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the tortured poets department
a story told in multiple parts
vi x reader
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Contains: college au, dark/light academia, writer reader, singer reader, neurodivergent/autistic reader (iâm autistic so iâm writing from my own experiences), sporty vi, hockey player vi, big sister caitlyn, best friend ellie williams, roommate ellie williams, will contain other familiar characters you know and love as well as some potential ocs. no use of y/n, reader does have a name because itâs just easier for me to write that way đ€ ALSO- Jayce is aged down because I want him to be đ
WC: 4.5k
TW: talk of severe mental illness and brief mention of psychiatric facilities
A/N: chapter one is officially live! if youâre just stumbling across this and havenât checked the main info post yet please do for more info! hope you enjoy! đ€
part I
youâre on your own, kid
Whenever most people got acceptance letters to Oxford they were ecstatic, elated, overjoyed. Somehow whenever I got mine all I felt was a sense that I had failed. It was a juxtaposition of course, it was always expected from my family that I attend the same university they had and every other generation before them had. So in a way I had done the opposite, just maybe not in the right order, and a hefty amount of rejection letters in my midst. Including the one currently being held in my shaky hand right now.
Ms. Kiramman,
Thank you for submitting your manuscript to our publication house. Unfortunately right now we are unable to offer you an opportunity for further publication.
âPlease, they wouldnât know good literature if it hit them in the face.â Caitlyn scoffed from her spot next to me as the student shuttle jostled us in our row of seats.
âIs every other publication house that denied me unable to recognize good literature as well?â I whispered from where my cheek stayed pressed to her shoulder.
I know what a lot of you were probably thinking at first glance, but Caitlyn was a good big sister. She was harsh, severely left brained, exactly everything our parents wanted in a child, and quite possibly the polar opposite of me. But in all honesty she was my best friend. My biggest supporter whenever my parents werenât. It was her who had harassed all of those literary agents to even get me the chance to submit my works to publication houses in the first place because I was too scared to do it. And it was I who failed every single time.
âYeah actually, they are. Honestly Mills, thereâs so much trash in modern day poetry right now you might be better off.â She sighed, reaching a hand over to click my phone off slowly as the shuttle rumbled to a stop. âThis is you!â She tried to plaster on a fake cheery voice with a pat on my back as if to get me to finally lift my head where my cheek was already an irritated red for being hid in her sweater.
âI still donât get why you couldnât just let Ellie and I take the extra room in that big student house you just moved into.â I huffed, lifting a hand to readjust my glasses before rising up to my feet and reaching for one of the suitcases carelessly tossed on one of the adjacent rows of seats.
âBecause lovey, you need to make some of your own friends. This is uni, Millie, weâre both in completely different colleges and I just- I donât want you to get too lonely.â She frowned, glancing back at me as she rolled the other suitcase behind her. âYou guys donât wanna room with a bunch of upperclassmen anyways.â
âI do have my own friends, I have Ellie.â
âAs much as she is a great roommate, friends besides Ellie, itâs good to have more than just two whole people on campus to talk to.â Caitlyn pressed on just before striding towards the entrance, leaving me feeling like I needed to speed walk just to keep up given the fact she was nearly a foot taller as well.
The student apartments were definitely nicer than the usual underclassman dorms. In all honesty I really shouldâve been grateful, it was just another luxury of being a Kiramman. Whenever your parents paid for half of the buildings on campus you usually got better accommodations. Not that either of them originally liked the idea of me even rooming with Ellie. A loudmouthed foreign exchange student from America I met during another one of those incredibly expensive wellness retreats my parents sent me on to see if they could find a âcureâ for what was actually just a heavy amount of autism and severe ADHD.
The only person who really seemed to understand that there wasnât one and it was just simply who I was was Caitlyn. To a degree as much as she could at least. Sometimes though I could tell she forgot.
âI think Ellie said she beat us a while ago.â She chimed in as we approached the door decorated with a slightly chipped gold number.
âShe got here early because of hockey stuff.â I answered, already bouncing on the balls of my feet to see how she had managed to make the flat into a sea of chaos already. She wasnât exactly the cleanest person, luckily her energy seemed to mesh with mine easily enough though.
âOh! You never mentioned she made the hockey team! I know a few girls on the team you could probably talk to.â She shot a hopeful smile back at me before lifting a fist to knock on the door.
It swung open before she could even make a second tap to reveal a frazzled looking Ellie haphazardly clutching a hockey stick. âThank God youâre here! I was trying to practice my swing and- fuck, we are so not getting that deposit back, Millie.â
âOh dear god.â Caitlyn cursed, already wincing in dread before stepping through the door into the messy flat. âIâm sure our dad can- do something. What did you manage to break and why on earth did you decide practicing your swing indoors was a good idea?â
âFor your information I didnât break anything! Thereâs just a- tiny dent in the wall.â
I hummed a bit to myself as I stepped over the plethora of unpacked bags currently covering the floor. âItâs definitely more than tiny.â I chimed in as I poked at the noticeable dent in the drywall.
Caitlyn released a long and heavy breath and shook her head, as if to try and keep herself from making her own dent in the wall. âItâs totally fine. Iâll just- say that it was there whenever you guys moved in!â She shrugged with another anxious clear of her throat as she pulled my luggage in behind her. âWhich room is free, Els?â
âOh, I gave her the room in the front. I know she likes it dark and the lighting in there sucks.â Ellie answered as she shuffled off behind us. âThere is one window in there that can get pretty killer in the mornings.â
I tensed a bit at the sight of the double window facing towards the bed. Yet another one of the aggravating little quirks that came with my neurodivergency, light sensitivity. As far as I could remember I always preferred the darkest of places. And now Caitlyn was cursing again, rushing towards me to take my hands into her own as if I was already on the verge of panic.
âItâs okay- I can get you a pair of a blackout curtains asap and you know how dreary it is in Oxford anyways-â
âCaity- itâs fine. Iâm not going to have a meltdown over a window.â I interrupted her ramble with a shake of my head. Sometimes I felt like she still thought I was that same teenage girl that didnât have a handle on her emotions. Not that I was far from it exactly. Now I was just an almost 20 year old girl who had a slight hold on her emotions. Thatâs what the writing was for.
Her eyes still held the same amount of concern though, getting that same little crinkle in between her brows as she nodded. âOkay, Iâm still getting you blackout curtains though.â
âTheyâll definitely be appreciated.â I said with a forced tiny smile.
âWell, I really wish I could stay and help you unpack but I have a meeting with the Brooks Society and everything but⊠I really do hope Iâll see you both tonight at the pub for fresherâs week?â She grinned hopefully once more as she squeezed the life out of my hands.
âOh, I-I donât know. Weâve barely settled in and-â
âIâm down.â Ellie chimed in from behind me as she trotted back into the door frame. âIâm gonna be relishing in the fact I finally donât need a fake.â
âEllieâŠâ I groaned as I shot her a glare over my shoulder.
âWhat? Mills, itâs the first day of fresherâs week, we might as well be committing a crime by not going out tonight!â She exclaimed with a dramatic throw of her hands in the air.
âItâs true, and as much as I would love to keep you away from my degenerate friends, well, it might be good for you.â Caitlyn agreed with another casual shrug.
âYouâre not gonna give me a choice, are you?â I questioned causing her to shoot a knowing look towards Ellie over my shoulder.
âProbably not.â She answered before stealing a look down at the expensive watch wrapped around her wrist. âWell, Iâve gotta go but⊠youâll text me if you need anything, right? I donât want you to feel like you canât because of what I said earlier because you always can I just-â
âCaity- itâs fine. Iâm fine, I promise. I- Iâll see you tonight.â I stammered in hesitation, and Iâd definitely be hearing about it later. But luckily right now she seemed willing to just let things go.
âOkay, good⊠great. Now- get in here, pipsqueak!â She exclaimed, the familiar nickname she had been calling me since she hit her growth spurt and I yet to do so making me roll my eyes as she pulled me into a tight hug. One of those sisterly hugs I always clung onto a bit longer. Ever since I was younger no place had felt safer than Caitlyn. And in so many ways sometimes I looked at her as being more than a mom than our actual mom. I knew I needed to find other safe places though. âI love you, you know that right? I promise. This is going to be a good thing.â
âI love you too, Caity.â I sighed softly as I felt her lips press to the top of my head before the two of us pulled away.
âEls, take care of my baby sister or else Iâll have your head on a stick? Got it?â
âCrystal?â Ellie finally spoke up again with wide eyes as her hand made the âokayâ symbol.
âGood.â Caitlyn spoke before trotting back off towards the front door, âIâll see you both tonight and send you the details.â And with a charming smile she was headed out.
Ellie instantly let out a shiver the moment the door closed. âHas anyone ever told you that your sisterâs scary as fuck?â
âMany times.â I answered simply just in time to see Ellieâs face fall ever so slightly.
âSo, Iâm guessing it was a no from the latest publication house?â
âHow could you guess?â I frowned as I slumped against the wall like I was going to resign myself to the floor.
âYou had that aire of discouraged defeatism whenever you walked in.â She explained as she sidled up to me. âCheer up, Mills, modern poetry is so cringeworthy nowadays you might be better off going for songwriting anyways.â She added as she gently rubbed at my clothed arms.
âIf I canât even get a publication house to take me seriously then what makes you think I can actually get a songwriting deal?â I spoke as I finally pushed myself off of the wall.
âOne of the most popular songs out right now literally has the lyrics, âthatâs that me, espressoâ in it.â She rolled her eyes a bit to herself as she finally knelt down to grab the bags she had still yet to unpack.
âNo Sabrina Carpenter slander in this apartment, Williams. You know Iâm an OG. And I can relate to desperation.â I frowned in embarrassment as I crossed my arms across my chest.
âYeah yeah yeah, come and help me unpack, will you? Maybe we can find you something to wear tonight.â
âWhatâs wrong with what I have on?â I exclaimed almost in mild offense as I gestured towards the outfit that definitely had been hastily picked out. But it wasnât like it wasnât cute- ish at least.
âNothing, but care bear sweaters and leggings seems more like a comfy day outfit than a âgoing out to the pubâ outfit.â
âI thought it was going to be a comfy day until you completely blew my cover!â
âSorry babe, but I agree with your scary as fuck sister on this one. You need to get out more. Experience the pleasures of fresherâs week and you can take that in any way you want!â She shot a wink over her shoulder as she made her way down the skinny hallway to kick open her own door where a brutal floor to ceiling window already angrily cast its light on the room causing me to flinch.
âWe could always pretend to be girlfriends again if you want people to leave you alone in a, you know, romantic way.â Ellie added as she rushed across the room to pull the curtains shut and pat the empty space on her bed. Probably the only time itâd actually be made all semester.
âNah, if we do that too many times people will know weâre lying so best not to even start.â I answered as I took a seat on the side of her bed.
âWell if thatâs the case, how does this shirt look with⊠this flannel? What do you think? Chick magnet?â She grinned before whipping out a red and black checkered flannel from the mostly empty closet and pulling it on over the basic black band tee she already wore with a flourish.
âMaybe if theyâre emo?â I said with a little shrug as I scanned the band logo on her t-shirt causing her to groan in defeat.
âStill⊠somehow⊠always chronically bitchless.â She voiced before plopping down on the squeaky university issued beds. Though we were at least lucky enough to have double beds, it definitely wouldnât leave anything to the imagination if either of us decided to do any nsfw activities in them. Somehow I didnât feel like weâd have that problem though.
âShush, youâre not chronically bitchless. You have me!â I teased as I gave her shoulder a playful shove where she dramatically flopped onto her back.
âSo bitchless then?â She reiterated with a lifted brow as she glanced over at me.
âAt least youâve actually managed to kiss a girl once or twice.â I scowled as I inched over onto my side. Already catching myself pulling closer towards her.
âJust so weâre clear, I did offer.â
âYeah, only to get your first kiss out of the way.â I scoffed, though I curled up to her either way. Closing my eyes as I placed my head on her chest I hadnât realized how tired I had felt in the past 24 hours. They had been rough, a sea of anxiety and those exact meltdowns that Caitlyn was afraid of me having and her not being there to talk me down from.
âAnd? The offer never stopped standing.â She spoke just before I could feel her arms wrapping around me.
âGood to know, Els, Iâll let you know if I ever need to get a pity kiss from my best friend.â
âOh shut up, itâs not a pity kiss. Itâs me doing you a solid.â She remarked, as she nudged my foot with her leg. âYou manage to get any sleep last night?â She wondered just before letting her hands trace soothing circles on my back. I only shook my head as I felt the sting behind my eyes before I could even take any steps to stop it. The way you felt whenever you were already on the verge all day and someone finally asks if youâre okay. Curling my fingers into her flannel the annoying tears already soaked into the fabric of her shirt. âDo you wanna talk about it?â
A shake of my head only followed, I didnât know how to put anything into words really. How to explain to people that just wouldnât understand no matter how much they meant well and wanted to. How was someone even supposed to explain the fact that you were one of the most celebrated families of the most prestigious university in England yet somehow you still felt like the only person who didnât belong here sat on top of a mountain of rejection letters? Perhaps you could rather easily. But to actually say the words âIâm pretty sure I only got in because Iâm a Kirammanâ were a whole different story. Itâs why I took all those years off in the first place. I wanted to delay the inevitable of my dad paying off the admissions directors again while staring at me with the level of disappointment he never had to with Caitlyn.
I hadnât even realized the simple tears had turned into full out sobs until I heard Ellieâs gentle shush from above me and her arms holding me even tighter to her chest as she did so. âYouâre gonna be okay, Mills. I promise. Weâre gonna be just fine.â
~
I hadnât even noticed I had dozed off until my eyes cracked open again, noticeably faced away from the window and tucked underneath Ellieâs covers. My glasses sat propped up on her bedside dresser already casting a noticeable blur of the world around me. Meanwhile hushed voices seemed to speak from out in the hallway, walls much too thin to hide the noise.
Fighting back a yawn I shoved myself up onto my elbow to wipe at my dysfunctional eyes before stretching a hand out to pluck my glasses from the nearby table. Though I only jumped as the door was pushed open and Caitlynâs tall figure popped up into view. âHey pipsqueak, Ellie told me you werenât feeling the best after I left.â She said carefully as she grabbed my glasses to hand them over.
âI wished she wouldnât have.â I grumbled as I slid them onto my face only to hug my knees to my chest and glue my eyes to the bedsheets below.
âWhy not? Isnât that exactly what I told you to do? Mills, I wouldâve stayed-â
âBut- I-I donât wanna keep you from your responsibilities anymore, Caity!â I exclaimed with a frustrated groan, already digging at my eyes again while my head only throbbed from the aftermath. âI donât want you to have to tell this really important college society that you canât be there for your obligations because your mentally ill sister needs you to rescue her again!â
âYou are my responsibility, Amelia!â She snapped, the use of my rarely spoken full name making me wince as she pointed a stern finger at me. âYou will always be my number one priority because Iâm your big sister and itâs my job to protect you, no matter what. And I donât care what kind of deep shit I get into with the criminology department, okay? Because you come first, always!â
I tried to gulp back the same pathetic tears, but it turns out after you cry yourself to sleep for the millionth time maybe there really is a limit. âI didnât miss anything, did I?â I spoke up after a moment of silence, feeling Caitlynâs arm stretch around my shoulder as she took the spot next to me.
âNo, but I did do some thinking and if you really donât wanna go then I donât wanna pressure you.â She frowned, almost looking down in mild guilt until I leaned my head against her shoulder.
âNo⊠I do. I wanna go and make friends and new experiences and- t-try to be normal.â
âLovey, you are normal. Itâs the world that isnât.â Caitlyn frowned as she leaned her head against mine. Thankfully she only hesitated a moment though before she cleared her throat and spoke again, âIf you wanna go though we should probably start getting ready. If you want me to help you?â
âMaybe you can help me figure out what to wear? And do my hair in those little braids with the clips? And help me with my eyeliner?â
Caitlyn snickered a bit as I lifted my head from her shoulder. âThe eyeliner might be a little tricky but I can certainly try. Are you forgetting the prom incident where I quite literally gave you an eye infection?â
âThat was definitely just because of the glitter.â I shrugged before swinging my legs over the side of the bed and finally pushing myself up to my feet.
âThe eyeliner pen straight to the cornea certainly didnât help.â She reiterated.
Despite the various complications of having two not at all femme lesbians help me get ready though, I donât think I looked too terrible afterwards. I had settled on a simple black dress that fell just above the knee with little bows sat atop the straps. English autumns could either be comfortable or frigid though and the current temperature definitely wasnât comfortable so Ellie tossed me one of her blue flannels to wear over top. Of course claiming itâd be a calling card for all of the hot lesbians, if they didnât assume we were together first.
Calling the pub a âpubâ in an of itself was definitely generous. Besides the one or two older people having their relaxing evening out ruined by the loudmouthed 18+ filling the joint it felt more like a club than anything. Music blasted from the speakers as we stepped inside, Caitlyn on one side with a protective arm around my shoulders and Ellie on the other who looked more and more like she was never returning to America by the second.
Caitlyn immediately dragged us downstairs where most of the students had taken over. It wasnât hard to figure out which group of friends were hers. It was the largest one, who had currently swallowed the entire center of the room it seemed filling up leather stools and couches with red decorative pillows. âOi! Cait! Over here!â A familiar voice echoed from the large group, popping his head over everyone and waving the lot of us over.
âJayce? I thought he finished his masters last year.â I tried to speak over the noise where Caitlyn wrinkled her nose in response.
âHe did, guess the old man just canât get enough of us.â She answered, giving my arm a comforting squeeze as she pulled me along beside her.
The group was probably the most eccentric lot I had ever seen as we approached the cluttered table. Covered in empty and full beer bottles and other fruity drinks along with half burnt out cigarettes. A spread of tarot cards belonging to a skinny girl with the longest and brightest blue hair I had ever seen was currently being scooped up as well causing my eyes to widen in curiosity. A chorus of Caitlynâs name followed as usual, the usual life of the party whenever I wasnât there and she didnât have to babysit. I had almost managed to successfully tune most of the chaotic noise out though until I heard my name followed by the tightening of Caitlynâs arm around my shoulders once more.
âLads, this is my baby sister, Amelia. Treat her well or else Iâll kill you slowly and painfully.â She said with a little grin just as a stool was pulled out from where a pink haired individual sat manspreading on the plush couch.
âHave a seat, cupcake, we donât bite.â The girl smirked as she sat forward almost curiously. Also an American.
âI especially mean that towards you, Vi.â Caitlynâs expression morphed into a glare as she watched me cautiously lower myself onto the seat like it was going to give out below me any second. âOh, and this is Ellie- Ellie Williams. Also a fresher. Ellie, Mills, this is⊠Jinx, Ekko, Jesse, Dina, you obviously know Jayce, Abby-â
âBitch.â Ellie mumbled underneath her breath causing my eyes to widen for the thousandth time as she took the open seat next to me. âShe totally knocked my lights out during practice today.â
âYou have to have at least one light on to have them knocked out, Williams.â The muscular woman stated as she brought a glass of amber liquid up towards her mouth.
âWow, didnât realize hockey rivalries on the same team were a thing.â Caitlyn fought back a laugh as she went to take an empty seat of her own.
âOh you have no idea.â Ellie grumbled a bit to herself as she crossed her arms over her chest.
âWilliams? She yours?â Vi cleared her throat as she nodded in my direction.
âWho? Amelia? I-I mean I wouldnât complain but weâre just friends.â She answered immediately causing Viâs eyebrows to lift.
âSo- no intense feelings you guys are harboring or anything?â She questioned again as she stole glances between the two of us.
âUnless thereâs something sheâs not telling me?â Ellie wondered with a lifted brow as she looked towards me as if in confirmation. And it was then I realized how tightly I was clutching onto her hand below the table.
It wasnât as if the two of us hadnât thought about it. It wasnât as if I had spent a solid number of nights in her bed whenever things got really tough. Ultimately though we had decided what we had as best friends was far too intense or precious to fuck up over a relationship. And also just the sheer fact that dating somebody you met in a psychiatric facility disguised as a âwellness retreatâ was probably a bad idea.
âNo, just best friends.â I answered in a small voice with a simple shrug.
âOkay, so you wonât mind if I buy her a drink then?â
âCareful Vi.â Caitlyn growled from her spot on the couch across from her.
âUmmm, can you buy me a song on the jukebox instead?â I asked, and to my surprise a series of impressed sentiments filled the table. My eyes only furrowed in confusion however as I peered towards Ellie or Caitlyn for help, âWhat?â
âBecause Millie, that was smooth as fuck.â Ellie answered almost drawing a little laugh from my end.
âLucky for you, doll, I can buy you both.â Vi spoke as she held a bruised hand out for me to take.
Iâd be lying if I said I didnât feel any butterflies blooming in my chest at her words. The feeling of my heart kickstarting as I placed my hand in hers and let her lead me towards the bar. Her hand was warm and rough in my own, calloused but not in the way Ellieâs were from the constant plucking on her guitar. They were calloused in a far more aggressive way. I shouldâve known I was heading towards my own demise in that moment. Falling down a hole Iâd lose myself entirely in. An electric pull on my heartstrings that kept me close to her.
Fuck, I shouldâve known it was only the start.
A/N: I AM SOOOOO EXCITED TO GET THIS UP!!!! I wanna know all your thoughts!! Tell me everything!! Iâm so so SO beyond excited to write more of this Iâm screaming!!
Also- psa I know a ton of characters donât talk/arenât really in this one. I promise they will be further on! Just need to get an establishing shot first! đ€
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àšà§ â The Harry Potter boys and their Love Languages ( ËÍÌêłËÍÌ )à© ; đŠč + âĄ
ê€ â Characters ; Harry J Potter. Ron Weasley. Fred Weasley. George Weasley. Neville Longbottom. Draco Malfoy. Cedric Diggory.
ê€ â Discretion ; none!! just fluff and love.
ê€ â A/n ; eee iâm so sorry for disappearing for a bit âčïž. but i appreciate alll the support u guys have been showing me on all my works!! ily guys!! so hereâs a fun lil treat :3 thank u endlessly đ«¶đ»
; masterlist.
àšà§ â Harry J. Potter & Acts Of Service.
Harry isnât good with wordsânot the ones that matter, anyway. He stumbles, stammers, gets stuck trying to say how he feels. But when it comes to showing you, thereâs no hesitation. His love is found in the way he waits outside the library to walk you back to the common room, how he memorizes your favorite tea and makes sure thereâs always enough sugar. Itâs the way he notices when youâre too tired to finish an essay and stays up scribbling notes for you even though heâs just as exhausted.
Heâs the boy who gives pieces of himself quietly, always watching, always finding the small gaps in your day where he can slip in and help without you asking. Because thatâs what he needsâto feel like heâs protecting you, even from the smallest inconveniences.
Harry doesnât say I love you in grand speeches. He says it in the way he fixes your broken quill without telling you, how he gives you the better seat at dinner, how heâd gladly carry your burdens if you let him. To him, love is actionâevery unspoken Iâll take care of this wrapped in the quiet hope that youâll understand.
àšà§ â Ron Weasley & Quality Time.
Ron doesnât need extravagant displays of affection; he just wants you. To be near you, to sit next to you, to share the little pieces of his world that make him who he is. He thrives in your presence, whether itâs laughing over a ridiculous chess match, walking the long way to class just to keep the conversation going, or sitting quietly by the fire while the hours slip by unnoticed.
Time with you is how Ron shows he cares. Itâs in the way he always makes room for youâon the couch, in his day, in his life. Heâll wait for you after lessons, save you a seat at every meal, and offer you the last Chocolate Frog without hesitation. Heâs happiest when youâre there, no matter what youâre doing, because your company makes everything better.
For Ron, love is in the small, stolen moments. Itâs in the way he notices the things you like, the way he teases you just enough to see you smile. He doesnât need to say it out loudânot when every minute he spends with you is his way of saying, You matter to me.
àšà§ â Fred Weasley & Physical Touch.
Fred speaks in touchesâquick, fleeting, and full of mischief. A hand on your shoulder as he sneaks up behind you, a playful nudge of his elbow to make you laugh, the way his arm always ends up slung around your shoulders like it belongs there. Heâs tactile in a way that feels effortless, like he canât help himself when it comes to you.
But then there are the other touches, the ones that mean more than he ever says out loud. His hand brushing yours under the table, his fingers ghosting over your back when youâre standing close, the way he pulls you into a hug that lasts just a second longer than it should. Heâs all warmth, all ease, all Fred.
With him, touch is a language of its own. Itâs how he shows heâs paying attention, how he steadies you when the world feels too loud, how he reminds you that heâs thereâalways, without fail. Heâll twirl a strand of your hair around his finger while youâre trying to focus, just to see you roll your eyes, but his thumb will stroke gently over your knuckles when youâre quiet, reminding you that he sees more than you think.
Fredâs love is in the way heâs never far, his presence a constant, reassuring hum. Every touch, whether playful or tender, says what he wonât always put into words: Iâm here. Iâve got you. Youâre mine.
àšà§ â George Weasley & Acts Of Service.
George loves quietly, but he loves deeply. His affection isnât loud or flashyâitâs in the little things, the unnoticed gestures that leave no room for doubt. Heâll stay up late helping you finish that essay, even though heâs got his own work waiting for him. Heâll charm the Gryffindor common room fire to burn just a little brighter when youâre cold, or tuck a sweet you love into your bag without a word.
With George, itâs all about thoughtfulness. He pays attentionâreally pays attentionâto the things that make you happy. He knows your favorite snack, your favorite quill, the way you like your tea. He notices when youâve had a rough day before you even say a word, and his first instinct is to fix it. A joke, a small gift, a ridiculous gestureâitâs all his way of saying, Iâm here for you.
But his acts of service arenât just practicalâtheyâre personal. Heâs always finding ways to make your life brighter, softer, more manageable. If youâre overwhelmed, heâll take something off your plate without you asking. If youâre sad, heâll make you laugh, even if it means making a fool of himself. And when you ask why he does it, heâll shrug, his ears pink, and say, âBecause I can.â
Georgeâs love is subtle but unwavering. Itâs in every thoughtful detail, every small action, every quiet Iâll take care of it that he hopes youâll notice but never expects you to. Itâs the kind of love that doesnât demand attentionâit just is.
àšà§ â Neville Longbottom & Words Of Affirmation.
Nevilleâs love is soft, steady, and full of reassurance. Heâs the boy who sees the best in you, even when you canât see it yourself. His words are careful, heartfelt, and impossibly earnestâheâll tell you how brilliant you are after every small success, remind you how brave you are when youâre doubting yourself, and whisper how beautiful you look when you catch him staring.
But Nevilleâs words arenât just sweet; theyâre intentional. He notices the things youâre insecure aboutâthe things you try to hideâand makes it his mission to remind you of your worth. When youâre frustrated or overwhelmed, heâs the one who tells you, Itâs okay. Youâve got this. Youâre stronger than you think. He believes in you wholeheartedly, and heâll never let you forget it.
His love is in the way he writes you little notes when heâs too shy to say things out loud, the way he always manages to find the perfect compliment at the perfect moment. Nevilleâs words arenât about flatteryâtheyâre about truth. He means every single one.
With Neville, you never have to wonder how he feels. His words wrap around you like a warm hug, a constant reminder that youâre loved, cherished, and seen. To him, every Youâre amazing is another way of saying, Iâm so lucky to have you.
àšà§ â Draco Malfoy & Gift Giving.
Draco shows his love in the way he givesânot just things, but pieces of himself. His gifts are thoughtful, deliberate, and so carefully chosen that you canât help but feel how much he pays attention. A rare book he tracked down because you mentioned it once, your favorite sweets neatly wrapped and waiting for you after a hard day, or an heirloom quill with a note that simply says, It reminded me of you.
Itâs never about the price, though he pretends it is. Heâll roll his eyes and call it no big deal, but the way he watches your reaction gives him away every time. Because it isnât just a giftâitâs his way of saying, I see you. I notice what makes you happy. I care.
But itâs not all material. Draco gives his time, his attention, his loyalty. Heâs there when you need him, even if he doesnât know what to say. He shows up with a coffee you didnât ask for or slips a note into your bag that reads, Donât forget how brilliant you are. Itâs in the way he lends you his scarf when youâre cold or makes sure your favorite seat by the fire is saved.
Dracoâs love is in the details, the way he always finds the perfect thing to remind you how much you mean to him. He doesnât say I love you easily, but his gifts? They say it for him. Quietly, fiercely, and completely.
àšà§ â Cedric Diggory & Physical Touch.
Cedricâs love is quiet, steady, and impossibly warm, and it shows in the way he touches you. Itâs never demanding, always gentleâa hand at the small of your back as you walk through the halls, his fingers brushing yours under the table, or the way his arm wraps around your shoulders without hesitation when youâre cold. With Cedric, touch isnât just comfort; itâs a promise: Iâm here, Iâve got you.
Heâs affectionate in ways that feel effortless. Heâll press a kiss to your temple when no oneâs looking, or pull you into a hug so tight it feels like heâs shielding you from the world. When youâre upset, his thumb traces slow circles over the back of your hand, grounding you. And when words fail, itâs his touch that reassures youâlight, familiar, unshakable.
But itâs the little moments that matter most. The way he reaches for you instinctively, his fingers intertwining with yours like they belong there. The way his forehead leans against yours in quiet moments, his breath mingling with yours in a silent exchange of youâre everything to me. Cedric doesnât just touch you; he anchors you.
To him, love is closeness. Itâs the warmth of his body against yours, the feel of his hand in yours, and the way heâs always, always pulling you closerâbecause with you, heâs home.
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How is it (the situation) affecting you, and how to move on.
GENERAL TAROT READING BY JENOKOI
Hi. This is quite unexpected, I was not planning on making this reading at all. But here we are, staring one another, you with a question and me with a fear of messing up your answer. However, I am confident this will find those who are meant to read it. Without further ado, tonight we will have a sneak peak on how a certain situation is affecting you, whenever you are aware of it or not, and how to move on (were you wish to do so). Donât fret if we poke a few traumas here and there, I can not control what Iâm told. It is a bit extensive, so please take only what resonates with you and leave the rest for your fellow companions.
That said, there are vague mentions of sexual assault and hints at eating disorders, so if youâre not comfortable with said topics please do not read.
Please take a deep breath and get comfortable. Let your intuition guide you to the answer you seek in the pictures below. Take as much time as you need.
PILE ONE > PILE TWO > PILE THREE
My tarot readings are guided by the current energy of my subject in question and my own spirit guides. Energies are prone to change based on our actions, and thus nothing is truly set on stone. Please take only what resonates, this is a general reading. Itâs okay to not feel drawn to any of the images. If you have to force it into the narrative of your life, then it might not be for you. These readings are for entertainment purposes only.
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
You feel abandoned, left behind or ignored by someone who was supposed to love and care for you unconditionally. You feel like someone broke a promise made to you. As if you had been led on with a blindfold just to find yourself completely alone in an empty room, an empty paradise.
Some of you might be the eldest child or a role model to a younger family member. You have been left behind, yet a part of you still believes whoever abandoned you will come back. You might have been the second choice or someone is in the position you were told was to be yours. Nonetheless, you still hold onto this person/situation and refuse to let go despite the exit sign being right in front of you. You know there are better things awaiting for you on the other side. In your mind, you know what must be done, how the story ends. But your heart holds onto the faintest of flames in the hopes of a fire to burn every obstacle in your way.
Either someone you trust is leading you on, or you have been warned of what will happen regarding the situation by a male energy.
You might have developed really bad eating habits since the situation started. You indulge in addictions to fill the emptiness left by the excitement of a promised destiny yet to manifest. To calm the anxiety of waiting you abuse of your body and take it to its limits. You are a prisoner of your emotions, ignoring evidence and warnings, accusing your mind of being too critical, skeptical. You turn your back to the truth and keep on holding to the situation (or person).
âI can leave when I want, so Iâll be okay with one more.â Your childhood traumas are haunting your present self. Especially those related to your fatherly figure growing up. You might have been very loved by your father during your child years before he abandoned you or left you stranded. Yet you were told by everyone he loved you the most. You have issues letting go. You believe in a love that canât be seen because you were told you donât need to feel or receive it for it to be real. You just need to know itâs there and thatâs enough.
You gather every small move, every little bread crumb, and make of it a feast. You are holding onto ideas and no proof. This situation is making you delusional. You grab pieces left behind rather than given to you and call them gifts. This situation could be taken place at work or in a religious environment. You are making a big deal out of nothing. And every time you realize you are moving on you find another reason to come back.
If weâre being honest, you donât want to move on, but thereâs nothing you can do at all regarding the situation even if you decide to stay, and that frustrates you a lot. âIf given the chance.â You want (yearn) for something out of this situation that you canât have. You want to be the only choice. But you are afraid of the consequences were you to act upon your emotions. You are scare of getting hurt. You donât think you are strong enough to face the consequences, but you are strong enough to not give up so easily.
This situation could be an affair of sorts. Your competition might know of you or of the situation. âYou are not welcomed.â In case of an affair or something related to a relationship of three, you donât think your competition is deserving of the subject of your affections. You believe them trapped, and that you could make them happier.
Whispers: darling, if they wanted, they would.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
Take a fucking break and stop consuming so much tarot readings in the hopes of getting a different reading from the one two posts ago. Stop feeding onto your delusions, please. Take back control of your impulses and addictions, return to the mentality of âif itâs not doing me good then I shouldnât continue,â please. Itâs all about using reason to cut the negativity out of your life.
You might have been in a low energy as of late, often wanting to be left alone and leaving things for later (your room must be a mess), not necessary out of sadness though. You have been overthinking every action and fighting your mind took a toll on you. Sometimes to find the problem one must pull from the root.
Itâs time to open your eyes and see that you have been drinking from an empty cup. Thereâs nothing there for you but what you have made yourself believe in. You were not invited to the party, your presence was not needed nor warranted. You are not supposed to be in this situation because thereâs nothing here for you. Itâs not yours to fight for and itâs not yours to win. You have been ignoring the truth waiting for it to be a lie, and you have been surrounding yourself with little lies that you have made them your truth. Even if it hurts, you are to look at the situation through reality and not your own distorted view.
Walk away from your own make believe world and you will see how clear the signs become. Stop projecting your ideas onto the situation (or person).
Itâs time to face old habits and acknowledge how they are slowly deteriorating you. Love is not something you canât see. Love can be found in memories, in actions, in words. Loves needs validation every once in a while, not because we must give it, but because we love so much we just have to scream it, have to show it, have to tell it. When someone loves you, you donât doubt it. When someone cares for you, you are not afraid to ask of it.
You have to get comfortable with the dark energy within you so that you can learn to protect yourself with it. Learn your past, discover where your obsessions come from and understand how you can prevent being a victim of them.
You are unable to have commitment in a relationship because you must have control at all times of those who have a piece of your heart. You force your own idea of someone onto them and leave when they donât act accordingly to your script. You donât know how to receive love. You grew up thinking love should not be received, just acknowledge. And while it might take a while, you have the strength to grow your heart alongside your mind.
The seeds planted during your childhood have grown, some beautifully, some slowly, others even venomous. A few withered in the shadows. Itâs time to put them under the sun and help them grow. Butterflies will arrive on their own, at their own time.
You wish for a change in this situation, blindly dancing with the devil. You refuse to move one because part of you, like a fool, believes you will receive your reward for waiting like a good kid.
Love shouldnât make you feel like the bad guy.
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PILE II
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
This situation makes you feel alive, desired, wanted. You might even receive compensation from it, both financially or emotionally. You are becoming dependent of this situation. Itâs euphoric, blinds you with excitement, carries you into a high. Some of you might consume drugs, could be weed or cocaine. This situation feels similar to the story of Alice In Wonderland.
Some of you might video call with someone or exchange nudity content through messages to another participant of the situation. Sexual innuendo warning: a partner might be really good at oral or constantly in the mood. Nevertheless, this situation makes you feel extremely desired and above the competition.
Funnily enough, this situation also makes you feel like less. As if you are not interesting nor cared of as a person but an object to lust after. You feel reduced to how you look rather than to what you can make. You might be afraid of showing your artistic side or ideas. You feel the best participant to a category you donât think you deserve. You are far more than that, and are not receiving the compensation for all the effort you give. You feel as if your thoughts have no importance, your opinions only for the deaf. You overthink a lot and act as if you care none.
People might say bad/rude things about you behind your back, some even to your face. You might be in a rowdy and raucous environment. Your situation is like fireworks, pretty in itâs appearance, loud in its path, and brief in its high.
Your feelings are in disarray. You donât know if what you feel for others or what others feel for you is love or lust, if itâs genuine or a parasite trying to suck your blood. You donât know if they (or a certain person) sees you as a true friend or someone they just want to fuck. You also feel jealousy, a lot of it. Some of you might have stomach ache as of late. Others might be starving yourselves to fit a criteria.
Despite being a favorite, there seems to be a lot of competition regarding your goals. Some of you might constantly feel dizzy, you might like the act of eating a cake more than the cake itself (a rebellious act).
You feel like a fool who tries too hard and only embarrass themselves the more they talk, the more honest they act. There is someone you are trying to impress but they donât return your affection/interest. This person might always be surrounded by people or talking to someone.
Some of you might be in the fashion business. Modeling, to be more precise. Your situation surrounds you of people trying to survive on their own twisted ways. Prostitutes. Teamwork is not prompted, and often those who play dirty are victorious.
You feel dirty and alone. Cheated on something. You were promised Wonderland and were given the bottom of the rabbit hole. For some, money ties you down to this situation. You feel a product to a store. For some of you, you are dealing with a player, for others, this is a career or project situation. You might feel controlled by a male energy.
TRIGGER WARNING FOR SEXUAL ASSAULT
Some of you might have been victims to sexual abuse and assault, could have been continuous from a young age or an event past the age of sixteen. You might be forced to coexist with your assaulter, either physically or mentally. You donât feel like you deserve/want to be protected or cared for.
You feel like you arenât and will never be enough. Someone not worth of respect. âYour body is what gives you value, not your mind, not your heart, but whatâs between your open legs.â You donât think you can reach your dreams. You donât think to be the person to make them real.
You might be haunted by a male energy, and peopleâs opinions about you matter more than the love you give yourself. You are scared of growing old and losing your beauty.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
You are a prisoner to society, to the male gaze, and you must break free of it before you can learn to forgive. It sounds stupid to you, but that same reason is why you are all so fucking depressed. You dislike men, you find them disgusting, but you are noting without them. If they donât desire you, it means you are not hot enough. If they donât come onto you, then you are not worth the time. You are nothing unless a man tells you you are his everything.
And eat/drink your fucking protein because you are a shivering wreck.
You donât have to find value in your mind or your body or your heart. You have to accept that you wonât fit everyoneâs taste and thatâs t okay, because youâll be you, and you only need to fit yourself.
You want to be taken care of, but you must learn how to by yourself first before you let anyone do so. Otherwise, anyone will easily sell you a nightmare dressed as a dream. You must break your dependency on external masculine energy.
You have become comfortable on the role of the victim, and thus you refuse to fight for what you want. âIt wonât matter what I do, nothing will change.â
Itâs a big wall to break through, but once you do, life will make sense. You will realize you are a little less afraid, a little more vulnerable. Once you break free, you will see how the world changes in an instant. How your feelings have power, your voice has strength, and your hand has the gift of giving love to all that it touches, regardless if itâs made of mud or gold. You will be your best friend and your grandest rival; not someone you want to defeat, but who constantly defies you to improve. You will see your dreams stay as they are, drifting away in the sky because you donât fly towards them. Youâll allow yourself to be understood, thatâs okay to simply feel without a need to explain.
Once you start to work for yourself with yourself, you will flourish into a beauty that has no weight, no standard, no criteria but that of simply being. You will fall in love with yourself and the world will follow in a breath.
And some wounds might never heal, some scars will forever mark your skin. You donât have to forgive them, but you must forgive yourself. My dear, your karma will find them when you stop holding on to it.
You wish for revenge regarding this situation. Someone ruined your inner child, and you canât let go until justice has been served. However, all those negative emotions are only attracting negative outcomes. Some victories are attained when you leave the battlefield and let your enemies end themselves.
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PILE III
HOW IS IT (THE SITUATION) AFFECTING YOU?
Why are you even reading this man, you clearly donât want to move on. You truly believe you can work your way into saving this. You donât want to change shit, you just want to fix whatever is going on and continue on as if nothing ever happened. But, if you already fucked up enough times, and shit is just not working out for you, then it might be time to move on. If you think you can try again, I donât recommend you continue reading this post :)
Right from the get a go, this might be a cheating situation. Either you cheated on someone or someone cheated on you. Itâs cool, we donât judge, shit spills when the drain is clogged. It doesnât necessarily have to be a romantic (or a relationship) affair, it could also be a work situation (much like drama office). Whatever it was, itâs irrelevant when compared to the universal truth of pile three: there was foul play in here.
Let us start slow and from the beginning. Fact: you donât like to be alone. Consequence: you withstand a lot of shit from people as to not feel like you donât belong. You might be a pushover with a lot of migraine issues. You donât really put up a fight, especially when talking about this situation in specific.
You donât like direct conflict. You avoid it, take the punches for the sake of peace, keeping your image clean. Some of you had/have a really bad relationship with your mother, or had someone belittle you a lot during your formative years. A family member might have drink a lot around you. A kitchen has a powerful meaning for some of you (this is very specific, but a tile floor and a room with yellow tones). Nonetheless, to stay in this situation you keep your mouth shut and take the beating. Youâre very emotionally weak though, stop lying to yourself about it. Thinking really fuck up comebacks capable of destroying the strongest of enemies doesnât mean much if you donât actually use them (granted, you are watching out for yourself and thatâs understandable). Whatâs hard to comprehend is why you put yourself in said situation to begin with.
You have a beggar mentality. Be it for love, money, or validation. You are willing to put up with a lot of crap if the reward is worth the trouble. You have grown dependent of this situation. You might work in an office job or wear blue as part of your uniform. You donât have any loyalty whatsoever, some of you might be well-known snitches. You put value in people based on what they can offer to you.
A lot of people donât like you, pile three. They are praying for your downfall in silence. For some, someone you trust is among them (please take this with a grain of salt. If you had no indication of a person plotting against you before, donât force it now). For others, your friends are ready to give up on you if you donât pull yourself together. No one really knows why you do what you do, but they donât trust you. Someone finds you pitiful.
You are seeking something, but you are doing the whole treasure hunt gig wrong. Growing up no one really payed much attention to you, and now you search for it the only way you know; staying quiet or causing trouble. And you donât understand why despite all your efforts you canât seem to achieve what others do so easily. You have an inferiority complex, regardless if you come from money or not. Some of you might actually been raised on poverty or a really competitive environment. âMany mouths to feed, not enough hands to work.â
Despite it all, all you ever want is a good, simple life. But you refuse to let go of old mentalities. You want to be the little man and ride off the success of someone else. You donât want to do anything at all. But lately you have been so fucking depressed and no one wants to be your friend.
But hey, you kept on reading, which means you are ready to give the move on thing a chance.
You want to improve, thatâs more than some people can say. You donât want to be a sentient puppet, you want to be a person with deepness and layers to them. You want to have a major life change, which most likely means you fucked up big time and want to improve. You hurt someone, or someone hurt you (granted, it might have been warranted). But you, quiet literally, want to expel the ugliness out of you, and frankly speaking some people are not having it. They want you to stay the bad person to elevated themselves. But thereâs also people around you that are more than willing to help you out, which might confuse you because you wonât know who to trust. Youâre ready to put the work, though.
Still, you think life will become boring. If thereâs not a villain then thereâs not a story to tell. No bad decisions to be made, no more late night drunken shenanigans. So you might be a bit unsteady, prone to giving in everyone once in a while, which might halt any progress you had made. You might have BIG time trust issues. âLeave before they leave you,â stuff going on. Truthfully, you will never move on if you donât lose that.
HOW TO MOVE ON (FROM THE SITUATION).
To move on, you have to let go of the idea of a perfect life, a perfect you, in a perfect world. Thereâs no such thing as a life without issues. If you want something you have to put the work into it. Cheating your way into victory is getting a medal without value. Have you watched Wreck-it-Ralph? Yeah? Then you know what I mean. You donât need to be the most powerful person in the room to be the most loved, the most respected.
Being the first to punch doesnât make you a better person, m neither does not punching back. You have to stop looking a life thought black and white. You need to let go of this beggar mentality. âYou are rich if youâre not poor and youâre poor if your not rich.â Shit donât work like that bro. You donât have to break a heart to prove that you have love and were loved. You donât have to make people hurt you and grovel for your forgiveness just to see that they care. You have to stop seeing everyone as your enemy.
Life is all about how we interact with the universe. Life with life, not life against life. Donât run from something just because you expect the worst. Nothing will ever be set on stone. Nothing will forever be good and nothing will forever be bad. Itâs all about what teachings you decide to carry with you and how you apply them in your everyday. We are constantly learning and changing, for better or for worse.
You have to understand that people have fears just like you, that people can get hurt by your actions. Be more patience, donât jump at the slightest movement. Donât enter the first exit you see, let the road take you to your destination. And stop trying to hurt people for the sake of hurting, itâs not cool.
Donât give value to people based on what they can give to you. You are missing out on so many experiences and learning opportunities by closing off from others. You are blinded by an artificial dream to see what the universe is trying to gift to you. (This is oddly specific, but please stop watching so much porn). Itâs okay to ask for help bro, and maybe itâs about damn time you do. You might discover different perspectives about things you used to think yourself an expert on. And stop procrastinating so much, you got shit to do, masterpieces to create.
Donât be so closed off to new experiences, and try new activities. You wonât belong anywhere if you keep pretending to be someone you arenât. When you feel the most comfortable, you will find yourself surrounded by people who love you just the way you are. Breaking news, love is not supposed to make you feel like shit.
Also, stop being so hasty. Slow down, take your time and enjoy the ride. You will appreciate all that you have if you simply take a moment to enjoy it.
Stop running away, you will only tired yourself.
You wish to belong so desperately, to fulfill an idea, that you are willing to lose yourself to the situation. Fake it till you make make, make yourself miserable that is. In essence, you are afraid of being alone, to never be wanted for who you are, and you prefer to burn the forest at the first sound of a branch snapping than letting life find you.
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It's really late and I'm very tired, but I had the urge to post this reading as soon as possible. I'll fix any mistakes tomorrow as soon as time allows me to do so. As always, thank you for trusting me with your energies, stay safe, and the universe loves you all <3
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haha heyy its been a while đđ sorry for the lack of activity here,,, school has been kicking my butt + i've gotten SUPER hyperfixated on disco elysium,,,, BUT THE MOMENT I SAW THE ORIGINAL I KNEW I HAD TO DRAW SAM AS THIS RAHSBBFBDN i seriously need to catch up on the recent audios đđđ ANYWAY enjoy :)
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TWELVE KAY LETS FUCKING GO we are back to an even number iâm so glad âŒïžâŒïžâŒïžâŒïž
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i loved you from the start (raiden x gn! reader)
warnings: none!
summary: just a pure sfw story of raiden having a crush on the reader. (gender neutral, only pronouns used are âyouâ)
a/n: yeah so. remember when i used to be a havik account? LMAOO sorry i think raiden is very laufey coded and heâs so wholesome in mk1 :> anyways this has been sitting in my drafts for 3 days i'm so glad i finally let it out of the basement
âhi y/n! itâs great to see you. lovely weather we have today, right?â raiden greeted, with his signature bright smile.
raiden was well beloved in your village, and everyone always appreciated his and kung laoâs efforts as farmers to help the village thrive. you were never very close to him, but you still respected him.
"thanks, raiden. yeah, the weather's been real nice lately. i'm glad i can finally walk outside without my skin boiling." you sighed.
raiden laughed. "indeed. i'm glad the weather's been going easy on you."
"i suppose so. what about you? i can imagine you aren't very comfortable working under the burning sun. has it been better for you these past few days?" you asked.
you both continued your little banter for a couple hours, just walking around the village with no particular destination. but little did you know, he had the biggest crush on you, and he was ecstatic that he could finally talk to you.
it was because he was usually very shy around you. he gets quiet when there's nobody else around, it was usually you two being together in awkward silence. but today was different. he woke up that morning wanting to talk to you. he immediately got himself freshened up and went around the village to find you with his newfound courage. he was glad his day with you went well and he didn't mess up or say anything weird.
"it's getting dark. the time went by so fast, but i didn't even notice because i was having such a fun time talking to you." you admitted.
"well, i suppose time goes by when you're having fun." raiden smiled.
you chuckled. "yeah.. i guess so."
you both stood in silence for a bit, neither of you wanting to go home.
"you should get home now. it's getting late." raiden advised. he didn't really want to see you go, but he also wanted you to stay safe.
"okay.. goodnight raiden. i'll see you tomorrow." you said, before placing a kiss on his cheek and walking away.
raiden stood there for a solid minute, frozen where he stood. did that really just happen? is he dreaming? he hoped he wasn't.
he walked home with a cheeky grin on his face, and even went to sleep with that same grin. that moment where you kissed him replayed in his head over and over until he finally fell asleep.
that next morning, unfortunately he couldn't immediately talk to you. he had to go back to work. but he was okay with that. he knew once he was done, he can go talk to you again and maybe even offer to take you out for a nice dinner. he was tired of just looking at you from afar, yearning for more than friendship. he was tired of not having the courage to make a move, fearing rejection. he was tired of being completely head over heels for you, and never doing anything about it. he was always feeling as if cupid himself shoots an arrow through his heart every time he speaks to you. he had to do something now.
"you seem happy today. is there something exciting about our harvest?" kung lao scoffed, noticing his best friend's excitement as they worked.
"the harvest? no, not really." raiden replied.
"oh? so if it's not the harvest... is it a special someone? ooh, does someone have a crush?" kung lao teased, playfully elbowing raiden.
"w-what? no.. i mean.. maybe.. how did you know?" raiden stammered.
"i saw you walking around the village with someone yesterday. is that who it is?" kung lao asked.
raiden blushed, hiding his face with his hat.
kung lao laughed. "oooh, i wanna meet this person! let me see if you two are a match made in heaven."
when they got done with their work, they both immediately went to find you. when they found you at madam bo's, kung lao was ecstatic.
"hello there! y/n, is it? raiden talks about you all the time." kung lao greeted. raiden elbowed him.
"oh really," you laughed. "i'm flattered, raiden."
raiden loved hearing you laugh. it was like a sign that you were pleased by something he said or did. there are many things he would do for your approval or just to make you laugh. even if it slightly makes him look like a fool.
"it's such a coincidence you both found me here. you know, raiden and i talked almost all day yesterday. it was very fun." you shared. after hearing what you said, kung lao had a mischevious grin on his face and raiden blushed.
"oh really? that sounds like lots of fun. wanna tell me more, raiden?" kung lao teased.
"i- uh... um.. i have to excuse myself to the restroom." raiden stammered, running off.
you looked over to kung lao, in confusion. "what was that all about?"
kung lao laughed. "i think raiden has a crush on you!"
"me? really?" you asked.
kung lao shrugged. "but you didn't hear it from me. i'll leave you two alone to figure it out."
you sat there, confused, as kung lao left.
"hey, y/n, sorry about that. i guess i ate something weird." raiden laughed. he was lying. he didn't even touch the toilet. he had paced around the restroom nervously until he gained the courage to come back. he sat down across from you, hoping you wouldn't question it.
you laughed. "your friend says you're interested in me."
raiden blushed. "me? uh.. i.. don't know what he is talking about."
you smiled at how flustered he became all the sudden. "no worries, raiden. i am interested in you too."
his eyes widened in surprise. "you are?"
you nodded. he let out a sigh of relief.
"in that case.. how about i buy you some food? we're already in madam bo's. might as well enjoy a nice dinner." raiden offered.
"i would love to." you replied. you both ended up enjoying the food, and became closer that night. surprisingly, raiden was thankful that his friend exposed him. if kung lao never revealed raiden's feelings to you, he wouldn't have such a wonderful significant other now. (kung lao is forcing you two to offer him free food at your future wedding just because he's the reason you two are together.)
#raiden x reader#raiden mk1#raiden x you#mortal kombat x reader#mortal kombat 1 x reader#raiden mortal kombat#i love flustered raiden#anyways thanks for all the support guys#i cry when someone compliments my stuff#in a good way
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I've always imagined Albert to Accidentally think out loud, so imagine him accidentally saying the most freaky thing ever just bc he saw barok boobs
(Also you absolutely feed the benbaro nation, your art is absolutely DEVINE đ„)
Unfortunately I am not freaky enough to properly depict such scenario but I got this instead
I can at least imagine Albert pacing around, mumbling about his theories whenever Barok happens to walk by, you can just hear very softly ââŠbig fking tiddiesâŠâ
Thank you @euporie-art for the big nose Barok idea! I wanted to test it out myself and I really like how it turned out here đđđ
Benbaro nation I canât promise Iâll be here for a long time, but itâll be a good time FOR SURE!!!
#barok van zieks#albert harebrayne#benbaro#the great ace attorney#tgaa#dgs#dai gyakuten saiban#I actually donât know how to draw big naturals guyâŠthis is devestating#Iâm so sorry to have failed you Barok#anyways thank you for all the love and support these days????#I havenât had this much interactions in a long while!#i treasure everyoneâs comments đ„čđ„čđ„č#crazy when I post things people actually know instead of OCs hahaaaaa#I have more planned!!#Will post tomorrow#at least for sure
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Heartbeat Drives You Mad -Â Chapter 25
Tags:Â Alternate Universe - 1980s / Getting Together / Explicit Sexual Content / Depression / Grief/Mourning / Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism / Older Man/Younger Man / Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms / Loneliness / Anakin Skywalker in Booty Shorts and Tube Socks / Codependency/ This Fic is a Horny Depressing Mess / Just Like Obi-Wan Summary:Â Anakin was wearing his customary shorts - blue with yellow banding today - and a cut-off shirt. He was dark all over, skin an even deeper shade of brown that made him look like liquid honey and bronze, supple yet sturdy. The sun had bleached his hair, bringing out the blond tucked away in the brown strands, curls on top of curls shimmering like spun gold. He leaned back next to Obi-Wan, hot against his side and smelling of cigarettes, clean sweat, and the sun. â After a devastating loss that Obi-Wan canât seem to recover from, he decides to pack up his life and move to a small lazy town on the outskirts of a desert. Depressed and alcoholic, Obi-Wan figures fucking his pain away with the pretty nineteen year old neighbour boy is a good idea. Turns out, it is anything but a good idea.
Thank you to @tideswept for the moodboard đ
#obikin#star wars fanfiction#lemon fanfiction#woo it's here it's finally here!#last chapter of this passion project#thansk for all the support you guys#I realize this story was first posted a little over a year ago#surprised that I've only been posting it for a year but what a year it has been#anyways thanks you guys love ya đ#Listen to some Mötley CrĂŒe today in honour of this fic#or Fleetwood Mac if you're more into that
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Itâs not Monday but itâs certainly Mayu Monday for me! This is my only artwork for March so Iâll see you all again in April or soon after! ïŒââœâă
Pantyhose: I actually went back then forth trying to decide between bare legs and pantyhose but I ultimately decided pantyhose was the way to go. The pantyhose are meant to match the corset except no leather and comfort of course. It has lace details and a leather belt on her left leg. The lace stops around her ankles.
Hair: to stay within steampunk territory, I decided to make her hair fluffy, swirly, and lots of curl heart shapes. I donât like to use one range of colors so I made the choice to go with my heart and make it extra colorful! (Although Mayuâs hair always proves to be a challenge (â©ïž”â©)
Makeup: I tried to make her extra girly- sorta 40s makeup vibe. So red lipstick and pink blush. I also tried to make her details more rounded to give a softer appearance :D
Shoes: it was my try of Mary Janeâs inspired shoes so please remember they are NOT accurate. She has small legs warmers over the shoes and tied off with pink bows, a short heel, and golden beads to go around the rim.
Gloves: blacks gloves with the tips of her thumb, middle, and ring fingers revealed, and well as leather and golden beads to go around and lace at the bottoms.
Dress: sheesh Iâll try to explain as well and possible⊠the dress comes with a color, ruffles, folds, and lots of lace for the underskirt. She has two belts below the sleeves to emphasize the ruffles. The dress also comes with a front tying corset that I took extra care to seem functional. The corset comes with lace, leather, and POCKETS! Because every girly in a dress needs pockets (she was originally gonna have a gun in her beta design shhh). The pockets are attached to the leather part of the corset in the back, and is also joined with golden beads? Buttons? Idk those things. She also has three rows of the golden beads on her skirt!
Hat: Her top hat is decorated in clocks, chains, and gears for a some steampunk effect, as well as a pink bow and pink bunny ears. Around the hat is black lace and under the hat is pink lace for some pop!
#vocaloid#art#fanart#vocaart#procreate#original design#mayu monday#steampunk#I know I donât normally do extra text in my posts but I REALLY wanted to talk about this design because I poured my soul into it#I honestly tried to make it as cute and functional as possible#I also with think of Mayu as a more modest person so less skin showing just felt right#also I TRIED MOSTLY LINELESS ART WHAT DO YOU THINK???#oh Iâm trying to make a fulll drawing and least once a month and now I donât have any energy for anything else so thatâs that#I really wanted to give Mayu a gun but I thought a doll look was better (I have regrets)#anyway#what do you guys think???#also yes Iâve seen the requests and Iâm working on them!! just taking some time and brain meating#thank you for your reposts and support! I love you all â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž#I see you everywhere justgoji
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the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!
#lizzy speaks#persona 3#minato arisato#makoto yuki#guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe#hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao#anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)...#i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect.#a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them#it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence#it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people#and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit#i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on#while there are ways in which aging makes me go âoh hmmâ i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning#i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow#like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross#if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life#i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3
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#not to be a broken lil man on main#but I was on the phone with my dad for 30 minutes just now (that's a lot for a phone call with him) and like.... damn. yeah. i do have one#parent who's not horrible huh#we talked a lot about my plans for the future...... which I only now told him bcs scary and bcs........ I never ever during my 25 years of#being alive got the impression from my parents that something like this would be an acceptable career choice or something they'd support#and I mean. my [redacted] of a mother is the best example for how. not alright it is with her that I'm doing something that's not very...#traditional for this family#but anyways. my dad was absolutely fucking lovely#to the point that I get getting teary eyed and felt my throat closing up cause. huh. i guess in his own way he does love me and believe in#he asked me to send him a link or a pdf of my first conference report because he wants to keep it somewhere đđđđđđ#I'm....... ouch. ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch#you know the ghosting I am really good at with tumblr chats (sorry guys. ilu. I just suck at communication)???? i'm also extremely good at#that with whatsapp chats and just. not calling my irl loved ones#so idk. hearing him say he understands and just wanted to make sure I wasn't upset with him and like. wanted to know if I was doing okay.#damn. okay. damn#idk#this was such a good talk and he was so suppertive and non-judgemental and I actually told him about my birthday and how my mother's call#upset me and he was like. yeah. same. and like... he's basically gone no contact with her as well as it turns out#idk. I really should give him more credit and like... I feel like there's so much shifting and change and development happening while I'm n#not there and sometimes it's hard to remember that he actually /could/ understand some things. just cause I've always been so used to not#sharing anything about myself because it wasn't safe when I was younger and... idk........ lots of emotions going on rn#so glad we talked though. so glad#simon.out.#if you read all this.... idk man.... sorry for oversharing but thanks for caring ig <3
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"You're scary to talk to because you're so big"
"You're so popular, its intimidating"
Me, shaking like a freezing chihuahua: w-w-w-whuhh?
#wraith notes#people have actually said this to me and its actually#it flame broils me every time#like HELLO???? ME????#THIS SCRUNKLY??#(im super thankful for all the love and support you guys have for me its super sweet <3)#(but im so used to being on the other side that this is like suddenly being put on a soapbox)#(anyway i just wanted to ramble a little bit because wow)
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UH OH GAMERS đđđ
YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS đđđ
#it means comissions are gona be open soon#YAY!!!!!!#THANK YOU GUYS#*sniff* and I wanna thank my mutuals *sniff* for being there for me and being *sniff* so supportive#*sob* and a big shoutout to all my followers -#*loud sobbing* YOU ALL MEAN THE WORLD TO ME đđđđâŒïžâŒïž#Talkies#anyways I LOVE U ALL U SILLY BILLIES#THANKS FOR GETTING ME HERE#đ©·đ©·đ«¶đ«¶đ«¶#comissions#comissions soon
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me at my bookstore job to the 27th young adult straight edgy fantasy romance to come in this month
#full disclosure in case this blows up somehow because of booktok or something - IT'S NOT JUST BOOKTOK CRITICISM OR HET ROMANCE CRITICISM#this is me getting annoyed about the fact that the genre itself is oversaturated with too many of the same cookie cutter plot#girl in magic land meets guy and they hate each other but they don't really!!! but their love grows over the tides of the kingdom's war.....#<- THIS PLOT RIGHT HERE. I'VE SEEN FIVE SEPARATE AUTHORS DO THIS#and again - to clarify - it is NOT just booktok with this oversaturation issue#regular fiction is oversaturated with WW2/victorian era romance dramas - where the plot is good! but then A GUY SHOWS UP#AND THE WOMAN MUST MAKE A CHOICE..... TO SUPPORT HER CHILD OR LEAVE BEHIND HER OLD LIFE etc etc WE GET IT. FUCK.#and it's not just fiction too!!! the charts are oversaturated with crime novels in general right now#granted - most of them are good and try to be original - however there's just too many in the main chart#i won't list all of them to prevent drama - but in two past 'six new chart topper' deals - four were crime#and they haven't sold well. even bringing in popular authors didn't help them sell well#there needs to be a shake up. i don't want to be elitish or snobbish - PEOPLE CAN 100% WRITE WHAT THEY WANT#everyone's art is unique and beautiful because they did it#and they have the freedom to do so#but writers nowadays are falling too much into keeping with trends that it's actively tiring out consistent readers#write your fantasy novel - but lean into the worldbuilding. write your world war novel - but elaborate outside the characters.#write your fiction or crime - but try to vary up the beats of the plot to surprise readers more#stop trying to cater to what you l they want and what works - try and surprise them with something new and unexpected.#anyways rant over. i can talk about this for ages but i won't. but i could#spark talks about nothing of relevance#clip from the shadow the hedgehog rtfd đ thank you devil. from bible.
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You guys seemed to like my last art post so I wrote down some info + art about That Guy (mostly abridged version. Because I think about them Too Much) So! Hereâs my tf oc, Blitztwitch!
(Iâm sort of riffing off of what I remember about g1 and idw continuity from when I first got into transformers like. A decade ago. So the exact timeline here is iffy at the moment, bear with me)
Basically, back in the day before total war broke out but tensions were still starting to rise, Blitz was forced to join a violent paramilitary group on Cybertron. The main idea behind the group was the the people leading recognized that a war could be on the horizon, so they planned to train up a whole big secret army that they could use to take over after all the other factions either killed or at least weakened each other.
Blitz and many others were kept in horrible conditions, forced to train and fight each other, and were often used by the more science-minded members of leadership as test subjects for new methods of control. This all came to a head when the war actually started, which destabilized the leadership of this group and led to a rebellion within the soldiers ranks. During the chaos of this event, Blitz is heavily wounded and experiences massive head trauma before their body is lost in the rubble, or perhaps shoved into some crate or pod which then gets swept up into some evacuation shipâs cargo. One way or another, Blitzâs near dead body ends up lost on an alien planet: Earth.
Sometime later, when thereâs an Autobot presence on earth, Blitz is found and fixed up. When they awake, not only do they have no memory of their past aside from their name, but the trauma of the event has also put a mental block on their autonomy as a coping mechanism after âdisobeying ordersâ got them so messed up. Basically what this means is that, at least during the moments when theyâre first awoken, Blitztwitch literally canât make their own decisions and will do whatever anyone tells them.
Iâll be brief about the rest since this is getting long ;-; but the rest of Blitzâs story at the moment revolves around the, slowly gaining back their memories and control because of their interactions with the current transformer forces on earth. It also revolves around Blitz being a little shit (affectionate) as soon as they get control back since they are so ready to cause chaos after having to follow boring orders for so long.
Anyway I talked too long byeeee
#>>my art#>>my ocs#transformers oc#ouhhh Iâm not totally sure how to tag thisâŠ#>>oc lore#just a totally normal oc right here. definitely not an examination of how I view my own people pleasing attitude#or an examination of my complicated gender feelings towards robots#just. a normal tf oc for sure.#âI talked too longâ <- keeps talking in tags#but anyways. thanks again for the support on the last one love you guys#and pleaseee ask me about them. I can say so much about them I love answering questions#I just worry about overwhelming people by slapping it all in one big post lol
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Thank you everyone for your continued support over all these years!! I am grateful to all of you ive met from all over the world and I hope this post finds you well, and that I didn't butcher your language!!
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*thank you for the correction, its supposed to be decirles
#thank you everyone!#idate#idate orca#i hope i got all the grammar for each language correct#i tried to order them in a way the sentence would flow properly#at least grammar wise#yes i am aware my handwriting is wonky#in every language#but thank you for your support anyway#love u guys
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