Hunter Ruza lmao 🧡 ft. Her Lost Chikage and her fun outfit from these screenshots! + some lil headshots of her in the Yharnam Hunter Garb, a look I also care Deeply About ✨️

#sin scribbles #bloodborne #good hunter #good hunter bloodborne #hunter bloodborne #bloodborne oc #bloodborne oc ; ruza #(ITS DONE CAN U BELIEVE IT I SURE CANT!!!!)#(yes. i repeat. this was largely inspired and enforced by me playin d/m/c5 again. LOL.)#(look.......is it my fault my favourite games happen 2 both be about monster hunters with cool swords???)#(anyways whatever AHEM *shuffles notes*)#(i do rly like ruza in the knights garb tbf its fun and flashy. especially in game where everything is dark af)#(very fun to draw. but i prefer her in the actual hunting garb so THATS WHAT WE STICKIN WITH.)#(at least for now idk my mind changes like the weather sis thats largely why i havent given her a new ref sheet)#(or posted her new bio bc tbh im cursed!!!)#(as soon as i post a ref or a bio i immediately want to change it all. so. i just wont LOL)#(if yall still curious about her u can just send an ask or a dm or smth i dont bite 😂)#(this was supposed to be a sketch sheet can u tell i lied deceived played myself to filth)#(bonus cainhurst armor look bc i love that set SOOOOO....much)#(watch out yall sin is back at it with her nonsense cloth physics again)

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lemongogo · 2 months ago

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oo u want 2 draw soo bad..

#i hate that my ability to draw is so conditional #its soo frustrating but i dont know how to break it. this has been the one thing thats never changed.ill never be free #times like rn i just do studies but its soo fking BORINGGG euuhh...#but if i try 2 draw something for funsies i just stare at the blank canvas. literally immobile. & u know how people r like just draw #something anyways. a line. something. and its like no i cant do that oi cant even do that u underestimate my freak #i want 2attack myself from the pov of someone else #i think im having the realization tht i will never be able to do art stuff frls and its driving me crazy i think.#like im actually sick and unwell frm the thought of it.my friend commissioned me and im ab 2 send the money back #after two weeks bc i cant do it im literally frozen dude.i want 2 cry and die and explode into a million pieces #wait im back to add more.idk if anyone feels the same way but its like. i know its entirely a Me issue its a mental block issue #theres something thats not connecting in my head but its like.why is it so easy for everyone else ykwim...and thats a lie too right #like everyone else struggles w art and its not.it cant exist Without you struggling and practicing hard and trusting yourself #but in my brain im just convinced that like.i cant do this i cant do this like everyone else can do it like second nature and it freaks me #tf out #but also its the one thing i want to do more than anything else in my life and so like if i cant do it i dont know what to do.ughh.#not me freaking the fuck out rn lawl.lols.even #and on top of it i feel like i cant express myself well and i think my friend. < SOOO awesome and well meaning and NICE and legitimately #pushing me to try and believe that i can do this stuff but i feel like they wont understand the sort of like.mental block im struggling wit #like its less that i hate my art or something i dont its more like.i just feel soo physically restrained and incapable of doing it.suddenly #i cant think and i cant do anything.i have no creativity i have no ideas my mind is quite literally blank and empty

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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 month ago

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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3

#bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd 120.5 #please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol #the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come #that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack #because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny #he is dickriding that fucker HARD #and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter #man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5 #it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words #'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW #THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE #Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain #I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right #even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY #WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN #THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO #i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words #it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man 😭😭😭#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive #and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor #but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said #when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa 🙏 and we get the true you back

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