#anxiety through the roof rn

[sickxknives]

someone please tell me to stop researching my medical symptoms online and freaking myself out 🙄

[coldbrewblooded]

I should have gotten ice cream

[n02x]

had fun w this one :>

[my-oldscarf]

I just found out my apartment building has termites and it’s completely ruining what was supposed to be a fun day/night 😫

[rapidhighway]

I need every public place to have detailed descriptions of the entire place + how to behave and what behavior is acceptable or not and i need it all as straightforward as humanly possible

[channelworldbluez]

What they DONT tell you about detransitioning is the constant need to prove myself to others that I’m fr.

Like for example, most detransition stories(female perspective) revolve around a woman who regretted it and is now presenting feminine which is no problem! Great! I’m happy for them.

And the ones that do retain their “masculinity”(I hate using this word but stay with me) do make changes still. Grow their hair out a bit, cut off their facial hair, get laser hair removal, change their name and again I am happy for them!!

Then there’s my goofy ahh who besides stopping T(I’m four months off T today for the record) who virtually changed nothing and doesn’t want too. I look exactly how I always been because for me when I was transitioning technically I was being myself I just felt like I had to take hormones and call myself a male. But the whole time the way I dressed the way I act etc was me frfr…

Like in part of this detrans discord and their was a discussion one day about swimsuits and it’s like…can’t I just wear board shorts and a tank top like I always have? I don’t wanna wear swimsuits…like obviously they weren’t saying I should but it was just this disconnect so I checked out (could be a bit of entitlement idk)

Honestly the only thing I wish I can change is the gender marker on my drivers license I just idk how yet

But then there’s the “proving” part. Now I feel like yall looking at me like I’m not really about that life. Like I’m lying which is stupid because I’m not lying, but idk…fuck this. If they were more detrans women like me out there that I saw I probably wouldn’t feel like this but now I feel like an oddball lmaoo

I’m overthinking myself to death

[spaceratprodigy]

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[capricioussun]

Does anyone know how to like. Overcome a mental block being caused probably by anxiety. Because my only one is "just force it to start off" but that didn't work so like. ?

[thechosenanubis]

[manuinout]

Me, who's an anxious and sensitive auDHD that feels absolutely scared of watching anything Inside Out related that isn't from the only Pixar account I see, scared of having a heart attack:

[youthdecayenjoyer]

I'm so glad I got weed when I was out today everything is so shit I deserve a little weed at least

[j0kers-light]

Hi hi 🫶🏻

So I'm reading His Lighthouse on A03 & got a tad confused when reading through the choices 12&3 chapters. After going through comments & back through the chapters, I got more confused thinking I missed something, so I switched to looking at them on tumblr & Choices part 1 & 3 are different on there but in A03 Choices 1 & 3 are the same chapters? Or am I missing something? Sorry for the ask, it's it no way meant to come off in the wrong way I just get confused easily and wasn't sure ♡

NO BECAUSE BLESS YOU @jaysmentalspace ! The way I scrompt and woke up my household. They thought something had happened UH YEAH A WRITER’S WORST NIGHTMARE!!!

“Sorry I died a painful death go back to sleep!”

I don’t know HOW I managed to update the wrong flipping chapter but it has since been resolved and nowwwwwww I’m paranoid and I gotta check everything. It was purely a mistake since I cross post on Tumblr, A03, and Wattpad. Ya girl is shaking rn

Guess I have homework now.

[ephemeral-winter]

minding my own business when I noticed a itchy sore on my tits that is exactly like, and in fact is in the same place as, an itchy sore I got on my tits two years ago that turned out to be a skin infection 👍 I’m in danger 👍

[buryme--inblack]

fuuuck there's probably a spider in my bed now

[azrail-has-a-vendetta]

watching Titanic for the first time with my mom and like broooo ah ah aaahhhh aaarrg they gonna die, this actually happened? (Maybe not the whole romance thing but the part where everybody DIES) also Rose is very pretty. The orchestra story. Sobbing actually PERIL

[palesoftangel]

my heart is about to stop