#any time . i see you lesbian i see you

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[danlarussc]

Thanks. Any time.

[morgana-pendragon]

bridgerton + discord profiles (x, x) ↳ ♡ for @hakurasakura

[ninkaku]

strange behaviour from the arcane fandom when a woman that has relations with another woman goes down a darker path and people condemn her whereas if she was a man in love with another man this would be lapppped up as “toxic yaoi”. please get a grip

[yoldels]

Thh crew save me Thh crew....

I wanted to post drawings + some headcannons of all of them at the same time but that's taking too damn long so I'm doing it in parts instead

[mwagneto]

have you seen broadchurch? also for bideo game I have no clue what you usually play but I've been enjoying sable a lot recently

i avoid looking at david tennant whenever possible

[rubinee]

I can't believe i have to say this but reminder that i am bigender, if you have 'men dni' on your page but follow me and reblog my posts i... what do you want me to do, exactly?

[kocch]

if not gay why GAY CODED WHY GAY CODED

WHY GOING ON DATES MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO PERFORM ???? ??? what is going onnn

why why why the freddie mustache. why do you write him as he has problems actually committing to all the women in his life?? Why did he ask his male best friend to take care of his son if he dieS? ??

WHY NOT GAY IF GAY CODED

[slurpeeshark]

[sisterdivinium]

Sometimes I wonder whether the cancellation wasn't positive in its own way.

We went out on a high, so there were chances that whatever came next might not match those expectations; we were left with quite a few unanswered questions, which can be inspiring both for those of us who write fic as well as those who try to read more deeply into the show; there are blanks that facilitate a fic writer's making use of them which might have been filled in less satisfying ways should canon have failed to live up to what we each wanted of it...

But I suppose it's easier to look at it like this from the point of view of someone who is invested in creating her own little versions and what-ifs concerning her favourite characters in the show. For someone who is just a reader or who just appreciates all the ways in which fan creativity manifests itself without much taking part in it, I guess there's a bit more dependence on canon.

[sunnywalnut]

Being gay irl is so hard. Like the fuck you mean if somebody doesn't like the way I flirt they can hate crime me

[maxgicalgirl]

Archive 81 tv show made Melody Pendras straight we cannot trust podcasts in the hands of mainstream media !!!!!!!

[flanneryculp]

why flan is a lesbian (and why it’s important)

when i first read tb8, i thought, “well, i think flan is a lesbian, but maybe that’s just projection,” and then i went online and saw that everyone else had come to the same conclusion. now i actually do think theres quite a bit of canon evidence pointing to her being gay. this post puts it really really well :)

spoilers below cut

for one thing can we talk about how differently flan talks about female characters from male characters in general? if you look at how she describes the photograph in the beginning it’s obvious. flantasha nation for life but how many times has flan gone on about jennifer rose milton being beautiful or v____ looking pretty? not even adam gets description to this extent.

also, transvioletbaudelaire made a really good point about flan’s reaction to this. it was a big tonal shift despite the paragraph having nothing to do with what was going on. flan was more affected by a few sentences about being gay than the rest of ron’s speech about adam being missing……

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something i’ve recently noticed is that most of natasha’s idols are queer. marlene dietrich had the first on-screen kiss between two women ever, as well as being openly into women irl. bette davis and dorothy parker were historically popular within gay communities, and anais nin wrote about wlw sex in her diary. this is coming from the book that foreshadowed douglas’s sexuality by having him be associated w/ gay artists!!!!

even natasha’s very first and last mentions are associated with gayness. her first mention being how she watched a fellini movie with flan (context says it’s la dolce vita, which has an explicitly gay plotline), and of course, dr. tert explicitly stating that a version of natasha is a lesbian (!!) ofc dr. tert isn’t the most reliable source, but the point is that after you just finished the book, the final thought youre meant to have about natasha is that she’s gay!!!

another one of the most important scenes is halloween, which literally opens with natasha pinning flan to her bed. then, natasha yells at flan to break up with gabriel and get over adam. natasha empathizes in her speech that flan isn’t being true to herself by liking them. considering that flan is natasha and usually natasha has more awareness over what flan knows but can’t admit.....

and then they go upstairs and undress together.

flan notes:

they were constantly looking at each other’s bodies

flan feeling “liquid and naughty” when they did. even before putting on the dress, she feels powerful.

“[natasha] looked at me as i felt the sudden true flush of desire.” <- actual line from the book

later during the party, while flan and adam are having sex, flan spends half the paragraph thinking about how gorgeous she/natasha is. flan really does not miss an opportunity to talk about natasha’s beauty throughout the book lmao

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another thing flan does is describe natasha using romantic metaphors.

like she literally associates natasha’s gum with a kiss and then admits to using pathetic fallacy.

flan does it a lot throughout the book.

and not just that. natasha also plays the role of a boyfriend in flan’s life, and flan is always happier to be with natasha than with gabriel or adam.

and when adam flakes on his date with flan, natasha literally takes her out to the movies.

speaking of movies, the day flan was supposed to go to the movies as a date with gabriel is the first day that she helps douglas hide his homosexuality. most of flan’s friends’ issues mirror flan’s own, as shown in the halloween party. callous breakups, jealousy, etc. struggling with being gay in a homophobic society is a major theme in the book with characters like douglas and ron, and it would make sense for flan to experience it, too, even if she doesn’t realize.

a lot of gabriel and flan’s relationship reads to me as a metaphor for comphet. not only does flan not like him, but she talks about how things are supposed to be.

(also, on the previous page, flan compares kissing gabriel to opening an old carton of milk. she isn’t thrilled lol)

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even though flan’s feelings for adam are more intense than the ones for gabriel, they’re also forced to a certain extent.

heres the first time she talks about adam:

natasha is shocked. if flan truly loved adam, wouldnt she love him fully? if she did, natasha’s inital reaction would be supportive, but instead she just makes fun of him. flan never even admits why she likes adam, not even to herself. flan doesn’t even think that she and adam will work out, judging by her hesitancy. over and over, natasha tells flan that adam is a jerk and to get over him.

flan tries very hard to convince herself that she likes adam, and it works. she’s telling everyone (and herself) that she loves adam while also avoiding him and not having any reason to love him, other than the superficial.

“he is the only appropriate person for me to like”

natasha didn’t find out gabriel’s crush on flan until september 21st, over 60 pages later. lily might have known, but who was natasha thinking about???

also, flan and adam are also cast as husband and wife in the play. they are literally playing the parts that were given to them!!

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even though flan has gotten herself in deep, there have been multiple times where flan almost does get over adam! she mentions feeling bored of him, avoiding him, just not caring until he always ropes her back in at the last minute. she’s put her self-worth in his opinion of her, and doesn’t give up until the very end.

from the beginning, adam was always more of a symbol than a person. he represents men as a whole, or the idea of them. flan literally falls in love with an image of a man (the statue of david) rather than an actual one, and projects that image onto adam. kate and flan talk about how they would be better off without all the adams.

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all her life, flan has been fed these societal expectations on what kind of relationships she should have and who she should be. she clings onto those expectations, even when she never loved adam to begin with. it takes her until halloween to accept that whether he likes her or not doesn’t matter -- he’s a jerk. in general flan’s arc is about how societal pressures, to act a certain way, look a certain way, love a certain way, etc etc can mess with their own self perception and maybe cause them to kill someone.

[bluejaybytes]

📦6, 16 🤝4, 10, 20 💓6, 14 for. molly.

6. What is something your character is proud to own?

Eyeliner Parker stole from Tess for her. None of them really own much because they have to smuggle everything they want in and it's been years since they've really had the chance, so the one (1) little tube of eyeliner Tess brought in for herself (Which Parker then promptly stole both to fuck with her and to give to Molly) is basically the only thing of note Molly actually owns for now. Tess willingly let her have it after it got revealed as having been stolen (All Molly knew was that Parker had it and was giving it to her, it's only later that Tess is gonna give Parker a firm punch in the arm for stealing her shit, before promptly telling Molly she can keep it)

16. Is your character willing to ask for things?

Yeah, but if she doesn't get a response or if it doesn't happen, she's not bringing it up again. She'll ask for something once and just hope the other person gets it for her, but if they don't, then she's 100% going to pretend like she never said anything. Doesn't want to be a burden, after all!

4. Is your character upfront about their feelings?

A good bit, but at her core she tends to very much be a people pleaser, so while she's open about her emotions, certainly a lot more than the people around her, she's not always willing to be upfront about them, especially if they're negative. She wants to be though, and she's trying to work on it!

10. Is there a habit your character has that they learned from someone else?

It's not necessarily any specific habit, but Parker's attitude absolutely rubbed off on her at least a little bit. Her willingness to cause trouble, while still very low, since she doesn't actually want to inconvenience people, is higher than it was before, and she's more willing to just look the other way when Parker is causing trouble. She would've looked away before, but the difference before was that she was a bit too timid to do anything, as opposed to now, where she's willingly let it happen. Also, skipping work. She keeps skipping work and it's entirely Parker's fault. Rest in peace Molly's notable work ethic

20. What would it take for your character to get into a fight?

A lot, but it's happened. Twice. Once in the direct aftermath of Parker's desertion, when one of the other soldiers is being shitty about it. They're being callous and cruel, saying how it's a good thing Parker ran off, because she was weighing down the entire camp anyways, and frankly Molly should've expected this, given her poor behavior and terrible attitude! To which Molly's response is to punch them square in the nose. She's literally JUST gotten dumped in the most cruel and heartbreaking fashion she can POSSIBLY IMAGINE and absolutely can not stand someone giving her shit for it. She's actively in grief over this she's not going to listen to someone imply she was stupid for ever having loved her.

The second time is... the same person. Doing basically the same thing. When all of the remaining soldiers left the outpost due to being overrun by sanitized soldiers, they, being led by Tess, had managed to board the Deepsea Metro, and while they were always somewhat suspect of it, felt like they had really no other choice, as it was the metro, or going back into the overrun sewers they just came from. However, things go very bad after not just one of the soldiers in their group leaves for a test and never comes back, but after the soldier Molly already had a problem with gets physical with the conductor, to which Tess has to intervene. They get extremely heated with Tess, accusing her of leading them all to their deaths, and that she's incompetent, unwilling to do what needs to be done, and the reason why one of their squadmates has almost certainly just died. And frankly, why did anyone expect any different of her? She's always been the lowest ranked elite, the only reason she's even here rather than missing like all the others is because they didn't trust her enough to not instantly die on the scouting missions they went on, and left her on babysitting duty instead! Hasn't she proven, time and time again, that she's incapable of true leadership, even from the beginning? Fuck, just look at who she associates herself with! The only people who ever willingly spent time with her weren't even the other elites, they were some fucking nurse and her old traitorous ex- to which Molly then promptly punches them in the nose for a second time. She was already beyond enraged that they were dragging Tess's name through the mud as is, but bringing up Parker again was the final straw, causing her to lash out once again.

...so really the answer is "bring up her ex to her face"

6. How well does your character act under pressure?

She's... mediocre. For as timid as she comes off, she's actually pretty okay in high pressure situations, albeit definitely not the best there is. As a medic, she's been trained to handle high pressure situations, so that's where her skill with them comes from, but still, functionally it's not a particular strong suit for her overall.

14. Is there a secret thing your character longs to hear?

The thing is is that what Molly thinks she wants to hear, she really just... doesn't. She wants to hear why Parker left her, why she'd break off a relationship of several years out of nowhere and never even mention how she'd been feeling in the weeks leading up to her desertion. But... even if Parker told her, would it matter? It's not going to change anything, and Molly is just functionally tormenting herself by mulling over it as a whole. Even when Parker does talk to her about it, as little as it is, telling her that she didn't leave because she didn't love her anymore, that she actually did still love her when she left, it doesn't make things better! It actively makes things worse! Hearing that Parker still loved her but her... whatever it was that made her so endlessly terrified that she couldn't bear to even talk to Molly about it just twists the knife even further, that clearly her version of love was always at odds with Parker's version of love.

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

before i came out as nonbinary i always kind of thought that there was a version of me that was a guy it was just being so dysphoric during that time was so physically painful it cut me off from those emotions in a way i don't think i will ever connect to. which also kind of changed contexts when i realized i was a system. but now i'm kind of thinking like "huh yeah i guess it's weird that all my transition goals are pretty indistinguishable from a binary trans guy's & yet i'm just Not That" & i have just realized i'm basically doing the same thing i did before but harder. anyway will let you all know if i figure out the obvious thing my brain is telling me

[wrathful-ghosts]

Listen I love a “mlm ship but make it yuri” post as much as the next dyke but it does feel like a lot of y’all are rushing to make those men lesbians while giving little to no love to the actual canonical lesbians in the same fucking show.