#anxiety like i'm being hunted for sport

[krisssssssy]

i've never played an MMO before FFXIV and the levels of anxiety i get when forced to do content with other people oh my god

like damn maybe i should just watch the cutscenes online because i can't handle this lmao

[sunstainedpages]

You would think with all this anxiety that I was being hunted for sport

[astramachina]

i was so excited to be home and get to work on things but now that i am all i can manage is stare at screen with 0 brain activity and be so sleepy

[katkitpaddywick]

(trying out a tumblr vent, don't mind me)

[jonathanrook]

being both an extrovert and socially anxious is the worst combination of traits god could curse someone with. at least i also have a fat ass though.

[sureuncertainty]

okay guess we won't be going in to work tomorrow either, since we've been fighting off a panic attack all evening and cannot breathe

[featherymainffins]

Binge-reading Dungeon Meshi because it's the only thing standing between me and suicide ngl.

[battywitch]

"He transformed into a spider and now he has a disease named after him" takes me out every time 😂 Poor Barclay

[aylaaescar]

fellas is it anxiety to have a feeling like I'm going to be yelled at and fired at any minute bc I missed a thing I need to fill out at work, or is that just solid healthy work ethic

[albtrosz]

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[gffa]

Apparently?? Regular exercise and cutting out some of the crap foods you regularly consumed??? Actually make you?? Noticeably feel better??? This sounds like bullshit and I don't like that it's actually true and that I do feel better and suddenly, somehow, apparently I'm now not constantly feeling like I have the anxiety levels of someone being hunted for sport while I lay in bed and watch TV. (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

[persistent-wallflower]

Omg I took medicine used for lowering anxiety and I'm feeling less like I'm being hunted for sport as I'm lying in my bed how is that possible

[corvigae]

God anxiety attacks with no apparent trigger are the absolute fucking worst. I'm just Sitting Here and i feel like I'm being hunted for sport and fighting for my life

[droumack]

OH OH OH ask game for but this is how it is and if that's already been asked, soft as it began! (or both! or another one!)

"or another one!" crying

soft as began it is!!! i literally re-read this last night because i'm a dork who re-reads my own fics so this is Phresh on my mind

my favorite scene is probably right after the bite where nate just keeps chanting "you're so dumb, you're so dumb." i love how teenaged their relationship is // that it's not just angst-ridden; we get to see how they are as Best Friends, not exes or guys who has a falling out or anything else. which i'm very fond of.

my fav chapter is ch. 4 :)

the hardest scene to write, if I'm remembering, was Jo's mental breakdown after the confrontation with mark at the bar. i remember having such a hard time crawling into the mindspace of being so horribly outed / the anxiety that would come with that in a pro sports setting. it's just not something i'll ever experience so it took a lot of brain mapping & inspiration-hunting to pin that scene down, and having everyone behave in a somewhat-believable way.

favorite character to write wasssssss (outside of nate or jo) tyson. i miss tbear. i loved him.

favorite dynamic is a split between nate/the other wolves and jo/ej. i'm so smitten with the concept of jo being as entrenched in the Avs org as Nate.

THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE TITLES!!! as i mentioned it's from The Weary Blues, but i think the line "the poem ends, soft as it began--i loved my friend" captures the entire essence of the fic. the fic is literally just jo loving nate; that's how it starts, that's how it ends.

a fun fact about the fic is that i pulled almost all of the ideas for it while in public. like, i was possessed by inspiration in a CVS, hence the CVS scene. the wolf-run was inspired by one of my own running routes. etc etc etc.

oh and also tyson and gabe are definitely fucking the whole time idk if you picked up on that

[ghostofasecretary]

had an epic medical-themed nightmare like i have not had in A While and then went to my stupid fucking "i'm still alive please continue giving me meds" appointment and had one of those giant gasps for air panic attacks as soon as i got in the car and drove to get gas and called to fix my PC doc's fuckup and came home and i feel

bad.

i feel real real bad.

i have emergency anxiety meds but let's try eating first and see if that makes things better enough i don't feel like i'm being hunted for sport.